0:00:27 > 0:00:29That's better.
0:00:29 > 0:00:30Much thanks.
0:00:36 > 0:00:37He's doing very well.
0:00:37 > 0:00:40You can take him home when he's finished his breakfast.
0:00:40 > 0:00:42What? Sorry, today?!
0:00:42 > 0:00:44Excellent news!
0:00:44 > 0:00:46His muscles haven't healed from the operation.
0:00:46 > 0:00:48It's still very painful when he stands.
0:00:48 > 0:00:51He shouldn't be walking much more than a few minutes a day.
0:00:51 > 0:00:53So, make sure he's got plenty of magazines
0:00:53 > 0:00:55and the remote before you go out, all right?
0:00:55 > 0:00:58I'll take time off, but I can't be with him round the clock
0:00:58 > 0:01:00and I'm not a physio. He's just not strong enough yet.
0:01:00 > 0:01:02His leg gives way without any notice,
0:01:02 > 0:01:04and there's nothing I can do to stop him falling again.
0:01:04 > 0:01:07He needs building up, and I can't do that for him.
0:01:07 > 0:01:09He can stand with assistance,
0:01:09 > 0:01:11so he can be discharged.
0:01:13 > 0:01:14Yes, I'm here, thank you.
0:01:14 > 0:01:16It's not safe.
0:01:17 > 0:01:19Right, OK.
0:01:22 > 0:01:23SHE SIGHS
0:01:23 > 0:01:27Blimey, you're early! Ran out of cornflakes?
0:01:27 > 0:01:28Good, you're still here.
0:01:28 > 0:01:31I considered the Savoy, but you have to book, apparently...
0:01:31 > 0:01:32I mean, you're still in bed.
0:01:32 > 0:01:35I decided to leave my run till the afternoon(!)
0:01:35 > 0:01:37Morticia says I can take you home.
0:01:38 > 0:01:39Oh.
0:01:39 > 0:01:42Now, is it?
0:01:42 > 0:01:44Righto. I'd best get a shift on.
0:01:44 > 0:01:46You're going nowhere, Dad.
0:01:46 > 0:01:47Stay there, don't get dressed.
0:01:47 > 0:01:50Possession is nine tenths of the law.
0:01:50 > 0:01:54- Squatters' rights, and all that? - Too right! I'm going to fix this.
0:01:55 > 0:01:57FOOTSTEPS RETREAT
0:01:59 > 0:02:01It's not going to work.
0:02:01 > 0:02:03DOOR OPENS
0:02:03 > 0:02:08- Ah, good morning. I hear you're going away for the weekend.- Yes.
0:02:08 > 0:02:10It is important to stay in touch with friends.
0:02:10 > 0:02:12What about you, have you got any plans?
0:02:12 > 0:02:16Well, I have promised to go to the women's prayer breakfast tomorrow.
0:02:16 > 0:02:18I've not attended in some time.
0:02:18 > 0:02:20Sounds...fun.
0:02:20 > 0:02:25Indeed. Fellowship is always heartier over a bacon sandwich.
0:02:25 > 0:02:27Ain't that the truth! See you later.
0:02:29 > 0:02:30What's wrong?
0:02:30 > 0:02:32SHE SIGHS
0:02:34 > 0:02:36Miss Hill will be there.
0:02:36 > 0:02:39The Reverend Merchant thinks it will be good
0:02:39 > 0:02:43for us to spend some time together in a supportive environment.
0:02:43 > 0:02:44She is right, of course.
0:02:46 > 0:02:48I just wish I hadn't agreed to go.
0:02:49 > 0:02:50If you want to...
0:02:50 > 0:02:54That is not necessary. But, thank you, Dr Clay.
0:02:59 > 0:03:00Mrs Tembe!
0:03:01 > 0:03:04- Yes, Mr Bellamy.- Can I have a word?
0:03:04 > 0:03:07The way we invite people for our over-45s check-up -
0:03:07 > 0:03:10I was wondering if there's any way we can increase the take-up?
0:03:10 > 0:03:12I really could not say.
0:03:12 > 0:03:15Do you think people would be offended
0:03:15 > 0:03:17if they received specific appointments?
