The Mad Woman in the Attic

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0:00:32 > 0:00:34SHE SIGHS AND SNORTS

0:00:34 > 0:00:36Do you ever have one of those days

0:00:36 > 0:00:39when you get a tune stuck in your head and you can't worm it out?

0:00:39 > 0:00:42I just can't get past the first line.

0:00:42 > 0:00:47ECHOEY: "Standing on the door of the Pink Flamingo, crying in the rain."

0:00:47 > 0:00:48Do you know it?

0:00:49 > 0:00:51Rude!

0:00:55 > 0:00:57KAREN LAUGHS

0:00:57 > 0:00:58Where did you get that...?

0:01:05 > 0:01:07Can anyone else see that?

0:01:07 > 0:01:10Karen, perfect timing. Do you want a coffee?

0:01:10 > 0:01:13THEY SPEAK BACKWARDS

0:01:13 > 0:01:15Oh, you must tell me where you got that bag.

0:01:15 > 0:01:18I've got a fantastic pair of shoes that would go right with that.

0:01:18 > 0:01:19That's not me!

0:01:19 > 0:01:21THEY SPEAK BACKWARDS

0:01:21 > 0:01:24We're really sorry you had to go away.

0:01:24 > 0:01:27THEY SPEAK BACKWARDS No, no! Hello?

0:01:27 > 0:01:28This is me.

0:01:28 > 0:01:32MUSIC PLAYS

0:01:32 > 0:01:34What are you doing? Stop that!

0:01:34 > 0:01:37I'm going to keep shouting until you stop it. Eh!

0:01:37 > 0:01:41I'm...I'm going to keep...I'm going to keep going.

0:01:41 > 0:01:45# Standing in the door of the Pink Flamingo

0:01:45 > 0:01:47# Crying in the... #

0:01:47 > 0:01:48Rain...

0:01:48 > 0:01:50Wha...?

0:01:52 > 0:01:53What time is it?

0:01:55 > 0:01:56Early.

0:02:23 > 0:02:26Karen, sending flowers to a...

0:02:26 > 0:02:29someone, is that a good idea?

0:02:29 > 0:02:32Or will it bring a post-feminist wrath down on me?

0:02:32 > 0:02:36- What?- Is one of the four horsemen of the Apocalypse, you know, a florist?

0:02:36 > 0:02:38I haven't got a clue what you're banging on about.

0:02:38 > 0:02:40Oh, what's wrong with you?

0:02:40 > 0:02:43I don't see that there has to be anything wrong.

0:02:43 > 0:02:47- Actually...- Right. Chocolates it is. Mr Crossly? Come on down.

0:02:51 > 0:02:54Hello there, stranger.

0:02:54 > 0:02:58Hello, neighbour. It's been a while, hasn't it?

0:02:58 > 0:03:00My summer party in July.

0:03:00 > 0:03:03You've gone criminally low key on us since then, haven't you?

0:03:03 > 0:03:05What do you mean?

0:03:05 > 0:03:09Well, you got well, came home, at last, came to my party,

0:03:09 > 0:03:13we had a good catch-up and then... Bang! Nothing.

0:03:19 > 0:03:22No, no, no. You are joking!

0:03:27 > 0:03:31Oh, I thought I didn't see you leave after your appointment.

0:03:31 > 0:03:32Oh, no.

0:03:38 > 0:03:40Dr Clay's had to give me some bad news.

0:03:40 > 0:03:43He thinks tea would be a good idea.

0:03:46 > 0:03:48So...

0:03:48 > 0:03:49It's come back.

0:03:52 > 0:03:55Like it had never been away.

0:03:55 > 0:03:56I'm so sorry, Carol.

0:03:59 > 0:04:01What's going to happen?

0:04:04 > 0:04:06Options are being explored.

0:04:06 > 0:04:08We can talk about that another time.

0:04:11 > 0:04:14Oh! Your necklace.

0:04:14 > 0:04:17SHE LAUGHS Is it?

0:04:17 > 0:04:18You gave it to me.

0:04:18 > 0:04:21Did I? I did.

0:04:21 > 0:04:24I didn't think you'd recognised it. It was...

0:04:26 > 0:04:30You told me that...that it was your lucky necklace

0:04:30 > 0:04:32and that you insisted that I take it.

