0:00:24 > 0:00:26Oh, Jay, bacon.
0:00:26 > 0:00:28- Yep, all ready to go. - Sausages...
0:00:28 > 0:00:31They're in the... They're in the oven.
0:00:31 > 0:00:32Fried slice.
0:00:32 > 0:00:34Oh, very healthy(!)
0:00:34 > 0:00:36Yeah, well, it's Phil's birthday.
0:00:36 > 0:00:38And it's good, don't get me wrong.
0:00:38 > 0:00:39Good old-fashioned fry-up.
0:00:39 > 0:00:41Presents.
0:00:41 > 0:00:43Just wait till he sees what I've got him.
0:00:48 > 0:00:51- So what's all this? - Happy birthday, Dad.
0:00:53 > 0:00:55BABIES CRY
0:01:01 > 0:01:03Sorry, were you sleeping?
0:01:03 > 0:01:05In this place?
0:01:05 > 0:01:07Chance'd be a fine thing.
0:01:07 > 0:01:09It IS a maternity ward.
0:01:09 > 0:01:12Ten out of ten, Sherlock, what gave that away?
0:01:14 > 0:01:16So how is everyone?
0:01:17 > 0:01:20Kim? Mum?
0:01:22 > 0:01:24They haven't said too much to me, you know.
0:01:24 > 0:01:27Nothing you can repeat, you mean.
0:01:27 > 0:01:30Denise, they'll come round.
0:01:30 > 0:01:32When hell freezes over.
0:01:33 > 0:01:35Listen, man.
0:01:35 > 0:01:40You have lived with this decision for months and yet you've found
0:01:40 > 0:01:43it...difficult at times.
0:01:43 > 0:01:47Just give it time. The worst is over, I promise.
0:01:56 > 0:01:58- So where did you get this? - Sent away for it.
0:01:58 > 0:02:01This company on the net do them. You send them pictures
0:02:01 > 0:02:02and they turn 'em into jigsaws.
0:02:02 > 0:02:04Puts my aftershave in the shade.
0:02:04 > 0:02:06And my socks.
0:02:06 > 0:02:07Did you know about this?
0:02:07 > 0:02:10- No. - Keeping secrets already, eh?
0:02:11 > 0:02:14Right, if you two give us five minutes, we'll dish up.
0:02:14 > 0:02:16- I'll get that, Phil. - Let's get the plates.
0:02:16 > 0:02:19- Can I do anything? - No, you sit down.
0:02:19 > 0:02:23- We'll wait on YOU.- Thank you!
0:02:29 > 0:02:32He must have been planning this for ages.
0:02:32 > 0:02:34He thinks the world of you, you know that.
0:02:34 > 0:02:36Yeah, well, same here.
0:02:39 > 0:02:42Sharon, you know what we were talking about?
0:02:42 > 0:02:48I'll never replace him. Dennis, well, he's his real dad,
0:02:48 > 0:02:51he always will be, I know that, but...
0:02:52 > 0:02:54..I'd like to do adopt him.
0:02:55 > 0:02:56Make it official.
0:03:04 > 0:03:07I brought a little something for the children.
0:03:07 > 0:03:09Very kind of you.
0:03:09 > 0:03:13It's only a couple of colouring books, nothing much.
0:03:13 > 0:03:16That's what Glenda said when she bought that last night.
0:03:16 > 0:03:17Oh, very nice.
0:03:19 > 0:03:21Amy, I said later, didn't I?
0:03:21 > 0:03:24Go on, upstairs, get your schoolbag. Take that with you.
0:03:24 > 0:03:27Get Ricky's schoolbag too, darling.
0:03:27 > 0:03:28Can they come back?
0:03:28 > 0:03:30Who, dear?
0:03:30 > 0:03:32Auntie Ronnie and Amy's mum.
0:03:32 > 0:03:36They can see us, you said. From heaven.
0:03:36 > 0:03:37So can they come back, too?
0:03:40 > 0:03:41Yes...well, you see...
0:03:41 > 0:03:43Listen, Ricky...
