0:00:27 > 0:00:29Morning. Traffic outside Joe's nursery was terrible.
0:00:29 > 0:00:32Why people insist on driving when they only live round the corner...
0:00:32 > 0:00:36You know what they say - you are not stuck in traffic, you ARE traffic.
0:00:36 > 0:00:38Five minutes, then send the first one in, please.
0:00:38 > 0:00:41Of course.
0:00:41 > 0:00:43Walter Brannigan for Dr Carmichael.
0:00:43 > 0:00:46Oh, I am sorry, Mr Brannigan...
0:00:46 > 0:00:47Walter.
0:00:47 > 0:00:51Dr Carmichael is not in this morning but Dr Granger will be...
0:00:51 > 0:00:53Is she in this afternoon?
0:00:53 > 0:00:55Yes, but like I said, Dr Granger...
0:00:55 > 0:00:57I'll wait.
0:00:59 > 0:01:00You will have a long wait.
0:01:01 > 0:01:04If you insist on seeing Dr Carmichael,
0:01:04 > 0:01:06may I suggest you come back this afternoon?
0:01:06 > 0:01:08You got a problem with me sitting here?
0:01:08 > 0:01:10No, I just don't want you to waste your time.
0:01:10 > 0:01:12It's my time, I'll do what I want with it.
0:01:15 > 0:01:17Morning.
0:01:18 > 0:01:20Was it something I said?
0:01:20 > 0:01:22Oh, sorry, Heston.
0:01:22 > 0:01:25Listen, have you heard anything from Catriona?
0:01:25 > 0:01:29Catriona Shailes? No, not since the appointment.
0:01:29 > 0:01:30How did she seem to you?
0:01:30 > 0:01:32Depressed.
0:01:32 > 0:01:34She's on the list for CBT and I prescribed some
0:01:34 > 0:01:37anti-depressants. I'm sure she'll be on the mend in no time.
0:01:42 > 0:01:44If you'd like to go through.
0:01:48 > 0:01:49Nowt wrong with him.
0:01:49 > 0:01:51Tenner says he's after a sick note.
0:01:51 > 0:01:54It is such a beautiful day outside, Mr Brannigan.
0:01:54 > 0:01:55Walter.
0:01:55 > 0:01:59Would you not prefer to be enjoying the fresh air, a walk perhaps?
0:01:59 > 0:02:02You sound like my wife. She was always going on about me
0:02:02 > 0:02:05- going for a walk with her. - A sensible woman.
0:02:05 > 0:02:10Walking is good for the heart, the lungs and the spirit.
0:02:10 > 0:02:13If it's that good for you, how come she's dead?
0:02:15 > 0:02:16I am so sorry.
0:02:16 > 0:02:20Don't be. Least now she's not giving me earache every five minutes.
0:02:20 > 0:02:23And I get to watch what I want on telly.
0:02:23 > 0:02:25Not that I've got anything better to do.
0:02:25 > 0:02:29There is always something to do if you try hard enough.
0:02:29 > 0:02:32- A hobby, perhaps. - Don't talk to me about hobbies.
0:02:32 > 0:02:38Hobbies enrich us, they make us more rounded, more... interesting.
0:02:38 > 0:02:39You should try it.
0:02:39 > 0:02:43What, like gardening? All that bending over, with MY knees?
0:02:43 > 0:02:45I'd rather be bored.
0:02:45 > 0:02:49The devil makes work for idle hands.
0:02:49 > 0:02:51The church, for example,
0:02:51 > 0:02:53always looking for people with time on their hands,
0:02:53 > 0:02:58and there is a wonderful sense of community at St Bernadette's.
0:02:58 > 0:03:01All those busybodies, poking their noses in where they're not wanted,
0:03:01 > 0:03:03trying to convert you.
0:03:03 > 0:03:05No, thank you.
0:03:09 > 0:03:11Sorry, we're short-staffed already, with Niamh
0:03:11 > 0:03:13and Al on holiday, we can't lose you as well.
0:03:13 > 0:03:15You all right? You're not ill, are you?
0:03:15 > 0:03:17No. Just need a change of scenery.
0:03:17 > 0:03:20You're off to Paris on Friday, that's a change of scenery.
0:03:20 > 0:03:24Paris is definitely off. And far too close to home for my liking.