0:03:17 > 0:03:20Or do you think it would push up the no-shows?
0:03:20 > 0:03:22I will do whatever is asked of me.
0:03:22 > 0:03:25Yes, well, just wanted your opinion. You, more than anybody,
0:03:25 > 0:03:28have a direct interface across our whole user profile.
0:03:30 > 0:03:36I have always found the process here has been perfectly acceptable.
0:03:36 > 0:03:40There is certainty in a good system.
0:03:40 > 0:03:42Right.
0:03:42 > 0:03:44SHE SIGHS
0:03:48 > 0:03:52- All set for the dinner tonight? - You bet. Thanks for asking me, Reg.
0:03:52 > 0:03:55It doesn't have to be a big speech, just a few appropriate words.
0:03:55 > 0:03:59Proposing the Toast To Fallen Comrades is the main thing.
0:03:59 > 0:04:02I'm on it. I can't tell you what a privilege it is, Reg.
0:04:02 > 0:04:07- Especially this year, with the centenary.- Indeed. Lest we forget.
0:04:07 > 0:04:09The ones we lost then, and all the others since.
0:04:10 > 0:04:12I want to do their memory proud.
0:04:12 > 0:04:16You've just got to be yourself and you can't fail to honour them.
0:04:16 > 0:04:20Must dash. Got to go and get the floral arrangements. See you later.
0:04:26 > 0:04:29- Can I help you?- Hi. I'd like to register my father here, please.
0:04:29 > 0:04:33- Kenneth Jewell.- Is he here?- No. It's OK, I've got his permission.
0:04:33 > 0:04:36I am sure. But he has to attend in person.
0:04:36 > 0:04:38Just ask him to drop in at his convenience
0:04:38 > 0:04:41and we will take him through the application.
0:04:41 > 0:04:46- For pity's sake! All this needless bureaucracy!- Far from it.
0:04:46 > 0:04:49The nurse will go through his medical history.
0:04:49 > 0:04:52She will check blood pressure, his cholesterol,
0:04:52 > 0:04:55his BMI, which might not have been checked for a while.
0:04:55 > 0:04:57She can offer health tips
0:04:57 > 0:04:59and answer any questions.
0:04:59 > 0:05:02It is an excellent way for the practice and new patients
0:05:02 > 0:05:04to get to know each other.
0:05:04 > 0:05:06That's no use to me. I need him registered now.
0:05:07 > 0:05:11Miss Jewell, are you registered here?
0:05:11 > 0:05:15Well, no. I live in Orton Harcourt. I'm with the practice there.
0:05:15 > 0:05:18- And does your father live with you? - Yes. He's come to live with me.
0:05:18 > 0:05:21Orton Harcourt? A beautiful spot.
0:05:21 > 0:05:23Unfortunately, that's out of our catchment area.
0:05:25 > 0:05:26Would it not be better
0:05:26 > 0:05:30for your father to be registered at your surgery?
0:05:30 > 0:05:32Well, obviously, I'd much prefer that,
0:05:32 > 0:05:34but it has to be a practice in Letherbridge.
0:05:34 > 0:05:37Well, I am sorry, but we cannot register him here.
0:05:37 > 0:05:39All these ridiculous rules!
0:05:39 > 0:05:41Well, it's about logistics - home visits.
0:05:41 > 0:05:45Orton Harcourt is quite far out. It's on the other side.
0:05:45 > 0:05:47- We can't go zigzagging around the area.- Red tape!
0:05:47 > 0:05:49It comes down to patient care.
0:05:49 > 0:05:52By using our resources efficiently, we can provide the best service
0:05:52 > 0:05:55- available to the patients we do treat.- And stuff the rest!
0:06:01 > 0:06:04Why? She's going to be 30 for a whole year.
0:06:04 > 0:06:06Why do you have to be there for the exact moment she turns?
0:06:06 > 0:06:09I don't want to go, believe me. Especially now.
0:06:09 > 0:06:12But I might not make it to MY next birthday if I don't go to this party.
0:06:12 > 0:06:15- Some friend(!) - We've been planning it for ever.
