0:00:28 > 0:00:32You know, it's probably just a bug, and the move.
0:00:32 > 0:00:345,000 miles will take it out of anyone.
0:00:34 > 0:00:36I'll look you up something homeopathic.
0:00:36 > 0:00:38I know you don't like doctors.
0:00:38 > 0:00:41No, I just don't think they're always right.
0:00:41 > 0:00:42Here.
0:00:43 > 0:00:45You need specialist care.
0:00:45 > 0:00:47Well, the doctor's referring me.
0:00:47 > 0:00:50Well, the clinic said they'd get back to me
0:00:50 > 0:00:51about the nursing job this week.
0:00:51 > 0:00:55So when your referral comes through, I can be there.
0:00:55 > 0:00:56You do enough already.
0:00:56 > 0:00:59I promised Dad I'd look out for my little sister.
0:00:59 > 0:01:01- Someone's got to keep you out of trouble.- I know.
0:01:01 > 0:01:04But I'm nearly out of my US meds anyways.
0:01:04 > 0:01:06The doctor called and asked me to come in.
0:01:07 > 0:01:09So I'll...I'll call a cab.
0:01:17 > 0:01:20Skinny vanilla mocha.
0:01:20 > 0:01:22- Why?- Ssh!
0:01:22 > 0:01:25Because that's what friends do?
0:01:25 > 0:01:26(Are they friends now?)
0:01:26 > 0:01:28- What was that?- Huh?
0:01:28 > 0:01:31Oh, nothing. Sweat-lodge humour. You wouldn't get it.
0:01:31 > 0:01:33Cos what happens in the sweat lodge...
0:01:33 > 0:01:35- Stays...- ..stays in the sweat lodge.
0:01:35 > 0:01:37Ugh. Pleased to hear it.
0:01:38 > 0:01:40- Did you hear that?- Hear what?
0:01:41 > 0:01:42Nothing.
0:01:46 > 0:01:48BELLS PEAL IN DISTANCE
0:01:58 > 0:01:59HE GROANS
0:02:06 > 0:02:08HE EXHALES
0:02:23 > 0:02:24Mm!
0:02:32 > 0:02:33HE SIGHS
0:02:35 > 0:02:37- Hello, how can I help? - Er...Kimberly Marshall.
0:02:37 > 0:02:39Oh! Yes.
0:02:39 > 0:02:42I registered last week.
0:02:42 > 0:02:45Dr Haskey called to say I should come in for my test results.
0:02:45 > 0:02:47- Oh, are you all right?- Yeah.
0:02:47 > 0:02:49Um...do you want to....?
0:02:49 > 0:02:53Just come through here, have a sit down in there.
0:02:53 > 0:02:55- KNOCK AT DOOR - Yeah?
0:03:01 > 0:03:03There is something loose in the building.
0:03:03 > 0:03:06- What kind of something? - Well, I don't know.
0:03:06 > 0:03:09Mrs Tembe's not here and I wasn't sure who I should tell.
0:03:09 > 0:03:11Why don't you start by narrowing it down?
0:03:11 > 0:03:14Well, I don't know what it is, or where it is.
0:03:14 > 0:03:17All I know is I have been hearing things all morning.
0:03:17 > 0:03:20Hearing things? But you haven't actually seen anything?
0:03:20 > 0:03:21- No.- Has anyone else?
0:03:21 > 0:03:25- No.- So you don't have any evidence of any kind?
0:03:25 > 0:03:27No, but I am highly attuned to these things,
0:03:27 > 0:03:30- beyond the range of normal perception.- Yeah.
0:03:30 > 0:03:33- I'm like a bat.- Yeah.
0:03:33 > 0:03:36You do remember we had something like this before, don't you?
0:03:36 > 0:03:39You thought you could hear things and it turned out to be nothing.
0:03:39 > 0:03:42No, but this time, I know it's something.
0:03:42 > 0:03:45What if it's insects, or some other kind of animal?
0:03:45 > 0:03:49With all our recent scandal - Emma's lesbian infidelity,
0:03:49 > 0:03:53your unfortunate mishap with the man in the camping shop -
0:03:53 > 0:03:56the last thing we want is rumours of an infestation.
0:03:56 > 0:03:57HE SIGHS
0:03:57 > 0:04:00Maybe it's just about your referral to the clinic.
0:04:00 > 0:04:02He said it's about my results.
0:04:02 > 0:04:04Oh, he'll be wanting to chat about them.
0:04:08 > 0:04:10So, have you just moved here?
0:04:10 > 0:04:12A couple of weeks ago, from San Francisco.
