0:00:34 > 0:00:36CLANK
0:00:43 > 0:00:45FOOTSTEPS
0:00:49 > 0:00:51- More bills.- Jane.
0:00:51 > 0:00:53I don't know how we're going to manage.
0:00:53 > 0:00:56Lots of retired people are struggling.
0:00:56 > 0:00:57We've always struggled.
0:00:57 > 0:00:58We've managed.
0:00:58 > 0:01:00Only cos I've always worked.
0:01:00 > 0:01:02What's that one?
0:01:02 > 0:01:03It's for you.
0:01:10 > 0:01:13They want me.
0:01:13 > 0:01:14What?
0:01:14 > 0:01:18- I've got a job!- Ah!
0:01:20 > 0:01:23Would you like to see my projection?
0:01:23 > 0:01:25It's a bit tatty.
0:01:25 > 0:01:27Well, it's old. Old-ish.
0:01:27 > 0:01:29I've had this since I was 13.
0:01:29 > 0:01:32I do not agree with introducing, well, children, to astrology.
0:01:32 > 0:01:35No, it's astronomy, not astrology.
0:01:35 > 0:01:38I'm actually quite impressed by the astronomical size of
0:01:38 > 0:01:40Dr Carter's projection.
0:01:40 > 0:01:43And what occupied your little mind, when you were 13?
0:01:43 > 0:01:46I do not think that is a subject we should broach.
0:01:46 > 0:01:48- I was in the Scouts. - Oh, I was in the scouts.
0:01:48 > 0:01:50- Dib, dib, dib.- Dob, dob, dob.
0:01:50 > 0:01:51And what did you get out of that?
0:01:51 > 0:01:53Fun and games.
0:01:53 > 0:01:55Hiking and fieldcraft.
0:01:55 > 0:01:57Endless hours playing with your little woggle.
0:01:57 > 0:01:58On that note...
0:01:58 > 0:02:01Nah, you can't go making fun of a man's woggle.
0:02:05 > 0:02:07You have had this map for a long time?
0:02:07 > 0:02:09Yes. It was in the attic.
0:02:09 > 0:02:10But when Liam showed an interest, I got it out.
0:02:10 > 0:02:13- I've even got another telescope. - Really?
0:02:13 > 0:02:15I was given a choice between four and six inches.
0:02:15 > 0:02:17I chose six. Maybe a bit excessive.
0:02:17 > 0:02:21Billions of stars in billions of solar
0:02:21 > 0:02:24systems in billions of galaxies.
0:02:24 > 0:02:26Creation in its enormity.
0:02:28 > 0:02:30No scratching.
0:02:30 > 0:02:32Sorry. Bit of a habit.
0:02:32 > 0:02:34It's a lot of a habit.
0:02:36 > 0:02:37Yeah.
0:02:37 > 0:02:40I think we're going to have to have another look at your medication.
0:02:40 > 0:02:44So, you're already on the steroid cream,
0:02:44 > 0:02:47and you don't take anything oral apart from...
0:02:47 > 0:02:49The happy pills.
0:02:49 > 0:02:52I'm not ashamed. Well, I am a bit.
0:02:52 > 0:02:56It's been a hard time, with the money and all the bills.
0:02:56 > 0:02:58Tell me about it.
0:02:58 > 0:03:00I feel like taking flowers from the park home
0:03:00 > 0:03:02to justify my council tax.
0:03:02 > 0:03:04Those belong to me, as well, you know.
0:03:04 > 0:03:06But you're managing, though?
0:03:06 > 0:03:07Yeah. Yeah.
0:03:07 > 0:03:09Better, from today. I've got a job,
0:03:09 > 0:03:12That new DIY place on the Greyfriars Road.
0:03:12 > 0:03:14They wanted older folks with experience.
0:03:14 > 0:03:16Good for you. When do you start?
0:03:16 > 0:03:17Next week.
0:03:17 > 0:03:20Well, I can't promise we'll have you all healed, by then, but...
0:03:20 > 0:03:23I'd like you to make an appointment with the doctor just to see
0:03:23 > 0:03:24what they say about more treatment.
0:03:24 > 0:03:27Yes, and I'll be asking to put a stop to the anti-depressants.
0:03:27 > 0:03:29We'll see what they advise, eh?
0:03:30 > 0:03:31All right. Thank you.
