0:00:47 > 0:00:53EXAMPLE BLARES FROM VAN
0:00:53 > 0:00:56# If we don't kid ourselves
0:00:56 > 0:01:00# Will they believe us if we tell them the reasons why?
0:01:00 > 0:01:01# Did we take it... #
0:01:01 > 0:01:03MUSIC STOPS
0:01:06 > 0:01:09Why don't you show a bit of respect?
0:01:30 > 0:01:34- Shall I get you some breakfast? - No, Liam's done it.
0:01:34 > 0:01:36Yeah, he made Morgan's, too.
0:01:36 > 0:01:40I'll take them out later, if you want. Take their minds off things.
0:01:43 > 0:01:48Coffee? It is still just coffee in the mornings?
0:01:48 > 0:01:50Bring on the world.
0:01:50 > 0:01:52Hey? What's that?
0:01:54 > 0:01:55Something Nana Pat used to say.
0:01:55 > 0:02:00Are you going to cry every time someone says her name?
0:02:00 > 0:02:03Yeah. Every single time.
0:02:04 > 0:02:06Any tea going?
0:02:07 > 0:02:10Yeah, there would be. If you filled the kettle.
0:02:15 > 0:02:17Do you like Nana Pat's card?
0:02:19 > 0:02:23See, see? Said it, didn't I?
0:02:24 > 0:02:28- Can you give us a hand with your bedding?- Yeah, just...
0:02:41 > 0:02:44- Need some fresh air?- What, out here?
0:02:47 > 0:02:52- David, erm... - I'll be in in a minute, Carol.
0:02:52 > 0:02:55All right. OK. Take your time.
0:03:17 > 0:03:20It ain't going to fill itself, you know.
0:03:22 > 0:03:24Pat was on at me for ages to fix this.
0:03:31 > 0:03:34WASHING MACHINE HUMS
0:03:41 > 0:03:43Just leave 'em.
0:03:44 > 0:03:49How is this going to help - sitting in pitch darkness?
0:03:52 > 0:03:55Look, I'll be out by the end of the day, OK?
0:03:57 > 0:04:01I'm just running some clothes through the machine.
0:04:01 > 0:04:04PHONE RINGS
0:04:04 > 0:04:05Hello?
0:04:07 > 0:04:09'Chelle. You got my message, yeah?
0:04:11 > 0:04:16Just listen, will you? Yeah, erm... It's Pat.
0:04:18 > 0:04:21KAT ON RADIO: Something's broken, Jean.
0:04:21 > 0:04:23And I don't see how we can fix it.
0:04:23 > 0:04:28- Even the birds have stopped singing out there.- Oh, yeah?- Really lovely.
0:04:28 > 0:04:31Well, not what's happened, that's not lovely.
0:04:31 > 0:04:34It'd just be lovely if Pat could see it all.
0:04:34 > 0:04:37But then, they wouldn't be doing it. There'd be no need.
0:04:37 > 0:04:40Oh, you know what I mean. It's just funny, isn't it?
0:04:40 > 0:04:43When you're with family and friends,
0:04:43 > 0:04:46you don't really know what they think about you.
0:04:56 > 0:04:58(JANINE) Yes, it's just come in.
0:04:58 > 0:05:00Here, Bill!
0:05:00 > 0:05:03Well, I think it's all here...
0:05:03 > 0:05:05Look, don't shoot, OK?
0:05:05 > 0:05:09I've finally managed to raise most of that money for Pat.
0:05:09 > 0:05:12That should put a smile on the old girl's face, eh?
0:05:12 > 0:05:16- Give her a nice, happy New Year? - Yes, I'll be here all morning.
0:05:22 > 0:05:24- What?- You're working?
0:05:24 > 0:05:28No, Billy, I'm crossing the Andes by elephant.
0:05:28 > 0:05:30Everywhere else is all shut up.
0:05:30 > 0:05:33- Another day, another dollar. - It's like a ghost town.
0:05:33 > 0:05:35I'll be sure to clear up, then, won't I?
0:05:35 > 0:05:37Being the only business actually open.
0:05:37 > 0:05:39- I'll be well ahead of the game. - Janine...
0:05:39 > 0:05:42- What?!- Is everything all right?
0:05:45 > 0:05:46No!
