0:00:44 > 0:00:45Excuse me, do you have a light?
0:00:45 > 0:00:46I don't smoke.
0:00:46 > 0:00:48All right.
0:00:55 > 0:00:56SHE SIGHS
0:01:15 > 0:01:17Oh, no!
0:01:19 > 0:01:21SHE SIGHS
0:01:26 > 0:01:27SHE SIGHS
0:01:30 > 0:01:33- Good morning.- Morning.
0:01:33 > 0:01:35Guys, could we talk later?
0:01:35 > 0:01:38- Is there a problem, Dr Clay? - If it's Valerie, I've spoken to her.
0:01:38 > 0:01:39No, it's not Valerie.
0:01:39 > 0:01:43- We could meet in my office at noon? - OK.
0:01:43 > 0:01:46I've got a conference call at 11.30 with Professor Mathias.
0:01:46 > 0:01:50THE Eleanor Mathias. I've been asked to contribute to a paper.
0:01:50 > 0:01:53Compounded Economic Benefits of Health and Wellbeing.
0:01:53 > 0:01:55- But I'll try.- Thank you.
0:01:55 > 0:01:57Jimmi won't say anything.
0:01:57 > 0:01:59Won't he? I mean, he is a partner,
0:01:59 > 0:02:01so surely he'll have to tell the others, won't he?
0:02:01 > 0:02:04Why, though? Surely he knows that she just wanted to blot everything out for a bit.
0:02:04 > 0:02:07It doesn't matter whether she tried to...you know, or not.
0:02:07 > 0:02:09I mean, isn't it about what she needs now?
0:02:09 > 0:02:12Yeah, and that's our support, it's not about getting all official.
0:02:12 > 0:02:14- And she did sleep through, so that's...- Hm!
0:02:14 > 0:02:17Good. You're dressed.
0:02:17 > 0:02:18How are you feeling?
0:02:18 > 0:02:21Yeah, fine. I'm off to work.
0:02:22 > 0:02:24Are you, er...sure?
0:02:24 > 0:02:27Look, Sid, let's not make a big deal about this, all right?
0:02:27 > 0:02:29I don't need a duvet day.
0:02:29 > 0:02:33Last night, I was stupid, but today, I'm fine.
0:02:33 > 0:02:36Yeah, well, fine's good, but work can wait.
0:02:36 > 0:02:38Self-care day. No ifs, no buts.
0:02:38 > 0:02:40Yeah. We're, er...worried about you.
0:02:40 > 0:02:43Look, it's not that I don't appreciate your help,
0:02:43 > 0:02:44and I know that last night was...
0:02:44 > 0:02:47Scary?
0:02:47 > 0:02:49I'm truly sorry.
0:02:52 > 0:02:54You're not going to say anything, are you?
0:02:54 > 0:02:56I mean, I've left a message for Jimmi
0:02:56 > 0:02:58and as far as I'm concerned, it's done.
0:03:00 > 0:03:03OK. But Ayesha hasn't slept, though.
0:03:03 > 0:03:06That doesn't matter. I've got the morning off, so here's the deal.
0:03:06 > 0:03:09- How about the new juice menu at the Icon?- Juice?
0:03:09 > 0:03:11It gives us a few hours to breathe.
0:03:11 > 0:03:14That's really what you want to do?
0:03:16 > 0:03:18- You going to join us, Sid? - Oh, no, I can't.
0:03:18 > 0:03:20I've only got half an hour to finish that delegate profile.
0:03:20 > 0:03:23But it will do you some good to chill out, though.
0:03:23 > 0:03:25Hm. Before I go to The Mill.
0:03:25 > 0:03:27If you say so, but there's no rushing.
0:03:27 > 0:03:29That make-up's not fooling anyone.
0:03:29 > 0:03:31Hm! Do I have a choice?
0:03:31 > 0:03:33- No.- No.
0:03:33 > 0:03:34OK.
0:03:37 > 0:03:39AYESHA EXHALES
0:03:41 > 0:03:45Miss Pitman, I have scheduled in a partners' meeting at 12 noon.