0:03:24 > 0:03:27Sorry, no can do. Next week, maybe?
0:03:27 > 0:03:29I can't wait till next week.
0:03:32 > 0:03:34- VOICE MAIL:- 'You have one message.'
0:03:34 > 0:03:36- WOMAN:- 'Sorry, I didn't know who else to call...
0:03:36 > 0:03:40'I don't know what to do! I think it was them.
0:03:40 > 0:03:43'They were right in front of me.
0:03:43 > 0:03:45- SHE SOBS - 'Sorry, I'm fine. Forget I called.'
0:03:58 > 0:04:00Our patients do not want to smell your food
0:04:00 > 0:04:02while they are feeling unwell.
0:04:03 > 0:04:05Anyone object?
0:04:05 > 0:04:06Well, then.
0:04:06 > 0:04:08Unless you're the one with the problem?
0:04:08 > 0:04:10It does not matter to me one way or the other.
0:04:16 > 0:04:17So, what they do at this church of yours?
0:04:17 > 0:04:19Apart from voluntary work?
0:04:23 > 0:04:29We run a... a food bank, there is a cafe, and we have...
0:04:29 > 0:04:31bridge nights and dinner dances.
0:04:31 > 0:04:33Dancing? All hot and sweaty in a suit
0:04:33 > 0:04:36and tie? Can't see the point in that much.
0:04:36 > 0:04:39Each to their own.
0:04:42 > 0:04:46Lemongrass and ginger, if that's what you're trying to figure out?
0:04:46 > 0:04:48If you want some, just say so. I'm not a mind-reader.
0:04:48 > 0:04:50No, thank you.
0:04:52 > 0:04:53There's plenty.
0:04:53 > 0:04:57Can't seem to get out the habit of cooking for two.
0:04:59 > 0:05:03You do not want to share your food with a church 'busybody'.
0:05:03 > 0:05:05Oh, I see.
0:05:05 > 0:05:09Someone criticises your church and it's toys out the pram.
0:05:09 > 0:05:12I assure you it is no such thing!
0:05:13 > 0:05:16Besides, I am going out for lunch.
0:05:16 > 0:05:18You can do that any time.
0:05:18 > 0:05:22Unless you're saying you've got a better offer?
0:05:22 > 0:05:25Oh, I see. I'm not trying to compete with your husband.
0:05:25 > 0:05:29You go out and enjoy your fancy lunch.
0:05:29 > 0:05:31More Thai chicken for me.
0:05:35 > 0:05:36You didn't have to come over.
0:05:38 > 0:05:41Yeah, well, I was worried, you sounded terrified.
0:05:46 > 0:05:49I was being stupid. It probably wasn't even them.
0:05:49 > 0:05:53Mind plays tricks on you when you're not getting any sleep.
0:05:54 > 0:05:57Maybe try cutting back on the caffeine.
0:05:58 > 0:06:00I don't WANT to sleep.
0:06:00 > 0:06:03- You need rest. - I said I don't want to!
0:06:03 > 0:06:06You try sleeping when all you get's nightmares!
0:06:06 > 0:06:09SHE SIGHS
0:06:09 > 0:06:12How long have you been awake for?
0:06:12 > 0:06:19Dunno. Couple of days? Might've nodded off for a bit yesterday.
0:06:19 > 0:06:24Right... I'm making you another appointment.
0:06:24 > 0:06:27- Why?- You're not well, Catriona.
0:06:27 > 0:06:29I think you need to go back to the doctor.
0:06:29 > 0:06:31Why? What else can he do?
0:06:31 > 0:06:34I don't know, but it's worth exploring your options.
0:06:34 > 0:06:39What options? Anti-depressants won't kick in for a couple of weeks.
0:06:39 > 0:06:42I got a letter from the CBT people telling me
0:06:42 > 0:06:44I might have to wait 12 weeks for an appointment!
0:06:44 > 0:06:47What you going to do? Chuck a few million at the NHS to speed
0:06:47 > 0:06:49it all up for me?
0:06:54 > 0:06:58Yes. You would be doing me an enormous favour, Dr Carter.
0:06:58 > 0:07:00I appreciate it is short notice...
0:07:02 > 0:07:07No, that is fine, I am sure you are very busy.
