0:00:42 > 0:00:46'Mr Hanssen has been making rather a lot of reckless decisions.'
0:00:46 > 0:00:51Can you honestly say you still have faith in him as a leader?
0:00:51 > 0:00:52No.
0:00:52 > 0:00:56- What? Is that more antibiotic? What are you doing? - We need to stop the bleed.
0:00:56 > 0:00:59Come on, Dean, fight, fight.
0:00:59 > 0:01:02You've just ended your career, Hemingway.
0:01:02 > 0:01:03We'll deal with him later.
0:01:11 > 0:01:13WHIRRING
0:01:32 > 0:01:36'The man disappeared off the face of the earth eight weeks ago.
0:01:36 > 0:01:38'I didn't really have much choice.
0:01:38 > 0:01:40'You can't just hack someone's inbox.
0:01:40 > 0:01:44'You're right. Turns out it's a tricky old business.
0:01:44 > 0:01:46'Took Ray from IT over a week.
0:01:46 > 0:01:48'Being Hanssen, of course it was double-encrypted.'
0:01:48 > 0:01:53But if I hadn't, we wouldn't even know this offer existed.
0:01:53 > 0:01:54This makes no sense.
0:01:54 > 0:01:57He wouldn't deliberately try and block a deal like this.
0:01:57 > 0:01:58Well, here are his emails,
0:01:58 > 0:02:01stretching back to last October.
0:02:01 > 0:02:05He has found 52 different ways to say no.
0:02:05 > 0:02:09One of the largest pharmaceutical companies in Sweden are offering
0:02:09 > 0:02:13us a £40 million partnership deal and he's trying to block it?
0:02:13 > 0:02:16- He's giving it a pretty good go. - What are the Swedes saying?
0:02:16 > 0:02:18They won't deal with anyone but Hanssen.
0:02:18 > 0:02:20- And Hanssen's... - Refusing to answer phone calls,
0:02:20 > 0:02:23emails or even good old-fashioned letters.
0:02:23 > 0:02:27Well, if I was in your shoes, I'd be on the first plane over there.
0:02:27 > 0:02:29Oh, I was hoping you'd say that.
0:02:29 > 0:02:32Unfortunately, I'm a tad too busy to just hop on a 747.
0:02:32 > 0:02:38I hear Stockholm's rather lovely. You a fan of herring?
0:02:38 > 0:02:41Why me?
0:02:41 > 0:02:45You bring home a deal like this, you can name your terms.
0:02:46 > 0:02:50Stockholm? What about your patients?
0:02:50 > 0:02:52I have to do what's best for the hospital as a whole.
0:02:52 > 0:02:54And this is an entirely altruistic mission?
0:02:54 > 0:02:57Nothing to do with furthering your career?
0:02:57 > 0:03:00You think that's the only thing I care about?
0:03:00 > 0:03:02'Glad you think so highly of me.
0:03:02 > 0:03:05'You know I do. It's Ms Campbell. I don't trust her.
0:03:05 > 0:03:08'At least she's here! Where's Hanssen? First sign of trouble and he disappears,'
0:03:08 > 0:03:12and now he's trying to do everything he can to screw us over.
0:03:12 > 0:03:15Sort of poetic justice, really, after the way we...
0:03:15 > 0:03:17Sorry. I didn't mean it like that.
0:03:19 > 0:03:21Yeah, you did.
0:03:36 > 0:03:39Luc? Please tell me you haven't been in here all night.
0:03:39 > 0:03:43With a blood sample, there's a viability window. I can't afford to waste time.
0:03:43 > 0:03:47We told you to go home and get some rest.
0:03:47 > 0:03:48You're in no fit state...
0:03:48 > 0:03:51Ten years' research and I finally manage my first live trial...
0:03:51 > 0:03:54- You gave a man an unlicensed drug! - Dean lived. You saw what happened.
0:03:54 > 0:03:57- This saved his life. - Well, you don't know that for sure.
0:04:02 > 0:04:05Luc, enough.
0:04:19 > 0:04:22CLASSICAL MUSIC PLAYS
0:04:38 > 0:04:41Hey, the only reason you are not in front of a GMC hearing now
0:04:41 > 0:04:44is that I have been given more second chances than anyone I know.
0:04:44 > 0:04:46You are punishing me for saving a patient's life.
0:04:46 > 0:04:50Er, for the record, it was the kidney removal that saved him.
0:04:50 > 0:04:53- And what if he hadn't made it?- "What if?" What kind of argument is that?
0:04:53 > 0:04:55- Luc, give me a break. I'm trying to help you. - I don't need your help.
0:04:55 > 0:05:00Hey, what happened in theatre, you think that was normal behaviour?
0:05:00 > 0:05:04Now here's what we're going to do. I want you to keep your job but you are going to do two things for me.
0:05:04 > 0:05:07- First, you are going to stay out of your lab until further notice. - Can't do that.
0:05:07 > 0:05:10Second, you see a professional. I don't need to know what your demons are.
0:05:10 > 0:05:15- I just need to know you're dealing with 'em.- A professional what? - He's expecting you at three.
0:05:15 > 0:05:20Show up, you get to keep your job and your lab. You don't, I will report you. It's your choice.
0:06:05 > 0:06:08- How's your coffee?- Hm?
0:06:09 > 0:06:11I grind it myself.
0:06:11 > 0:06:15Get it when I'm in London from a little place on Dean Street.
0:06:15 > 0:06:16Used to only drink Brazilian,
0:06:16 > 0:06:20but I'm trying out Ethiopia at the moment.
0:06:20 > 0:06:22Yirgacheffe.
0:06:23 > 0:06:26Life's too short for bad coffee, don't you think?
0:06:28 > 0:06:34Fair enough. No, as normalisers go, that was...that was pretty solid.
0:06:34 > 0:06:36Listen, I'll spare you the time and the effort.
0:06:36 > 0:06:40Never knew my father, although my mother managed to narrow it down to
0:06:40 > 0:06:43a US marine and a particle physicist she spent a week with in Mexico.
0:06:43 > 0:06:45"Tell me about your mother"?
0:06:45 > 0:06:48Well, she was an overdependent bipolar addict who had
0:06:48 > 0:06:51a series of disastrous boyfriends, only one of whom beat me
0:06:51 > 0:06:53and no, before you ask, no, there was no sexual element,
0:06:53 > 0:06:57sorry to disappoint, although he was fond of locking me in cupboards.
