0:00:25 > 0:00:27What do you mean, it's your fault?
0:00:31 > 0:00:35- I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry.- Zainab?
0:00:35 > 0:00:37Mum, what are you talking about?
0:00:37 > 0:00:40I think I know what she's going to say.
0:00:42 > 0:00:43And you probably know too.
0:00:43 > 0:00:46Know what?
0:00:46 > 0:00:50Someone sent my father back into the fire that night.
0:00:53 > 0:00:55Someone told him I was in there.
0:00:55 > 0:01:02You wanted revenge, didn't you, Auntie? Tam, take off your shirt.
0:01:02 > 0:01:05Show her what she did.
0:01:05 > 0:01:07I'm sorry, Tamwar. I'm so sorry.
0:01:07 > 0:01:11And this is how God punishes her.
0:01:11 > 0:01:14- Af, where are you going?- Someone needs to get back to the restaurant.
0:01:14 > 0:01:17- You can't just walk out of here after that.- Ali's there on his own.
0:01:17 > 0:01:19Afia, no! Just once, do what I ask!
0:01:24 > 0:01:26- Excuse me, young man.- What?
0:01:26 > 0:01:28We've been waiting to order for around 20 minutes now.
0:01:28 > 0:01:30I'm going as fast as I can.
0:01:34 > 0:01:36Nice bum.
0:01:36 > 0:01:40- Anyway, I propose a toast.- Yeah?
0:01:41 > 0:01:43- To poverty. - I'm not drinking to that.
0:01:43 > 0:01:46- Come on, when has money ever made you happy?- Loads of times.
0:01:46 > 0:01:47That's cos you're shallow.
0:01:47 > 0:01:50Shallow and rich beats poor and deep any day of the week.
0:01:50 > 0:01:51Cheers to that.
0:01:53 > 0:01:57You know, maybe you should see this as less of a setback
0:01:57 > 0:02:00and more of an opportunity.
0:02:00 > 0:02:01Yeah, perhaps...
0:02:01 > 0:02:04perhaps you were never meant to run a bed and breakfast.
0:02:04 > 0:02:06Maybe...
0:02:06 > 0:02:12maybe this is your chance to do what you've always wanted to do.
0:02:12 > 0:02:14What? Like Britain's Next Top Model?
0:02:14 > 0:02:17Settle down. Maybe even get married.
0:02:21 > 0:02:23Sorry about the wait. What can I get you?
0:02:23 > 0:02:25Tell me, young man.
0:02:25 > 0:02:30- You wouldn't be on the menu yourself, would you?- Sorry?
0:02:30 > 0:02:33Only my sister, here, thinks it's time that I settled down
0:02:33 > 0:02:37- and you look all right.- Kim! - What? You don't ask, you don't get.
0:02:37 > 0:02:41Look, I'm all on my own tonight and I'm very busy. What would you like?
0:02:41 > 0:02:43That's what we're discussing. I mean, are you married?
0:02:43 > 0:02:44Can we just get on with it, please?
0:02:44 > 0:02:48- I'll have the pakora to start with, the chicken jalfrezi to follow. - Of course, madam.
0:02:48 > 0:02:50It wouldn't make a difference if you were, you know.
0:02:50 > 0:02:53You wouldn't be the first. You bored of her, are you?
0:02:53 > 0:02:57I tell you what. Why don't you gimme your number
0:02:57 > 0:02:58and I'll arrange a free sample?
0:02:58 > 0:03:02- Kim, pack it in.- What?- Look, I'd rather just get on with my job.
0:03:02 > 0:03:05- What are you saying, babe? Hm? - What do you want?
0:03:05 > 0:03:08The marriage ain't going to last with that tone of voice, I tell you.
0:03:08 > 0:03:10Give me a sec. I forgot what I was going to order.
0:03:10 > 0:03:13No, I will not hang on a sec. Go to hell!
0:03:13 > 0:03:14All of you!
0:03:19 > 0:03:21Divorce.