0:04:12 > 0:04:15Oh, gosh! Culture shock.
0:04:15 > 0:04:18Well, moved back, really. We grew up here, so...
0:04:21 > 0:04:23My sister thinks it's just the move,
0:04:23 > 0:04:26but I was struggling to get out of bed for weeks before that.
0:04:28 > 0:04:30But that's Suze, she's always looking on the bright side.
0:04:30 > 0:04:34Well, you've got family close by, that's...that's good.
0:04:34 > 0:04:38Yeah. Suze is incredible. My rock.
0:04:38 > 0:04:41And there's my son, Zack. Adoptive.
0:04:41 > 0:04:43He's been at college here.
0:04:43 > 0:04:46- Oh. How long?- Just finished his degree and looking for work.
0:04:46 > 0:04:48He had an interview this morning in the city centre.
0:04:48 > 0:04:51Oh. My two are working now, Jack and Immie.
0:04:51 > 0:04:54It's hard when they fly the nest, isn't it?
0:04:54 > 0:05:00That's why we came over, to...to be closer to them.
0:05:00 > 0:05:03Oh, hey, come on, you don't know anything yet.
0:05:03 > 0:05:05And they're really good at managing it nowadays,
0:05:05 > 0:05:09- with all the drugs and whatnot. - No, I know. But I've never felt...
0:05:10 > 0:05:13..wrong, like this, before.
0:05:13 > 0:05:15And people still die.
0:05:15 > 0:05:17You know, I've known people.
0:05:17 > 0:05:19Fern, Zack's biological mom...
0:05:22 > 0:05:26I mean, if this is how it starts, how am I going to tell him?
0:05:26 > 0:05:27He's already lost one mom.
0:05:30 > 0:05:32Ah. Excuse me.
0:05:35 > 0:05:37SHE SIGHS
0:05:50 > 0:05:52So thanks for coming in.
0:05:52 > 0:05:54As you may have guessed, I have some news.
0:05:54 > 0:05:57Obviously, last week, we discussed your symptoms,
0:05:57 > 0:06:00your fatigue and weight loss, and we ran some tests.
0:06:00 > 0:06:02And I referred you to the Watkin Clinic
0:06:02 > 0:06:05for specialist HIV treatment and counselling.
0:06:05 > 0:06:08And, um...I contacted them earlier about your tests
0:06:08 > 0:06:12and, um...it seems your sister has also been in contact with them.
0:06:12 > 0:06:13- Did she?- Yeah, but don't worry,
0:06:13 > 0:06:16they'll only give the results directly to you.
0:06:16 > 0:06:19- She applied for a job there, she's a nurse.- Oh, right. Um...
0:06:21 > 0:06:23Normally, I would, um...
0:06:23 > 0:06:26I would pass on all HIV-related material to them,
0:06:26 > 0:06:31but this is a...this is a, um... an unusual circumstance.
0:06:31 > 0:06:32Not necessarily in a bad way,
0:06:32 > 0:06:36more in a way that might be a little bit...unexpected.
0:06:36 > 0:06:38You see, one of the tests that we routinely did last week
0:06:38 > 0:06:41was a HIV test, and...
0:06:41 > 0:06:43yours came back negative.
0:06:43 > 0:06:47- What?!- Look, they did all the appropriate rechecks and...
0:06:47 > 0:06:50you are HIV-negative.
0:06:50 > 0:06:51No, I'm...I'm positive.
0:06:51 > 0:06:55I have been for almost ten years.
0:06:55 > 0:06:58I've heard of mistaken diagnoses before,
0:06:58 > 0:07:00but never one of my patients.
0:07:00 > 0:07:01It must be a shock.
0:07:01 > 0:07:04What about the weight loss and the tiredness?
0:07:04 > 0:07:08One of the fasting tests we did last week showed high blood sugar,
0:07:08 > 0:07:11suggesting diabetes. And, um...there's, er...
0:07:11 > 0:07:14Yeah, one of the anti-retroviral drugs you're on
0:07:14 > 0:07:16increases the risk of diabetes.
0:07:16 > 0:07:20I mean, of course, the clinic will want to talk you through
0:07:20 > 0:07:23the best way to ease you off the ART treatments.
0:07:23 > 0:07:26And in time, your blood sugar should level out.
0:07:26 > 0:07:30What I'm trying to say is that you should make a full recovery.
0:07:33 > 0:07:36- Ooh!- Ms Marshall? Please, hold up!
0:07:36 > 0:07:38You all right?
0:07:38 > 0:07:40HE SIGHS Um...so the temp's here.