0:03:45 > 0:03:47I've had to change around a few appointments.
0:03:47 > 0:03:49Will you be needing someone to take the notes?
0:03:49 > 0:03:53No. No, I will be taking notes myself.
0:03:53 > 0:03:56The subject is of a delicate nature.
0:03:56 > 0:03:59But I do need you to make sure that I am not interrupted.
0:03:59 > 0:04:02No interruptions. You can rely on me.
0:04:06 > 0:04:09Mm. You were right.
0:04:09 > 0:04:12This is the perfect way to give ourselves a boost.
0:04:12 > 0:04:14Promise you'll never do that to me again.
0:04:14 > 0:04:16- Ayesha...- I thought you were dead.
0:04:16 > 0:04:19- I looked at you lying there and... - I'm sorry.
0:04:19 > 0:04:21Do you get how much you freaked us out?
0:04:21 > 0:04:24I just wanted to switch off for a bit, that's all.
0:04:24 > 0:04:26Do you understand?
0:04:27 > 0:04:29- Have you spoken to Jimmi? - No, not yet.
0:04:29 > 0:04:32- He'll phone you.- Yeah, but...
0:04:32 > 0:04:34If he's going to say anything, he'll speak to you first.
0:04:36 > 0:04:37Who's that?
0:04:39 > 0:04:42It can't be. Um...Jimmi won't say anything.
0:04:42 > 0:04:44Yeah, well, I can't be sure.
0:04:46 > 0:04:48Are you all right?
0:04:48 > 0:04:50She's the spit of someone I used to hang out with.
0:04:50 > 0:04:53We went to the Isle of Wight Festival years ago. I mean, like, years.
0:04:53 > 0:04:56- Doppelganger?- Yeah, got to be.
0:04:57 > 0:05:00But, I mean, what if she is your friend? Don't you want to find out?
0:05:00 > 0:05:03Nice try. You're stuck with me, lady.
0:05:03 > 0:05:05I'm fine, honestly.
0:05:05 > 0:05:07And, you know, she might be your friend.
0:05:07 > 0:05:09You know you want to. Go on!
0:05:09 > 0:05:12If you don't go because you're baby-sitting me,
0:05:12 > 0:05:14I'm just going to feel guilty.
0:05:14 > 0:05:17I'm fine. I'll just sit here and wait for Jimmi to call.
0:05:17 > 0:05:19Tell me what you'll do if I don't come back.
0:05:19 > 0:05:23I will sit here like a good girl and drink my juice with chia seeds.
0:05:23 > 0:05:26And then I will slowly amble over to The Mill.
0:05:26 > 0:05:28Go on, go!
0:05:28 > 0:05:29- Are you sure?- Yes, absolutely.
0:05:31 > 0:05:32OK.
0:05:37 > 0:05:39SHE SIGHS
0:05:42 > 0:05:44- EMMA ON VOICEMAIL:- Jimmi?
0:05:44 > 0:05:49I know you think you have to, but talk to me first, will you,
0:05:49 > 0:05:52before you say anything to the partners?
0:05:52 > 0:05:55Please, call me.
0:05:55 > 0:05:56BLEEP
0:05:56 > 0:06:00Jimmi? Look, I self-prescribed, all right?
0:06:00 > 0:06:02We all do it from time to time.
0:06:02 > 0:06:05I know what a fatal dose is and this wasn't one.
0:06:05 > 0:06:09So you really don't have to make this official.
0:06:09 > 0:06:11You don't have to tell anybody.
0:06:12 > 0:06:13Please?
0:06:17 > 0:06:18Martha?
0:06:18 > 0:06:20Martha!
0:06:22 > 0:06:25Would you look at you!
0:06:25 > 0:06:29Check the hair! Wow, that's changed!
0:06:29 > 0:06:30That really suits you.
0:06:33 > 0:06:34We thought you were dead.
0:06:39 > 0:06:41Forgive me.
0:06:41 > 0:06:44I wound it up as quickly as I could, but I had to be courteous.
