0:00:27 > 0:00:31MUSIC: L'amour Est Un Oiseau Rebelle by Maria Callas
0:00:59 > 0:01:00Are you OK?
0:01:00 > 0:01:02Not really.
0:01:03 > 0:01:06What is it? It's about last night.
0:01:07 > 0:01:09What about it?
0:01:09 > 0:01:13My performance, or rather, the total lack of it.
0:01:13 > 0:01:14These things happen.
0:01:15 > 0:01:18What I mean is, sometimes they don't happen.
0:01:18 > 0:01:22Well, this hasn't happened for over a month.
0:01:22 > 0:01:24Well, there's no point in keeping a diary.
0:01:24 > 0:01:26I should probably go and see the doctor.
0:01:26 > 0:01:29It's probably nothing. Just overwork.
0:01:29 > 0:01:31Stress.
0:01:29 > 0:01:31PHONE RINGS
0:01:34 > 0:01:37Hi, Gavin, how's it going?
0:01:37 > 0:01:39Oh, that's marvellous.
0:01:39 > 0:01:41Yeah, I've got the sponsorship sorted.
0:01:41 > 0:01:43Of course I can.
0:01:43 > 0:01:45Raring to go.
0:01:45 > 0:01:47Yeah, well, we'll touch base then.
0:01:47 > 0:01:48Yeah, that's great.
0:01:49 > 0:01:51Bye.
0:01:51 > 0:01:55That's Gavin about this sponsored zip wire.
0:01:55 > 0:01:57I'm already feeling a bit nauseous.
0:01:57 > 0:01:58Iain?Yes?
0:01:58 > 0:02:01Why is there blood on your shirt?
0:02:01 > 0:02:03Oh, I must have a touch of eczema.
0:02:03 > 0:02:05Can I have a look?I'm running a bit late, Louise.Iain!
0:02:05 > 0:02:08Don't fob me off. I...
0:02:05 > 0:02:08PHONE RINGS
0:02:12 > 0:02:14Hi, Jeff.
0:02:14 > 0:02:17Yes, yes, I've got the report, I'll bring it with me.
0:02:17 > 0:02:19Iain, don't forget we're doing lunch.
0:02:21 > 0:02:22So, what sort of sandwiches would you like?
0:02:22 > 0:02:24Well, it is... It is not important.
0:02:24 > 0:02:27Cos they do say that oily fish is good for the brain.
0:02:27 > 0:02:30Will you be needing much brainpower in your partners' meeting?
0:02:30 > 0:02:33Just get enough sandwiches for four people.
0:02:33 > 0:02:35Or perhaps that should be three.
0:02:35 > 0:02:37I assume that Dr Granger will not be attending.
0:02:37 > 0:02:38Well, you assume right.
0:02:38 > 0:02:41He's recuperating, and right now he's under a duvet.
0:02:41 > 0:02:43Oh, do send him my love.
0:02:44 > 0:02:46I just can't believe something like that could happen
0:02:46 > 0:02:49in Letherbridge. It just goes to show you nowhere's safe.
0:02:49 > 0:02:52How's Ruhma? Ah, she's fine. She just has a cold.
0:02:52 > 0:02:55She did not want to pass it on to the mothers and babies.
0:02:55 > 0:02:57But Dr Vere is happy to do her checks.
0:02:57 > 0:03:00Happy? Ha! Can't believe his luck!
0:03:00 > 0:03:02He says he's looking forward to it,
0:03:02 > 0:03:04cos he doesn't get to do many maternity cases.
0:03:04 > 0:03:05So, he's seeing it as an opportunity.
0:03:05 > 0:03:07Yes, well, I'm glad to hear it.
0:03:07 > 0:03:08PHONE RINGS
0:03:08 > 0:03:11Daniel! Hello! Hi. Are you going to answer that?
0:03:11 > 0:03:12Daniel, what are you doing here?
0:03:12 > 0:03:14I thought were going to spend the day in bed?
0:03:14 > 0:03:17I changed my mind. Somebody's got to do some work around here.
0:03:17 > 0:03:19Well, it is very good to see you,
0:03:19 > 0:03:22but there is no need for you to be back so soon.
0:03:22 > 0:03:24I hope you are not pushing yourself.
0:03:24 > 0:03:27What's the alternative? Death?
0:03:27 > 0:03:28I've tried that already.
0:03:31 > 0:03:34HE GROANS AND GRUNTS
0:03:39 > 0:03:40HE BREATHES HEAVILY
0:03:42 > 0:03:44That's all right. I'm more than capable.
0:03:51 > 0:03:53Right. That's me.
0:03:55 > 0:03:56Thank you.