0:06:57 > 0:06:59Yes, my mother's sudden death
0:06:59 > 0:07:03when I was 19 was at the same time traumatic and a relief,
0:07:03 > 0:07:05but I've stopped feeling guilty about that a long time ago.
0:07:05 > 0:07:08And in answer to your first question,
0:07:08 > 0:07:13it's perfectly drinkable, but I suggest a lighter roast might be better suited to its acidity.
0:07:16 > 0:07:18Well...
0:07:20 > 0:07:24That only leaves us with another 50 minutes.
0:07:25 > 0:07:27So what'll we talk about next?
0:07:39 > 0:07:41HOOTS
0:07:41 > 0:07:42Come on!
0:08:00 > 0:08:02Woah!
0:08:02 > 0:08:04Watch where you're going!
0:08:11 > 0:08:13Mr Hanssen!
0:08:15 > 0:08:19What are you doing here? Have you been following me?
0:08:19 > 0:08:22Well, if you'd bothered to answer your door
0:08:22 > 0:08:24or the emails, or letters or phone calls...
0:08:24 > 0:08:25I am currently on leave.
0:08:25 > 0:08:27I believe that entitles me to a certain degree of privacy.
0:08:27 > 0:08:31- Don't you think you owe us all some answers? - I don't believe so, no.
0:08:31 > 0:08:34Why are you trying to block the Biotek proposal?
0:08:37 > 0:08:40I have no doubt it's made you feel very important being
0:08:40 > 0:08:42sent on this little errand, but I'm afraid you are
0:08:42 > 0:08:45out of your depth, so I'd suggest you turn around and go home.
0:08:45 > 0:08:47Sorry if it's been a wasted trip.
0:08:47 > 0:08:50I hope while you're here you'll have a little time to explore Stockholm.
0:08:50 > 0:08:52I particularly recommend the Vasa museum.
0:08:52 > 0:08:55- Wait...- Goodbye, Miss Naylor.
0:09:03 > 0:09:08It says in your notes that you received some counselling
0:09:08 > 0:09:11after you were discharged from the army.
0:09:11 > 0:09:12Does it?
0:09:12 > 0:09:14Was that for anything in particular?
0:09:14 > 0:09:16I was in the Army Medical Corps.
0:09:16 > 0:09:19There were things that happened that I'd rather forget.
0:09:19 > 0:09:21Where did these things happen?
0:09:21 > 0:09:24Why don't you just read what it says in the notes?
0:09:24 > 0:09:27- Humour me.- I think I've humoured you more than enough.
0:09:28 > 0:09:32- The incident in theatre.- Mm-hm?
0:09:32 > 0:09:37Something about that patient took you back to a particular time and place.
0:09:38 > 0:09:40I was just wondering...
0:09:40 > 0:09:44Bravo. Well done. You've cracked the code. I'm cured.
0:09:44 > 0:09:47I shall be recommending you to all my friends.
0:09:47 > 0:09:49Now perhaps you could tell my consultant I'm not a nut job.
0:09:49 > 0:09:51We've still got 30 minutes left.
0:09:51 > 0:09:55- I don't think we have anything more to discuss. - I think we're just getting started.
0:09:55 > 0:09:57Thank you for the coffee.
0:09:57 > 0:10:00Who was Elise Laurier?
0:10:02 > 0:10:05Read the notes. That's clearly where you got this.
0:10:05 > 0:10:06I'd rather hear it from you.
0:10:06 > 0:10:12- Why?- I'd just like you to tell me who she was. It's not a trick question.
0:10:12 > 0:10:17She was my wife. She was going to be my wife.
0:10:45 > 0:10:48Nils Johansson, please. Henrik Hanssen.
0:10:53 > 0:10:55This has gone quite far enough.
0:10:57 > 0:10:59Luc? Luc.
0:10:59 > 0:11:02How did it go? Yesterday?
0:11:02 > 0:11:05Fine. Fine. Sent me on my way. Told me I was fit to practise.
0:11:05 > 0:11:08So you can put the straitjacket away.
0:11:08 > 0:11:10Oh, great. Oh! By the way...
0:11:11 > 0:11:13Arrived this morning.
0:11:16 > 0:11:18Our Eddi's landed on her feet.
0:11:18 > 0:11:20I mean, no disrespect to Leeds,
0:11:20 > 0:11:23but if I wanted to find inner peace I think I'd probably head to...
0:11:23 > 0:11:25wherever that is.
0:11:25 > 0:11:26It's Kerala. In India.
0:11:29 > 0:11:31Anyway, it's not addressed to me.
0:11:31 > 0:11:34Why don't you just put it on the noticeboard?
0:11:35 > 0:11:37OK, this is Jelena.
0:11:37 > 0:11:40She fell down the stairs on a bus, possible head injury,
0:11:40 > 0:11:42oh, and she's cut her hand.
0:11:42 > 0:11:44Hello, Jelena. I'm Mr Hemingway.
0:11:44 > 0:11:47Could you tell me what happened, please?
0:11:48 > 0:11:52My shopping. On the...
0:11:52 > 0:11:56What's the word? I can't find it.
0:11:56 > 0:12:00You lost your shopping? Did anyone pick up her shopping?
0:12:00 > 0:12:03OK, Jelena. You may have left your shopping on the bus.
0:12:03 > 0:12:05Can you tell me was it a big weekly shop,
0:12:05 > 0:12:07or just a few little bits and bobs?
0:12:07 > 0:12:10I went to buy...
0:12:10 > 0:12:12I don't remember.
0:12:14 > 0:12:15- Fish...- Fish. A big fish.
0:12:15 > 0:12:19All right, she's confused, slurring, Eastern European.
0:12:19 > 0:12:21Tox screen perhaps?
0:12:21 > 0:12:24Just because she's Eastern European doesn't necessarily mean
0:12:24 > 0:12:25she's been hitting the vodka.
0:12:25 > 0:12:27All right, all right, we'll set up a head CT.
0:12:27 > 0:12:29Keep up the neuro obs just in case.
0:12:29 > 0:12:31And can someone stitch this hand, please?
0:12:31 > 0:12:32Sorry to interrupt, chaps.
0:12:32 > 0:12:35Wonder if I might borrow Mr Hemingway for a sec?
0:12:35 > 0:12:37Sure.
0:12:37 > 0:12:40A concerned scrub nurse told me you walked out of theatre
0:12:40 > 0:12:42having had a bit of a set-to with Michael, is this true?
