0:00:25 > 0:00:27Yeah. Very good.
0:00:27 > 0:00:30Who's just inside there? Auntie Dee!
0:00:30 > 0:00:32Hi there, Dee!
0:00:32 > 0:00:34- Hey!- Yeah.
0:00:34 > 0:00:36I tidied this lot yesterday!
0:00:36 > 0:00:39And what can I say? She's expressing herself.
0:00:39 > 0:00:41Yes, well, maybe next time...
0:00:41 > 0:00:43She's very creative. Like her mother.
0:00:43 > 0:00:46Yes, maybe she can express herself a little less, you know,
0:00:46 > 0:00:48- all over the floor.- OK.
0:00:50 > 0:00:55So, are you going to tell him? Hm?
0:00:55 > 0:01:01I'm talking to you, Mrs Doubtfire. Kush? You're going to tell him.
0:01:02 > 0:01:07"Going to". That's two words.
0:01:07 > 0:01:10And, yes, I am.
0:01:11 > 0:01:13SHE CHUCKLES
0:01:19 > 0:01:22You still sick, then?
0:01:22 > 0:01:23I'll pop to the chemist.
0:01:23 > 0:01:25You need to see a doctor, Lauren.
0:01:25 > 0:01:27I've got a big day. Loads to do since yesterday.
0:01:27 > 0:01:29OK, so go to a walk-in clinic.
0:01:29 > 0:01:32I can't miss anything else, Steven.
0:01:32 > 0:01:34Lauren, please... I just want what's best for you.
0:01:38 > 0:01:40So, did he? Come round? Travis?
0:01:40 > 0:01:41After drama? He said he would...
0:01:41 > 0:01:44- Oh, my God, he did, didn't he? - You didn't do it, did you?
0:01:44 > 0:01:46- He didn't come round. - He stood you up?
0:01:46 > 0:01:48No - I cancelled.
0:01:48 > 0:01:50Thought I heard trouble.
0:01:50 > 0:01:51Hello, Mrs Mitchell.
0:01:51 > 0:01:54Tell Travis that invite still stands, OK?
0:01:54 > 0:01:56You know, that party business...
0:01:56 > 0:01:58- That was so awful!- Mm. I'll see you later.
0:01:58 > 0:02:01- Bye, Mrs Mitchell. - Bye.
0:02:07 > 0:02:09You all right?
0:02:09 > 0:02:14Last night. After - I left a message for Tim.
0:02:14 > 0:02:15He wants to talk.
0:02:17 > 0:02:19This evening.
0:02:20 > 0:02:24Grandma? I've got that stuff to make the cake for the party.
0:02:24 > 0:02:27Liz has - she's just popped to the -
0:02:39 > 0:02:42There we go, mate. Lovely. Thank you very much. Cheers, mate.
0:02:42 > 0:02:43All that change - don't forget that.
0:02:43 > 0:02:45Cheers, mate. Have a good day. See ya later.
0:02:47 > 0:02:49Hi.
0:02:49 > 0:02:51Hi. Hey.
0:02:51 > 0:02:53How are you? You...good?
0:02:53 > 0:02:56Yeah, yeah. I'm good. I'm good. You?
0:02:56 > 0:03:00Good. Yeah, I'm sorry - I'm her... I'm her nanny now.
0:03:00 > 0:03:02- We've just been for a walk. - Oh, lovely.
0:03:02 > 0:03:04Yeah, well, I have.
0:03:04 > 0:03:06Pearl just, you know, she waves to the crowds.
0:03:06 > 0:03:10- Like her mum.- Yeah. Princess.
0:03:10 > 0:03:11Yeah.
0:03:13 > 0:03:17Uh - so I... Well, I was thinking -
0:03:17 > 0:03:19- Well, I should... - Oh, yeah, course.
0:03:22 > 0:03:24You're looking well, Denise.
0:03:26 > 0:03:28Thank you. You too.
0:03:40 > 0:03:42Ireland?
