0:00:40 > 0:00:41You're up early.
0:00:41 > 0:00:43I had to sleep in the spare room...
0:00:43 > 0:00:45again.
0:00:48 > 0:00:49Sorry about that.
0:00:49 > 0:00:52Me and Jet'll sleep in the other room.
0:00:52 > 0:00:54You can have this room all to yourself.
0:00:54 > 0:00:57Look, we need to talk.
0:00:57 > 0:00:59You know how this works.
0:00:59 > 0:01:01If you're not happy, you can talk to my lawyer.
0:01:03 > 0:01:04I'll get ready for work.
0:01:10 > 0:01:13BABY GURGLES
0:01:18 > 0:01:19What time is it?
0:01:19 > 0:01:22Sorry. Go back to sleep.
0:01:22 > 0:01:24- How many times have you been up? - I don't mind.
0:01:24 > 0:01:27You've haven't slept a wink all weekend. You must be knackered.
0:01:27 > 0:01:29I said I don't mind.
0:01:32 > 0:01:35Let me make him a bottle. Just the expressed stuff.
0:01:35 > 0:01:39He has enough trouble latching on without confusing him even more.
0:01:39 > 0:01:42We can't have another night like this, Rach.
0:01:42 > 0:01:45He can't help it. Poor little man's hungry.
0:01:48 > 0:01:49It'll be different tonight.
0:01:49 > 0:01:53I'm going to see Doctor Carmichael, first thing. She'll know what to do.
0:02:05 > 0:02:08PHONE RINGS
0:02:10 > 0:02:12What the hell...! Gah!
0:02:13 > 0:02:14God!
0:02:17 > 0:02:18Jet? You OK, girl? You all right?
0:02:20 > 0:02:22Ah...God!
0:02:29 > 0:02:31CAR HORN
0:02:31 > 0:02:32Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah!
0:02:39 > 0:02:40CAR HORN
0:02:40 > 0:02:42Oh, thank you very much for your concern!
0:02:44 > 0:02:45Argh!
0:02:48 > 0:02:52- You all right, mate? - Sorry for the hold-up. Just go round or something.
0:02:52 > 0:02:55- What happened? - This thing just hit my car.
0:02:55 > 0:02:59Came out of nowhere, freak hailstorm or something.
0:02:59 > 0:03:02More than likely that fell from a plane.
0:03:02 > 0:03:04You're kidding?
0:03:04 > 0:03:07Saw it on a documentary once. Doesn't happen often.
0:03:07 > 0:03:09Just got unlucky.
0:03:09 > 0:03:11Or lucky - I mean, that could've killed you.
0:03:11 > 0:03:15Wait till I find out which airline it was. I'll sue their faces off.
0:03:15 > 0:03:16- Listen, I've got to...- Wait!
0:03:16 > 0:03:21You can't drive. Come on. Sit down, I'll have a look at you.
0:03:21 > 0:03:26- It's all right. I'm a doctor. - You're a doctor?- Yes, for my sins.
0:03:26 > 0:03:28Come on, sit down. That eye looks painful.
0:03:30 > 0:03:34I must have er, caught it on my watch, or something.
0:03:34 > 0:03:36My head hit the steering wheel.
0:03:36 > 0:03:38That's one serious watch.
0:03:38 > 0:03:39Yes. It's a present from my wife.
0:03:39 > 0:03:41OK. Just stay still.
0:03:43 > 0:03:46Yeah, you might have scratched your cornea on it.
0:03:46 > 0:03:49Or it could be a hyphaema.
0:03:49 > 0:03:52Some blood inside the eye.
0:03:52 > 0:03:55It's difficult to tell without the correct equipment.
0:03:55 > 0:03:57All right. No aspirin, no ibuprofen
0:03:57 > 0:04:00and you best get it checked out at St Phil's as soon as possible.
0:04:00 > 0:04:03It's all very well but how on earth am I... Hey!
0:04:03 > 0:04:05Hey! Oh, my keys!
0:04:08 > 0:04:11I've left my phone... Oh, God, Jet!