0:07:40 > 0:07:43Um...what happened? Was it bad news?
0:07:43 > 0:07:45No, far from it.
0:07:45 > 0:07:46I think I underestimated the shock.
0:07:46 > 0:07:48We can't let her go off in that state.
0:07:48 > 0:07:51- I'll go.- I should. She...
0:07:51 > 0:07:54You've got a waiting room full of patients.
0:07:54 > 0:07:55I'll just check she's all right
0:07:55 > 0:07:58and if it's anything medical, I'll call you.
0:07:58 > 0:08:01Oh, the traveller returns. Come on through.
0:08:05 > 0:08:06PHONE RINGS
0:08:09 > 0:08:10Yep?
0:08:10 > 0:08:12- AYESHA:- Just checking in to see how you're doing.
0:08:12 > 0:08:15Yeah, I'm OK, I'm just, um...on the laptop.
0:08:15 > 0:08:19Yeah? Better not leave me any dodgy browsing history.
0:08:19 > 0:08:20No. Too busy looking at yours(!)
0:08:20 > 0:08:23Well, can't be bad if it's got you out of bed, eh?
0:08:23 > 0:08:26Yeah. Look, um...anyway, I've got to go,
0:08:26 > 0:08:28so I'll talk to you later, OK?
0:08:39 > 0:08:43Hi. Um...I got your number off the Letherbridge CFS site.
0:08:43 > 0:08:45Can I speak to Jude, please?
0:08:45 > 0:08:49Um...times and locations.
0:08:49 > 0:08:51- And that's just this afternoon. - Yeah.
0:08:54 > 0:08:57- Coffee?- With a dash of cyanide, please.- Really? That bad?
0:08:57 > 0:08:59No, no, just supporting a member of staff
0:08:59 > 0:09:02- through a crisis in confidence. What could go wrong?- Huh!
0:09:02 > 0:09:05In today's dramatic instalment, she's wittering on about pests
0:09:05 > 0:09:07and disturbing noises following her around the building.
0:09:07 > 0:09:09Can't you just cut her loose?
0:09:09 > 0:09:12Well, I would, but it just seems like I'm only thing between her
0:09:12 > 0:09:15and a proper meltdown in professional confidence, so...
0:09:15 > 0:09:17- Oh. - DANIEL EXHALES
0:09:22 > 0:09:24- There you go.- Thanks.
0:09:24 > 0:09:26- Mom!- Hey, how was the interview?
0:09:26 > 0:09:31I didn't get it, and I wouldn't have gone if I'd known you were sick.
0:09:31 > 0:09:32I couldn't lie.
0:09:33 > 0:09:36This is Karen from the surgery.
0:09:36 > 0:09:39I just gave your mum a lift on my way home.
0:09:40 > 0:09:41What is it?
0:09:43 > 0:09:45Um...why don't we sit down?
0:09:48 > 0:09:50- Incoming.- Hm? Oh, yeah, yeah. - Daniel?- Yeah?
0:09:50 > 0:09:52Have you done anything with my information?
0:09:52 > 0:09:55Oh, er...it's OK, I've got Jimmi up to speed with the situation.
0:09:55 > 0:09:58Yes, and while we have a moment,
0:09:58 > 0:10:01we are delighted to present you with this certificate
0:10:01 > 0:10:05in recognition of all of your hard work, diligence and discretion.
0:10:07 > 0:10:10- Trusted Team Member!- That, you are.
0:10:10 > 0:10:13And it's something I've been wanting to do for a while.
0:10:13 > 0:10:16- Oh.- So finally, here it is, hot off the presses.
0:10:16 > 0:10:19And after much deliberation with the other partners,
0:10:19 > 0:10:20I am very pleased to tell you
0:10:20 > 0:10:23that you have passed your confidentiality assessment
0:10:23 > 0:10:29with flying colours, and are now free to use your own judgment.
0:10:29 > 0:10:32- I don't know what to say. - You don't have to say anything.
0:10:32 > 0:10:36Yeah, but what about our...pest problem?
0:10:36 > 0:10:40Oh. That'll work its way out eventually, I'm sure.
0:10:40 > 0:10:42And hopefully, we won't have to get in the exterminators.
0:10:42 > 0:10:44THEY CHUCKLE
0:10:44 > 0:10:45Ooh! Huh!
0:10:48 > 0:10:51So they think the fatigue and the weight loss
0:10:51 > 0:10:53are all because of the drugs I've been on.
0:10:53 > 0:10:56I just... I mean...
0:10:56 > 0:10:58How can you be negative?
0:10:58 > 0:11:00I don't know, baby.
