0:00:29 > 0:00:31LOW CHATTER
0:00:37 > 0:00:39Just go in and get changed already!
0:00:39 > 0:00:42- It's OK.- No! That is their problem, not yours.
0:00:42 > 0:00:44Please, mate, I'd rather no hassle.
0:00:46 > 0:00:48Have you seen this?!
0:00:50 > 0:00:51What am I looking at?
0:00:51 > 0:00:55Joe's school. Reallocating resources and throwing them at the SATs years!
0:00:55 > 0:00:57- And that's bad because...? - If you read it,
0:00:57 > 0:01:01they are taking the funding away from the foundation stage!
0:01:01 > 0:01:04OK. Well, they're obviously doing what they feel is best.
0:01:04 > 0:01:06You're OK with the most formative years of your son's education
0:01:06 > 0:01:09- turning into one long playtime? - I didn't say that.
0:01:09 > 0:01:11I'm just sure that they know what they're doing.
0:01:11 > 0:01:13Clearly, they don't!
0:01:13 > 0:01:16There's not a great deal we can do about it.
0:01:16 > 0:01:18So, that's your attitude, just to stick your head in the sand?
0:01:18 > 0:01:20Typical!
0:01:30 > 0:01:32You better get a move on. Mr Cox is going to have a fit!
0:01:32 > 0:01:35I'm not coming, I'm going back to see Dr Reid.
0:01:35 > 0:01:37- What, today?- Yeah, today.
0:01:37 > 0:01:38You sure?
0:01:38 > 0:01:41I can't wait any longer, mate. It's doing my head in.
0:01:41 > 0:01:44Well, you know I'm with you a million percent, yeah?
0:01:44 > 0:01:45You can't get a million percent.
0:01:45 > 0:01:49Well, maybe that's why I don't do maths, then.
0:01:49 > 0:01:50Well, come on, hurry up!
0:01:50 > 0:01:54- What, you're coming with me? - Of course.
0:01:54 > 0:01:57Look, I'll give you a minute, yeah, to put your face on.
0:02:03 > 0:02:06Hiya. Are you all right?
0:02:06 > 0:02:08Yeah, I'm fine. I was just thinking about Halloween.
0:02:08 > 0:02:11- Oh, that traumatic, is it? - No, I love Halloween, it's just...
0:02:11 > 0:02:14I was just wondering what I was going to do with Barney this year.
0:02:14 > 0:02:16Go big.
0:02:16 > 0:02:17Yeah, I could, I could.
0:02:17 > 0:02:19Because Jack and Immie loved it
0:02:19 > 0:02:23and it'd be great to be able to share that with Barney, but...
0:02:23 > 0:02:27But nothing! Me and my little sister used to go all-out.
0:02:27 > 0:02:30- Did you?- Yeah. We'd get egg and flour and go trick-or-treating.
0:02:30 > 0:02:34- Eggs and flour?- Yeah, for anyone dumb enough to ask for a trick.
0:02:34 > 0:02:35Not going to do that.
0:02:35 > 0:02:40- Well, you could do bobbing apples and scary cakes.- Mm-hm.
0:02:40 > 0:02:43Yes, I... Ooh! Hello. Can I help?
0:02:43 > 0:02:46- Jamie McAllister to see Dr Reid. - Dr Reid.
0:02:46 > 0:02:48OK, yeah. Do you want to take a seat?
0:02:52 > 0:02:55Hey, would you help me? It'd be a big favour.
0:02:55 > 0:02:56- Absolutely!- Yay!
0:02:56 > 0:03:00Did somebody cakes? Look at these. Just look at them!
0:03:00 > 0:03:03Zombie fingers!
0:03:03 > 0:03:06Oh! We could have a great big scary bakeoff.
0:03:06 > 0:03:09Well, maybe we won't do that, but we could bake for each other.
0:03:09 > 0:03:11- What do you think?- Yeah! - Yeah, we could.
0:03:11 > 0:03:14- PHONE RINGS - Let the games commence!
0:03:14 > 0:03:17I'm going to go and check for some more ideas.
0:03:17 > 0:03:18OK. Bye.
0:03:19 > 0:03:22Jamie McAllister, do you want to go through?
0:03:27 > 0:03:29- KNOCK AT DOOR - Come in.
0:03:30 > 0:03:32- Hi, Jamie.- Hi.
0:03:32 > 0:03:34Oh! Hello.
0:03:34 > 0:03:35Hi. Stotty.
0:03:35 > 0:03:37This is my mate. Is it all right if he stays?
0:03:37 > 0:03:41- By all means. Please, both of you, take a seat.- Thanks.
0:03:41 > 0:03:43So, how have things been?
