0:00:40 > 0:00:41Well done.
0:00:41 > 0:00:44'One close colleague on Darwin'
0:00:44 > 0:00:47who persuaded me that she was an essential asset.
0:00:47 > 0:00:50Mr Douglas was particularly insistent I remember.
0:00:50 > 0:00:53- All right, sis?- He's done a runner from his YRO.- YRO?
0:00:53 > 0:00:55Yeah, it's like a community sentence thing.
0:00:55 > 0:00:58Unless of course you'll be willing to let me mentor him.
0:00:58 > 0:01:00I thought I would team you two up.
0:01:00 > 0:01:03Sometimes you just have to listen to the patient.
0:01:03 > 0:01:04'I make the calls here, not you.'
0:01:08 > 0:01:11Hey, she's just a little bit upset.
0:01:11 > 0:01:14This is your fault...ALL of it!
0:01:16 > 0:01:18SHE BREATHES DEEPLY
0:01:56 > 0:01:57Greg.
0:01:57 > 0:01:59Have you seen Sahira?
0:01:59 > 0:02:02I need her report on Anthony Camacho, the kid with the gun.
0:02:02 > 0:02:04He's dead.
0:02:04 > 0:02:07Yeah. So I need incident reports from you, from Rafi and Sahira.
0:02:07 > 0:02:10Have to wait, I'm afraid. Been sent home.
0:02:10 > 0:02:12- Who's been sent home?- All of us.
0:02:25 > 0:02:27You came back.
0:02:27 > 0:02:29I was wondering where you got to.
0:02:29 > 0:02:30Needed some time to think.
0:02:30 > 0:02:31I bet you did.
0:02:31 > 0:02:36- Are you at least going to let me try and explain?- No.
0:02:36 > 0:02:38I don't think I am. Not just yet.
0:02:38 > 0:02:43YOU are not the only one who needs time to think.
0:02:43 > 0:02:44We can't leave it like this.
0:02:45 > 0:02:49- Where does it leave us?- Right now, I'm not sure there is an "us".
0:02:53 > 0:02:56- Does it hurt?- My dignity more than anything else.
0:02:58 > 0:02:59I'm sorry.
0:02:59 > 0:03:03I'm not. If I was in Rafi's position I'd probably have done the same.
0:03:03 > 0:03:05You OK?
0:03:05 > 0:03:07Not really.
0:03:07 > 0:03:10- You lost patients... - It's more than that today.
0:03:10 > 0:03:13Rafi can barely look at me, let alone talk.
0:03:13 > 0:03:16- He's just angry. He just needs time...- He wants to leave me.
0:03:19 > 0:03:20I don't know what to do.
0:03:23 > 0:03:25What do you want?
0:03:28 > 0:03:30I...
0:03:30 > 0:03:32PAGERS BEEPING
0:03:39 > 0:03:43Ms Shah, Mr Douglas. Good, I'll get right to the point.
0:03:43 > 0:03:44There's been an incident at a warehouse
0:03:44 > 0:03:46on the Longhurst industrial Estate.
0:03:46 > 0:03:49Multiple casualties, they're on their way here.
0:03:49 > 0:03:50Do you need us?
0:03:50 > 0:03:52Everyone's needed. All wards will be placed on alert.
0:03:52 > 0:03:55- You and I have incoming in five minutes.- What about me?
0:03:55 > 0:03:57A man has been trapped under fallen debris.
0:03:57 > 0:03:59The emergency services can't move him at the moment.
0:03:59 > 0:04:02We need a Mobile CTU team there straight away.
0:04:02 > 0:04:04- Well, I'll need an anaesthetist. - You've got one.
0:04:04 > 0:04:05Rafi, are you sure?
0:04:05 > 0:04:09- CTU mobile is a specialist area... - I am a specialist, remember?
0:04:09 > 0:04:12That's what Consultant means. I guess you'll just have to trust me.
0:04:21 > 0:04:24- It was open.- Make yourself at home.
0:04:24 > 0:04:28- Eddi'll be finished soon, I wanted some privacy. I didn't think you'd mind.- What's all this?
0:04:28 > 0:04:29Prep.
0:04:29 > 0:04:32Got a meeting with my youth offending team officer tomorrow.
0:04:32 > 0:04:34- Not in trouble are you? - The opposite.
0:04:34 > 0:04:38- I'm applying for early release from my YRO.- Feeling rehabilitated?
0:04:38 > 0:04:39Trapped more like.
0:04:39 > 0:04:41Actually, it's mostly down to you.
0:04:41 > 0:04:45Having this job, having a mentor, that kind of thing goes down really well.
0:04:45 > 0:04:48So I was wondering, would you come along?
0:04:48 > 0:04:51- To what?- The meeting. You don't have to do anything.
0:04:51 > 0:04:53Apart from tell them what a fully rehabilitated...
0:04:53 > 0:04:55- PAGER BEEPING - ..and responsible member of the community I am.
0:04:55 > 0:04:58- When is it?- Tomorrow, 12 o'clock.
0:04:58 > 0:04:59So?
0:04:59 > 0:05:01Sure.
0:05:01 > 0:05:03- Really?- Yeah, course, why wouldn't I?
0:05:03 > 0:05:05I don't think Eddi will be home any time soon.
0:05:05 > 0:05:07- What is it?- All ward alert.
0:05:07 > 0:05:09- Duty calls.- See you tomorrow.
0:05:11 > 0:05:14MULTIPLE SIRENS WAILING
0:05:30 > 0:05:32- Where are we going? - 'Just through this way.'
0:05:32 > 0:05:34Through this way.
0:05:38 > 0:05:40- Straight up?- Yes.
0:05:40 > 0:05:43Guys, hold off until we make the scene safe, OK?
0:05:49 > 0:05:52- Mr Marsh?- Lucas. It's Lucas.
0:05:52 > 0:05:53METAL CREAKING
0:05:53 > 0:05:57I'm Sahira Shah, trauma surgeon. To my right is Dr Rafi Raza.
0:05:57 > 0:06:02- Can you tell us what happened? - I don't really remember. Stuff falling...
0:06:02 > 0:06:04- Where's Caitlin?- Who's Caitlin?
0:06:04 > 0:06:06That's my wife.
0:06:06 > 0:06:07I told them I wanted to see my wife.
0:06:07 > 0:06:10Someone will let her know what's going on.
0:06:10 > 0:06:12First we need to let you know what the situation is.
0:06:12 > 0:06:15I know what the situation is, I'm dying.
0:06:16 > 0:06:18I want to see my wife.
0:06:18 > 0:06:22- Say goodbye.- Well, you can tell her yourself back at the hospital.
0:06:22 > 0:06:23GCS is dropping.
0:06:23 > 0:06:24We need to get him out.
0:06:24 > 0:06:27How? Can't get in to put a collar on, let alone a spinal board.
0:06:27 > 0:06:31Someone needs to go in to support his head and neck. Not until this wreckage is been moved.
0:06:31 > 0:06:32CREAKING METAL
0:06:40 > 0:06:41- SHOUTS:- Quickly guys!
0:06:42 > 0:06:45What are you doing?!
0:06:45 > 0:06:48- We have to wait, it's not safe! We have to wait...- We don't have time!
0:06:48 > 0:06:51- He's going into shock. He could stop breathing.- You don't know that!
0:06:51 > 0:06:53Sahira!
0:06:58 > 0:06:59Exciting, isn't it?
0:06:59 > 0:07:02I can hardly contain myself.
0:07:02 > 0:07:04An all ward Clinical Incident alert.
0:07:04 > 0:07:06Not knowing what might come through the door.
0:07:06 > 0:07:08Yeah, people are hurt, dying - exciting stuff(!)
0:07:10 > 0:07:12Is this a Clinical Incident patient?
0:07:12 > 0:07:16The only incident Mr Oakshot's had is currently running down his leg.
0:07:16 > 0:07:18- Bed two's free.- Transfer from ED.
0:07:18 > 0:07:20Raised temperature, slight pain in his abdomen
0:07:20 > 0:07:22and passed a little blood in his stool this morning.
0:07:22 > 0:07:25Let's prep for a gastroscopy, just to be on the safe side.
0:07:25 > 0:07:26Gastroscopy? Can I assist?
0:07:29 > 0:07:31Yeah, OK.
0:07:31 > 0:07:32Follow me.
0:07:36 > 0:07:39When I said "assist" this isn't exactly what I had in mind.
0:07:39 > 0:07:41You'll get your chance.
0:07:41 > 0:07:45Mr Oakshot, I just need you to lie down for us.
0:07:45 > 0:07:47- Call Mr Malick!- Mr Malick!
0:07:49 > 0:07:51OK, Mr Oakshot.
0:07:53 > 0:07:55- Talk to me, what going on? - He vomited blood.
