0:00:39 > 0:00:41Do you think I should take my book?
0:00:41 > 0:00:44You're not off to lie on a beach, Josie!
0:00:44 > 0:00:45I am aware of that, Mum.
0:00:46 > 0:00:48Um...
0:00:50 > 0:00:52Ooh! Ooh.
0:00:53 > 0:00:54Hoo!
0:00:54 > 0:00:57He's been jumping about like crazy today.
0:00:57 > 0:00:59JOSIE EXHALES
0:00:59 > 0:01:01Do you think I should take my iPod?
0:01:01 > 0:01:03I don't know.
0:01:03 > 0:01:06I was remembering earlier how I used to love
0:01:06 > 0:01:08dancing around on your feet to that Kinks song. Do you remember?
0:01:08 > 0:01:10Hm-hm!
0:01:10 > 0:01:15You made me do it every day for a while. Huh! Exhausting!
0:01:15 > 0:01:19You've an amazing knack of turning happy memories into complaints.
0:01:19 > 0:01:21Oh, don't be so oversensitive.
0:01:21 > 0:01:24I think I will take my iPod.
0:01:24 > 0:01:26Music relaxes me.
0:01:26 > 0:01:30This idea that you'll have time to relax is an absolute joke!
0:01:30 > 0:01:34What about my massage oil and my pillow? Mum?
0:01:34 > 0:01:37Oh! I don't need to be involved in every little decision, Josie.
0:01:37 > 0:01:39You chose to have this baby on your own,
0:01:39 > 0:01:42so now it's time that you started making decisions by yourself!
0:01:45 > 0:01:47Sorry to have bothered you.
0:01:53 > 0:01:57It was so wonderful to see you at church on Sunday.
0:01:57 > 0:01:59What did you think of the sermon?
0:01:59 > 0:02:01It was interesting.
0:02:01 > 0:02:03And will we be seeing you next week?
0:02:03 > 0:02:05Maybe, you never know.
0:02:05 > 0:02:08Well, next week is the first day of the Advent.
0:02:08 > 0:02:11Reverend Marchant likes to do a special service.
0:02:11 > 0:02:13All I know about the Advent is chocolate calendars,
0:02:13 > 0:02:16and that's cos Al normally eats them all in the first week.
0:02:16 > 0:02:19- Yes, well, that is typical of Dr Haskey.- Hm-hm.
0:02:19 > 0:02:24For me, the season is about keeping a focus on the lead-up to Christmas.
0:02:24 > 0:02:26It can be a very frenzied time
0:02:26 > 0:02:29and too much emphasis on material possessions.
0:02:29 > 0:02:35I think it is a time for...for slowing down and reflecting.
0:02:37 > 0:02:41I think it helps to read up on the various Scriptures for the season.
0:02:41 > 0:02:44I could point them out for you, if you like?
0:02:44 > 0:02:47Well, it is up to you. Well, we don't have to...
0:02:47 > 0:02:50Well, you know where I am, if you, er... Well, I'm here.
0:02:50 > 0:02:53- OK. Um...I'd better get back.- Right.
0:03:00 > 0:03:02I washed this for you.
0:03:02 > 0:03:05I used that hippy fabric conditioner that you like the smell of so much.
0:03:07 > 0:03:09You're taking too much.
0:03:09 > 0:03:11I can't win with you, can I?
0:03:11 > 0:03:13What does that mean?
0:03:13 > 0:03:17Is it really too much to suck up your disappointment and support me?
0:03:18 > 0:03:21- Ooh!- What's the matter?- Oh!
0:03:22 > 0:03:24I think it's a contraction.
0:03:24 > 0:03:28Oh! Maybe one of those other things, um...Braxton Hicks.
0:03:28 > 0:03:32Mum, I told you, my back's been killing me all day. Um...
0:03:32 > 0:03:34I've had a few twinges, but this...
0:03:35 > 0:03:38I think we need to get to the hospital.
0:03:38 > 0:03:40- It might be a false alarm. - Yeah, well, it might be,
0:03:40 > 0:03:42but I'd rather be safe than sorry.
