0:00:44 > 0:00:45Michelle in here?
0:01:11 > 0:01:14Is everything all right, Sharon? It's just that I just wanted to tell
0:01:14 > 0:01:16Michelle that we've popped her champagne.
0:01:16 > 0:01:19- She wasn't in the toilets and she hadn't even had a drink. - What's wrong with you?
0:01:21 > 0:01:25Just give her two minutes - she's probably a bit overwhelmed.
0:01:25 > 0:01:27You don't think something's happened, do you?
0:01:27 > 0:01:29What? Why?
0:01:29 > 0:01:32I still reckon I saw Michelle crying the other day.
0:01:32 > 0:01:34It's fine. I'll go.
0:01:38 > 0:01:40Right, people,
0:01:40 > 0:01:43you was promised an Italian night, so get that down your scrag, all right?
0:02:01 > 0:02:03(Key, key, key...?)
0:02:51 > 0:02:53PHONE BUZZES
0:02:58 > 0:02:59Sharon?
0:03:01 > 0:03:02'Sharon?'
0:03:10 > 0:03:12- DOT:- Ethel?
0:03:12 > 0:03:14- Ethel? - SHE GROANS
0:03:15 > 0:03:16Oh.
0:03:18 > 0:03:21Oh, I can't see under there.
0:03:23 > 0:03:25I know what you'd like.
0:03:25 > 0:03:27I know what you'd like.
0:03:30 > 0:03:32She's pregnant.
0:03:32 > 0:03:33Who?
0:03:33 > 0:03:36- You're not making any sense. - Then listen to me, for God's sake!
0:03:36 > 0:03:38I heard 'em...
0:03:38 > 0:03:40Denise Fox...
0:03:40 > 0:03:41is having Phil's baby.
0:03:43 > 0:03:46She's only having his baby.
0:03:46 > 0:03:47And do you know what I don't get?
0:03:47 > 0:03:50I don't get how that is even a physical possibility.
0:03:50 > 0:03:52You and Phil aren't having sex?
0:03:52 > 0:03:54Have you any idea what state he's been in?
0:03:57 > 0:04:00Even on his last legs he manages to disappoint.
0:04:00 > 0:04:03Stupid, stupid, stupid bastard!
0:04:11 > 0:04:14Just when things were starting to get better.
0:04:15 > 0:04:17I could actually see a future.
0:04:20 > 0:04:22Just when he gets his life back.
0:04:23 > 0:04:26A leopard don't change its spots.
0:04:26 > 0:04:27Mum always said.
0:04:27 > 0:04:28For months....
0:04:29 > 0:04:32..Phil's been the only thing.
0:04:32 > 0:04:35The first thing in the morning, last thought at night.
0:04:37 > 0:04:40Denny's going to be gutted.
0:04:40 > 0:04:42Give him a chance to explain, babe.
0:04:45 > 0:04:46How could he?
0:04:49 > 0:04:51Do you think he knows?
0:04:51 > 0:04:52I don't know...
0:04:54 > 0:04:55Not from what I heard, no.
0:04:59 > 0:05:01I don't care what he's done.
0:05:01 > 0:05:02I don't care who he's done it with.
0:05:02 > 0:05:04It's one time too many.
0:05:06 > 0:05:09He has blown his last chance.
0:05:09 > 0:05:10You don't mean that.
0:05:10 > 0:05:11Do I seriously...
0:05:13 > 0:05:17..have to spend the rest of my life fire-fighting?
0:05:17 > 0:05:18Hmm?
0:05:18 > 0:05:20Is this really as good as it gets?
0:05:22 > 0:05:24Working our way through another bloody mess that he's kicked off,
0:05:24 > 0:05:26and for what?
0:05:26 > 0:05:30Because he's my husband? Because I need him?
0:05:30 > 0:05:31Well, not that much I don't.
0:05:31 > 0:05:32Because you love him.
0:05:33 > 0:05:35You love him.
0:05:35 > 0:05:38Who's died and suddenly made you Phil Mitchell's best mate, huh?
0:05:39 > 0:05:42I am hanging on by my fingernails here.
0:05:42 > 0:05:43Do I look like my mother?
