0:00:27 > 0:00:29Janine!
0:00:31 > 0:00:33What is it? Go back to bed.
0:00:33 > 0:00:36Janine, she was here!
0:00:36 > 0:00:38Who was there?
0:00:38 > 0:00:41GROANING
0:00:41 > 0:00:43For goodness' sake!
0:00:48 > 0:00:50What have you done?!
0:00:50 > 0:00:54- She's in there. - Have you hurt yourself?
0:00:54 > 0:00:55I'm telling you she's in there!
0:00:55 > 0:01:00- There's nobody's in there. Come on, let me get you onto a chair. - I'm telling you she's in there!
0:01:06 > 0:01:09There's nobody in here. It's completely empty.
0:01:09 > 0:01:12You must have been hallucinating. How many of those pills have you taken?
0:01:12 > 0:01:15I'm telling you, she was there.
0:01:15 > 0:01:17Wearing the same dress as in the photograph.
0:01:17 > 0:01:20Sorry? What photograph?
0:01:20 > 0:01:23Who are you talking about?
0:01:23 > 0:01:24Your mother!
0:01:32 > 0:01:34Max?
0:01:34 > 0:01:36Sorry, babe.
0:01:36 > 0:01:37Was it a bit loud?
0:01:37 > 0:01:40No, I woke up and you weren't there.
0:01:41 > 0:01:43Same old, innit.
0:01:43 > 0:01:47I got straight off, come two o'clock I'm wide awake and buzzing.
0:01:48 > 0:01:50Just gave up in the end.
0:01:52 > 0:01:54Can I guess?
0:01:55 > 0:01:57There's nothing to guess. It's just...
0:01:57 > 0:02:00just something I go through now and again, innit.
0:02:00 > 0:02:04- So it's got nothing to do with what Tanya said...- No, course it ain't.
0:02:05 > 0:02:09Only I'm not sure I'd be altogether overjoyed to learn my ex was starting a new family.
0:02:10 > 0:02:12Not that he could manage it.
0:02:17 > 0:02:19Am I warm?
0:02:20 > 0:02:23As far as I'm concerned, she can do what she wants.
0:02:25 > 0:02:27It's just the kids, you know?
0:02:27 > 0:02:32Once junior comes along, they're going to get forgotten about. It's not fair on them.
0:02:35 > 0:02:37What?
0:02:40 > 0:02:43I think it's about time you and I stopped pretending.
0:02:45 > 0:02:47I think the reason you can't sleep...
0:02:51 > 0:02:52..the reason you're so upset...
0:02:57 > 0:02:59..it's got nothing to do with the kids.
0:03:06 > 0:03:08I think it's cos
0:03:08 > 0:03:11you've never quite fallen out of love with her, have you?
0:03:16 > 0:03:17Max, look at me.
0:03:22 > 0:03:24Honest answers only.
0:03:24 > 0:03:26Yes or no?
0:03:31 > 0:03:34Don't usually see you in here at this time. What you doing?
0:03:34 > 0:03:37Couldn't sleep. Needed to get out of the house for a bit.
0:03:37 > 0:03:39- Oh, really?- Yeah, really.
0:03:39 > 0:03:41So you haven't had a row, then?
0:03:41 > 0:03:44- You and fatty boy? - No, nothing at all.
0:03:44 > 0:03:46- Are you sure?- Yeah, I'm sure.
0:03:46 > 0:03:48- Has he been coming on to you?- No!
0:03:51 > 0:03:53Oh, no, he hasn't, has he?
0:03:53 > 0:03:56- Hasn't what?- Honey, I've been there.
0:03:56 > 0:04:00Even the nicest-seeming guys can do the most dreadful things.
0:04:00 > 0:04:03- Has he hit you?- No!
0:04:03 > 0:04:06- It's nothing to do with Arthur at all.- So what, then?
0:04:08 > 0:04:10I went to see a solicitor on Friday.
0:04:10 > 0:04:12I have an immigration hearing, in...
