0:00:28 > 0:00:31MUSIC: Fix You by Coldplay
0:00:31 > 0:00:33HE GROANS
0:00:34 > 0:00:37# When you get what you want
0:00:37 > 0:00:39# But not what you need
0:00:41 > 0:00:44# When you feel so tired
0:00:44 > 0:00:47# But you can't sleep... #
0:00:48 > 0:00:50GRUNTS
0:00:53 > 0:00:54EXHALES
0:00:59 > 0:01:01HUMS
0:01:01 > 0:01:03"What's up Mr Party Animal?"
0:01:03 > 0:01:05"Ducking and diving."
0:01:07 > 0:01:09"You?"
0:01:09 > 0:01:11TEXT ALERT
0:01:12 > 0:01:13"Thinking of you."
0:01:14 > 0:01:16Still got it!
0:01:20 > 0:01:21Morning.
0:01:21 > 0:01:23Hi.
0:01:23 > 0:01:26I just heard this ridiculous rumour that the milk was fresh...
0:01:26 > 0:01:28I just had to see that for myself.
0:01:28 > 0:01:29Rumours are true...
0:01:29 > 0:01:35Well... anywho, anywho, Donoghue... on a more serious note...
0:01:36 > 0:01:38Hey! Hey!
0:01:43 > 0:01:45- Oh, right... should I... go or something...?- No.
0:01:45 > 0:01:48- Later, OK? - Yes, later. We will, um...
0:01:49 > 0:01:52See that? See the effect I have on women?
0:01:52 > 0:01:55They just can't keep their hands off the Haskey.
0:01:55 > 0:01:58- We're losing our touch. - I'm not sure I ever had it.
0:01:58 > 0:02:00Wazzup?!
0:02:00 > 0:02:03Not much, just considering our life of eternal bachelordom,
0:02:03 > 0:02:05but, apart from that, nothing.
0:02:05 > 0:02:08- Wazzup with you?- Can't you see it? It's written all over his face.
0:02:08 > 0:02:11Oh, yeah. No doubt something to do with women and pulling?
0:02:11 > 0:02:14Add "insanely hot" to "women", and you've nailed it.
0:02:14 > 0:02:18- My sympathies. - Just got to suck it up, mate.
0:02:18 > 0:02:21Excuse me, I feel the sudden urge to leave.
0:02:21 > 0:02:23- Wise move. - That's touchy...
0:02:23 > 0:02:25TEXT ALERT
0:02:31 > 0:02:32HE EXHALES
0:02:32 > 0:02:33Hey, I got you...
0:02:35 > 0:02:36You're bleeding...
0:02:36 > 0:02:39Yes, I know, clumsy, but it's OK,
0:02:39 > 0:02:42- it's under control. Promise. - If you're sure...?
0:02:42 > 0:02:45Look, I was going to say, I got you this...
0:02:45 > 0:02:47Is that...? Um...?
0:02:47 > 0:02:50Yeah... was it the wrong thing to do?
0:02:51 > 0:02:54- I'll open it later. - Sorry, I thought...
0:02:54 > 0:02:55No, it's OK, it's OK.
0:02:59 > 0:03:01What is it?
0:03:01 > 0:03:03Why do you do your hair like that?
0:03:03 > 0:03:05Like what?
0:03:05 > 0:03:07Sorry, sorry... forget I said that...
0:03:07 > 0:03:09it's just...
0:03:09 > 0:03:11Are you not feeling any better?
0:03:11 > 0:03:14No... didn't sleep very well...!
0:03:15 > 0:03:19Do you mind, erm, do you mind walking yourself to school today?
0:03:19 > 0:03:22- I don't feel up to it. - Sure...
0:03:23 > 0:03:25If you want to talk about...
0:03:27 > 0:03:28- Bye, Dad. - Bye.
0:03:31 > 0:03:34DOOR OPENS AND CLOSES
0:03:47 > 0:03:48HE EXHALES
0:03:48 > 0:03:49TEXT ALERT
0:03:52 > 0:03:55You, er, planning on doing any work at any point today?
0:03:55 > 0:03:58Look... she's on her own and feeling lonely.