0:03:43 > 0:03:45- Really good, actually. - That's good to hear.
0:03:45 > 0:03:49I went through all the stuff you gave me and I went online.
0:03:49 > 0:03:51- And...?- And I'm ready.
0:03:55 > 0:03:56- KNOCK AT DOOR - Yeah.
0:03:59 > 0:04:02It turns out there IS something I can do about it.
0:04:03 > 0:04:06- About what?- Joe's school.- Oh.
0:04:06 > 0:04:07There's a vacancy on the Board of Governors
0:04:07 > 0:04:11- and I am going to apply for it. - Really, Zara?
0:04:11 > 0:04:13You think I can't handle it?
0:04:13 > 0:04:16No. No, I'm not saying that.
0:04:16 > 0:04:19I'm saying that you're already a full-time doctor, mother, partner.
0:04:19 > 0:04:22You're on the breast-feeding committee.
0:04:22 > 0:04:25I mean, when are you planning on squeezing any life in for yourself?
0:04:25 > 0:04:29By "life for myself", you mean, of course, what, doing the washing?!
0:04:29 > 0:04:30No...
0:04:30 > 0:04:33DOOR SLAMS SHUT
0:04:33 > 0:04:36It just gets worse and worse,
0:04:36 > 0:04:39until I can't even think about anything else.
0:04:40 > 0:04:42I can't even study properly,
0:04:42 > 0:04:45I can't get on the bus without...without feeling like
0:04:45 > 0:04:47I'm walking around in a shell.
0:04:49 > 0:04:50Like I'm wearing a "me" suit.
0:04:50 > 0:04:52Deep.
0:04:56 > 0:04:57Jamie...
0:04:58 > 0:05:01..this isn't an easy path to take.
0:05:02 > 0:05:04And if you do,
0:05:04 > 0:05:06then it'll take a very long time.
0:05:06 > 0:05:09I know, but believe me, I'm...I'm ready.
0:05:11 > 0:05:13- There is...there is one thing.- Hm?
0:05:13 > 0:05:16I've thought about what you said and I really don't want my dad to know yet.
0:05:18 > 0:05:20OK. Can I ask why?
0:05:21 > 0:05:25I used to talk to my mum about it before she passed. Dad, he...
0:05:27 > 0:05:29Well, he's got a lot on his plate.
0:05:29 > 0:05:30So have you.
0:05:31 > 0:05:34Yeah, but if I don't look after him, who will?
0:05:34 > 0:05:37I'm all he's got. He'll...he'll just freak out, I know he will.
0:05:37 > 0:05:39Well, maybe.
0:05:39 > 0:05:41But don't you think he deserves a chance?
0:05:41 > 0:05:43See? I told you.
0:05:44 > 0:05:48Look, having his support will make a big difference.
0:05:48 > 0:05:50I don't need his approval. I'm the one doing this.
0:05:50 > 0:05:52No, no, I know that.
0:05:52 > 0:05:56But I really think you should speak to him before going it alone.
0:05:56 > 0:05:58- I don't see what this has got to do with him!- Bro!
0:05:58 > 0:06:02- I'm sorry for wasting your time. - Jamie! Jamie, where are you going?!
0:06:04 > 0:06:05I'm so sorry.
0:06:12 > 0:06:14Jamie, hold up, hold up! Why'd you storm off?
0:06:14 > 0:06:17- She won't help me. You heard her. - She was trying to help and you ran off like a tool!
0:06:17 > 0:06:19Because I can't tell my dad!
0:06:19 > 0:06:22Why not? Look, your dad's cool, all right?
0:06:22 > 0:06:26Sure, he might be a little bit overprotective at first, but who can blame him?
0:06:26 > 0:06:27That's the problem.
0:06:27 > 0:06:31Ever since Mum died, it's me who looks after him.
0:06:31 > 0:06:34- Yeah, but he's your dad.- You think that's going to help the situation?
0:06:34 > 0:06:37"Hey, Dad, my junk's alien to me. I want to be a girl."
0:06:37 > 0:06:43Not as much as if you keep it a secret and then come home with a new pair of boobs.
0:06:44 > 0:06:46What am I going to do?
0:06:46 > 0:06:50It's simple, all right? You've got to tell him.
0:06:50 > 0:06:51He deserves to know.
0:06:51 > 0:06:53Will you come with me?
0:06:53 > 0:06:56I don't think your dad will appreciate me being there.
0:06:56 > 0:06:57Yeah, but I will.
0:06:58 > 0:07:01All right, I'll come. But I'm staying outside.
0:07:01 > 0:07:03Take all the time you need, all right?
0:07:03 > 0:07:05I'll be there.
