0:00:42 > 0:00:46PHONE VIBRATES
0:01:02 > 0:01:05LANDLINE RINGS
0:01:05 > 0:01:07'Kate?'
0:01:07 > 0:01:11'I've tried to make him see sense but he won't listen.'
0:01:12 > 0:01:16No, I know, well I don't think it's what he really wants either.
0:01:16 > 0:01:18Kate?
0:01:19 > 0:01:21How many more times?
0:01:22 > 0:01:25This is nothing to do with Mum, OK?
0:01:27 > 0:01:28I've got to go.
0:01:30 > 0:01:31Mum?
0:01:33 > 0:01:34What are you after?
0:01:34 > 0:01:37I'm not going to find it in there.
0:01:39 > 0:01:42How about you and me go on a massive bender this weekend? You in?
0:01:42 > 0:01:43Er, yeah. I'm in.
0:01:44 > 0:01:47- OK, seconds out.- Ah!
0:01:47 > 0:01:50- Giant polar bear...- OK, OK. - ..or little baby swan?
0:01:50 > 0:01:54That is a no-brainer! That would be the giant... No, hang on.
0:01:56 > 0:01:58No, the little baby swan.
0:01:58 > 0:02:02Because, because, because, the polar bear would attack the baby swan
0:02:02 > 0:02:06and then the mother would defend the cygnet until her death.
0:02:06 > 0:02:07- What?- Yeah.
0:02:07 > 0:02:12"Mummy, Mummy, watch me take on 1,500 pounds of raw killing machine!"
0:02:12 > 0:02:15"That's it. Go on, son, bite him on his little pink nose."
0:02:15 > 0:02:16Peck! Peck!
0:02:16 > 0:02:20No, well, OK, the cygnet would roll around in the snow
0:02:20 > 0:02:22and pretend to be dead.
0:02:22 > 0:02:26Argh! "No, don't eat me, Mr Polar Bear, I'm tainted meat!" Ridiculous! MOBILE RINGS
0:02:26 > 0:02:28Ooh!
0:02:28 > 0:02:31What's larger than a violin but smaller than a double bass?
0:02:31 > 0:02:32Cello?
0:02:34 > 0:02:36Argh!
0:02:36 > 0:02:39Ah! Hello!
0:02:45 > 0:02:47Yeah. I'm still here.
0:02:55 > 0:02:56It's my Aunt Sheila.
0:02:57 > 0:02:59She died.
0:03:03 > 0:03:05Are you free for lunch?
0:03:05 > 0:03:07I wasn't suggesting anything covert.
0:03:07 > 0:03:09I'd just like to go over my feedback.
0:03:09 > 0:03:11Unless you've been through the whole process,
0:03:11 > 0:03:14a little bit of patient feedback is of limited use.
0:03:14 > 0:03:17Well, you were the one who wouldn't let me do the full 360.
0:03:17 > 0:03:20Emma, I'm really busy today, can somebody else do it?
0:03:20 > 0:03:23I supported you when everybody else was against you over this. I'd really appreciate...
0:03:23 > 0:03:25Howard?
0:03:26 > 0:03:28I'd like to get a moment, please.
0:03:28 > 0:03:29'Scuse me.
0:03:37 > 0:03:39Have you seen the butter, Mum?
0:03:39 > 0:03:40She's not sure how long
0:03:40 > 0:03:43they'll be able to hold the job open for you in New York.
0:03:43 > 0:03:44The butter?
0:03:44 > 0:03:49I mean, Letherbridge Educational Press is a nice little time-filler,
0:03:49 > 0:03:51but, well,
0:03:51 > 0:03:55it's hardly what you worked so hard to get a first from Stanford for.
0:03:55 > 0:03:57Mum, please, any idea where it might be?
0:03:57 > 0:03:58Go and get ready for work, Toby,
0:03:58 > 0:04:01I'm more than capable of buttering my own toast.
0:04:08 > 0:04:11This is not the life I envisaged for you.
0:04:12 > 0:04:15I don't suppose Parkinson's was part of your master plan either.
0:04:15 > 0:04:17One for you.
