0:00:24 > 0:00:27ALARM RINGS
0:00:37 > 0:00:38Dressed already?
0:00:40 > 0:00:42Cup of tea?
0:00:59 > 0:01:02Thought a run might clear my head.
0:01:02 > 0:01:03Yeah. Good idea.
0:01:14 > 0:01:17Was it you that e-mailed that photo, Abs?
0:01:21 > 0:01:23Why didn't you just talk to me?
0:01:23 > 0:01:26Because you never listen, Dad!
0:01:26 > 0:01:29You're not even listening to me now. You can't go to that funeral.
0:01:29 > 0:01:32I promised Ian, didn't I? I can't not go.
0:01:33 > 0:01:36- Did you speak to Jay? - Oh, what, shut him up, you mean?
0:01:38 > 0:01:41Look, maybe I shouldn't have said anything in front of him.
0:01:41 > 0:01:43But I couldn't help it.
0:01:43 > 0:01:46You know, I'm not sure if I can carry on as normal any more.
0:01:46 > 0:01:48Shhh...
0:01:50 > 0:01:52You two had a row?
0:01:52 > 0:01:54Course we ain't.
0:01:54 > 0:01:57Your sister was just telling me to have a shave.
0:01:57 > 0:02:00Right bossy boots, ain't she? Ain't you, eh?
0:02:00 > 0:02:03- Bossy boots.- Right.
0:02:03 > 0:02:04- You ready?- Yep.
0:02:16 > 0:02:19It's so much for 'em to handle.
0:02:19 > 0:02:21You know Peter's asked Johnny to carry the coffin?
0:02:21 > 0:02:23Do you think he's up to it?
0:02:24 > 0:02:26What?
0:02:26 > 0:02:30I know, I shouldn't baby him, should I?
0:02:30 > 0:02:35Nah, it's not that. I just didn't sleep very well.
0:02:35 > 0:02:39- You know you can't fight Shirley's battles for her.- It's not Dean.
0:02:39 > 0:02:42It's just something Tina said to me yesterday.
0:02:42 > 0:02:46- About what?- Some story about painting our bedroom after Mum left.
0:02:46 > 0:02:49It doesn't fit with what Dad told me.
0:02:49 > 0:02:54She was just a kid. She probably got it wrong.
0:02:54 > 0:02:56Come on, Mick, I need you on the ball today.
0:03:02 > 0:03:05Got your text. Everything all right?
0:03:05 > 0:03:09We wanted to do something for Lucy. I know it's early, but....
0:03:09 > 0:03:11what with later on...
0:03:13 > 0:03:15We're going to put them on her coffin.
0:03:21 > 0:03:25Thanks. I don't know what to say...
0:03:29 > 0:03:31We all love you, Peter.
0:03:34 > 0:03:38Look, I can collect the roses up for you if you want to finish your run.
0:03:40 > 0:03:42See you all later, yeah? Thank you.
0:03:55 > 0:03:56Shut?
0:03:59 > 0:04:02Probably just running a bit late, ain't they?
0:04:02 > 0:04:07Yeah... Max, I just wanted to say thank you for yesterday.
0:04:07 > 0:04:10That's all right.
0:04:10 > 0:04:12If I can do anything...
0:04:12 > 0:04:14Ian?
0:04:14 > 0:04:17I wanted to get some milk, but I think Helen's running late.
0:04:17 > 0:04:21Didn't Denise tell you? They're not opening today. No-one is.
0:04:21 > 0:04:24- Why?- Because of the funeral, Ian.
0:04:26 > 0:04:28Yeah...yeah, course.
0:04:29 > 0:04:31Ian, you all right, mate?
0:04:31 > 0:04:34Was just checking to see if there's anything I can do for you.
0:04:34 > 0:04:36Me and Kat are going to have to give it a miss today.
0:04:36 > 0:04:39She's not good since we saw Stacey get sentenced.
0:04:39 > 0:04:42- How long did she get?- Five years. She's taken it really badly - you know,
0:04:42 > 0:04:45with the stress of the babies and all that.
0:04:45 > 0:04:50It's fine. I should go and get something to eat.
0:04:50 > 0:04:52I mean, Lucy would tell me I should eat something...
0:04:52 > 0:04:54I'll get you some milk, Ian, OK?
0:04:55 > 0:04:58Ian, you're going to be all right.
0:04:59 > 0:05:03Yeah. Just keep breathing, one foot in front of the other. Yeah?
0:05:04 > 0:05:08And remember, we've got your back, yeah?
0:05:08 > 0:05:09Appreciate it.
0:05:24 > 0:05:25Did he seem pleased?
0:05:25 > 0:05:28They're just flowers. Not going to bring his sister back, are they?
0:05:28 > 0:05:31I never meant it like that...
0:05:31 > 0:05:33Oh, Johnny.
0:05:35 > 0:05:38Shall we put some music on - take our minds off things?
0:05:38 > 0:05:41That ain't a bad idea. Something classic.
0:05:41 > 0:05:43By classic, you mean from when you had a perm?
0:05:43 > 0:05:45I'm on to it.
0:05:48 > 0:05:50Linda. Can I help?
0:05:54 > 0:05:56Get peeling.
0:05:56 > 0:05:58MUSIC: "Respect" by Aretha Franklin
0:06:02 > 0:06:04Bobby! Hey, I've missed you.
0:06:07 > 0:06:09Jane's not coming.
0:06:10 > 0:06:12It's not a decision she took lightly, Ian.
0:06:12 > 0:06:15She does send her love to everyone, though.
0:06:15 > 0:06:17I'm just glad you're both here.
0:06:17 > 0:06:20You really should eat something, Ian.
