0:00:30 > 0:00:31What does that mean?
0:00:33 > 0:00:36You killed my dad? What the hell are you talking about?
0:00:38 > 0:00:40Phil...?!
0:00:43 > 0:00:47- I should have done something. - What about?
0:00:47 > 0:00:49I knew what a...
0:00:49 > 0:00:52What a headcase Terry was,
0:00:52 > 0:00:55you could see all that coming a mile off.
0:00:55 > 0:00:56I should have...
0:00:56 > 0:00:58I should have got Jase well away from him,
0:00:58 > 0:01:01I did it before... I should have done it again.
0:01:03 > 0:01:05And that's it?
0:01:05 > 0:01:07Yeah.
0:01:14 > 0:01:16Phil!
0:01:16 > 0:01:18Listen, I told you what I meant, all right?
0:01:18 > 0:01:20Now, just get off my back.
0:01:20 > 0:01:22- So why didn't you? - What?
0:01:22 > 0:01:23Do something? Get him away?
0:01:23 > 0:01:27You said it yourself, you knew what Terry was like, we all did.
0:01:27 > 0:01:29Or were you in on all that?
0:01:29 > 0:01:30What?
0:01:30 > 0:01:33Is that what you're trying to tell me?
0:01:33 > 0:01:35Terry did the damage and you were pulling the strings? Is that it?
0:01:35 > 0:01:37Me and Terry? Behave, will ya?
0:01:38 > 0:01:40Right, so what is all this?
0:01:42 > 0:01:46Phil, you've got something to tell me, it's written all over your face.
0:01:48 > 0:01:49PHIL!
0:01:56 > 0:02:00Did Jase never... Never say anything to you?
0:02:00 > 0:02:02What about?
0:02:02 > 0:02:06About his family, your family. He never said anything about them?
0:02:06 > 0:02:08He told me about his brothers.
0:02:08 > 0:02:12Did he tell you how... him and your mum first met?
0:02:12 > 0:02:14Why should he?
0:02:14 > 0:02:17And he never told you when they met, neither?
0:02:17 > 0:02:20Phil, will you stop asking me all these stupid questions?
0:02:20 > 0:02:22I know.
0:02:22 > 0:02:23You know what?
0:02:23 > 0:02:26I know when they met. And I know how they met.
0:02:26 > 0:02:28Right, so you and my old man had a conversation
0:02:28 > 0:02:30about ancient history, so what?
0:02:31 > 0:02:32I didn't find out from him.
0:02:38 > 0:02:40Jase first...
0:02:41 > 0:02:46Jase first met your mum a couple of months after you was born.
0:02:48 > 0:02:52She was involved with someone else before, but...
0:02:53 > 0:02:57Well, there was an accident and he died.
0:02:59 > 0:03:02Obviously, it was a bad time for your mum - she was on her own -
0:03:02 > 0:03:05she had a baby - him coming along like that -
0:03:05 > 0:03:08and taking you on - well, it must have seemed like a lifeline to her.
0:03:11 > 0:03:13Why are you saying all this?
0:03:14 > 0:03:16Because it's true, Jay.
0:03:17 > 0:03:20What, that Jase isn't my old man?
0:03:21 > 0:03:23Is that what you're trying to tell me?
0:03:37 > 0:03:39- You're sick. - Jay...
0:03:39 > 0:03:42Have you lost your mind? Did you ever even meet my mum?
0:03:44 > 0:03:45No.
0:03:45 > 0:03:47So apart from the fact you've just told me
0:03:47 > 0:03:53that my old man isn't my dad - which is just wrong, OK, wrong and just
0:03:53 > 0:03:56plain weird - now you're telling me you took all this interest in
0:03:56 > 0:04:00some single mum who you never even knew - and who you never even met -
0:04:00 > 0:04:03and whose boyfriend died in some accident?
0:04:03 > 0:04:06People die in accidents all the time.