0:04:17 > 0:04:18Oh.
0:04:26 > 0:04:27Well,
0:04:27 > 0:04:31at least I'll get a chance to talk to some people my own age.
0:04:31 > 0:04:33No. It's not happening,
0:04:33 > 0:04:36your whole life is bound up in this house.
0:04:36 > 0:04:40Well, maybe I don't want it to be bound up anymore.
0:04:40 > 0:04:41I'll sell it.
0:04:43 > 0:04:45I know you don't mean that, Mum.
0:04:46 > 0:04:48What's this really about?
0:04:48 > 0:04:51Oh, Toby, you're going to be late for work.
0:04:51 > 0:04:53- I'll tell them I'm working from home today.- No!
0:04:53 > 0:04:54No, Toby!
0:05:04 > 0:05:06This shouldn't have happened to Sheila.
0:05:06 > 0:05:08Let's just wait and hear what he has to say.
0:05:08 > 0:05:10She had the same doctor for over 30 years.
0:05:17 > 0:05:21So, you got a 66-year-old woman who loves cream cakes and fry-ups,
0:05:21 > 0:05:25who hadn't exercised since the last time she jumped into a mosh pit at a Stones gig!
0:05:25 > 0:05:26Yeah, easy, mate.
0:05:26 > 0:05:27Sorry.
0:05:38 > 0:05:39Mum!
0:05:39 > 0:05:40I can't find...
0:05:40 > 0:05:42I seem to...
0:05:42 > 0:05:43I seem to have got a bit stuck.
0:05:43 > 0:05:44DOOR CLOSES AND WHISTLING
0:05:44 > 0:05:46Can I...
0:05:46 > 0:05:48No, no, no, I'm fine.
0:05:51 > 0:05:52Aren't you supposed to be at work?
0:05:52 > 0:05:54Thank you, Rick.
0:05:55 > 0:05:58Wait there, I can picture the scene,
0:05:58 > 0:06:01it's the first time we see Clint
0:06:01 > 0:06:03and he's riding into town on his donkey.
0:06:03 > 0:06:08A mule. We're talking about The Man With No Name, not Mary and Joseph.
0:06:08 > 0:06:11Dear Rick, when are you going to move in,
0:06:11 > 0:06:15so my lovely boy can move home to his lovely wife?
0:06:15 > 0:06:19Whatever the agency pays, I will better it.
0:06:19 > 0:06:22Don't start that again, Lou.
0:06:22 > 0:06:24Go easy on me.
0:06:25 > 0:06:28You have nothing to fear but my honesty.
0:06:30 > 0:06:34Apparently I'm covering Kevin's shift at the campus surgery this afternoon.
0:06:34 > 0:06:37Look, if this is your way of avoiding me...?
0:06:37 > 0:06:39Emma, it's not all about you.
0:06:39 > 0:06:42Something personal came up for Al so I've let him and Jimmi go.
0:06:42 > 0:06:45Oh, right. OK...
0:06:45 > 0:06:48Well, we could do it after work, or tomorrow...?
0:06:48 > 0:06:50You're not letting this go, are you?
0:06:50 > 0:06:51I'll bring sandwiches.
0:06:51 > 0:06:53Don't worry, it won't take that long.
0:06:53 > 0:06:54Right.
0:07:00 > 0:07:03It was nearly 3am in New York when she started calling this morning.
0:07:03 > 0:07:07- I don't know how many more ways I can tell her. - How about the truth way?
0:07:11 > 0:07:13Was that you?
0:07:13 > 0:07:15Tea bags in the fridge.
0:07:15 > 0:07:18I know you're a bit of a daydreamer but that's too funny.
0:07:18 > 0:07:20Well, keeps them fresh, I suppose.
0:07:20 > 0:07:22Get a grip, Rick,
0:07:22 > 0:07:24haven't you noticed what's happening?
0:07:24 > 0:07:26Or is everything just a big joke to you?
0:07:26 > 0:07:28- Well, what's going on in here? - It's OK, Mum,
0:07:28 > 0:07:31I was just telling Rick that you've been a bit absent-minded recently.