0:04:35 > 0:04:36Maybe...

0:04:37 > 0:04:38Maybe if you'd kept it...

0:04:40 > 0:04:42..you wouldn't have had your accident.

0:04:44 > 0:04:46- No, you keep it.- No.

0:04:46 > 0:04:47I think...

0:04:49 > 0:04:51Much as I'm grateful for small, kind gestures...

0:04:54 > 0:04:56..they're not much use right now.

0:05:09 > 0:05:12I don't remember owning this, let alone giving it away.

0:05:12 > 0:05:16Things will keep coming back to you bit by bit, I expect.

0:05:16 > 0:05:19- Really?- Hm. - I mean, they have done a bit.

0:05:19 > 0:05:22I keep having these vivid dreams.

0:05:22 > 0:05:26Erm, like stuff's trying to get through. Do you ever get that?

0:05:26 > 0:05:30Hm. There is a theory that dreams are the way our subconscious

0:05:30 > 0:05:33try to resolve conflicts we've had in, you know, our waking life.

0:05:33 > 0:05:35Hm.

0:05:35 > 0:05:37Promise you won't tell anyone?

0:05:37 > 0:05:40Sometimes I wonder which Karen I am.

0:05:40 > 0:05:42What, there's more than one of you?

0:05:42 > 0:05:44Run for the hills, Jimmi, she's pod people!

0:05:44 > 0:05:46What do you mean, Karen?

0:05:46 > 0:05:50Who I was before the accident, who I became

0:05:50 > 0:05:55and sometimes I wonder who people see when they see me. I mean...

0:05:55 > 0:05:59I thought it would just be about filling in the blanks

0:05:59 > 0:06:01and getting on with my life, but it's not.

0:06:02 > 0:06:05Is there more to it or is this who I am now?

0:06:05 > 0:06:06Hm.

0:06:06 > 0:06:10Can we put Humpty back together again?

0:06:10 > 0:06:14That's an interesting challenge. One which I accept.

0:06:14 > 0:06:15Come with me, young lady.

0:06:17 > 0:06:19SHOUTS: Rob!

0:06:19 > 0:06:22Oh, must've gone out. Ooh!

0:06:22 > 0:06:24So, I don't know.

0:06:24 > 0:06:28You...you really think this is going to help, me talking to myself?

0:06:28 > 0:06:32It's about making peace with the other Karens.

0:06:32 > 0:06:35Like, closure?

0:06:35 > 0:06:39My complete and utter contempt for that word aside...

0:06:39 > 0:06:43yes. Think of it as like a letter to yourself.

0:06:43 > 0:06:44Come on.

0:06:44 > 0:06:48Grown-up Karen, she's going to give some advice to the teenage one.

0:06:48 > 0:06:53No, but I'm the teenage one, sort of. I mean, that's what I'm saying!

0:06:53 > 0:06:56Or she is, I don't...

0:06:56 > 0:07:00Ah... Anyway, she came back. I'm being haunted by her.

0:07:00 > 0:07:02Hm...

0:07:02 > 0:07:06It's like your past isn't in a straight line anymore.

0:07:06 > 0:07:09It's like your mind has gone into shuffle mode.

0:07:09 > 0:07:11And this is going to help with that?

0:07:11 > 0:07:13It's what I do. You write things down,

0:07:13 > 0:07:15stops them buzzing around your head.

0:07:17 > 0:07:18What?

0:07:18 > 0:07:20Well, go on, say something.

0:07:20 > 0:07:22Say anything.

0:07:22 > 0:07:24Give me a list of things you want for Christmas,

0:07:24 > 0:07:26tell me the rules of Fight Club.

0:07:26 > 0:07:30If you're unsure who you are, then talk to the future you.

0:07:34 > 0:07:36Come on!

0:07:36 > 0:07:38This never used to be a problem before.

0:07:38 > 0:07:41Most days, I couldn't get you to shut up.

0:07:41 > 0:07:43Cue...

0:07:43 > 0:07:44Gobby Hollins.

0:07:44 > 0:07:48Not with you earwigging. Go and make some coffee or something.

0:07:58 > 0:07:59Hello, me.

0:07:59 > 0:08:02SHE LAUGHS NERVIOUSLY

0:08:02 > 0:08:06This is me trying to work out which ME you are.