0:12:42 > 0:12:44It was a misunderstanding.
0:12:44 > 0:12:48If Michael did cross a line, I hope you'd feel you could tell me?
0:12:48 > 0:12:51I have worked with him, so I know he can be a bit...
0:12:51 > 0:12:53excitable.
0:12:53 > 0:12:56It was me. I overreacted to something. You can forget about it.
0:12:56 > 0:12:57OK.
0:13:14 > 0:13:15What are you up to, Henrik?
0:13:39 > 0:13:40Hello, Nils.
0:14:00 > 0:14:03Why frequent a restaurant when you don't like the food?
0:14:03 > 0:14:06That's why. You get to look down on the world.
0:14:06 > 0:14:08But you're used to that, of course.
0:14:08 > 0:14:10Tack.
0:14:12 > 0:14:1625 years and you can't spare me an hour for lunch?
0:14:16 > 0:14:19I don't see any merit in pretending this is a social occasion.
0:14:19 > 0:14:23By the way, you know you speak Swedish with an English accent now?
0:14:23 > 0:14:24Just then with the waiter...
0:14:24 > 0:14:25You know why I'm here.
0:14:25 > 0:14:29Your "ar" sound is the giveaway. On the word Stannar.
0:14:31 > 0:14:34You remember how we used to tease you at Karolinska -
0:14:34 > 0:14:38what was it, the Swedish giant with the Danish surname
0:14:38 > 0:14:41and the English private school manners.
0:14:42 > 0:14:47Back when the world was young and I had a full head of hair...
0:14:47 > 0:14:50I've asked you repeatedly to stop contacting me.
0:14:50 > 0:14:52- But for some reason... - You know the reason.
0:14:53 > 0:14:55You're the managing director.
0:14:55 > 0:14:56It's his company.
0:14:58 > 0:15:01And I gave him my word I would do whatever it took.
0:15:01 > 0:15:03Then I'm afraid you're going to have to disappoint him.
0:15:03 > 0:15:06Please try to understand my position, Henrik.
0:15:06 > 0:15:08Right, how do we stop this?
0:15:11 > 0:15:15You have to talk to him. He's in the house on Tynningo.
0:15:15 > 0:15:16You know I won't do that.
0:15:16 > 0:15:19Well, in that case I guess we have a stalemate.
0:15:45 > 0:15:48- You seen Michael? - He's up on Keller.
0:15:48 > 0:15:51He has to let me back in my lab. I'm going to call him.
0:15:51 > 0:15:53Before you do...Jelena.
0:15:53 > 0:15:56You worked out which type of vodka it was yet?
0:15:56 > 0:15:58Tox screen's immaculate.
0:15:59 > 0:16:02All right. Not drunk on a bus. Head injury?
0:16:02 > 0:16:04CT's completely normal.
0:16:05 > 0:16:09- She still slurring, bewildered? - It's a little more than that.
0:16:09 > 0:16:12- And it's getting worse by the second. - You tracked down a relative?
0:16:12 > 0:16:14I left a message with the husband. He's on his way.
0:16:14 > 0:16:18All right, Jelena. Jelena, you may remember me from earlier.
0:16:18 > 0:16:20Mr Hemingway.
0:16:20 > 0:16:23Now the good news is you don't appear to have any kind of major head injury.
0:16:23 > 0:16:26- Get away from me!- It's all right, I just need to examine you.
0:16:26 > 0:16:29No, no, you want to cut me up.
0:16:29 > 0:16:33You want to kill me. I know why you're here.
0:16:33 > 0:16:35What you did to the others...
0:16:35 > 0:16:37I'm a doctor, I just want to...
0:16:37 > 0:16:40You're going to kill me! You want to kill me!
0:16:40 > 0:16:44Sklonite ga od mene!
0:16:52 > 0:16:54Hello.
0:16:54 > 0:16:56- Mr Johansson?- Yes.
0:16:56 > 0:16:58Jac Naylor.
0:16:58 > 0:17:00- Sorry. Should I... - I'm from Holby City Hospital.
0:17:00 > 0:17:02I'm sorry to turn up unannounced like this,
0:17:02 > 0:17:05but we've had no luck getting hold of you via phone or email...
0:17:05 > 0:17:08We just wanted to demonstrate how committed we are to making this deal work.
0:17:08 > 0:17:11Maybe we could go to your office and discuss the details?
0:17:11 > 0:17:13Sorry, what did you say your name was again?
0:17:13 > 0:17:14Jac Naylor.
0:17:49 > 0:17:51Well, have a seat.
0:17:54 > 0:17:56Oh. Your son?
0:17:56 > 0:18:00Fredrik. He graduated from medical school this summer.
0:18:00 > 0:18:02Top of his class.
0:18:02 > 0:18:04You must be very proud.
0:18:04 > 0:18:07So your role at Holby City is...?
0:18:07 > 0:18:10Deputy director of surgery.
0:18:10 > 0:18:12So you and Henrik must work quite closely together?
0:18:12 > 0:18:16Yes. Very close. Finish each other's sentences.
0:18:16 > 0:18:19And you have discussed our proposal with him?
0:18:19 > 0:18:21He's filled me in on the basics.
0:18:21 > 0:18:23And can I ask you,
0:18:23 > 0:18:27do you get the sense he's committed to making this deal work?
0:18:27 > 0:18:31You know Henrik. You can never really tell what he's thinking.
0:18:31 > 0:18:34Let me ask you another question.
0:18:34 > 0:18:37Does he have any idea that you're here?
0:18:40 > 0:18:43Look. You and I both want to make this deal work.
0:18:43 > 0:18:48But Mr Hanssen's been on leave for nearly two months and no-one knows why.
0:18:48 > 0:18:51So perhaps he's not the person you should be dealing with on this.
0:18:51 > 0:18:54Well, I'm afraid he's the only person I can deal with on this.
0:18:54 > 0:18:58That makes no sense. You want to set up a partnership with the hospital, not with Mr Hanssen, so...
0:18:58 > 0:19:02Whatever you or I think of this proposal makes no difference.
0:19:02 > 0:19:07There are matters that can only be resolved between Mr Hanssen and our chairman, Mr Lovborg.
0:19:07 > 0:19:08Matters? What do you mean, matters?
0:19:08 > 0:19:14Mr Hanssen has certain...issues with our chairman that are personal.
0:19:14 > 0:19:16And it's not for me to discuss them.
0:19:31 > 0:19:36Stannar. Stann-ar.