0:04:12 > 0:04:14Oh, Mandy, have you heard from Chris?
0:04:14 > 0:04:17Not since the group goodbye e-mail.
0:04:17 > 0:04:22He's e-mailed me from Singapore. It's only a stopover, but it sounds fascinating.
0:04:22 > 0:04:26- Would you like to read it?- I think I get the gist. You're missing him.
0:04:26 > 0:04:28Oh. Is it that obvious?
0:04:28 > 0:04:30How's the house-hunting going?
0:04:30 > 0:04:33Oh. That was... a mistake.
0:04:33 > 0:04:37Oh, Mrs Tembe, I've had an e-mail from Chris.
0:04:37 > 0:04:40How lovely. You never know whether these young men
0:04:40 > 0:04:43are going to stay in contact with their mothers.
0:04:43 > 0:04:47But Nurse Reid...Chris, is a good boy.
0:04:47 > 0:04:48Would you like to read it?
0:04:48 > 0:04:51I would love to.
0:04:51 > 0:04:54But right now I need to get back to reception desk.
0:04:54 > 0:04:56I look forward to reading it at lunch time. Come in.
0:04:58 > 0:05:01I'm becoming one of those woman, aren't I?
0:05:01 > 0:05:04Who live their lives for their children. And a total bore.
0:05:04 > 0:05:05It's all right. I know it.
0:05:08 > 0:05:11Don't worry, mate, you'll get it back. It's just kids with nothing better to do.
0:05:11 > 0:05:13They'll dump it once the tank's empty.
0:05:13 > 0:05:15Wonderful! Another freeloader.
0:05:15 > 0:05:20- Another...?- This is all my wife's fault. If she hadn't been phoning, I would've swerved in time.
0:05:20 > 0:05:23If I hadn't been wearing her stupid watch...
0:05:23 > 0:05:24It's a nice watch.
0:05:24 > 0:05:27How can something be a present if you've paid for it?
0:05:27 > 0:05:29I've never understood that.
0:05:29 > 0:05:30The thought, I guess.
0:05:30 > 0:05:34Doctor Tyler, can you please take a picture of this before it melts?
0:05:34 > 0:05:37All right, for your profile page?
0:05:37 > 0:05:38No, for evidence.
0:05:38 > 0:05:42I wasn't kidding when I said I was going to sue them.
0:05:42 > 0:05:47- There you go.- Right. Now you can give that to the police, when you make your statement.- When I...?
0:05:47 > 0:05:52- You don't think I'm just going to wait for it to turn up in ditch somewhere?- OK. I'll do it later.
0:05:52 > 0:05:54I need to go to work.
0:05:54 > 0:05:56Will you be all right on your own for now?
0:05:56 > 0:05:57Yes, I'll be fine.
0:05:59 > 0:06:01I appreciate the help.
0:06:05 > 0:06:09Aw, they're so cute at this age,
0:06:09 > 0:06:12especially when they're asleep.
0:06:12 > 0:06:14He's only asleep because of the car.
0:06:14 > 0:06:17Normally he's too hungry, even though I feed him and feed him.
0:06:17 > 0:06:22He's not getting enough milk and no-one's getting enough sleep and my mum wants me to try formula.
0:06:22 > 0:06:24I don't want to but I think my husband does
0:06:24 > 0:06:27and my mother-in-law definitely does.
0:06:27 > 0:06:30I'm clearly getting it all wrong, so I don't know, maybe they're right.
0:06:30 > 0:06:33Look, don't let anyone undermine you.
0:06:33 > 0:06:37This is your body and you've made the best decision for you and baby.
0:06:37 > 0:06:39You just need a little bit of help to stick to it.
0:06:39 > 0:06:42I've been reading articles and forums.
0:06:42 > 0:06:44There's so much conflicting advice.
0:06:44 > 0:06:47OK. Think of me as your own personal trainer.
0:06:47 > 0:06:51Forget all the other nagging voices, and we'll focus on the fundamentals.
0:06:51 > 0:06:54- Technique and motivation. - That sounds good.