0:06:20 > 0:06:23Yeah. Later. I've still got to things to do.
0:06:23 > 0:06:24But you've only just got back...
0:06:32 > 0:06:34- I'm a bit sweaty, but... - Like I care.
0:06:37 > 0:06:38- Good to see you.- You OK?
0:06:40 > 0:06:43Bobby! Come here, mate.
0:06:45 > 0:06:47I missed you.
0:06:47 > 0:06:50Anyway, I've managed to convince Dot not to come -
0:06:50 > 0:06:52it's too soon after Nick.
0:06:52 > 0:06:53What's this?
0:06:53 > 0:06:55What?
0:06:55 > 0:06:57You've ringed today in red on the calendar.
0:06:57 > 0:07:01Oh, I don't know. Probably something to do with the kids.
0:07:01 > 0:07:03- It's your chemo session, isn't it? - Mum!
0:07:03 > 0:07:05- I can postpone it.- No way, Carol.
0:07:05 > 0:07:06We're going to Lucy Beale's funeral!
0:07:06 > 0:07:09- You'd rather risk your own life, would you?- That's a bit melodramatic.
0:07:09 > 0:07:12Carol, you were only in hospital a few weeks ago.
0:07:12 > 0:07:14- You've got to put yourself first. - It's just one session.
0:07:14 > 0:07:18Yeah, and if it gives you one fraction of a chance of beating this, then it matters.
0:07:18 > 0:07:22It matters to me, anyway.
0:07:22 > 0:07:25MUSIC: "The Loco-motion" by Little Eva
0:07:28 > 0:07:30Oh! You saucy little mare!
0:07:34 > 0:07:38Just came to check the food.
0:07:38 > 0:07:40- MUSIC OFF - Yeah, yeah, course. You check away.
0:07:40 > 0:07:43Where's the wraps? You said you were going to be doing wraps.
0:07:43 > 0:07:45We ain't finished yet.
0:07:45 > 0:07:47What's that?
0:07:47 > 0:07:49Chocolate sauce for the profiteroles.
0:07:49 > 0:07:52It's meringues. Lucy's favourite was meringues.
0:07:52 > 0:07:55Yeah, that's right - we've got five packs of them.
0:07:55 > 0:07:57Packs? You mean you're not making them home-made?
0:07:57 > 0:07:59I'm sorry, but none of this is good enough.
0:07:59 > 0:08:02It's not good enough and there's not enough time to do anything about it...
0:08:02 > 0:08:06- Don't worry, Ian - we'll sort it. All right?- I'm sorry. I didn't mean to...
0:08:06 > 0:08:08Not another word. Listen, do you need a drink?
0:08:08 > 0:08:10No.
0:08:12 > 0:08:15- Poor bloke. - Yeah, but it is only food.
0:08:15 > 0:08:17There's no need to get quite so het up...
0:08:17 > 0:08:20Nance, if it was you in that box, I hope people would give me a break,
0:08:20 > 0:08:23and shouting about some food is nothing, believe me.
0:08:23 > 0:08:25- Where's the old man?- Upstairs having a sleep, I think.
0:08:25 > 0:08:27Go and get him out of his pit. We've got work to do.
0:08:32 > 0:08:33KNOCK ON DOOR
0:08:37 > 0:08:40- You came!- Course I came.
0:08:40 > 0:08:42Come here.
0:08:44 > 0:08:46Are you OK?
0:08:46 > 0:08:48Yeah. Considering.
0:08:49 > 0:08:50Where's Ian?
0:08:52 > 0:08:53Good question.
0:08:56 > 0:09:00I'm sorry to bother you again, but I just need a favour.
0:09:00 > 0:09:03Is there any chance you could hand these out at the church for me?
0:09:03 > 0:09:08- Be a big help. - Yeah. Course. No problem.
0:09:08 > 0:09:11There is one other thing.
0:09:11 > 0:09:14All right. Go on, go through.
0:09:19 > 0:09:23It's, um...it's the eulogy.
0:09:23 > 0:09:27I mean, obviously I'm going to give it.
0:09:29 > 0:09:31But I just want to make sure it's right, OK?
0:09:31 > 0:09:34Cos I remember the one you did for Bradley -
0:09:34 > 0:09:36and it was perfect for him.
0:09:38 > 0:09:40I just want it to be perfect for Lucy.
0:09:41 > 0:09:42Could you...?
0:09:45 > 0:09:49- You want me to read it? - Yeah. If you wouldn't mind.
0:09:50 > 0:09:52Ian...
0:09:52 > 0:09:56the Bradley speech, it weren't rehearsed, you know.
0:09:57 > 0:09:59I was worse than you, mate -
0:09:59 > 0:10:02I couldn't think of a single thing to write down.
0:10:02 > 0:10:04Sorry, mate, I don't think I'll be any use to you.
0:10:04 > 0:10:07No, but you will be...
0:10:08 > 0:10:11You've had to do it, haven't you?
0:10:11 > 0:10:16You've had to stand up there and look over at the coffin and...
0:10:18 > 0:10:20I just want to know how it feels.
0:10:28 > 0:10:31I can't take this any more, Jay, I can't...
0:10:43 > 0:10:45Ian. It's...
0:10:46 > 0:10:48What?
0:10:51 > 0:10:54I don't know, mate. It's just so personal, ain't it?
0:10:56 > 0:10:59I don't really feel like I'm in a position to judge...
0:11:01 > 0:11:03She's your daughter.
0:11:04 > 0:11:06Was.
0:11:08 > 0:11:10It captures her...
0:11:11 > 0:11:14..from what I knew of her.