0:07:55 > 0:07:59- BP 90/40.- He's Hypotensive, bleeding internally.
0:07:59 > 0:08:01- He's hypovolemic.- OK, Get bloods. Push them through.
0:08:01 > 0:08:03A varix must have blown.
0:08:03 > 0:08:06Sengstaken tube, right now, please.
0:08:06 > 0:08:08- His pulse has stopped. - Starting compressions.
0:08:08 > 0:08:10Call the crash team.
0:08:10 > 0:08:14- Up on red, up on black. - Up on red, up on black.
0:08:14 > 0:08:17Left on red...down on red.
0:08:17 > 0:08:20Mr Marsh, we're going to move you.
0:08:20 > 0:08:21CREAKING
0:08:22 > 0:08:24OK, Mr Marsh? Lucas?!
0:08:25 > 0:08:27He's not breathing! Let's get him out of here now!
0:08:29 > 0:08:34One...two...three...move. One...two...three...move.
0:08:35 > 0:08:38One...two...three...roll.
0:08:38 > 0:08:41Down...lift.
0:08:41 > 0:08:44Let's get him on the trolley. He's still not breathing.
0:08:44 > 0:08:45I'm on it!
0:08:48 > 0:08:50Why aren't you intubating?
0:08:50 > 0:08:53You went through that to protect his C-Spine to have me shove a tube down his neck?
0:08:53 > 0:08:55Cricothyroid.
0:08:55 > 0:08:57RUSHING GAS
0:09:10 > 0:09:11Still nothing.
0:09:11 > 0:09:16- Come on, come ON. - Breathing, let's go, let's go.
0:09:20 > 0:09:22Er, bed three.
0:09:23 > 0:09:26- Good evening, Mr...- Zimmerman. Andrew Zimmerman.
0:09:26 > 0:09:31- Like it says on his name board in big letters.- I'm Mr Hemingway, what seems to be the problem?
0:09:31 > 0:09:32There was an accident.
0:09:32 > 0:09:35A load of metal units and wood pallets come crashing down, pretty much on top of me.
0:09:35 > 0:09:37You got off lightly, then.
0:09:37 > 0:09:40- Did the Paramedics let your wife know?- My wife? Not that I know of.
0:09:40 > 0:09:43- I can call her if you like. - It would only worry her.
0:09:43 > 0:09:47You do have some deep splinters. Shouldn't be difficult to remove but it will be painful.
0:09:47 > 0:09:51We'll give you a local anaesthetic and some morphine. 10 milligrams.
0:09:51 > 0:09:52No. No morphine.
0:09:52 > 0:09:54- Allergic?- Yeah, something like that.
0:09:54 > 0:09:56- Doesn't say that in your notes. - Then the notes are out of date.
0:09:56 > 0:09:59Paracetamol and Ibuprofen will be just fine.
0:09:59 > 0:10:02Trust me, you'll need something stronger than that.
0:10:02 > 0:10:03Like I said, that'll be just fine.
0:10:07 > 0:10:09One...two...three...breathe.
0:10:14 > 0:10:16I'm calling it.
0:10:16 > 0:10:18Time of death...
0:10:18 > 0:10:20- No, we have to keep going.- Dr Lo?
0:10:20 > 0:10:23- What do you think you're doing? - We have to keep trying.
0:10:23 > 0:10:24There's no point. He's dead.
0:10:24 > 0:10:27- Time of death?- 23.25.
0:10:44 > 0:10:46'BP 90/65,'
0:10:46 > 0:10:49pulse 100, sats 96, C-Spine, chest and pelvis X-ray.
0:10:50 > 0:10:52- We will also we need to do a head and chest CT.- Got it.
0:10:52 > 0:10:56- You couldn't intubate him?- GCS dropped from 11 to 6, initially 14.
0:10:56 > 0:10:59- Breathing stopped so Rafi... - Performed a Cricothyroidotomy.
0:10:59 > 0:11:02That's nifty, well done. Right, I'll take over from here.
0:11:02 > 0:11:04Take a rest, Wonder Woman. Eat a cupcake.
0:11:04 > 0:11:05I'll see you upstairs.
0:11:05 > 0:11:09"Nifty"? High praise indeed from Jac.
0:11:09 > 0:11:11White coffee, please.
0:11:11 > 0:11:12I'll go home. Let Magda get off.
0:11:14 > 0:11:15You're going?
0:11:15 > 0:11:17Somebody has to.
0:11:17 > 0:11:18What's that supposed to mean?
0:11:18 > 0:11:21Just what I said. One of us has to go home to our kids.
0:11:21 > 0:11:24- Implying that I don't want to? - I don't know.
0:11:24 > 0:11:27What was that back there, Sahi? You got a death wish?
0:11:27 > 0:11:29I was doing my job.
0:11:29 > 0:11:31Your job is to save people's lives not throw your own away.
0:11:31 > 0:11:34- It was a calculated risk. - It was reckless!
0:11:35 > 0:11:36You don't understand.
0:11:36 > 0:11:37But Greg does?
0:11:37 > 0:11:39This isn't about that.
0:11:39 > 0:11:41Isn't it? There's a reason this happened.
0:11:41 > 0:11:43- A reason you and he... - Nothing happened.
0:11:43 > 0:11:46But it could have. Right?
0:11:46 > 0:11:49You knew there was something between you...
0:11:49 > 0:11:51and instead of stopping it, walking away,
0:11:51 > 0:11:54you bring me here, right into the middle of it.
0:11:54 > 0:11:59Was that a "calculated risk" too? Or was it reckless?
0:11:59 > 0:12:02Maybe there is part of you that wanted this to happen.
0:12:02 > 0:12:03Me to find out.
0:12:03 > 0:12:06- And why would I want that? - You tell me.
0:12:06 > 0:12:10- Because you're right about one thing.- I don't understand.
0:12:10 > 0:12:12I don't understand any of it.
0:12:17 > 0:12:18Ah!
0:12:20 > 0:12:22Ah! Ugh!
0:12:22 > 0:12:23All right, Mr Zimmerman?
0:12:23 > 0:12:25Fine...ah!
0:12:25 > 0:12:27All right, last one coming up.
0:12:27 > 0:12:29Ahh.
0:12:29 > 0:12:31Argh! AH!
0:12:34 > 0:12:38There we go. There we go.
0:12:38 > 0:12:40- Andrew?- Shelley?
0:12:43 > 0:12:46I heard about it on the news. Why didn't you call me?
0:12:46 > 0:12:49- I didn't want to worry you. I know that you hate hospitals.- Me?
0:12:49 > 0:12:50You must be Mrs Zimmerman?
0:12:50 > 0:12:53Mrs? No. Not yet anyway.
0:12:53 > 0:12:55Shelley's my fiance.
0:12:55 > 0:12:57Fiance?
0:12:57 > 0:12:59Yeah, if you don't mind, we'd like a bit of privacy.
0:12:59 > 0:13:02- Yeah, I bet you would.- OK, we'll leave you alone to catch up.
0:13:04 > 0:13:07- No wonder he didn't want me to call his wife!- Not our business.
0:13:07 > 0:13:09Last time I checked, Bigamy was still illegal.
0:13:09 > 0:13:11Until they're married, no crime's been committed.
0:13:11 > 0:13:13Men.
0:13:15 > 0:13:16SHE EXHALES All right?
0:13:16 > 0:13:18No. Still no word from Liam.
0:13:18 > 0:13:21- I've been trying to call him, tell him I've been held up.- He knows.
0:13:21 > 0:13:24He's at my place. Or at least he was. That a problem?
0:13:24 > 0:13:28No. Except according to the terms of his YRO, he has to stay with me,
0:13:28 > 0:13:29whether he likes it or not.
0:13:29 > 0:13:32I mean you should know that. You're his mentor, remember?
0:13:32 > 0:13:35Not for much longer hopefully. The YRO bit, not the mentor bit.
0:13:35 > 0:13:36What are you talking about?
0:13:36 > 0:13:39He's applied to have his order rescinded.
0:13:39 > 0:13:41You didn't know?
0:13:41 > 0:13:44- No.- Right. Well, it's a good thing though, yeah?- Yeah.- Yep.
0:13:53 > 0:13:55Didn't know you smoked.
0:13:57 > 0:13:58Only in times of stress.
0:14:00 > 0:14:02It's a weakness.
0:14:02 > 0:14:03Not your only one.
0:14:04 > 0:14:05Yeah, you've made your point.
0:14:07 > 0:14:09Look, it's not what you think.
0:14:09 > 0:14:13Really? What was it, then? A dalliance? Harmless flirtation?
0:14:13 > 0:14:14A meeting of minds?
0:14:14 > 0:14:16- I don't know.- You don't know.