0:06:57 > 0:06:59Em, it's me.
0:06:59 > 0:07:02When you get back from doing whatever it is you're doing, I need
0:07:02 > 0:07:06you to come to St Phil's hospital and pick me up and take me to work.
0:07:10 > 0:07:12Someone has to pay the bills.
0:07:17 > 0:07:18Michael?
0:07:21 > 0:07:23Emily...? How did you know I was here?
0:07:23 > 0:07:25What have you done to your eye?
0:07:25 > 0:07:29It was you. What did you think you were doing?
0:07:29 > 0:07:31Calling me in the car. How can you be so stupid?
0:07:31 > 0:07:35I thought... You usually have it on hands-free.
0:07:35 > 0:07:39You need to take me to the police station and then to work. I need to use your phone.
0:07:39 > 0:07:43I've already missed my nine o'clock and I need to tell them... What?
0:07:45 > 0:07:48All you had to do was to ask me what I'm doing here.
0:07:48 > 0:07:50Ask me if I'm all right.
0:07:50 > 0:07:52Then I'd have known there was some hope.
0:07:52 > 0:07:56What are you talking about? They've stolen my car.
0:07:56 > 0:07:57They've taken Jet.
0:07:57 > 0:08:00Get yourself to the police station, Michael.
0:08:00 > 0:08:02Emily? Emily!
0:08:02 > 0:08:04I'll talk to your lawyer.
0:08:07 > 0:08:09Your technique's fine.
0:08:09 > 0:08:12Really? Could you tell that so quickly?
0:08:12 > 0:08:16Yes. As I suspected, it's more a matter of motivation.
0:08:16 > 0:08:17I'm trying my best.
0:08:17 > 0:08:20It can be a nightmare. Look. It was a nightmare for me.
0:08:20 > 0:08:25When I had a premature baby, believe you me, the amount of times I wanted to stick him on the bottle
0:08:25 > 0:08:29and check myself into a spa for a few days. But I know that a few months down the line,
0:08:29 > 0:08:32shelling out for formula, sterilising every five minutes, and
0:08:32 > 0:08:34knowing I could have tried harder...
0:08:34 > 0:08:37Well, I definitely would have regretted it.
0:08:37 > 0:08:40I don't want to switch, I just don't want him going hungry.
0:08:40 > 0:08:42He's not going hungry, as long as his nappies are wet
0:08:42 > 0:08:46- and he's gaining weight, everything's fine. - He's already fallen by a centile.
0:08:46 > 0:08:49That's perfectly normal in the first couple of weeks.
0:08:49 > 0:08:51It is best not to obsess about centiles.
0:08:53 > 0:08:56Look. I know every fibre of your being is on alert,
0:08:56 > 0:08:58but it is best just to trust nature.
0:08:58 > 0:09:00Gumption, that's the thing.
0:09:00 > 0:09:03I was running marathons up until six months ago.
0:09:03 > 0:09:05I am not a quitter. I just think something is wrong.
0:09:05 > 0:09:08Please will you have another look at the latch?
0:09:10 > 0:09:12Do you really want to disturb him again, so soon?
0:09:16 > 0:09:18Sorry if I was a bit harsh earlier.
0:09:18 > 0:09:20I know it's early days.
0:09:20 > 0:09:23No, you weren't. Anyway you were right.
0:09:23 > 0:09:27And I'm going to do something about it before I bore myself
0:09:27 > 0:09:29and everybody else to death.
0:09:29 > 0:09:31Take action. Good plan.
0:09:31 > 0:09:34I'm going to phone up a few girlfriends.
0:09:34 > 0:09:37and see if they want to have a girlie night.
0:09:38 > 0:09:42Nothing too wild. Just a good old girlie catch-up.
0:09:42 > 0:09:43What do you think?
0:09:43 > 0:09:47Perfect. For starters. Then you can go wild.
0:09:47 > 0:09:50Happy to help. Come back and see me, any time.
0:09:50 > 0:09:53Hi! All right, Rachel? How's it going?
0:09:53 > 0:09:55I'm sorry, I have to go.
