0:00:24 > 0:00:27SHE SOBS
0:00:27 > 0:00:29I don't want to be on my own.
0:00:42 > 0:00:43Hey...
0:00:47 > 0:00:51..we are both going to be all right. Hm?
0:00:57 > 0:01:01Masood, I do... You know, I do have...
0:01:01 > 0:01:02I have the passion.
0:01:02 > 0:01:04It's just I'm so tired most of the time
0:01:04 > 0:01:07and it's the last thing on my list, because...
0:01:08 > 0:01:09But I do love you...
0:01:35 > 0:01:37- How much is it then, Tracey? - £3.20.
0:01:40 > 0:01:42I didn't think he was going to get me a ring...
0:01:48 > 0:01:50To the happy couple.
0:01:50 > 0:01:53The happy couple.
0:01:55 > 0:01:56Zee, don't.
0:01:58 > 0:01:59Masood.
0:01:59 > 0:02:00KNOCKING ON DOOR
0:02:00 > 0:02:03- Zee, stop.- Masood...- Zee, stop!
0:02:10 > 0:02:13Wagwan, brother. So what, you coming out?
0:02:13 > 0:02:15Oh. Er...
0:02:15 > 0:02:16yeah.
0:02:16 > 0:02:20I can't, cos I'm washing my hair.
0:02:20 > 0:02:21SHE SOBS
0:02:25 > 0:02:27Listen, we can have a couple of laughs, you know.
0:02:27 > 0:02:29A few drinks and that, a packet of crisps maybe...
0:02:29 > 0:02:31Kamil might wake up.
0:02:31 > 0:02:33Zainab...
0:02:36 > 0:02:39You know what, brother, I'm having a night off, tonight...
0:02:39 > 0:02:41Why don't you have a night off, too?
0:02:42 > 0:02:43I'll get my coat.
0:02:47 > 0:02:50- The mortgage - is it mine or is it yours?- Zainab...
0:02:50 > 0:02:52I'm just curious. Is the mortgage mine or yours?
0:02:52 > 0:02:54Don't do this. Kamil...
0:02:54 > 0:02:58The outstanding council tax? The rug in the living room? The children?
0:02:58 > 0:03:02Mine? Yours? Ours? I don't know, why don't we just bag up the youngest one
0:03:02 > 0:03:03and give it to charity?
0:03:03 > 0:03:05- Don't be so stupid!- Yes! Aren't I?
0:03:05 > 0:03:07You are the child. Stop acting like a spoilt child!
0:03:07 > 0:03:10This is all tied up together, Masood, all right!
0:03:10 > 0:03:14We are all tied together, you ridiculous middle-aged fool...
0:03:14 > 0:03:17And "spoilt"? How dare you! You think I enjoy being exhausted all the time?
0:03:17 > 0:03:22Juggling everything. Stuck behind a counter. Do I, Masood? Do I?
0:03:22 > 0:03:24Do you even have any idea what it is that I want?
0:03:24 > 0:03:26Because when was the last time that you asked me?
0:03:26 > 0:03:29Oh no, I just get the instructions! That's all.
0:03:29 > 0:03:33Oh, I am so sorry. You know, getting off your backside, aiming for higher.
0:03:33 > 0:03:35That is such a crime, isn't it?
0:03:35 > 0:03:39What kind of life do you think that you would have had without me, huh?
0:03:39 > 0:03:42What kind of a life? Wallying about posting your stupid letters...
0:03:42 > 0:03:45One without pointless "water features", that's for a start...
0:03:45 > 0:03:48You sit there and you play games on your mobile phone. Oh, Masood,
0:03:48 > 0:03:53you need me! You think everything just gets magically done in this house, does it?
0:03:53 > 0:03:56Are you saying I do nothing? Is that what you're saying? I DO NOTHING?
0:03:56 > 0:04:00Everything that we have lost, everything that we have given up
0:04:00 > 0:04:02is for this, yeah? For this?
0:04:03 > 0:04:06Our own families, as good as estranged. Living miles away...
0:04:06 > 0:04:08We have done it for this.
0:04:08 > 0:04:11- I HAVE TRIED, ZAINAB! - It's not about you!
0:04:11 > 0:04:15Or me... We both do this for us.