0:04:14 > 0:04:16..six hours!
0:04:16 > 0:04:19I've screwed up so bad.
0:04:19 > 0:04:24- It was a mistake getting married. - How?- They'll think it was a scam to keep me in the country.
0:04:24 > 0:04:26What did Fatboy say to that?
0:04:26 > 0:04:29He wasn't there. I haven't been able to bring myself to tell him.
0:04:29 > 0:04:32Honey, another coffee, please.
0:04:32 > 0:04:33Sure.
0:04:37 > 0:04:38Come on.
0:04:39 > 0:04:40That's it.
0:04:40 > 0:04:44You just... You haven't taken on nearly enough liquids.
0:04:44 > 0:04:46You're dehydrated.
0:04:46 > 0:04:48That is what all of this is about.
0:04:48 > 0:04:50My time is up.
0:04:50 > 0:04:52I am not having you die on me.
0:04:52 > 0:04:54What are you talking about?
0:04:54 > 0:04:56You've been praying for this!
0:04:56 > 0:04:59I mean in my living room. Far too much hassle.
0:04:59 > 0:05:02THEY CHUCKLE
0:05:03 > 0:05:05About my funeral.
0:05:05 > 0:05:08Are you not listening? There is going to be no dying.
0:05:08 > 0:05:10- That's an order.- I don't want one.
0:05:10 > 0:05:12Good, because you're not going to have one. Not yet.
0:05:12 > 0:05:16- And when you do...- The doctors can do what they like with me.
0:05:16 > 0:05:19I mean, there's nothing worth salvaging anyway.
0:05:19 > 0:05:25I rather relish the idea of young medical students gawping over my innards.
0:05:25 > 0:05:28"Where's her heart?" they'll say.
0:05:28 > 0:05:31"Extraordinary. She doesn't appear to have one."
0:05:36 > 0:05:40I've never told you this, young lady, but I rather like you.
0:05:41 > 0:05:43It's that defiant streak.
0:05:43 > 0:05:47That refusal to be anything other than you are.
0:05:47 > 0:05:49Well, I wonder where I get that from?
0:05:51 > 0:05:54Do you know, just to cheese you off,
0:05:54 > 0:05:57I'm going to give you the most fantastic funeral.
0:05:57 > 0:06:01Loads and loads of hideous floral tributes.
0:06:01 > 0:06:05You know, ones that spell out "Grandma" in lilies.
0:06:05 > 0:06:10Tasteful, you know? And I, I will be chief mourner, dressed all in black.
0:06:10 > 0:06:17With a little pillbox hat, and a veil, and maybe some fishnets...
0:06:17 > 0:06:20Why do I always feel so filthy at funerals?
0:06:20 > 0:06:23Oh, and there'll definitely be a choir.
0:06:23 > 0:06:26I think I can stretch to that. What song would you have?
0:06:26 > 0:06:30Yes! We Have No Bananas.
0:06:30 > 0:06:33She's there again!
0:06:33 > 0:06:35- Next to your father!- No, Granny,
0:06:35 > 0:06:38- look, it's just a picture.- No!
0:06:38 > 0:06:42- She's there! - No.- She's as real as you or me.
0:06:44 > 0:06:46This is it. Now, come on, help me.
0:06:46 > 0:06:48- Please.- What? Can you just stop this?
0:06:48 > 0:06:51Or I'll start being extra nice to you.
0:06:51 > 0:06:54Or something else you'd really hate. And I mean it.
0:06:54 > 0:06:56It's not true I don't have a heart.
0:06:56 > 0:07:00- I DO have a heart.- I know.
0:07:00 > 0:07:04And I do know how to love.
0:07:04 > 0:07:06Because I loved her.
0:07:06 > 0:07:08Oh, Granny...
0:07:18 > 0:07:23All right, then, let me ask you another question.
0:07:25 > 0:07:27Do you think I'm stupid?
0:07:27 > 0:07:29No, course I don't.