0:03:58 > 0:04:00That is very noble of you.
0:04:00 > 0:04:03But don't you have a patient...?
0:04:03 > 0:04:05Oh, yeah, be right with you.
0:04:05 > 0:04:08Erm, can you tell Mrs Tembe that I'm going to be a couple of hours?
0:04:08 > 0:04:10Yeah, yeah.
0:04:16 > 0:04:19OK, sorry to keep you waiting, Mr Rashid, this way.
0:04:19 > 0:04:21I knew that polished floor would make the bathroom an ice rink.
0:04:21 > 0:04:25SHE CHUCKLES So, why have it?
0:04:25 > 0:04:26- Wife's idea.- Ah.
0:04:26 > 0:04:28She liked it, you weren't going to argue?
0:04:28 > 0:04:30Smart man.
0:04:30 > 0:04:33Erm, so, have you had a headache since your fall?
0:04:33 > 0:04:35Any vomiting?
0:04:35 > 0:04:37Problems with balance?
0:04:37 > 0:04:39Sensitivity to light, sound?
0:04:39 > 0:04:40No.
0:04:40 > 0:04:42Difficulty remembering?
0:04:42 > 0:04:43Erm, foggy thoughts...?
0:04:44 > 0:04:47Oh, try and keep still for me.
0:04:49 > 0:04:51Have you noticed any change in your emotions?
0:04:51 > 0:04:55- Anxiety? Sadness?- No, not really.- Not really...?
0:04:55 > 0:04:59Well, I'm very stressed but that's because I'm working hard
0:04:59 > 0:05:02- on my book.- Uh, not getting enough sleep?- Yeah, something like that.
0:05:02 > 0:05:06- So, what's the book? - Erm, it's on Romantic poetry.
0:05:06 > 0:05:08Oh, love poetry!
0:05:08 > 0:05:11Er, early 19th century... Shelley, Keats...
0:05:11 > 0:05:13that gang.
0:05:13 > 0:05:14SHE CHUCKLES
0:05:14 > 0:05:17Well, I can't see any signs of concussion but
0:05:17 > 0:05:20sometimes the symptoms can take hours, even days
0:05:20 > 0:05:23to appear so if you do notice any change in your vision,
0:05:23 > 0:05:25balance, anything like that,
0:05:25 > 0:05:27go to A & E immediately.
0:05:27 > 0:05:29Immediately. OK?
0:05:29 > 0:05:31OK.
0:05:31 > 0:05:34You know, you should take a page out of one of these poetry
0:05:34 > 0:05:37books of yours - you know, "smell the roses, chill out".
0:05:37 > 0:05:40They don't put it quite like that, but I know what you mean.
0:05:40 > 0:05:42How do they put it?!
0:05:43 > 0:05:47I should drowse myself with the fume of poppies,
0:05:47 > 0:05:50fade far away, dissolve and quite forget.
0:05:51 > 0:05:53Something like that.
0:05:53 > 0:05:56Much better. Anyway, your wife will appreciate it, I'm sure.
0:05:59 > 0:06:00HE CHUCKLES
0:06:00 > 0:06:03KNOCKING Come in.
0:06:03 > 0:06:05I dug out the article you asked for.
0:06:05 > 0:06:07- Which one?- On ACL injuries.
0:06:07 > 0:06:09Oh, OK, thanks.
0:06:09 > 0:06:11Oh, how did it go with Oliver?
0:06:11 > 0:06:13- But it's your first appointment, right?- Well, yeah.
0:06:13 > 0:06:15It's too soon to jump to conclusions,
0:06:15 > 0:06:17and you need to find out what's going on.
0:06:17 > 0:06:18PHONE RINGS
0:06:18 > 0:06:20Sorry, I need to get this.
0:06:23 > 0:06:24Hello.
0:06:24 > 0:06:26Stop being an old fogey, and get yourself over here.
0:06:26 > 0:06:29Listen, it's really mad here at the moment.
0:06:29 > 0:06:31But I'm going mad here from boredom.
0:06:31 > 0:06:34Term hasn't started, no-one's around.
0:06:34 > 0:06:36Just say that you've got to go check out some major new talent.