0:03:21 > 0:03:23- Right, are we going to go back for the rest?- Yeah, tomorrow.
0:03:23 > 0:03:26When my dad stops giving me the evil eye.
0:03:26 > 0:03:28Oh, hello.
0:03:28 > 0:03:31My brother know you're wearing one of his shirts?
0:03:35 > 0:03:37Where is he?
0:03:37 > 0:03:40He's upstairs, he's still asleep.
0:03:40 > 0:03:42Has he done something to you?
0:03:42 > 0:03:44No.
0:03:44 > 0:03:48Look, Tyler, go and make a cup of tea or something, yeah.
0:03:48 > 0:03:51I thought we was going to eat.
0:03:51 > 0:03:55Right, well, I'll get a takeaway. What do you want? Pizza? Curry?
0:03:55 > 0:03:59- Yeah, yeah, whatever. Just go. - Right, I'll be ten minutes.- Yes.
0:04:01 > 0:04:05So, are you going to tell me what happened, or..?
0:04:05 > 0:04:08How am I ever going to look Syed in the face again?
0:04:13 > 0:04:14He was torturing me.
0:04:17 > 0:04:19Torturing you?
0:04:20 > 0:04:23With how he might kill your father.
0:04:24 > 0:04:26And he was smiling as he said it.
0:04:28 > 0:04:30Like the devil might smile.
0:04:32 > 0:04:35And in that moment...
0:04:35 > 0:04:38all I wanted was for him to suffer.
0:04:40 > 0:04:44The thought that if he were dead...
0:04:44 > 0:04:46If he were dead, what?
0:04:49 > 0:04:53If he were dead, then it would be over.
0:04:55 > 0:04:59But it's not and it never will be.
0:05:05 > 0:05:10- Masood, don't.- Come here. - No, I don't deserve it.- Zainab.
0:05:15 > 0:05:18How long since we first sat in this room?
0:05:18 > 0:05:21- We were going to break all the rules, remember?- Mmm.
0:05:21 > 0:05:27Yeah, you, erm, you kissed me. And you put guy-liner on me.
0:05:27 > 0:05:32And you said, "Parents should be treated with complete contempt."
0:05:32 > 0:05:34And I remember thinking, "She's wonderful."
0:05:34 > 0:05:40And here we are now, 18 months later.
0:05:40 > 0:05:44Well, actually, it was the 16th November, 2010.
0:05:50 > 0:05:53You know when you said "you knew".
0:05:53 > 0:05:58- Did you never even ask the question? - She's my mum.- Yeah, but...
0:05:58 > 0:06:00what about my dad?
0:06:00 > 0:06:03Do you still think he should be treated with complete contempt?
0:06:03 > 0:06:08You don't choose your parents. You don't choose who you love.
0:06:08 > 0:06:10Why are you not crying?
0:06:10 > 0:06:13Why are you not beating down the walls and calling the police?
0:06:15 > 0:06:19Cos that night, it wasn't just my dad that died.
0:06:21 > 0:06:23Tamwar?
0:06:24 > 0:06:27I'd like a word with Afia alone, please.
0:06:40 > 0:06:43Nobody leaves, nobody so much as moves
0:06:43 > 0:06:46until this stupid, ignorant woman apologises.
0:06:46 > 0:06:49You put that away or I won't be answerable.
0:06:49 > 0:06:51It's a wooden spoon.
0:06:51 > 0:06:52And don't think I won't use it.
0:06:52 > 0:06:54- SHE MOUTHS: Help. - KIM LAUGHS
0:06:54 > 0:06:57Shut up!
0:06:57 > 0:06:58SHE MOUTHS: OK.
0:06:58 > 0:07:01I needed to prove something.
0:07:01 > 0:07:02Like what?
0:07:03 > 0:07:05Christian said I was fooling myself.
0:07:05 > 0:07:07About what?
0:07:07 > 0:07:09- About Anthony.- No.
0:07:09 > 0:07:11No, he fancies you like crazy.