0:03:43 > 0:03:46Listen, mate, we've already had this discussion, haven't we?
0:03:46 > 0:03:49Ronnie can't come back. Nor can Amy's mum.
0:03:49 > 0:03:52They got ill, all right? And now they're dead.
0:03:52 > 0:03:56And they can't come back, OK? They're gone, mate.
0:03:56 > 0:03:57They are gone for good.
0:04:02 > 0:04:05What? What am I supposed to say to him?
0:04:05 > 0:04:09"It's all right, yeah, Ronnie's a star up in heaven"?
0:04:09 > 0:04:12She's going to waft down at night, give him a kiss when he's asleep?
0:04:12 > 0:04:14Yes, well, they don't understand like we do.
0:04:14 > 0:04:17Well, you tried that, Dot, didn't you, and did it work?
0:04:17 > 0:04:18No, I don't think it did.
0:04:18 > 0:04:20I am not doing it.
0:04:20 > 0:04:23I am not confusing him and Amy, and I am not upsetting them any more
0:04:23 > 0:04:24than I already have.
0:04:25 > 0:04:27They are going to know the truth.
0:04:27 > 0:04:31Yes, all right, I will protect them, I will comfort them,
0:04:31 > 0:04:34I will cuddle them when they start to cry.
0:04:34 > 0:04:36But I will not lie to them.
0:04:36 > 0:04:37So don't ask me to do it.
0:04:41 > 0:04:45You were the one who was talking about this.
0:04:45 > 0:04:46I thought you'd be pleased,
0:04:46 > 0:04:49I thought you wanted me to be Dennis's dad.
0:04:51 > 0:04:52Sharon?
0:04:55 > 0:04:59Phil, it's a lovely idea. And Denny'd love it too.
0:05:00 > 0:05:01But?
0:05:03 > 0:05:05Been going out of my mind about this.
0:05:05 > 0:05:06What are you talking about?
0:05:08 > 0:05:13I found something out. I heard something I wasn't supposed to.
0:05:14 > 0:05:15Something about you.
0:05:17 > 0:05:19You and Denise.
0:05:25 > 0:05:27Half day, is it?
0:05:27 > 0:05:29This is the time I always start.
0:05:29 > 0:05:31I've been down here for two hours already,
0:05:31 > 0:05:33getting the breakfasts under way!
0:05:33 > 0:05:34And I did the cleaning before I started.
0:05:34 > 0:05:37All right, so you ARE pulling your weight, then?
0:05:37 > 0:05:38About time.
0:05:38 > 0:05:40Sorry, mate, it's only food this time of day.
0:05:40 > 0:05:42You can help yourself to tea and coffee and that,
0:05:42 > 0:05:44but 11 is when we do alcohol.
0:05:44 > 0:05:47I've already told them that. As well as doing everything else.
0:05:52 > 0:05:54I'm only telling you what I heard.
0:05:54 > 0:05:56I mean, why would she say something like that?
0:05:56 > 0:05:58Well, she's lost it, she must have.
0:05:58 > 0:06:01Well, she seemed pretty certain when she was talking to Shirley.
0:06:01 > 0:06:06Look, I'm not attacking you here or nothing, I can do the sums.
0:06:07 > 0:06:10Nine months ago, you and me weren't even together.
0:06:10 > 0:06:12This still don't make any sense.
0:06:12 > 0:06:15You weren't making much yourself back then.
0:06:15 > 0:06:17Don't you think that I'd remember?
0:06:17 > 0:06:21Well, I do, I remember exactly what you were like.
0:06:21 > 0:06:25Half the time you didn't even know what planet you were on.
0:06:26 > 0:06:30She didn't say this, it's just an impression I got.
0:06:30 > 0:06:33That she was off her head and so were you.
0:06:34 > 0:06:37She probably thought it was just a one-night stand.
0:06:37 > 0:06:40Then she found out she was pregnant.
0:06:42 > 0:06:45Me and Whit are going to go down the cash-and-carry.
0:06:45 > 0:06:47Oh, second thoughts, I'm staying,
0:06:47 > 0:06:50cos that's exactly what I need with the nut I've got this morning.