0:05:46 > 0:05:48Hey, hey!
0:05:48 > 0:05:51- No!- Come here, come here, it's all right.
0:05:51 > 0:05:57It's all right. Come here. All right, sit down, sit down.
0:05:57 > 0:06:00Look, I'll... I'll give Michael a ring, yeah?
0:06:04 > 0:06:06- Who's that for?- The Butchers.
0:06:06 > 0:06:10It's traditional, isn't it? Can't go round empty-handed.
0:06:10 > 0:06:12You might be better off baking one for Phil.
0:06:12 > 0:06:15Putting a pair of wire cutters into it,
0:06:15 > 0:06:17sending it into the nick.
0:06:17 > 0:06:19- Might be the only way to get him out of there.- Maybe.
0:06:22 > 0:06:23See you later.
0:06:25 > 0:06:27You know, Jay's right.
0:06:27 > 0:06:30They've been waiting for a chance for years.
0:06:30 > 0:06:33And all the scores the police have got to settle with your dad,
0:06:33 > 0:06:36that's what he's looking at, too. Years.
0:06:38 > 0:06:39And that's with good behaviour
0:06:39 > 0:06:42and we all know that your old man ain't exactly a choirboy, is he?
0:06:42 > 0:06:47So, it might not even be years, Ben. It could be for good.
0:06:47 > 0:06:51Richie's right - it could be for good.
0:06:51 > 0:06:52Ben!
0:06:56 > 0:06:59Ben! Ben!
0:06:59 > 0:07:03Oh, ho-ho! Couldn't hear a pin drop out here this morning.
0:07:03 > 0:07:07Might've known it'd be one of your lot, spoils it.
0:07:23 > 0:07:25Been looking all over for you.
0:07:41 > 0:07:45It's only a thought. So, if you hate it, just say so. And it's on us.
0:07:45 > 0:07:48We're not looking to make a quick buck or anything.
0:07:48 > 0:07:51We thought that because Pat was in the Vic for so long,
0:07:51 > 0:07:56we could open up for a couple of hours. Anyone can come in, share their memories.
0:07:56 > 0:07:57I think that's a lovely idea.
0:07:57 > 0:08:00Yeah, it is. Thanks, Kat. Cheers, thanks a lot.
0:08:00 > 0:08:05- I'll spread the word, then, yeah? - Yeah.- 12 o'clock? See you later.
0:08:05 > 0:08:09Maybe we should all wear something really colourful, you know?
0:08:10 > 0:08:12You know, some sort of tribute.
0:08:14 > 0:08:17Well, we should start thinking about the funeral, though.
0:08:17 > 0:08:23- Come on, someone's got to say it. - Yeah. Yeah, you're right.
0:08:23 > 0:08:25We'll have to sort out about the church.
0:08:25 > 0:08:29Cathedral, more like. World and his wife'll want to come.
0:08:29 > 0:08:31Have to see who wants to speak.
0:08:31 > 0:08:36- You'll want to say something, won't you?- She'd turn in her grave.
0:08:36 > 0:08:40There's the catering. I suppose Ian could do that. Well, it's only fair.
0:08:40 > 0:08:43- He's known Pat for years.- Yeah. - Yeah, of course. Yeah.
0:08:43 > 0:08:44Mum?
0:08:47 > 0:08:50Uncle Norman just wanted to come and pay his respects.
0:08:50 > 0:08:55Yeah, I'm so sorry. Really, so sorry.
0:08:55 > 0:08:58Janine? Janine.
0:09:01 > 0:09:05Look, why don't you stay for a bit?
0:09:07 > 0:09:11I know it's awful - you know, us being here and Pat...
0:09:13 > 0:09:16Come here, come here.
0:09:23 > 0:09:25All right to come in? The door was open.
0:09:25 > 0:09:28Yeah, course. Everyone's welcome.
0:09:29 > 0:09:32I've brought something over. Something of Pat's.
0:09:32 > 0:09:36Right, do you want to come in?
0:09:36 > 0:09:40MACHINE RATTLES
0:09:40 > 0:09:42Stop that, please.
0:09:42 > 0:09:44Oh, sorry. What's wrong?
0:09:48 > 0:09:50Pat died last night.
0:09:52 > 0:09:54Oh.
