0:00:38 > 0:00:40I really like being your friend.
0:00:40 > 0:00:42Not...
0:00:42 > 0:00:43No.
0:00:45 > 0:00:48I'm always going to have this shadow hanging over me.
0:00:48 > 0:00:51We all have a shadow hanging over us.
0:00:51 > 0:00:53Just some more than others.
0:00:56 > 0:01:01Mr Malick gave her too much. She went into respiratory depression.
0:01:01 > 0:01:04What Dr Copeland said... it couldn't happen.
0:01:04 > 0:01:05You want me to get off? I will.
0:01:05 > 0:01:08Dr Valentine, I can't do this unsupervised. I'm not qualified.
0:01:08 > 0:01:09Don't do it.
0:01:09 > 0:01:12Had you been made aware that the procedure was necessary?
0:01:12 > 0:01:13No.
0:01:24 > 0:01:27You're looking better.
0:01:27 > 0:01:30- Excuse me? - I said you're looking better.
0:01:30 > 0:01:32Oh, I had a shave and a haircut.
0:01:32 > 0:01:35Sometimes it's the little things that count.
0:01:35 > 0:01:36Turning up to sessions, for example.
0:01:36 > 0:01:41What can I say? I'm turning over a whole new leaf.
0:01:41 > 0:01:42I've started running.
0:01:42 > 0:01:43Anywhere particular?
0:01:43 > 0:01:47No. Just running.
0:01:47 > 0:01:48For fun?
0:01:48 > 0:01:50For exercise.
0:01:50 > 0:01:54You know what they say - healthy body, healthy mind.
0:01:58 > 0:02:01I just figured it was time to pull myself together.
0:02:01 > 0:02:03By running?
0:02:03 > 0:02:05Everything.
0:02:05 > 0:02:07"It's the little things".
0:02:07 > 0:02:08Like...grieving?
0:02:08 > 0:02:13Look, I've done enough grieving. And I don't pretend to have answers.
0:02:13 > 0:02:15I don't need them. Not any more.
0:02:15 > 0:02:17Really? Why is that?
0:02:17 > 0:02:18Like you said - I'm better now.
0:02:26 > 0:02:30'Argh! Argh!'
0:02:32 > 0:02:36'Someone call an ambulance! He's dying!
0:02:36 > 0:02:37'Help!'
0:02:39 > 0:02:42Have you completed your investigation?
0:02:42 > 0:02:46Let's just say I have covered our collective behinds.
0:02:46 > 0:02:49It says here Dr Wilde is taking responsibility for the incident.
0:02:49 > 0:02:51I thought that was in dispute?
0:02:51 > 0:02:54It appears Dr Wilde has had a change of heart.
0:02:54 > 0:02:56Or conscience.
0:02:56 > 0:02:58Whatever her motives, it saves us
0:02:58 > 0:03:01having to examine Dr Valentine's statement too closely.
0:03:01 > 0:03:02You think he's lying?
0:03:02 > 0:03:06There are rumours that Dr Wilde has, um...
0:03:06 > 0:03:10Oh, how to put it delicately...?
0:03:10 > 0:03:11"Taken one for the team".
0:03:18 > 0:03:22Lipstick - on your collar.
0:03:22 > 0:03:24C'mon, that's cliched, even for you!
0:03:24 > 0:03:25It's not what you think.
0:03:25 > 0:03:28Yeah, right.
0:03:28 > 0:03:30What do you mean, cliched, anyway?
0:03:30 > 0:03:32- I'm the least cliched person, I know.- Yikes!
0:03:32 > 0:03:36Remind me never to come to a dinner party with you and your mates.
0:03:36 > 0:03:38There's something different about you.
0:03:38 > 0:03:42You seem...relaxed.
0:03:42 > 0:03:46- If I didn't know you better, I'd say you'd got...- Don't even... - Good news.
0:03:46 > 0:03:48As though a weight's been lifted from your shoulders.
0:03:48 > 0:03:49Maybe that chip?
0:03:49 > 0:03:51I've come to a decision, that's all.
0:03:51 > 0:03:54- What decision? - If you can't beat 'em, join 'em.
0:03:54 > 0:03:55Who's "them"?
0:03:55 > 0:03:56PAGER BLEEPS
0:04:07 > 0:04:08Morning, sleepy-head.
0:04:08 > 0:04:10We were paged?
0:04:10 > 0:04:12Not what I think, huh? "Sleepy-head".
0:04:12 > 0:04:14What's going on? ED referral?
0:04:14 > 0:04:16Not quite.
0:04:16 > 0:04:19I've heard of dress down Friday but that is taking the...
0:04:19 > 0:04:23- Dr Valentine brought the patient in. - Patient collapsed in the gym where I was working out.
0:04:23 > 0:04:25Any particular reason you bypassed ED?
0:04:25 > 0:04:28Yeah, his symptoms. Abdominal X-ray, CT scan, U&Es, please.
0:04:28 > 0:04:31Hey, whoa. If you want to play doctor on AAU at least put on some scrubs.
0:04:31 > 0:04:33If you guys want to mark your territory, find a tree.
0:04:33 > 0:04:38Patient has severe cramping, abdominal pain. Oh, and diarrhoea - bloodied.
0:04:38 > 0:04:40Must have been a nice ambulance ride.
0:04:40 > 0:04:42Dr Wilde. A word, please? Now.
0:04:44 > 0:04:46Patient's all yours.
0:04:46 > 0:04:47"Patient" got a name?
0:04:50 > 0:04:52What's going on there, then?
0:04:52 > 0:04:53Nothing good.
0:04:53 > 0:04:57Didn't you hear about the St Valentine's Night massacre?
0:04:59 > 0:05:04I hear you changed your statement. About what happened.
0:05:04 > 0:05:05I just wanted to explain.
0:05:05 > 0:05:10You know what? I get it. You lost your wife.
0:05:10 > 0:05:11Then you lost your mind.
0:05:11 > 0:05:16Then you almost lost your job - refusing to attend a patient and then lying about it?
0:05:16 > 0:05:18That's a career-ender.
0:05:18 > 0:05:23Almost as bad as an F1 getting a name for herself for grassing up her seniors.
0:05:23 > 0:05:25As has been made VERY clear to me.
0:05:25 > 0:05:28Better to be known as an incompetent than as a whistle-blower.
0:05:28 > 0:05:31I didn't do it for you.
0:05:31 > 0:05:34I just didn't fancy committing career suicide on a point of principle.
0:05:34 > 0:05:36As long as we're both on the same page.
0:05:36 > 0:05:38Ulcerative colitis.
0:05:38 > 0:05:43The man out there. It's a hunch but an informed one.
0:05:43 > 0:05:45Look for a dilated colon on the X-ray.
0:05:45 > 0:05:50- Why are you...- A diagnosis like that will go a long way to proving to Ms Campbell you're not incompetent.
0:05:50 > 0:05:54If you want to help me, you can tell the truth.
0:06:03 > 0:06:05How's the flat?
0:06:05 > 0:06:06Empty.
0:06:06 > 0:06:09Her parents put it on the market.
0:06:09 > 0:06:13- With your permission? - Oh, it was my idea.
0:06:13 > 0:06:14What about Tara's things?
0:06:14 > 0:06:18I boxed them up.
0:06:18 > 0:06:21All of them? That's a lot of memories.
0:06:21 > 0:06:24It's just stuff. I was getting fixated.
0:06:24 > 0:06:26Surrounded by her things. I realised it wasn't healthy.