0:07:29 > 0:07:32Cos I have got eyes and ears, Max.
0:07:32 > 0:07:37Underneath all that big hair and make-up, I have got a brain.
0:07:39 > 0:07:40And I notice things.
0:07:42 > 0:07:44And while I'm
0:07:44 > 0:07:47long enough in the tooth to know that all relationships
0:07:47 > 0:07:49require a bit of give and take...
0:07:50 > 0:07:53..I'm not so dumb as not to know when I'm becoming second best.
0:07:56 > 0:08:00Babe, that ain't true! I got loads of respect for you.
0:08:00 > 0:08:02I'm not talking about respect.
0:08:02 > 0:08:05All right. Well, let me ask you a question. This word "love".
0:08:07 > 0:08:09What do you think it means?
0:08:09 > 0:08:11I'd rather hear what YOU think it means.
0:08:11 > 0:08:13It means loads of things.
0:08:14 > 0:08:17You know, "I want to possess you.
0:08:17 > 0:08:20"I want to control you. I want to be controlled BY you.
0:08:21 > 0:08:22"I'm needy.
0:08:24 > 0:08:26"I'm weak.
0:08:27 > 0:08:32- "I need reassurance." - That's what you think love means?
0:08:34 > 0:08:37I think that's what other people muddle it up with.
0:08:40 > 0:08:42So, what is it, then?
0:08:43 > 0:08:45It's about trust.
0:08:45 > 0:08:47Intimacy?
0:08:47 > 0:08:52Being truthful. Wanting to put someone else before yourself.
0:08:55 > 0:08:58Babe, none of that...none of that applies to me and Tanya.
0:08:59 > 0:09:01So?
0:09:04 > 0:09:06It's just emotional cat-and-mouse, innit.
0:09:10 > 0:09:14Stupid, ridiculous, never-ending game.
0:09:18 > 0:09:19And who's winning?
0:09:24 > 0:09:25Nobody.
0:09:33 > 0:09:35So, what you doing here?
0:09:39 > 0:09:40Are YOU going to tell him?
0:09:40 > 0:09:43Or do you want me to?
0:09:46 > 0:09:49There isn't a day goes by when I don't look at him
0:09:49 > 0:09:53and find myself having a conversation with him in my head.
0:09:53 > 0:09:54Shame he was such a slug.
0:09:54 > 0:09:57Yeah, well, I'm not going to be sticking up for him.
0:09:57 > 0:09:59I know what he was like.
0:09:59 > 0:10:04But it's not rational, is it? Some people you find yourself forgiving over and over again.
0:10:04 > 0:10:10Not me. Any hope of that died when she died.
0:10:10 > 0:10:14And all I was left with was bitterness and hatred...
0:10:14 > 0:10:16and my money.
0:10:16 > 0:10:20Ooh, how he hated that.
0:10:20 > 0:10:22Money doesn't buy you very much.
0:10:22 > 0:10:25But it does buy you power.
0:10:27 > 0:10:29I want you to do something for me.
0:10:29 > 0:10:37- What?- In the bedroom, in that drawer, there's a biscuit tin and a bundle of letters.
0:10:37 > 0:10:39Bring them here for me.
0:10:59 > 0:11:04- What are you doing in there? - Oh, I'm just coming.
0:11:04 > 0:11:07- Janine!- All right!
0:11:07 > 0:11:09All right.
0:11:17 > 0:11:21- Did you look at it?- Look at what?
0:11:21 > 0:11:23Of course you looked at it!
0:11:23 > 0:11:26You wouldn't be the Janine I know if you didn't.
0:11:26 > 0:11:29No, I don't know what you're talking about.
0:11:29 > 0:11:33You didn't come across my will while you were rooting about in there?
0:11:33 > 0:11:36Be very odd if you didn't.
0:11:36 > 0:11:38- Considering the time you were in there.- OK.
0:11:38 > 0:11:41I saw it, you know. So what?