0:03:31 > 0:03:33Good luck, with the job.
0:03:33 > 0:03:37Just ask me if you need to know your two-by-fours from your four-by-twos.
0:03:37 > 0:03:40- Bye-bye.- Bye.
0:03:40 > 0:03:42What do you mean, "insignificant?"
0:03:42 > 0:03:48When you think about how small we are, in the enormity of Creation.
0:03:48 > 0:03:52Well, maybe it's better just to not think about it
0:03:52 > 0:03:54and go with the cosmic flow.
0:03:54 > 0:03:56Or be like Howard.
0:03:57 > 0:04:04- Mr Bellamy?- Yeah. "Mars, over there, Saturn, smarten up, Milky Way,
0:04:04 > 0:04:06"shut up and do as you're told."
0:04:06 > 0:04:08That's just like him
0:04:08 > 0:04:11Nurse Marquez wants me to make an appointment with a doctor.
0:04:11 > 0:04:13Yes. Of course, let me see.
0:04:16 > 0:04:18MOBILE PHONE RINGS
0:04:18 > 0:04:19Excuse me.
0:04:23 > 0:04:25Hello. It is, yes.
0:04:29 > 0:04:35Well, I don't understand. Well, the letter... You off... You said I had...
0:04:40 > 0:04:45Now, Mr Lester, I can give you an appointment with...
0:04:45 > 0:04:46DOOR CLOSES
0:04:46 > 0:04:47Mr Lester?
0:04:51 > 0:04:53KNOCK ON DOOR
0:04:53 > 0:04:57So, how did the refresher course go on Friday?
0:04:57 > 0:05:00Yeah. Brilliant.
0:05:00 > 0:05:03It was all about identifying risk factors - walk in the park.
0:05:03 > 0:05:05Excellent, so when the echo machine arrives,
0:05:05 > 0:05:08you'll be like The Stig with a Maserati.
0:05:08 > 0:05:10Yeah. There's a slight problem.
0:05:10 > 0:05:13St Phil's cardiology department have had their budget slashed.
0:05:13 > 0:05:18That's not a problem, that's like a gift horse with gilded dentures.
0:05:18 > 0:05:21Not quite. Because their budget's cut, they need more business.
0:05:21 > 0:05:25So they're planning to offer a reduced rate on echocardiograms.
0:05:25 > 0:05:27- They're going to undercut us? - Yeah.
0:05:27 > 0:05:28Get as many patients in as possible
0:05:28 > 0:05:31and the greatest share of the contract.
0:05:31 > 0:05:32Looks like we're stuffed.
0:05:32 > 0:05:35Not a chance. I'm not going to be beaten by bureaucrats.
0:05:35 > 0:05:38I'm going to gather intelligence and prepare for an offensive.
0:05:47 > 0:05:49KNOCK ON DOOR
0:05:51 > 0:05:53I see you just saw Philip Lester.
0:05:53 > 0:05:55Um, yeah. Psoriasis.
0:05:55 > 0:05:57Quite sore actually. Really nice man.
0:05:57 > 0:05:59Yeah.
0:05:59 > 0:06:01He applied for a job, up at the youth club. Caretaker.
0:06:01 > 0:06:04Well, he's got one at the DIY place now, so obviously a better offer.
0:06:04 > 0:06:07His police check didn't work out.
0:06:07 > 0:06:08Work out?
0:06:08 > 0:06:11He's got a conviction. Sexual offence.
0:06:11 > 0:06:13What kind?
0:06:13 > 0:06:16Don't know, but we couldn't give him a job.
0:06:16 > 0:06:18Well, I never would have thought that.
0:06:18 > 0:06:24- Me neither. I guess you can't tell, eh?- Mm-hm.
0:06:29 > 0:06:31Thought I'd get some to celebrate.
0:06:31 > 0:06:33Don't worry, they were half-price.
0:06:33 > 0:06:36I didn't get this job.
0:06:36 > 0:06:38But the letter...
0:06:38 > 0:06:39They called me.
0:06:39 > 0:06:41Did they give you a reason?
0:06:41 > 0:06:45Er... It's a mistake. They confused me with someone else.
0:06:46 > 0:06:49- It would have been a help. - I'm sorry.
0:06:49 > 0:06:50I don't think I can go on, like this.
0:06:50 > 0:06:52What do you mean?
