In Between Days

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0:00:44 > 0:00:48ECHOEY PANTING

0:00:57 > 0:00:58Hey! Hey! You a doctor?

0:01:00 > 0:01:04You can't get any closer. They have to make it safe.

0:01:04 > 0:01:07Are you a doctor?

0:01:07 > 0:01:10Are you a doctor?

0:01:10 > 0:01:11Are you a doctor?

0:01:14 > 0:01:15PHONE RINGS

0:01:17 > 0:01:20'Hi, this is Ollie. I guess I must be out saving lives,

0:01:20 > 0:01:22'but leave me message after the high-pitched whine

0:01:22 > 0:01:24'and I'll call you back.' BEEP

0:01:24 > 0:01:29'Oh, hi, Ollie, this is Lucy again.

0:01:29 > 0:01:33'Listen, I'm so sorry to keep leaving you messages like this,

0:01:33 > 0:01:35'but, um...well, the thing is,

0:01:35 > 0:01:40'we've only got two weeks left of this month's rent,

0:01:40 > 0:01:45'and I need to start looking for a new housemate as soon as,

0:01:45 > 0:01:48'and I'm just not sure what I should be doing with all of Penny's stuff.

0:01:48 > 0:01:50'So if you could, you know,

0:01:50 > 0:01:54'just maybe give me a buzz back when you get this?

0:01:54 > 0:01:56'Thanks, Ollie.'

0:01:56 > 0:01:58'She hated me. I switched her paper for mine.'

0:01:58 > 0:02:02'You're not a qualified doctor. You're practising illegally!'

0:02:02 > 0:02:06'Nothing they could do. She went in to help someone who was trapped. She would've died instantly.'

0:02:06 > 0:02:08'She died hating me.'

0:02:08 > 0:02:09DOOR OPENS

0:02:12 > 0:02:15Oliver? Oliver?

0:02:16 > 0:02:18Dad.

0:02:18 > 0:02:21- You should've called. - I did. Three times.

0:02:21 > 0:02:24You seem to be screening your calls. You've got some post, by the way.

0:02:24 > 0:02:28Anyway, this was more of a spur-of-the-moment type thing.

0:02:28 > 0:02:31Just thought I should drop by, see how you're holding up.

0:02:31 > 0:02:33Never been better.

0:02:34 > 0:02:38Um... How's your mum?

0:02:38 > 0:02:41I don't know. She and Philippe went back to France after the funeral.

0:02:41 > 0:02:43When are you going back to work?

0:02:43 > 0:02:46Actually, I'm...I'm not going back.

0:02:46 > 0:02:50Look, Ollie. This isn't easy for any of us,

0:02:50 > 0:02:54but you really think burying your head in the sand...

0:02:54 > 0:02:55No, you don't get it.

0:02:55 > 0:02:56I tell you what I do get.

0:02:56 > 0:03:01Sitting here feeling sorry for yourself isn't going to help anyone,

0:03:01 > 0:03:03and it's certainly not what Pen would want you to be doing.

0:03:06 > 0:03:08Look.

0:03:08 > 0:03:11You know you can always call me if it's an emergency.

0:03:11 > 0:03:12You've got my work number.

0:03:12 > 0:03:16- I think so.- If you want my advice, go back to work as soon as possible.

0:03:16 > 0:03:18Putting it off will only make it worse.

0:03:18 > 0:03:20You've got to get on with things, keep on going.

0:03:20 > 0:03:23Top one's my private line.

0:03:32 > 0:03:34'KNOCK ON DOOR'

0:03:34 > 0:03:37- Hi, Lucy.- I'm sorry about the mess.

0:03:37 > 0:03:39I'm not actually a total slob.

0:03:39 > 0:03:42I just haven't had a chance to get the old Hoover out.

0:03:42 > 0:03:45Cleaning hasn't exactly been the first thing on my mind.

0:03:45 > 0:03:48When was the last time you were here? Was it Penny's birthday?

0:03:48 > 0:03:50I'm not sure, to be honest.

0:03:50 > 0:03:52We had those minging green cocktails

0:03:52 > 0:03:55with creme de menthe and something else. Remember?

0:03:55 > 0:03:57Thanks for that - it took me six months

0:03:57 > 0:03:58to get the taste out of my mouth.

0:04:01 > 0:04:04So, listen. About this, I feel completely...

0:04:04 > 0:04:07Don't. Honestly.

0:04:07 > 0:04:08I get it.

0:04:08 > 0:04:10Take as long as you like.

0:04:24 > 0:04:27Listen, I've been thinking about it,

0:04:27 > 0:04:31and you know what? I'm going to be pretty busy over the next few weeks.

0:04:31 > 0:04:34I don't think I'm going to have time to deal with all this.

0:04:34 > 0:04:38What I was thinking was maybe I could cover Penny's rent

0:04:38 > 0:04:40for the rest of this month and next month.

0:04:40 > 0:04:43I could write you a cheque right now if you just tell me how much it is.

0:04:43 > 0:04:45Ollie, that's, like, 700 quid.

0:04:45 > 0:04:49Right. And I guess there's bills and things on top of that,

0:04:49 > 0:04:50so shall we just call it 900?

0:04:50 > 0:04:52You really don't have to do this.

0:04:52 > 0:04:54Wouldn't it be easier for you just...?

0:04:54 > 0:04:58If it's not enough, or if there's an emergency, you can always call me.

0:04:58 > 0:05:01You've got my work number, right?

0:05:01 > 0:05:04I'm guessing it's the same as Penny's.

0:05:04 > 0:05:06Exactly. Great.

0:05:06 > 0:05:10Well, thanks for everything.

0:05:10 > 0:05:14I know you've probably got a lot more important things to do with your time,

0:05:14 > 0:05:18but if you ever wanted a drink or... It doesn't have to be a drink drink,

0:05:18 > 0:05:21although I do do this amazing green cocktail with creme de menthe!

0:05:21 > 0:05:25- I think I'm going to have to take a rain check on that one.- Sure.

0:05:25 > 0:05:29- It's just I'm going to be kind of busy.- I understand.

0:05:29 > 0:05:32You know, I've got things to do. I've got to...

0:05:35 > 0:05:37I've got to go back to work.

0:05:49 > 0:05:51'Your grandmother's just died.

0:05:54 > 0:05:57'What about your mother?

0:05:57 > 0:05:59'She's going to need to be told.

0:06:01 > 0:06:03'What happened, Elizabeth?

0:06:03 > 0:06:05'Why did you leave home?'

0:06:05 > 0:06:06Mum?

0:06:06 > 0:06:09CONTINUOUS TONE

0:06:09 > 0:06:13'I bought myself a new dress, a red dress.

0:06:13 > 0:06:15'My mum said it was the colour of the devil, and then she took

0:06:15 > 0:06:18'her belt to me. I thought that time she would never stop.

0:06:18 > 0:06:20'I was 16.

0:06:20 > 0:06:25'Afterwards, Grandma would bring me sweets.'

0:06:39 > 0:06:42Hi, Mum.

0:06:43 > 0:06:46I just thought, you know, you should hear it from me,

0:06:46 > 0:06:49not from some faceless stranger.

0:06:49 > 0:06:56Your grandma is safe with Jesus now, safe in his loving arms.

0:07:00 > 0:07:03- You're not going to come inside? - I have to get to work.

0:07:03 > 0:07:08No! Please don't leave me again, just when I got you back.

