0:00:27 > 0:00:29BEEPING
0:00:41 > 0:00:45BEEPING STOPS
0:02:15 > 0:02:17Is everything all right?
0:02:17 > 0:02:22I've lost the, um... I can't find my...my letter.
0:02:22 > 0:02:23Which letter?
0:02:23 > 0:02:28The appointment letter. It was here, it was right here.
0:02:28 > 0:02:30I'm meant to have a biopsy today.
0:02:30 > 0:02:33OK, in that case we'll have you on the system.
0:02:33 > 0:02:35May I take your name?
0:02:35 > 0:02:36Your name?
0:02:36 > 0:02:40Valerie. Pitman. Valerie Pitman.
0:02:40 > 0:02:41All right, Valerie.
0:02:41 > 0:02:43I've seen a haematologist, Dr Papadopolous,
0:02:43 > 0:02:46and he referred me to the radiology department.
0:02:46 > 0:02:48It's all in the letter.
0:02:48 > 0:02:50It's fine, we don't need the letter.
0:02:50 > 0:02:52You're in the right place, that's the important thing.
0:02:52 > 0:02:55You wait here and I'll get you signed in, all right?
0:03:23 > 0:03:25Valerie?
0:03:25 > 0:03:27Let me just pop this on for you.
0:03:27 > 0:03:31There you go. New fashion accessory.
0:03:31 > 0:03:33We just need to do some checks, blood pressure, pulse,
0:03:33 > 0:03:35that sort of thing.
0:03:35 > 0:03:37And we'll get you changed into a gown.
0:03:37 > 0:03:40I'm Nurse Jacob, by the way. You can call me Nina.
0:03:40 > 0:03:42Would you like to follow me?
0:03:47 > 0:03:48You can change in here
0:03:48 > 0:03:51and just pop your clothes in one of the lockers when you're done.
0:03:51 > 0:03:52What about my shoes?
0:03:52 > 0:03:53Just leave them on.
0:03:53 > 0:03:55Should I have brought slippers?
0:03:55 > 0:03:57Some people do, but you'll be fine in those.
0:03:57 > 0:04:00Won't it look odd wearing these with a gown?
0:04:00 > 0:04:01I should have brought slippers.
0:04:01 > 0:04:03Why didn't anybody tell me to bring slippers?
0:04:03 > 0:04:07Valerie, you don't need slippers, honestly. Don't worry, all right?
0:04:07 > 0:04:10Just get undressed and I'll be back in a few minutes.
0:04:58 > 0:05:00Ayesha Lee?
0:05:01 > 0:05:04Sorry, do I know you?
0:05:04 > 0:05:07Churchill Estate.
0:05:07 > 0:05:09Oh, Lydia Randall.
0:05:09 > 0:05:13I'm sorry, you just look so different.
0:05:13 > 0:05:16Do I? You haven't changed a bit.
0:05:17 > 0:05:20Anyway, what you up to these days?
0:05:20 > 0:05:21Still living with your mum?
0:05:21 > 0:05:24Actually, I live round here.
0:05:24 > 0:05:27Really? Good for you.
0:05:28 > 0:05:30Anyway, don't let me stop your run.
0:05:30 > 0:05:31Lovely to see you again.
0:05:32 > 0:05:35Oh, look at my bum, don't you just love it?
0:05:37 > 0:05:38What?!
0:05:45 > 0:05:48This place is like a maze if you don't know where you're going.
0:05:48 > 0:05:50That's why I always come and fetch people.
0:05:50 > 0:05:52We've had patients go missing for hours.
0:05:52 > 0:05:56Wondering around in a draughty gown, it's not what you want, is it?
0:05:56 > 0:05:58My old work was like that.
0:05:58 > 0:05:59At the PCT, such as it was.
0:05:59 > 0:06:00Ah.
0:06:00 > 0:06:02Oh, I could tell you some stories.
0:06:02 > 0:06:05See, the building sort of went round in a big loop.
0:06:05 > 0:06:07It was like being inside a giant doughnut.
0:06:07 > 0:06:09We used to take bets on newcomers,
0:06:09 > 0:06:12how many circuits they'd do before they found the right door.
0:06:12 > 0:06:13Almost there.
0:06:18 > 0:06:19This way.
