0:00:29 > 0:00:32Hi, guys. Work on that slice, yeah?
0:00:35 > 0:00:37You said you were working all day.
0:00:37 > 0:00:39HE SIGHS
0:00:39 > 0:00:41What are you doing here?
0:00:41 > 0:00:43Us... Where are you going?
0:00:43 > 0:00:45To lunch.
0:00:45 > 0:00:49- You're lying. - What I do is none of your business.
0:00:49 > 0:00:51You can't just walk away.
0:00:51 > 0:00:53Things have changed.
0:00:53 > 0:00:56What? Because of this stupid fantasy you have?
0:00:56 > 0:00:58It's not stupid and it's not a fantasy.
0:00:58 > 0:01:01You're 50, not 15!
0:01:01 > 0:01:03And it's time I got a life.
0:01:03 > 0:01:06You have a life. With me. We're good together.
0:01:06 > 0:01:08Leave me alone.
0:01:08 > 0:01:10There must be something we can do.
0:01:10 > 0:01:11There is.
0:01:11 > 0:01:15- You can stop following me. - I'm your wife!
0:01:15 > 0:01:17It's over.
0:01:19 > 0:01:23Right, if you'd like to take a seat.
0:01:23 > 0:01:25Oh. Er... Nurse Lee.
0:01:25 > 0:01:29I am so sorry, but there has been a mix-up with the rota.
0:01:29 > 0:01:32Oh, Mrs T, I'm not giving up my time off. I gave you bags of notice.
0:01:32 > 0:01:34I have organised cover, but unfortunately,
0:01:34 > 0:01:37I forgot to take your name off the rota.
0:01:37 > 0:01:40- So?- If Mr Harker sees that you are not working...
0:01:40 > 0:01:42Tell him you made a mistake.
0:01:42 > 0:01:45Is it not possible for you to take the shift...?
0:01:45 > 0:01:47Because you didn't take my name off the rota?
0:01:47 > 0:01:51I know it is a small matter, but if you have nothing special planned...
0:01:51 > 0:01:53Well, is that no?
0:01:54 > 0:01:56She does my nut in.
0:01:56 > 0:01:57- Who?- Mrs Tembe.
0:01:57 > 0:02:00It's none of her business what I do with my afternoon off.
0:02:00 > 0:02:03- You've got an afternoon off?- Why?
0:02:03 > 0:02:04So have I.
0:02:04 > 0:02:07- Do you want to gate-crash a funeral with me?- A funeral?
0:02:07 > 0:02:09Yeah, I went to one on Wednesday. Well, a few, actually...
0:02:09 > 0:02:11Are you sure you should be doing that?
0:02:11 > 0:02:14- No, it was brilliant. - Is this on?- Yeah, just boiled.
0:02:14 > 0:02:17- Nice people, good food, great music. - Dead bodies...
0:02:17 > 0:02:20People are really warm and...welcoming.
0:02:20 > 0:02:23What kind of drugs have they got you on?
0:02:23 > 0:02:25No, seriously, because the more mourners there are,
0:02:25 > 0:02:28the better the family feel. You can't lose.
0:02:28 > 0:02:32- Unless you're the corpse.- It'll be a right laugh!- Yeah. Right...
0:02:34 > 0:02:37You haven't changed a bit. Apart from the beard, of course.
0:02:37 > 0:02:40Bjorn Borg?! That went out a while ago.
0:02:40 > 0:02:43- Are you still coaching?- 25 years. Same club.- Are you? Wow!
0:02:43 > 0:02:47- You should come down.- Well, I might do. I might come with my boy.
0:02:47 > 0:02:49- How old is he?- He's not quite five.
0:02:49 > 0:02:51- A bit young... Why not?- Yeah. Come through.
0:02:51 > 0:02:54We can have a chat while I'm finishing off.
0:02:54 > 0:02:57- Why is Dr Granger here?- Er...
0:02:57 > 0:03:00He has some paperwork to catch up on.
0:03:00 > 0:03:01Apparently, Baby Joe was...
0:03:01 > 0:03:04According to the rota, he has the day off.
0:03:04 > 0:03:10Yes, but that is not a patient. That is a friend of Dr Granger's.
0:03:10 > 0:03:11Ah, I see.
0:03:18 > 0:03:21I suppose it's a bit difficult with Joe.