0:09:58 > 0:10:01Um...is everything all right?
0:10:01 > 0:10:05Great. Like most women, it's just a matter of confidence.
0:10:05 > 0:10:07She didn't seem very happy, just then.
0:10:07 > 0:10:10I suppose she might have wanted a doctor to give her carte blanche
0:10:10 > 0:10:12to give up and switch to formula.
0:10:12 > 0:10:15Maybe some women just want to take the easy way out.
0:10:17 > 0:10:20I'm surprised he's not reported it yet. He was kicking up such a stink.
0:10:20 > 0:10:24Probably still at St Phil's. You know how long their waiting times are.
0:10:24 > 0:10:27These medics, they're not as efficient as all our public services.
0:10:27 > 0:10:31Right, I'll keep hold of that for when or if he turns up.
0:10:31 > 0:10:33- And will you send me that photo? - Yeah.
0:10:35 > 0:10:37Oh, Here he is. Hi.
0:10:39 > 0:10:42Whoa. You all right there? Come here. Sit yourself down.
0:10:47 > 0:10:49- My wife...- Yeah?
0:10:49 > 0:10:52She was already there.
0:10:52 > 0:10:54We had a row.
0:10:57 > 0:10:59God, I think she's finally left me.
0:10:59 > 0:11:01Ah.
0:11:03 > 0:11:05First the car...
0:11:07 > 0:11:09..then Jet,
0:11:09 > 0:11:11and now Emily.
0:11:11 > 0:11:14Excuse me, sir, but you're going to have to throw that away or take it outside.
0:11:14 > 0:11:17- It's dripping all over the place. - Um, sorry.
0:11:20 > 0:11:23Yes, I'm sorry it's been so long.
0:11:24 > 0:11:26Look, I know it's short notice
0:11:26 > 0:11:28but you're not free tonight, are you?
0:11:30 > 0:11:32Or any other night this week?
0:11:35 > 0:11:36No, I know.
0:11:37 > 0:11:41Yes, getting baby-sitters is always difficult.
0:11:41 > 0:11:43No, it's fine.
0:11:45 > 0:11:47Look, just give me a ring when you're free.
0:11:47 > 0:11:49It would be lovely to see you.
0:11:49 > 0:11:51OK, bye-bye.
0:11:55 > 0:11:57SHE SIGHS
0:11:59 > 0:12:03I'm sure you'll be able to sort all this out.
0:12:03 > 0:12:05Why don't you give her a call?
0:12:05 > 0:12:07There's nothing to discuss.
0:12:07 > 0:12:10She knew the deal when she married me.
0:12:10 > 0:12:12What, you actually made a deal?
0:12:13 > 0:12:17You don't think she married me for my good looks alone, do you?
0:12:17 > 0:12:19You're not bad-looking.
0:12:19 > 0:12:21I'm sure you could pull if you wanted to.
0:12:21 > 0:12:23I don't want to pull. I hate all that.
0:12:23 > 0:12:25I was glad to have it sorted.
0:12:25 > 0:12:29So, what - you actually think she married you for your money?
0:12:29 > 0:12:32It's what my parents did. They stayed together.
0:12:32 > 0:12:36My mother put up with everything. She was happy. We all were.
0:12:36 > 0:12:37You sure about that?
0:12:39 > 0:12:44If my wife... If Emily goes...
0:12:44 > 0:12:47If you don't love each other, then maybe that's for the best.
0:12:50 > 0:12:52I don't think I want to be by myself.
0:12:55 > 0:12:57You might get your dog back.
0:12:57 > 0:12:59It's not mine. It's hers.
0:12:59 > 0:13:01Oh.
0:13:01 > 0:13:03Jet just took to me. Stupidly loyal.
0:13:06 > 0:13:08Emily's not stupid.
0:13:10 > 0:13:14She's finally worked out, no matter how much I've got...
0:13:14 > 0:13:16I'm clearly not worth very much.
0:13:19 > 0:13:21Oh, excuse me, it's my friend calling back.
0:13:23 > 0:13:24Tessa, hi!