0:07:07 > 0:07:08DIAL TONE
0:07:08 > 0:07:13Yes, Dr Tyler, today. I am sorry to hear that
0:07:13 > 0:07:15but perhaps a lunch would...
0:07:16 > 0:07:18No, no, no. Fine, fine.
0:07:18 > 0:07:20DIAL TONE
0:07:20 > 0:07:22Yes, Mr Bellamy.
0:07:22 > 0:07:26No reason. No, no, no, I'm not after anything.
0:07:26 > 0:07:30Cannot two colleagues just break some bread..?
0:07:30 > 0:07:33No, that is fine.
0:07:35 > 0:07:37Yes, goodbye,
0:07:39 > 0:07:41SHE SIGHS
0:07:42 > 0:07:44I won't sleep.
0:07:44 > 0:07:47Yeah, well, just try and close your eyes for a bit.
0:07:47 > 0:07:50Have you thought about going back to the police?
0:07:50 > 0:07:54What for? Bloke I saw made it clear he wasn't interested.
0:07:55 > 0:07:58Yeah, I saw him yesterday. But they're not all like that.
0:07:59 > 0:08:01I'll come with ya, we'll speak to Rob Hollins.
0:08:01 > 0:08:03I know him, he'll take you seriously.
0:08:03 > 0:08:06- No. - It'll be different, I promise.
0:08:06 > 0:08:10It might even be good for you, doing something positive,
0:08:10 > 0:08:13stopping those girls from hurting anyone else.
0:08:13 > 0:08:18What's the point? It's not like they'll go to prison or anything.
0:08:18 > 0:08:20I talk to the police, they get a rap over the knuckles,
0:08:20 > 0:08:22then come looking to finish what they started.
0:08:22 > 0:08:24You don't know that.
0:08:24 > 0:08:27The only time I leave the house in a week,
0:08:27 > 0:08:30and I can't go to the corner shop without seeing them.
0:08:30 > 0:08:32What if they're local?
0:08:34 > 0:08:39Every time I leave the house, every time I need a pint of milk,
0:08:39 > 0:08:42I am terrified of seeing them!
0:08:42 > 0:08:45How am I meant to live like that?
0:08:45 > 0:08:47OK, OK...
0:08:47 > 0:08:49Look, it's your choice.
0:08:49 > 0:08:51Whatever you want, I am right behind you.
0:08:55 > 0:08:58Please try and get some sleep.
0:08:58 > 0:08:59Whenever I nod off,
0:08:59 > 0:09:05I start seeing it. I feel my teeth jarring as my head hits the floor!
0:09:05 > 0:09:08No. Hey, if you have a nightmare, I am right here.
0:09:11 > 0:09:13You won't leave me?
0:09:14 > 0:09:19No, I'm not going anywhere. Come on.
0:09:24 > 0:09:25There you are.
0:09:33 > 0:09:35SHE SIGHS
0:09:38 > 0:09:40You've got a visitor.
0:09:40 > 0:09:41A patient?
0:09:41 > 0:09:43No, a friend of yours. Poppy, is it?
0:09:49 > 0:09:52You need to get rid of her... Please, Karen.
0:09:52 > 0:09:55I'm not doing your dirty work, if you don't want to see her,
0:09:55 > 0:09:57you get rid of her yourself.
0:10:07 > 0:10:10Whoa... Have you any idea how serious this is?
0:10:10 > 0:10:13- What's the matter, no-one can see us. - My colleague has already seen us!
0:10:13 > 0:10:16What are you doing, coming to my work. You're 15, Poppy!
0:10:16 > 0:10:18- Nearly 16... - You think that makes any difference?
0:10:18 > 0:10:21I've slept with a 15-year-old. I could lose my job over this!
0:10:21 > 0:10:23It's not like you forced me, I knew what I was doing.
0:10:25 > 0:10:28- And I'd do it again... - No! That's not going to happen.
0:10:28 > 0:10:30I don't see why it's such a big deal.
0:10:30 > 0:10:32We're both consenting adults.
0:10:32 > 0:10:34That's just it, you're not an adult.
0:10:34 > 0:10:36You're underage - whether you wanted to do it or not,
0:10:36 > 0:10:38it's still statutory rape.
