0:00:34 > 0:00:36Where you been? I was just about to leave.
0:00:36 > 0:00:38I had to go to the library.
0:00:38 > 0:00:40That Romantics and Victorians essay's due tomorrow
0:00:40 > 0:00:42and I've got so much reading,
0:00:42 > 0:00:45and I've still to do the bibliography. I can't concentrate.
0:00:45 > 0:00:47What do you expect, leaving it to the last minute?
0:00:47 > 0:00:48I did mine weeks ago.
0:00:48 > 0:00:50You might've reminded me.
0:00:50 > 0:00:51I thought you'd done it by now.
0:00:51 > 0:00:54It's worth 30% of our continuous assessment.
0:00:54 > 0:00:56Only a total slacker would leave it to the day before.
0:00:56 > 0:00:59- Slacker? Cheers(!)- Come on. Didn't mean it like that.
0:00:59 > 0:01:02Better hurry, don't want to miss your appointment.
0:01:02 > 0:01:04- But I've so much to do! - Come on, Slacker!
0:01:10 > 0:01:11Oh, hey, Mrs Tembe?
0:01:11 > 0:01:13Could you give us a hand, it seems to be stuck.
0:01:13 > 0:01:16- You just have to... - Ah! Magic touch.
0:01:16 > 0:01:18There you go.
0:01:18 > 0:01:21Hope it doesn't freeze on you this afternoon.
0:01:21 > 0:01:25- You not in?- No, me and Rob are meeting our social worker.
0:01:25 > 0:01:26We're thinking of fostering.
0:01:28 > 0:01:29What a nice thing to do!
0:01:31 > 0:01:33- I could never do anything so noble.- Yeah, you could.
0:01:33 > 0:01:36No, I couldn't, I'm far too selfish.
0:01:36 > 0:01:39And I do like to keep my house clean and tidy.
0:01:39 > 0:01:42- So do we.- Not to mention the responsibility,
0:01:42 > 0:01:43the endless hours of worry.
0:01:43 > 0:01:44It's not going to be that bad.
0:01:44 > 0:01:47Wondering who they're with, what they're up to.
0:01:47 > 0:01:50Oh, and I could not cope with the sleepless nights.
0:01:50 > 0:01:52Well, it's not like we haven't done it all before.
0:01:52 > 0:01:55Exactly. If anyone can do it, it's you and Rob.
0:01:55 > 0:01:56Er, Miss Pitman.
0:02:03 > 0:02:05I keep telling you, I'm fine.
0:02:05 > 0:02:07Look how much weight you've lost.
0:02:07 > 0:02:08I'm not anorexic!
0:02:08 > 0:02:11- Denial's totally a part of it. I should know.- I give up.
0:02:11 > 0:02:15She should just listen to what the doctor has to say. Tell her?
0:02:15 > 0:02:16It's nothing to do with me, really.
0:02:16 > 0:02:17She needs help.
0:02:17 > 0:02:19Then, you should see the doctor.
0:02:19 > 0:02:22Don't be put off. He comes across as a right grumpy git.
0:02:22 > 0:02:23Total teddy bear, really.
0:02:23 > 0:02:25OK.
0:02:25 > 0:02:26Pippa Walker?
0:02:28 > 0:02:29You're coming in?
0:02:33 > 0:02:35HE SIGHS
0:02:37 > 0:02:39Oh, I don't get it!
0:02:39 > 0:02:41- What's up?- Mrs Andrew's appointment.
0:02:41 > 0:02:44It's not here and I know that I put it on here myself.
0:02:44 > 0:02:47So stressful when that happens.
0:02:47 > 0:02:49Still, you must be good with stress.
0:02:49 > 0:02:50Why?
0:02:50 > 0:02:51Fostering.
0:02:51 > 0:02:54Looking after a child, holding down a difficult job,
0:02:54 > 0:02:57keeping a home. Not to mention your marriage.
0:02:57 > 0:03:00I can barely look after myself, let alone a problem child.
0:03:02 > 0:03:03And what's your diet like?
0:03:03 > 0:03:04Quite healthy, really.
0:03:04 > 0:03:06I have the odd kebab, after a night out.
0:03:06 > 0:03:10- No, you don't.- I do. Just you're too off your face to notice.
0:03:10 > 0:03:12She barely eats, doctor. She's tired
0:03:12 > 0:03:13and she exercises all the time.