0:06:52 > 0:06:55Struggling. Borrowing. Paying one loan off with another.
0:06:55 > 0:06:57- It's always been the same. - Jane.
0:06:57 > 0:06:59Why can't you stand up for yourself?
0:06:59 > 0:07:00Well, it's not a question of standing.
0:07:00 > 0:07:02- Call them. - What?
0:07:02 > 0:07:04Just call them, tell them it's unfair,
0:07:04 > 0:07:06they offered you the job first, they should give it to you.
0:07:06 > 0:07:09- Well, they... - Just call them!
0:07:10 > 0:07:12- I can't. - Why not?
0:07:12 > 0:07:14I just...
0:07:14 > 0:07:15What's stopping you?
0:07:24 > 0:07:28Ah, Mrs Tembe, I've just had the most wonderful idea.
0:07:28 > 0:07:30And what is that, Dr Carter?
0:07:30 > 0:07:33Why don't we go to the Planetarium, this afternoon?
0:07:33 > 0:07:35The Planetarium?
0:07:35 > 0:07:37Yes, you're free, I'm supposed to be doing paperwork,
0:07:37 > 0:07:39but Howard will chase me about that scheme of his
0:07:39 > 0:07:43and we could both do with some quiet contemplation.
0:07:43 > 0:07:46Yes, well, thank you, Dr Carter, but...
0:07:46 > 0:07:48The cafe does a lovely Victoria sponge.
0:07:49 > 0:07:52Really? Well, that sounds very...
0:07:52 > 0:07:54Good! Let's go.
0:08:05 > 0:08:09Er...Mandy. You... You got a moment?
0:08:09 > 0:08:12I haven't, Philip, I'm afraid.
0:08:12 > 0:08:15I've got to get back to the surgery. Sorry.
0:08:20 > 0:08:23Go for it, I say. Cut them off at the knees.
0:08:23 > 0:08:25My sentiments, exactly.
0:08:25 > 0:08:27They're playing the big-boy card and I don't like it.
0:08:27 > 0:08:31It sounds like the big boys have got cash-flow problems.
0:08:31 > 0:08:33You can't cut money to the cardiology department
0:08:33 > 0:08:36and expect them to maintain the same levels of service.
0:08:36 > 0:08:38Kevin says they're going for patient numbers.
0:08:38 > 0:08:40What, five minutes each?
0:08:40 > 0:08:42That is hardly a recipe for an effective echo.
0:08:42 > 0:08:44Yes. That's what we can say.
0:08:44 > 0:08:47We think that their service is going to be slapdash.
0:08:47 > 0:08:49Look, I would advise being more cautious than that.
0:08:49 > 0:08:51Why?
0:08:51 > 0:08:55- You have to be more circumspect. Play the long game.- How?
0:08:55 > 0:08:59Speak to the CCG, this afternoon, and paint them a glowing picture
0:08:59 > 0:09:02of the personal care that can be provided by a smaller organisation,
0:09:02 > 0:09:06but hit them with a proper pitch in the new financial year.
0:09:06 > 0:09:09Well, I like your strategy. But I think
0:09:09 > 0:09:11St Phil's are working on a shorter time-frame.
0:09:11 > 0:09:13If we want a slice of the action, we need to move now.
0:09:14 > 0:09:18All right, but I'd be careful. Negotiating with these panels is a notoriously tricky business.
0:09:22 > 0:09:27SIRENS, CAR HORNS ECHOING
0:09:47 > 0:09:49SCREECH
0:10:02 > 0:10:05As a child, I thought I could count the stars.
0:10:05 > 0:10:10Most children do. But to even count those that are visible
0:10:10 > 0:10:12which make up about four percent.
0:10:12 > 0:10:14- Four percent? - Yeah.
0:10:14 > 0:10:18The other 96 is made up of stuff that you can't even see
0:10:18 > 0:10:19or detect.
0:10:21 > 0:10:26The thinking now is that everything that exists is not in the universe.
0:10:26 > 0:10:29How can you have more than what exists?
0:10:29 > 0:10:31Because our universe is only one of countless
0:10:31 > 0:10:34encapsulations of space and time.
0:10:36 > 0:10:38Sorry, that makes me feel...
0:10:39 > 0:10:41I didn't mean to make you feel uneasy.
0:10:41 > 0:10:44Oh, no, no. It's not your fault.