0:06:22 > 0:06:24Here we go, just take a seat for a minute
0:06:24 > 0:06:26and I'll let you know when it's time.
0:06:26 > 0:06:28I thought I was going in now.
0:06:28 > 0:06:30Not just yet, I'm afraid. Bit of a backlog, sorry.
0:06:30 > 0:06:33Well, you know how it is.
0:06:33 > 0:06:35Something for you to fill out while you wait.
0:06:35 > 0:06:37It's just to confirm your name and date of birth.
0:06:37 > 0:06:40And also we need to double check your medical history.
0:06:40 > 0:06:44Any allergies or medication you might be on. OK?
0:06:44 > 0:06:45I'll leave you to it.
0:06:58 > 0:07:02So, they were showing us how to experiment with framing, right?
0:07:02 > 0:07:04- Uh-huh.- It's about choosing your focal point.
0:07:04 > 0:07:06If you want to create a really powerful image,
0:07:06 > 0:07:08you take the subject and place it dead central in the frame.
0:07:08 > 0:07:10But maybe that's a little bit obvious.
0:07:10 > 0:07:14Maybe you want to challenge the viewer, so instead of putting your subject in the centre of the frame
0:07:14 > 0:07:18you put it in the side of the frame, then you're breaking the rule of thirds.
0:07:18 > 0:07:21Did they mention anything about breaking the rule of friendship?
0:07:21 > 0:07:24I listen to you talking about gadgets.
0:07:24 > 0:07:26Fair enough. Listen.
0:07:26 > 0:07:29I'm really pleased that you've found this. I am. Well done.
0:07:29 > 0:07:31My pleasure. See you soon.
0:07:37 > 0:07:40What? I went for a run earlier, I nearly killed myself.
0:07:40 > 0:07:43Another runner injures themselves!
0:07:43 > 0:07:45I speak, but you don't listen.
0:07:56 > 0:07:58You'll get used to it.
0:07:58 > 0:07:59Sorry?
0:07:59 > 0:08:00The waiting.
0:08:04 > 0:08:05Flapjack?
0:08:05 > 0:08:06No, thank you.
0:08:06 > 0:08:09They're home-made. Gluten free.
0:08:09 > 0:08:12Thanks.
0:08:12 > 0:08:13I'm Claire.
0:08:13 > 0:08:15Valerie.
0:08:15 > 0:08:19This your first time running the gauntlet?
0:08:19 > 0:08:21I'm just having a few tests done.
0:08:21 > 0:08:23Hopefully, that's all it'll be.
0:08:25 > 0:08:27Me? I've not been so lucky.
0:08:27 > 0:08:29So you have...
0:08:29 > 0:08:34Had it. Beat it. Got it again. Beat that.
0:08:34 > 0:08:37And now we're back for more fun.
0:08:38 > 0:08:40Just tests this time, same as you.
0:08:41 > 0:08:44But when you get to my enviable position,
0:08:44 > 0:08:47you're pretty much always expecting it to come back.
0:08:47 > 0:08:49But hey, I'm up for the fight.
0:08:49 > 0:08:53Bring it on, Big C, time for round three.
0:08:59 > 0:09:01Take a seat, I'll be with you in a...
0:09:01 > 0:09:03Hello.
0:09:03 > 0:09:04Can I help?
0:09:04 > 0:09:06I certainly hope so.
0:09:06 > 0:09:08My name's Lydia Randall. I'm a motivational speaker.
0:09:08 > 0:09:10Really? Wow.
0:09:10 > 0:09:12The University's hosting a series of talks today.
0:09:12 > 0:09:14It's organised by The Student Union
0:09:14 > 0:09:16and The Letherbridge Women's Society,
0:09:16 > 0:09:20to promote a more holistic approach to health and happiness.
0:09:20 > 0:09:22What are you doing here?
0:09:22 > 0:09:24Ayesha.
0:09:24 > 0:09:25Are you a nurse?
0:09:25 > 0:09:27Er, yes. What are you?
0:09:27 > 0:09:29She's a motivational speaker.
0:09:29 > 0:09:30Jimmi?
0:09:30 > 0:09:33She's a motivational speaker.
0:09:33 > 0:09:35Ah. Very motivating!
0:09:36 > 0:09:39I've been invited to give a lunchtime talk and I was
0:09:39 > 0:09:42hoping you could pass some of these out to some of the students.
