0:01:05 > 0:01:09What else can I be when I live in such a world of fools as this?
0:01:11 > 0:01:13And then...
0:01:13 > 0:01:15I hereby curse anyone who darest
0:01:15 > 0:01:18uses the word Christmas in my presence.
0:01:18 > 0:01:21Miles off. It's, "Merry Christmas! If I could work my will..."
0:01:21 > 0:01:24Yeah, I know what it is. I'm not saying that.
0:01:24 > 0:01:27I don't see why Dickens has to use 50 words when 15 will suffice.
0:01:27 > 0:01:30If you change it you'll mess up the cues for everyone else.
0:01:30 > 0:01:32And if I don't, the play will be six hours long.
0:01:32 > 0:01:34Why should I say what Heston's copied out of
0:01:34 > 0:01:37a book when I can think of something better off the top of my head?
0:01:38 > 0:01:40OK, fine. But, please,
0:01:40 > 0:01:42just stick to the script in the scenes you have with Joe.
0:01:42 > 0:01:45I think I've already knocked his confidence trying to teach
0:01:45 > 0:01:46him how to project.
0:01:46 > 0:01:49I imagine the Zara Carmichael School of Speech and Drama is
0:01:49 > 0:01:51an unforgiving place.
0:01:51 > 0:01:53I'm just trying to make sure he can
0:01:53 > 0:01:55be heard by the people in the cheap seats.
0:01:55 > 0:01:57- Very egalitarian of you. - Yes, it is very good of me,
0:01:57 > 0:02:00to be considering those who are less fortunate than us.
0:02:01 > 0:02:02I've got patients to see.
0:02:02 > 0:02:04I suppose it could be worse.
0:02:04 > 0:02:07I've got an idea for a new dance!
0:02:07 > 0:02:10You have to stop saying that. You know it summons her.
0:02:10 > 0:02:12It's a guaranteed showstopper.
0:02:12 > 0:02:15Are you insane? We can't learn a new dance by tonight.
0:02:15 > 0:02:18It's very simple - even a dog could pick it up.
0:02:18 > 0:02:19- Can we test that?- I promise you,
0:02:19 > 0:02:21this will leave the audience wanting more.
0:02:21 > 0:02:24So meet in reception at lunchtime and I will teach you how to...
0:02:24 > 0:02:26bust a move.
0:02:27 > 0:02:29We are so doomed.
0:02:31 > 0:02:33- Is it the same handwriting as the others?- Mm-hm.
0:02:33 > 0:02:37And you've no idea who's sending them?
0:02:37 > 0:02:38No.
0:02:38 > 0:02:42It's hard enough having to re-take my first year, without this.
0:02:42 > 0:02:46Perhaps the person who sent it genuinely wants you to have the money?
0:02:46 > 0:02:48I'm not a charity.
0:02:48 > 0:02:50And why don't they say who they are?
0:02:51 > 0:02:52I don't know.
0:02:53 > 0:02:58The man who attacked me, he has friends at this university.
0:02:59 > 0:03:01You think it might be one of them?
0:03:01 > 0:03:03Maybe it's the start of some sick joke.
0:03:04 > 0:03:06I'll go and have a word with them.
0:03:08 > 0:03:10Don't worry, I'll get to the bottom of this.
0:03:11 > 0:03:13Thanks.
0:03:19 > 0:03:22- Ah! Sergeant Hollins.- Barry. - What are you doing here?
0:03:22 > 0:03:25Is there a security matter I should be aware of?
0:03:25 > 0:03:27No. I'm here on very important business.
0:03:27 > 0:03:31Karen asked me to pick up this scarf if I came near the campus.
0:03:31 > 0:03:33It's been in lost property for months.
0:03:33 > 0:03:35Our new foster kid wants to borrow it.
0:03:35 > 0:03:38Actually, while you're here,
0:03:38 > 0:03:40I'd like to update you on my investigation.
0:03:40 > 0:03:42What investigation?
0:03:42 > 0:03:45Someone has been sending money to one of the students.
0:03:45 > 0:03:47Sounds all right to me.
0:03:47 > 0:03:50This student is actually finding it very upsetting.
0:03:50 > 0:03:53She got caught in the middle of a fight in a pub last year.
0:03:53 > 0:03:54She was stabbed in the back -
0:03:54 > 0:03:56it damaged her spine and left her in a wheelchair.
0:03:56 > 0:03:58I remember.
0:03:58 > 0:04:00She thinks someone might be playing a trick on her.