0:03:42 > 0:03:45- But they do say not to come in straightaway... - For goodness' sake, Mum,
0:03:45 > 0:03:49just grab my bag and go and start the car, all right?
0:03:50 > 0:03:54I'm making the decisions on my own, just like you wanted.
0:04:00 > 0:04:03- Maybe we can make a lunchtime walk a regular thing.- Maybe.
0:04:05 > 0:04:08So, you finally going to admit you like me, then?
0:04:08 > 0:04:09You're all right, I suppose, for a copper.
0:04:09 > 0:04:11HE LAUGHS
0:04:11 > 0:04:13You're not too bad yourself, for a Brummie.
0:04:13 > 0:04:14Oh!
0:04:15 > 0:04:17Come here.
0:04:22 > 0:04:24I've got a surprise for you.
0:04:24 > 0:04:27Oh, you shouldn't have. What is it, diamonds or a puppy?
0:04:27 > 0:04:29I know you've been worried about your mum...
0:04:29 > 0:04:31What?
0:04:31 > 0:04:33I've found her.
0:04:33 > 0:04:34Is she OK?
0:04:34 > 0:04:37Yeah. I mean, she's alive.
0:04:40 > 0:04:43Look, it wasn't easy to track her down, you know, I...
0:04:43 > 0:04:45What do you think you're playing at?
0:04:46 > 0:04:48You had no right!
0:04:48 > 0:04:51Hey, I...I thought that's what you wanted.
0:04:51 > 0:04:53I know you don't always see eye to eye...
0:04:53 > 0:04:57You don't know the first thing about me and my mum and it's none of your bloody business!
0:05:02 > 0:05:05- And you're feeling all right otherwise?- Yeah. Well, I think so.
0:05:05 > 0:05:08It's not too late to have a caesarean, you know.
0:05:08 > 0:05:10Not this again, Mum, please.
0:05:10 > 0:05:12At your age, you can't be too careful!
0:05:12 > 0:05:15I'm only 40. Everything does still work down there.
0:05:15 > 0:05:19They call it a geriatric pregnancy for a reason, love.
0:05:19 > 0:05:22You're filling her head with this idealistic nonsense
0:05:22 > 0:05:24about it all being lovely and amazing,
0:05:24 > 0:05:27but the reality is quite different.
0:05:27 > 0:05:29Mrs Maray, there is nothing to suggest
0:05:29 > 0:05:32Josie's going to have anything but a very natural, healthy birth.
0:05:32 > 0:05:35We really look after our mums here,
0:05:35 > 0:05:37and the majority of natural births occur without any complications.
0:05:37 > 0:05:42I think it's best to go into this with a really nice, relaxed attitude.
0:05:42 > 0:05:45You don't know what's going to happen. Anything could go wrong!
0:05:45 > 0:05:48Trust me, Jo, please!
0:05:48 > 0:05:51You're doing my head in, Mum. Just...wait outside.
0:05:56 > 0:05:59- Mrs Maray, are you all right? - No, I'm not all right.
0:05:59 > 0:06:00Disaster is just around the corner
0:06:00 > 0:06:02and you're acting like everything's fine!
0:06:02 > 0:06:05Um...please don't go very far.
0:06:11 > 0:06:13- KNOCK AT DOOR - Come in.
0:06:17 > 0:06:19Sorry to disturb you.
0:06:19 > 0:06:21Not to worry. How can I help you?
0:06:21 > 0:06:23I was hoping I could have the day off on Friday.
0:06:23 > 0:06:26What, this Friday?
0:06:26 > 0:06:28No. No, I am afraid that is not possible.
0:06:29 > 0:06:31Oh.
0:06:31 > 0:06:34Well, as you know, we are very busy. Flu season!
0:06:34 > 0:06:37No, I cannot spare you at such short notice.
0:06:37 > 0:06:39Right.
0:06:39 > 0:06:42If you had given me a little more warning,
0:06:42 > 0:06:45I might have been able to work something out.
0:06:45 > 0:06:47Miss Pitman!
0:06:51 > 0:06:54She's just been a total nightmare lately.