0:03:57 > 0:03:58Keep the change.Ta.
0:04:07 > 0:04:09PHONE VIBRATES
0:04:11 > 0:04:14HE GROANS AND INHALES SHARPLY
0:04:14 > 0:04:15KNOCK ON DOOR
0:04:15 > 0:04:17Yeah?
0:04:17 > 0:04:19I brought you some post. Thank you.
0:04:21 > 0:04:22I won't ask how you are,
0:04:22 > 0:04:24cos I'm sure you feel like absolute death warmed up,
0:04:24 > 0:04:27but I just wanted to let you know that I am here for you.
0:04:28 > 0:04:32And? And if you ever wanted to talk...
0:04:35 > 0:04:36If if I wanted to talk?
0:04:36 > 0:04:40OK, let's presume we have that talk, Valerie. How would it help?
0:04:40 > 0:04:44Would you suddenly be able to hunt down the man who stabbed me?
0:04:44 > 0:04:47Or would you be able to use your magic fingers to heal
0:04:47 > 0:04:48the stab wound itself?
0:04:49 > 0:04:53Or, let me guess, would it just be a fantastic bit of gossip for you?
0:04:53 > 0:04:55I wouldn't dream of gossiping.
0:04:56 > 0:04:58Is there anything I can do?
0:04:58 > 0:04:59Yeah, you can. Leave.
0:05:00 > 0:05:03Fine. Be like that.
0:05:06 > 0:05:10So, it's been three months since the diagnosis.
0:05:10 > 0:05:11How are things?
0:05:11 > 0:05:14I'm practically Evil Knievil.
0:05:14 > 0:05:17I'm taking part in a sponsored zip wire ride at the weekend.
0:05:17 > 0:05:21I've initiated a young entrepreneurs scheme at work.
0:05:21 > 0:05:23And because I've got a few hours left in the week,
0:05:23 > 0:05:26I've joined a wheelchair volleyball team.
0:05:26 > 0:05:28I never knew you were so sporty.
0:05:28 > 0:05:30I never used to be, but I'm really enjoying it now.
0:05:31 > 0:05:34I admire your positive attitude.
0:05:34 > 0:05:35So, what can I do for you?
0:05:35 > 0:05:38I was wondering if you could give me a pill?
0:05:39 > 0:05:41Are we talking painkillers?
0:05:41 > 0:05:43No.
0:05:43 > 0:05:44A little blue pill.
0:05:48 > 0:05:49That's great.
0:05:49 > 0:05:52If you'd like to take a seat, the doctor will be with you shortly.
0:05:52 > 0:05:54Oh, doctor? I thought I was going to see Ruhma?
0:05:54 > 0:05:56Oh, she's off sick today.
0:05:56 > 0:05:59Nothing serious, but she didn't want to spread any nasty bugs.
0:05:59 > 0:06:02But Dr Vere is lovely. He'll do all the checks.
0:06:02 > 0:06:04OK, thank you.
0:06:11 > 0:06:13Hiya.
0:06:13 > 0:06:14All right?
0:06:15 > 0:06:17When are you due?
0:06:17 > 0:06:19Three weeks.
0:06:19 > 0:06:21That's nice. No, it isn't.
0:06:22 > 0:06:24Really?
0:06:24 > 0:06:26It's going to hurt like hell when you have it.
0:06:26 > 0:06:29And then it'll cry all night for six months,
0:06:29 > 0:06:30and you're going to smell.
0:06:30 > 0:06:32Your breath's going to smell like you've been
0:06:32 > 0:06:35brushing your teeth with a bog brush.
0:06:35 > 0:06:38Stop scratching, Daenerys!
0:06:38 > 0:06:40Lily?Yes?
0:06:40 > 0:06:41Hi. Do you want to come through?
0:06:41 > 0:06:43Yes, please.
0:06:46 > 0:06:48And how long has this been troubling you?
0:06:48 > 0:06:49A few weeks.
0:06:49 > 0:06:51It's like a part of me has suddenly turned to stone.
0:06:51 > 0:06:54Well, not stone obviously, because that's quite hard...
0:06:54 > 0:06:56Have you discussed it with your wife at all?
0:06:56 > 0:06:59I've tried to. Though it can be quite difficult to bring up.
0:06:59 > 0:07:02You do seem quite stressed?
0:07:02 > 0:07:03Wouldn't you be?
0:07:03 > 0:07:06I'll never be a Premier League footballer,
0:07:06 > 0:07:09but I should at least be able to please Louise.
0:07:09 > 0:07:11Well, before I prescribe anything,
0:07:11 > 0:07:13I'll have to give you a full health check.Really?