0:06:15 > 0:06:20- Skype! Skype her.- You can't Skype the kind of bash we've got planned.
0:06:20 > 0:06:23And you can't Skype Guinness that tastes like Guinness.
0:06:23 > 0:06:27- Ah. Well, in that case, you must go.- I must go.
0:06:27 > 0:06:29You going to miss me?
0:06:29 > 0:06:33Me? No, I won't miss you. I've got myself some plans.
0:06:33 > 0:06:37- Like what?- I'm going to get my eyebrows...streaked.
0:06:37 > 0:06:40I thought they needed doing!
0:06:40 > 0:06:43And I might alphabetise my socks.
0:06:43 > 0:06:45- Without me? - HE CHUCKLES
0:06:45 > 0:06:46SHE GROANS
0:06:53 > 0:06:57They need the bed. How was I supposed to argue with that?
0:06:57 > 0:06:59It was worth a try.
0:06:59 > 0:07:02I'm fine. I can walk to the car park.
0:07:02 > 0:07:06- Don't be silly, Dad. Just get in. - I don't want a fuss...- Come on.
0:07:06 > 0:07:08- HE GROANS - Steady.
0:07:14 > 0:07:18- Safe journey. Enjoy the party. - Thank you.
0:07:18 > 0:07:19Bye!
0:07:19 > 0:07:21Oh, let me...
0:07:27 > 0:07:30- Mr Jewell? - My reputation precedes me!
0:07:30 > 0:07:33- Are you all right?- Hardly.
0:07:33 > 0:07:36He broke his left thigh six weeks ago and needed surgery.
0:07:36 > 0:07:39Then he fell badly on his right hip the night before last.
0:07:39 > 0:07:41I was trying to restore my balance.
0:07:41 > 0:07:44- You said you needed him in person. Well, here he is.- Me?
0:07:44 > 0:07:48No, no, I did not intend... I did not realise...
0:07:48 > 0:07:52I thought we made it clear that he cannot register here.
0:07:52 > 0:07:53Mr Hyde, please.
0:07:53 > 0:07:56Oh, yes, sorry. Mr Hyde, can you go through?
0:07:56 > 0:07:59- I am so sorry, Dr Clay. - No problem.
0:07:59 > 0:08:01What about my dad?
0:08:01 > 0:08:04We're not leaving until this practice has signed him up.
0:08:04 > 0:08:07What's going on? Your father, I presume?
0:08:07 > 0:08:12- I suspect that Mr Jewell should be in hospital.- You would think!
0:08:19 > 0:08:22Anyone can see he should never have been discharged in this state.
0:08:22 > 0:08:24The physios know what they're doing.
0:08:24 > 0:08:28They have an excellent rehab gym at St Phil's. It's state of the art.
0:08:28 > 0:08:30They wouldn't release him if he wasn't ready.
0:08:30 > 0:08:32He wasn't eligible for the rehab ward.
0:08:32 > 0:08:34You only get a place there if you're with a GP
0:08:34 > 0:08:36who's a member of the local authority.
0:08:36 > 0:08:38It took a lot of digging to find that out!
0:08:38 > 0:08:40Like a terrier with a bone, she is.
0:08:40 > 0:08:43Even a consultant didn't understand why her repeated requests
0:08:43 > 0:08:47to transfer him to rehab kept getting turned down.
0:08:47 > 0:08:51- Right.- Patients with a GP outside Letherbridge stay in critical care
0:08:51 > 0:08:53then they're discharged as soon as they can stand.
0:08:53 > 0:08:56Well, that doesn't make sense. The rehab ward is much cheaper!
0:08:56 > 0:08:59And it's half empty. Everyone agrees it makes no sense
0:08:59 > 0:09:02but no-one can do anything about it.
0:09:02 > 0:09:04So, Dad fell and hurt his hip
0:09:04 > 0:09:06within a couple of days of being discharged.
0:09:06 > 0:09:10I can look after him for some of the time when he's at home
0:09:10 > 0:09:13but he's not going to make a full recovery
0:09:13 > 0:09:14unless he gets on that ward.
