0:00:38 > 0:00:41Daniel doesn't have a hole in his heart.
0:00:41 > 0:00:42You didn't know?
0:00:42 > 0:00:46Put my son Daniel under anaesthetic, knowing the increased risk,
0:00:46 > 0:00:48just to give your daughter a chance.
0:00:48 > 0:00:50He needs to be in overnight for observation.
0:00:50 > 0:00:52I'll decide what happens to Daniel in the future.
0:00:52 > 0:00:53You look after your daughter.
0:00:53 > 0:00:57We were just starting out. We had nothing. We had plans.
0:00:57 > 0:00:58She was stolen away.
0:00:58 > 0:01:01No budget airline to some ratty little industrial estate
0:01:01 > 0:01:02in Switzerland for her.
0:01:02 > 0:01:03You stay off me!
0:01:05 > 0:01:06You need a ride?
0:01:18 > 0:01:19It's Californian.
0:01:19 > 0:01:21The orange?
0:01:21 > 0:01:22The technique.
0:01:24 > 0:01:26HE SNIGGERS
0:01:26 > 0:01:27I can't take this seriously.
0:01:27 > 0:01:29I'm not asking you to.
0:01:46 > 0:01:49- You sure you don't want me to come with you?- No.
0:01:49 > 0:01:52Moral support? Hold your jacket while you fight?
0:01:54 > 0:01:56Thank you.
0:01:56 > 0:01:59All right. Just remember what I said, yeah?
0:01:59 > 0:02:00Don't make any rash decisions.
0:02:12 > 0:02:15OK, let's have a good look at it.
0:02:15 > 0:02:18Oooh! Ahhh!
0:02:18 > 0:02:21That's quite nice, actually.
0:02:21 > 0:02:23- You think so?- Yeah.
0:02:23 > 0:02:25I don't mind ones like that - it's the ones
0:02:25 > 0:02:27where they have them all over their body - not nice.
0:02:27 > 0:02:29Especially when you get older.
0:02:29 > 0:02:31It's like a soggy newspaper that's been left out in the rain.
0:02:31 > 0:02:33Not attractive.
0:02:33 > 0:02:36Good thing you don't work on the geriatric ward.
0:02:36 > 0:02:38Oh, no - I love old people. I love my nan.
0:02:38 > 0:02:41I'll never be seen dead in the geriatric ward.
0:02:41 > 0:02:43Ahh, don't say that.
0:02:43 > 0:02:47Gallows humour. I'm allowed to make jokes about dying.
0:02:47 > 0:02:51But people who aren't dying aren't allowed to make jokes about me.
0:02:51 > 0:02:53Kind of gives me the upper hand.
0:02:53 > 0:02:55I guess it's kind of good.
0:02:55 > 0:02:57- Good.- You're doing very well.
0:03:01 > 0:03:03You're going to ask her out, aren't you?
0:03:03 > 0:03:05What? No.
0:03:05 > 0:03:07Well, maybe.
0:03:07 > 0:03:10You should ask her out - you obviously want to.
0:03:10 > 0:03:13I just think there's sort of a professional protocol...
0:03:13 > 0:03:16Also, ease up a bit, yeah?
0:03:16 > 0:03:18Take the broom handle out your backside!
0:03:23 > 0:03:24'I don't want one.'
0:03:24 > 0:03:26- You deserve one.- Irrelevant.
0:03:26 > 0:03:29To you, maybe, which frankly, I don't believe is true.
0:03:29 > 0:03:32- Regardless... - YOU want me to have one.
0:03:32 > 0:03:35Me, Serena, HR. Without one, there's no closure.
0:03:35 > 0:03:37Oh, closure. Oh, my God.
0:03:37 > 0:03:40We really should have had a sweepstake on Darwin as to
0:03:40 > 0:03:43how long it would take the American shrink to use the word "closure".
0:03:43 > 0:03:46OK, so instead of being angry at Oliver, you'll get angry at me.
0:03:46 > 0:03:49- For telling me to be angry with Oliver!- That's my job.
0:03:49 > 0:03:51Telling people what they should think?
0:03:51 > 0:03:56Precisely. And being a mop to soak up excess emotion -
0:03:56 > 0:03:59an emotional barometer in a professional arena.
0:03:59 > 0:04:00I do not want his apology.
0:04:00 > 0:04:02Yes, you do.
0:04:02 > 0:04:05You just don't want to see him pull it out of himself to give it to you.
0:04:05 > 0:04:06No, I don't.
0:04:06 > 0:04:12Because you feel he's empty... and bruised enough already.
0:04:12 > 0:04:14Yes.
0:04:14 > 0:04:17It's not just about you, Elliot.
0:04:17 > 0:04:19It's not even about Oliver.
0:04:19 > 0:04:20Not any more.
0:04:20 > 0:04:23He committed an act of serious aggression against his senior...
0:04:23 > 0:04:25I practically fell over.
0:04:25 > 0:04:29You think Serena is going to let this slide?
0:04:29 > 0:04:31Barely got her feet under the big boss's desk
0:04:31 > 0:04:35and a junior doctor attacks a senior consultant on her watch?
0:04:36 > 0:04:40I don't want his apology. I want to move on.
0:04:40 > 0:04:43He needs to apologise if he wants to keep his job.
0:04:51 > 0:04:53DOOR ENTRY BUZZES
0:05:19 > 0:05:23Oh, look at this little monkey. Hello, Daniel, pumpkin.
0:05:23 > 0:05:28Who's been the bravest boy in the whole wide world, eh?
0:05:28 > 0:05:30Must be nearly past your bedtime.
0:05:30 > 0:05:33Yeah, I'm going to take him home now.
0:05:33 > 0:05:36Sacha's been so worried about you two. We both have.
0:05:36 > 0:05:38Where have you been?
0:05:38 > 0:05:40Do you know what, Helen? That is none of your business.
0:05:40 > 0:05:44When it affects my family, it is my business.
0:05:44 > 0:05:46I'm the on-call consultant tonight
0:05:46 > 0:05:48so I'll also be keeping an eye on Keller
0:05:48 > 0:05:50and I have a mountain of paperwork,
0:05:50 > 0:05:53so if you need me, and I sincerely hope that you won't,
0:05:53 > 0:05:54I'll be in my office.
0:05:54 > 0:05:56Understood. And thank you for this opportunity.
0:05:56 > 0:05:59Why did you volunteer for a nightshift on Darwin?
0:05:59 > 0:06:03The experience. Cardiothoracics have always really intrigued me.
0:06:03 > 0:06:05Heart surgery is not all glamour, you know,
0:06:05 > 0:06:06especially not in the middle of the night.
0:06:06 > 0:06:09There'll be no beating heart procedures
0:06:09 > 0:06:11or quadruple bypasses on this shift.
0:06:11 > 0:06:13No, I was just trying to get a feel for...
0:06:13 > 0:06:16Nee-naw! Nee-naw! Nee-naw!
0:06:18 > 0:06:21Look, I had to pull several strings to get you here,
0:06:21 > 0:06:24so not to put too fine a point on it, don't make me regret my efforts.
0:06:24 > 0:06:26I won't.
0:06:26 > 0:06:28# Drugs! Drugs! Wonderful drugs! #
0:06:28 > 0:06:31I warn you now, Darwin can be a tricky ward.
0:06:31 > 0:06:34I've just spent the past five months on AAU.
0:06:34 > 0:06:38Yes, but up here it's not just the patients who have their sharp edges.
0:06:38 > 0:06:40Me, I'm bulletproof.
0:06:40 > 0:06:45OK, you'll be working under Dr Valentine tonight. Good luck.
0:06:57 > 0:06:59MUMBLES: Sorry.
0:06:59 > 0:07:00- Sorry?- I said, I'm sorry.
0:07:00 > 0:07:02Oh, sorry, no, I didn't hear...
0:07:02 > 0:07:05I understand that you're angry with me.
0:07:05 > 0:07:07No, I-I-I'm not angry.
0:07:07 > 0:07:08No...
0:07:08 > 0:07:09I'm sorry.
0:07:11 > 0:07:12You're sorry?
0:07:12 > 0:07:16I shouldn't have mentioned Gina and my own experience of grief,
0:07:16 > 0:07:18like it would be some great comfort to you.
0:07:18 > 0:07:19Elliot, listen to yourself.
0:07:19 > 0:07:22It must have felt in some ways like I was belittling your own grief.
0:07:22 > 0:07:24I shoved you into a computer!
0:07:24 > 0:07:27- It was just a push. - And now you're saying sorry to me.
0:07:27 > 0:07:30If I were you, I'd stay as far away from me as possible.
0:07:32 > 0:07:34It's been a real roller coaster all day.
0:07:34 > 0:07:37They are amazing down here.
0:07:37 > 0:07:40Honestly, the dedication of the staff.
0:07:40 > 0:07:45Rachel was... I've been... WE'VE been so proud of her.