0:05:48 > 0:05:49Nah, I'm done.
0:05:51 > 0:05:52I never want to see Phil again.
0:05:53 > 0:05:55Whenever your flight is,
0:05:55 > 0:05:56I'm coming.
0:06:02 > 0:06:03Lovely food.
0:06:05 > 0:06:06Ooh, Ethel.
0:06:08 > 0:06:09Ooh...
0:06:12 > 0:06:13Yum, yum, yum.
0:06:15 > 0:06:18Time away is what I've been needing for weeks, if I'm honest.
0:06:18 > 0:06:21Just didn't think I'd be going on my own...
0:06:21 > 0:06:23or for good.
0:06:23 > 0:06:25You're not even going to talk to Phil?
0:06:25 > 0:06:28What can he possibly say that in any way's going to make it better?
0:06:28 > 0:06:29"Sorry"?
0:06:32 > 0:06:36Maybe we could come and stay with you for a bit, huh?
0:06:36 > 0:06:37What do you say?
0:06:37 > 0:06:40We could have your spare room on the top floor again.
0:06:40 > 0:06:43Be like old times, like when Denny was little.
0:06:44 > 0:06:45Cos I have missed you.
0:06:45 > 0:06:47I've missed you an' all.
0:06:47 > 0:06:50Well, look, it won't be forever.
0:06:50 > 0:06:52Just till I find my feet.
0:06:52 > 0:06:55I can get a job, I've got skills.
0:06:55 > 0:06:59And between you, you and Tim have got to know the best high schools.
0:07:00 > 0:07:04Because, to be honest, I'm not that impressed with our options here anyway.
0:07:06 > 0:07:08And however attached he is...
0:07:09 > 0:07:11..however good a dad Phil's...
0:07:13 > 0:07:16The truth is, Denny isn't thriving
0:07:16 > 0:07:17and he's got to be my priority.
0:07:19 > 0:07:21I know people round here think I don't notice,
0:07:21 > 0:07:25but he's always had brat tendencies.
0:07:25 > 0:07:27It's probably my fault - probably spoil him.
0:07:28 > 0:07:31Seems the softer you are, the less they respect you.
0:07:34 > 0:07:36Do you think Tim will mind?
0:07:36 > 0:07:38You've got to tell me if you think Tim'll mind.
0:07:38 > 0:07:39He loves you two.
0:07:41 > 0:07:43You've got a good 'un.
0:07:43 > 0:07:44Yeah.
0:07:44 > 0:07:46A decent, civilised man.
0:07:47 > 0:07:49A man with his brain in his head, not in his pants.
0:07:49 > 0:07:51Yeah.
0:07:53 > 0:07:55You know what?
0:07:55 > 0:07:58I wish I'd come over there with you all them years ago.
0:07:59 > 0:08:03You chose the brightest, best-looking college lecturer in Florida
0:08:03 > 0:08:05and I wind up with the village idiot.
0:08:05 > 0:08:07Give it a couple of weeks, though, eh?
0:08:10 > 0:08:12Starting over,
0:08:12 > 0:08:14it ain't all that, Sharon.
0:08:14 > 0:08:15No, I know that.
0:08:17 > 0:08:19But I'll be all right, won't I?
0:08:19 > 0:08:20Hey? I've got my best mate.
0:08:23 > 0:08:24Come on, what do you say?
0:08:26 > 0:08:28Come on, pass us the phone and I'll give Tim a ring.
0:08:28 > 0:08:29See if we can get...
0:08:46 > 0:08:47Too much has happened.
0:08:50 > 0:08:51It won't work.
0:08:53 > 0:08:54Oh.
0:08:55 > 0:08:56Right.
0:08:58 > 0:09:02Well, thanks for letting me bang on making plans, looking like a moron(!)
0:09:02 > 0:09:03There ain't no flight.
0:09:05 > 0:09:06Why?
0:09:08 > 0:09:09Where were you going, then?
0:09:12 > 0:09:15Michelle, what's happened? What's he done?
0:09:17 > 0:09:19Do we have to do 20 questions?
0:09:20 > 0:09:22For once in your life, tell me the truth
0:09:22 > 0:09:24without me having to drag it out of you.
