0:00:27 > 0:00:31MUSIC PLAYS, SMOKE ALARM SOUNDS
0:00:39 > 0:00:42What's going on?! It's only just gone six.
0:00:42 > 0:00:44I'm on a late shift, do you know that?
0:00:44 > 0:00:45I'm sorry.
0:00:45 > 0:00:49I just wanted to say sorry for not coming home on time.
0:00:49 > 0:00:51You're a pest, do you know that?
0:00:51 > 0:00:52Don't say that.
0:00:52 > 0:00:54She's trying to be good.
0:00:54 > 0:00:56- Look, she needs to be told. - All right.
0:00:57 > 0:01:00Next time, if you want to use the cooker, I'll help you, OK?
0:01:00 > 0:01:03I just wanted to make breakfast, to say sorry.
0:01:03 > 0:01:05I know, sweetie, but it's a bit early
0:01:05 > 0:01:06for breakfast anyway, but thank you.
0:01:06 > 0:01:09- It's the thought that counts. - Is that it?
0:01:31 > 0:01:33I'll take these up to Paul.
0:01:33 > 0:01:35- No, you better not.- No?
0:01:35 > 0:01:36Oh.
0:01:36 > 0:01:40He's always mad at me these days. I can't seem to do aught right.
0:01:40 > 0:01:43He's just worried about the baby coming, that's all.
0:01:43 > 0:01:45Hmm.
0:01:47 > 0:01:48Don't do that!
0:01:48 > 0:01:50Ah, it itches like mad.
0:01:51 > 0:01:53Well, you've made it worse now. Look.
0:01:53 > 0:01:54Come here.
0:01:57 > 0:02:00I can do it myself, you know.
0:02:01 > 0:02:03Good job we're seeing the doctor today
0:02:03 > 0:02:04before you scratch your arm off.
0:02:04 > 0:02:06I can go myself, you know.
0:02:06 > 0:02:08I know you can,
0:02:08 > 0:02:10but I want to see what she has to say, OK?
0:02:10 > 0:02:13- I'm not a kid, all right? - Hmm, course you're not.
0:02:29 > 0:02:31Brought you a peace offering.
0:02:32 > 0:02:34I don't want tea.
0:02:34 > 0:02:37I want you to set her some boundaries, Chrissie. Some rules.
0:02:37 > 0:02:40- She doesn't need rules.- No?
0:02:40 > 0:02:42Then what about these...hissy fits?
0:02:42 > 0:02:44I'd hardly call them that.
0:02:44 > 0:02:47She broke the hallway mirror. She should pay for it.
0:02:47 > 0:02:49She didn't mean to.
0:02:49 > 0:02:50Anyway, you wound her up.
0:02:50 > 0:02:53Right, I should've guessed it'd be my fault by now.
0:02:53 > 0:02:56It's not, but it's not hers either.
0:02:56 > 0:02:58She can't help it.
0:02:58 > 0:03:00She could do, she just needs some encouragement.
0:03:00 > 0:03:02Stop babying her.
0:03:02 > 0:03:04That's why New Hall could be good for her.
0:03:04 > 0:03:05It'll teach her things like this.
0:03:05 > 0:03:07Life stuff, that's what she needs.
0:03:07 > 0:03:09She's waiting for a place, what more do you want?
0:03:09 > 0:03:12You to make some calls, find out why it's taking so long.
0:03:13 > 0:03:16Look, you always knew me and Sam came as a package,
0:03:16 > 0:03:17just like this one.
0:03:17 > 0:03:19You can't change your mind now.
0:03:20 > 0:03:23- But this is what Sam wants, too. - Oh, she doesn't know what she wants.
0:03:23 > 0:03:25And for now, it's not an option, so...
0:03:27 > 0:03:28..drink your tea.
0:03:36 > 0:03:38- Earth to Mandy.- Hmm?
0:03:38 > 0:03:39You OK?
0:03:43 > 0:03:45I can't stop thinking about it, Jimmi.
0:03:46 > 0:03:49If only I'd seen her call.
0:03:49 > 0:03:52I was in a self-help meeting, for heaven's sake.
0:03:52 > 0:03:54I had no idea she'd called.
0:03:54 > 0:03:55And what?
0:03:55 > 0:03:58If it wasn't that day, it would've been another.
0:03:58 > 0:04:00And people don't always take the help that's offered.
0:04:00 > 0:04:02What help, eh?
0:04:02 > 0:04:03Catriona didn't get any.
0:04:05 > 0:04:07It's not exactly true, is it? Heston tried.
