0:00:26 > 0:00:27She's replied again.
0:00:30 > 0:00:34"Hello, Pam, I can meet you at 7 o'clock in Joanna's Cafe."
0:00:34 > 0:00:35Go on...
0:00:36 > 0:00:39"Let me know if you can make it. Best, Diane."
0:00:42 > 0:00:43Tell her yes.
0:00:45 > 0:00:48- Honey... - I thought you'd changed your mind?
0:00:48 > 0:00:50That was before she replied.
0:00:50 > 0:00:52Yeah, but you said...
0:00:52 > 0:00:54You said that you and Les should move forward together.
0:00:54 > 0:00:56You were the one that suggested this.
0:00:56 > 0:00:57Yeah, yeah, I know.
0:00:57 > 0:01:01I know, but she took so long in replying, it made me nervous.
0:01:02 > 0:01:05Pam this is a big thing, messing around with the law.
0:01:05 > 0:01:07Going off sneaking behind Les's back.
0:01:07 > 0:01:09I mean, I haven't even said anything to Billy and I never lie to him...
0:01:09 > 0:01:11For pity's sake! Just do it, Honey.
0:01:18 > 0:01:20- TV:- What do you think, bargain hunters?
0:01:20 > 0:01:22Will they come back with the lion's share or will they make
0:01:22 > 0:01:25a right old monkey of themselves?
0:01:25 > 0:01:26We'll see.
0:01:26 > 0:01:28Itching to get in and measure up,
0:01:28 > 0:01:31but the paperwork hasn't gone through yet.
0:01:32 > 0:01:33Where are you moving?
0:01:33 > 0:01:35Number 41.
0:01:35 > 0:01:37Ain't that Masood's house?
0:01:37 > 0:01:39- So?- All right, I was just saying.
0:01:39 > 0:01:42Can I see you in my office once you've packed up out there?
0:01:42 > 0:01:44Why?
0:01:44 > 0:01:45We'll talk then.
0:01:47 > 0:01:49You all right? How's Jane?
0:01:49 > 0:01:50Yeah, she's fine.
0:01:50 > 0:01:53Do you know, I'm sure Masood left a spare set of keys at our house.
0:01:53 > 0:01:55Wouldn't do any harm for a sneak preview, would it?
0:01:55 > 0:01:57That'd be amazing.
0:01:57 > 0:01:59Don't suppose you fancy being my tape measure holder?
0:02:01 > 0:02:03Go on, then.
0:02:03 > 0:02:06Actually, I think Ian and Jane could do with a bit of space.
0:02:06 > 0:02:08Poor Jane.
0:02:08 > 0:02:11I feel terrible, it was me who suggested we went for a drink.
0:02:11 > 0:02:13I had no idea she had bladder issues, too...
0:02:13 > 0:02:14Hello, Ian.
0:02:16 > 0:02:17How's Jane?
0:02:17 > 0:02:20Do you know what, there must be an echo in here.
0:02:20 > 0:02:21Yeah, Jane's fine.
0:02:21 > 0:02:22Absolutely fine.
0:02:22 > 0:02:25Will you tell her I'll pop in and see her later this week?
0:02:25 > 0:02:26Yeah, sure.
0:02:31 > 0:02:32Oh, dear.
0:02:36 > 0:02:38Honey's on her own with the children,
0:02:38 > 0:02:41I said I'd keep her company.
0:02:42 > 0:02:43Shouldn't be too late.
0:02:45 > 0:02:46Are you OK?
0:02:46 > 0:02:49Well, I was yesterday, when that money turned up.
0:02:49 > 0:02:53Today, I could win the lottery and it wouldn't touch the sides.
0:02:54 > 0:02:56Do you want me to stay?
0:02:56 > 0:02:58No, no. I'll potter about here and then turn in.
0:03:00 > 0:03:02One day at a time, eh, Les?
0:03:16 > 0:03:18DOOR OPENS Only me, love.
0:03:18 > 0:03:21Got Graham to cover so I could get home sooner.
0:03:23 > 0:03:25Just call me the Cookie Monster.
0:03:26 > 0:03:27Sorry.
0:03:29 > 0:03:31No, it's fine. It's not a problem.
0:03:35 > 0:03:39Just think, I won't have to do this shift for much longer.
