0:00:25 > 0:00:27SIREN WAILS
0:00:27 > 0:00:29DANIEL!
0:00:29 > 0:00:31- Where are they?- I don't know!
0:00:31 > 0:00:34- Go back inside!- No!
0:00:34 > 0:00:36- They could come back. - I'm not leaving you!
0:00:36 > 0:00:39Daniel, stay with me! Stay with me!
0:00:39 > 0:00:41We need to keep pressure on this wound!
0:00:41 > 0:00:43And you need to radio the damn ambulance!
0:00:43 > 0:00:47He has been stabbed, he's bleeding out, he has a slow pulse!
0:00:47 > 0:00:49Daniel, stay with me! Stay with me!
0:00:49 > 0:00:52FAINT POLICE RADIO ZARA SOBS: Daniel!
0:00:52 > 0:00:54Why do I always have to clean up after you?
0:00:54 > 0:00:56Because you love it.
0:00:56 > 0:00:57This isn't funny, Ken.
0:00:57 > 0:00:58Have you looked at yourself?
0:00:59 > 0:01:03If you want this relationship to work, you are going to have to grow up.
0:01:03 > 0:01:06- Another contraction? - They're not contractions.
0:01:06 > 0:01:08They're, er...five-and-a-half minutes apart now.
0:01:08 > 0:01:10You actually bought a clipboard for this?
0:01:10 > 0:01:13- It's just backache. - We should call the midwife.
0:01:13 > 0:01:14Martin, chill.
0:01:14 > 0:01:17- It could be the real thing. - Or it could be nothing.
0:01:17 > 0:01:18Will you give it a rest, both of you?
0:01:21 > 0:01:23ZARA HYPERVENTILATES
0:01:34 > 0:01:37Joe, darling! What are you doing here?
0:01:37 > 0:01:38What happened to Daddy?
0:01:40 > 0:01:42Daddy's hurt.
0:01:42 > 0:01:45He fell down and he banged his tummy.
0:01:45 > 0:01:48- Is he going to die?- No!
0:01:48 > 0:01:50The other man died.
0:01:50 > 0:01:53- What other man?!- At the tent shop.
0:01:54 > 0:01:57Daddy is not going to die.
0:01:57 > 0:01:58He's not going to die!
0:01:58 > 0:02:00Everything is going to be all right.
0:02:00 > 0:02:02Everything is going to be fine.
0:02:03 > 0:02:05I promise!
0:02:06 > 0:02:10Kirsty's on a home visit, so you're going to have to put up with me until then.
0:02:10 > 0:02:11Hello. Hi.
0:02:11 > 0:02:12What's going on?
0:02:12 > 0:02:15Ah, sorry. Er...I'm Ruhma.
0:02:15 > 0:02:19Martin was saying that your contractions are about five minutes apart now?
0:02:19 > 0:02:22- No, I'm not having contractions. - No?
0:02:23 > 0:02:24When I said to call the midwife,
0:02:24 > 0:02:27I said call and speak to her, not tell her to come over.
0:02:27 > 0:02:29But you had to interfere, as ever.
0:02:29 > 0:02:32- I'm looking after her, Ken. - You're stressing her out.
0:02:32 > 0:02:34OK, sorry, um...which one of you is the father?
0:02:34 > 0:02:36- He is.- He is.- Why does it matter?
0:02:36 > 0:02:38Why can't you both be the father?
0:02:38 > 0:02:41Legally and genetically, only one of us can be.
0:02:41 > 0:02:42Legally and genetically!
0:02:42 > 0:02:45OK, sorry, I'm just, er...I'm a bit confused here.
0:02:45 > 0:02:47Why do you have to make a big deal of everything?
0:02:47 > 0:02:50Look, I'm really sorry, you've had a bit of a wasted trip.
0:02:50 > 0:02:54Oh. Er...maybe not so wasted after all.
0:02:56 > 0:02:58This group is our safe place.
0:02:59 > 0:03:02What's said in this room stays in this room.
0:03:04 > 0:03:06Hopefully we can use the trust we've built up
0:03:06 > 0:03:08to really dig into the things that matter to us.
0:03:10 > 0:03:12How long have you been doing this?
0:03:12 > 0:03:15Oh, I started the group a couple of years ago.
0:03:15 > 0:03:17My wife went off with my best friend and...
0:03:18 > 0:03:20..my world fell apart.
0:03:20 > 0:03:22There was no-one.
0:03:22 > 0:03:24Not even your own GP?
0:03:24 > 0:03:26Men don't do that, do we?