0:04:06 > 0:04:08Open the paper, you read about dozens of them every week.
0:04:08 > 0:04:10So why should this one man
0:04:10 > 0:04:13who died all them years ago in a car crash or something,
0:04:13 > 0:04:14stick in your mind anyway?
0:04:14 > 0:04:16Yeah, well, he didn't die in a car crash.
0:04:16 > 0:04:18- Well, whatever. - He died in a fire.
0:04:20 > 0:04:23And it weren't a... It weren't an accident neither.
0:04:32 > 0:04:33That man from the car lot?
0:04:35 > 0:04:38That tramp who died there, is that who you're talking about?
0:04:41 > 0:04:43It was big news back then.
0:04:44 > 0:04:48That's how - how I found out about your mum.
0:04:48 > 0:04:50And when they found out that his girlfriend was pregnant,
0:04:50 > 0:04:54well, the newspapers really went to town, they tracked her for ages.
0:04:54 > 0:04:56No. No way...
0:04:56 > 0:04:59It was just meant to be a simple, straightforward insurance job.
0:05:01 > 0:05:03Frank - Frank Butcher - you never knew him -
0:05:03 > 0:05:07but he was the geezer that was running the place in them days.
0:05:07 > 0:05:10Well...running it into the ground, more like.
0:05:10 > 0:05:13Well, he needed money. A lot of money.
0:05:13 > 0:05:16And I owed him a favour, so we did the deal.
0:05:16 > 0:05:20He'd cop for the insurance money and get straight.
0:05:20 > 0:05:21And start over again.
0:05:23 > 0:05:27But we didn't know that someone was sleeping in one of them cars.
0:05:27 > 0:05:29Neither of us did, how could we?
0:05:33 > 0:05:34I-I started the fire.
0:05:36 > 0:05:38And then I disappeared.
0:05:38 > 0:05:42I told Frank to do the same - just, you know, to keep away.
0:05:42 > 0:05:44The next thing we know is the Old Bill are saying they've
0:05:44 > 0:05:47found a...a dead body.
0:05:52 > 0:05:53Jay.
0:05:55 > 0:05:57Jay!
0:05:58 > 0:06:02Jay, I couldn't say anything, all right? Neither of us could.
0:06:02 > 0:06:05We'd have gone down for life if any of that had come out.
0:06:05 > 0:06:07Jay, listen to me - listen.
0:06:08 > 0:06:12I didn't know your dad was sleeping in one of them cars, all right?
0:06:12 > 0:06:15But you torch a gaff and somebody dies, that's what you do -
0:06:15 > 0:06:18you try getting off a murder charge.
0:06:26 > 0:06:29The Old Bill was sniffing around the place for weeks,
0:06:29 > 0:06:30they was itching to put a name in the frame.
0:06:30 > 0:06:33And if that name had been mine, well, that would have been
0:06:33 > 0:06:35a dream come true for them, wouldn't it?
0:06:35 > 0:06:38You know, a Mitchell bang to rights.
0:06:38 > 0:06:41We had to keep schtum, we didn't have a choice.
0:06:44 > 0:06:47Jay, I... I ain't no choirboy. You know that.
0:06:48 > 0:06:51I've done a lot of people a lot of damage over the years...
0:06:51 > 0:06:53and a lot of them have deserved it an' all.
0:06:53 > 0:06:54But that...
0:06:55 > 0:06:58I'll never have blood on my hands like that.
0:06:59 > 0:07:03But I have tried. I've tried to put things right.
0:07:03 > 0:07:04At least, as much as I could.
0:07:04 > 0:07:07Anyway, you know that night that Jase went after Terry...
0:07:07 > 0:07:09the night he caused all that mayhem in the Vic...
0:07:09 > 0:07:12He was going to get killed, you know that, but I stopped him, didn't I?
0:07:12 > 0:07:15Why? Well, now you know.