0:03:21 > 0:03:24Yeah, been there. They take over your everything.
0:03:24 > 0:03:27- They can do. - Kids, marriage, mortgage.
0:03:27 > 0:03:29You end up wondering where your life went.
0:03:29 > 0:03:31- It's not that bad. - It is if you don't fight it.
0:03:31 > 0:03:34You don't want to end up on your deathbed regretting
0:03:34 > 0:03:36all the things you never did.
0:03:36 > 0:03:37I don't think I will.
0:03:37 > 0:03:42I didn't either, until I realised I was 50 and I'd wasted half my life.
0:03:42 > 0:03:43That's not true, surely?
0:03:43 > 0:03:47All the things that I never did, mainly because I was too hung up.
0:03:47 > 0:03:50Not after a couple of tequilas, you weren't!
0:03:50 > 0:03:53- Which is exactly why we need to pick up where we left off.- No way.
0:03:53 > 0:03:55My liver couldn't cope.
0:03:55 > 0:03:58I'm all done here, so I'm all yours. Where do you want to eat?
0:03:58 > 0:04:00I don't mind.
0:04:00 > 0:04:03OK. Well, there's a place that we go to nearby. It's not too bad.
0:04:03 > 0:04:06- I'm in your hands. - Fantastic. Follow me.
0:04:10 > 0:04:14- Fun?- You might meet someone.
0:04:14 > 0:04:17- At a funeral?!- Yeah. No, funerals are really good places to meet guys.
0:04:17 > 0:04:20- Much better than bars or clubs. - Yeah, if you want to get in quick
0:04:20 > 0:04:23- with the dead woman's husband. - No, honestly. People really open up.
0:04:23 > 0:04:26You'd be amazed at the things people tell you.
0:04:26 > 0:04:31For example, this really cute guy told me all about his father.
0:04:31 > 0:04:32Sounds exciting.
0:04:32 > 0:04:36Apparently, his father left when he was 14 and then came back
0:04:36 > 0:04:4015 years later begging for forgiveness...wearing a dress.
0:04:40 > 0:04:43- No!- Yeah, yeah. Fully post-op. I was the first person he told.
0:04:43 > 0:04:46- Why?- Well, I think it was the funeral.
0:04:46 > 0:04:50I think it made him realise that life's too short for secrets.
0:04:50 > 0:04:53- Did he have any other secrets? - Well...
0:04:53 > 0:04:55Nurse Lee, I am so sorry to bother you,
0:04:55 > 0:04:58but Mr Harker is asking about the rota.
0:04:58 > 0:05:02- I'm not giving up my afternoon off. - I know it is an imposition...- Yes.
0:05:02 > 0:05:05- But if you are not doing anything special...- I am.
0:05:05 > 0:05:07It is only for a few hours.
0:05:07 > 0:05:09Mrs Tembe, I'm going to a funeral.
0:05:11 > 0:05:14Oh...
0:05:14 > 0:05:15Oh, I am very sorry.
0:05:15 > 0:05:18Of course. Of course, you have to go to the funeral.
0:05:18 > 0:05:21- And... Well, I am sorry for your loss.- Thank you.
0:05:30 > 0:05:33- I think my boy would enjoy tennis. - Bring him down to the club.- Yeah.
0:05:33 > 0:05:37- I could probably do with a refresher myself.- Like old times.
0:05:39 > 0:05:41Hello?
0:05:41 > 0:05:42Can you hear me?
0:05:46 > 0:05:48- Oh... Get off! - You were unconscious.
0:05:48 > 0:05:50What are you doing, Janine?
0:05:50 > 0:05:52- Do you know each other?- She's my ex. - We're still married.
0:05:52 > 0:05:55- We are splitting up.- What happened? Did somebody knock you down?
0:05:55 > 0:05:58- I can't remember.- Is this because I told you to stop following me?
0:05:58 > 0:06:00- Does it hurt anywhere? - Who is he?- I'm a doctor.
0:06:00 > 0:06:03I would like to examine you a bit further,
0:06:03 > 0:06:05because I think you might be concussed.
0:06:05 > 0:06:09I have made a mistake with the rota. I am so sorry.
0:06:09 > 0:06:13- It is not like me to be so careless. - What did you do?