0:06:50 > 0:06:52- You're only 40 once! - Thank God.
0:06:52 > 0:06:55I'll save you a bacon bap for later, how's that?
0:06:55 > 0:06:56You better.
0:07:04 > 0:07:05Now...
0:07:05 > 0:07:09who fancies a little something to wash down that lovely full English?
0:07:09 > 0:07:12CHEERING
0:07:15 > 0:07:18Ho-ho! Lovely brew.
0:07:20 > 0:07:22Why ain't she said anything to me?
0:07:22 > 0:07:25What was the idea, keep me in the dark forever?
0:07:25 > 0:07:26It's not as simple as that.
0:07:26 > 0:07:28Sounds simple enough to me - she's having my kid.
0:07:28 > 0:07:29She HAD your kid.
0:07:31 > 0:07:32A boy.
0:07:33 > 0:07:34Phil, I didn't...
0:07:34 > 0:07:38So what's the idea there, then? Keep him in the dark too?
0:07:38 > 0:07:39Don't tell him who his dad is?
0:07:39 > 0:07:41She wasn't going to tell anyone.
0:07:41 > 0:07:43It wasn't ever going to be an issue.
0:07:43 > 0:07:45Sounds a pretty big issue to me.
0:07:45 > 0:07:47She's giving the baby away, Phil.
0:07:49 > 0:07:51She's putting him up for adoption.
0:07:51 > 0:07:53Breakfast is served.
0:07:53 > 0:07:55Hope you're hungry...
0:07:55 > 0:07:57What?
0:07:57 > 0:07:58Phil...
0:07:58 > 0:08:01I still say them children are too young.
0:08:03 > 0:08:06And you thought so too, it was obvious.
0:08:09 > 0:08:12When the girls were small, there was a little boy lived next door.
0:08:14 > 0:08:18One day he came into our garden, I was watching from the window.
0:08:18 > 0:08:21And he took our ladder away.
0:08:21 > 0:08:25Didn't you say nothing, cheeky little blighter?
0:08:25 > 0:08:28His gran had died the week before.
0:08:28 > 0:08:31His mum and dad told him that she'd gone to heaven,
0:08:31 > 0:08:35and that's where she lived now, so he thought he could climb up there
0:08:35 > 0:08:37and say hello.
0:08:39 > 0:08:43So, yeah, what Jack said did sound hard, harsh even, but...
0:08:43 > 0:08:48Yes, it WAS harsh. I mean, them children need time.
0:08:50 > 0:08:56I mean, I know Jack means well but he ain't thinking straight.
0:08:56 > 0:09:00He's doing the best he can with the kids.
0:09:01 > 0:09:04I mean, he doesn't have much choice, does he?
0:09:04 > 0:09:06We can take some of the strain,
0:09:06 > 0:09:09but in the end...it is only him.
0:09:11 > 0:09:12And Matthew's father.
0:09:14 > 0:09:17My grandson, Charlie.
0:09:20 > 0:09:22Phil? What are you doing here?
0:09:26 > 0:09:29You got... You got anything to tell me?
0:09:31 > 0:09:34I asked you a question.
0:09:34 > 0:09:36Just calm down, Phil.
0:09:36 > 0:09:37Shirley...
0:09:37 > 0:09:38I don't believe this.
0:09:38 > 0:09:41- This is nothing to do with Shirley. - What does that matter?
0:09:41 > 0:09:44Take my advice, you want a private conversation,
0:09:44 > 0:09:45don't have it in a public toilet.
0:09:45 > 0:09:48All that matters is this is my son,
0:09:48 > 0:09:52my flesh and blood we're talking about.
0:09:52 > 0:09:55And you weren't even going to tell me, was you?
0:09:55 > 0:09:57Let's calm down, shall we?
0:09:57 > 0:10:00And now you're going to let him be taken away by...what?
0:10:00 > 0:10:02By complete strangers?
0:10:02 > 0:10:05Your son? Your flesh and blood?
0:10:05 > 0:10:06Go and do one, Phil.