0:04:09 > 0:04:10I realise you're upset,
0:04:10 > 0:04:13- but you can't go dumping your anger on everyone else.- I'm not.
0:04:13 > 0:04:16You were harsh on Heston yesterday. He doesn't deserve it.
0:04:16 > 0:04:19So, what, I just forget about it all?
0:04:20 > 0:04:21No.
0:04:22 > 0:04:26Look, if you must blame someone, then lay it at the right door...
0:04:26 > 0:04:28like the people who attacked her in the first place.
0:04:33 > 0:04:35Hmm, you've been having a right go at that, haven't you?
0:04:35 > 0:04:37What do you think it is?
0:04:37 > 0:04:39It looks like an allergic reaction. Have you got any pets?
0:04:39 > 0:04:41Cos it looks like flea bites.
0:04:41 > 0:04:43No, no pets.
0:04:43 > 0:04:44She won't let me have them.
0:04:44 > 0:04:47Cos I'd end up looking after them, that's why.
0:04:47 > 0:04:50Well, I'll give you some hydrocortisone cream
0:04:50 > 0:04:51and that should calm things down.
0:04:51 > 0:04:52That'd be great. Thank you.
0:04:52 > 0:04:54How are you getting on at the new place?
0:04:54 > 0:04:56You've been there a while now, haven't you?
0:04:56 > 0:04:58No, she's still at home with me.
0:04:58 > 0:05:00But I thought you applied ages ago.
0:05:00 > 0:05:03I had an interview at New Hall Lodge.
0:05:03 > 0:05:06- My friend Hayley lives there.- Right.
0:05:06 > 0:05:07When can I live there?
0:05:07 > 0:05:09As soon as a place comes up.
0:05:09 > 0:05:11Um... Are you sure you haven't heard anything from them?
0:05:11 > 0:05:14I could've sworn a vacancy came up a few weeks ago.
0:05:14 > 0:05:16- No, nothing yet. - Do you want me to give them a ring,
0:05:16 > 0:05:17make sure you haven't slipped
0:05:17 > 0:05:19- through the cracks? - It's fine, honestly.
0:05:19 > 0:05:22- And you're busy. - It'll only take a minute.- No.
0:05:22 > 0:05:24Thank you. I...I promise I'll sort it.
0:05:24 > 0:05:26- Say thank you to the doctor. - Thank you.
0:05:26 > 0:05:27Oh, can you call them for me?
0:05:32 > 0:05:34PHONE BEEPS
0:05:35 > 0:05:37Ah, it's from Hayley.
0:05:39 > 0:05:41- Who's Charlie?- Don't!
0:05:42 > 0:05:43Who is he, then?
0:05:43 > 0:05:45None of your beeswax.
0:05:47 > 0:05:49- Morning.- Morning.
0:06:00 > 0:06:01Thank you.
0:06:03 > 0:06:04What was that all about?
0:06:04 > 0:06:06One of my special needs patients.
0:06:06 > 0:06:08She's applied for sheltered accommodation.
0:06:08 > 0:06:10I was just calling to see if there was any problems.
0:06:10 > 0:06:13Oh. And I bet they gave you the whole,
0:06:13 > 0:06:15"We'll get back to you," routine.
0:06:15 > 0:06:17Well, her sister doesn't seem worried,
0:06:17 > 0:06:19but they applied 18 months ago.
0:06:19 > 0:06:22She should've been offered a place by now.
0:06:22 > 0:06:24- I've found the right place... - Oh?- ..for lunch.
0:06:24 > 0:06:28Just you and me, and no-one will ever find us.
0:06:28 > 0:06:31I wondered if you fancied...me.
0:06:31 > 0:06:33Well, I will get back to you on that.
0:06:34 > 0:06:36All right. Yeah, yeah, that was...
0:06:36 > 0:06:39- Well, let's get together, see if we can diarise something.- Yeah.
0:06:39 > 0:06:40Yeah, good discussion.
0:06:41 > 0:06:43Karen.
0:06:43 > 0:06:44Just trying to organise a meeting.
0:06:45 > 0:06:47You're not fooling anyone.
0:06:53 > 0:06:55Another thought of a baby name today.
0:06:55 > 0:06:57Ivan.
0:06:57 > 0:06:59- Hmm.- Too Russian?
0:07:01 > 0:07:03I think Sam's got a boyfriend,
0:07:03 > 0:07:04someone called Charlie.
0:07:04 > 0:07:07- That's good then, isn't it?- No.