0:11:41 > 0:11:46Why don't I quite believe this display of studied indifference?
0:11:47 > 0:11:52Where's the resentment? Oh, come on, girl, let it out.
0:11:52 > 0:11:54You'll feel so much better afterwards.
0:11:55 > 0:11:59All right, so what is the Cancer Nurses Trust anyway? I've never heard of it.
0:11:59 > 0:12:05- They looked after your mother during the final weeks of her illness. - Well, who'd've thought it?
0:12:05 > 0:12:13Lydia Simmonds, lady bountiful, selfless philanthropist and all round good egg.
0:12:13 > 0:12:15That's more like it.
0:12:15 > 0:12:17A trace of disappointment.
0:12:17 > 0:12:19Anger, even.
0:12:19 > 0:12:24Look, if it's for a good cause
0:12:24 > 0:12:29and it helps you buy your way into heaven, then why not?
0:12:34 > 0:12:38These are all of Mum.
0:12:38 > 0:12:43Supposing I was to tell you we're talking well into seven figures,
0:12:43 > 0:12:46would that make a difference?
0:12:46 > 0:12:48Would that light the gleam of avarice in your eye?
0:12:48 > 0:12:51What are you trying to do, Granny, torture me?
0:12:51 > 0:12:55Is that it? Because, let me tell you, it isn't working.
0:12:55 > 0:12:57Yes, but just think, Janine. With all that money,
0:12:57 > 0:13:02you could end up as happy and fulfilled as me.
0:13:03 > 0:13:06Think of what you'll be missing.
0:13:07 > 0:13:10I would rather have these.
0:13:14 > 0:13:17- You are as British as me.- That's not quite British enough.- What?
0:13:17 > 0:13:20Oh, come on, Fats, you know what she's talking about as well as I do.
0:13:20 > 0:13:22Last I heard, there was this thing called law.
0:13:22 > 0:13:26- Yeah, and it's against me.- So, what time we got to be at this hearing?
0:13:26 > 0:13:30- Ten o'clock.- All right, well that gives me exactly 5.75 hours.
0:13:30 > 0:13:34- What are you going to do?- Learn to be a lawyer. This ain't over!
0:13:38 > 0:13:41So, if what you say about you and Tanya is right
0:13:41 > 0:13:44and this is all a big game, then what's all this stuff about?
0:13:53 > 0:13:57All that stuff about her wanting more kids was just her next throw of the dice?
0:14:02 > 0:14:07Can there be any worse reason for having more children than just to get back at your ex-husband?
0:14:08 > 0:14:13So what you're feeling now is exactly what she WANTS you to feel.
0:14:13 > 0:14:15So how do I stop feeling it?
0:14:15 > 0:14:17By understanding what's going on.
0:14:17 > 0:14:21Do you think me and Harry aren't wrapped up in the same stuff?
0:14:21 > 0:14:25The only reason you don't know it is cos you don't see it. But it's there.
0:14:26 > 0:14:29So how do you manage it?
0:14:32 > 0:14:34I don't.
0:14:36 > 0:14:41You see, the sad irony of this is that
0:14:41 > 0:14:46you can know all of this and then just carry on the same old way.
0:14:46 > 0:14:49Cos it's too scary to do anything different.
0:14:49 > 0:14:51What do you mean, "scary"?
0:14:51 > 0:14:54To act differently takes courage, Max.
0:14:55 > 0:14:57Courage I don't have.
0:14:59 > 0:15:00Courage to be a grown-up.
0:15:04 > 0:15:07Why do you think I hide behind all that make-up?
0:15:11 > 0:15:12Because I'm scared.
0:15:14 > 0:15:17I'm scared that if people could see the real me
0:15:17 > 0:15:20- then I wouldn't be able to pretend any more.- Shhh, V, V, V.
0:15:20 > 0:15:23Please, please, V.
0:15:23 > 0:15:25Cos that's what we're all doing.
0:15:25 > 0:15:29You, me, Tanya, everyone.