0:06:36 > 0:06:39I guess that's not too far from the truth.
0:06:39 > 0:06:42Right. So...what are you waiting for?
0:06:42 > 0:06:46OK. I'll be there by 2.30.
0:06:48 > 0:06:50'I am the daughter of earth and water
0:06:50 > 0:06:52'And the nursling of the sky
0:06:52 > 0:06:56'I pass through the pores of the ocean and shores
0:06:56 > 0:06:58'I change but I cannot die.'
0:07:03 > 0:07:04Serena?
0:07:11 > 0:07:12HE SIGHS
0:07:13 > 0:07:14Luke?
0:07:16 > 0:07:20- What are you doing here? - I wanted an explanation.
0:07:20 > 0:07:22What have you done to your head?
0:07:22 > 0:07:24Oh... Blame the bathroom floor.
0:07:24 > 0:07:29- Are you all right? - Yeah, fine. Really. Back to you.
0:07:29 > 0:07:32Well, what did you mean by leaving Stella's things at my front door?
0:07:32 > 0:07:34That was completely bizarre.
0:07:34 > 0:07:36I explained in the note.
0:07:36 > 0:07:39I'm...I'm overwhelmed, OK?
0:07:39 > 0:07:42Stella needs you more than your books need you.
0:07:42 > 0:07:47She's been knocked sideways by what's happened, just as much as you have.
0:07:47 > 0:07:48She needs her dad.
0:07:49 > 0:07:53I know things must be awfully hard today, but
0:07:53 > 0:07:57- don't you want her around - today of all days?- No.
0:07:59 > 0:08:02No. I just can't be with her right now.
0:08:04 > 0:08:08It's disturbing to hear you talk about her like this.
0:08:08 > 0:08:09So cold.
0:08:09 > 0:08:11It's not like you.
0:08:12 > 0:08:17You realise she's told me more than once how strange you are around her?
0:08:17 > 0:08:19It's distressing her.
0:08:21 > 0:08:24- I don't know what she means. - Really?
0:08:24 > 0:08:27Look at you. You're washed out.
0:08:28 > 0:08:30Please tell me you've seen someone.
0:08:30 > 0:08:32I don't need to see a shrink.
0:08:32 > 0:08:35But you can't have a conversation with your books.
0:08:35 > 0:08:39They don't listen to you, they don't care about you.
0:08:39 > 0:08:40That's not where the answers lie.
0:08:40 > 0:08:43OK, look, I've listened to what you've got to say,
0:08:43 > 0:08:45but this really...really isn't the place to talk.
0:08:45 > 0:08:47So I'll phone you later. OK?
0:08:49 > 0:08:50Please.
0:08:50 > 0:08:52Just...just let me get on with things.
0:08:52 > 0:08:55Think about Stella.
0:08:55 > 0:08:57She has to come first.
0:09:03 > 0:09:05What are you doing here?
0:09:06 > 0:09:07I owe you an apology.
0:09:07 > 0:09:11Yes, you do. You should have told me what was going on.
0:09:11 > 0:09:13I'm so sorry, Oliver.
0:09:14 > 0:09:18I know it's not going to sound like much of an excuse, but
0:09:18 > 0:09:21I've never ended a relationship before.
0:09:21 > 0:09:23I've always been on the other side
0:09:23 > 0:09:27and I didn't really know how to do it.
0:09:27 > 0:09:29Didn't know how to do it?
0:09:29 > 0:09:30Oh, come on. You can do better than that.
0:09:30 > 0:09:34- What you were really doing was keeping your options open.- I wasn't.
0:09:34 > 0:09:37I've been a mess worrying about how to tell you.
0:09:37 > 0:09:41No, I'm sorry, Niamh. I'm not having you play the victim here, all right?
0:09:41 > 0:09:43I'm the one who fell for you, remember?
0:09:43 > 0:09:46And you led me on while apparently being interested in someone else.
0:09:46 > 0:09:47It wasn't like that.
0:09:47 > 0:09:49And what makes it worse is that, incredibly,
0:09:49 > 0:09:50this someone else was Al.
0:09:52 > 0:09:54I mean, what could you possibly see in him?