0:14:17 > 0:14:20- Sahira's my friend.- She's my wife.
0:14:21 > 0:14:24- I'm sorry, I don't know what to say.- Do you love her?
0:14:24 > 0:14:28- What?- Are you in love with her?
0:14:31 > 0:14:32Yeah.
0:14:32 > 0:14:34At least I know now...
0:14:36 > 0:14:37..and maybe you do too.
0:15:42 > 0:15:44Oh, Mr Douglas.
0:15:44 > 0:15:46Oh, morning, Mr H.
0:15:46 > 0:15:48Morning.
0:15:48 > 0:15:50Please tell me you didn't sleep here last night.
0:15:50 > 0:15:52I wasn't sleeping.
0:15:53 > 0:15:55What's the matter?
0:15:57 > 0:15:59Do you think I'm a coward?
0:16:00 > 0:16:03I think you're many things but a Coward...
0:16:03 > 0:16:05No. Why?
0:16:05 > 0:16:07I had a...dream last night.
0:16:07 > 0:16:11I was standing in front of a door. I wanted to go through it but...
0:16:11 > 0:16:13I couldn't.
0:16:13 > 0:16:17Well, in basic dream theory locked doors represent opportunity denied.
0:16:17 > 0:16:21Someone or something is blocking your progress.
0:16:21 > 0:16:24- It wasn't locked, I just couldn't... - Take the leap of faith?
0:16:25 > 0:16:28So I've been lying here, thinking about it.
0:16:28 > 0:16:30Thinking about what was stopping me.
0:16:30 > 0:16:34- That's where you've been going wrong right from the off.- How's that?
0:16:34 > 0:16:37You don't think about taking a leap of faith. You just take it.
0:16:40 > 0:16:41Thanks.
0:16:41 > 0:16:42My pleasure.
0:16:42 > 0:16:45HE GRUNTS AND SPLUTTERS
0:16:47 > 0:16:50- Mr Zimmerman...- No morphine.
0:16:50 > 0:16:51No, I understand that
0:16:51 > 0:16:53but the Paracetamol and Ibuprofen isn't working.
0:16:53 > 0:16:56It says here you were treated with Diclofenac
0:16:56 > 0:16:58for gallstones, seven years ago.
0:16:58 > 0:17:00- Yeah.- It won't take away all of your pain away
0:17:00 > 0:17:02but it should levitate the symptoms somewhat
0:17:02 > 0:17:04and we can dose as required.
0:17:04 > 0:17:07- I appreciate that.- He will need food before he starts medication,
0:17:07 > 0:17:10you might want to buy a sandwich from the vending machine.
0:17:23 > 0:17:24You all right?
0:17:25 > 0:17:27Fine, thanks.
0:17:27 > 0:17:29You don't look it.
0:17:29 > 0:17:31- Trust me, I'm a doctor.- Really?
0:17:31 > 0:17:33Yes, really.
0:17:33 > 0:17:37Right now I'm exhibiting signs of a central nervous ischaemic response
0:17:37 > 0:17:40triggered by inadequate oxygenated blood in the brain.
0:17:40 > 0:17:42What does that mean?
0:17:42 > 0:17:45- It means I'm feeling a little faint. - Gotcha. I'll be on my way then.
0:17:45 > 0:17:48Sorry, I didn't mean to be rude.
0:17:48 > 0:17:49I'm just feeling...
0:17:51 > 0:17:53A bit...silly?
0:17:53 > 0:17:55You look all right.
0:17:55 > 0:18:02You might want to see a Doctor about that ischaemic thing though.
0:18:03 > 0:18:05- Good morning, Ms Shah.- Is it?
0:18:05 > 0:18:07I have no reason to suspect otherwise.
0:18:07 > 0:18:10Ms Naylor informs me that CTU excelled itself last night.
0:18:10 > 0:18:12For which you are to be commended.
0:18:12 > 0:18:14- You look tired.- I am tired.
0:18:14 > 0:18:16Well, if it's work...
0:18:16 > 0:18:19- What did you say to Rafi? - You'll have to be more specific.
0:18:19 > 0:18:22Why did you tell Rafi there was something going on with me and Greg?
0:18:22 > 0:18:25- I did no such thing. - Don't lie to me, Rafi said...
0:18:25 > 0:18:26Your husband was being imprecise.
0:18:26 > 0:18:30Dr Raza accused me of forcing you to remain at this hospital against your better judgement.
0:18:30 > 0:18:33I simply pointed out to him that, in the specific example he cited,
0:18:33 > 0:18:36there were others whose influence mattered more.
0:18:36 > 0:18:39It's the same thing and you know it. You wanted Rafi to be suspicious.
0:18:39 > 0:18:42I've known you for 15 years, you've been married for 7 of them.
0:18:42 > 0:18:46What possible reason could I have for wanting to jeopardise your relationship now?
0:18:46 > 0:18:48And I suggest you ask yourself the same question.
0:18:48 > 0:18:51- I didn't want this.- And yet it's happened, hasn't it?
0:18:51 > 0:18:54I suggest you examine what it is you did want when you encouraged this...
0:18:54 > 0:18:57added complication in your life.
0:19:03 > 0:19:05- Are you looking for someone?- Yeah.
0:19:05 > 0:19:07Erm, Sahira Shah.
0:19:07 > 0:19:09Well, that makes two of us.
0:19:09 > 0:19:12- Are you a patient of hers, Ms...?- Caitlin.
0:19:12 > 0:19:15No, I'm not a patient, she left me some messages about Lucas Marsh.
0:19:15 > 0:19:19- I think there was an accident last night?- Warehouse?
0:19:19 > 0:19:20Would you like to take a seat here?
0:19:20 > 0:19:23- Can I get you tea or coffee or something?- Erm...
0:19:23 > 0:19:26No, no, no, I'm fine. Thank you though. Thanks.
0:19:26 > 0:19:30Sahira, this is Caitlin. She's here to see Lucas Marsh.
0:19:30 > 0:19:33Of course. He's her husband after all.
0:19:33 > 0:19:36- EQUIPMENT BEEPING - Is he in a coma?
0:19:36 > 0:19:37No, he's just heavily sedated.
0:19:37 > 0:19:40We wanted to give his body as much rest as possible.
0:19:40 > 0:19:44Lucas has been through quite an ordeal.
0:19:44 > 0:19:47We are going to decrease the sedation soon to see if he responds.
0:19:47 > 0:19:48So, I should stay?
0:19:48 > 0:19:50Did you have to be somewhere?
0:19:50 > 0:19:52Well, no.
0:19:52 > 0:19:53Not really. It's just...
0:19:55 > 0:19:57..I wasn't sure he'd want to see me.
0:19:57 > 0:19:59It's all he could talk about.
0:20:00 > 0:20:03- Something wrong? - No, I guess not, no.
0:20:04 > 0:20:06We've been separated for quite some time.
0:20:06 > 0:20:09I've barely spoken to him in a year.
0:20:16 > 0:20:19- Why didn't you tell me? - It was supposed to be a surprise.
0:20:19 > 0:20:21I'll tell you what was a surprise, you not returning my calls.
0:20:21 > 0:20:25- I told you I was busy. - Too busy to call?
0:20:25 > 0:20:28- You told her about the meeting? - I didn't know it was a secret.
0:20:28 > 0:20:30- Now she's fretting, wants to come! - Maybe she just wants to help.
0:20:30 > 0:20:32And SHE'S right here, you know.
0:20:32 > 0:20:33I'm sorry.
0:20:33 > 0:20:37I didn't tell you cos I didn't want to get your hopes up. Get my hopes up.
0:20:37 > 0:20:38I didn't mean to hurt you, OK?
0:20:38 > 0:20:41Of course it's OK and of course I want to help,
0:20:41 > 0:20:44which is why I got you these..
0:20:44 > 0:20:47- A tie? Really?- Yeah!
0:20:47 > 0:20:48There's something wrong!
0:20:52 > 0:20:54- What's happened?- I don't know.
0:20:54 > 0:20:57He was fine then he felt sick and couldn't breathe properly.
0:20:57 > 0:20:58Tachycardic?
0:20:58 > 0:21:01500 micrograms Adrenaline, intramuscular.
0:21:01 > 0:21:04- What's happening to him? - He's going into anaphylactic shock.
0:21:04 > 0:21:06- Why?- I have no idea.
0:21:06 > 0:21:10Breathing unaided, signs are good. Should wake up any minute.
0:21:10 > 0:21:12How are you doing?
0:21:12 > 0:21:14I'm OK, I guess.
0:21:16 > 0:21:17You?
0:21:17 > 0:21:19Could do with a drink!
0:21:19 > 0:21:22- Now?- Well, not now, obviously.
0:21:22 > 0:21:23Whenever.