0:06:13 > 0:06:17Two weeks ago, Nurse Lee asked if she could have the afternoon off.
0:06:17 > 0:06:20- She's going to a funeral. - That's fair enough.
0:06:20 > 0:06:23Well, I have arranged adequate cover, a fine agency,
0:06:23 > 0:06:27we have used them before and I have contacted the patients...
0:06:27 > 0:06:29So...?
0:06:29 > 0:06:31Well, for some reason,
0:06:31 > 0:06:34I have written Nurse Lee's name down on the rota.
0:06:36 > 0:06:40I do not know what I was thinking. It will not happen again.
0:06:40 > 0:06:43It's a simple mistake. It doesn't really matter, does it?
0:06:46 > 0:06:49- Well, no.- So, why are you getting so worked up?
0:06:50 > 0:06:52I am sorry.
0:06:52 > 0:06:55I should not have wasted your time.
0:06:57 > 0:07:00You should have more confidence in yourself.
0:07:02 > 0:07:03Yes...
0:07:03 > 0:07:06You are right.
0:07:06 > 0:07:08I am so sorry.
0:07:12 > 0:07:15OK, there's no sign of serious injury.
0:07:15 > 0:07:17Because there's nothing wrong with her.
0:07:17 > 0:07:19What are you playing at, Janine?
0:07:19 > 0:07:23- But I'd still like to take a look, inside, if that's all right.- Why?
0:07:23 > 0:07:24Well, just to be sure.
0:07:24 > 0:07:28- I'm not going in there. - Then go home and leave me alone!
0:07:28 > 0:07:30Don't tell me what to do!
0:07:30 > 0:07:32- What's going on?- I don't know.
0:07:32 > 0:07:35I know what you're up to.
0:07:38 > 0:07:41She thinks I'm having an affair.
0:07:41 > 0:07:42- Are you?- No.
0:07:42 > 0:07:44But it's complicated.
0:07:44 > 0:07:47She can't accept that our marriage is over.
0:07:47 > 0:07:49I don't know what to do with her any more.
0:07:55 > 0:07:59- He's hot!- Not a close relative. - How can you tell?
0:07:59 > 0:08:03- The clothes. And he's on his own. They're the best ones.- Hm.
0:08:03 > 0:08:05- Maybe we should get to know him. - No, no. Not yet. We go in last.
0:08:05 > 0:08:08That way, less questions.
0:08:08 > 0:08:12Um... What should we say if people ask why we're here?
0:08:12 > 0:08:14Distant relatives?
0:08:14 > 0:08:17Do I look like I'm related to these people?
0:08:17 > 0:08:19Hm. What do you think of these?
0:08:19 > 0:08:24- They're all right.- Getting the flowers right is so important.
0:08:24 > 0:08:26- What are you doing? - Just research for my funeral.
0:08:26 > 0:08:29You're not serious?! Val!
0:08:29 > 0:08:32CAMERA SHUTTER ON PHONE
0:08:32 > 0:08:35(She doesn't look happy.)
0:08:35 > 0:08:36Probably the widow.
0:08:36 > 0:08:38Come on. Selfie.
0:08:38 > 0:08:40What?! No!
0:08:40 > 0:08:42PHONE RINGS
0:08:42 > 0:08:44Hello.
0:08:44 > 0:08:48Dr Reid, have you got a minute? I need to ask you a small favour.
0:08:48 > 0:08:51'Yeah, fire away.'
0:08:51 > 0:08:55But it is best if we keep this between ourselves.
0:08:55 > 0:08:59Strictly speaking, I should be talking to one of the partners.
0:08:59 > 0:09:02- Is something wrong? - No, no. Everything is fine.
0:09:02 > 0:09:05It's just...
0:09:06 > 0:09:07I need a reference.
0:09:07 > 0:09:08For a job.
0:09:08 > 0:09:10You're leaving?
0:09:10 > 0:09:14- Well, there is an opening at a practice.- You can't leave.
0:09:17 > 0:09:20Is this because you're back on reception?
0:09:20 > 0:09:23Oh, no. No, it is nothing to do with that.
0:09:23 > 0:09:29Well, we'll be lost without you. Mrs Tembe, has someone upset you?
0:09:29 > 0:09:34No. No, the staff are as wonderful as ever.