0:06:44 > 0:06:46Eleanor has left Harvard and she wants ME...
0:06:46 > 0:06:49Tell me later. Jimmi's got something he wants to say.
0:06:49 > 0:06:50Oh. Yes, of course.
0:06:50 > 0:06:52- Hm!- Please continue, Dr Clay.
0:06:52 > 0:06:56Um...right. Well, Emma's going through a very difficult period.
0:06:56 > 0:06:59Yeah. She's certainly got more than her fair share.
0:06:59 > 0:07:00I don't really...
0:07:01 > 0:07:04No, I don't really want to go into details.
0:07:04 > 0:07:06You are not going to tell us what is happening?
0:07:06 > 0:07:10All I want to say is that she's very fragile at the moment.
0:07:12 > 0:07:15No, that's not good enough, is it?
0:07:15 > 0:07:16Seriously?
0:07:18 > 0:07:21If Emma needs additional support, then surely we need to know why.
0:07:27 > 0:07:29Is, er...Jimmi with a patient?
0:07:29 > 0:07:32Not at the moment. I thought you were off sick?
0:07:32 > 0:07:33Oh, he's not in his room.
0:07:33 > 0:07:35And he's not in the staffroom either.
0:07:35 > 0:07:36Right. Well, then...
0:07:39 > 0:07:41..where is everybody?
0:07:41 > 0:07:42Valerie?
0:07:44 > 0:07:46I'm sorry, but they asked not to be interrupted.
0:07:46 > 0:07:47Who?
0:07:49 > 0:07:50Is Jimmi with Mrs Tembe?
0:07:50 > 0:07:53Look, I can't let you disturb them, I'm sorry.
0:07:55 > 0:07:56Are Daniel and Zara in there?
0:07:58 > 0:08:02- No, no, no! I'm sorry, I'm sorry! No, I just... I...- Valerie!
0:08:02 > 0:08:04Miss Pitman!
0:08:04 > 0:08:06I'm so sorry! I tried, but I couldn't stop her.
0:08:06 > 0:08:08Did Valerie say anything to you about...?
0:08:08 > 0:08:11Valerie didn't need to tell me anything.
0:08:13 > 0:08:15Jimmi, I, um...I left messages for you.
0:08:15 > 0:08:18Yeah, I listened to them. Listen, Emma, come and sit.
0:08:25 > 0:08:29Dr Clay has been explaining that you...
0:08:29 > 0:08:32What? That I hit a new low?
0:08:34 > 0:08:36- That last night... - Last night, you, er...
0:08:36 > 0:08:39broke your Pinot Noir record,
0:08:39 > 0:08:42which is why I thought you were going to be taking it easy today.
0:08:45 > 0:08:47Pinot Noir?
0:08:47 > 0:08:51Yes. It, um...it gives me a bad headache.
0:08:52 > 0:08:54So, this is a hangover?
0:08:56 > 0:08:58- Yes. - PHONE RINGS
0:08:58 > 0:09:00Yes?!
0:09:00 > 0:09:02Miss Pitman, I cannot speak to him now!
0:09:05 > 0:09:07Jimmi's concerned about your wellbeing, Emma.
0:09:07 > 0:09:10And we have a professional,
0:09:10 > 0:09:13as well as a personal duty to offer support.
0:09:13 > 0:09:16- I appreciate that, I do.- Good. Good.
0:09:17 > 0:09:20Because we really do care about you.
0:09:20 > 0:09:22Thank you.
0:09:22 > 0:09:25I have been doing a lot of reading recently.
0:09:25 > 0:09:27- Now, what is it that RD Laing says? - Not Laing, not now.
0:09:27 > 0:09:30RD Laing says that insanity
0:09:30 > 0:09:33is a perfectly rational adjustment to an insane world.
0:09:33 > 0:09:36You think I...I'm insane?!
0:09:36 > 0:09:38- No, we absolutely don't. Zara! - No, I wasn't saying that,
0:09:38 > 0:09:39I was just saying it in a sort of, um...
0:09:39 > 0:09:42you don't have to be mad to work here, but it helps, kind of a way!