0:10:06 > 0:10:10- What?- This is exactly why I didn't tell you.
0:10:10 > 0:10:13Cos I knew exactly what you'd be like, and you ain't exactly
0:10:13 > 0:10:14disappointing me, are you?
0:10:14 > 0:10:18Coming in here, like a caveman, throwing your weight about.
0:10:19 > 0:10:20Where is he?
0:10:20 > 0:10:23Just like you've done with all your family, and look how that's
0:10:23 > 0:10:25- worked out. - What's that supposed to mean?
0:10:25 > 0:10:28Just look at Ben. Look how messed-up he is. And Lou.
0:10:29 > 0:10:33Lou - she's your kid too, isn't she? Your flesh and blood?
0:10:33 > 0:10:36You didn't even see her in years, did you?
0:10:37 > 0:10:40And now you want to march in here, and play Dad of the Year.
0:10:40 > 0:10:42Is this a joke?
0:10:43 > 0:10:44Where is he?
0:10:44 > 0:10:46And never mind me not saying anything,
0:10:46 > 0:10:50why didn't you say something when you found out I was having him?
0:10:53 > 0:10:56Well, you can count, can't you? You can do a few sums.
0:10:56 > 0:11:01But you didn't, and we both know why.
0:11:01 > 0:11:04Cos you were in such a state that night
0:11:04 > 0:11:06that you don't even remember it happening.
0:11:08 > 0:11:12Yeah, but it HAS happened, hasn't it, Denise?
0:11:12 > 0:11:15And it IS happening.
0:11:15 > 0:11:19So I'm going to ask you again - where is he?
0:11:25 > 0:11:26Forget it.
0:11:26 > 0:11:29- Phil... - I'll find him myself.
0:11:29 > 0:11:30- Where is he?- Phil...
0:11:30 > 0:11:32Where is he?!
0:11:32 > 0:11:34Where is he?
0:11:35 > 0:11:37- Phil, you'll get us thrown out. - Tell them, Sharon.
0:11:37 > 0:11:39Tell them who I am.
0:11:39 > 0:11:40Tell them I've got rights!
0:11:40 > 0:11:42- Tell them.- Denise...
0:11:43 > 0:11:48You're right. Phil's made a million mistakes in his time.
0:11:48 > 0:11:50But who hasn't?
0:11:50 > 0:11:55But Phil's right too. However all this happened, you can't just
0:11:55 > 0:11:58pretend it's nothing to do with him because it is, you know it is.
0:11:58 > 0:12:02And more to the point, he knows it now too.
0:12:03 > 0:12:05Now, deal with this properly,
0:12:05 > 0:12:08the two of you. You got yourselves into this mess,
0:12:08 > 0:12:09now get yourselves out of it,
0:12:09 > 0:12:12because if you don't, I can't answer for what he'll do.
0:12:19 > 0:12:21Has he been in touch, then?
0:12:21 > 0:12:23Who? Oh...Charlie?
0:12:23 > 0:12:28No, no, ain't been in touch for months, he don't answer his phone.
0:12:30 > 0:12:32Well, maybe he's not interested.
0:12:32 > 0:12:34Or he might have changed his number.
0:12:34 > 0:12:38It ain't just Charlie I'm thinking about. I mean, it's Jack.
0:12:38 > 0:12:43Has anybody asked him if he wants to bring up Matthew?
0:12:43 > 0:12:48I mean, he's only known him since he was a year. Maybe it'd be
0:12:48 > 0:12:53a relief to him, you know, have one less soul to worry about.
0:12:53 > 0:12:55I think it would kill him.
0:12:57 > 0:12:59If he was to lose Matthew, right now,
0:12:59 > 0:13:01right on top of losing Ronnie...
0:13:04 > 0:13:07I think if Charlie does get in touch, if he does start
0:13:07 > 0:13:12asking about Matthew, I think you should tell him to leave well alone.
0:13:12 > 0:13:13I can't do that.
0:13:13 > 0:13:15You could try.
0:13:15 > 0:13:18It's his child, it's his decision.
0:13:20 > 0:13:24Those kids are the only thing keeping Jack going right now.