0:08:06 > 0:08:08Or you're going to turn out to be.

0:08:10 > 0:08:13Oh...

0:08:13 > 0:08:17So, erm, it's been almost a year since the brain inj...

0:08:25 > 0:08:27You had everything, I know that.

0:08:31 > 0:08:35Rob and Jack and Immie and this house and...

0:08:36 > 0:08:40..a career and workmates who cared.

0:08:42 > 0:08:44And you had it taken away.

0:08:48 > 0:08:49And I took it.

0:08:54 > 0:08:55Hmph!

0:08:55 > 0:08:59I'm like the, erm, second wife.

0:08:59 > 0:09:01I replaced you.

0:09:01 > 0:09:04The brassy blonde who lured your husband away.

0:09:04 > 0:09:05And...

0:09:07 > 0:09:08..that's not fair.

0:09:09 > 0:09:11But...

0:09:13 > 0:09:14..you have something...

0:09:16 > 0:09:17..that I don't.

0:09:18 > 0:09:22You've got a part in all this and this.

0:09:22 > 0:09:28See this is, erm...this is closed off and...

0:09:28 > 0:09:31It's...it's...it's a room, and I can't get inside!

0:09:38 > 0:09:43Everybody...everybody knows who I am except me,

0:09:43 > 0:09:45and I'm pig sick of it!

0:09:45 > 0:09:50SHE SIGHS M...memories keep creeping in.

0:09:50 > 0:09:52I don't know what they mean.

0:09:52 > 0:09:55"Standing in the door of the Pink Flamingo..."

0:09:55 > 0:09:57I don't... Oh, shut up!

0:10:14 > 0:10:16Hi, Immie.

0:10:16 > 0:10:20Yeah, I've just been to the shop and they don't stock them anymore

0:10:20 > 0:10:22and they don't know anyone who does.

0:10:22 > 0:10:23Don't know what to do now.

0:10:25 > 0:10:26Do you reckon?

0:10:27 > 0:10:29Well, I could try, I suppose.

0:10:29 > 0:10:32All right. Thanks, love. Bye.

0:10:33 > 0:10:40Yes, you lost what it meant to be a wife and a mother and a grown-up.

0:10:40 > 0:10:43But you can't resent me for finding all that again,

0:10:43 > 0:10:47cos no-one can live on a diet of stone-washed jeans

0:10:47 > 0:10:49and Duran-flaming-Duran.

0:10:52 > 0:10:53You should stay gone.

0:11:00 > 0:11:01And...

0:11:02 > 0:11:05..you've got to believe...

0:11:06 > 0:11:09..that you're better for all of this.

0:11:11 > 0:11:12Lessons learned.

0:11:14 > 0:11:18You. Are. Fine.

0:11:20 > 0:11:25And once you can get that...that bloody song out of your head,

0:11:25 > 0:11:27then that's that, you know?

0:11:27 > 0:11:29You've solved it. You...

0:11:29 > 0:11:32you've put an end to it. No more weird dreams.

0:11:32 > 0:11:33The end.

0:11:41 > 0:11:44All good? Did you sort them out?

0:11:44 > 0:11:47"Standing in the door of the Pink Flamingo, crying in the rain."

0:11:47 > 0:11:51Wow! Well, I don't think I've met this personality yet.

0:11:51 > 0:11:53Am I finally getting to speak to the demon inside of Karen?

0:11:53 > 0:11:57Do you know the song that starts like that?

0:11:57 > 0:12:01- Hm. No idea.- Oh, come on, you're a walking Trivial Pursuit game!

0:12:01 > 0:12:04All right, well, let's consult the electronic Ouija board.

0:12:04 > 0:12:07I've got to figure out why I keep dreaming about it,

0:12:07 > 0:12:09why it's stuck in my head.

0:12:15 > 0:12:19- Ah, cool. Who's the 2 Tone fan?- Rob.

0:12:19 > 0:12:21I just need the song title.

0:12:21 > 0:12:23Nearly there.

0:12:23 > 0:12:27MOBILE RINGS

0:12:27 > 0:12:29Hi, love. Busy day?

0:12:29 > 0:12:32'Erm, are these all our records in the living room?'

0:12:32 > 0:12:34Are you at home?

0:12:34 > 0:12:36Never mind that. Have we got any more?

