0:00:25 > 0:00:28It's getting late. We need to get him ready for bed.
0:00:28 > 0:00:29Have you got the blue blanket?
0:00:29 > 0:00:31I brought that little sleeping bag thing.
0:00:31 > 0:00:33He can't sleep without the blue blanket.
0:00:33 > 0:00:36OK. Don't worry. I'll text Kush later and get him to bring it.
0:00:36 > 0:00:37- No, I need it now. - OK. Yeah.
0:00:40 > 0:00:42It is safe here, isn't it? I have to keep him safe.
0:00:42 > 0:00:44Yeah, it's completely safe.
0:00:44 > 0:00:46Don't worry.
0:00:47 > 0:00:49There you go, look.
0:00:49 > 0:00:51Done. OK?
0:00:52 > 0:00:54What if they don't let you stay? I need you close.
0:00:54 > 0:00:57I'll just sleep in my van if I have to.
0:00:57 > 0:01:00I'm here to protect you both. Remember?
0:01:04 > 0:01:06Thank you for waiting.
0:01:06 > 0:01:09It's OK, Stace, it's just the doctor.
0:01:09 > 0:01:12Delia Forde. I'm the on-call psychiatrist.
0:01:12 > 0:01:14It's Stacey, isn't it? Stacey Branning?
0:01:14 > 0:01:16And you are?
0:01:16 > 0:01:20Sorry, I'm Martin Fowler, I'm Stacey's partner.
0:01:20 > 0:01:23And look at you, little man. Aren't you the handsome...?
0:01:29 > 0:01:33Now, I understand you've not been feeling too well, Stacey.
0:01:33 > 0:01:34Do you want to tell me about it?
0:01:34 > 0:01:36I'm fine. I'm tired, but I'm fine.
0:01:36 > 0:01:39We just need somewhere to stay. Somewhere that's safe.
0:01:39 > 0:01:41Martin said that it's safe here.
0:01:41 > 0:01:42But I don't feel safe.
0:01:42 > 0:01:45Hospitals can be strange, disconcerting places,
0:01:45 > 0:01:47but I promise you're safe here.
0:01:47 > 0:01:50Now, I managed to get hold of your notes.
0:01:50 > 0:01:54You have a diagnosis of bipolar disorder, is that right?
0:01:55 > 0:01:56That's right.
0:01:56 > 0:02:00And your last manic episode was in 2009?
0:02:00 > 0:02:02There's no locks on the doors.
0:02:02 > 0:02:04No, no, not on the inside, no.
0:02:04 > 0:02:08But nobody can get into the hospital without us letting them in.
0:02:11 > 0:02:15You take lithium and carbamazepine for maintenance?
0:02:15 > 0:02:16No.
0:02:16 > 0:02:18She came off them.
0:02:18 > 0:02:20Oh, when was that?
0:02:20 > 0:02:21August last year.
0:02:22 > 0:02:25She thought that they might harm Arthur.
0:02:29 > 0:02:31Stacey, why don't you just relax
0:02:31 > 0:02:35and tell me in your own words exactly how you're feeling?
0:02:36 > 0:02:38I'm...I'm scared.
0:02:38 > 0:02:42I'm really scared. It's...it's a lot to deal with.
0:02:42 > 0:02:45Having a young baby's exhausting. I know, I had three of my own.
0:02:45 > 0:02:49Can you take your glasses off? I can't see your eyes properly.
0:02:51 > 0:02:52- Is that better?- Yeah.
0:02:55 > 0:02:58Now, you were saying you felt scared.
0:02:58 > 0:03:01Do you know what it is that's scaring you,
0:03:01 > 0:03:03or is it just a vague feeling?
0:03:03 > 0:03:04No, I know.
0:03:06 > 0:03:09Do you feel like someone is trying to harm you in any way?
0:03:11 > 0:03:13Come on, Stace, you have to talk to her.
0:03:13 > 0:03:16She can't help you if you don't tell her the truth.
0:03:20 > 0:03:21Yeah.
0:03:21 > 0:03:24Yeah, me and my baby. I fought him, but he won't stop.
0:03:24 > 0:03:26Who won't stop?
0:03:30 > 0:03:33Stacey, whoever, whatever it is that's trying to harm you...
0:03:35 > 0:03:37..do they threaten you?
0:03:38 > 0:03:40Do they direct you to harm yourself?
0:03:40 > 0:03:43- No. - BABY GURGLES
0:03:43 > 0:03:45Why, has someone told you about the roof?
0:03:45 > 0:03:47Th...They don't know the whole story.
