0:00:29 > 0:00:34BABY CRIES ON MONITOR
0:00:48 > 0:00:54Hey, hey... Come on, you're OK. Shhhh.
0:01:11 > 0:01:14Loads of leads today.
0:01:14 > 0:01:17What is it about a Bank Holiday that gets everyone thinking
0:01:17 > 0:01:19they need a new kitchen?
0:01:19 > 0:01:23Staring at the same walls for three whole days, maybe.
0:01:23 > 0:01:25Don't mind me.
0:01:25 > 0:01:28Been so lovely having you home.
0:01:28 > 0:01:30Courtney's due at the surgery today.
0:01:30 > 0:01:32Yeah, I know.
0:01:32 > 0:01:34Weight and stuff.
0:01:34 > 0:01:36I said...I know.
0:01:36 > 0:01:38No way can she miss this one, right?
0:01:38 > 0:01:40You know how important it is?
0:01:40 > 0:01:43Don't worry, love. It'll be OK.
0:01:43 > 0:01:46- It's just that I need you to... - Promise.
0:01:51 > 0:01:52Now, go on.
0:01:52 > 0:01:56Make the dream kitchens of Letherbridge come true.
0:02:03 > 0:02:05She's bound to be more unsettled than other babies.
0:02:05 > 0:02:08But sometimes I just don't know what to do.
0:02:08 > 0:02:10Being there is enough.
0:02:10 > 0:02:11That's what Cal says.
0:02:11 > 0:02:17Rocking her, skin-on-skin contact, massage, keeping her cool.
0:02:17 > 0:02:19These are all things that people say help.
0:02:19 > 0:02:22Sorry. When you say it like that...
0:02:22 > 0:02:26Courtney's four months now. The worst is definitely over.
0:02:26 > 0:02:28For all of you.
0:02:29 > 0:02:31How are you, Theresa?
0:02:31 > 0:02:34Oh, I'm... I'm fine.
0:02:34 > 0:02:37You look tired. Is everything OK at home?
0:02:37 > 0:02:39Bad night last night. You know how it is.
0:02:39 > 0:02:43You're doing really well. But it's important to share the load.
0:02:43 > 0:02:45You are not alone in this.
0:02:46 > 0:02:48Theresa?
0:02:48 > 0:02:50KNOCKS ON DOOR
0:02:50 > 0:02:52Where's my little princess?
0:02:52 > 0:02:55- What are you doing here? - I moved my 11 o'clock.
0:02:55 > 0:02:58I wanted to hear for myself how well she's doing.
0:02:58 > 0:03:02Aren't you, beautiful? You're doing great.
0:03:02 > 0:03:03Isn't she?
0:03:03 > 0:03:06Yeah. Courtney is putting on the right amount of weight
0:03:06 > 0:03:08and all her test results are good.
0:03:08 > 0:03:10Who's a clever girl?
0:03:10 > 0:03:13Thanks, Mandy. See you next time, then.
0:03:13 > 0:03:15If there's anything else...?
0:03:17 > 0:03:18Well...
0:03:18 > 0:03:20come on, then, my two favourite girls.
0:03:20 > 0:03:22Remember, I'm here to help, yeah?
0:03:26 > 0:03:30Until today, I must confess I was a stranger to the Kardashians.
0:03:30 > 0:03:32Heston Carter?
0:03:33 > 0:03:35Mr Carter?
0:03:35 > 0:03:38- It's Dr Carter, actually... - This way, please.
0:03:38 > 0:03:41Why are you really here?
0:03:41 > 0:03:42Eh?
0:03:42 > 0:03:44Look, just say it - you don't trust me,
0:03:44 > 0:03:47- because I might just... - Come on, love, not all that again.
0:03:47 > 0:03:50I told you, I was around Letherbridge so I thought...
0:03:50 > 0:03:52You'd check up on me.
0:03:52 > 0:03:54I don't blame you.
0:03:54 > 0:03:57I THOUGHT we could all go together for a nice walk in the park.
0:03:57 > 0:03:59Check out that new cafe.
0:03:59 > 0:04:03Get one of them hairball teas you somehow seem to like.