0:11:14 > 0:11:15It does.
0:11:18 > 0:11:23I keep thinking about how she died. Was she in pain?
0:11:26 > 0:11:28Did she know it was going to happen?
0:11:28 > 0:11:30- Was she scared?- Ian, mate.
0:11:30 > 0:11:33You just have to focus on who she was when she was here.
0:11:33 > 0:11:38She was your clever, beautiful, passionate daughter...
0:11:41 > 0:11:45..that's who you've got to see when you're talking about who she was.
0:11:55 > 0:11:58Listen, if I'm going to get to the church before you,
0:11:58 > 0:12:01I'd better make a move.
0:12:03 > 0:12:10- Thanks, Max. I appreciate it. - Don't be silly, mate. It's nothing.
0:12:10 > 0:12:12Ian...
0:12:13 > 0:12:16..you'll be fine.
0:12:26 > 0:12:29All right, all right, I'll ask Phil.
0:12:29 > 0:12:30No, of course I won't.
0:12:30 > 0:12:34All right. I'll speak to you in a bit. Bye.
0:12:34 > 0:12:36Ask Phil what?
0:12:36 > 0:12:38Would it be all right if Abi stays over?
0:12:38 > 0:12:40Why? What's wrong with her house?
0:12:40 > 0:12:44- Nothing. She's just having a few problems with her dad. - What sort of problems?
0:12:44 > 0:12:46- Well, I can't really say. - The answer's no, then.
0:12:46 > 0:12:49Come on, Phil. She's desperate - I want to try and help her out.
0:12:49 > 0:12:52- Is she up the duff or something? - No, it's nothing like that.
0:12:52 > 0:12:54Then the answer's no.
0:12:56 > 0:12:58It's Max.
0:13:00 > 0:13:02Max?
0:13:02 > 0:13:03Promise me you won't do anything?
0:13:05 > 0:13:08- Come on, out with it, Jay. - Forget it.- Oi, oi, oi. Come on.
0:13:08 > 0:13:09Out with it.
0:13:12 > 0:13:14He was sleeping with Lucy.
0:13:21 > 0:13:24Dean.
0:13:24 > 0:13:27Denise said she'd seen you around.
0:13:27 > 0:13:31You know what today is, don't you?
0:13:34 > 0:13:35Patrick.
0:13:40 > 0:13:44Listen, last time I was here I should have said
0:13:44 > 0:13:45something to you and Yolande.
0:13:47 > 0:13:50I should have apologised for saying that Sean attacked you.
0:13:50 > 0:13:52It's not too late.
0:13:59 > 0:14:01You can't say anything. I promised Abi.
0:14:01 > 0:14:03Phil, please!
0:14:03 > 0:14:05DOOR SLAMS
0:14:10 > 0:14:15Well, well, well. And there goes a flying pig.
0:14:15 > 0:14:16Want me to raise your mum?
0:14:18 > 0:14:20You and me - the dream team, eh, Mick?
0:14:27 > 0:14:30- Where's he going? - He's doing me a favour.
0:14:30 > 0:14:34- What favour?- He's handing out the orders of service at the church.
0:14:34 > 0:14:36- I'll do it. - Thanks, Phil, but it's too late.
0:14:36 > 0:14:39No. Call him back.
0:14:39 > 0:14:42Why?
0:14:42 > 0:14:44It don't matter.
0:14:44 > 0:14:47Phil? If you've got something to say, say it.
0:14:47 > 0:14:49I want today to go perfectly,
0:14:49 > 0:14:52- I don't want anything to jeopardise that...- It's not that.
0:14:52 > 0:14:54It's Max. He's...
0:14:54 > 0:14:56He's what?
0:14:57 > 0:15:01Ian, I'm only telling you this, all right, cos I'm on your side.
0:15:01 > 0:15:04And if it was me, I'd want to know.
0:15:04 > 0:15:05Max...
0:15:07 > 0:15:10Max was involved with Lucy.
0:15:10 > 0:15:14Involved? Involved with the business?
0:15:14 > 0:15:16He was sleeping with her.
0:16:00 > 0:16:02Are you sure?
0:16:02 > 0:16:05- Yeah. I'll deal with him at the church.- No.
0:16:06 > 0:16:08No. Not today, Phil.
0:16:08 > 0:16:11Today's about my little girl. Nothing...
0:16:11 > 0:16:13nothing is going to spoil it.
0:16:21 > 0:16:23He's here? Why?
0:16:24 > 0:16:26To see you, girl.
0:16:27 > 0:16:29And he's out there?
0:16:30 > 0:16:33This is your chance, Shirley. Don't blow it.
0:16:47 > 0:16:50Can I get you a drink?
0:16:53 > 0:16:56I'll just get myself one...
0:16:56 > 0:16:59Do you need to be half-cut to talk to me?
0:17:01 > 0:17:04No. No, course not.
0:17:11 > 0:17:15Barely seen you all morning. You seen Libby's here?
0:17:17 > 0:17:18How are you feeling?
0:17:20 > 0:17:22Sorry, silly question.
0:17:22 > 0:17:23Family in the main car, is it?
0:17:25 > 0:17:27Yeah. That's right.
0:17:27 > 0:17:31We've got six seats - so that's you, your fiancee, your two sons...
0:17:34 > 0:17:38- I'll go with my Pops, then, yeah? - Sorry, it's not really up to me.
0:17:38 > 0:17:40You come with me, darling.
0:17:43 > 0:17:46What about Libby and Patrick?
0:17:46 > 0:17:48- And Christian.- Ian, I'll take a cab.
0:17:48 > 0:17:50No, you're family.