0:03:28 > 0:03:29Nah, we struggle through.
0:03:31 > 0:03:33I wasn't dying. I didn't have cancer.
0:03:33 > 0:03:35What right did I have to complain?
0:03:37 > 0:03:40Nah. It took me a while to get it, but
0:03:40 > 0:03:44the size of a problem isn't what people think it should be.
0:03:45 > 0:03:47It's what it does to you inside.
0:03:49 > 0:03:54So, um...you said that they were both the dads?
0:03:54 > 0:03:57Mm-hm. Yeah. No, we're a throuple.
0:03:57 > 0:03:58Rhymes with couple.
0:04:00 > 0:04:02Yeah, I see. Yeah.
0:04:02 > 0:04:04Martin and Ken are twins.
0:04:05 > 0:04:07Right.
0:04:07 > 0:04:08So...
0:04:08 > 0:04:12..do you, um...do you all, you know,
0:04:12 > 0:04:15do you...all...you know...?
0:04:15 > 0:04:18- Sleep together?- Yeah.
0:04:18 > 0:04:20- Have sex?- Uh-huh.
0:04:20 > 0:04:22- Yes.- Ah.
0:04:24 > 0:04:27But they're twins? They're twin brothers?
0:04:27 > 0:04:29- Yeah.- Yeah.
0:04:29 > 0:04:31Not identical, obviously.
0:04:31 > 0:04:34No. No, no, because they are quite different.
0:04:34 > 0:04:35Yeah, totally different.
0:04:35 > 0:04:38- That's what I love about them so much.- Ah.
0:04:39 > 0:04:42So this is the first baby that I am going to deliver to a throuple.
0:04:42 > 0:04:45Ooh! THEY CHUCKLE
0:04:45 > 0:04:48- Martin and Ken don't have sex with each other.- That's good.
0:04:48 > 0:04:51- No, because that would be incest. - Yeah. Mm-hm.
0:04:51 > 0:04:53Hm!
0:04:59 > 0:05:01WHISPERS: He's only just gone to sleep.
0:05:06 > 0:05:08Thank you for coming.
0:05:08 > 0:05:09ZARA SOBS QUIETLY
0:05:15 > 0:05:17- How is he?- He's in theatre.
0:05:20 > 0:05:23- Where's the wound?- Lower abdomen.
0:05:25 > 0:05:28- Any organ damage?- I don't know.
0:05:31 > 0:05:33- How's Joe?- Not good.
0:05:33 > 0:05:36He saw me with Daniel.
0:05:36 > 0:05:38And then when I came back to get him,
0:05:38 > 0:05:41I was covered in Daniel's blood.
0:05:41 > 0:05:44- Oh, Zara!- And now he just won't...
0:05:46 > 0:05:48He just won't let me leave him, so...
0:05:52 > 0:05:55Look, do you want me to go and see if I can find out what's happening?
0:05:55 > 0:05:58- Yeah. Could you?- Yes, of course.
0:05:58 > 0:06:00- Be back in a minute.- Mm.
0:06:13 > 0:06:16Er...what are these?
0:06:18 > 0:06:19Scented candles.
0:06:19 > 0:06:23The lavender soothes and the sage relieves stress.
0:06:23 > 0:06:25They're a fire hazard!
0:06:25 > 0:06:27Mr Health and Safety to the rescue!
0:06:27 > 0:06:29Well, someone's got to be practical.
0:06:32 > 0:06:35Which is going to be great for the baby.
0:06:35 > 0:06:37Kids need routine, organisation,
0:06:37 > 0:06:40- all the stuff that you're good at. - And you're not.
0:06:41 > 0:06:44You just need to lighten up sometimes. Kids need fun, too.
0:06:44 > 0:06:46I'm trying to loosen up.
0:06:46 > 0:06:48Really?
0:06:48 > 0:06:52And you've not even noticed! This is exactly why I should leave!
0:06:52 > 0:06:54Just because I occasionally have a go at you?
0:06:54 > 0:06:58The last thing the baby needs is an anally-retentive control freak
0:06:58 > 0:07:00telling them what to do all the time.
0:07:02 > 0:07:04You can't leave Jess.
0:07:05 > 0:07:06I don't want to.
0:07:06 > 0:07:09I love her.
0:07:09 > 0:07:10And you.
0:07:10 > 0:07:12Then stay.
0:07:12 > 0:07:15I'll still be around, in the background.
0:07:17 > 0:07:18I'm in the way here.
0:07:18 > 0:07:21If anyone needs to back off, it's me.