0:03:39 > 0:03:41No more stinky-chip Daddy...
0:03:41 > 0:03:43Yeah, but stinky, dead-body Daddy instead.
0:03:43 > 0:03:45Oh, that's nice, innit? Can you hear him?
0:03:45 > 0:03:46Your son?
0:03:47 > 0:03:51Never in a million years did I think I would end up being the manager -
0:03:51 > 0:03:53that is manager -
0:03:53 > 0:03:55of an undertakers.
0:03:55 > 0:03:57Funny how life works out, innit?
0:03:57 > 0:03:59I really want to do well for Pam and Les though.
0:03:59 > 0:04:01I mean, they've been really good to us.
0:04:01 > 0:04:02Hon?
0:04:02 > 0:04:04Can you just stay and look after the kids for a minute?
0:04:04 > 0:04:05I've remembered something...
0:04:05 > 0:04:07Babe, don't...I've got to go to work!
0:04:14 > 0:04:18I'm just doing Carmel a favour. You don't mind, do you?
0:04:18 > 0:04:20Did you tell Jane she was asking after her?
0:04:20 > 0:04:22No, not yet.
0:04:22 > 0:04:26Right, well, I won't be more than a couple of hours, I expect.
0:04:30 > 0:04:31Who was asking after me?
0:04:33 > 0:04:34Carmel.
0:04:35 > 0:04:36That's sweet of her.
0:04:38 > 0:04:40She's just being caring, Ian.
0:04:42 > 0:04:44Is everyone talking about it?
0:04:45 > 0:04:47Don't worry about them, love. Please.
0:04:49 > 0:04:50I still need friends, Ian.
0:04:50 > 0:04:53Look, I know they mean well, OK,
0:04:53 > 0:04:55but they don't really know what it's like for you.
0:04:57 > 0:04:58For us, you mean?
0:05:05 > 0:05:07Oh, come on!
0:05:08 > 0:05:09KNOCK ON WINDOW
0:05:10 > 0:05:13- Honey?- Pam, I can't let you go.
0:05:13 > 0:05:14We've been through all this.
0:05:14 > 0:05:16Look, you have been so good to us,
0:05:16 > 0:05:17and I know it doesn't feel like it,
0:05:17 > 0:05:19but it's me trying to repay the favour.
0:05:19 > 0:05:22If you don't move out of the way this instant, I swear...
0:05:22 > 0:05:25Kathy? Kathy, can you come over and speak to Pam?
0:05:26 > 0:05:27Why?
0:05:29 > 0:05:30Don't!
0:05:30 > 0:05:31She could be making a horrible mistake.
0:05:31 > 0:05:34Ignore her, Kathy, she's just got the wrong end of the stick.
0:05:34 > 0:05:37If you don't move, I'll just have to walk there.
0:05:37 > 0:05:38Walk where?
0:05:38 > 0:05:40Tell her.
0:05:41 > 0:05:42No.
0:05:42 > 0:05:44She's going to see Diane Atmore.
0:05:45 > 0:05:47The mother of one of Paul's killers.
0:05:49 > 0:05:53Last night, when we got home, all I wanted was a cuddle,
0:05:53 > 0:05:54and to feel...
0:05:56 > 0:05:57Feel what?
0:05:59 > 0:06:00Normal.
0:06:01 > 0:06:03But we're not though, are we? Because you're...
0:06:04 > 0:06:05You're my carer.
0:06:08 > 0:06:09- Love, I don't mind...- I do.
0:06:11 > 0:06:12You look at me and all you see is that chair.
0:06:14 > 0:06:15Well, what do you see then?
0:06:15 > 0:06:17- You.- And what does that mean?
0:06:17 > 0:06:19You're being silly, OK.
0:06:19 > 0:06:20I mean, yesterday, it was...
0:06:22 > 0:06:23..a blip.
0:06:23 > 0:06:25So, let's not use it as a excuse to go backwards, Ian!
0:06:25 > 0:06:26I'm not!
0:06:29 > 0:06:31I fancy fish and chips. How about you?
0:06:33 > 0:06:34I'll be back in a sec.
0:06:43 > 0:06:46Yeah, and what if you get in trouble for trying to influence the verdict?