0:06:26 > 0:06:28Tell me - did this realisation come before or after
0:06:28 > 0:06:30the incident on the night shift the other week?
0:06:30 > 0:06:35- Does it matter?- You tell me. Want to talk about it? It might help.
0:06:35 > 0:06:37What makes you think I need help?
0:06:49 > 0:06:50PAGER BEEPS
0:07:00 > 0:07:01How are you feeling, Mr...?
0:07:01 > 0:07:03Cohen. Josh.
0:07:03 > 0:07:05Joshua Cohen? Jewish, right?
0:07:05 > 0:07:08No flies on you.
0:07:08 > 0:07:11- I'm feeling better now the drugs have kicked in.- What happened?
0:07:11 > 0:07:12Dunno.
0:07:12 > 0:07:17I was working out as usual and all of a sudden I was in agony and passed out.
0:07:17 > 0:07:21But not before I...you know.
0:07:21 > 0:07:22Had an accident.
0:07:22 > 0:07:25Bloods, U&Es, LFTs.
0:07:25 > 0:07:27As Dr Valentine ordered.
0:07:28 > 0:07:31So this "accident". Er...
0:07:31 > 0:07:33Has it happened before?
0:07:33 > 0:07:36It's not that uncommon in triathletes during heavy training blocks. But...
0:07:36 > 0:07:39Not like this, not with blood.
0:07:39 > 0:07:43- You're a triathlete? - Professional. Why? Surprised?
0:07:43 > 0:07:46Why would I be? Excuse me.
0:07:46 > 0:07:47Of course, er, Dr...?
0:07:47 > 0:07:49Tressler. Harry.
0:07:49 > 0:07:53Dr Harry Tressler. Posh, right?
0:07:55 > 0:07:57Have you got any labs on Mr Cohen yet?
0:07:57 > 0:08:02You're a dark horse, aren't you? Performing an unsupervised chest drain is pretty dodgy,
0:08:02 > 0:08:05- but doing it badly... Why didn't you tell me? - I didn't want to talk about it.
0:08:05 > 0:08:09And drop golden boy in it at the same time? No wonder Serena's all over you like a rash.
0:08:09 > 0:08:12I didn't drop him in it. He told me to go ahead.
0:08:12 > 0:08:14What, he stitched you up? Well, that's not fair.
0:08:14 > 0:08:17- Of course it's not fair! - What's not fair?
0:08:17 > 0:08:20- Is there a problem?- No, no problem.
0:08:20 > 0:08:25I just asked Dr Tressler if I could perform a colonoscopy on a patient with bowel inflammation.
0:08:25 > 0:08:26He said no.
0:08:26 > 0:08:30Really? That does sound very unfair.
0:08:30 > 0:08:33We don't need the colonoscopy. I've got the diagnosis.
0:08:33 > 0:08:35- You do?- Have you?
0:08:35 > 0:08:37Crohn's.
0:08:37 > 0:08:39I want an abdominal X-ray before I put money on it but...
0:08:39 > 0:08:41Oh, well, let Dr Wilde do that for you.
0:08:41 > 0:08:43You're needed in Mr Hanssen's office.
0:08:46 > 0:08:50Ms Campbell? It could very well be Crohn's disease
0:08:50 > 0:08:53but there are several other... a colonoscopy...
0:08:53 > 0:08:56It says a lot about your working relationship with Dr Tressler that
0:08:56 > 0:09:00you waited all of...what, three seconds, before going behind his back.
0:09:00 > 0:09:06Book the X-ray. And wait for Dr Tressler before doing anything else.
0:09:06 > 0:09:07Understood?
0:09:19 > 0:09:21Any idea what this is all about?
0:09:24 > 0:09:28So what were you and Gemma hob-nobbing about?
0:09:28 > 0:09:30Why don't you ask her?
0:09:30 > 0:09:32I have.
0:09:33 > 0:09:36Gentlemen.
0:09:42 > 0:09:46Good. AS you're aware, the presentations you've opted to
0:09:46 > 0:09:48make were slated for next week.
0:09:48 > 0:09:50I trust it's simply a matter of honing the finer
0:09:50 > 0:09:52- points at this stage?- Absolutely.
0:09:52 > 0:09:54- Like a razor's edge, sir. - Honing away...
0:09:54 > 0:09:57- That's been...honed.- Excellent.
0:09:57 > 0:10:01So you won't mind if I bring the presentations forward?
0:10:01 > 0:10:04Can't see a problem. When?
0:10:04 > 0:10:08Today. At this evening's Mortality and Morbidity meeting.
0:10:10 > 0:10:11I do realise this is rather sudden
0:10:11 > 0:10:14so if either of you have any objection...
0:10:14 > 0:10:16I don't. Dr Valentine?
0:10:16 > 0:10:20No. If Dr Tressler's good to go, then so am I.
0:10:20 > 0:10:25Excellent. Well, good luck. May the best man win.
0:10:28 > 0:10:30Was there something else?
0:10:56 > 0:10:58KNOCK ON DOOR
0:10:58 > 0:11:00Oliver? We've had a referral from ED.
0:11:00 > 0:11:02I should be finishing this presentation.
0:11:02 > 0:11:06Yes, Mr Hanssen told us it'd been moved forward.
0:11:06 > 0:11:08If you'd like another pair of eyes...
0:11:08 > 0:11:11I've...got to make a few tweaks before I'm ready with it.
0:11:11 > 0:11:13They'll have to wait.
0:11:13 > 0:11:15You're going to want to see this. Trust me.
0:11:15 > 0:11:19- What is it?- A blast from the past.
0:11:19 > 0:11:21Dr Valentine!
0:11:21 > 0:11:23You don't remember me, do you?
0:11:23 > 0:11:26Chasing down my deadbeat dad in the rain?
0:11:26 > 0:11:29Jenny. Jenny Mulgrew.
0:11:29 > 0:11:33- It must be a year! How are you? - Well, apart from being here again, I'm OK.
0:11:33 > 0:11:37Jenny's mum is on her way and ED suspect pleural effusion.
0:11:37 > 0:11:41- Er, but there is another issue. - I'm sure it'll be fine. We'll do a pericardiocentisis.
0:11:41 > 0:11:44- Find out what's going on. - Where's Dr Lo?
0:11:44 > 0:11:50Tara? Is she here? I wanted her to know that...
0:11:50 > 0:11:53- What's wrong? - We'll just get you settled.
0:11:53 > 0:11:56Nothing's wrong. Jenny. Tara's...
0:11:56 > 0:11:59She passed away three months ago. It was very sudden. What...
0:12:01 > 0:12:04What was it you wanted her to know?
0:12:04 > 0:12:06This.
0:12:31 > 0:12:34What a piece of junk! What happened to your wheels?
0:12:34 > 0:12:38Alternator trouble. Thinking of trading it in, actually.
0:12:38 > 0:12:41For that? What are you, like, 60?
0:12:41 > 0:12:44With three kids and a wife? And what's up with the threads?
0:12:44 > 0:12:47You haven't just returned from some exotic place in the developing
0:12:47 > 0:12:49world with a severe case of straight, have you?
0:12:49 > 0:12:53Look, I've just had a four-week enforced holiday.
0:12:53 > 0:12:56Forgive me if I want to keep a low profile for a while, all right?
0:12:56 > 0:13:01Low profile? I give it two hours.
0:13:01 > 0:13:04It's good to have you back, Malick.