0:06:54 > 0:06:57Well, thankfully, it's not affected your blood pressure.
0:06:57 > 0:07:00Let's have a look at where the head's at, shall we?
0:07:00 > 0:07:03She's got more negative as the months have rolled on.
0:07:03 > 0:07:06Every time we're meant to go to an antenatal class,
0:07:06 > 0:07:08she finds some excuse why she can't come.
0:07:10 > 0:07:14And the one time she does, she feels sick and has to leave.
0:07:14 > 0:07:15JOSIE CHUCKLES
0:07:15 > 0:07:17JOSIE SIGHS
0:07:17 > 0:07:19I've wanted this baby for so long.
0:07:19 > 0:07:22I assumed she'd be happy for me.
0:07:22 > 0:07:24I'm sure she is.
0:07:24 > 0:07:26She's been through it herself, Josie.
0:07:26 > 0:07:29She just wants everything to go smoothly.
0:07:29 > 0:07:31It's natural for mums to worry.
0:07:33 > 0:07:35Has she always been so, er...anxious?
0:07:35 > 0:07:38Mm. She goes through phases.
0:07:39 > 0:07:41Never as bad as this, though.
0:07:41 > 0:07:44Well, I can try and talk to her, if you want?
0:07:44 > 0:07:48Thanks, but, um...you've seen how irrational she is.
0:07:48 > 0:07:50It'll just make things worse.
0:07:50 > 0:07:52Right. Well, the head's engaged, so that's good.
0:07:52 > 0:07:54I just want to listen to his heart, OK?
0:07:59 > 0:08:01Miss Pitman!
0:08:01 > 0:08:04I have been looking for you everywhere.
0:08:04 > 0:08:07- Sorry. - No, there is no need to apologise.
0:08:07 > 0:08:10I just wanted to know what had upset you so.
0:08:11 > 0:08:13Flu season.
0:08:13 > 0:08:14I'm sorry?
0:08:16 > 0:08:19Everything is reminding me of how I felt this time last year.
0:08:19 > 0:08:21Christmas songs in all the shops,
0:08:21 > 0:08:25a sharp rise in cough medicine adverts on television,
0:08:25 > 0:08:27everyone coming in for their jabs.
0:08:29 > 0:08:33I've been trying to ignore it, but I keep having these cancer flashbacks.
0:08:35 > 0:08:38Friday is the anniversary of my diagnosis.
0:08:38 > 0:08:41And it's also the day I've got to go for my regular checkup.
0:08:42 > 0:08:46Oh! It...it's a bad omen, I know it is.
0:08:46 > 0:08:48I'm sure there is no reason to fear the worst.
0:08:50 > 0:08:51Everything will be fine.
0:08:53 > 0:08:56And, of course, you have to take Friday off. We will manage.
0:08:56 > 0:08:58Thank you.
0:09:01 > 0:09:03I can't believe he went behind my back like that.
0:09:03 > 0:09:07Well, now you know she's OK, you can draw a line under it.
0:09:07 > 0:09:09What do you mean, draw a line?
0:09:09 > 0:09:12Well, I hope you're not thinking of going to see her?
0:09:12 > 0:09:15Because if you are, I think that's a really bad idea.
0:09:15 > 0:09:17You would say that.
0:09:17 > 0:09:20I just think she's put you through enough, that's all.
0:09:20 > 0:09:22Would you want Chris to give up on you?
0:09:22 > 0:09:25If I'd let him down as many times as Bren has let you down,
0:09:25 > 0:09:27then, yes, I hope he would.
0:09:27 > 0:09:29- It's not that simple.- I know.
0:09:29 > 0:09:32But, please, don't make any hasty decisions.
0:09:32 > 0:09:35You've been really happy since you've been with Tyler.
0:09:35 > 0:09:37Don't let her spoil that.
0:09:37 > 0:09:39So, what, some bloke I've known a couple of weeks
0:09:39 > 0:09:42is supposed to be more important to me than my mum now, is that what you're saying?
0:09:42 > 0:09:44No, that's not what I'm saying.