0:07:45 > 0:07:47Poor thing's really been through it.
0:07:47 > 0:07:52Having Daniel's marrow pumped into her. It isn't the nicest process.
0:07:52 > 0:07:54I'm sure it's nicer than having it taken out of you.
0:07:54 > 0:07:56Of course. I wasn't saying...
0:07:59 > 0:08:01Has he been OK?
0:08:01 > 0:08:04In pain - he's had an operation.
0:08:05 > 0:08:07How did he sleep?
0:08:07 > 0:08:09They gave me something for him.
0:08:09 > 0:08:13- I really think he should be checked over.- I'm going to.
0:08:13 > 0:08:16He does look very cheerful. Don't you, monkey?
0:08:16 > 0:08:19I'm going to ask the sister if he can sleep in the treatment room.
0:08:24 > 0:08:28Babies are very, very resilient, Chrissie. Really.
0:08:28 > 0:08:29I've had two, I do know.
0:08:29 > 0:08:32So have I. One of them died.
0:08:43 > 0:08:44How did she die?
0:08:44 > 0:08:46We don't need to know that.
0:08:46 > 0:08:50No, you're right. She's just an empty vessel, not a person now.
0:08:50 > 0:08:52Just full of organs for us to harvest.
0:08:52 > 0:08:55She's a young woman whose kindness means
0:08:55 > 0:08:57her death could mean life for others.
0:08:59 > 0:09:00OK, thank you, team.
0:09:05 > 0:09:07Thank you.
0:09:07 > 0:09:10You know, work could be a good way to lose yourself, too.
0:09:10 > 0:09:12Of course.
0:09:12 > 0:09:16And it doesn't lead to emotional complications or hangovers.
0:09:16 > 0:09:17Right.
0:09:19 > 0:09:20There have been many times in my life
0:09:20 > 0:09:25when being a doctor has been the only thing that's kept me going.
0:09:25 > 0:09:29Sometimes, Oliver, if you can't help yourself...
0:09:29 > 0:09:32it's useful to be able to help others.
0:09:33 > 0:09:36Thank you, Elliot. I'm fine.
0:09:36 > 0:09:37Absolutely fine.
0:09:46 > 0:09:48Would you be able to look after Daniel for a few minutes?
0:09:48 > 0:09:49Of course.
0:09:49 > 0:09:51I want to have a word with Sacha.
0:09:51 > 0:09:53Don't be too hard on him.
0:09:53 > 0:09:55- Thanks.- Really, Chrissie,
0:09:55 > 0:09:58- I know you think I'm biased because...- Do you know what, Helen?
0:09:58 > 0:10:00I don't want to have this conversation with you, OK?
0:10:00 > 0:10:03- It's just...- I want to have it with Sacha -
0:10:03 > 0:10:04my husband, Daniel's father.
0:10:04 > 0:10:06He's the father of my children, too.
0:10:06 > 0:10:08Oh, don't I know it?!
0:10:09 > 0:10:11How are you feeling, Mr Potter?
0:10:11 > 0:10:13How do you think I feel?
0:10:13 > 0:10:17Dehydrated? Woozy? A little achy?
0:10:17 > 0:10:19I feel like Joe Bugner's punchbag,
0:10:19 > 0:10:23what he lent to Joe Frazier after having knocked the crap out of it!
0:10:25 > 0:10:28Right, em, I'm Dr Digby...
0:10:28 > 0:10:32You did ask. Don't want to know, don't ask.
0:10:32 > 0:10:33Erm...
0:10:33 > 0:10:35I'm going to examine you,
0:10:35 > 0:10:39then afterwards, we're going to run a few tests including an ultrasound.
0:10:39 > 0:10:41How old are you, son?
0:10:41 > 0:10:43Erm...I don't think that's...
0:10:43 > 0:10:46- Is that too difficult a question? - No. No, no, no, it's just...
0:10:46 > 0:10:48Are you really a doctor?
0:10:48 > 0:10:49I am, yes.
0:10:51 > 0:10:53There we are, licensed to practise medicine.
0:10:53 > 0:10:55I've got a toothbrush older than you!
0:10:55 > 0:10:57He doesn't look old enough, does he?
0:10:57 > 0:10:59Nowhere near!
0:10:59 > 0:11:01Doctor?! He told me the same thing.
0:11:01 > 0:11:03He could be an impostor!
0:11:03 > 0:11:05He could be a stripogram!
0:11:05 > 0:11:08Sebastian Channing, behave yourself!
0:11:08 > 0:11:09Leave Dr Digby alone!
0:11:09 > 0:11:11Dr Digby, I have the ultrasound machine,
0:11:11 > 0:11:13where would you like it?
0:11:13 > 0:11:16My God, this is it! I've died and gone to heaven!
0:11:16 > 0:11:18You look like an angel.
0:11:18 > 0:11:20Hey, Ronnie Corbett.
0:11:20 > 0:11:22It's Dr Digby.
0:11:22 > 0:11:24You and her stepping out together?
0:11:24 > 0:11:28Steady on, Mr Potter! You already have a very elevated blood pressure.
0:11:28 > 0:11:32You've got to ask her out. You're a doctor, she's a nurse.
0:11:32 > 0:11:34He's a bit shy.
0:11:34 > 0:11:35Nothing on her finger.
0:11:35 > 0:11:38You want to snap her up before some other doctor does.
0:11:38 > 0:11:40Why hasn't he asked her out?
0:11:40 > 0:11:41Fear of rejection.
0:11:41 > 0:11:43You see this probe...
0:11:43 > 0:11:46- He's got his dignity to protect. - Very overrated.
0:11:46 > 0:11:48When it makes contact with the skin of your abdomen...
0:11:48 > 0:11:49Snap her up.
0:11:49 > 0:11:52Eeeooow! That's cold.
0:11:52 > 0:11:56- So, nightshift on Darwin, eh?- Hmm.
0:11:56 > 0:11:59Is that some kind of weird masochistic thing with you?
0:11:59 > 0:12:02Are you into bondage and body piercing too?
0:12:02 > 0:12:05Only at the weekends, like to keep my weeknights free.
0:12:05 > 0:12:07Not meaning to be funny about this or anything,
0:12:07 > 0:12:10but how come you volunteered to do the graveyard shift on Darwin?
0:12:10 > 0:12:14Yeah, that's exactly what Ms Campbell just asked me.
0:12:14 > 0:12:16Only, most people who actually work here
0:12:16 > 0:12:19would do literally anything to avoid that.
0:12:19 > 0:12:22I don't know, just wanted a look, is all.
0:12:22 > 0:12:23Yeah. At the Darwin freak show?
0:12:23 > 0:12:25I'm not with you.
0:12:25 > 0:12:28Were you hoping to see another bloody punch-up?
0:12:28 > 0:12:29I thought we only got those on AAU!
0:12:30 > 0:12:32Between Oliver and Elliot?
0:12:33 > 0:12:36Because we don't need junior doctors coming up here
0:12:36 > 0:12:41and rubber-necking at our Darwin car crashes, thank you very much.
0:12:41 > 0:12:44- What are you...?- You really don't know what happened yesterday?
0:12:44 > 0:12:46Look, I'm sorry. Let's start again
0:12:46 > 0:12:49cos I just feel like I've walked into some weird French film
0:12:49 > 0:12:51and I don't know the plot.
0:12:51 > 0:12:53You mean you're not up here to...?
0:12:53 > 0:12:54What?
0:12:54 > 0:12:56Nothing.
0:12:56 > 0:12:58What happened last night?
0:12:58 > 0:12:59Never you mind.
0:12:59 > 0:13:00Jim Howson, bay two.
0:13:00 > 0:13:02Let's go have a wee look-see, shall we?
0:13:02 > 0:13:05- Am I missing something?- Oh, no.
0:13:05 > 0:13:08We've got him a bed in the treatment room.
0:13:08 > 0:13:12Daniel can snuggle down there as long as he likes.
0:13:13 > 0:13:15How sweet is that?
0:13:15 > 0:13:19You know, you can't look at that and not know we did the right thing.
0:13:20 > 0:13:22We?
0:13:24 > 0:13:26- Chrissie...- Don't!
0:13:30 > 0:13:32Did you really think I wouldn't find out?
0:13:35 > 0:13:36I didn't think.
0:13:39 > 0:13:40I'm a nurse.
0:13:40 > 0:13:46It was in his notes, for God's sake - a hole in his heart.
0:13:46 > 0:13:50Even you should have realised eventually I would have...
0:13:50 > 0:13:53I'm so sorry. So sorry.
0:13:53 > 0:13:55Do you think I'm an idiot?
0:13:55 > 0:13:57No.
0:13:57 > 0:13:58- Did she know?- No!
0:13:58 > 0:14:04Course she didn't. It was me, just trying to...just get through.
0:14:04 > 0:14:07- By lying to me? - No, to here. To get us to here.
0:14:07 > 0:14:09To today, to this point...