0:09:54 > 0:09:57Just taking good manners into consideration,
0:09:57 > 0:09:59he was so rude to you last night.
0:09:59 > 0:10:01You're right.
0:10:01 > 0:10:03I was really hurt and I said so.
0:10:03 > 0:10:05So you broke up with him?
0:10:05 > 0:10:07Not quite.
0:10:07 > 0:10:08I don't believe this.
0:10:08 > 0:10:09But I'm going to.
0:10:09 > 0:10:11Uh-huh. When?
0:10:11 > 0:10:13Today. When I get back.
0:10:15 > 0:10:17Niamh...
0:10:17 > 0:10:18be straight with him.
0:10:18 > 0:10:21I will. I promise I will.
0:10:23 > 0:10:30Look, I don't particularly wish to humiliate myself even further,
0:10:30 > 0:10:34but since you're breaking up with him,
0:10:34 > 0:10:37does that...? Might that mean...?
0:10:37 > 0:10:40- Oliver.- Just...yes or no?
0:10:42 > 0:10:43No.
0:10:48 > 0:10:50At least you were straight for once.
0:11:01 > 0:11:02Heston?
0:11:04 > 0:11:08Oh...hello. I'm here to see Oliver about a patient.
0:11:08 > 0:11:12It's a very...tricky case.
0:11:12 > 0:11:14Are you all right?
0:11:14 > 0:11:16Me? Yes.
0:11:16 > 0:11:19Yes. Everything's better now.
0:11:21 > 0:11:22I'll see you later.
0:11:24 > 0:11:27'She dwells with beauty
0:11:27 > 0:11:29'Beauty that must die
0:11:29 > 0:11:32'And joy, whose hand is ever at his lips
0:11:32 > 0:11:33'Bidding adieu.'
0:12:01 > 0:12:05Well, I've given your psychosis theory some consideration.
0:12:05 > 0:12:06Good.
0:12:06 > 0:12:08And I've come to the conclusion
0:12:08 > 0:12:11that it's utterly implausible.
0:12:11 > 0:12:12Hm.
0:12:14 > 0:12:17As a doctor, who surely believes in
0:12:17 > 0:12:20carefully assessing all possibilities,
0:12:20 > 0:12:22don't you feel this is a bit premature?
0:12:22 > 0:12:23No.
0:12:23 > 0:12:26Have you considered you may be in denial?
0:12:26 > 0:12:28One absurd theory follows another.
0:12:28 > 0:12:35I'm perfectly aware of my decision-making process,
0:12:35 > 0:12:37which you fail to understand.
0:12:38 > 0:12:42I don't think anyone can be truly objective about their own decisions.
0:12:42 > 0:12:47However, since you're finding this all so absurd,
0:12:47 > 0:12:50- would you mind humouring me a little further?- In what way?
0:12:50 > 0:12:52By taking a brief questionnaire.
0:12:52 > 0:12:54What sort of questionnaire?
0:12:56 > 0:12:59That's not me in denial. I'm genuinely curious.
0:12:59 > 0:13:02It follows a familiar format, you know the kind of thing.
0:13:02 > 0:13:04I ask some straightforward questions and
0:13:04 > 0:13:08you answer by assigning a number from one to nine to each question.
0:13:08 > 0:13:12One being "I strongly disagree", nine being "I strongly agree".
0:13:14 > 0:13:16It's proven to give a highly accurate reading
0:13:16 > 0:13:18on denial and other neuroses.
0:13:18 > 0:13:21All right. Let's put this to bed once and for all.
0:13:27 > 0:13:29Dad? Where are you going?
0:13:35 > 0:13:36Always tell me the truth.
0:13:36 > 0:13:38Of course.
0:13:38 > 0:13:40Was it you? Outside the library just now?
0:13:42 > 0:13:45You promised me you wouldn't lie so I'm going to ask you again.
0:13:45 > 0:13:47Was it you outside the library?
0:13:47 > 0:13:49No.
0:13:49 > 0:13:52You're lying, Stella. Tell me the truth.
0:13:52 > 0:13:55- Tell me the truth. - I am! I am telling the truth.
0:13:55 > 0:13:59I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm just...not myself.