0:09:44 > 0:09:49I'm just saying that you should put yourself first for once.
0:09:49 > 0:09:51Isn't your mum your mum, and that's it?
0:09:51 > 0:09:53But, Ayesha, she's damaging you.
0:09:53 > 0:09:57And you deserve to live a life without having her weigh you down.
0:09:59 > 0:10:02He sounds pretty cosy to me, Josie.
0:10:02 > 0:10:04I don't think he's quite ready to come out yet.
0:10:04 > 0:10:07So, I'm, er...I'm not in labour?
0:10:07 > 0:10:09Yeah, you are, but it's early days.
0:10:09 > 0:10:12Until the contractions last up to a minute
0:10:12 > 0:10:16and are five minutes apart, you're a long way to kick-off.
0:10:16 > 0:10:19So go home and time yourself, OK?
0:10:19 > 0:10:21Well, can't I just stay here?
0:10:21 > 0:10:23I'm afraid not.
0:10:24 > 0:10:27Hey, look, I know it's tricky,
0:10:27 > 0:10:32but try not to let whatever's going on with your mum stress you out.
0:10:32 > 0:10:36It's not good for you and it is definitely not good for the baby.
0:10:43 > 0:10:45Are you feeling any better?
0:10:46 > 0:10:49Look, I have been thinking,
0:10:49 > 0:10:52instead of seeing Friday as a day full of dread,
0:10:52 > 0:10:54you should embrace it.
0:10:54 > 0:11:00You should rename it Survivor's Anniversary Day.
0:11:00 > 0:11:02Wear it like a badge of honour.
0:11:02 > 0:11:04I don't know.
0:11:04 > 0:11:09Perhaps this time, you should take strength from it.
0:11:09 > 0:11:12Especially considering everything you had to go through last year.
0:11:12 > 0:11:16It can even become an annual celebration.
0:11:19 > 0:11:21We could have a party!
0:11:21 > 0:11:25It is high time I invited everyone round for a drink to see my new home.
0:11:25 > 0:11:28And I know they will want to celebrate your good health.
0:11:28 > 0:11:29It is the perfect excuse!
0:11:29 > 0:11:31What do you say?
0:11:32 > 0:11:36It's a very kind offer. I'm just not sure I'm in the mood for a party.
0:11:38 > 0:11:40Yes, well, I understand.
0:11:41 > 0:11:45But, you know, sometimes there is nothing better
0:11:45 > 0:11:49than a group of people getting together to give you that lift.
0:11:51 > 0:11:56You could even think of a theme for the whole evening.
0:12:01 > 0:12:03RELAXING INSTRUMENTAL
0:12:05 > 0:12:07I'm telling you, I don't trust that midwife!
0:12:07 > 0:12:10Sending you home like that!
0:12:10 > 0:12:12You didn't even want me to go to hospital
0:12:12 > 0:12:15and now you're angry because they sent me back!
0:12:17 > 0:12:19Can you just chill out, Mum? I'm trying to relax.
0:12:19 > 0:12:20Well, I'm not stopping you!
0:12:20 > 0:12:23Yeah, you are, actually.
0:12:23 > 0:12:26You're running around like a maniac ever since we've got back.
0:12:29 > 0:12:31If you're trying to encourage the baby to come out
0:12:31 > 0:12:34with this awful music, it won't work.
0:12:34 > 0:12:36It sounds like that stuff they play in hotel lifts.
0:12:36 > 0:12:40Right. I can't do this any more. Um...
0:12:41 > 0:12:45I know...I know we've had our moments in the past,
0:12:45 > 0:12:48but I really thought this pregnancy would bring us closer together.
0:12:48 > 0:12:52I know my life hasn't turned out the way you dreamed it would, but
0:12:52 > 0:12:56can you please stop making me feel like
0:12:56 > 0:12:59a total failure before I've even begun?!
0:12:59 > 0:13:02- No, I... - You undermine everything I do!
0:13:02 > 0:13:05And if you didn't want to be my birthing partner, why didn't you just tell me?
0:13:05 > 0:13:08- But I...- Just...just tell me.