0:09:27 > 0:09:29I got cellulite!
0:09:29 > 0:09:30What?
0:09:30 > 0:09:32Yeah, you know it.
0:09:34 > 0:09:35And grey roots.
0:09:37 > 0:09:39And the top of my arms found a life of their own.
0:09:39 > 0:09:43And however hard I worked out, however many times I skipped
0:09:43 > 0:09:45breakfast and lunch, all I had to do was look at a bagel...
0:09:47 > 0:09:49I might as well have shoved it down my trousers
0:09:49 > 0:09:50and Sellotaped it to my arse.
0:09:50 > 0:09:52What the hell are you going on about?
0:09:54 > 0:09:55When we met...
0:09:56 > 0:09:58When Tim and me met...
0:10:01 > 0:10:02..I was young...
0:10:03 > 0:10:06..and impressed and interested.
0:10:06 > 0:10:07And young, Sharon.
0:10:10 > 0:10:1318 years later - I can tell you the exact day...
0:10:15 > 0:10:19..my gorgeous son was heading off for a holiday with his latest,
0:10:19 > 0:10:21beautiful, lovely, in-love girlfriend...
0:10:24 > 0:10:25..and I waved goodbye and...
0:10:28 > 0:10:31..for the first time in what feels like forever...
0:10:32 > 0:10:33..I'm not worrying.
0:10:37 > 0:10:39I'm not thinking about him.
0:10:42 > 0:10:44And I look in the mirror...
0:10:46 > 0:10:47..and there I am, suddenly...
0:10:50 > 0:10:52..45 with bingo wings.
0:10:52 > 0:10:55Oh, please. Is that it?
0:10:55 > 0:10:57And then I get it.
0:10:57 > 0:10:59Are you having a mid-life crisis?
0:10:59 > 0:11:02The reason we ain't had sex for over two years...
0:11:05 > 0:11:07Why my husband don't want me any more...
0:11:23 > 0:11:25I feel like the only woman in the world.
0:11:26 > 0:11:28Hardly gets a mention online.
0:11:29 > 0:11:32Your husband just stops wanting sex with you.
0:11:33 > 0:11:36Even Jerry Springer ain't interested
0:11:36 > 0:11:39unless he's a pervert or a porno addict.
0:11:39 > 0:11:41Or cheating?
0:11:41 > 0:11:43I could have understood that.
0:11:43 > 0:11:45At least I would get that.
0:11:45 > 0:11:47Would you?
0:11:47 > 0:11:49Because it is about being wanted, Sharon...
0:11:50 > 0:11:53..and being bothered and being alive.
0:11:57 > 0:11:58We weren't together.
0:11:58 > 0:12:00What?
0:12:00 > 0:12:04No, bec... Because Phil thought he was dying.
0:12:04 > 0:12:05April.
0:12:06 > 0:12:09That's nine months ago, yeah?
0:12:09 > 0:12:11April - that's when Phil and Denise...
0:12:14 > 0:12:17- We weren't together. - Well, there you go.
0:12:17 > 0:12:20Can't even really call it cheating, then, can you?
0:12:21 > 0:12:22No.
0:12:30 > 0:12:32You know, maybe Tim needs a bit of help.
0:12:34 > 0:12:36Packet of pills or something?
0:12:36 > 0:12:37He is a lot older than you.
0:12:39 > 0:12:41- There's nothing wrong with Tim except me.- No.
0:12:41 > 0:12:43It is humiliating...
0:12:46 > 0:12:47..lying awake...
0:12:49 > 0:12:50..waiting for him to come upstairs.
0:12:52 > 0:12:55I swear he stopped cleaning his teeth in case I tried to kiss him.
0:12:57 > 0:12:59Creeping into bed when he thought I was asleep.
0:12:59 > 0:13:02It doesn't mean he doesn't want you - it means he's tired.
0:13:02 > 0:13:03Every single night?
0:13:05 > 0:13:06Bored, Sharon.
0:13:08 > 0:13:11- I am flabby and irritating. - Oh, come on, babe.
0:13:11 > 0:13:12And I can't even talk about it.