0:21:23 > 0:21:26- Look, Sahira...- What are we doing?
0:21:26 > 0:21:28Having a conversation.
0:21:28 > 0:21:29Is that what we've been doing?
0:21:29 > 0:21:32Having conversations but never really talking.
0:21:32 > 0:21:34Talking's not my strong point...
0:21:35 > 0:21:37..but I'm trying.
0:21:38 > 0:21:39Now.
0:21:39 > 0:21:40Why?
0:21:45 > 0:21:46Because I love you.
0:21:46 > 0:21:48Where am I?
0:21:50 > 0:21:53Mr Marsh, good to have you back. How do you feel?
0:21:55 > 0:21:57- Like I made it.- You did.
0:21:57 > 0:21:58Try to rest.
0:21:58 > 0:22:01Lucky for you, there were no serious fractures
0:22:01 > 0:22:03but your body's been knocked about a bit.
0:22:03 > 0:22:05I want to book you in for another CT scan.
0:22:05 > 0:22:08- Where's Caitlin? - I'll go and get her.
0:22:15 > 0:22:18Blood sugar? The cupcake.
0:22:18 > 0:22:22I always find my blood sugar levels dropping this time into the shift.
0:22:22 > 0:22:24I'm hungry, not diabetic.
0:22:26 > 0:22:29I'm sorry, I'm just...
0:22:29 > 0:22:31- There he is again.- Who?
0:22:31 > 0:22:33Ronald McDonald.
0:22:33 > 0:22:36That's not Ronald McDonald, that's Roger!
0:22:36 > 0:22:37C'mon, I'll introduce you.
0:22:37 > 0:22:40You'll love Roger. Roger! He's a regular up on Paeds.
0:22:40 > 0:22:43He works a lot with kids that have leukaemia - that sort of thing.
0:22:43 > 0:22:46He's the loveliest man you'll ever meet.
0:22:46 > 0:22:48Roger! There's someone I'd like you to meet.
0:22:48 > 0:22:51Tara Lo, this is Roger Delaney. Roger, this is Tara Lo.
0:22:51 > 0:22:53Pleased to meet you...
0:22:53 > 0:22:54again!
0:22:54 > 0:22:56- Are you all right?- Bit tired.
0:22:56 > 0:23:00I've just finished the Day Surgery staff kids party
0:23:00 > 0:23:03- and then before that it was the ED! - HE CHUCKLES
0:23:03 > 0:23:04Maybe you should call it a day?
0:23:04 > 0:23:08I can't! I've got Paediatrics and Oncology at 7.30 -
0:23:08 > 0:23:10it's my big finale.
0:23:11 > 0:23:14- Roger?!- Not again.
0:23:14 > 0:23:16Roger, can you hear me? Roger?
0:23:19 > 0:23:21Lucas...
0:23:22 > 0:23:24..you're all right.
0:23:25 > 0:23:26I am now.
0:23:28 > 0:23:29I thought I'd lost you.
0:23:31 > 0:23:33Lost me?
0:23:33 > 0:23:36Can't get rid of me that easy.
0:23:36 > 0:23:37Where's Danny?
0:23:40 > 0:23:41What?
0:23:41 > 0:23:45Where's Danny? I thought you would have brought him with you?
0:23:46 > 0:23:47What is this?
0:23:47 > 0:23:49Where's Danny?
0:23:52 > 0:23:53Caitlin?!
0:23:53 > 0:23:55Mrs Marsh...
0:23:55 > 0:23:57you can't just walk away, he's your husband.
0:24:00 > 0:24:04- Is this some sort of sick joke? - Caitlin? Who's Danny?
0:24:04 > 0:24:05He's my son, he's our son...
0:24:05 > 0:24:07Where is Danny?
0:24:08 > 0:24:12He's dead. He died two years ago.
0:24:15 > 0:24:17Is he going to be OK, now?
0:24:17 > 0:24:19Let's hope so.
0:24:19 > 0:24:20What's wrong with him?
0:24:23 > 0:24:24Luc...
0:24:26 > 0:24:28- Sandwich.- Sorry?
0:24:28 > 0:24:30The sandwich you got him. What was the filing?
0:24:30 > 0:24:31Egg and bacon.
0:24:31 > 0:24:32But he's allergic to egg.
0:24:32 > 0:24:36- Did you not see the big sign with "no egg" written on it?- No, he's not.
0:24:36 > 0:24:38I've given Andrew eggs hundreds of times.
0:24:38 > 0:24:40Is anaphylactic shock the new way to say "I love you"?
0:24:40 > 0:24:42- He's not allergic to eggs! - It's in his patient notes.
0:24:42 > 0:24:46- Right, well, the notes are wrong. - Right, we'll monitor him closely.
0:24:48 > 0:24:51Whoa, check you out. Has anybody seen my brother?
0:24:51 > 0:24:53I feel like a right idiot.
0:24:53 > 0:24:57Yeah, well, you look rehabilitated and that is all that matters.
0:24:57 > 0:25:00- Is it lunchtime already? - Nah, I'm meeting my Liaison first.
0:25:00 > 0:25:02- You're not up for a couple of hours. - Right, have you got an address?
0:25:02 > 0:25:05Yeah, it's on your desk. So, what do you think?
0:25:05 > 0:25:06How do you feel?
0:25:06 > 0:25:08Like I'm pretending to be something I'm not.
0:25:17 > 0:25:18Where do you live?
0:25:18 > 0:25:2027 Frederick Street.
0:25:20 > 0:25:22And where are you now?
0:25:22 > 0:25:25Holby City Hospital. Where's Caitlin?
0:25:25 > 0:25:27If you'll just answer the questions...
0:25:27 > 0:25:29I am answering questions. Why won't you answer mine?
0:25:29 > 0:25:32What's the last thing you remember before the accident?
0:25:32 > 0:25:34Warehouse.
0:25:34 > 0:25:38Yeah, I remember noise...
0:25:38 > 0:25:39Falling and then...
0:25:41 > 0:25:42..nothing.
0:25:44 > 0:25:46- Where's my son? - Mr Marsh, what's the date?
0:25:46 > 0:25:48Date?
0:25:48 > 0:25:50- Today's date.- 3rd April?
0:25:50 > 0:25:54Well, it's actually the fourth now but that's close enough.
0:25:54 > 0:25:56- What year?- 2010.
0:25:59 > 0:26:02- And why didn't you take him to ED? - I felt kind of responsible.
0:26:02 > 0:26:05- How?- I shook his hand.
0:26:05 > 0:26:08- You had to be there. - He passed out, didn't he?
0:26:08 > 0:26:09Yes, he did.
0:26:09 > 0:26:12Then he woke up, then he felt fine and wanted to go home
0:26:12 > 0:26:15and they all lived happily ever after.
0:26:15 > 0:26:20Well, you've certainly improved. Your BP's fine...heart rate too.
0:26:20 > 0:26:23In fact, I'm not sure why you even collapsed in the first place.
0:26:23 > 0:26:25"Central nervous ischaemic response
0:26:25 > 0:26:28"triggered by inadequate oxygenated blood in the brain."
0:26:28 > 0:26:29(Heard it's been going round.)
0:26:29 > 0:26:32Still I think we should run some tests just to be on the safe side.
0:26:32 > 0:26:35Really, there's no need.
0:26:35 > 0:26:37I don't want to waste any more of your time.
0:26:37 > 0:26:39Get back in bed, Bozo.
0:26:39 > 0:26:42You're not going anywhere till Dr Lo gives you a clean bill of health.
0:26:42 > 0:26:43Me?
0:26:43 > 0:26:46Yeah, you broke it, you bought it.
0:26:46 > 0:26:49Post-traumatic amnesia is the type you see in movies.
0:26:49 > 0:26:52Bang on the head, forget your name, type thing.
0:26:52 > 0:26:53It's not always as simple in practise
0:26:53 > 0:26:55but it's the most likely diagnosis in this case.
0:26:56 > 0:26:58So what happens now?
0:26:58 > 0:26:59He's still asking for you.
0:26:59 > 0:27:01And?
0:27:03 > 0:27:06You don't expect me to go back in there do you?
0:27:06 > 0:27:07And say what?
0:27:07 > 0:27:12Hey, Lucas, sorry about this, but it's actually 2012 not 2010.
0:27:12 > 0:27:13Quite a bit's changed.
0:27:13 > 0:27:15Your son, who you adored,
0:27:15 > 0:27:18- who would have turned six just last week, he's dead...- Caitlin?
0:27:18 > 0:27:22- ..and your wife, who loved you so much it hurt, can barely look at you.- Caitlin?
0:27:22 > 0:27:24Sorry, I don't understand...
0:27:24 > 0:27:26amnesia?
0:27:26 > 0:27:27How can he forget?