0:09:34 > 0:09:39It's just... Well, sometimes, you have to move on.
0:09:42 > 0:09:46I know. We could say that we met the dead guy through our escort agency.
0:09:46 > 0:09:48You want us to say we're prossies?
0:09:48 > 0:09:51- Well, it would explain how we know him.- What if the dead guy's a woman?
0:09:51 > 0:09:53So?
0:09:53 > 0:09:56You're really twisted, you know that?
0:09:56 > 0:09:58- Would you like to be cremated? - Not at the moment, no.
0:09:58 > 0:10:02I would. Clean, simple. I would hate to be embalmed.
0:10:02 > 0:10:05I don't think you'd feel it much if you're dead.
0:10:05 > 0:10:08The big question is - where would I have my ashes scattered?
0:10:08 > 0:10:12Can you stop being so morbid, please? Just for five minutes?
0:10:12 > 0:10:15Oh! I know! We could say that we work for the dead guy's dentist.
0:10:15 > 0:10:17- Dentist? - Yeah, that way we won't have to lie
0:10:17 > 0:10:21that much cos you could be the nurse and I could be the receptionist.
0:10:21 > 0:10:23Why would we go to a patient's funeral?
0:10:23 > 0:10:26- Because he was so kind and generous. - What if he wasn't kind and generous?
0:10:26 > 0:10:28It doesn't matter because everyone
0:10:28 > 0:10:31- thinks their relatives are perfect, once they're dead.- I don't.
0:10:31 > 0:10:35And I am not pretending to be a dental nurse. I've got standards.
0:10:38 > 0:10:41We only stayed together, because of the kids.
0:10:41 > 0:10:45When our youngest left home, Janine got depressed, started drinking.
0:10:45 > 0:10:47And now, she follows me everywhere.
0:10:47 > 0:10:49- How long have you been together? - Too long.
0:10:49 > 0:10:52Don't get me wrong, she was good to me, look after me
0:10:52 > 0:10:54and all of that, and we were mostly happy.
0:10:54 > 0:10:58- That sounds pretty good.- But there's more to marriage than that.
0:10:58 > 0:11:00- Ah. You're talking about sex.- Mm.
0:11:00 > 0:11:03And I can't go on pretending that it doesn't matter to me.
0:11:03 > 0:11:06- Still, let's not talk about Janine. Another one?- No.
0:11:06 > 0:11:09I can't. Have you...?
0:11:09 > 0:11:12- Have you tried getting her to talk to someone?- She won't.
0:11:12 > 0:11:14- My treat.- Are you sure?- Definitely.
0:11:14 > 0:11:17In fact, the rest of the afternoon is my treat.
0:11:17 > 0:11:19The rest of the afternoon?
0:11:19 > 0:11:22Come on. I can really do with the company.
0:11:22 > 0:11:26We can have a few drinks, some laughs, just like the old days.
0:11:26 > 0:11:29I'm not sure how pleased my missus will be about that.
0:11:29 > 0:11:34We can find a pub, maybe a club, get a hotel or something.
0:11:34 > 0:11:36Order up some tequila.
0:11:36 > 0:11:38I'm just too old for all-night sessions.
0:11:38 > 0:11:42Don't be such a wimp. Let your hair down. It's Friday night.
0:11:42 > 0:11:44Yeah, and I've got to go home.
0:11:44 > 0:11:47How about a couple of drinks at the tennis club, then?
0:11:47 > 0:11:49No. Sorry.
0:11:49 > 0:11:51Right.
0:11:51 > 0:11:53This isn't how it was supposed to be.
0:11:53 > 0:11:55Eh?
0:11:55 > 0:11:56Nothing.
0:11:58 > 0:12:00That was lovely.
0:12:00 > 0:12:03# I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
0:12:03 > 0:12:06# But I couldn't stay away I couldn't fight it
0:12:06 > 0:12:09# I'd hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
0:12:09 > 0:12:12# That for me, it isn't over... #
0:12:12 > 0:12:14Music's nice.
0:12:14 > 0:12:15Yes, beautiful.
0:12:15 > 0:12:18# Never mind I'll find someone like you... #
0:12:18 > 0:12:20(I think I'm in!)
0:12:20 > 0:12:24- What?- It's Claire.
0:12:24 > 0:12:27You know her?