0:04:15 > 0:04:18For all of us.
0:04:18 > 0:04:22So, why are you ripping the heart out of this? For what?
0:04:22 > 0:04:24You don't even say you love me, Zainab.
0:04:24 > 0:04:26I don't say I love you.
0:04:26 > 0:04:28You don't even really like who I am.
0:04:28 > 0:04:33Thirty years! How ever do you untangle thirty years?
0:04:39 > 0:04:40METAL CRASHES
0:04:46 > 0:04:51It is not my fault you don't fancy me any more!
0:05:00 > 0:05:02I told you, I don't trust him.
0:05:02 > 0:05:06- You ain't the one marrying him.- Why would you? It's not going to get her up the housing list.
0:05:06 > 0:05:09And who says romance is dead? Hope, Bianca...
0:05:09 > 0:05:12Hope and naivety and the fact that she's head over heels in love
0:05:12 > 0:05:14with him...
0:05:14 > 0:05:16Look, the choices she makes now might not be what she wants
0:05:16 > 0:05:19when she's 40, but at least she's going for it.
0:05:19 > 0:05:22Maybe she's the one who can actually hold on to it...
0:05:22 > 0:05:24Wouldn't that be great?
0:05:24 > 0:05:27Doesn't that deserve a little drink over the Vic?
0:05:33 > 0:05:37All right. Next one. "Have you ever"...
0:05:37 > 0:05:39What?
0:05:39 > 0:05:40What?
0:05:42 > 0:05:44Have you ever said I love you and not meant it?
0:05:44 > 0:05:45Yes, I have.
0:05:48 > 0:05:50What are you talking about?
0:05:50 > 0:05:54Does she ever have a night out where she doesn't get drunk?
0:06:01 > 0:06:03Hey, Mrs B, Mrs B, put your purse away, all right?
0:06:03 > 0:06:05This one's on me, yeah?
0:06:05 > 0:06:09Hey, Trace, could I get four soda waters and lime...
0:06:10 > 0:06:13And a bag of ready salted.
0:06:13 > 0:06:17And four bags of ready salted.
0:06:17 > 0:06:20- My shout.- No, thank you very much. No, I couldn't.
0:06:20 > 0:06:22You see, it's just that we are rather
0:06:22 > 0:06:24lacking in the financial department.
0:06:24 > 0:06:27I'm sure you can. It's an engagement party.
0:06:27 > 0:06:31Come on, Mrs B, you're very rude, looking at a gift horse and saying neigh!
0:06:32 > 0:06:36You haven't wanted me in years, really, have you, Masood?
0:06:38 > 0:06:40Going through the motions...
0:06:41 > 0:06:46Falling asleep on the sofa with biscuit crumbs down your front
0:06:46 > 0:06:48and the television on.
0:06:48 > 0:06:52Anything to avoid coming upstairs.
0:06:56 > 0:06:57What happened to us?
0:07:02 > 0:07:03That's not true.
0:07:10 > 0:07:14You think I don't understand the appeal of a young girl?
0:07:16 > 0:07:18Naked admiration...
0:07:20 > 0:07:23And yet I'm the one saying sorry.
0:07:34 > 0:07:36If you think all this...
0:07:40 > 0:07:41..then why are you fighting so hard?
0:07:47 > 0:07:48Can't we face it together?
0:07:50 > 0:07:52Zainab, please.
0:07:54 > 0:07:56Because I'm still the same.
0:07:58 > 0:08:02Masood, I am still the same girl inside.
0:08:06 > 0:08:09Ssh...
0:08:29 > 0:08:32Please, please, please can you play this?
0:08:37 > 0:08:40She'll come round. She just needs to think about it.
0:08:40 > 0:08:44A little something for later. From all of us.
0:08:46 > 0:08:47Congratulations.
0:08:49 > 0:08:53Congratulations, darling.
0:08:53 > 0:08:56- I'm going to get myself a drink. Are you all right?- Yeah, cheers.
0:08:56 > 0:08:58She'll come.
0:08:58 > 0:08:59Yeah, you said.
0:09:03 > 0:09:05Mrs B, no you never did. Mrs B!
0:09:06 > 0:09:08I weren't born old, Arthur.