0:07:15 > 0:07:18And then I... Well, I gave him a job.
0:07:18 > 0:07:21Got him to do things for me, tried to keep him on the straight
0:07:21 > 0:07:23and narrow, as far as money goes.
0:07:23 > 0:07:26Now, why would I do that? Why would I care?
0:07:26 > 0:07:28Well, now you know why.
0:07:28 > 0:07:30Then I gave you a job, didn't I?
0:07:30 > 0:07:32I put a roof over your head, I sorted things out for you
0:07:32 > 0:07:34when they needed sorting.
0:07:35 > 0:07:37I know that it doesn't make up for it,
0:07:37 > 0:07:39I know it doesn't change what I did.
0:07:40 > 0:07:44But I did try, Jay, all those years - I've tried.
0:07:48 > 0:07:50Please.
0:07:50 > 0:07:52Please say something.
0:08:13 > 0:08:15KNOCK AT DOOR
0:08:18 > 0:08:20The...er...
0:08:21 > 0:08:25The Old Bill, they gave up after a couple of weeks.
0:08:27 > 0:08:30It didn't make any difference though. Everything still fell apart.
0:08:30 > 0:08:33Frank was in a right state, he was ready to stick his hands up.
0:08:33 > 0:08:36He didn't, but he went to pieces, you know.
0:08:36 > 0:08:38He walked out on Pat...
0:08:39 > 0:08:41Went on the streets himself,
0:08:41 > 0:08:44he slept rough for the next couple of years.
0:08:44 > 0:08:45And just lost everything.
0:08:48 > 0:08:54It was ONE mistake, Jay. One VERY stupid mistake.
0:08:56 > 0:08:58But if you think no-one's paid for it, then think again.
0:08:58 > 0:09:00Because I did. Frank did.
0:09:01 > 0:09:03Neither of us got off scot-free.
0:09:06 > 0:09:08You really have lost it, ain't you?
0:09:08 > 0:09:10What?
0:09:10 > 0:09:13All them years, all that booze, it's done things to you.
0:09:14 > 0:09:16Jay, Jay, just listen...
0:09:16 > 0:09:19Oh, I have been listening. And you're deluded.
0:09:19 > 0:09:21No, I ain't.
0:09:21 > 0:09:23OK, hallucinating, then.
0:09:23 > 0:09:26You really think I'd dream all this up?
0:09:26 > 0:09:28Well, ain't you forgetting something?
0:09:28 > 0:09:30This knight in shining armour,
0:09:30 > 0:09:34this St Jase who you're talking about, he was supposed to have
0:09:34 > 0:09:36stepped in and looked after me and my mum.
0:09:36 > 0:09:38Well, he walked out on us.
0:09:38 > 0:09:40So how does that...
0:09:40 > 0:09:43How does that fit in with what you're trying to tell me, eh?
0:09:43 > 0:09:46And then, years later, he turns up out of the blue
0:09:46 > 0:09:50and wants to see me again, now, why would he do that, eh?
0:09:50 > 0:09:52Why would he want to get back with a kid who isn't even his own
0:09:52 > 0:09:55flesh and blood?
0:09:55 > 0:09:56Well, maybe because he always
0:09:56 > 0:09:58thought of you as his own flesh and blood.
0:09:58 > 0:10:02- Well, who would think like that? - Me. I do with Dennis.
0:10:04 > 0:10:05Jay, I don't know why he walked out.
0:10:05 > 0:10:08- I don't know why he came back again...- Cos none of this happened,
0:10:08 > 0:10:10that's why! Not like you're saying, anyway.
0:10:10 > 0:10:12But maybe he made a promise, in his head.
0:10:12 > 0:10:15To you, to your mum. You know, he said he'd look after you,
0:10:15 > 0:10:18he said he'd look after her as well and he did, for a few years.
0:10:18 > 0:10:20But then it all went wrong and well, he bailed, yeah.