0:27:28 > 0:27:30How could anyone forget?
0:27:30 > 0:27:32Some things, some memories are just too hard to bear.
0:27:32 > 0:27:36The mind tries to forget about them, WANTS to forget about them.
0:27:37 > 0:27:40If you had a choice...wouldn't you?
0:27:40 > 0:27:42I'd change it if I could but I can't forget it.
0:27:43 > 0:27:45There's a difference.
0:27:46 > 0:27:47Excuse me.
0:27:50 > 0:27:52Sahira.
0:27:56 > 0:27:59- I should probably go. - What I said earlier...
0:28:01 > 0:28:04I didn't mean to make you feel uncomfortable.
0:28:04 > 0:28:07You asked what we were doing, what this was about. Well...
0:28:08 > 0:28:10..that's what it was about for me.
0:28:12 > 0:28:14PAGER BEEPING
0:28:15 > 0:28:18It's Lucas.
0:28:18 > 0:28:19Colder.
0:28:21 > 0:28:22- Here?- Freezing.
0:28:24 > 0:28:26- Here? - HONKING HORN
0:28:26 > 0:28:29- HE CHUCKLES - People are looking.
0:28:29 > 0:28:30Good!
0:28:30 > 0:28:32They'll get to see you smile.
0:28:32 > 0:28:34- Stop it.- I'm serious!
0:28:34 > 0:28:36You should smile more.
0:28:36 > 0:28:38You need to smile more.
0:28:38 > 0:28:41- What's that supposed to mean?- You're very serious for someone so young.
0:28:44 > 0:28:45Touched a nerve?
0:28:47 > 0:28:50- What's the matter?- I'm fine.
0:28:51 > 0:28:53You can talk to me, you know.
0:28:53 > 0:28:54You're my patient.
0:28:54 > 0:28:57Erm, not your average one though, am I?
0:28:59 > 0:29:02One of my patients died earlier. It was my first.
0:29:02 > 0:29:05- First patient?! - First patient death.
0:29:05 > 0:29:09Hm. Everyone dies eventually, Dr Lo.
0:29:10 > 0:29:11Not on my watch.
0:29:13 > 0:29:16BEEPING ALARMS
0:29:16 > 0:29:17- No change.- How long without output?
0:29:17 > 0:29:20- Three minutes.- OK, charge to 360.
0:29:20 > 0:29:21Clear.
0:29:23 > 0:29:25RHYTHMIC BEEPING
0:29:26 > 0:29:29- Sinus rhythm.- Get him down to Radiology, we need an urgent CT scan.
0:29:29 > 0:29:32All non-essentials are to be put on hold.
0:29:35 > 0:29:37What happened?
0:29:37 > 0:29:40- I don't know.- I thought you said he was going to be all right?
0:29:40 > 0:29:41I thought you didn't care?
0:29:44 > 0:29:47I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that.
0:29:47 > 0:29:49I don't know what to do.
0:29:49 > 0:29:50'He never cried once,'
0:29:50 > 0:29:52just withdrew.
0:29:52 > 0:29:54He blamed you?
0:29:54 > 0:29:56Blamed me, blamed the world...
0:29:56 > 0:29:58most of all blamed himself.
0:30:00 > 0:30:02I can forgive him for leaving me,
0:30:02 > 0:30:04I can't forgive him for making me hate him.
0:30:06 > 0:30:07Why did you stay here ?
0:30:08 > 0:30:10Did you see how he looked at me earlier?
0:30:10 > 0:30:14- Like he needed you. - Like he loved me.
0:30:14 > 0:30:19Hard to walk away from someone who looks at you like that.
0:30:19 > 0:30:21Ascending Choledocholithiasis!
0:30:21 > 0:30:23I thought it was gallstones at first -
0:30:23 > 0:30:26gallbladder's enlarged but I wasn't sure.
0:30:28 > 0:30:30Any other symptoms?
0:30:30 > 0:30:33When he collapsed he was sweating quite heavily.
0:30:33 > 0:30:36Indicates the presence of fever and chills.
0:30:36 > 0:30:38- Put that together with his jaundice...- Jaundice?
0:30:38 > 0:30:40Yeah, I thought it was an effect of his face paint at first
0:30:40 > 0:30:42but it's all over...
0:30:44 > 0:30:48- When you palpated his abdomen, was it tender?- No...
0:30:48 > 0:30:51- not particularly.- Not particularly or not at all?
0:30:51 > 0:30:54Was there Murphy's sign present?
0:30:55 > 0:30:56No.
0:30:57 > 0:30:59You don't think it's Gallstones, do you?
0:30:59 > 0:31:03Are you familiar with Courvoisier's law?
0:31:03 > 0:31:06In the presence of an enlarged gallbladder which is non-tender
0:31:06 > 0:31:11and accompanied by jaundice, the cause is unlikely to be gallstones.
0:31:11 > 0:31:15And when Courvoisier's Law is manifest, what is the probable diagnosis?
0:31:19 > 0:31:21I told him not to worry.
0:31:21 > 0:31:24That everything was going to be fine.
0:31:25 > 0:31:26What am I going to tell him?
0:31:26 > 0:31:27Nothing.
0:31:28 > 0:31:34We don't know anything until further tests and...so neither does he. OK?
0:31:41 > 0:31:42KNOCK ON DOOR
0:31:43 > 0:31:45Liam!
0:31:45 > 0:31:47- Where were you?- Working.
0:31:50 > 0:31:53- The YOT meeting.- Yeah.
0:31:53 > 0:31:55- Is it too late?- A little bit.
0:31:55 > 0:31:57- Sorry, I got caught up.- I can see.
0:31:57 > 0:32:00- Did it go OK? - Fine, yeah, whatever.- Good, good.
0:32:00 > 0:32:04- You didn't need me there anyway then? - Didn't need you at all.
0:32:04 > 0:32:08They give you any idea when they might...? Sorry. PHONE RINGS
0:32:08 > 0:32:12- Look, I'll let you get on. - Yup. Hello?
0:32:12 > 0:32:15Mrs Zimmerman, thank you so much for getting back to me.
0:32:15 > 0:32:17No, I won't take up too much of your time...
0:32:20 > 0:32:22Mr Delaney.
0:32:22 > 0:32:25Mr Delaney? This has turned serious.
0:32:27 > 0:32:30No, not serious at all, we just need to run a series of tests.
0:32:30 > 0:32:32- That won't be necessary.- Nurse Lane?
0:32:32 > 0:32:36- Dr Lo, really...- FBCs, U&E, amylase, glucose and calcium.
0:32:36 > 0:32:38Plus LFTs an ESR and a CT scan...
0:32:38 > 0:32:41- Please, listen to me... - ..and we'll need an ultrasound...
0:32:41 > 0:32:45I was diagnosed with stage three pancreatic cancer
0:32:45 > 0:32:48at Hugh's private hospital four months ago.
0:32:48 > 0:32:51- Cancer?!- 'Fraid so.
0:32:51 > 0:32:54- Sorry, I didn't know.- No-one does.
0:32:54 > 0:32:58It's not something you want to shout from the rooftops.
0:32:58 > 0:33:01I'm sorry, I tried to tell you but I just couldn't.
0:33:02 > 0:33:03Are you in treatment?
0:33:03 > 0:33:06I was, I discontinued it...
0:33:06 > 0:33:07six weeks ago.
0:33:07 > 0:33:11- You've given up?- No, made a choice.
0:33:11 > 0:33:14Hard to complete a forward somersault and tumble combo
0:33:14 > 0:33:15while on a course of chemotherapy!
0:33:17 > 0:33:21The fainting was almost certainly due to my illness.
0:33:21 > 0:33:25I didn't mean to waste your time. I'm really sorry.
0:33:26 > 0:33:30- Who said you wasted anyone's time? - Well, all the tests...
0:33:30 > 0:33:33Oh, we're still doing the tests. We don't know for sure what caused you to collapse.
0:33:33 > 0:33:36It could be an illness, it could be a complication
0:33:36 > 0:33:39or it could be something completely new.
0:33:41 > 0:33:42'Where's Shelley?'
0:33:42 > 0:33:44Gone to get something to eat.
0:33:44 > 0:33:46She's very worried about you.
0:33:46 > 0:33:48- She loves me.- Does she know you?
0:33:48 > 0:33:50What's that supposed to mean?
0:33:50 > 0:33:54- She doesn't think you're allergic to eggs but it says you are here. - It's only a very mild allergy.
0:33:54 > 0:33:57Mild about anaphylactic shock? You might have died.
0:33:57 > 0:33:58In fact, if you had died,
0:33:58 > 0:34:01we'd have contacted your next of kin according to your notes,
0:34:01 > 0:34:04which is a Mrs H Zimmerman.