0:06:46 > 0:06:48And what if it goes to trial?
0:06:48 > 0:06:51Listening to a lawyer defend those boys.
0:06:51 > 0:06:53Twist things, saying all sorts about my Paul.
0:06:55 > 0:07:00I want to look that woman in the eye and tell her exactly what
0:07:00 > 0:07:03her son did that night.
0:07:03 > 0:07:04I don't want Paul to be forgotten.
0:07:07 > 0:07:08OK.
0:07:10 > 0:07:13Yeah, but I'm coming with you.
0:07:13 > 0:07:16Ben's life has changed, too, after everything they've done to him.
0:07:16 > 0:07:18And if you want her to hear the truth,
0:07:18 > 0:07:20then she needs to hear all of it.
0:07:21 > 0:07:22Donna!
0:07:25 > 0:07:27Can you give these keys to Carmel for me?
0:07:27 > 0:07:28- Yeah.- Thanks.
0:07:30 > 0:07:31Don't worry.
0:07:32 > 0:07:34Thanks, Kath.
0:07:41 > 0:07:43Keys from Kathy.
0:07:43 > 0:07:45Oh. Where is she?
0:07:45 > 0:07:48I dunno. She just took off in a car with Pam.
0:07:48 > 0:07:49She was supposed to be helping me!
0:07:49 > 0:07:54Listen, if it's about those boxes, I think you're massively overreacting.
0:07:54 > 0:07:56I know the rules and I know you have to have way more than that
0:07:56 > 0:07:59to give me a warning, all right?
0:07:59 > 0:08:00I know.
0:08:00 > 0:08:04Which is why I'm offering you an opportunity.
0:08:04 > 0:08:08How do you fancy stepping into my shoes for the next couple of days?
0:08:08 > 0:08:10You want me to cover you?
0:08:10 > 0:08:13Well, just give me the heads up if you see any council bods
0:08:13 > 0:08:17wandering around, or anyone stepping out of line.
0:08:17 > 0:08:19How much you paying?
0:08:19 > 0:08:22It's experience. It's invaluable.
0:08:22 > 0:08:25You want me to snoop on my mates while you get all feng shui
0:08:25 > 0:08:27in Masood's and you're not paying me?
0:08:28 > 0:08:31Fine. If you're not interested,
0:08:31 > 0:08:33I'll find someone else.
0:08:33 > 0:08:36How comes you've got Masood's spare keys?
0:08:37 > 0:08:38I'm measuring up.
0:08:38 > 0:08:41Does the estate agent know you're snooping?
0:08:43 > 0:08:44Are you trying to blackmail me?
0:08:44 > 0:08:46Oh, lighten up, Carmel.
0:08:46 > 0:08:50I'm just saying, if you pay me properly, I will help you.
0:08:51 > 0:08:52How?
0:08:53 > 0:08:55Hold your tape measure?
0:08:57 > 0:09:00You were supposed to be here 20 minutes ago to relieve Kurt.
0:09:00 > 0:09:02I know, I'm sorry. Honey had to go out.
0:09:02 > 0:09:04I couldn't really leave the kids, could I?
0:09:04 > 0:09:06What you doing here anyway?
0:09:06 > 0:09:09I fancied fish and chips for my tea, so, haddock and chips twice, please.
0:09:09 > 0:09:10Oh, right. Fryer will take a while.
0:09:12 > 0:09:15Anyway, while you're here,
0:09:15 > 0:09:18I'd just like to say that I'm handing in my notice.
0:09:18 > 0:09:20I thought you wanted more shifts?
0:09:20 > 0:09:22Yeah, I know, it's just a...change of plan.
0:09:22 > 0:09:26See, I'm going to be the new manager at Coker and Sons.
0:09:26 > 0:09:28Obviously, I'll work through my notice.
0:09:28 > 0:09:30Billy, it's fine. We'll cope.
0:09:32 > 0:09:34Congratulations, mate.
0:09:34 > 0:09:36Cheers.
0:09:37 > 0:09:39Right, let's start in the lounge.
0:09:39 > 0:09:41Why are you whispering?
0:09:41 > 0:09:42I'm not.
0:09:42 > 0:09:43You are.
0:09:49 > 0:09:52What happened with you and Mas in the end?