0:07:05 > 0:07:06Yeah, OK.
0:07:06 > 0:07:08Come on.
0:07:15 > 0:07:18- Hey. You all right? - Yeah. Yeah, I'm fine.
0:07:18 > 0:07:20You're not usually home at this time.
0:07:20 > 0:07:22Well, I had a free period.
0:07:22 > 0:07:25- OK. Fancy a cup of tea? - Yeah. Yeah, that'd be nice.
0:07:26 > 0:07:30So, are you staying in for the rest of the day, or are you popping out?
0:07:30 > 0:07:32I don't know.
0:07:32 > 0:07:35Well, if we're playing hooky, why don't we make the most of it, eh?
0:07:35 > 0:07:38No-one calls it hooky any more, Dad.
0:07:38 > 0:07:39Let's go and catch a film.
0:07:39 > 0:07:43I know it's not movie night, but you know what's just been released?
0:07:43 > 0:07:46Dad, can we sit down? I need to talk to you.
0:07:46 > 0:07:48Yeah, sure.
0:07:48 > 0:07:49Sounds serious.
0:07:56 > 0:07:57What's up?
0:07:59 > 0:08:01Um...
0:08:04 > 0:08:07I know this may come as a shock...
0:08:08 > 0:08:09Mm-hm.
0:08:11 > 0:08:14..but I want to become a girl.
0:08:25 > 0:08:26Well?
0:08:31 > 0:08:32Dad, please say something!
0:08:36 > 0:08:38Have I done something wrong?
0:08:38 > 0:08:40No, Dad, this...this isn't about you.
0:08:40 > 0:08:41No, I must have done something wrong.
0:08:41 > 0:08:43This...this is about how I feel.
0:08:45 > 0:08:48Dad, I wake up every day and I feel wrong.
0:08:48 > 0:08:51I can't believe this. My...my son...
0:08:51 > 0:08:54It'll take a long time before I'm fully female.
0:08:56 > 0:08:57F-Fully female...?
0:08:57 > 0:08:59What, you're going to butcher yourself?
0:08:59 > 0:09:02No! Dad, this isn't...
0:09:02 > 0:09:04I knew you wouldn't get it.
0:09:04 > 0:09:06What is there to get, son?
0:09:06 > 0:09:09Look, this is just a phase, a fad. It'll pass.
0:09:09 > 0:09:12Dad, this isn't a fad, this has been going on for a long time.
0:09:12 > 0:09:15I've spoken to Dr Reid about it.
0:09:16 > 0:09:17Are you kidding me?!
0:09:17 > 0:09:19Well, who else was I going to talk to?!
0:09:19 > 0:09:21Your mother will be turning in her grave right now.
0:09:21 > 0:09:23When I told Mum, she just hugged me!
0:09:23 > 0:09:26- That's rubbish!- She would be ashamed of you right now!
0:09:26 > 0:09:29- Who do you think you're talking to?! - I knew you would do this!
0:09:29 > 0:09:32Dad, you don't need to like it, you just need to be behind me!
0:09:32 > 0:09:33This is who I am!
0:09:35 > 0:09:36NOT under my roof!!
0:09:41 > 0:09:43You know, it's funny.
0:09:43 > 0:09:45Because Stotty and Dr Reid, they said,
0:09:45 > 0:09:48"Tell your dad. He'd understand".
0:09:49 > 0:09:51But I knew.
0:09:53 > 0:09:55Well, there you go.
0:09:55 > 0:09:56JAMIE SIGHS
0:10:00 > 0:10:02DOOR SLAMS SHUT
0:10:02 > 0:10:05HE SIGHS
0:10:05 > 0:10:06Well, it's a bit, um...
0:10:07 > 0:10:09Inappropriate?
0:10:09 > 0:10:13Well, I was going to say in poor taste, but, yeah, and inappropriate.
0:10:13 > 0:10:15Hm.
0:10:15 > 0:10:18Wait! Um...maybe it is just a bit of fun.
0:10:18 > 0:10:21What if it's just us morbid types that don't get the joke?
0:10:21 > 0:10:23I don't think death's funny.
0:10:23 > 0:10:25It's a very personal matter.
0:10:27 > 0:10:29Well, have you lost someone?
0:10:29 > 0:10:31Yeah, I lost my mum.
0:10:31 > 0:10:33I've been thinking about her lately.
0:10:33 > 0:10:36You know, if you ever want to talk...
0:10:36 > 0:10:37Um...I should get on.
0:10:46 > 0:10:49- Did you speak to your dad?- Yeah.
0:10:49 > 0:10:51And how did it go?
0:10:51 > 0:10:54Badly. Really badly. I knew he wouldn't like it, but...