0:13:04 > 0:13:06Oh, Malick? Hanssen's serious.
0:13:09 > 0:13:11Don't mess up. Last chance.
0:13:14 > 0:13:16You booked Mr Cohen's X-ray yet?
0:13:16 > 0:13:20Booked it, scanned it. Bagged it.
0:13:20 > 0:13:23I tried to sell Campbell on the colonoscopy again.
0:13:23 > 0:13:26She pretty much accused me of stabbing you in the back.
0:13:26 > 0:13:29You'd never stab me in the back.
0:13:29 > 0:13:31The front provides much easier access to vital organs.
0:13:31 > 0:13:32Yup.
0:13:32 > 0:13:36Why are you still banging on about the colonoscopy, anyway? It's almost certainly Crohn's.
0:13:36 > 0:13:41I'm damned if I'm going to spend my last day on this hellhole of a ward sticking wire up a man's jacksie.
0:13:41 > 0:13:45I thought it might be ulcerative colitis.
0:13:46 > 0:13:49Interesting. What gave you that idea?
0:13:52 > 0:13:54Just a hunch.
0:13:54 > 0:13:59Athlete. Non-smoker... things like that.
0:13:59 > 0:14:00Big dilated colon.
0:14:00 > 0:14:03Some hunch, Gemma.
0:14:03 > 0:14:07Don't get too cocky. Still need confirmation yet.
0:14:07 > 0:14:10I'll get the fine wire - you get the jacksie!
0:14:10 > 0:14:12Hah!
0:14:12 > 0:14:15You must know the risks, the pressure pregnancy can put on the heart.
0:14:15 > 0:14:17The effects of anti-rejection meds on the baby.
0:14:17 > 0:14:22- I know the risks. - Does the father?- There is no father.
0:14:22 > 0:14:28- This pericardio what's-it...it won't hurt the baby, will it?- No.
0:14:28 > 0:14:32But the obstetrician will want to check you out, just in case.
0:14:32 > 0:14:36- In fact, looks like they're ready for you now.- You're not staying? - Got a deadline. I'll check in later.
0:14:36 > 0:14:38Hey, you got married?
0:14:38 > 0:14:39- Yeah...- Who to?
0:14:41 > 0:14:44Dr Lo?
0:14:44 > 0:14:49Just before her operation. It's OK. We knew the risks, too.
0:14:52 > 0:14:55You want to put a what up my where?
0:14:55 > 0:14:59It sounds more unpleasant than it actually is. We can give you some sedation.
0:14:59 > 0:15:01- PHONE RINGS - Are you going to get that?
0:15:01 > 0:15:05It's...my dad. Aaron...
0:15:05 > 0:15:06He's Jewish, too.
0:15:06 > 0:15:09He's probably wondering why I'm not at training.
0:15:09 > 0:15:12- Hard case, is he? - No. Not the way you think.
0:15:12 > 0:15:15He thinks what I do is a...a waste.
0:15:15 > 0:15:17- Of time?- Of me.
0:15:17 > 0:15:20He thinks the last Jewish athlete of any note got fit
0:15:20 > 0:15:22running away from Goliath.
0:15:22 > 0:15:26Now, a nice law degree... Well, that would be respectable.
0:15:26 > 0:15:27Worthy.
0:15:27 > 0:15:30This colonoscopy'll fix things, right?
0:15:30 > 0:15:33I'll be able to go back to training?
0:15:33 > 0:15:36Why don't we discuss treatment once we're certain of the diagnosis, yeah?
0:15:36 > 0:15:37Excuse me.
0:15:40 > 0:15:41Hello, Dad.
0:15:41 > 0:15:46I thought we could begin by going through the clinical logbook then my e-portofolio analysis.
0:15:46 > 0:15:50This F1 deadline is today, you say?
0:15:50 > 0:15:53Can it not be delayed, give me time to get my head around it?
0:15:53 > 0:15:55- You've had four weeks. - I had things on my mind.
0:15:55 > 0:15:57Like what?
0:15:57 > 0:15:59Ah, the inquest.
0:15:59 > 0:16:03Dominic Copeland trying to frame you in a fit of jealous sexual rage.
0:16:03 > 0:16:04Yeah. That.
0:16:04 > 0:16:07It all worked out in the end, though, didn't it?
0:16:07 > 0:16:10I could have done without all that extra attention.
0:16:10 > 0:16:14- Hey!- Who do you think you are, papping in a hospital, you vulture?
0:16:14 > 0:16:19She's your 3pm MRI and possible laparotomy.
0:16:19 > 0:16:21My name is Carmen Bishop.
0:16:21 > 0:16:22Who the hell are you?
0:16:32 > 0:16:38Crohn's or colitis, I don't think... What are you doing?
0:16:38 > 0:16:39Just having a laugh.
0:16:39 > 0:16:42Hmmm. Haven't you got a test to study for?
0:16:42 > 0:16:45- In fact, what is this test? - Oh, yeah, that was my presentation.
0:16:45 > 0:16:47They've brought it forward to this afternoon.
0:16:47 > 0:16:50That's what you meant earlier. You think this is your last day on AAU.
0:16:50 > 0:16:53- Going to miss me, aren't you? - Like a host misses a parasite.
0:16:53 > 0:16:57They do - if they're symbiotic.
0:16:57 > 0:17:01So what is this laugh, then? Shouldn't you be preparing?
0:17:01 > 0:17:04No need. I reckon it's in the bag.
0:17:04 > 0:17:06Bit cocky, aren't you?
0:17:06 > 0:17:08Valentine's a good doctor and he's on home soil.
0:17:08 > 0:17:11Valentine's a wreck. What he did to you was inexcusable.
0:17:11 > 0:17:13Don't go starting anything on my behalf.
0:17:13 > 0:17:16Haven't you got anything better to worry about? Like your F1 deadline?
0:17:16 > 0:17:19I need a supervisor, and neither Sacha nor Ric are here.
0:17:19 > 0:17:23So? It just gets devolved to the ward's on-call senior doctor.
0:17:23 > 0:17:25- Who is...?- Serena Campbell.
0:17:25 > 0:17:29You've got a lot of sucking-up to do.
0:17:29 > 0:17:32Don't say anything to Oliver. Please.
0:17:32 > 0:17:34I mean it. Promise me.
0:17:34 > 0:17:35I promise. Go.
0:17:36 > 0:17:39And tell Ms Campbell about the colonoscopy.
0:17:44 > 0:17:47Oops!
0:17:55 > 0:17:57Oliver, I know you're busy, but...
0:17:57 > 0:18:00would you mind coming with me to talk to Jenny Mulgrew?
0:18:00 > 0:18:02About what?
0:18:02 > 0:18:06The results of her pericardiocentisis.
0:18:08 > 0:18:10Why did you become a doctor?
0:18:14 > 0:18:19I'd have expected you'd know exactly why you do what it is you do.
0:18:19 > 0:18:22- Seeing as it's so important to you. - What makes you say that?
0:18:23 > 0:18:26You came back to work the day you buried your wife.
0:18:26 > 0:18:30In fact, you haven't taken a single day off.
0:18:30 > 0:18:33- That's remarkable dedication. - What else was I supposed to do?
0:18:33 > 0:18:38Take some time off. Time for yourself.
0:18:38 > 0:18:40- Live your life. - The job is SAVING lives.
0:18:40 > 0:18:43And that's important.
0:18:45 > 0:18:47Right?
0:18:47 > 0:18:49You tell me.