0:10:21 > 0:10:25And then what? What, he had second thoughts, did he?
0:10:25 > 0:10:27Well, maybe it was her dying like that.
0:10:31 > 0:10:33Maybe that's what did it.
0:10:35 > 0:10:37I never asked him, how could I?
0:10:39 > 0:10:43But, you know, something like that, it does things to you, I know.
0:10:43 > 0:10:45It makes you think about what you've done wrong
0:10:45 > 0:10:48and maybe how you could put things right.
0:10:48 > 0:10:50I ain't listening to any more of this.
0:11:12 > 0:11:16He said he'd been working the cruise ships.
0:11:16 > 0:11:18That's where he'd been all that time.
0:11:18 > 0:11:20Trying to get his life back on track.
0:11:20 > 0:11:22Billy never bought it.
0:11:23 > 0:11:26He reckoned he was a wrong 'un from the start.
0:11:27 > 0:11:29And Billy was right.
0:11:30 > 0:11:32Cos he hadn't been working at all.
0:11:35 > 0:11:37He'd been in prison.
0:11:39 > 0:11:40And that really screwed me up.
0:11:40 > 0:11:43Because the first thing he'd done to me, in all that time,
0:11:43 > 0:11:44was lie through his teeth.
0:11:46 > 0:11:50I stood by that bus stop...
0:11:51 > 0:11:54I got out a knife and I carved "Liar" into the shelter.
0:11:56 > 0:11:59And now you're trying to tell me that that was nothing
0:11:59 > 0:12:03compared to the big lie he'd been telling me all his life?
0:12:03 > 0:12:05That weren't a lie.
0:12:05 > 0:12:06Well, you just said it was.
0:12:06 > 0:12:09He just... He just didn't tell you the truth, that's all.
0:12:09 > 0:12:10What's the difference?
0:12:10 > 0:12:14He was protecting you, that ain't a lie. That's the difference.
0:12:14 > 0:12:15JAY SCOFFS
0:12:28 > 0:12:31I know that this ain't easy to take in, Jay.
0:12:34 > 0:12:37I've been living with this for over 20 years now.
0:12:37 > 0:12:40Sometimes I still struggle to get my head around it, as well.
0:12:43 > 0:12:44Now you know.
0:12:45 > 0:12:49And everything I've said is...is the truth.
0:12:51 > 0:12:55So if - if - what you're saying is right...
0:12:55 > 0:12:57Why would I make all this up, eh?
0:12:59 > 0:13:00Well, then, you're a killer, yeah?
0:13:02 > 0:13:04What?
0:13:04 > 0:13:06Well, that's all I keep hearing.
0:13:06 > 0:13:08You set fire to the car lot and some tramp died there.
0:13:08 > 0:13:11Not some tramp, though, is it?
0:13:11 > 0:13:13Ain't you been listening to anything I've been saying?
0:13:13 > 0:13:15You didn't mean it, you said. But you did it.
0:13:16 > 0:13:19Just like Ben, with Heather.
0:13:19 > 0:13:21What?
0:13:21 > 0:13:23Well, he didn't mean to do that, not really.
0:13:23 > 0:13:25- Still did it, though. - What are we talking about Ben for?
0:13:25 > 0:13:27Because it's the same thing.
0:13:27 > 0:13:29You did something and someone died.
0:13:29 > 0:13:31Ben did the same, right.
0:13:31 > 0:13:34He didn't set out to kill Heather, it just happened,
0:13:34 > 0:13:37and he did it and he had to pay the price.
0:13:37 > 0:13:38So if...
0:13:38 > 0:13:42what you're saying is right, then now it's your turn.
0:13:42 > 0:13:46Can't have one rule for one, and another for everyone else.
0:13:46 > 0:13:49You did what Ben did, according to you, anyway.
0:13:49 > 0:13:52so now you've got to do what he had to do.
0:13:54 > 0:13:55What are you doing?