0:07:31 > 0:07:35Still sharper than Calamity Jane with a flick knife though, hey?
0:07:35 > 0:07:37It does seem to be getting a little worse.
0:07:37 > 0:07:39Why didn't you say anything?
0:07:39 > 0:07:40She shouldn't have to,
0:07:40 > 0:07:42- you're paid to notice!- Enough!
0:07:42 > 0:07:44Oh, sorry!
0:07:44 > 0:07:45Oh!
0:07:45 > 0:07:46Oh, your work!
0:07:48 > 0:07:50I'm going to take you to the doctors, OK?
0:07:54 > 0:07:55Al?
0:07:58 > 0:08:00Wasn't sure which one you'd prefer so...
0:08:08 > 0:08:11She was... She was being treated for a chronic heart condition.
0:08:11 > 0:08:14Just spoke to the doctor, he told me she knew she was sick.
0:08:14 > 0:08:15What?
0:08:15 > 0:08:17No, that's not true.
0:08:17 > 0:08:19She would have told me that, she told me everything.
0:08:19 > 0:08:22Apparently she insisted she didn't want any of the family to know.
0:08:22 > 0:08:24Then what the hell was he doing about it?
0:08:27 > 0:08:28You don't know that yet.
0:08:28 > 0:08:33- Yes, I do.- No, you don't.- It's my mind, not yours! So yes, I do know!
0:08:33 > 0:08:36- Please try to keep still for me. - Just let the doctor get on with his job, will you?
0:08:36 > 0:08:39Who's getting on with yours while you're here with me?
0:08:39 > 0:08:41Why do you make it impossible for me to help you?
0:08:41 > 0:08:43Your blood pressure's a little bit low.
0:08:43 > 0:08:46And how does throwing your life away help me exactly?
0:08:46 > 0:08:49It's a little trick teachers used at my primary school.
0:08:49 > 0:08:51Right, now that I have your attention...
0:08:53 > 0:08:56Low blood pressure is fairly common with Parkinson's
0:08:56 > 0:08:59and probably what's causing the dizziness.
0:08:59 > 0:09:02The dizziness is the least of my problems now I'm getting dementia too.
0:09:02 > 0:09:05- She's exaggerating. - I am not.- Yes, you are!
0:09:05 > 0:09:07OK, let's keep this really simple.
0:09:07 > 0:09:11This means speak, this means stop.
0:09:11 > 0:09:13What makes you think you've got dementia?
0:09:13 > 0:09:14Everything, really.
0:09:14 > 0:09:16Could you be a little bit more specific?
0:09:16 > 0:09:18Erm...
0:09:18 > 0:09:22Losing things, disorientation,
0:09:22 > 0:09:24forgetting why I've come into a room.
0:09:24 > 0:09:26My own name sometimes.
0:09:26 > 0:09:29When did you first start noticing these incidents?
0:09:29 > 0:09:31Well, if I knew that I wouldn't need to be here, would I?
0:09:31 > 0:09:35- Only a few weeks. If it was that bad her carer would have picked up on it by now.- Denial, he's in denial.
0:09:35 > 0:09:38He's doing his best but he needs to be home with his wife.
0:09:38 > 0:09:41- You think you know what's best for everyone but you don't! - You have no idea!
0:09:41 > 0:09:43- OK, stop right there, both of you! - MOBILE PHONE RINGS
0:09:43 > 0:09:46The thing is, he really doesn't understand that...
0:09:47 > 0:09:48- Kate?- No, work.
0:09:48 > 0:09:51- Work! You must call back, straight away.- No, I don't need to.
0:09:51 > 0:09:52Yes! Please.
0:09:52 > 0:09:54Take it outside.
0:10:02 > 0:10:03It's not right,
0:10:03 > 0:10:07a grown man stuck here caring for his mother.
0:10:07 > 0:10:09So, please,
0:10:09 > 0:10:12will you please tell him I need to go in a home.
0:10:12 > 0:10:15That's a huge step, and we don't know that you have dementia yet.
0:10:15 > 0:10:17Once you've seen the neurologist...