0:10:44 > 0:10:49At the moment I do not know where I stand in our universe.
0:10:49 > 0:10:54Well, maybe we should be sitting, in the cafe.
0:10:54 > 0:10:58As beautiful as the stars are, nothing beats a nice cup of tea.
0:11:03 > 0:11:05What if he screws it up?
0:11:05 > 0:11:06Howard's not going to screw it up.
0:11:06 > 0:11:09He worked for a PCT, he knows where to place the emphasis.
0:11:09 > 0:11:11You've got to play these people,
0:11:11 > 0:11:13you got to massage their egos a little bit.
0:11:13 > 0:11:16I suppose he's got plenty of experience with that.
0:11:16 > 0:11:18Anyway, we've got to get it,
0:11:18 > 0:11:21because a GP with special interests should share their talent.
0:11:21 > 0:11:24And not just one that does pouts with bee venom.
0:11:24 > 0:11:26One word - ker-ching.
0:11:28 > 0:11:30I'm just afraid he's going to go in there
0:11:30 > 0:11:32and he's going to lecture them like a bunch of squaddies.
0:11:32 > 0:11:35Howard is an assured professional, with consummate people skills.
0:11:35 > 0:11:39Unless of course he's behaving like Colonel Blimp on steroids.
0:11:43 > 0:11:46I always thought that I would act my best.
0:11:46 > 0:11:47Thank you.
0:11:48 > 0:11:50Well, I think you do act your best.
0:11:50 > 0:11:53Not with Thomas.
0:11:53 > 0:11:55Not with Gordon.
0:11:55 > 0:12:00"Do as you would be done by." It is a simple guide.
0:12:00 > 0:12:05Relationships are not simple. And neither are circumstances.
0:12:05 > 0:12:08We can all look back and do things differently.
0:12:08 > 0:12:12"I should have spoken to my friends."
0:12:12 > 0:12:17"I shouldn't have picked up that cricket bat and do what I did."
0:12:20 > 0:12:23Do you see me differently because of my choices?
0:12:23 > 0:12:25No. No, no, of course not.
0:12:25 > 0:12:27I don't see you differently.
0:12:28 > 0:12:32And those that do, that's their failing.
0:12:40 > 0:12:43When I stood on the very edge of that pavement,
0:12:43 > 0:12:49everything just seemed to fall away. All the stress,
0:12:49 > 0:12:54all the worries. It would have been like falling asleep.
0:12:54 > 0:12:59No. No, it would have felt like getting hit by a bus.
0:12:59 > 0:13:02Have you ever tried anything like that, before?
0:13:03 > 0:13:05No.
0:13:10 > 0:13:12I know.
0:13:14 > 0:13:16Sorry?
0:13:16 > 0:13:19I know about the conviction.
0:13:22 > 0:13:23How?
0:13:23 > 0:13:26A friend, at the youth club...
0:13:26 > 0:13:29He said you didn't get the caretaker's job, because...
0:13:29 > 0:13:33That was totally unethical. He had no right to tell you that!
0:13:33 > 0:13:36Wasn't it unethical of you to apply for a job at a place where
0:13:36 > 0:13:38there's vulnerable young people?
0:13:38 > 0:13:39What do you mean?
0:13:39 > 0:13:41You're a convicted sex offender.
0:13:41 > 0:13:45I wasn't convicted because of something with children.
0:13:45 > 0:13:48I was convicted, because I was gay.
0:13:54 > 0:13:56Nice hair.
0:13:56 > 0:14:00Oh. Thanks. Look, Howard. I'm sorry about the echo service.
0:14:00 > 0:14:03I hear that St Phil's are going to get the lion's share.
0:14:03 > 0:14:05Where did you hear that?
0:14:05 > 0:14:07Well, it's the word on the street.
0:14:07 > 0:14:08Well, the word is wrong.
0:14:08 > 0:14:11St Phil's are not going to get the lion's share.
0:14:11 > 0:14:12How could we afford it?
0:14:12 > 0:14:14By providing a better service.
0:14:14 > 0:14:16But, economically, we...
0:14:16 > 0:14:17Not you, as well!
0:14:17 > 0:14:19- What? - Even you don't believe in me.
0:14:19 > 0:14:23- It's not a case of not believing in you, it's... - I am going to do this.