0:03:47 > 0:03:48The roof?
0:03:50 > 0:03:52Yeah, I went on the roof.
0:03:53 > 0:03:56I was just trying to get closer to heaven.
0:03:56 > 0:03:58He was supposed to come and rescue us.
0:03:59 > 0:04:01Who was?
0:04:01 > 0:04:02God.
0:04:04 > 0:04:05My baby...
0:04:05 > 0:04:07is the son of God.
0:04:07 > 0:04:11He's come again, he's going to save the world.
0:04:11 > 0:04:15And the Lord chose me to be his mother, to protect him.
0:04:15 > 0:04:17But the devil wants him, he wants to kill him.
0:04:17 > 0:04:21And it's...it's hard, isn't it? It's really hard to keep him safe.
0:04:21 > 0:04:24Please, please, you have to help us.
0:04:26 > 0:04:29- Here you go, buddy.- Thank you. - I think it's in the bedroom.
0:04:29 > 0:04:31- I don't mind coming with you. - Nah, mate, it's all right.
0:04:31 > 0:04:33I'll manage, it's just a blanket. Just a blue blanket.
0:04:33 > 0:04:36- I'll pop these back in minute. - Thanks, Kush.- Hang on!
0:04:36 > 0:04:38How did Martin persuade her to go to hospital?
0:04:38 > 0:04:40Er...
0:04:40 > 0:04:41he just talked to her.
0:04:43 > 0:04:46He kept her calm. He told her exactly what she needed to hear.
0:04:48 > 0:04:50It was pretty amazing actually.
0:04:50 > 0:04:52Really loves 'em, don't he?
0:04:52 > 0:04:55Yeah. Yeah, he does.
0:04:55 > 0:04:57And I'm sorry all this had to happen today.
0:04:57 > 0:04:59I know it was your dad's funeral.
0:04:59 > 0:05:02Listen, if you see Stace, tell her I'll be over first thing, yeah?
0:05:02 > 0:05:03And give her a big kiss from me.
0:05:05 > 0:05:06Thanks, Kush.
0:05:06 > 0:05:08- He's a good bloke, ain't he?- Mm.
0:05:08 > 0:05:11Probably around the same age as Luke.
0:05:11 > 0:05:14Funny to think, eh?
0:05:14 > 0:05:15All them years. Just gone.
0:05:18 > 0:05:20Kat, why don't we finish our drinks?
0:05:20 > 0:05:23- We'll go home, sit down, talk it through, yeah?- Not tonight.
0:05:30 > 0:05:34Something wrong with your phone? Only I've been ringing.
0:05:34 > 0:05:36- Turned it off.- Oh, right.
0:05:36 > 0:05:40- Only I wondered what you fancied for your dinner.- Not hungry.
0:05:40 > 0:05:43Well, I'll leave you a plate of something out on the side
0:05:43 > 0:05:45and you can heat it up when you are.
0:05:46 > 0:05:48Paul Coker, you stop right there.
0:05:50 > 0:05:51What's to do?
0:05:51 > 0:05:54Is there something you want to talk about?
0:05:59 > 0:06:00It's like you said...
0:06:03 > 0:06:04..leave a plate out.
0:06:10 > 0:06:13It was very brave of you to tell me what you've been going through.
0:06:13 > 0:06:15You believe me. You know it's real.
0:06:15 > 0:06:18I believe it's absolutely real for you.
0:06:18 > 0:06:21And I think it must be tiring and...
0:06:21 > 0:06:23terrifying and extremely stressful.
0:06:23 > 0:06:27We need to take some of that stress away.
0:06:27 > 0:06:28Does that sound good?
0:06:29 > 0:06:33If you admit yourself into our care,
0:06:33 > 0:06:35we can give you help and rest.
0:06:35 > 0:06:38I think that's probably what you need most of all right now.
0:06:38 > 0:06:40Where would she be?
0:06:40 > 0:06:43The psychiatric unit here at the hospital has a bed free.
0:06:43 > 0:06:46And what about Martin? He protects us.
0:06:46 > 0:06:49We don't have facilities for family here, I'm afraid.
0:06:49 > 0:06:51That's all right. It's close, innit?
0:06:51 > 0:06:53And I'll come and see you every day, like twice a day.
0:06:53 > 0:06:56And it's safe, it's definitely safe?
0:06:56 > 0:06:59There's no safer place for you right now.
0:07:01 > 0:07:03Would you like us to admit you?
0:07:04 > 0:07:05Yeah.
0:07:06 > 0:07:08Yeah, cos it's been really hard.
0:07:11 > 0:07:13Arthur...