0:03:13 > 0:03:15I have to, I'm in the rowing team.
0:03:15 > 0:03:16- In denial, more like.- I'm not!
0:03:18 > 0:03:19Did I mention she's dead irritable?
0:03:19 > 0:03:22OK, enough, this is getting us absolutely nowhere.
0:03:22 > 0:03:25I'd like to weigh you, so....
0:03:26 > 0:03:28..if you could give us a bit of privacy, that would be fantastic.
0:03:38 > 0:03:40Your friend is very charming.
0:03:40 > 0:03:41Isn't she?
0:03:44 > 0:03:47Ah, Dr Reid, just to let you know that Mr Hughes will now be with you
0:03:47 > 0:03:49- tomorrow at 4.30? - OK. Oh, can I give you that?
0:03:49 > 0:03:52Erm, I thought he was with me.
0:03:52 > 0:03:54No, he asked for Dr Reid especially. Sorry.
0:03:55 > 0:03:57Great. So, first, Cam Lewis and now...
0:03:57 > 0:03:58Oh, don't be like that.
0:03:58 > 0:04:00I'm not. I'm happy someone's looking after him.
0:04:00 > 0:04:02And I know he's safe in the flat for now, but...
0:04:02 > 0:04:04Look, he knows what you did for him.
0:04:04 > 0:04:06- He'll be grateful one day.- Hmm.
0:04:07 > 0:04:10Paul? Hello, I wasn't expecting to see you today.
0:04:11 > 0:04:14I'm sorry, I've not made an appointment or anything.
0:04:14 > 0:04:17I'm free now, if you fancy a chat?
0:04:17 > 0:04:18No, I don't want to interrupt.
0:04:18 > 0:04:20Don't be silly. Come on, come through.
0:04:28 > 0:04:30This is the bit where you tell me I'm underweight, right?
0:04:30 > 0:04:32Er...
0:04:32 > 0:04:34Yes, it is, and...
0:04:34 > 0:04:36yeah, you are.
0:04:37 > 0:04:40- Is there anything you'd like to talk about?- I really don't.
0:04:40 > 0:04:42- You can tell me anything. - Whatever Sammy says...
0:04:42 > 0:04:44I don't have an eating disorder.
0:04:45 > 0:04:47It's just not me. I eat, I do.
0:04:50 > 0:04:51Look, it's OK.
0:04:53 > 0:04:54Have you eaten today?
0:04:56 > 0:04:57OK.
0:04:58 > 0:05:01How's about we run a few routine tests,
0:05:01 > 0:05:03you know, just to rule a few things out?
0:05:04 > 0:05:06Do it for me? Indulge me.
0:05:06 > 0:05:08I just love all that paperwork(!)
0:05:10 > 0:05:13- He's a right little smiler. - Hmm!- Has his moments, mind.
0:05:13 > 0:05:14Oh, well, don't they all?
0:05:15 > 0:05:18This is his little teddy. He chews on his ear when he goes to sleep.
0:05:18 > 0:05:20- SHE CHUCKLES - Oh, sweet!
0:05:21 > 0:05:23I've turned into a right baby bore, haven't I?
0:05:23 > 0:05:25No, you haven't. He's lovely.
0:05:25 > 0:05:26Anyway, how can I help?
0:05:29 > 0:05:30Erm...
0:05:30 > 0:05:32I've started smoking again.
0:05:32 > 0:05:36Oh, OK. Well, don't worry, there are plenty of cessation clinics
0:05:36 > 0:05:38that you can go to, if you want to give that a try?
0:05:38 > 0:05:40I'll try anything.
0:05:40 > 0:05:41I'm just really struggling.
0:05:42 > 0:05:44Yeah, well, it's not easy,
0:05:44 > 0:05:46but there's a lot more help out there than there used to be.
0:05:46 > 0:05:49Right, let's find you your local clinic.
0:05:49 > 0:05:52It's just like when I've eaten or if I've had a coffee or something,
0:05:52 > 0:05:54that's when I get most tempted.
0:05:54 > 0:05:57Yeah, well, that's because caffeinated drinks always make
0:05:57 > 0:05:59nicotine taste better.
0:05:59 > 0:06:02So it might be worth thinking about giving those up, too.
0:06:02 > 0:06:04One vice at a time, eh, doc?
0:06:04 > 0:06:05SHE CHUCKLES
0:06:07 > 0:06:08Right.
0:06:09 > 0:06:10There you go.