0:14:11 > 0:14:16..where Rachel is recovering and Daniel is fine.
0:14:17 > 0:14:22And look, Chrissie, just look at him - he IS fine.
0:14:22 > 0:14:24And what about me?
0:14:24 > 0:14:27What am I supposed to do with the way I feel now?
0:14:29 > 0:14:30I don't know.
0:14:38 > 0:14:40So you were driving the church minibus?
0:14:40 > 0:14:42Yes, that's right, it was vital missionary work -
0:14:42 > 0:14:45delivering Agnes, Peggy and Beryl to their whist drive.
0:14:45 > 0:14:46Look at me.
0:14:46 > 0:14:48(Only we didn't quite make it!)
0:14:48 > 0:14:52Yes, it says here that you were involved in a collision with a wall?
0:14:52 > 0:14:56It was an act of God! He put the wall there, just to spite me!
0:14:56 > 0:15:00OK, I'm going to get a suture kit, clean this up and stitch it.
0:15:00 > 0:15:04Sure. So is there anyone you'd like us to call for you?
0:15:04 > 0:15:05Like who?
0:15:05 > 0:15:07- A partner?- Partner?!
0:15:07 > 0:15:10How do you know I'm not happily married with three little kiddies?
0:15:10 > 0:15:12I wasn't making any...
0:15:13 > 0:15:16I just need a name to pop in the next-of-kin box.
0:15:16 > 0:15:18Well, I can't give you one.
0:15:18 > 0:15:20What about a parent?
0:15:20 > 0:15:21No.
0:15:21 > 0:15:24What about the vicar, or...?
0:15:24 > 0:15:28Priest. It was a Catholic minibus. Not that I'm a Catholic.
0:15:28 > 0:15:29Thank you, no.
0:15:31 > 0:15:32Would you like us to call him?
0:15:32 > 0:15:37Why? Do I need my last rites?
0:15:37 > 0:15:41I just assumed, given that you were driving his bus...
0:15:41 > 0:15:44Well, you shouldn't make any assumptions about me.
0:15:44 > 0:15:46I don't want to talk any more. I'm tired.
0:15:46 > 0:15:48- Going to sleep now.- OK.
0:15:52 > 0:15:53See him wince?
0:15:53 > 0:15:55Oh, when he laughed?
0:15:55 > 0:15:57- Chest.- Trauma from the crash.
0:15:57 > 0:16:00We need to get that checked out.
0:16:00 > 0:16:03And here we have Dr Valentine to do just that.
0:16:03 > 0:16:06Jonny, look, about last night, I'm sorry...
0:16:06 > 0:16:08Your patient, Mr Howson.
0:16:08 > 0:16:10RTC.
0:16:10 > 0:16:12Chest trauma and a laceration to his left hand.
0:16:12 > 0:16:16He was bumped up from ED with intermittent breathing problems.
0:16:16 > 0:16:19- Oh, and your junior, Dr Wilde.- Hey.
0:16:19 > 0:16:21My junior?
0:16:21 > 0:16:23She volunteered for a night on Darwin.
0:16:23 > 0:16:26My next rotation, I'm considering Cardiothoracics
0:16:26 > 0:16:28and Ms Campbell put me with you.
0:16:28 > 0:16:31- Ah, Dr Valentine, I see you've already met Dr Wilde...- May I?
0:16:33 > 0:16:35- Is this my punishment?- What?
0:16:35 > 0:16:36Baby-sitting an F1?
0:16:37 > 0:16:40Is that what you think? That we want to punish you?
0:16:40 > 0:16:41This is a teaching hospital.
0:16:49 > 0:16:52So, when you said Ollie and Elliot were having a punch-up, is that...?
0:16:56 > 0:16:58I know you pretty much hate me, Chrissie.
0:16:58 > 0:17:01And, if I'm honest, I never approved of you,
0:17:01 > 0:17:02as I'm sure you realised.
0:17:03 > 0:17:05It wasn't a well-kept secret.
0:17:05 > 0:17:07We're not supposed to like each other.
0:17:07 > 0:17:10We're biologically programmed to dislike competitors.
0:17:10 > 0:17:12We're hardly competing.
0:17:12 > 0:17:17Well, not for Sacha...exactly, but for our children, maybe?
0:17:17 > 0:17:19For their status, for their love?
0:17:19 > 0:17:22Whatever undercurrents there are between us,
0:17:22 > 0:17:25let's not forget what just happened between our children.
0:17:25 > 0:17:28She read him a noisy animal farm book.
0:17:28 > 0:17:30He saved her life.
0:17:30 > 0:17:32Your son saved my daughter's life.
0:17:34 > 0:17:36Well, he didn't have much choice, did he?
0:17:36 > 0:17:39That is nothing short of a miracle, Chrissie.
0:17:40 > 0:17:42Yes, I suppose.
0:17:42 > 0:17:45He's three years old, he's already a hero!
0:17:45 > 0:17:46Well...
0:17:46 > 0:17:50If he does nothing else in his life, he has saved a young woman's life,
0:17:50 > 0:17:53which is more than most men ever do.
0:17:53 > 0:17:55I know what you're saying is right, but...
0:17:55 > 0:17:57No buts! Be proud!
0:17:57 > 0:17:59I can't just ignore what Sacha did...
0:17:59 > 0:18:03I don't even like you and yet I owe you and your son everything.
0:18:04 > 0:18:07Without you two, my daughter would be out there dying.
0:18:09 > 0:18:12I'll be indebted to you for the rest of my life.
0:18:12 > 0:18:15Just think how bad that makes me feel.
0:18:22 > 0:18:23How do you manage to do all this, then?
0:18:23 > 0:18:26Saint Christopher. He did it. He did. Was sitting on the dashboard,
0:18:26 > 0:18:29looking all smug and porcelain.
0:18:29 > 0:18:31- I'm assuming he's in pieces now. - Him and me, both.
0:18:31 > 0:18:33You done his bloods?
0:18:33 > 0:18:36No, not yet. Are you sure that there's not anyone
0:18:36 > 0:18:38we can put down as your next of kin, Mr Howson?
0:18:38 > 0:18:40Why don't you put down Dr Handsome here?
0:18:40 > 0:18:44Hey, Dr Blue Eyes, you want to be my phone-a-friend?
0:18:44 > 0:18:46I'm all good. Let's get them done, OK?
0:18:46 > 0:18:49FBC, Us, Es, LFT, amylase, group and save. Get Jonny to assist you.
0:18:49 > 0:18:52And can you chase up the X-rays, please? Mr Howson...?
0:18:52 > 0:18:55Is it just me or is everybody here super-attractive?
0:18:55 > 0:18:57I bet you're all sleeping together, aren't you?
0:18:57 > 0:18:59I bet it's a hotbed of sin and debauchery.
0:18:59 > 0:19:01Come on, you can tell me. I bet it is, isn't it?
0:19:01 > 0:19:03Just roll over for me, please.
0:19:03 > 0:19:05You could at least buy me a drink first!
0:19:05 > 0:19:08- Please, I need to check your breathing.- Since you asked so nicely.
0:19:12 > 0:19:15OK, yeah, we need to run some blood tests and scans
0:19:15 > 0:19:17to make sure you haven't sustained any more serious injuries.
0:19:17 > 0:19:19You can turn back now. Thank you.
0:19:20 > 0:19:22Is he sulking?
0:19:22 > 0:19:24I think he's sulking! Did you see him pout?
0:19:24 > 0:19:26Do his bloods.
0:19:26 > 0:19:28Book him a CT and check with ED about his X-rays.
0:19:28 > 0:19:32If nothing shows, ship him out. I'm sure Ms Campbell will be delighted.
0:19:32 > 0:19:33They love a quick turnover.
0:19:33 > 0:19:36I was wondering, should we get Dr Kozinsky to have look at him?
0:19:36 > 0:19:37A psych consult? I don't think so.
0:19:37 > 0:19:39He was quite agitated when he came in.
0:19:39 > 0:19:41I mean, he did drive a bus into a wall!
0:19:41 > 0:19:42He's sedated, talking absolute rubbish
0:19:42 > 0:19:44like so many of our illustrious patients.
0:19:44 > 0:19:47- I don't know. He seems... - Run a tox-screen on his bloods,
0:19:47 > 0:19:49you'll find a lot more than ED prescribed.
0:19:49 > 0:19:51- Yeah, but it wouldn't hurt to just...- Just do it!
0:19:51 > 0:19:53You want a cardiac experience, this is a cardiac ward!
0:19:53 > 0:19:56Scan him, X-ray his chest, leave his brain alone!
0:20:00 > 0:20:04You've got so much lip gloss! And two types of lipstick!
0:20:04 > 0:20:08And lip...plumper. Can I use it?
0:20:08 > 0:20:10- Yeah, sure.- Cool.
0:20:15 > 0:20:18Look how happy she is.