0:07:13 > 0:07:15It's not about fancying.
0:07:15 > 0:07:18Listen, if I was to feel guilty about every stupid thing
0:07:18 > 0:07:22that I've done, then I'd have no time for anything else.
0:07:23 > 0:07:24I wanted to love.
0:07:27 > 0:07:28I wanted to...
0:07:30 > 0:07:34I wanted to feel the things you...
0:07:35 > 0:07:38..you read about and see in films.
0:07:38 > 0:07:42Well, I'm sorry but that's a load of pony anyway.
0:07:42 > 0:07:44What?
0:07:44 > 0:07:47Well, it's just nature's way of luring you in.
0:07:47 > 0:07:48It never lasts.
0:07:48 > 0:07:52I thought I'd feel something.
0:07:53 > 0:07:56But it just felt wrong.
0:07:57 > 0:07:59Empty.
0:08:01 > 0:08:03Cheap.
0:08:10 > 0:08:11Did you know?
0:08:12 > 0:08:13No.
0:08:16 > 0:08:18Does make a horrible kind of sense though.
0:08:21 > 0:08:22What's happened to Amira?
0:08:26 > 0:08:27How are you feeling?
0:08:27 > 0:08:32Er, numb. Can't really take it all in.
0:08:32 > 0:08:35I mean about your back. The burns.
0:08:35 > 0:08:37All that time in hospital.
0:08:37 > 0:08:40That's just ordinary pain, you know.
0:08:40 > 0:08:44You learn to live with ordinary pain.
0:08:44 > 0:08:46Right, the kids are in front of a DVD.
0:08:46 > 0:08:49They should be all right for half an hour.
0:08:50 > 0:08:52Where's your mother?
0:08:52 > 0:08:54Talking to Afia.
0:08:55 > 0:08:58Dad. Let her say what she has to say.
0:09:02 > 0:09:05I'm not asking you to forgive me.
0:09:05 > 0:09:07I don't even want you to forgive me.
0:09:07 > 0:09:10It's not as though I didn't know what he was like.
0:09:10 > 0:09:14Well, then, you know why I have been the way
0:09:14 > 0:09:16that I have been for the last three months.
0:09:17 > 0:09:20You got away with it. What's the problem?
0:09:20 > 0:09:22You really think that?
0:09:22 > 0:09:25You think I got away with it? KNOCK ON DOOR
0:09:25 > 0:09:27Masood, don't answer that!
0:09:27 > 0:09:29Afia, all I'm saying is please,
0:09:29 > 0:09:32please don't take this out on Tamwar, OK.
0:09:32 > 0:09:34It is not his fault. None of it.
0:09:34 > 0:09:38Please, just learn to love each other again. I'm begging of you.
0:09:38 > 0:09:41KNOCK ON DOOR
0:09:53 > 0:09:55Hola.
0:09:55 > 0:09:56- Is Syed there?- Huh?
0:09:56 > 0:09:58Something's kicking off down the restaurant.
0:09:58 > 0:10:00I've tried his mum and dad, but I ain't getting no reply.
0:10:00 > 0:10:02Look, just hang on a minute, yeah?
0:10:04 > 0:10:08- Tam and I were talking before you came in.- Yes.
0:10:08 > 0:10:11Remembering how we used to be.
0:10:11 > 0:10:13Only I can't.
0:10:14 > 0:10:19He reminds me of things I said, things I did.
0:10:20 > 0:10:23And I'm left thinking, "Who was that girl?"
0:10:23 > 0:10:27She was so full of fun and mischief and now look at her.
0:10:27 > 0:10:32Heart of stone. Irritable. A nag.
0:10:34 > 0:10:36But you know what they say.
0:10:38 > 0:10:39Marry a girl...
0:10:40 > 0:10:43..and watch her turn into your mother.
0:10:43 > 0:10:44KNOCKING ON DOOR
0:10:44 > 0:10:47- Just leave it!- I'm going to have to get that, Zainab.- Masood, please.