0:13:12 > 0:13:14I mean, how do you talk about it?
0:13:16 > 0:13:20How do you say, "Why don't you fancy me any more?" without crying?
0:13:20 > 0:13:22You know you two work well together.
0:13:22 > 0:13:25We are a couple, Sharon.
0:13:25 > 0:13:26We're not a business.
0:13:26 > 0:13:28We're not John Lewis Partnership.
0:13:28 > 0:13:29All right, Pauline.
0:13:36 > 0:13:38Any tiny shred of passion...
0:13:41 > 0:13:44Anything that don't leave you feeling like last year's slippers...
0:13:44 > 0:13:47You want to know the weeks I spent just eating salad.
0:13:47 > 0:13:50The different haircuts,
0:13:50 > 0:13:52starving,
0:13:52 > 0:13:53comfort eating.
0:13:53 > 0:13:56At least my mother kept her dignity,
0:13:56 > 0:13:59knocked a dent in the frying pan with Dad's head.
0:13:59 > 0:14:00Are you menopausal?
0:14:00 > 0:14:01What?
0:14:01 > 0:14:04Well, the balance of hormones and that -
0:14:04 > 0:14:08it makes a massive difference to how serious you take stuff.
0:14:08 > 0:14:10- You saying it's my fault?- No! No, no, no.
0:14:10 > 0:14:12I'm just saying that
0:14:12 > 0:14:17maybe Tim didn't mean it exactly as you took it.
0:14:17 > 0:14:20I mean, that's got to make the most sense. Cos he loves you.
0:14:20 > 0:14:22And he's not a shallow man, is he?
0:14:22 > 0:14:24What? Because he likes reading a book?
0:14:24 > 0:14:26He's still a man, Sharon.
0:14:26 > 0:14:28And he don't fancy middle-aged women,
0:14:28 > 0:14:31which is his choice and his decision
0:14:31 > 0:14:34and a bloody great shame because I am one. And just...
0:14:34 > 0:14:38Just what exactly am I supposed to do for the next 30 years of my life?
0:14:38 > 0:14:40Take a vow?
0:14:40 > 0:14:42Accept it as punishment for stretchmarks?
0:14:42 > 0:14:44Pretend I'm relieved?
0:14:44 > 0:14:47Never tell anyone that the most my husband ever gives me is a quick
0:14:47 > 0:14:50squeeze of the hand, a peck on the cheek? That he won't even touch me?
0:14:50 > 0:14:51OK, just calm down.
0:14:51 > 0:14:54Oh, don't pretend you don't know about hanging on in there, Sharon.
0:14:54 > 0:14:57You get out of bed naturally that colour, do you?
0:14:57 > 0:14:59All that hair actually growing out of your own head?
0:14:59 > 0:15:00Are you looking for a smack?
0:15:00 > 0:15:02When the whole of the world starts pulling you apart,
0:15:02 > 0:15:06- I thought at least you'd be on my side.- Who's pulling you apart?
0:15:06 > 0:15:08- And I tan easy.- Forget it.- Who is pulling you apart?- Just forget it.
0:15:08 > 0:15:12- No, come on...- Forget it.- ..who's pulling you apart? Who?- Forget it. - Who? Who?
0:15:15 > 0:15:17You think when you leave a place, it freezes in time.
0:15:20 > 0:15:22Nan in her chair.
0:15:24 > 0:15:25Fish on a Friday.
0:15:28 > 0:15:30Sunday tea at half four.
0:15:30 > 0:15:32Condensation and fag smoke.
0:15:34 > 0:15:36Celery that you dip in salt.
0:15:38 > 0:15:40And my mother shouting up the stairs...
0:15:44 > 0:15:47But no-one eats celery any more.
0:15:47 > 0:15:49Not even round here, do they?
0:15:49 > 0:15:52Sit down. You drink too much and you've not eaten enough.
0:15:52 > 0:15:55I should have actually... I should have known better. Coming back.
0:15:55 > 0:15:56SHE SNIFFS
0:15:56 > 0:15:59Thinking we could pick up like when we was kids, best mates...
0:15:59 > 0:16:02- We don't even hardly know each other.- What?