0:20:18 > 0:20:23You want my advice? Don't make the same mistakes this time.
0:20:23 > 0:20:25It wasn't me that walked out.
0:20:25 > 0:20:28It takes two, Sacha!
0:20:35 > 0:20:38Hi, I'm just finishing my shift now
0:20:38 > 0:20:39and I just wanted to say...
0:20:39 > 0:20:41That's a lot of oranges.
0:20:41 > 0:20:44- Really?- Oh, no. Um...
0:20:44 > 0:20:47Just...thank you for your concern earlier
0:20:47 > 0:20:49and I appreciate what you're doing for Oliver.
0:20:49 > 0:20:51Hey, it's what I do.
0:20:53 > 0:20:56Why so many oranges?
0:20:56 > 0:20:59- Sometimes I use them.- Really?
0:20:59 > 0:21:02You didn't come here to ask me about my citrus fruits.
0:21:02 > 0:21:05No, right, just to...
0:21:05 > 0:21:09You came here to ask me out for a drink and to apologise.
0:21:09 > 0:21:14Apologise? Yes, well, I suppose I did rather bite your...
0:21:14 > 0:21:16But not a drink.
0:21:16 > 0:21:20Although, I mean, you know, if you'd like a drink...?
0:21:20 > 0:21:22I have an appointment first thing with Dr Valentine.
0:21:22 > 0:21:24Oh, really? Right.
0:21:24 > 0:21:27Which Serena Campbell is keen we have.
0:21:27 > 0:21:28No. No. Of course.
0:21:28 > 0:21:34So I can't exactly go wild, but I think I could excuse a swift half.
0:21:34 > 0:21:37Oh, right! Great! Erm...
0:21:37 > 0:21:39Er, I'll pop and get my coat.
0:21:43 > 0:21:45Just lie still, please, Mr Potter.
0:21:45 > 0:21:48What do you think I'm going to do? Wriggle around like a mermaid?!
0:21:51 > 0:21:55I'm sorry about all the laddish joshing and teasing upstairs.
0:21:55 > 0:21:57Don't worry.
0:21:57 > 0:21:59I think they got a bit out of hand.
0:21:59 > 0:22:02I'm used to it. Anyway, it's all just a big joke.
0:22:04 > 0:22:06What?
0:22:06 > 0:22:08The nurse/doctor stuff.
0:22:09 > 0:22:12- You mean...- Yeah, I mean.
0:22:12 > 0:22:15Me...asking you out...?
0:22:15 > 0:22:19Exactly. They just think it's funny to tease. It's just a joke.
0:22:19 > 0:22:20Right...
0:22:20 > 0:22:24If it passes the time, if it keeps them happy...
0:22:24 > 0:22:27Seb's dying, for heaven's sake, and Tommy's...
0:22:27 > 0:22:29Got an aortic aneurysm the size of a kiwi fruit!
0:22:32 > 0:22:35Could you do me a favour?
0:22:35 > 0:22:38Would you tell Dr Valentine I've booked Mr Howson's CT scan?
0:22:38 > 0:22:41If you like. Or you could just tell him yourself.
0:22:41 > 0:22:44He seems a bit prickly with me.
0:22:44 > 0:22:46You volunteered for a nightshift on Darwin
0:22:46 > 0:22:48and you're being put off by prickly?
0:22:48 > 0:22:51You might want to think about Paediatrics for your next rotation.
0:22:51 > 0:22:54Good evening, Father. Who are you looking for tonight?
0:22:54 > 0:22:56Jim Howson? I only just heard about the accident.
0:22:56 > 0:22:59- I came as soon as I could. - It's OK. He's over this way.
0:22:59 > 0:23:00Bay two.
0:23:02 > 0:23:03How is he?
0:23:03 > 0:23:05Um...it's a bit difficult to say at the moment.
0:23:05 > 0:23:07We're still waiting on test results.
0:23:07 > 0:23:09But he's conscious?
0:23:09 > 0:23:13Yeah, very much so. In fact, he seems a little...
0:23:14 > 0:23:15Manic?
0:23:16 > 0:23:18Right.
0:23:19 > 0:23:22Mr Howson? Father Western here to see you.
0:23:22 > 0:23:25- Hello, Father. - What have you done?
0:23:25 > 0:23:28Had a little accident, Father. Oops, sorry(!)
0:23:28 > 0:23:30Think I might have dented your minibus(!)
0:23:30 > 0:23:31Don't mind about the minibus.
0:23:31 > 0:23:35Look, thanks for coming and all, but I'm sure you've got souls to save,
0:23:35 > 0:23:38some Hail Marys to say, so don't let me put you out.
0:23:39 > 0:23:40Who ordered the priest?
0:23:40 > 0:23:42I don't know, he just showed up.
0:23:42 > 0:23:44Why didn't you call me?
0:23:44 > 0:23:46Because I didn't want to, OK?
0:23:46 > 0:23:48Because I didn't want to see you then
0:23:48 > 0:23:50and I don't want to see you now, so why just leave me alone!
0:23:50 > 0:23:53- SHOUTING:- OK? Bye-bye, Father! Thanks for coming!
0:23:53 > 0:23:56Keep it down, mate. We're trying to sleep here.
0:23:56 > 0:24:00PAGER BEEPS
0:24:02 > 0:24:05OK, a question - how long since you've had it off?
0:24:05 > 0:24:07I'm...sorry?
0:24:07 > 0:24:08Your pager.
0:24:08 > 0:24:12Oh, right. I don't switch it off much.
0:24:12 > 0:24:16I can't tell whether you like being teased by me or not.
0:24:16 > 0:24:18Like.
0:24:18 > 0:24:19So...?
0:24:19 > 0:24:22Yes, maybe I should switch it off.
0:24:22 > 0:24:24Here's to spontaneity.
0:24:24 > 0:24:25Question for you.
0:24:25 > 0:24:26Only one?
0:24:26 > 0:24:28Why England? Why here?
0:24:30 > 0:24:34I just love your Royal Family. They're so adorable.
0:24:34 > 0:24:36- Mmm.- Kidding.
0:24:37 > 0:24:40No, I've always loved Europe.
0:24:40 > 0:24:42And my kids grew and I said to myself,
0:24:42 > 0:24:48"Sharon, you need an adventure," so I upped sticks and here I am.
0:24:49 > 0:24:53You're finished for the night, right? Not on call?
0:24:53 > 0:24:58So live dangerously. Switch it off!
0:24:58 > 0:25:01You crossed an ocean and ended up in Holby...
0:25:01 > 0:25:02all on your own?
0:25:02 > 0:25:04Something like that.
0:25:09 > 0:25:11THEY LAUGH
0:25:11 > 0:25:13Cheers.
0:25:13 > 0:25:16I'm sorry, I didn't mean to cause a disturbance in your ward.
0:25:16 > 0:25:17I think it might be better
0:25:17 > 0:25:19if you avoid talking to Jim for a little while.
0:25:19 > 0:25:21Dr Valentine doesn't want him upset in any way.
0:25:21 > 0:25:24Yeah, I have other parishioners in the hospital -
0:25:24 > 0:25:27the three ladies who were in the bus that Jim was driving.
0:25:27 > 0:25:29I should see how they are.
0:25:29 > 0:25:32Can I ask you how well you know Jim?
0:25:32 > 0:25:34Fairly well. Why?
0:25:34 > 0:25:37Do you know if he has any mental health issues at all?
0:25:37 > 0:25:41He's bipolar, but he keeps it under control with medication.
0:25:41 > 0:25:43Do you think he may have stopped taking it recently?
0:25:43 > 0:25:45No, he takes it.
0:25:45 > 0:25:47Well, how do you know? I mean, for sure?
0:25:50 > 0:25:52I just know.
0:25:57 > 0:26:00You're not doing the actual operation, are you,
0:26:00 > 0:26:03cutting me open and replumbing me aortic thingy?
0:26:03 > 0:26:06Er, no, that'll be done by a consultant and a registrar.
0:26:06 > 0:26:08Thank God for that!
0:26:08 > 0:26:13Can you imagine, young Arthur up to his elbows in me tubes?
0:26:13 > 0:26:16No, Arthur's a great doctor.
0:26:16 > 0:26:17Just messing with you.
0:26:17 > 0:26:19Well, I hope it goes well.
0:26:19 > 0:26:22And I called your grandson, but there was no answer,
0:26:22 > 0:26:23so I just left a message.
0:26:23 > 0:26:25Nah, he ain't coming. Daft lump.
0:26:25 > 0:26:28Dean couldn't find his way out of a shopping bag.
0:26:31 > 0:26:33Here, Arthur, just in case I don't come back out -
0:26:33 > 0:26:37one piece of advice from an old man - you only get one pop.
0:26:37 > 0:26:40So grab the bull by his...whatsits. All right?
0:26:40 > 0:26:44Bull's whatsits. Grab them. Got it!
0:26:47 > 0:26:51He's never going to ask her, is he? Silly pudding.