0:04:03 > 0:04:06HERBAL tea, you idiot.
0:04:06 > 0:04:09It's been a tough time. You deserve a break.
0:04:09 > 0:04:11I'm sorry if I got it all wrong.
0:04:14 > 0:04:16Let's go to the park.
0:04:20 > 0:04:23Well, we're both busy professionals and time is of the essence.
0:04:23 > 0:04:26I put a few things together for you.
0:04:30 > 0:04:35Angiogram, Positron Emission Tomography, Evoked Potentials...
0:04:35 > 0:04:40Usual procedure is to start with something a little simpler, Mr...
0:04:40 > 0:04:45- Doctor. - Or can I call you Heston?
0:04:46 > 0:04:49You see, neurology is a process of elimination.
0:04:49 > 0:04:51And there's a lot to eliminate.
0:04:51 > 0:04:56How about a lumbar puncture? Or a check for Babinski's sign?
0:04:56 > 0:04:59Would you walk over there for me, please?
0:05:01 > 0:05:03Walk over there?
0:05:03 > 0:05:05Humour me. Just a few steps.
0:05:10 > 0:05:15Excellent. Now, if you'd like to stand on one leg, please?
0:05:27 > 0:05:28Show me your teeth.
0:05:29 > 0:05:32Beautifully symmetrical.
0:05:34 > 0:05:37Any history of illicit drug use?
0:05:37 > 0:05:43- No.- Any history of sexually transmitted infection?
0:05:45 > 0:05:47No.
0:05:48 > 0:05:50Sleep disturbance?
0:05:50 > 0:05:51Is this relevant?
0:05:51 > 0:05:53Left or right handed?
0:05:53 > 0:05:56I also like my steak "a point",
0:05:56 > 0:05:58my favourite aria is Voi Che Sapete
0:05:58 > 0:06:00from Le Nozze di Figaro.
0:06:00 > 0:06:03Any other totally inconsequential boxes you'd like to tick,
0:06:03 > 0:06:05or can we get on with the diagnosis?
0:06:07 > 0:06:10Any history of irritability?
0:06:12 > 0:06:14Hang on.
0:06:19 > 0:06:21Really?
0:06:21 > 0:06:24Good. I think we're ready to move on.
0:06:24 > 0:06:27We'll start with some basic bloods. See where we are.
0:06:34 > 0:06:38Aw, look at her there.
0:06:38 > 0:06:41Worth the ten times round the pond, was it?
0:06:41 > 0:06:44I am exhausted!
0:06:50 > 0:06:52Shh. Don't wake her.
0:06:52 > 0:06:57You better get back or you'll be working till midnight again.
0:06:59 > 0:07:02I'll try to get back early. I promise.
0:07:02 > 0:07:04We'll be fine.
0:07:06 > 0:07:09You did really well today.
0:07:09 > 0:07:12Go on, get out from under my feet.
0:07:33 > 0:07:35Mr Carter?
0:07:35 > 0:07:37At last.
0:07:40 > 0:07:42Have a seat.
0:07:42 > 0:07:43Really?
0:07:53 > 0:07:56PHONE RINGS
0:07:56 > 0:07:59- Hello.- Theresa Craven for you. - Yes, of course, put her through.
0:08:01 > 0:08:03Hi? Theresa? It's Mandy.
0:08:03 > 0:08:05BABY CRIES
0:08:05 > 0:08:09Theresa? Are you there? Hello?
0:08:09 > 0:08:13- CRYING CONTINUES - Is everything all right?
0:08:13 > 0:08:14PHONE CALL ENDS
0:08:18 > 0:08:19Em...
0:08:19 > 0:08:24Theresa Craven... Craven...
0:08:27 > 0:08:29PHONE DIALS
0:08:29 > 0:08:33PHONE RINGS
0:08:37 > 0:08:40I have excellent veins. What appears to be the problem?
0:08:42 > 0:08:45I don't wish to offend, but the most lackadaisical of leeches
0:08:45 > 0:08:48would have obtained more blood from me in the last few minutes than you have.
0:08:48 > 0:08:50At the risk of sounding wildly extravagant,
0:08:50 > 0:08:52why not try the other arm? Ouch!