0:09:42 > 0:09:45Do you know what, I'm...I'm so sorry I interrupted your meeting.
0:09:45 > 0:09:48You'll be able to speak about me a lot more freely when I'm not here.
0:09:48 > 0:09:50Dr Reid, please...!
0:09:55 > 0:09:56When you saw me, you smiled.
0:09:56 > 0:09:59Of course I did! I was glad to see you.
0:09:59 > 0:10:02You smiled like the last time we saw each other was the other week.
0:10:04 > 0:10:08It's OK if you're mad at me. It's fine.
0:10:08 > 0:10:10No, nothing's fine.
0:10:10 > 0:10:13No word for years and then, "Oh, hey, Ayesh, nice to see you.
0:10:13 > 0:10:15"By the way, there's a load of ace gin places in Birmingham,
0:10:15 > 0:10:16"let's go get twisted"?!
0:10:18 > 0:10:21- I don't drink any more. - Where have you been?!
0:10:21 > 0:10:24Look, do you know where Tony is?
0:10:24 > 0:10:26- Why today?- What?
0:10:26 > 0:10:28Why are you back today?
0:10:28 > 0:10:30Because I got strong enough.
0:10:30 > 0:10:32Can you tell me where he is?
0:10:34 > 0:10:37It's a herbal infusion. I thought it might help.
0:10:50 > 0:10:53- Zara didn't mean it the way it sounded.- Didn't she?
0:10:53 > 0:10:56No. She's, um...she's trying mindfulness,
0:10:56 > 0:10:58but, er...obviously, it's early days.
0:10:58 > 0:11:01Did you come in here to talk to me about Zara?
0:11:01 > 0:11:04No. I, er...I came to see if you were OK.
0:11:04 > 0:11:07And even if you're not OK, you will be OK because some things in life can't be fixed.
0:11:07 > 0:11:10- They have to be carried with you. - Where did you learn that? Thailand?
0:11:10 > 0:11:12No, from my own personal experience.
0:11:12 > 0:11:15Look, Emma, why don't you just come back in with us?
0:11:15 > 0:11:18Why? So they can carry on judging me?
0:11:18 > 0:11:21No-one's judging you. Everyone just wants to support you.
0:11:26 > 0:11:29Wow!
0:11:29 > 0:11:31So this is his new firm?
0:11:31 > 0:11:33He's working for himself now, but he's doing all right.
0:11:33 > 0:11:36I couldn't believe his old place. All the drivers have got uniforms.
0:11:36 > 0:11:39Fancy reception, coffee machine and everything.
0:11:39 > 0:11:42Yeah, well, Tony's doing his best.
0:11:42 > 0:11:43Does he do mate's rates?
0:11:43 > 0:11:45Yeah, when I need a cab.
0:11:45 > 0:11:47We've stayed in touch.
0:11:47 > 0:11:49Oh.
0:11:49 > 0:11:51That's good.
0:11:51 > 0:11:54Hey, do you remember how chuffed he was when they gave him these?
0:11:54 > 0:11:56- You kept his old business card. - Yeah.
0:12:04 > 0:12:06Hi.
0:12:06 > 0:12:10I couldn't find you. Not at the old flat.
0:12:10 > 0:12:11The cab office.
0:12:11 > 0:12:14I walked miles.
0:12:14 > 0:12:17I wouldn't have found you now if it wasn't for Ayesha.
0:12:25 > 0:12:27What did you think he'd do?
0:12:31 > 0:12:34Of course she thought you were saying she's gone mad.
0:12:34 > 0:12:35I feel awful.
0:12:35 > 0:12:39Well, it's all right. Nothing changes overnight.
0:12:39 > 0:12:43- I'm trying to be mindful. I managed it quite well yesterday. - Not today.
0:12:48 > 0:12:53- Emma, come and take a seat. - No, no. I'm fine. Really.
0:12:53 > 0:12:55Well, not fine. Clearly.
0:12:55 > 0:12:59- I really didn't mean to upset you. - It's all right, Zara.