0:07:21 > 0:07:23The baby needs her real father.
0:07:23 > 0:07:27Don't do this. You don't need to spare my feelings.
0:07:27 > 0:07:29Oh, I'm not.
0:07:29 > 0:07:32I've told you, the baby isn't mine.
0:07:32 > 0:07:34Oh!
0:07:36 > 0:07:39Thanks, Mick. I know that wasn't easy for you.
0:07:40 > 0:07:43Who wants to go next? Tony?
0:07:43 > 0:07:45No.
0:07:45 > 0:07:47How about one of the newcomers?
0:07:48 > 0:07:50- Rob?- Hm.
0:07:52 > 0:07:54Take your time.
0:07:55 > 0:08:01I thought I was ready to do this, but... But maybe not.
0:08:03 > 0:08:05Why don't I go first?
0:08:08 > 0:08:11- He seems quite settled. - OK. Sit down.
0:08:13 > 0:08:14So?
0:08:14 > 0:08:16He's still bleeding.
0:08:18 > 0:08:19Still?!
0:08:19 > 0:08:21The skin, the muscle is badly torn.
0:08:22 > 0:08:25- He's hypovolemic. - He's not going to make it!
0:08:25 > 0:08:27No! I didn't say that!
0:08:27 > 0:08:30- You didn't have to! - Zara, they got to him very quickly.
0:08:30 > 0:08:35I am sure that Daniel is going to survive this.
0:08:36 > 0:08:38Are you?
0:08:40 > 0:08:43- It's all actually happening, isn't it?- Uh-huh.
0:08:46 > 0:08:48God, I still don't know what I'm going to do!
0:08:48 > 0:08:49About what?
0:08:49 > 0:08:53I still haven't decided whether I'm going to tell them who the father is or not.
0:08:53 > 0:08:55You know?
0:08:55 > 0:08:57I love them to bits,
0:08:57 > 0:09:00but when it comes to talking about feelings, they're hopeless.
0:09:00 > 0:09:02Yeah, my partner is exactly the same.
0:09:02 > 0:09:04Except there's only one of him.
0:09:04 > 0:09:08I mean, I did think about not telling them, but...
0:09:08 > 0:09:10SHE WINCES Ah!
0:09:10 > 0:09:12- Contraction?- Ooh!- OK.
0:09:12 > 0:09:15Ah! Yes!
0:09:15 > 0:09:17Ah! I hate lying!
0:09:17 > 0:09:21Sometimes it helps to move around. OK?
0:09:21 > 0:09:24I can't keep a secret to save myself!
0:09:24 > 0:09:26Ooh!
0:09:28 > 0:09:30See, they're great with other people's kids.
0:09:30 > 0:09:33I just know they'd make excellent dads.
0:09:35 > 0:09:37- This is my fault.- Rubbish!
0:09:37 > 0:09:42If I hadn't suggested that stupid role-play...!
0:09:42 > 0:09:45Yeah, that's what we were doing in the club in the first place
0:09:45 > 0:09:46- and, as usual, I went too far.- Zara!
0:09:46 > 0:09:50And if I hadn't, it wouldn't have gone wrong, I wouldn't have stormed off
0:09:50 > 0:09:51and I wouldn't have gone out of that door!
0:09:51 > 0:09:54- Stop.- Which was a fire escape, so, what was I thinking?!
0:09:54 > 0:09:58- You're blowing everything out of proportion, Zara. - And why did I agree to testify?
0:09:58 > 0:10:01As if, what, I could solve everything?
0:10:01 > 0:10:03And now Daniel is dying!
0:10:03 > 0:10:06- You don't know that!- I'm a doctor, I know what his chances are.
0:10:06 > 0:10:09And as a doctor, you also know never to jump to conclusions.
0:10:09 > 0:10:13I should have taken Joe as far away as I could when I had the chance.
0:10:13 > 0:10:14This isn't helping.
0:10:14 > 0:10:17Somewhere where we could make a fresh start, where nobody knows us.
0:10:20 > 0:10:22What are you doing here?
0:10:22 > 0:10:24Emma, tell him to get lost.
0:10:30 > 0:10:32I do need to speak to her.
0:10:32 > 0:10:34This isn't the time, or the place.
0:10:34 > 0:10:36Only for a couple of minutes.
0:10:36 > 0:10:38No.
0:10:38 > 0:10:40One degree isn't going to make any difference.
0:10:40 > 0:10:43Actually, it's critical.
0:10:43 > 0:10:45Didn't you even read that booklet that Kirsten gave us?