0:10:47 > 0:10:49They wouldn't be knocking like that if it wasn't important.
0:10:49 > 0:10:52Look, I hate to barge in but I need to talk to you.
0:10:52 > 0:10:54- Not him. Not now. - What is it, Christian?
0:10:54 > 0:10:56A waiter down at the restaurant is going off his nut.
0:10:56 > 0:10:58- Christian? - I don't know the details.
0:10:58 > 0:11:00Tyler goes down there, gets a takeaway,
0:11:00 > 0:11:03- finds this guy having a complete mental breakdown in front of your customers.- What?
0:11:03 > 0:11:05- Where are you going? - To sort it out.- No.
0:11:05 > 0:11:09- Was he being violent?- I don't know. - Can you guys stay here?
0:11:09 > 0:11:13- OK, I'm coming.- Masood, please. - No, it's OK, Mum, I'll go with them.
0:11:13 > 0:11:16- Syed.- OK? OK?
0:11:16 > 0:11:19Keep an eye on her. I'm afraid she'll do something stupid.
0:11:19 > 0:11:23The kids are upstairs watching telly, all right?
0:11:24 > 0:11:28- Zainab?- Just go away, OK? Just...
0:11:28 > 0:11:31No. Cos, apparently, you might do something stupid.
0:11:36 > 0:11:38Just cos the first time wasn't that great...
0:11:38 > 0:11:41You ain't going to believe what was happening...
0:11:41 > 0:11:43Sorry.
0:11:43 > 0:11:46Look, you haven't done anything wrong.
0:11:46 > 0:11:49You haven't failed.
0:11:50 > 0:11:53This is about me and how I feel about myself.
0:11:56 > 0:12:00I really am invisible to you all, aren't I?
0:12:00 > 0:12:01Like I don't have feelings.
0:12:01 > 0:12:07- Like you can say whatever you want to me and I'll just take it.- Ali.
0:12:07 > 0:12:10- What do you want?- Give me the spoon.
0:12:10 > 0:12:13Not until this stupid cow apologises.
0:12:13 > 0:12:15- Look, I was trying to explain... - Shut up!
0:12:15 > 0:12:17But he wouldn't give me a chance.
0:12:17 > 0:12:20Look, I was only having a laugh. I didn't mean it.
0:12:20 > 0:12:22Yeah, it's just what she's like.
0:12:22 > 0:12:25Look, darling, she didn't mean it. She's sorry, really.
0:12:25 > 0:12:27Ali.
0:12:27 > 0:12:28OK.
0:12:30 > 0:12:34- Come here. - I do apologise, ladies and gents.
0:12:34 > 0:12:36Please, carry on with your meals.
0:12:36 > 0:12:39If you can call two poppadoms a meal.
0:12:39 > 0:12:42- OK, we will sort this.- Thank you.
0:12:44 > 0:12:49- OK, Ali, what's the drama? - She kept asking if I was married.
0:12:49 > 0:12:51My wife says she's going to leave me.
0:12:51 > 0:12:54And take the baby. I can't bear it.
0:12:54 > 0:12:57All right, well you're not in any kind of trouble, OK.
0:12:57 > 0:13:00Just relax, we're going to look after you.
0:13:01 > 0:13:05So, everything you've ever thought about me is right.
0:13:05 > 0:13:07I'm a bad person.
0:13:07 > 0:13:12- You were just protecting your family.- No.
0:13:12 > 0:13:14No, it wasn't just that.
0:13:15 > 0:13:18All right, you did it cos you hated him.
0:13:20 > 0:13:22Because he hurt me.
0:13:22 > 0:13:25And now Tamwar is hurting.
0:13:25 > 0:13:29And Afia is right. God is punishing me.
0:13:29 > 0:13:30Is that how God operates?
0:13:30 > 0:13:33Well, we were meant to be going to the Khatam.
0:13:33 > 0:13:37So, tell me, who - who ever is going to forgive me now?