0:13:01 > 0:13:03Why don't you tell us how you're feeling?
0:13:08 > 0:13:10To be honest,
0:13:10 > 0:13:12I'm not entirely sure.
0:13:13 > 0:13:18All I do know is that everything I touch falls apart.
0:13:18 > 0:13:22- Well, that's not true, is it? - Isn't it?
0:13:22 > 0:13:25I failed as a mother.
0:13:25 > 0:13:26A wife.
0:13:27 > 0:13:30I can't hold down a relationship.
0:13:32 > 0:13:34And after this last year,
0:13:34 > 0:13:36I'm beginning to wonder if I'm even a good doctor.
0:13:36 > 0:13:38That is utter rubbish!
0:13:38 > 0:13:42I mean, the needle thing - it could have happened to any one of us.
0:13:42 > 0:13:44But it didn't, though, Zara, did it?
0:13:44 > 0:13:47It happened to me.
0:13:47 > 0:13:49Another disaster in a whole line of them.
0:13:51 > 0:13:54You are only human, Dr Reid.
0:13:54 > 0:13:57- And none of us are in a position to judge you.- We all make mistakes.
0:13:57 > 0:14:00What we have to do is support each other through them.
0:14:00 > 0:14:03I have thought about going.
0:14:03 > 0:14:04Have you?
0:14:04 > 0:14:06Just disappear.
0:14:06 > 0:14:08Start over.
0:14:08 > 0:14:11What about professional support?
0:14:11 > 0:14:12No.
0:14:12 > 0:14:15- What?- No, Daniel's right.
0:14:15 > 0:14:19What you need is support from someone here.
0:14:19 > 0:14:23Someone who can be with you whenever you need them.
0:14:23 > 0:14:27Someone who is committed to getting you back on track.
0:14:31 > 0:14:33Maybe that someone is me.
0:14:35 > 0:14:36Maybe it's me.
0:14:40 > 0:14:42KNOCK AT DOOR
0:14:42 > 0:14:45Tony.
0:14:45 > 0:14:47I'm coming in.
0:14:56 > 0:14:57Tony.
0:14:58 > 0:15:01You look well.
0:15:03 > 0:15:07You don't look all murdered and cut up and lying in a ditch, like...
0:15:09 > 0:15:12You don't look dead.
0:15:12 > 0:15:16Not like I've pictured you every day for the last seven years.
0:15:16 > 0:15:18- Look, I had to go.- Is that right?
0:15:18 > 0:15:20I had to.
0:15:20 > 0:15:22I was desperate.
0:15:22 > 0:15:25- I was having a breakdown. - Well, if you say so, yeah.
0:15:26 > 0:15:29I want to explain.
0:15:29 > 0:15:32- Well, this should be good. Go ahead. - I couldn't hold it together.
0:15:34 > 0:15:36I felt like I was dying.
0:15:41 > 0:15:44- You never said goodbye to your baby girl.- Tony...
0:15:44 > 0:15:47I don't want her in here.
0:15:47 > 0:15:50There's nothing for her here.
0:15:50 > 0:15:52- You need to talk.- Why?
0:15:52 > 0:15:55I was better off ten minutes ago when she was still dead.
0:15:58 > 0:16:01Why didn't you tell them about the pills?
0:16:01 > 0:16:05Um, well, we've all been in dark places and we've all had
0:16:05 > 0:16:07friends that have pulled us back in,
0:16:07 > 0:16:11so maybe I don't always feel like I've been there to support you.
0:16:13 > 0:16:16You, Jimmi Clay, are not one of my painful regrets.
0:16:16 > 0:16:18So, what now?
0:16:18 > 0:16:23Well, I'll just have to keep everything crossed that Zara
0:16:23 > 0:16:25doesn't want to hug me.
0:16:25 > 0:16:28You're going to give her a chance?
0:16:29 > 0:16:32- Yeah, why not?- Just not hugging. - SHE CHUCKLES
0:16:38 > 0:16:40Look, I had to be selfish.
0:16:40 > 0:16:44- But I'm not that person now. - Did you phone a helpline, did you?