0:07:13 > 0:07:15we're going to be safe, me and you.
0:07:18 > 0:07:21If you'll just excuse me a moment.
0:07:25 > 0:07:26DOOR SHUTS
0:07:26 > 0:07:29- WHISPERING:- Did you hear that? We're safe.
0:07:29 > 0:07:32No-one can get us in here.
0:07:47 > 0:07:50- DR FORDE CLEARS HER THROAT - Is everything OK?
0:07:50 > 0:07:53Martin, this is Nurse Igwe, she works in our psychiatric unit.
0:07:53 > 0:07:55- Call me Eve.- Hello, Eve.
0:07:55 > 0:07:57So what happens next? Cos I'd quite like to go with her
0:07:57 > 0:08:00to the ward, you know, get her settled in.
0:08:00 > 0:08:01Stacey seems to be under the impression
0:08:01 > 0:08:03that Arthur can stay here with her.
0:08:03 > 0:08:05That's right. Won't be a problem, will it?
0:08:05 > 0:08:08Ideally, we would like to keep a new mum and her baby together,
0:08:08 > 0:08:10but I'm afraid we can't do that here.
0:08:10 > 0:08:13There are only three mother-and-baby psychiatric wards
0:08:13 > 0:08:15in London that can.
0:08:15 > 0:08:17Well, how hard can it be? I mean he's tiny. He'd fit anywhere.
0:08:17 > 0:08:19We're just not set up for it.
0:08:19 > 0:08:22It's no trouble, I'll just nip home, get everything he needs...
0:08:22 > 0:08:27Mr Fowler, I'm sorry, but, even if WE all agreed,
0:08:27 > 0:08:30hospital management would never allow it.
0:08:30 > 0:08:31The insurance issues alone...
0:08:31 > 0:08:33But she's a mum with a new baby.
0:08:33 > 0:08:36It's obvious they need to be together. She's still feeding him!
0:08:36 > 0:08:38Yes, I realise that, and I'm sorry.
0:08:40 > 0:08:42But I...I promised her.
0:08:45 > 0:08:46This is going to sound harsh,
0:08:46 > 0:08:50but I'm afraid the hospital cannot be accountable for your promise.
0:08:51 > 0:08:53But I had to.
0:08:53 > 0:08:55Anything to get her through that door,
0:08:55 > 0:08:58safely and calmly.
0:08:59 > 0:09:02And that was me. I had to do that.
0:09:02 > 0:09:03So I am begging you. Please.
0:09:05 > 0:09:07There must be something we can do.
0:09:07 > 0:09:10I'd already asked Eve to check all the mother-and-baby units
0:09:10 > 0:09:11in the South East.
0:09:11 > 0:09:14All full, and they don't anticipate that changing in the next week.
0:09:14 > 0:09:17So I'll just take her home. I'm sorry if we've wasted your time.
0:09:17 > 0:09:19I'm sorry, that won't be possible, Mr Fowler.
0:09:19 > 0:09:21Don't tell me what I can't do!
0:09:22 > 0:09:24I'm sorry, I'm...
0:09:26 > 0:09:30I'm sorry. You just don't know how hard it was to get her here.
0:09:30 > 0:09:33In her mind, it is all about keeping Arthur safe.
0:09:35 > 0:09:37They have to be together.
0:09:37 > 0:09:40And if you're telling me they can't be together here,
0:09:40 > 0:09:42what choice do I have but to take her away?
0:09:42 > 0:09:45Stacey's exhibiting some extreme psychotic symptoms.
0:09:45 > 0:09:48If she doesn't agree to a voluntary admission...
0:09:48 > 0:09:49She agreed. You were there!
0:09:49 > 0:09:52But it's clear she doesn't understand what separation means.
0:09:52 > 0:09:54OK, well, you go in there then and tell her.
0:09:54 > 0:09:56She'll walk straight out of here.
0:10:02 > 0:10:05You're not going to let her leave, are you?
0:10:05 > 0:10:08If, once Stacey is fully aware of the situation,
0:10:08 > 0:10:11she changes her mind about voluntary admission,
0:10:11 > 0:10:14I will ask my colleagues to evaluate her
0:10:14 > 0:10:16with a view to imposing a section.
0:10:16 > 0:10:19I can't pre-judge my colleagues' assessment,
0:10:19 > 0:10:22but I think it's highly likely they'll agree with me.
0:10:22 > 0:10:23I'm sorry, Mr Fowler.
0:10:26 > 0:10:28But...
0:10:28 > 0:10:31I just wanted it to be her decision.