0:16:04 > 0:16:07This ain't my home. I don't fit here. I don't want to.
0:16:07 > 0:16:09That's how come I left in the first place.
0:16:09 > 0:16:11It's just a small...
0:16:11 > 0:16:15It is, it's a dirty, grubby little corner of London.
0:16:15 > 0:16:16What has happened to you?
0:16:16 > 0:16:20Still full, full of the same small-minded petty little people,
0:16:20 > 0:16:23Sharon, passing their judgements and shagging the...
0:16:25 > 0:16:27Shagging the neighbours.
0:16:32 > 0:16:33You cow.
0:16:40 > 0:16:42PHONE RINGS
0:16:43 > 0:16:45- What? - DOOR SLAMS
0:16:45 > 0:16:46What, Phil?
0:16:48 > 0:16:51Er, football boots, yellow socks.
0:16:51 > 0:16:54The cheese strings are in the fridge.
0:16:54 > 0:16:55No, nothing...
0:16:57 > 0:16:58Nothing's wrong.
0:17:00 > 0:17:01Listen, I'm done here.
0:17:01 > 0:17:04Tell Denny to go to bed. I'm coming home.
0:17:14 > 0:17:16Yes, I know, Officer.
0:17:16 > 0:17:21Yes, I know I can't sit here all night with the door open
0:17:21 > 0:17:24but I'm frightened that he can't find his way home.
0:17:28 > 0:17:29And goodnight to you, too.
0:17:33 > 0:17:35Ethel?
0:17:35 > 0:17:36Ethel Esquire?
0:17:38 > 0:17:39I'm shutting the door now.
0:17:42 > 0:17:44SOBBING
0:17:46 > 0:17:47SHARON SIGHS
0:18:15 > 0:18:16They've all gone.
0:18:19 > 0:18:22There's no-one left to come home to.
0:18:24 > 0:18:26MICHELLE SOBS
0:18:32 > 0:18:34You've always had a nasty streak,
0:18:34 > 0:18:36talking to me like that.
0:18:38 > 0:18:40Now, you tell me the truth, Michelle,
0:18:40 > 0:18:42and you'd better hurry up cos it's cold.
0:18:44 > 0:18:46This ain't about Tim, is it?
0:18:46 > 0:18:47It's about you.
0:18:48 > 0:18:49What have you done?
0:18:55 > 0:18:56I gave up.
0:18:57 > 0:18:59I threw myself into work.
0:19:02 > 0:19:03Joined a choir.
0:19:06 > 0:19:11Posted pictures - every walk and dinner out and birthday.
0:19:13 > 0:19:15Filled my profile page with "likes" and,
0:19:15 > 0:19:17"Ain't I done well? "Look at my amazing life."
0:19:18 > 0:19:20Well,
0:19:20 > 0:19:22we all go through...times.
0:19:24 > 0:19:26But you love each other, you work it out.
0:19:31 > 0:19:33You're going to stand by Phil, ain't you?
0:19:37 > 0:19:40Maybe I could have made Tim fall back in love.
0:19:41 > 0:19:42Lust?
0:19:45 > 0:19:46Faint interest with me?
0:19:48 > 0:19:50Maybe I'm not the only woman.
0:19:52 > 0:19:53Best-kept secret...
0:19:55 > 0:19:58Maybe this is just what happens and eventually it don't matter any more
0:19:58 > 0:20:01and a quick kiss on the cheek is good enough.
0:20:04 > 0:20:05Or all that's left.
0:20:10 > 0:20:13I started giving private English tuition.
0:20:15 > 0:20:16Started a pottery course.
0:20:24 > 0:20:25I fell in love.
0:20:28 > 0:20:30Madly, Sharon. SHE LAUGHS
0:20:30 > 0:20:33Like an idiot.
0:20:33 > 0:20:34Like I forgot what...
0:20:36 > 0:20:39So long being ignored.
0:20:39 > 0:20:41You know, I was faithful to Tim...
0:20:42 > 0:20:44..but he left me -
0:20:44 > 0:20:45in his head.
0:20:45 > 0:20:48You can't even really call it cheating.