0:10:54 > 0:10:57- Just give him a chance, bro. - You didn't hear him.
0:10:57 > 0:11:01Look, it can be really difficult for family and friends
0:11:01 > 0:11:03to hear this stuff at first.
0:11:03 > 0:11:05Sometimes they just need a bit of time.
0:11:05 > 0:11:06And you've only just told him.
0:11:06 > 0:11:08But he's never going to change his mind,
0:11:08 > 0:11:10and I can't wait. It's killing me.
0:11:10 > 0:11:14All right. Look, there are people that you can talk to,
0:11:14 > 0:11:18but I need to make some enquiries, so...can you give me a bit of time?
0:11:19 > 0:11:20OK.
0:11:22 > 0:11:24You don't want to mix things up too much.
0:11:24 > 0:11:26We could go old-school ghosts and ghouls,
0:11:26 > 0:11:29or we could go zombie-survival route?
0:11:29 > 0:11:31Is this all a bit much?
0:11:31 > 0:11:32No, it's going to epic!
0:11:32 > 0:11:34But, see, that's what I'm worried about.
0:11:34 > 0:11:37- Is it not going to be overwhelming? - Why do you think that?
0:11:37 > 0:11:39Barney's never had anything like this before,
0:11:39 > 0:11:41you know, like a big family thing.
0:11:41 > 0:11:43Yeah, then maybe that's exactly what he needs.
0:11:43 > 0:11:46He's so changeable at the minute.
0:11:46 > 0:11:48- Aren't all teenagers? - Yeah, but not like Barney.
0:11:48 > 0:11:50I mean, he's really been through it.
0:11:50 > 0:11:54I'm just worried that all this death stuff is going to make it worse.
0:11:54 > 0:11:56I think you're over-thinking it. It's about having fun.
0:11:56 > 0:11:59We'll make sure he hasn't got a minute to think about anything else.
0:11:59 > 0:12:01- OK?- Hm-hm. OK.
0:12:01 > 0:12:03KAREN SIGHS
0:12:08 > 0:12:12- You all right?- Yeah. Yeah. You?
0:12:13 > 0:12:16Not really, son, but...we'll get there, won't we?
0:12:18 > 0:12:19Yeah, we will.
0:12:19 > 0:12:21You know I love you?
0:12:21 > 0:12:23See, I told you.
0:12:24 > 0:12:26Where'd you go?
0:12:26 > 0:12:28- I went back to see Dr Reid. - What for?!
0:12:28 > 0:12:31Dad, I told you, I'm serious about this!
0:12:31 > 0:12:33I thought you'd see some sense!
0:12:34 > 0:12:36Dad, where are you going?!
0:12:37 > 0:12:40- Come on. We are going to see Dr Reid.- Mr McAllister!
0:12:40 > 0:12:41Stay out of this, Mark!
0:12:45 > 0:12:47Hi, love. This is Tyler.
0:12:47 > 0:12:49Tyler, this is the light of my life.
0:12:49 > 0:12:52Nice to meet you, Mrs Hollins. I've heard a lot about you.
0:12:52 > 0:12:54Oh! What's happened there?
0:12:54 > 0:12:57Oh, my new charge here has managed to injure himself apprehending a suspect.
0:12:57 > 0:13:00I thought it'd be good if he could get in to see Ayesha.
0:13:00 > 0:13:02Why didn't you get it done at the station?
0:13:02 > 0:13:05Well, we'd finished at work and thought it'd be best to get it done properly.
0:13:05 > 0:13:07I don't want it to go septic.
0:13:07 > 0:13:08Well, you're best going to A&E.
0:13:08 > 0:13:10No, no. We might be sat around all afternoon.
0:13:10 > 0:13:12Much better if Ayesha gives him the onceover.
0:13:12 > 0:13:14And, as luck would have it!
0:13:14 > 0:13:17- Hiya. What's up? - Tyler here's cut his hand.
0:13:17 > 0:13:18I haven't cut my hand,
0:13:18 > 0:13:21I was apprehending a criminal. Got him, though.
0:13:21 > 0:13:23OK. Um...
0:13:25 > 0:13:27Yeah, I've got time.
0:13:28 > 0:13:29Whoa! Where do you think you're going?
0:13:29 > 0:13:32- With you.- I said I've got time, I didn't say when.
0:13:32 > 0:13:34Oh, but, how long do I have to wait, though?
0:13:34 > 0:13:35Who knows?
0:13:35 > 0:13:37Where's Dr Reid?!
0:13:37 > 0:13:39- I beg your pardon?!- Reid!
0:13:39 > 0:13:41- What do you think you're playing at?!- Dad...!- Excuse me?