0:09:55 > 0:10:00I think Janine was trying to pretend that she hadn't, you know?
0:10:02 > 0:10:05Anyway, that's all your order there, yeah?
0:10:05 > 0:10:08Er, yeah.
0:10:08 > 0:10:13And we're really sorry about Pat. You know, please tell Janine.
0:10:13 > 0:10:15From both of us.
0:10:15 > 0:10:20Yeah, she said you might want to check it all out, you know.
0:10:20 > 0:10:23- Make sure everything's there. - What, now?
0:10:23 > 0:10:28Yeah. It can't go back to the suppliers in a month's time if there's stuff missing.
0:10:28 > 0:10:29I've got an appointment.
0:10:29 > 0:10:33Well, listen, I'm not exactly meant to be here myself, all right?
0:10:33 > 0:10:37- I'm just doing a favour. - I just got my nails done.- Oh, right.
0:10:37 > 0:10:41I'll give Janine a bell, then, shall I? Tell her to come back from Pat's,
0:10:41 > 0:10:45only we've got a real crisis on our hands here.
0:10:53 > 0:10:55It was Clacton. 1958.
0:10:57 > 0:11:00We both went in for this beauty contest - Miss Butlins.
0:11:00 > 0:11:04Pat, well, she won it hands down, didn't she?
0:11:04 > 0:11:07Me? I wasn't even in the top ten.
0:11:07 > 0:11:11- That's where she first met your dad. - Yeah.
0:11:11 > 0:11:13I'm sure she gave one of the judges the eye.
0:11:13 > 0:11:18Anyway, we went out on the razzle, didn't we? Celebrating.
0:11:18 > 0:11:21And I really wanted to win.
0:11:22 > 0:11:25So, I took it - her sash.
0:11:25 > 0:11:30Told her we'd lost it going from pub to pub.
0:11:32 > 0:11:34And all I've been thinking of...
0:11:36 > 0:11:39..ever since I woke up this morning...
0:11:42 > 0:11:44..was giving her back Miss Butlins.
0:11:52 > 0:11:57Told Libs and Chelsea last night. I got hold of Carly this morning.
0:11:57 > 0:12:00Oh, Patrick, they were all so upset.
0:12:05 > 0:12:08Do you know, it's one of the happiest times we had,
0:12:08 > 0:12:11all bunking down at Pat's. Me and the kids.
0:12:12 > 0:12:13Kevin.
0:12:16 > 0:12:21It's true what they say, isn't it? The good die young.
0:12:21 > 0:12:27- Except Pat weren't exactly young. - Not exactly good, either.
0:12:27 > 0:12:31Yeah. Reckon that's what you liked about her.
0:12:31 > 0:12:33That's what I loved about her.
0:12:37 > 0:12:40No. Thanks, Carol. No. I do appreciate that, yeah.
0:12:40 > 0:12:43Yeah, course I'll be there. All right, yeah. Bye.
0:12:43 > 0:12:45You going somewhere?
0:12:46 > 0:12:50Kat and Alfie are having some drinks in the Vic for Pat.
0:12:50 > 0:12:53- That's nice.- Yeah.
0:12:53 > 0:12:56I did know her too, you know?
0:12:56 > 0:13:00- And I liked her.- And do you think she'd like you at the moment?
0:13:03 > 0:13:08- Or is this your way of saying you'd like to be there, as well? - I ain't saying that.
0:13:08 > 0:13:10You're the last thing Bianca needs.
0:13:20 > 0:13:24DOORBELL RINGS
0:13:24 > 0:13:26I keep doing this, too.
0:13:26 > 0:13:31- What was all that about? - What?- You and Ricky.
0:13:33 > 0:13:37- Why, you interested? - Course I'm interested.
0:13:38 > 0:13:39Because?
0:13:41 > 0:13:45- Because...- Dot's here.- OK.
0:13:45 > 0:13:49Were you actually going to say, because I'm your Dad?
0:13:49 > 0:13:52Well, I thought you could do with a laugh.
0:14:02 > 0:14:05I thought it might be more practical.
0:14:05 > 0:14:09I could've brought another cake but the last one didn't seem to go down too well,
0:14:09 > 0:14:11- so I thought it'd be more useful. - What might?
0:14:11 > 0:14:14- Frank's plaque.- Yeah, Dot's volunteered to look after it.