0:09:52 > 0:09:53Nothing.
0:09:53 > 0:09:56Then how come you're so touchy about it?
0:09:56 > 0:09:58I just don't want to talk about it.
0:09:58 > 0:09:59Where's his stuff?
0:10:00 > 0:10:02In storage, probably.
0:10:02 > 0:10:03Bet you're gutted that isn't.
0:10:05 > 0:10:06You're right. It's got to go.
0:10:08 > 0:10:09Typical man.
0:10:09 > 0:10:13Idea of tidying is to shove it all in a cupboard.
0:10:14 > 0:10:16Aww.
0:10:16 > 0:10:18One for your pillow?
0:10:18 > 0:10:19Or yours.
0:10:19 > 0:10:22Seeing as you won't stop banging on about him.
0:10:23 > 0:10:24Give me a hand?
0:10:24 > 0:10:26Oh. Dark horse.
0:10:26 > 0:10:28I thought he didn't drink.
0:10:31 > 0:10:32Tastes weird.
0:10:32 > 0:10:34Oh, non-alcoholic wine.
0:10:34 > 0:10:35Whoa!
0:10:38 > 0:10:40You look like the Wicked Witch of the East.
0:10:42 > 0:10:43You calling me a witch?
0:10:43 > 0:10:45Munchkin.
0:10:51 > 0:10:52TEXT ALERT
0:10:54 > 0:10:57Er, excuse me.
0:10:57 > 0:10:58Sorry, I didn't...
0:10:58 > 0:10:59Thank you.
0:11:04 > 0:11:05How's Jane?
0:11:07 > 0:11:09Just, you know...
0:11:09 > 0:11:11after last night, well,
0:11:11 > 0:11:12can't have been easy for you.
0:11:13 > 0:11:16She can't even open a packet of biscuits.
0:11:17 > 0:11:18I'm sorry.
0:11:18 > 0:11:19You asked.
0:11:22 > 0:11:25You know what, Billy, sometimes I feel terrible for thinking it,
0:11:25 > 0:11:28but...it's like looking after an old person.
0:11:29 > 0:11:31She's still Jane.
0:11:31 > 0:11:33Is she?
0:11:33 > 0:11:34Oh, come on, Ian.
0:11:37 > 0:11:39Billy, just imagine, right,
0:11:39 > 0:11:41you go home tonight, OK,
0:11:41 > 0:11:46and Honey's not waiting there to give you kisses...
0:11:46 > 0:11:48She's waiting for you to take her to the toilet.
0:11:50 > 0:11:52I mean, what would you do?
0:11:53 > 0:11:55How do you mean?
0:11:55 > 0:11:56Would you...
0:11:58 > 0:12:00..still love her?
0:12:00 > 0:12:01Honey?
0:12:02 > 0:12:03Yeah, course I would.
0:12:06 > 0:12:08The thing with me and Hon is, right,
0:12:08 > 0:12:11it's not just...physical.
0:12:13 > 0:12:15The reason we work is because we're mates.
0:12:16 > 0:12:17She's me best mate.
0:12:19 > 0:12:22And that is what sees you through in the long run, innit?
0:12:24 > 0:12:26Right, do you, erm,
0:12:26 > 0:12:28want salt with this?
0:12:30 > 0:12:31Ian?
0:12:33 > 0:12:34Keep them.
0:12:36 > 0:12:37Ian, what about your food?
0:12:42 > 0:12:43She said seven, yeah?
0:12:47 > 0:12:49Are you OK?
0:12:49 > 0:12:50I'm going over what I want to say.
0:12:52 > 0:12:55When Diane arrives, would you...
0:12:55 > 0:12:57would you mind leaving me to do the talking?
0:13:00 > 0:13:02What was she like when you met her?
0:13:02 > 0:13:04Not what you'd expect.
0:13:04 > 0:13:06Then, who knows what goes on at home?
0:13:07 > 0:13:08How do you mean?
0:13:08 > 0:13:12In my experience, people like Simon don't just become killers.
0:13:12 > 0:13:14There's a story.
0:13:16 > 0:13:21Domestic violence. Alcoholism. Abuse. Absentee father. You name it.
0:13:23 > 0:13:27There's something and she will be on the defensive about whatever it is.