0:09:08 > 0:09:10No, but Dot, you only have to have a drink
0:09:10 > 0:09:13if you can answer "yes" to the "have you ever done" question,
0:09:13 > 0:09:16not "no" to the "have you ever done" question.
0:09:16 > 0:09:17Yes, but I have "ever done".
0:09:20 > 0:09:24When I was your age, Poppy, I was quite the gymnast.
0:09:27 > 0:09:30Even if this gaseous stuff does play havoc with my digestion.
0:09:30 > 0:09:32Who's for another round?
0:09:32 > 0:09:34Could I get a pint, please?
0:09:34 > 0:09:36A pint? No, you won't.
0:09:36 > 0:09:40You'll have a soda and lime like everyone else. It's refreshing.
0:09:40 > 0:09:43And you only get married once, you know, Tyler.
0:09:46 > 0:09:49Well, well, I mean... or twice or three times or four times,
0:09:49 > 0:09:52- you know what I mean? - Why do you always say that?- What?
0:09:52 > 0:09:55I'm not being funny, but every time there's anything like wedding,
0:09:55 > 0:09:57he always says that.
0:09:57 > 0:10:02Does he? Why do you always say that, Fatboy?
0:10:02 > 0:10:04You can't get involved.
0:10:04 > 0:10:05I am involved.
0:10:05 > 0:10:08It doesn't make a difference if you do get involved, cos they're
0:10:08 > 0:10:12still going to do what they were going to do anyway.
0:10:12 > 0:10:13Stay, leave, die...
0:10:15 > 0:10:18Get in debt, grow a beard and end up on the streets...
0:10:20 > 0:10:22Yeah.
0:10:22 > 0:10:26She's got the odd whisker but I don't think Mum could stretch to a full beard.
0:10:29 > 0:10:34This is real life, isn't it, Masood? This is marriage.
0:10:36 > 0:10:40Happy? That's just flashes now...
0:10:41 > 0:10:45You know, Kamil learning to use his fork properly.
0:10:45 > 0:10:48An evening without that idiot brother of yours
0:10:48 > 0:10:50giving a running commentary over the television.
0:10:50 > 0:10:53The highlight of your day is Kamil using his fork?
0:10:55 > 0:10:56Yes.
0:10:56 > 0:10:58Yes, yes it is...
0:11:03 > 0:11:05You know, Masood, you fall in love...
0:11:05 > 0:11:12You can't eat, you can't see anything but each other...
0:11:12 > 0:11:17How can that last? The world would be full of blind anorexics!
0:11:17 > 0:11:20SHE LAUGHS
0:11:20 > 0:11:21HE CHUCKLES
0:11:27 > 0:11:31Do you think our parents were happy their entire lives?
0:11:33 > 0:11:37Do you think everyone in London, in Walford...
0:11:37 > 0:11:41You think it's full of ecstatically married middle-aged couples?
0:11:49 > 0:11:50I want to be happy...
0:11:54 > 0:11:59I want you to have everything you deserve. Everything I can't...
0:12:02 > 0:12:04I just don't cut it, do I?
0:12:08 > 0:12:11What? We're going to stop being responsible?
0:12:11 > 0:12:15We're going to stop loving Kamil just because we're not in same house?
0:12:15 > 0:12:18Zainab, what do you...?
0:12:18 > 0:12:20You'd think that of me?
0:12:26 > 0:12:29We CAN find a different way.
0:12:29 > 0:12:32- You know, last October, you know when...- You told me to go.
0:12:32 > 0:12:34- Just listen for a minute. - No, Masood, you told me...
0:12:34 > 0:12:37Just listen, for once, Zainab. Please just...
0:12:44 > 0:12:46I didn't just "get by"...
0:12:49 > 0:12:53I did more than survive...
0:12:53 > 0:12:55I'd forgotten...
0:12:55 > 0:13:01When you went away, I was who I am...
0:13:01 > 0:13:04- Who- I- am.
0:13:07 > 0:13:09And I'm all right.
0:13:09 > 0:13:14I think I'm an all right bloke.
0:13:19 > 0:13:20We can find a better way.
0:13:22 > 0:13:23Zainab, the world...