0:11:00 > 0:11:03I'm just so, so sorry.
0:11:03 > 0:11:06Putting you through all this.
0:11:06 > 0:11:09Ten years, your whole life on hold for me.
0:11:10 > 0:11:14Growing up, thinking you might lose me, too.
0:11:14 > 0:11:16It's not your fault. You weren't to know.
0:11:16 > 0:11:18Somebody somewhere has made a mistake.
0:11:18 > 0:11:20How, though? I mean, how can this happen?
0:11:20 > 0:11:21Oh, it doesn't matter.
0:11:21 > 0:11:25All that matters is God heard our prayers.
0:11:26 > 0:11:28(And sent us a miracle.)
0:11:30 > 0:11:33This morning, I...thought the worst.
0:11:33 > 0:11:36And now I'm HIV negative!
0:11:37 > 0:11:40This is just so amazing!
0:11:40 > 0:11:42We should be celebrating!
0:11:42 > 0:11:44And I should be going.
0:11:44 > 0:11:46I haven't even thanked you properly. Please stay.
0:11:46 > 0:11:49Cake! The bakers do awesome patisserie.
0:11:49 > 0:11:51Oh, I can't refuse a celebration!
0:11:51 > 0:11:55- THEY CHUCKLE - On it!- I'll dig out the tea set.
0:11:55 > 0:11:57A celebration it is!
0:11:57 > 0:11:59I am HIV negative! Ha!
0:11:59 > 0:12:01I am HIV negative!
0:12:05 > 0:12:08Cheers for coming, Jude. I know it's short notice.
0:12:08 > 0:12:11No, no worries. I've been there, haven't I?
0:12:12 > 0:12:16It's a bit of a shock when it starts out of the blue.
0:12:17 > 0:12:21I mean, one minute, I was at work, shifting huge bits of machinery
0:12:21 > 0:12:24- and then the next... - Tell me about it.
0:12:24 > 0:12:27- I'm supposed to be in the army. - Right.
0:12:28 > 0:12:30It's been ten years now.
0:12:30 > 0:12:32It gets better...and worse.
0:12:33 > 0:12:38- Sorry, have I caught you on a bad day?- No, no, no.
0:12:38 > 0:12:39No, today's pretty good, actually.
0:12:39 > 0:12:42On a bad day, I can't get out of bed.
0:12:42 > 0:12:45Or I could, but only to use the wheelchair.
0:12:47 > 0:12:50You get used to it. You know, you make the most of the good days.
0:12:53 > 0:12:54How do you cope?
0:12:55 > 0:12:58Well...I've got my missus.
0:13:00 > 0:13:02I mean, she...she does it all.
0:13:02 > 0:13:05You know, she takes me everywhere.
0:13:05 > 0:13:07- In sickness and in health, eh?- Huh!
0:13:09 > 0:13:11Yeah, she's my lifeline, Carys.
0:13:11 > 0:13:15Her and support groups, you know, to meet people, off-load.
0:13:16 > 0:13:18You married?
0:13:18 > 0:13:20Me? No. No.
0:13:20 > 0:13:22It's lucky I already was.
0:13:22 > 0:13:25I mean, to take all this on is a big ask, isn't it?
0:13:25 > 0:13:29But you've got to get a solid support system around you.
0:13:33 > 0:13:35Oh! It's lovely!
0:13:35 > 0:13:36Our dad's.
0:13:36 > 0:13:39We used to have tea parties in 'Frisco in the garden.
0:13:39 > 0:13:41His way of keeping our roots alive.
0:13:42 > 0:13:46I had big plans for this garden, if I'd had the energy.
0:13:46 > 0:13:49Flowering climbers, maybe a vegetable patch, spring bulbs.
0:13:49 > 0:13:51Just wasn't sure I'd get to see it grow.
0:13:51 > 0:13:53And now, all this new life.
0:13:53 > 0:13:55And all those years lost,
0:13:55 > 0:13:58feeling like I was under a life sentence.
0:13:58 > 0:14:00Must be hard to process it all.
0:14:00 > 0:14:04So, do you think it was a miracle?
0:14:04 > 0:14:05Who knows?
0:14:05 > 0:14:09I've never really had Suze's faith, not for lack of her trying, but...
0:14:09 > 0:14:12No, I mean, um...you know, or a mistake?
0:14:12 > 0:14:15There's no way to know now, is there?
0:14:15 > 0:14:16No, of course.
0:14:16 > 0:14:18I was wondering, I hope you don't mind me asking,
0:14:18 > 0:14:20but how did you get diagnosed in the first place?
0:14:20 > 0:14:22Oh, we don't need to rake all that up.