0:13:59 > 0:14:00What on earth are you doing?
0:14:00 > 0:14:04- I told her I'm sorry. - Well, it's not good enough.
0:14:04 > 0:14:06Your weird behaviour is traumatising her.
0:14:06 > 0:14:09You need to give her an explanation, and now.
0:14:09 > 0:14:12Why did you leave my bag at Gran's, Dad?
0:14:12 > 0:14:15I don't understand what that means.
0:14:15 > 0:14:17- Well, are you going to tell her? - I said...
0:14:20 > 0:14:23I just need time to myself.
0:14:23 > 0:14:25How much time?
0:14:25 > 0:14:27How much time?
0:14:27 > 0:14:29I don't know.
0:14:29 > 0:14:33Luke, if you won't let us in, we can't help you.
0:14:33 > 0:14:36But I beg of you, go and talk to someone who can.
0:14:36 > 0:14:39I mean an expert, a professional.
0:14:39 > 0:14:40Please do it, Dad.
0:14:43 > 0:14:48Come on, Stella. Let's you and I go and do something fun this evening.
0:14:55 > 0:14:56Hola.
0:14:56 > 0:14:59Well, talk about playing hard to get.
0:15:03 > 0:15:04Well, hello.
0:15:04 > 0:15:06Thought we should pick up where we left off.
0:15:06 > 0:15:08Definitely.
0:15:08 > 0:15:09Vodka?
0:15:09 > 0:15:11Sure.
0:15:11 > 0:15:12I'd have put on some music
0:15:12 > 0:15:14but I didn't want to choose anything embarrassing.
0:15:14 > 0:15:16I'm sure you've got great taste.
0:15:20 > 0:15:22The Vaccines - now we're talking.
0:15:22 > 0:15:26- You know them?- Know them? I nearly signed them.- Really?
0:15:26 > 0:15:28Yeah. They were a bit raw back then so I didn't bother.
0:15:28 > 0:15:30- What're they like? - Good laugh, actually.
0:15:30 > 0:15:32Got totally hammered this one time.
0:15:32 > 0:15:36Started off in a houseboat, took a spin on the Millennium Wheel,
0:15:36 > 0:15:38ended up in some dive in Soho.
0:15:38 > 0:15:40Happy days.
0:15:43 > 0:15:47"Doctors never really understand what is wrong with me."
0:15:48 > 0:15:51- Is that one of the questions?- Mm.
0:15:51 > 0:15:52Are you trying to trick me?
0:15:52 > 0:15:56No. These questions may touch a nerve but they're not tricks.
0:15:56 > 0:15:58So what's your answer?
0:15:58 > 0:15:59Well, one, of course.
0:16:00 > 0:16:02- What is it?- So...
0:16:02 > 0:16:06your answer is, "I strongly disagree," to the statement,
0:16:06 > 0:16:09- "Doctors never really understand what is wrong with me."- Correct.
0:16:11 > 0:16:13OK. One it is.
0:16:16 > 0:16:17Hello.
0:16:20 > 0:16:21Have you got a moment?
0:16:21 > 0:16:25Yeah, I wanted to speak to you earlier, but you weren't here.
0:16:25 > 0:16:26I had to be somewhere.
0:16:26 > 0:16:28Now you're back, I just...
0:16:28 > 0:16:32I need to apologise for last night.
0:16:32 > 0:16:36It's another disastrous date to add to that ever-growing pile...
0:16:39 > 0:16:40What is it?
0:16:40 > 0:16:44All this apologising, doesn't it tell you something?
0:16:44 > 0:16:48That my foot is considerably closer to my mouth than it ought to be.
0:16:48 > 0:16:51Seriously. It's a sign that there's something wrong.
0:16:51 > 0:16:53This isn't working.
0:16:55 > 0:16:56This.
0:16:56 > 0:16:57Us.
0:16:59 > 0:17:01"I'm usually able to see the funny side
0:17:01 > 0:17:03"of an otherwise painful predicament."
0:17:03 > 0:17:06These questions get more ridiculous by the minute.
0:17:06 > 0:17:08- Do you want to stop?- No.