0:07:08 > 0:07:10Six years, baby girl.

0:07:10 > 0:07:12Six years.

0:07:12 > 0:07:14I'm sorry.

0:07:18 > 0:07:20I come and go from this place all the time,

0:07:20 > 0:07:23so I'm getting to know the names of all the doctors.

0:07:23 > 0:07:26The docs that really go the extra mile and the ones

0:07:26 > 0:07:29who just want to ship you out of here PDQ.

0:07:29 > 0:07:32So, what type are you?

0:07:32 > 0:07:34- Well, Mr...?- Sharma.

0:07:34 > 0:07:37Sharma. Your bloods are normal, your BP's normal,

0:07:37 > 0:07:40your ECG is normal. Er, looking at these results here,

0:07:40 > 0:07:43I can't seem to find anything wrong with you at all.

0:07:43 > 0:07:46But the pain?

0:07:46 > 0:07:48Well, that could be a number of things.

0:07:48 > 0:07:49It could be muscular.

0:07:49 > 0:07:52If your work involves you having to sit in the same position

0:07:52 > 0:07:54for any length of time?

0:07:54 > 0:07:57He asks if my work involves sitting in the same position

0:07:57 > 0:07:58for any length of time!

0:07:58 > 0:08:0112 hours every day. That's what they pay me for.

0:08:01 > 0:08:04Might I suggest, if the pain persists, you consult your GP?

0:08:04 > 0:08:08In the meantime, I will get one of our nurses to discharge you.

0:08:08 > 0:08:10- Thank you, Dr...?- Valentine.

0:08:13 > 0:08:15That looked like a very swift diagnosis.

0:08:15 > 0:08:17- He's a hypochondriac.- Oh?

0:08:17 > 0:08:19His BP, bloods, ECG are normal,

0:08:19 > 0:08:23and the only symptom's a nondescript abdo pain.

0:08:23 > 0:08:26Sounds like a rather unimaginative hypochondriac.

0:08:27 > 0:08:29Now, I have a question for you.

0:08:29 > 0:08:32Answer it carefully. Should you be here?

0:08:34 > 0:08:37- Why shouldn't I be? - When you returned from

0:08:37 > 0:08:39compassionate leave for one day,

0:08:39 > 0:08:40Mr Malick had to send you home again.

0:08:40 > 0:08:42Have you spoken to him?

0:08:42 > 0:08:45I'm his consultant.

0:08:45 > 0:08:47- I speak to him most days.- Hm.

0:08:47 > 0:08:50The point is, since this is your first day back

0:08:50 > 0:08:52from extended compassionate leave,

0:08:52 > 0:08:55I have to fill in your six-week post-traumatic MOT for HR.

0:08:55 > 0:08:57They do like us to jump through these hoops.

0:08:59 > 0:09:01I shall tell them that

0:09:01 > 0:09:04you don't appear to be an immediate suicide risk.

0:09:06 > 0:09:09No need to confiscate your belt and shoelaces quite yet.

0:09:19 > 0:09:24I just wanted to let you know that I've signed the release form

0:09:24 > 0:09:26- for your grandmother. - Thank you for letting me know.

0:09:26 > 0:09:31I hope you realise, your grandmother, the operation WAS risky.

0:09:31 > 0:09:33- You shouldn't blame yourself. - I don't.

0:09:33 > 0:09:35- Did you phone your mother? - Mr Griffin, I appreciate

0:09:35 > 0:09:38what you did for me, but I never should have let my personal life

0:09:38 > 0:09:41interfere with my work. It was unprofessional.

0:09:41 > 0:09:43- In the circumstances... - You are my consultant,

0:09:43 > 0:09:46and while I'm here, I'm your responsibility,

0:09:46 > 0:09:49but who I am when I'm not here and I'm not wearing this uniform

0:09:49 > 0:09:52- is my private business. - Understood.

0:09:52 > 0:09:54Thank you, Nurse Tait.

0:09:56 > 0:09:58This is Marion. She's had a bit of a fall.

0:09:58 > 0:10:01'I just spoke to Hanssen.'

0:10:01 > 0:10:03- That's nice for you. - What did you say to him?

0:10:03 > 0:10:06- I don't know anything. What could I say to him?- You swear?

0:10:06 > 0:10:09What's going on, man? What's with the paranoia?

0:10:09 > 0:10:11I don't know. I just...

0:10:11 > 0:10:13Listen, if I was going to grass you up,

0:10:13 > 0:10:15why would I have waited till today?

0:10:15 > 0:10:18I didn't, cos somewhere in there is a good doctor screaming to get out.

0:10:18 > 0:10:21Stop over-thinking, trust your instincts.

0:10:21 > 0:10:25If you don't believe you should be here then why should anyone else?

0:10:25 > 0:10:27You're right. I know you're right.

0:10:27 > 0:10:30Besides, Valentine, I'm up on Keller now.

0:10:30 > 0:10:34I can't be your Mr Miyagi any more.

0:10:34 > 0:10:36So you need to drop the paranoia

0:10:36 > 0:10:40and you need to bring your A-game every single day, cos you can't have

0:10:40 > 0:10:43- people asking you awkward questions. - You think I don't know that?

0:10:43 > 0:10:46You want my advice? You go home, you get drunk, laid, stoned.

0:10:46 > 0:10:50In fact, I don't even want to know, but you do whatever you've got to do

0:10:50 > 0:10:52to get that crazy head of yours straight.

0:10:52 > 0:10:54I backed you for a reason.

0:10:54 > 0:10:58I trusted my instinct, and if there's one thing I really hate,

0:10:58 > 0:10:59it's being wrong.

0:11:50 > 0:11:54- Hey, just watch where you're going, mate, yeah?- Leave it out, pal.

0:11:54 > 0:11:55Seriously.

0:11:57 > 0:12:01Hey! What was that? Was that supposed to hurt?

0:12:01 > 0:12:03Cos I couldn't even feel it!

0:12:03 > 0:12:05Hey! Come on!

0:12:09 > 0:12:12- Oi, watch it!- Why don't you watch where you're going?

0:12:12 > 0:12:14Get a life, loser.

0:12:16 > 0:12:18CAR HORN BLARES

0:12:21 > 0:12:23Are you crazy, my friend?!

0:12:23 > 0:12:26- I could have killed you! - Try a bit harder than that.

0:12:26 > 0:12:29- Are you OK, amigo?- I'm fine.

0:12:29 > 0:12:31No, you're not fine.

0:12:31 > 0:12:34Why don't you get in the back of my cab?

0:12:34 > 0:12:38I don't want to get in the back of your stupid cab!

0:12:41 > 0:12:43You should let them check you over.

0:12:43 > 0:12:44I am not going to the hospital.

0:12:44 > 0:12:46- You might have broken something. - I haven't.

0:12:46 > 0:12:49I'd know. I'm a doctor...allegedly.

0:12:49 > 0:12:51Of course.

0:12:51 > 0:12:53Valentine.

0:12:54 > 0:12:58- Who is that? - That's Lakshmi, goddess of wealth.

0:12:58 > 0:13:01She watches over me while I work.

0:13:01 > 0:13:03By the way, my friend, where am I taking you?

0:13:03 > 0:13:05I don't know. Home.

0:13:05 > 0:13:08Anyone waiting for you there?

0:13:08 > 0:13:09No.

0:13:09 > 0:13:13- You shouldn't be alone. - Shouldn't I?

0:13:13 > 0:13:14Come on.