0:07:13 > 0:07:18Yes, because erectile dysfunction can be symptomatic
0:07:18 > 0:07:19of another problem.
0:07:19 > 0:07:21Marvellous.
0:07:21 > 0:07:25Right. I just need to ask you a few questions.
0:07:25 > 0:07:28How many units of alcohol do you drink a week?
0:07:28 > 0:07:30Oh, only a soupcon.
0:07:30 > 0:07:34A glass of red with a Sunday roast, maybe a small sherry at Christmas.
0:07:34 > 0:07:36OK, let's say four?
0:07:36 > 0:07:40Where a medium glass of wine is two units...
0:07:40 > 0:07:42Not even that. More like one.
0:07:42 > 0:07:46You don't smoke, do you? Never have, never will.
0:07:46 > 0:07:48Mm-hm. And your general fitness is pretty good?
0:07:48 > 0:07:50From the waist up, I'm practically Usain Bolt!
0:07:51 > 0:07:53I don't know what's happening to me.
0:07:55 > 0:07:56Do you mind slipping your jacket off?
0:08:01 > 0:08:04Right, you are two kilos heavier than last time.
0:08:04 > 0:08:06Oh. Is that good?
0:08:06 > 0:08:08Well, it means you're heading in the right direction,
0:08:08 > 0:08:10but you are going to get a lot bigger before the birth.Oh.
0:08:10 > 0:08:12Not long now.
0:08:12 > 0:08:15I keep a calendar right by my bed, and I tick it off every morning.
0:08:15 > 0:08:19You do know that only 5% of babies actually arrive on their due date?
0:08:19 > 0:08:20Yeah, I know.
0:08:20 > 0:08:23But, if it's anything like me, it's going to be late.
0:08:23 > 0:08:26Right. Do you want to hop on the bed and I'll examine your bump?
0:08:26 > 0:08:28Oh, do you want me to get someone to chaperone?
0:08:28 > 0:08:29Oh, nah, it's all right. You sure?
0:08:31 > 0:08:32OK. Jump up.
0:08:33 > 0:08:35I just want to measure little junior here.
0:08:36 > 0:08:40So, if you could hold that there for me.
0:08:40 > 0:08:42Thank you.
0:08:42 > 0:08:43Where are we? There.
0:08:44 > 0:08:46And 32 cm.
0:08:47 > 0:08:49What does that mean?
0:08:49 > 0:08:52It means your baby might be a little bit on the small side.
0:08:52 > 0:08:55Oh. It's good enough for me.
0:08:55 > 0:08:57What did they say at St Phil's?
0:08:57 > 0:09:00Erm, they had a look, and they said everything was OK.
0:09:01 > 0:09:02I mean, I was a small baby.
0:09:03 > 0:09:07OK, one thing that really can affect a baby's growth is smoking.
0:09:07 > 0:09:10Oh, I've given up! Honest. I promised.
0:09:12 > 0:09:14Yeah, I believed you.
0:09:14 > 0:09:18Right then, how would you like to hear your baby's heartbeat?
0:09:18 > 0:09:19Yeah!
0:09:22 > 0:09:24130 over 80.Is that bad?
0:09:25 > 0:09:28It's a bit high, but you are quite stressed.
0:09:28 > 0:09:31Of course I'm stressed! I don't know what's happening to me.
0:09:31 > 0:09:33A bit of my anatomy, which has always been keen to
0:09:33 > 0:09:36join in the fun, just suddenly seems to have given up the ghost.
0:09:36 > 0:09:39Would you like me to refer you to a sexual health specialist?
0:09:39 > 0:09:42No, I want you to give me a pill.
0:09:42 > 0:09:45Well, we don't give out pills willy-nilly...
0:09:45 > 0:09:47so to speak.
0:09:47 > 0:09:49Well, you never used to have qualms about medication.
0:09:49 > 0:09:52I remember when you used to give out pills like a pantomime dame
0:09:52 > 0:09:53throwing sweets.
0:09:53 > 0:09:55What are the marks on your arm?
0:09:55 > 0:09:59Volleyball injury. It can get quite vicious.
0:09:59 > 0:10:01Well, they seem quite nasty. Can I have a look?
0:10:01 > 0:10:05No, thank you. It's not what I came in for.
0:10:05 > 0:10:07PHONE RINGS HE SIGHS
0:10:07 > 0:10:09Sorry, Heston. I have to go.
0:10:09 > 0:10:12But we haven't finished yet? No, I really have to go.
0:10:15 > 0:10:17Iain, it's your wife here, remember me?
0:10:18 > 0:10:22We were supposed to go for lunch in town, and house-hunting?