0:07:07 > 0:07:09What if he's some perv?
0:07:09 > 0:07:11Well, she's on the pill then, isn't she?
0:07:11 > 0:07:13I'm serious. She's too trusting.
0:07:13 > 0:07:15What if he's, you know, grooming her?
0:07:15 > 0:07:18Look, she'd tell you if there was anything she didn't like,
0:07:18 > 0:07:19wouldn't she?
0:07:19 > 0:07:20I don't know.
0:07:20 > 0:07:22She's been going out a lot recently.
0:07:22 > 0:07:25I can't help but feel there's something she's keeping from me.
0:07:25 > 0:07:27Hi!
0:07:28 > 0:07:30There's a gang at the day centre.
0:07:30 > 0:07:32They going to help out at the allotments again.
0:07:32 > 0:07:35- I was going to go.- OK. Just remember, we've got a food delivery coming.
0:07:35 > 0:07:38- You said you'd help me put it away. - I will, I will.
0:07:38 > 0:07:40Oh, that reminds me!
0:07:40 > 0:07:43When I move to New Hall Lodge, I could get a pet.
0:07:43 > 0:07:45- I didn't know.- Yeah, yeah.
0:07:45 > 0:07:47Chrissie's going to sort it out for me.
0:07:47 > 0:07:49She's going to make the calls.
0:07:49 > 0:07:51She promised the doctor.
0:07:51 > 0:07:53- That's good.- Bye!
0:07:55 > 0:07:58- So are you going to sort it, then? - Yeah, soon.
0:07:58 > 0:07:59It's on my list.
0:07:59 > 0:08:01Be back in an hour, yeah?
0:08:08 > 0:08:09This is what she wants.
0:08:09 > 0:08:11You're just thinking about yourself.
0:08:11 > 0:08:14No, I'm thinking about you and our son.
0:08:14 > 0:08:15We still haven't got the nursery finished
0:08:15 > 0:08:19- because you're too busy running round after her.- It'll get done!
0:08:19 > 0:08:20You're due in a few weeks.
0:08:20 > 0:08:22I do know!
0:08:22 > 0:08:24Look, I promised Mum I'd be there for her - always.
0:08:24 > 0:08:27We're not talking about dropping her off in the woods
0:08:27 > 0:08:30to fend for herself, Chrissie, but we can't cope.
0:08:30 > 0:08:31She needs to move out.
0:08:31 > 0:08:34She relies on me, so I will cope because I have to,
0:08:34 > 0:08:36so butt out.
0:08:38 > 0:08:40You need to decide what comes first around here.
0:08:44 > 0:08:46- Hi.- Oh, Nurse Marquez,
0:08:46 > 0:08:48Dr Granger was wondering
0:08:48 > 0:08:50if you could add Mrs Reeves to your visits today.
0:08:50 > 0:08:52- She needs her dressing changed. - Westbrook Road?
0:08:52 > 0:08:54- In Churchill Estate.- Right.
0:09:02 > 0:09:04VOICE MAIL
0:09:07 > 0:09:09SHE GASPS
0:09:48 > 0:09:49What's going on here?!
0:09:49 > 0:09:51SAMANTHA LAUGHS
0:09:52 > 0:09:55- Don't worry, Ryan, she's my sister. - Hello, Ryan.
0:09:55 > 0:09:57Hi.
0:09:57 > 0:09:59And this is Charlie.
0:09:59 > 0:10:02Say, "Hello, Chrissie!"
0:10:02 > 0:10:05DOG GRUMBLES
0:10:14 > 0:10:17Oi, I want a word with you!
0:10:17 > 0:10:19You.
0:10:19 > 0:10:21I suppose you're proud of yourself, are you?
0:10:21 > 0:10:22Get out of my face, will you?
0:10:22 > 0:10:24She killed herself, do you know that?!
0:10:24 > 0:10:25After what you did.
0:10:25 > 0:10:28Well, she was already messed up in the head, not my problem.
0:10:28 > 0:10:30- SHOUTS:- You attacked her and now she's dead.
0:10:30 > 0:10:32Does that not mean ANYTHING to you?
0:10:36 > 0:10:39One less loon in the world, so what? Cry me a river.
0:10:39 > 0:10:41MANDY CRIES OUT
0:10:41 > 0:10:42Ah!
0:10:47 > 0:10:49THEY SHRIEK
0:10:49 > 0:10:51Hey, oi! Leave it out, girls.
0:10:51 > 0:10:53- I'm going to kill you! - Oi, I said, "Leave it!"