0:13:14 > 0:13:18What would you do if there was an emergency?

0:13:18 > 0:13:19Who would you call?

0:13:23 > 0:13:25Penny.

0:13:25 > 0:13:27Where is this Penny, then?

0:13:30 > 0:13:32KNOCK ON DOOR

0:13:35 > 0:13:37Bad time?

0:13:40 > 0:13:42Blimey. What happened to you?

0:13:47 > 0:13:50'Stop lying, Ollie!

0:13:50 > 0:13:53- 'Do you really think this is just going to go away?- No.'

0:14:23 > 0:14:28# There's a bluebird at the window

0:14:30 > 0:14:36# I can hear the songs he sings

0:14:39 > 0:14:45# All the jewels in heaven

0:14:47 > 0:14:53# They don't look the same to me

0:14:55 > 0:15:00# I just wade the tides that turned

0:15:00 > 0:15:05# Till I learn to leave the past behind

0:15:08 > 0:15:14# It's only lies that I'm living

0:15:16 > 0:15:19# It's only tears... #

0:15:19 > 0:15:21Ollie?

0:15:22 > 0:15:23I was just...

0:15:28 > 0:15:30Do you want some breakfast?

0:15:33 > 0:15:35We always used to cook a big breakfast like this

0:15:35 > 0:15:37every Saturday morning. It was our ritual.

0:15:37 > 0:15:42Penny used to make the most amazing pancakes.

0:15:42 > 0:15:43Yeah, she did.

0:15:43 > 0:15:47It's not a talent you share, is it?

0:15:47 > 0:15:50Sadly not! I can do pasta,

0:15:50 > 0:15:53I can do toast, and I'm utterly excellent at ordering takeaways.

0:15:53 > 0:15:55Highly skilled.

0:15:55 > 0:15:58I thought you were supposed to be good at everything.

0:15:58 > 0:16:00Penny always used to call you the golden boy.

0:16:00 > 0:16:03She said that it would take her about ten hours

0:16:03 > 0:16:05to figure out something that you'd get in two minutes...

0:16:05 > 0:16:06I've got to be somewhere.

0:16:06 > 0:16:09- I should probably get going. - Something in particular?

0:16:09 > 0:16:12I've just...

0:16:12 > 0:16:13I've got a thing.

0:16:13 > 0:16:16A thing?

0:16:16 > 0:16:18- Yeah.- Well, there you go.

0:16:18 > 0:16:20Just found something you're not so good at.

0:16:23 > 0:16:26No wonder she's in renal failure. She's severely malnourished.

0:16:26 > 0:16:29- You think?- Well, we need to call social services.

0:16:29 > 0:16:31This shouldn't be allowed to happen.

0:16:31 > 0:16:33- She's 79 years old. - Social services brought her in.

0:16:33 > 0:16:36Apparently, neighbours got suspicious

0:16:36 > 0:16:38when the milk bottles started lining up.

0:16:38 > 0:16:40Police found her in the middle of the carpet.

0:16:40 > 0:16:44- She'd been there for three days. - How can something like that happen?

0:16:44 > 0:16:46She's lucky.

0:16:46 > 0:16:48Think of all the old people who die at home on their own

0:16:48 > 0:16:50and nobody notices for, like, six months.

0:16:56 > 0:16:59You work in a supermarket and you can't even buy yourself food.

0:16:59 > 0:17:01Pineapple juice.

0:17:01 > 0:17:04- What?- You always loved pineapple juice.

0:17:04 > 0:17:07We used to have it after church, remember? You still like it?

0:17:07 > 0:17:10I've bought you some bread and some cheese and things.

0:17:10 > 0:17:13You don't have to cook anything, you can make yourself sandwiches.

0:17:13 > 0:17:14And tins of soup. They last forever.

0:17:16 > 0:17:19Will you stop looking at me like that?

0:17:19 > 0:17:22Why did you abandon us?

0:17:22 > 0:17:23You know why.

0:17:30 > 0:17:33Oh. She was always your favourite.

0:17:33 > 0:17:37I was never allowed to pick her up.

0:17:37 > 0:17:39What are you going to do?

0:17:42 > 0:17:43Grandma did everything round here.

0:17:43 > 0:17:46Maybe you could look after me, like I looked after you.

0:17:46 > 0:17:48- I could call social services. - No, don't call them.

0:17:48 > 0:17:50You need help.

0:17:50 > 0:17:52They will make me leave.

0:17:54 > 0:17:59- Who's going to look after you? - Jesus will look after me.

0:17:59 > 0:18:02Jesus isn't going to do your shopping, though, is he?

0:18:10 > 0:18:13Hello, Pastor.

0:18:13 > 0:18:15Elizabeth?

0:18:15 > 0:18:18You came back!

0:18:18 > 0:18:20Come in, come in.

0:18:20 > 0:18:23'I never stopped praying that you would come back to us.'

0:18:23 > 0:18:25Pastor, I'm not back.

0:18:25 > 0:18:28- I mean, just...- Just?

0:18:28 > 0:18:31You and Grandma are the only people she's ever trusted.

0:18:31 > 0:18:34She trusted you.

0:18:34 > 0:18:37I need to know if she's going to be taken care of.

0:18:37 > 0:18:39You haven't changed.

0:18:39 > 0:18:42Yes, you're older, grown up,

0:18:42 > 0:18:44but you're still the same serious, shy child

0:18:44 > 0:18:47who used to ask me difficult questions at Sunday school.

0:18:47 > 0:18:49I have changed.

0:18:49 > 0:18:50I'm not the same person I was.

0:18:50 > 0:18:52You're still her daughter.

0:18:52 > 0:18:54So, is that it?

0:18:54 > 0:18:57You're just going to disappear again?

0:18:57 > 0:18:59I have my own life now, Pastor.

0:18:59 > 0:19:03As long as I'm here, your mother will be taken care of.

0:19:03 > 0:19:06She's a very precious part of our community here.

0:19:06 > 0:19:08Thank you.

0:19:08 > 0:19:10Now I have something to ask of you.

0:19:11 > 0:19:13What?

0:19:13 > 0:19:16Will you come to your grandmother's funeral tomorrow?

0:19:16 > 0:19:18Give yourself the chance to say goodbye.

0:19:18 > 0:19:20You can sit at the back.

0:19:20 > 0:19:22No-one need know you're here.

0:19:25 > 0:19:27Don't suppose you've got any Parmesan?

0:19:27 > 0:19:30No. Can't get on with a cheese that smells like vomit, sorry.

0:19:30 > 0:19:32So, why did you rock up?

0:19:32 > 0:19:35Not that I'm complaining. I'm glad you did.

0:19:35 > 0:19:38Oh, you're glad that I showed up here off my face on a Saturday

0:19:38 > 0:19:39and passed out on your sofa?

0:19:39 > 0:19:41Yes, why wouldn't you be?

0:19:41 > 0:19:43What a delightful surprise that must have been.

0:19:44 > 0:19:48No, it's just, having you here, it's...

0:19:48 > 0:19:52well, it's a little bit like having some of her back.

0:19:52 > 0:19:55- We're not that alike, are we? - More than you think.

0:19:55 > 0:19:56You can't be that different.

0:19:56 > 0:19:59You both decided to do medicine.

0:19:59 > 0:20:02Ah, Penny chose medicine. I just followed her.

0:20:02 > 0:20:05I was all set for a career in wizardry.