0:10:31 > 0:10:33And it still can be.
0:10:33 > 0:10:37But she needs to know the baby cannot stay here in the hospital with her.
0:10:37 > 0:10:39Would you like me to tell her?
0:10:41 > 0:10:44I should get back to Paul, see what's got him so worked up.
0:10:44 > 0:10:46Yeah, I should be heading off too.
0:10:46 > 0:10:49Then...maybe we could head off together?
0:10:52 > 0:10:54- Hey, bruiser!- Hello, darlin'. Did you enjoy the film?
0:10:54 > 0:10:57- Yeah.- Good! - Thanks for looking' after them, Whit.
0:10:57 > 0:10:59Oh, no problem. We had a good time.
0:10:59 > 0:11:01The little ones fell asleep.
0:11:01 > 0:11:03Listen, I'm going to go and grab them
0:11:03 > 0:11:04and then we'll head off home.
0:11:04 > 0:11:06Martin back yet?
0:11:06 > 0:11:07No.
0:11:07 > 0:11:10Only I was thinking, if Lily wants to stay the night,
0:11:10 > 0:11:13it's one less thing for you to worry about, innit?
0:11:13 > 0:11:15You don't think Lily's in danger, do you?
0:11:15 > 0:11:17- BABY CRIES - No, she's with Kat and Alfie. She'll be fine.
0:11:17 > 0:11:21Cos we have to look after her as well. I know you will.
0:11:21 > 0:11:25I know you will. God sent you to look after us all.
0:11:25 > 0:11:27- Yeah.- What's the matter?
0:11:27 > 0:11:30What is it? What? Is...is there something out there?
0:11:30 > 0:11:33- No.- Are you...are you sure?
0:11:33 > 0:11:36You...you're sure there's nothing out there?
0:11:37 > 0:11:39I want to see.
0:11:39 > 0:11:40I want to see. Hold him.
0:11:43 > 0:11:44It's about Arthur.
0:11:46 > 0:11:49They won't let him stay, Stace.
0:11:49 > 0:11:51But he's not safe out there. Did you tell them?
0:11:51 > 0:11:53He's not safe out there. Did you explain?
0:11:53 > 0:11:56- I tried.- No, I'll...I'll speak to them, I'll make them understand.
0:11:56 > 0:12:00Th...They need to know how much danger he's in.
0:12:00 > 0:12:01They won't...
0:12:02 > 0:12:04..they won't let you go, Stace.
0:12:04 > 0:12:07He can't stay, but they're saying you have to.
0:12:07 > 0:12:10But I'll bring him every day. And Lily.
0:12:10 > 0:12:12But he can't stay.
0:12:12 > 0:12:14BABY GURGLES
0:12:14 > 0:12:15But you, you...
0:12:15 > 0:12:19you said that wouldn't happen. You promised me.
0:12:19 > 0:12:21I know. And I'm so sorry.
0:12:21 > 0:12:23But you promised...
0:12:23 > 0:12:25DOOR OPENS Stacey, this is Eve.
0:12:25 > 0:12:28No, I'm...I'm not staying here without my baby.
0:12:28 > 0:12:29I'm sorry it has to be this way,
0:12:29 > 0:12:31but we have to focus on helping you get better.
0:12:31 > 0:12:33Get better? I'm not...! I'm not even ill.
0:12:33 > 0:12:35I only came here to keep him safe from what's out there.
0:12:35 > 0:12:37- Stace, just listen to what they've got to say.- No!
0:12:37 > 0:12:39You knew this was going to happen, didn't you?
0:12:39 > 0:12:41You knew, you planned it all. You tricked me!
0:12:41 > 0:12:44You were just going to get me here and then separate us!
0:12:44 > 0:12:46You're still working for him!
0:12:46 > 0:12:49- Give me my baby back! Give me my baby back!- Stacey, Stacey!
0:12:49 > 0:12:51- Calm down! - No, he's taking him to the devil!
0:12:51 > 0:12:54He is taking him to be killed!
0:12:54 > 0:12:55Stacey, Stacey, calm down, please.
0:12:55 > 0:12:58- SHOUTING:- God will strike you down for this, Martin!
0:12:58 > 0:12:59He'll strike you down!
0:12:59 > 0:13:01- Stacey, please.- No, give him back! - Ssh.
0:13:03 > 0:13:04TRAIN RUMBLES
0:13:14 > 0:13:16Paul will be hungry. I should...
0:13:16 > 0:13:17Yeah, course.
0:13:27 > 0:13:29Will Billy have cooked you something?