0:15:30 > 0:15:32Pretending.
0:15:36 > 0:15:41Well, we could stop right now.
0:15:43 > 0:15:45This very second.
0:15:51 > 0:15:53Let's make love.
0:15:56 > 0:15:58Right here.
0:16:00 > 0:16:01I want to.
0:16:09 > 0:16:11What are you doing?
0:16:11 > 0:16:13Will you get it off me?
0:16:13 > 0:16:15- Why do you want to take it off? - Oh, just do it!
0:16:18 > 0:16:19OK.
0:16:22 > 0:16:23There you go.
0:16:26 > 0:16:30What do you think it's worth, Janine?
0:16:30 > 0:16:32I don't know.
0:16:32 > 0:16:33Is it solid gold?
0:16:33 > 0:16:37If I told you it was priceless, what would you say?
0:16:38 > 0:16:42I gave it to your mother the day you were born.
0:16:45 > 0:16:46Open it up.
0:16:50 > 0:16:54That picture was taken
0:16:54 > 0:16:57on your third birthday.
0:16:57 > 0:17:00Your mother loved that photograph.
0:17:00 > 0:17:02And so do I.
0:17:02 > 0:17:05You were such a happy child.
0:17:05 > 0:17:08Yeah, well, that's not the way I heard it.
0:17:08 > 0:17:13- According to Pat, I was the devil's spawn.- But that was afterwards.
0:17:13 > 0:17:14After what?
0:17:15 > 0:17:19- Do you know what my earliest memory is?- No, what was that?
0:17:21 > 0:17:24It was of my dad
0:17:24 > 0:17:27telling me that Mummy had gone away
0:17:27 > 0:17:29and that she wasn't coming back.
0:17:29 > 0:17:33I thought he meant to the shops, you know. That was the only
0:17:33 > 0:17:35"away" I knew.
0:17:35 > 0:17:38I wanted you to come to the funeral.
0:17:38 > 0:17:40But he wouldn't have it.
0:17:40 > 0:17:44He said you were too young. That it would upset you.
0:17:44 > 0:17:47I knew that he was lying, of course.
0:17:47 > 0:17:49About the going away bit, I mean.
0:17:49 > 0:17:52Not that I could have known what lying was then.
0:17:54 > 0:17:55I just,
0:17:55 > 0:18:00I didn't take it on board that she was dead for days.
0:18:01 > 0:18:04Weeks. It just wasn't mentioned.
0:18:04 > 0:18:05And I...
0:18:05 > 0:18:08I can remember being so...
0:18:08 > 0:18:11so angry at her for leaving me.
0:18:11 > 0:18:17I said to Frank "Who's going to look after Janine while we're all at the funeral?"
0:18:17 > 0:18:24And he said, "Oh, I've got this friend I was thinking of asking."
0:18:24 > 0:18:29I said, "Is it a woman?" And that's when he starts fiddling with his spectacles,
0:18:29 > 0:18:32which was always a sure sign.
0:18:32 > 0:18:34- Pat.- Yeah, well, she didn't come.
0:18:34 > 0:18:36He backed down.
0:18:36 > 0:18:38I'd've killed him if he hadn't.
0:18:41 > 0:18:46I wanted you to come and live with me. You do know that?
0:18:46 > 0:18:48What?
0:18:48 > 0:18:50When it was being discussed.
0:18:50 > 0:18:55Frank said, "I can't run a business and look after a four-year-old."
0:18:55 > 0:18:58So I said, "I will."
0:18:58 > 0:19:01So, you mean that when I was living with Clare
0:19:01 > 0:19:04I could've gone to you instead?
0:19:04 > 0:19:08I begged him. Even though the words stuck in my throat.
0:19:08 > 0:19:09Cos I wanted it.
0:19:09 > 0:19:11- I wanted it so much...- Oh, Granny...
0:19:11 > 0:19:13I wanted you...
0:19:13 > 0:19:18If I'd had a little girl to look after, things might have been...