0:26:51 > 0:26:55- If you never ask, you never know. Am I right?- Exactly.
0:26:56 > 0:26:58God, if I had my time over again...
0:26:58 > 0:27:01I'd sleep around all over the place.
0:27:03 > 0:27:04Me too.
0:27:06 > 0:27:09See, when women say that most men are insensitive idiots -
0:27:09 > 0:27:13I don't think they take on board the full range of their stupidity.
0:27:13 > 0:27:14That's not good.
0:27:14 > 0:27:17You want me to sit Chrissie down and tell her why it was all right
0:27:17 > 0:27:20that you lied to her about her son having a heart condition.
0:27:20 > 0:27:22- Yes, but I didn't lie.- You lied.
0:27:22 > 0:27:25- Only by omission.- What are you now, a Cabinet Minister?
0:27:25 > 0:27:26I was only...
0:27:26 > 0:27:29Trying to save your daughter's life. Yes. We all get that.
0:27:29 > 0:27:30Except Chrissie.
0:27:30 > 0:27:33Who thinks you were playing fast and loose with her son's life.
0:27:35 > 0:27:38I just want you to explain to her how insignificant a PFO
0:27:38 > 0:27:42- hole in the heart really is... - Right, and maybe she'll forgive you?
0:27:42 > 0:27:44- Yes.- No.- What?
0:27:44 > 0:27:47No. I don't think that it's a good idea that
0:27:47 > 0:27:49I give Chrissie a heart lecture.
0:27:50 > 0:27:51Please.
0:27:53 > 0:27:55Mo...she won't listen to me.
0:27:59 > 0:28:00Don't make me do this, Sacha.
0:28:08 > 0:28:10Can someone please get the priest out of here?
0:28:10 > 0:28:14I just thought you'd want to know that the three ladies are all OK.
0:28:14 > 0:28:16Just a bit bruised and a bit shocked.
0:28:16 > 0:28:19They think that you crashed the bus on purpose.
0:28:19 > 0:28:21Are you taking your meds?
0:28:21 > 0:28:23What difference would that make to you? Eh?
0:28:23 > 0:28:25- What is going on here?! - I'm sorry. We were just...
0:28:25 > 0:28:27This is a surgical ward. It's the middle of the night.
0:28:27 > 0:28:29I've got vulnerable patients in here.
0:28:29 > 0:28:32Yeah, like me. I'm a vulnerable patient, aren't I, Father?
0:28:32 > 0:28:35I'm a lost sheep who's strayed from the flock.
0:28:35 > 0:28:37I'm trying to run a busy ward full of sick patients,
0:28:37 > 0:28:39I don't need any more drama.
0:28:39 > 0:28:43Aha! And then, enter two police officers, stage left.
0:28:43 > 0:28:44As the plot thickens!
0:28:44 > 0:28:48Sorry, guys, these gentlemen want to speak to Jim about the crash.
0:28:48 > 0:28:52Will you visit me in prison, Father? I hope I have a dishy cell mate.
0:28:52 > 0:28:56Maybe someone who looks like Dr Valentine here would be nice.
0:28:56 > 0:28:57Jim, please.
0:28:57 > 0:29:00Do you want to get it over with now or I can ask them to come back?
0:29:00 > 0:29:03Ooh, no, never give up the chance to get up close
0:29:03 > 0:29:05and personal to a man in uniform, eh?
0:29:06 > 0:29:08Until we know the full extent of his injuries,
0:29:08 > 0:29:10he shouldn't really be talking to anyone.
0:29:10 > 0:29:12Listen, why don't I have a word with them?
0:29:12 > 0:29:16- It was my minibus. My church. - I don't need you to save me, Father.
0:29:16 > 0:29:17Yes, you do.
0:29:17 > 0:29:20What you did was unbelievably stupid and unbelievably dangerous.
0:29:20 > 0:29:22You could've been killed.
0:29:22 > 0:29:24Well, I'll have to try harder next time.
0:29:26 > 0:29:29Is there somewhere private where I can talk to them?
0:29:29 > 0:29:31Yes, I'll show you.
0:29:31 > 0:29:35Yes, Father Pete, let dishy Dr Valentine show you.
0:29:35 > 0:29:39Aw, that's brilliant. How do you get the eyeliner so straight?
0:29:39 > 0:29:40What do you think, Mum?
0:29:43 > 0:29:45You look beautiful.
0:29:47 > 0:29:49Chrissie! Chrissie. What's happening!?
0:29:49 > 0:29:53- It's all right.- Chrissie! Mum!
0:29:53 > 0:29:54It's all right, stay calm.
0:29:54 > 0:29:57- ALARM BUZZES - Doctor! Sacha! Doctor!
0:29:57 > 0:29:59Keep looking at me. Helen, pass me the tissues.
0:29:59 > 0:30:01- My baby, please! Rachel! - Shut up! And get me the tissues.
0:30:01 > 0:30:03It's OK, just look at me.
0:30:03 > 0:30:07- Oh, please, please! Rachel. Oh, my baby.- Get Sacha NOW!
0:30:07 > 0:30:08Sacha!
0:30:08 > 0:30:10It's all right. Just keep looking at me.
0:30:10 > 0:30:16You choosing to come back to work isn't just your choice.
0:30:16 > 0:30:17No.
0:30:17 > 0:30:20In here you are surrounded by vulnerable
0:30:20 > 0:30:22and sometimes frankly infuriating people.
0:30:22 > 0:30:24You have to be able to cope.
0:30:24 > 0:30:27- I know.- I have to be convinced that you can cope.
0:30:27 > 0:30:28Of course.
0:30:28 > 0:30:31Which means our psychiatric consultant has to be convinced.
0:30:31 > 0:30:33- And I've been seeing her. - Yes, but not saying much.
0:30:37 > 0:30:38Well...
0:30:38 > 0:30:41I think, after yesterday, perhaps a few more sessions would be in order.
0:30:41 > 0:30:44- Yeah, OK. - Starting first thing tomorrow?
0:30:44 > 0:30:48- First thing? - End of shift. Before you go home.
0:30:48 > 0:30:52You see, according to Dr Kozinsky, in cases like yours, if feelings
0:30:52 > 0:30:58aren't verbally expressed then they may unfortunately get acted out.
0:30:58 > 0:31:02- OK. I'll see her.- Yes.
0:31:02 > 0:31:08- Oh, and- I- assigned Junior Doctor Wilde to your care this evening.
0:31:10 > 0:31:13What is this, some sort of test?
0:31:13 > 0:31:18Oh, if that's how it turns out, then, yes. A test.
0:31:25 > 0:31:29We think it's Gram-negative septicaemia.
0:31:29 > 0:31:34We're going to run platelets and FFPs just to try and stabilise her.
0:31:34 > 0:31:35Is she going to be OK?
0:31:37 > 0:31:41Come here. Of course she is.
0:31:41 > 0:31:45I mean, she's not out of the woods.
0:31:45 > 0:31:49But give her a little time, she'll fight back.
0:31:49 > 0:31:51She's a Levy after all.
0:32:00 > 0:32:03I'm sorry, visiting hours are over.
0:32:03 > 0:32:05My grandad's here, Thomas Potter?
0:32:05 > 0:32:07I just want to say good night. Couple of minutes?
0:32:07 > 0:32:10Yes, of course! Dean! Hello.
0:32:10 > 0:32:13Yes, he was very much looking forward to seeing you.
0:32:13 > 0:32:15- Where is he?- I'm afraid if you'd have arrived a bit earlier...
0:32:15 > 0:32:18- What?- After examination earlier this evening,
0:32:18 > 0:32:21we discovered an abdominal aortic aneurysm.
0:32:21 > 0:32:26They are dangerous at most times, but especially with old people.
0:32:26 > 0:32:27He's gone?!
0:32:27 > 0:32:30He got called in for an operation - luckily for him,
0:32:30 > 0:32:32it all happened very quickly.
0:32:32 > 0:32:36He really was ill? None of us believed him.
0:32:36 > 0:32:39He was for ever pulling the alarm cord in his bungalow.
0:32:39 > 0:32:43Moaning at the warden. We just assumed he was attention seeking.
0:32:43 > 0:32:47Well, um, you'll probably want to get off home.
0:32:47 > 0:32:48Right. I can't see him?
0:32:48 > 0:32:50No. Sorry. That's not allowed.
0:32:52 > 0:32:54Sorry.
0:32:54 > 0:32:55You OK?
0:32:55 > 0:33:00Yeah. Thanks. I feel a bit weird.
0:33:00 > 0:33:05I've never really lost anyone in my life - not close anyway, until now.
0:33:05 > 0:33:06Quite lucky, I suppose.
0:33:06 > 0:33:10Arthur, who died?
0:33:10 > 0:33:11Nobody.
0:33:11 > 0:33:14My grandad. Thomas Potter.
0:33:14 > 0:33:16Your grandad's not dead.