0:20:05 > 0:20:07But seriously,

0:20:07 > 0:20:10if you could do anything, why did you choose to do medicine?

0:20:10 > 0:20:13She was so passionate about it. I'd never been enthusiastic.

0:20:13 > 0:20:16- I'll never be half the doctor she would have been.- You don't know.

0:20:20 > 0:20:25Penny died because the only thing she cared about was saving her patient.

0:20:25 > 0:20:26She knew the risks,

0:20:26 > 0:20:31but she crawled underneath that train because somebody needed her.

0:20:31 > 0:20:34She didn't have to think.

0:20:36 > 0:20:38Yeah, well, you'd do the same.

0:20:44 > 0:20:47# Hey, could you stand another drink?

0:20:47 > 0:20:49# I'm better when I don't think... #

0:20:51 > 0:20:54Well...

0:20:54 > 0:20:56Well.

0:20:56 > 0:20:59I have had a splendid day.

0:20:59 > 0:21:00Me too.

0:21:00 > 0:21:04So I was thinking, next month's rent must be due soon...

0:21:04 > 0:21:07Look, Ollie, I don't want you to think I'm being ungrateful,

0:21:07 > 0:21:09but you can't just keep giving me money.

0:21:09 > 0:21:11I don't mind.

0:21:13 > 0:21:16It's not about the cheques.

0:21:16 > 0:21:19- I have to move on with my life. - It's OK.

0:21:20 > 0:21:23I don't want to spend another night lying there on my own

0:21:23 > 0:21:27with this empty room next door, like this big reminder of her.

0:21:27 > 0:21:30- Hey, come on.- Sorry.

0:21:30 > 0:21:33I don't even know why I'm crying. I've had too much wine. Ignore me.

0:21:33 > 0:21:35Hey, hey.

0:22:00 > 0:22:02Hmm...

0:22:02 > 0:22:06My 14-year-old self would hate me for saying it,

0:22:06 > 0:22:08but this is a really bad idea.

0:22:08 > 0:22:10I couldn't agree more.

0:22:27 > 0:22:31# Some glad morning

0:22:34 > 0:22:41# When this life is over

0:22:42 > 0:22:47# I'll fly away. #

0:22:49 > 0:22:52Alleluia!

0:22:53 > 0:22:58- Alleluia!- Thank you, Jesus, thank you. Alleluia!

0:22:58 > 0:23:01That was one of Ida's favourite hymns,

0:23:01 > 0:23:05and it's not hard to see why, with its great message of joy and hope.

0:23:05 > 0:23:08There's another reason that this is an occasion of great joy.

0:23:08 > 0:23:11Before she passed, the Lord saw fit

0:23:11 > 0:23:16that Sister Ida was reunited with the granddaughter that she loved.

0:23:16 > 0:23:18- Amen! - APPLAUSE

0:23:18 > 0:23:26She is with him now. Jesus say Ida is at peace now in his loving arms!

0:23:26 > 0:23:31He has received her into the kingdom,

0:23:31 > 0:23:38and she is so happy to see our child Elizabeth return to us.

0:23:38 > 0:23:40- Amen!- Thank you, Lord!

0:23:40 > 0:23:42Thank you for returning her to us!

0:23:42 > 0:23:45Amen, Father, Amen!

0:23:45 > 0:23:48- Amen!- Alleluia!

0:24:05 > 0:24:09So, you're going to tell me the real story of how you got that shiner?

0:24:09 > 0:24:12- There's nothing to tell.- Oh, I get it. First rule of Fight Club?

0:24:12 > 0:24:15So, this patient's coming in in a taxi? Isn't that a bit random?

0:24:15 > 0:24:18Ambulances are better - they're medically equipped,

0:24:18 > 0:24:20don't charge by the mile, and you're less likely to get

0:24:20 > 0:24:22racist banter from the driver.

0:24:22 > 0:24:24Hey! My dad's a cabbie, he's not racist!

0:24:24 > 0:24:25Of course he's not.

0:24:25 > 0:24:30Driver called ahead. Sounds like it could be a cardiac arrest.

0:24:30 > 0:24:34Patient came into AAU six weeks ago with chronic abdominal pain and got a brush-off from us.

0:24:34 > 0:24:37Who discharged him the last time he was in?

0:24:39 > 0:24:41It's your signature, Ollie.

0:24:43 > 0:24:46It's OK, we've got you, Mr Sharma.

0:24:46 > 0:24:50# Happy birthday, dear Elizabeth

0:24:50 > 0:24:56# Happy birthday to you! #

0:24:56 > 0:24:57Woo!

0:24:57 > 0:25:00Well, go on, blow them out. It's bad luck if you don't.

0:25:00 > 0:25:03I've already told Chrissie I didn't want any fuss.

0:25:08 > 0:25:11Woo! We also had a bit of a whip round and got you these.

0:25:15 > 0:25:17Fresh flowers are not allowed on the ward!

0:25:17 > 0:25:19Well, I guess you'd better put them

0:25:19 > 0:25:22- in the staff room, then, eh?- Yes. - And birthday cocktails

0:25:22 > 0:25:24tonight in Albie's. 7pm. Don't be late.

0:25:24 > 0:25:28If you were feeling dizzy and light-headed, why were you driving in the first place?

0:25:28 > 0:25:30You said there was nothing wrong with me.

0:25:30 > 0:25:33Why ignore a doctor?

0:25:33 > 0:25:35You could have killed someone. What if you'd crashed?

0:25:35 > 0:25:37I thought maybe I was just hungry.

0:25:37 > 0:25:40Then suddenly I couldn't breathe, and the pain...

0:25:40 > 0:25:42I knew I was having a heart attack.

0:25:42 > 0:25:46Nope. Doesn't look like a heart attack.

0:25:46 > 0:25:47So, what is it?

0:25:47 > 0:25:50We're still looking at various options.

0:25:50 > 0:25:51Keep me posted.

0:25:53 > 0:25:58You seem a bit happier than the last time we met. You don't remember?

0:26:00 > 0:26:02I see a lot of patients. Excuse me.

0:26:08 > 0:26:10What are you doing back here?!

0:26:10 > 0:26:12What have you done?

0:26:15 > 0:26:18You have to help me. You have to make it better.

0:26:18 > 0:26:20- I need a doctor.- Please, be quiet!

0:26:20 > 0:26:22- Are you ashamed of me? - You've got to go.

0:26:22 > 0:26:25I embarrass you in front of all your friends?

0:26:25 > 0:26:28Your own mother? I need you to help me, it's my head!

0:26:28 > 0:26:31Nurse Tait, leave this to me.

0:26:31 > 0:26:35My dad never did nights till I was 15. It was only so he could keep an eye on me.

0:26:35 > 0:26:39He'd park outside Hollywood's, turn his lights out and sit there till I came out.

0:26:39 > 0:26:43I didn't mind. Free ride home! My friends used to call him Dial-A-Dad,

0:26:43 > 0:26:45and I think my mum was glad to get him out the house.

0:26:45 > 0:26:48How does your wife feel about you doing nights?

0:26:49 > 0:26:53Well, it hasn't changed in the last two hours, it's not going to change now.

0:26:53 > 0:26:54We can't send him home.

0:26:54 > 0:26:56The results are pretty conclusive.

0:26:56 > 0:26:59We should run an MRI, or a stress test.

0:26:59 > 0:27:02No. Hanssen's due back for his ward inspection any minute.