0:10:47 > 0:10:49- HE SIGHS - I didn't think so.
0:10:49 > 0:10:52Look, I know you think Jess isn't safe with me.
0:10:52 > 0:10:54Can we concentrate on the temperature, please?
0:10:54 > 0:10:56You're right. I'm bad for her.
0:10:58 > 0:11:00- No.- I'm bad for the both of you.
0:11:00 > 0:11:03You just need to try a little harder.
0:11:03 > 0:11:06- What if I can't? - You can, and you will.
0:11:07 > 0:11:09- The baby needs a proper family. - Proper?
0:11:09 > 0:11:13- HE LAUGHS - Doesn't want to get beaten up because their parents aren't normal.
0:11:13 > 0:11:16You were beaten up because you were a nerd,
0:11:16 > 0:11:18not because we were adopted.
0:11:18 > 0:11:21- Still made me feel like a freak, though.- You are a freak.
0:11:22 > 0:11:25I don't know why you let those kids bait you. They were idiots.
0:11:25 > 0:11:27The world's full of idiots.
0:11:27 > 0:11:29No point asking for trouble.
0:11:29 > 0:11:32- Sorry, did...?- Or you could just ignore the idiots and do your own thing.
0:11:32 > 0:11:35If you feel that way, then why did you say you should be the one to leave?
0:11:35 > 0:11:37Because I can't give her what she needs.
0:11:37 > 0:11:40- Er...did Kirsten leave a birthing pack?- Yeah.
0:11:40 > 0:11:43It's in the cupboard under the sink. I'll show you.
0:11:46 > 0:11:48HE SIGHS
0:11:48 > 0:11:51And after all that, I didn't think I'd ever find a partner.
0:11:51 > 0:11:55- I know the feeling. - But now I'm happily married.
0:11:55 > 0:11:58See, Ali, there's hope for us yet. Hm!
0:11:58 > 0:12:01But seriously, though, that's the great thing about this group.
0:12:01 > 0:12:05I mean, sometimes you get so swamped by your problems, you can't see a way out.
0:12:05 > 0:12:08And then someone like Heston here opens up and you think,
0:12:08 > 0:12:10"Hey, that could be me!
0:12:10 > 0:12:12"Maybe there is a way out.
0:12:12 > 0:12:14"I don't have to give up."
0:12:14 > 0:12:16- It's... It's not all plain sailing. - No, it never is.
0:12:16 > 0:12:18- We do have issues.- Who doesn't?
0:12:19 > 0:12:21What kind of issues?
0:12:21 > 0:12:23Mainly about money.
0:12:24 > 0:12:26Do you want to talk about it?
0:12:26 > 0:12:31Um... Well, I bailed her teenage son out and I didn't tell her.
0:12:32 > 0:12:35- There are worse crimes.- She wouldn't like it and I hate lying to her.
0:12:35 > 0:12:39- If you didn't say anything, you didn't lie.- It makes me feel uncomfortable.- So tell her!
0:12:39 > 0:12:42- It's easier said than done.- Longer you leave it, the harder it gets.
0:12:42 > 0:12:45I see this a lot at work, people keeping secrets from each other.
0:12:45 > 0:12:47Rob? I'm going to stop you there.
0:12:47 > 0:12:49We aren't here to provide solutions.
0:12:49 > 0:12:51- But he is right. - We're here to listen.
0:12:51 > 0:12:54Sometimes there are no solutions.
0:12:55 > 0:12:57- Yeah. Yeah. Sorry.- That's OK.
0:12:57 > 0:12:59Go on.
0:13:01 > 0:13:02No, that's fine. I'm done.
0:13:04 > 0:13:05Right. Thank you.
0:13:07 > 0:13:09Anyone else? Rob?
0:13:15 > 0:13:17Are you excited about being a dad?
0:13:17 > 0:13:20I'm not the father. I'm the uncle.
0:13:21 > 0:13:23Oh. Does Jess know that?
0:13:23 > 0:13:26Well, she should.
0:13:26 > 0:13:29Mind you, she is hopeless with dates.
0:13:29 > 0:13:31Huh! Have you talked to her?
0:13:31 > 0:13:33I can't.
0:13:33 > 0:13:34Why not?
0:13:36 > 0:13:38Not an easy thing to talk about.
0:13:38 > 0:13:41What isn't?
0:13:41 > 0:13:43If I tell you something, will you promise not to repeat it?
0:13:43 > 0:13:45- Scout's honour.- Huh!
0:13:45 > 0:13:48In January, I started this new job.