0:10:22 > 0:10:25Well, call me as soon as you get this...
0:10:25 > 0:10:26if you can be bothered.
0:10:32 > 0:10:33Right.
0:10:33 > 0:10:36That is a very healthy little heartbeat.
0:10:38 > 0:10:39Oh, my days!
0:10:40 > 0:10:42I can't get used to it.
0:10:45 > 0:10:46Not long now, little one.
0:10:49 > 0:10:53How did you get those bruises, Lily?
0:10:53 > 0:10:54It's nothing.
0:10:54 > 0:10:57Doesn't look like nothing.
0:10:57 > 0:10:59You're not in any trouble, are you?
0:10:59 > 0:11:00Not any more.
0:11:07 > 0:11:09Have you all had the chance to look through the agenda?
0:11:09 > 0:11:12Yeah, I have, but there's something I'd like to add to it.
0:11:12 > 0:11:13Oh, yes?
0:11:13 > 0:11:15This proposal from the CCG.
0:11:15 > 0:11:18We've been waffling on about it for months.
0:11:18 > 0:11:19I think it's time we bite the bullet.
0:11:19 > 0:11:21Which CCG proposal?
0:11:21 > 0:11:24Extending the working hours.
0:11:24 > 0:11:26Come on, we all knew this was going to happen.
0:11:26 > 0:11:30This is going to be very unpopular with the staff.
0:11:30 > 0:11:32Well, they're just going to have to suck it up, aren't they?
0:11:32 > 0:11:35We are here to serve the public, not run some sort of social club.
0:11:35 > 0:11:37But what about those members of staff who have children,
0:11:37 > 0:11:40who are now going to have to pay a fortune in childcare?
0:11:40 > 0:11:41You mean us? I think we'll cope.
0:11:41 > 0:11:43Actually, I meant Karen and her foster children?
0:11:43 > 0:11:45Is this really the right time?
0:11:45 > 0:11:47Every other practice is going to do it.
0:11:47 > 0:11:50So, if we don't, the CCG will penalise us.
0:11:50 > 0:11:52So yes, we need to do it now, while we still exist.
0:11:54 > 0:11:58Yes, I was expecting a taxi, the Mill Health Centre.
0:11:58 > 0:12:00Well, I'm sure I ordered it.
0:12:01 > 0:12:02Hello?
0:12:05 > 0:12:08It turns out it was nothing. Just her allergies.
0:12:08 > 0:12:12Oi, Daenerys! The doctor said don't scratch it, so don't!
0:12:16 > 0:12:18What have you done!? I'm not buying you any more!
0:12:18 > 0:12:22It's all right. I'm sure I'm sure we can rescue them.
0:12:23 > 0:12:25What's your name?
0:12:26 > 0:12:27Er, I've got to go.
0:12:27 > 0:12:29There's this really weird bloke talking to me.
0:12:29 > 0:12:32Can you see a broom, or a long-handled implement?
0:12:32 > 0:12:34Just leave it. We don't need it.
0:12:34 > 0:12:38It's fine. Look, just because I'm in a wheelchair
0:12:38 > 0:12:40doesn't mean I'm incapable.
0:12:40 > 0:12:41Daenerys, we're going.
0:12:45 > 0:12:48What are you doing?! You flipping maniac!
0:12:48 > 0:12:50HE GRUNTS
0:12:54 > 0:12:55Come on!
0:12:56 > 0:12:58HE GRUNTS AND GROANS
0:13:04 > 0:13:06Argh!
0:13:06 > 0:13:08Argh!
0:13:08 > 0:13:10I just think it's wrong that the rest of the world is working
0:13:10 > 0:13:14longer and longer hours, and we cling to the standard day.
0:13:14 > 0:13:15Why should we be stuck in the '70s?
0:13:15 > 0:13:19Dr Granger, this will take a great deal of reorganisation.
0:13:19 > 0:13:22Which we've talked about and planned for.
0:13:22 > 0:13:24I believe that's what we pay you for.
0:13:26 > 0:13:28Perhaps we should take a vote?
0:13:28 > 0:13:31Why? No! We just have to get on and do it.
0:13:31 > 0:13:34If we don't, we'll be in breach of contract.
0:13:34 > 0:13:35So, decision made.
0:13:37 > 0:13:40No. No, no, that's fine. OK.
0:13:40 > 0:13:42Bye. Valerie, any sign of my 1:10?
0:13:42 > 0:13:43Ah, she just phoned to cancel.
0:13:43 > 0:13:46Apparently her flare-up's gone down again.
0:13:46 > 0:13:49In that case, there's a cup of tea with my name on it.