0:14:14 > 0:14:17Pat used to keep it ever so shiny.
0:14:17 > 0:14:21Oh, I don't mean that you wouldn't, of course,
0:14:21 > 0:14:24and I don't want to intrude if you don't think it's my place.
0:14:24 > 0:14:26That'd be really lovely, Dot.
0:14:26 > 0:14:30I could go now. Give it a quick rub.
0:14:31 > 0:14:34- What do you think? - What do you reckon?
0:14:34 > 0:14:38I'd say that was the sort of offer that Dad couldn't refuse.
0:14:38 > 0:14:40THEY LAUGH
0:14:40 > 0:14:42You go and give it a little rub, Dot.
0:14:42 > 0:14:45Any time.
0:14:45 > 0:14:47What?
0:15:00 > 0:15:02Tiff did that...
0:15:06 > 0:15:07..for Nana Pat.
0:15:11 > 0:15:15That the best you can do? Come here, Morgan.
0:15:19 > 0:15:20You need help.
0:15:26 > 0:15:29- Finally decided to come back, have you?- Listen, Shirl.
0:15:31 > 0:15:32Morning.
0:15:42 > 0:15:43Yeah.
0:15:45 > 0:15:48- Fag break?- I don't smoke.
0:15:49 > 0:15:50Neither do I.
0:15:57 > 0:16:00- Should we put some grub out? - Oh, that's a great idea.
0:16:00 > 0:16:03Nothing fancy, just crisps and nuts and that.
0:16:03 > 0:16:06You and Alfie sort it. Me and Anthony'll finish off.
0:16:06 > 0:16:09- Actually, me and Ant are nipping down to the cash and carry.- Since when?
0:16:09 > 0:16:13- Don't want to run out of booze. - We've got enough to sink a ship. - Just in case.
0:16:13 > 0:16:17- I think it's lovely. Well, it's not lovely, but...- She's off again.
0:16:17 > 0:16:21- It's just everyone rallying round. - It's what the Duchess would have done.
0:16:21 > 0:16:24Never mind Peggy. It's what you two are doing together.
0:16:24 > 0:16:27- You and Kat.- Ant, come on. Let's go.
0:16:31 > 0:16:36Their chief witness will withdraw their statement. That's what Richie's been told.
0:16:36 > 0:16:37And is that going to be it?
0:16:37 > 0:16:41If they go back on what they've said, they're going to drop everything?
0:16:41 > 0:16:43Unless my mystery admirer starts up again.
0:16:43 > 0:16:46Maybe they've shot their bolt.
0:16:48 > 0:16:50We've got some news for you, haven't we, Ben?
0:16:52 > 0:16:55- Something happened while you were away.- I know.
0:16:56 > 0:17:01I met one of the market boys as I was coming out of the Tube.
0:17:03 > 0:17:06I thought Pat was like Mum. Thought she'd go on forever.
0:17:06 > 0:17:09I know we weren't the best of mates, but still...
0:17:12 > 0:17:17Right. I'll call Mum. She's going to want to know, ain't she?
0:17:17 > 0:17:21- Where you going? - Have a bath. Wash the prison off.
0:17:24 > 0:17:26Did you know he was getting out?
0:17:28 > 0:17:29I got a whisper, yeah.
0:17:29 > 0:17:33So, all that, earlier - about Dad being banged up for years
0:17:33 > 0:17:37- and all them scores to settle. - Freak you, did it? Good.
0:17:37 > 0:17:42You remember that. You remember how that felt.
0:17:42 > 0:17:43And you keep remembering.
0:17:47 > 0:17:49- Why don't we take the car? - I don't want to drive.
0:17:49 > 0:17:52I want to walk, get some exercise. Breathe it in.
0:17:52 > 0:17:53AMIRA SCREAMS
0:17:53 > 0:17:55- In there.- What's the matter?
0:17:55 > 0:17:59Inside. It's horrible! It's big. Legs - hairy legs.
0:17:59 > 0:18:03- I just left Mo in the pub.- Please! - All right.- Look, I'll sort this.
0:18:07 > 0:18:09Yeah, Albert Square, please.
0:18:09 > 0:18:11About one o'clock. Yeah.
0:18:11 > 0:18:15Just get the guy to call me on this number when he gets here.