0:19:36 > 0:19:39I'm here to see Mr Lovborg, please.
0:20:32 > 0:20:36Paranoia, hallucinations, fever, rapid decline...
0:20:36 > 0:20:37Stroke?
0:20:37 > 0:20:41Could be a stroke, could be an infection, could be meningitis, could be...
0:20:41 > 0:20:43Excuse me, Mr Levy?
0:20:48 > 0:20:50- Mr H!- Hi, Branko.
0:20:50 > 0:20:53I'm so pleased to see that the rumours are not true.
0:20:53 > 0:20:55What rumours?
0:20:55 > 0:20:59The word amongst the porters is that you've gone a bit loco.
0:20:59 > 0:21:02- What? - You know Fat Alan? The Chinese guy?
0:21:02 > 0:21:03I know Alan.
0:21:03 > 0:21:07He said you'd been living in your lab, not changing your clothes...
0:21:07 > 0:21:09We were all a bit worried. But you're OK?
0:21:09 > 0:21:11Do I look crazy to you?
0:21:11 > 0:21:12No more than usual.
0:21:12 > 0:21:14There we are, then.
0:21:14 > 0:21:18Actually, I am not here today as a porter.
0:21:18 > 0:21:20You're moonlighting as a neurosurgeon?
0:21:20 > 0:21:23Mr Levy left me a message. My wife is a patient here.
0:21:23 > 0:21:25She fell over on a bus and hurt her hand.
0:21:25 > 0:21:29Her name is Jelena. But if you tell me which bed number...
0:21:29 > 0:21:32Yeah, I will, I will, it's Bed 1. I'll take you, Branko.
0:21:32 > 0:21:34Jelena!
0:21:39 > 0:21:41Who are you?
0:21:42 > 0:21:44Jelena.
0:21:44 > 0:21:49Who is this man? Get him away from me.
0:22:07 > 0:22:09Henrik?
0:22:21 > 0:22:24I was sorry to hear that you've been unwell.
0:22:24 > 0:22:25Were you?
0:22:25 > 0:22:31You weren't relieved to know that you were finally going to be rid of the old man?
0:22:31 > 0:22:34I trust you haven't been in too much pain?
0:22:35 > 0:22:41I have my personal angel - she administers soup with one hand
0:22:41 > 0:22:44and morphine with the other.
0:22:44 > 0:22:48All men should be lucky enough to have a woman like her in their life.
0:22:48 > 0:22:51In fact, she should be here any minute now.
0:22:53 > 0:22:56I think you'll like her.
0:22:57 > 0:23:00Would you please withdraw this ludicrous deal...
0:23:00 > 0:23:02I wouldn't call it ludicrous.
0:23:02 > 0:23:08Given the year you've had, I thought you'd be glad of a lifeline.
0:23:08 > 0:23:11Please don't presume to know what sort of year I've had.
0:23:11 > 0:23:15An implant scandal, a patient who dies in a van!
0:23:15 > 0:23:21Then you decide to criticise your government on national television.
0:23:21 > 0:23:22Henrik.
0:23:23 > 0:23:27I thought you were a man of good judgment...
0:23:27 > 0:23:29My career is no concern of yours.
0:23:29 > 0:23:34You know, you're worth a great deal more than a mediocre British hospital
0:23:34 > 0:23:37that doesn't even seem to appreciate you.
0:23:37 > 0:23:41If it's so mediocre, then why are you trying to throw money at it?
0:23:41 > 0:23:4530 years of unanswered letters.
0:23:45 > 0:23:49I had to find some way to get through to you.
0:23:49 > 0:23:52And you were prepared to spend 40 million.
0:23:52 > 0:23:57I am a sick man who wanted to see my son.
0:23:58 > 0:24:01Well, I'm here now. Not through choice.
0:24:01 > 0:24:05But because effectively you blackmailed me into coming.
0:24:05 > 0:24:07So you've achieved your aim.
0:24:07 > 0:24:08Now, perhaps, you will call off the deal.
0:24:08 > 0:24:13The deal is irrelevant. I don't care about that.
0:24:13 > 0:24:15It was to get you here.
0:24:17 > 0:24:22I don't have long and I need to put my affairs in order.
0:24:23 > 0:24:28I'm leaving you everything. This house.
0:24:28 > 0:24:31Everything in it.
0:24:31 > 0:24:33And of course the company.
0:24:35 > 0:24:37So that's why you brought me here?
0:24:39 > 0:24:41To offer me this blood money?
0:24:43 > 0:24:45Henrik!
0:24:45 > 0:24:47HENRIK!
0:24:47 > 0:24:50I have to get back to the city straightaway, I'm afraid.
0:25:00 > 0:25:05- Yeah, his name is Anders Lovborg. - And?- That's all I've got so far.
0:25:05 > 0:25:09But Hanssen wouldn't be blocking this deal unless it was something pretty serious.
0:25:09 > 0:25:13What could possibly be worth losing £40 million over?
0:25:13 > 0:25:17I'm sure the board'll be very interested to know he's blocking this deal for personal reasons.
0:25:17 > 0:25:19You can't do that.
0:25:19 > 0:25:21He's an obstruction.
0:25:21 > 0:25:26The last time he became a liability, there were only a few of us who were prepared to stand up and say so.
0:25:26 > 0:25:29Come on, Jac, you don't wimp out on tough decisions
0:25:29 > 0:25:32because of some misguided sense of loyalty.
0:25:33 > 0:25:38- Look, why don't I see what else I can find out?- Fine.
0:25:54 > 0:25:56They will kill me.
0:25:56 > 0:25:59But if God didn't mean us to smoke,
0:25:59 > 0:26:01then why did he make these things so damn tasty?
0:26:03 > 0:26:05We've done a lumbar puncture.
0:26:05 > 0:26:07We think it could be bacterial meningitis,
0:26:07 > 0:26:09but we'll have to run more tests.
0:26:11 > 0:26:13You will figure it out.
0:26:13 > 0:26:15My wife could not be in better hands.
0:26:17 > 0:26:21This is our house. The Bay of Mlini, near Dubrovnik.
0:26:21 > 0:26:24We used to live there before... before we came to England.
0:26:24 > 0:26:28But I always promised Jelena we would go back one day.
0:26:28 > 0:26:32The war destroyed almost everything, as wars do...
0:26:32 > 0:26:35It left only two walls standing.
0:26:35 > 0:26:40But me and Jelena, we worked six days a week for 20 years,
0:26:40 > 0:26:43and every year we go back for a month and fix a bit more.