0:13:49 > 0:13:50Dr Carter!
0:13:51 > 0:13:53Mrs Ernest. Have you seen my husband?
0:13:54 > 0:13:59I can't really discuss that, on the grounds of patient confidentiality.
0:13:59 > 0:14:02Yes, in other words, yes. How did he seem to you?
0:14:02 > 0:14:04Ah, well, as I said, I can't say.
0:14:04 > 0:14:08He's been acting really odd recently. Disorganised, scatty.
0:14:08 > 0:14:11We were meant to meet up for lunch in town, but he didn't show up,
0:14:11 > 0:14:13and his secretary seemed to think that he'd come here.
0:14:13 > 0:14:16It does sound like you need a conversation with him.
0:14:16 > 0:14:18So, where is he?!
0:14:19 > 0:14:20Have you seen him?
0:14:20 > 0:14:23I am also sworn to secrecy.
0:14:23 > 0:14:26My lips are sealed by my medical professionalism.
0:14:26 > 0:14:27Oh, for goodness' sake!
0:14:27 > 0:14:30If you won't help me, then what's the point of you?
0:14:33 > 0:14:36Does anyone know that bloke in the wheelchair?
0:14:36 > 0:14:37He's had an accident!
0:14:39 > 0:14:41Now, the last item on the agenda.
0:14:43 > 0:14:44Security.
0:14:45 > 0:14:47What about it?
0:14:47 > 0:14:50Well, with the trial coming up, we need to ensure the safety
0:14:50 > 0:14:53of our staff and, of course, the patients.
0:14:53 > 0:14:54Good idea.
0:14:54 > 0:14:58Cos, of course, some partners aren't that bothered about security.
0:14:58 > 0:15:01They'd rather go on a pointless quest for justice,
0:15:01 > 0:15:04never mind what happens to their so-called loved ones.
0:15:05 > 0:15:08Well, I have spoken to Sergeant Hollins, and there will be
0:15:08 > 0:15:13regular police checks, but this seems like a modest measure to me.
0:15:13 > 0:15:15There's other things we could do.
0:15:15 > 0:15:17We could put CCTV inside the building.
0:15:18 > 0:15:21I think you're forgetting that these people have no sense of fear.
0:15:21 > 0:15:24One of them stabbed me, right outside my house.
0:15:24 > 0:15:28So, put in all the CCTV you like, it's not going to stop them.
0:15:28 > 0:15:31In fact, all it will do is mean we can watch the footage afterwards.
0:15:34 > 0:15:37Iain? Iain!
0:15:37 > 0:15:42Come on! Come to me! Yes! I can do this.
0:15:42 > 0:15:43I can do it!
0:15:43 > 0:15:45Iain! What are you doing?
0:15:46 > 0:15:48I was just trying to help.
0:15:54 > 0:15:55I knew we had one here somewhere.
0:16:00 > 0:16:02A rep left it as a sample, and I'm sure Ruhma won't mind
0:16:02 > 0:16:04if I give it to you. What is it?
0:16:04 > 0:16:05There's all sorts in here.
0:16:05 > 0:16:08You've got some coconut moisturiser, you've got some nappies,
0:16:08 > 0:16:12breast pads, baby wipes and there's even a mattress for the cot, look.
0:16:15 > 0:16:17Lily?I haven't got a cot.
0:16:19 > 0:16:21Don't worry. Because, you see this box, it can be used as a cot.
0:16:21 > 0:16:23That's what it was designed for, look.
0:16:23 > 0:16:26It's lovely, but I've got nowhere to put it.
0:16:26 > 0:16:27I've got nowhere to live.
0:16:30 > 0:16:31Are you in pain?
0:16:31 > 0:16:35No, I'm fine. I really should get back in my chair, though.
0:16:35 > 0:16:37Well, I'd like one of our nurses to have a look at you.
0:16:37 > 0:16:39I'm still concerned about those marks on your arm.
0:16:39 > 0:16:41You worry too much.
0:16:41 > 0:16:44But they may as well, while I'm here.
0:16:44 > 0:16:48With your permission, I'd like to have a chat with your wife.
0:16:48 > 0:16:50She's very concerned about you.
0:16:50 > 0:16:51Yes.
0:16:52 > 0:16:53Why not?
0:16:55 > 0:16:56OK.
0:17:02 > 0:17:03Oh, Dr Clay.
0:17:05 > 0:17:08I had to get away from Daniel and Zara and the constant sniping.
0:17:08 > 0:17:11Ah, yes. Well, they have been under a great deal of stress
0:17:11 > 0:17:15since the stabbing, and we seem to be getting caught in the crossfire.