0:06:11 > 0:06:14Give it a try and if you're still struggling,
0:06:14 > 0:06:15then pop back and see me.
0:06:18 > 0:06:20Was there something else?
0:06:21 > 0:06:24Nope. That's everything, thank you, doc.
0:06:24 > 0:06:27Well, you give my best to Rhiannon and Nicholas, won't you?
0:06:27 > 0:06:29Course I will.
0:06:29 > 0:06:30- Bye.- Cheers.
0:06:34 > 0:06:36As you see, there are 18 different languages.
0:06:36 > 0:06:38That is amazing.
0:06:38 > 0:06:40It is a wonderful machine.
0:06:40 > 0:06:43- So sophisticated and international.- Of course.
0:06:44 > 0:06:48- Sleek and shiny...- It really is. - ..like George Clooney.- What?
0:06:48 > 0:06:49If he was a computer.
0:06:51 > 0:06:53It's a disaster. Oh!
0:06:53 > 0:06:55- What has happened? - Rob's been delayed at court,
0:06:55 > 0:06:58which means he can't get back in time to tidy up for me
0:06:58 > 0:07:00before the social worker comes.
0:07:00 > 0:07:02- I could cover. - Oh, you're an angel! Mrs Tembe?
0:07:02 > 0:07:04Of course, you must go. Go, go!
0:07:04 > 0:07:05PHONE RINGS
0:07:10 > 0:07:11Hello, Mill Health Centre.
0:07:13 > 0:07:14He's nice, that doctor.
0:07:14 > 0:07:16He didn't try and bulldoze me.
0:07:19 > 0:07:20So, what course are you doing?
0:07:20 > 0:07:21English.
0:07:21 > 0:07:25The course is fine, but uni's not really been what I thought it'd be.
0:07:26 > 0:07:29Everyone bangs on about how easy it is to meet people, but...
0:07:29 > 0:07:32Your mate, she seems a bit...determined?
0:07:33 > 0:07:35She means well, but she's exhausting.
0:07:36 > 0:07:39I thought I'd got away from all that with my mum.
0:07:39 > 0:07:42- Not homesick, then? - You're kidding, right?
0:07:42 > 0:07:44Couldn't wait to get out.
0:07:44 > 0:07:45But living with Sammy...
0:07:46 > 0:07:49- Like a home from home? - Worse luck.- Better make sure her
0:07:49 > 0:07:53and your mum never get together, then you'd really be in for it.
0:07:55 > 0:07:58Mrs Walker? It's Sammy here, Pippa's housemate?
0:07:59 > 0:08:03Yes, I'm fine, thank you, but I'm not so sure Pippa is.
0:08:05 > 0:08:07I know what it's like to have a drama queen for a mother.
0:08:07 > 0:08:10It's always about them and you'll never be able to change that.
0:08:10 > 0:08:14- Too right.- But you can change the way you deal with them.
0:08:14 > 0:08:16- But I've tried, I... - People like that,
0:08:16 > 0:08:18they suck you in, wear you down.
0:08:18 > 0:08:21Don't let them, cos if you do, it'll ruin you.
0:08:21 > 0:08:22I am losing weight
0:08:22 > 0:08:24and I'm tired all the time.
0:08:26 > 0:08:28Maybe they're right. I don't even know any more.
0:08:28 > 0:08:32Just don't let anyone push you around, OK?
0:08:34 > 0:08:35This'll just take a sec.
0:08:56 > 0:08:57No, no, no, no, no!
0:08:58 > 0:09:00You're joking me!
0:09:09 > 0:09:10Paul?
0:09:13 > 0:09:14Sorry about that.
0:09:14 > 0:09:16Are you OK?
0:09:18 > 0:09:21Why don't you come inside?
0:09:34 > 0:09:36Al?
0:09:36 > 0:09:38Can you take a look at this for me?
0:09:39 > 0:09:41It's Pippa Walker's.
0:09:44 > 0:09:45Right, erm...
0:09:45 > 0:09:49Call her, get her to go to A&E, soon as possible.
0:10:02 > 0:10:04Pippa, darling!
0:10:04 > 0:10:06Mum! What are you doing here?
0:10:09 > 0:10:10Did you phone her?
0:10:10 > 0:10:11Pip, you need help.
0:10:11 > 0:10:13After everything I've told you?
0:10:13 > 0:10:15Oh, come on, don't be such a fusspot!