0:13:29 > 0:13:31Are you saying that...
0:13:31 > 0:13:36that Ben, and what he did to Heather Trott...that was because of me?
0:13:37 > 0:13:41If this is going to be difficult for you, perhaps you should leave now?
0:13:53 > 0:13:54So, was Masood good?
0:13:55 > 0:13:56Good?
0:13:56 > 0:13:58You know, in bed.
0:14:00 > 0:14:02That good?
0:14:03 > 0:14:06Pity he couldn't match it out the bedroom.
0:14:06 > 0:14:08But you liked him?
0:14:08 > 0:14:11Yeah, I suppose.
0:14:11 > 0:14:14Or maybe he was just the first warm body for a while.
0:14:14 > 0:14:18It's hard to separate that from feelings sometimes.
0:14:18 > 0:14:20What about you?
0:14:20 > 0:14:21How's your love life?
0:14:21 > 0:14:25Well, I was messaging this guy on an app,
0:14:25 > 0:14:30and then he updated his pictures and he's going bald.
0:14:31 > 0:14:32So?
0:14:32 > 0:14:34So, I don't like bald men.
0:14:34 > 0:14:35He might be nice.
0:14:35 > 0:14:38Well, I'm not looking for a relationship,
0:14:38 > 0:14:40so I get to be shallow.
0:14:40 > 0:14:41Why aren't you looking for a relationship?
0:14:41 > 0:14:43Because.
0:14:43 > 0:14:45It's not the right time.
0:14:45 > 0:14:47Why not?
0:14:47 > 0:14:49What is this?
0:14:49 > 0:14:52Oh, so you can dish it out, but you can't take it?
0:14:54 > 0:14:58I thought I was going to be a mum, didn't I?
0:14:58 > 0:15:01And now I'm getting used to the idea that I'm not.
0:15:02 > 0:15:05I don't think I'm ready to be in a relationship
0:15:05 > 0:15:07when I'm still in that head space.
0:15:10 > 0:15:12Makes sense.
0:15:13 > 0:15:15DOOR OPENING
0:15:17 > 0:15:18Who is it?
0:15:18 > 0:15:20Well, I dunno. My X-ray vision's on the blink.
0:15:20 > 0:15:21DOOR CLOSES
0:15:21 > 0:15:22Hello?
0:15:22 > 0:15:23Hide!
0:15:27 > 0:15:28Mrs Kazemi?
0:15:30 > 0:15:32Mrs Kazemi,
0:15:32 > 0:15:33I can see you.
0:15:35 > 0:15:37Rob!
0:15:37 > 0:15:38What a nice surprise.
0:15:39 > 0:15:42I was passing and I saw the lights on.
0:15:42 > 0:15:43How did you get in here?
0:15:47 > 0:15:49Only me.
0:15:49 > 0:15:51Where've you been? I've been worrying.
0:15:51 > 0:15:53Right,
0:15:53 > 0:15:57change of plan. We are going to make a lasagne.
0:15:57 > 0:15:59A lasagne?
0:15:59 > 0:16:03Yeah. I've missed your 'Jane' specials.
0:16:03 > 0:16:05We?
0:16:05 > 0:16:06Yeah, why not?
0:16:06 > 0:16:08Well, how exactly, Ian?
0:16:08 > 0:16:11Well, you're going to tell me what to do and I'll be your hands.
0:16:11 > 0:16:12But it's half past seven.
0:16:12 > 0:16:16- So?- So, it'll be gone nine by the time it's finished.
0:16:16 > 0:16:17I'm in no rush - are you?
0:16:23 > 0:16:25What sort of person keeps you waiting this long?
0:16:26 > 0:16:27She's not coming, is she?
0:16:29 > 0:16:31Pam, I'm so sorry.
0:16:31 > 0:16:32Will this ever end?
0:16:36 > 0:16:37Mrs Coker?
0:16:42 > 0:16:44There you go. What do you think?
0:16:44 > 0:16:46All right?
0:16:46 > 0:16:47It's a bechamel sauce.
0:16:47 > 0:16:49No, it's YOUR bechamel sauce.
0:16:51 > 0:16:53Why are we doing this, Ian?
0:16:58 > 0:17:00Right...
0:17:00 > 0:17:02what you said earlier, OK?