0:13:48 > 0:13:51It was very stressful. Lots of responsibility.
0:13:53 > 0:13:57And for a few weeks, when Jess and I were together, I couldn't...
0:13:58 > 0:14:02- You know, I-I couldn't... - Yeah. Got it.
0:14:04 > 0:14:07I mean, it's absolutely fine now, it was just for a few weeks,
0:14:07 > 0:14:10but it just means the baby isn't mine.
0:14:11 > 0:14:13And does your brother know?
0:14:13 > 0:14:17It's not the sort of thing you can talk about with your brother.
0:14:17 > 0:14:19Besides, it doesn't matter now.
0:14:20 > 0:14:23- Why doesn't it matter?- I just want them to be happy, you know?
0:14:23 > 0:14:25Without you?
0:14:25 > 0:14:28If that's what it takes...yeah.
0:14:30 > 0:14:31Er...there'd been an RTC.
0:14:32 > 0:14:36That's a road traffic collision. And, er...
0:14:36 > 0:14:39a tractor that had a huge,
0:14:39 > 0:14:42metal, hydraulic plough on the back
0:14:42 > 0:14:44had parked on a blind bend.
0:14:44 > 0:14:47And this man and woman in a car crashed into the back of it
0:14:47 > 0:14:49and trapped her legs, so...
0:14:50 > 0:14:53Everyone was there, the usual, doing their job.
0:14:53 > 0:14:59The paramedics. The fire service had taken the roof of the car off and...
0:14:59 > 0:15:00..and had gotten her out.
0:15:00 > 0:15:02But he was still sat in the car.
0:15:04 > 0:15:06And, then, suddenly, this...
0:15:08 > 0:15:10..this huge blade...
0:15:15 > 0:15:17..it...fell.
0:15:17 > 0:15:20And, er... And crushed him to death.
0:15:24 > 0:15:27And I've seen that huge metal blade fall a thousand times.
0:15:27 > 0:15:29I've seen the blood a thousand times.
0:15:29 > 0:15:34Every time I close my eyes, wherever I am, whatever time of day, you know?
0:15:34 > 0:15:35And I have blackouts.
0:15:35 > 0:15:39And when...when I come...come round,
0:15:39 > 0:15:41sometimes I don't know where...where I am.
0:15:44 > 0:15:46And I've tried to block it out.
0:15:46 > 0:15:48Huh! I have tried to block it out.
0:15:48 > 0:15:49I've tried everything.
0:15:49 > 0:15:54I've tried drink, I've tried antidepressants, you name it.
0:15:55 > 0:15:58- And nothing works?- No, not really.
0:15:58 > 0:16:01Well, we've all been there. A lot of us, anyway.
0:16:03 > 0:16:05No. And...
0:16:06 > 0:16:08Huh! The...
0:16:09 > 0:16:14The thing I don't get is, after 30-odd years in this job, I...
0:16:16 > 0:16:18I just... I walked away.
0:16:20 > 0:16:24I was in charge. I was supposed to be in charge, and I just walked...away.
0:16:24 > 0:16:25I-I up and went.
0:16:25 > 0:16:27We talked about this.
0:16:27 > 0:16:31Yeah, I know, but... Mm! You know?
0:16:31 > 0:16:33I, er... I still can't make sense of that.
0:16:35 > 0:16:37Maybe there is no answer.
0:16:38 > 0:16:41Sometimes we just have to accept that.
0:16:41 > 0:16:42Let it go.
0:16:47 > 0:16:50- Ooh!- You're doing a great job, OK?
0:16:50 > 0:16:53Ah! The thing is, if I don't tell them...
0:16:53 > 0:16:56OK, look, breathe through it. Breathe through it. That's it.
0:16:56 > 0:16:59Then that's just as bad. Argh!
0:16:59 > 0:17:01Jess, I think you just need to concentrate now.
0:17:01 > 0:17:04I'm going to end up losing both of them. Argh!
0:17:04 > 0:17:06No, you won't. You won't.
0:17:06 > 0:17:08- Why? What makes you say that? - Er...I don't know. I just...
0:17:08 > 0:17:11I think they want to be involved, you know, somehow.
0:17:11 > 0:17:13What does that even mean?
0:17:13 > 0:17:16I'm going to end up being a single mum, I just know it! Oh!
0:17:18 > 0:17:22When...Jane, the social worker...
0:17:23 > 0:17:25..asked us if we wanted to foster...
0:17:27 > 0:17:30..a very sick baby...
0:17:33 > 0:17:35..I, er...