0:14:22 > 0:14:24Suze, I don't mind.
0:14:24 > 0:14:27Um...I guess I went a bit wild after Mom and Dad split up
0:14:27 > 0:14:29and he took us out there,
0:14:29 > 0:14:33embracing the gay scene and clubbing and drugs.
0:14:34 > 0:14:38Um...and then one day, I woke up and realised I'd had flu for weeks.
0:14:38 > 0:14:41I panicked, and luckily Suze was there for me.
0:14:42 > 0:14:45She held my hand through the test and ever since.
0:14:45 > 0:14:48Kept me on the straight and narrow. I live like a nun these days.
0:14:48 > 0:14:49THEY CHUCKLE
0:14:49 > 0:14:51I just did what sisters do.
0:14:51 > 0:14:54Like I promised Dad.
0:14:54 > 0:14:56Oh, you know, maybe you could...?
0:14:56 > 0:14:57Oh, yeah, of course.
0:14:59 > 0:15:02Obviously, you've never got tested again,
0:15:02 > 0:15:03you know, since the first time?
0:15:03 > 0:15:07No, I mean, there was a confirmation test, wasn't there?
0:15:07 > 0:15:10I can still remember your face when you told me that was positive, too.
0:15:10 > 0:15:13- Told you? - Yeah, Suze worked at the clinic.
0:15:13 > 0:15:15- I mean, even before all this. - Oh, right.
0:15:15 > 0:15:18Through the church originally, then qualified as a nurse
0:15:18 > 0:15:20and then ended up heading her own department.
0:15:20 > 0:15:23So when I got sick with... well, whatever it was,
0:15:23 > 0:15:25of course, my first call's to my big sister.
0:15:25 > 0:15:27Well, of course, you would.
0:15:27 > 0:15:30After that, we never even thought to question it, did we?
0:15:30 > 0:15:32Why would you? Mistakes happen.
0:15:32 > 0:15:35- CUP SHATTERS - Oh!- Oh.- No!
0:15:35 > 0:15:37Come on, it's OK.
0:15:37 > 0:15:40- It's not! It was Dad's! - Mistakes happen.
0:15:40 > 0:15:42- SHE SIGHS - Sure.
0:15:44 > 0:15:48You're very welcome. Happy to be of service.
0:15:48 > 0:15:51Yeah. Bye.
0:15:51 > 0:15:54You know, you should pin that up somewhere. Frame it, even.
0:15:54 > 0:15:56Yeah, maybe. Hm.
0:15:56 > 0:15:59It does mean a lot, to be a trusted member of the team,
0:15:59 > 0:16:01to have my judgment valued.
0:16:01 > 0:16:06Um...so...so, you don't think it's going to be a problem, then?
0:16:06 > 0:16:08The infestation?
0:16:08 > 0:16:09Oh. No, no.
0:16:09 > 0:16:12I'm going to bring it up at the next partners' meeting.
0:16:12 > 0:16:14I love this!
0:16:17 > 0:16:20Where has Zack got to with that cake?
0:16:20 > 0:16:21You know it wasn't your fault?
0:16:21 > 0:16:23I dropped it.
0:16:23 > 0:16:25I mean my diagnosis.
0:16:25 > 0:16:27It was a mistake, wasn't it?
0:16:28 > 0:16:32The tea will be cold before he gets back.
0:16:32 > 0:16:34Maybe I'll just pour. We can always make more.
0:16:36 > 0:16:38Unless you think it really was a miracle cure?
0:16:38 > 0:16:40Sure. Why not?
0:16:41 > 0:16:44Well, why? I mean, why me and why now?
0:16:48 > 0:16:51You gave yourself to a higher power.
0:16:53 > 0:16:56Praying for deliverance, righteous living.
0:16:57 > 0:17:02So those tests that said I was positive, they weren't wrong?
0:17:02 > 0:17:03No-one made a mistake?
0:17:05 > 0:17:06Why ask me?
0:17:07 > 0:17:10Because you saw the results, remember? I didn't.
0:17:10 > 0:17:12Didn't you?
0:17:12 > 0:17:14No. I was all over the place.
0:17:16 > 0:17:18You just told me I was positive.
0:17:20 > 0:17:23I don't know why I never thought about it before.
0:17:23 > 0:17:25Why did you never show me the results?
0:17:25 > 0:17:27Oh, Kim, I...
0:17:29 > 0:17:30You said you couldn't lie.
0:17:33 > 0:17:36You've got to lay it all out for people, make them see.
0:17:36 > 0:17:38But some people think it doesn't exist, don't they?