0:12:27 > 0:12:31# Don't forget me... #
0:12:31 > 0:12:34Are you serious about bringing your son down to the club?
0:12:34 > 0:12:36Well, I think he might be a little bit young.
0:12:36 > 0:12:40The key is to make it fun. We could do it together.
0:12:40 > 0:12:42And it would give us a chance to catch up.
0:12:42 > 0:12:46All right, I'll give you a call. OK? See you.
0:12:49 > 0:12:51Late lunch?
0:12:51 > 0:12:54Oh. No, I am just taking this parcel to the post office.
0:12:54 > 0:12:57- Oh, right. Well, I was just kidding. - Oh, right.
0:12:57 > 0:13:00Sorry. Did you have a good time with your friend?
0:13:00 > 0:13:04- Oh, you know, it was OK. - HORN BEEPS AND CAR SKIDS
0:13:06 > 0:13:09What are you doing? I could have killed you!
0:13:09 > 0:13:13- What?- Are you trying to scare me, so that I won't leave you?- You OK?
0:13:13 > 0:13:16- It won't work, Janine! - What were you doing with him?
0:13:16 > 0:13:19Stop pulling these stupid stunts! You're making a fool of yourself!
0:13:19 > 0:13:20Me?! What about you?
0:13:20 > 0:13:24- Iain, all right, calm down. Calm down.- Dr Granger!
0:13:24 > 0:13:26It's the same trick she pulled earlier.
0:13:26 > 0:13:29- There we go. - It's just emotional blackmail.
0:13:29 > 0:13:32OK, Janine? Janine? Can you hear me?
0:13:32 > 0:13:35Dr Granger.
0:13:35 > 0:13:37- What is it?- Call an ambulance.
0:13:37 > 0:13:38Janine?
0:13:42 > 0:13:43We met in hospital.
0:13:43 > 0:13:46She had breast cancer and lung cancer.
0:13:47 > 0:13:50Three lots of chemo.
0:13:50 > 0:13:53Last time I saw her, she was planning a holiday.
0:13:53 > 0:13:56Somewhere in Italy. And then... Just like that...
0:13:56 > 0:13:58Are you OK?
0:13:58 > 0:14:01I suppose that's how it happens.
0:14:01 > 0:14:04- Do you want to leave?- No, we can't.
0:14:07 > 0:14:11A mother shouldn't have to speak at her own daughter's funeral,
0:14:11 > 0:14:15but Claire was the bravest person I've ever known.
0:14:15 > 0:14:19I can't let her go without telling her how much I love her.
0:14:25 > 0:14:26How many of these have you taken?
0:14:26 > 0:14:29The anti-depressants. How many have you had?
0:14:29 > 0:14:33- Anti-depressants?- Just one.- When? - I don't know. This morning.- OK.
0:14:33 > 0:14:37- And you didn't take them all? - No.- Don't lie!- I'm not!
0:14:37 > 0:14:38OK, your pulse is fast.
0:14:38 > 0:14:41- How long have you been having the dizzy spells?- A while.
0:14:41 > 0:14:44Anything else? Breathing? Pains, aches?
0:14:44 > 0:14:47- Pains in my chest. - OK, it's hurting now?
0:14:47 > 0:14:51OK, give me your hand getting her in the car. Gently, that's it.
0:14:51 > 0:14:53OK.
0:14:54 > 0:14:58I just think that, if we could make her realise how important she is,
0:14:58 > 0:15:00- then maybe she'd stay.- Possibly.
0:15:00 > 0:15:03But the new job might just be a better opportunity for her.
0:15:03 > 0:15:08It's worth a try, though. I mean, we'd have a hard time replacing her.
0:15:08 > 0:15:11OK. Let me have a proper read of this and I'll get back to you.
0:15:11 > 0:15:12Thanks.
0:15:13 > 0:15:18I can understand why you wouldn't want any more changes, though.
0:15:18 > 0:15:20- Not after...- Oh, er...
0:15:20 > 0:15:22You mean Howard.
0:15:22 > 0:15:23Mm. Can't be easy.
0:15:23 > 0:15:26I know how hard my mother's death hit me.
0:15:26 > 0:15:29Actually, um...
0:15:29 > 0:15:30I'm all right.
0:15:30 > 0:15:32I'm sure you are.