0:17:36 > 0:17:38Deep down, I knew it was a mistake.
0:17:38 > 0:17:40But I still said yes.
0:17:42 > 0:17:43Why is that?
0:17:44 > 0:17:47Because I was hoping that the baby would take my...
0:17:48 > 0:17:51..take my mind off things. You know?
0:17:51 > 0:17:55Make my mind concentrate.
0:17:56 > 0:17:59- And did it?- No.
0:17:59 > 0:18:02No, it was a terrible idea, but it was only after I spoke to Heston
0:18:02 > 0:18:05that I realised the main reason why I'd done that.
0:18:05 > 0:18:08Well, to be fair, it was a bit more complicated than that.
0:18:08 > 0:18:10No, but deep down, there was only really one reason,
0:18:10 > 0:18:14and that is that I wanted, I needed...to save someone.
0:18:17 > 0:18:20I... I wanted to save that baby
0:18:20 > 0:18:23because I didn't save the man in the car.
0:18:23 > 0:18:26But you couldn't have.
0:18:26 > 0:18:28So taking the baby was selfish.
0:18:30 > 0:18:32I did that for me.
0:18:34 > 0:18:36Hm.
0:18:37 > 0:18:39But I let the baby down.
0:18:39 > 0:18:40I let Karen down.
0:18:43 > 0:18:44I blamed everything on her.
0:18:46 > 0:18:49What kind of a man does that to his own wife?
0:18:52 > 0:18:53I'd still say they're a mistake.
0:18:55 > 0:18:57Jess thinks they're cool.
0:18:57 > 0:18:59Did she, or did you say they were cool?
0:19:00 > 0:19:02Er...how's it going in here?
0:19:02 > 0:19:04I asked her and she decided for herself.
0:19:04 > 0:19:06- Really?- Excuse me?
0:19:07 > 0:19:10- The pool?- Yes, it's ready.
0:19:10 > 0:19:11- Temperature is perfect.- Great.
0:19:11 > 0:19:15Hot and cold water at the ready to keep it steady.
0:19:15 > 0:19:17How's Jess?
0:19:17 > 0:19:18Well, I think she's nearly ready.
0:19:18 > 0:19:20What?! The baby's coming?!
0:19:20 > 0:19:22- Now?- Mm-hm. Yeah.
0:19:22 > 0:19:25Right! We need, er...water, for hydration!
0:19:25 > 0:19:27And, er...you ask her about the candles and I'll go and get Jess.
0:19:27 > 0:19:30- I'll go and get Jess! - RUHMA CHUCKLES
0:19:30 > 0:19:34He, er...he thinks the candles are wrong. Should I put them out?
0:19:34 > 0:19:38Well, they're not going to be in my way and if it does relax Jess, then OK with me.
0:19:38 > 0:19:40- She... She loves candles.- Great!
0:19:40 > 0:19:43Why am I so nervous? I never get nervous!
0:19:43 > 0:19:46Well, er...it happens because you're going to be a dad.
0:19:46 > 0:19:48Ah! No, no, I'm not the dad.
0:19:48 > 0:19:50I wish I was, but I'm not.
0:19:50 > 0:19:54I'd love to have a little person running around, jumping on me, calling me Dad!
0:19:54 > 0:19:58Still, I can be the favourite uncle. Almost as good.
0:19:58 > 0:20:00How do you know you're not the dad, Ken?
0:20:01 > 0:20:06Um...I fire blanks, apparently.
0:20:06 > 0:20:08- Right.- Always have.
0:20:08 > 0:20:10And have you been tested?
0:20:10 > 0:20:11I had some trouble a few years ago
0:20:11 > 0:20:15and I knew Jess wanted kids, so I went to see the doctor and, er...
0:20:15 > 0:20:19- But you haven't told her? - Never seemed to be the right time.
0:20:19 > 0:20:21- Mm.- Not much point now.
0:20:21 > 0:20:23Oh, I don't know about that.
0:20:23 > 0:20:26No, no, no, no, no, no, no. It would only complicate things.
0:20:26 > 0:20:30Best just get out of the way for a bit, let them get on with it.
0:20:30 > 0:20:31Mm.
0:20:31 > 0:20:34No change.
0:20:34 > 0:20:35He's still in theatre.
0:20:40 > 0:20:42It's been hours.
0:20:43 > 0:20:45The longer it takes, the less chance he has.
0:20:45 > 0:20:47Not necessarily.
0:20:48 > 0:20:51- It was the same with Reece. - No, come on, you can't compare...