0:27:02 > 0:27:05So, we just send all our patients home, regardless of their condition?

0:27:05 > 0:27:08You heard him. If you've done everything you can

0:27:08 > 0:27:11and the tests show nothing, you have to move them on.

0:27:14 > 0:27:17I think I've figured out what's wrong with Mr Sharma.

0:27:17 > 0:27:19He's got a broken heart.

0:27:19 > 0:27:23His wife died three months ago.

0:27:23 > 0:27:26What is wrong with you? You can't actually suffer from a broken heart.

0:27:26 > 0:27:28Yes, you can. You read about it all the time.

0:27:28 > 0:27:30Someone's husband dies, then a week later...

0:27:30 > 0:27:32It's a figure of speech.

0:27:32 > 0:27:34Well, at least I've come up with something.

0:27:34 > 0:27:37You're the doctor round here. You're the one that's supposed to

0:27:37 > 0:27:41figure out what's wrong with people, not me. What's your theory?

0:27:48 > 0:27:53Am I allowed to know where we're going, or is it a mystery tour?

0:27:53 > 0:27:55I just want to run a few more tests on you, Mr Sharma.

0:27:58 > 0:28:01- Are you sure we should be doing this?- Doing what?

0:28:01 > 0:28:05- The MRI, the stress test. Mr Levy told us to discharge him. - He's not Mr Levy's patient.

0:28:05 > 0:28:10- I know...- You're not here to question my judgment - you're here to do as I tell you. All right?

0:28:12 > 0:28:14All right, Mr Sharma, let's get you to this scan.

0:28:23 > 0:28:25Valentine?

0:28:25 > 0:28:26May I?

0:28:26 > 0:28:28Thank you.

0:28:28 > 0:28:34Apparently, I've booked an MRI for an urgent cardiac patient.

0:28:34 > 0:28:37- I needed a consultant's sign-off. - You thought you'd forge my signature?

0:28:37 > 0:28:43And Dr Levy tells me he specifically asked you to discharge Mr Sharma.

0:28:43 > 0:28:45I wanted to run more tests.

0:28:45 > 0:28:48- Even though the echo and ECG show no evidence...- Inconclusive.

0:28:48 > 0:28:50- In your opinion.- Yes, but...

0:28:50 > 0:28:52I'm sorry, I simply don't understand.

0:28:52 > 0:28:54If you've run all the relevant tests

0:28:54 > 0:28:55and they show there's nothing wrong,

0:28:55 > 0:29:01surely an MRI is just going to put your patient through unnecessary stress.

0:29:03 > 0:29:06Tell Mr Sharma there's been some mistake

0:29:06 > 0:29:08and you don't need to run the test after all.

0:29:08 > 0:29:10I can't send him home.

0:29:10 > 0:29:13- Why not?- I'm his doctor. I have to find out what's wrong with him.

0:29:13 > 0:29:17- I have to find...- Find what? Oliver, what exactly are you looking for?

0:29:19 > 0:29:20I don't know.

0:29:26 > 0:29:29So, you came here to surprise Elizabeth on her birthday?

0:29:29 > 0:29:32That's right, Mr Griffin, but she don't want to see me.

0:29:32 > 0:29:37- I'm sure that's not true. - Yes, it is. She hates me.

0:29:37 > 0:29:39My baby girl breaking my heart.

0:29:39 > 0:29:41You have any medicine for that, Doctor?

0:29:45 > 0:29:48I think maybe she'd be happy if I die, just like her grandmother.

0:29:52 > 0:29:55- It's a nasty cut. - Had to get the dirt out.

0:29:55 > 0:29:56- Had to get it clean.- Sorry?

0:29:56 > 0:29:59You have to get the badness out or it never leaves.

0:29:59 > 0:30:04You have to get it out of me, Mr Griffin. You have to cut it out.

0:30:04 > 0:30:07'Has your mother ever had a psych evaluation?'

0:30:11 > 0:30:14Elizabeth, there are people who can help you, who want to help.

0:30:14 > 0:30:16But you have to ask for it.

0:30:16 > 0:30:19Thank you, Mr Griffin. I'll see you tomorrow.

0:30:22 > 0:30:26So even though you knew Mr Levy wanted the patient discharged,

0:30:26 > 0:30:30- you still followed Dr Valentine like a lovesick puppy?- No!

0:30:30 > 0:30:34I tried to talk to him, but...he's a doctor.

0:30:34 > 0:30:38No, Chantelle, he's not, OK? He's an F2.

0:30:38 > 0:30:42If you want to last more than ten minutes, you really need to learn the difference.

0:30:42 > 0:30:43OK?

0:30:45 > 0:30:49You know, it's one thing treating me like a chump -

0:30:49 > 0:30:51I'm old enough and ugly enough to take it -

0:30:51 > 0:30:54but this was Chantelle's first day here.

0:30:54 > 0:30:56You had absolutely no right to drag her into your mess.

0:30:58 > 0:31:00We need to free up bed four.

0:31:00 > 0:31:02Mr Sharma.

0:31:03 > 0:31:06- Send him home. - What do you want me to tell him?

0:31:06 > 0:31:10Tell him I couldn't find anything wrong with him.

0:31:34 > 0:31:37Good afternoon, ladies.

0:31:37 > 0:31:38Where are we off to, then?

0:31:38 > 0:31:41- Home.- Farmead. - Home - glad to hear it.

0:31:41 > 0:31:44And you're going to let your daughter take good care of you now?

0:31:44 > 0:31:46Give you some TLC?

0:31:51 > 0:31:55I'm not being funny, old boy, but I said call if there was an emergency,

0:31:55 > 0:31:57not when you have a tough day at work.

0:31:57 > 0:31:58You're not listening.

0:31:58 > 0:32:01This guy collapsed at the wheel, I discharged him.

0:32:01 > 0:32:03- We've all made mistakes. - He could've died,

0:32:03 > 0:32:06he could've killed any number of people, and I couldn't help him.

0:32:06 > 0:32:09- Maybe I shouldn't be a doctor. - To be completely honest,

0:32:09 > 0:32:14I could never figure out why you wanted to go to medical school. Your sister, it made sense.

0:32:14 > 0:32:17She was always trying to save things as a child,

0:32:17 > 0:32:21rescuing birds and putting bandages on teddy bears, but you...

0:32:21 > 0:32:25You could've got yourself a proper job.

0:32:25 > 0:32:27What do you earn?

0:32:27 > 0:32:2925?

0:32:29 > 0:32:3130?

0:32:31 > 0:32:34Right. I am going to write you a cheque for £10,000.

0:32:34 > 0:32:37You can do whatever you like with it.

0:32:37 > 0:32:40Go travelling, sit on your arse, spend it on booze or birds

0:32:40 > 0:32:42or swimming with dolphins.

0:32:42 > 0:32:45Just use it to figure out what you're going to do with your life.

0:32:45 > 0:32:49Stop wasting everyone's time trying to be like your sister.

0:32:49 > 0:32:54You've got far more potential than she ever had. Don't throw it away.

0:33:05 > 0:33:07KNOCK ON DOOR

0:33:07 > 0:33:09What do you want, Ollie?

0:33:09 > 0:33:10Can I come in?

0:33:16 > 0:33:18Sorry.

0:33:20 > 0:33:24You sneak out of my room without even leaving a note.

0:33:24 > 0:33:27Just a cheque on the table, like I'm some sort of cheap hooker.