0:13:24 > 0:13:27You rip Matthew away from his brother and sister,
0:13:27 > 0:13:28away from Jack...
0:13:32 > 0:13:35I'm just going to go and check on Matthew.
0:13:43 > 0:13:47Denise, you...you can't do this.
0:13:50 > 0:13:51Not without my say-so.
0:13:52 > 0:13:54I can. I am.
0:13:54 > 0:13:56- I have.- Phil...
0:14:03 > 0:14:08You're an alcoholic. You could drop dead at any minute.
0:14:08 > 0:14:11You nearly killed your own daughter when you smashed into the car lot.
0:14:11 > 0:14:13That was months ago.
0:14:14 > 0:14:15Is that what this is about?
0:14:15 > 0:14:19You just don't want him to have anything to do with me?
0:14:19 > 0:14:22Would YOU, in my shoes?
0:14:22 > 0:14:25But it ain't just about me, is it? This is about you. You're turning
0:14:25 > 0:14:28your back on him. What's all that about?
0:14:28 > 0:14:30Because... Because it's too late.
0:14:33 > 0:14:37What... Are you saying he's already gone?
0:14:44 > 0:14:48The social workers are coming for him. Later, but it is too late,
0:14:48 > 0:14:50for both of us.
0:14:52 > 0:14:55I haven't done this on a whim, you know.
0:14:58 > 0:15:03I've had my kids. And I love them, I always will.
0:15:07 > 0:15:09I can't help it, and I've really tried not to,
0:15:09 > 0:15:11but I love this little one as well.
0:15:14 > 0:15:18But that time's gone. That ship's sailed.
0:15:18 > 0:15:19Look...
0:15:21 > 0:15:23You know what it's like, you know how it works.
0:15:23 > 0:15:26First couple of years they're little bundles of joy,
0:15:26 > 0:15:27all you've got to do...
0:15:28 > 0:15:32You feed them, clothe them, change them.
0:15:35 > 0:15:41Then they get older and they really start needing you.
0:15:42 > 0:15:46Just when they start needing you, they decide they don't.
0:15:51 > 0:15:55When this kid's in his teens, I'll be in my 60s.
0:15:55 > 0:15:57You, you'll be in your 70s.
0:16:00 > 0:16:04This family he's going to, they're just starting off.
0:16:04 > 0:16:09They've got everything before them, they're going to grow with him.
0:16:09 > 0:16:12I've done my growing and so have you.
0:16:15 > 0:16:21Plenty of people have kids later in life, especially these days.
0:16:21 > 0:16:24And why would you do that? Why would you take that on?
0:16:24 > 0:16:26Because he's my son.
0:16:28 > 0:16:35Cos of one drunken night that you can barely even remember?
0:16:37 > 0:16:38OK...
0:16:41 > 0:16:44..you've thought this through, you've made your decision,
0:16:44 > 0:16:48fair enough, but you're doing my thinking for me, and...
0:16:50 > 0:16:53..you've made my decision too.
0:16:53 > 0:16:55It's not just you, is it?
0:16:55 > 0:16:56What?
0:16:56 > 0:17:02If Denise does what you're asking, if she does stop this adoption,
0:17:02 > 0:17:05it's not just you who'll be bringing up this baby.
0:17:06 > 0:17:08It'll be your wife as well.
0:17:10 > 0:17:13And you haven't even asked her what she thinks about it.
0:17:13 > 0:17:14Huh?
0:17:27 > 0:17:28Forgot my wallet.
0:17:29 > 0:17:32Get all the way there and not a wallet about, can you believe that?
0:17:32 > 0:17:34What a rick.
0:17:34 > 0:17:36Make sure you save that bacon bap, won't you?
0:17:36 > 0:17:39Already got your name on it.
0:17:39 > 0:17:41What I'd give for a hair of the dog.
0:17:41 > 0:17:42Naughty, naughty!
0:17:44 > 0:17:46Whoo!