0:18:15 > 0:18:16Great. OK, thanks.
0:18:16 > 0:18:21- Ricky.- What?- Everything all right? - What do you think?
0:18:21 > 0:18:24My stepmum's just died.
0:18:24 > 0:18:28- Bianca's just about to kick me out. - Is she?
0:18:28 > 0:18:34So, what do you think, then? Me and you?
0:18:34 > 0:18:35Was it worth it?
0:18:37 > 0:18:38No.
0:18:44 > 0:18:48- What do you reckon, Ant? - One bite from that and you're dead.
0:18:48 > 0:18:52Doesn't need a bite. It just needs to stare at you. We should call the Marines.
0:18:52 > 0:18:54No, SAS. They've got them stun guns.
0:18:54 > 0:18:58- Maybe it's the SAS AND the Marines. - Just get rid of it, will you? - OK. All right.
0:18:58 > 0:19:01- No, that's horrible, it'll crunch. - So, what do you want me to do?
0:19:01 > 0:19:03- Just get it outside. - How?- I don't know.
0:19:03 > 0:19:06- Pick it up.- I ain't picking it up! Have you seen the size of it?
0:19:06 > 0:19:09- I'm not picking it up. - Alfie, stand back. I'll do it.
0:19:09 > 0:19:12"Stand back, Alfie. I'll do it"?
0:19:12 > 0:19:14Be careful, all right, cos they do bite.
0:19:14 > 0:19:16HE BARKS
0:19:17 > 0:19:19Go on.
0:19:22 > 0:19:24Go on, that's it, nearly got it.
0:19:24 > 0:19:28Go, go, go. He's got it and all. Well done. Good lad!
0:19:28 > 0:19:31Let me get out, let me get out, let me get out.
0:19:31 > 0:19:32Make sure it goes over there.
0:19:32 > 0:19:36Send him towards the Chippy. Go on, over to the Chippy.
0:19:38 > 0:19:39My hero.
0:19:46 > 0:19:50- Alfie, she is seriously fit.- Amira? Yeah, she's attractive, isn't she?
0:19:50 > 0:19:53Attractive? Alfie, she is a goddess.
0:19:56 > 0:19:59- So, what was all that about?- Mmm?
0:19:59 > 0:20:02You and Anthony Moon?
0:20:02 > 0:20:05Oh, you mean my knight in shining armour.
0:20:05 > 0:20:06Sorry, did it bother you?
0:20:06 > 0:20:08Why, was it supposed to?
0:20:18 > 0:20:20Prefer a meat and potato pie.
0:20:22 > 0:20:23Ben?
0:20:25 > 0:20:28I just didn't think you'd get out, that's all.
0:20:28 > 0:20:33Yeah, well, I have, ain't I? And I will sort this.
0:20:33 > 0:20:38I promise you, I will sort it.
0:20:39 > 0:20:41What does that mean?
0:20:41 > 0:20:44You're going to go round kicking seven bells out of someone?
0:20:44 > 0:20:48- We'll have police knocking down our door.- Am I supposed to just take it?
0:20:48 > 0:20:51What did they do? They got you banged up for a couple of days.
0:20:51 > 0:20:55- Well, that's enough, ain't it? - So, you'll give them a chance to put you away even longer?
0:20:55 > 0:20:59I ain't having some lowlife having one over on me.
0:20:59 > 0:21:02Shirl's right - they tried their best.
0:21:02 > 0:21:05They gave it their all. But it didn't work.
0:21:07 > 0:21:09Dad, it's over.
0:21:10 > 0:21:14- You ready? Or you got other plans? - No, no.
0:21:14 > 0:21:18Right, good. You can drop Tiff off at Jane's with Bobby, yeah?
0:21:18 > 0:21:22I'll finish clearing up. It's a perfect chance for you two to get acquainted.
0:21:22 > 0:21:24No need, Mum's told me all about you.
0:21:24 > 0:21:26Oh, yeah?
0:21:26 > 0:21:32- You were with gran, right?- Yeah. - Well, till you walked out on her.
0:21:32 > 0:21:33Is that what your mum said?
0:21:33 > 0:21:35Actually, she said ran out.
0:21:35 > 0:21:37Why don't you two get going, eh?
0:21:37 > 0:21:39That's just the start.