0:13:41 > 0:13:45- Encouraging delusions! You should be ashamed of yourself! - It's not like that!
0:13:45 > 0:13:48This isn't the place to have this conversation, Mr McAllister.
0:13:48 > 0:13:50Why, are you embarrassed? Well, I would be, if I was you.
0:13:50 > 0:13:52No, I'm not embarrassed,
0:13:52 > 0:13:55but you barging in here is no way to resolve anything.
0:13:55 > 0:13:57If you want to talk to me about it properly,
0:13:57 > 0:13:59then, by all means, come through.
0:14:02 > 0:14:05- I'm so sorry.- It's fine, Jamie.
0:14:05 > 0:14:07- Go on.- You OK, Emma?
0:14:07 > 0:14:08Yes. Thanks, Rob.
0:14:12 > 0:14:15I don't believe it! I don't believe you'd encourage him like this!
0:14:15 > 0:14:17I mean, he's never mentioned this before!
0:14:17 > 0:14:19So...so he comes down here as normal as you like,
0:14:19 > 0:14:21when he gets home, he wants to be a flipping girl!
0:14:21 > 0:14:24I really don't think that's the case, Mr McAllister.
0:14:24 > 0:14:27Jamie has been feeling like this for a long time.
0:14:27 > 0:14:29No, he hasn't. It's all this online rubbish been getting in his head!
0:14:29 > 0:14:31He just thinks this is cool!
0:14:31 > 0:14:34Cool? What, you think I'd go through all this just to be cool?
0:14:34 > 0:14:36Look, son, we've all had our fads, right?
0:14:36 > 0:14:38It doesn't mean we turn ourselves into flipping freaks!
0:14:38 > 0:14:40That's enough!
0:14:40 > 0:14:42I'm sorry, but I won't have you speaking to Jamie like that.
0:14:42 > 0:14:46How dare you?! Telling me what I can or cannot do with my own son?!
0:14:47 > 0:14:49I apologise.
0:14:49 > 0:14:51Maybe we should just take a moment.
0:14:51 > 0:14:52No, you take a moment!
0:14:52 > 0:14:56Because this...this is my family we're talking about!
0:14:59 > 0:15:02- Goodbye, Mr Mitchell. - Goodbye, Doctor.
0:15:03 > 0:15:05- Hey, I've been thinking.- Mm-hm?
0:15:05 > 0:15:09Um...I know you want to help, I do, OK?
0:15:09 > 0:15:12But I'm not sure that you've factored Joe into all of this.
0:15:12 > 0:15:15Joe is the reason that I'm doing all of this!
0:15:15 > 0:15:16Yeah, OK, look, it's his first year.
0:15:16 > 0:15:18Why don't we get him through it, see how that goes
0:15:18 > 0:15:21- and then start making waves? - Making waves?
0:15:21 > 0:15:23All right, bad choice of words.
0:15:23 > 0:15:26- Daniel...- We've put a lot of effort getting him up to speed.
0:15:26 > 0:15:28He's doing well, he's got friends.
0:15:28 > 0:15:32- And...? - And maybe that's enough for now.
0:15:32 > 0:15:34If you go in there all guns blazing,
0:15:34 > 0:15:36upsetting and hacking off parents and teachers...
0:15:36 > 0:15:38Maybe they need hacking off a little bit.
0:15:38 > 0:15:41You'll be the nightmare mother from the first term.
0:15:41 > 0:15:43What good is that going to do?
0:15:43 > 0:15:45Whereas you'll just go in and charm them all into submission?
0:15:45 > 0:15:47It's one of my many talents, yeah.
0:15:47 > 0:15:50You can be so odious sometimes.
0:15:50 > 0:15:52And you can be the Wicked Witch of the West.
0:15:52 > 0:15:55You'd have thought you would show just the smallest amount of support
0:15:55 > 0:15:56- when it came to our son's future. - What...?
0:15:56 > 0:15:59But since that is not the case, you can just leave it to me,
0:15:59 > 0:16:01and all my flying monkeys(!)
0:16:06 > 0:16:08I mean, I just...
0:16:08 > 0:16:10I just don't know how we got here.
0:16:12 > 0:16:16- I mean, one minute you're normal and then...- Normal?
0:16:16 > 0:16:17And the next...
0:16:19 > 0:16:21I can't even look at you right now.
0:16:23 > 0:16:25Jamie, do you think you could give me and your dad a moment?
0:16:25 > 0:16:27He can stay right where he is, thank you.
0:16:29 > 0:16:31I think Jamie could probably do with a break.
0:16:31 > 0:16:34And it would be an opportunity for you and I to talk.
0:16:37 > 0:16:38HE SIGHS
0:16:41 > 0:16:42Go on, then.