0:17:38 > 0:17:41Yeah, you see, and that's half the fight.
0:17:41 > 0:17:43You've got to fight doctors to be heard.
0:17:43 > 0:17:47You've got to show them you know your illness better than they do.
0:17:47 > 0:17:49You've got to fight for your diagnosis,
0:17:49 > 0:17:52cos you're going to need that to get your benefits.
0:17:52 > 0:17:54I still haven't had everything that I'm owed
0:17:54 > 0:17:57and the benefits people, they're always trying to catch you out,
0:17:57 > 0:17:59making it out that you're on the skive.
0:17:59 > 0:18:02I don't even know if it's CFS that I've got yet.
0:18:03 > 0:18:05- No?- No.
0:18:05 > 0:18:08HE LAUGHS Well, it's all here.
0:18:08 > 0:18:11Look, you've got to get your head around all this,
0:18:11 > 0:18:12or nobody else will, all right?
0:18:12 > 0:18:15And the doubters, they're not just out there, you know?
0:18:15 > 0:18:18You're going to have so-called friends and family...
0:18:18 > 0:18:21Anyone like that, the only way to deal with those
0:18:21 > 0:18:24is just to cut ties, simple as.
0:18:24 > 0:18:26It hurts way less in the long run, mate, believe me.
0:18:31 > 0:18:33Ooh! Do you need a hand?
0:18:34 > 0:18:38- Oh!- It started in the queue in the baker's.
0:18:38 > 0:18:40I can't stop.
0:18:40 > 0:18:42You know, this is, like, the best day ever for Mom,
0:18:42 > 0:18:44and here I am, just, er...
0:18:44 > 0:18:45Oh, but you worry about her.
0:18:47 > 0:18:49And it's been a weird day.
0:18:49 > 0:18:52I mean, I had the job offer of a lifetime this morning.
0:18:54 > 0:18:57Which I turned down cos I thought Mom was sick.
0:18:59 > 0:19:01But she's fine now.
0:19:01 > 0:19:04- Yeah.- Come on, let's... let's get this on a plate, eh?
0:19:04 > 0:19:07KAREN CHUCKLES
0:19:07 > 0:19:09Kim, please!
0:19:09 > 0:19:11- All this time.- I'm sorry!
0:19:11 > 0:19:12Letting me think I could die.
0:19:12 > 0:19:14Take drugs that ended up making me ill!
0:19:14 > 0:19:18- I didn't know it was the drugs! - But you let me take them anyway!
0:19:18 > 0:19:21(Oh, my God!)
0:19:21 > 0:19:23That's why you're always going on
0:19:23 > 0:19:25about your stupid homeopathic alternatives!
0:19:25 > 0:19:28Why you always get between me and the "gung-ho" doctors!
0:19:28 > 0:19:30Why you could never leave your job at the clinic
0:19:30 > 0:19:33and why you applied for that crappy job at the clinic here!
0:19:34 > 0:19:38The doctor told me you tried to get to my results before I did.
0:19:38 > 0:19:42Oh, my caring, protective big sister(!)
0:19:42 > 0:19:44All to keep up this lie!
0:19:44 > 0:19:46Why?
0:19:46 > 0:19:48Why would YOU do this to me?
0:19:49 > 0:19:51To save you.
0:19:51 > 0:19:52To save me?
0:19:52 > 0:19:54You were out of control.
0:19:54 > 0:19:57Out every night, to all kinds of places.
0:19:57 > 0:19:59- You mean gay places?- Taking drugs.
0:19:59 > 0:20:02- You mean gay places?! - All right, yes, to gay places!
0:20:02 > 0:20:05It was all wrong! I had to do something!
0:20:06 > 0:20:10So, when I came to you for help, you lied right from the start?
0:20:10 > 0:20:14When you saw your chance to save me from my evil lesbian lifestyle?
0:20:15 > 0:20:19So how many other "sinners" are there out there that you've "saved"?
0:20:19 > 0:20:21Out there, thinking they're under the same life sentence?!
0:20:21 > 0:20:23None.
0:20:23 > 0:20:24Well, why not?
0:20:25 > 0:20:27Were the rest not worth saving?
0:20:27 > 0:20:30(Because they're not my sister.)
0:20:30 > 0:20:32- And neither am I!- Oh!
0:20:32 > 0:20:36You lied! And you didn't save my life, you took ten years of it!
0:20:36 > 0:20:38Mom? What the...?!
0:20:41 > 0:20:42Lied about what?
0:20:51 > 0:20:53There!
0:20:59 > 0:21:01They're in the ceiling!