0:34:04 > 0:34:06Your wife.
0:34:06 > 0:34:07Does Shelley know about her?
0:34:07 > 0:34:10- You leave her out of this. - Sorry, who? Shelley or your wife?
0:34:10 > 0:34:11I don't have a wife.
0:34:11 > 0:34:14No, but Andrew Zimmerman does.
0:34:14 > 0:34:18In fact I've got her number right here. Do you want to try calling her?
0:34:18 > 0:34:19I'll save you the trouble.
0:34:19 > 0:34:21I spoke to Mrs H Zimmerman,
0:34:21 > 0:34:25she assured me that her husband moved to Dresden three years ago.
0:34:25 > 0:34:29So, the question is, if he's Andrew Zimmerman...
0:34:29 > 0:34:30who are you?
0:34:36 > 0:34:40- Did you...?- He's in the CT scanner right now.- Thank you.
0:34:40 > 0:34:42Been talking to Caitlin.
0:34:42 > 0:34:44- Thought she was going?- No.
0:34:44 > 0:34:47She's not going to go. She loves him.
0:34:48 > 0:34:50Or at least she thinks she does.
0:34:50 > 0:34:51Must be hard.
0:34:51 > 0:34:55You were good with her. Before. You know, she was...angry,
0:34:55 > 0:34:56in a lot of pain.
0:34:57 > 0:35:01- You have a way, a charm. - You do know that's bedside manner.
0:35:02 > 0:35:05I am...more than that.
0:35:05 > 0:35:07I mean you get people.
0:35:07 > 0:35:09It's a gift.
0:35:09 > 0:35:11I don't get you.
0:35:11 > 0:35:12Yes, you do.
0:35:13 > 0:35:14Yeah, maybe I do.
0:35:18 > 0:35:19You don't love me.
0:35:26 > 0:35:27I'm sorry.
0:35:27 > 0:35:28Don't be.
0:35:28 > 0:35:30At least I now know.
0:35:30 > 0:35:31If I don't...
0:35:34 > 0:35:38What was I thinking? Why take the risk?
0:35:38 > 0:35:41How can I hurt him like that? Hurt someone I love...
0:35:41 > 0:35:43- Unless...- You don't love him.
0:35:45 > 0:35:47Or maybe you've just forgotten?
0:35:49 > 0:35:51Either way, you need to work it out.
0:35:55 > 0:35:58I wasn't trying to steal anything, just...hitch a ride on someone else's name.
0:35:58 > 0:36:00Andrew's name.
0:36:00 > 0:36:03He was a neighbour of mine. We didn't really know each other but...
0:36:03 > 0:36:07I knew he'd emigrated, so when a credit card turned up in his post...
0:36:07 > 0:36:09- You stole it. - I didn't take his money.
0:36:09 > 0:36:11I took his name.
0:36:11 > 0:36:14With a credit card and a few utility bills, you can get a bank account.
0:36:14 > 0:36:17And with that you can get a new life.
0:36:17 > 0:36:20You can, literally, become a new person.
0:36:20 > 0:36:21A better person.
0:36:21 > 0:36:24You don't need a new name, to become a better person
0:36:24 > 0:36:27unless you're running away from something.
0:36:27 > 0:36:29- Yeah, well, no-one got hurt. - Apart from you.
0:36:29 > 0:36:31That's my choice, isn't it?
0:36:33 > 0:36:36- You won't tell anyone about this, will you?- Not my business.
0:36:36 > 0:36:38She deserves to be happy.
0:36:38 > 0:36:40I need your name. Your real name.
0:36:40 > 0:36:43I need to know who you were in order to treat who you've become.
0:36:43 > 0:36:46- No, I can't...- You must. ALARM BEEPS
0:36:46 > 0:36:49It's happening again. Give me the name.
0:36:49 > 0:36:52Whatever it is, it can't be worth your life.
0:36:52 > 0:36:53Come on.
0:36:58 > 0:37:01- It's happening again? - 500 micrograms adrenaline, IM again.
0:37:01 > 0:37:05- Pulse is 120.- 100 milligrams hydrocortisone.- Is that going to make him better?
0:37:05 > 0:37:06- No, not really.- "Not really"?!
0:37:06 > 0:37:09It'll counteract it, it won't stop it recurring. Discontinue medication.
0:37:09 > 0:37:11Antibiotics, pain relief, fluids. The lot.
0:37:11 > 0:37:13- What's that going to do? - Buy some time.
0:37:18 > 0:37:21- Sahi?- Hey.- You all right? - Yeah, I'm fine. Just long day...
0:37:21 > 0:37:23I've just been to see Hanssen.
0:37:23 > 0:37:24Oh, yeah? What about?
0:37:24 > 0:37:27A few things. It was constructive.
0:37:27 > 0:37:30- Can you spare me some time? - Yeah, of course.
0:37:30 > 0:37:32- It's just, you know, I'm busy. - You're always busy.
0:37:32 > 0:37:36- Sahira, it's important.- You're not wearing...? Did you come in to work?
0:37:36 > 0:37:38No, I came in to resign.
0:37:38 > 0:37:40CT Scan.
0:37:46 > 0:37:47Is it serious?
0:37:47 > 0:37:48Well, it appears to...
0:37:52 > 0:37:54Yes...
0:37:54 > 0:37:56yes, It's serious. We could operate but...
0:37:58 > 0:38:02If there's something you'd like to say to him, say it now.
0:38:02 > 0:38:04Thank you...
0:38:05 > 0:38:06..for being honest.
0:38:10 > 0:38:14I need a theatre slot asap. and a GS consult.
0:38:18 > 0:38:19(Fine.)
0:38:45 > 0:38:48Hey, Mr Zimmerman's BP is falling and his pulse is rising.
0:38:48 > 0:38:50That'll be the pain relief wearing off.
0:38:50 > 0:38:52How long are we going to discontinue that?
0:38:52 > 0:38:55As long as it takes to isolate the source of the allergy.
0:38:55 > 0:38:57And the antibiotics? I mean, the risk of infection...
0:38:57 > 0:39:00Is less than the risk of anaphylactic shock.
0:39:01 > 0:39:03OK.
0:39:03 > 0:39:06Oh, have you spoken to Liam? He's not answering his phone.
0:39:06 > 0:39:09- I saw him when he got back from his meeting.- How did it go?
0:39:09 > 0:39:10I don't know, he seemed happy.
0:39:10 > 0:39:12You weren't there?
0:39:12 > 0:39:14- No, I got distracted.- What? - He didn't seem fussed.
0:39:14 > 0:39:17I really don't have time for this conversation.
0:39:18 > 0:39:20Thank you.
0:39:27 > 0:39:29The hematoma is on the aorta between the thoracic...
0:39:29 > 0:39:31To the Abdominal. Yes, I can see that, thank you.
0:39:31 > 0:39:34I need a GS consult. Mr Griffin...
0:39:34 > 0:39:38- That will be taken care of. Have you arranged a theatre?- Yes.
0:39:38 > 0:39:39Something else?
0:39:39 > 0:39:42- Rafi says he offered you his resignation?- Yes, he did.
0:39:42 > 0:39:43- And you accepted?- I did.
0:39:43 > 0:39:46- Why?- That's a conversation you should have with him.
0:39:46 > 0:39:49- I'm just asking why you accepted... - Well, he made a convincing case.
0:39:49 > 0:39:52It's the best thing for him, the best thing for the hospital
0:39:52 > 0:39:54and the best thing for you, Ms Shah.
0:39:54 > 0:39:56What's that supposed to mean?
0:39:56 > 0:39:58You have a singular opportunity here.
0:39:58 > 0:40:00You have a singular capability.
0:40:00 > 0:40:03Your husband realises that, even if you don't.
0:40:03 > 0:40:05Dr Raza coming here has caused complications.
0:40:05 > 0:40:07I think a surgical ward is not the best place
0:40:07 > 0:40:09for domestic entanglements.
0:40:09 > 0:40:12His resigning will help to clarify matters
0:40:12 > 0:40:14so we can all return to focusing on what's really important.
0:40:14 > 0:40:16And what's that?
0:40:17 > 0:40:18A sense of equilibrium.
0:40:18 > 0:40:20Control.
0:40:20 > 0:40:22That will be all, Ms Shah.
0:40:27 > 0:40:29Hey, Tara Lo.
0:40:29 > 0:40:31What do you think you're doing?
0:40:32 > 0:40:34Tara, it's over.
0:40:35 > 0:40:36It's OK, there's nothing you can do.
0:40:36 > 0:40:40- The tests...- Have been done. You can't change them.
0:40:40 > 0:40:43- There are treatments. - And there's quality of life.
0:40:43 > 0:40:47- You won't have a life in three weeks if you don't do something! - It'll be the same in three months.