0:16:51 > 0:16:53KNOCK AT DOOR
0:16:53 > 0:16:55Come in.
0:16:55 > 0:16:59Hey. Er...listen, you know I went away to clear my head?
0:16:59 > 0:17:00Mm. Yeah. Mexico.
0:17:00 > 0:17:03Yeah. Well, when I was out there, they were getting ready for Dia de Muertos.
0:17:03 > 0:17:05- OK.- It's the Day of the Dead.
0:17:05 > 0:17:07Yeah. Like the beginning of the Spectre film.
0:17:07 > 0:17:11Yeah. It's like their Halloween, only it's like a huge carnival.
0:17:11 > 0:17:15They don't really do the whole doom, gloom, death and darkness bit.
0:17:15 > 0:17:17- Sid...- Just bear with me.
0:17:17 > 0:17:19There's feasts and there's parties
0:17:19 > 0:17:23and everyone's wearing bright clothes and they're laughing and...
0:17:23 > 0:17:26- They celebrate it. - In the background, Bond's blowing everything up.
0:17:26 > 0:17:27I'm serious.
0:17:27 > 0:17:30And then there was this guy and he told me that
0:17:30 > 0:17:34this is to make sure our loved ones and the work they put in for us are never forgotten.
0:17:34 > 0:17:36And we honour them by living our own lives to the full.
0:17:39 > 0:17:40I don't know, it was just...
0:17:40 > 0:17:42Well, I went away to get away from death
0:17:42 > 0:17:44and there they are, embracing it.
0:17:46 > 0:17:48So, um...yeah, that's that.
0:17:48 > 0:17:50Thanks, Sid.
0:17:50 > 0:17:52So...?
0:17:52 > 0:17:57So, yeah, I am going to get Spectre on Blu-ray for tonight.
0:17:59 > 0:18:00SID SIGHS
0:18:10 > 0:18:12It's got to be my fault.
0:18:12 > 0:18:14I mean, I just...
0:18:14 > 0:18:16I just don't know what I did wrong.
0:18:16 > 0:18:20What makes you think you've done something wrong?
0:18:20 > 0:18:24From what I can see, Jamie is a lovely, well-rounded individual.
0:18:24 > 0:18:25Surely you're proud.
0:18:25 > 0:18:28Proud? Look at him!
0:18:29 > 0:18:31No, this is something I did.
0:18:31 > 0:18:33Maybe I was too soft on him.
0:18:34 > 0:18:37Or...maybe his mum dying.
0:18:40 > 0:18:44Look...what Jamie is going through
0:18:44 > 0:18:48is about his fundamental identity.
0:18:48 > 0:18:50But why would he want to change himself?
0:18:50 > 0:18:53- I mean, that's wrong, isn't it? - Not to Jamie.
0:18:53 > 0:18:56What's wrong is what he's been feeling all these years.
0:18:56 > 0:18:59But if he's been in so much turmoil, why wouldn't he come to me?
0:18:59 > 0:19:02Maybe he was trying to protect you.
0:19:03 > 0:19:05Me? I'm his dad. Why would he need to protect me?
0:19:09 > 0:19:11HE SIGHS
0:19:11 > 0:19:13I lost my wife...
0:19:17 > 0:19:19..and now I'm going to lose my son.
0:19:19 > 0:19:21You're not going to lose your son.
0:19:23 > 0:19:25But I'll be honest with you,
0:19:25 > 0:19:29if you carry on like this, then you may do.
0:19:33 > 0:19:35Why didn't you get this sorted at the station?
0:19:35 > 0:19:39Doc was busy. Besides, I'd much rather be here with you.
0:19:43 > 0:19:46- Isn't that a bit excessive? - Well, you can never be too careful.
0:19:46 > 0:19:48I'd hate for you to have to come back and see me again.
0:19:48 > 0:19:51Ha! Are you sure?
0:19:51 > 0:19:52Positive.
0:19:53 > 0:19:55What about outside of here, though?
0:19:55 > 0:19:58Oh, I've told you already, I've got a boyfriend. So, are you going to drop it?
0:19:58 > 0:20:01All right. But are you happy, though?
0:20:01 > 0:20:03- What?- Are you happy?
0:20:03 > 0:20:05You know, you don't seem happy.
0:20:05 > 0:20:09You know, if you were with me, you'd be ecstatic.
0:20:09 > 0:20:11- Right(!)- It is.
0:20:11 > 0:20:13Well, as it turns out,
0:20:13 > 0:20:16my boxing-instructor boyfriend keeps me VERY happy.
0:20:17 > 0:20:18- Is that right?- It is.