0:04:00 > 0:04:01By sending her money?
0:04:01 > 0:04:04I've spoken to some of the friends of the young man who attacked her.
0:04:04 > 0:04:06They claimed not to know anything.
0:04:06 > 0:04:07Well, no surprise there.
0:04:07 > 0:04:10If you do think it's serious and you need any assistance...
0:04:10 > 0:04:13I have your number. But don't worry, I'm on the case.
0:04:13 > 0:04:16I just wanted to give you a heads up in case things escalate.
0:04:16 > 0:04:17Thank you, Barry.
0:04:21 > 0:04:23Don't ask.
0:04:28 > 0:04:31PHONE BLEEPS
0:04:32 > 0:04:34Hello, father.
0:04:34 > 0:04:37Yep, all is good.
0:04:37 > 0:04:40I'm getting ready to give Olivier a run for his money.
0:04:44 > 0:04:48OK. No, I understand.
0:04:48 > 0:04:51The lane closures can be a real problem.
0:04:52 > 0:04:56No, honestly, I don't mind. I understand.
0:04:57 > 0:05:01Look, I'm just going to make an idiot of myself anyway.
0:05:02 > 0:05:04OK, look I've got to go.
0:05:04 > 0:05:06I've got a patient waiting.
0:05:06 > 0:05:08OK, bye.
0:05:10 > 0:05:13Any other questions, just get in touch.
0:05:20 > 0:05:22How can I help you?
0:05:27 > 0:05:30Please, Miss Pitman. Everyone will be here.
0:05:30 > 0:05:31Stop fretting.
0:05:31 > 0:05:33They would not put up with this kind
0:05:33 > 0:05:35of tardiness if we were at the National Theatre.
0:05:35 > 0:05:38It is almost as if we've got other jobs to do.
0:05:38 > 0:05:40- At last! - I'm only two minutes late.
0:05:40 > 0:05:43Yes, but that two minutes could spell the difference between
0:05:43 > 0:05:45being a smash hit and a flop that closes at the interval.
0:05:45 > 0:05:46We should be so lucky.
0:05:46 > 0:05:48Shall we get started?
0:05:48 > 0:05:50Yes, that's the sort of attitude I'm looking for.
0:05:50 > 0:05:54The sooner we get started, the sooner this farce will be over and done with.
0:05:54 > 0:05:57That's not the sort of attitude I'm looking for.
0:05:57 > 0:06:00OK, everyone, could we just inhabit the space.
0:06:02 > 0:06:05And, Fred Astaire, we require your services.
0:06:05 > 0:06:07- I need to go over my lines. - There'll be time for that later.
0:06:07 > 0:06:09That's blatantly not true.
0:06:09 > 0:06:12I'm don't think that kind of attitude is very helpful, Al.
0:06:12 > 0:06:14OK, shall we start by limbering up?
0:06:14 > 0:06:17Can we go straight to the dance? The clock is ticking.
0:06:17 > 0:06:21Zara Carmichael, come on down!
0:06:21 > 0:06:24Perhaps you had forgotten that we have a rehearsal for Miss Pitman's
0:06:24 > 0:06:27- dance routine? - Oh, she remembered.
0:06:27 > 0:06:28I owe you one.
0:06:28 > 0:06:29OK, are we ready to do-si-do?
0:06:29 > 0:06:32Do-si-don't would be nearer the mark.
0:06:32 > 0:06:35Picture the scene - we are in the Scottish Highlands.
0:06:35 > 0:06:38We've just built a barn and are quite pleased about that,
0:06:38 > 0:06:39so we'd like to celebrate.
0:06:39 > 0:06:42We express our happiness through dance!
0:06:42 > 0:06:45Sorry, what's that got to do with A Christmas Carol?
0:06:45 > 0:06:47They have Christmas in Scotland.
0:06:47 > 0:06:50All right, this dance is meant to be in Mr Fezziwig's warehouse in
0:06:50 > 0:06:53- Victorian London. I don't think... - Can we just get on with it?
0:06:53 > 0:06:55OK. Mr and Mrs Fezziwig, to begin with,
0:06:55 > 0:06:57you're going to do a gallop on four...
0:06:57 > 0:07:00Goes like this, a one, two, three, four.
0:07:00 > 0:07:01And back, two, three, four.
0:07:01 > 0:07:02OK.
0:07:04 > 0:07:06One, two, three, four.
0:07:06 > 0:07:08- One, two, three, four.- Perfect.