0:10:15 > 0:10:17I brought us all a lovely lunch.
0:10:17 > 0:10:19I'm not hungry.
0:10:20 > 0:10:23I take it Sammy's filled you in on all my issues?
0:10:23 > 0:10:24Someone had to do something.
0:10:24 > 0:10:25Exactly.
0:10:25 > 0:10:28She always did stick her head in the sand about things.
0:10:28 > 0:10:32Acknowledging you've got a problem is the first step to solving it.
0:10:32 > 0:10:34But I don't. I...
0:10:34 > 0:10:36You were always a chubby child.
0:10:36 > 0:10:39Carrying a bit of padding round the hips isn't a problem.
0:10:39 > 0:10:42It was never just confined to the hips.
0:10:42 > 0:10:46I suppose you see this as some way of regaining control
0:10:46 > 0:10:48or some such stuff and nonsense?
0:10:48 > 0:10:49So insightful, Nancy.
0:10:49 > 0:10:52See, eating disorders are never about the food,
0:10:52 > 0:10:54they're about control.
0:10:54 > 0:10:57- I should know. - Oh, dear, you poor thing.
0:10:57 > 0:11:00That's why I so want to help her, cos I've been there.
0:11:01 > 0:11:05You should be grateful to have a friend who cares about you.
0:11:05 > 0:11:06Not to mention a brilliant mum.
0:11:12 > 0:11:16It's perfectly natural for new parents to struggle.
0:11:16 > 0:11:17We're not struggling!
0:11:17 > 0:11:19- I never said that. - I'm sorry, I didn't...
0:11:19 > 0:11:21Do you know what? I knew this was going to happen.
0:11:21 > 0:11:23Right, they have been watching us like a hawk
0:11:23 > 0:11:25and I knew you were on their side.
0:11:25 > 0:11:27I knew I shouldn't have come here today!
0:11:27 > 0:11:28Paul, sit down!!
0:11:30 > 0:11:32Please.
0:11:40 > 0:11:42What's going on?
0:11:46 > 0:11:48- They're going to know I've been here now, aren't they?- Who?
0:11:50 > 0:11:53Social services. They're going to come and they're going to try
0:11:53 > 0:11:56and take him away from me again. This is going to be another
0:11:56 > 0:11:58- black mark against us, isn't it?- No, they won't.
0:11:59 > 0:12:00Listen to me.
0:12:01 > 0:12:03If everybody who asked for help
0:12:03 > 0:12:05had a black mark against them,
0:12:05 > 0:12:06that would be all of us,
0:12:06 > 0:12:07wouldn't it?
0:12:08 > 0:12:10I'm not here to judge you.
0:12:11 > 0:12:13I'm here to listen.
0:12:14 > 0:12:16You must know that by now.
0:12:24 > 0:12:27Giving up a child must be so hard.
0:12:27 > 0:12:30- No staples.- Must be heart-rending.
0:12:30 > 0:12:33And then, being thrown into another family.
0:12:33 > 0:12:35The shock, the pain.
0:12:35 > 0:12:38- I'll use bulldog clips. - Oh, there's a box.
0:12:38 > 0:12:40I just don't know how they're going to cope.
0:12:42 > 0:12:44Are you babbling on about Karen and Rob?
0:12:44 > 0:12:46Well, fostering is a big thing, isn't it?
0:12:46 > 0:12:50Look, what those two are doing, is to be applauded,
0:12:50 > 0:12:52to be admired, even,
0:12:52 > 0:12:54but it is not to be gossiped about.
0:13:23 > 0:13:27Sometimes, I'll just sit and watch him sleep.
0:13:29 > 0:13:30When they're peaceful.
0:13:32 > 0:13:33He's all safe.
0:13:35 > 0:13:37I never thought I'd feel like this.
0:13:38 > 0:13:41I can't even remember what it was like before he came along.
0:13:42 > 0:13:44Being a parent can be overwhelming.
0:13:45 > 0:13:46And I want to be a good one.
0:13:46 > 0:13:48You will be.
0:13:49 > 0:13:50Not like my dad.
0:13:52 > 0:13:53He was rubbish.
0:13:54 > 0:13:57He was hardly ever there and he was always drunk, when he was.
0:13:57 > 0:13:59I swore I'd never put a kid of mine through that.
0:13:59 > 0:14:01You won't.
0:14:01 > 0:14:03Look at what you've done for Nicholas already!