0:08:55 > 0:09:00You're running late. Tough day at the coalface?
0:09:00 > 0:09:02Um, you could say that.
0:09:02 > 0:09:05You haven't had the pleasure of seeing Patient Plop yet, have you?
0:09:05 > 0:09:09He just provided me with a comprehensive written
0:09:09 > 0:09:12description of seven days' worth of bowel movements.
0:09:12 > 0:09:15Complete with pictures.
0:09:15 > 0:09:17Pictures?
0:09:17 > 0:09:19Not illustrations. Photographs.
0:09:19 > 0:09:23It brings a whole new meaning to the term selfie.
0:09:23 > 0:09:26I'm sorry. Am I putting you off your lunch?
0:09:26 > 0:09:28It's such a shame because I could've shown you the photographs
0:09:28 > 0:09:31- he e-mailed to me!- No, no, no! I don't want to see that!
0:09:31 > 0:09:33I don't want to see that.
0:09:33 > 0:09:37Plop would make an excellent client for Oliver.
0:09:37 > 0:09:41He could spend at least ten sessions stroking his chin
0:09:41 > 0:09:44trying to get to the bottom of Plop's motivations.
0:09:44 > 0:09:48IMPERSONATING OLIVER: So, Plop, you like to document your stool.
0:09:48 > 0:09:50SHE LAUGHS
0:09:52 > 0:09:55She's right here. We were just playing with some bricks. See.
0:09:55 > 0:09:57You don't need to do this, Theresa.
0:09:57 > 0:10:00- I'm not checking up on you. - You've never come round before.
0:10:00 > 0:10:02I got worried. Why didn't you answer your phone?
0:10:02 > 0:10:05Sorry about that. I didn't hear it ring.
0:10:05 > 0:10:06And I pressed the wrong speed dial.
0:10:06 > 0:10:09I'm like a zombie if I don't get my sleep.
0:10:09 > 0:10:12Yesterday, I tried to wash the kitchen floor with car wax.
0:10:12 > 0:10:15You and Cal have got a lot on your plate.
0:10:15 > 0:10:17We manage.
0:10:17 > 0:10:20How's Ruth doing?
0:10:20 > 0:10:24Great, thanks. Really getting stuck into her new job.
0:10:24 > 0:10:27Look, sorry to have wasted your time,
0:10:27 > 0:10:29but Courtney is due for a feed.
0:10:29 > 0:10:33It's probably just me, but when you were at the surgery earlier,
0:10:33 > 0:10:36I thought you might have something you wanted to say?
0:10:36 > 0:10:40We pretty much covered everything, thanks.
0:10:40 > 0:10:44OK. Well, you know where I am, if you need anything.
0:10:44 > 0:10:48Bye-bye, little one. Bye-bye.
0:10:48 > 0:10:53Can I be really cheeky and just use your loo before I head back?
0:10:53 > 0:10:56- Yeah, of course. Upstairs, on the left.- Thanks.
0:11:00 > 0:11:03I know Oliver is a bit straight...
0:11:03 > 0:11:05but he's a really nice guy.
0:11:05 > 0:11:07If you say so.
0:11:07 > 0:11:11He's smart, and he's really good at his job. Like you.
0:11:11 > 0:11:13The two of you actually have a lot in common.
0:11:13 > 0:11:16You should get to know each other better.
0:11:16 > 0:11:19I'll look forward to doing that. Here you go.
0:11:19 > 0:11:21You going already?
0:11:21 > 0:11:24Yep. Time and turd waits for no man.
0:11:25 > 0:11:27Al?
0:11:27 > 0:11:29(No more Oliver...)
0:11:29 > 0:11:30Yeah?
0:11:30 > 0:11:33Be great to go for a few pints some time...
0:11:33 > 0:11:35and have a proper catch up...
0:11:35 > 0:11:38Yeah, I'd love that.
0:11:58 > 0:12:00I'm sorry. I didn't mean...
0:12:00 > 0:12:01Oh, Mandy...
0:12:03 > 0:12:05..it's the best thing you could have done.
0:12:07 > 0:12:12It's the hope...that's the worst. It's a killer.