0:20:52 > 0:20:53It was like I woke up.
0:20:56 > 0:20:58Like I was half dead.
0:21:00 > 0:21:02Oh, my God...
0:21:04 > 0:21:06A whole year together.
0:21:09 > 0:21:12We were obsessed with each other.
0:21:12 > 0:21:14All I thought about and dreamt about was the next time.
0:21:14 > 0:21:17The only place I wanted to be was with him.
0:21:19 > 0:21:20Who?
0:21:20 > 0:21:21And he felt it too.
0:21:23 > 0:21:25Things he said...
0:21:25 > 0:21:27Couldn't keep his hands off me.
0:21:27 > 0:21:28It wasn't about...
0:21:29 > 0:21:31..sex.
0:21:31 > 0:21:32It wasn't just...
0:21:36 > 0:21:37It was the fun...
0:21:39 > 0:21:41..the gorgeous...
0:21:43 > 0:21:44..the energy.
0:21:46 > 0:21:48He wanted me.
0:21:52 > 0:21:54Turned my head. SHE LAUGHS
0:21:54 > 0:21:58Stopped being cautious, started thinking maybe it didn't matter
0:21:58 > 0:22:00if we were found out,
0:22:00 > 0:22:01if this is the future...
0:22:01 > 0:22:05He said, "You've got to make the future happen."
0:22:05 > 0:22:06And I...
0:22:10 > 0:22:11I said, "Yeah."
0:22:15 > 0:22:16We planned it out.
0:22:18 > 0:22:20Monday night before Christmas. SHARON SIGHS
0:22:20 > 0:22:22Yeah, I know, I know, I know it sounds harsh,
0:22:22 > 0:22:24but we were going to have our first Christmas.
0:22:26 > 0:22:27Us.
0:22:30 > 0:22:33He'd break it to his family, I'd tell Tim I wanted a divorce.
0:22:41 > 0:22:42Didn't get the chance.
0:22:47 > 0:22:51His mum found his suitcase and came into the school.
0:22:51 > 0:22:52What?
0:22:52 > 0:22:56The school board demanded my immediate resignation. No choice.
0:22:56 > 0:22:57I'd broken the law.
0:22:59 > 0:23:02Tim told me he wanted a divorce.
0:23:02 > 0:23:04Mark refused to stay in the house.
0:23:04 > 0:23:07It was Christmas. I couldn't see him on the street.
0:23:08 > 0:23:10I moved into a motel.
0:23:10 > 0:23:12But the things they said about me, Sharon.
0:23:12 > 0:23:14My "friends".
0:23:18 > 0:23:20I came off every bit of social media.
0:23:20 > 0:23:22Shut down my profile page and my...
0:23:26 > 0:23:27My Preston...
0:23:30 > 0:23:32I wouldn't give him the room number
0:23:32 > 0:23:36and he stood outside in the car park shouting for me.
0:23:37 > 0:23:38Howling like a...
0:23:48 > 0:23:49One last time.
0:23:51 > 0:23:53And I told him it had to be over.
0:23:54 > 0:23:57I couldn't let this ruin both our lives.
0:23:57 > 0:23:59He had to move on without me
0:23:59 > 0:24:01and he had to be happy.
0:24:02 > 0:24:04How old was he?
0:24:04 > 0:24:05We were in love.
0:24:06 > 0:24:08In love!
0:24:08 > 0:24:10You're addicted to the rush - you always have been.
0:24:10 > 0:24:12If I was a fella...
0:24:12 > 0:24:17No, no, no, Sharon, if I was any man in there,
0:24:17 > 0:24:20they would not be refusing to speak to me, would they?
0:24:20 > 0:24:23They would be patting me on the back and buying me a pint.
0:24:23 > 0:24:24Seriously...
0:24:25 > 0:24:29We get to an age where "older man" means actual geriatric,
0:24:29 > 0:24:31and you've moved on to kids?
0:24:31 > 0:24:33I've lost everything!
0:24:33 > 0:24:36Mark still ain't talking, Tim won't answer.
0:24:37 > 0:24:41I am pawning jewellery till my bank card's sorted like I'm...