0:03:42 > 0:03:43Sorry?
0:03:43 > 0:03:44Dot came round this morning.
0:03:44 > 0:03:46- SIGHING:- Do you want to come in?
0:03:46 > 0:03:47No, I don't.
0:03:47 > 0:03:50All right, her friends are here, her family are here.
0:03:50 > 0:03:52- This is her home!- Is it?
0:03:52 > 0:03:55Cos you're not really her family, Jack, you're Jim's.
0:03:55 > 0:03:57You've only known her five minutes.
0:03:57 > 0:03:59I just offered her a chance to live with her great-grandson.
0:03:59 > 0:04:02You know what? You really are your father's son, ain't ya?
0:04:02 > 0:04:04Is she still at yours? Cos I'll just go and have a word.
0:04:04 > 0:04:05No, she's gone to the council.
0:04:05 > 0:04:07Go and find out what she needs to do about the house.
0:04:07 > 0:04:09I never told her to go to the council, all right...
0:04:09 > 0:04:12Do you know what, this is all the security she's got.
0:04:12 > 0:04:14Jack, d'ya know what? She's my grandma.
0:04:14 > 0:04:17All right - and she's made her decision. She's moving to Ireland.
0:04:36 > 0:04:39OK. I...I didn't put any...
0:04:39 > 0:04:40No, just as it comes. Thanks.
0:04:41 > 0:04:44So. Nannying, yeah?
0:04:44 > 0:04:47Yeah, yeah. Just for a while, though.
0:04:47 > 0:04:48Until I find my feet.
0:04:49 > 0:04:53Why didn't you tell me? Everything you've been through, I...
0:04:53 > 0:04:55I didn't tell anyone.
0:04:56 > 0:04:57I'm your friend.
0:05:00 > 0:05:02Should have been being your friend.
0:05:04 > 0:05:08Look, I just didn't want everyone talking about me,
0:05:08 > 0:05:10saying I brought it on myself.
0:05:10 > 0:05:11No-one would've said that.
0:05:11 > 0:05:14Quitting my job. Swanning around with me books.
0:05:14 > 0:05:15You love those books.
0:05:15 > 0:05:18Yeah, probably blown my exam now, ain't I?
0:05:18 > 0:05:19So - sit it again.
0:05:21 > 0:05:25That's what we do. Pick ourselves up, dust ourselves down.
0:05:27 > 0:05:29Saw you on the market.
0:05:29 > 0:05:31Talking to Kush.
0:05:33 > 0:05:35Yeah, yeah, I was...just passing.
0:05:37 > 0:05:39You know he's...been dating again?
0:05:39 > 0:05:41Yeah, I heard.
0:05:41 > 0:05:43Nothing serious. Yet. But...
0:05:43 > 0:05:47Yeah, but like I said. I'm... I was just passing.
0:05:48 > 0:05:51- He's moving on, Denise. - Did I say that he wasn't?
0:05:51 > 0:05:54Just...get yourself back on your feet, yeah?
0:05:55 > 0:05:58D'ya know what, I've got to go and get Pearl her snack.
0:05:58 > 0:06:02Yeah, yeah, course. Thanks for the...coffee.
0:06:05 > 0:06:07Thank you for popping in.
0:06:07 > 0:06:08Yeah.
0:06:19 > 0:06:20DOOR OPENS AND CLOSES
0:06:21 > 0:06:23Was this a joke?
0:06:23 > 0:06:27No. Protein, veg, carbs.
0:06:29 > 0:06:32- I did go to catering college. - Yeah, and if we're cooking,
0:06:32 > 0:06:35this helps remind us what you actually need.
0:06:35 > 0:06:37Yeah, make sure we're doing our bit.
0:06:37 > 0:06:41Oh. You going to do my 10,000 steps for me as well?
0:06:41 > 0:06:42No.
0:06:42 > 0:06:45- Well, I've got to keep an eye on everyone, haven't I?- Yeah.