0:09:42 > 0:09:45Sorry, we don't allow advertising in a doctor's surgery.
0:09:45 > 0:09:47Yeah, yeah, yeah, course we can.
0:09:47 > 0:09:49Yeah, we do. Leave as many as you want.
0:09:49 > 0:09:50What is it anyway?
0:09:51 > 0:09:55- I doubt it would interest you, Ayesha.- Oh.
0:09:55 > 0:09:56Thank you, gentlemen.
0:09:56 > 0:09:58Thank you.
0:10:03 > 0:10:07Can you believe cancer turned me into a bit of a chef?
0:10:07 > 0:10:10It's true, in my old life I could barely boil an egg,
0:10:10 > 0:10:14it was all ready-meals and takeaways.
0:10:14 > 0:10:16But once I realised there were certain foods that actively
0:10:16 > 0:10:19help your body fight the disease, I was hooked.
0:10:19 > 0:10:22Now everything I make is packed with anti-cancer molecules,
0:10:22 > 0:10:26anti-inflammatory flavonoids, carotenoids, it's ridiculous.
0:10:26 > 0:10:29So food can help you fight it?
0:10:29 > 0:10:30Absolutely.
0:10:30 > 0:10:34Green tea can stop cancer cells from growing, for instance.
0:10:34 > 0:10:38Cabbages, sprouts, broccoli, all really, really good.
0:10:38 > 0:10:40Just don't boil them.
0:10:40 > 0:10:41All the brightly coloured fruits
0:10:41 > 0:10:45and veg contain vitamin A and lycopene, they fight cancer.
0:10:45 > 0:10:47Honestly, there's too many to list.
0:10:49 > 0:10:51If you like, I could e-mail you some recipes.
0:10:51 > 0:10:52Oh, no, that's all right.
0:10:52 > 0:10:56It's no trouble, people here swap recipes all the time.
0:10:56 > 0:11:00There's an online group, actually, so we can keep track of how
0:11:00 > 0:11:05everybody's doing, or message each other if somebody doesn't make it.
0:11:05 > 0:11:09But it's a lot of fun too, we share all sorts,
0:11:09 > 0:11:11mostly a sick sense of humour.
0:11:12 > 0:11:17All jokes aside, though, you can find tips on how to deal with chemo,
0:11:17 > 0:11:21hair loss, anything you need to know.
0:11:21 > 0:11:22I might not need to know it.
0:11:24 > 0:11:26You're right.
0:11:27 > 0:11:32But if the worst does happen, you're going to need people around you.
0:11:32 > 0:11:34Do you have family, Valerie?
0:11:34 > 0:11:40Yes. Yeah, yeah, I have a big family. Friends.
0:11:40 > 0:11:43And I'm engaged to be married. His name's Ashley.
0:11:44 > 0:11:48Oh, he wanted to be here today, but he's away on business.
0:11:48 > 0:11:51I'm glad you have someone.
0:11:51 > 0:11:56I do, too. I have a lovely husband, two wonderful little boys.
0:11:57 > 0:11:59But they don't have cancer.
0:12:01 > 0:12:04And I'm glad of that, of course I am,
0:12:04 > 0:12:07but it can feel very lonely, Valerie.
0:12:07 > 0:12:10All I'm saying is, we're here.
0:12:15 > 0:12:19Oh, hey, I'm making tea. Would you like one?
0:12:19 > 0:12:20I'd love one.
0:12:20 > 0:12:23I've just had a lovely text from Chris.
0:12:23 > 0:12:28He's been doing it a lot lately. Texting, calling, since Howard.
0:12:30 > 0:12:33Well, at least one good thing's come out of it.
0:12:33 > 0:12:35I miss him like crazy.
0:12:35 > 0:12:36Come here.
0:12:38 > 0:12:43Meeting Amelia, it was good, but to be honest it just reminded me that
0:12:43 > 0:12:47my own son lives on the other side of the world and I never see him.
0:12:48 > 0:12:49I understand.
0:12:49 > 0:12:52You want to be around your family, of course you do.
0:12:52 > 0:12:54Why don't you?
0:12:55 > 0:12:57Why don't I what?
0:12:57 > 0:13:00Invite Chris over for Christmas. I'm sure he would.