0:17:50 > 0:17:53It's all right, I'll take a cab, no trouble at all.
0:17:53 > 0:17:55- Thank you, Patrick. - But he can't go on his own.
0:17:55 > 0:17:57There's not room.
0:17:58 > 0:18:04- I should just go with Libby and Patrick, then.- Thank you.
0:18:06 > 0:18:07Ian.
0:18:08 > 0:18:10Cindy!
0:18:10 > 0:18:13Gina gave me a lift to the station. I thought I was going to be late.
0:18:13 > 0:18:15Is everything OK? Is the baby OK?
0:18:15 > 0:18:16Oh, yeah. The baby's fine.
0:18:18 > 0:18:20Can we talk after the funeral?
0:18:21 > 0:18:24Yeah. Everyone will be going to the wake...
0:18:24 > 0:18:27I mean about Good Friday - I can't get it out of my head.
0:18:27 > 0:18:31- Well, look, we haven't got time for this now. Let's get you changed. - Changed?
0:18:31 > 0:18:33- You can't wear that.- Why not?
0:18:33 > 0:18:34It's not black.
0:18:34 > 0:18:38I chose this outfit specially, for Lucy.
0:18:38 > 0:18:41- It wasn't a question, Cindy. Come on, hurry up. - Why are you being like this?
0:18:41 > 0:18:44Think I'm going to blab to the police about your alibi?
0:18:44 > 0:18:46I said I wouldn't say anything and I meant it.
0:18:46 > 0:18:50Look, we haven't got time for this now. Just sit at the back of the church.
0:18:59 > 0:19:01See you there.
0:19:19 > 0:19:23So, have you got a girlfriend?
0:19:27 > 0:19:30Mates?
0:19:30 > 0:19:32Job?
0:19:33 > 0:19:35Seen any good films recently?
0:19:37 > 0:19:38Sorry.
0:19:41 > 0:19:44I'm working in a barber's, as it goes.
0:19:44 > 0:19:46Oh, cutting hair?
0:19:46 > 0:19:50No, eating it.
0:20:00 > 0:20:01Wasn't that funny.
0:20:05 > 0:20:08ORGAN PLAYS
0:20:15 > 0:20:17Um...
0:20:18 > 0:20:22...I'm just going to wait here for a bit, greet people.
0:20:27 > 0:20:28Is Jane coming?
0:20:28 > 0:20:30I don't know.
0:20:30 > 0:20:33I hope Tam's going to be all right, carrying the coffin.
0:20:39 > 0:20:40Hello, Ian.
0:20:40 > 0:20:44Emma. Thanks for coming.
0:20:44 > 0:20:46I can't imagine what you must be going through.
0:20:46 > 0:20:48Anything I can do to support you.
0:20:54 > 0:20:58Right. I think that's everyone. Are you ready to begin?
0:21:13 > 0:21:15I'm sorry. It just sort of slipped out.
0:21:15 > 0:21:18- What? Jay, has he told Ian? - I don't know.
0:21:57 > 0:21:58Gentlemen, please.
0:22:33 > 0:22:35Mick, can I have an orange juice, please?
0:22:35 > 0:22:37Yeah, babe.
0:22:37 > 0:22:39Going well, is it?
0:22:43 > 0:22:44Mick. We've done good, eh?
0:22:44 > 0:22:48Do you know what? I'm sick of you sitting there looking like some sort of gargoyle.
0:22:48 > 0:22:51Do me a favour and get yourself upstairs.
0:22:51 > 0:22:54- Mick?- Minding my own business. Reading my paper.
0:22:57 > 0:22:58He's got the hump.
0:22:58 > 0:23:00Something Tina said, apparently -
0:23:00 > 0:23:02reckons your dad's lying about something.
0:23:02 > 0:23:04What?
0:23:04 > 0:23:07When your mum left. I mean, Stan - a liar?
0:23:07 > 0:23:09Hardly a surprise, is it?
0:23:23 > 0:23:25I can't do it. I can't.
0:23:25 > 0:23:28It's OK - you don't have to.
0:23:28 > 0:23:30Yeah, I do. For Lucy.
0:23:30 > 0:23:32Peter, today isn't a test.
0:23:32 > 0:23:35You don't have to do anything that you don't feel up to.
0:23:35 > 0:23:36But there's no-one else.
0:23:38 > 0:23:39Wait here.
0:23:47 > 0:23:48(Dad.)
0:23:49 > 0:23:51Can you do me a favour?
0:23:51 > 0:23:54Take Peter's place carrying the coffin.
0:23:54 > 0:23:57- What? - He can't do it, Dad. He's in bits.
0:23:57 > 0:23:59Neither can I, Lauren. Sorry.
0:23:59 > 0:24:03Yes, you can! Please, Dad - for me.
0:24:05 > 0:24:08Why not?
0:24:08 > 0:24:10Please.
0:24:16 > 0:24:19I mean, it's not poncey - but at the same time it's not
0:24:19 > 0:24:22a hairdresser's full of old biddies getting a blue rinse.
0:24:22 > 0:24:25It's stylish. It's proper.
0:24:29 > 0:24:32The boss is a bit of a jobsworth - I did try to explain to him you've
0:24:32 > 0:24:35got to build up a bit of banter with the customers, have some rapport.
0:24:35 > 0:24:41But he wasn't interested. Mainly concerned about the clock...
0:24:41 > 0:24:43I'm sorry...
0:24:44 > 0:24:46..for boring you.
0:24:46 > 0:24:50- No, you're not. - Then why do you keep looking over my shoulder, then?
0:24:50 > 0:24:52Want to get back to your real family?