0:17:08 > 0:17:10Then you'll say I'm in denial.
0:17:10 > 0:17:14I'm not going to let the test intimidate me. So put nine.
0:17:14 > 0:17:17So you strongly agree with the statement,
0:17:17 > 0:17:19"I'm usually able to see the funny side
0:17:19 > 0:17:21- "of an otherwise painful predicament."- Mm.
0:17:21 > 0:17:24Maybe not right now but otherwise, yes.
0:17:28 > 0:17:29You seem tense.
0:17:29 > 0:17:31I'm not.
0:17:31 > 0:17:32And that's not denial.
0:17:39 > 0:17:40I'm sorry.
0:17:41 > 0:17:43Well, I knew it was too good to be true.
0:17:45 > 0:17:46I was just kidding myself as usual.
0:17:46 > 0:17:48So was I.
0:17:49 > 0:17:53But I mean it when I say that, for a while there,
0:17:53 > 0:17:56I really thought it could go somewhere.
0:17:56 > 0:17:57And I really am sorry.
0:17:59 > 0:18:01It's OK.
0:18:01 > 0:18:04I'd have broken up with myself after last night.
0:18:04 > 0:18:05So no hard feelings?
0:18:05 > 0:18:08No. No hard feelings.
0:18:08 > 0:18:10Thank you for being straight with me.
0:18:10 > 0:18:11SHE SIGHS
0:18:13 > 0:18:16You've a lot going for you, Al.
0:18:16 > 0:18:17I hope you know that.
0:18:19 > 0:18:20Too kind.
0:18:29 > 0:18:32OK, just take a seat and try to relax.
0:18:32 > 0:18:33Can I get you some water?
0:18:33 > 0:18:35No. Can't you just give me something
0:18:35 > 0:18:38so I can help get myself together, please?
0:18:38 > 0:18:41Well, I'm not a doctor so I can't prescribe the sort of drugs that
0:18:41 > 0:18:45you mean but this change of mood might be what I warned you about.
0:18:45 > 0:18:47I'll just go and fetch Dr Granger.
0:18:51 > 0:18:53Yeah, so I said to Lorde, I said, "Come on, love, don't you think
0:18:53 > 0:18:58"it's time you thought about having a new look? What about short hair?"
0:18:58 > 0:19:01Wow. What did she say?
0:19:01 > 0:19:05She was like, "Pixie cut, interesting idea. I'll think about it."
0:19:05 > 0:19:07It's crazy you know her.
0:19:07 > 0:19:11Yeah, it's a small world, the biz, when you're on the inside.
0:19:11 > 0:19:13- You hungry?- Ravenous.
0:19:13 > 0:19:16I haven't got that much. Just, like, peanut butter, crackers,
0:19:16 > 0:19:17- that kind of thing.- That's fine.
0:19:17 > 0:19:20Those business lunches, rich food - way over it.
0:19:21 > 0:19:23So...
0:19:23 > 0:19:25why Letherbridge? Why here?
0:19:25 > 0:19:27We'll, I've still got my pad in London but it gives me
0:19:27 > 0:19:29a much more central base.
0:19:29 > 0:19:32I can go up to Birmingham, down to Oxford.
0:19:32 > 0:19:36Means you can check out the talent, wherever, whenever, right?
0:19:36 > 0:19:39Yeah, I can find the best local talent.
0:19:41 > 0:19:42Found anyone local recently?
0:19:44 > 0:19:47- Yeah, I have, actually.- I thought so.
0:19:51 > 0:19:53Mandy was saying you've become highly agitated
0:19:53 > 0:19:57- since she saw you this morning.- Yes.
0:19:57 > 0:20:00What do you think kicked that off?
0:20:00 > 0:20:03I thought I saw my wife and daughter outside the library.
0:20:03 > 0:20:05OK. And what's odd about that?
0:20:08 > 0:20:11As far as seeing my daughter's concerned, nothing.
0:20:11 > 0:20:13But seeing my wife...
0:20:14 > 0:20:15Yes?
0:20:16 > 0:20:18As for seeing my wife...
0:20:19 > 0:20:21Luke?
0:20:21 > 0:20:23She...