0:20:51 > 0:20:55Induced coma. Multiple-organ failure. Stroke.
0:20:58 > 0:21:00- If Daniel survives this... - And he will.
0:21:00 > 0:21:03He could be permanently disabled.
0:21:04 > 0:21:05Or brain damaged.
0:21:07 > 0:21:10You don't know that any of that is going to happen.
0:21:15 > 0:21:16All right.
0:21:19 > 0:21:21Yes, it's possible.
0:21:24 > 0:21:26If he lives.
0:21:29 > 0:21:32- I said we should have gone to the hospital!- Stop going on!
0:21:32 > 0:21:34- You are doing brilliantly. - I'm not going on about it!
0:21:34 > 0:21:37- Oh, give me the thing!- OK. So just breathe through it, OK?
0:21:37 > 0:21:40- Oh, I can't do this! - What are you doing?!
0:21:40 > 0:21:42If you get the urge, you push, OK?
0:21:42 > 0:21:44I'm winding everyone up!
0:21:44 > 0:21:46Don't let him go!
0:21:46 > 0:21:48- You heard her!- I have to!
0:21:48 > 0:21:51If anyone leaves, it should be me!
0:21:51 > 0:21:53You promised you would stay with me!
0:21:53 > 0:21:55Can we just concentrate on Jess and the baby, please?
0:21:55 > 0:21:57Let me go!
0:21:57 > 0:21:58- FIZZING - Huh?
0:21:59 > 0:22:01- Sh!- Calm down.
0:22:01 > 0:22:03- What are you doing?!- It's leaking!
0:22:03 > 0:22:05- What?! Oh!- What is?
0:22:05 > 0:22:07- The pool!- Well, do something, then!
0:22:07 > 0:22:10- What? - OK, get a plaster or something.
0:22:10 > 0:22:12- Sellotape, there!- Hurry up!
0:22:15 > 0:22:17- Focus.- I told you we shouldn't have used the candles!
0:22:17 > 0:22:21- Just because you're the father, it doesn't mean you get to tell... - I'm not the father!
0:22:21 > 0:22:23- You have to be!- It won't stick.
0:22:23 > 0:22:25All right, well, get something better!
0:22:25 > 0:22:28- Tell him, Jess! - You have to be the father!
0:22:28 > 0:22:30I can't be! I'm sterile!
0:22:30 > 0:22:32Sterile?
0:22:32 > 0:22:34I had myself tested. I'm sorry.
0:22:34 > 0:22:36- I know.- What?
0:22:36 > 0:22:38I read the letter.
0:22:38 > 0:22:40I can see the head.
0:22:40 > 0:22:44Well, if you're not the father and I'm not the father, then...
0:22:44 > 0:22:46It's neither one of you!
0:22:46 > 0:22:48Oh, now, just fix this leak before I have this baby!
0:22:48 > 0:22:51Argh!
0:22:51 > 0:22:55I still don't understand how Karen's been able to forgive me. I wouldn't.
0:22:55 > 0:22:58- You would. - I mean, after all those terrible lies I told about her. Unforgivable.
0:22:58 > 0:23:02- You were ill.- Yeah, but so was she when she lost her memory.
0:23:02 > 0:23:06Yeah, I tried to be understanding and forgiving, but was I?
0:23:06 > 0:23:08Really? I mean, she slept with another man.
0:23:10 > 0:23:11I thought I'd dealt with it.
0:23:11 > 0:23:14I mean, you've no idea how that feels, when...
0:23:14 > 0:23:16- Well, I do, actually. - Oh, yeah. Yeah.
0:23:16 > 0:23:18But... But I couldn't get angry
0:23:18 > 0:23:21because she didn't know what she was doing.
0:23:21 > 0:23:23I mean, she didn't even know who I was.
0:23:23 > 0:23:25Did I... Did I forgive her?
0:23:25 > 0:23:27I thought I... I thought... I don't know.
0:23:27 > 0:23:30Um... I-I don't know what I think any more.
0:23:30 > 0:23:32Maybe we should save this for another time.
0:23:32 > 0:23:36- What?- Yeah. Maybe we could pick that up in another session.
0:23:37 > 0:23:39Have I been going on?
0:23:39 > 0:23:41Oh, no. You had to get it off your chest.
0:23:41 > 0:23:42- I'm so sorry.- No, that's fine.
0:23:42 > 0:23:44This really isn't like me.
0:23:48 > 0:23:50- What are you doing? - He's out of surgery.
0:23:50 > 0:23:53- And?- I don't know. She's talking to the surgeon.