0:26:43 > 0:26:46Two weeks ago, we finally finished.
0:26:46 > 0:26:50Six months, we said, and we will go back for good.
0:26:51 > 0:26:55I always had faith we would go back together.
0:26:55 > 0:26:57Always. And I still do.
0:26:57 > 0:27:00BEEPING
0:27:01 > 0:27:02Is that Jelena?
0:27:04 > 0:27:05She's had a seizure.
0:27:08 > 0:27:10So how long have you been back for?
0:27:10 > 0:27:13A while.
0:27:13 > 0:27:14I never thought you'd come.
0:27:14 > 0:27:17It's two months since I got the nurse to call you.
0:27:17 > 0:27:19It was a last-minute decision.
0:27:21 > 0:27:23You couldn't have warned us that you were coming?
0:27:23 > 0:27:25How could I know you'd be his doctor?
0:27:25 > 0:27:27Nils gave no indication at all.
0:27:27 > 0:27:31And before you ask, no, I don't cook and shop for all my patients.
0:27:31 > 0:27:32He's a special case.
0:27:32 > 0:27:35He could easily afford someone to cook for him.
0:27:35 > 0:27:37Of course he could.
0:27:37 > 0:27:42- But the last thing he wants is a lot of strangers fussing around him. - It's more than he deserves.
0:27:46 > 0:27:48Still?
0:27:48 > 0:27:50Even now?
0:27:50 > 0:27:53I must get back to the city.
0:27:58 > 0:28:01So that's it? You're just going to leave like that?
0:28:01 > 0:28:04It was a mistake. I should never have come here.
0:28:04 > 0:28:05Stop. Just stop.
0:28:10 > 0:28:1625 years... Don't you think you at least owe me a coffee?
0:28:22 > 0:28:25Wait! Wait! Stop. Where are you taking her?
0:28:25 > 0:28:28- ITU.- No. I wanted to run more tests. MRI, full bloods...
0:28:28 > 0:28:30- She's not your patient any more. - Of course she is.
0:28:30 > 0:28:32Jelena's in a coma. She needs to be on ITU.
0:28:32 > 0:28:34- I'll go with her. - What are you doing?
0:28:34 > 0:28:37- These people have put their trust in me. I have a duty... - You're not the only doctor here.
0:28:37 > 0:28:39Why won't you just let me do my job?
0:28:41 > 0:28:44Can you excuse us a second? Hm?
0:28:47 > 0:28:49I think you just answered your own question.
0:28:49 > 0:28:52I wasn't going to do this here, but Jerry tells me
0:28:52 > 0:28:56- you walked out halfway through your first appointment yesterday. - We were done.- No.
0:28:56 > 0:28:59He gets to decide when you're done. Not you.
0:28:59 > 0:29:03- Now he's got a slot for you today at 1.30. Be there. - It's a waste of time.
0:29:03 > 0:29:06Don't push me, Luc. You are hanging on by a thread here.
0:29:06 > 0:29:12You care about your job. You care about your project. I want to help you keep both. 1.30.
0:29:12 > 0:29:14All right.
0:29:15 > 0:29:18Mr H, don't worry. You've done what you can.
0:29:18 > 0:29:21She'll be fine. I know.
0:29:37 > 0:29:38Thank you.
0:29:43 > 0:29:47You know, he's not the man you always described to me.
0:29:48 > 0:29:52See, I was expecting this...monster.
0:29:52 > 0:29:55And at first I didn't even want to be in the same room as him...
0:29:55 > 0:29:58But then he offered your husband a lucrative job.
0:29:58 > 0:30:01But then, over the years I got to know him.
0:30:02 > 0:30:04And I realised he isn't a monster at all.
0:30:04 > 0:30:07If this is an attempt to tug at my heartstrings...
0:30:07 > 0:30:10Of course it isn't. That would assume you HAVE a heart.
0:30:13 > 0:30:14Sorry...
0:30:14 > 0:30:17Sorry. I'm not upset, I'm not.
0:30:17 > 0:30:21And don't think any of this still bothers me. It doesn't.
0:30:23 > 0:30:27I am happy. I have a wonderful life.
0:30:27 > 0:30:28I'm pleased for you.
0:30:31 > 0:30:39Are you? Well, thank you, Henrik. I'm really touched by your warm words.
0:30:40 > 0:30:45Anyway, for his sake, I'm glad you came to make your peace in the end.
0:30:45 > 0:30:49I didn't come to make my peace. I came because he blackmailed me
0:30:49 > 0:30:50into coming with this ridiculous deal.
0:30:50 > 0:30:53Well, how else was he supposed to get you here?
0:30:53 > 0:30:55An emotional appeal was hardly going to work, was it?
0:30:55 > 0:30:58Emotions really don't come into it.
0:30:58 > 0:31:02The only thing he cares about is his legacy.
0:31:02 > 0:31:05You know, for a man who is supposed to be so intelligent,
0:31:05 > 0:31:07you can be quite unbelievably stupid.
0:31:07 > 0:31:10This is not about the company or the deal.
0:31:10 > 0:31:14This is about a sick old man who just wants his son to forgive him.
0:31:14 > 0:31:17And he hasn't got long.
0:31:17 > 0:31:20He'll be dead in a week, two at the most.
0:31:38 > 0:31:41Hi. I need to use a computer, please.
0:31:46 > 0:31:48Thank you.
0:32:11 > 0:32:13Tack.
0:32:25 > 0:32:29- You still have the apartment on Sankt Paulsgatan?- Mmm.
0:32:29 > 0:32:32I don't suppose my mural is still there?
0:32:32 > 0:32:35I had it painted over years ago. I'd forgotten all about it.
0:32:38 > 0:32:39Will you come inside?
0:32:39 > 0:32:41I have nothing more to say to him.
0:32:41 > 0:32:45- You've got 35 years' worth of... - You know what he did.
0:32:45 > 0:32:48Yes. He made one terrible mistake,
0:32:48 > 0:32:50and he's been paying for it ever since.
0:32:50 > 0:32:53- He's not the one who paid for it. - He's still your father.
0:32:53 > 0:32:57As far as I'm concerned, my father died when I was 16.
0:32:57 > 0:33:02Just because a son has a different name to his father doesn't make him any less his son, does it?
0:33:05 > 0:33:09How can you stand there and judge him after what you did to us?
0:33:09 > 0:33:11It's an entirely different situation.