0:13:08 > 0:13:11Do you think I'll be a rubbish mum?
0:13:11 > 0:13:14- Is that what this is all about? - I'm...
0:13:15 > 0:13:16I...
0:13:16 > 0:13:18JOSIE SIGHS
0:13:18 > 0:13:19Please leave.
0:13:22 > 0:13:23What?
0:13:23 > 0:13:26It's obvious that you have no interest in being any part of this,
0:13:26 > 0:13:28- so, why don't you just go?- Jo...
0:13:28 > 0:13:33The best thing...for me and my son right now
0:13:33 > 0:13:37is not to have you anywhere near us.
0:13:39 > 0:13:42What are you standing there like a lemon for? Just...get out!
0:13:55 > 0:13:57JOSIE SIGHS
0:13:58 > 0:14:01- Remember to get an appointment with Dr Haskey.- Will do.
0:14:03 > 0:14:05- Hi.- Hi.
0:14:05 > 0:14:08I don't want another lecture.
0:14:08 > 0:14:10It did go in, what you said before.
0:14:10 > 0:14:12Good.
0:14:12 > 0:14:16Listen, I've been thinking, do you know how Tyler found Bren?
0:14:16 > 0:14:20I didn't ask, I was so angry. Why?
0:14:20 > 0:14:23You do realise she's probably been in trouble with the police?
0:14:23 > 0:14:25AYESHA SIGHS
0:14:25 > 0:14:27I was so out of order with Tyler earlier.
0:14:27 > 0:14:29He was only doing what he thought was good for me,
0:14:29 > 0:14:32- and I really laid into him for it. - That's understandable.
0:14:32 > 0:14:35Nothing pushes somebody's buttons like their mother.
0:14:35 > 0:14:38Maybe you should go and see him, hm? See what he has to say.
0:14:53 > 0:14:55SHE SIGHS
0:15:10 > 0:15:13Oh! Ooh!
0:15:13 > 0:15:15Ah!
0:15:15 > 0:15:17Ooh! Ah!
0:15:18 > 0:15:20Ah!
0:15:36 > 0:15:40OK. So, um...I will see you both in a couple of weeks, yeah?
0:15:40 > 0:15:42- Lovely. Thank you. - OK, then, take care.
0:15:42 > 0:15:44- Bye-bye.- Bye.
0:15:44 > 0:15:46PHONE RINGS
0:15:48 > 0:15:52- Hello?- Ruhma, it's...it's Josie.
0:15:52 > 0:15:54- Hey, Josie. - Oh, it's...it's all kicking off.
0:15:54 > 0:15:57They're...they're coming thick and fast.
0:15:57 > 0:15:59OK, great. How regular are they?
0:15:59 > 0:16:01Um...last one was for a minute.
0:16:01 > 0:16:03Four minutes after the one before.
0:16:03 > 0:16:05It could have been four and a half. I...
0:16:05 > 0:16:08I've lost count with the pain.
0:16:08 > 0:16:10OK. Well, it sounds like it's time to come in.
0:16:10 > 0:16:12There's no-one to drive me!
0:16:12 > 0:16:13Why? Where's your mum?
0:16:13 > 0:16:15I told her to go.
0:16:17 > 0:16:19- I'm frightened! - You're not far from the hospital.
0:16:19 > 0:16:22I could call you a cab, or arrange for an ambulance.
0:16:24 > 0:16:26I'll call a...I'll call a cab.
0:16:26 > 0:16:29OK. Well, you do that now. I'll be here ready and waiting.
0:16:29 > 0:16:32Josie, remember, long, deep breaths.
0:16:32 > 0:16:35Steady and relaxed. Find your rhythm. Yes?
0:16:35 > 0:16:36- OK.- OK.
0:16:36 > 0:16:38SHE EXHALES
0:16:40 > 0:16:41Oh!
0:16:41 > 0:16:43- KNOCK AT DOOR - Come in.
0:16:44 > 0:16:47- Next week's rota for you. - Ah, right. Thank you.