0:10:38 > 0:10:41OK, well, if someone asks, I'll say it wasn't.
0:10:41 > 0:10:43Legally you're too young to know the difference.
0:10:43 > 0:10:45I could go to prison over this.
0:10:45 > 0:10:47Don't be ridiculous, you won't go to prison.
0:10:47 > 0:10:48Can't you get it through your head?
0:10:48 > 0:10:51I broke the law!
0:10:51 > 0:10:52OK. I get it.
0:10:54 > 0:10:56We'll just have to make sure no-one finds out, then.
0:11:00 > 0:11:04So... Where you going for this fancy lunch of yours?
0:11:04 > 0:11:07I assure you, it has absolutely nothing to do with you.
0:11:07 > 0:11:09I'm not daft, I know you only said it
0:11:09 > 0:11:11so you didn't have to eat with me.
0:11:11 > 0:11:15See, I don't understand why some people can't be honest.
0:11:15 > 0:11:17I don't want to do something, I just say I don't want to do it.
0:11:17 > 0:11:20You wouldn't catch me coming out with some tosh about
0:11:20 > 0:11:21going out for lunch.
0:11:21 > 0:11:23Come on you, get your coat, you've pulled!
0:11:31 > 0:11:33The hotel's in your name, so that's OK,
0:11:33 > 0:11:35they won't need to see my passport.
0:11:35 > 0:11:38You don't seriously think we're still going to Paris?
0:11:39 > 0:11:41But I was looking forward to it...
0:11:41 > 0:11:43Why didn't you tell me how old you were?
0:11:43 > 0:11:46Why did YOU tell me you work in the music industry?
0:11:46 > 0:11:47Because I thought it sounded cool.
0:11:47 > 0:11:49If you're going to lie about having a cool job,
0:11:49 > 0:11:51make it proper cool, not like 'dad cool'.
0:11:51 > 0:11:53OK, so I'm a vain,
0:11:53 > 0:11:55pathetic idiot who wanted to sound cooler than he is.
0:11:55 > 0:11:57But your lie could put me in prison.
0:11:59 > 0:12:01I'm sorry Poppy, but this ends now.
0:12:03 > 0:12:06You'll thank me in the long run.
0:12:06 > 0:12:09I'm a doctor, I'm in a position of trust. If I have a
0:12:09 > 0:12:14relationship with an underage girl, then I'm violating that trust.
0:12:14 > 0:12:16But I thought you liked me?
0:12:19 > 0:12:20You're a really sweet girl.
0:12:21 > 0:12:25Any guy your age would be happy to have you as a girlfriend.
0:12:25 > 0:12:28I don't want anyone my age. I want you!
0:12:28 > 0:12:30I'm sorry, that's not going to happen.
0:12:33 > 0:12:38No more texts, no more presents, no more coming to see me.
0:12:38 > 0:12:40Do you understand?
0:12:47 > 0:12:49Mmm... Beats a shop-bought sarnie any day.
0:12:49 > 0:12:52You know, you couldn't have timed it better.
0:12:52 > 0:12:54Why? You feeling low?
0:12:54 > 0:12:58No, not at all, but I have never been so glad to get away from the surgery.
0:12:58 > 0:13:01That man has been sitting there all morning, irritating the
0:13:01 > 0:13:06patients. He could have seen Dr Granger 100 times but oh, no!
0:13:06 > 0:13:08He wanted to see Dr Carmichael.
0:13:08 > 0:13:11You'd think he had better things to do.
0:13:12 > 0:13:15So you would think, but he is not interested in anything.
0:13:15 > 0:13:19Except complaining. And all that he enjoys doing!
0:13:19 > 0:13:24I had to pretend I had lunch plans to avoid having lunch with him!
0:13:24 > 0:13:25He invited you for lunch?
0:13:26 > 0:13:29No, I am sure he did not really mean it. Thank you.
0:13:29 > 0:13:32He fancies you.
0:13:32 > 0:13:36Not at all, he is just lonely, that is all.
0:13:36 > 0:13:37And I am not surprised -
0:13:37 > 0:13:41he cannot have many friends with an attitude like that.
0:13:41 > 0:13:43Maybe he just wanted some company.
0:13:45 > 0:13:48Do not give me that look.