0:17:52 > 0:17:56You know, what she's saying... You know, of course it'd be
0:17:56 > 0:18:01better if I was a few years younger. But how does anybody know how
0:18:01 > 0:18:05it's going to work out with this new family? I mean, what happens if they
0:18:05 > 0:18:09split up in a few years from now? I mean, where would this kid be then?
0:18:09 > 0:18:11They couldn't just kick him out.
0:18:13 > 0:18:14If something happens,
0:18:14 > 0:18:17if something goes wrong, they ain't going to have the same
0:18:17 > 0:18:19feelings as his natural parents - it stands to reason, don't it?
0:18:19 > 0:18:21That mean you don't for Denny?
0:18:21 > 0:18:22What?
0:18:22 > 0:18:25Well, you were talking about adopting him earlier on.
0:18:25 > 0:18:29Dennis is different, I've known him practically all his life, haven't I?
0:18:29 > 0:18:31Do you love him?
0:18:31 > 0:18:32You know I do.
0:18:32 > 0:18:36Like one of your own? Like Mum and Dad loved me?
0:18:38 > 0:18:43And this new family, they're going to know this kid all his life too.
0:18:45 > 0:18:49That's not all that could go wrong, though, is it?
0:18:49 > 0:18:50What's that mean?
0:18:50 > 0:18:52Yeah, this new family could split up.
0:18:52 > 0:18:54Or one of them could fall ill.
0:18:56 > 0:18:58I'm on the mend now, Sharon, ain't I?
0:18:58 > 0:19:01But you've still got a fair way to go, haven't you?
0:19:01 > 0:19:06And what happens if all of that doesn't go as you hoped? What if
0:19:06 > 0:19:11you do take on this baby and all of a sudden you're not around any more?
0:19:12 > 0:19:14You've made your mind up, haven't you?
0:19:14 > 0:19:16- No. I haven't. - Sounds like it to me.
0:19:16 > 0:19:20Do you think I'm just messing about, do you?
0:19:24 > 0:19:28What I said in there, you know, that's right.
0:19:29 > 0:19:31Denise is talking for herself.
0:19:31 > 0:19:35She's made her decision and that's fair enough.
0:19:36 > 0:19:37For her.
0:19:37 > 0:19:39Not for me.
0:19:39 > 0:19:41I've got to think about this kid, I know that.
0:19:41 > 0:19:44I've got to think about what's best for him and I know that too,
0:19:44 > 0:19:47but that don't mean that I'm not.
0:19:50 > 0:19:53It don't mean that WE'RE not best for him, Sharon.
0:19:57 > 0:20:00I want to do this, I want to make this work and...
0:20:02 > 0:20:04I want to fight for him.
0:20:06 > 0:20:08Then that's what we do.
0:20:09 > 0:20:13It's simple, Phil. Whatever you decide, I'll support you.
0:20:15 > 0:20:17So let's go in there and do this, shall we?
0:20:18 > 0:20:20Let's go and fight for him.
0:20:34 > 0:20:36He's fast asleep.
0:20:38 > 0:20:43I know what you're saying, about Jack and the children,
0:20:43 > 0:20:50but Charlie is Matthew's father, you don't know what you're asking.
0:20:51 > 0:20:54I know exactly what I'm asking.
0:20:54 > 0:20:57And I know why. And so do you.
0:20:59 > 0:21:02Because Matthew's already part of a family, a good family.
0:21:02 > 0:21:03DOOR OPENS
0:21:03 > 0:21:06- Glenda?- Through here.
0:21:07 > 0:21:10With a good man looking after him.
0:21:16 > 0:21:20Don't look at me like that, you knew it was a one-night stand.
0:21:20 > 0:21:22Didn't tell me who with, though.
0:21:22 > 0:21:23Now you know why.
0:21:37 > 0:21:39You've, erm...
0:21:39 > 0:21:42You've made your arrangements, I know.
0:21:44 > 0:21:47And you've got your reasons, I ain't saying you ain't.
0:21:48 > 0:21:49What he's trying to say...
0:21:49 > 0:21:52Do you think I haven't done what you're doing right now?