0:14:03 > 0:14:04Hmm?
0:14:04 > 0:14:06You're a good dad.
0:14:07 > 0:14:09- Am I?- Yes.
0:14:10 > 0:14:12A parent's supposed to look after their kid.
0:14:12 > 0:14:14Supposed to protect them.
0:14:16 > 0:14:19When I think about how close we were to losing him, I...
0:14:19 > 0:14:21Yes, but you didn't, though.
0:14:21 > 0:14:22I've never felt like that.
0:14:23 > 0:14:25Helpless.
0:14:31 > 0:14:35What if they try and take him off me again, what...
0:14:35 > 0:14:37What if I...
0:14:37 > 0:14:38What if I lose him again,
0:14:38 > 0:14:40I honestly don't think I could bear it.
0:14:40 > 0:14:42You won't have to.
0:14:44 > 0:14:46Anyone can see how much you love him.
0:14:48 > 0:14:51And actually, you're handling things really well.
0:14:52 > 0:14:53- Thanks to you.- No.
0:14:54 > 0:14:55Yeah.
0:14:57 > 0:14:58If it weren't for you,
0:14:58 > 0:15:00I'd have lost him.
0:15:05 > 0:15:06Mmm.
0:15:06 > 0:15:08Delicious buns, Nancy. Where did you get them?
0:15:08 > 0:15:10I don't do shop-bought.
0:15:10 > 0:15:12I just knocked out a dozen or so before I came over.
0:15:12 > 0:15:14Home-baking?
0:15:15 > 0:15:17You don't know how lucky you are!
0:15:17 > 0:15:19Pippa was brought up with every advantage.
0:15:20 > 0:15:21Not that she appreciates it.
0:15:22 > 0:15:24- I'll tell you how I was brought up, shall I?- Mm?
0:15:25 > 0:15:28- I was brought up to think I was just a bit rubbish.- What?
0:15:31 > 0:15:33What did you just say?
0:15:33 > 0:15:34Just that....
0:15:35 > 0:15:37- ..I wish you wouldn't...- Mm?
0:15:39 > 0:15:41Doesn't matter.
0:15:41 > 0:15:45Your mum went to all this trouble and you're still not eating?
0:15:45 > 0:15:46Sorry.
0:15:46 > 0:15:47It's ungrateful of me.
0:15:47 > 0:15:49Mmm.
0:15:50 > 0:15:54Pippa! Pippa! For goodness' sake, where on Earth are your manners?
0:15:54 > 0:15:56MOUTH FULL: Sorry, Mum. Want some?
0:15:56 > 0:15:59- What's wrong with you? - Go on, fill your boots!
0:15:59 > 0:16:00Oh! Oh!
0:16:00 > 0:16:03Pippa! Pippa! Stop! Pippa! Pippa!
0:16:03 > 0:16:04Oh, for goodness' sake.
0:16:27 > 0:16:28Oh, er...
0:16:34 > 0:16:35You get hold of her?
0:16:35 > 0:16:38She's not picking up. Do you think I should go out and look for her?
0:16:38 > 0:16:40- Feels like she's dodging us. - ANSWERPHONE MESSAGE
0:16:40 > 0:16:42Like she doesn't want to be found.
0:16:42 > 0:16:43Keep trying.
0:16:45 > 0:16:49Pippa? It's Ayesha calling from the Campus Surgery again.
0:16:49 > 0:16:50I've got your test results here.
0:16:50 > 0:16:52If you can give me a call as soon as you get this, please?
0:16:55 > 0:16:57I'm ever so sorry about the mess.
0:16:58 > 0:17:00It's fine, really.
0:17:00 > 0:17:03We just have to make sure your home is suitable and safe.
0:17:03 > 0:17:04We're not judging.
0:17:06 > 0:17:09My husband should be home any minute. He's in court.
0:17:10 > 0:17:12He's not a criminal, he's a policeman.
0:17:12 > 0:17:15Not to say that there aren't criminal policemen, cos there are,
0:17:15 > 0:17:16but he's just not one of them.
0:17:16 > 0:17:18Good.
0:17:18 > 0:17:19THEY CHUCKLE
0:17:19 > 0:17:21You're a medical receptionist, aren't you?
0:17:21 > 0:17:23Yes. Er...for...
0:17:23 > 0:17:24seven years.
0:17:26 > 0:17:29Where are my manners?! I haven't offered you a cup of...