0:40:47 > 0:40:51- You don't know that. Please, let me help you.- You know what will help?
0:40:51 > 0:40:54Let me see that smile.
0:40:54 > 0:40:57- How can you expect me to smile? - Let me show you.
0:40:57 > 0:40:59Come and watch me do my thing.
0:40:59 > 0:41:02Let me show you my choice.
0:41:02 > 0:41:05I can't. I'm sorry.
0:41:05 > 0:41:06Me too.
0:41:08 > 0:41:10Resume antibiotics, discontinue the Diclofenac.
0:41:10 > 0:41:14- Isn't that the pain relief?- Yes. - But...- Could you give us a minute, please?
0:41:14 > 0:41:16Yeah, let's go. Come on, it's fine.
0:41:18 > 0:41:21Your fiance is right, the pain will be considerable.
0:41:21 > 0:41:22I can take pain.
0:41:22 > 0:41:24I know you can.
0:41:25 > 0:41:26You saw?
0:41:29 > 0:41:32It doesn't have to be that way again. YOU don't have to be that way again.
0:41:32 > 0:41:36- If you just talked to Shelley. - No! No! She mustn't know.
0:41:36 > 0:41:38I've already lost one family...
0:41:41 > 0:41:42She might be able to help.
0:41:44 > 0:41:45She already has.
0:41:46 > 0:41:48Then maybe I can help too.
0:41:48 > 0:41:52I understand your fear of your morphine...allergy
0:41:52 > 0:41:54but there might be a possible compromise.
0:41:54 > 0:41:58- Combination of Naproxen with Codeine Sulfate...- No, no!
0:41:58 > 0:42:00The combination should be safe.
0:42:02 > 0:42:05For a man with strength of will.
0:42:07 > 0:42:08Nurse?
0:42:09 > 0:42:11Naproxen and codeine sulphate.
0:42:14 > 0:42:17Er, security's just called. Someone's trashed your van.
0:42:17 > 0:42:18You're joking?
0:42:21 > 0:42:23- You speak to Hanssen?- Yeah. - Get a Consult?
0:42:23 > 0:42:25You want to tell me why you resigned?
0:42:25 > 0:42:27Why Hanssen's in it up to his neck?
0:42:27 > 0:42:30Henrik had nothing to do with my decision. Apart from okaying it.
0:42:30 > 0:42:32Then?
0:42:32 > 0:42:36When I got home last night there was an email from Paul Matheson.
0:42:36 > 0:42:39Nottingham? What did he want?
0:42:39 > 0:42:42Me. He was offering me the job, again.
0:42:42 > 0:42:43And I accepted.
0:42:43 > 0:42:45You did what?
0:42:45 > 0:42:47What can I say?
0:42:47 > 0:42:48It was impulsive.
0:42:48 > 0:42:51- I was in a mood, to say the least. - You were in a mood?
0:42:51 > 0:42:55So you just made a life changing decision for the family.
0:42:55 > 0:42:58Without consulting us. What were you thinking?
0:42:58 > 0:42:59That I was leaving you.
0:43:02 > 0:43:05And then I woke up this morning, or rather, Indy woke me up,
0:43:06 > 0:43:10So, I made breakfast for the kids...
0:43:10 > 0:43:12I put on ZingZillas...
0:43:14 > 0:43:15I missed you.
0:43:16 > 0:43:18I missed us. The way it used to be.
0:43:19 > 0:43:23So, I thought, "Why not make it like it used to be"?
0:43:23 > 0:43:24By resigning?
0:43:24 > 0:43:27By...giving up your career?
0:43:27 > 0:43:30I'll give up a lot more than that for you, Sahi.
0:43:30 > 0:43:32I can't ask you to do that.
0:43:32 > 0:43:34You didn't. That's the point.
0:43:38 > 0:43:40You don't want me to give it up.
0:43:41 > 0:43:44- Greg?- No, it's nothing. It's not Greg.
0:43:44 > 0:43:45- Then what?- I don't know.
0:43:45 > 0:43:47- Me?- No!
0:43:47 > 0:43:49No, I don't know. I don't know why I did this.
0:43:49 > 0:43:52Why I hurt you, myself, the kids...
0:43:52 > 0:43:55- You think you'll do it again?- No. - PAGER BEEPING
0:43:58 > 0:43:59- Theatre's ready.- Go.
0:43:59 > 0:44:02- No. I want explain.- Just go.
0:44:31 > 0:44:33- Why?- Why do you think?
0:44:33 > 0:44:36- The YOT meeting? He said it went well.- He lied.
0:44:36 > 0:44:40- Why would he do that?- Because he's human, because he's a kid,
0:44:40 > 0:44:42because you let him down when he needed you most.
0:44:42 > 0:44:44- You're defending this? - No, I am explaining.
0:44:44 > 0:44:47Well, Liam can explain it - to the police.
0:44:47 > 0:44:48You are a piece of work!
0:44:48 > 0:44:50He's not my responsibility, he's not my brother.
0:44:50 > 0:44:53No, but you gained his trust and then you betrayed him.
0:44:53 > 0:44:57And now, cos he kicked off, you want to throw him to the wolves?
0:44:57 > 0:44:59I knew you were cold, all right?
0:44:59 > 0:45:01I knew you liked to keep your distance
0:45:01 > 0:45:02but I didn't think you were cruel.
0:45:15 > 0:45:17Hey.
0:45:17 > 0:45:18(Caitlin.)
0:45:18 > 0:45:20I'm here.
0:45:21 > 0:45:22Where's Danny?
0:45:23 > 0:45:25Nursery.
0:45:26 > 0:45:27On a Tuesday?
0:45:27 > 0:45:30- Yeah, on the first Tuesday of every month cos I'm at...- Book club.
0:45:30 > 0:45:32Does he know what's happened?
0:45:32 > 0:45:35Erm, a little bit.
0:45:36 > 0:45:40Just that his Daddy's been involved in an accident and...
0:45:40 > 0:45:42he won't be back for a few days.
0:45:44 > 0:45:45But you will be back.
0:45:58 > 0:46:01A Ukrainian, a Chinese and a clown walk into a hospital...
0:46:03 > 0:46:04I know you're there.
0:46:05 > 0:46:09Sounds the like a beginning of a joke, huh?
0:46:09 > 0:46:11A bad one.
0:46:11 > 0:46:12If it's any consolation,
0:46:12 > 0:46:16I reacted even worse to the death of my first patient.
0:46:16 > 0:46:19It never gets any easier.
0:46:19 > 0:46:21You just get accustomed to it.
0:46:21 > 0:46:23- You'll be all right. - I'm hiding in the toilets
0:46:23 > 0:46:28because I couldn't accept a man I'd just met was going to die of cancer.
0:46:28 > 0:46:29How is that all right?
0:46:29 > 0:46:31I used to hide in the morgue.
0:46:31 > 0:46:33SHE LAUGHS
0:46:37 > 0:46:40The morgue? Really?
0:46:40 > 0:46:41Yeah, it was like second home.
0:46:43 > 0:46:46Maybe I'll try there next time?
0:46:46 > 0:46:48Yeah, I'll show you the best crypt.
0:46:57 > 0:46:58What are you doing here?
0:46:58 > 0:47:01- You asked for a GS Consult, did you not?- Yeah.
0:47:01 > 0:47:03I just didn't think that...
0:47:04 > 0:47:06- What are you doing here?- Surgery.
0:47:06 > 0:47:09- I've asked Ms Naylor to lead on this. - You can't, he's my patient.
0:47:09 > 0:47:11Correction, was your patient.
0:47:11 > 0:47:14An aortic haematoma of this size and complexity
0:47:14 > 0:47:16requires a level of focus, which, after recent events,
0:47:16 > 0:47:19I'm not sure you're able to display.
0:47:19 > 0:47:23I did warn you that domestic entanglements have no place in a surgical theatre.
0:47:27 > 0:47:31- Aren't you supposed to be...? - Hanssen bumped me for Jac.
0:47:31 > 0:47:34- Oh.- "Oh"? Is that all you can say? "Oh"?
0:47:36 > 0:47:38Apparently I'm not "focussed" enough,
0:47:38 > 0:47:43apparently there's no place for "domestic entanglements" in theatre.
0:47:43 > 0:47:45A singular opportunity? Singular capability.
0:47:45 > 0:47:49How many times do I have to hear that same old song?
0:47:49 > 0:47:51What do I have to do to get him off my back?
0:47:51 > 0:47:53Out of my head?
0:47:53 > 0:47:56There's nothing you can do. It's just what Hanssen does.
0:47:58 > 0:48:01SHE LAUGHS
0:48:01 > 0:48:03What? What's so funny?
0:48:04 > 0:48:06I should be angry.