0:33:16 > 0:33:18Yes, he is. You just told me.
0:33:18 > 0:33:20No, he's having an operation upstairs.
0:33:20 > 0:33:22Oh, no, he'll be down later.
0:33:22 > 0:33:25- I think...I'd like a sit-down. - Yes, of course.
0:33:39 > 0:33:40I look such a wreck.
0:33:42 > 0:33:44You must be worn out.
0:33:44 > 0:33:46I didn't think I had any tears left in me.
0:33:50 > 0:33:54What you do with the make-up with Rachel, it's very sweet.
0:33:56 > 0:34:00I wanted you to be the wicked stepmum, all poison apples
0:34:00 > 0:34:02and floors to mop.
0:34:02 > 0:34:04There's plenty of work still to be done.
0:34:04 > 0:34:06I wanted them to hate you -
0:34:06 > 0:34:10tell me stories of what an airhead blonde chav you were.
0:34:10 > 0:34:13And did they?
0:34:13 > 0:34:15A little bit. At first.
0:34:15 > 0:34:17Mainly because they knew that's what I wanted to hear -
0:34:17 > 0:34:20make me happy after I'd missed them all weekend.
0:34:20 > 0:34:24It's easy for you when they stay over, you get to be the fun ones.
0:34:24 > 0:34:27Being the bad guy all the time can get wearing.
0:34:27 > 0:34:31They are always fiercely defensive of their mother. Believe me.
0:34:31 > 0:34:33Good girls!
0:34:33 > 0:34:35I'm the bad guy too.
0:34:35 > 0:34:37Tends to be that way with Sacha.
0:34:37 > 0:34:41I know. I remember.
0:34:41 > 0:34:42Was that what happened?
0:34:42 > 0:34:44Oh, no, no. Of course not.
0:34:44 > 0:34:49Even I can't make him the bad guy. It's just not possible.
0:34:49 > 0:34:52He just wasn't the right guy. I wanted...
0:34:52 > 0:34:55No, I NEEDED something more.
0:34:55 > 0:34:59It was hell at the time but it was the right thing to do.
0:35:00 > 0:35:02I look at you both now...
0:35:03 > 0:35:06We can do this, Chrissie, you and me.
0:35:06 > 0:35:11And Sacha - together. Bring up our children. Be a family.
0:35:17 > 0:35:21Don't worry, Jim. Won't take long.
0:35:21 > 0:35:24I don't like it in here. It's like being in a coffin.
0:35:24 > 0:35:27Or a closet, I suppose. Suffocating.
0:35:27 > 0:35:30How long have you known Father Western?
0:35:30 > 0:35:32Ha! How did you work that one out?
0:35:32 > 0:35:34Yeah, he more or less told me.
0:35:34 > 0:35:37Known him two years. Lived with him for a year.
0:35:37 > 0:35:40I know. I'm a glutton for punishment.
0:35:40 > 0:35:43And I'm not even a Catholic. What was I thinking?
0:35:43 > 0:35:45He got the police off your back.
0:35:45 > 0:35:47Talked them into not pressing charges.
0:35:47 > 0:35:48Yeah...
0:35:48 > 0:35:51It was church land so the police couldn't do anything anyway.
0:35:51 > 0:35:54I really don't like it in here.
0:35:57 > 0:36:00Hi. I'll get the pictures sent straight up
0:36:00 > 0:36:03but it looks like there's some factures on the ribs.
0:36:03 > 0:36:05Let me see.
0:36:05 > 0:36:07That the gorgeous Dr Valentine with you?
0:36:13 > 0:36:16Must know Ms Campbell very well to be able to ask a favour.
0:36:16 > 0:36:18No, not really.
0:36:18 > 0:36:21Let me just do a shift on Darwin, Ms Campbell.
0:36:21 > 0:36:23Check it out?
0:36:23 > 0:36:25Check him out.
0:36:25 > 0:36:27Yeah, I'm not with you. What are you...?
0:36:27 > 0:36:31What I'm saying is, you being here on Darwin is no accident.
0:36:31 > 0:36:33No, it isn't. I asked to come up here.
0:36:33 > 0:36:36- To be her eyes?- Serena Campbell's?
0:36:36 > 0:36:39Her spy? Just in case I go over the line.
0:36:43 > 0:36:45Dr Valentine, I don't know...
0:36:52 > 0:36:54Sorry to disturb you.
0:36:54 > 0:36:57That's fine. Just gathering my thoughts.
0:36:57 > 0:37:01I just thought you might like to know we've got Jim's CT scan back.
0:37:01 > 0:37:03And?
0:37:03 > 0:37:06He's got a couple of broken ribs and there's an internal bleed.
0:37:06 > 0:37:09So he'll need an operation, but he should be OK.
0:37:09 > 0:37:10Thank you.
0:37:10 > 0:37:14He seems like a bit of a troubled soul to me.
0:37:14 > 0:37:18He's a very different person when he's on his medication.
0:37:18 > 0:37:21Very different.
0:37:21 > 0:37:24The next-of-kin box on his form...
0:37:24 > 0:37:27Jim said he's got no-one he can put in it.
0:37:27 > 0:37:31So no family, no loved ones - is that really the case?
0:37:33 > 0:37:35It's complicated.
0:37:49 > 0:37:54I've just had a call from theatre about Mr Potter's aneurysm.
0:37:54 > 0:37:55It's all done?
0:37:57 > 0:37:59He's not?
0:38:04 > 0:38:06Let me do some doctoring, I bet you I can.
0:38:06 > 0:38:08I could have been a doctor, you know.
0:38:08 > 0:38:11Mr Howson, it's absolutely imperative you lie down still,
0:38:11 > 0:38:12until we can operate.
0:38:12 > 0:38:14How about I operate on myself? I bet you I could!
0:38:14 > 0:38:17Come on, Jim, into bed, you heard the doctor!
0:38:17 > 0:38:19You trying to get me into bed, Father?
0:38:19 > 0:38:20What will your parishioners think?
0:38:20 > 0:38:23- You'll make it worse. - How could this get any worse?
0:38:23 > 0:38:25- I mean, you'll injure yourself. - Oh, get off me!
0:38:25 > 0:38:28- Shhh. Shhh! Come on.- Shush yourself! I'm sick of you shushing me.
0:38:28 > 0:38:29OK, that's enough!
0:38:29 > 0:38:32OK, Mr Howson, into bed.
0:38:32 > 0:38:34HE MOANS AND COUGHS
0:38:34 > 0:38:36I'm here, Jim. You're not alone. I'm here, I'm here to help you.
0:38:36 > 0:38:38You can't help me.
0:38:38 > 0:38:40- I know this was all because of me. - Oh, don't flatter yourself!
0:38:40 > 0:38:43That's enough, Father, would you leave, please?
0:38:43 > 0:38:45- You're upsetting the patient. - It's OK. I'll...- Now!
0:38:45 > 0:38:47JIM SOBS
0:38:50 > 0:38:53I'm sorry. Bet I messed up all your make-up.
0:38:53 > 0:38:56It's all right. We'll do it a million times over.
0:38:56 > 0:38:58Did I look like a vampire?
0:38:58 > 0:39:04Oh, yes! Yes, my beautiful, blood-sucking, garlic-hating vampire.
0:39:04 > 0:39:07They say your platelet count's improving
0:39:07 > 0:39:10and the infection is getting under control.
0:39:10 > 0:39:12You're going to be OK!
0:39:12 > 0:39:16- Fingers crossed.- Toes crossed. - Everything's looking positive.
0:39:17 > 0:39:19Group hug, I think. Yes?
0:39:19 > 0:39:21Come on.
0:39:31 > 0:39:33Oh, no!
0:39:33 > 0:39:35Can you just give me a minute?
0:39:36 > 0:39:38You have to help me.
0:39:38 > 0:39:40You haven't told him yet?
0:39:40 > 0:39:43I can't. After last time. Our little misunderstanding...
0:39:43 > 0:39:47- Oh, Arthur!- All right. Yes. I'll do it. I know, yes.
0:39:47 > 0:39:49I just wanted to drop this off.
0:39:49 > 0:39:51They had it in the all-night shop round the corner,
0:39:51 > 0:39:54- I couldn't resist it.- Right.
0:39:54 > 0:39:59Can I tie it to the end of his bed? He'll hate it. Be a great wind-up!
0:39:59 > 0:40:01Could I just have a word with you?
0:40:01 > 0:40:03He hates anything that draws attention.
0:40:03 > 0:40:05On his birthday I bought him a birthday cake
0:40:05 > 0:40:07and stuck 82 candles on it and got all the old women
0:40:07 > 0:40:10in his sheltered housing to sing Happy Birthday.
0:40:10 > 0:40:12- That's lovely but... - Nearly burst a blood vessel!
0:40:12 > 0:40:13I'm afraid your grandfather...
0:40:13 > 0:40:17I know he loves to play the grumpy old sod. But actually he's...