0:13:48 > 0:13:50I'm just surprised, that's all.
0:13:50 > 0:13:53A lonely fella, just wants some company, asks you for lunch
0:13:53 > 0:13:54and you lied.
0:13:54 > 0:13:56It's not like you at all.
0:13:56 > 0:13:58I resent your accusation, Mrs Hollins.
0:13:58 > 0:14:01And I hope you're not trying to insinuate that I have somehow
0:14:01 > 0:14:03behaved in an inappropriate manner.
0:14:05 > 0:14:08If you have, I will wish you good day.
0:14:08 > 0:14:11And I will spend the rest of my lunch break with a true friend.
0:14:13 > 0:14:15Someone who is not so quick to judge.
0:14:20 > 0:14:23SHE GROANS
0:14:23 > 0:14:24- Sh, you're OK, you're OK.- Oh!
0:14:24 > 0:14:27You're OK, it was just a dream.
0:14:27 > 0:14:29Do you remember what it was about?
0:14:29 > 0:14:33Same as always - it's like the build-up to the attack only
0:14:33 > 0:14:36it's not, cos I know what's coming and I can't stop it!
0:14:38 > 0:14:40It's even worse when I'm awake.
0:14:41 > 0:14:45- You still getting flashbacks? - They're getting worse.
0:14:45 > 0:14:48It's like I'm back there, she's hitting me,
0:14:48 > 0:14:51and I'm on the floor. I can feel the grit
0:14:51 > 0:14:57grazing my scalp like it's real, it's actually happening.
0:14:57 > 0:15:00And it keeps happening, and there's nothing I can do to stop it.
0:15:02 > 0:15:04Sh... First step to dealing with them is
0:15:04 > 0:15:07to find out what's triggering them.
0:15:07 > 0:15:11Are they more likely to come at a certain place or time?
0:15:11 > 0:15:13They come any time.
0:15:13 > 0:15:18Worse when I've had a drink maybe, more vivid.
0:15:18 > 0:15:21There's a lot of empties in the kitchen for one person.
0:15:23 > 0:15:26The first glass helps. Stops me thinking about it.
0:15:27 > 0:15:29What about the second glass?
0:15:31 > 0:15:35OK. So, we identify the triggers.
0:15:35 > 0:15:37Cut out the ones we can and the ones that you can't,
0:15:37 > 0:15:39find a way to manage them.
0:15:39 > 0:15:43Some people find that writing things down works.
0:15:43 > 0:15:45Works out how they feel inside.
0:15:47 > 0:15:49Thank you. For everything you've done.
0:15:49 > 0:15:52I really appreciate it.
0:15:52 > 0:15:54I wish I could do more.
0:15:54 > 0:15:56You coming here, sitting here,
0:15:56 > 0:15:59talking to me - you don't have to do any of that.
0:15:59 > 0:16:01It means a lot.
0:16:01 > 0:16:03I just want to get you back to normal.
0:16:04 > 0:16:08That night in the club, you seemed so carefree.
0:16:09 > 0:16:12Happy. I just want to get you back to that.
0:16:26 > 0:16:28I can't, I'm sorry.
0:16:33 > 0:16:36It's not just my imagination though, is it?
0:16:37 > 0:16:41There's something there - that night in the club, we both felt it.
0:16:41 > 0:16:44Yeah, I know. But you're a patient now.
0:16:44 > 0:16:47It wouldn't be right.
0:16:49 > 0:16:52Even if I'm not here, you've got my number.
0:16:53 > 0:16:57If you ever need anything, if you've just had a flashback or just
0:16:57 > 0:17:01need someone to scream at, call me, yeah.
0:17:03 > 0:17:05Thank you.
0:17:05 > 0:17:07I'm just going to nip to the shop and get us some milk.
0:17:20 > 0:17:23Sorry. Must look dead immature, crying like this.
0:17:25 > 0:17:30You know I'm 16 in, like, a couple of weeks?
0:17:30 > 0:17:32I know.
0:17:32 > 0:17:36So if we'd met after my birthday, would it still be illegal then?
0:17:36 > 0:17:38Poppy...
0:17:38 > 0:17:40It's OK, I get it.
0:17:41 > 0:17:45If the circumstances were different, if we'd met
0:17:45 > 0:17:49when you were older, then I'd been proud to take you to Paris.