0:17:29 > 0:17:30- Karen?- Mm?- Relax.
0:17:30 > 0:17:32Your home's really lovely.
0:17:32 > 0:17:33Thank you.
0:17:33 > 0:17:35- It's warm and welcoming, just like you.- Ohh!
0:17:35 > 0:17:39Why don't we just wait and have tea when your husband gets here?
0:17:39 > 0:17:40- Good idea. - DOOR OPENING
0:17:40 > 0:17:42- Hello!- Oh! That's him now.
0:17:42 > 0:17:43We're in here.
0:17:45 > 0:17:46Sorry I'm late.
0:17:46 > 0:17:48Gina, Rob, Rob, Gina.
0:17:48 > 0:17:50- Hi, Gina, nice to meet you. - Likewise.- Yeah.
0:17:50 > 0:17:52Shall we have that cuppa, then?
0:17:52 > 0:17:54- Oh, yes, yes!- I'll just get changed.- Oh, no! Yes!
0:17:54 > 0:17:57Erm...OK.
0:18:12 > 0:18:15THIN, FAST BREATHING
0:18:20 > 0:18:23Jack's finishing up his law diploma, in Newcastle.
0:18:23 > 0:18:26He's stopping up for a while. Though why he is I don't know.
0:18:26 > 0:18:29I mean, I've nothing against the place, cos it's perfectly nice
0:18:29 > 0:18:31- and they've a lovely station... - Never been myself.
0:18:31 > 0:18:34Well, why would you? It's freezing flipping cold.
0:18:34 > 0:18:36And we don't know how often we'll be going there to visit.
0:18:36 > 0:18:39I've been holding my breath, praying that he doesn't meet some
0:18:39 > 0:18:41Northern girl and decide to stay up there for good,
0:18:41 > 0:18:43cos we'd never be out of our thermals, would we?
0:18:43 > 0:18:44Chance'd be a fine thing.
0:18:46 > 0:18:49London is much warmer, but it's full of Londoners, innit?
0:18:49 > 0:18:53Anyway, so, Immie's getting on really well down there, isn't she?
0:18:53 > 0:18:56- Yeah, she's...- She's working in a really trendy art gallery.
0:18:56 > 0:18:59- I forget the area, what did she say it was called?- Dalston.
0:18:59 > 0:19:02Dalston! That's apparently very, very cool.
0:19:02 > 0:19:06- Although you can't say cool, because if you say cool, it's not cool.- No!
0:19:06 > 0:19:07Erm, you're not from London, are you?
0:19:07 > 0:19:09- No.- Phew!
0:19:09 > 0:19:12I mean, I can't be bothered with the place, cos it's so expensive
0:19:12 > 0:19:16and the dirt and the crime and the grime.
0:19:16 > 0:19:19You know it takes an hour to get anywhere.
0:19:19 > 0:19:20I can't be bothered with it.
0:19:20 > 0:19:23Although it is the place to be for art, Immie says.
0:19:23 > 0:19:26- That's what she says and she would know.- Yes.
0:19:26 > 0:19:31I... I suppose that you would say that we've been lucky with our kids,
0:19:31 > 0:19:33you know, but we don't really believe that
0:19:33 > 0:19:35luck had anything to do with it.
0:19:35 > 0:19:37We more believe, don't we, that, erm...
0:19:37 > 0:19:42that it's a stable environment that's the key to bringing up ...
0:19:42 > 0:19:44Yeah. We've not been perfect, but we got there, didn't we?
0:19:44 > 0:19:48We did cos we've had our problems, but we've always...
0:19:50 > 0:19:52..managed to get through it in the end.
0:19:54 > 0:19:57SHE PANTS FEEBLY
0:19:59 > 0:20:00Al, quick!
0:20:00 > 0:20:02Help me.
0:20:02 > 0:20:03Call an ambulance, yeah?
0:20:04 > 0:20:06Hiya. It's OK.
0:20:06 > 0:20:07Pippa, it's OK.
0:20:07 > 0:20:09- It's OK.- Hello? Ambulance, please.
0:20:12 > 0:20:14Would you like another one? We make everything from scratch.
0:20:14 > 0:20:17We're normally about healthy eating, aren't we?
0:20:17 > 0:20:19Used to do a lot of baking with the kids.
0:20:19 > 0:20:22It was our bonding time. Only a couple of times a week
0:20:22 > 0:20:25and nothing fancy, like butterfly cakes and such, but...