0:09:14 > 0:09:16Well, you are entitled to complain
0:09:16 > 0:09:19if a discharge was too early and the condition came back.
0:09:19 > 0:09:21It's a new fall and a new injury,
0:09:21 > 0:09:23it doesn't count as a relapse.
0:09:23 > 0:09:27It's disgraceful. After all he's done for this country!
0:09:27 > 0:09:30Dad left school at 14 and worked well into his 70s.
0:09:30 > 0:09:31Loads of them did.
0:09:31 > 0:09:32His generation have paid
0:09:32 > 0:09:35more tax and national insurance than any of us.
0:09:35 > 0:09:40- His money supported this country. - That explains the recession.
0:09:40 > 0:09:43Look, I've spent the whole morning trekking round.
0:09:44 > 0:09:47Some said there's no space, others say Dad would require
0:09:47 > 0:09:51more attention than they can provide, given the distance.
0:09:51 > 0:09:54Some of these practices are more suitable than The Mill.
0:09:56 > 0:09:58Look here.
0:09:58 > 0:10:00I think you should try these again.
0:10:00 > 0:10:03I'll back you up with a letter.
0:10:03 > 0:10:05Come on, love. This is pointless.
0:10:06 > 0:10:08CRASHING, HE GROANS
0:10:08 > 0:10:11Oh, God! Oh...
0:10:11 > 0:10:13Can we get a doctor in here?!
0:10:13 > 0:10:15Oh, Dad! I'm sorry!
0:10:15 > 0:10:17I tried!
0:10:17 > 0:10:19Stay where you are.
0:10:19 > 0:10:22Try not to move.
0:10:22 > 0:10:24Where does it hurt exactly?
0:10:24 > 0:10:27My hip.
0:10:27 > 0:10:29Call an ambulance.
0:10:29 > 0:10:31SHE SOBS
0:10:33 > 0:10:35Yes...
0:10:35 > 0:10:36Thank you.
0:10:37 > 0:10:39The ambulance is on its way!
0:10:41 > 0:10:43That poor man.
0:10:43 > 0:10:44This is all my fault.
0:10:44 > 0:10:46Right, come on, get your coat.
0:10:48 > 0:10:49Come on.
0:10:52 > 0:10:55It's wrong. It's so wrong.
0:10:55 > 0:10:56Back in the last hospital,
0:10:56 > 0:11:00they dump old people in the geriatric ward. No physio, no OT.
0:11:01 > 0:11:04Stuck in hospital beds with their muscles wasting away.
0:11:04 > 0:11:06He'll be looked after at St Phil's, at least.
0:11:06 > 0:11:09For a day or two, till they chuck him out again.
0:11:10 > 0:11:11I don't want to be a burden.
0:11:11 > 0:11:13I don't need to be registered in Letherbridge
0:11:13 > 0:11:16for longer than he needs on the rehab ward.
0:11:16 > 0:11:18But I do think he deserves the service
0:11:18 > 0:11:19he's worked for all his life.
0:11:20 > 0:11:23There's a whole generation in danger of being forgotten.
0:11:23 > 0:11:26Your father won't be forgotten.
0:11:26 > 0:11:28He'll be registered with a GP in Letherbridge
0:11:28 > 0:11:31before he's due for discharge. You have my word.
0:11:40 > 0:11:42GENTEEL CONVERSATION IN BACKGROUND
0:11:43 > 0:11:49Look, I know this thing with Josh really made you question yourself.
0:11:49 > 0:11:52There is no question in my mind, Dr Clay.
0:11:52 > 0:11:54Or in anyone else's, I am certain.
0:11:56 > 0:11:59That's not true. People really respect you.
0:11:59 > 0:12:03I exposed that young woman to great danger.
0:12:03 > 0:12:05He lied to her, and to the vicar.
0:12:05 > 0:12:08- You have every right to be angry with him.- I am.
0:12:09 > 0:12:11I was.
0:12:12 > 0:12:14We all make mistakes, OK?
0:12:14 > 0:12:17You can't let it crush your confidence.
0:12:17 > 0:12:19Perhaps mine needed to be crushed.
0:12:27 > 0:12:29What do you think of those new hybrids?