0:17:03 > 0:17:05I think you're right.
0:17:05 > 0:17:07I have found these...
0:17:08 > 0:17:10..these last few months really hard.
0:17:11 > 0:17:13It's OK.
0:17:13 > 0:17:14Go on, say it.
0:17:15 > 0:17:18I suppose I thought the best way to
0:17:18 > 0:17:21deal with it was just to get on with things.
0:17:23 > 0:17:26I mean, there's been so many practical things to sort out,
0:17:26 > 0:17:30it's not left anything else.
0:17:30 > 0:17:33So, yesterday, when I saw you in the Vic and there was that...
0:17:35 > 0:17:36..that moment between us.
0:17:37 > 0:17:39It felt like we were us again.
0:17:41 > 0:17:42I know.
0:17:44 > 0:17:46- And then it ended with... - I know.
0:17:50 > 0:17:51It felt like I was...
0:17:53 > 0:17:55..I was being punished for wishing
0:17:55 > 0:17:57we could have our old lives back.
0:18:00 > 0:18:02You were embarrassed.
0:18:06 > 0:18:07I'm sorry.
0:18:11 > 0:18:13You know, you were right to send Stacey round yesterday.
0:18:13 > 0:18:15I had got into a rut and
0:18:15 > 0:18:19maybe we can't have our old life back, Ian,
0:18:19 > 0:18:20but hiding away and feeling embarrassed,
0:18:20 > 0:18:22it's only going to make this worse.
0:18:24 > 0:18:27I am still me.
0:18:28 > 0:18:30I still feel all the old feelings.
0:18:34 > 0:18:35I still want to be your wife.
0:18:38 > 0:18:40Yeah, and I want that, too.
0:18:43 > 0:18:45Er, right, well, herbs.
0:18:45 > 0:18:49If you want a Jane special, you need sage and parsley.
0:18:49 > 0:18:52- Sage?- Yes, sage.
0:18:52 > 0:18:53Really?
0:18:53 > 0:18:56I'll have to go and get some. I've got some parsley though?
0:18:56 > 0:18:58Can I, erm...
0:18:58 > 0:19:00Can I try doing some chopping?
0:19:03 > 0:19:04OK.
0:19:05 > 0:19:08All right, we can make this work. Here you go.
0:19:08 > 0:19:10- All right, steady? - Yep, yep.- OK.
0:19:12 > 0:19:14There you go, here's the board.
0:19:14 > 0:19:16Here comes some parsley.
0:19:16 > 0:19:19- That'll be enough, won't it? More than enough.- Yeah.
0:19:19 > 0:19:21Right, here you go. Here's a knife.
0:19:21 > 0:19:22You got it? Yeah?
0:19:24 > 0:19:26Come on, let me help you.
0:19:26 > 0:19:28Let's get it down on the board, OK? And rock.
0:19:28 > 0:19:30Yeah? Hang on.
0:19:30 > 0:19:32That's it. You rock it and I'll push the parsley. That's it.
0:19:32 > 0:19:35See. Look at that! Teamwork. Here we go.
0:19:43 > 0:19:44Here?
0:19:44 > 0:19:45Yeah.
0:19:46 > 0:19:48Actually, no.
0:19:48 > 0:19:50I think it was better where it was.
0:19:50 > 0:19:51I'm kidding, I'm kidding.
0:19:53 > 0:19:55Ooh.
0:19:55 > 0:19:58Who knew you had such strong muscles under that shirt?
0:19:58 > 0:19:59Hilarious.
0:19:59 > 0:20:02Do you...do you need a hand with anything else?
0:20:02 > 0:20:04Maybe something upstairs, Carm?
0:20:05 > 0:20:07Oh, I wouldn't want to take up any more of your time.
0:20:09 > 0:20:11Your wife'll be wondering where you are.
0:20:11 > 0:20:12Oh, I doubt that.
0:20:13 > 0:20:15We're divorced.
0:20:16 > 0:20:18I'm sorry. Sorry.
0:20:18 > 0:20:21This wine's making me a bit tipsy.
0:20:21 > 0:20:22Thanks ever so much.
0:20:22 > 0:20:23I'll be right behind you.
0:20:24 > 0:20:26And thanks for understanding.