0:18:49 > 0:18:54Your tests have confirmed it's not infective endocarditis,
0:18:54 > 0:18:58but there are signs of early rejection.
0:18:58 > 0:19:05Your anti-rejection medication doesn't appear to be working.
0:19:05 > 0:19:06Sounds ominous.
0:19:06 > 0:19:09It's not working because it's not there. What's going on?
0:19:09 > 0:19:12Jenny, have you stopped taking your meds?
0:19:12 > 0:19:16What were you thinking? Have you any idea how dangerous this is?
0:19:16 > 0:19:20How long ago did you stop? Two weeks, three weeks?
0:19:20 > 0:19:23Three months. Give or take.
0:19:23 > 0:19:26I had to. The risk to the baby...
0:19:26 > 0:19:29Right, Nurse Maconie, we're going to need an urgent CT scan, please.
0:19:29 > 0:19:34- It's going to be all right, isn't it?- Jenny? Are you OK?
0:19:34 > 0:19:36Is it...is the baby OK?
0:19:36 > 0:19:39As far as the obstetrician can tell, the baby's going to be fine.
0:19:39 > 0:19:42It's Jenny we're worried about.
0:19:42 > 0:19:46Well, this must be some kind of record, even for you, Malick.
0:19:48 > 0:19:53Back on the ward for five minutes before you get aggressive with a patient.
0:19:53 > 0:19:57- A blind female patient...really? - How was I supposed to know she was blind?
0:19:57 > 0:20:01Actually, it does say here on the ward notes I gave you, um...
0:20:01 > 0:20:03Let's have a look. "Carmen Bishop, 37.
0:20:03 > 0:20:05"Long-term Churg-Strauss syndrome patient.
0:20:05 > 0:20:09"Loss of sight and complications arising from peripheral neuropathy.
0:20:09 > 0:20:13"Referred by GP for MRI..."
0:20:13 > 0:20:14Shall I stop now?
0:20:14 > 0:20:17Before one of us dies, go and play with Chantelle.
0:20:17 > 0:20:21Pff! Why would I want to go and play with Chantelle!
0:20:21 > 0:20:22Cos she's your friend.
0:20:24 > 0:20:26Wait a minute, have you two had a falling out?
0:20:26 > 0:20:28I wasn't aware we'd had a falling in.
0:20:28 > 0:20:29All right.
0:20:30 > 0:20:34Mallick, an apology would be good.
0:20:34 > 0:20:38Finding out what's wrong with her - that would be even better.
0:20:38 > 0:20:41What's done is done. She doesn't need lectures.
0:20:41 > 0:20:45- She needs help.- We can drain the fluid from the membrane surrounding the heart.
0:20:45 > 0:20:47But that will only treat the symptoms and not the cause.
0:20:47 > 0:20:51The only sensible course of action is to get back on your medication immediately.
0:20:51 > 0:20:54No more meds. Not while the baby's inside.
0:20:54 > 0:20:58- Then we take the baby out by Caesarian. And you go back on meds. - She's only 27 weeks.
0:20:58 > 0:20:59She could die.
0:20:59 > 0:21:03Without drugs, so might you.
0:21:03 > 0:21:06I don't get it. You got pregnant. You're a heart transplant patient.
0:21:06 > 0:21:08- Does that mean I'm not supposed to live a normal life?- Exactly.
0:21:08 > 0:21:11You were given a gift. With it comes responsibility.
0:21:11 > 0:21:13And becoming a mother doesn't?
0:21:13 > 0:21:18What's the point? Jenny, you know you're living on borrowed time.
0:21:18 > 0:21:20Even if you somehow avoid complete rejection now,
0:21:20 > 0:21:27you carry to term. You survive the birth, you might only live ten years.
0:21:27 > 0:21:29- Oliver! That's enough. - No. He's right.
0:21:33 > 0:21:36You're right. I do only have limited time.
0:21:39 > 0:21:41But this is my life. My choice.
0:21:45 > 0:21:49I guess I'm just going to have to make the most of the time I've got.
0:21:55 > 0:21:59People depend on us. They're sick, in pain, incapacitated, dying.
0:21:59 > 0:22:02They come to us for help. What could be more important than that?
0:22:02 > 0:22:05It was important to Tara too, wasn't it?
0:22:05 > 0:22:07In fact, it would be fair to say
0:22:07 > 0:22:11that doing this was more important than anything for her.
0:22:11 > 0:22:13Even her own health.
0:22:15 > 0:22:19I don't know, maybe. What do you expect me to say?
0:22:19 > 0:22:22I don't expect you to say anything.
0:22:22 > 0:22:24But I'm interested in how you feel about it.
0:22:27 > 0:22:28OK, you ready?
0:22:28 > 0:22:30This is so humiliating.
0:22:30 > 0:22:32- I'll be gentle. - Bet you say that to all the girls!
0:22:32 > 0:22:35- Hah! - Oh, I do like a happy workplace.
0:22:35 > 0:22:40Sorry to interrupt. Mr Cohen, I've got your father here.
0:22:40 > 0:22:43Dad? Great. Come on in.
0:22:43 > 0:22:46You must be Aaron. I'd shake your hand but...
0:22:46 > 0:22:49Join the party. Anyone else you guys want to invite?
0:22:49 > 0:22:51Maybe a passing tramp?
0:22:51 > 0:22:53That's no way to speak of Ms Campbell, Joshua.
0:22:53 > 0:22:54Especially in front of your father.
0:22:54 > 0:22:58- Joshua? What are they doing to you? - Could this day possibly get worse?
0:22:58 > 0:23:02Getting teased by an upper-class twit as he prepares to stick a camera up my bum...
0:23:02 > 0:23:04Welcome to ten seconds ago.
0:23:04 > 0:23:05What?
0:23:07 > 0:23:09Oh.
0:23:09 > 0:23:10That was...beautiful.
0:23:10 > 0:23:12Thank you very much. I'll be here all week.
0:23:12 > 0:23:14I'll be interested in seeing the results.
0:23:14 > 0:23:17I'll also be interested in hearing how
0:23:17 > 0:23:20and why this procedure was green-lit without me knowing about it.
0:23:24 > 0:23:27I thought you were going to talk to her? You chicken out?
0:23:27 > 0:23:30Can he ride a bicycle after that?
0:23:37 > 0:23:40- Um, Carmen? - Don't hurt me, I'm unarmed.
0:23:40 > 0:23:41I'm not... I wouldn't...
0:23:44 > 0:23:46Right. I guess I deserved that.
0:23:46 > 0:23:50- I guess you did. - Look, I'm sorry. It's just...
0:23:50 > 0:23:53Well, it's kind of hard to explain.
0:23:53 > 0:23:55Is it? Young Dr Digby seemed to do it fine.
0:23:55 > 0:23:58Yeah? What did he tell you exactly?
0:23:58 > 0:24:01That you've just returned after four weeks.
0:24:01 > 0:24:04That you've needed the time off because you've been involved
0:24:04 > 0:24:07in a high-profile medical scandal where you put both your professional
0:24:07 > 0:24:10career and your personal life under the microscope in order to
0:24:10 > 0:24:15restore some sense of meaning and hope to a grieving mother.
0:24:15 > 0:24:19So...did Dr Digby get it about right?
0:24:19 > 0:24:22Yeah...I guess he did.
0:24:22 > 0:24:26I just took your picture. Hope you don't mind?
0:24:26 > 0:24:29No, no, no. It's fine...I guess.