0:33:11 > 0:33:15Yes. He didn't abandon a pregnant woman.
0:33:18 > 0:33:21Is there really any point in us raking over the past?
0:33:21 > 0:33:23It's not about the past, though, Henrik, is it?
0:33:24 > 0:33:29We are both here, right now, living it. Present tense.
0:33:31 > 0:33:32I forgave you.
0:33:34 > 0:33:39And it might have taken a long time, and I'm still not sure I understand...
0:33:41 > 0:33:42..but I did.
0:33:44 > 0:33:45So why can't you forgive him?
0:33:48 > 0:33:51I never told you how my mother died, did I?
0:33:53 > 0:33:54After my father's betrayal,
0:33:54 > 0:33:58she filled her pockets with stones one night, she walked into that
0:33:58 > 0:34:03water right there, and she kept on walking until the current took her.
0:34:07 > 0:34:09That, I'm afraid, I can't forgive.
0:34:50 > 0:34:54- Has there been anyone else since Elise?- God, yeah.
0:34:54 > 0:34:59The last decade's pretty much been a non-stop marathon of frenzied copulation.
0:34:59 > 0:35:02- Why are you evading the question? - Because it's irrelevant.
0:35:02 > 0:35:06What is? Love? Relationships?
0:35:06 > 0:35:08Shall I just put "Not applicable"?
0:35:08 > 0:35:12The last time I tried dipping my toe in that particular water,
0:35:12 > 0:35:15I came very close to destroying someone.
0:35:15 > 0:35:17That convinced me beyond any doubt
0:35:17 > 0:35:19that I have a moral obligation to be alone.
0:35:19 > 0:35:23And this someone... were you in love with them?
0:35:23 > 0:35:24Love's just a chemical reaction.
0:35:24 > 0:35:28A combination of adrenaline, dopamine and serotonin. It's completely illogical.
0:35:28 > 0:35:30Does it have to be logical?
0:35:30 > 0:35:33Why voluntarily subject yourself to a situation that you know
0:35:33 > 0:35:36ultimately will only end in pain and suffering?
0:35:36 > 0:35:38- Best to avoid it altogether? - Absolutely.
0:35:38 > 0:35:43Even though it might mean you never get to live life at all?
0:35:43 > 0:35:45All right, I'll give you an example.
0:35:45 > 0:35:48I had a patient today, this woman and her husband.
0:35:48 > 0:35:51They have wasted 20 years of their lives dreaming of
0:35:51 > 0:35:54their little cottage in Croatia, but they are never going to make it there
0:35:54 > 0:35:59because now he's going to have to stand there and watch her die.
0:35:59 > 0:36:02You really hate losing patients, don't you?
0:36:02 > 0:36:04Yes, it's one of my quirks.
0:36:06 > 0:36:10A curious thing happened back in the mid '80s.
0:36:10 > 0:36:15Psychs all over the country had this sudden influx of men in their 60s.
0:36:15 > 0:36:24Men who had lived these quiet, ordinary lives hit retirement age, and suddenly fell to pieces.
0:36:26 > 0:36:29- Why would that be?- I have no idea.
0:36:29 > 0:36:32They were veterans of the war.
0:36:32 > 0:36:34They'd carried their nightmares around with them
0:36:34 > 0:36:40for 40 years, but their working lives had held them at bay.
0:36:40 > 0:36:43Until...the day they stopped.
0:36:46 > 0:36:49- Of course.- What?
0:36:49 > 0:36:50Their house in Croatia -
0:36:50 > 0:36:53Mlini's near a forest, they were there two weeks ago.
0:36:53 > 0:36:56It would have been absolutely rife. That's what's wrong with her.
0:36:56 > 0:36:57Where are you going?
0:36:58 > 0:37:00Thank you.
0:37:51 > 0:37:55- Mr H...- Your house near Dubrovnik. It's near a forest, right? - Yes, very near.
0:37:55 > 0:37:58And I bet you get those really irritating little ticks that
0:37:58 > 0:38:00- suck the blood right out of your legs, yes?- Yes.
0:38:00 > 0:38:02I knew it. Right, we need a blood sample.
0:38:02 > 0:38:04Mr Hemingway?
0:38:04 > 0:38:06Tick-borne encephalitis. Makes perfect sense.
0:38:06 > 0:38:09We just need to identify the right antibodies to the virus in her blood.
0:38:09 > 0:38:12It's not over yet, Branko. I am not letting her go.
0:38:33 > 0:38:35DOORBELL RINGS
0:38:48 > 0:38:51No... No, I have to save her, I have to save her.
0:38:57 > 0:39:00We need to talk about Anders Lovborg.
0:39:01 > 0:39:03ALARM SOUNDS
0:39:08 > 0:39:13- Mr Hemingway. Mr Hemingway! - Calm down! Calm down, now.
0:39:15 > 0:39:21- Love what you've done with the place, you've really made it your own.- You have two minutes.
0:39:21 > 0:39:23Nils Johansson says you're blocking the deal
0:39:23 > 0:39:27- because you have a grudge against Anders Lovborg. - Rather more than a grudge.
0:39:27 > 0:39:32- Well, whatever it is...- Have you any idea what kind of man he is?
0:39:32 > 0:39:35He's not the only scientist to ever make use of that data.
0:39:35 > 0:39:38There's always been a code of honour among scientists,
0:39:38 > 0:39:41that the methods by which that data was achieved render it unusable.
0:39:41 > 0:39:44By rights, it should have been destroyed.
0:39:44 > 0:39:47But he took some of the most unspeakable atrocities ever committed,
0:39:47 > 0:39:50- and used them for his own glory. - It was 30 years ago.
0:39:50 > 0:39:5236. And you've one minute left.
0:39:54 > 0:39:59Since then, he's built a company which has helped God knows how many thousands of people.
0:39:59 > 0:40:02The man made ONE mistake.
0:40:02 > 0:40:05Because of that, you're going to sabotage the future of the hospital,
0:40:05 > 0:40:09- sabotage your own career... - You've obviously done your homework.
0:40:09 > 0:40:14I wonder, did you find out anything about Lovborg's wife during your research?
0:40:14 > 0:40:15His wife?
0:40:15 > 0:40:21Did you know that 8,000 Danish Jews escaped to Sweden during the war?
0:40:21 > 0:40:25Lovborg's wife was one of them, when she was nine years old.
0:40:25 > 0:40:29Her elder brother, sadly, was not so lucky.