0:21:01 > 0:21:04How could she do it - lie to me for years?
0:21:04 > 0:21:06And to Zack, too.
0:21:06 > 0:21:10He'll probably just wash his hands of us now and leave.
0:21:10 > 0:21:12I mean, he's old enough now.
0:21:13 > 0:21:18- And it's not like I'm his real mom. - Anyone can see he loves you to bits.
0:21:18 > 0:21:20He, um...
0:21:20 > 0:21:22He got that job this morning.
0:21:23 > 0:21:25Job of a lifetime, but he turned it down
0:21:25 > 0:21:27because he'd rather stay with you.
0:21:27 > 0:21:30No! No, he can't, he can't miss out because of me.
0:21:32 > 0:21:34I don't...
0:21:34 > 0:21:37I just... I don't...
0:21:37 > 0:21:39This morning, I was so positive.
0:21:39 > 0:21:42My illness, my chances.
0:21:42 > 0:21:43My sister was my rock.
0:21:45 > 0:21:48What...what am I supposed to do now?
0:21:49 > 0:21:50I don't know.
0:21:52 > 0:21:55It's, um...it's...it's not the same,
0:21:55 > 0:21:58but a couple of years back, I had this condition
0:21:58 > 0:22:01and it felt like my foundations were crumbling
0:22:01 > 0:22:03and I didn't know what to do.
0:22:03 > 0:22:06But then you realise, once you sort through all the mess and...
0:22:07 > 0:22:11Well, it...it... it's kind of like a freedom.
0:22:11 > 0:22:12You can do whatever you want.
0:22:14 > 0:22:17And now you know you've got a future,
0:22:17 > 0:22:20you've just got to decide what you're going to do with it.
0:22:22 > 0:22:25Eclairs. Thought we could both do with a treat.
0:22:25 > 0:22:27Yeah, nice one.
0:22:29 > 0:22:31So, how's your day been?
0:22:31 > 0:22:33Did you find what you were after online?
0:22:33 > 0:22:34Maybe.
0:22:35 > 0:22:38I spoke to this guy from the CFS support group.
0:22:38 > 0:22:41Yeah? How'd that go?
0:22:41 > 0:22:43Yeah, OK.
0:22:43 > 0:22:46It was just good to chat to someone who gets it.
0:22:46 > 0:22:48What I'm dealing with.
0:22:48 > 0:22:49Why not?
0:22:51 > 0:22:54Support groups can be good for chronic illness.
0:22:54 > 0:22:56It makes you feel like you're not so alone with it.
0:22:56 > 0:22:58Yeah, that's what I thought.
0:22:58 > 0:23:01Mind you, they can also be a bit...enabling.
0:23:01 > 0:23:04Encourage people to... wallow, you know?
0:23:05 > 0:23:08- Wallow?- Yeah, in their condition, or whatever.
0:23:08 > 0:23:12Instead of...helping them to get over it and get back on their feet,
0:23:12 > 0:23:14they sometimes get dependent.
0:23:14 > 0:23:15Right, OK.
0:23:15 > 0:23:18What if they can't just get over it?
0:23:18 > 0:23:20I mean, some of them can't, can they?
0:23:20 > 0:23:22You can't just tell them to pull their finger out.
0:23:22 > 0:23:26- No...- Maybe they need help. - And maybe they don't.
0:23:26 > 0:23:27Look at all them on the Churchill,
0:23:27 > 0:23:29milking their symptoms for whatever they can get.
0:23:29 > 0:23:31- And you think that's me?- No.
0:23:31 > 0:23:33Just trying it on, sponging off the state?!
0:23:33 > 0:23:35- I didn't say that! - You didn't have to!
0:23:35 > 0:23:37Oi! Come on, sit down, have your eclair.
0:23:37 > 0:23:39Stuff your eclair! It's too hard to swallow.
0:23:39 > 0:23:40Karl!
0:23:43 > 0:23:47- How could you?! - Zack, please, try to understand.
0:23:47 > 0:23:50She was in trouble, running wild.
0:23:50 > 0:23:52God only knows where she'd have ended up!
0:23:52 > 0:23:54You mean, like she did, with my mom?!
0:23:54 > 0:23:58No. No, no, please, baby boy!
0:23:58 > 0:24:01- He's not a baby any more.- Kim!
0:24:01 > 0:24:03I want you to take that job.
0:24:03 > 0:24:04- No.- Zack...
0:24:04 > 0:24:07Mom, it's in Beijing.
0:24:08 > 0:24:11I never wanted you to feel held back.
0:24:11 > 0:24:12And neither did your real mom.