0:24:52 > 0:24:57- Dean, I'm sorry. My head's a bit of a mess... - Yeah. Well, what's new?
0:24:57 > 0:25:01- Where are you going? - What's happened? - That's enough for one day.
0:25:01 > 0:25:04Wait!
0:25:04 > 0:25:07If you go now, you'll never see me again.
0:25:10 > 0:25:14That's right - I don't have long left.
0:25:14 > 0:25:18Doc reckons could be a month, perhaps less.
0:25:20 > 0:25:26So please, son, let's just sit back, relax. Take it easy, eh?
0:25:26 > 0:25:28You're dying?
0:25:28 > 0:25:32What's this - a wind-up?
0:25:32 > 0:25:35Could be. I'm old, could go at any time.
0:25:35 > 0:25:38I was just trying to focus the boy's mind.
0:25:43 > 0:25:45Where is it? I called it half an hour ago.
0:25:45 > 0:25:47It's not like he's going to miss you.
0:25:51 > 0:25:53Let's go up the high street, flag down a black cab, hmm?
0:26:29 > 0:26:32CHURCH ORGAN PLAYS "ABIDE WITH ME"
0:27:36 > 0:27:39What are you doing? Get your hands off her!
0:27:39 > 0:27:41Get your hands off my daughter.
0:27:41 > 0:27:45I said, get your hands off my daughter! Why, Max?!
0:27:45 > 0:27:48- Gentlemen...?- Ian...- Dad, it's all right.- No, go on, tell him.
0:27:49 > 0:27:52Go on, Max, tell him. Why? Why my little girl?
0:27:52 > 0:27:54What are you talking about?
0:27:55 > 0:27:57Him...and Lucy.
0:27:57 > 0:27:59You slept with my sister?
0:28:02 > 0:28:04- Out!- Dad? Dad!
0:28:04 > 0:28:06Just remain seated...
0:28:06 > 0:28:08Phil! Phil! Stop it!
0:28:14 > 0:28:16Well, it was worth a try, wasn't it?
0:28:16 > 0:28:18You'd say anything, you, wouldn't you?
0:28:18 > 0:28:21I was trying to get the boy to stay.
0:28:21 > 0:28:25I was doing it for Shirley, for our girl.
0:28:25 > 0:28:28Nah. You don't do anything for anybody but yourself.
0:28:31 > 0:28:35I trusted you. You told me to remember her when she was alive, when she was beautiful.
0:28:35 > 0:28:38- Yeah, and I meant it, all right, Ian, as a mate.- Mate? Mate?!
0:28:38 > 0:28:39I don't want to fight you, all right?
0:28:39 > 0:28:42I sat in your house and you lied to me and you knew!
0:28:42 > 0:28:44Peter, you can't believe this.
0:28:44 > 0:28:46Right, Abi?
0:28:46 > 0:28:48Ian?
0:28:49 > 0:28:52- Jane?- Are you OK?- Ian, leave him to me.- Phil, stay out of it!
0:28:52 > 0:28:55Ian, I'm sorry, all right? If I could go back, I would.
0:28:55 > 0:28:58Sorry? You're sorry? She is dead!
0:28:59 > 0:29:02Go. Go!
0:29:10 > 0:29:12Why did you have to tell the stupid story in the first place?
0:29:12 > 0:29:15You couldn't keep your big gob shut.
0:29:15 > 0:29:17He's been talking to Tina.
0:29:17 > 0:29:18Tina knows nothing about it.
0:29:18 > 0:29:21Well, he knows you're lying.
0:29:21 > 0:29:22He knows nothing.
0:29:23 > 0:29:25Just couldn't let it lie, could you?
0:29:25 > 0:29:28Till you came out smelling like a whole flaming rose bush.
0:29:28 > 0:29:31You're panicking. Just calm down and keep quiet.
0:29:31 > 0:29:32It'll all blow over.
0:29:34 > 0:29:35We're really sorry.
0:29:43 > 0:29:45Come on, Ian. The service is about to start.
0:29:47 > 0:29:48For Lucy?
0:29:52 > 0:29:53If I don't go in...
0:29:55 > 0:29:57If I just lie down and close my eyes...
0:29:59 > 0:30:00..will it still be happening?
0:30:02 > 0:30:06I will be right next to you.
0:30:18 > 0:30:20- Only in Walford... - Yeah. Not today, eh?
0:30:22 > 0:30:24- How long have you known? - Just before Easter.
0:30:27 > 0:30:28I'm sorry, Lauren.
0:30:29 > 0:30:30It's not your fault.
0:30:38 > 0:30:41- You OK?- Fine.
0:31:05 > 0:31:06Please stand.
0:31:15 > 0:31:16Dad?
0:31:16 > 0:31:18What is it?
0:31:18 > 0:31:20Come here.
0:31:20 > 0:31:22Damp in there, not good for the old bones.
0:31:22 > 0:31:25I'll cut to the chase, then, shall I?
0:31:25 > 0:31:28I know, so you might as well just admit it.
0:31:29 > 0:31:31Either I've gone completely senile
0:31:31 > 0:31:33or you've got hold of the wrong end of the stick,
0:31:33 > 0:31:36cos I ain't got the faintest idea what you're talking about.
0:31:36 > 0:31:38Play the old man card one more time, Dad,
0:31:38 > 0:31:41and I'll take your little stick and I'll smash it across your head.
0:31:41 > 0:31:44All right, easy. You've obviously got yourself into a state.
0:31:44 > 0:31:46Nah. No, I'm perfectly calm.
0:31:47 > 0:31:50I've just stopped believing your pathetic attempts
0:31:50 > 0:31:52to worm your way into my family.