0:12:13 > 0:12:17I really thought she'd make a go of it this time.
0:12:17 > 0:12:21She was doing so well. I certainly had no idea.
0:12:21 > 0:12:23Well, no-one did.
0:12:23 > 0:12:25That's how it works.
0:12:25 > 0:12:30Lies, manipulation, tears, more lies...then she leaves.
0:12:31 > 0:12:34Drugs are all she loves. Not her mum and dad.
0:12:34 > 0:12:36Not even her own baby.
0:12:36 > 0:12:40So, how long has Ruth been gone?
0:12:40 > 0:12:42Five weeks.
0:12:42 > 0:12:46Me and Cal were out with Courtney getting one of those door bouncers,
0:12:46 > 0:12:48to see if it might calm her down...
0:12:48 > 0:12:50tire her out.
0:12:50 > 0:12:54So you've no idea where she might be?
0:12:54 > 0:12:55What about her job?
0:12:55 > 0:12:58Not a word to anyone. Not even a note.
0:12:58 > 0:13:00Just packed her stuff and left.
0:13:00 > 0:13:03Oh, Theresa, I'm so sorry.
0:13:03 > 0:13:06I thought I was immune after all these years.
0:13:06 > 0:13:09But when Courtney was born, it was like a miracle.
0:13:11 > 0:13:13She was my Ruth again.
0:13:14 > 0:13:17I should have known it couldn't last.
0:13:17 > 0:13:21It wouldn't be enough. Nothing ever is.
0:13:21 > 0:13:24Don't give up hope, eh? Not yet.
0:13:24 > 0:13:26She still might come back.
0:13:26 > 0:13:30- I can't do it again, Mandy. - Oh, hey...
0:13:30 > 0:13:34I wanted to call social services straightaway,
0:13:34 > 0:13:35but Cal wouldn't hear of it.
0:13:35 > 0:13:40He insisted we carry on as normal, not tell anyone she was gone.
0:13:40 > 0:13:43He's worried Courtney will be taken away,
0:13:43 > 0:13:46but I hate it, all the lying.
0:13:46 > 0:13:49It's going to be all right now.
0:13:49 > 0:13:53There's lots of help out there, and we'll make sure you get it.
0:13:53 > 0:13:57Thank you. I can't tell you the relief.
0:13:57 > 0:14:01I'm sure social services will agree that the best place for Courtney
0:14:01 > 0:14:03is with her grandparents.
0:14:03 > 0:14:07The Mill will put a good word in for you and Cal.
0:14:07 > 0:14:09We're all there to support you.
0:14:09 > 0:14:11No-one will take Courtney away.
0:14:13 > 0:14:15I don't think you understand.
0:14:17 > 0:14:19That's exactly what I do want.
0:14:19 > 0:14:21I... I don't follow.
0:14:23 > 0:14:26I want Courtney to be taken into care.
0:14:34 > 0:14:37Hello? Is anybody there?
0:14:39 > 0:14:41I have a rather persistent itch.
0:14:41 > 0:14:43What's the protocol for scratching it?
0:14:46 > 0:14:47Just say yes or no.
0:14:50 > 0:14:52Yes or no?
0:14:54 > 0:14:56Hello?
0:14:56 > 0:14:57What's going on?
0:14:58 > 0:15:00Is Courtney all right?!
0:15:00 > 0:15:02She's fine, Cal.
0:15:02 > 0:15:06- Well, what, then?!- It's all over. Mandy knows everything.
0:15:08 > 0:15:11- Everything? - Now Courtney can be taken care of...
0:15:11 > 0:15:13Don't even think about taking that baby away from us!
0:15:13 > 0:15:16- But, Cal, love. - She's our flesh and blood!
0:15:16 > 0:15:18Yes, of course she is.
0:15:18 > 0:15:21I'm just trying to get things straight.
0:15:21 > 0:15:22So, what you want is...
0:15:22 > 0:15:25Courtney to stay with us. Obviously.
0:15:25 > 0:15:27- Right.- So, what needs getting straight, then?
0:15:27 > 0:15:30We will support you in whatever you decide,
0:15:30 > 0:15:32but it has to be what you both want.