0:13:29 > 0:13:31HE LAUGHS
0:13:31 > 0:13:32I expect so.
0:13:34 > 0:13:35Goodnight, Les.
0:13:38 > 0:13:39DOOR UNLOCKS
0:13:43 > 0:13:45TELEVISION IS ON
0:13:47 > 0:13:50Time for bed, I think. Yeah?
0:13:53 > 0:13:54Oi? What's up?
0:13:54 > 0:13:57Is my mummy crazy?
0:13:57 > 0:13:59No, of course she's not.
0:14:02 > 0:14:05Listen, you know what you saw before...
0:14:05 > 0:14:08I think she was just a bit stressed out.
0:14:09 > 0:14:12Cos it's not easy with a new baby, is it?
0:14:12 > 0:14:14But Martin's with her now.
0:14:14 > 0:14:17And he's going to make sure that Mum and Arthur are OK.
0:14:19 > 0:14:21Tell you what...
0:14:21 > 0:14:23why don't you go and get one of my T-shirts.
0:14:23 > 0:14:26And you can wear it like a nightie.
0:14:26 > 0:14:28Yeah? Go on then.
0:14:34 > 0:14:37I'm Dr Chen. Dr Forde's asked us to evaluate your mental state
0:14:37 > 0:14:39with regards to a section, Stacey.
0:14:39 > 0:14:40Is that clear?
0:14:40 > 0:14:43God...God won't let you do this.
0:14:43 > 0:14:45He'll send his angels, he'll send 100 angels
0:14:45 > 0:14:47and they'll blind you with the light.
0:14:47 > 0:14:49It's OK, Stacey. We know you're scared, but you're safe here.
0:14:49 > 0:14:52My baby's not safe. My baby is not safe.
0:14:52 > 0:14:54- Your baby's just next door with his father...- No!
0:14:54 > 0:14:57No, no, that's not his father. God is his father.
0:14:57 > 0:14:58You...you don't understand.
0:14:58 > 0:15:01His demons, they look just like me and you. But they ain't.
0:15:01 > 0:15:04They ain't. They're everywhere. And they want to take my baby.
0:15:04 > 0:15:06They want to kill my baby. Why...!
0:15:06 > 0:15:08Why can't you see?
0:15:08 > 0:15:11You! You, are letting them kill my baby!
0:15:21 > 0:15:23- ALFIE:- Kat! - PRINTER WHIRS
0:15:23 > 0:15:26Why don't we just get a different book? You're not going to do
0:15:26 > 0:15:29no colouring in. It's too late for that. All right?
0:15:29 > 0:15:30Good boy.
0:15:30 > 0:15:33- HE SIGHS - He wants you to tell him a story.
0:15:33 > 0:15:35- I thought that's what you were doing.- I tried,
0:15:35 > 0:15:37but he wants his mummy tonight.
0:15:59 > 0:16:00Paul?
0:16:03 > 0:16:04Going out tonight?
0:16:06 > 0:16:07Er, no.
0:16:09 > 0:16:11Not like you to be drinking alone.
0:16:11 > 0:16:13- Grandad, please... - PAUL SIGHS
0:16:15 > 0:16:16PAUL SIGHS
0:16:18 > 0:16:19What is it, Paul?
0:16:22 > 0:16:25I'm a disgusting person, Grandad.
0:16:25 > 0:16:27Oh, Paul!
0:16:29 > 0:16:31Oh!
0:16:31 > 0:16:32Arthur, I'm sorry.
0:16:33 > 0:16:36I'm sorry, I tried to be a good mum!
0:16:36 > 0:16:38I tried to be brave!
0:16:38 > 0:16:40Please forgive me.
0:16:43 > 0:16:44Arthur!
0:16:46 > 0:16:47Arthur!
0:16:53 > 0:16:55THEY TALK
0:16:58 > 0:17:01Mr Fowler, my colleagues and I all agree
0:17:01 > 0:17:03that Stacey is very unwell at the moment
0:17:03 > 0:17:04and needs to be in hospital.
0:17:06 > 0:17:08As she's not agreeing to voluntary admission,
0:17:08 > 0:17:10I'm afraid we have to section her.
0:17:10 > 0:17:11BABY GURGLES
0:17:15 > 0:17:19I know this is difficult, but she really does need our help right now.
0:17:40 > 0:17:42That's it, Stacey. Nice and easy.
0:17:42 > 0:17:43No.
0:17:43 > 0:17:45No, please. Please don't hurt him!
0:17:45 > 0:17:47Please, I'm begging you. Please don't hurt him.