0:20:18 > 0:20:22In fact, I can give you his details if you fancy a one-to-one session.
0:20:22 > 0:20:24Nah, you're all right.
0:20:24 > 0:20:26You know, it's all well and good being a boxing instructor,
0:20:26 > 0:20:28whatever he is, but being a copper,
0:20:28 > 0:20:31you learn how to handle yourself.
0:20:36 > 0:20:38Oh! It was really quite major, then.
0:20:38 > 0:20:41It was, but I think we got it sorted, didn't we, Tyler?
0:20:41 > 0:20:43I don't know, I think I might need a follow-up.
0:20:43 > 0:20:45- Ha-ha!- Hey! Guess what?
0:20:45 > 0:20:47I've had a word with Barney and he's really up for it.
0:20:47 > 0:20:49See? I told you, I can't wait!
0:20:49 > 0:20:51Let me know if you want my boyfriend's number, yeah?
0:20:53 > 0:20:58Ah! So, it, er...didn't go to plan, then?
0:20:58 > 0:21:00Not quite.
0:21:00 > 0:21:02But you're not going to let a little knock-back like that
0:21:02 > 0:21:05- fell you at the last hurdle? - I'm not sure I'm even in the race.
0:21:07 > 0:21:09HE SIGHS
0:21:10 > 0:21:12Of course you don't get it.
0:21:12 > 0:21:15You're my dad, you're not supposed to get it.
0:21:15 > 0:21:18But you can't just want to mutilate yourself like that, son.
0:21:18 > 0:21:20I don't think Jamie would put it quite like that.
0:21:20 > 0:21:23I'm not. I'm...I'm correcting a mistake.
0:21:23 > 0:21:25A mistake that haunts me.
0:21:25 > 0:21:27Haunts you? Son, you're 17 years old!
0:21:27 > 0:21:31Dad! You think I want to feel like this?
0:21:32 > 0:21:35Like a...like a trespasser in my own body?
0:21:37 > 0:21:40Look, we all have things that we don't like about ourselves.
0:21:40 > 0:21:42This is not like that.
0:21:43 > 0:21:48Every day, I wake up and I have this hollow pit in my stomach.
0:21:50 > 0:21:52It's not the...it's not the comments,
0:21:52 > 0:21:56or...or the bullying, or the looks.
0:21:56 > 0:21:58That's easy now.
0:21:59 > 0:22:02It's the fact that I have to be someone that I'm not.
0:22:02 > 0:22:06You could be just a normal young man.
0:22:06 > 0:22:10Dad! Dad, I haven't felt normal for six years.
0:22:11 > 0:22:13Longer, even.
0:22:13 > 0:22:16And I am so, so tired.
0:22:17 > 0:22:18Oh, son!
0:22:18 > 0:22:22I don't want to upset you, or...or shame you, so...
0:22:24 > 0:22:27..I'm going to get in touch with a lawyer and see if there's
0:22:27 > 0:22:30some sort of way that I can get a kind of divorce from you.
0:22:30 > 0:22:33You...you can't do that!
0:22:33 > 0:22:36I'm going to stay with Stotty in the meantime, until I get things sorted,
0:22:36 > 0:22:38so you don't have to have anything to do with me.
0:22:38 > 0:22:40Wait! Is that what you think I want?
0:22:43 > 0:22:45Why don't you tell him what you do want?
0:22:45 > 0:22:47I just...I just want my boy back.
0:22:49 > 0:22:52Dad, you're who you are and I'm who I am.
0:22:53 > 0:22:56Who I've always been. It's just you never noticed.
0:23:03 > 0:23:06Dr Reid says it's going to be a long road.
0:23:08 > 0:23:09A difficult, long road.
0:23:11 > 0:23:14You know what you're getting yourself into, right?
0:23:14 > 0:23:16Yeah, I do.
0:23:16 > 0:23:18And you still want to go ahead with this?
0:23:20 > 0:23:23Yeah, Dad. I have to.
0:23:27 > 0:23:29HE INHALES DEEPLY
0:23:32 > 0:23:36So...where do we go from here?
0:23:39 > 0:23:41KNOCK AT DOOR Yes?
0:23:48 > 0:23:51I don't think I came across very clear earlier.
0:23:51 > 0:23:53You often don't.
0:23:53 > 0:23:57Right. Um...I'm absolutely behind you, OK?
0:23:57 > 0:23:59If you think it's a good idea to become a governor,
0:23:59 > 0:24:02think it's going to help the school and Joe,
0:24:02 > 0:24:05then I think it's a great idea, too.
0:24:05 > 0:24:08That's not what you said.
0:24:08 > 0:24:10Yeah. I was wrong.