0:12:32 > 0:12:36- What, car?- Yeah. I was thinking of getting a new one.
0:12:38 > 0:12:39Really?
0:12:39 > 0:12:42Your timing is interesting.
0:12:42 > 0:12:44We are on the cusp of a new era.
0:12:44 > 0:12:47Well, many innovations have not been tried and tested.
0:12:47 > 0:12:52It would be prudent to be fully informed before proceeding.
0:12:53 > 0:12:54So, what do you reckon?
0:12:54 > 0:12:55What?
0:12:55 > 0:12:57Oh, really?
0:12:59 > 0:13:00Well, thank you, Dr Clay.
0:13:00 > 0:13:03It would be a privilege to be your advisor on such a matter.
0:13:05 > 0:13:07I'm not... I'm just thinking, it was an idea.
0:13:07 > 0:13:10I'm not sure when I'm going to be buying it.
0:13:10 > 0:13:15There are a number of sporty cars, exploring the hybrid option.
0:13:15 > 0:13:19But, sadly, to date these are mostly pre-prototypes.
0:13:19 > 0:13:23There are not many cars that I would wholeheartedly recommend.
0:13:23 > 0:13:26For now, it is safer to stay a petrol-head.
0:13:26 > 0:13:27That is just my humble opinion.
0:13:32 > 0:13:34Go on, Brian.
0:13:34 > 0:13:37You're easily the closest in the Letherbridge authority.
0:13:37 > 0:13:40Yes, yes, I know that, but...
0:13:42 > 0:13:45I don't want to have to tell you how to run your own business but...
0:13:45 > 0:13:48Full? I'm surprised you have any patients at all
0:13:48 > 0:13:50if you talk to people like that.
0:13:50 > 0:13:54Hello? Oh, really? Well, I think you should change your website.
0:13:54 > 0:13:58Because it still says here you're a warm and friendly practice,
0:13:58 > 0:14:01putting patients at the heart of all you do!
0:14:02 > 0:14:04Yeah...
0:14:04 > 0:14:05HE CHUCKLES
0:14:05 > 0:14:07You have no remit to?
0:14:07 > 0:14:09The NHS Charter expressly states...
0:14:11 > 0:14:13Might I remind you that you are talking to
0:14:13 > 0:14:15a former chair of the Letherbridge PCT?
0:14:19 > 0:14:21Well, that was uncalled for.
0:14:21 > 0:14:22Any news?
0:14:22 > 0:14:25Oh, yes.
0:14:25 > 0:14:28No breaks, just bruising. They're keeping him in overnight.
0:14:28 > 0:14:31- That's big of them(!) - What's wrong with these people?
0:14:31 > 0:14:33Why can't they bend their petty rules?
0:14:33 > 0:14:36I don't know. Why can't YOU bend YOUR petty rules?
0:14:36 > 0:14:38Because we're furthest away.
0:14:38 > 0:14:41That rural constituency is completely the other side of town.
0:14:41 > 0:14:43Oh, spoil your map, would it?
0:14:43 > 0:14:45One lonely solitary, little pin, all by itself.
0:14:45 > 0:14:47It's about stewardship of resources.
0:14:47 > 0:14:51- We have responsibilities, we're accountable.- For what, exactly?
0:14:55 > 0:14:58Yes. Why don't we?
0:14:58 > 0:15:01No. Seriously?
0:15:01 > 0:15:04Well, what a change is here!
0:15:04 > 0:15:08You're really going to trample your hallowed protocols underfoot?
0:15:08 > 0:15:12I never thought I'd see the day! I've got to get a load of this.
0:15:12 > 0:15:15Thank you, Alastair. Your presence will not be required.
0:15:19 > 0:15:22You? I'm hearing this from YOU?
0:15:22 > 0:15:26What are we, a bank? Only willing to lend to people who don't need it?
0:15:26 > 0:15:29What ever happened to values like compassion and service
0:15:29 > 0:15:31over bureaucracy and bean counting?
0:15:31 > 0:15:34We're the doctors. Every time we come to you with our hearts on our sleeves,
0:15:34 > 0:15:36you just stamp it "denied" and double-shred it.