0:17:54 > 0:17:56Poppy...
0:17:58 > 0:18:00You're not going to say anything, are you?
0:18:54 > 0:18:57HE CLEARS HIS THROAT
0:19:00 > 0:19:02HE COUGHS LOUDLY
0:19:05 > 0:19:07HE COUGHS
0:19:11 > 0:19:12Mr Brannigan.
0:19:12 > 0:19:13Walter.
0:19:15 > 0:19:17'Sense of community', you said.
0:19:18 > 0:19:21Some sense of community - there's nobody here!
0:19:21 > 0:19:23It is the middle of the day.
0:19:23 > 0:19:27I see, so community's just for weekends and evenings, is it?
0:19:35 > 0:19:37What shall we do, then?
0:19:37 > 0:19:40I choose to sit in peaceful contemplation.
0:19:40 > 0:19:45I suggest you do the same or go find something else to fill your time.
0:19:45 > 0:19:46Keep your hair on.
0:19:46 > 0:19:48If you're always this welcoming,
0:19:48 > 0:19:51it's no wonder church attendance has dropped.
0:19:51 > 0:19:55What happened to all you religious freaks trying to convert everybody?
0:19:58 > 0:20:03For your information, we religious freaks have absolutely no
0:20:03 > 0:20:07interest in forcibly recruiting anyone.
0:20:07 > 0:20:09Least of all objectionable time wasters who have no
0:20:09 > 0:20:13consideration for other people's peace and solitude.
0:20:13 > 0:20:18The church is not a drop-in centre for the bored. It is for believers.
0:20:18 > 0:20:21So if you do not mind, perhaps you could stop following me
0:20:21 > 0:20:23and leave me to pray in peace!
0:20:27 > 0:20:30Oh, well, I won't waste any more of your time, then.
0:20:55 > 0:20:58Remember me?
0:21:01 > 0:21:04You'd've thought you'd learned your lesson after last time.
0:21:04 > 0:21:06Oh, you want to teach me a lesson? Like you taught Catriona?
0:21:06 > 0:21:13That's the name of the girl you hit - Catriona.
0:21:13 > 0:21:17What's the matter, do you prefer it when they're nameless?
0:21:17 > 0:21:20Do I look like I give one?
0:21:20 > 0:21:24You've made her life a misery, and you don't even care!
0:21:24 > 0:21:26Oh, serves her right!
0:21:26 > 0:21:30What, because she's gay? What is your problem?
0:21:37 > 0:21:40Sorry I called you a liar.
0:21:41 > 0:21:43Apology accepted.
0:21:51 > 0:21:53Tell me to mind me own business.
0:21:53 > 0:21:55But you seem a bit different, lately.
0:21:55 > 0:21:57You don't have to talk about it,
0:21:57 > 0:22:00but whatever it is, don't let it change you.
0:22:00 > 0:22:03Cos you're like the most helpful, generous person I've ever met.
0:22:03 > 0:22:08Sticking my nose in, 'helping' where help is not wanted?
0:22:08 > 0:22:10No, I have no desire to be a busybody.
0:22:10 > 0:22:12You're not a busybody.
0:22:12 > 0:22:17Sounds like this bloke needs help.
0:22:17 > 0:22:20Why else would he spend all morning in a doctors' surgery?
0:22:20 > 0:22:24He has just been here, actually.
0:22:24 > 0:22:27He wanted to find what the church had to offer.
0:22:27 > 0:22:30There you go!
0:22:30 > 0:22:33I told him the church was just for believers.
0:22:33 > 0:22:37I do not think that! The church is for everyone.
0:22:37 > 0:22:39And yet I sent him away.
0:22:42 > 0:22:45Seems to me like he's just a miserable,
0:22:45 > 0:22:48lonely old bloke who doesn't want to be lonely any more.
0:22:48 > 0:22:53And grumpy. Very, very grumpy.
0:22:53 > 0:22:56Maybe that's it, maybe that's why he needs help.
0:22:57 > 0:22:58He wants to find friends,
0:22:58 > 0:23:01but he's such a grumpy old sod, he doesn't know how to do it.
0:23:13 > 0:23:16Haven't you got the message?