0:15:32 > 0:15:37I thought I was. Then some little thing would knock me right back.
0:15:37 > 0:15:39I'm sure you know that feeling.
0:15:39 > 0:15:42It was only later I realised how much it was
0:15:42 > 0:15:47clouding my judgment, letting personal feelings get in the way.
0:15:47 > 0:15:50- This isn't personal. - Oh, I'm sure it's not.
0:15:50 > 0:15:53But if it's what Mrs Tembe wants, then we can't stand in her way.
0:15:53 > 0:15:55No.
0:15:55 > 0:15:58Like I say, it's not easy, what you're going through.
0:15:58 > 0:16:00If you ever need to talk...
0:16:00 > 0:16:02No.
0:16:02 > 0:16:04I'm fine.
0:16:04 > 0:16:06Good.
0:16:17 > 0:16:19"The moment of the rose
0:16:19 > 0:16:22"and the moment of the yew tree are of equal duration."
0:16:25 > 0:16:26That's lovely.
0:16:26 > 0:16:29It's from a poem by TS Eliot.
0:16:29 > 0:16:31Claire chose it.
0:16:31 > 0:16:35It means that one life is as beautiful as another, even if
0:16:35 > 0:16:37it only lasts for a very short time.
0:16:40 > 0:16:43I was a friend of Claire's.
0:16:43 > 0:16:46We met while I was waiting for my biopsy.
0:16:46 > 0:16:50I didn't want anyone to know how frightened I was.
0:16:50 > 0:16:52But Claire said it was OK to be scared.
0:16:52 > 0:16:54That was Claire.
0:16:54 > 0:16:55Always so strong.
0:16:55 > 0:16:57For everyone.
0:16:59 > 0:17:01- Thank you for coming. - It was the least we could do.
0:17:01 > 0:17:03It would have meant a lot to Claire.
0:17:17 > 0:17:20- You all right?- I can't believe she'd pull a stunt like that.
0:17:20 > 0:17:22I don't think she did it deliberately.
0:17:22 > 0:17:24She wouldn't swallow those pills by accident.
0:17:24 > 0:17:27She knew exactly what she was doing. That's why she'd been following me.
0:17:27 > 0:17:30Look, if she'd taken all those pills, I don't think she would
0:17:30 > 0:17:33- have regained consciousness at all. - So she's faking it?
0:17:33 > 0:17:37- That's even worse!- She's not faking it. OK, she's very ill.
0:17:37 > 0:17:40Really? What's wrong with her?
0:17:40 > 0:17:42I don't know.
0:17:42 > 0:17:45Is it because of me? Because I told her we're through?
0:17:45 > 0:17:47No, I doubt it.
0:17:47 > 0:17:49These things take years to develop.
0:17:49 > 0:17:51What things?
0:17:53 > 0:17:57Why don't we just wait and see what the consultant says, OK?
0:17:58 > 0:18:01If you just come back in a couple of weeks...
0:18:01 > 0:18:03If you'd like to take a seat.
0:18:08 > 0:18:09Mrs Tembe.
0:18:09 > 0:18:12I've had an e-mail from a patient. It's about you.
0:18:12 > 0:18:14Oh...
0:18:14 > 0:18:16I think I should read it to you.
0:18:16 > 0:18:18- Not in front... - No, everyone should hear this.
0:18:20 > 0:18:24"My four-year-old was terrified when we came to see the doctor.
0:18:24 > 0:18:28"The surgery was full and I could see your receptionist was very busy.
0:18:28 > 0:18:32"I know how annoying a crying child can be, but Mrs Tembe took the time
0:18:32 > 0:18:35"to sit with her and calm her fears.
0:18:37 > 0:18:42"Such warmth, kindness and honesty with children is rare.
0:18:42 > 0:18:44"Your Mrs Tembe is a gem."
0:18:58 > 0:19:01I wouldn't really kill myself.
0:19:01 > 0:19:02You should know that.
0:19:02 > 0:19:04I don't know anything any more.
0:19:04 > 0:19:07I didn't even know you were on these pills.
0:19:07 > 0:19:08You haven't been around much.
0:19:10 > 0:19:12When did you start?
0:19:12 > 0:19:15When you said you were leaving.
0:19:15 > 0:19:18You're my best friend, Iain.