0:15:36 > 0:15:39Emotive imagery, but I get your point.
0:15:39 > 0:15:40What about that patient of Daniel's?
0:15:40 > 0:15:42The diabetic woman with Alzheimer's.
0:15:42 > 0:15:45Mandy wanted to make two visits a day while the daughter was in New York,
0:15:45 > 0:15:48so she wouldn't need to go into respite care.
0:15:48 > 0:15:50- All right, we'll take a look at Mandy's schedule.- Oh?
0:15:50 > 0:15:54And what about Daniel's patient? The little boy, Sam Hill.
0:15:54 > 0:15:56With the new treatment, and all the training,
0:15:56 > 0:15:59- expensive new equipment, and... - All right, I get your point!
0:15:59 > 0:16:01I suppose there are a few cases, on balance,
0:16:01 > 0:16:05which we could possibly re-visit. So, do we have a deal?
0:16:05 > 0:16:07What you are asking is huge.
0:16:07 > 0:16:11Old people are high-maintenance. Harsh, but true.
0:16:11 > 0:16:12If he needs more home visits,
0:16:12 > 0:16:14you can't pretend that's not going to have an impact.
0:16:14 > 0:16:16The patient has already suggested
0:16:16 > 0:16:18that the registration will be temporary.
0:16:18 > 0:16:21There's nothing wrong with the care he's receiving
0:16:21 > 0:16:24from his current practice. It's the politics which are preventing him
0:16:24 > 0:16:26from getting the best possible care the NHS has to offer.
0:16:26 > 0:16:29I suppose he does only need to be registered to a Letherbridge GP
0:16:29 > 0:16:31for a couple of months, while he's in hospital.
0:16:31 > 0:16:33We can make this work.
0:16:35 > 0:16:37Well, then, you have a deal.
0:16:41 > 0:16:44HE HUMS TO HIMSELF
0:16:47 > 0:16:48Good grief!
0:16:53 > 0:16:54You mad woman!
0:16:57 > 0:16:59SHUTTER CLICK
0:16:59 > 0:17:01HE CHUCKLES
0:17:03 > 0:17:06HE SIGHS
0:17:12 > 0:17:15RINGING TONE
0:17:18 > 0:17:20Hi, Reg. How's it going?
0:17:23 > 0:17:26- I think I've made some progress. - Good.
0:17:26 > 0:17:31I went through the depression check list that I go through with patients -
0:17:31 > 0:17:34difficulty sleeping, loss of appetite, low thoughts and so on.
0:17:34 > 0:17:39And, in truth, I think I may have experienced some of them.
0:17:39 > 0:17:44And now may be a good time to talk to my GP about medication.
0:17:46 > 0:17:49- You mean anti-depressants? - Yes, they can be very helpful.
0:17:50 > 0:17:54Well, leaving aside medication just for now...
0:17:54 > 0:17:58Well, I've accepted the diagnosis,
0:17:58 > 0:18:02so the next step is treatment?
0:18:02 > 0:18:07Yes, and treatment comes in many different forms.
0:18:07 > 0:18:09Oh, you want me to talk some more(!)
0:18:10 > 0:18:12It's what I'm here for.
0:18:14 > 0:18:16So, you feel you've earned your money?
0:18:18 > 0:18:21I'm sure I could talk for 50 minutes without hesitation,
0:18:21 > 0:18:24repetition or deviation.
0:18:25 > 0:18:26Humour me.
0:18:31 > 0:18:33Good evening!
0:18:33 > 0:18:35I hope we are all refreshed?
0:18:36 > 0:18:38I've been preparing my research, Dr Clay.
0:18:38 > 0:18:42Although Mr Bellamy has asked my opinion on this system here.
0:18:42 > 0:18:45Naturally, I have to attend to that first.
0:18:45 > 0:18:47But, after that, I'm all yours.
0:18:52 > 0:18:57- I might have told her I was buying a car...- What?
0:18:57 > 0:19:00- I was trying to bring her out of herself.- Out of herself,
0:19:00 > 0:19:01and into your face!
0:19:01 > 0:19:04You're a very sweet man, Jimmi.