0:24:12 > 0:24:14You are my real mom!
0:24:14 > 0:24:16You need to be out there living!
0:24:16 > 0:24:19No-one is putting their life on hold for one more minute.
0:24:21 > 0:24:23Which is why I'm coming with you.
0:24:23 > 0:24:25Kim! No!
0:24:26 > 0:24:28- You need me!- No, I don't.
0:24:29 > 0:24:31You're the needy one.
0:24:31 > 0:24:34You need us, your church.
0:24:34 > 0:24:37- I promised Dad. - But you broke that promise.
0:24:37 > 0:24:40I know you think you were doing the right thing, but you weren't.
0:24:41 > 0:24:45- But I love you.- Maybe.
0:24:45 > 0:24:47But your idea of love is control.
0:24:47 > 0:24:49A lock and a key.
0:24:49 > 0:24:52Kim, please...don't hate me.
0:24:53 > 0:24:54I can't.
0:24:55 > 0:24:57If you hadn't lied, I would never have met Fern
0:24:57 > 0:25:01at the support group and I wouldn't have Zack.
0:25:01 > 0:25:02So I forgive you.
0:25:04 > 0:25:07But I can't live with you any more.
0:25:07 > 0:25:08It's a new day.
0:25:08 > 0:25:11And you're always telling me to think positive.
0:25:11 > 0:25:14So that's what I'm going to do for the rest of my life.
0:25:25 > 0:25:27No, you're not just going to walk out,
0:25:27 > 0:25:29we're going to sit down and talk it out!
0:25:29 > 0:25:30You mean you talk and I listen.
0:25:30 > 0:25:32- All I was saying is... - I know what you're saying!
0:25:32 > 0:25:35You don't want to start using a crutch if you don't need one!
0:25:35 > 0:25:37Because there's nothing wrong with me, is there?
0:25:37 > 0:25:38It's all in my head.
0:25:40 > 0:25:43You thought you could talk me out of it.
0:25:43 > 0:25:46Have a little word and I'd be fixed, just like you did with Mum!
0:25:46 > 0:25:48No, I just think when you've grown up like this,
0:25:48 > 0:25:49it's easy to fall back.
0:25:49 > 0:25:52When the going gets tough, look for the easy way out.
0:25:52 > 0:25:55I should know, I've done it nearly enough times myself!
0:25:55 > 0:25:58You think I want to fall back on that?
0:25:58 > 0:26:01Tenth floor, no money, everybody screaming at each other?!
0:26:01 > 0:26:04- You trying to play mum!- No.
0:26:04 > 0:26:05That's hilarious!
0:26:05 > 0:26:09You lot moaning like it was the end of the world when I joined,
0:26:09 > 0:26:13and I'm joining the army for a peaceful life!
0:26:13 > 0:26:15And I loved it.
0:26:15 > 0:26:17Cos it was like family.
0:26:17 > 0:26:19Proper family!
0:26:20 > 0:26:23Having each other's back.
0:26:23 > 0:26:27And you think I want to come back here for more of the same?
0:26:27 > 0:26:28Karl...
0:26:28 > 0:26:30Thanks for the support, Eesh(!)
0:26:30 > 0:26:31I'm out of here.
0:26:37 > 0:26:39- DANIEL:- Yeah, yeah. - LADDER CLANKS
0:26:39 > 0:26:40What was that?
0:26:41 > 0:26:44Oh! I know, she's got me hearing things now.
0:26:44 > 0:26:47Anyway, I'll, er... I'll see you Monday.
0:27:05 > 0:27:08I know that you are up here!
0:27:09 > 0:27:10Come on!
0:27:11 > 0:27:13Where are you?
0:27:13 > 0:27:15Where...are...?
0:27:18 > 0:27:21You thought I was going to scream, didn't you?
0:27:21 > 0:27:23Well, you were wrong!
0:27:23 > 0:27:25SQUEAK!
0:27:25 > 0:27:27CREAKING
0:27:27 > 0:27:29Argh!
0:27:29 > 0:27:31SQUEAKING
0:27:36 > 0:27:38Say hello to my little friend.
0:27:38 > 0:27:42A Rattus norvegicus can pop up in the most unexpected places.
0:27:42 > 0:27:44- You mean...?- I could be sitting on there and...?- Yes!
0:27:44 > 0:27:46Ratty McSockface.
0:27:46 > 0:27:47Just as I thought!
0:27:49 > 0:27:51No, I cannot forget about it...!
0:27:51 > 0:27:54Winifred, I really don't want to talk about it.
0:27:54 > 0:27:56Can you just leave it alone?