0:07:13 > 0:07:15So you want to keep your room throughout the holidays?
0:07:15 > 0:07:17- Yes.- Even Christmas day?
0:07:17 > 0:07:21You won't be spending it with your family?
0:07:21 > 0:07:23I've got friends, foreign students who'll be here.
0:07:23 > 0:07:26Oh. That's good.
0:07:26 > 0:07:27What's your room number?
0:07:27 > 0:07:29Block C, room 127.
0:07:29 > 0:07:31Miss Mertens?
0:07:32 > 0:07:35Will your parents come and visit you?
0:07:35 > 0:07:39They...they haven't dealt with this very well.
0:07:41 > 0:07:43I just need some space to sort
0:07:43 > 0:07:45my own head out without worrying about them.
0:07:45 > 0:07:48We'll require payment for the room at the start of the holidays.
0:07:48 > 0:07:49Fine.
0:07:52 > 0:07:54I think I read about you on the university website.
0:07:54 > 0:07:58Possibly. I've been getting involved with the Student Union.
0:07:58 > 0:08:00You seem to be coping well.
0:08:02 > 0:08:03Considering what happened.
0:08:05 > 0:08:07Could we just get this done, please?
0:08:07 > 0:08:09Of course. Sorry.
0:08:10 > 0:08:15And one, two, three, four, and back two, three, four.
0:08:15 > 0:08:20And turn, two, three, four, go to your next person.
0:08:20 > 0:08:22One, two, three four, and change, two, three, four.
0:08:22 > 0:08:25Round two, three, four.
0:08:25 > 0:08:28Coming to the centre, and stop!
0:08:29 > 0:08:32Good. Right.
0:08:33 > 0:08:35Something to build on.
0:08:35 > 0:08:39I think you have done a wonderful job in such a short amount of time.
0:08:39 > 0:08:40Aw, thank you.
0:08:40 > 0:08:43Heston, with the turns in the middle, you were in the wrong place.
0:08:43 > 0:08:46No, no, I was do-si-doing, you went off into the sunset.
0:08:46 > 0:08:48- Because you went the wrong way. - I didn't go the wrong way!
0:08:48 > 0:08:51Don't dwell on the details. It's just important that we commit.
0:08:51 > 0:08:54Better to do the wrong thing with gusto than do the right thing
0:08:54 > 0:08:56half-heartedly.
0:08:56 > 0:08:58Is that your personal mantra?
0:08:58 > 0:09:00Right, so now we've got the basics,
0:09:00 > 0:09:03this time I'd like you to really sell it to the audience.
0:09:03 > 0:09:05If the audience have left by now, can't we just skip this?
0:09:05 > 0:09:08- Good idea.- No, even if you're just playing to the mice who live in
0:09:08 > 0:09:12the theatre, you have to give it 110%.
0:09:12 > 0:09:14Which is mathematically impossible.
0:09:14 > 0:09:16No. Only in here.
0:09:16 > 0:09:19If you dance from here, then numbers have a life of their own.
0:09:19 > 0:09:21Erm...I don't think they do.
0:09:21 > 0:09:23I really need to learn my lines.
0:09:23 > 0:09:25OK. This time with music. First positions.
0:09:27 > 0:09:29MUSIC PLAYS
0:09:29 > 0:09:31And one, ready...
0:09:31 > 0:09:35- ALL SHOUT - Heston, you're early.- No, you're all late.- One, two, three...
0:09:35 > 0:09:37..five, six, seven.
0:09:37 > 0:09:40This is where the turn comes...
0:09:40 > 0:09:42Now change, two, three...
0:09:42 > 0:09:43Wait!
0:09:43 > 0:09:44ALL SHOUT AT ONCE
0:09:44 > 0:09:46There.
0:09:47 > 0:09:49It'll be all right on the night.
0:09:51 > 0:09:53And again!
0:09:53 > 0:09:55I can get a room in Block J for the holidays if you like?
0:09:55 > 0:09:57I'm fine where I am.
0:09:57 > 0:10:00The rooms there are bigger. I won't charge you any more for it.
0:10:00 > 0:10:03I don't want to have to move all my stuff.
0:10:03 > 0:10:05And I'd rather stay with my friends.
0:10:05 > 0:10:06Good afternoon. Miss Mertens.
0:10:06 > 0:10:08Have you found anything?
0:10:08 > 0:10:10What do you mean?
0:10:10 > 0:10:12It's just an internal security matter.
0:10:12 > 0:10:14Some crank has been sending me letters.