0:13:41 > 0:13:44Look, Zainab, I know it's not much but...
0:13:47 > 0:13:48..I do.
0:13:52 > 0:13:55- I forgive you. - PHONE RINGS
0:14:00 > 0:14:01Hello?
0:14:02 > 0:14:05Masood, everything all right?
0:14:05 > 0:14:07Oh, thank God.
0:14:07 > 0:14:11Thank God. Everyone's OK, yes? All right, then come home soon.
0:14:11 > 0:14:13Love you. Bye.
0:14:13 > 0:14:16Couple of seconds ago, God's punishing you
0:14:16 > 0:14:17and now you're thanking him.
0:14:21 > 0:14:23I tell you what,
0:14:23 > 0:14:26I'll put the kettle on, shall I?
0:14:26 > 0:14:30Dunno about you, but I could do with one.
0:14:30 > 0:14:35- So, what? You were just trying to prove something to yourself, were you?- I don't know.
0:14:35 > 0:14:37I don't know anything. I don't even know who I am.
0:14:37 > 0:14:39But you've got so much going for you.
0:14:39 > 0:14:43I mean, you're beautiful. You've got a lovely little girl.
0:14:43 > 0:14:45- Don't.- What have I said now?
0:14:45 > 0:14:47I'm such a bad mother.
0:14:47 > 0:14:49I try to do the right thing.
0:14:49 > 0:14:53- I want to love her, I do love her, but...- But what?
0:14:53 > 0:14:56You get the husband, you get the child, you get the nice home
0:14:56 > 0:14:59and you expect everything to be perfect.
0:14:59 > 0:15:00But it's not.
0:15:00 > 0:15:02I'll tell Tyler and Lauren not to say anything, all right?
0:15:02 > 0:15:05That's just more pretending. It's the pretending that I can't bear.
0:15:05 > 0:15:08- You're just saying that cos you're unhappy.- I'm always unhappy.
0:15:08 > 0:15:12You know, I don't think I've had a genuine moment of happiness
0:15:12 > 0:15:14since I was ten years old.
0:15:16 > 0:15:19My life is a complete fraud.
0:15:20 > 0:15:23But I'm not fooling anyone, am I?
0:15:23 > 0:15:26I don't even expect anyone to like me.
0:15:26 > 0:15:29The most I can hope for is that they're jealous,
0:15:29 > 0:15:31that they envy me, that they want what I've got.
0:15:33 > 0:15:35If only they knew.
0:15:36 > 0:15:38I like you.
0:15:38 > 0:15:40That's really kind of you.
0:15:42 > 0:15:45But you know what I think when you say that?
0:15:47 > 0:15:48More fool you.
0:15:59 > 0:16:01You know what I think.
0:16:02 > 0:16:05I don't know if this is true but it feels true.
0:16:08 > 0:16:10Life just happens.
0:16:12 > 0:16:14You know, we think we're making all these decisions,
0:16:14 > 0:16:17all these choices about the people we want to be,
0:16:17 > 0:16:20the life we want to lead. But do we?
0:16:22 > 0:16:25I mean, did you choose to be Zainab Masood?
0:16:28 > 0:16:31You didn't choose to be you any more than I chose to be me.
0:16:31 > 0:16:33But here we are.
0:16:34 > 0:16:36Muslim woman, gay man.
0:16:37 > 0:16:40Neither of us chose that.
0:16:41 > 0:16:44I mean, I don't remember any fork in the road saying gay or not gay.
0:16:44 > 0:16:46Just...
0:16:47 > 0:16:48..just is.
0:16:50 > 0:16:53I know that God sets us tests.
0:16:54 > 0:16:56And we either pass or we fail.
0:16:56 > 0:17:00And why would he do that? I mean, what would be the point?
0:17:00 > 0:17:03Well, all I know is that I had a choice.
0:17:03 > 0:17:05And I failed.
0:17:05 > 0:17:08And here I am with nothing to show for it than,
0:17:08 > 0:17:12than my guilt and all that dirty money.