0:17:15 > 0:17:16As usual.
0:17:17 > 0:17:19And there is going to be more arguing
0:17:19 > 0:17:21when I explain about the extended hours.
0:17:21 > 0:17:24I know that Dr Granger has a point,
0:17:24 > 0:17:27but it is not going to go down very well.
0:17:27 > 0:17:30Hmm. We'll be there to support you if anyone gets difficult.
0:17:30 > 0:17:32Well, I would find that more reassuring
0:17:32 > 0:17:35if you were not going away for a two week holiday.
0:17:35 > 0:17:37Well, why don't we call a meeting, talk about things?
0:17:37 > 0:17:39Costings, whether we need more members of staff.
0:17:39 > 0:17:42That sort of thing. Get the ball rolling.
0:17:42 > 0:17:43That would be a very good idea.
0:17:43 > 0:17:45Tomorrow morning, in my office?
0:17:45 > 0:17:47Yeah, why not?
0:17:47 > 0:17:49And we will have to keep this secret.
0:17:49 > 0:17:50I do not want any rumours.
0:17:50 > 0:17:53I do not want somebody getting hold of the wrong end of the stick,
0:17:53 > 0:17:55and doing something inappropriate with it.
0:18:02 > 0:18:03So, where are you staying now?
0:18:03 > 0:18:05My mate Ellie's house.
0:18:05 > 0:18:08But her mum's not happy, she wants me out.
0:18:09 > 0:18:10So where are you going to go?
0:18:10 > 0:18:12I don't know.
0:18:12 > 0:18:14I thought you still stayed at home, Lily.
0:18:14 > 0:18:17Yeah, well, I told my dad I was pregnant, and he did this to me.
0:18:17 > 0:18:19So, I'm not going back there.
0:18:20 > 0:18:22What about your boyfriend?
0:18:22 > 0:18:24Is he around? Erm, supportive? He was.
0:18:26 > 0:18:27He is.
0:18:27 > 0:18:30I've just not seen him all week and he won't answer his phone.
0:18:30 > 0:18:31So...
0:18:32 > 0:18:34This ain't good, Lil.
0:18:34 > 0:18:37I mean, you're not even 16, you need a permanent address,
0:18:37 > 0:18:40somewhere stable. Do you think I don't know that?
0:18:40 > 0:18:41It's what I think about this whole time.
0:18:44 > 0:18:45Sorry.
0:18:46 > 0:18:50Do social services know?No. I don't want them to know anything.
0:18:50 > 0:18:52I told them that I'm stopping with my dad.
0:18:52 > 0:18:55They'll probably put me in some kind of home or something.
0:18:55 > 0:18:57Honestly, Lily, they're not going to do that.
0:18:57 > 0:18:59Look, this can't be any good for you or the baby's health.
0:18:59 > 0:19:00Yeah, well...
0:19:01 > 0:19:03I don't know what to do.
0:19:04 > 0:19:07I do know someone who might be able to help you.
0:19:09 > 0:19:11Post-polio syndrome. How is he coping?
0:19:11 > 0:19:13Well, in terms of mobility, he's a wizard.
0:19:13 > 0:19:16He's always out and about. Usually on the bus.
0:19:16 > 0:19:17He doesn't drive?
0:19:17 > 0:19:19Oh, no, it's just easier on the bus,
0:19:19 > 0:19:21because he doesn't have to get out of the wheelchair.
0:19:21 > 0:19:24And he's just on the go from morning till night.
0:19:24 > 0:19:25Mm-hm. And emotionally?
0:19:25 > 0:19:28Well, he just seems to be getting more and more disorganised.
0:19:28 > 0:19:31We were meant to go to an estate agents' at lunchtime.
0:19:31 > 0:19:33Looking for a nice,
0:19:33 > 0:19:35wheelchair-friendly bungalow to move into.
0:19:35 > 0:19:38But no, he didn't show up, no phone call, he just forgot.
0:19:38 > 0:19:41Well, maybe, he doesn't want to move into a bungalow
0:19:41 > 0:19:43because it feels like an admission of defeat.
0:19:43 > 0:19:45KNOCK ON DOOR
0:19:43 > 0:19:45Hello!
0:19:48 > 0:19:50Should my ears be burning?
0:19:50 > 0:19:54Am I another chapter in Dr Carter's Casebook?
0:19:54 > 0:19:56Well, we're both very concerned about you.
0:19:56 > 0:20:00Well, don't be! Life goes on. We trundle along.
0:20:00 > 0:20:04Sometimes we forget things, bump into things, it's no big deal.
0:20:04 > 0:20:05Fine! Fine.