0:15:32 > 0:15:34Theresa?
0:15:35 > 0:15:38I...
0:15:38 > 0:15:40Go on, love. Tell her.
0:15:42 > 0:15:44I...
0:15:44 > 0:15:47went a bit over the top earlier.
0:15:47 > 0:15:50Goodness knows what you must have thought, Mandy.
0:15:50 > 0:15:52But I'm over it now.
0:16:02 > 0:16:04Dr Haskey?
0:16:06 > 0:16:09Dr Haskey?! Did you not hear me calling you?
0:16:09 > 0:16:11Yeah, I'm just about to do some important reading
0:16:11 > 0:16:14of the "evaluation of the qualitative decision tree"!
0:16:14 > 0:16:15Can you help me, please?
0:16:17 > 0:16:21Stock taking is much more important than cutting edge research(!)
0:16:21 > 0:16:25The antiseptic wipes go under the sink and the dressing on the shelf.
0:16:25 > 0:16:29Afternoon surgery begins in five minutes.
0:16:29 > 0:16:34- STERNLY:- Your file box is waiting for you at reception, Dr Haskey.
0:16:40 > 0:16:42Come here you.
0:16:46 > 0:16:49Everything is going to be all right. We're in this together.
0:16:50 > 0:16:53What if I don't want to be "in this"?
0:16:53 > 0:16:55Love?
0:16:55 > 0:16:58My redundancy money is sitting in the bank.
0:16:58 > 0:17:00You were going to cut your hours.
0:17:00 > 0:17:02We'd buy a camper van. Set off round Europe.
0:17:02 > 0:17:06No plans, just see where life took us. Remember that?
0:17:06 > 0:17:09- Course I do. - That's where our life was going.
0:17:09 > 0:17:13Not back into dirty nappies, sleepless nights,
0:17:13 > 0:17:16chasing a toddler around, can't have a pee in peace!
0:17:16 > 0:17:18Don't you remember what it's like?!
0:17:18 > 0:17:19It's not for ever.
0:17:19 > 0:17:22And I've been trying to do my bit, getting up in the night,
0:17:22 > 0:17:23popping home whenever I can.
0:17:23 > 0:17:25I know, love...
0:17:27 > 0:17:29But it's only been a few weeks.
0:17:29 > 0:17:32We're talking a lifetime here.
0:17:32 > 0:17:35The reality of it all - not some perfect fantasy.
0:17:35 > 0:17:40You've got to stop beating yourself up about Ruth.
0:17:40 > 0:17:42That's not what I mean, Cal.
0:17:45 > 0:17:47Oh, Cal...
0:17:47 > 0:17:50You know what I think?
0:17:50 > 0:17:53I've been hogging this one all to myself.
0:17:59 > 0:18:05The two of you need a chance to bond. Properly, one on one.
0:18:05 > 0:18:07Bond?
0:18:07 > 0:18:09Stuck in this house all day.
0:18:09 > 0:18:11No wonder you're both a bit grumpy.
0:18:14 > 0:18:17What you need is quality time. Fresh air.
0:18:17 > 0:18:20And we've already been to the park today.
0:18:20 > 0:18:24I know, and didn't you have a fantastic time, my little princess?
0:18:26 > 0:18:28I'll get my coat.
0:19:01 > 0:19:03Right...
0:19:23 > 0:19:25Get away from her!
0:19:27 > 0:19:30NIAMH'S VOICE: "Al - Best sense of humour ever.
0:19:30 > 0:19:34"Great real ale drinker. Nicer eyes.
0:19:34 > 0:19:38"Smartarse. Cynical. Childish.
0:19:39 > 0:19:43"Oliver - Smells fresh...like cut grass.
0:19:43 > 0:19:47"Good listener. Super Attentive.
0:19:47 > 0:19:48"Looks great in jeans.
0:19:50 > 0:19:54"Al - Slightly damp? A twinge of curry.
0:19:54 > 0:19:58"Clothes - beyond terrible. Questionable blue trainers!
0:19:58 > 0:20:02"Stubborn, inconsiderate.