0:17:12 > 0:17:15Yeah, well, you can easily get rid of money.
0:17:15 > 0:17:17All right.
0:17:17 > 0:17:20Here's another question for you.
0:17:21 > 0:17:22Yusef.
0:17:23 > 0:17:25Did he choose to be Yusef?
0:17:26 > 0:17:28Did he decide to do all those...
0:17:28 > 0:17:31all those wicked things?
0:17:31 > 0:17:33They were wicked, weren't they?
0:17:36 > 0:17:37And Sy.
0:17:39 > 0:17:42Did he choose to be Sy?
0:17:42 > 0:17:44Did I choose to fall in love with him?
0:17:46 > 0:17:47No.
0:17:49 > 0:17:50Just happened.
0:17:52 > 0:17:54Sometimes life just...
0:17:57 > 0:17:58..just happens.
0:17:59 > 0:18:01And do you?
0:18:02 > 0:18:04Do I what?
0:18:05 > 0:18:06Do you love my son?
0:18:08 > 0:18:12Zainab, how can you even ask me that, eh?
0:18:12 > 0:18:14The amount of times you must have heard me say it.
0:18:16 > 0:18:18Well, I'm sorry.
0:18:21 > 0:18:24But I don't think that I was listening before.
0:18:30 > 0:18:32Well, maybe we do have a choice, eh?
0:18:35 > 0:18:39Maybe we can choose not to hurt each other any more.
0:18:42 > 0:18:44DOOR OPENS
0:18:46 > 0:18:50Tam and Afia will be along shortly. Dad too.
0:18:55 > 0:18:57Everything all right in here?
0:18:59 > 0:19:05Yeah. I don't know about you, but I am getting very hungry,
0:19:05 > 0:19:08so I am going to go into the kitchen and heat up some food.
0:19:16 > 0:19:18- I've just spoken to his wife.- Hm.
0:19:18 > 0:19:20And apparently it was just a row.
0:19:20 > 0:19:21She was never really going to leave him.
0:19:21 > 0:19:24I didn't even know he was married.
0:19:24 > 0:19:27Well, you didn't ask, did you?
0:19:27 > 0:19:29Erm.
0:19:29 > 0:19:31How are you feeling?
0:19:35 > 0:19:36Ali.
0:19:37 > 0:19:41I've just spoken to your wife and she wants to talk.
0:19:41 > 0:19:45So, I'm going to get you a cab and the fare's on us, all right?
0:19:46 > 0:19:49Anthony? Amira? Can I come in a minute?
0:19:49 > 0:19:51Yeah. Yeah, come in. Come in.
0:19:52 > 0:19:54Oh, what happened to Amira?
0:19:54 > 0:19:56She's gone.
0:19:56 > 0:19:58Where to?
0:20:00 > 0:20:03Tyler said that there's some drink in here somewhere.
0:20:03 > 0:20:05It's just there, babes.
0:20:05 > 0:20:08So, are you OK?
0:20:08 > 0:20:10Yeah. Just a bit hungry, that's all.
0:20:10 > 0:20:14Oh, well, me and Tyler are going to get a pizza if you're up for it.
0:20:14 > 0:20:17Well, I've got monkfish in the fridge if you...
0:20:17 > 0:20:20OK. Yeah, sure. Why not?
0:20:20 > 0:20:22Right. Monkfish it is, then.
0:20:34 > 0:20:37So, what? Are you saying we got him all wrong?
0:20:37 > 0:20:40We owe your life to Christian, let's not forget that.
0:20:40 > 0:20:43Come on, there must be more to it than that.
0:20:43 > 0:20:45We just had a chat. That's all.
0:20:46 > 0:20:50- Yeah. And? - And we worked out a few things.
0:20:50 > 0:20:55- Like what?- Ha-ha. Ask your mum.
0:21:00 > 0:21:01Hm-huh.
0:21:02 > 0:21:07Hiya. Where've you been?