0:13:00 > 0:13:02I'd love to meet him.
0:13:02 > 0:13:06That's a great idea. I'm going to call him now.
0:13:06 > 0:13:07Yeah.
0:13:09 > 0:13:11That's Noah. He's seven.
0:13:11 > 0:13:14And that's Ethan, who just turned five.
0:13:14 > 0:13:15They're lovely.
0:13:15 > 0:13:19They may look lovely, but they're a right pair of little monkeys.
0:13:19 > 0:13:22And that's my husband John.
0:13:22 > 0:13:27I know he's not much to look at, but he's been my rock, he really has.
0:13:27 > 0:13:30Stuck by me through the worst of it.
0:13:30 > 0:13:34Oh, that's just our cat, I'll spare you pictures of him too.
0:13:34 > 0:13:36Right, your turn.
0:13:36 > 0:13:39Your fiance. You must have a picture.
0:13:39 > 0:13:41Valerie? We're ready for you now.
0:13:41 > 0:13:42How was your birthday, Nina?
0:13:42 > 0:13:44Really good. Quiet, but good.
0:13:44 > 0:13:48I got the card you left, by the way. Thanks very much, Claire.
0:13:48 > 0:13:49My pleasure.
0:13:49 > 0:13:50Ready to go?
0:13:50 > 0:13:52Good luck, Valerie.
0:13:52 > 0:13:54Oh. Same to you.
0:13:57 > 0:13:59Bless her. First time.
0:14:01 > 0:14:04- Flapjack?- Thank you.
0:14:05 > 0:14:08The radiologist's on his way. He'll explain everything.
0:14:08 > 0:14:10Will you be here?
0:14:10 > 0:14:11Yes, don't worry.
0:14:11 > 0:14:14And if there's anything you don't understand, just ask.
0:14:14 > 0:14:16Good afternoon. I'm Dr Mukisa.
0:14:18 > 0:14:19Miss Pitman, yes?
0:14:19 > 0:14:20That's right.
0:14:20 > 0:14:24You are here for a core biopsy of tissue from the neck.
0:14:24 > 0:14:26I am going to inject a local anaesthetic
0:14:26 > 0:14:28and then make an incision into your neck.
0:14:28 > 0:14:31I will then insert a needle and take a sample of tissue.
0:14:31 > 0:14:33You understand?
0:14:33 > 0:14:34Yes.
0:14:34 > 0:14:37Even though it is a safe procedure, there are some
0:14:37 > 0:14:39risks from infection and bleeding.
0:14:39 > 0:14:40But the risks are small
0:14:40 > 0:14:42and you are advised to go ahead with the procedure.
0:14:42 > 0:14:45Do you agree to proceed?
0:14:45 > 0:14:46Um, yes.
0:14:46 > 0:14:48Any questions?
0:14:48 > 0:14:49No.
0:14:49 > 0:14:52Then please read the consent form carefully and sign it.
0:14:55 > 0:14:58He's a little scary, I know, but he's very thorough.
0:14:58 > 0:14:59You're in safe hands.
0:15:08 > 0:15:12- Come on!- You made your feelings perfectly clear.
0:15:12 > 0:15:14Please, Jimmi, tell me more about framing.
0:15:14 > 0:15:16I'm really interested in framing.
0:15:16 > 0:15:18I need new friends.
0:15:18 > 0:15:21Guys, I'm going to go to this. I'll be back after lunch.
0:15:21 > 0:15:22You off to see lovely Lydia?
0:15:22 > 0:15:25- Can we come?- Oh, give it a rest.
0:15:25 > 0:15:26Al said you knew her from when you grew up.
0:15:26 > 0:15:29Sort of. I don't know her that well.
0:15:29 > 0:15:30Is it true she used to be obese?
0:15:30 > 0:15:32Yeah. She was massive.
0:15:32 > 0:15:33She is massively lovely.
0:15:33 > 0:15:35You should say that to her,
0:15:35 > 0:15:37because if you did she would fall in love with you for sure.
0:15:37 > 0:15:39Oh, what, and you reckon you've got a chance?
0:15:39 > 0:15:42- More chance than you have.- If you ask me, you could both do better.
0:15:42 > 0:15:44She's turned into a total cow.
0:15:44 > 0:15:46If you hate her so much, why're you going to see her talk?