0:33:27 > 0:33:31- No... No! I didn't mean that at all. - Then I don't hear from you for days,

0:33:31 > 0:33:36until you turn up out of the blue, expecting what, exactly?

0:33:36 > 0:33:38Meaningless sex? Sympathy?

0:33:38 > 0:33:40I just want to talk.

0:33:40 > 0:33:43Go on, then. Talk. I'm listening.

0:33:43 > 0:33:45OK.

0:33:45 > 0:33:47Well, I screwed up again today.

0:33:47 > 0:33:51From what I gather, all you ever do is screw up.

0:33:51 > 0:33:54Only that Penny's not here to take the blame for you, is she?

0:33:54 > 0:33:58I was with her on holiday when she wrote you that postcard.

0:33:58 > 0:34:00I told myself not to judge you

0:34:00 > 0:34:02because I though you deserved a fair hearing.

0:34:02 > 0:34:04And just for a minute

0:34:04 > 0:34:08I thought that you were more than just a spoilt little rich kid.

0:34:08 > 0:34:13But I was wrong. You just take and you take and you take.

0:34:13 > 0:34:16Your dad pays your rent for you, your sister passed your exams for you.

0:34:16 > 0:34:18You think that everybody's there to be used.

0:34:18 > 0:34:21You might have used Penny, but you're not going to use me.

0:34:21 > 0:34:25I don't want your money any more, and I don't want you coming around here.

0:34:27 > 0:34:28Do you know what I wonder?

0:34:30 > 0:34:34I wonder how a doctor who has lied

0:34:34 > 0:34:37and screwed up as much as you have still has a job.

0:34:52 > 0:34:54MOBILE BEEPS

0:35:04 > 0:35:05Look at you!

0:35:05 > 0:35:08The manager said if she failed to turn up again, he'd sack her.

0:35:08 > 0:35:10- She needs this job.- Bless you.

0:35:10 > 0:35:13It's just one shift. Till she's better.

0:35:13 > 0:35:16It's more than that.

0:35:16 > 0:35:19She turned up at the hospital today.

0:35:19 > 0:35:24- Yes, I heard.- Mr Griffin, my boss, he thinks she needs help.

0:35:24 > 0:35:28Your mother sees the world differently to the rest of us.

0:35:28 > 0:35:32What she needs is our love and compassion,

0:35:32 > 0:35:34not labels, tests and drugs.

0:35:34 > 0:35:37She's your mother. You must do what you think best.

0:35:37 > 0:35:41I just want to live my own life. I want her to live her own life.

0:35:41 > 0:35:44You know, God has already forgiven you.

0:35:44 > 0:35:47And in time, you'll forgive yourself.

0:35:47 > 0:35:49I did what I had to do.

0:35:49 > 0:35:52You were kinder to me than they ever were.

0:35:52 > 0:35:55You're the one who bought me books and helped me with my homework,

0:35:55 > 0:35:57made me feel like I was worth something.

0:35:57 > 0:35:59Your mother did the best she could.

0:35:59 > 0:36:01You don't know what it was like.

0:36:01 > 0:36:04I know that she and your grandmother were sometimes strict.

0:36:04 > 0:36:06I know it can't always have been easy.

0:36:06 > 0:36:08Strict?

0:36:08 > 0:36:11Your mother loves you. She always has.

0:36:11 > 0:36:14I don't think she knows what love is.

0:36:14 > 0:36:18"And then Peter came to Jesus and he asked,

0:36:18 > 0:36:22"'Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother or sister

0:36:22 > 0:36:26"'who sins against me? Up to seven times?'

0:36:27 > 0:36:31"And Jesus answered, 'I tell you...

0:36:31 > 0:36:34"'not seven times,

0:36:34 > 0:36:36"'but 70 times seven.'"

0:37:19 > 0:37:21What you doing?

0:37:21 > 0:37:24- What you doing?- I was just...

0:37:24 > 0:37:27Those are my things! Those are not your things!

0:37:27 > 0:37:29You got no right to try robbing my things!

0:37:29 > 0:37:31- I'm not.- Don't lie to me!

0:37:31 > 0:37:34You just want to rob me, you just want to thief me and run away again!

0:37:34 > 0:37:39- No...- Ungrateful child! You got the devil in you, the demons!- No!

0:37:39 > 0:37:40You're a bad girl!

0:37:41 > 0:37:43No!

0:37:43 > 0:37:46Oh...

0:37:46 > 0:37:47Baby girl...

0:37:47 > 0:37:50I'm not your baby girl.

0:37:50 > 0:37:51Not any more.

0:38:05 > 0:38:08BEEPING

0:38:11 > 0:38:13Elizabeth! Elizabeth! Nurse Tait!

0:38:17 > 0:38:19Respirations have stopped.

0:38:19 > 0:38:22Her pulse is very slow. I want a monitor and Naloxalone.

0:38:22 > 0:38:24Now. Come on, quickly, now!

0:38:36 > 0:38:39Since you started here, there've been a lot of redundancies.

0:38:39 > 0:38:41You'd like to know how you dodged the axe?

0:38:41 > 0:38:43My track record isn't great, I know.

0:38:43 > 0:38:46Well, I'll do you the courtesy of being entirely honest with you.

0:38:46 > 0:38:48The inquest didn't hold this hospital responsible

0:38:48 > 0:38:49for your sister's death,

0:38:49 > 0:38:52but it certainly didn't make us look good.

0:38:52 > 0:38:54Now, if in the direct aftermath of an F2's death

0:38:54 > 0:38:58we'd fired that F2's brother, how would that have played?

0:38:58 > 0:39:00Not to mention, in fact, that you would have had

0:39:00 > 0:39:02a very strong case

0:39:02 > 0:39:05for a potentially extortionate unfair dismissal claim.

0:39:05 > 0:39:08So, hideous though the irony may be,

0:39:08 > 0:39:11her death granted you a kind of reprieve.

0:39:42 > 0:39:45"Dear Mr Hanssen,

0:39:45 > 0:39:48"I am writing to tell you that you were only half right.

0:39:48 > 0:39:52"The reason I'm still here IS because of my sister.

0:39:52 > 0:39:55"But the truth is, I'm a liar and a cheat,

0:39:55 > 0:39:58"and I have no right to call myself a doctor."

0:40:11 > 0:40:12Elizabeth?

0:40:17 > 0:40:19That was your mother.

0:40:19 > 0:40:20She called the ward?

0:40:20 > 0:40:22The switchboard put her through.

0:40:22 > 0:40:25Apparently she's called 15 times already this morning.

0:40:25 > 0:40:28She's fine, she's fine.

0:40:28 > 0:40:34She wanted to let you know that the CIA have bugged her flat

0:40:34 > 0:40:38and they want to drill a hole in her head to take out all the secrets.

0:40:38 > 0:40:40She says these things.

0:40:43 > 0:40:46Look, I've got a colleague on the psychiatric ward.

0:40:46 > 0:40:48Doctor O'Neill, he's a friend.

0:40:48 > 0:40:50- This is my private life. - Unofficially...

0:40:50 > 0:40:52It's none of your business.

0:40:52 > 0:40:54When one of my nurses falls asleep on the ward,

0:40:54 > 0:40:56it becomes my business.

0:40:56 > 0:40:58- Your mother needs help. - I'm helping her.

0:40:58 > 0:41:01- Professional help. - You don't know her.

0:41:01 > 0:41:02Elizabeth...