0:12:36 > 0:12:39'What? Erm, I don't know.'

0:12:39 > 0:12:42Yes. Yeah, come to think of it,

0:12:42 > 0:12:44I think I put a box of oldies in the attic.

0:12:44 > 0:12:47What are you doing? What are you looking for?

0:12:47 > 0:12:50Erm, oh, it's a pink flamingo and someone crying in the rain.

0:12:50 > 0:12:53Look, I've got to go. I'll talk to you later, bye.

0:12:58 > 0:12:59Yeah, got it.

0:12:59 > 0:13:02Soft Cell - Say Hello, Wave Goodbye.

0:13:02 > 0:13:05Opening lyrics are "Standing in the door of the Pink Flamingo,

0:13:05 > 0:13:07"crying in the rain."

0:13:09 > 0:13:11"It was a kind of so-so love

0:13:11 > 0:13:14"and I'm going to make sure it never happens again."

0:13:16 > 0:13:17Yes!

0:13:21 > 0:13:27MUSIC PLAYS

0:13:29 > 0:13:31What are you doing here?

0:13:31 > 0:13:36This. This is the Rolls-Royce of 2 Tone collections.

0:13:36 > 0:13:38I salute you, rude boy.

0:13:38 > 0:13:40Thank you.

0:13:40 > 0:13:42Where's Karen?

0:13:43 > 0:13:45Upstairs.

0:13:45 > 0:13:47Has she been in here?

0:13:47 > 0:13:48Yep.

0:13:48 > 0:13:49Did she notice anything?

0:13:49 > 0:13:51Like what?

0:13:51 > 0:13:53Like that broken mug.

0:13:55 > 0:13:57She didn't mention it.

0:13:57 > 0:13:58It wasn't me.

0:13:59 > 0:14:01I know.

0:14:01 > 0:14:03LOUD THUD

0:14:13 > 0:14:15Yes! Get in!

0:14:15 > 0:14:19- Karen?- You were right. There's a whole box of me up here.

0:14:19 > 0:14:21What are you doing? What...what is this about?

0:14:21 > 0:14:24This song, Say Hello, Wave Goodbye, it means something. Do you know what?

0:14:24 > 0:14:26What?

0:14:26 > 0:14:28No, I'm asking. Do you know what it means?

0:14:30 > 0:14:32- Why don't you come down, love? - Do you know?

0:14:32 > 0:14:36Did it matter to the old me? Should it only matter to her?

0:14:40 > 0:14:43MUSIC: Say Hello, Wave Goodbye by Soft Cell

0:14:43 > 0:14:45SHE SIGHS

0:14:46 > 0:14:51This song means something. What was it?

0:14:51 > 0:14:52I don't know, love.

0:14:54 > 0:14:57Is it you? Is it nothing to do with me? Is it you?

0:14:57 > 0:15:00Is it something that you did that I...I want to forget?

0:15:00 > 0:15:02Is there a woman? Another woman?

0:15:02 > 0:15:03Stop this.

0:15:05 > 0:15:07I don't know why it matters. Maybe it doesn't.

0:15:07 > 0:15:11Maybe it's...it's just a song. And you love the music.

0:15:11 > 0:15:13It's in my head night and day,

0:15:13 > 0:15:16and I'm sure that it meant something to the first Karen.

0:15:17 > 0:15:21The one you loved all those years and who isn't here anymore.

0:15:21 > 0:15:23Yes, she is!

0:15:25 > 0:15:27She's right here now, and I'm looking at her.

0:15:29 > 0:15:32And I love her in the same way that I always did.

0:15:32 > 0:15:35SONG ABRUPTLY STOPS

0:15:37 > 0:15:40- Oh, love, come here.- No. You can't fix this with a hug.

0:15:42 > 0:15:45It's best to give her some space.

0:15:47 > 0:15:49What have you done to her?

0:15:51 > 0:15:53You know, the clueless isn't a good look for a copper.

0:16:09 > 0:16:12Rob, she's lost whole parts of her life,

0:16:12 > 0:16:15things that she will never ever get back,

0:16:15 > 0:16:17but she keeps getting these little glimpses of it.

0:16:17 > 0:16:20Take a look at this one song today

0:16:20 > 0:16:22has almost pushed her over the edge.