0:16:44 > 0:16:45Eventually.
0:16:47 > 0:16:49Don't you even think about it.
0:16:52 > 0:16:54- Does she know?- Yes, "she" knows.
0:16:54 > 0:16:58But does she care? No. So you turned to someone else. So what?
0:17:00 > 0:17:02She doesn't know, does she?
0:17:02 > 0:17:04I'd like to see her.
0:17:04 > 0:17:07Look, I don't care if you two have been together.
0:17:07 > 0:17:09I'm OK with it.
0:17:09 > 0:17:11Look, all I want is to see Molly.
0:17:13 > 0:17:15Can I?
0:17:15 > 0:17:17Tony?
0:17:17 > 0:17:19You need to talk.
0:17:19 > 0:17:22You both have things you need to say.
0:17:22 > 0:17:24I can't do this for you.
0:17:32 > 0:17:35Hi, Jimmi. It's me.
0:17:35 > 0:17:38I just wondered if you'd spoken to Emma yet.
0:17:39 > 0:17:41Is she OK?
0:17:42 > 0:17:44Look,
0:17:44 > 0:17:47she doesn't even need to know who I am.
0:17:47 > 0:17:49However you want to play it.
0:17:51 > 0:17:54I'll wait. I'll wait as long as you want.
0:17:54 > 0:17:58If you want me to prove myself, I'll prove myself.
0:17:58 > 0:18:00It's your call.
0:18:00 > 0:18:02Tony...
0:18:02 > 0:18:04Just say something, please.
0:18:07 > 0:18:11- How could you just go like that? - Because I thought I was toxic.
0:18:11 > 0:18:13To you and to Molly.
0:18:13 > 0:18:17I genuinely believed I was doing the best thing for you and for her.
0:18:19 > 0:18:21The nicer you were,
0:18:21 > 0:18:23the worse I felt.
0:18:26 > 0:18:27I was filthy.
0:18:27 > 0:18:29Useless.
0:18:34 > 0:18:37Does she like to dance? I bet she loves to dance.
0:18:37 > 0:18:40Tony, for God's sake!
0:18:40 > 0:18:42What?
0:18:44 > 0:18:47Martha...they found a heart murmur.
0:18:49 > 0:18:50I'm so sorry.
0:18:50 > 0:18:54Molly had surgery, but there were complications.
0:18:55 > 0:18:57Intractable heart failure.
0:18:58 > 0:19:00She didn't make it.
0:19:00 > 0:19:03You can't see her because Molly died four years ago.
0:19:07 > 0:19:08She didn't.
0:19:10 > 0:19:13- She didn't!- She did.
0:19:13 > 0:19:16You think you left a healthy baby, but you didn't.
0:19:16 > 0:19:21And did you even care? You just bogged off.
0:19:21 > 0:19:25And do you...? Do you think about me? Nah.
0:19:25 > 0:19:28And I'm not OK either. You ask Ayesha. You ask her about my heart.
0:19:28 > 0:19:30You need to calm down.
0:19:30 > 0:19:33You ask her about why I have to leave off the fags.
0:19:33 > 0:19:34Because of heart disease!
0:19:34 > 0:19:36That's why!
0:19:36 > 0:19:40See, me and Molly, our hearts were broken before you left us!
0:19:40 > 0:19:42I am peaceful, I am strong.
0:19:42 > 0:19:45- Though the dark may seem so long. - What's she doing now?
0:19:45 > 0:19:48- Though the dark may seem so long... - Martha.
0:19:48 > 0:19:50I can't feel bad any more. I can't!
0:19:50 > 0:19:53More hippy-dippy tripe! Here we go! Huh?
0:19:56 > 0:19:58Molly...
0:20:00 > 0:20:01I missed you.
0:20:01 > 0:20:03Always.
0:20:05 > 0:20:10I just... I just felt like my brains were...melting.
0:20:11 > 0:20:14- That's how you felt? - Don't fall for it!
0:20:14 > 0:20:17Did you ever see her miserable?