0:10:53 > 0:10:55- You want some as well, yeah? - Just try it, love.
0:10:57 > 0:10:59I don't need this, yeah?!
0:10:59 > 0:11:00Stay out of my way, will you?
0:11:01 > 0:11:04What was all that? Her man been putting it about?
0:11:05 > 0:11:07No, a friend of mine - she died.
0:11:07 > 0:11:09Sorry.
0:11:10 > 0:11:13I can see to that, if you like. Don't worry, I am a nurse.
0:11:15 > 0:11:17So am I.
0:11:17 > 0:11:18And why can't I keep him?
0:11:18 > 0:11:20He's like my baby.
0:11:20 > 0:11:24You'll have yours soon, why can't I have mine?
0:11:24 > 0:11:27Cos, sweetie, he can't come home and you can't keep him here.
0:11:28 > 0:11:30But no-one uses this place.
0:11:30 > 0:11:31- Stop it.- Ah.
0:11:31 > 0:11:33Do you not think I've enough on my plate without all this?
0:11:33 > 0:11:35He has to go to the dog's home.
0:11:37 > 0:11:42But I could...I could keep him if I was moving to New Hall Lodge.
0:11:42 > 0:11:44- Well, you're not, so that's that. - Ah.
0:11:45 > 0:11:48He could stay here until I move there.
0:11:48 > 0:11:51- I mean, Dr Donoghue said.- Sam.
0:11:51 > 0:11:53But you've only got to call them.
0:11:53 > 0:11:55You said you would. You said you would.
0:11:55 > 0:11:56It will be that long cos you're not going.
0:11:57 > 0:11:58What?
0:12:00 > 0:12:02I told them that you didn't want a place.
0:12:02 > 0:12:04And this proves I'm right, you're not ready.
0:12:04 > 0:12:05But...
0:12:05 > 0:12:08But I've been feeding Charlie every day,
0:12:08 > 0:12:10taking him for walks,
0:12:10 > 0:12:12cooking for you.
0:12:12 > 0:12:15- How am I not ready? - You're just not.
0:12:17 > 0:12:20It's not fair! It's not fair!
0:12:20 > 0:12:21You always tell me what to do
0:12:21 > 0:12:24and you always stop me doing from what I want to do.
0:12:24 > 0:12:26- You always stop me!- Sam, your hand.
0:12:26 > 0:12:29SHE CRIES OUT
0:12:29 > 0:12:31Doesn't surprise me. I've seen her around.
0:12:31 > 0:12:33She's a scuzzy waste of space.
0:12:33 > 0:12:35Yeah, she's a thug.
0:12:35 > 0:12:37I had to make sure she knew what she'd done.
0:12:37 > 0:12:39Job done, I'd say.
0:12:39 > 0:12:40Listen, I'm sorry about...
0:12:40 > 0:12:44No worries, I get a lot of practice at work and at home.
0:12:44 > 0:12:47Anyway, shouldn't you be patching people up, not punching them?
0:12:47 > 0:12:49Perhaps that's my problem.
0:12:49 > 0:12:52- Ooh, that sounds serious.- It is.
0:12:53 > 0:12:56I'm going to tell Dr Donoghue about you!
0:12:58 > 0:13:00- SHOUTS: It's not fair! - Sam, wait for me.
0:13:02 > 0:13:04- Sam!- What?
0:13:04 > 0:13:05I think it's the baby.
0:13:06 > 0:13:07All right, all right.
0:13:07 > 0:13:09Sit down, sit down, sit down.
0:13:09 > 0:13:13It's OK. We're just going to take you to hospital, all right?
0:13:13 > 0:13:16- Tell them to tell... - No, I know what to say.
0:13:16 > 0:13:18Hi, yeah, emergency services?
0:13:18 > 0:13:21Yeah, can I have ambulance, please, as soon as possible?
0:13:21 > 0:13:23Yeah, we're at the university campus.
0:13:23 > 0:13:25It's my sister, she's in labour.
0:13:25 > 0:13:28It's all right, darling. It's all right, love. It's OK. It's OK.
0:13:28 > 0:13:31- You need to get a doctor from there, quick.- OK, I'm not leaving you.
0:13:31 > 0:13:35SHOUTS: Excuse me, can you just go and fetch a doctor for me?
0:13:35 > 0:13:37My sister's in labour.
0:13:37 > 0:13:38All right, she's going to fetch the doctor,
0:13:38 > 0:13:40everything's going to be fine.
0:13:45 > 0:13:48Sorry, Heston. I'm running a little late this afternoon.