0:10:17 > 0:10:19Dementia, senility, whatever it is,
0:10:19 > 0:10:24my son is on the verge of a breakdown and if he doesn't go I will.
0:10:28 > 0:10:29Sorry.
0:10:41 > 0:10:43Erm...
0:10:43 > 0:10:44I've, erm,
0:10:44 > 0:10:47I've written something down for the captain to pass on to your parents.
0:10:47 > 0:10:49I've tried to put it as gently as I can,
0:10:49 > 0:10:52but, er, if you think it still sounds a bit too stark...
0:10:55 > 0:10:59Dear Mum, your sister was found dead this morning by the cleaner.
0:11:01 > 0:11:03No, I didn't know she had a cleaner either.
0:11:04 > 0:11:07But then again, I didn't know she had a heart condition
0:11:07 > 0:11:10so bad she could barely climb the stairs.
0:11:11 > 0:11:14She kept all that a secret from us,
0:11:14 > 0:11:16even from me,
0:11:16 > 0:11:19the kid she said she always wished was hers.
0:11:23 > 0:11:26I hope this doesn't spoil the cruise of a lifetime.
0:11:26 > 0:11:28Watch out for those icebergs. All the best, Al.
0:11:28 > 0:11:30How does that sound?
0:11:41 > 0:11:43I was only here a few weeks ago.
0:11:44 > 0:11:45I should have...
0:11:45 > 0:11:48No, listen, you heard what Doctor Morgan said -
0:11:48 > 0:11:51she had a team of specialists working with her. If she didn't want the surgery...
0:11:51 > 0:11:53"It's my life, Al."
0:11:53 > 0:11:55That's what she kept saying.
0:11:55 > 0:11:57Why didn't I get it?
0:11:58 > 0:12:00We always understood each other.
0:12:04 > 0:12:06Let me do all the running around from now on, OK?
0:12:06 > 0:12:10I'll call the undertakers next. If there's anyone that you want...
0:12:10 > 0:12:11If she had her way,
0:12:11 > 0:12:15we would be building a big bonfire in the back garden,
0:12:15 > 0:12:17put her on top of it.
0:12:17 > 0:12:21She always said if she was around in the Middle Ages, she'd have been burnt at the stake as a witch.
0:12:23 > 0:12:26No black, she liked bright colours.
0:12:27 > 0:12:30No hymns, she didn't buy into that holy mumbo jumbo.
0:12:30 > 0:12:32No, she'll do death the way she did life.
0:12:34 > 0:12:35Big.
0:12:39 > 0:12:40Now,
0:12:40 > 0:12:43what would she be rocking out to, if she was at her funeral?
0:12:45 > 0:12:47You should receive an appointment letter in the next few days
0:12:47 > 0:12:50but in the meantime this leaflet will help with any questions you may have.
0:12:50 > 0:12:53See, it's no good telling me all this.
0:12:53 > 0:12:56Oh dear, I need the loo.
0:12:56 > 0:12:57OK, Mum. I'll take you.
0:12:57 > 0:13:01I won't have my son taking me to the damn toilet!
0:13:01 > 0:13:02Let me show you where it is.
0:13:02 > 0:13:05Oh, thank you.
0:13:08 > 0:13:10What's happening to her?
0:13:10 > 0:13:14The brain often slows down as we get older, but if it is dementia then...
0:13:14 > 0:13:17Then she'll need to be at home, where all her good memories are.
0:13:17 > 0:13:20Well, it won't be easy but there's plenty we can do.
0:13:20 > 0:13:23- We'll start with a home-care assessment.- We don't need more help. We have Rick.
0:13:23 > 0:13:26But you say he didn't notice the memory problems?
0:13:28 > 0:13:32- If you're worried about the level of care he's giving...? - Whatever my mother's told you,
0:13:32 > 0:13:34everything's under control, OK?
0:13:37 > 0:13:40Please, excuse my outburst back there.
0:13:41 > 0:13:44I get so frustrated with my son sometimes.
0:13:44 > 0:13:47Even when they're grown, they can still be trouble.
0:13:47 > 0:13:49Well, I adore my son,
0:13:49 > 0:13:51but parents, children,
0:13:53 > 0:13:55they need to know when to cut the ties.