0:20:17 > 0:20:20Madhouse Martha, that was her. Always the life and soul.
0:20:20 > 0:20:22Always up for a laugh.
0:20:22 > 0:20:24People in pain can put on the best show.
0:20:24 > 0:20:26She went where she wanted, she did what she wanted.
0:20:26 > 0:20:30As long as Martha was happy and Tony's the drip that never said no!
0:20:30 > 0:20:33- You were too good.- I was a pillock!
0:20:33 > 0:20:36So don't come back here with your phoney chanting and your
0:20:36 > 0:20:40crocodile tears! Get up and get out! I don't want to look at you!
0:20:51 > 0:20:54- I'm sorry.- Blah, blah, blah, blah! Words are easy!
0:20:54 > 0:20:57- It's what you do that counts. - I hated myself.- Good!
0:20:59 > 0:21:02- I should have seen it. - It wasn't you, Ayesha.
0:21:02 > 0:21:06It was her. So tell her to go. Do one. Get out!
0:21:06 > 0:21:10I don't want you here! She's the one that should have di...
0:21:10 > 0:21:13Aspirin. Where is it? I'm calling an ambulance.
0:21:13 > 0:21:15Argh!
0:21:17 > 0:21:20All right, there? I knew you'd call me back.
0:21:20 > 0:21:22Want to know how you're spending your lunch break?
0:21:22 > 0:21:25- You got a minute?- If you are lucky.
0:21:25 > 0:21:28- You just listen and then say yes, OK?- I'm listening.
0:21:28 > 0:21:30Bike, sandwiches, and a bottle of pop.
0:21:30 > 0:21:33You and me ride flat out for 20 minutes and see where the
0:21:33 > 0:21:35- road takes us. - KNOCK AT DOOR
0:21:35 > 0:21:37Mrs Tembe? May I come in?
0:21:37 > 0:21:41I am sorry. I have to go. I will call you back.
0:21:41 > 0:21:45- Yeah, course. If I don't pick up, just leave a message.- Goodbye.
0:21:45 > 0:21:48- Come in.- The answer better be...
0:21:51 > 0:21:5524 hour, to be signed for. Obviously urgent.
0:21:56 > 0:21:57Thank you.
0:22:00 > 0:22:02Can you give them a minute?
0:22:02 > 0:22:04Be quick.
0:22:04 > 0:22:05Thanks.
0:22:08 > 0:22:11Look, I wish I could have been who I was trying to be.
0:22:11 > 0:22:12So do I.
0:22:12 > 0:22:16- Please, Tony... - What do you want from me?
0:22:16 > 0:22:19- I just need a bit of time. - I hate time.- Tony...
0:22:19 > 0:22:22I don't need you to break any more hearts. Just go away, Martha.
0:22:22 > 0:22:25- Another minute! - She doesn't need another minute.
0:22:25 > 0:22:29Could have another seven years, I'd still hate you.
0:22:29 > 0:22:31And, Martha?
0:22:31 > 0:22:35- This time, don't come back! - He doesn't mean it.
0:22:35 > 0:22:37He does.
0:22:39 > 0:22:43She used to say, "Is Mummy at the festival?"
0:22:43 > 0:22:46And Tony would dance with her and say, "Yeah, she is."
0:22:46 > 0:22:49Molly did love to dance.
0:22:52 > 0:22:53Drop you back in to town?
0:22:53 > 0:22:55No.
0:22:56 > 0:22:58I'm obviously best on my own.
0:22:58 > 0:23:01I'll see you though, yeah?
0:23:01 > 0:23:02Yeah.
0:23:21 > 0:23:25'You have one message.'
0:23:25 > 0:23:29'Hello, it turns out that lunch today will be impossible.
0:23:29 > 0:23:32'I will speak to you soon. I am sorry.'
0:23:36 > 0:23:40- Ready for the course? - As I'll ever be.
0:23:40 > 0:23:43- So, how are things with you today? - Me?
0:23:43 > 0:23:46- Yeah, you do know that I know, don't you?- Yeah.
0:23:46 > 0:23:49Be weird if you didn't know, seeing as you all live together.