0:14:23 > 0:14:27I am going to the CCG this afternoon and I am going to wipe the floor with St Phil's. You see if I don't!
0:14:30 > 0:14:34I was looking to meet someone. Cottaging.
0:14:34 > 0:14:38The name's more fragrant than the premises.
0:14:38 > 0:14:44He was really attractive. Black hair, dark blue eyes.
0:14:44 > 0:14:47About my age.
0:14:47 > 0:14:50He smiled. And I was so shy.
0:14:53 > 0:14:54But his smile.
0:14:56 > 0:15:01Must have been about two minutes for the others to come rushing in, in uniform.
0:15:01 > 0:15:05They had me down on the floor, with all the...
0:15:07 > 0:15:10And he looked down on me, the boy.
0:15:10 > 0:15:16And I thought, "You really are. You're exactly like me."
0:15:21 > 0:15:23Then he was gone.
0:15:23 > 0:15:27PC 43. That's how they described him, in court.
0:15:27 > 0:15:30- No name. Just PC 43. - That's entrapment.
0:15:30 > 0:15:34No. In 1959 it was "procedure".
0:15:34 > 0:15:37What sentence did they give you?
0:15:37 > 0:15:39I was discharged.
0:15:39 > 0:15:40So, you got off?
0:15:40 > 0:15:43No, conditional discharge. No, it went on the record.
0:15:43 > 0:15:45And it's remained there ever since.
0:15:45 > 0:15:48So, it wasn't... It wasn't wiped off?
0:15:48 > 0:15:51What? At decriminalisation? No, no.
0:15:51 > 0:15:54- Record was unchanged. - I don't believe it.
0:15:54 > 0:15:58Perhaps I should have stolen something. That would have expired.
0:15:58 > 0:16:00But it was a sexual offence, you see.
0:16:01 > 0:16:07And it's affected me, ever since. Work, jobs, life.
0:16:07 > 0:16:08What about Jane?
0:16:11 > 0:16:12She doesn't know.
0:16:13 > 0:16:16You've not told her about your conviction?
0:16:17 > 0:16:19I've never even told her I'm gay.
0:16:24 > 0:16:25I'm sure you'll find another church.
0:16:26 > 0:16:29It is like a relationship.
0:16:29 > 0:16:33You cannot just find someone and say "Right, now we are together."
0:16:33 > 0:16:38It is the same with a church. It is something personal.
0:16:38 > 0:16:41Something that you feel.
0:16:41 > 0:16:46People talk of a spiritual home. And it is true.
0:16:46 > 0:16:52I have always had my church, a place where I go and feel like I am
0:16:52 > 0:16:59being wrapped in safety. Somewhere familiar, welcoming.
0:16:59 > 0:17:04But, now... Now I feel that I have nowhere.
0:17:07 > 0:17:09Nowhere of my own.
0:17:10 > 0:17:14That's how I felt when I gave up surgery. Alone.
0:17:15 > 0:17:17Adrift.
0:17:17 > 0:17:21I became a GP, the work was fulfilling,
0:17:21 > 0:17:23I had some lovely colleagues.
0:17:25 > 0:17:27But it takes time.
0:17:27 > 0:17:29I mean, maybe it's me.
0:17:29 > 0:17:34Howard moved from the military into civilian life, bish, bash, bosh.
0:17:34 > 0:17:37Maybe Mr Bellamy did not have it as easy as you think.
0:17:37 > 0:17:43Oh, I don't know. I think he took off his forage cap, combed his exuberant hair and....
0:17:43 > 0:17:47There he was - the medical businessman.
0:17:47 > 0:17:51Slick, fearless and professional.
0:18:02 > 0:18:03Excuse me, a moment.
0:18:18 > 0:18:20Come on. Pull yourself together.
0:18:23 > 0:18:26I thought all the convictions would have been quashed.
0:18:26 > 0:18:31Well, no, apparently it stood, even after legalisation, in 1967.
0:18:33 > 0:18:37Hang on. "Protection of Freedoms Act, 2012".
0:18:37 > 0:18:38What's that?
0:18:38 > 0:18:42It means that Philip can get his conviction "disregarded".
0:18:42 > 0:18:44What does that mean, "disregarded"?
0:18:44 > 0:18:48Um...well, it's a legal term. It means he can get his conviction overturned.
0:18:48 > 0:18:51So, who does he apply to?