0:24:29 > 0:24:32Go on. Ask the question.
0:24:34 > 0:24:37What use does a blind woman have for a camera?
0:24:41 > 0:24:42My work.
0:24:45 > 0:24:46You're an artist?
0:24:46 > 0:24:48I try.
0:24:48 > 0:24:51I used to be a photographer - professional.
0:24:51 > 0:24:52Back in another life.
0:24:52 > 0:24:54Before the Churg-Strauss?
0:24:54 > 0:24:57It took my eyesight - but it can't take my creativity.
0:24:57 > 0:24:59Or my imagination.
0:24:59 > 0:25:02These days I use other resources to experience the world.
0:25:02 > 0:25:06To get an impression. I experience that, document it,
0:25:06 > 0:25:08and photograph it.
0:25:08 > 0:25:10The fun bit's finding out if they match.
0:25:12 > 0:25:15Describe what you see.
0:25:15 > 0:25:19A dashing, virile, black Adonis, an immensely talented man
0:25:19 > 0:25:21at the top of his game.
0:25:21 > 0:25:23Arrogant, impetuous and daring.
0:25:23 > 0:25:25How perfect.
0:25:25 > 0:25:28I'd love to meet this man.
0:25:28 > 0:25:30You're speaking to him.
0:25:30 > 0:25:31Doesn't sound like it.
0:25:31 > 0:25:33But I could be wrong.
0:25:35 > 0:25:36Can I use it?
0:25:36 > 0:25:37What?
0:25:37 > 0:25:41The image. For my website.
0:25:41 > 0:25:42Do what you like with it.
0:25:42 > 0:25:45But be quick, OK? we need to get that MRI.
0:25:54 > 0:25:57Oliver? I understand you've cleared away Tara's things.
0:25:57 > 0:26:00- What?- Er, flat's on the market or something? I was wondering...
0:26:00 > 0:26:05How do you know that? How could you possibly know about that? Sharon?
0:26:05 > 0:26:08- No.- Is that what passes for patient confidentiality round yours?
0:26:08 > 0:26:13- You bat your eyelids, she coughs up my private thoughts?- Oliver, stop it.
0:26:13 > 0:26:15I got a letter from Mr Lo.
0:26:15 > 0:26:17Sharon had nothing to do with it.
0:26:17 > 0:26:18Mr Lo?
0:26:18 > 0:26:22He found this at the bottom of one of the boxes.
0:26:24 > 0:26:29It seems that Tara left something to be delivered to me. A memory stick?
0:26:29 > 0:26:31I couldn't remember receiving it.
0:26:31 > 0:26:33I wondered if you knew anything about it?
0:26:33 > 0:26:35No.
0:27:20 > 0:27:23I didn't see or speak to Tara since I was discharged.
0:27:23 > 0:27:27- We moved. - Yes, to Norwich. Look, it's all here.
0:27:27 > 0:27:30Every case history has a name. Except Patient X.
0:27:30 > 0:27:32But there is a name. In annotation.
0:27:34 > 0:27:35Yours.
0:27:37 > 0:27:42The shadow. I remember Tara talking about that.
0:27:42 > 0:27:43She came to see you?
0:27:43 > 0:27:47No, when we first met. In the car.
0:27:47 > 0:27:50She said: "There's a shadow hanging over all of us.
0:27:50 > 0:27:54"Appreciate the opportunities we've been given".
0:27:54 > 0:27:57Don't you remember?
0:27:57 > 0:27:58I'm sorry.
0:28:01 > 0:28:04I didn't mean any of this, you know.
0:28:04 > 0:28:07I didn't even notice for the first three months.
0:28:07 > 0:28:13I thought it was my meds making me late but turns out I was wrong.
0:28:13 > 0:28:16Mum got me straight in the car and drove me to the clinic.
0:28:16 > 0:28:18Ordered me to have an abortion.
0:28:18 > 0:28:22- She was right. - Don't you think I know that?
0:28:22 > 0:28:26But you married Tara, knowing that she could...
0:28:26 > 0:28:32Knowing that YOU could be left alone. Abandoned.
0:28:32 > 0:28:35You wanted something.
0:28:35 > 0:28:37A legacy.
0:28:37 > 0:28:38So do I.
0:28:41 > 0:28:43I'm all she's got. And I'm going to...
0:28:43 > 0:28:45MONITOR BEEPS
0:28:45 > 0:28:47MONITOR BEEPS FASTER
0:28:47 > 0:28:49Jenny?
0:28:49 > 0:28:53OK, I'm going to need some help here, please!
0:28:53 > 0:28:55Why are you going?
0:28:56 > 0:28:58It's just getting interesting.
0:29:03 > 0:29:05Sometimes I blame myself.
0:29:10 > 0:29:16I wonder if I'd done things differently. Said something sooner.
0:29:16 > 0:29:20Tried harder, force her into action.
0:29:21 > 0:29:22Stupid, huh?
0:29:25 > 0:29:30The result would have been the same. I know that. And then...
0:29:30 > 0:29:34I think - what if I'd never met her at all?
0:29:34 > 0:29:36You know? What then?
0:29:36 > 0:29:38The whole sliding doors thing.
0:29:38 > 0:29:42If I'd never met her, then she might never have fallen in love.
0:29:42 > 0:29:47Never got married. Never had reason to risk what she risked.
0:29:53 > 0:29:55Tara had asthma.
0:29:57 > 0:29:59- Did you know that?- No, I didn't.
0:29:59 > 0:30:03Nor did I. I only found out about it the day she died.
0:30:03 > 0:30:05It was in her pre-op background check.
0:30:08 > 0:30:11Funny, huh? That I wouldn't know something like that.
0:30:11 > 0:30:16You can have intimacy without... full disclosure.
0:30:16 > 0:30:21Can you? Really?
0:30:21 > 0:30:24There's only so much time we have with each other.
0:30:26 > 0:30:27Time...
0:30:30 > 0:30:33Met her. Went out with her. Married her. Buried her.
0:30:36 > 0:30:37And I never knew she had asthma.
0:30:43 > 0:30:46I never really knew her at all.
0:30:46 > 0:30:51I'm intrigued. What made you come up with ulcerative colitis?
0:30:53 > 0:31:00I...I don't know. He's an athlete, non-smoker...basically a hunch.
0:31:00 > 0:31:02Well, it appears you're right.
0:31:02 > 0:31:05Unfortunately for Mr Cohen, this looks extremely severe.
0:31:05 > 0:31:08- Toxic megacolon?- No, but if it goes untreated any longer it will be.
0:31:08 > 0:31:11He must have been in discomfort for months.
0:31:11 > 0:31:17- I'll go and tell him. - No, she who makes the diagnosis, breaks the diagnosis.
0:31:17 > 0:31:23I'm sure you could do with preparing for your presentation.
0:31:23 > 0:31:27- You're aware of the surgical options?- Mmm.- Good.
0:31:27 > 0:31:29As soon you've got consent, find a slot.
0:31:29 > 0:31:31We don't want to risk any delay.
0:31:31 > 0:31:33Oh, and come and find me later.
0:31:33 > 0:31:37We need to go through your e-portfolio ahead of the ARCP deadline.
0:31:37 > 0:31:40See if you're likely to make F2.
0:31:45 > 0:31:49Bed three. A doctor will be over any minute.
0:31:49 > 0:31:52Aw! They're beautiful.
0:31:52 > 0:31:54Yeah, they are.