0:06:54 > 0:06:56My little boy. He's 20 months - 21 months.
0:06:58 > 0:07:00And you think...having another...?
0:07:00 > 0:07:02It's not that.
0:07:03 > 0:07:05It's not just that.
0:07:06 > 0:07:07Is his dad...?
0:07:07 > 0:07:11No. He's not around. He's in New Zealand.
0:07:12 > 0:07:13It's complicated.
0:07:15 > 0:07:18And...is that hard for you?
0:07:20 > 0:07:22Erm...
0:07:24 > 0:07:26I'm actually with his brother now.
0:07:26 > 0:07:28And I know that sounds really bad...
0:07:30 > 0:07:33And he's why you're pregnant?
0:07:36 > 0:07:39Yeah. I mean, we were using contraception.
0:07:39 > 0:07:42We didn't want another kid.
0:07:42 > 0:07:43Well, I didn't want another kid.
0:07:45 > 0:07:48Not yet.
0:07:48 > 0:07:49But your partner...?
0:07:49 > 0:07:54I've just got myself a new job. A proper one.
0:07:54 > 0:07:56One I'm good at.
0:07:56 > 0:07:58You don't have to decide today.
0:07:59 > 0:08:01Yeah, I know.
0:08:01 > 0:08:05If you want to go ahead, you can see a nurse this morning.
0:08:05 > 0:08:08They can probably fit you in for a termination later this week.
0:08:10 > 0:08:12Thank you.
0:08:12 > 0:08:16But take your time. You're very early-term.
0:08:17 > 0:08:19LAUREN COUGHS
0:08:22 > 0:08:26Have you spoken with...? Does your partner know you're here?
0:08:30 > 0:08:32He doesn't even know I'm pregnant.
0:08:36 > 0:08:37DOOR OPENS AND CLOSES
0:08:37 > 0:08:39Ah! There she is.
0:08:39 > 0:08:41PATRICK CHUCKLES
0:08:41 > 0:08:46So, should I buy a hat?
0:08:46 > 0:08:50Yeah, man. Kim told me all about Kush, you know!
0:08:50 > 0:08:52Oh, did she, now?
0:08:52 > 0:08:54You haven't asked him, have you?
0:08:54 > 0:08:55He's dating.
0:08:55 > 0:08:57That ain't serious.
0:08:57 > 0:08:58Tell that to Carmel.
0:08:58 > 0:09:01Have you two patched things up?
0:09:01 > 0:09:04Yeah, but she's his mum, innit? So she probably had higher hopes.
0:09:04 > 0:09:06Oh, thank you.
0:09:06 > 0:09:07No, no, I mean...
0:09:07 > 0:09:09Listen, he's your man.
0:09:09 > 0:09:11And you need to go and get him.
0:09:11 > 0:09:12He ain't my man.
0:09:12 > 0:09:14Well, he was until you broke his heart.
0:09:14 > 0:09:16You are really cheering me up, you are.
0:09:16 > 0:09:19Look, what have you got to lose, eh?
0:09:19 > 0:09:20Apart from my dignity?
0:09:21 > 0:09:23Well, let's be honest, you sort of, like,
0:09:23 > 0:09:26lost that when you were shacked up with the Beale.
0:09:27 > 0:09:29PATRICK CLEARS THROAT
0:09:29 > 0:09:31I'm going to go and check on Pearl.
0:09:31 > 0:09:34OK, you might lose what's left of your dignity. Yeah, your pride.
0:09:34 > 0:09:36A bit of face.
0:09:36 > 0:09:37But if you stop at the first hurdle,
0:09:37 > 0:09:42you're going to miss out on one big whole hunk of happiness.
0:09:42 > 0:09:45That man would be lucky to have a good woman like you, you know.
0:09:45 > 0:09:48At least ask him out for a drink, the man.
0:10:16 > 0:10:18PHONE RINGS
0:10:36 > 0:10:39All right.