0:13:55 > 0:13:57What? What, I've got to spell it out for you, have I?
0:13:57 > 0:13:59Phil, you're not usually this slow on the uptake,
0:13:59 > 0:14:01maybe it's all that booze again, eh?
0:14:01 > 0:14:03- Jay... - I'm calling the police.
0:14:03 > 0:14:04See what they can make out of this.
0:14:04 > 0:14:06Listen, we don't do things like that, you know that.
0:14:06 > 0:14:09What's it going to achieve anyway? Ain't going to change anything.
0:14:09 > 0:14:11Ain't going to bring anybody back, is it?
0:14:11 > 0:14:13So why did Ben have to go down?
0:14:13 > 0:14:14He didn't have a choice, there was
0:14:14 > 0:14:17no way we could keep any of that quiet, you know that.
0:14:17 > 0:14:19Oh, there we go again, one rule for Phil Mitchell,
0:14:19 > 0:14:21and another for everyone else.
0:14:21 > 0:14:24And the difference is, if I go down, I won't be coming out again.
0:14:24 > 0:14:25So you're scared? I bet Ben was as well.
0:14:25 > 0:14:29Yeah, and then Dennis grows up without a dad - and Ben and Louise -
0:14:29 > 0:14:31Well, they'll have Sharon.
0:14:31 > 0:14:34If I go down, they'll lose everything, won't they?
0:14:34 > 0:14:37You know how the law works, if they find out what I've done,
0:14:37 > 0:14:39there's no way they'll let me keep anything.
0:14:39 > 0:14:43I go down and everybody ends up with nothing, where's the sense in that?
0:14:43 > 0:14:46Sense? I can't make any sense of this, none of it.
0:14:46 > 0:14:49So let's see if the Old Bill can...
0:14:49 > 0:14:51Give me that. Give it to me!
0:14:58 > 0:15:00OK.
0:15:02 > 0:15:04All right.
0:15:04 > 0:15:06You do what you've got to do, yeah?
0:15:06 > 0:15:08I ain't going to stop you.
0:15:20 > 0:15:22When was it?
0:15:24 > 0:15:25What?
0:15:25 > 0:15:27That fire?
0:15:28 > 0:15:31- You know when it was. - Tell me.
0:15:31 > 0:15:32'94.
0:15:32 > 0:15:34When?
0:15:34 > 0:15:35March.
0:15:37 > 0:15:38You was born in October.
0:15:45 > 0:15:46What was his name?
0:15:50 > 0:15:51Alan...
0:15:53 > 0:15:54Alan Hall.
0:15:58 > 0:16:01I don't think he knew anything about you.
0:16:01 > 0:16:02According to the papers,
0:16:02 > 0:16:06your mum didn't find out she was pregnant until after he died.
0:16:12 > 0:16:14Is this really true?
0:16:16 > 0:16:18Yes.
0:16:20 > 0:16:22PHONE RINGS
0:16:26 > 0:16:31I meant what I said. You do what you've got to do.
0:16:33 > 0:16:35I ain't going to stop ya.
0:16:36 > 0:16:38PHONE RINGS
0:16:41 > 0:16:43Hi, Sharon.
0:16:44 > 0:16:47Yeah, I'm OK, I've not been drinking.
0:16:48 > 0:16:51Well, Honey got it wrong, I was winding her up.
0:16:51 > 0:16:53I've not been drinking, OK?
0:16:53 > 0:16:57I can't, not now, look - I'll talk later, all right?
0:17:14 > 0:17:16Does explain one thing, I suppose.
0:17:18 > 0:17:19What?
0:17:20 > 0:17:24You and me. You blowing hot and cold all the time.
0:17:26 > 0:17:27What are you talking about?
0:17:28 > 0:17:31I mean, one day it's like -
0:17:31 > 0:17:33it's like I'm the prodigal son or something...
0:17:33 > 0:17:35You know - job?