0:19:04 > 0:19:08# Born to be wild... #
0:19:08 > 0:19:10You are SO going to regret this.
0:19:10 > 0:19:12SHE GIGGLES
0:19:12 > 0:19:15I don't know whether I was suckled at the breast
0:19:15 > 0:19:19or fobbed off with some synthetic mother-substitute.
0:19:19 > 0:19:23Maybe that's the root to all my problems?
0:19:23 > 0:19:28- Do you always make a joke of a serious situation?- Who's joking?
0:19:28 > 0:19:32Psychoanalysis goes beyond our attitude to our parents, believe it or not.
0:19:34 > 0:19:37Let's skip forward, past infancy.
0:19:37 > 0:19:39How far?
0:19:39 > 0:19:42To when you were a young man.
0:19:42 > 0:19:43A new husband. New father.
0:19:46 > 0:19:49Well, of course, you'd know all about that.
0:19:50 > 0:19:53All the joys,
0:19:53 > 0:19:56and ultimately, the sorrows.
0:19:56 > 0:20:00Very sad, how things turned out for you.
0:20:02 > 0:20:06Psychotherapist, heal thyself.
0:20:08 > 0:20:10I'm thinking back to when Stephen was born.
0:20:13 > 0:20:17What would that Heston have been like, if I had met him?
0:20:23 > 0:20:24Sorted.
0:20:24 > 0:20:26Once we've done the paperwork.
0:20:26 > 0:20:29We'll need signed confirmation from your practice, too.
0:20:29 > 0:20:31You can have it in triplicate, with bells on.
0:20:31 > 0:20:33You're taking him at The Mill?
0:20:33 > 0:20:35Give us your tired, your poor, your huddled masses...
0:20:35 > 0:20:39- I've only got one old bloke with a dodgy hip.- That'll do.
0:20:39 > 0:20:41Well!
0:20:41 > 0:20:42Excellent news.
0:20:48 > 0:20:50How's it going?
0:20:50 > 0:20:52Oh, you know. Mustn't grumble.
0:20:52 > 0:20:54Well, maybe sometimes you should.
0:20:54 > 0:20:56I've got Nessa for that. My mother hen.
0:20:56 > 0:20:59Thanks a bunch, Dad. Good job someone's on your case.
0:20:59 > 0:21:01Certainly is. Right,
0:21:01 > 0:21:02let's get you signed up to The Mill,
0:21:02 > 0:21:05then they'll transfer you to rehab tomorrow.
0:21:05 > 0:21:09- Never leave a dozy old git behind? - Something like that.
0:21:13 > 0:21:14Thanks, Mr Bellamy.
0:21:14 > 0:21:17Really, thank you so much.
0:21:17 > 0:21:18Howard.
0:21:18 > 0:21:20And it's an absolute pleasure.
0:21:23 > 0:21:26- HE SIGHS - Are you two going to help out?
0:21:26 > 0:21:28It feels like feeding time at the zoo.
0:21:28 > 0:21:30I don't think that's appropriate.
0:21:30 > 0:21:33"Former officer steals food from mouth of injured pensioner?"
0:21:33 > 0:21:37"Practice manager misuses NHS resources."
0:21:37 > 0:21:39We won't tell.
0:21:39 > 0:21:41So when did you serve?
0:21:41 > 0:21:42I was a whipper-snapper.
0:21:42 > 0:21:45Hitler died just a bit after my 18th birthday.
0:21:45 > 0:21:48Dad had only been called up a few weeks and the war was over.
0:21:48 > 0:21:51Though I don't feel I can take total credit for that.
0:21:51 > 0:21:53Don't tell me, there was half a dozen of you?
0:21:53 > 0:21:55ALL CHUCKLE
0:21:58 > 0:22:01It wasn't just the obvious betrayal.
0:22:02 > 0:22:05My wife going off with someone else, but...
0:22:08 > 0:22:10..everything I thought I knew...
0:22:12 > 0:22:14..never existed.
0:22:18 > 0:22:19She took away me.
0:22:23 > 0:22:28No-one wants their marriage to come crashing down.
0:22:28 > 0:22:33But when you make that choice, that commitment...