0:13:24 > 0:13:26Can you swing it?
0:13:27 > 0:13:31Oh, that's a shame.
0:13:31 > 0:13:35Yeah, another time. Definitely.
0:13:35 > 0:13:37OK, bye.
0:13:42 > 0:13:45Did I tell you I had an e-mail from Chris?
0:13:45 > 0:13:46Ten times.
0:13:46 > 0:13:47PHONE RINGS
0:13:47 > 0:13:50Ooh, it's Rob.
0:13:50 > 0:13:54I've just been chatted up by the most gorgeous patient.
0:13:54 > 0:13:56- Really?- 'But I told him I was seeing my boyfriend tonight.
0:13:56 > 0:13:59'and he said you were the luckiest man in the world.'
0:13:59 > 0:14:03Er, well, thing is, something has cropped up cause we're a bit
0:14:03 > 0:14:06short-staffed here and the DCI wants some back-up on a stakeout.
0:14:06 > 0:14:07'Tonight.'
0:14:07 > 0:14:09Wow! That'll be exciting.
0:14:09 > 0:14:12You can't come. It is a high-risk operation.
0:14:12 > 0:14:18I am sorry. I know I'm supposed to be being more romantic and stuff.
0:14:18 > 0:14:21It's not your fault. It's a pretty cool excuse.
0:14:21 > 0:14:24You're not going to go out with that patient instead, are you?
0:14:24 > 0:14:26Not if you make it up to me.
0:14:26 > 0:14:27'Well, I'll er...'
0:14:27 > 0:14:31- I'll do my best. - 'Yes, please.'- All right. Bye.
0:14:31 > 0:14:34Ooh, it's like going out with Tom Selleck!
0:14:34 > 0:14:37Oh, do you know what? I can't eat when I'm like this.
0:14:37 > 0:14:41I'm just too excited. You can have it.
0:14:41 > 0:14:42SHE LAUGHS
0:14:44 > 0:14:48A voice mail, from my lawyer.
0:14:50 > 0:14:52She's finally done it.
0:14:54 > 0:14:56So, that's that.
0:14:57 > 0:15:00Why was she at the hospital? You never said.
0:15:02 > 0:15:04I never asked.
0:15:06 > 0:15:08Your car's been ditched as well.
0:15:08 > 0:15:11It matches your description. It's a bit worse for wear, I'm afraid.
0:15:11 > 0:15:12There's no word on the dog yet.
0:15:12 > 0:15:16But PC Gilroy will take you over there so you can identify it.
0:15:16 > 0:15:20You want to go as well? He doesn't look very clever.
0:15:21 > 0:15:23Do you want to call her first?
0:15:25 > 0:15:28She's made her decision.
0:15:28 > 0:15:31We'll follow you in a minute, if that's all right.
0:15:34 > 0:15:38Look, a car you can replace but your wife...
0:15:38 > 0:15:41It's hard to tell with you but if she's more to you
0:15:41 > 0:15:43than just a deal gone wrong,
0:15:43 > 0:15:45then you've got to at least try to talk to her.
0:15:53 > 0:15:57KEYPAD TONES
0:15:57 > 0:16:00'Hello. Your call cannot be taken at the moment,
0:16:00 > 0:16:03'so please leave your message after the tone.'
0:16:03 > 0:16:05Em, it's me.
0:16:07 > 0:16:10I just wanted to um...
0:16:10 > 0:16:14apologise for my behaviour earlier today.
0:16:16 > 0:16:19And before, long before.
0:16:21 > 0:16:22Are you all right?
0:16:22 > 0:16:26I - I'm just worried about you.
0:16:26 > 0:16:28It's too little, too late, I'm sorry.
0:16:33 > 0:16:36- Hey. That's supposed to stay on for at least 24 hours.- I don't care.
0:16:39 > 0:16:41HE SIGHS
0:16:44 > 0:16:49Oh! Emma, how many have you managed to round up for the girlie night in?
0:16:49 > 0:16:52Um, well, I think it was a bit short notice.