0:20:02 > 0:20:05"Might be a virgin?
0:20:07 > 0:20:09"Oliver - 12, Al - 4."
0:20:16 > 0:20:19I'm obviously not fit to look after her!
0:20:19 > 0:20:23Whoa, slow down. Let's take this step by step.
0:20:23 > 0:20:26I tried to abandon her. Don't you understand?
0:20:26 > 0:20:27Now you'll have to take her away!
0:20:27 > 0:20:30But you didn't abandon her, did you?
0:20:30 > 0:20:32Come on, Theresa...talk to me.
0:20:32 > 0:20:35It's all such a mess.
0:20:35 > 0:20:38You've had a rough time of things. Anyone would struggle.
0:20:38 > 0:20:42I can't do it. Please call social services.
0:20:42 > 0:20:44I'm not sure you really mean that.
0:20:44 > 0:20:46You've already changed your mind today.
0:20:46 > 0:20:51Only because Cal came home! But it's the truth.
0:20:51 > 0:20:54I...don't want to look after her.
0:20:56 > 0:20:57Because of Ruth?
0:20:59 > 0:21:01I tried so hard to be the perfect mum.
0:21:01 > 0:21:06But Ruth, she broke my heart so many times.
0:21:06 > 0:21:08I mean, she's still doing it!
0:21:08 > 0:21:11I must have done something wrong but I don't know what.
0:21:11 > 0:21:14You didn't do anything wrong.
0:21:14 > 0:21:16Is that what's worrying you?
0:21:16 > 0:21:20Why can't I be Courtney's gran, not her mum?
0:21:20 > 0:21:22It isn't fair!
0:21:26 > 0:21:29You must think I'm a terrible person, don't you?
0:21:29 > 0:21:31Oh, no. No. Of course I don't.
0:21:31 > 0:21:36I think...you're exhausted, and you're stressed out,
0:21:36 > 0:21:40and you're struggling to deal with a whole load of things all at once.
0:21:40 > 0:21:42None of it was your choice.
0:21:42 > 0:21:44So will you call social services?
0:21:46 > 0:21:49Have you thought about what it really means for Courtney
0:21:49 > 0:21:51to be taken into care?
0:21:51 > 0:21:53Sometimes, I think I'm the only one who has!
0:21:53 > 0:21:58She could have a family who love her. A future.
0:21:59 > 0:22:05Adoption... Adoption is final. There's no going back.
0:22:05 > 0:22:07She deserves to be happy.
0:22:08 > 0:22:10But so do I.
0:22:10 > 0:22:13And what about Cal? Where does he fit in?
0:22:13 > 0:22:18You saw how he is. It's all so simple to him.
0:22:19 > 0:22:21I don't want to hurt him.
0:22:21 > 0:22:23I love him to bits.
0:22:23 > 0:22:26Yeah, and he obviously loves you too.
0:22:26 > 0:22:29Which is why he needs to know how you feel.
0:22:33 > 0:22:39How about I call Cal now, see if he can come in?
0:22:44 > 0:22:48A complete absence of communication and a basic lack of medical skills.
0:22:48 > 0:22:50And the drinks machine -
0:22:50 > 0:22:52I pressed the button for sparkling water
0:22:52 > 0:22:54and got some green luminous gloop
0:22:54 > 0:22:56that would have stripped the enamel off my teeth.
0:22:56 > 0:22:59Well, I'm sorry things have taken longer than you expected.
0:22:59 > 0:23:00I've been here all day.
0:23:00 > 0:23:05Surely you must agree it's important to be thorough, systematic.
0:23:05 > 0:23:07I see precious little evidence of any kind of system.
0:23:07 > 0:23:10I just want to know what's wrong with me.
0:23:10 > 0:23:13It's never easy playing doctor-turned-patient.
0:23:13 > 0:23:17I'm sure I would be the worst patient in the world.
0:23:17 > 0:23:21Impatient. Critical. Interfering.
0:23:22 > 0:23:25It's hard not having any control over what happens to you.
0:23:25 > 0:23:26Quite.
0:23:26 > 0:23:30But I can't help but feel it's beneficial for us
0:23:30 > 0:23:35to down our stethoscopes and walk in a patient's shoes from time to time.