0:21:07 > 0:21:10Oh, I've been trying to walk off this headache.
0:21:10 > 0:21:12It didn't work. I'm going to go and lie down.
0:21:12 > 0:21:14Can I do anything?
0:21:16 > 0:21:17I'm OK.
0:21:21 > 0:21:24Amira. You're just in time. We're about to eat.
0:21:24 > 0:21:27Then, we're heading off to the mosque for the Khatam.
0:21:27 > 0:21:29I'm not up to it, I'm sorry.
0:21:36 > 0:21:41Christian, are you going to stay and join us for dinner?
0:21:43 > 0:21:44If that's all right.
0:21:44 > 0:21:49Of course. Could you run me a quick errand first though, please?
0:21:51 > 0:21:54- Yeah, sure.- Thank you.
0:22:01 > 0:22:04Let's go and endure this family dinner.
0:22:04 > 0:22:05I can get you out of it if you want.
0:22:05 > 0:22:07I mean, Mum's hardly in a position to kick up a fuss.
0:22:07 > 0:22:10Well, if I can go through what I've been through
0:22:10 > 0:22:12in the last three months,
0:22:12 > 0:22:15I'm sure I can manage another couple of hours.
0:22:15 > 0:22:16And...
0:22:16 > 0:22:21what about us? How do you feel about us?
0:22:21 > 0:22:25- I'm going to try. And you?- Yeah.
0:22:31 > 0:22:33- It smells nice, you know. - Yes, I know it smells nice, Kim,
0:22:33 > 0:22:35but we can wait until we get in the house.
0:22:35 > 0:22:39- Just a little bite. It's going to get cold, you know.- No! We're going to put it on a plate, tonight.
0:22:39 > 0:22:42- You really think you're Mum, innit. - No, I'm just trying to be civilised.
0:22:42 > 0:22:45"Just trying to be civilised." I'm damn hungry, man.
0:22:45 > 0:22:49I know, I'm hungry too. And tired. And fed up.
0:22:49 > 0:22:51Let's get inside.
0:22:51 > 0:22:55- Oh! What's that?- A letter.
0:22:57 > 0:23:00I'll get it, shall I? Yeah.
0:23:00 > 0:23:02I could murder a drink right now.
0:23:02 > 0:23:06We haven't got any drinks. Can't afford any drinks.
0:23:11 > 0:23:17- We can now with £130,000!- Ah!
0:23:17 > 0:23:19- Oh, Zainab, you beauty! Ah!- Ah!
0:23:19 > 0:23:21Let me look, let me look.
0:23:21 > 0:23:24Hmm, lovely. So, this is monkfish?
0:23:24 > 0:23:30- My mum don't really get past fish fingers.- It's a hidden talent.
0:23:30 > 0:23:34- And how are you, bruv? You all right now?- Yeah, yeah, I'm all right.
0:23:34 > 0:23:38Look, between you and me, all right, she hasn't had much experience.
0:23:38 > 0:23:42Only Syed. And you know he's, he's gay. She just got nervous.
0:23:42 > 0:23:45That's what all this is about.
0:23:46 > 0:23:50So, was there ever a time you was inexperienced, Lauren?
0:23:54 > 0:23:56Right, so you're still on then?
0:23:56 > 0:24:00Yeah, it just needs a bit of time.
0:24:00 > 0:24:02Tuck in.
0:24:05 > 0:24:10So, what actually happens at one of these, you know, Khatams?
0:24:10 > 0:24:13It's like a group prayer to cleanse you of ill fortune.
0:24:13 > 0:24:15It's about forgiveness.
0:24:15 > 0:24:18Well, we could all do with a bit of that, eh?
0:24:22 > 0:24:26Christian, would you like to come along?
0:24:28 > 0:24:30Really?
0:24:31 > 0:24:35Yes. I mean, you don't have to take part, obviously.
0:24:35 > 0:24:37But if you'd like to watch.
0:24:37 > 0:24:40If you'd like to that's all.