0:13:55 > 0:13:58And romantic love, true romantic love,
0:13:58 > 0:14:00is too precious to throw away
0:14:00 > 0:14:03out of some misguided sense of family loyalty.
0:14:06 > 0:14:08RECORD PLAYS
0:14:08 > 0:14:12I was 13 when Sheila took me to see The Stones in Manchester.
0:14:12 > 0:14:14The best night of my life.
0:14:14 > 0:14:18Listen, Al, we really need to call the undertakers soon.
0:14:18 > 0:14:21- I don't know about you but- I- am starving.
0:14:21 > 0:14:25I am going to cook you one of Sheila's famous fry-ups,
0:14:25 > 0:14:26and if that doesn't do you in,
0:14:26 > 0:14:30then I'll do her famous chocolate chilli for pudding.
0:14:46 > 0:14:49I've skimmed through your patient feedback.
0:14:50 > 0:14:53Well, I have to say it's faultless.
0:14:53 > 0:14:56Words and phrases like 'compassionate', 'caring',
0:14:56 > 0:15:00'good listener' come up time after time.
0:15:00 > 0:15:03It's obvious you have a connection with people.
0:15:03 > 0:15:06You see what a good team we make.
0:15:06 > 0:15:09With your cool-headed decision-making and my patient power...
0:15:09 > 0:15:13Any primary care organisation would be lucky to have you.
0:15:14 > 0:15:17So objectively, professionally,
0:15:17 > 0:15:21it would be misguided not to recommend me for a permanent position.
0:15:21 > 0:15:23I know you want to cut down on locums.
0:15:24 > 0:15:26Well, I was thinking more, er,
0:15:26 > 0:15:29what an excellent impression it would have on your CV.
0:15:43 > 0:15:44Done.
0:15:53 > 0:15:55It's just when you're here, working...
0:15:55 > 0:15:59Did you think I was going to try and take you over the kitchen table?
0:15:59 > 0:16:02If things were different, if Mum wasn't so...
0:16:02 > 0:16:04It's all the deceit that's doing her in.
0:16:04 > 0:16:06It's doing us all in.
0:16:06 > 0:16:07Louise, Kate, me.
0:16:07 > 0:16:10We need to know what's really going on.
0:16:11 > 0:16:12What is going on, Tobe?
0:16:13 > 0:16:17I've been going round and round trying to figure out a way of making it work.
0:16:17 > 0:16:19I can't.
0:16:19 > 0:16:21So what was I?
0:16:21 > 0:16:22A bit of rough on the side?
0:16:22 > 0:16:24Or was it more like an itch you had to scratch?
0:16:24 > 0:16:26Something you needed to get out of your system.
0:16:26 > 0:16:29No! No, no, no. Believe me, I've never felt anything like this before.
0:16:29 > 0:16:31MOBILE RINGS
0:16:33 > 0:16:35Then tell her.
0:16:40 > 0:16:42If you're ashamed of me, of us,
0:16:42 > 0:16:44then at least have the guts to admit it.
0:16:44 > 0:16:47How could I be ashamed of anything that feels so...right?
0:16:48 > 0:16:51But it's not about us. It can't be.
0:16:51 > 0:16:55Ever since Dad died, Mum never once complained.
0:16:55 > 0:16:56It was always me first.
0:16:57 > 0:16:59Then I'll make it easier for you.
0:17:01 > 0:17:03It's over.
0:17:03 > 0:17:04We're over.
0:17:05 > 0:17:07But I can't continue to work here anymore.
0:17:07 > 0:17:08Wait.
0:17:08 > 0:17:11If I don't speak to Louise now, I don't think I'll be able to.
0:17:11 > 0:17:12Then don't.
0:17:14 > 0:17:16Losing you would kill her.
0:17:17 > 0:17:18I'll go.
0:17:21 > 0:17:22Oh, Mum.
0:17:22 > 0:17:24Mum, no, no, no! Don't move, don't move, wait!
0:17:24 > 0:17:28- It's OK. Just a few bruises, I think. - You might have broken something.