0:13:25 > 0:13:29Walford...is full of people doing something better than this.
0:13:29 > 0:13:34I know... I know you are an all right bloke. I know...
0:13:44 > 0:13:46No more "to do" lists, Zainab.
0:13:47 > 0:13:48- OK.- Hm?
0:13:52 > 0:13:54We don't have to do any of this.
0:13:58 > 0:14:04No more disappointments, peering over my shoulder,
0:14:04 > 0:14:06finding me inadequate.
0:14:09 > 0:14:11Years...
0:14:11 > 0:14:13Years...
0:14:13 > 0:14:15D'you know what that does to someone...
0:14:15 > 0:14:18I can stop. I will stop. I can... No more lists.
0:14:18 > 0:14:22- No, you can't.- I won't... - You can't, Zainab.
0:14:22 > 0:14:24You are who you are.
0:14:25 > 0:14:27You'll still do your lists.
0:14:27 > 0:14:30- You will...- I won't. - Just in your head.
0:14:30 > 0:14:32And...
0:14:32 > 0:14:35..the only difference is I'll have to guess.
0:14:35 > 0:14:38Because I am who I am, And I'll keep trying.
0:14:38 > 0:14:40Just...
0:14:40 > 0:14:41I...
0:14:45 > 0:14:46I can't...
0:14:52 > 0:14:54- I don't...- No, Masood!
0:14:54 > 0:14:56- I don't...- Just listen.
0:14:56 > 0:14:58No more.
0:15:01 > 0:15:03No more.
0:15:10 > 0:15:11I will not do this any more...
0:15:20 > 0:15:22I don't want this any more.
0:15:37 > 0:15:39SHE SIGHS
0:15:44 > 0:15:46OK.
0:15:56 > 0:16:01Oh, right, this is the start of the whole of the rest of their lives together.
0:16:01 > 0:16:05- For ever.- And ever. And ever!
0:16:05 > 0:16:08No offence, but I'd rather travel and have a career.
0:16:08 > 0:16:10Thank God for that!
0:16:10 > 0:16:12Well, yeah. Me too, cheers.
0:16:12 > 0:16:15No, no, no, no... It's not like that, Whit, it's not like that.
0:16:15 > 0:16:20You know, it's really romantic. You know what I mean, brother, cos I'm kind of welling up in here.
0:16:20 > 0:16:24You know, cos I'm just waiting for the day that this girl says it to me, you know.
0:16:27 > 0:16:31Ah, bless! The triumph of hope over experience.
0:16:31 > 0:16:35That's exactly what I said to Bianca. You've got to let the kids make their own mistakes.
0:16:35 > 0:16:38You're quite an expert in that, ain't you, Carol?
0:16:38 > 0:16:41Well, I'm the pot, and you're the kettle, Dot.
0:16:41 > 0:16:45- Anyway, how's it at yours? - My lodger keeps telling me
0:16:45 > 0:16:50there's the family you're born into, and the one you fall into.
0:16:50 > 0:16:52Poppy. Hot water'll be off in ten minutes.
0:16:54 > 0:16:56Right, I need to wash my wotsits.
0:16:56 > 0:16:59Ooh, baby! I'll wash your wotsits for you.
0:16:59 > 0:17:01Dinner plates, saucepans, my teapot.
0:17:01 > 0:17:04Yeah, the thing is, I wouldn't like to break your teapot.
0:17:04 > 0:17:07- See you later.- OK, great.
0:17:07 > 0:17:10Congratulations. I hope you two are very happy together.
0:17:10 > 0:17:11Oh, thank you.
0:17:12 > 0:17:14- Right, see you later.- Bye.
0:17:23 > 0:17:26Will you stop it, smiling like that! You're just freaking me out.
0:17:26 > 0:17:29Mrs Butcher! Can I get you a drink?
0:17:29 > 0:17:32A double vodka and orange please, Tyler. And don't call me Mrs Butcher, all right?
0:17:32 > 0:17:36It was fun while it lasted, but I'm as good as divorced. Come here.
0:17:38 > 0:17:40This can wait until tomorrow, can't it?
0:17:40 > 0:17:43Tomorrow! Everything is always tomorrow with you, Masood.
0:17:43 > 0:17:44That I will not miss.