0:31:53 > 0:31:54What?
0:31:54 > 0:31:58You tried to drown me when I was a baby,
0:31:58 > 0:32:03and then you lied to my face to make out that you're the hero.
0:32:03 > 0:32:04I told you, it was your mother...
0:32:04 > 0:32:10Tina remembers, Dad. She remembers me falling over in the bath
0:32:10 > 0:32:15covered in red paint, the paint you used after Mum left.
0:32:15 > 0:32:17Tina was a kid, she's confused.
0:32:17 > 0:32:19Nah, you see, kids, they remember things.
0:32:19 > 0:32:24They remember little details, like it was snowing and the nurses,
0:32:24 > 0:32:26they thought the paint was blood.
0:32:26 > 0:32:28You see these things, they stick in your brain.
0:32:28 > 0:32:30You know what Tina's like, she has imagination.
0:32:30 > 0:32:32She obviously told herself some story
0:32:32 > 0:32:34- and now she thinks it's true... - Mick?
0:32:34 > 0:32:38I should have listened to Shirley. She said you were poison.
0:32:41 > 0:32:42I was wrong.
0:32:42 > 0:32:44No, you was bang on.
0:32:44 > 0:32:47I've had enough. I want him out.
0:32:49 > 0:32:51Go on, go and pack your bags.
0:32:53 > 0:32:55Your house, son. Your rules.
0:33:02 > 0:33:05I would now like to invite Lucy's father to say a few words.
0:33:05 > 0:33:06Ian?
0:33:30 > 0:33:34Lucy was always a bright girl...
0:33:39 > 0:33:41My...
0:33:44 > 0:33:46My little girl was special...
0:33:48 > 0:33:49She was...
0:33:56 > 0:33:57I don't know.
0:34:03 > 0:34:06I didn't know her. I didn't know my own daughter.
0:34:22 > 0:34:24Would you like me to take over?
0:34:26 > 0:34:27Can I say something?
0:34:45 > 0:34:48- Right. 20 do it, will it?- Mum.
0:34:54 > 0:34:55He's upset, he's grieving...
0:34:57 > 0:34:59Turn around. We're going home.
0:35:07 > 0:35:08Lucy was born first.
0:35:13 > 0:35:16Seven minutes and 25 seconds.
0:35:18 > 0:35:20She never let me forget that.
0:35:22 > 0:35:23Not a single second.
0:35:32 > 0:35:36I'm older than her, for the first time in my life.
0:35:40 > 0:35:41Feels weird.
0:35:46 > 0:35:47Lucy was an awesome sister.
0:35:51 > 0:35:56She made me feel safe, knowing I had her in my corner.
0:36:00 > 0:36:02Not sure my girlfriends would agree.
0:36:06 > 0:36:09But all she wanted was for me to be happy.
0:36:12 > 0:36:13And Dad.
0:36:17 > 0:36:21And when he was ill,
0:36:21 > 0:36:23she was...
0:36:25 > 0:36:27..she was amazing.
0:36:29 > 0:36:36That's why it's so hard for me to imagine my life without her.
0:36:40 > 0:36:42Feels wrong.
0:36:45 > 0:36:47It feels like...
0:36:47 > 0:36:51the centre of everything has just been ripped out.
0:37:00 > 0:37:02I'm going to miss you so much, Luce.
0:37:05 > 0:37:08Christmases, weddings...
0:37:11 > 0:37:12..our birthday...
0:37:16 > 0:37:18..all that stuff you should be there for.
0:37:25 > 0:37:31But I'm going to try and be strong for you.
0:37:31 > 0:37:33I'm going to try and hold it together...
0:37:35 > 0:37:37..because that's what you would have done.
0:37:39 > 0:37:40You never gave up.
0:37:46 > 0:37:48And in a way,
0:37:48 > 0:37:51I mean, you will still be here...
0:37:53 > 0:37:55..because you and I...
0:37:56 > 0:37:59..we've always been connected. Nothing's going to break that.
0:37:59 > 0:38:03Nothing. Nothing.
0:38:08 > 0:38:13And if I'm lucky enough to have kids one day,
0:38:13 > 0:38:18I'm going to tell them about their brilliant Auntie Lucy.
0:38:24 > 0:38:25And I promise you...
0:38:26 > 0:38:32..as long as I live, you'll never be gone...
0:38:37 > 0:38:39..because you're in here.
0:38:48 > 0:38:49Bye.
0:38:53 > 0:38:54I love you.
0:39:09 > 0:39:12All that matters is Lucy and giving her this funeral,
0:39:12 > 0:39:15giving her this perfect send-off, and I've ruined it.
0:39:16 > 0:39:20Nothing's ever perfect. Life's too messy for that.
0:39:20 > 0:39:21You can only do your best.
0:39:21 > 0:39:23Yeah, but I didn't, did I?
0:39:24 > 0:39:29We were all there under one roof and...I let it happen!
0:39:31 > 0:39:32I'm useless, useless.
0:39:34 > 0:39:37All right, Lucy had secrets, of course she did.
0:39:37 > 0:39:39Young women don't want their dads
0:39:39 > 0:39:41knowing everything about their lives, do they?
0:39:41 > 0:39:43But that doesn't mean you didn't know her at all.
0:39:43 > 0:39:45There were just some things she couldn't share.
0:39:47 > 0:39:52Lucy knew she was loved. That's the most important thing, isn't it?
0:39:55 > 0:39:58I keep thinking about when we were...
0:39:58 > 0:40:00when we were all together - you, me, Lucy.
0:40:02 > 0:40:04Even when she was hellraising.
0:40:06 > 0:40:08I'd give anything to go back to that.