0:21:39 > 0:21:43I know lots more. Grandad.
0:21:43 > 0:21:46- See you later.- Yeah, see you.
0:21:48 > 0:21:53- Motormouth's forgot her gloves. - Er, right.
0:21:53 > 0:21:56- Carol.- Just give me a minute, yeah?
0:21:57 > 0:21:59Take your time.
0:22:01 > 0:22:04SHE SOBS
0:22:19 > 0:22:26- Here you go.- Where are we going? - Over the Vic. Just phoned Jay. He's going to meet us there.
0:22:26 > 0:22:30- No, Phil, today is not a day for causing trouble. - I ain't going to cause trouble.
0:22:30 > 0:22:33This is about us showing our respects to Pat.
0:22:33 > 0:22:38- All of us, as a family. - It's a nice idea.
0:22:38 > 0:22:40Well, it's not mine. It's Ben's.
0:22:45 > 0:22:46BELL RINGS
0:22:46 > 0:22:49Listen up, everybody. Shh. Nice and quiet, now.
0:22:49 > 0:22:51Come on, we all know why we're here.
0:22:51 > 0:22:55And I'm pretty sure a lot of us wish we weren't.
0:22:55 > 0:22:57But, Pat was... Will always be a...
0:22:57 > 0:23:02Well, she meant a lot of things to a lot of different people.
0:23:02 > 0:23:05First of all, she was a mum.
0:23:05 > 0:23:08She was a grandmum,
0:23:08 > 0:23:11an aunty, a friend,
0:23:11 > 0:23:13a drinking partner
0:23:13 > 0:23:16- and a hell-raiser.- Oh, I say.
0:23:16 > 0:23:20She was all those things and much, much more.
0:23:20 > 0:23:27But, to me, Pat will always be number one in our book.
0:23:27 > 0:23:31So, everybody, I want you to raise your glasses to Pat.
0:23:31 > 0:23:33The one and only.
0:23:33 > 0:23:35ALL: The one and only. Pat!
0:23:46 > 0:23:48KAT: That was a nice speech.
0:23:48 > 0:23:53Well, no, it wasn't so much a speech. Just a few words, that's all.
0:23:53 > 0:23:57They're the best kind, ain't they? Straight from the heart.
0:23:57 > 0:24:02Yeah, it's always the best way. Say what you mean.
0:24:02 > 0:24:05Have it out there. Excuse me.
0:24:05 > 0:24:07Don't worry. I'm not stopping.
0:24:07 > 0:24:09I haven't come to make a scene, either.
0:24:11 > 0:24:13I just wanted to say I'm really sorry...
0:24:15 > 0:24:18..about what I did - you didn't deserve that.
0:24:20 > 0:24:22I wish it had never happened.
0:24:22 > 0:24:26So, why do it, then? You and Ricky - why?
0:24:28 > 0:24:32- It really wasn't about Ricky. - What does that mean?
0:24:32 > 0:24:35So, what do you want me to do? Move out?
0:24:35 > 0:24:38- You got a better offer? - You're the best thing that's ever happened to me.
0:24:38 > 0:24:42Not that good or you wouldn't have hopped into bed with someone else.
0:24:42 > 0:24:43- That was a mistake.- Not now.
0:24:46 > 0:24:48- Alfie.- You all right, Phil?
0:24:48 > 0:24:51Put a drink behind the bar for anyone who wants one. For Pat.
0:24:51 > 0:24:53What is this?
0:24:53 > 0:24:57And you can be the first. A drink for Denise and Patrick.
0:24:57 > 0:25:00- The police have seen sense. That's what it is.- They let Phil out.
0:25:00 > 0:25:04- And he's staying out. - No hard feelings, though, eh?
0:25:06 > 0:25:08- PATRICK: Denise.- No, it's OK.
0:25:08 > 0:25:10I wouldn't give him the satisfaction.
0:25:10 > 0:25:15Today of all days. Come on, Patrick.
0:25:22 > 0:25:25What was that all about back there?
0:25:29 > 0:25:31I heard you, Kat.
0:25:31 > 0:25:35On the Nanny Cam. Christmas Day.
0:25:35 > 0:25:38Why didn't you tell me how you feel?
0:25:38 > 0:25:41You'll tell Jean, but you won't tell me?