0:17:44 > 0:17:48Yes, I'm still here. Yes, it's one adult and...
0:17:53 > 0:17:56And one child...
0:17:57 > 0:17:58You have?
0:18:02 > 0:18:04Yes?
0:18:04 > 0:18:08- Zee, Kamil, he's... - Bear with me, please. One minute.
0:18:08 > 0:18:13It's 4616 8045 2001.
0:18:15 > 0:18:17The name on the card?
0:18:17 > 0:18:19Yeah, it's Zainab Masood.
0:18:19 > 0:18:22No, sorry, it's Zainab Khan.
0:18:22 > 0:18:25Expiry is 02/16.
0:18:26 > 0:18:29Kamil... Zainab, Kamil's sleeping.
0:18:29 > 0:18:32We'll just tell him that he's going on an adventure, OK?
0:18:32 > 0:18:36Like we did when Tamwar had his molar out... I'm sorry?
0:18:36 > 0:18:39Security code is 421. 421.
0:18:41 > 0:18:43Is that everything? OK, thank you.
0:18:50 > 0:18:52It's so far, Zee.
0:18:52 > 0:18:56Yes, Masood. Yes it is, OK. Please don't make a drama.
0:18:57 > 0:19:02Please, OK? It's just another holiday to go and see Grandma...
0:19:02 > 0:19:03That's what we'll tell him.
0:19:03 > 0:19:06Unless of course you have an objection to doing that?
0:19:13 > 0:19:15What about friends?
0:19:15 > 0:19:16Friends?
0:19:17 > 0:19:20You were my best friend.
0:19:30 > 0:19:32Anyway... I don't have any real friends here...
0:19:33 > 0:19:38This has been your place, delivering your little letters.
0:19:39 > 0:19:44Always has been. Me? Me, I'm too outspoken, a square peg.
0:19:45 > 0:19:48That also I will not miss, I can tell you...
0:19:49 > 0:19:54Friends! And I'll tell you what, you can tell that Denise...
0:19:54 > 0:19:58You can tell Denise...
0:19:58 > 0:20:01..that I will send her a postcard.
0:20:06 > 0:20:08- Zee, all I...- No, Masood.
0:20:08 > 0:20:12Please, if this is it, then it doesn't matter where I go, does it?
0:20:12 > 0:20:14So please, please, I'm begging you.
0:20:14 > 0:20:18Can we please just get it over with now. Please?
0:20:18 > 0:20:24Unless of course you want to object to that?
0:20:24 > 0:20:25Do you?
0:20:32 > 0:20:36Now there's only one person left that I've got to say goodbye to.
0:20:44 > 0:20:48Sorry, I was just heading off. Everything all right?
0:21:06 > 0:21:08It's fine.
0:21:09 > 0:21:11Oh, it's none of my business.
0:21:16 > 0:21:18It's a lump.
0:21:19 > 0:21:21Um...
0:21:21 > 0:21:25I found a lump and before I would have...
0:21:29 > 0:21:30Um...
0:21:31 > 0:21:35Anyway, Denise came with me to the doctor's.
0:21:35 > 0:21:37And I'm just waiting for the results now.
0:21:43 > 0:21:44I'm sure it'll be fine.
0:21:47 > 0:21:50Yeah, I know... It will be fine. PHONE RINGS
0:21:57 > 0:21:58You should get that.
0:22:07 > 0:22:10I know you were sleeping.
0:22:10 > 0:22:12But Daddy's got...
0:22:17 > 0:22:21It's going to be a very big adventure, yeah?
0:22:21 > 0:22:22Yes.
0:22:23 > 0:22:25Thank you. Can I have a hug?
0:22:41 > 0:22:42OK. Are you ready?
0:22:44 > 0:22:46Yeah?
0:22:47 > 0:22:48Come on, then.
0:22:51 > 0:22:53Let's go.
0:22:53 > 0:22:55There's a step.
0:22:55 > 0:22:59Yeah.
0:22:59 > 0:23:01Proper silver service waiters.
0:23:01 > 0:23:03I'm going to have to up my hours!
0:23:03 > 0:23:06Do they do waiters at the community centre?