0:17:35 > 0:17:36"Oh, it's yours."
0:17:36 > 0:17:39Somewhere to live? "My house is your house."
0:17:39 > 0:17:42And then the next, it's like the shutters have come down on me.
0:17:42 > 0:17:45I mean, look what you were like with me and Star, eh?
0:17:45 > 0:17:49Listen, Jay, I never - I never, ever meant to treat you badly.
0:17:49 > 0:17:52No, you just couldn't help yourself, yeah?
0:17:52 > 0:17:55You must have looked at me and felt so guilty.
0:17:56 > 0:17:59But I know you. And I know what you're like.
0:17:59 > 0:18:02And I know you would have hated feeling like that.
0:18:02 > 0:18:05And then you'd have hated me for making you feel like that,
0:18:05 > 0:18:06wouldn't you?
0:18:06 > 0:18:08I didn't really think much of it,
0:18:08 > 0:18:10I just thought it was the way you were.
0:18:10 > 0:18:12Or it was the booze making you like that.
0:18:14 > 0:18:19Listen, I told you, I didn't mean to treat you badly.
0:18:24 > 0:18:26You just said it yourself.
0:18:27 > 0:18:31You did more for me than anyone else ever did. A job.
0:18:31 > 0:18:34Roof over my head. Money.
0:18:34 > 0:18:37But it was all blood money, wasn't it?
0:18:37 > 0:18:39No.
0:18:39 > 0:18:42And me and you. That was fake. Right from the start.
0:18:42 > 0:18:44No, Jay. No, it weren't.
0:18:44 > 0:18:47I thought we had, like, a connection, you know?
0:18:47 > 0:18:48We do.
0:18:48 > 0:18:50I thought there was something there between us.
0:18:50 > 0:18:52Well, there is, isn't there?
0:18:52 > 0:18:55I wasn't part of your family, right, we both know that.
0:18:55 > 0:18:59But you - you made me feel like I was,
0:18:59 > 0:19:02even when you were shouting at me, and that was all right, as well,
0:19:02 > 0:19:05because that's what families do, ain't it?
0:19:05 > 0:19:08They make up, they fall out, they make up again.
0:19:08 > 0:19:11But none of it was real, was it?
0:19:11 > 0:19:12It was all just guilt.
0:19:13 > 0:19:16If you hadn't blown all them lives apart back then, you'd never
0:19:16 > 0:19:19have given me the time of day, would you?
0:19:19 > 0:19:23Maybe - maybe that's how it started out, yeah, I was trying to
0:19:23 > 0:19:26help out, I was trying to put things right, but it didn't
0:19:26 > 0:19:31stay like that and I didn't do everything I did because of guilt.
0:19:31 > 0:19:32I don't believe you.
0:19:32 > 0:19:35No, Jay. No, not once I got to know you.
0:19:35 > 0:19:38Because I genuinely started to care about you,
0:19:38 > 0:19:41and believe me, it'd have been a lot easier if I hadn't.
0:19:41 > 0:19:44You know, if I could have just slipped you and Jase a few quid
0:19:44 > 0:19:47every now and again, that would have made my life a whole lot simpler.
0:19:47 > 0:19:49Because then I wouldn't have had to deal with you, day in
0:19:49 > 0:19:53and day out, and yeah, sometimes that would get on top of me...
0:19:53 > 0:19:55it did.
0:19:55 > 0:20:00Most of the time I just - I'd just - I'd just blank it out,
0:20:00 > 0:20:04but sometimes, yeah, sometimes I'd look at you and
0:20:04 > 0:20:07I'd be back there that night. Pouring petrol over them motors.
0:20:07 > 0:20:09And lighting that match.
0:20:09 > 0:20:11So, yeah, yeah, it would have been a lot easier to just...
0:20:11 > 0:20:14To just push you away and sometimes I did, OK?