0:18:54 > 0:18:55The Home Secretary.
0:18:55 > 0:18:58What, like a terrorist, or something?
0:18:58 > 0:19:02Yeah. That's mad. But if Philip wants to clear his name.
0:19:02 > 0:19:04He does. He's going to.
0:19:11 > 0:19:13RETCHING
0:19:18 > 0:19:19I thought you'd be pleased.
0:19:19 > 0:19:22Oh, I am, I am. I'm glad you told me.
0:19:22 > 0:19:23But?
0:19:23 > 0:19:25Well, it's just a lot of fuss, isn't it?
0:19:25 > 0:19:28Applying to the Home Secretary.
0:19:28 > 0:19:30More fuss than the restrictions it's put on your life?
0:19:34 > 0:19:36It wasn't fair, Philip.
0:19:36 > 0:19:41The conviction wasn't fair, and it staying on your record wasn't fair.
0:19:43 > 0:19:46Is this because you've hidden your sexuality from Jane?
0:19:46 > 0:19:48Is that also a crime?
0:19:48 > 0:19:51No. No. But do you not think it was unfair on her?
0:19:53 > 0:19:58She's the only person I've ever loved. Really loved.
0:19:58 > 0:20:02I never thought I could have such feelings for a woman.
0:20:03 > 0:20:06All my crushes had been on men.
0:20:07 > 0:20:08And then I met Jane.
0:20:11 > 0:20:15There was something so warm, so joyous.
0:20:17 > 0:20:18It was like coming home.
0:20:20 > 0:20:26It's not really my place to ask, but...what about sexually?
0:20:26 > 0:20:31That's always been... That's been fine.
0:20:31 > 0:20:34Do you think you might be bisexual?
0:20:34 > 0:20:39I don't know. I'm just me.
0:20:39 > 0:20:42Do you still find men attractive?
0:20:42 > 0:20:47Well, isn't everyone tempted?
0:20:47 > 0:20:51Straight. Gay. Bisexual. At least on the level of looking at someone.
0:20:53 > 0:20:57But you choose, you see.
0:21:01 > 0:21:06You meet someone and they are "the one".
0:21:06 > 0:21:10And so you meet them and you make a choice to be with them.
0:21:10 > 0:21:15To stay with them. It's not just social conditioning.
0:21:15 > 0:21:18It's not just sex. It's unity.
0:21:22 > 0:21:25So I chose...
0:21:25 > 0:21:32but I chose not to tell Jane.
0:21:32 > 0:21:33Not to tell me what?
0:21:39 > 0:21:43And this is indicative of the...
0:21:43 > 0:21:46projected patient uptake, should the um...
0:21:50 > 0:21:56Excuse me. Should the Mill Health Centre...be awarded a greater
0:21:56 > 0:22:00part of the um... the approximated contract.
0:22:01 > 0:22:04Let me explain. Er...
0:22:09 > 0:22:10Sorry.
0:22:13 > 0:22:14Sorry.
0:22:17 > 0:22:18Sorry.
0:22:19 > 0:22:21Ah. Hm.
0:22:21 > 0:22:27Now, this demonstrates the ratio doctor to patient time,
0:22:27 > 0:22:31in...in capita... Dur... Duration plus... volume.
0:22:31 > 0:22:34What Mr Bellamy is trying to say
0:22:34 > 0:22:37is that The Mill can provide a more personal service.
0:22:37 > 0:22:39Yes.
0:22:41 > 0:22:43Now, um...
0:22:44 > 0:22:4665 percent...
0:22:48 > 0:22:51And you never even thought of telling me?
0:22:53 > 0:22:54I thought you'd leave me.
0:22:54 > 0:22:56Over a stupid conviction?
0:22:58 > 0:23:00I mean...
0:23:00 > 0:23:02I've always known you were gay.
0:23:04 > 0:23:07And you still married me?
0:23:07 > 0:23:10I wanted to marry you. I loved you.
0:23:10 > 0:23:12I wanted to be with you.
0:23:13 > 0:23:15I always thought you'd leave me.
0:23:15 > 0:23:19That's something I've always thought about, that one day
0:23:19 > 0:23:23you'd meet someone, a man, and I would find a note.
0:23:23 > 0:23:25An apology.
0:23:25 > 0:23:28A note? I wouldn't do that.