0:40:29 > 0:40:33Her name, if you'd bothered to look it up, was Elizabet Hanssen.
0:40:33 > 0:40:39She had the misfortune to marry Anders Lovborg. They even had a son.
0:40:40 > 0:40:42A son who took his mother's name when he was 16
0:40:42 > 0:40:45in the hope that nobody would ever know who his father was.
0:40:49 > 0:40:52- What were you thinking?- I was trying to save a patient's life.
0:40:52 > 0:40:55- By locking that door, you put that life in danger... - Luc, I didn't have a choice.
0:40:55 > 0:40:58I told you to stay out of that lab and I knew you wouldn't be able to.
0:40:58 > 0:41:00I've just had a call from Security.
0:41:02 > 0:41:06I, er... I needed to do some urgent blood tests.
0:41:06 > 0:41:10Sorry, I'm probably just being thick, but why had your lab been padlocked in the first place?
0:41:10 > 0:41:13Well, given the sensitive nature of Mr Hemingway's research,
0:41:13 > 0:41:16- don't you think it makes sense to keep the samples locked up? - That makes perfect sense.
0:41:16 > 0:41:20What doesn't make sense is why Mr Hemingway doesn't have a key to his own lab.
0:41:23 > 0:41:25He was trying to protect me.
0:41:26 > 0:41:31- So the entire deal was a red herring, it was just to get you out here?- So it would seem.
0:41:31 > 0:41:35- Why didn't you just say so? - Because it was nobody else's business but mine.
0:41:35 > 0:41:37And would have remained so if someone hadn't seen fit
0:41:37 > 0:41:41to smash into my private emails like a common burglar.
0:41:41 > 0:41:44Serena was only acting in the hospital's interests.
0:41:44 > 0:41:46Oh, yes, of course she was.
0:41:46 > 0:41:49And you were only obeying orders.
0:41:49 > 0:41:51You'd just disappeared.
0:41:51 > 0:41:55Have you ever tried to disappear? It isn't easy.
0:41:55 > 0:41:57I don't give Lovborg credit for much,
0:41:57 > 0:42:02but vanishing off the face of the earth for three months takes effort.
0:42:02 > 0:42:03Why would you want to disappear?
0:42:05 > 0:42:07Have you never wanted to escape?
0:42:09 > 0:42:12Feel that weightlessness one normally feels only in water?
0:42:14 > 0:42:17Finally feel...truly free?
0:42:21 > 0:42:22I'd like nothing more.
0:42:24 > 0:42:26Are you coming back?
0:42:27 > 0:42:29No.
0:42:29 > 0:42:30Why would I want to come back?
0:42:30 > 0:42:34To a mediocre British hospital that has no faith in my leadership?
0:42:35 > 0:42:37Because I don't want to work at a hospital
0:42:37 > 0:42:41that cares more about making money than treating patients.
0:42:41 > 0:42:46Because you're crazy enough to stick your head above the parapet when it counts.
0:42:46 > 0:42:51Well...we know what happens to people who stick their heads above the parapet, don't we?
0:42:56 > 0:42:57It was me.
0:42:59 > 0:43:01I was the one who stabbed you in the back.
0:43:01 > 0:43:05I told Cunningham I had no faith in your leadership, but I was wrong.
0:43:08 > 0:43:11Is that the real reason you came to Sweden? For absolution?
0:43:15 > 0:43:18I did something wrong, and I had to try and put it right.
0:43:26 > 0:43:29I'm very sorry, Mr Hemingway, but as you know I have no choice
0:43:29 > 0:43:31but to suspend you with immediate effect.
0:43:31 > 0:43:35You're to have absolutely no contact with any patients until further notice.
0:43:35 > 0:43:40Any violation of these terms and I will have to report you to the General Medical Council.
0:43:40 > 0:43:43- What about my research project? - What about it?
0:43:43 > 0:43:47My fellowship's entirely distinct from my contract as a doctor, I assume there's no reason...
0:43:47 > 0:43:52Luc, you must see that in all conscience we can't let your project continue.
0:43:52 > 0:43:57I'm afraid that as far as this hospital is concerned, it's game over.
0:43:57 > 0:43:59- MOBILE RINGS - Excuse me.
0:44:04 > 0:44:05Hi.
0:44:05 > 0:44:09I've looked up everything I can on this Lovborg character, but I'm still drawing a bit of a blank.
0:44:09 > 0:44:14Right, where does that leave us? What exactly do you suggest we do now?
0:44:14 > 0:44:16I suggest we trust Mr Hanssen's judgment.
0:44:25 > 0:44:27My mother always loved this time of year.
0:44:30 > 0:44:32Tack.
0:44:32 > 0:44:34She used to look forward to the first snow of winter, because
0:44:34 > 0:44:39she said that it would reflect the moon and lighten the darkness.
0:44:42 > 0:44:45We used to sit by the window, and wait.
0:44:48 > 0:44:52Wait, for that first snowflake.
0:44:57 > 0:44:59Why am I here, Henrik?
0:45:01 > 0:45:03Earlier this afternoon, it occurred to me that you had had
0:45:03 > 0:45:08the grace to forgive me, but I'd done nothing to earn that forgiveness.
0:45:08 > 0:45:14I've never apologised for my actions, nor made any attempt to explain them.
0:45:14 > 0:45:20So, I would be grateful if you would consider this a retrospective apology.
0:45:26 > 0:45:30Well, you're about 25 years late.
0:45:30 > 0:45:32That fact notwithstanding.
0:45:34 > 0:45:38- That's it?- Quite so.
0:45:38 > 0:45:40And what about the explanation?
0:45:47 > 0:45:51Perhaps my father's true legacy is that
0:45:51 > 0:45:57he proved to me beyond any doubt that, finally,
0:45:57 > 0:46:00love is a source of cruelty and destruction.
0:46:01 > 0:46:09So I vowed to myself that I would never risk putting anyone that I loved through...
0:46:12 > 0:46:15Of failing them in that way.
0:46:15 > 0:46:21So you walked away. Before he was even born.
0:46:21 > 0:46:24I set you free. You, and...
0:46:26 > 0:46:27Fredrik.
0:46:29 > 0:46:31His name is Fredrik.
0:46:36 > 0:46:40I think it's the best decision I could have made.
0:46:40 > 0:46:44Nils is far more suited to all this than I ever would have been.
0:46:46 > 0:46:50Will you please tell me one thing?
0:46:51 > 0:46:57After you left, did you ever think of us?