0:16:52 > 0:16:55So I'm just going to have a girlie night in on my own.
0:16:55 > 0:16:57Takeaway, bottle of wine. It'll be lovely.
0:16:57 > 0:16:59You won't be on your own. I'll be there.
0:16:59 > 0:17:02Yes, of course you will.
0:17:02 > 0:17:06Yeah. You two could have a girlie night in together.
0:17:06 > 0:17:09Yeah. That'll be great.
0:17:11 > 0:17:15Nice pad. Shame about your car.
0:17:15 > 0:17:19But I'm sure you can get an even better one once you've sued the airline.
0:17:19 > 0:17:23I'm not going to sue the airline.
0:17:23 > 0:17:26There's no point. I don't need the money and it won't make any difference.
0:17:26 > 0:17:30- The damage has been done. - Why don't you come in and see me at the the Mill?
0:17:30 > 0:17:33You can talk to somebody about depression.
0:17:33 > 0:17:34It's not all pills nowadays.
0:17:34 > 0:17:37We can offer you counselling, CBT...
0:17:37 > 0:17:39Jet! Jet! Oh, sweet...
0:17:41 > 0:17:44You clever girl, making your way back home.
0:17:44 > 0:17:46Sweetheart, I thought we'd lost her.
0:17:46 > 0:17:49Seeing as you're in a better mood,
0:17:49 > 0:17:51why don't you let me dress that eye again?
0:17:51 > 0:17:53It needs to be covered for 24 hours.
0:17:53 > 0:17:56Longer, ideally, if you want to get it better.
0:17:56 > 0:18:00Yeah, OK. All right. Come on!
0:18:02 > 0:18:03Is it still painful?
0:18:03 > 0:18:05No. Nothing I can't handle.
0:18:14 > 0:18:17- Michael?- Yeah. - It's none of my business, but...
0:18:23 > 0:18:26Do you think that's why she was at the hospital?
0:18:28 > 0:18:30She might have got your message.
0:18:31 > 0:18:33Em!
0:18:33 > 0:18:35Who's this?
0:18:35 > 0:18:38This is Dr Tyler. He's been helping me.
0:18:38 > 0:18:41- Dr Tyler, this is... - Emily. Hi. I should go.
0:18:41 > 0:18:43I presume it was you who got him to call me?
0:18:43 > 0:18:45You must be pretty special.
0:18:45 > 0:18:46Not really.
0:18:47 > 0:18:49I only want to know one thing.
0:18:49 > 0:18:51Did you phone me after you found that?
0:18:51 > 0:18:54Is that the only reason you called?
0:18:54 > 0:18:56No, we've only just found that.
0:18:56 > 0:18:59He called you because he doesn't want you to go.
0:19:01 > 0:19:02Is it too late?
0:19:02 > 0:19:04I thought a child could fix this.
0:19:06 > 0:19:08I know you can't love me, Michael.
0:19:08 > 0:19:12the way you are with that dog gave me some hope.
0:19:13 > 0:19:16But as soon as it was real, I knew...
0:19:16 > 0:19:20I couldn't bring a child into this house.
0:19:20 > 0:19:21And I can't do it on my own.
0:19:22 > 0:19:24I need somebody who loves me.
0:19:26 > 0:19:30He does. I think...
0:19:30 > 0:19:32- I think he needs help. - I'll get help.
0:19:32 > 0:19:36You're only saying that because he's here. Because of that picture.
0:19:36 > 0:19:39But it would be a real person, Michael.
0:19:39 > 0:19:42It'd need love and warmth and everything you don't have.
0:19:44 > 0:19:47I don't know if you can be helped, Michael.
0:19:47 > 0:19:48I'm sorry.
0:19:50 > 0:19:52I can't do this any more.
0:19:54 > 0:19:56Thank you for helping him.
0:20:00 > 0:20:02You all right?
0:20:03 > 0:20:05No.
0:20:08 > 0:20:10No, I don't think I am.
0:20:17 > 0:20:20- Wait.- What is it?
0:20:21 > 0:20:24- I don't want you to go. - Because of Jet?