0:23:06 > 0:23:09- Take no notice. Listen, Jay, I'm having a proper hotel, thank you.- That's my girl.
0:23:09 > 0:23:12If you're going to marry her, you're going to do it right!
0:23:12 > 0:23:15That's what marriage is made of, Tyler - shared memories.
0:23:15 > 0:23:18Yep, yep, that and some sexy underwear, brother!
0:23:20 > 0:23:23How can we afford another holiday?
0:23:24 > 0:23:27Your grandmother.
0:23:29 > 0:23:31A loan. With interest.
0:23:33 > 0:23:35She's getting old.
0:23:35 > 0:23:41You know, and she would love if you would go and visit.
0:23:44 > 0:23:48There's always webcams, emails, texts.
0:23:48 > 0:23:54Or just old-fashioned lifting up the telephone and talking - you know, that still exists, Tamwar.
0:23:54 > 0:23:56You see, the world is such a small place now.
0:24:00 > 0:24:02And how long is this "holiday"?
0:24:06 > 0:24:08You won't even notice I'm gone.
0:24:08 > 0:24:10No.
0:24:12 > 0:24:13No. Come on.
0:24:17 > 0:24:18Come on.
0:24:22 > 0:24:23You guys always find a way.
0:24:29 > 0:24:31You've only just come back.
0:24:31 > 0:24:35Yeah, I know, which is what makes me realise that, you know, you can manage.
0:24:35 > 0:24:37It'll be like I'm still here, only with less shouting.
0:24:37 > 0:24:39No.
0:24:39 > 0:24:44Tamwar, listen to me.
0:24:44 > 0:24:45I love you.
0:24:49 > 0:24:50I... I love you.
0:24:52 > 0:24:53Don't go.
0:24:55 > 0:24:57- Dad...- No Tamwar, please. No...
0:24:57 > 0:25:00You know, I've been such a rubbish mother
0:25:00 > 0:25:03and I've said such horrible words to you.
0:25:03 > 0:25:07But, you know what, these words are the important ones...
0:25:07 > 0:25:10Are you listening?
0:25:11 > 0:25:16You're a kind, a wonderful and a brilliant son...
0:25:16 > 0:25:19And I am so, so very proud of you.
0:25:26 > 0:25:28When will you come back?
0:25:35 > 0:25:37What?
0:25:37 > 0:25:39He can cope. He's not a child any more.
0:25:42 > 0:25:45He's a man.
0:25:49 > 0:25:50CAR HORN BEEPS
0:25:56 > 0:25:57Yeah? Come on.
0:26:20 > 0:26:26Oi, put her down, you. Too much kissing gives you cold sores.
0:26:26 > 0:26:29Oi, don't push it. On your bike. Go on.
0:26:29 > 0:26:32Whitney, Whitney - congratulations.
0:26:34 > 0:26:37Tyler, Mr Man-o-Man, take it easy.
0:26:37 > 0:26:39Oh Whit, you are going to be a beautiful bride.
0:26:39 > 0:26:41Like Katie Perry, or Katie Price.
0:26:41 > 0:26:44- Kate Middleton.- Kate Middleton.
0:26:44 > 0:26:47- See you later.- Take it easy, ladies. Bye bye.
0:26:47 > 0:26:52I know. And you know what, you'll get to see your big sister Shabnam.
0:26:52 > 0:26:57And all your cousins. And then there'll be...
0:26:57 > 0:26:59- The aeroplane...- The aeroplane.
0:26:59 > 0:27:01You call me when you get off the aeroplane and tell me
0:27:01 > 0:27:04what kind of plane it was this time, OK?
0:27:14 > 0:27:15I'm sorry.
0:27:18 > 0:27:22I talk a lot. You did well to last 30 years.
0:27:28 > 0:27:32Even I don't say everything, though.
0:27:36 > 0:27:38As if it could have been any other way.
0:27:42 > 0:27:43Of course I love you.
0:27:46 > 0:27:47I have always loved you.
0:28:02 > 0:28:06Stubble. What is wrong with using a razor?
0:28:11 > 0:28:13I liked you better the way you were.
0:28:25 > 0:28:26I love you, Tamwar.
0:29:33 > 0:29:36Subtitles by Red Bee Media Ltd