0:16:47 > 0:16:49Um...did you really mean it
0:16:49 > 0:16:52when you said about throwing a party in my honour?
0:16:52 > 0:16:54Yes. Yes, of course.
0:16:54 > 0:16:56No bucks fizz or prosecco, real champagne.
0:16:56 > 0:16:59Well, I'm sure I could purchase a bottle.
0:16:59 > 0:17:02- Better make it four. Karen likes a drink.- Right.
0:17:02 > 0:17:05Ooh, and could we have vol-au-vents? We could make them into bow shapes,
0:17:05 > 0:17:07just like the cancer-awareness ribbon.
0:17:07 > 0:17:10Well, we can certainly have some snacks.
0:17:12 > 0:17:14- So, we are agreed?- Yes.
0:17:15 > 0:17:17Thanks, Mrs Tembe.
0:17:20 > 0:17:21SHE GROANS
0:17:21 > 0:17:23OK?
0:17:25 > 0:17:28Hey, that was a good 'un!
0:17:28 > 0:17:3065 seconds.
0:17:30 > 0:17:31Go, girl.
0:17:32 > 0:17:34Am I allowed to walk around?
0:17:34 > 0:17:36"Allowed" is not really in my vocab, Josie.
0:17:36 > 0:17:39- You just do whatever feels right, yes?- OK.
0:17:39 > 0:17:40Good.
0:17:40 > 0:17:41That's it, take it easy.
0:17:44 > 0:17:45That makes a change.
0:17:47 > 0:17:49Can't do a thing right as far as Mum's concerned.
0:17:52 > 0:17:54She thinks I'll be a rubbish mum.
0:17:54 > 0:17:56I'm sure that is not true.
0:17:56 > 0:17:58She basically said as much.
0:18:00 > 0:18:04Josie, do you know anything about your own birth?
0:18:04 > 0:18:05How do you mean?
0:18:05 > 0:18:07You know, what it was like for your mum?
0:18:07 > 0:18:09No, she, er...
0:18:09 > 0:18:13She never talked about when I was a baby and...
0:18:13 > 0:18:15I tried asking my dad but he, erm,
0:18:15 > 0:18:17he didn't say much.
0:18:17 > 0:18:20He swanned off to live in Spain when I was two.
0:18:21 > 0:18:24So, she basically raised you by herself?
0:18:24 > 0:18:26Yeah.
0:18:26 > 0:18:28Yeah.
0:18:29 > 0:18:32At least by having this baby on my own from the start...
0:18:35 > 0:18:37..I don't have to worry about the father abandoning us.
0:18:43 > 0:18:44Jo?
0:18:45 > 0:18:46You all right?
0:18:49 > 0:18:50We should talk, love.
0:18:52 > 0:18:53I'm sorry.
0:18:54 > 0:18:55SHE SNIFFS
0:18:59 > 0:19:00Oh!
0:19:05 > 0:19:07Oh, Josie, Josie!
0:19:07 > 0:19:09SHE GASPS WITH PAIN
0:19:20 > 0:19:21Tyler.
0:19:24 > 0:19:27Don't worry. I'm not here to bite your head off again.
0:19:27 > 0:19:29Good.
0:19:29 > 0:19:32I know you were only trying to help, but it came as a shock.
0:19:32 > 0:19:34I know. I should have asked.
0:19:34 > 0:19:36Yeah, you should have.
0:19:37 > 0:19:38Where'd you find her?
0:19:38 > 0:19:40I've got an old friend who's a liaison officer,
0:19:40 > 0:19:43so they filled me in on a bunch of convictions she'd picked up.
0:19:43 > 0:19:45You know, low-level dealing, theft.
0:19:46 > 0:19:48I've got some CCTV pictures on file.
0:19:49 > 0:19:51Has she been inside?
0:19:51 > 0:19:53Not yet, no. She's been lucky.
0:19:55 > 0:19:58You don't need to know the rest, you know.
0:19:58 > 0:20:00You've opened this can of worms. You can't pick and choose
0:20:00 > 0:20:01what you tell me now.
0:20:04 > 0:20:06She's working out of a flat across town.