0:17:47 > 0:17:50- Stay with me, Stacey. - Don't take me away from him!
0:17:50 > 0:17:52Arthur! Arthur!
0:17:52 > 0:17:56- Arthur!- Stacey. - You can't take me away from him!
0:17:56 > 0:17:59- Arthur!- Stacey.- Arthur! - I'm sorry.
0:17:59 > 0:18:01- SHOUTING:- Arthur! Arthur!
0:18:01 > 0:18:03- FADING:- Arthur!
0:18:03 > 0:18:05Arthur!
0:18:05 > 0:18:06HE MUTTERS
0:18:07 > 0:18:09Martin?
0:18:10 > 0:18:12Mate, what happened?
0:18:18 > 0:18:20You've got to stop buying him comics.
0:18:20 > 0:18:21It's all he wants to read these days.
0:18:21 > 0:18:23What you talking about? He loves 'em.
0:18:23 > 0:18:26Yeah, he loves chips and chocolate, but we don't get him nothing but.
0:18:29 > 0:18:31I was just having a look, that's all.
0:18:31 > 0:18:33- Oi! You don't have to justify yourself...- Yeah, I do.
0:18:33 > 0:18:34And not just to you.
0:18:34 > 0:18:37If I take this path, it's not going to just affect me.
0:18:37 > 0:18:39What, you think the boys would say no to a big brother then?
0:18:39 > 0:18:40What, 31 years old?
0:18:40 > 0:18:43- They're not going to be swapping Beanos, are they?- Of course not.
0:18:43 > 0:18:45But he'll bring other things. Teach 'em stuff.
0:18:45 > 0:18:49Kat, we'll never know what he's like until we let him into our lives.
0:18:49 > 0:18:52Well, he might be married. He might have kids of his own.
0:18:52 > 0:18:53HE GASPS
0:18:53 > 0:18:56- Grandma Kathleen. Oh! - SHE LAUGHS
0:18:56 > 0:18:58No, I can't do this, Alfie.
0:18:58 > 0:19:01I can barely bring up the kids we've got. There's nothing left.
0:19:01 > 0:19:04- What are you talking about? - I don't want to find him, right,
0:19:04 > 0:19:07- and have nothing to give him.- Kat, you've got enough love in your heart
0:19:07 > 0:19:09for a million kids, all right?
0:19:09 > 0:19:10Come on.
0:19:12 > 0:19:13What are you scared of? Eh?
0:19:13 > 0:19:15- No, I'm not scared.- No? - I'm not scared.
0:19:15 > 0:19:18I've just realised I've got everything I need right here.
0:19:18 > 0:19:19The boys and you.
0:19:24 > 0:19:26Is that why you're encouraging me to do this?
0:19:26 > 0:19:29Because you don't think you're going to be around for long.
0:19:29 > 0:19:31- No! No...- Cos I don't want to think about that, Alfie, all right?
0:19:31 > 0:19:33I don't ever want to think about that.
0:19:33 > 0:19:36- HE SIGHS - Kat, Kat, please. Oh!
0:19:40 > 0:19:45Nothing good ever comes of keeping secrets from people who love you.
0:19:45 > 0:19:48And, whatever it is, I'm sure there's a way of putting it right.
0:19:52 > 0:19:54I, erm...
0:19:56 > 0:19:57..I...I had a thing...
0:20:00 > 0:20:02..I had a thing with Ben Mitchell.
0:20:05 > 0:20:08- Yeah, see, I knew you'd react like that.- Oh, sit down, Paul!
0:20:08 > 0:20:11You know, we're just...surprised, that's all.
0:20:13 > 0:20:15You're obviously upset and we want to help.
0:20:17 > 0:20:20So, this "thing" with Ben Mitchell...
0:20:21 > 0:20:25- ..it's gone wrong somehow? - Abi found out?
0:20:25 > 0:20:27- No.- Then what, Paul?
0:20:29 > 0:20:32Well, people think that he's one thing, you know?
0:20:32 > 0:20:35People think that he's spiky and tough and mean.
0:20:36 > 0:20:39But that's not him. Not really.
0:20:39 > 0:20:42He's warm and funny and kind.
0:20:45 > 0:20:48And, when I'm with him, when it's just us...
0:20:50 > 0:20:53..I feel good about myself, you know.
0:20:53 > 0:20:55Like it's where I'm meant to be.
0:20:56 > 0:20:57I love him.
0:20:59 > 0:21:01I really, really love him.
0:21:01 > 0:21:03Oh, Paul, Paul.
0:21:03 > 0:21:05- PAUL SNIFFLES - But I can't have him.