0:41:11 > 0:41:13You don't understand.

0:41:13 > 0:41:16She sees the world differently from you and me.

0:41:16 > 0:41:18She doesn't need medicine, she needs compassion.

0:41:20 > 0:41:22According to who?

0:41:22 > 0:41:26I've known Simone for many years. And you're right.

0:41:26 > 0:41:28At times she is a troubled soul.

0:41:28 > 0:41:30She's mentally ill.

0:41:30 > 0:41:33I think you and I would differ on our definitions of ill.

0:41:34 > 0:41:37Pastor, with respect, I've been a doctor for 30 years.

0:41:37 > 0:41:40And with respect, I have been a pastor for 30 years.

0:41:40 > 0:41:44And in that time I've seen countless people

0:41:44 > 0:41:49that the doctors have given up on healed by faith alone.

0:41:49 > 0:41:55Especially people suffering from an illness of the spirit.

0:41:55 > 0:42:00Simone needs professional psychiatric help and no amount of praying...

0:42:00 > 0:42:01You're not a man of faith?

0:42:01 > 0:42:06Well, I'm not here to discuss my beliefs. I'm here because one of my nurses...

0:42:06 > 0:42:10Elizabeth is an adult now. She's capable of making her own decisions.

0:42:10 > 0:42:13She WAS capable of making her own decisions.

0:42:13 > 0:42:18- Until you filled her head with all these notions that she is somehow responsible...- She IS responsible.

0:42:18 > 0:42:23- How?- The fifth commandment - "Honour your father and your mother."

0:42:26 > 0:42:29- You're not serious?- I don't see what could be more serious than the word of God.

0:42:32 > 0:42:37Then maybe you should consider the ninth commandment.

0:42:39 > 0:42:41I'm not aware of having borne false witness.

0:42:41 > 0:42:43You've known Elizabeth how long?

0:42:43 > 0:42:46Since she was a baby.

0:42:46 > 0:42:49- I baptised her.- So when you saw her sitting there week after week,

0:42:49 > 0:42:53listening to your Sunday sermons, you're telling me you had no idea

0:42:53 > 0:42:59that her mother and her grandmother were colluding in what amounted to systematic child abuse?

0:42:59 > 0:43:01Now, just you hold on a moment...

0:43:01 > 0:43:05You didn't know that Simone would routinely try to beat the devil

0:43:05 > 0:43:09out of her with a leather belt while Ida stood by and watched?

0:43:09 > 0:43:12Now you tell me, which part of the Bible sanctions that?

0:43:14 > 0:43:15I didn't know.

0:43:17 > 0:43:20I swear. I had no idea.

0:43:33 > 0:43:35Oh, Chantelle.

0:43:35 > 0:43:41Three things. First of all, I treated you very badly the other day and there's no excuse for that.

0:43:41 > 0:43:45- You're going to make a great nurse. - Do you really think so?

0:43:45 > 0:43:47Secondly...

0:43:49 > 0:43:53- ..can you see this gets to Mr Hanssen?- Sure.

0:43:54 > 0:43:57Dr Valentine? Oliver?

0:43:59 > 0:44:02- What was number three? You said there were three things. - Oh, yeah.

0:44:04 > 0:44:05Goodbye.

0:44:07 > 0:44:08What?

0:44:09 > 0:44:14Dr Valentine! The paramedics called. The patient you discharged last week, Mr Sharma.

0:44:14 > 0:44:16- What about him? - He's been involved in a RTA.

0:44:16 > 0:44:21- They want to know what tests we ran on him and what the results were. - Uh, where?

0:44:21 > 0:44:22- What?- The crash, where is it?

0:44:37 > 0:44:40Hey! Hey! You a doctor?

0:44:40 > 0:44:41Are you a doctor?

0:44:41 > 0:44:44Are you a doctor?!

0:44:44 > 0:44:47You can't get any closer. They have to make it safe.

0:44:50 > 0:44:51I need your bag...now.

0:45:02 > 0:45:06You need to let me help you. We have to get you out of here, OK?

0:45:06 > 0:45:09I'm sorry, I should never have let you leave.

0:45:09 > 0:45:11Dr Valentine, I presume?

0:45:11 > 0:45:15It's not safe. You need to get back, please.

0:45:15 > 0:45:19Lakshmi, that was also my wife's name.

0:45:19 > 0:45:23I'm not scared, you know? I'll see my wife in the next life.

0:45:23 > 0:45:25No, I am not going to lose you.

0:45:42 > 0:45:47- Simone, it's Pastor Carl. - Who's that with you?

0:45:47 > 0:45:49You know Mr Griffin. He works with Elizabeth.

0:45:49 > 0:45:52What's he doing here?

0:45:52 > 0:45:54I've come with a friend from the hospital.

0:45:54 > 0:45:56This is Doctor O'Neill.

0:45:56 > 0:46:00- What kind of doctor is he? - We work together. He's a...

0:46:00 > 0:46:02he's a psychiatrist.

0:46:02 > 0:46:05I'm not letting him in. He's an evil man.

0:46:05 > 0:46:09He wants to lock me up and drill holes in my head.

0:46:09 > 0:46:11Who told you I was mad? Elizabeth?

0:46:11 > 0:46:13She just wants us to help you.

0:46:15 > 0:46:16Simone!

0:46:17 > 0:46:18Simone!

0:46:21 > 0:46:22PHONE RINGS

0:46:24 > 0:46:25Keller.

0:46:26 > 0:46:28Just one moment, please.

0:46:28 > 0:46:31Ah, Elizabeth, it's your mum.

0:46:31 > 0:46:32She says it's urgent.

0:46:36 > 0:46:38It isn't.

0:46:39 > 0:46:41# At the edge of the future

0:46:43 > 0:46:47# And my dreams all fade away

0:46:48 > 0:46:51# I have burned my tomorrows

0:46:53 > 0:46:56# And I stand inside today

0:46:58 > 0:47:01# At the edge of the future

0:47:03 > 0:47:06# And my dreams all fade away... #

0:47:09 > 0:47:11SIREN WAILS

0:47:22 > 0:47:24Hurry up! We haven't got much more time!

0:47:31 > 0:47:35# And burn my shadow away

0:47:41 > 0:47:45# And burn my shadow away

0:47:49 > 0:47:51# Fate's my destroyer

0:47:53 > 0:47:56# I was ambushed by the light

0:47:58 > 0:48:00# And you judged me once for falling

0:48:03 > 0:48:06# This wounded heart will rise

0:48:10 > 0:48:14# And burn my shadow away

0:48:21 > 0:48:22# And burn my shadow... #

0:48:22 > 0:48:25No, no Elizabeth! Stand back. No!

0:48:33 > 0:48:35FLATLINE TONE

0:48:35 > 0:48:38OK, I need adrenaline!

0:49:08 > 0:49:10Elizabeth... Elizabeth...

0:49:10 > 0:49:12Get away from me! Get away!

0:49:12 > 0:49:14You did this! This is your fault.

0:49:14 > 0:49:17- Elizabeth...- We need to go to St James's, not Holby.

0:49:22 > 0:49:26Oliver, I owe you an apology.

0:49:26 > 0:49:28I should've let you run the MRI scan.

0:49:28 > 0:49:32It seems like an underlying mitral valve prolapse has led to dilated cardiomyopathy.

0:49:32 > 0:49:35Has he been under a lot of stress lately?

0:49:35 > 0:49:37- His wife just died. - That would certainly...