0:20:06 > 0:20:08What do you mean "working out of"?
0:20:11 > 0:20:13She's a prostitute?
0:20:14 > 0:20:17If you want to go and see her, I'll come with you.
0:20:20 > 0:20:21Can I see the photos?
0:20:24 > 0:20:25I could lose my job, you know?
0:20:25 > 0:20:28Who's going to know?
0:20:28 > 0:20:29Please.
0:20:40 > 0:20:41'I want him out now.'
0:20:41 > 0:20:43I know, I know. Just be patient.
0:20:49 > 0:20:51I went back to yours and you weren't there.
0:20:51 > 0:20:54The overnight bag had gone. I was so worried that
0:20:54 > 0:20:55something bad had happened.
0:20:55 > 0:20:57Why didn't you call me?
0:20:57 > 0:20:59I didn't see the point.
0:20:59 > 0:21:01And if you've come out of a sense of duty, then just forget it.
0:21:04 > 0:21:07I-I-I do want to be with you, love,
0:21:07 > 0:21:09but this is very difficult for me.
0:21:09 > 0:21:10Difficult for you?!
0:21:10 > 0:21:13I'm the one in labour, for God's sake!
0:21:13 > 0:21:16You're unbelievable!
0:21:16 > 0:21:17OK, OK, shh.
0:21:20 > 0:21:22I'm sorry. I thought I could, but...
0:21:25 > 0:21:27It's OK. Shh.
0:21:30 > 0:21:32All right.
0:21:32 > 0:21:33I'm scared.
0:21:36 > 0:21:37I can't do this on my own.
0:21:37 > 0:21:39You're not on your own, OK?
0:21:39 > 0:21:40KNOCK AT DOOR
0:21:40 > 0:21:41Come in.
0:21:47 > 0:21:52You're doing a brilliant job, OK, Josie? So, nice, deep breaths out.
0:21:52 > 0:21:53Let's go, come on.
0:21:54 > 0:21:56That's it.
0:22:08 > 0:22:10I can't face her right now.
0:22:10 > 0:22:12This is as close as I can get.
0:22:12 > 0:22:13Come on.
0:22:18 > 0:22:19When I was...
0:22:24 > 0:22:25When I had Josie...
0:22:27 > 0:22:31I'm guessing that it wasn't an easy birth.
0:22:32 > 0:22:34And, Josie being pregnant,
0:22:34 > 0:22:36it's brought it all back to the surface for you.
0:22:38 > 0:22:41I want to be there for her more than anything.
0:22:44 > 0:22:46I've just felt this...
0:22:48 > 0:22:50..overwhelming fear since she got pregnant and
0:22:50 > 0:22:55it's just got worse and worse when the delivery date got closer.
0:23:01 > 0:23:03They...
0:23:03 > 0:23:05they...
0:23:05 > 0:23:06ripped her out of me.
0:23:09 > 0:23:11They didn't explain anything and before I knew it,
0:23:11 > 0:23:12the forceps were out and I was...
0:23:14 > 0:23:16I felt so violated.
0:23:16 > 0:23:18There was so much blood.
0:23:18 > 0:23:22I didn't even know if she was alive, they just took her away.
0:23:22 > 0:23:24That's...that's awful. I can't...
0:23:28 > 0:23:30When we finally went home, I...
0:23:34 > 0:23:35..I couldn't bond with her.
0:23:37 > 0:23:41My husband did a lot of the nursing in those first few months.
0:23:43 > 0:23:46He got fed up with it finally and left.
0:23:46 > 0:23:49I was a total failure.
0:23:50 > 0:23:53Oh, I still am. I mean, look at me,
0:23:53 > 0:23:55sitting here when Josie is...
0:23:57 > 0:23:58Oh, she will be all right, won't she?
0:23:58 > 0:24:00Everything is going to be fine.
0:24:04 > 0:24:07Mrs Maray, have you heard of post-traumatic stress disorder?
0:24:09 > 0:24:11- What soldiers get?- Yeah.
0:24:11 > 0:24:14It can be caused by all sorts of experiences, so...