0:40:17 > 0:40:19..died, is dead.
0:40:19 > 0:40:22- What?!- I'm very sorry.
0:40:22 > 0:40:24- You taking the...?- No. I'm sorry.
0:40:24 > 0:40:27You're sure? Cos first he's dead and then he's alive.
0:40:27 > 0:40:28And then he's dead again?
0:40:28 > 0:40:31I'm afraid he really is dead this time.
0:40:31 > 0:40:35He passed away after the operation, in the recovery room.
0:40:35 > 0:40:38It would have been very peaceful.
0:40:38 > 0:40:41Was he alone... when he died - my grandad?
0:40:43 > 0:40:45Not that he would've really cared if I'd been here but...
0:40:45 > 0:40:48He don't think he'd have felt anything...really.
0:40:48 > 0:40:51I think he would have just slipped away.
0:40:51 > 0:40:57I very much doubt if he was aware if there was anyone there or not.
0:40:57 > 0:40:58Can I have a minute?
0:40:58 > 0:41:00Of course. Of course, yeah.
0:41:13 > 0:41:14Great!
0:41:17 > 0:41:20Do you know if Mr Howson's been taken for any more tests?
0:41:20 > 0:41:22Not as far as I'm aware.
0:41:35 > 0:41:37Any sign?
0:41:37 > 0:41:39No, sorry. Have you tried asking his boyfriend?
0:41:44 > 0:41:45Father Pete.
0:41:48 > 0:41:51- Hey.- Hey.
0:41:51 > 0:41:54Do you mind if I...?
0:41:58 > 0:42:01- What you saw earlier with Michael... - It's none of my business.
0:42:01 > 0:42:03Correct.
0:42:07 > 0:42:10Actually, it was Daniel I wanted to talk to you about.
0:42:13 > 0:42:16One in four children is born with a hole in their heart.
0:42:16 > 0:42:18It's so totally common
0:42:18 > 0:42:21and so benign that we don't even treat it these days.
0:42:21 > 0:42:23It's completely symptomless.
0:42:23 > 0:42:26And if treatment were ever needed for a child like Daniel,
0:42:26 > 0:42:28- it'd be years down the line. - I don't believe this!
0:42:28 > 0:42:30And even then, the treatment wouldn't be surgical,
0:42:30 > 0:42:34- it'd be purely medication. - Did he put you up to this?
0:42:34 > 0:42:37Go and tell Chrissie how nothing a hole in the heart is.
0:42:39 > 0:42:41I...
0:42:45 > 0:42:47GRUNTING
0:42:47 > 0:42:50Jim. What are you doing? Everyone's looking for you.
0:42:50 > 0:42:52I'm going home. I'm packing my bags. And then I'm leaving.
0:42:52 > 0:42:55Don't do this now. We can talk about this later.
0:42:55 > 0:42:57You've been saying that for two years. "We'll talk about it."
0:42:57 > 0:43:00But we never do, do we? We just brush it all under the carpet.
0:43:00 > 0:43:02I'm not ashamed of who I am, but my vocation means...
0:43:02 > 0:43:05I know! I know what it means! I've always known.
0:43:05 > 0:43:08And I thought I could live with it, but I can't.
0:43:08 > 0:43:11You've stop taking your meds, haven't you?
0:43:11 > 0:43:13Jim, you need to come back to the ward right now.
0:43:13 > 0:43:15Because I wanted to feel something real for a change.
0:43:15 > 0:43:17I thought it might make me feel like me again.
0:43:17 > 0:43:19What the hell's he doing out of bed?!
0:43:19 > 0:43:21Yes, he knows! We're coming.
0:43:21 > 0:43:24Ah, just the man I'm looking for. There's female patient on Keller
0:43:24 > 0:43:26who's seems very keen to see a priest.
0:43:26 > 0:43:29- I can't.- I believe it's a matter of some urgency.
0:43:29 > 0:43:31Bye, Pete.
0:43:35 > 0:43:37Everything all right?
0:43:37 > 0:43:39Fine. It's all under control.
0:43:44 > 0:43:48We met online, said he was a social worker.
0:43:48 > 0:43:51It took him three months to drop the bombshell.
0:43:51 > 0:43:53I should've run for the hills at that point,
0:43:53 > 0:43:57but by then it was too late - head over heels.
0:43:57 > 0:44:00I don't know what I was expecting.
0:44:00 > 0:44:05I put it all down to my adolescent fixation with The Thorn Birds.
0:44:05 > 0:44:07HE WHEEZES
0:44:07 > 0:44:10Jim, you OK? Try and breathe.
0:44:10 > 0:44:14It's OK, it's OK. I need assistance here! Dr Valentine!
0:44:14 > 0:44:18It's a haemopneumothorax. He needs an emergency chest drain!
0:44:18 > 0:44:20Page Professor Hope. Find Dr Valentine!
0:44:20 > 0:44:23It's OK, Jim. It's all right, sit back. Try and breathe.
0:44:23 > 0:44:26Try and breathe. There you go. Don't move. OK, I'm getting help.
0:44:28 > 0:44:31- What on earth is it now? - He can't breathe properly.
0:44:31 > 0:44:33I think a rib might have punctured a lung.
0:44:33 > 0:44:37OK. If you'd just stayed in bed...like you were told,
0:44:37 > 0:44:40waited for theatre, none of this would have happened.
0:44:40 > 0:44:43- Get off me. - I've got 1% lignocaine.- Good.
0:44:43 > 0:44:46Some air and blood has escaped from your lungs into the chest cavity.
0:44:46 > 0:44:48We need to release it so you can breath properly.
0:44:48 > 0:44:51- Roll over for me, please.- No. No. Get off me. Get off me! Get off!
0:44:51 > 0:44:54- Jim. Just let him do...- Ahh!
0:44:54 > 0:44:57OK. OK, fine. You want me to get off. I will.
0:44:57 > 0:45:01That's it. OK, I'm off. Suit yourself.
0:45:01 > 0:45:04- You brought this entirely on yourself.- Dr Valentine!
0:45:04 > 0:45:06This is totally your fault. You smashed up a bus,
0:45:06 > 0:45:08hurt innocent people.
0:45:08 > 0:45:12Enough bad things happen to good people without doing it to yourself.
0:45:12 > 0:45:14- Dr Valentine, you need to do this now!- No.
0:45:14 > 0:45:18People die in here all the time.
0:45:18 > 0:45:22People who don't want to, don't deserve to die, but you...
0:45:22 > 0:45:26Dr Valentine! I can't do this by myself. I'm not qualified.
0:45:26 > 0:45:28Then don't do it.
0:45:28 > 0:45:30WHEEZING CONTINUES
0:45:30 > 0:45:33It's all right, stay still.
0:45:34 > 0:45:36Right. OK, right.
0:45:36 > 0:45:39I need you to stay still for me, yeah?
0:45:39 > 0:45:43OK. Right, we're going to do this, yeah?
0:45:43 > 0:45:46We are all good. OK, it's all right.
0:45:53 > 0:45:56OK, you're doing really well, Jim.
0:45:56 > 0:45:58OK.
0:46:01 > 0:46:05It's fine, you're doing really well.
0:46:05 > 0:46:08Jim? I need you to cough for me, yeah? I need you to cough.
0:46:08 > 0:46:11HE COUGHS
0:46:11 > 0:46:12WHEEZING STOPS
0:46:20 > 0:46:21Would you like a cup of tea?
0:46:24 > 0:46:27It's just the shock, isn't it?
0:46:27 > 0:46:30Hearing one thing, then another.
0:46:32 > 0:46:34Do you...want a balloon?
0:46:36 > 0:46:40If it's Tommy Potter's balloon, then, yeah, definitely!
0:46:40 > 0:46:43Did you...know...?
0:46:43 > 0:46:47- Tommy? Not for long enough! - Do you get a chance to...?
0:46:47 > 0:46:51- Talk to him? Oh, yeah. - I know, he could be a bit...
0:46:51 > 0:46:54He was a good laugh, your grandad.
0:46:54 > 0:46:57- He rubbed a lot of people up the wrong way.- No! Tommy?
0:46:57 > 0:46:59They didn't always get his sense of humour.
0:46:59 > 0:47:03- Ah, he was lovely. - Grandad Tommy was never lovely!
0:47:03 > 0:47:06Well...yeah, I mean...
0:47:06 > 0:47:09Wry. He had a very wry sense of humour.
0:47:09 > 0:47:11Yeah. I like wry.
0:47:11 > 0:47:13- He loved you.- Don't be daft.
0:47:13 > 0:47:15He did go on about you a lot.
0:47:15 > 0:47:17Well, it wouldn't have been saying anything very nice.
0:47:17 > 0:47:19You'd be surprised.
0:47:19 > 0:47:23He said, in a tight corner, you'd be his go-to-guy.
0:47:23 > 0:47:25Yeah?