0:21:54 > 0:21:59Gone over and over it a million times, thinking what would it
0:21:59 > 0:22:01- be like, what would- I- be like?
0:22:01 > 0:22:04And I'm still doing it now, I'm still going
0:22:04 > 0:22:07over and over it and I think,
0:22:07 > 0:22:12"Yes, it'd be OK, yeah, you can do it."
0:22:14 > 0:22:20But I can't, Phil. A baby, at my age?
0:22:22 > 0:22:26I can't give it what it wants, what it needs, it wouldn't be right.
0:22:27 > 0:22:30And you, you can't even walk to the top of the street without stopping
0:22:30 > 0:22:33- for a breather. - He's just had a major operation.
0:22:33 > 0:22:37Yeah, yeah, a new liver.
0:22:38 > 0:22:39Yeah.
0:22:41 > 0:22:44And that comes with a lifetime guarantee, does it?
0:22:45 > 0:22:47Don't think so.
0:22:47 > 0:22:52And look at me. I don't come with no guarantee either.
0:22:54 > 0:22:58There's no guarantees with anyone, though, is there? Phil said it,
0:22:58 > 0:23:02and he was right - anything could happen, no matter who you are.
0:23:04 > 0:23:08This isn't your life, or mine, Phil. It's his.
0:23:16 > 0:23:18I want to see him.
0:23:20 > 0:23:23Have you not been listening to anything I've been saying?
0:23:23 > 0:23:26He HAS been listening. And he's made his decision.
0:23:27 > 0:23:29I want to see him.
0:23:51 > 0:23:53I thought this was for the kids.
0:23:54 > 0:23:57Yeah, I'm just making sure it's working.
0:24:00 > 0:24:02What I said to Ricky earlier...
0:24:05 > 0:24:10..everyone's right, there is no manual for life, is there?
0:24:11 > 0:24:14What to do when your wife's not there any more.
0:24:16 > 0:24:22And the way I am with them, you know, I think is...right.
0:24:23 > 0:24:25You're doing wonderfully, Jack.
0:24:25 > 0:24:29Yes. We can't imagine how you're coping.
0:24:29 > 0:24:31And everyone keeps saying that too.
0:24:33 > 0:24:36I don't want to hear "wonderful",
0:24:36 > 0:24:38I don't want to hear that I'm "coping".
0:24:38 > 0:24:39Sorry.
0:24:42 > 0:24:44- Do you know what I really want? - What?
0:24:44 > 0:24:46What I've wanted from the moment this happened,
0:24:46 > 0:24:49every single minute of every single day?
0:24:52 > 0:24:58I want to get in my car and just drive, drive away and not stop.
0:24:58 > 0:25:00This is the shock talking...
0:25:00 > 0:25:02It's only been a little while.
0:25:02 > 0:25:03And I've done it, an' all.
0:25:05 > 0:25:08I got 60 miles before I turned around last time.
0:25:09 > 0:25:12And, no, I ain't going to do it.
0:25:14 > 0:25:16And don't you do it neither.
0:25:18 > 0:25:24Don't tell me I'm doing wonderfully and don't tell me that I'm coping.
0:25:27 > 0:25:29I'm dealing with this one day at a time.
0:25:31 > 0:25:33That is how I'm dealing with this.
0:25:40 > 0:25:45Maybe all this is a good thing.
0:25:45 > 0:25:46It doesn't feel that good.
0:25:46 > 0:25:50What if Phil had found out in a year's time, two years' time?
0:25:50 > 0:25:53Think of the trouble he might have caused.
0:25:53 > 0:25:54It would have been too late then.
0:25:54 > 0:25:56This is Phil Mitchell we're talking about.
0:25:56 > 0:25:59You know what he's like, he'd have found a way.
0:25:59 > 0:26:01But now that he knows,
0:26:01 > 0:26:03there's nothing else for him to find out.
0:26:06 > 0:26:08Has he been playing us?
0:26:08 > 0:26:10What?
0:26:10 > 0:26:11Is that what this has all been about?
0:26:13 > 0:26:15To get in that unit and get his son?
0:28:13 > 0:28:16Come on. Let's go home.