0:23:17 > 0:23:22There was this kid that lived round the corner from me,
0:23:22 > 0:23:25he used to spit on my PE bag because I was mixed race.
0:23:27 > 0:23:31I must have been about 15, 16?
0:23:32 > 0:23:34Same age as Catriona's daughter.
0:23:34 > 0:23:37Eugh, she's got a daughter?
0:23:37 > 0:23:40I could never understand why he picked on me for something
0:23:40 > 0:23:43I had no control over?
0:23:43 > 0:23:46It's like having a go at her cos she's got blonde hair.
0:23:46 > 0:23:48Or him cos he's a bit on the short side.
0:23:49 > 0:23:52So what you're saying is being queer is like being short?
0:23:52 > 0:23:54No! I am not saying that.
0:23:56 > 0:23:58We do not get to choose what we are.
0:23:58 > 0:24:01But we do get to choose what we do.
0:24:01 > 0:24:04That's more important than the stuff we're born with.
0:24:14 > 0:24:16OK, goodbye.
0:24:16 > 0:24:19Is Dr Carmichael ready to see me?
0:24:19 > 0:24:21Or are you going to make me wait again?
0:24:21 > 0:24:24You are first in the queue.
0:24:24 > 0:24:27Before you go? I would like to give you this.
0:24:30 > 0:24:32"Invitation"? Invitation to what?
0:24:32 > 0:24:35My church is holding a charity dinner.
0:24:35 > 0:24:39I have helped to organise it and I would be honoured
0:24:39 > 0:24:41if you would agree to be my plus one.
0:24:43 > 0:24:47There will be a nine course taster menu of Scandinavian food,
0:24:47 > 0:24:50and as you like cooking, I thought you'd be interested.
0:24:52 > 0:24:55Suppose we'll be on a table with loads of churchy types.
0:24:55 > 0:24:59You have my assurance nobody will want to convert you.
0:24:59 > 0:25:02I'm not good with dill, I'm not eating any dill.
0:25:02 > 0:25:04No-one is going to try to make you eat dill.
0:25:05 > 0:25:08Hmm, see you there then!
0:25:08 > 0:25:107:30, on the dot.
0:25:12 > 0:25:14Won't your partner mind you having dinner with some
0:25:14 > 0:25:17strange bloke?
0:25:18 > 0:25:21I am sure she will understand, Walter.
0:25:28 > 0:25:31So what about your school? Were you bullied?
0:25:35 > 0:25:37What do you think?
0:25:37 > 0:25:41I think that being the odd one out makes you a target.
0:25:41 > 0:25:44No matter how tough you are.
0:25:44 > 0:25:47All you want when you're a kid's to fit in, be like everyone else.
0:25:49 > 0:25:51Easier said than done for some of us.
0:25:52 > 0:25:54Maybe me and you aren't so different after all.
0:25:56 > 0:25:57What's that thing they say,
0:25:57 > 0:26:02about looking for the similarities instead of differences?
0:26:03 > 0:26:06Yeah, even you and Catriona - bet you've got more in common
0:26:06 > 0:26:07than you realise.
0:26:07 > 0:26:09How do you mean?
0:26:09 > 0:26:12You've grown up in the same area, probably went through
0:26:12 > 0:26:15the same schools, probably even got drunk at the same pubs.
0:26:17 > 0:26:18Who you fall in love with
0:26:18 > 0:26:21really doesn't make you that different.
0:26:33 > 0:26:39You compare me to that freak? What she is, it's disgusting.
0:26:39 > 0:26:44It goes against nature and perverts like that aren't welcome round here.
0:26:46 > 0:26:49It might do you well to remember that yourself.
0:26:50 > 0:26:53Thanks for the chat.
0:27:07 > 0:27:09- What was I thinking? - More like what were you drinking?
0:27:09 > 0:27:12Four glasses of red was all it took to forget your missus.
0:27:12 > 0:27:13I met a woman in a bar last night.
0:27:13 > 0:27:16- And? - I took her home and slept with her.
0:27:16 > 0:27:17No way!
0:27:17 > 0:27:19Well, they take a few weeks before they start working.
0:27:19 > 0:27:24I need something now, I need something to tide me over.
0:27:24 > 0:27:27Are you looking for yourself or is it for your mother?