0:24:41 > 0:24:43Pat Butcher on a bad day.
0:24:43 > 0:24:46You'd have thought you'd have learned your lesson 20 years ago.
0:24:46 > 0:24:48You know, if you're going to have them kind of secrets,
0:24:48 > 0:24:50- keep 'em secret.- I knew it.
0:24:52 > 0:24:53You still ain't forgiven me.
0:24:55 > 0:24:57It wasn't me my dad cheated on, was it?
0:24:57 > 0:25:00Oh, yeah, yeah, you've got it so sussed, ain't you, Sharon?
0:25:00 > 0:25:03That is your plan with Phil's baby an' all, ain't it?
0:25:03 > 0:25:06Your way of dealing - just going to keep your mouth shut?
0:25:06 > 0:25:07That still your version of honest?
0:25:07 > 0:25:09Yes, actually. Yes!
0:25:10 > 0:25:12If it gives me some sort of control back,
0:25:12 > 0:25:14keeps the peace. You know the arrogance of you?
0:25:14 > 0:25:15What?
0:25:15 > 0:25:19What is wrong with just getting by, huh?
0:25:19 > 0:25:20Rubbing along?
0:25:20 > 0:25:23Colour, religion, whatever.
0:25:23 > 0:25:26You know, that is the whole point of London.
0:25:26 > 0:25:29You can be whoever you are, however you want.
0:25:29 > 0:25:32The only payback is you show the same respect.
0:25:32 > 0:25:34You live and let live.
0:25:34 > 0:25:37You know, I am proud that I come from here.
0:25:37 > 0:25:39- You telling me you found something better?- No.
0:25:39 > 0:25:41No, you didn't.
0:25:41 > 0:25:43All you have done is criticise.
0:25:43 > 0:25:46Yeah. Yeah. It's ironic, isn't it?
0:25:46 > 0:25:49Went all that way not to turn into her.
0:25:50 > 0:25:52Well, you know, maybe...
0:25:52 > 0:25:55Maybe this is the one time your mum nailed it,
0:25:55 > 0:25:59cos leopards, they do not change their spots, do they, huh?
0:25:59 > 0:26:03We all have a face we put on, Michelle, and you...
0:26:03 > 0:26:05You've been faking you're a good girl since we were at junior school,
0:26:05 > 0:26:08ain't you? Always reckoning yourself, ain't you?!
0:26:08 > 0:26:09- Oh, shut up!- Yes!
0:26:12 > 0:26:13You're not grown-up.
0:26:14 > 0:26:15You just got older.
0:26:17 > 0:26:20I mean, what has Tim actually done?
0:26:22 > 0:26:24Preston shut the door and walked away.
0:26:26 > 0:26:28You do know this is Lofty all over?
0:26:29 > 0:26:31I am sat in that motel room...
0:26:32 > 0:26:37..Christmas carols on a loop, every other person just passing through,
0:26:37 > 0:26:41and I ain't got no home to go to, Sharon.
0:26:41 > 0:26:46Don't fit in there, or here or anywhere.
0:26:46 > 0:26:47Nothing.
0:26:50 > 0:26:51Just that stupid,
0:26:51 > 0:26:55ugly old woman still staring back out the mirror.
0:26:55 > 0:26:57And I can only think of one proper friend.
0:26:59 > 0:27:02One person I can tell the truth
0:27:02 > 0:27:04who gets me enough not to judge.
0:27:08 > 0:27:09How old was he?
0:27:13 > 0:27:14Guess.
0:27:16 > 0:27:19Why don't you guess and gossip like the rest?
0:27:19 > 0:27:20How old was he?
0:27:24 > 0:27:25He's 17.
0:27:46 > 0:27:49CAT MEOWS
0:27:52 > 0:27:54Oh, there you are.
0:27:54 > 0:27:58Where have you been, you dirty little stop out?
0:28:00 > 0:28:02You was hungry, was you? Now, you stay there.
0:28:04 > 0:28:06Dreadful fleas you creatures carry.
0:28:08 > 0:28:10CAT MEOWS
0:29:05 > 0:29:06You've always got a home here.
0:29:10 > 0:29:11Cradle snatcher.