0:22:36 > 0:22:38..you open yourself to that possibility.
0:22:46 > 0:22:48The people you love, they might even die.
0:22:49 > 0:22:52When you love someone,
0:22:52 > 0:22:53you take a risk.
0:22:57 > 0:22:59And when she told me...
0:23:01 > 0:23:03..that Stephen wasn't mine...
0:23:06 > 0:23:08..that I wasn't his father...
0:23:11 > 0:23:13..who was I?
0:23:21 > 0:23:23Why am I talking about this?
0:23:25 > 0:23:27HE CLEARS THROAT
0:23:31 > 0:23:33Tell me about the day he left.
0:23:38 > 0:23:39He was...
0:23:41 > 0:23:43..eating a banana and he...
0:23:46 > 0:23:47..he had sticky fingers.
0:23:53 > 0:23:55He called me "Daddy".
0:23:59 > 0:24:03"They went with songs to the battle, they were young.
0:24:03 > 0:24:07"Straight of limb, true of eye, steady and aglow.
0:24:07 > 0:24:12"They were staunch to the end, against odds uncounted.
0:24:12 > 0:24:15"They fell with their faces to the foe."
0:24:16 > 0:24:20"They shall grow not old, as we that are left grow old.
0:24:20 > 0:24:24"Age shall not weary them, nor the years condemn.
0:24:24 > 0:24:28"At the going down of the sun and in the morning,
0:24:28 > 0:24:30"we will remember them."
0:24:30 > 0:24:32ALL: We will remember them.
0:24:35 > 0:24:38APPLAUSE
0:24:43 > 0:24:46Every relationship since has failed.
0:24:49 > 0:24:51Lily, Marina.
0:24:53 > 0:24:54They walked all over me.
0:24:57 > 0:24:59I was the common denominator.
0:25:01 > 0:25:03Realising that might empower you.
0:25:05 > 0:25:07Perhaps.
0:25:11 > 0:25:15I don't know where all this came from. I thought I'd got over it.
0:25:15 > 0:25:18Perhaps you had, enough to be able to cope.
0:25:19 > 0:25:22I thought I was doing perfectly well.
0:25:22 > 0:25:24Till now, at least.
0:25:26 > 0:25:31Heston, these things go right to our core.
0:25:31 > 0:25:33They can't be forced.
0:25:34 > 0:25:37Sometimes we need to wait for the way in,
0:25:37 > 0:25:39before we can deal with them.
0:25:39 > 0:25:43I've nothing against anti-depressants.
0:25:43 > 0:25:46Medication may well help you through this process.
0:25:46 > 0:25:50But these talking sessions are vital.
0:25:50 > 0:25:51I know.
0:25:53 > 0:25:57I think you've been suffering from an unacknowledged depression,
0:25:57 > 0:26:00and out of that has sprung the psychosis,
0:26:00 > 0:26:03showing itself in the sleep-walking and amnesiac episodes.
0:26:05 > 0:26:06It's very common.
0:26:06 > 0:26:08In men, just as much as women.
0:26:09 > 0:26:11You must have told your patients that.
0:26:14 > 0:26:17I'm not sure I ever believed it.
0:26:17 > 0:26:20Well, believe it now.
0:26:21 > 0:26:25Often, it's the strongest, most masculine men that fall the hardest.
0:26:28 > 0:26:30But you can get you through this.
0:26:32 > 0:26:35I can help you through this.
0:26:35 > 0:26:37YOU can help you through this.
0:26:40 > 0:26:42Trust me,
0:26:42 > 0:26:45in time, these feelings will lift.
0:26:54 > 0:26:57Well, why don't we head out to West Letherbridge
0:26:57 > 0:27:00I would've thought that's a bit too leafy and sedate for your tastes.
0:27:00 > 0:27:03Seeing as you're such a party girl,
0:27:03 > 0:27:05you could choose what we do tonight.
0:27:05 > 0:27:09I found this. I'm guessing it's not washing powder.
0:27:09 > 0:27:10Is this coke?
0:27:12 > 0:27:14HE GROANS
0:27:14 > 0:27:16Did I do something awful in a previous life?