0:20:07 > 0:20:09I mean, I've just done what I can.
0:20:09 > 0:20:11But when all you are going to do is put up a brick wall, then,
0:20:11 > 0:20:13what's the point of me?
0:20:13 > 0:20:14Oh, no, Louise!
0:20:14 > 0:20:15BOTTLES CLANK
0:20:16 > 0:20:17What's this?
0:20:20 > 0:20:23Maybe I lied about one or two units of alcohol.
0:20:25 > 0:20:26It's not just one or two units.
0:20:28 > 0:20:30It's one or two bottles. Mostly vodka...
0:20:31 > 0:20:33..as that doesn't smell as much. Oh, Iain!
0:20:34 > 0:20:36And yesterday, the marks.
0:20:38 > 0:20:40I'd gone to the off-licence to buy some.
0:20:41 > 0:20:45Attached half a dozen bottles to the handles of my wheelchair.
0:20:45 > 0:20:47Bus came.
0:20:47 > 0:20:49I tried to wheel myself up the ramp.
0:20:52 > 0:20:53Gravity had other ideas.
0:20:59 > 0:21:01Yes. Thank you, that would be wonderful.
0:21:02 > 0:21:04Yeah, I'll see what she says.
0:21:04 > 0:21:06OK. Thank you, Nathan. Bye.
0:21:07 > 0:21:09OK, that was my colleague at social services.
0:21:09 > 0:21:11Now, he says, if you're willing, he's going
0:21:11 > 0:21:13to try and find you a placement with a foster family.
0:21:13 > 0:21:16OK, so you'd have your own room, you'd be safe, comfortable,
0:21:16 > 0:21:18and you could stay there for as long as it takes
0:21:18 > 0:21:20until you get back on your feet. What family?
0:21:20 > 0:21:22I don't know, but they'll have done this before.
0:21:22 > 0:21:23Look, you're a priority, Lily.
0:21:23 > 0:21:26They're not going to send you with someone horrible, are they?
0:21:26 > 0:21:29They're not going to want to take me once they find out I'm pregnant. Of course they will!
0:21:29 > 0:21:31You and your baby come as a package now.
0:21:32 > 0:21:34Yeah, well...
0:21:34 > 0:21:35How do I know I can trust them?
0:21:37 > 0:21:40Well, there's one positive to come out of this.Yes?
0:21:41 > 0:21:45Drinking excessively explains the problems you've been having.
0:21:45 > 0:21:49I just wanted a magic pill to make it all work again.
0:21:49 > 0:21:51We all want a magic pill.
0:21:52 > 0:21:54Why are you drinking so much?
0:21:54 > 0:21:58I don't know. It just seems to calm me down.
0:21:58 > 0:22:00But why do you take on so much?
0:22:00 > 0:22:03Two years ago, you were happily pottering around,
0:22:03 > 0:22:06enjoying yourself, talking about early retirement.
0:22:07 > 0:22:11Then the illness happens, suddenly you turn into action man.
0:22:11 > 0:22:13I've always been a busy person.
0:22:13 > 0:22:15Now you're practically manic!
0:22:15 > 0:22:17You used to be quiet and bookish.
0:22:17 > 0:22:22Now it's sponsored zip wires or wheelchair volleyball.
0:22:22 > 0:22:23You have to keep active.
0:22:23 > 0:22:27When I had the use of my legs, I never really bothered with them.
0:22:27 > 0:22:30Since they've packed up...
0:22:30 > 0:22:32I've been determined to push myself. How far?
0:22:33 > 0:22:36Into a ditch? Under a number nine bus?
0:22:36 > 0:22:38Into an early grave?
0:22:38 > 0:22:41And, as we've just seen, you're still insisting on using your legs,
0:22:41 > 0:22:43despite how weak they've become.
0:22:43 > 0:22:47You're clearly not coping, you find it hard to reach out,
0:22:47 > 0:22:50which explains the situation you're in. You feel...
0:22:50 > 0:22:52impotent.
0:22:52 > 0:22:53You're right.
0:22:54 > 0:22:56I never stop.
0:22:56 > 0:22:58Never take a day off.
0:23:00 > 0:23:02And?
0:23:02 > 0:23:04And maybe it is time to slow down.
0:23:06 > 0:23:10Start spending time appreciating what I've got.
0:23:11 > 0:23:12Do you really mean it?
0:23:15 > 0:23:16I do.
0:23:17 > 0:23:21If you stop trying so hard, sometimes good things happen.
0:23:26 > 0:23:27And what if I don't like them?
0:23:27 > 0:23:29Then they'll find you somewhere else!