0:10:39 > 0:10:41Twice in one day.
0:10:41 > 0:10:44- Yeah.- Yeah, you're going to think that I'm stalking you.
0:10:47 > 0:10:48No, not that I'm...
0:10:48 > 0:10:51No.
0:10:51 > 0:10:54It's just Kim - she came home early and I'm sort of just, like...
0:10:54 > 0:10:57- finished for the day. - That's good.
0:10:57 > 0:10:58Do you fancy a drink?
0:10:59 > 0:11:01HE STUMBLES
0:11:01 > 0:11:06Well, no, no, no, I don't mean like a drink drink.
0:11:06 > 0:11:07No.
0:11:07 > 0:11:09Just like a friends' drink.
0:11:10 > 0:11:12As friends.
0:11:12 > 0:11:13Friends.
0:11:13 > 0:11:15Friends. Yeah. Total, like, friendzone.
0:11:17 > 0:11:19Just one.
0:11:19 > 0:11:21Just...just a drink?
0:11:21 > 0:11:25Yeah. And maybe...maybe not the Albert this time.
0:11:25 > 0:11:28We could go to the Vic? About six?
0:11:29 > 0:11:32Otherwise, I'll have to keep stalking you.
0:11:34 > 0:11:35Not... I'm...
0:11:35 > 0:11:37Six is...six is good.
0:11:37 > 0:11:39- OK.- OK.
0:11:45 > 0:11:46SHE EXHALES
0:11:49 > 0:11:53- AUTOMATED:- This is a District Line train to Ealing Broadway.
0:11:53 > 0:11:56We are now approaching Barking Station.
0:11:56 > 0:11:58Barking will be the next stop.
0:11:59 > 0:12:01What are the chances?
0:12:01 > 0:12:02Nosebleed?
0:12:02 > 0:12:04Didn't recognise you.
0:12:04 > 0:12:05No, without the...
0:12:06 > 0:12:08I've got something for you.
0:12:08 > 0:12:11- Me?- Yeah.
0:12:11 > 0:12:13Just in case I... It's a new one.
0:12:13 > 0:12:16- I tried to wash yours but... - You didn't have to.
0:12:16 > 0:12:17Ah, one good deed...
0:12:18 > 0:12:20Sorry. You reading your messages?
0:12:20 > 0:12:22No, I'm just aware of the time.
0:12:22 > 0:12:25- Hot date?- Husband.
0:12:33 > 0:12:35They're just upstairs watching cartoons.
0:12:35 > 0:12:36Nice.
0:12:36 > 0:12:38Oh, are you working Friday?
0:12:39 > 0:12:41Er, yeah, why?
0:12:41 > 0:12:44Oh, I needed a baby-sitter for a couple of hours.
0:12:44 > 0:12:48Erm... Well, I could ask Jane. What's it for?
0:12:49 > 0:12:52Well, I-I really shouldn't say anything.
0:12:54 > 0:12:56You promise that you won't tell anyone...?
0:12:59 > 0:13:01Me and Martin, we're having a scan. I'm pregnant.
0:13:06 > 0:13:09MUSIC: You Can Get It If You Really Want by Jimmy Cliff
0:13:13 > 0:13:16# You can get it if you really want... #
0:13:16 > 0:13:17Is it...too much?
0:13:18 > 0:13:21No, man. No such thing.
0:13:21 > 0:13:22THEY CHUCKLE
0:13:22 > 0:13:25Oh, come on, let me...
0:13:30 > 0:13:32There you are.
0:13:35 > 0:13:37So good to have my Denise back.
0:13:47 > 0:13:48Yeah.
0:13:54 > 0:13:56So, you going somewhere nice?
0:13:56 > 0:13:58This...wouldn't be that girl you went out with?
0:14:00 > 0:14:02Did you want something? I'm kind of...
0:14:02 > 0:14:03I saw Denise.
0:14:05 > 0:14:09I think, er, we're going to be friends again.
0:14:09 > 0:14:11That's good.