0:15:46 > 0:15:47Just curious.
0:15:51 > 0:15:53Please turn your head to the left.
0:15:53 > 0:15:56OK, Valerie, we're just going to clean the area for the procedure.
0:15:56 > 0:15:58This may feel a little cold.
0:16:04 > 0:16:09This is the local anaesthetic. You will feel a slight scratch.
0:16:09 > 0:16:10You're doing really well.
0:16:17 > 0:16:21Which brings me to number three on my list.
0:16:21 > 0:16:25Be your own drill sergeant.
0:16:26 > 0:16:29Shedding those pounds isn't easy.
0:16:29 > 0:16:34There's always a voice inside your head telling you to quit.
0:16:34 > 0:16:36You know the voice, right?
0:16:36 > 0:16:37I know you do.
0:16:37 > 0:16:42It's that voice telling you it's OK to eat between meals,
0:16:42 > 0:16:46or to skip a visit to the gym, because it's a nice day outside.
0:16:46 > 0:16:49Or because it's a terrible day outside.
0:16:49 > 0:16:55It's a pretty persuasive voice, right? A pretty powerful one.
0:16:55 > 0:17:01Well, what if you could harness that power?
0:17:01 > 0:17:04What if you could make that voice work for you,
0:17:04 > 0:17:07instead of against you?
0:17:07 > 0:17:11What if that voice said, "Stop feeling sorry for yourself
0:17:11 > 0:17:13"and work for those goals.
0:17:13 > 0:17:15"You can do it!"
0:17:15 > 0:17:19A lot of people think, "Look at Lydia,
0:17:19 > 0:17:21"she's obviously had work done.
0:17:21 > 0:17:24"She must've had surgery to look the way she does."
0:17:25 > 0:17:32No nips, no tucks. No Botox. No liposuction.
0:17:32 > 0:17:34OK, a bit of make-up.
0:17:34 > 0:17:36And a damn good push-up bra.
0:17:36 > 0:17:43But the rest is all me. From 18 stone to eight.
0:17:43 > 0:17:46And how did I do it?
0:17:47 > 0:17:52With the help of that little drill sergeant in my head.
0:17:54 > 0:17:57I'm about to make the incision.
0:17:57 > 0:18:00Just try to relax, you won't feel any pain.
0:18:09 > 0:18:11You will hear a clicking sound, like this.
0:18:16 > 0:18:18I'm about to insert the needle.
0:18:18 > 0:18:21You will feel a slight pressure.
0:18:28 > 0:18:31I am taking the biopsy now.
0:18:31 > 0:18:34Nearly there, Valerie. You're doing brilliantly.
0:18:42 > 0:18:43One more.
0:18:58 > 0:18:59You can dress the wound now.
0:18:59 > 0:19:01Yes, doctor.
0:19:03 > 0:19:04Is that it?
0:19:04 > 0:19:06That's it.
0:19:12 > 0:19:15Number seven. Life is tough.
0:19:17 > 0:19:18Be tougher.
0:19:19 > 0:19:24When I was 12 years old, I was in a terrible car accident.
0:19:26 > 0:19:28I was in the back seat of my parent's car
0:19:28 > 0:19:32when a drunk driver slammed into the side of us.
0:19:32 > 0:19:34My mum and dad weren't hurt, thankfully.
0:19:34 > 0:19:36But I wasn't so lucky.
0:19:36 > 0:19:40My back was broken in two places,
0:19:40 > 0:19:43and I had to wear a steel back brace for over a year.
0:19:44 > 0:19:48That's when the weight gain started. I couldn't exercise.
0:19:48 > 0:19:51I couldn't go out with my friends.
0:19:51 > 0:19:56Pretty soon, I had no friends. People called me names...
0:19:57 > 0:20:01..Robocop being a favourite taunt from my estate.
0:20:02 > 0:20:05So I got fatter and fatter,
0:20:05 > 0:20:10and the more I hated myself for being ugly and alone,
0:20:10 > 0:20:13the more ugly and alone I became.
0:20:15 > 0:20:18Like I said...life is tough.
0:20:20 > 0:20:22But I'm tougher.
0:20:28 > 0:20:30How're you feeling?
0:20:30 > 0:20:31- Better.- Good.
0:20:31 > 0:20:35Stay and rest as long as you need, but otherwise you're free to go.