0:23:49 > 0:23:51So, did Daniel and Zara get the full story?
0:23:51 > 0:23:55No, I didn't think they needed to. Besides, she's got us looking out
0:23:55 > 0:23:57- for her.- She's got a bigger safety net than she knows.
0:23:57 > 0:24:00- Yeah, and now she's got Zara too. - Zara?- Mm.
0:24:10 > 0:24:15Ayesha. What can I do to make your afternoon stress-free?
0:24:15 > 0:24:19- Tell me Emma's still here. - Um...- Is she in the staffroom?
0:24:19 > 0:24:21Um...
0:24:21 > 0:24:26- What's going on?- There is a tete-a-tete situation going on.
0:24:26 > 0:24:31- Move.- No. Really, please don't go in there.- What's the matter?
0:24:32 > 0:24:34You are SO not right.
0:24:34 > 0:24:38Right, do you want to go in my room and we can discuss it in
0:24:38 > 0:24:39there together?
0:24:43 > 0:24:45I want to do this.
0:24:45 > 0:24:47Because I respect you.
0:24:47 > 0:24:49Frankly, I don't have lots of friends because
0:24:49 > 0:24:52few people seem worth the effort.
0:24:52 > 0:24:55- But I think you are.- I'm sorry?
0:24:55 > 0:24:57You're worth the effort.
0:24:59 > 0:25:00Am I?
0:25:00 > 0:25:04I know what you're made of and I want to be there for you,
0:25:04 > 0:25:08Emma, and get you back to being the woman we both know you can be.
0:25:11 > 0:25:13Oh, I see.
0:25:13 > 0:25:16You think I'm some sort of project.
0:25:16 > 0:25:18Yes.
0:25:18 > 0:25:21No, not if your definition of project is something trendy and
0:25:21 > 0:25:25offensive, but if you think of it as something meaningful
0:25:25 > 0:25:28and worthwhile, then yes.
0:25:28 > 0:25:29So, I have a plan.
0:25:29 > 0:25:32Now, don't dismiss this out of hand because frankly, it's marvellous.
0:25:32 > 0:25:35- There's this conference... - A conference?!
0:25:35 > 0:25:38Well, yes, but that's not important at all. The conference part.
0:25:38 > 0:25:40It's the journey.
0:25:40 > 0:25:44Something that will afford us the space and the time to
0:25:44 > 0:25:47reconnect with ourselves.
0:25:47 > 0:25:51We can plan our route, the stopping-off points,
0:25:51 > 0:25:54and the sights we want to see along the way.
0:25:55 > 0:26:00So, what you're suggesting is some sort of road trip?
0:26:02 > 0:26:04- To where?- Winchester.
0:26:04 > 0:26:06No, er, Worcester.
0:26:06 > 0:26:10Oh, Walsall? I can't remember. Anyway, don't worry about that.
0:26:10 > 0:26:12I'm going to pin down all the details, make all the plans,
0:26:12 > 0:26:17all the arrangements, book the hotel, the restaurants, and plan the scenic route.
0:26:17 > 0:26:19Well, I...suppose...
0:26:19 > 0:26:23Come on. It's going to be cathartic and renewing.
0:26:23 > 0:26:25For both of us.
0:26:27 > 0:26:29What do you say?
0:26:30 > 0:26:32Emma?
0:26:32 > 0:26:35- Can I do the playlist?- Fantastic! This is going to be great.
0:26:35 > 0:26:39- You have no idea how great this is going to be.- Hmm.
0:26:42 > 0:26:45I thought you were supposed to be on a course.
0:26:45 > 0:26:48- It doesn't start till later. - It'll make you a better doctor.
0:26:48 > 0:26:50Don't say that like there's lots of room for improvement.
0:26:50 > 0:26:53There's always room for improvement.
0:26:53 > 0:26:56I'm Sid.
0:26:56 > 0:26:58Janet.
0:27:00 > 0:27:03Er... When you're awake, we need to have a chat.
0:27:03 > 0:27:05That sounds ominous.