0:13:48 > 0:13:49No problem. All the time in the world.
0:13:51 > 0:13:53Have you ever been to India?
0:13:53 > 0:13:56Um, no, can't say I have.
0:13:56 > 0:13:57Fascinating culture.
0:13:58 > 0:14:01Yes. I won't be long.
0:14:01 > 0:14:02Fine. Yeah, fine.
0:14:08 > 0:14:09I don't know.
0:14:09 > 0:14:13Ever since she died, it's like something in me has...
0:14:13 > 0:14:15crossed over.
0:14:15 > 0:14:16Does that sound mad?
0:14:16 > 0:14:18Not to me, love. Nothing does.
0:14:18 > 0:14:21It's like I've been living in a bubble.
0:14:21 > 0:14:24I just want to get out there, you know, make a difference.
0:14:24 > 0:14:27You mean like growing dreadlocks and smashing the system?
0:14:27 > 0:14:31Maybe, it's better than sitting around, feeling useless.
0:14:31 > 0:14:34But being a nurse does make a difference, doesn't it?
0:14:34 > 0:14:36Does to my patients, anyway.
0:14:36 > 0:14:39Although we do see it all at our surgery.
0:14:39 > 0:14:41- Is that the one on the estate?- Yeah.
0:14:41 > 0:14:44Half of them are alcoholics, or crazed addicts,
0:14:44 > 0:14:47or they're obese, smoking 40 a day. It never stops.
0:14:47 > 0:14:49Must be tough.
0:14:49 > 0:14:52Sometimes, but they're all good people, really.
0:14:52 > 0:14:54The doctors look down their noses at them,
0:14:54 > 0:14:57especially that Dr Shah. He's a right snobby get.
0:14:57 > 0:15:00But I treat everyone the same.
0:15:00 > 0:15:02They don't get the same though, do they?
0:15:02 > 0:15:04Like, my friend -
0:15:04 > 0:15:05look how she was treated.
0:15:05 > 0:15:08You know, something has got to change.
0:15:08 > 0:15:11But we also need people who go the extra mile, like us.
0:15:12 > 0:15:15I make myself sound like a right saint, don't I?
0:15:15 > 0:15:17I think you were one, today.
0:15:17 > 0:15:19Yeah that's me all right.
0:15:19 > 0:15:22You seem very upbeat, today. Is there any particular reason?
0:15:22 > 0:15:26Yes, I've made big plans.
0:15:26 > 0:15:28I'm off to India.
0:15:28 > 0:15:30A slow boat to Sri Lanka and then...
0:15:31 > 0:15:32..who knows where else?
0:15:32 > 0:15:36Wow. Well, I think an extended holiday is a great idea.
0:15:36 > 0:15:40Well, it's not really a holiday, it's a life change. It's...
0:15:40 > 0:15:42a new chapter.
0:15:42 > 0:15:44You mean a sabbatical?
0:15:44 > 0:15:45I wouldn't call it that.
0:15:46 > 0:15:48I'm leaving medicine.
0:15:49 > 0:15:51I'm going to cash in my pension.
0:15:54 > 0:15:58Are you sure now is the right time to be making these decisions?
0:15:58 > 0:16:00Why not?
0:16:00 > 0:16:02Anyway, it's a bit late for doubts.
0:16:02 > 0:16:03What do you mean?
0:16:03 > 0:16:05I've handed in my resignation.
0:16:06 > 0:16:08OK.
0:16:08 > 0:16:11Yep, your baby is definitely coming.
0:16:11 > 0:16:12But he shouldn't be, should he?
0:16:12 > 0:16:14I'm only 35 weeks, that's too early.
0:16:14 > 0:16:16Don't think anyone's told him that.
0:16:16 > 0:16:18Just keep calm, it's OK.
0:16:18 > 0:16:20The ambulance is on its way.
0:16:21 > 0:16:23Yes, so the most important thing is
0:16:23 > 0:16:26don't push, whatever you do, not yet.
0:16:26 > 0:16:27I'm trying not to.
0:16:27 > 0:16:28Stay calm.
0:16:28 > 0:16:30Stay calm. Breath with me.
0:16:30 > 0:16:32In through your nose... BOTH INHALE DEEPLY
0:16:32 > 0:16:33And out. BOTH EXHALE
0:16:35 > 0:16:37I understand how you feel there's no going back,
0:16:37 > 0:16:40but you've still haven't really answered the question.
0:16:40 > 0:16:41Haven't I? I thought I did.
0:16:41 > 0:16:44Not as to...why now?