0:40:10 > 0:40:12You can't ever go back, Ian.
0:40:12 > 0:40:14- Why not?- You know why.
0:40:15 > 0:40:16I love you.
0:40:18 > 0:40:19Don't.
0:40:19 > 0:40:20Don't you love me too?
0:40:24 > 0:40:26Yeah...
0:40:28 > 0:40:31Everything's too confused,
0:40:31 > 0:40:35too...too messy.
0:40:39 > 0:40:40What am I going to do?
0:40:42 > 0:40:44You have got Peter.
0:40:44 > 0:40:48He's being so brave in there.
0:40:48 > 0:40:50Don't shut him out.
0:40:56 > 0:40:58Just stay with me for a bit, please?
0:41:09 > 0:41:11You can't go on like this, Mum.
0:41:11 > 0:41:14Denise, Denise, just don't do anything rash, you hear me?
0:41:14 > 0:41:17Not today, please. Emotions are high enough as it is.
0:41:17 > 0:41:19Patrick's right, but you do need to do something.
0:41:19 > 0:41:21I have to tell him how I feel.
0:41:24 > 0:41:26If I don't do it today, I never will.
0:41:29 > 0:41:31Have you got time for a catch-up?
0:41:31 > 0:41:34Well, I'm here for Jane, really, so it's whatever she needs.
0:41:34 > 0:41:35How's the mini-me?
0:41:37 > 0:41:40Poor Ian.
0:41:40 > 0:41:43Yeah. I didn't think his day could get any worse.
0:41:43 > 0:41:45- That Max Branning is a dog.- Shush.
0:41:53 > 0:41:54I think we should go.
0:41:54 > 0:41:58No! No, we can't leave before the committal.
0:41:58 > 0:42:00I promised Peter that I'd do the reading.
0:42:00 > 0:42:02Do you really think he still wants you to do it?
0:42:17 > 0:42:22- What's wrong? - I'm just feeling a bit...
0:42:22 > 0:42:23Let's get some air.
0:42:40 > 0:42:43- Is he all right?- Don't know.
0:42:47 > 0:42:49You're back early.
0:42:49 > 0:42:50All right? Not really.
0:42:50 > 0:42:53Are you going to go over to the wake?
0:42:53 > 0:42:56- No, got a blinding headache, I'm going to give it a miss.- OK.
0:43:18 > 0:43:20Oh, Lucy.
0:43:24 > 0:43:25I'm so sorry.
0:43:33 > 0:43:35I can hear you now...
0:43:35 > 0:43:38"Da-ad. What are you like?"
0:43:43 > 0:43:45I was always showing you up, wasn't I?
0:43:58 > 0:44:00I've got to say goodbye, haven't I?
0:44:06 > 0:44:07But I can't.
0:44:12 > 0:44:14I don't want to...
0:44:14 > 0:44:15I don't want to say goodbye.
0:44:23 > 0:44:25It's time for the committal.
0:44:30 > 0:44:33It's OK, I'll do it.
0:44:34 > 0:44:36You go home.
0:44:37 > 0:44:39Sharon said she'll give you a lift.
0:44:45 > 0:44:46Thank you.
0:44:49 > 0:44:51About the eulogy... I'm sorry, Peter...
0:44:51 > 0:44:53No, it's fine, it's fine.
0:44:56 > 0:44:58I'm so proud of you.
0:45:22 > 0:45:23Hi.
0:45:23 > 0:45:25Hi.
0:45:29 > 0:45:31I'm so sorry, Masood.
0:45:48 > 0:45:50Take care of yourself.
0:46:08 > 0:46:12Peter? Do you still want me to do this reading?
0:46:14 > 0:46:15It's all right, Lauren.
0:46:15 > 0:46:17What, after what her dad did?
0:46:25 > 0:46:30When I think back on these times and the dreams we left behind,
0:46:30 > 0:46:35I'll be glad because I was blessed to get to have you in my life.
0:46:37 > 0:46:39When I look back on these days,
0:46:39 > 0:46:42I'll look and see your face.
0:46:42 > 0:46:44You were right there for me.
0:46:47 > 0:46:50In my dreams, I'll always see you soar above the sky.
0:46:53 > 0:46:56In my heart there will always be a place for you, for all my life.
0:46:56 > 0:46:59I'll keep a part of you with me.
0:46:59 > 0:47:02And everywhere I am, there you'll be.
0:47:18 > 0:47:22We now commit Lucy's body to the ground.
0:47:22 > 0:47:27Earth to earth, ashes to ashes, dust to dust.
0:47:27 > 0:47:29In sure and certain hope of the resurrection
0:47:29 > 0:47:34to our Lord Jesus Christ, we will transform our frail bodies,
0:47:34 > 0:47:37that they may be conformed to his glorious body.
0:47:37 > 0:47:42He died, was buried and rose again for us.
0:47:42 > 0:47:45To him be glory for ever. Amen.
0:47:59 > 0:48:00Ian.
0:48:07 > 0:48:09I'm sorry. The cab was late.
0:48:11 > 0:48:12I really didn't mean to miss it.
0:48:19 > 0:48:26I know this is a horrible, horrible time for you...
0:48:30 > 0:48:32No...
0:48:32 > 0:48:34I saw you outside the church with Jane.
0:48:34 > 0:48:39- No. Denise, she's not here. She's gone.- OK.
0:48:39 > 0:48:44Let's just be honest with each other. You don't want me.
0:48:46 > 0:48:51You haven't for days, weeks... months, even.
0:48:53 > 0:48:54- You haven't wanted me.- I do.
0:48:58 > 0:48:59I do.