0:31:54 > 0:31:59She used to be a style photographer. Now she makes Art.
0:31:59 > 0:32:00Slices of life.
0:32:02 > 0:32:07- Impressions. - Aw! She got you perfectly!
0:32:07 > 0:32:08MRI is here.
0:32:08 > 0:32:12I told her a doctor would be over in a minute.
0:32:16 > 0:32:18Damn.
0:32:39 > 0:32:41Ah, Mr Malick - would now be a good time?
0:32:41 > 0:32:44Want to earn an extra credit?
0:32:44 > 0:32:47Always. What's the discipline?
0:32:47 > 0:32:49Patient communication.
0:32:49 > 0:32:53Let's get her into theatre, please. Page an urgent obstetrics consult.
0:32:53 > 0:32:58- Already done it.- And tell Mr Hanssen I won't be available for the CT2 presentations.
0:32:58 > 0:33:05Hmm, she's stable but critical.
0:33:05 > 0:33:07I'm afraid we've no option but to operate.
0:33:07 > 0:33:10That will mean anti-rejection medication.
0:33:10 > 0:33:11And the baby?
0:33:11 > 0:33:17We...may have to deliver her early by Caesarian.
0:33:17 > 0:33:21I'm truly sorry. We will try our best.
0:33:24 > 0:33:26Good luck. With your presentation.
0:33:28 > 0:33:32I tried. To stop her.
0:33:32 > 0:33:34What else was I supposed to do?
0:33:36 > 0:33:38Try harder.
0:33:42 > 0:33:44This is some kind of sick joke, right?
0:33:44 > 0:33:46A few hours ago you were all laughing it up and now you're
0:33:46 > 0:33:49telling me I have to live the rest of my life going in a bag?
0:33:49 > 0:33:51Will he be able to compete?
0:33:51 > 0:33:52No. Not competitively.
0:33:52 > 0:33:54There must be another option.
0:33:54 > 0:33:56You don't understand.
0:33:56 > 0:33:57I do. There's no other way.
0:33:57 > 0:34:00I've got a race coming up. A grand prix.
0:34:00 > 0:34:03I've been training for this. Please - I just need a few weeks.
0:34:03 > 0:34:05Josh, listen to what the doctor is saying.
0:34:05 > 0:34:09She's saying my career's over. My life is over.
0:34:09 > 0:34:13Nothing is over. You have other options.
0:34:13 > 0:34:15Join the family business?
0:34:15 > 0:34:18Become a lawyer just like Daddy and his daddy before him?
0:34:18 > 0:34:21Mr Cohen, your condition is not only serious,
0:34:21 > 0:34:24it could be catastrophic.
0:34:24 > 0:34:27Worst case scenario, your colon could rupture at any moment.
0:34:27 > 0:34:29If that happens, not only will you be unable to compete,
0:34:29 > 0:34:31you will be on intensive care.
0:34:31 > 0:34:34You must give consent to surgery. There's no other way.
0:34:34 > 0:34:38Except maybe there is.
0:34:38 > 0:34:41There's only a short-term solution. You'd still need the surgery.
0:34:41 > 0:34:42I only need three weeks.
0:34:42 > 0:34:44What is this short-term solution?
0:34:44 > 0:34:49Corticosteroids. One cycle might be enough to get you your three weeks.
0:34:49 > 0:34:53They'll strengthen the colon and reduce the inflammation.
0:34:53 > 0:34:57- What?- He's a professional athlete. He can't use steroids.
0:34:57 > 0:34:59It's cheating.
0:34:59 > 0:35:03One time only? To make a race he's been training for months?
0:35:03 > 0:35:08Years even? I wouldn't call it cheating.
0:35:08 > 0:35:09I'd call it a chance.
0:35:40 > 0:35:42Are you responsible for this?
0:35:47 > 0:35:51- No.- You realise if I took this to Hanssen or Campbell
0:35:51 > 0:35:57- it wouldn't just be Harry that carried the can for this. - Yes, I realise that.
0:35:57 > 0:35:59- But you won't.- Why?
0:35:59 > 0:36:02Because even though this
0:36:02 > 0:36:07is childish and spiteful, it's actually true.
0:36:07 > 0:36:09And none of us want it to go any further.
0:36:09 > 0:36:14Tell Dr Tressler, if he wanted a fight, he's got one.
0:36:15 > 0:36:19Digby, I've never seen anything like this in my life.
0:36:19 > 0:36:22You're either going to be the best clinical surgeon
0:36:22 > 0:36:25- the world's ever seen, or a serial killer. I can't decide.- Thanks.
0:36:25 > 0:36:28- I think. - How did Ms Bishop take the news?
0:36:28 > 0:36:30- She didn't.- You didn't tell her?
0:36:30 > 0:36:33- I couldn't.- Look, I know giving bad news is difficult,
0:36:33 > 0:36:34but you got to man up.
0:36:34 > 0:36:37No, I mean I actually couldn't. Physically.
0:36:37 > 0:36:38She's gone.
0:36:40 > 0:36:43You can't do this to my son.
0:36:43 > 0:36:45- Do what?- Tempt him.
0:36:45 > 0:36:49Well, it's his lucky day, then. I'm all out of apples.
0:36:49 > 0:36:52- I just gave him some options. It's his choice.- It's not a choice.
0:36:52 > 0:36:57- It's a Faustian pact.- Just because you don't understand or appreciate your son's chosen career...
0:36:57 > 0:37:00- I was actually trying to help. - You will destroy him!
0:37:00 > 0:37:03I love my son and have supported him,
0:37:03 > 0:37:05will support him in whatever he chooses to do.
0:37:05 > 0:37:07He can pick up rubbish for all I care.
0:37:07 > 0:37:10So long as he does it with integrity.
0:37:13 > 0:37:15Was your father a doctor?
0:37:15 > 0:37:17- No.- But he could have been?
0:37:17 > 0:37:21Just as you could have been anything you wanted to be? You just had to choose, right?
0:37:21 > 0:37:26And whatever it was - you were going to make it look easy.
0:37:26 > 0:37:31Josh chose the hardest option. The path least likely.
0:37:31 > 0:37:33He worked harder, longer
0:37:33 > 0:37:36and with more integrity than anyone else to get where he is.
0:37:36 > 0:37:41And then you come along and encourage him to cheat.
0:37:41 > 0:37:44It's not his nature, do you understand?
0:37:44 > 0:37:46He'll do it and it will live with him forever.
0:37:46 > 0:37:49He will grow to hate himself.
0:37:49 > 0:37:53Because he did things your way.
0:37:53 > 0:37:56The easy way.
0:38:04 > 0:38:06Did you see that? Crazy or what?
0:38:09 > 0:38:15If you're going to your presentation, you might need that.
0:38:15 > 0:38:17Gemma, wait. I'm sorry, OK.
0:38:17 > 0:38:21- Let me explain.- What's to explain? You did what you wanted to.
0:38:21 > 0:38:23Like you always do. Because you know best.
0:38:23 > 0:38:26- He stitched you up. And you were going to let him get away with it. - That's my choice.
0:38:26 > 0:38:29Well, it was my choice until you just took it away from me.
0:38:29 > 0:38:31Can you not see that?
0:38:31 > 0:38:37And don't you dare try and say you did this for me, because you didn't. You did it this for yourself.
0:38:40 > 0:38:42Haven't you got somewhere to be?
0:38:42 > 0:38:46You've been waiting ever since you arrived to get off this hellhole of a ward.