0:47:25 > 0:47:27Yeah, yeah, he did.
0:47:27 > 0:47:29And he gave us some advice to give to you.
0:47:29 > 0:47:32- To me?- Yes.
0:47:32 > 0:47:35"You only get one pop."
0:47:35 > 0:47:38"So grab the bull by the...whatsits."
0:47:38 > 0:47:40He'd always say that.
0:47:40 > 0:47:45"Dean, my son, go out there and grab the bull by the whatsits."
0:47:45 > 0:47:46HE LAUGHS
0:47:46 > 0:47:48Here you go.
0:47:48 > 0:47:50Cheers.
0:47:50 > 0:47:52Good luck, Tommy.
0:48:00 > 0:48:02What happened?
0:48:02 > 0:48:05A fractured rib punctured his lung.
0:48:06 > 0:48:08Oh, Jim.
0:48:08 > 0:48:11He's had to have an emergency drain, but he's stable,
0:48:11 > 0:48:16and he's booked in for surgery to have the lung repaired.
0:48:16 > 0:48:20I should have been here. He shouldn't have been on his own.
0:48:20 > 0:48:24You were helping a dying woman.
0:48:24 > 0:48:26We just patch 'em up and send 'em on,
0:48:26 > 0:48:29you have to look after their souls 24/7.
0:48:29 > 0:48:33That's a...that's a pretty big responsibility.
0:48:33 > 0:48:36- So is being someone's... - Next of kin?
0:48:38 > 0:48:39Exactly.
0:48:45 > 0:48:48You're really not getting the message, are you?
0:48:48 > 0:48:50You wearing your civvies?
0:48:51 > 0:48:55Oh, God, no. Tell me you haven't given up the priesthood?
0:48:55 > 0:48:57I don't want you to do that.
0:48:57 > 0:49:01Not yet. Why?
0:49:01 > 0:49:05Because it's who you are, you stupid git.
0:49:05 > 0:49:10I may not get it, but some poor old lady was lying there dying today,
0:49:10 > 0:49:16and you were able to give her peace and kindness and reassurance.
0:49:17 > 0:49:19That's something to be proud of.
0:49:22 > 0:49:27You know, when you take your meds, you're still you.
0:49:29 > 0:49:32You're just a you that functions better.
0:49:32 > 0:49:34JIM CHUCKLES
0:49:34 > 0:49:35What's your point?
0:49:37 > 0:49:41I'm Father Western, the priest, and I always will be.
0:49:43 > 0:49:46But I'm also Pete.
0:49:46 > 0:49:48A man who loves his partner..
0:49:49 > 0:49:52...and is trying to figure out how to be better at it.
0:49:55 > 0:49:57It's a compromise.
0:49:59 > 0:50:04I know God accepts me, but the church won't.
0:50:05 > 0:50:06It's not perfect.
0:50:09 > 0:50:13But I'd rather have half my life with you than none of it.
0:50:16 > 0:50:18That's the best I can offer.
0:50:27 > 0:50:32I walk into a ward where an F1, who is under your mentor-ship
0:50:32 > 0:50:36and care, is performing an emergency chest drain -
0:50:36 > 0:50:38a procedure she's not qualified to perform
0:50:38 > 0:50:42unless properly supervised by a more senior doctor,
0:50:42 > 0:50:44namely, you.
0:50:45 > 0:50:48Were you there, Dr Valentine...
0:50:49 > 0:50:50..supervising?
0:50:51 > 0:50:53Did you give your permission to proceed?
0:50:58 > 0:51:02Had you been made aware that the procedure was necessary?
0:51:05 > 0:51:06No.
0:51:10 > 0:51:12Chantelle?
0:51:12 > 0:51:14You heading home too?
0:51:14 > 0:51:17Yes. No. Maybe.
0:51:17 > 0:51:22I don't know, that depends, I was going to ask you...
0:51:22 > 0:51:26Are you OK? Why are you being all...?
0:51:26 > 0:51:29W-w-what?
0:51:29 > 0:51:32All Arthur with me.
0:51:34 > 0:51:38You said yourself. It's just a joke.
0:51:38 > 0:51:40What is?
0:51:40 > 0:51:42You and me. Doctors and nurses.
0:51:45 > 0:51:47Open your eyes, Arthur.
0:51:52 > 0:51:57I really, really like you. And we have such a laugh at work.
0:51:57 > 0:52:00And I think you're very sweet.
0:52:00 > 0:52:01But?
0:52:01 > 0:52:04I like being your friend.
0:52:04 > 0:52:07- HE SIGHS - "Your friend."
0:52:07 > 0:52:09I really like being your friend.
0:52:11 > 0:52:13You like being my friend?
0:52:15 > 0:52:17Not...?
0:52:17 > 0:52:19No.
0:52:23 > 0:52:25Go home, Arthur.
0:52:42 > 0:52:46It's Rachel's bloods, they're looking very good.
0:52:46 > 0:52:50She definitely on the mend. INR's improving.
0:52:50 > 0:52:53The girl's practically Wonder Woman.
0:52:53 > 0:52:55I can't do this.
0:52:56 > 0:52:58Chrissie...
0:52:58 > 0:53:00I can't. I'm sorry.
0:53:01 > 0:53:04I can't.
0:53:04 > 0:53:08Rachel's getting so much better. And Daniel's fine.
0:53:11 > 0:53:12I'm not.
0:53:12 > 0:53:16Just, just sleep on it. I mean, you're probably tired.
0:53:16 > 0:53:18I know I am.
0:53:23 > 0:53:26Come with me back to Oncology.
0:53:26 > 0:53:28I've booked a cab.
0:53:28 > 0:53:30You heading home?
0:53:30 > 0:53:32I'm leaving.
0:53:32 > 0:53:36Chrissie, look, I know it's been traumatic the last few...
0:53:36 > 0:53:38I just need some time to think.
0:53:38 > 0:53:40Where are you going to go?
0:53:40 > 0:53:42I've rung my dad.
0:53:42 > 0:53:44In Melbourne?
0:53:44 > 0:53:46We're going to go and visit.
0:53:46 > 0:53:47A visit?!
0:53:48 > 0:53:53Yes. Me and Daniel. Not permanently.
0:53:55 > 0:53:58Chrissie, this is crazy.
0:53:59 > 0:54:02You can say goodbye to us here or... walk us to the door.
0:54:11 > 0:54:14- Serena says I've got to be here. - That's right.
0:54:14 > 0:54:17You told her that if I don't talk I'll only act out my feelings.
0:54:17 > 0:54:20- Do you have any feelings, Oliver? - What?
0:54:20 > 0:54:24At the moment? Do you have any feelings?
0:54:24 > 0:54:25I don't understand.
0:54:25 > 0:54:29It's a simple question. Do you have feelings?
0:54:29 > 0:54:31HE TUTS
0:54:31 > 0:54:33I'm not asking what sort of feelings, or what colour,
0:54:33 > 0:54:37or how big. Simply, do you have any feelings at all?
0:54:39 > 0:54:44Grief over the loss of a loved one can start a tsunami of feelings.
0:54:45 > 0:54:49You know the roll call. Denial, anger, depression...yada, yada.
0:54:49 > 0:54:51Agreed?
0:54:51 > 0:54:56Or...grief can cause a paralysis of feelings.
0:54:56 > 0:55:03Nothing. A great howling void of nothingness.
0:55:03 > 0:55:05So I'd like to try something.
0:55:08 > 0:55:10A technique.
0:55:31 > 0:55:33Humour me.
0:55:43 > 0:55:45CLOCK TICKS
0:55:55 > 0:55:57Do you feel anything?
0:56:01 > 0:56:03Do you know why I married you?
0:56:06 > 0:56:08I ask myself that every day.
0:56:08 > 0:56:14Because I trusted you. I never pick trustworthy men. But you...
0:56:16 > 0:56:21You were secure, adoring, dependable...
0:56:22 > 0:56:25..and I knew you would love me for ever.
0:56:26 > 0:56:30Because you, in your stupid Sacha brain,
0:56:30 > 0:56:32- thought I was too good for you. - You are.
0:56:33 > 0:56:37I trusted you, but you don't trust me, do you?
0:56:38 > 0:56:41Did you really think I would let Rachel die?
0:56:44 > 0:56:50I thought I knew you would never leave me,
0:56:50 > 0:56:52you would never lie to me, and you would never hurt me.
0:56:52 > 0:56:56- Never.- But you did.
0:56:58 > 0:57:02Am I so bad? I fought for my daughter.
0:57:02 > 0:57:04I love my son.
0:57:06 > 0:57:13I try every day to provide for you and I love you.
0:57:16 > 0:57:21I can't be in this marriage for Daniel's sake. For the girls'.
0:57:21 > 0:57:26I have to be in it because I want to, otherwise it's no good for anyone.
0:57:26 > 0:57:31What I loved...loved about you was that I could trust you.
0:57:34 > 0:57:36And now, I can't.
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