0:20:14 > 0:20:17But I didn't bring you back
0:20:17 > 0:20:18because I felt guilty.
0:20:18 > 0:20:20I brought you back into my family
0:20:20 > 0:20:23because that's what you felt like, you felt part of it, Jay...
0:20:25 > 0:20:27You did.
0:20:28 > 0:20:31Just like Ben and Louise. And do you know why?
0:20:33 > 0:20:35Because I love you, Jay...
0:20:36 > 0:20:37Just like I love them.
0:20:42 > 0:20:43Fine words, Phil.
0:20:45 > 0:20:46But I still don't buy 'em.
0:20:52 > 0:20:55There was another reason...as well,
0:20:55 > 0:20:57that I'm telling you now.
0:20:58 > 0:21:00What happened with Sharon.
0:21:00 > 0:21:03And her old man coming back like that.
0:21:03 > 0:21:05Oh, cos that turned out so well, you mean?
0:21:05 > 0:21:07No, no it was a nightmare.
0:21:08 > 0:21:13But...you know, I've watched her ever since and, well,
0:21:13 > 0:21:15she's got stronger, hasn't she?
0:21:15 > 0:21:19Knowing the truth, as hard as it was at the time, it's helped her.
0:21:19 > 0:21:23And I didn't - I didn't feel like that at the start, you know,
0:21:23 > 0:21:26I started to think like that when I got ill -
0:21:26 > 0:21:29and then when I was in that hospital - I was lying there
0:21:29 > 0:21:31and I thought...
0:21:31 > 0:21:35it was RIGHT that you should know the truth.
0:21:36 > 0:21:40Oh. Oh, so you've done all this for me?
0:21:40 > 0:21:42Oh, Jay! I didn't say that.
0:21:42 > 0:21:47Yeah, you did. To make me stronger. Just like Sharon.
0:21:47 > 0:21:49And I get a big wad of cash once I flog that old car lot.
0:21:49 > 0:21:53All the way round, this is shaping up into a right result, isn't it?
0:21:53 > 0:21:54Jay...
0:21:54 > 0:21:59But the trouble is, that big wad of cash is just all a bit iffy,
0:21:59 > 0:22:01isn't it, it's all a bit tainted?
0:22:02 > 0:22:05And that's why you're really trying to get rid of the car lot, ain't it?
0:22:05 > 0:22:07Because you can't stand the sight of it any more.
0:22:07 > 0:22:09I didn't have to say any of this, all right?
0:22:09 > 0:22:11I didn't have to deal with the car lot.
0:22:11 > 0:22:13Do anything about the car lot.
0:22:13 > 0:22:14I could have just kept me mouth shut,
0:22:14 > 0:22:16and taken all this to the grave, couldn't I?
0:22:16 > 0:22:19Yeah, and maybe you could have done all them years ago,
0:22:19 > 0:22:21when you were flying high, walking the walk.
0:22:21 > 0:22:23But it's all a bit different now, isn't it?
0:22:23 > 0:22:25All them things you thought you could handle back then,
0:22:25 > 0:22:27all of a sudden you can't, can you?
0:22:30 > 0:22:34OK. Even if what you're saying was the truth...
0:22:34 > 0:22:35Yeah, it is.
0:22:37 > 0:22:42What's so bad about that? If you're right, what's so wrong, eh?
0:22:42 > 0:22:45At least I'm trying to do some good.
0:22:45 > 0:22:47JAY CHUCKLES
0:22:47 > 0:22:50You ain't trying to do anyone any good, not really,
0:22:50 > 0:22:52that's not what all this is about.
0:22:52 > 0:22:55That car lot - that's you throwing me some sort of consolation prize.
0:22:55 > 0:22:57What's that supposed to mean?
0:22:57 > 0:23:01Just like you're doing with everyone else - Ben - Denise's kid,
0:23:01 > 0:23:03you're trying to do the same with him -
0:23:03 > 0:23:05even that Tony's son - you hardly even know him, do you?