0:16:44 > 0:16:47You know, I took a walk through my neighbourhood today
0:16:47 > 0:16:49and I'd never really noticed it before.
0:16:51 > 0:16:54The trees and the architecture but...
0:16:56 > 0:16:58..now I can, you see.
0:16:58 > 0:17:00And that's why you've resigned?
0:17:00 > 0:17:02- To take in your surroundings?- Yes.
0:17:02 > 0:17:05A weight has been lifted and...
0:17:06 > 0:17:07..I can now...
0:17:09 > 0:17:10..see these things.
0:17:10 > 0:17:12What sort of weight?
0:17:12 > 0:17:13You mean the strain of work?
0:17:13 > 0:17:15Yeah, I've just had enough.
0:17:15 > 0:17:18But you've always said how much you enjoy being a GP.
0:17:19 > 0:17:20I did.
0:17:21 > 0:17:24I'm just glad to be relieved of the pressure.
0:17:26 > 0:17:28Other people's lives...
0:17:30 > 0:17:31..in my hands.
0:17:33 > 0:17:35Something's happened, hasn't it?
0:17:38 > 0:17:39Heston?
0:17:42 > 0:17:44A woman died...
0:17:48 > 0:17:49..and it's my fault.
0:17:51 > 0:17:54I had the baby without you, I'm sorry.
0:17:54 > 0:17:55Don't be.
0:17:56 > 0:17:58I'm sorry I wasn't here in time.
0:17:58 > 0:18:00He's jaundiced.
0:18:00 > 0:18:02They've taken him to check him over.
0:18:02 > 0:18:04I know. I've seen him.
0:18:05 > 0:18:06But he's going to be fine.
0:18:08 > 0:18:09He is.
0:18:11 > 0:18:13So, what happened, love?
0:18:13 > 0:18:15They said you were on the campus.
0:18:15 > 0:18:17I was looking for Sam at the allotments.
0:18:19 > 0:18:21Charlie isn't her boyfriend,
0:18:21 > 0:18:22he's a dog.
0:18:22 > 0:18:24She's been looking after him.
0:18:25 > 0:18:28Anyway, we got into an argument, she got upset.
0:18:28 > 0:18:29Another hissy fit.
0:18:29 > 0:18:32She hurt her hand, so I had to take her to the surgery.
0:18:32 > 0:18:33That is just typical.
0:18:33 > 0:18:36I had to find her, I couldn't put the shopping away.
0:18:36 > 0:18:38So what? Just leave it.
0:18:38 > 0:18:40But I was worried.
0:18:40 > 0:18:42Exactly. That's the problem.
0:18:45 > 0:18:47Sam's all stitched up. She's just getting a tetanus shot.
0:18:47 > 0:18:50- I don't want to hear about her. - Paul, don't.
0:18:50 > 0:18:53It needs to be said. The baby come early because of her.
0:18:53 > 0:18:56- She's a liability.- Don't say that. It was my fault she got upset.
0:18:56 > 0:18:57Stop defending her.
0:18:57 > 0:18:59I'm not, but this time she had good reason.
0:18:59 > 0:19:01What was it, then?
0:19:02 > 0:19:04See? There isn't one.
0:19:06 > 0:19:08I told her she wasn't going to New Hall, all right?
0:19:10 > 0:19:11I turned down the place.
0:19:12 > 0:19:13What?
0:19:14 > 0:19:15When?
0:19:16 > 0:19:18Last week.
0:19:18 > 0:19:20I couldn't...
0:19:20 > 0:19:21She's not ready.
0:19:21 > 0:19:24Sorry, sorry, but...
0:19:24 > 0:19:26Sam was AMAZING today.
0:19:26 > 0:19:28She called the ambulance, she called you.
0:19:29 > 0:19:31This is not a girl who can't look after herself.
0:19:33 > 0:19:34So what's really going on here?
0:19:36 > 0:19:38What's this about, love?
0:19:38 > 0:19:40SHE WEEPS
0:19:41 > 0:19:43They never say...
0:19:45 > 0:19:46..but they think it.
0:19:48 > 0:19:49I'm washed up.
0:19:51 > 0:19:52A liability.
0:19:54 > 0:19:57- Really?- Mandy said as much.
0:19:59 > 0:20:01She sees that I'm a sham.
0:20:03 > 0:20:05She blames me, so...
0:20:07 > 0:20:12..it doesn't really matter what the critical case review concludes.
0:20:12 > 0:20:13It doesn't?
0:20:13 > 0:20:14No.