0:20:35 > 0:20:36I think I'll go.
0:20:36 > 0:20:38Leave the plaster on overnight.
0:20:38 > 0:20:41It should be fine to remove it by tomorrow.
0:20:41 > 0:20:43What if it starts bleeding?
0:20:43 > 0:20:45The doctor said it could start bleeding, or get infected.
0:20:45 > 0:20:47That's very unlikely.
0:20:47 > 0:20:50There may be a bit of bruising, but that's normal.
0:20:50 > 0:20:52Call if you have any concerns, all right?
0:20:52 > 0:20:54OK. Thank you.
0:20:54 > 0:20:56Oh. When will I get the results?
0:20:56 > 0:20:59That depends, I'm afraid.
0:20:59 > 0:21:02It'll be sent off to the lab today to be processed.
0:21:02 > 0:21:04But normally, how long?
0:21:04 > 0:21:07It could be a week, maybe more.
0:21:07 > 0:21:11Sorry. It all depends on how many tests are being processed.
0:21:11 > 0:21:14Look, I know it's hard,
0:21:14 > 0:21:17but try to keep your mind off it as much as you can.
0:21:23 > 0:21:28So remember, the power is in your hands.
0:21:28 > 0:21:31Be bold to be beautiful!
0:21:33 > 0:21:34Thank you very much.
0:21:35 > 0:21:37Thanks. Thanks for coming.
0:21:37 > 0:21:42As you can see, I have a DVD available for just 12.99.
0:21:42 > 0:21:46It comes with a free rubber resistance band.
0:21:47 > 0:21:49It also has a bonus disk
0:21:49 > 0:21:53with my very own full cardio workout session for home users.
0:21:56 > 0:21:58Interesting talk.
0:21:58 > 0:22:02Ayesha. I didn't know you were here.
0:22:03 > 0:22:05What did you think?
0:22:05 > 0:22:08I think you've got quite a way with words.
0:22:08 > 0:22:10Are any of them actually true?
0:22:31 > 0:22:34I haven't the slightest idea what you're talking about.
0:22:34 > 0:22:36Really?
0:22:36 > 0:22:38Well, why don't you invite Mandy Atkinson to one of your talks?
0:22:38 > 0:22:40I'm sure she'd love to hear it.
0:22:40 > 0:22:44She's fine, by the way. She lives not too far from here, actually.
0:22:44 > 0:22:46Am I supposed to know who that is?
0:22:46 > 0:22:48You should do, seeing as though you stole her story.
0:22:48 > 0:22:51The car accident, the back brace,
0:22:51 > 0:22:53that happened to Mandy, it didn't happen to you.
0:22:55 > 0:22:56I'm talking to you.
0:22:58 > 0:23:01So I borrowed some of the facts.
0:23:01 > 0:23:05It doesn't make it any less true. It's called showmanship.
0:23:05 > 0:23:07It's called lying, is what it is.
0:23:07 > 0:23:09What I don't understand is why.
0:23:09 > 0:23:11It doesn't make any sense.
0:23:11 > 0:23:15You were overweight back then, and people were mean to you, I remember.
0:23:16 > 0:23:17Why are you even here?
0:23:17 > 0:23:22We're not friends and we never were. Why don't you just get lost?
0:23:22 > 0:23:24I'm not going anywhere until I get an answer.
0:23:24 > 0:23:28Why steal somebody else's story when you can just tell your own?
0:23:28 > 0:23:32Because I was nothing but a stupid little fat girl, that's why!
0:23:32 > 0:23:34Nobody would care.
0:23:34 > 0:23:35I would.
0:23:35 > 0:23:38More than I'd care for someone as fake and as vain as you are now.
0:23:58 > 0:24:00I am fake. Literally.
0:24:02 > 0:24:03What do you mean?
0:24:03 > 0:24:05Look at me.
0:24:05 > 0:24:08I tell people I've never had surgery, well, that's a lie.
0:24:08 > 0:24:11You name it, I've had it done.
0:24:11 > 0:24:14Probably serves me right, but the last one nearly killed me.
0:24:14 > 0:24:18Flew out to Thailand. Surgeon botched it.
0:24:18 > 0:24:20Course, then it got infected.
0:24:20 > 0:24:22That'd be a joke, wouldn't it?