0:10:14 > 0:10:16We believe the last letter was sent from University House,
0:10:16 > 0:10:20- so I'm just going around talking to the staff.- Oh.
0:10:20 > 0:10:23Have you seen anyone behaving suspiciously?
0:10:23 > 0:10:25No. Nothing springs to mind.
0:10:25 > 0:10:27What did these letters say?
0:10:27 > 0:10:30They contained money, and a note.
0:10:30 > 0:10:33Today's one told me to enjoy Christmas.
0:10:33 > 0:10:36Isn't that a nice thing? Being sent money.
0:10:36 > 0:10:38No, it's creeping me out.
0:10:39 > 0:10:42I saw Sergeant Hollins earlier, made him aware of the situation.
0:10:42 > 0:10:44You got the police involved?
0:10:44 > 0:10:48When it comes to student safety it's always better to be safe than sorry.
0:10:48 > 0:10:51I'll go and continue my enquiries.
0:10:51 > 0:10:52Thanks.
0:10:52 > 0:10:54Can I have a word?
0:10:54 > 0:10:56Gosh.
0:11:02 > 0:11:05COCKNEY ACCENT: How did little Tim behave?
0:11:09 > 0:11:11It's your line.
0:11:11 > 0:11:13I know. It's, um...
0:11:14 > 0:11:16"As good as..."
0:11:16 > 0:11:19...gold and better.
0:11:19 > 0:11:21For pity's sake. He told me coming...
0:11:21 > 0:11:23Coming home.
0:11:23 > 0:11:26He told me coming home, etcetera, etcetera.
0:11:26 > 0:11:27Just give me a chance!
0:11:27 > 0:11:30Oh, Tim, sometimes you say the strangest things I ever heard!
0:11:33 > 0:11:35Just give me the first word.
0:11:35 > 0:11:36But.
0:11:36 > 0:11:39I might need the second word as well.
0:11:39 > 0:11:41"But he's growing strong and hearty."
0:11:41 > 0:11:43Hearty.
0:11:43 > 0:11:46Strong and hearty, aren't you, Tim. Strong and hearty.
0:11:46 > 0:11:49If you're just going to say all my lines for me,
0:11:49 > 0:11:50what's the point me being here?
0:11:50 > 0:11:53Funny that, I was just thinking exactly the same thing.
0:11:53 > 0:11:54This isn't helping!
0:11:54 > 0:11:56We are beyond help.
0:12:01 > 0:12:03This should help.
0:12:03 > 0:12:05Can't you feel it at all?
0:12:05 > 0:12:08No, I don't... I don't think it was that hot,
0:12:08 > 0:12:09and it probably won't leave a mark.
0:12:09 > 0:12:12I think we should have a doctor check on you, just to be sure.
0:12:12 > 0:12:13Especially if you can't feel it.
0:12:13 > 0:12:15I'm so sorry.
0:12:15 > 0:12:19The lift's out of order at the surgery at the moment.
0:12:19 > 0:12:21If you fetch a doctor, she can wait here.
0:12:21 > 0:12:22It'll be fine.
0:12:24 > 0:12:27Please. For my own peace of mind, if nothing else.
0:12:30 > 0:12:31I won't be long.
0:12:34 > 0:12:36How long do we wait?
0:12:36 > 0:12:38I don't know, we'll see.
0:12:38 > 0:12:41He's got to come over sometime.
0:12:41 > 0:12:44- That could be hours, though, right? - MESSAGE ALERT
0:12:47 > 0:12:50- Bad news? - No, no - Karen,
0:12:50 > 0:12:53making sure I've got this scarf.
0:12:53 > 0:12:57Adam, our new boy, he wants to put a show on.
0:12:59 > 0:13:00What kind of show?
0:13:00 > 0:13:02I have no idea.
0:13:04 > 0:13:06- You all right?- Yeah! No, it's just....
0:13:08 > 0:13:10I don't know what I make of him.
0:13:10 > 0:13:13He's... He's very flamboyant.
0:13:14 > 0:13:17- What's wrong with that?- Nothing.
0:13:17 > 0:13:19It's just that I wasn't expecting it.
0:13:19 > 0:13:23All the other kids we've had have been damaged, difficult.
0:13:23 > 0:13:27I wasn't expecting singing and dancing!
0:13:27 > 0:13:28Isn't it nice he's happy, though?
0:13:28 > 0:13:30Yeah.
0:13:30 > 0:13:32And I hope that he doesn't spend his life
0:13:32 > 0:13:34getting in and out of trouble.