0:16:22 > 0:16:24It can't be easy.

0:16:24 > 0:16:28No, easy is not a word I'd use for any of this.

0:16:30 > 0:16:33And then you hear how she keeps describing herself.

0:16:33 > 0:16:36"The old Karen", that's what she keeps saying.

0:16:37 > 0:16:40I think she feels threatened.

0:16:40 > 0:16:42Is she in competition for your love?

0:16:42 > 0:16:44Who with?

0:16:44 > 0:16:46The first Karen.

0:16:46 > 0:16:48The first Mrs Hollins.

0:16:48 > 0:16:51I mean, in a way, she's now your second wife,

0:16:51 > 0:16:53and all that that implies.

0:16:53 > 0:16:55I thought we'd gone through all of this,

0:16:55 > 0:16:56but no, here we are,

0:16:56 > 0:16:59back to '80s music and Karen hating me all over again.

0:17:01 > 0:17:03It's like being in a flaming loop.

0:17:03 > 0:17:04Be rude not to.

0:17:06 > 0:17:08Karen?

0:17:08 > 0:17:10Oh, hello.

0:17:10 > 0:17:12Are you OK?

0:17:12 > 0:17:15Just thought I'd crack on with a bit of spring planting.

0:17:15 > 0:17:18I bought out the whole garden centre.

0:17:18 > 0:17:21This is going to be all irises, tulips, daffodils.

0:17:21 > 0:17:23- A great swathe of them. - Oh, that'll be nice.

0:17:23 > 0:17:24Nice?

0:17:24 > 0:17:27I anticipate nothing less than spectacular!

0:17:29 > 0:17:32- Nothing like with planning ahead. - No, nothing.

0:17:32 > 0:17:35- Do you want a hand?- No, I'll manage.

0:17:38 > 0:17:41It's been a...it's been a bit of a difficult year

0:17:41 > 0:17:44- for us both, hasn't it?- Yeah.

0:17:44 > 0:17:46Of all the years that I wish I could remember,

0:17:46 > 0:17:47this is the one I want to forget.

0:17:52 > 0:17:56Trouble is everybody's been talking in terms of getting back to normal

0:17:56 > 0:17:59without knowing, in this case, what normal is.

0:18:00 > 0:18:03It's not a word I would use for my marriage.

0:18:03 > 0:18:05I mean, what is normal?

0:18:05 > 0:18:06Overrated.

0:18:08 > 0:18:11See, I quite liked the teenage Karen.

0:18:11 > 0:18:15At first. After that, she became intensely irritating.

0:18:15 > 0:18:18I never knew that teenage version...until now.

0:18:18 > 0:18:20Hm.

0:18:20 > 0:18:23It was like unprocessed Karen -

0:18:23 > 0:18:27all the stubbornness and resilience, but none of the understanding.

0:18:27 > 0:18:29Like it was some kind of substitute.

0:18:29 > 0:18:31Like an...I Can't Believe It's Not Karen.

0:18:31 > 0:18:35THEY LAUGH

0:18:35 > 0:18:39You know, but being stubborn is what got her through.

0:18:40 > 0:18:46If I could just understand why this song is so important.

0:18:46 > 0:18:48Because you give it importance.

0:18:48 > 0:18:51Which is understandable.

0:18:51 > 0:18:53We often try and find meaning in things

0:18:53 > 0:18:55that aren't really significant.

0:18:57 > 0:18:58But how do I know if it is or it isn't.

0:18:58 > 0:19:01Well, trying to find rhyme and reason in why things happen

0:19:01 > 0:19:05is often a sure way to add to our frustration, not solve it. And...

0:19:07 > 0:19:08Where do you stop?

0:19:10 > 0:19:11I don't know.

0:19:11 > 0:19:14I'm sorry, Carol, this must seem so trivial to you.

0:19:14 > 0:19:16Rubbish.

0:19:16 > 0:19:20You are trying to be happy is all you're saying.

0:19:20 > 0:19:25And...to find happiness is a very serious thing.

0:19:25 > 0:19:28And it's NOT trivial.

0:19:30 > 0:19:34But...there's just so much getting in the way.

0:19:37 > 0:19:41And if you could remember just this one thing,

0:19:41 > 0:19:44would all the rest will fall into place? Has it ever occurred to you

0:19:44 > 0:19:47that you forgot what this song meant for good reason?