0:19:18 > 0:19:19Might have what?
0:19:20 > 0:19:24Then afterwards he did everything he could to keep you away from me.
0:19:24 > 0:19:29I say "he", but I think it was more her by then,
0:19:29 > 0:19:34but he just went along with it, you know, coward that he was.
0:19:36 > 0:19:40Well, it's a lovely locket.
0:19:42 > 0:19:44It's a lovely photograph.
0:19:44 > 0:19:46It's yours.
0:19:46 > 0:19:48Keep it. Put it on.
0:19:48 > 0:19:54- No, no, no, I can't do that.- Just for once do what you're told, mm?
0:20:01 > 0:20:03What time is it?
0:20:03 > 0:20:04Oh, I don't know.
0:20:08 > 0:20:10It is half past four.
0:20:10 > 0:20:13What time does it get light?
0:20:13 > 0:20:15I don't know.
0:20:15 > 0:20:16Can't be long now.
0:20:18 > 0:20:19I can feel it.
0:20:22 > 0:20:25Your mother was born at this time of day.
0:20:28 > 0:20:31I'd been in labour forever.
0:20:34 > 0:20:37And halfway through, the sirens went off...
0:20:40 > 0:20:45..and the midwife thought that I might haemorrhage if we moved to the shelter.
0:20:45 > 0:20:51So I was stuck under that kitchen table for another three hours
0:20:51 > 0:20:55with the bombs falling all round.
0:20:56 > 0:20:58No epidurals in those days.
0:20:58 > 0:21:00There was no nothing.
0:21:00 > 0:21:04I thought, "If this is childbirth, you can keep it!"
0:21:05 > 0:21:08Granny, you shouldn't be talking.
0:21:08 > 0:21:11It's wearing you out. You need to rest.
0:21:11 > 0:21:14And then suddenly there she was.
0:21:14 > 0:21:18Bawling and screaming.
0:21:18 > 0:21:21"You've got a beautiful
0:21:21 > 0:21:25"baby girl, Mrs Simmonds."
0:21:25 > 0:21:28And that was Mum?
0:21:28 > 0:21:32And then the midwife pulled back the blackout curtain
0:21:32 > 0:21:34and it was dawn.
0:21:36 > 0:21:39And outside, miraculously,
0:21:39 > 0:21:41birdsong.
0:21:42 > 0:21:47And the room was flooded with a pale yellow light.
0:21:48 > 0:21:55And suddenly the whole thing was alive and just for one moment,
0:21:55 > 0:22:03despite the pain, despite the bombs, despite the wretched war...
0:22:05 > 0:22:10..it was as if everything in the entire universe
0:22:10 > 0:22:15made complete and perfect sense.
0:22:17 > 0:22:20As if I'd been touched by God.
0:22:21 > 0:22:23Granny...
0:22:26 > 0:22:28Would you be very offended
0:22:28 > 0:22:30if I told you that I loved you?
0:22:30 > 0:22:33SHE CHUCKLES
0:22:33 > 0:22:35What? What's so funny?
0:22:35 > 0:22:38Everything's funny.
0:22:38 > 0:22:44The whole damned thing is funny from up here looking down on it.
0:22:44 > 0:22:47Up where?
0:22:50 > 0:22:54Are you really not bothered about the will?
0:22:56 > 0:23:01Well, I'm not saying that I won't feel differently tomorrow...
0:23:03 > 0:23:10..but right now I couldn't give a damn. Honestly.
0:23:12 > 0:23:14Kiss me.
0:23:18 > 0:23:22So, what about these letters?
0:23:22 > 0:23:24Not now. Later.
0:23:24 > 0:23:28I want you to take me into the front room.
0:23:30 > 0:23:32I want to see the sunrise.
0:23:32 > 0:23:35OK, well let me just get your wheelchair.
0:23:45 > 0:23:47Hey.
0:23:47 > 0:23:49What you doing?
0:23:49 > 0:23:51Nothing.