0:46:59 > 0:47:00Even once?
0:47:02 > 0:47:03Shall I just...
0:47:03 > 0:47:05No. No, Henrik. Please.
0:47:08 > 0:47:13- At least come with me to the archipelago, to say goodbye. - I have nothing to say to him.
0:47:20 > 0:47:22- He asked me not to tell you. - Tell me what?
0:47:23 > 0:47:27- I promised I wouldn't. - Tell me what, Maja?
0:47:29 > 0:47:30It was your mother.
0:47:32 > 0:47:35She told him to use the research.
0:47:35 > 0:47:37He didn't want to, but...
0:47:37 > 0:47:42she thought it might mean that her brother's death hadn't been worthless.
0:47:48 > 0:47:51- So why did she...? - She thought he was dead.
0:47:53 > 0:47:55That's why. Not because he betrayed her
0:47:55 > 0:48:01but because she didn't know how to live without him.
0:48:04 > 0:48:06I don't believe you.
0:48:32 > 0:48:34How am I supposed to go until I know she's OK?
0:48:34 > 0:48:37You are only one man, and you can't save the world.
0:49:47 > 0:49:50I heard they have suspended you. I'm sorry.
0:49:50 > 0:49:52You're not the one who should be sorry.
0:49:52 > 0:49:56- What are you talking about? You figured it out. - I should've diagnosed her sooner.
0:49:56 > 0:49:59- The neuro said it's incredibly rare...- That's no excuse.
0:49:59 > 0:50:02- He's only ever seen one, maybe two cases...- You trusted me.
0:50:02 > 0:50:06Please. You cannot blame yourself.
0:50:06 > 0:50:11And we don't even know yet what her prognosis is. She could make a full recovery.
0:50:11 > 0:50:16How can you be so calm? Your wife is lying there in a coma.
0:50:18 > 0:50:19What else can I do?
0:50:19 > 0:50:23- Why aren't you angry? - Who should I be angry with? God?
0:50:23 > 0:50:27- Yes, God. Yes - if that's who you believe in. - Why should I be angry with God?
0:50:27 > 0:50:30Why did he let you meet this woman in the first place?
0:50:30 > 0:50:34Why did he let you fall in love with her, if he knew it was going to end like this?
0:50:34 > 0:50:39Even if I knew on the day when I met her
0:50:39 > 0:50:44that I would feel this pain now, I would change nothing.
0:50:44 > 0:50:48- It's a very small price to pay. - No...- I feel no anger.
0:50:48 > 0:50:51No. You can't just accept this. You trusted me to save her, and I failed her.
0:50:51 > 0:50:55I failed her. Why can't you see that, Branko? I have failed her.
0:50:56 > 0:51:00Failed who? Mm?
0:51:02 > 0:51:05I know what it is to have nightmares, my friend.
0:51:06 > 0:51:11And you look like a man who hasn't slept in a long, long time.
0:51:31 > 0:51:32KNOCK AT DOOR
0:51:39 > 0:51:41Have you got any more of that Ethiopian coffee?
0:52:16 > 0:52:17Is it true?
0:52:23 > 0:52:26What difference does it make now?
0:52:27 > 0:52:29Why didn't you tell me?
0:52:31 > 0:52:33I never wanted you to hate her.
0:52:35 > 0:52:37You couldn't have saved her.
0:52:37 > 0:52:42She always felt things so deeply.
0:52:45 > 0:52:47HE SPEAKS SWEDISH:
0:53:13 > 0:53:16She was a fellow medic. Elise.
0:53:16 > 0:53:18No-one knew we were together.
0:53:18 > 0:53:20Against army rules. But we were...
0:53:24 > 0:53:30Anyway, she had this... rare blood abnormality. It didn't clot the way that it should.
0:53:30 > 0:53:34I didn't know this. I didn't know this until
0:53:34 > 0:53:37she was shot in the stomach. Surprise attack,
0:53:37 > 0:53:41she wasn't even supposed to be with them, but they were a person short.
0:53:41 > 0:53:42When they brought her in...
0:53:46 > 0:53:52When they brought her in, I'd been drinking. I was drunk.
0:53:52 > 0:53:58And...I couldn't operate, they wouldn't let me...
0:53:58 > 0:54:01I...I couldn't save her.
0:54:03 > 0:54:05She...
0:54:05 > 0:54:10she bled to death on the table, and I couldn't save her.
0:54:13 > 0:54:14I couldn't save her.
0:55:09 > 0:55:13I wonder if you would see that he's buried near my mother, please.
0:55:13 > 0:55:17- You're not staying for the funeral? - No.
0:55:17 > 0:55:19You should also know that I'll be instructing my lawyers
0:55:19 > 0:55:22to transfer full ownership of the company to you.
0:55:23 > 0:55:25Why?
0:55:25 > 0:55:27It was never really mine in the first place.
0:55:29 > 0:55:33And you've taken excellent care of things for the last 25 years.
0:55:33 > 0:55:35I've no doubt you'll continue to do so.
0:55:38 > 0:55:42Perhaps you could use some of the money to set up a trust
0:55:42 > 0:55:44for your son.
0:55:48 > 0:55:50Well... Thank you.
0:56:07 > 0:56:12You know, Fredrik is coming down from Uppsala this weekend,
0:56:13 > 0:56:16and Nils and I wondered... perhaps you'd like to meet him?
0:56:25 > 0:56:26Another time, perhaps?
0:56:29 > 0:56:31Another time.
0:56:36 > 0:56:38You asked me a question.
0:56:40 > 0:56:42- Did I?- At the cafe.
0:56:45 > 0:56:47The answer's every day.
0:56:50 > 0:56:52Every day.
0:57:29 > 0:57:33'Dear Sacha. I decided to take your advice.
0:57:33 > 0:57:37'Something I'm not generally good at doing.
0:57:37 > 0:57:39'You told me to go home,
0:57:39 > 0:57:43'only home's something I've never really had in the conventional sense,
0:57:43 > 0:57:48'so I decided to do something else, to take a leap of faith.
0:57:48 > 0:57:52'I'm going to spend some time doing nothing.
0:57:52 > 0:57:55'Maybe find a lagoon somewhere. I hear Kerala's nice.
0:57:57 > 0:58:03'I've spent far too long inside my own head, and that's never a good place to be.
0:58:04 > 0:58:08'So, I'm going to try something radical.
0:58:12 > 0:58:13'I'm going to live.'
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