0:20:28 > 0:20:29It's OK.
0:20:30 > 0:20:33I know how important it is to feel settled somewhere new. I'll, er...
0:20:41 > 0:20:43You didn't get his number!
0:20:43 > 0:20:45I've already got it. He's the estate agent, remember.
0:20:47 > 0:20:49Are you sure this wine's non-alcoholic?
0:20:51 > 0:20:57Nah, nothing wrong with a bit of a flirt, but I'm not on the market.
0:20:57 > 0:20:59Since when?
0:20:59 > 0:21:00Since right now.
0:21:01 > 0:21:04This place is a new start for me and
0:21:04 > 0:21:07I don't want a man cluttering it up before I've even got going.
0:21:10 > 0:21:12I'm sorry I kept you waiting.
0:21:12 > 0:21:15I sent a message, I don't know if you got it.
0:21:15 > 0:21:17I had to stay late at work.
0:21:17 > 0:21:18I'm a midwife.
0:21:20 > 0:21:22I wanted to return your handkerchief.
0:21:25 > 0:21:27I had no idea who you were that day in court.
0:21:28 > 0:21:31I didn't want you to think I did it on purpose.
0:21:34 > 0:21:35That's Paul.
0:21:36 > 0:21:37That's my grandson.
0:21:39 > 0:21:40Was.
0:21:42 > 0:21:45- Very handsome.- He was a happy child.
0:21:45 > 0:21:46Playful. Cheeky.
0:21:46 > 0:21:48You always knew when Paul was home
0:21:48 > 0:21:50because the whole house was full of noise.
0:21:50 > 0:21:52Music or chatting.
0:21:54 > 0:21:57Our home is silent now.
0:21:59 > 0:22:01I can only imagine what you're going through.
0:22:03 > 0:22:07I've seen parents lose children at work, but this is...
0:22:09 > 0:22:11He was so open,
0:22:11 > 0:22:13gave his heart easily.
0:22:15 > 0:22:17Les and I always knew he was gay.
0:22:17 > 0:22:21Ben was his first proper relationship.
0:22:22 > 0:22:25I think he'd had flings before - but with Ben, it was...
0:22:27 > 0:22:28..different.
0:22:31 > 0:22:32They were in love.
0:22:34 > 0:22:35First love...
0:22:38 > 0:22:41I know there's nothing I can say.
0:22:43 > 0:22:45I just wanted you to know that...
0:22:47 > 0:22:50..when I saw you and your husband - I felt...
0:22:54 > 0:22:57I felt as if we might have been friends.
0:22:57 > 0:22:58In another life.
0:22:59 > 0:23:01My heart broke for you.
0:23:06 > 0:23:10Can you tell me about him?
0:23:12 > 0:23:14About your son?
0:23:22 > 0:23:24Ah, more meat.
0:23:24 > 0:23:26There's plenty.
0:23:26 > 0:23:29Do you have to be stingy in every area of your life, Ian?
0:23:29 > 0:23:31I am not stingy!
0:23:31 > 0:23:34Oh, and I'd like to taste that sauce before you put it on, please.
0:23:42 > 0:23:43No, it needs something...
0:23:45 > 0:23:47It needs nutmeg.
0:23:47 > 0:23:48- No, it's fine.- It's bland.
0:23:48 > 0:23:49I'm a professional chef.
0:23:49 > 0:23:52You went to catering college back in the '80s, Ian.
0:23:52 > 0:23:55I have worked in kitchens my entire life.
0:23:55 > 0:23:56Nutmeg.
0:24:01 > 0:24:03All right.
0:24:06 > 0:24:07Oi!
0:24:08 > 0:24:10I could do you for sexual harassment in the workplace!
0:24:14 > 0:24:15On the other hand...
0:24:20 > 0:24:22He loved animals.
0:24:22 > 0:24:25He still does. He's got this cat he's mad about.
0:24:26 > 0:24:29- Has he been violent before?- No.
0:24:29 > 0:24:31Well, I mean, the usual schoolboy scuffles,
0:24:31 > 0:24:33but never anything like this.
0:24:34 > 0:24:37What about the two of you? What's your relationship like?
0:24:37 > 0:24:38- Good.- Good?