0:21:07 > 0:21:10And I... I don't know how to deal with it.
0:21:10 > 0:21:11I'm no expert, son,
0:21:11 > 0:21:14but, if you love him like you say you do, you need to tell him.
0:21:14 > 0:21:18Who knows? He might be feeling exactly the same.
0:21:18 > 0:21:21But you won't ever know until one of you has the courage to be honest.
0:21:23 > 0:21:24'It's my fault.'
0:21:26 > 0:21:28All of it.
0:21:28 > 0:21:31I thought I could contain it. That, you know, she'd get better.
0:21:31 > 0:21:34- Anyone would find it difficult... - Yeah, but I made it worse.
0:21:34 > 0:21:38The story she was telling herself. I played along.
0:21:40 > 0:21:42Even told her that God had sent me down to protect her.
0:21:42 > 0:21:44I mean, what sort of fool does that?
0:21:47 > 0:21:49I hope he grows up to be better than his dad.
0:21:51 > 0:21:52I don't deserve him.
0:21:55 > 0:21:56I can't do this.
0:21:58 > 0:22:00I'm just going to muck him up.
0:22:00 > 0:22:03- MARTIN SNIFFS - Like I muck everything up.
0:22:07 > 0:22:09You've got to stop feeling sorry for yourself.
0:22:11 > 0:22:13OK, because you are better than that.
0:22:14 > 0:22:18You need to step up. You need to stay strong for Stacey.
0:22:19 > 0:22:22You need to stay strong for this little fella.
0:22:22 > 0:22:24- Just look at him. - BABY GURGLES
0:22:24 > 0:22:26Martin?
0:22:28 > 0:22:30Martin, look at him.
0:22:35 > 0:22:36You're his dad.
0:22:39 > 0:22:40He needs you.
0:22:57 > 0:23:00- SLURRING:- What did she just put in me?
0:23:03 > 0:23:06The drugs are to help you relax.
0:23:06 > 0:23:08And they'll make you feel sleepy.
0:23:08 > 0:23:10I won't sleep.
0:23:11 > 0:23:15I can't sleep. God...God won't let me sleep.
0:23:15 > 0:23:17He'll keep me awake to see my baby.
0:23:19 > 0:23:22Well, if you're not going to sleep, let's talk.
0:23:25 > 0:23:28When did God start speaking to you, Stacey?
0:23:34 > 0:23:37You're tired. We can talk in the morning.
0:23:37 > 0:23:39After Arthur was born.
0:23:41 > 0:23:43I heard his voice.
0:23:44 > 0:23:45It was beautiful.
0:23:47 > 0:23:49He only talked to you after Arthur was born?
0:23:52 > 0:23:53When was that?
0:23:53 > 0:23:55Christmas.
0:23:55 > 0:23:57My baby came.
0:23:58 > 0:24:02And the air was full of angels
0:24:02 > 0:24:04and I heard it -
0:24:04 > 0:24:05that voice.
0:24:06 > 0:24:08It was so beautiful.
0:24:11 > 0:24:12Was this in the hospital?
0:24:13 > 0:24:15In the stable,
0:24:15 > 0:24:18with the wise men and the shepherds.
0:24:21 > 0:24:23Can I see him now?
0:24:23 > 0:24:25I have to...I have to get him ready for bed.
0:24:26 > 0:24:30I have to be a good mum and keep him clean.
0:24:30 > 0:24:31Keep him safe.
0:24:32 > 0:24:35I have to watch him. Watch him sleep.
0:24:36 > 0:24:37Keep him safe.
0:24:44 > 0:24:45Where's my baby?
0:24:47 > 0:24:50Please give me my baby back.
0:24:54 > 0:24:55HE SIGHS
0:25:00 > 0:25:04Kat, you know, I didn't mean to upset you. Especially today.
0:25:04 > 0:25:06HE MUTTERS
0:25:08 > 0:25:09HE SIGHS HEAVILY
0:25:09 > 0:25:12You know, I don't know what the future holds for me...
0:25:12 > 0:25:15but that's not why I think you should find him.
0:25:15 > 0:25:18But the way I see it, I think it can only be good.
0:25:18 > 0:25:20You know, to have people in your life to love.
0:25:20 > 0:25:22And for them to love you back.
0:25:22 > 0:25:25Zoe and Luke, they're out there.
0:25:25 > 0:25:28And, whether you believe it or not, or whether they know it or not,
0:25:28 > 0:25:31I know 100% they will want you in their life.
0:25:34 > 0:25:37I don't know what I'd do if I didn't have you.