0:38:46 > 0:38:48Now's your chance.
0:38:52 > 0:38:55Let me get this straight. You've lost a blind woman.
0:38:55 > 0:38:58- I didn't lose her - she left. - Well, she couldn't have gotten far.
0:38:58 > 0:38:59This is serious, Michael.
0:38:59 > 0:39:03The MRI showed the Churg-Strauss is eating away at her insides.
0:39:03 > 0:39:05She needs a bowel resection.
0:39:05 > 0:39:06She knows this?
0:39:06 > 0:39:08No. I... I didn't tell her.
0:39:08 > 0:39:11Why not?
0:39:12 > 0:39:14Well, find her. Fix her.
0:39:18 > 0:39:22Is that why you asked me to tell her? Because you couldn't?
0:39:22 > 0:39:25Why?
0:39:25 > 0:39:28You're 'The Malick'.
0:39:31 > 0:39:34She spent her last few months working on a project.
0:39:34 > 0:39:36- A research project. - What was it about?
0:39:36 > 0:39:39I don't know. Mortality or something.
0:39:39 > 0:39:41- You didn't talk about it?- Sort of.
0:39:42 > 0:39:45No. Not really. It was her thing. I didn't want to get between it.
0:39:45 > 0:39:48You make it sound like it's a clandestine relationship.
0:39:48 > 0:39:50Like she was meeting an ex-boyfriend.
0:39:50 > 0:39:53You don't get jealous about a research project. That would be crazy.
0:39:53 > 0:39:57You can get jealous of time, though. Time spent...elsewhere.
0:39:57 > 0:40:00Time wasted, perhaps. When time is precious.
0:40:00 > 0:40:03It wasn't wasted, though. She finished it. Pretty much.
0:40:03 > 0:40:07- You've read it?- No.
0:40:07 > 0:40:10It was her thing. Her legacy.
0:40:10 > 0:40:13Feels like it would be...
0:40:13 > 0:40:18- I don't know...prying. - But surely the point of a legacy is that it's shared?
0:40:52 > 0:40:56Er, I see you found my portfolio.
0:40:56 > 0:40:59Did you arrange a theatre slot for Mr Cohen's colectomy?
0:40:59 > 0:41:03No. He hasn't consented. Not yet.
0:41:03 > 0:41:08- What's he waiting for? A better offer?- Funnily enough...
0:41:08 > 0:41:13He wanted to delay, so Dr Tressler suggested a three-week course of corticosteroids.
0:41:13 > 0:41:17Now, I could have sworn I handed this case over to YOU.
0:41:20 > 0:41:21What do you want from me?
0:41:21 > 0:41:24He is my senior doctor - did you want me
0:41:24 > 0:41:26to ignore him and the patient's wishes?
0:41:26 > 0:41:29Or did you want me to come running to you and grass him up?
0:41:29 > 0:41:32I've done everything I can to please you.
0:41:32 > 0:41:33To not rock the boat,
0:41:33 > 0:41:37and still you treat me like I'm some sort of annoying smudge
0:41:37 > 0:41:42damping the glow of rising stars like Dr Valentine and Dr Tressler.
0:41:42 > 0:41:47Well, I'm sorry, but I'm never going to be like them.
0:41:47 > 0:41:49Finished?
0:41:52 > 0:41:55I think so. Yes.
0:41:55 > 0:41:57Excellent.
0:41:57 > 0:41:59I've been waiting for that.
0:41:59 > 0:42:01And it was well worth the wait.
0:42:01 > 0:42:02PAGER BLEEPS
0:42:02 > 0:42:05Oh, duty calls.
0:42:05 > 0:42:07Do get that consent, won't you?
0:42:07 > 0:42:11Oh, and er... Your e-portfolio is fine.
0:42:33 > 0:42:36What are you doing, Carmen?
0:42:36 > 0:42:38Waiting for you.
0:42:38 > 0:42:42Figured you'd send Dr Digby to deliver the bad news.
0:42:42 > 0:42:47Thought I wouldn't make it easy for you.
0:42:47 > 0:42:51The Churg-Strauss
0:42:51 > 0:42:54is attacking your intestinal tract.
0:42:54 > 0:42:57It can be halted with a bowel resection.
0:42:57 > 0:42:59However, the damage is such that the resection will almost
0:42:59 > 0:43:04certainly leave you with SBS - short bowel syndrome.
0:43:04 > 0:43:06It will to all intents and purposes...
0:43:09 > 0:43:10..make you an invalid.
0:43:13 > 0:43:18Thank you. I shall make arrangements as soon as I'm able.
0:43:18 > 0:43:21That's it? You're not angry?
0:43:21 > 0:43:22Bitter?
0:43:22 > 0:43:27What's the point? It is what it is. I have to adapt.
0:43:28 > 0:43:34- And there's always that tiny sliver of hope.- What do you mean?
0:43:34 > 0:43:37Maybe if I get the doctor you were talking about earlier.
0:43:37 > 0:43:41The dashing Adonis. The talented man...
0:43:41 > 0:43:43What if he's a fraud?
0:43:43 > 0:43:47What if after all the media hype and excitement's wiped away, he's just...
0:43:49 > 0:43:53..he just keeps making the same mistakes.
0:43:53 > 0:43:56Maybe his judgement is suspect.
0:43:56 > 0:43:58Maybe he needs to change.
0:43:58 > 0:44:03Into the type of man who sends a junior doctor to deliver bad news?
0:44:03 > 0:44:07I don't know about you, but I prefer the sound of the other guy,
0:44:07 > 0:44:11the one at the top of his game.
0:44:11 > 0:44:14I'll see if I can track him down.
0:44:26 > 0:44:28Why did you become a doctor?
0:44:29 > 0:44:31To prove I could.
0:44:31 > 0:44:33To who?
0:44:33 > 0:44:38Initially my dad. Then my sister.
0:44:38 > 0:44:40Finally myself.
0:44:40 > 0:44:43Well, you sure showed you.
0:44:43 > 0:44:45No, I haven't.
0:44:49 > 0:44:53How about you? Why'd you become a doctor?
0:44:53 > 0:44:56I just want to help people.
0:44:59 > 0:45:02No, because I could.
0:45:02 > 0:45:05I'm good at most of it.
0:45:07 > 0:45:09Listen, I'm really sorry about the e-mail. It was petty.
0:45:09 > 0:45:12- Gemma had nothing to do with it, by the way.- So she told me.
0:45:12 > 0:45:16She really doesn't deserve to be caught up in all this.
0:45:16 > 0:45:17It's a bit late for that.
0:45:17 > 0:45:23No, it's not. I'll pull out of the CT2. It's yours.
0:45:23 > 0:45:26But you've got to tell the truth to Ms Campbell.
0:45:26 > 0:45:31She's got Gemma on the hook. Gemma doesn't deserve that.
0:45:31 > 0:45:33- I can't.- Why not?
0:45:36 > 0:45:40- I can't take the risk of being found out.- They'll find a way to forgive you. They always do.
0:45:40 > 0:45:43You don't understand. It's too late.
0:45:46 > 0:45:48Ready for you, Dr Valentine.
0:45:53 > 0:45:55I'm sorry.
0:45:57 > 0:46:00Professor Hope is in theatre and won't be joining us
0:46:00 > 0:46:02for the foreseeable future.
0:46:02 > 0:46:06Ms Campbell has kindly stepped into the breach.
0:46:12 > 0:46:13Thank you.