0:17:28 > 0:17:29I'll call an ambulance.
0:17:29 > 0:17:32No, no, no, no. I'm fine. Just give me a hand up.
0:17:32 > 0:17:34I'll call the surgery.
0:17:34 > 0:17:40So although the actual words that Mrs Tembe uses are "decisive" and "dynamic"
0:17:40 > 0:17:44what she really means is stubborn and inflexible.
0:17:44 > 0:17:45I mean, it's all in the subtext.
0:17:45 > 0:17:49Do you remember how irked she was when you made us all use that cheap toilet paper
0:17:49 > 0:17:52after one of Al's light-fingered escapades?
0:17:52 > 0:17:54Alleged escapades.
0:17:54 > 0:17:55And Zara's irony,
0:17:55 > 0:17:59it just shines through when she calls you "forward-thinking".
0:17:59 > 0:18:04I mean, it's a clear allusion to your paranoia about alien invasion and terrorist attacks.
0:18:04 > 0:18:06Well, mock if you wish,
0:18:06 > 0:18:09but people respect a manager who's prepared to make tough choices.
0:18:09 > 0:18:11Yes, but the real kind of tough choice
0:18:11 > 0:18:15is when you put your own needs to one side, for the greater good.
0:18:15 > 0:18:17That's a different kind of courage.
0:18:22 > 0:18:25Al, listen, the undertakers are going to be here soon.
0:18:25 > 0:18:28She must've shown me how to do this at least a hundred times.
0:18:28 > 0:18:30It's all gone wrong.
0:18:30 > 0:18:32I'm sorry, Jimmi, it's a complete disaster.
0:18:32 > 0:18:36No, no. It's fine. It won't take me long to clear this up.
0:18:36 > 0:18:39No, it doesn't matter. This doesn't matter. That doesn't matter!
0:18:39 > 0:18:42That doesn't matter. None of it matters.
0:18:44 > 0:18:46Why did this happen?
0:18:46 > 0:18:48I know she didn't take the best care of herself but...
0:18:48 > 0:18:50her heart was so big.
0:18:50 > 0:18:53You could feel it wrap around you,
0:18:53 > 0:18:56this warmth, this...
0:18:56 > 0:18:57this life.
0:18:57 > 0:18:59I'm really sorry, mate.
0:19:01 > 0:19:04It's nothing a couple of painkillers won't sort out
0:19:04 > 0:19:07but no more attempting the stairs on your own, for a while, at least.
0:19:09 > 0:19:11Have you read through this?
0:19:11 > 0:19:14Er, oh, I'm not sure.
0:19:15 > 0:19:18Now, those hurt my head just looking at them!
0:19:20 > 0:19:23Oh, it's just a matter of breaking the code.
0:19:23 > 0:19:25You were a head teacher, weren't you?
0:19:25 > 0:19:27They, erm...
0:19:27 > 0:19:31They give Rick something to do when I'm sleeping.
0:19:31 > 0:19:33He has a wonderful penmanship, doesn't he?
0:19:36 > 0:19:39Ah! Now that's more my sort of thing.
0:19:39 > 0:19:41Ah, well, help yourself.
0:19:41 > 0:19:45Toby gave me that but, you know, I can barely turn it on.
0:19:45 > 0:19:47I've not played this one before.
0:19:47 > 0:19:50If you can't blast, zap or completely obliterate it,
0:19:50 > 0:19:52I usually get bored and give up.
0:19:52 > 0:19:55Good to know I'm in such a safe pair of hands!
0:19:55 > 0:19:57< We both know it's what she really wants!
0:19:57 > 0:20:00< Stop kidding yourself, this is anything to do with Louise!
0:20:00 > 0:20:03They are dear boys, they really are,
0:20:03 > 0:20:07but sometimes I would like to smash their stupid heads together.
0:20:09 > 0:20:13When are you going to stop using me, your mother, everyone else, as an excuse?
0:20:13 > 0:20:14COUGHS
0:20:14 > 0:20:16- BOTH:- How is she?
0:20:16 > 0:20:17Physically, no harm done.
0:20:17 > 0:20:20She was showing me those crosswords you've been doing.