0:23:35 > 0:23:37See things from the other side.
0:23:38 > 0:23:41What doctor would not consider that a positive experience?
0:23:41 > 0:23:43The only positive thing about today is it's over.
0:23:43 > 0:23:46And on that note, I'm happy to move on.
0:23:46 > 0:23:49Please fast-track me my results, such as they are.
0:23:49 > 0:23:52Sorry, no can do. We'll give you a call.
0:23:55 > 0:23:57Cal, please. You have to listen.
0:23:57 > 0:23:59Courtney is staying with us. End of.
0:23:59 > 0:24:02All I want is a bit of peace. Don't you?
0:24:02 > 0:24:03All our dreams...
0:24:03 > 0:24:06None of that matters now. Courtney's all I care about!
0:24:06 > 0:24:10And you should too! What kind of a mother are you?!
0:24:10 > 0:24:13I'm not her mother! I don't want to be her mother!
0:24:13 > 0:24:17OK. OK. The most important thing here is Courtney.
0:24:17 > 0:24:19What's best for her.
0:24:19 > 0:24:23We can be the soppiest grandparents ever, spoil her rotten.
0:24:25 > 0:24:26But think about it.
0:24:26 > 0:24:29Can we give her what she really needs?
0:24:29 > 0:24:31Can you, you mean?
0:24:31 > 0:24:33I'm sorry.
0:24:34 > 0:24:36I can't do it again.
0:24:37 > 0:24:39I haven't got it in me.
0:24:39 > 0:24:43It won't always be easy, of course it won't.
0:24:45 > 0:24:47But I know you...
0:24:47 > 0:24:49Do you?
0:24:50 > 0:24:56Then you know I go over and over it in my head, night after night...
0:24:56 > 0:25:02And I want to keep her, of course I do...
0:25:02 > 0:25:05but, deep down, I know it's not right.
0:25:05 > 0:25:08Not for her, not for me.
0:25:08 > 0:25:10I love her.
0:25:10 > 0:25:15I don't want to end up resenting her because she took our life away.
0:25:17 > 0:25:20To you, this is a new start.
0:25:22 > 0:25:25But to me, it feels like the end of everything.
0:25:27 > 0:25:30It's that bad?
0:25:30 > 0:25:32Can you try to understand?
0:25:32 > 0:25:35That's how you really feel?
0:25:36 > 0:25:41Look, these are massive decisions and you're both exhausted.
0:25:41 > 0:25:44How about if Courtney goes into temporary care,
0:25:44 > 0:25:46give you both a bit of breathing space?
0:25:48 > 0:25:50I'll just have to do it on my own.
0:25:50 > 0:25:52What? What do you mean? Cal?
0:25:52 > 0:25:54Is he leaving me?!
0:25:54 > 0:25:56He can't. He can't!
0:25:56 > 0:25:58I'm sure he just needs a bit of space.
0:25:58 > 0:26:00I should never have said it like that.
0:26:00 > 0:26:01What have I done?!
0:26:01 > 0:26:03Cal, wait! I didn't mean it!
0:26:05 > 0:26:09It's just a really bad day. I'm so sorry.
0:26:11 > 0:26:15We can make it work, I know we can.
0:26:16 > 0:26:18Cal, please.
0:26:26 > 0:26:29Let's go home and get dinner, shall we?
0:26:40 > 0:26:42Good night, Dr Haskey!
0:26:44 > 0:26:46- Oliver.- Al.
0:26:49 > 0:26:52They're beautiful! Thank you.
0:27:07 > 0:27:10- I've got a date. - Well, good luck with that.
0:27:10 > 0:27:13I want this to be a real, proper date.
0:27:13 > 0:27:16I want me and Matilda - if that's her real name - to be like...
0:27:16 > 0:27:17Whoa, whoa...
0:27:17 > 0:27:19You've got as far as going on a date with her,
0:27:19 > 0:27:21but you don't even know her real name?
0:27:24 > 0:27:26Hail, Sir Edmund!
0:27:27 > 0:27:29Err...
0:27:29 > 0:27:30Hail!