0:20:24 > 0:20:25No!
0:20:28 > 0:20:30No.
0:20:30 > 0:20:31You want ME to stay?
0:20:33 > 0:20:36In whatever bed you want.
0:20:36 > 0:20:38What about the baby?
0:20:40 > 0:20:41What?
0:20:41 > 0:20:44I didn't go through with it.
0:20:44 > 0:20:45I got your message.
0:20:45 > 0:20:48Listened to it over and over. I'm so stupid.
0:20:48 > 0:20:50No, you're not stupid. I am.
0:20:51 > 0:20:52I'm so sorry.
0:20:54 > 0:20:56Make that appointment, all right?
0:20:58 > 0:21:00I think we'll both be coming to see you more often.
0:21:02 > 0:21:04Dr Tyler, Kevin...
0:21:04 > 0:21:06Just look after her, all right?
0:21:07 > 0:21:09Thank you.
0:21:12 > 0:21:13Shall we go in?
0:21:18 > 0:21:20No, it'll be cash on delivery.
0:21:20 > 0:21:23- Don't forget the prawn crackers! - Thank you.
0:21:24 > 0:21:27- Shall I call him back?- It's not the same without prawn crackers.
0:21:27 > 0:21:30They're complimentary. You don't need to order them.
0:21:30 > 0:21:31- Relax.- OK.
0:21:31 > 0:21:34So, I wanted Indian, you wanted Chinese.
0:21:34 > 0:21:38It's the perfect compromise. Thai curry and noodles.
0:21:38 > 0:21:40I hadn't thought of it like that.
0:21:40 > 0:21:43It's probably what Chris is having right now.
0:21:43 > 0:21:45That's where he is, isn't it?
0:21:45 > 0:21:48He's in Singapore. But he's probably left by now.
0:21:49 > 0:21:50It must be great for you.
0:21:50 > 0:21:53I mean, you're free again, you've got your life back.
0:21:53 > 0:21:56No commitments.
0:21:56 > 0:21:58Is that how you've felt the last few months?
0:22:01 > 0:22:04It's not the same, is it? I can't remember.
0:22:04 > 0:22:07I mean, I'm...I'm not single,
0:22:07 > 0:22:09but I'm not a wife.
0:22:09 > 0:22:13I'm not a mum but I'm not NOT a mum.
0:22:13 > 0:22:16I mean, it doesn't bear thinking about really.
0:22:16 > 0:22:18I'm sorry, you're right.
0:22:18 > 0:22:20What I'm going through is nothing in comparison
0:22:20 > 0:22:22to what you've been through.
0:22:23 > 0:22:26You're right, I need to enjoy my freedom.
0:22:28 > 0:22:30But you're not? Why not?
0:22:32 > 0:22:34I miss him.
0:22:36 > 0:22:38And that makes me miss Sam.
0:22:41 > 0:22:46You see, I am a mother and a wife.
0:22:46 > 0:22:47But I'm not...
0:22:49 > 0:22:51..not any more.
0:22:56 > 0:23:00You need a good seeing to. That'll cheer you up.
0:23:00 > 0:23:02I've already done it, actually.
0:23:02 > 0:23:03What?
0:23:05 > 0:23:07Who with? Anybody I know?
0:23:07 > 0:23:09The estate agent.
0:23:11 > 0:23:15- What? When you were showing him around here?- No.
0:23:15 > 0:23:16Oh, no - nothing happened.
0:23:16 > 0:23:20It was a big mistake. I read the wrong signals
0:23:20 > 0:23:24and pounced on him. Oh, I scared the poor man to death.
0:23:24 > 0:23:25Seriously?
0:23:27 > 0:23:30You've got it bad. I shouldn't laugh.
0:23:30 > 0:23:33No, you shouldn't!
0:23:37 > 0:23:41So I told her how tough it was with Joe.
0:23:41 > 0:23:44In the hospital and back at home.
0:23:44 > 0:23:49I think it really spurred her on. The perfect start to the scheme.
0:23:49 > 0:23:52I can't believe we got through it, looking back.