0:48:06 > 0:48:07And you're not?
0:48:10 > 0:48:13Furious. That's what's funny.
0:48:13 > 0:48:16- Why? Cos he got the reaction he wanted?- No...
0:48:18 > 0:48:19..because I recognise it.
0:48:25 > 0:48:26I have to go.
0:48:28 > 0:48:29Where?
0:48:39 > 0:48:41Do what you have to.
0:48:41 > 0:48:42Will you be OK?
0:48:44 > 0:48:45I'll be fine.
0:48:46 > 0:48:48Thank you.
0:49:02 > 0:49:04Rafi, wait!
0:49:07 > 0:49:08Rafi!
0:49:12 > 0:49:14What the hell are you doing?!
0:49:14 > 0:49:17- Stopping you.- From what?
0:49:21 > 0:49:22(I'm sorry.)
0:49:22 > 0:49:24What for?
0:49:24 > 0:49:25For everything.
0:49:25 > 0:49:30For starting this mess, getting you into it, for HURTING you, I...
0:49:32 > 0:49:35You have to believe, I never meant to hurt you.
0:49:37 > 0:49:39And Greg? What was that?
0:49:39 > 0:49:42Greg is just a good friend. It's not about him, it never was.
0:49:42 > 0:49:44It was about something, Sahi.
0:49:45 > 0:49:46Hanssen?
0:49:48 > 0:49:50Everything was just so controlled.
0:49:50 > 0:49:53He needed me to be the best.
0:49:53 > 0:49:59He...wanted me to focus on my "singular capability".
0:49:59 > 0:50:03To the exclusion of everything - you, the kids...
0:50:03 > 0:50:05I just, I felt alone.
0:50:05 > 0:50:07I wanted to lash out, that's what I did.
0:50:07 > 0:50:09Why didn't you talk to me?
0:50:09 > 0:50:11Because you would have done something about it.
0:50:11 > 0:50:12Wanted me to leave or...
0:50:12 > 0:50:15Well, if you were so alone, isolated...?
0:50:15 > 0:50:18It's not easy to turn your back on someone who thinks you're gifted.
0:50:18 > 0:50:20Maybe he has a point.
0:50:21 > 0:50:23No.
0:50:23 > 0:50:26It's his dream, not mine.
0:50:26 > 0:50:29I've already lost myself, I'm not going to lose you as well...
0:50:35 > 0:50:38- He's sleeping.- He could use it, he's been through a lot.
0:50:38 > 0:50:41Yeah, he has but he'll get through it.
0:50:42 > 0:50:43Thank you.
0:50:50 > 0:50:53- Just...making him decent. - I know track marks when I see them.
0:50:53 > 0:50:55I wouldn't know.
0:50:55 > 0:50:58I know that he's got a past.
0:50:58 > 0:50:59That he's ashamed of it.
0:50:59 > 0:51:02- That he'll do anything to wipe it away.- That doesn't matter?
0:51:02 > 0:51:05Why should it? We've all got a past.
0:51:05 > 0:51:08All I know is that he was let down by himself,
0:51:08 > 0:51:10by people around him.
0:51:10 > 0:51:12People who should have cared.
0:51:12 > 0:51:13I won't do that.
0:51:18 > 0:51:21- Oh, dear! Oh, I've got three now! Oh, dear! Oh, dear! - THE CHILDREN LAUGH
0:51:21 > 0:51:23What am I going to do? What am I going to do?
0:51:23 > 0:51:25Oh, dear, oh, dear! Oh, my goodness!
0:51:25 > 0:51:27THE CHILDREN LAUGH
0:51:27 > 0:51:29Has anyone seen a chair about?
0:51:29 > 0:51:31ALL SHOUT: Behind you!
0:51:31 > 0:51:33Is it behind me? I'm just going to sit on this chair.
0:51:33 > 0:51:36- HORN HONKS - Oh, no, no, no!
0:51:36 > 0:51:38THE CHILDREN LAUGH
0:51:38 > 0:51:40Well, anyway, boys and girls, that's it for me.
0:51:40 > 0:51:42I want you all to say goodbye to me.
0:51:42 > 0:51:45Ahh! You going to say goodbye to Roger?
0:51:45 > 0:51:47ALL SHOUT: Bye, Roger!
0:51:47 > 0:51:50Did somebody say something?
0:51:50 > 0:51:53ALL SHOUT: Bye, Roger!
0:51:53 > 0:51:55YES, now it's my big finish!
0:51:55 > 0:52:01Clear the decks, I'm going to do a fantastic summersault!
0:52:01 > 0:52:02Here we go!
0:52:02 > 0:52:03Woo-woo!
0:52:03 > 0:52:05THE CHILDREN LAUGH
0:52:05 > 0:52:06Ha-ha-ha!
0:52:09 > 0:52:10THEY APPLAUD
0:52:11 > 0:52:16- DR LO LAUGHS - You see? Doesn't that help?
0:52:16 > 0:52:18(Ta-da!)
0:52:21 > 0:52:25Bleed. Suction.
0:52:25 > 0:52:29- Control it, please, Ms Naylor. - Yes, I'm trying.
0:52:29 > 0:52:30ALARM BEEPS
0:52:30 > 0:52:32- Ms Naylor!- I know. I know. Clamp, please.
0:52:35 > 0:52:37Another clamp, please.
0:52:43 > 0:52:45It's splitting everywhere.
0:52:45 > 0:52:48- Suture it.- I can't. The only thing stopping him from bleeding out
0:52:48 > 0:52:51- is me holding the tear together. - I see.
0:52:51 > 0:52:52Need a hand?
0:52:55 > 0:52:56Yes!
0:52:58 > 0:53:01Just be careful, it's tearing all over the place.
0:53:01 > 0:53:03Dacron graft and platform stool, please. 2-0 Prolene.
0:53:03 > 0:53:06- Can we adjust the clamp?- No, Sahira, don't touch the clamp -
0:53:06 > 0:53:08the aorta will tear before you can get a chance...
0:53:08 > 0:53:11- You just got to be quick on the draw.- Ms Shah...
0:53:11 > 0:53:13It's going to tear.
0:53:13 > 0:53:14Not if I can help it.
0:53:21 > 0:53:23Clamp off.
0:53:24 > 0:53:26Clamp on. There.
0:53:33 > 0:53:34Do you do patterns as well?
0:53:36 > 0:53:39- Thank you, Ms Shah. That was... - What you expected of me.
0:53:40 > 0:53:41Precisely.
0:53:41 > 0:53:43Dacron graft.
0:53:43 > 0:53:45Can I have five minutes?
0:53:45 > 0:53:47After you've finished closing up, of course.
0:53:58 > 0:54:01- Thought you might have done a runner. - I was considering it.
0:54:02 > 0:54:06- I got a call from my YOT liaison.- Yeah?
0:54:06 > 0:54:10Somebody called them. Said he was my mentor.
0:54:10 > 0:54:12He told them he'd stand up for me in court.
0:54:12 > 0:54:14Because of that, they're applying to have me order revoked.
0:54:14 > 0:54:19- Bloke sounds like a right do-gooder. I wouldn't trust him.- I would.
0:54:19 > 0:54:20I just don't get why he did it.
0:54:21 > 0:54:24Maybe he just thought everyone deserves a fresh start.
0:54:49 > 0:54:50Lucas, erm...
0:54:53 > 0:54:54Danny...
0:54:57 > 0:55:00- He's gone.- I know...
0:55:02 > 0:55:04I'm here though.
0:55:29 > 0:55:31KNOCK ON DOOR
0:56:05 > 0:56:09Ms Shah, if you're here to complain about being pulled from theatre...
0:56:09 > 0:56:12No. No, I'm not. I'm used to it.
0:56:13 > 0:56:16- Maybe that's the problem. - There's a problem, is there?
0:56:16 > 0:56:20You were the one who pointed out that we need to clarify things.
0:56:20 > 0:56:22- We need...- I- need equilibrium.
0:56:22 > 0:56:24I quite agree.
0:56:24 > 0:56:25I'm resigning, Henrik.
0:56:27 > 0:56:29Rafi and I have decided to move on.
0:56:29 > 0:56:31Together. He's been offered another job and I'm going with him.
0:56:33 > 0:56:35I see. Good day, Ms Shah.
0:56:42 > 0:56:43I need to find my own way...
0:56:43 > 0:56:48- You've chosen mediocrity.- No, I've chosen to live my life on my terms.
0:56:48 > 0:56:51Now, if that's mediocrity... Can you not see the problem?
0:56:53 > 0:56:56Clearly you've made a decision, I see no reason for justification.
0:56:56 > 0:56:58Good day.
0:57:01 > 0:57:02Thank you, Henrik.
0:57:12 > 0:57:14Kate, can you put this back, please?
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