0:20:20 > 0:20:22You're kidding! She works them all out,
0:20:22 > 0:20:25I just fill in the gaps now her hands are too shaky to write.
0:20:25 > 0:20:29Have you noticed any deterioration in her memory,
0:20:29 > 0:20:31her ability to concentrate, stay focused?
0:20:31 > 0:20:34That's the weird thing, every time it's just the two of us,
0:20:34 > 0:20:36she still seems so sharp.
0:20:36 > 0:20:38Things will calm down soon.
0:20:38 > 0:20:40That nice calm, empty life you've been waiting for,
0:20:40 > 0:20:43no want, no need, no Toby, just a devoted martyr son.
0:20:43 > 0:20:45You know, if it's always like this around here,
0:20:45 > 0:20:47I'd hardly blame her for faking it.
0:20:50 > 0:20:53I think your mother might be exaggerating her memory loss.
0:20:53 > 0:20:56No. She wouldn't do that.
0:20:59 > 0:21:00Mum?
0:21:00 > 0:21:03Did you forget it was you who works out the crosswords?
0:21:06 > 0:21:08And all the things in the wrong places?
0:21:10 > 0:21:12I've been worried sick about you!
0:21:13 > 0:21:15Why would you do that?
0:21:17 > 0:21:20Because I remember everything!
0:21:20 > 0:21:25From the day you were born to the day you got married.
0:21:25 > 0:21:28And now,
0:21:28 > 0:21:30and today and yesterday,
0:21:30 > 0:21:33and your frustration, your sadness,
0:21:33 > 0:21:38trying to hide it, taking it all out on Rick,
0:21:38 > 0:21:40because you're stuck here with me
0:21:40 > 0:21:43when you should be out there with your love.
0:21:44 > 0:21:46Mum, I am.
0:21:48 > 0:21:49I am with my love.
0:21:51 > 0:21:53He's right here.
0:22:00 > 0:22:07You silly, sweet, stupid boy!
0:22:07 > 0:22:09Why on earth didn't you tell me?!
0:22:12 > 0:22:14Oh, what about poor Kate?
0:22:14 > 0:22:16Oh, my God, the guilt.
0:22:16 > 0:22:18I felt so in the way.
0:22:18 > 0:22:20I told her it was over before I flew back.
0:22:20 > 0:22:22That I didn't love her anymore.
0:22:23 > 0:22:27- Then when I met Rick... - But, Toby, you made a commitment. You married her.
0:22:27 > 0:22:31All I know is Rick made me realise what real love is,
0:22:31 > 0:22:34and I've been too much of an idiot to admit it, even to myself.
0:22:37 > 0:22:40Do you know how dangerous it is to fake an illness?
0:22:41 > 0:22:44You could have done yourself some real damage,
0:22:44 > 0:22:46wrong drugs, wrong treatment.
0:22:47 > 0:22:49I was just trying to help my son.
0:22:49 > 0:22:52How was lying to each other ever going to help?
0:22:54 > 0:22:56Has nobody ever lied to you?
0:22:56 > 0:23:00Because they care too much to tell you the truth?
0:23:03 > 0:23:04OK, I'll see you next week.
0:23:11 > 0:23:13It seems I can't keep away after all.
0:23:13 > 0:23:15Well, I have a lot of patients out this afternoon, so,
0:23:15 > 0:23:17while I do still have a job...
0:23:19 > 0:23:21I've been thinking about what you said,
0:23:21 > 0:23:25about what a good team we make.
0:23:25 > 0:23:26And I think you're right.
0:23:28 > 0:23:30You fit in here, Emma.
0:23:30 > 0:23:32How I feel about you shouldn't change that.
0:23:33 > 0:23:34And...
0:23:34 > 0:23:37I've been a little unfair.
0:23:39 > 0:23:42So, what are you saying?
0:23:42 > 0:23:44I'm asking you to stay.
0:23:52 > 0:23:53Thank you, Howard.
0:23:53 > 0:23:55You won't regret it, I promise.
0:23:56 > 0:23:58What are you doing, Emma?