0:20:25 > 0:20:27And always after their homework had finished.
0:20:27 > 0:20:29The hedgehog cake, that was pretty spectacular.
0:20:29 > 0:20:32Yes, that was Jack's birthday.
0:20:32 > 0:20:36- His fourth birthday. - We've got photos. Yeah...
0:20:36 > 0:20:39It all sank in the middle and the prickles melted, didn't they?
0:20:39 > 0:20:41Not that I remember...
0:20:41 > 0:20:44The kids cried when you brought it out - thought it was roadkill.
0:20:45 > 0:20:47I'm a much better baker now, aren't I?
0:20:49 > 0:20:50I'm sure you are.
0:20:50 > 0:20:54It's not like I've forgotten how do to it, even with everything
0:20:54 > 0:20:55that happened, I...
0:20:56 > 0:20:59And I can still remember how to look after a child.
0:20:59 > 0:21:00Of course. PHONE RINGS
0:21:00 > 0:21:03Oh, I'm sorry, I'm going to have to take this.
0:21:03 > 0:21:04That's fine, you take it.
0:21:04 > 0:21:05I'll make a fresh brew.
0:21:16 > 0:21:18- Karen, you've got to relax. - Yeah, like that's easy.
0:21:18 > 0:21:19It's going well.
0:21:19 > 0:21:22I'm just worried that she's going to ask me something
0:21:22 > 0:21:24- and I can't remember. - Just be honest.
0:21:24 > 0:21:27She knows what's happened. No-one is trying to catch you out.
0:21:27 > 0:21:29- I just don't want to mess things up.- You won't.
0:21:31 > 0:21:33If it's OK, I'd like to tell her.
0:21:33 > 0:21:35- That's fine, no problem.- Thanks.
0:21:40 > 0:21:41Hey.
0:21:46 > 0:21:48So, what's wrong with me?
0:21:48 > 0:21:50You've got diabetes. Type one.
0:21:50 > 0:21:52Oh.
0:21:52 > 0:21:54You've had diabetic ketoacidosis.
0:21:54 > 0:21:56It's been coming on for a while.
0:21:56 > 0:21:59It can happen when diabetes goes undiagnosed.
0:21:59 > 0:22:01Is what why I've been feeling so rubbish?
0:22:01 > 0:22:03It explains the tiredness, feeling sick -
0:22:03 > 0:22:05all of the symptoms you've been having.
0:22:05 > 0:22:07I know it's a lot to take in,
0:22:07 > 0:22:10but at least you know what it is now.
0:22:10 > 0:22:11Thank you.
0:22:11 > 0:22:13I was really starting to think I was losing it.
0:22:14 > 0:22:17It was all getting on top of me - Mum and Sammy and...
0:22:18 > 0:22:21I tried to get them to back off, really I did, but...
0:22:21 > 0:22:22They didn't listen?
0:22:23 > 0:22:25You're going to need to make some changes.
0:22:25 > 0:22:27Not just for your health, but for your head, too.
0:22:27 > 0:22:29I will, I promise.
0:22:30 > 0:22:31You've been brilliant.
0:22:31 > 0:22:32KNOCKING
0:22:34 > 0:22:35It's your life, Pippa.
0:22:38 > 0:22:42Is there any indication your memory might become an issue in the future?
0:22:44 > 0:22:46Well, I should say no, shouldn't I?
0:22:46 > 0:22:48Make you think I'm fine. And I wish that I could.
0:22:50 > 0:22:54But the truth is, that I don't know.
0:22:54 > 0:22:57Don't worry, I'm sure it'll all come out in your medical.
0:22:57 > 0:23:00So, you could still say no, after the medical?
0:23:00 > 0:23:02We always have to wait for the test results
0:23:02 > 0:23:04before writing up our report.
0:23:04 > 0:23:07Are you worried that I won't remember what to do?
0:23:07 > 0:23:09The tests are fairly standard.
0:23:09 > 0:23:11Or that I'll have a black-out or something while I'm driving,
0:23:11 > 0:23:14- or holding a baby... - The medical's just a formality.
0:23:14 > 0:23:16I'm sorry, I can't do it, I'm so sorry...
0:23:19 > 0:23:22The doctor says that he can explain Pippa's treatment
0:23:22 > 0:23:24- if you want. - Yes, yes, we know all about it.
0:23:26 > 0:23:27Excuse me for breathing.