0:23:05 > 0:23:08But that ain't stopping you, is it?
0:23:08 > 0:23:10This ain't about me.
0:23:10 > 0:23:13Or anyone else. This is about you.
0:23:14 > 0:23:15Making YOU feel better.
0:23:18 > 0:23:20Jay.
0:23:25 > 0:23:26Jay.
0:23:32 > 0:23:34I really loved him, you know.
0:23:36 > 0:23:39Yeah, he walked out on us, but he came back, didn't he?
0:23:40 > 0:23:43And, yeah, he could be a basket case,
0:23:43 > 0:23:46and, yeah, he did do stupid things, but he did some good and all.
0:23:48 > 0:23:50You know, when he died...
0:23:51 > 0:23:53..I felt like I was going to die.
0:23:57 > 0:24:00And I ain't ever forgotten him, not for one single day.
0:24:05 > 0:24:07JAY SIGHS
0:24:09 > 0:24:11It'll be the anniversary soon.
0:24:12 > 0:24:13That night he died.
0:24:14 > 0:24:17I ain't ever forgotten that, neither.
0:24:17 > 0:24:19I ain't trying to change any of that...
0:24:19 > 0:24:21You have changed that! You've taken him away.
0:24:21 > 0:24:24- Of course I haven't. - And what have you given me, eh?
0:24:25 > 0:24:28Some man who died in a fire before I was even born.
0:24:29 > 0:24:33And me and you. That's all spoilt now, innit?
0:24:34 > 0:24:39I can't help what's happened and I can't, I can't change it either.
0:24:39 > 0:24:43You said it yourself, you could have kept your big mouth shut.
0:24:43 > 0:24:44Oh, no, you couldn't, could you?
0:24:44 > 0:24:47Because of this big, black cloud you've been carrying around.
0:24:47 > 0:24:50Well, you all right? Do you feel better now, do you?
0:24:58 > 0:25:02So...what happens now? What are you going to do?
0:25:04 > 0:25:06Cos if you're still going to go to the Old Bill, give me
0:25:06 > 0:25:08half an hour, will ya?
0:25:08 > 0:25:11What for, give you a head start, a chance to get away?
0:25:11 > 0:25:13So I can tell Sharon.
0:25:13 > 0:25:15She deserves that much, at least.
0:25:15 > 0:25:18I don't want her hearing it from someone like Marsden, do I?
0:25:19 > 0:25:23Yeah, it's not really the Mitchell style, is it, eh?
0:25:23 > 0:25:25See, I have learnt one thing from you.
0:25:25 > 0:25:27It's never let the police finish your scores.
0:25:27 > 0:25:28Do that yourself, yeah?
0:25:28 > 0:25:30Meaning?
0:25:31 > 0:25:35If I'd come to you - and told you what you've just told me,
0:25:35 > 0:25:36what would you do?
0:25:36 > 0:25:39Would you shake my hand?
0:25:39 > 0:25:40And go, "Oh, ta, thanks for telling me?
0:25:40 > 0:25:43Or something else?
0:25:43 > 0:25:44Like what?
0:25:46 > 0:25:48I don't know.
0:25:48 > 0:25:50I ain't quite worked it out yet.
0:25:51 > 0:25:53But when I do...
0:25:55 > 0:25:57..you'll be the first to know.
0:26:01 > 0:26:05DOOR OPENS AND CLOSES
0:26:49 > 0:26:53TRAIN PASSES
0:28:25 > 0:28:26It's me.
0:28:29 > 0:28:32Of course I told him, I said I would, didn't I?
0:28:34 > 0:28:36Yeah.
0:28:36 > 0:28:38Yeah, the whole pack of lies.
0:28:40 > 0:28:43Now, we've got a deal, remember?
0:28:43 > 0:28:45I've done what I said I'd do.
0:28:46 > 0:28:48Now you've got to do the same.