0:23:29 > 0:23:32Look, you've only got a few weeks to go, you need to be somewhere safe.
0:23:32 > 0:23:34Not just for you, but for your baby.
0:23:37 > 0:23:38OK.
0:23:38 > 0:23:39Thank you.
0:23:39 > 0:23:41Look, you won't regret it. I promise.
0:23:41 > 0:23:43Can my boyfriend visit as well?
0:23:43 > 0:23:44Course, he can.
0:23:44 > 0:23:46He's going to be a dad soon.
0:23:46 > 0:23:49He's going to want to get to know his own son or daughter.
0:23:49 > 0:23:51Don't suppose you know which, do you?
0:23:51 > 0:23:53No, we wanted it to be a surprise.
0:23:53 > 0:23:56It's exciting, isn't it? I'm sure it is.
0:23:57 > 0:23:59So, you are looking forward to it, yeah?
0:24:01 > 0:24:02Yeah.
0:24:04 > 0:24:08Me and Austin, we grew up on this crappy estate...
0:24:10 > 0:24:11..single parent families.
0:24:14 > 0:24:16Austin's mum's all right.
0:24:16 > 0:24:18And my dad, well...
0:24:19 > 0:24:21..you saw what he can do.
0:24:22 > 0:24:25But now we've got this baby, we're going to make it work.
0:24:26 > 0:24:28Austin's going to do his apprenticeship
0:24:28 > 0:24:31and I might go back and do my GCSEs.
0:24:32 > 0:24:34Good for you.
0:24:34 > 0:24:38Look, there are plenty of people who have a tough start in life,
0:24:38 > 0:24:40but they work hard, they're really determined,
0:24:40 > 0:24:43and they make something of themselves.
0:24:43 > 0:24:44I reckon you can do that too.
0:24:49 > 0:24:50Thank you.
0:24:50 > 0:24:53# Give me your love
0:24:53 > 0:24:58# And I'll give you the perfect love song
0:24:58 > 0:25:04# With a divine Beatles bass line
0:25:04 > 0:25:07# And a big old Beach Boys sound
0:25:09 > 0:25:12# I'll match you pound for pound
0:25:13 > 0:25:17# Like heavy-weights in the final round
0:25:17 > 0:25:21# We'll hold on to each other
0:25:21 > 0:25:24# So we don't fall down
0:25:28 > 0:25:31# Give me a wink
0:25:31 > 0:25:37# And I'll give you what I think you're after
0:25:37 > 0:25:40# With just one kiss
0:25:40 > 0:25:45# I will whisk you away to where angels often tread
0:25:47 > 0:25:50# We'll paint this planet red
0:25:51 > 0:25:54# We'll stumble back to our hotel bed... #
0:26:01 > 0:26:04Well, I hope you've got that out of your system now.
0:26:04 > 0:26:05What?
0:26:05 > 0:26:07Trying to humiliate me in front of Mrs Tembe.
0:26:08 > 0:26:11Oh, I see. So, that's what you care about.
0:26:11 > 0:26:14Not your partner, your family, but what Mrs Tembe thinks?
0:26:14 > 0:26:17I am not doing this to please her.
0:26:17 > 0:26:20I'm doing this because it is the right thing to do.
0:26:20 > 0:26:22Oh? For who? DI Stanton?
0:26:22 > 0:26:24Hope he's worth it.
0:26:24 > 0:26:26So, that's what this is about? Are you jealous?
0:26:26 > 0:26:28I think I have every right to be,
0:26:28 > 0:26:30when you don't seem to care if I live or die.
0:26:30 > 0:26:33I am doing this to keep everyone safe! You, me, Joe!
0:26:35 > 0:26:37You know he's still having nightmares, don't you?
0:26:37 > 0:26:41He drew another picture of me this morning, being stabbed.
0:26:41 > 0:26:43If you really cared about your son,
0:26:43 > 0:26:47why are you bringing in these ridiculous extended hours?
0:26:47 > 0:26:49We're never going to see each other.
0:26:49 > 0:26:50That's fine by me.
0:27:00 > 0:27:04I was down by the big tree and I think I saw someone.
0:27:04 > 0:27:06What are you talking about?
0:27:06 > 0:27:07Kamari.
0:27:07 > 0:27:10Do you think being part of a minority will affect your chances
0:27:10 > 0:27:12of becoming a partner?
0:27:12 > 0:27:13I think my experiences
0:27:13 > 0:27:16will be very similar to those of my white colleagues.
0:27:16 > 0:27:18Imagine Al's reaction when we tell him that.
0:27:18 > 0:27:21Yes, well, none of the staff are going to be happy.