0:13:34 > 0:13:36But still...
0:13:36 > 0:13:39- What?- Well, I bet all the other kids make fun of him.
0:13:39 > 0:13:42In my day, if you were that camp, you wouldn't stand a chance.
0:13:44 > 0:13:45The world's changed.
0:13:45 > 0:13:47I'm glad it has, for his sake.
0:13:47 > 0:13:50I think it's nice you worry about him, you know?
0:13:50 > 0:13:52It's what you do when you're a parent.
0:13:52 > 0:13:54Even as a foster parent.
0:13:57 > 0:13:58I wouldn't know.
0:14:00 > 0:14:01What do you mean?
0:14:05 > 0:14:07Thanks for this, Dr Granger.
0:14:07 > 0:14:09No worries. Lead the way.
0:14:09 > 0:14:10Anything else I should know?
0:14:14 > 0:14:16I didn't know you were in care.
0:14:16 > 0:14:19Mum fell apart when she found out about Dad's second family.
0:14:19 > 0:14:21I can't blame her, really.
0:14:21 > 0:14:23She'd built her whole life around him,
0:14:23 > 0:14:26- then he did that to her. - Do you ever see 'em?
0:14:26 > 0:14:27Not for years.
0:14:27 > 0:14:29Dad used to visit the care home,
0:14:29 > 0:14:31but all he'd ever talk about was his new family.
0:14:31 > 0:14:32It made me feel sick.
0:14:32 > 0:14:35Half the time he didn't even show up, anyway.
0:14:35 > 0:14:38- Look how well you turned out, considering.- Hmm.
0:14:38 > 0:14:40Got fed up in the end.
0:14:40 > 0:14:42Not knowing when he was going to show up,
0:14:42 > 0:14:43getting upset when he did.
0:14:43 > 0:14:45Had to cut off ties in the end.
0:14:45 > 0:14:47How old were you?
0:14:47 > 0:14:4817.
0:14:48 > 0:14:50I've not seen him since.
0:14:50 > 0:14:53What about your mum? Do you see her?
0:14:54 > 0:14:55Not really.
0:14:55 > 0:14:58It's best for both if we don't, you know?
0:14:58 > 0:15:00Do you ever resent it, being put into care?
0:15:02 > 0:15:04Better than staying with my family.
0:15:06 > 0:15:09I think, you know, Adam's lucky -
0:15:09 > 0:15:10he's got a proper family to stay with.
0:15:10 > 0:15:11Well, I hope so,
0:15:11 > 0:15:14although I don't know what we can really do for him.
0:15:14 > 0:15:16Just cos he's from a better background than you expected
0:15:16 > 0:15:19doesn't mean he doesn't struggle with who he is, where he's from.
0:15:19 > 0:15:20I think all teenagers do.
0:15:20 > 0:15:24I'm just a bit worried that he's playing things up a bit,
0:15:24 > 0:15:28that this extrovert behaviour is him trying to prove something.
0:15:28 > 0:15:32Or maybe he finally feels like he can be himself.
0:15:36 > 0:15:37After work...
0:15:37 > 0:15:39Yeah?
0:15:39 > 0:15:40..can I come?
0:15:40 > 0:15:42To the show?
0:15:42 > 0:15:45- I mean, it's fine if not. I've got...- No, no, no, it's fine.
0:15:45 > 0:15:46You're very welcome.
0:15:46 > 0:15:49Cool, it sounds good.
0:15:52 > 0:15:54I can't believe I did that. I'm so clumsy.
0:15:54 > 0:15:55Accidents happen.
0:15:55 > 0:15:57I take full responsibility, of course,
0:15:57 > 0:16:01- if you want to complain. - I don't.
0:16:01 > 0:16:03Will you tell your parents about this?
0:16:03 > 0:16:04I don't know. Why?
0:16:05 > 0:16:07They must worry about you.
0:16:07 > 0:16:10Especially if they won't be seeing you at Christmas.
0:16:10 > 0:16:11Why is it that sitting in a wheelchair
0:16:11 > 0:16:14means everyone feels they can pry into my private life?
0:16:14 > 0:16:17I'm sorry. It just makes me sad.
0:16:17 > 0:16:19It must be very hard for you.
0:16:20 > 0:16:21Here she is.
0:16:23 > 0:16:27- Hi, can we have a bit of space? - Of course.- Thank you.
0:16:27 > 0:16:31- All right, so it just hit you here? - Yeah.