0:19:47 > 0:19:51- Like what? - Like certain memories fade.

0:19:51 > 0:19:55They just get away from us in the fullness of life.

0:19:56 > 0:20:01You might not have forgotten this song because of the accident.

0:20:02 > 0:20:04I just...want to be sure.

0:20:07 > 0:20:10You can fret over it having some big meaning

0:20:10 > 0:20:16or you can decide that that tape went into the attic for good reason.

0:20:20 > 0:20:21You can make your peace.

0:20:25 > 0:20:27You can...

0:20:27 > 0:20:31look forward to making new memories while you can.

0:20:33 > 0:20:34Life is good.

0:20:36 > 0:20:41Make what you do, from now on,

0:20:41 > 0:20:42all the more vivid.

0:20:46 > 0:20:49- SOBBING:- Because sometimes that's all we can do.

0:20:55 > 0:20:57That and plant bulbs.

0:20:57 > 0:21:00THEY LAUGH

0:21:02 > 0:21:03I think I'd better get ho...

0:21:05 > 0:21:07Yes, I think so.

0:21:08 > 0:21:10Thank you. Thank you.

0:21:15 > 0:21:19# I never knew you

0:21:19 > 0:21:21# You never knew me

0:21:21 > 0:21:24# Say hello, goodbye... #

0:21:28 > 0:21:30No. You have to go.

0:21:33 > 0:21:37# I'll find someone that's not going cheap

0:21:37 > 0:21:39# In the sales. #

0:21:41 > 0:21:42I remember!

0:21:45 > 0:21:46I remember!

0:21:49 > 0:21:51SHOUTS: Carol!

0:21:51 > 0:21:54I've remembered!

0:21:54 > 0:21:55And...?

0:21:55 > 0:21:58Me and my best mate, Maggie, in a pub,

0:21:58 > 0:22:03and she'd just been stood up by a bloke outside the Pictures.

0:22:03 > 0:22:07And this song came on the juke box, and we laughed because...

0:22:07 > 0:22:11she'd gone all done up and the rain had ruined her hair

0:22:11 > 0:22:15and her make-up. And she looked...she looked a bit tarty like the girl

0:22:15 > 0:22:18in the song, and... So, halle-flaming-lujah,

0:22:18 > 0:22:20it means something.

0:22:20 > 0:22:24But it's got absolutely nothing to do with anything.

0:22:24 > 0:22:27- What does that mean? - Sometimes it means nothing!

0:22:27 > 0:22:30Memories aren't all they're cracked up to be.

0:22:30 > 0:22:32THEY LAUGH AND SHOUT

0:22:32 > 0:22:36Oh! Hey, do you know? I know what I've got to do.

0:22:36 > 0:22:39You haven't got a cardboard box I could...?

0:22:39 > 0:22:40- Yeah?- Come on.

0:22:42 > 0:22:46Are you really going to try and get away without telling her?

0:22:48 > 0:22:49I don't think I can, can I?

0:22:53 > 0:22:54Oh, dear.

0:22:55 > 0:22:57Can't get anything right.

0:22:59 > 0:23:00It's all my fault.

0:23:02 > 0:23:05Make one mistake and the whole world turns upside down.

0:23:05 > 0:23:06True.

0:23:06 > 0:23:08Although, it is just a mug.

0:23:10 > 0:23:11No, I didn't mean the...

0:23:13 > 0:23:16You're going to do that once too often one day.

0:23:16 > 0:23:17Do what?

0:23:17 > 0:23:20Come on, Rob. You've seen her through this

0:23:20 > 0:23:23because you're made of stronger stuff.

0:23:23 > 0:23:25Am I?

0:23:25 > 0:23:26Really?

0:23:27 > 0:23:29I don't know.

0:23:29 > 0:23:32You know, every day since Karen moved back in,

0:23:32 > 0:23:34every morning I get up,

0:23:34 > 0:23:37I have to check her pillow for blood.

0:23:39 > 0:23:41I go back to that day it happened again and again.

0:23:43 > 0:23:45Is...is that strong?

0:23:47 > 0:23:49No. I...

0:23:49 > 0:23:50I think it's...