0:49:37 > 0:49:39Will he need a new heart?

0:49:39 > 0:49:41I'm hoping the annulplasty will do the trick.

0:49:41 > 0:49:45The heart's a much more resilient muscle than people realise.

0:49:45 > 0:49:47You saved this man's life.

0:49:47 > 0:49:49Don't you want to finish the job?

0:49:49 > 0:49:51I can't.

0:49:52 > 0:49:53See you around, Mr Hope.

0:49:59 > 0:50:03So if you're not going travelling, what ARE you going to do?

0:50:03 > 0:50:05No idea yet.

0:50:05 > 0:50:07In that case, why give up this place?

0:50:07 > 0:50:10- I can't afford it.- Don't be ridiculous! I pay the rent.

0:50:10 > 0:50:12Not any more.

0:50:12 > 0:50:13I wanted to give you this back too.

0:50:15 > 0:50:19You could have just stuck it in the post or torn it up.

0:50:19 > 0:50:20I know.

0:50:22 > 0:50:25- Am I missing something here, Ol? - Yes, I think you are.

0:50:25 > 0:50:30I've been thinking about what you said about Penny, about how I have more potential than she ever had.

0:50:30 > 0:50:35- You do.- You see, I don't know how you can say that, because I don't think you ever really knew Penny.

0:50:35 > 0:50:39That isn't entirely fair. She was my daughter.

0:50:42 > 0:50:47I've spent my whole life trying to live up to you, to be everything you wanted me to be.

0:50:49 > 0:50:51The thing is...

0:50:51 > 0:50:56I'm not the golden boy. Penny was twice the person I am, but you never gave her a chance.

0:50:56 > 0:50:59She didn't exactly give me a chance either, did she?

0:50:59 > 0:51:02You think it didn't hurt when she rejected me?

0:51:02 > 0:51:05She didn't reject you. She rejected your money.

0:51:05 > 0:51:07What's the difference?

0:51:10 > 0:51:12It's easy to write a cheque...

0:51:13 > 0:51:19..but giving yourself, really... giving yourself, that's hard.

0:51:19 > 0:51:21Penny knew that.

0:51:24 > 0:51:28So you're just going to disappear now, is that it? Cut off all contact?

0:51:28 > 0:51:30No, of course not.

0:51:31 > 0:51:33You can always call me,

0:51:33 > 0:51:35if it's an emergency.

0:51:37 > 0:51:39You've got my number.

0:51:47 > 0:51:48Still no Elizabeth?

0:51:48 > 0:51:50No, sorry.

0:51:59 > 0:52:01Hello, Elizabeth?

0:52:03 > 0:52:04CONTINUOUS TONE

0:52:10 > 0:52:13Right, I think that's everything.

0:52:17 > 0:52:19Well, there's only one thing.

0:52:19 > 0:52:25- If you're going to be living here, there's a few house rules.- Hit me.

0:52:25 > 0:52:27If you cook, you then have to wash up,

0:52:27 > 0:52:30absolutely no talking when Grey's Anatomy's on

0:52:30 > 0:52:34and we have a strict no shagging between housemates policy.

0:52:35 > 0:52:39- Well, I guess we'll have to be friends, then.- Friends.

0:52:42 > 0:52:44Welcome to the slum, Golden Boy.

0:52:57 > 0:52:58PHONE RINGS

0:53:02 > 0:53:03Hello?

0:53:05 > 0:53:06Mr Hanssen.

0:53:06 > 0:53:11When I was 16, I had an extremely important mathematics examination.

0:53:11 > 0:53:13Well, it was very important at the time.

0:53:13 > 0:53:16Trigonometry. On the morning of the exam,

0:53:16 > 0:53:20I happened to open a newspaper and I was surprised to learn on page two

0:53:20 > 0:53:25that the previous day my father had died - suddenly, shockingly.

0:53:26 > 0:53:29That was the first and last time I failed anything.

0:53:29 > 0:53:33My father's death was regrettable, obviously, but what really grated

0:53:33 > 0:53:36was I was denied the chance to re-sit.

0:53:38 > 0:53:42That blemish remains on my academic record to this day.

0:53:42 > 0:53:48- Mr Hanssen?- A final year medical student who fails one OSCE fails the whole year.

0:53:48 > 0:53:52- Seems a tad brutal, doesn't it?- Not when you consider what's at stake.

0:53:52 > 0:53:54Well, there is that, I suppose.

0:53:54 > 0:53:57Nevertheless, let's imagine for one moment

0:53:57 > 0:54:00a young trainee doctor who cheats in one practical assessment.

0:54:00 > 0:54:06Let's say, for the sake of argument, the PLAB OSCE two station on venous cannula puncture.

0:54:06 > 0:54:12Now, this doctor we're talking about is an extremely talented and very promising young doctor.

0:54:12 > 0:54:14Top drawer grades pretty much across the board.

0:54:14 > 0:54:17But he has one fatal flaw.

0:54:17 > 0:54:22A fear of failure so crippling that he'll do almost anything to avoid it.

0:54:22 > 0:54:23Why would that be?

0:54:25 > 0:54:27Maybe he doesn't want to let people down.

0:54:27 > 0:54:33Granted. But the doctor we're talking about has only ever made one serious medical error

0:54:33 > 0:54:36in his entire career to date. He left a swab in a patient.

0:54:36 > 0:54:42That's a mistake more experienced doctors have made, and it's not a mistake anyone makes twice.

0:54:42 > 0:54:45For what it's worth, this doctor, he regrets all of it, every lie.

0:54:45 > 0:54:48He wishes he could start again,

0:54:48 > 0:54:51do everything differently this time.

0:54:55 > 0:54:58One of the cardiac patients came to see me today. Mr Sharma.

0:54:58 > 0:55:01Rather garrulous individual. Ring any bells?

0:55:01 > 0:55:05Anyway, he tells me that you insisted on running

0:55:05 > 0:55:10test after test after test on him because you were determined to get to the bottom of his condition.

0:55:10 > 0:55:15That meant that you ignored the opinions of a senior nurse, a registrar and a senior consultant.

0:55:15 > 0:55:18- Yes.- And not only was your hunch proven correct

0:55:18 > 0:55:22but you then performed an incredibly intricate venous cannula puncture

0:55:22 > 0:55:24in the back of a moving ambulance, saving his life.

0:55:24 > 0:55:26- I was lucky. - Well, that's not what he thinks.

0:55:26 > 0:55:30He thinks you're the best doctor this hospital has.

0:55:30 > 0:55:33He thinks I'd be insane to lose you.

0:55:36 > 0:55:38He asked me to give you this.

0:55:41 > 0:55:45He wants you to have it. Something to do with karma, apparently.

0:55:53 > 0:55:55So, Mr Hanssen, about my letter.

0:55:57 > 0:55:59What letter would that be?

0:56:05 > 0:56:06Why did you ask me to come here?

0:56:08 > 0:56:11Evidently it's exactly ten weeks since your sister died

0:56:11 > 0:56:16and I have to fill in your ten-week post-traumatic MOT for HR.

0:56:16 > 0:56:18They do like us to jump through these hoops.

0:56:18 > 0:56:22They'll want to know whether or not you've sufficiently recovered

0:56:22 > 0:56:25your emotional equilibrium to resume full duties.

0:56:25 > 0:56:27What shall we tell them?

0:56:32 > 0:56:35Are you ready to start again, Dr Valentine?

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