0:48:59 > 0:49:01Denise, please. Please.
0:49:08 > 0:49:10Yeah, right in the middle of the service.
0:49:10 > 0:49:13Of course it's all kicked off, ain't it?
0:49:13 > 0:49:15Has he gone yet? Dad?
0:49:15 > 0:49:16He's still packing.
0:49:16 > 0:49:19Yeah, and I bet he's taking his sweet time over it, ain't he?
0:49:19 > 0:49:22- You do know what this is about, don't you?- Mick, he's an old man.
0:49:22 > 0:49:24His mouth starts flapping before his brain's engaged.
0:49:24 > 0:49:26He probably didn't mean to go that far.
0:49:26 > 0:49:29- Why are you sticking up for him all of a sudden?- I'm not.
0:49:31 > 0:49:33All right, Bill? Where's Ian?
0:49:33 > 0:49:35I doubt he'll be showing his face.
0:49:35 > 0:49:37Been through the wringer and back today.
0:49:37 > 0:49:39Ian's not even coming?
0:49:39 > 0:49:42Just serve the food, please, Nance.
0:49:42 > 0:49:45- There they are. What do you want? Orange juice?- Yeah, please.
0:49:45 > 0:49:48- Want a drink, girls?- How did it go?
0:49:52 > 0:49:54What?
0:49:54 > 0:49:55It's Max.
0:50:13 > 0:50:15Lucy Beale?
0:50:15 > 0:50:16She was the same age as Lauren.
0:50:16 > 0:50:17- Yeah, it's sick.- Billy.
0:50:17 > 0:50:20No, Billy's right - he's no better than a nonce.
0:50:20 > 0:50:22Hang on a minute. Lucy wasn't a child.
0:50:22 > 0:50:24- That makes it all right, does it? - Probably got her killed and all.
0:50:24 > 0:50:27- No, Jake killed her.- Come on, that's enough. Let's go, girls, come on.
0:50:27 > 0:50:30Yeah, but why did she get killed, though? Eh?
0:50:30 > 0:50:31Maybe Jake found out she was seeing Max
0:50:31 > 0:50:34- and that pushed him over the edge. - Makes sense.
0:50:34 > 0:50:36- Got some front showing his face today.- Come on.
0:50:36 > 0:50:39We shouldn't be talking like this, not at a wake.
0:50:39 > 0:50:41I mean, what if Ian heard?
0:50:41 > 0:50:45You all right? You haven't said a word since we left the church.
0:50:45 > 0:50:48Yeah, yeah.
0:50:48 > 0:50:51You know I don't say it often, but I love you.
0:50:51 > 0:50:53I love you too.
0:51:09 > 0:51:11Don't.
0:51:16 > 0:51:17Oh, don't worry about me, Shirl.
0:51:18 > 0:51:21I'll go back to the flat on my own.
0:51:25 > 0:51:28As long as you're OK, that's the main thing.
0:51:30 > 0:51:32I won't say anything to ruin that.
0:51:32 > 0:51:35Mate, I heard what happened. Nightmare.
0:51:35 > 0:51:36Everyone...
0:51:37 > 0:51:40I want to buy you all a drink to toast my sister.
0:51:42 > 0:51:45Johnny, I can't breathe in here. Can we go, please?
0:51:45 > 0:51:48- We only just got here.- Let's go to that club.- What's this?
0:51:48 > 0:51:51Nothing - nothing, we're not going anywhere.
0:51:51 > 0:51:55Do what you like, Johnny. Just keep the details to yourself.
0:51:57 > 0:52:00- Right.- Was that her way of telling me she was all right with it?
0:52:00 > 0:52:01Yeah. So are we off, then?
0:52:03 > 0:52:04Yeah.
0:52:14 > 0:52:15All right, Mama?
0:52:16 > 0:52:20I just want you kids to be happy. You know that, right?
0:52:32 > 0:52:35Call round in the morning, yeah? Patrick's promised me a fry-up.
0:52:41 > 0:52:44I can help him, you know, Libs. I know I can.
0:52:46 > 0:52:49That's what you said about my dad. You remember how that ended.
0:53:10 > 0:53:13Don't worry, Max, we're not stopping for a cuppa.
0:53:13 > 0:53:14What do you two want?
0:53:14 > 0:53:17I want to tell you where you ain't welcome any more...
0:53:18 > 0:53:22..the Vic, the caff, the shop,
0:53:22 > 0:53:24the laundrette, the chippy, the Arches...
0:53:24 > 0:53:26Alfie, have I left anything out?
0:53:28 > 0:53:31Cos you ain't one of us any more. You're nothing.
0:53:33 > 0:53:34You understand me?
0:53:51 > 0:53:52Why are you still here?
0:53:52 > 0:53:55- I'm packing. - I'll give you a hand, then, shall I?
0:53:55 > 0:53:56Shirley, say something!
0:53:56 > 0:53:58Don't you dare look at her - this is your own fault.
0:53:58 > 0:54:00- You got it all wrong. It wasn't me. - Liar! Come here!
0:54:00 > 0:54:03- I swear. You've got to believe me... - Mick!- I'll tell you what.
0:54:03 > 0:54:05Why don't I remind you what happened, eh?
0:54:05 > 0:54:09Leave him! Leave him, Mick!
0:54:10 > 0:54:14Mick! Please, Mick!
0:54:14 > 0:54:20So this is what you like doing, is it? Eh? Drowning babies?
0:54:20 > 0:54:22Stop it! Stop it, Mick!
0:54:22 > 0:54:24Dad wasn't lying, it wasn't him!
0:54:26 > 0:54:27It was me!
0:54:29 > 0:54:31It was me.