0:24:01 > 0:24:03Let's keep it professional, shall we?
0:24:15 > 0:24:18Did you think I'd be shocked, disappointed?
0:24:18 > 0:24:22You know, for once, I didn't have a clue.
0:24:22 > 0:24:26American university, the career, Kate,
0:24:26 > 0:24:28all things I thought you wanted.
0:24:28 > 0:24:32That I was helping you become your best self.
0:24:32 > 0:24:33Believe me, Mum,
0:24:33 > 0:24:37I've never felt more me, best and worst,
0:24:37 > 0:24:39than when I'm with Rick.
0:24:40 > 0:24:42The good, the bad, and the ugly.
0:24:42 > 0:24:43Come here, you big idiot.
0:24:52 > 0:24:55I bet you haven't worn this since your art school days.
0:24:58 > 0:25:01There's nothing to this death lark, yeah?
0:25:01 > 0:25:05All the living in-between, that was the tough part.
0:25:07 > 0:25:09And if you do meet some choir of angels,
0:25:09 > 0:25:12you tell them from me that God sucks.
0:25:13 > 0:25:16But soul...
0:25:16 > 0:25:17Soul's real.
0:25:18 > 0:25:19I know that cos you taught me that.
0:25:21 > 0:25:23You had soul in spades.
0:25:28 > 0:25:32Listen, mate. Why don't you stay at mine tonight? We'll grab some beers, yeah?
0:25:32 > 0:25:33No, no. I'll be all right.
0:25:33 > 0:25:36OK, well I'll just wait until...
0:25:36 > 0:25:39You've been such a good mate today, Jimmi. Thank you.
0:25:39 > 0:25:41But go now, please.
0:25:42 > 0:25:44OK.
0:25:45 > 0:25:47Right. I want her in this.
0:25:49 > 0:25:50Hi, Mum.
0:25:51 > 0:25:54Oh, no reason. Does there need to be a reason?
0:26:09 > 0:26:11"Like a child again
0:26:11 > 0:26:13"Afraid of the dark
0:26:13 > 0:26:15"Without a lullaby or prayer
0:26:17 > 0:26:19"No music sweet or wild enough
0:26:19 > 0:26:23"To soothe the jarring beat of my heart hurting
0:26:23 > 0:26:27"Ready to burst for wanting
0:26:27 > 0:26:30"A pair of loving arms to hold me tight
0:26:30 > 0:26:31"Just one last time
0:26:33 > 0:26:34"Before I turn out the light."
0:26:34 > 0:26:37MUSIC: "Get It While You Can" by Janis Joplin
0:26:37 > 0:26:39# But then who cares, baby
0:26:39 > 0:26:45# Cos we may not be here tomorrow
0:26:45 > 0:26:49SINGING ALONG: # And if anybody should come along
0:26:49 > 0:26:51# They're gonna kill you...
0:26:51 > 0:26:53# With love and...
0:26:53 > 0:26:55# ..Affection
0:26:55 > 0:26:58# You gotta get it while you can
0:26:58 > 0:26:59# Yeah, yeah!
0:26:59 > 0:27:04# You gotta get it while you can
0:27:04 > 0:27:07# And get it while you can!
0:27:07 > 0:27:11# Don't you turn your back on love... #
0:27:11 > 0:27:12To you, Shei!
0:27:12 > 0:27:14# No, no, no
0:27:14 > 0:27:17# No, no, no, no, no, no! #
0:27:19 > 0:27:22I have the journalistic instinct of a pear drop.
0:27:22 > 0:27:24Evil editor on the warpath again.
0:27:24 > 0:27:26If you don't buck up your ideas,
0:27:26 > 0:27:28it'll be your heart and arteries paying the price.
0:27:28 > 0:27:29And you are?
0:27:29 > 0:27:31Molly Tinker, Letherbridge News.
0:27:31 > 0:27:33It really is a police investigation.
0:27:33 > 0:27:36As far as I'm concerned this echo scheme is a complete non-starter.
0:27:36 > 0:27:38Feelings have no place in this scenario.
0:27:38 > 0:27:41If I find you've been tampering with evidence...
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