0:23:52 > 0:23:54You sure you didn't put her off for life?
0:23:54 > 0:23:58Gumption. Pure and simple. That's how I got through it.
0:23:58 > 0:24:00- What?- Nothing.
0:24:15 > 0:24:19They won't call me back. I know they won't.
0:24:19 > 0:24:21They had their kids later than me.
0:24:21 > 0:24:26They've got teenagers to ferry around, little ones to pick up,
0:24:26 > 0:24:29homework and parents' evenings.
0:24:29 > 0:24:31Our lives have just got out of step.
0:24:31 > 0:24:34I don't think we're that different,
0:24:34 > 0:24:36cos I feel out of step with the people who are my age.
0:24:36 > 0:24:38Both my ages.
0:24:38 > 0:24:41That's what I'm saying, age is a load of rubbish.
0:24:41 > 0:24:43You think so?
0:24:43 > 0:24:45Yes, I'm living proof!
0:24:45 > 0:24:48I see all these middle-aged people,
0:24:48 > 0:24:49and they're my age on paper,
0:24:49 > 0:24:52but they've totally forgotten how to have a laugh.
0:24:52 > 0:24:56They're so serious about everything. None of it matters.
0:24:56 > 0:24:58Do you think I've forgotten how to have a laugh?
0:24:58 > 0:25:03I did do. Till you told me about you throwing yourself at that
0:25:03 > 0:25:05estate agent.
0:25:05 > 0:25:07I did not throw myself at him!
0:25:07 > 0:25:10You would've done if he'd have let you.
0:25:10 > 0:25:14There must be another way to lighten things up, have some fun,
0:25:14 > 0:25:18without just relying on men to fill the void.
0:25:18 > 0:25:19So to speak!
0:25:23 > 0:25:27What about night-clubbing, do you think I'm too old to go clubbing?
0:25:27 > 0:25:28You're never too old.
0:25:28 > 0:25:31I didn't enjoy it when I was young, to be honest.
0:25:31 > 0:25:32A holiday?
0:25:32 > 0:25:35Yeah. Extreme sports. Bungee jumping or something.
0:25:35 > 0:25:37OK. I accept age is a state of mind
0:25:37 > 0:25:39but my back wouldn't thank me for that.
0:25:42 > 0:25:44Luscious Lace.
0:25:44 > 0:25:47A patient came in the other day
0:25:47 > 0:25:50and she said she'd been to a Luscious Lace party.
0:25:50 > 0:25:53She thought she'd broken a rib from laughing so much.
0:25:53 > 0:25:56I think my mum had a Luscious Lace party.
0:25:56 > 0:25:59I remember trying to cop a look at what they were laughing at.
0:25:59 > 0:26:00What was it like?
0:26:00 > 0:26:03My Auntie Tricia caught me and I never did find out.
0:26:03 > 0:26:06That settles it. We're going to have one.
0:26:06 > 0:26:08Go on, then!
0:26:10 > 0:26:13Gumption doesn't mean I found it easy.
0:26:13 > 0:26:17I found it damned hard but I stuck at it.
0:26:17 > 0:26:19Because that's just the kind of person I am
0:26:19 > 0:26:25and I intend to inspire other woman to do likewise.
0:26:25 > 0:26:27What's wrong with that?
0:26:27 > 0:26:29Nothing. It's great.
0:26:29 > 0:26:32As long as you remember not everyone is like you.
0:26:32 > 0:26:35Well... They should be!
0:26:39 > 0:26:42BABY GURGLES
0:27:06 > 0:27:09I saw Emma Reid works here now.
0:27:09 > 0:27:13Confidentially, I always thought you had a bit of a twinkle for her.
0:27:13 > 0:27:18Your personal AI contribution helped us make the link.
0:27:18 > 0:27:20OMG. This is blowing my actual mind.
0:27:20 > 0:27:24I'm so sorry, did I hear you mentioning something about a bottle?
0:27:24 > 0:27:27- For Harry?- Only if you were listening at the door.
0:27:27 > 0:27:29I'm still having problems.