0:20:23 > 0:20:25She's passed away, hasn't she?
0:20:29 > 0:20:34Nine months ago, I woke up in bed and Serena was...
0:20:34 > 0:20:38They said it was instantaneous. Heart defect.
0:20:38 > 0:20:41I'm so sorry.
0:20:41 > 0:20:44You said you saw her today with your daughter?
0:20:44 > 0:20:48I was at the library window, they were outside,
0:20:48 > 0:20:51and then it was like they disappeared.
0:20:51 > 0:20:54- Anything like that ever happened before?- No.
0:20:54 > 0:20:57OK, well, there don't seem to be any physical signs
0:20:57 > 0:21:00indicating a concussion.
0:21:00 > 0:21:01So what's wrong with me?
0:21:01 > 0:21:04It could be stress related. Are you getting proper rest?
0:21:04 > 0:21:06Doesn't sound like it.
0:21:06 > 0:21:08What've you been doing?
0:21:08 > 0:21:11Burning a ton of midnight oil, I suppose.
0:21:11 > 0:21:13I'm researching and writing a book.
0:21:13 > 0:21:17Good for you. But possibly to avoid thinking about what happened?
0:21:17 > 0:21:18Maybe.
0:21:18 > 0:21:21Overwork and stress can make our minds play tricks on us.
0:21:21 > 0:21:25Still, any ideas why the hallucinations are happening today?
0:21:25 > 0:21:28It's our wedding anniversary.
0:21:28 > 0:21:30Right. That must be terribly hard.
0:21:30 > 0:21:35Still...facing up to things, talking about them, can be
0:21:35 > 0:21:37better in the long run than avoiding them.
0:21:37 > 0:21:39Have you seen a counsellor or therapist?
0:21:39 > 0:21:41No, not yet.
0:21:41 > 0:21:43OK, well, I can highly recommend Oliver Clarke.
0:21:43 > 0:21:45He's helped a lot of people that I know.
0:21:45 > 0:21:46Reception can give you his number.
0:21:46 > 0:21:50And, please, seriously consider doing that.
0:21:50 > 0:21:52I'll leave you in Nurse Marquez's capable hands,
0:21:52 > 0:21:55and, once again, sorry to hear about everything.
0:21:55 > 0:21:57- Thank you, Doctor.- Thanks, Daniel.
0:22:00 > 0:22:03I hope you take his advice.
0:22:03 > 0:22:06And what about your daughter? Stella, isn't it?
0:22:06 > 0:22:07I mean, how's she coping?
0:22:09 > 0:22:12In the circumstances, she is coping very well.
0:22:12 > 0:22:14The problem is when I'm with her.
0:22:14 > 0:22:16What do you mean?
0:22:16 > 0:22:19It's like...she's a constant reminder of what I've lost.
0:22:19 > 0:22:21How come?
0:22:22 > 0:22:24She's the spitting image of my wife.
0:22:25 > 0:22:30Well, maybe you could see that as a wonderful thing.
0:22:30 > 0:22:32You know, your wife lives on.
0:22:32 > 0:22:34A part of her is always there.
0:22:34 > 0:22:36But that's the hard part.
0:22:37 > 0:22:42This is your daughter, Luke. You've got to focus on what you have
0:22:42 > 0:22:45and not what you've lost.
0:22:45 > 0:22:47Make today a special day for her, eh?
0:23:17 > 0:23:19Hiya, Mum. It's me.
0:23:19 > 0:23:22Well, you passed with flying colours.
0:23:22 > 0:23:26Excellent. So we can dismiss all this psychosis nonsense?
0:23:26 > 0:23:28- No.- Why not?
0:23:28 > 0:23:31Heston, I don't believe you answered the questions honestly.
0:23:31 > 0:23:34You just answered to pass the test.
0:23:34 > 0:23:36Every time you should have answered with a one
0:23:36 > 0:23:39you answered with a nine, and vice versa.
0:23:39 > 0:23:42It seems to me such behaviour screams denial and neurosis.
0:23:42 > 0:23:43Well, that's absurd.
0:23:43 > 0:23:45Hm, more like ironic.
0:23:45 > 0:23:46Ironic?