0:25:44 > 0:25:47Yeah, tell him I'll be out in a minute. Thank you.
0:25:50 > 0:25:53It's the first time I've heard you say sorry
0:25:53 > 0:25:56and it actually sounded like you meant it.
0:25:58 > 0:26:02So, if this wasn't about Ricky, what else was it about?
0:26:06 > 0:26:08Or is this just another one of your games?
0:26:18 > 0:26:21Her name was Kira, OK?
0:26:23 > 0:26:26Ricky didn't even know she'd been born.
0:26:31 > 0:26:35And I've stopped myself thinking about her all these years...
0:26:38 > 0:26:41..and then, I saw Ricky and...
0:26:48 > 0:26:54She was tiny. So tiny.
0:26:54 > 0:27:00And I looked at her and I thought - I've done this.
0:27:00 > 0:27:03I've finally done something good with my life.
0:27:07 > 0:27:11And I promised her I would be good for her, too.
0:27:11 > 0:27:13From then on and forever.
0:27:19 > 0:27:23And then, the doctors came and...
0:27:27 > 0:27:28..she died, Ian.
0:27:34 > 0:27:35Died in my arms.
0:27:39 > 0:27:43Did you mean that? Everything you said to your dad?
0:27:46 > 0:27:48Is it over?
0:27:51 > 0:27:53What about you?
0:27:53 > 0:27:55Are you going to say anything?
0:28:00 > 0:28:01What about?
0:28:10 > 0:28:12I was 17.
0:28:16 > 0:28:18I was just a kid myself.
0:28:18 > 0:28:21And you know what I was like back then.
0:28:22 > 0:28:25But I wouldn't have been like that.
0:28:25 > 0:28:28Not if she'd have lived. I know I wouldn't.
0:28:30 > 0:28:32I would have turned it around.
0:28:34 > 0:28:36I would've done it for her.
0:28:40 > 0:28:44So, erm, I didn't do it to hurt you.
0:28:44 > 0:28:45I meant that.
0:28:47 > 0:28:48It's just...
0:28:48 > 0:28:54I don't know. When I saw Ricky, it was like turning the clocks back.
0:28:54 > 0:28:59Like, being close to him was like being close to her again.
0:29:04 > 0:29:05And were you?
0:29:08 > 0:29:10- What?- Closer to her?
0:29:13 > 0:29:15No, of course not.
0:29:15 > 0:29:17Still. It was fun finding out, wasn't it?
0:29:17 > 0:29:19There's always a plus side.
0:29:24 > 0:29:26You are sick.
0:29:26 > 0:29:29You sleep with an ex-boyfriend to try and get close to a dead child
0:29:29 > 0:29:30and you think I'm sick?
0:29:32 > 0:29:35Sick and very sad.
0:29:37 > 0:29:40You know, I feel sorry for you.
0:29:40 > 0:29:44Just imagine it - all those days and nights
0:29:44 > 0:29:47you've got stretched out in front of you with no-one here.
0:29:47 > 0:29:51No-one wanting to be here. Even Pat's gone, now.
0:29:54 > 0:29:56It's just you, Ian.
0:29:56 > 0:30:00You and your chips and your veg.
0:30:02 > 0:30:05Is that really what you want out of your life?
0:30:05 > 0:30:07No, course not.
0:30:13 > 0:30:15So, you want me to go?
0:30:26 > 0:30:28Mandy...
0:30:32 > 0:30:33..stay.
0:31:42 > 0:31:44Never dull round here, is it?
0:31:44 > 0:31:47I hope you're not planning on doing anything stupid.
0:31:47 > 0:31:48- Like what?- Hanging around.
0:31:48 > 0:31:54- I've got my mother's funeral to sort out.- There's a bus in five minutes. Why don't you be under it?
0:31:54 > 0:31:58- Keep on like this, Derek, I'll start thinking I'm not welcome. - You're not.
0:31:58 > 0:32:01- So far as you're concerned. - So far as everyone's concerned.
0:32:01 > 0:32:05- That's not the impression I've been getting.- There you go.- Ta.
0:32:06 > 0:32:12My mum wanted me here and she'd have wanted me to stay.
0:32:12 > 0:32:14So, I'm staying.
0:32:19 > 0:32:21Cheers.
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