0:24:40 > 0:24:44I'd like to. I'd like that very much.
0:24:44 > 0:24:49What about you, Afia? Are you going to come to the Khatam?
0:24:49 > 0:24:53- Actually, Dad, me and Afia, we're feeling really tired. It's been a long day.- No.
0:24:53 > 0:24:55It's all right, Tam. I'd like to go.
0:24:55 > 0:24:57Thank you, Afia.
0:25:01 > 0:25:05You all right? Come join us.
0:25:05 > 0:25:09Can I have a word with you, please? In private.
0:25:09 > 0:25:10Sure.
0:25:20 > 0:25:21How's the head?
0:25:24 > 0:25:28- What's with the bags? - I've made a decision.
0:25:28 > 0:25:30OK?
0:25:30 > 0:25:32There's no point pretending.
0:25:32 > 0:25:34What do you mean?
0:25:34 > 0:25:38You don't love me. You're never going to love me the way that I want you to.
0:25:38 > 0:25:40You love someone else.
0:25:40 > 0:25:41Amira, I...
0:25:41 > 0:25:46It's not fair on me, it's not fair on you. I've got to take control of the situation.
0:25:47 > 0:25:50I need you to look after Yasmin for me.
0:25:50 > 0:25:55- What?- Just for a couple of days, just until I sort myself out.
0:25:55 > 0:25:58- I need some time by myself. - Well, you can't leave now.
0:25:58 > 0:26:01I've got a taxi waiting outside. Please, don't tell the others.
0:26:01 > 0:26:04- I don't want to spoil it for everyone.- Amira.
0:26:04 > 0:26:07Nothing you can say will make me change my mind.
0:26:07 > 0:26:09Where you going to go?
0:26:09 > 0:26:10Not far.
0:26:11 > 0:26:13I'll be in touch.
0:26:13 > 0:26:16Just promise me you won't say anything.
0:26:16 > 0:26:18Just make up an excuse. Just...
0:26:20 > 0:26:23..tell them whatever.
0:26:25 > 0:26:27I'm sorry it didn't work out.
0:26:29 > 0:26:30I've got to go.
0:26:55 > 0:26:59MASOOD: I would like to propose a toast.
0:27:01 > 0:27:05This family has been through so much over the last 12 months.
0:27:06 > 0:27:08So much pain.
0:27:08 > 0:27:12So much hurt. So much anger.
0:27:13 > 0:27:17And, yet, amazingly, we're all still here.
0:27:18 > 0:27:21I know it's a long, long road,
0:27:21 > 0:27:27but I believe that the love that's round this table,
0:27:27 > 0:27:30the love that we share,
0:27:30 > 0:27:32the love we all feel, right?
0:27:34 > 0:27:37I believe that this love will see us through.
0:27:39 > 0:27:41I'm so proud of us all.
0:27:43 > 0:27:47Come, Pappu, this is important. Is Amira not coming?
0:27:47 > 0:27:50No, she's just had a call from her cousin.
0:27:50 > 0:27:52Apparently, Qadim's been taken ill.
0:27:52 > 0:27:55She didn't want to leave, but she felt she had to.
0:27:55 > 0:27:58She apologises for leaving so suddenly.
0:27:58 > 0:27:59Is it serious?
0:27:59 > 0:28:02She won't know until she gets there.
0:28:02 > 0:28:05Well, we'll keep him in our prayers.
0:28:06 > 0:28:08So, raise your glass, son.
0:28:08 > 0:28:11To the family.
0:28:13 > 0:28:14To Christian.
0:28:15 > 0:28:18To us all. Nayi shuruaat aur lambi zindagi.
0:28:18 > 0:28:22That means new start and long life.
0:28:22 > 0:28:25Say it again.
0:28:25 > 0:28:28Nayi shuruaat aur lambi zindagi.
0:28:28 > 0:28:31Nayi. Say it again.
0:28:33 > 0:28:36- Cheers.- Cheers.- Cheers.
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