0:24:22 > 0:24:24To die for a tummy tuck.
0:24:24 > 0:24:26No, it wouldn't.
0:24:26 > 0:24:27Well, I'm not laughing, believe me.
0:24:27 > 0:24:32All I have to show for it is an ugly scar, and a huge debt.
0:24:32 > 0:24:36I thought doing this would be a way to pay it off, but,
0:24:36 > 0:24:38if anything, I'm losing money.
0:24:38 > 0:24:39I'm sorry.
0:24:40 > 0:24:43Maybe it's for the best.
0:24:43 > 0:24:45Who am I to give people advice, anyway?
0:24:45 > 0:24:48I've taken just about every diet pill there is.
0:24:48 > 0:24:50Had bulimia.
0:24:50 > 0:24:54Bounced from fat, to thin, to fat, to thin again, like a demented yoyo.
0:24:54 > 0:24:59I just wanted to help people look good.
0:24:59 > 0:25:00Is that so bad?
0:25:00 > 0:25:02Of course not.
0:25:05 > 0:25:07Is the bulimia still a problem?
0:25:07 > 0:25:10No, I've got a handle on that, at least.
0:25:10 > 0:25:13To be honest, since Thailand, I stopped looking for short cuts.
0:25:13 > 0:25:16Nowadays, I keep the weight off the hard way.
0:25:16 > 0:25:18Still sounds easier than the other stuff.
0:25:18 > 0:25:20It is, actually.
0:25:20 > 0:25:23I actually enjoy running now, eating well...
0:25:23 > 0:25:28I feel better about myself now than I've ever done.
0:25:28 > 0:25:30Well, then maybe you're not a fake.
0:25:30 > 0:25:32I mean, if you work hard at staying fit
0:25:32 > 0:25:34and healthy, that's down to you, isn't it?
0:25:34 > 0:25:37I suppose so.
0:25:37 > 0:25:39I should get back to work.
0:25:39 > 0:25:43And if you think your own story's not interesting enough to tell,
0:25:43 > 0:25:44you're wrong.
0:25:44 > 0:25:47People come into the surgery all the time with body image issues.
0:25:47 > 0:25:50I've felt it myself, sometimes still do.
0:25:50 > 0:25:53If you told everyone what you've just told me,
0:25:53 > 0:25:56made them realise they're not alone in how they feel,
0:25:56 > 0:26:00maybe you would make a real difference.
0:26:00 > 0:26:01See ya.
0:26:08 > 0:26:10Did you get hold of Chris?
0:26:10 > 0:26:14Yes, I did. Oh, hello, Valerie. I didn't think you were in today.
0:26:14 > 0:26:16Oh, you know me.
0:26:16 > 0:26:17Can't stay away.
0:26:17 > 0:26:19OK, OK, so what did he say?
0:26:19 > 0:26:21He's not coming for Christmas.
0:26:21 > 0:26:22Oh. That's a shame.
0:26:22 > 0:26:23Not really.
0:26:23 > 0:26:25I'm going there.
0:26:25 > 0:26:28- To Sydney?- Yes! He wants me to stay for two weeks.
0:26:28 > 0:26:30It'll be a proper Christmas break.
0:26:30 > 0:26:32That's fantastic! I am so happy for you.
0:26:32 > 0:26:35I'm so excited, I've already booked the flights.
0:26:35 > 0:26:38It feels so good just to do something impulsive for a change.
0:26:38 > 0:26:40Life's too short.
0:26:40 > 0:26:44I need to go shopping. It's summer over there, isn't it?
0:27:01 > 0:27:04Are we done? I'm beginning to feel like Kate Moss.
0:27:04 > 0:27:05Immaculate Interiors.
0:27:05 > 0:27:06Don't say it.
0:27:06 > 0:27:08- Don't say what?- The house is a mess.
0:27:08 > 0:27:12Oh, is it? I've been too busy reading your Procrastinator's Monthly.
0:27:12 > 0:27:15We'll reconvene tomorrow. Eight o'clock, my place.
0:27:15 > 0:27:16Your place?
0:27:16 > 0:27:19Perhaps we could put his obsession to some more charitable use.
0:27:19 > 0:27:22Who doesn't want a photograph of their vomiting four-year-old?
0:27:22 > 0:27:23Two sugars, please.