0:23:28 > 0:23:30But would you have come to me and said if you had?
0:23:30 > 0:23:32Yes.
0:23:32 > 0:23:35Then you should have told me about this conviction.
0:23:37 > 0:23:40Maybe I was meant to be on my own.
0:23:41 > 0:23:45Well, in truth, I think I am frightened of being alone.
0:23:47 > 0:23:48It is a great failing.
0:23:48 > 0:23:49Loneliness is not a failing.
0:23:49 > 0:23:52No, but fear is.
0:23:52 > 0:23:55And if you are frightened of being alone,
0:23:55 > 0:23:57it shows that you are not comfortable with the person you are.
0:23:57 > 0:24:00And what if your friends are comfortable with who you are?
0:24:00 > 0:24:05- Dr Carter...- Your many friends, who hold you in the highest regard?
0:24:05 > 0:24:07That is very kind.
0:24:10 > 0:24:14"Time's winged chariot" propels us forward.
0:24:14 > 0:24:17But forward is the direction we must travel.
0:24:17 > 0:24:22Maybe, by moving forward, you will find someone else?
0:24:25 > 0:24:28- Why don't we pop off? - What?
0:24:28 > 0:24:31We could go to the countryside in a few days.
0:24:31 > 0:24:34Grab a late supper at a cosy inn and I'll show you the stars,
0:24:34 > 0:24:39away from all those ghastly street sodium lamps.
0:24:41 > 0:24:43That sounds very nice.
0:24:43 > 0:24:46Friends and companions, Mrs Tembe.
0:24:46 > 0:24:50Friends indeed, Dr Carter.
0:24:55 > 0:24:57Thank you.
0:24:59 > 0:25:00Sorry.
0:25:03 > 0:25:06This isn't right. This isn't right.
0:25:07 > 0:25:10What The Mill Health Centre can offer is care.
0:25:10 > 0:25:13Yes, St Phil's will be able to undercut us on price,
0:25:13 > 0:25:16but their waiting list will be huge.
0:25:16 > 0:25:19We will be the light infantry, to their heavy dragoons.
0:25:19 > 0:25:22We'll be flexible, available, a slot when you want it.
0:25:22 > 0:25:25More than that, a slot when you need it.
0:25:25 > 0:25:27By being light on our feet,
0:25:27 > 0:25:31and free of the ties of hospital politics and bureaucracy,
0:25:31 > 0:25:34we will not just be offering a service, we will be saving lives.
0:25:35 > 0:25:36What do you think?
0:25:41 > 0:25:43I wish I could make it up to you.
0:25:43 > 0:25:44Then write that letter.
0:25:44 > 0:25:45To the Home Secretary.
0:25:45 > 0:25:48Tell him you want to correct a decades old anomaly.
0:25:48 > 0:25:50And start living my life, as I should have lived it.
0:25:50 > 0:25:52I'm glad I let that bus go past.
0:25:52 > 0:25:54What bus?
0:25:54 > 0:25:55I'll tell you later.
0:25:55 > 0:25:58Right, I'll give you a lift.
0:25:58 > 0:25:59Where?
0:25:59 > 0:26:02To the DIY store. I need to pick up some stuff and I thought you could ask to see
0:26:02 > 0:26:06the manager and tell him exactly why you should have that job.
0:26:06 > 0:26:07Oh, I'm not sure.
0:26:07 > 0:26:09And if you don't tell him, I will.
0:26:09 > 0:26:11- You're right. - I'm always right
0:26:48 > 0:26:53- Yeah!- Woo-hoo! Come on!
0:26:54 > 0:26:55Nice.
0:27:04 > 0:27:06- You tell me, it's your heart?- Yeah.
0:27:06 > 0:27:09Pull your socks up and stop frittering away
0:27:09 > 0:27:11a golden opportunity.
0:27:11 > 0:27:12- Does that sound reasonable to you? - Yup.
0:27:12 > 0:27:14What are you doing creeping up on people like that?
0:27:14 > 0:27:16- What's your problem?- Nothing, I was just playing a game.
0:27:16 > 0:27:18- We're being invaded. - You've lost me.
0:27:18 > 0:27:19Fleas!
0:27:19 > 0:27:21Cheers, dude, you are a true mate.
0:27:21 > 0:27:22Dude? Mate?
0:27:22 > 0:27:24The closest thing I've got to one right now.
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