0:16:31 > 0:16:32OK, let's have a look.
0:16:35 > 0:16:36All right, that's not too bad.
0:16:41 > 0:16:43All right, well...
0:16:43 > 0:16:45I think you've been very lucky,
0:16:45 > 0:16:48it doesn't look like there's any serious damage.
0:16:48 > 0:16:51But if it starts blistering, do come to the surgery or call us, better,
0:16:51 > 0:16:53and the nurse will come out and see you.
0:16:53 > 0:16:55- All right?- OK, thank you.
0:16:55 > 0:16:56How are you otherwise?
0:16:56 > 0:16:58I'm fine.
0:16:58 > 0:17:01Barry tells me you were sent another letter.
0:17:01 > 0:17:02Yeah.
0:17:03 > 0:17:06That must be worrying.
0:17:06 > 0:17:08It's just ever since I lost the use of my legs,
0:17:08 > 0:17:11everyone keeps telling me how well I'm doing.
0:17:11 > 0:17:14If I hear one more person say the word "inspiration",
0:17:14 > 0:17:15I'll strangle them.
0:17:15 > 0:17:18It must make it hard to admit when you are struggling.
0:17:18 > 0:17:22I don't want to be that helpless person that everyone pities.
0:17:23 > 0:17:30- But I am worried they're being sent from one of- his- friends.
0:17:30 > 0:17:34Like, maybe one of the lads who was in the pub that night.
0:17:34 > 0:17:36I don't know what I can do about it.
0:17:38 > 0:17:40- KNOCK ON DOOR - Come in.
0:17:40 > 0:17:43Hey, how you doing?
0:17:45 > 0:17:48If I'm honest, absolutely terrified.
0:17:48 > 0:17:49All right, well, I can help.
0:17:49 > 0:17:52I know some techniques that can relax and, you know,
0:17:52 > 0:17:54- get you more focused.- Really?
0:17:54 > 0:17:57Yeah. I could pop back at the end of surgery.
0:17:57 > 0:18:00If we can get you in a better frame of mind, it might even,
0:18:00 > 0:18:02dare I say it,
0:18:02 > 0:18:04you might even enjoy the performance.
0:18:04 > 0:18:07I'll settle for just getting through it alive!
0:18:07 > 0:18:09Yes, please.
0:18:09 > 0:18:11She's been very lucky, she's going to be fine.
0:18:11 > 0:18:14So, Kim, I'm done here. Good luck, all right?
0:18:14 > 0:18:15- OK, thanks.- OK.
0:18:16 > 0:18:17Sorry again.
0:18:17 > 0:18:19Please stop apologising.
0:18:20 > 0:18:23You're all right, that's the main thing.
0:18:23 > 0:18:26Looks like some of these will need printing out again.
0:18:26 > 0:18:30Don't worry about it. They'll be easy enough to replace.
0:18:30 > 0:18:31Well, I better get off, then.
0:18:45 > 0:18:46What is it?
0:18:52 > 0:18:54- ROB:- Hi, love.- Ooh, did you get it?
0:18:57 > 0:18:59Fabulous!
0:18:59 > 0:19:03And I brought a visitor to see the show, if that's all right.
0:19:03 > 0:19:05You won't hear any complaints from me.
0:19:05 > 0:19:07- Hiya. I'm Tyler.- Adam.
0:19:07 > 0:19:10Right, I'll go and get myself ready for the show!
0:19:14 > 0:19:16'I can explain.'
0:19:19 > 0:19:20You sent the letters?
0:19:20 > 0:19:22I don't even know you.
0:19:23 > 0:19:25I went back to using my maiden name over the summer.
0:19:26 > 0:19:28Before that, it was something else.
0:19:30 > 0:19:31It was Colthorpe.
0:19:34 > 0:19:35He's your son.
0:19:39 > 0:19:41It wasn't bad enough that your son paralysed me -
0:19:41 > 0:19:44you felt you also had to frighten me?
0:19:44 > 0:19:46I didn't think that was how you'd react.
0:19:46 > 0:19:49I saw you'd come back to university and I wanted to do
0:19:49 > 0:19:51something to make your life easier.
0:19:51 > 0:19:53Money was the only thing I could think of.
0:19:53 > 0:19:56The last thing I want is a penny from you.
0:19:56 > 0:19:58Sam didn't mean to hurt you.
0:19:58 > 0:20:00Then he shouldn't have brought a knife to a pub!
0:20:00 > 0:20:01I know, I know.