0:25:37 > 0:25:39You won't be saying that when I'm doubly incontinent
0:25:39 > 0:25:42- and smell all cabbagey. - THEY LAUGH
0:25:42 > 0:25:45- What?- Oof, I think one of those has just kicked in.
0:25:45 > 0:25:49Oh, you think so, do you? Very funny! Come here.
0:25:49 > 0:25:51What you wearing?
0:25:52 > 0:25:55We'll have a better idea of how long Stacey needs to be here
0:25:55 > 0:25:58once we see how she progresses over the next week.
0:26:00 > 0:26:05But she said that she was in for the best part of two months last time.
0:26:05 > 0:26:08Yes, but that was a bipolar manic episode.
0:26:08 > 0:26:10What? Are you saying this isn't?
0:26:10 > 0:26:13Well, Stacey seems to think that the delusions only started
0:26:13 > 0:26:15once your son was born.
0:26:15 > 0:26:16Yeah.
0:26:16 > 0:26:19And I've witnessed the strong sense of fear
0:26:19 > 0:26:23and suspicion she's feeling. Would you say these come and go?
0:26:23 > 0:26:26Does she have times when she...she seems quite lucid?
0:26:28 > 0:26:31Not recently. Why?
0:26:31 > 0:26:33Look, erm...
0:26:33 > 0:26:37I can't be sure, but I think Stacey may be suffering
0:26:37 > 0:26:41from a condition known as post-partum psychosis.
0:26:41 > 0:26:45It's activated by birth trauma and made worse by lack of sleep.
0:26:46 > 0:26:49Has she been sleeping well?
0:26:49 > 0:26:50No.
0:26:50 > 0:26:52Sorry, so...
0:26:52 > 0:26:56what you're saying, this has nothing to do with her bipolar?
0:26:56 > 0:26:59Well, it's linked, but it's separate.
0:27:01 > 0:27:03Right...
0:27:03 > 0:27:06- I don't understand. - Well, erm...
0:27:06 > 0:27:09people without bipolar can develop PP,
0:27:09 > 0:27:12but having bipolar puts you in a much higher risk group.
0:27:12 > 0:27:14Maybe as much as one in four?
0:27:14 > 0:27:16So can you make her better?
0:27:16 > 0:27:18Yes, Martin, we can.
0:27:20 > 0:27:23Now, you should go home and put your son to bed.
0:27:23 > 0:27:25BABY GURGLES
0:27:26 > 0:27:28Beef casserole with dumplings.
0:27:28 > 0:27:31Paul wasn't hungry, and I know it's one of your favourites.
0:27:33 > 0:27:36- You did right with Paul. - Did I?
0:27:36 > 0:27:37Might get hurt.
0:27:40 > 0:27:41He already is.
0:27:43 > 0:27:44I love you, Pam!
0:27:46 > 0:27:47I love you too, Les.
0:27:49 > 0:27:50Can I come up, maybe?
0:27:54 > 0:27:56Not yet, Les.
0:27:58 > 0:27:59HE PANTS HEAVILY
0:28:02 > 0:28:03KNOCKING
0:28:16 > 0:28:17What are you doing here?
0:28:17 > 0:28:19I love you.
0:28:19 > 0:28:21I'm happy when I'm with you.
0:28:21 > 0:28:24And I can't stop thinking about you when I'm not.
0:28:26 > 0:28:28So now you know. Erm...
0:28:29 > 0:28:30I love you.
0:28:35 > 0:28:36You need to decide, Ben...
0:28:39 > 0:28:41..for once and forever...
0:28:42 > 0:28:45..what you are and who you really love.
0:28:45 > 0:28:48Cos you'll never be happy until you do.
0:28:58 > 0:29:00KNOCKING
0:29:12 > 0:29:14DOOR UNLOCKS
0:29:19 > 0:29:20Thanks for coming.
0:29:20 > 0:29:23Look after your son, Lord.
0:29:26 > 0:29:28Look after my boy.
0:29:30 > 0:29:32BABY GURGLES
0:29:32 > 0:29:34'Protect him from the devil...
0:29:36 > 0:29:40'..and the weak men who do his work.'
0:29:44 > 0:29:45And my Lily.
0:29:47 > 0:29:48'Protect my darling girl'.
0:29:48 > 0:29:52No child should have to see her mum in that state.
0:29:53 > 0:29:56'Send her a guardian angel...
0:29:58 > 0:30:00'..to watch over them both'.
0:30:04 > 0:30:06WHISPERING: Don't worry, baby.
0:30:07 > 0:30:08Daddy's here now.