0:14:11 > 0:14:14Do you think you might be...friends again?
0:14:14 > 0:14:15Mum.
0:14:16 > 0:14:18I worry about you.
0:14:19 > 0:14:21I don't want you getting hurt.
0:14:23 > 0:14:24She wants to meet you.
0:14:24 > 0:14:27I would have met her yesterday if someone didn't run off.
0:14:27 > 0:14:30Yeah, I know, but...Friday.
0:14:30 > 0:14:32Come and pick me up before that music thing. Gig.
0:14:32 > 0:14:34Yeah, are you sure you want to go?
0:14:34 > 0:14:37Yeah. I love music. Gigs. Warehouses.
0:14:37 > 0:14:39- Yeah?- It's cool. Yeah.
0:14:39 > 0:14:40Where we going?
0:14:42 > 0:14:44Look, I said I wouldn't be late.
0:14:44 > 0:14:45Just five minutes.
0:14:50 > 0:14:52Listen, I wanted to tell you...
0:14:56 > 0:14:57I'll see you tomorrow.
0:15:12 > 0:15:15It's only just six.
0:15:15 > 0:15:17What if he doesn't ring?
0:15:21 > 0:15:24Right. Do you know what you want to say?
0:15:25 > 0:15:29- Just a chat'd be nice.- Like adults. - No shouting.
0:15:30 > 0:15:33- All those years, huh...- Yeah.
0:15:33 > 0:15:35Though he probably just wants to gloat about taking
0:15:35 > 0:15:36me to the cleaners.
0:15:38 > 0:15:39PHONE RINGS
0:15:39 > 0:15:41Oh, hang on.
0:15:43 > 0:15:44Hello, Tim.
0:15:51 > 0:15:55Oh, this is so exciting! Me and you, both pregnant.
0:15:57 > 0:15:59We were being so careful.
0:15:59 > 0:16:02I know, but things happen, don't they? Nothing's 100%.
0:16:02 > 0:16:05Apart from not doing it. And where's the fun in that?
0:16:05 > 0:16:07You still in a bit of shock?
0:16:07 > 0:16:10Yeah, I am. I've not long found out.
0:16:10 > 0:16:14- I bet Steven's so excited! - I ain't told him yet.
0:16:14 > 0:16:15Oh, he's going to be a great dad.
0:16:15 > 0:16:17I mean, he is already with Louie.
0:16:17 > 0:16:20It's like Martin with Arthur, you'd think he was his own.
0:16:20 > 0:16:23I mean, he is, he is his dad. He always said he didn't mind.
0:16:23 > 0:16:25But I just - I dunno - I just wanted something that was
0:16:25 > 0:16:28- a little bit both of us. - I'm not keeping it.
0:16:31 > 0:16:33I'm booked in for an abortion.
0:17:14 > 0:17:15DOOR CLOSES
0:17:26 > 0:17:28Sorry. I was...
0:17:30 > 0:17:31Drink?
0:17:33 > 0:17:34Yep.
0:17:42 > 0:17:45I had a termination - I regretted it for years.
0:17:45 > 0:17:47That was cos of my brother.
0:17:47 > 0:17:50Bradley thought we wouldn't be able to cope - but we would have.
0:17:50 > 0:17:52Well, we could have.
0:17:52 > 0:17:53I don't want another baby.
0:17:55 > 0:17:58Not here, not right now.
0:17:58 > 0:18:00Not with Steven?
0:18:02 > 0:18:03I love my job.
0:18:03 > 0:18:05For the first time,
0:18:05 > 0:18:08I feel like I'm actually doing something with my life.
0:18:08 > 0:18:10I don't want to be just a mum.
0:18:10 > 0:18:12Like me?
0:18:12 > 0:18:14No! Not at all. You and Martin -
0:18:14 > 0:18:17you've been together longer. You're married.
0:18:17 > 0:18:20Well, you and Steven could get married.