0:20:01 > 0:20:04How many nights I've laid awake wondering why
0:20:04 > 0:20:06that stupid idiot, my child...
0:20:06 > 0:20:08I should tell the police what you did.
0:20:10 > 0:20:13I swear, I didn't mean to upset you.
0:20:13 > 0:20:16Are you that stupid that never to think how it would look to me?
0:20:16 > 0:20:19I just wanted to help. To apologise for raising a monster.
0:20:19 > 0:20:21Did you know what he was like?
0:20:21 > 0:20:23The sort of people he hung around with?
0:20:23 > 0:20:26I disapproved... but I didn't know what to do.
0:20:28 > 0:20:31I tried hard to bring him up well - I really did.
0:20:32 > 0:20:35We organised extra tuition for him after school.
0:20:35 > 0:20:39I told him I was always here to talk if he needed to.
0:20:40 > 0:20:42So, what went wrong?
0:20:42 > 0:20:44How often have I wondered that?
0:20:46 > 0:20:48Maybe I tried too hard -
0:20:48 > 0:20:50pushed him away.
0:20:50 > 0:20:52I have to live with what he did.
0:20:52 > 0:20:54I don't have a choice about it.
0:20:54 > 0:20:57The only way I know how to deal with it is just to get on with my life.
0:20:57 > 0:20:59SHE SIGHS
0:20:59 > 0:21:02I have to accept that I can't change what's already happened
0:21:02 > 0:21:04and just think about the future instead.
0:21:05 > 0:21:07You won't hear from me again.
0:21:07 > 0:21:08Thank you.
0:21:18 > 0:21:20It was his decision to get the knife out.
0:21:22 > 0:21:23Not yours.
0:21:29 > 0:21:32Ladies and gentlemen, sit back and relax.
0:21:32 > 0:21:35Today, your living room. Tomorrow, the West End.
0:21:35 > 0:21:40Introducing the one, the only...me!
0:21:40 > 0:21:41Cue music.
0:21:44 > 0:21:48# Tonight, I'm gonna have myself
0:21:48 > 0:21:50# A real good time
0:21:50 > 0:21:56# I feel ali-i-i-ive
0:21:56 > 0:21:59# And the world's
0:21:59 > 0:22:03# Turning inside out, yeah
0:22:03 > 0:22:08# I'm floating around in ecstasy
0:22:08 > 0:22:13# So don't stop me now
0:22:13 > 0:22:15# Don't stop me
0:22:15 > 0:22:19# Cos I'm having a good time, having a good time... #
0:22:21 > 0:22:23- RELAXING MUSIC PLAYS - Expel the air.
0:22:23 > 0:22:25Feel it leave your body.
0:22:26 > 0:22:27Good.
0:22:27 > 0:22:30Did I just step through a doorway into Narnia?
0:22:30 > 0:22:31Sh.
0:22:31 > 0:22:37OK, concentrate. Concentrate, Sid, on your breathing. Slowly in.
0:22:39 > 0:22:40And out.
0:22:40 > 0:22:43What are you doing?
0:22:43 > 0:22:45We're using hypno-birthing techniques
0:22:45 > 0:22:48to help Sid prepare for tonight.
0:22:48 > 0:22:51Um, hypno-birthing?
0:22:51 > 0:22:54Congratulations. Have you thought of a name yet?
0:22:54 > 0:22:56They're relaxation techniques, OK?
0:22:56 > 0:22:59Anyone can benefit from them - you don't have to be pregnant.
0:22:59 > 0:23:00Just gullible.
0:23:02 > 0:23:04Do you feel any calmer?
0:23:05 > 0:23:07- Actually, yeah, I do.- Good.
0:23:07 > 0:23:09Eyes closed.
0:23:09 > 0:23:11And focus on your breathing.
0:23:11 > 0:23:14Slowly in...and out.
0:23:15 > 0:23:18You know, we should put THIS on stage tonight.
0:23:18 > 0:23:20Perhaps madam would care to join us?
0:23:20 > 0:23:22I would rather die.
0:23:24 > 0:23:27# Don't stop me now
0:23:27 > 0:23:33# I don't wanna stop at all. #
0:23:33 > 0:23:34Yay!
0:23:36 > 0:23:37That was brilliant, wasn't it?
0:23:37 > 0:23:39Very impressive. Well done.
0:23:39 > 0:23:43I cannot believe we're going to have to sit through Heston's pile of
0:23:43 > 0:23:46old toot after a performance like that.