0:23:51 > 0:23:53You go to bed, babe. You're going to need some sleep.
0:23:53 > 0:23:56- So do you. - Yeah, but I'm Superman, all right?
0:23:56 > 0:23:58I can do anything.
0:23:59 > 0:24:01Oh, Arthur...
0:24:01 > 0:24:03What?
0:24:08 > 0:24:11You know I can't cope with this.
0:24:11 > 0:24:17- What?- Knowing that, you know, if I didn't ask you to marry me, then you'd probably stand a better chance.
0:24:17 > 0:24:19Well, I'm glad you did.
0:24:19 > 0:24:20Really?
0:24:22 > 0:24:24- I so wish I...- No, no, no, no.
0:24:24 > 0:24:29I know you don't love me, Merce, all right. But that ain't going to stop me loving you, OK.
0:24:29 > 0:24:31So just don't blow out all hope.
0:24:37 > 0:24:43Listen, Merce, if all this goes wrong, and I'm not saying it will,
0:24:43 > 0:24:50- but if it does, then... I'm coming to Nigeria with you, all right? No arguments.- No.
0:24:50 > 0:24:52So just say, "Yes, Arthur."
0:24:53 > 0:24:55Yes, Arthur.
0:24:55 > 0:24:57Good.
0:24:58 > 0:25:01- You know what?- What?
0:25:02 > 0:25:04I think I'm going to give up the fags.
0:25:05 > 0:25:07Really?
0:25:07 > 0:25:10Yeah, it's suddenly like I don't need them any more.
0:25:12 > 0:25:14It's weird. I don't even want one.
0:25:15 > 0:25:17That's great.
0:25:18 > 0:25:19Abi'll be pleased.
0:25:27 > 0:25:28V?
0:25:28 > 0:25:31Yeah?
0:25:33 > 0:25:35Will you marry me?
0:25:41 > 0:25:42Are you serious?
0:25:45 > 0:25:46Yes or no?
0:25:50 > 0:25:51Sure.
0:25:53 > 0:25:55Why not?
0:25:57 > 0:25:58Good.
0:26:05 > 0:26:07FEEBLY: Pull the curtains.
0:26:10 > 0:26:16Open the window. I want to hear the birds.
0:26:18 > 0:26:20BIRDSONG DRIFTS IN
0:26:20 > 0:26:22Oh, wow.
0:26:23 > 0:26:26- Who'd've thought it? It's amazing. - Closer.
0:26:26 > 0:26:28Closer.
0:26:34 > 0:26:38Hey...listen.
0:26:42 > 0:26:45The world is a beautiful place sometimes.
0:26:47 > 0:26:50We forget so easily.
0:27:02 > 0:27:04Is it me, or does it look different?
0:27:06 > 0:27:08Same old square.
0:27:08 > 0:27:10Same old gardens.
0:27:10 > 0:27:13Same old...rubbish.
0:27:16 > 0:27:17I don't know what it is.
0:27:17 > 0:27:24It's almost like I've never looked at it properly before.
0:27:26 > 0:27:28I know this is going to sound stupid, but...
0:27:30 > 0:27:32..it's almost beautiful.
0:27:32 > 0:27:35It's like I want to go round and knock on
0:27:35 > 0:27:37everyone's door and say "Wake up!
0:27:37 > 0:27:40"you don't know what you're missing, you idiots!"
0:27:42 > 0:27:44Instead they're all just
0:27:44 > 0:27:47tucked up in bed asleep.
0:27:47 > 0:27:49They haven't got the foggiest.
0:27:51 > 0:27:53Isn't it weird being alive?
0:27:55 > 0:27:59I mean, when you really think about it,
0:27:59 > 0:28:03it's just so strange.
0:28:05 > 0:28:07That's the trouble, though, isn't it?
0:28:09 > 0:28:12We don't ever think about it, I mean.
0:28:16 > 0:28:17You're not saying much.
0:28:22 > 0:28:24Granny?
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