0:24:16 > 0:24:17A traumatic labour, for instance.
0:24:18 > 0:24:20It was 40 years ago.
0:24:20 > 0:24:23Yeah, well, trauma has a habit of lingering about,
0:24:23 > 0:24:26especially if it hasn't been dealt with.
0:24:26 > 0:24:28But there is help available.
0:24:28 > 0:24:30There are specialist midwives,
0:24:30 > 0:24:33group therapy, people you can talk to.
0:24:34 > 0:24:36Do you think you'd be interested in that?
0:24:42 > 0:24:45Josie is going to make an amazing mum.
0:24:47 > 0:24:49Please tell her that I never doubted it for a second.
0:24:51 > 0:24:53Why don't you tell her yourself?
0:24:58 > 0:24:59Thanks.
0:24:59 > 0:25:01Yeah, where do you live?
0:25:01 > 0:25:05Just tell me your name and I can help you. I can take you home.
0:25:05 > 0:25:06I don't...
0:25:06 > 0:25:07Just tell me your name.
0:25:11 > 0:25:15- Everything OK?- Yeah, we're good. Thank you, Doctor.
0:25:15 > 0:25:16You're doing a brilliant job.
0:25:17 > 0:25:19All right, Josie, whenever you're ready.
0:25:21 > 0:25:22You can do it, love.
0:25:37 > 0:25:38KNOCK AT DOOR
0:25:38 > 0:25:39Yeah?
0:25:39 > 0:25:42It is past seven, Dr Clay! What are you still doing here?
0:25:42 > 0:25:44I could ask you the same thing.
0:25:45 > 0:25:46Have you got a moment?
0:25:46 > 0:25:48Yeah.
0:25:48 > 0:25:49What's up?
0:25:51 > 0:25:54I am questioning whether I have done the right thing with Miss Pitman.
0:25:55 > 0:25:58Well, she seems pretty excited about the party.
0:25:58 > 0:26:00Yes, and that is what I am worried about.
0:26:00 > 0:26:05She was so miserable earlier on, I wanted to raise her spirits
0:26:05 > 0:26:07and let her feel more optimistic.
0:26:09 > 0:26:12But what if she does get bad news on Friday?
0:26:12 > 0:26:13Well, they did catch it early,
0:26:13 > 0:26:15so she's fairly unlikely to see a recurrence.
0:26:16 > 0:26:20But it was wrong of me to raise her hopes in that way.
0:26:20 > 0:26:24You've made Valerie feel positive and supported and that's important.
0:26:26 > 0:26:29Yeah, I suppose so. Thank you, Dr Clay.
0:26:29 > 0:26:32You know, she is stronger than she thinks.
0:26:32 > 0:26:33You really believe that?
0:26:33 > 0:26:35Why, yes. Yes, of course.
0:26:37 > 0:26:40You know, ever since Miss Pitman has been diagnosed,
0:26:40 > 0:26:42I've been praying for her.
0:26:45 > 0:26:46Why don't you pray with me?
0:26:50 > 0:26:55Dear Lord, I ask in faith that you continue
0:26:55 > 0:26:57to heal our colleague, Miss Pitman.
0:26:58 > 0:27:01That you renew her day by day,
0:27:01 > 0:27:04you restore her hope
0:27:04 > 0:27:05and dry her tears.
0:27:06 > 0:27:12And together, we will be her strength when she is weak.
0:27:12 > 0:27:15Lord, we place our trust in you.
0:27:20 > 0:27:22We need a treat.
0:27:22 > 0:27:24You know, something to blow away the midweek blues.
0:27:24 > 0:27:25So, what do you do?
0:27:25 > 0:27:27I work for MI5.
0:27:27 > 0:27:31Yeah, my official title is International Woman of Mystery.
0:27:31 > 0:27:32What's wrong with your liver?
0:27:32 > 0:27:35It doesn't belong. My body's rejecting it.
0:27:36 > 0:27:37It's his first Nativity.
0:27:37 > 0:27:40We're not going to care if he gets cast as one of the sheep.
0:27:40 > 0:27:41Our son is not a sheep!