0:20:16 > 0:20:18I know the truth.
0:20:20 > 0:20:22I dismissed that woman. I...
0:20:24 > 0:20:25..failed her.
0:20:25 > 0:20:26OK, well,
0:20:26 > 0:20:28let's suppose for a moment that you're right,
0:20:28 > 0:20:30that you did fail her.
0:20:30 > 0:20:32There must've been a reason.
0:20:34 > 0:20:35Why do you think you dismissed her?
0:20:37 > 0:20:39Didn't you believe her?
0:20:40 > 0:20:41I don't know. She...
0:20:44 > 0:20:46..annoyed me, I guess.
0:20:48 > 0:20:49How?
0:20:51 > 0:20:54Irritated me, I suppose.
0:20:54 > 0:20:55In what way?
0:20:55 > 0:20:57HE SIGHS
0:20:57 > 0:21:00She wouldn't pull herself together.
0:21:01 > 0:21:02Get a grip.
0:21:03 > 0:21:06So, you felt she was being weak?
0:21:06 > 0:21:07Weak-minded.
0:21:09 > 0:21:13Is that how you feel about your illness?
0:21:13 > 0:21:16That you should just get a grip?
0:21:17 > 0:21:19Yes.
0:21:21 > 0:21:23It was always just me and Sam,
0:21:23 > 0:21:25through thick and thin, together.
0:21:26 > 0:21:28If she goes,
0:21:28 > 0:21:30what if it's not the same?
0:21:30 > 0:21:31What if we drift apart?
0:21:31 > 0:21:33But you won't do.
0:21:33 > 0:21:35She needs you, wherever she is,
0:21:35 > 0:21:37- you know that.- But what if...
0:21:37 > 0:21:39Out with it, Chrissie. Come on.
0:21:39 > 0:21:42I know where I am with Sam,
0:21:42 > 0:21:44what she needs,
0:21:44 > 0:21:46but a baby boy?
0:21:46 > 0:21:47I'm not sure.
0:21:48 > 0:21:50What if I'm a rubbish mum?
0:21:50 > 0:21:51Don't be silly.
0:21:52 > 0:21:54You're going to be a great mum.
0:21:54 > 0:21:56But what if I'm not?
0:21:56 > 0:21:58What if he doesn't love me like she does?
0:21:58 > 0:22:00What if we don't bond?
0:22:00 > 0:22:01Come on now, Chrissie.
0:22:01 > 0:22:03That sounds like fear and hormones talking.
0:22:04 > 0:22:06Of course he's going to love you,
0:22:06 > 0:22:08like Sam does,
0:22:08 > 0:22:09like I do.
0:22:11 > 0:22:13Look, I understand that you're scared.
0:22:13 > 0:22:14I am, too, but...
0:22:16 > 0:22:17..he's going to need you more than anyone.
0:22:19 > 0:22:22And we'll work it out. Together.
0:22:22 > 0:22:25See? You're going to be great parents already.
0:22:25 > 0:22:27But all babies grow up, even Sam.
0:22:28 > 0:22:30Hiya!
0:22:30 > 0:22:34The nurse says I'm all done now. I can go home!
0:22:34 > 0:22:37I think these new parents might like a bit of time alone.
0:22:37 > 0:22:40Yeah. They certainly don't want me around, do they?
0:22:40 > 0:22:41Hey, that's not true.
0:22:43 > 0:22:46Look, I know I've been hard on you recently and I'm sorry.
0:22:46 > 0:22:49I just worry about your sister, like she worries about you.
0:22:49 > 0:22:51Well, you've got a baby boy now.
0:22:51 > 0:22:53Yeah.
0:22:53 > 0:22:55- And every nephew needs his auntie. - Yeah?
0:22:55 > 0:22:57And you're going to be the best,
0:22:57 > 0:22:59- so you'd better make sure you're around, don't you?- Yeah!
0:23:01 > 0:23:03Right, well, I'll get you home.
0:23:03 > 0:23:04What about Charlie?
0:23:04 > 0:23:06I can't just leave him.
0:23:06 > 0:23:09Well, maybe he can come home with us for a bit...
0:23:09 > 0:23:11- Ah!- ..until I get you both a place at New Hall.
0:23:11 > 0:23:14Really?! Do you mean it?
0:23:14 > 0:23:15Yeah.
0:23:15 > 0:23:18I was just being a bit silly about it before.
0:23:18 > 0:23:20Well, we've both been a bit silly.
0:23:20 > 0:23:22But I was wrong.