0:23:46 > 0:23:48That you're in denial about being in denial.
0:23:51 > 0:23:53Losing your sense of humour is another sign.
0:23:53 > 0:23:55Well, this is no time for wisecracks.
0:23:55 > 0:23:57I'm not trying to make jokes at your expense.
0:23:57 > 0:24:00In fact, I'm hugely sympathetic to your situation.
0:24:00 > 0:24:01Really?
0:24:01 > 0:24:04Yes, I am well acquainted with denial, having recently gone
0:24:04 > 0:24:06through the trauma of divorce.
0:24:09 > 0:24:12I thought there was something at the core of my marriage
0:24:12 > 0:24:15that was unbreakable
0:24:15 > 0:24:17and to discover that that was not the case
0:24:17 > 0:24:19was impossible for me to grasp.
0:24:19 > 0:24:23So, for a long time, I denied it...vigorously.
0:24:25 > 0:24:28And, not content to stop there,
0:24:28 > 0:24:32I now seem to be denying to myself how unrealistic it is
0:24:32 > 0:24:36to project all my hopes for the future onto a woman I barely know.
0:24:37 > 0:24:39So...
0:24:39 > 0:24:42I regard myself as an Olympic champion of denial.
0:24:45 > 0:24:48Which is why I know exactly what you're going through.
0:24:50 > 0:24:51Really, I do.
0:24:54 > 0:24:57I may owe you an apology.
0:25:03 > 0:25:07- I'm sorry.- Don't worry, Dad. I'm just glad to be back.
0:25:07 > 0:25:08HE CHUCKLES
0:25:09 > 0:25:12Hey, I've got a project for us.
0:25:21 > 0:25:23Chin up a little bit.
0:25:23 > 0:25:26Hold up your arm a bit. Brilliant.
0:25:26 > 0:25:28What are you up to, Dad?
0:25:28 > 0:25:30You'll see.
0:25:30 > 0:25:32HE CHUCKLES
0:25:32 > 0:25:33Brilliant.
0:25:36 > 0:25:39'I silently laugh at my own cenotaph
0:25:39 > 0:25:41'And out of the caverns of rain
0:25:41 > 0:25:43'Like a child from the womb
0:25:43 > 0:25:45'Like a ghost from a tomb
0:25:45 > 0:25:47'I arise and unbuild it again.'
0:25:55 > 0:25:59I want you to understand, denial is a very common reaction to
0:25:59 > 0:26:03a situation that's too painful to absorb.
0:26:04 > 0:26:06There's no shame in it.
0:26:08 > 0:26:10By the way, after your apology,
0:26:10 > 0:26:13I feel I should apologise to you for bringing my life
0:26:13 > 0:26:16into the consulting room. It was very unprofessional of me.
0:26:16 > 0:26:18No apology required.
0:26:18 > 0:26:21It may not follow the professional rule book but...
0:26:23 > 0:26:25..perhaps...
0:26:25 > 0:26:27Oh, I don't know.
0:26:29 > 0:26:30What?
0:26:32 > 0:26:36Certain things that happened to me I haven't properly...
0:26:38 > 0:26:40..processed...
0:26:42 > 0:26:43..taken on board.
0:26:46 > 0:26:48Is this some sort of epiphany?
0:26:48 > 0:26:49I wouldn't call it that.
0:26:49 > 0:26:52But does that mean you're ready for another session?
0:26:57 > 0:26:58Well?
0:26:58 > 0:27:00Yes.
0:27:00 > 0:27:02That's probably a good idea.
0:27:07 > 0:27:09- You really like her, don't you? - Yeah.
0:27:09 > 0:27:12Don't look so scared. I'm really pleased for you.
0:27:12 > 0:27:15Let me help you. It's why you asked me to come.
0:27:15 > 0:27:17What are you doing in there?
0:27:17 > 0:27:19Just listen, OK? I'm hiding.
0:27:19 > 0:27:22- You don't think? - I don't know what to think!
0:27:23 > 0:27:24Wait a minute.
0:27:24 > 0:27:26Archie!
0:27:26 > 0:27:28- Arch... Archie! - HE SIGHS