0:18:20 > 0:18:21No. I'm not ready for that either.
0:18:26 > 0:18:29If you really don't...want this baby...
0:18:29 > 0:18:32It's not a baby.
0:18:32 > 0:18:33I know how hard it is.
0:18:35 > 0:18:37And I'll come with you, if you want someone.
0:18:39 > 0:18:40But don't keep it from Steven.
0:18:40 > 0:18:43Just talk to him and do what's right for both of you.
0:18:44 > 0:18:48Secrets always come out in the end. You know that better than anyone.
0:18:52 > 0:18:53This one?
0:18:53 > 0:18:55For a sponge?
0:18:55 > 0:18:58Leave it out. She'll probably want to pop it in her suitcase.
0:19:02 > 0:19:04It was just a suggestion.
0:19:04 > 0:19:07She's gone to find out how to give up her house!
0:19:07 > 0:19:08Liz, she's my grandma.
0:19:08 > 0:19:13Who you walked out on. This was never the plan.
0:19:13 > 0:19:14Look. She's old. And she's lonely.
0:19:14 > 0:19:19- Half the world is old and lonely. - Do you want me to line these?
0:19:19 > 0:19:22Do what you want. You didn't even ask me.
0:19:26 > 0:19:28It just came out.
0:19:31 > 0:19:34This is our chance. You and me.
0:19:34 > 0:19:36- To have a family. - I know.
0:19:38 > 0:19:41All the trying. All the disappointment.
0:19:41 > 0:19:47Months and months of IVF, every penny of our savings gone.
0:19:47 > 0:19:49And now this...
0:19:51 > 0:19:53This is our time.
0:19:53 > 0:19:55I know, I just...
0:19:55 > 0:19:57We'll have enough on our plates.
0:19:58 > 0:20:00You didn't see her face.
0:20:02 > 0:20:06Our little house. Finally, our little family.
0:20:08 > 0:20:10She loves him, Liz.
0:20:10 > 0:20:12And I love you.
0:20:12 > 0:20:14And if you loved me...
0:20:14 > 0:20:15Don't, don't say that.
0:20:18 > 0:20:20I want to do this right.
0:20:22 > 0:20:24She's not coming.
0:20:26 > 0:20:28Cheers.
0:20:28 > 0:20:30- Cheers.- Cheers.
0:20:30 > 0:20:32Nice one. Do you want me to...?
0:20:32 > 0:20:35No, no, no. It's OK, robbed a bank earlier.
0:20:35 > 0:20:37THEY CHUCKLE
0:20:37 > 0:20:40No, Kim - she paid me. For the nannying.
0:20:40 > 0:20:45Which is just until I get back onto my...feet.
0:20:45 > 0:20:47- So have you...? - Do you...? Sorry.
0:20:47 > 0:20:49No, you first.
0:20:49 > 0:20:51No, no, go on. You go, you go first.
0:20:51 > 0:20:53THEY CHUCKLE
0:20:53 > 0:20:56OK. So - how's business?
0:20:56 > 0:20:58- Yeah it's all right - steady. - Yeah.
0:20:58 > 0:21:00Just, you know, could be worse, I s'pose.
0:21:00 > 0:21:02Yeah. Yeah.
0:21:05 > 0:21:06Why didn't you tell me?
0:21:10 > 0:21:14What, that I was scrabbling around in bins for food?
0:21:17 > 0:21:21And I-I went to a food bank.
0:21:25 > 0:21:27Oh...
0:21:27 > 0:21:31Look, Patrick was away. Not that I'd live off someone's pension.
0:21:31 > 0:21:33And I wasn't about to ask Kim.
0:21:33 > 0:21:34And me?
0:21:35 > 0:21:37This is my mess.
0:21:37 > 0:21:39Yeah, I would've helped you.
0:21:41 > 0:21:43And that is exactly why I didn't ask you.
0:21:43 > 0:21:45I don't want you feeling sorry for me.
0:21:45 > 0:21:49I didn't want to end up being, you know, that woman that needed help.