0:24:12 > 0:24:14I think they'd be incredibly lucky to have you.
0:24:16 > 0:24:18I appreciate that.
0:24:19 > 0:24:23Good. So I'd...better wrap up the day.
0:24:23 > 0:24:25Yes.
0:24:25 > 0:24:29I was thinking we could maybe do something with Joe for Halloween.
0:24:29 > 0:24:31Oh, not you as well!
0:24:31 > 0:24:34Well, I just thought it would be a good idea, that's all.
0:24:34 > 0:24:36If you're so keen, why don't you rent some costumes
0:24:36 > 0:24:39and you can run around together, like a pair of fools?
0:24:39 > 0:24:41OK, I will.
0:24:41 > 0:24:42But monitor his sugar intake.
0:24:42 > 0:24:46Let's not have a repeat of the summer fayre incident, shall we?
0:24:56 > 0:24:57Oh, Mr McAllister.
0:24:58 > 0:25:01Looks like you two are going to be needing a lift, right?
0:25:01 > 0:25:03Come on.
0:25:03 > 0:25:06Oh, Mr McAllister? I just wanted to say...
0:25:06 > 0:25:09We're going to be seeing a lot more of each other, so why don't you call me Graham?
0:25:09 > 0:25:12Emma. Well, I hope I do.
0:25:13 > 0:25:15- Thanks for all your help. - You're very welcome.
0:25:15 > 0:25:18I'll follow up the enquiries and then I'll be in touch
0:25:18 > 0:25:20and, well, we'll take things from there, OK?
0:25:20 > 0:25:22Great. I didn't think we'd get this far, to be honest,
0:25:22 > 0:25:24so, thank you, Dr Reid.
0:25:24 > 0:25:26It's my pleasure.
0:25:26 > 0:25:28Very nice to meet you.
0:25:28 > 0:25:29Well, that happened, then?
0:25:29 > 0:25:31I think we'll get there in the end.
0:25:31 > 0:25:34He's calmed down a lot, but big steps and little 'uns, eh?
0:25:38 > 0:25:39- Let me take that.- Cheers.
0:25:41 > 0:25:42I'm not finished!
0:25:44 > 0:25:46Listen, I never actually said thanks for seeing me.
0:25:46 > 0:25:49Oh. It's not a problem.
0:25:49 > 0:25:52Um...I just didn't want to give you the wrong impression.
0:25:52 > 0:25:54- You didn't. See you.- Bye.- Bye.
0:25:58 > 0:26:00Is Ayesha serious about what's-his-face?
0:26:00 > 0:26:02- Seb?- Mm.
0:26:02 > 0:26:05I think she's trying to convince herself, more than anything else.
0:26:05 > 0:26:07- Right.- When are you going home?
0:26:07 > 0:26:09Soon. I just need to speak to Tyler.
0:26:11 > 0:26:13It's fine, honestly. Don't worry about it.
0:26:13 > 0:26:16So, a fresh start, right? Just let me take you for a drink.
0:26:16 > 0:26:19You know, this is bordering on harassment.
0:26:19 > 0:26:21What? It's a drink between friends, nothing sinister, I promise.
0:26:21 > 0:26:24- I just want to get to know you. - I don't think Seb would like that.
0:26:24 > 0:26:26Huh! It's a drink between friends.
0:26:26 > 0:26:30You're the one that's being weird if you think it's anything more.
0:26:33 > 0:26:36- Hey, beautiful.- Hi.
0:26:36 > 0:26:38Hey.
0:26:39 > 0:26:41- Ready to feel like a queen?- I am!
0:26:42 > 0:26:44- Hey.- Hi. Hiya.- See ya!
0:26:44 > 0:26:46- Bye.- Bye.
0:26:49 > 0:26:51She has no idea how happy I'd make her.
0:26:52 > 0:26:55Listen, we're having a Halloween party.
0:26:55 > 0:26:58Why don't you come along?
0:26:58 > 0:27:00Yeah. I'd love that.
0:27:02 > 0:27:04He is a big lad!
0:27:04 > 0:27:06Pfft! Come on. I'll take him!
0:27:15 > 0:27:18Oh, I just wanted to be close to the ley lines.
0:27:18 > 0:27:20- They cut right through here, you know.- Is that right?
0:27:20 > 0:27:22Take a look at some of these.
0:27:22 > 0:27:25- What, you can make me look like this?- Yeah. Easy-peasy.
0:27:25 > 0:27:29I've started wondering why Kate married someone like me.
0:27:29 > 0:27:30Someone like you?
0:27:30 > 0:27:34Hey! I didn't even touch the water!
0:27:34 > 0:27:36Of course you didn't, you've got the biggest gob in Letherbridge.