0:23:27 > 0:23:29Oh, you poor darling!
0:23:29 > 0:23:31I knew something was wrong,
0:23:31 > 0:23:33you would never normally speak to Mummy like that.
0:23:33 > 0:23:35Just as well I took you to the surgery.
0:23:35 > 0:23:37You look after her so well.
0:23:37 > 0:23:39We have to be careful now, though.
0:23:39 > 0:23:42I can help you with your diet, download any recipes,
0:23:42 > 0:23:44- exercise tips... - Listen to the pair of you!
0:23:45 > 0:23:46It's always about you.
0:23:48 > 0:23:51Flipping Mother Of The Year and Miss Former Anorexia 2013?
0:23:52 > 0:23:53I'm not the problem. You two are!
0:23:53 > 0:23:56- If it hadn't been for me... - Yeah, yeah, yeah, give it a rest.
0:23:57 > 0:24:01Anyone ever told you you've got a voice like Foghorn Leghorn?
0:24:01 > 0:24:04- He never shut up, either.- Is that the thanks you give your friend?
0:24:04 > 0:24:07Friends listen. She bullies. Just like you. I've had it with
0:24:07 > 0:24:12the pair of you! "Best interests", "for my own good"... Yeah, right.
0:24:12 > 0:24:16You just want to feel smug and superior, like her.
0:24:17 > 0:24:20I thought you were rude because you were ill, but it's just you.
0:24:20 > 0:24:23There must be some other mixed-up kids out there.
0:24:23 > 0:24:24Go and mess with their heads.
0:24:27 > 0:24:29Knocked speechless, for once.
0:24:29 > 0:24:31I think I like you better mute.
0:24:36 > 0:24:37Suppose I'm stuck with you.
0:24:39 > 0:24:42You've been through a lot, you're bound to feel upset,
0:24:42 > 0:24:44- you're sick, darling. - Yeah, I'm sick.
0:24:44 > 0:24:46Sick of you.
0:24:46 > 0:24:50Diabetes is a life-changing condition. I think it's best if you
0:24:50 > 0:24:53- come back home after you've been discharged from here.- Get stuffed.
0:24:53 > 0:24:57Philippa, it's times like this that a girl really needs her mother.
0:24:58 > 0:25:00You're the very last thing I need.
0:25:00 > 0:25:03- But I have done everything for you. - I can look after myself.
0:25:05 > 0:25:06I know now what's wrong with me.
0:25:09 > 0:25:10It's you, Mum.
0:25:11 > 0:25:12Just go home.
0:25:19 > 0:25:21Well...
0:25:21 > 0:25:22if you need me,
0:25:22 > 0:25:24you know where I'll be.
0:25:28 > 0:25:30I won't call you.
0:25:40 > 0:25:41It's just you now.
0:25:42 > 0:25:43Yeah.
0:25:44 > 0:25:45Feels good.
0:25:49 > 0:25:51I'm, er...
0:25:51 > 0:25:53- sorry about that. - I'll arrange to pop back later.
0:25:53 > 0:25:55That would be great, if you don't mind.
0:25:59 > 0:26:01She really, really wants this.
0:26:01 > 0:26:03We both do.
0:26:03 > 0:26:05I'll be in touch, Mr Hollins.
0:26:05 > 0:26:07- Thanks. Bye.- Bye.
0:26:28 > 0:26:29Has she gone?
0:26:33 > 0:26:34Yeah.
0:26:35 > 0:26:37Did she say anything?
0:26:38 > 0:26:39No.
0:26:42 > 0:26:45It's going to go against us, innit.
0:26:45 > 0:26:48You just got a bit upset, that's all.
0:26:48 > 0:26:50Yeah, but I've ruined it all.
0:26:51 > 0:26:53They're not going to give a kid
0:26:53 > 0:26:57to someone who can't remember bringing up their own.
0:26:59 > 0:27:00We don't know that.
0:27:03 > 0:27:05It's bound to affect our chances.
0:27:11 > 0:27:13It was my normal seminar on Moby Dick.
0:27:14 > 0:27:17They said they found it so evocative they could smell the sea.
0:27:17 > 0:27:21I said, are you sure it isn't Professor Wilson just walking past?!
0:27:22 > 0:27:24It's a travesty!
0:27:25 > 0:27:30I thought I picked up a hint that someone might be interested in me.
0:27:30 > 0:27:31Really?
0:27:31 > 0:27:33Is it that obvious?