0:21:53 > 0:21:54OK, look...
0:21:56 > 0:22:00When something good comes along...I push it away.
0:22:00 > 0:22:02I think, well, you know,
0:22:02 > 0:22:05it's going to end up going anyway, so...
0:22:05 > 0:22:09And you and me. It was good.
0:22:11 > 0:22:14It shouldn't have worked, but it did.
0:22:14 > 0:22:17We-we said friendzone, didn't we?
0:22:17 > 0:22:21Yeah, yeah, but...but I hurt you. And I'm sorry.
0:22:23 > 0:22:27OK, I'm...I'm really, really sorry.
0:22:27 > 0:22:29I know.
0:22:29 > 0:22:31And I wish I could turn back time.
0:22:31 > 0:22:34If I was able to do that, I'd be able to dodge
0:22:34 > 0:22:36a whole lot of things I wish had never happened in my life.
0:22:36 > 0:22:38You and me both.
0:22:40 > 0:22:44I've spent too much of my life with, you know,
0:22:44 > 0:22:47bad men to let a good one slip away.
0:22:47 > 0:22:50And you are a good man, Kush.
0:22:50 > 0:22:51No, I'm serious.
0:22:51 > 0:22:55That's...what Shabnam said, when she finished it.
0:22:55 > 0:22:58She said, "You're a good man. And I can't be with you."
0:22:58 > 0:23:01Yeah...
0:23:01 > 0:23:04But you and Shabnam - you know, what you went through...
0:23:04 > 0:23:06Please, I...
0:23:06 > 0:23:08No, but me and her, we're different.
0:23:14 > 0:23:17You are gorgeous and you're thoughtful...
0:23:21 > 0:23:22..and fit!
0:23:22 > 0:23:24And you're sensitive.
0:23:25 > 0:23:27And fit!
0:23:28 > 0:23:32And these things, they don't come easily to me and when I do say
0:23:32 > 0:23:35'em it just sounds ridiculous and I...
0:23:40 > 0:23:43All those books that I've read, and it just comes down to one thing.
0:23:46 > 0:23:48All those words...
0:23:55 > 0:23:56I love you.
0:23:58 > 0:24:00I love you, Kush Kazemi.
0:24:02 > 0:24:04- WHISPERS:- And I want you back.
0:24:15 > 0:24:17Have a lovely day. Table for one?
0:24:17 > 0:24:18I'm not hungry.
0:24:18 > 0:24:21Babe, you've got to eat, haven't you? How are you feeling?
0:24:23 > 0:24:24Yeah, better.
0:24:24 > 0:24:26Did you see a doctor?
0:24:27 > 0:24:33Yeah. Yeah, it was...it was just a thing.
0:24:33 > 0:24:36And the rest of the day? You been at the office?
0:24:38 > 0:24:40Yeah, you know. Just working.
0:24:42 > 0:24:46Just thought you might have popped out for a bit of air at some point.
0:24:50 > 0:24:53You know. Stuffy working in an office, innit?
0:24:53 > 0:24:55Steven, listen...
0:24:55 > 0:24:56Louie with Jane?
0:24:57 > 0:24:58Er, yeah...
0:24:58 > 0:25:01Thought you guys might have been home, you know,
0:25:01 > 0:25:03before I had to come here, but...
0:25:03 > 0:25:05I know, sorry, sorry, I...
0:25:05 > 0:25:07You and Louie - you're everything to me.
0:25:08 > 0:25:12Listen...
0:25:12 > 0:25:14And I love you. You know that, right?
0:25:16 > 0:25:18Yeah, yeah, I know.
0:25:21 > 0:25:24You too.
0:25:24 > 0:25:26Be two seconds.
0:25:37 > 0:25:38Dee, Dee...
0:25:38 > 0:25:41- You don't have to say anything. - You haven't given me a chance.
0:25:41 > 0:25:43- I'm embarrassed enough, all right. - I love you too!