0:23:54 > 0:23:56You need to leave her alone.
0:23:58 > 0:24:01They've got him in the ICU. I've posted two PCs outside.
0:24:01 > 0:24:02What are you doing here?
0:24:04 > 0:24:05I'm concerned.
0:24:05 > 0:24:07Are you?
0:24:07 > 0:24:09You need to go.
0:24:15 > 0:24:17What did the surgeon say?
0:24:17 > 0:24:18What can she say?
0:24:18 > 0:24:20He's going to make it, Zara.
0:24:20 > 0:24:22If he gets through the first 24 hours.
0:24:22 > 0:24:25Go. It's fine. I'll look after Joe. Go on, go.
0:24:28 > 0:24:30Sorry for blathering on like that.
0:24:30 > 0:24:33For a while, I didn't think you were going to say anything.
0:24:33 > 0:24:36I've had men come to these sessions, sit there looking desperate
0:24:36 > 0:24:38and not say a word for weeks on end.
0:24:38 > 0:24:40And then some people turn up to their first session
0:24:40 > 0:24:42- and they never stop talking. - You should have shut me up!
0:24:42 > 0:24:44I'm glad you got it off your chest.
0:24:44 > 0:24:48No point carrying all that pain around, never letting it go.
0:24:48 > 0:24:50- You did well.- How are you feeling?
0:24:52 > 0:24:54Better.
0:24:55 > 0:24:57I do actually feel better.
0:24:57 > 0:25:00Hm-hm!
0:25:00 > 0:25:03So...who is the father?
0:25:06 > 0:25:07It was a one-night stand.
0:25:09 > 0:25:11What?!
0:25:11 > 0:25:12I can't even remember his name.
0:25:12 > 0:25:14Then why?
0:25:14 > 0:25:16I wanted to get pregnant.
0:25:16 > 0:25:19So, you decided that...
0:25:19 > 0:25:22It was a real spur-of-the-moment thing.
0:25:22 > 0:25:24And I'm... I'm sorry. I was just...
0:25:25 > 0:25:28- I was desperate.- Why didn't you say?
0:25:29 > 0:25:32I... I don't know. I just...
0:25:32 > 0:25:34I thought you'd both make great dads
0:25:34 > 0:25:36and I wanted us to be a proper family.
0:25:36 > 0:25:40You, er... You should have told us.
0:25:40 > 0:25:43Yeah, well, maybe that is something you can all talk about together.
0:25:43 > 0:25:45- KEN CHUCKLES - Together?
0:25:47 > 0:25:51- How...? How can we?- Biology doesn't dictate who the parents are.
0:25:51 > 0:25:55- No, but...- It's who brings you up, not whose genes you've got.
0:25:55 > 0:25:56That's true.
0:25:56 > 0:26:01Look, I would have thought that you two would have understood this more than anyone.
0:26:01 > 0:26:03What?
0:26:03 > 0:26:05I heard when you said that you were adopted.
0:26:07 > 0:26:10We could just be one big family together.
0:26:12 > 0:26:14Well, we need to sort this out and...
0:26:15 > 0:26:17Ken?
0:26:17 > 0:26:18Or we could just chill for a bit.
0:26:18 > 0:26:20That's your answer for everything, isn't it?
0:26:20 > 0:26:24Look... Right, what she did was wrong.
0:26:24 > 0:26:27- Yes.- And I'm really sorry.
0:26:27 > 0:26:29But you and I aren't exactly blameless.
0:26:29 > 0:26:31Guys?
0:26:32 > 0:26:35There's a little baby here.
0:26:35 > 0:26:36Yeah, and she needs her dads.
0:26:38 > 0:26:39So do I.
0:26:39 > 0:26:41Please?
0:26:43 > 0:26:44We could give it a go.
0:26:52 > 0:26:54MACHINES BEEP
0:27:09 > 0:27:11WHISPERS: Don't you die.
0:27:12 > 0:27:17Don't you dare die!
0:27:22 > 0:27:24These are the kind of people
0:27:24 > 0:27:26who slow down to look at a road accident!
0:27:26 > 0:27:28You can't lock up the whole gang. You can lock up some of them
0:27:28 > 0:27:32and others will just come to take their place and it will never end!
0:27:32 > 0:27:35Daniel and I have become quite close recently.
0:27:35 > 0:27:37And he was such a hero.
0:27:37 > 0:27:38No, he wasn't!
0:27:38 > 0:27:41You see, you've never met him! You've got no right to be here!
0:27:41 > 0:27:44The only reason you are here is because you are a vulture!