0:19:18 > 0:19:21You're the only person I can really talk to.
0:19:21 > 0:19:22We can still be friends.
0:19:22 > 0:19:25I don't want to be alone for the rest of my life.
0:19:25 > 0:19:28- You'll find someone.- I want you!
0:19:28 > 0:19:32- Things have changed.- For you! Nothing's changed for me!
0:19:32 > 0:19:34Sorry, bad time?
0:19:34 > 0:19:37No, it's fine. What did the consultant say?
0:19:39 > 0:19:42Well, the ECG confirmed what I thought,
0:19:42 > 0:19:45that you have an arrhythmia, which is perfectly treatable.
0:19:45 > 0:19:48With medication, you should be absolutely fine.
0:19:48 > 0:19:53- You might want to make some small changes to your lifestyle.- What?
0:19:53 > 0:19:55Well, cut back on the drinking a little bit
0:19:55 > 0:19:57and reduce the stress in your life.
0:20:01 > 0:20:03This is all wrong.
0:20:03 > 0:20:07- Are you all right? - What does it matter how I am?
0:20:07 > 0:20:12- Claire is dead.- I'm sorry. I didn't... It's Valerie, isn't it?
0:20:12 > 0:20:14Yes.
0:20:14 > 0:20:17I remember Claire telling me how frightened you were.
0:20:17 > 0:20:19- She was very fond of you.- Was she?
0:20:20 > 0:20:22She talked about you.
0:20:22 > 0:20:26She was convinced you were going to be one of the lucky ones.
0:20:26 > 0:20:28I'm sure you will be.
0:20:28 > 0:20:31Claire thought she would be too.
0:20:31 > 0:20:35Nobody deserved to live more than she did. I wanted to give you this.
0:20:35 > 0:20:39Call me if you want. A coffee or just to talk.
0:20:39 > 0:20:42Claire always found it helped.
0:20:54 > 0:20:56I'm really sorry how this turned out.
0:20:56 > 0:20:58It's really not how I imagined our first date.
0:20:58 > 0:21:00What?
0:21:00 > 0:21:03I was hoping we could rekindle the old flame.
0:21:03 > 0:21:08- Until Janine stuck her oar in. - Um... What old flame?
0:21:08 > 0:21:10I fancy you, Daniel. I always have.
0:21:12 > 0:21:14I'm not gay.
0:21:14 > 0:21:18Me neither. I just like sleeping with men.
0:21:18 > 0:21:21- That's what gay means. - That's just a word.
0:21:21 > 0:21:25What matters is if you're attracted to someone and we were.
0:21:25 > 0:21:27Iain...
0:21:27 > 0:21:30- Whatever gave you that idea? - Come on.
0:21:30 > 0:21:33All those tequila nights that we had together. You were curious.
0:21:33 > 0:21:36You wanted to experiment, fool around.
0:21:36 > 0:21:37Didn't you?
0:21:37 > 0:21:39No.
0:21:39 > 0:21:40You did.
0:21:40 > 0:21:43We were both too scared to do anything about it.
0:21:43 > 0:21:45Even with all the booze.
0:21:45 > 0:21:48- I never had the courage.- So, um...
0:21:48 > 0:21:51So that's why you wanted me to go out drinking with you?
0:21:51 > 0:21:54- Is it? Because you wanted to have sex?- You wanted it too.
0:21:54 > 0:21:57Wow, and here's me thinking that we were friends.
0:21:57 > 0:22:01We could have had so much fun. We still can.
0:22:01 > 0:22:04Do you know, you've got everything a little bit twisted in your head,
0:22:04 > 0:22:06because there was never anything like that between us.
0:22:06 > 0:22:09You can't spend your whole life repressing these things.
0:22:09 > 0:22:12I'm not repressing anything. I've never been curious.
0:22:12 > 0:22:16I've never wanted to experiment or fool around.
0:22:16 > 0:22:19- OK.- And do you know what?
0:22:19 > 0:22:22Not that I really care, you've got your priorities all wrong.
0:22:32 > 0:22:35Ah!
0:22:35 > 0:22:37Mrs Tembe?
0:22:37 > 0:22:41- I've been thinking about what you said...- Oh, yes.
0:22:41 > 0:22:44And I can't imagine this place without you.