0:25:54 > 0:25:57You're not the only one with stuff.
0:25:57 > 0:25:59Past relationships.
0:25:59 > 0:26:00I know.
0:26:00 > 0:26:04I get it, OK? Your reasons for not telling people.
0:26:04 > 0:26:05I get it. Cos you're stubborn.
0:26:05 > 0:26:07And you're headstrong.
0:26:07 > 0:26:09Pig-headed?
0:26:09 > 0:26:10You're proud.
0:26:12 > 0:26:14And all of that - all that is why I fell in love with you.
0:26:17 > 0:26:19There's me thinking it was me looks.
0:26:19 > 0:26:21Yeah, it was that too.
0:26:23 > 0:26:26I get why you didn't tell everyone.
0:26:26 > 0:26:28But I don't get why you didn't tell me.
0:26:30 > 0:26:32All those...those lies.
0:26:32 > 0:26:35And all the excuses and then everything you said.
0:26:35 > 0:26:37I was stupid...
0:26:37 > 0:26:39If you think it would change what I thought about you,
0:26:39 > 0:26:41- you don't know me. - I'm sorry.
0:26:41 > 0:26:44Well, you thought I was just going to walk away?
0:26:45 > 0:26:47I dunno, I dunno, I guess...
0:26:48 > 0:26:50Scared.
0:26:50 > 0:26:55Scared's OK. Scared's OK. That's what relationships are for.
0:26:55 > 0:26:57All right. Knowing that whatever
0:26:57 > 0:26:59happens, all right, however scared you are...
0:26:59 > 0:27:02there's someone there, there's someone there holding ya.
0:27:02 > 0:27:04But not the ones, you know, I've had.
0:27:04 > 0:27:08I mean, everything we've been through. All the doubt.
0:27:10 > 0:27:13Your baby. My mum.
0:27:13 > 0:27:16Yeah, well, you know, we...we don't do things easy.
0:27:16 > 0:27:18And then things get tough for you -
0:27:18 > 0:27:21they get really, really, really tough.
0:27:21 > 0:27:23And the first thing you do is you push me away.
0:27:23 > 0:27:27- I'm sorry. - It's what Shabnam did.
0:27:28 > 0:27:30And she dealt with it all on her own.
0:27:30 > 0:27:32It was like I was...I wasn't...
0:27:33 > 0:27:36I couldn't be trusted to deal with the big stuff.
0:27:38 > 0:27:41She loved you.
0:27:41 > 0:27:43Yeah, and I loved her and it took me...
0:27:44 > 0:27:46..a long time...
0:27:48 > 0:27:49..to trust someone else.
0:27:51 > 0:27:53And to risk love again.
0:27:56 > 0:27:59I lied to her for months...
0:27:59 > 0:28:02about Stacey. And I kept telling myself - I kept
0:28:02 > 0:28:05saying, "It's not lies, no, it's just not telling."
0:28:05 > 0:28:08And I told myself, I said, well, it's not like...it's not like I
0:28:08 > 0:28:13was doing anything wrong, right?
0:28:13 > 0:28:16But it was cos it was secrets.
0:28:16 > 0:28:18It was bad - it was bad secrets.
0:28:18 > 0:28:21And they... They...they poison a relationship.
0:28:22 > 0:28:23SHE SOBS
0:28:23 > 0:28:27When the trust is gone, it has GONE.
0:28:28 > 0:28:30And love is not enough.
0:28:30 > 0:28:32And you can...you can keep on hoping, OK, but...
0:28:34 > 0:28:36Oh, I love you.
0:28:38 > 0:28:40And I can't do this. I can't do this.
0:28:40 > 0:28:42- No, please! - I can't go back. I can't go back.
0:28:42 > 0:28:44OK?
0:28:47 > 0:28:48I'm sorry.
0:28:48 > 0:28:52- It's over.- I'm sorry!- It's over!
0:28:55 > 0:28:57SHE SOBS