0:23:46 > 0:23:47Thank you, guys. Thank you so much.
0:23:47 > 0:23:51I'd better go and get changed back into my civilian clothes.
0:23:51 > 0:23:52I'll see you in two ticks.
0:23:54 > 0:23:55So, what do you think of him?
0:23:55 > 0:23:57He's very talented.
0:23:58 > 0:24:00I told you he was different.
0:24:00 > 0:24:03Yeah. Well, I think he knows exactly who he is.
0:24:03 > 0:24:07The way he is around you guys - that's cos he's comfortable here.
0:24:07 > 0:24:09I think he's going be fine.
0:24:09 > 0:24:11Especially with you two helping him.
0:24:16 > 0:24:18Feel your lungs expanding.
0:24:19 > 0:24:20That's right.
0:24:20 > 0:24:25And then, slowly, let the air back out again.
0:24:27 > 0:24:29Good.
0:24:29 > 0:24:32When you're ready, feel yourself come back into the room.
0:24:39 > 0:24:41- Thank you.- My pleasure.
0:24:41 > 0:24:43How do you feel, Zara?
0:24:44 > 0:24:46I feel...
0:24:48 > 0:24:51We will NEVER speak of this.
0:24:51 > 0:24:53- Clear?- I'm glad it helped.
0:24:55 > 0:24:56I feel so much calmer.
0:24:57 > 0:25:02Good...because we have a terrible show to perform.
0:25:11 > 0:25:12Where's Valerie?
0:25:12 > 0:25:14She's outside, waiting for the bus.
0:25:14 > 0:25:17And you don't think that you should be out there with her?
0:25:17 > 0:25:20I would advise the best way to deal with an excited Valerie is to keep
0:25:20 > 0:25:22as much distance as humanly possible.
0:25:22 > 0:25:25- Why don't you sit down? - Why don't YOU sit down?
0:25:26 > 0:25:29Here they are, dragging their heels.
0:25:29 > 0:25:33What do you mean? We weren't doing anything...were we?
0:25:33 > 0:25:35No. Er, sorry.
0:25:38 > 0:25:39How are you doing?
0:25:39 > 0:25:41SHE SIGHS
0:25:42 > 0:25:43I don't usually say this,
0:25:43 > 0:25:46but I should have listened to Daniel.
0:25:46 > 0:25:49The whole idea of this show is insane.
0:25:49 > 0:25:54Wow! I think we finally found something we agree on.
0:25:54 > 0:25:57I'm worried about the effect it's going to have on poor Joe.
0:25:57 > 0:26:00This was supposed to be for his benefit, but I fear we're going to
0:26:00 > 0:26:03keep therapists in business for years trying to undo the damage.
0:26:03 > 0:26:04No! It won't be that bad.
0:26:06 > 0:26:07I don't mean the play, obviously -
0:26:07 > 0:26:11that really is going to be that bad.
0:26:11 > 0:26:12But Joe...
0:26:14 > 0:26:16- I- can stand the humiliation.
0:26:16 > 0:26:19He should not have to go through this.
0:26:19 > 0:26:21You just want him to be happy - there's nothing wrong with that.
0:26:21 > 0:26:25I'm not going to be winning Mum Of The Year any time soon.
0:26:25 > 0:26:26He's lucky to have you.
0:26:29 > 0:26:32My parents have never cared about anything I was interested in.
0:26:33 > 0:26:38Not my chemistry set or Gameboy.
0:26:38 > 0:26:40Not even my career as a GP.
0:26:43 > 0:26:45Why am I doing this play, again?
0:26:45 > 0:26:47Because you're a masochist.
0:26:49 > 0:26:51They think I'm eccentric.
0:26:53 > 0:26:55They think I'm odd...
0:26:55 > 0:26:57and I don't care.
0:27:03 > 0:27:07This must be what sitting on Death Row feels like.
0:27:10 > 0:27:13The bus is here. Showtime!
0:27:23 > 0:27:24Scrooge!
0:27:24 > 0:27:26Bah, humbug.
0:27:26 > 0:27:28You will be haunted by three spirits.
0:27:28 > 0:27:30I think I'd rather not.
0:27:30 > 0:27:33Are you the spirit whose coming was foretold to me?
0:27:33 > 0:27:35I am.
0:27:35 > 0:27:38Come, Ebenezer Scrooge.
0:27:38 > 0:27:40Merry Christmas to us all, my dears.
0:27:40 > 0:27:44Lead on, then, spirit. Lead on.