0:22:44 > 0:22:45Well, neither can I.
0:22:45 > 0:22:48But if this job offers you more opportunities
0:22:48 > 0:22:50- and responsibilities... - Oh, it does, but...
0:22:50 > 0:22:53Then a good reference is the least I can do.
0:22:53 > 0:22:55Thank you, Dr Reid.
0:22:55 > 0:22:58I was going to try and change your mind, and then I thought, no,
0:22:58 > 0:23:01I have to put my personal feelings aside.
0:23:01 > 0:23:05And... Well, if you think that it's best...
0:23:05 > 0:23:09Please, let me know if there's anything you'd like me to change.
0:23:09 > 0:23:12Oh, no. No.
0:23:12 > 0:23:14I will not be needing this.
0:23:14 > 0:23:16Oh? Why?
0:23:16 > 0:23:19I have thrown the application away.
0:23:19 > 0:23:25Like you said, I cannot imagine my life without this place.
0:23:25 > 0:23:26That makes me very happy!
0:23:32 > 0:23:34I thought he was going to hit me.
0:23:34 > 0:23:37You haven't quite got the gaydar working, then?
0:23:38 > 0:23:41Maybe I am too old for this.
0:23:41 > 0:23:43Maybe you are.
0:23:45 > 0:23:48What is so wrong with what we have?
0:23:48 > 0:23:50- We've been living a lie.- I haven't!
0:23:52 > 0:23:54We've brought up two wonderful boys.
0:23:54 > 0:23:58They're happy, successful, independent...
0:23:58 > 0:24:01- Do you have any idea how rare that is?- Yes.
0:24:01 > 0:24:05I kept us going when you tried to find work and...
0:24:07 > 0:24:11- And I looked after you when your knee went.- I know.
0:24:11 > 0:24:16We had good times. We used to laugh all the time. Admit it.
0:24:18 > 0:24:19That's true.
0:24:19 > 0:24:21So why do you want to throw it all away?
0:24:22 > 0:24:25We must be able to do something to keep it together.
0:24:28 > 0:24:29What about the sex?
0:24:31 > 0:24:32Is it really that important?
0:24:32 > 0:24:36It is to me! And I'm not denying it any more!
0:24:36 > 0:24:39- I've never understood what people see in sex.- I know.
0:24:43 > 0:24:46What if...?
0:24:46 > 0:24:49What if I said you could go off and...
0:24:49 > 0:24:53do what you have to do whenever you wanted?
0:24:55 > 0:24:59- And you wouldn't try to stop me? - Not if it meant staying together.
0:25:03 > 0:25:05Could you really live with that?
0:25:08 > 0:25:11I don't have a choice, do I?
0:25:12 > 0:25:14Can we at least try?
0:25:26 > 0:25:29I always knew it was possible that I could die,
0:25:29 > 0:25:31but I never really believed it.
0:25:31 > 0:25:34Not even when I was planning my own funeral.
0:25:34 > 0:25:38- You won't die.- Well, Claire did. - I knew this was a bad idea.
0:25:38 > 0:25:42- Can we go, please? - You don't have to stay.- Valerie!
0:25:42 > 0:25:43You're being morbid again.
0:25:43 > 0:25:47What happened to all those things you said about staying positive,
0:25:47 > 0:25:50- fighting back, trying to beat the cancer?- Claire did all that.
0:25:50 > 0:25:53Now she's just a pile of ashes.
0:25:53 > 0:25:55This isn't doing you any good.
0:25:55 > 0:25:58If it all goes wrong, that'll be me there.
0:25:58 > 0:26:00It won't all go wrong.
0:26:00 > 0:26:06Lifeless, rotting bones in a hole in the ground, where no-one ever goes.
0:26:15 > 0:26:17What shall we do while they cook?
0:26:17 > 0:26:19I can think of something.
0:26:19 > 0:26:23- Lauren, are you happy for...?- Course she is.- Yeah, yeah. That's fine.
0:26:23 > 0:26:25Sugar-daddies? They went out of fashion years ago.
0:26:25 > 0:26:27Seems they're making a comeback.
0:26:27 > 0:26:29I've been evaluating all the members of staff here,
0:26:29 > 0:26:32thinking about how they fit in as part of a team
0:26:32 > 0:26:35and I don't think your job is the perfect fit for you.