0:24:40 > 0:24:43His dad and I separated when Simon was young,
0:24:43 > 0:24:45but it's always been amicable.
0:24:45 > 0:24:48He spends weekends with him, weekdays with me.
0:24:48 > 0:24:50And Simon gets on really well with his step-dad.
0:24:52 > 0:24:53He's been devastated by this.
0:24:55 > 0:24:56Was he bullied at school?
0:24:56 > 0:24:58Did he truant?
0:24:58 > 0:25:00Are you homophobic?
0:25:00 > 0:25:01- No.- His dad? His uncle?
0:25:01 > 0:25:02Someone close to him?
0:25:02 > 0:25:04His cousin's gay.
0:25:04 > 0:25:06He was always round our house.
0:25:06 > 0:25:08They used to play computer games together.
0:25:09 > 0:25:11I know what you're doing.
0:25:11 > 0:25:13It's what I've been doing ever since,
0:25:13 > 0:25:15but there is nothing I can tell you.
0:25:15 > 0:25:17Then why...
0:25:18 > 0:25:22Then why is my grandson dead?
0:25:25 > 0:25:27Maybe I missed something.
0:25:27 > 0:25:29Maybe...
0:25:29 > 0:25:31Maybe there were signs I didn't spot.
0:25:31 > 0:25:33Did I let him watch too many video games?
0:25:33 > 0:25:35Did I feed him the wrong thing?
0:25:35 > 0:25:36Did I work too much?
0:25:36 > 0:25:38Maybe it was that time I gave him a smack?
0:25:39 > 0:25:43Look, you can't do this to yourself, Diane.
0:25:43 > 0:25:47Simon is a grown man and the only person responsible is himself.
0:25:49 > 0:25:51My son, Ben,
0:25:51 > 0:25:54had a difficult time when he was a teenager.
0:25:57 > 0:25:59He killed someone, too,
0:25:59 > 0:26:02and tried to cover it up.
0:26:03 > 0:26:04He made a terrible mistake...
0:26:04 > 0:26:07That was totally different!
0:26:07 > 0:26:09Ben lashed out. It wasn't deliberate.
0:26:10 > 0:26:12What...
0:26:12 > 0:26:14What Simon did was a hate crime.
0:26:15 > 0:26:18He saw my grandson holding hands with the man
0:26:18 > 0:26:20he loved and it offended...
0:26:21 > 0:26:25..and it offended him so much that he punched and kicked
0:26:25 > 0:26:27the life out of him.
0:26:27 > 0:26:30It was a hate crime.
0:26:32 > 0:26:34I am so ashamed.
0:26:34 > 0:26:36And what about Simon? Is he ashamed, too?
0:26:37 > 0:26:39We don't talk about it.
0:26:39 > 0:26:42But you are in no doubt that he did it?
0:26:44 > 0:26:46So, he's going to plead guilty?
0:26:52 > 0:26:53No.
0:27:06 > 0:27:08BEEPING
0:27:08 > 0:27:09What's...what's that?
0:27:09 > 0:27:10It's the lasagne.
0:27:10 > 0:27:12Oh!
0:27:12 > 0:27:14Right, it's all right. I'm on it, I'm on it.
0:27:21 > 0:27:24I'm sure lasagne tastes brilliant at breakfast.
0:27:26 > 0:27:28- Where were we? - Ooh, your elbow.- Sorry.
0:27:30 > 0:27:31Ian, my shoulder's a bit...
0:27:37 > 0:27:38Better?
0:27:40 > 0:27:42Mmmm.
0:27:42 > 0:27:43Better.
0:27:47 > 0:27:49Can't you make him listen to you?
0:27:49 > 0:27:53He's 26. He's headstrong. He's got this lawyer.
0:27:53 > 0:27:54But you'll try?
0:27:56 > 0:27:57Won't you?
0:27:58 > 0:28:00Pleading not guilty is his only chance.
0:28:02 > 0:28:03Chance?
0:28:04 > 0:28:06Otherwise, he'll spend the rest of his life in prison.
0:28:06 > 0:28:08But he is guilty!
0:28:10 > 0:28:11And he's my son.
0:28:13 > 0:28:15And whatever he's done, he's still my son.
0:28:23 > 0:28:25Wouldn't you do the same?