0:23:51 > 0:23:53..stupid and messed-up to do it over and over again,

0:23:53 > 0:23:55but I can't help it.

0:23:55 > 0:23:57It sounds perfectly reasonable to me.

0:23:57 > 0:24:01Does it? Cos I think it's like picking at a scab.

0:24:01 > 0:24:03You do that to make sense of things

0:24:03 > 0:24:06because you're human, and that's what humans do -

0:24:06 > 0:24:07we make sense of things.

0:24:07 > 0:24:09So, you keep checking that pillow.

0:24:09 > 0:24:11It will pass.

0:24:11 > 0:24:13My word of honour, it will pass.

0:24:14 > 0:24:16DOOR OPENS

0:24:16 > 0:24:17Battle stations.

0:24:25 > 0:24:27You had me worried. Where've you been?

0:24:27 > 0:24:29How do you get this thing out?

0:24:29 > 0:24:31- Thank you.- What were you doing?

0:24:35 > 0:24:36Give it a moment.

0:24:42 > 0:24:44Ah, yes, about that...

0:24:44 > 0:24:45I didn't deserve it.

0:24:45 > 0:24:47Immie can buy me another one when I do.

0:24:49 > 0:24:51Ah! Thank you.

0:24:51 > 0:24:53Do you want to tell me what's going on?

0:24:53 > 0:24:55It's got to be done.

0:24:55 > 0:24:57For both our sakes.

0:24:57 > 0:25:00No more thinking that there's things not said between us.

0:25:00 > 0:25:03- Karen...- No, it's got to be about

0:25:03 > 0:25:07who I am now, not who I was.

0:25:10 > 0:25:11I'm done.

0:25:12 > 0:25:16No more crying, no more feeling beaten.

0:25:17 > 0:25:18OK?

0:25:19 > 0:25:20OK?

0:25:23 > 0:25:25OK.

0:25:25 > 0:25:26Anything you say.

0:25:34 > 0:25:36You know, I think I understand it now.

0:25:36 > 0:25:40What makes people work at making things last.

0:25:40 > 0:25:43And you got that from watching me dig?

0:25:43 > 0:25:46No, from seeing the two of you properly back together.

0:25:49 > 0:25:50Be honest.

0:25:51 > 0:25:52Do you think he loves me

0:25:52 > 0:25:55or what he remembers of me from before?

0:25:55 > 0:25:58I think that's the difference between you.

0:25:58 > 0:26:01You lost the ability to filter your experiences.

0:26:01 > 0:26:06He doesn't need to remember, not that anybody remembers everything.

0:26:06 > 0:26:10He just knows he loves you, without doubt.

0:26:10 > 0:26:13- Really?- Hey, Hollins, you said no more tears.

0:26:14 > 0:26:17He's just grateful that you've both made it through it.

0:26:19 > 0:26:21I think I'm the lucky one

0:26:21 > 0:26:25because I got to fall in love with him all over again.

0:26:25 > 0:26:27Like it was the first time.

0:26:27 > 0:26:29Here you go.

0:26:29 > 0:26:31There were some biscuits, but...

0:26:34 > 0:26:36Are you sure you know what your doing?

0:26:36 > 0:26:40Learning to let things go

0:26:40 > 0:26:44is just as important as trying to get them back.

0:26:44 > 0:26:46Scary, but...

0:26:46 > 0:26:48Very well said.

0:26:48 > 0:26:51You could treat it like a time capsule, you know?

0:26:51 > 0:26:52Put a marker on the spot.

0:26:52 > 0:26:55Yeah. We'll dig it up in 20, 30 years' time.

0:26:55 > 0:26:57No.

0:26:57 > 0:26:59No.

0:26:59 > 0:27:01No going back.

0:27:01 > 0:27:03It's finished.

0:27:06 > 0:27:08Can we stop talking about cars, please?

0:27:08 > 0:27:10I don't even want to buy a new car.

0:27:10 > 0:27:12I just said it to cheer Mrs T up.

0:27:12 > 0:27:15You think that you're a vampire?

0:27:15 > 0:27:19Why would I do that? Share my weakness with everybody?

0:27:19 > 0:27:21There's nothing like that going on.

0:27:21 > 0:27:23What? So she's one of your minions, then?

0:27:23 > 0:27:25A friend.

0:27:25 > 0:27:27With common...interests.