0:23:22 > 0:23:24You are ready, and I'm sorry.
0:23:24 > 0:23:27It's OK, but I did try to tell you.
0:23:27 > 0:23:30THEY GIGGLE
0:23:30 > 0:23:32I said to the locum, "Don't sip that, love.
0:23:32 > 0:23:35"That isn't whisky, that's his urine sample."
0:23:35 > 0:23:36Puts it in the only bottle he has.
0:23:38 > 0:23:40They're going to start thinking I've been kidnapped.
0:23:40 > 0:23:43We should do this again - not the punch up.
0:23:43 > 0:23:45Yeah, I'd like that.
0:23:45 > 0:23:47You know, if it's all getting too much,
0:23:47 > 0:23:49there's a vacancy going at The Mill.
0:23:49 > 0:23:51You should apply.
0:23:51 > 0:23:53Me? With all those yummy mummies,
0:23:53 > 0:23:57all that...tennis elbow from too much knitting.
0:23:57 > 0:23:59I reckon you'd fit in better than you think.
0:24:00 > 0:24:02Well, I'll keep it in mind.
0:24:02 > 0:24:04From the sound of it, it's you who needs out.
0:24:05 > 0:24:07I think you're right.
0:24:07 > 0:24:09All I know is,
0:24:09 > 0:24:11jobs are like men -
0:24:11 > 0:24:13if it ain't doing it for you anymore, move on.
0:24:17 > 0:24:20I've always had trouble dealing with mental illness.
0:24:22 > 0:24:23Not just with patients...
0:24:24 > 0:24:26..colleagues, too.
0:24:26 > 0:24:28- People you respect?- Yeah.
0:24:30 > 0:24:31Ruth and Simon.
0:24:34 > 0:24:35It was awful.
0:24:37 > 0:24:39I never knew what to say.
0:24:40 > 0:24:41Why?
0:24:44 > 0:24:47Well, I thought, if it could happen to them,
0:24:47 > 0:24:48it could happen...
0:24:49 > 0:24:50To anyone.
0:24:50 > 0:24:53The Hindu's believe in karma, so...
0:24:55 > 0:24:58..there's a sort of poetic justice
0:24:58 > 0:25:02that I find myself in the same boat.
0:25:03 > 0:25:05I had a normal...
0:25:06 > 0:25:09..healthy family upbringing,
0:25:09 > 0:25:11everything I could wish for and...
0:25:13 > 0:25:14Are you sure about that?
0:25:14 > 0:25:16I think so.
0:25:18 > 0:25:20My father could be fairly strict.
0:25:21 > 0:25:24- Were you ever afraid of him? - Of course.
0:25:25 > 0:25:27But that's what fathers were like then.
0:25:28 > 0:25:30And what do you think he'd say
0:25:30 > 0:25:33about what you've been going through recently?
0:25:33 > 0:25:34"Pull yourself together. Get a grip."
0:25:37 > 0:25:38Do you think it's that simple?
0:25:42 > 0:25:44Can I just have some water?
0:25:44 > 0:25:45Of course.
0:25:45 > 0:25:47Sorry.
0:25:49 > 0:25:52Heston, I have a rule in here...
0:25:53 > 0:25:54..no stiff upper lips allowed.
0:25:57 > 0:26:00You can't just bury these problems and soldier on...
0:26:02 > 0:26:06..because they'll still be with you, even in India.
0:26:08 > 0:26:10What if it never gets better?
0:26:11 > 0:26:13With help, you can.
0:26:14 > 0:26:15But it's getting worse.
0:26:17 > 0:26:19This dissociation...
0:26:20 > 0:26:22..is getting worse.
0:26:22 > 0:26:25I'm dissociated from my patients.
0:26:27 > 0:26:29I'm a danger to them.
0:26:32 > 0:26:33I'm useless.
0:26:37 > 0:26:38I'm utterly useless.
0:26:48 > 0:26:50I know his sort, looking down his nose just cos I live round here.
0:26:50 > 0:26:53Did you see the hair he's got up his nose and in his ears?
0:26:53 > 0:26:55Hey! Shut your cake hole and listen.
0:26:55 > 0:26:58I know you're upset with the way Dr Carter dealt with Catriona...
0:26:58 > 0:27:02So if there's any blame to be dished out, then I'm just as guilty.
0:27:02 > 0:27:04An old man has been mugged just around the corner,
0:27:04 > 0:27:08and if your son has been hanging around, then maybe he saw who did it.
0:27:08 > 0:27:10Well he ain't, so you can push off.