0:46:16 > 0:46:22My research topic is an homage to my late wife, Dr Tara Lo.
0:46:24 > 0:46:25"Living under a shadow -
0:46:25 > 0:46:31"Attitudes and aspects to mortality in the terminally ill."
0:46:42 > 0:46:43Hmm, that's interesting.
0:46:43 > 0:46:45Necrotised intestine?
0:46:45 > 0:46:50No, the intestinal wall. What's all that stuff?
0:46:50 > 0:46:54Vasculitis and eosinophilic infiltration.
0:46:54 > 0:46:57- It's everywhere. - Repeated damage. Repeated healing.
0:46:57 > 0:47:00It's narrowed towards the bowel.
0:47:00 > 0:47:02Isn't that similar to a stricture?
0:47:02 > 0:47:06It's not similar to a stricture, it IS...
0:47:06 > 0:47:10Arthur, you're a genius.
0:47:10 > 0:47:11- I am?- Define stricture.
0:47:11 > 0:47:17- Narrowing of the lumen of the bowel, forcing contents into fissures and ulcers.- Surgical option?
0:47:17 > 0:47:18Strictureplasty.
0:47:18 > 0:47:24Widening the narrow segment with a cut lengthwise across the bowel
0:47:24 > 0:47:26pushing the two cuts together.
0:47:26 > 0:47:31Particularly helpful for those who have already had extensive bowel rese...
0:47:31 > 0:47:33Mr Malick, you're a genius.
0:47:33 > 0:47:35I am, aren't I?
0:47:38 > 0:47:40We're back in business!
0:47:45 > 0:47:49"Patient X is experiencing symptoms - syncope and nausea,
0:47:49 > 0:47:52"with headaches controlled by analgesia."
0:47:56 > 0:48:00"The decision to defer treatment hangs over us.
0:48:00 > 0:48:03"My partner hides it but the fear is turning to anger.
0:48:03 > 0:48:07"Blame will be next. And who can blame him? Not me.
0:48:07 > 0:48:10"It's because he loves me. And that's all that matters."
0:48:20 > 0:48:23"We've made a joke out of the sense of time looming over us.
0:48:23 > 0:48:25"We count our relationship out in the context of hours
0:48:25 > 0:48:28"and minutes rather than months or years."
0:48:30 > 0:48:35"Today was our 5,047th hour anniversary."
0:48:39 > 0:48:42- Sorry.- Dr Valentine?
0:48:43 > 0:48:45Tara...?
0:48:45 > 0:48:49- 'Who else am I supposed to blame for pushing the operation?' - But it wasn't your decision.
0:48:49 > 0:48:52It was...it was shared. We were partners.
0:48:52 > 0:48:55You shared everything?
0:48:56 > 0:49:00Not her research. Her private work.
0:49:00 > 0:49:02Private being the operative word.
0:49:02 > 0:49:09And that took her away from you. Took time away from you.
0:49:09 > 0:49:11I had to give her space, didn't I?
0:49:11 > 0:49:14Of course. You'd have been selfish, otherwise.
0:49:14 > 0:49:19It's not selfish to want to spend time with the person that you love.
0:49:19 > 0:49:22You're either in or you're out, you know?
0:49:22 > 0:49:27In love with life or in love with death. And sometimes it felt like she was in love with death.
0:49:30 > 0:49:33I'm just...so angry with her.
0:49:37 > 0:49:38I can't...
0:49:41 > 0:49:43I can't forgive her for leaving me.
0:49:47 > 0:49:48For being with me.
0:49:48 > 0:49:51It's OK. It's normal.
0:49:51 > 0:49:53It shouldn't be.
0:49:53 > 0:49:58How can I blame someone for dying? For having a tumour. That's horrible.
0:50:00 > 0:50:03And if I could feel that way - be that horrible about someone
0:50:03 > 0:50:05I claimed to have loved,
0:50:05 > 0:50:09doesn't that make all of it, everything - a lie?
0:50:09 > 0:50:12Just one big fraud.
0:50:13 > 0:50:18Only you can decide what you want to believe in.
0:50:18 > 0:50:24I guess the question is, do you really believe your time with Tara was a lie?
0:50:32 > 0:50:34This is the lie.
0:50:34 > 0:50:35Dr Valentine?
0:50:35 > 0:50:36Sorry.
0:50:38 > 0:50:41It's just I shouldn't be here doing this.
0:50:41 > 0:50:43It's wrong.
0:50:43 > 0:50:47None of this is my work. I plagiarised it from my wife.
0:50:50 > 0:50:52- From Tara.- Dr Valentine... - No...it's all right.
0:50:53 > 0:50:58I need to stop lying. I'm stopping now. Ms Campbell...?
0:50:58 > 0:51:02Tell Dr Wilde, I'm sorry. For lying about the chest drain.
0:51:02 > 0:51:04It was inexcusable.
0:51:04 > 0:51:07Dr Valentine...
0:51:07 > 0:51:11Oliver... you understand the consequences of this...
0:51:11 > 0:51:15Yes...you'll have my resignation.
0:51:18 > 0:51:21It's just...
0:51:21 > 0:51:23There's somewhere I need to be.
0:51:27 > 0:51:28Tough crowd?
0:51:33 > 0:51:38It would appear you have won the position by default.
0:51:38 > 0:51:42Default? Way to go, me.
0:51:57 > 0:52:02You did what you could. That's all anyone can do.
0:52:10 > 0:52:14Good colour. Normal respiration.
0:52:32 > 0:52:35What are you doing sneaking about?
0:52:35 > 0:52:38I could ask you the same question.
0:52:38 > 0:52:40It's my office.
0:52:40 > 0:52:43Why are you in the dark?
0:52:43 > 0:52:46Is that a muffin?
0:52:46 > 0:52:49- My Precious. - What's going on with you?
0:52:49 > 0:52:51You've been acting weird for weeks.
0:52:51 > 0:52:53At least I'm not having a complete nervous breakdown.
0:52:53 > 0:52:55Neither am I.
0:52:55 > 0:52:59Anymore.
0:52:59 > 0:53:02What's your excuse?
0:53:02 > 0:53:05What's with all the cloak and dagger?
0:53:10 > 0:53:14Look after Professor Hope for me, will you?
0:53:14 > 0:53:16Sure.
0:53:18 > 0:53:20Who's going to look after you?
0:53:20 > 0:53:25I'll be fine. I just need some time out.
0:53:27 > 0:53:29What about you?
0:53:29 > 0:53:32I'm pregnant.
0:53:34 > 0:53:38If you hug me, I'll puke.
0:53:40 > 0:53:43See you around, Naylor.
0:54:06 > 0:54:09I'm afraid the tests show the corticosteroids
0:54:09 > 0:54:11simply won't have any effect.
0:54:11 > 0:54:16You'll be a walking - or running - time-bomb.
0:54:16 > 0:54:19Josh...you'll find something else.
0:54:19 > 0:54:22Might take some time, but you'll find it.
0:54:39 > 0:54:42Mr Cohen's consent form.
0:54:44 > 0:54:49Have you heard? Valentine's gone. Resigned or suspended.
0:54:49 > 0:54:52Yeah I had noticed. You know, being there and all.
0:54:52 > 0:54:55And I also heard that you turned down the Darwin CT2 position.
0:54:57 > 0:55:01I don't know. I guess the idea of winning my place by default was...
0:55:01 > 0:55:04well, it struck me as quite tacky.
0:55:04 > 0:55:07Plus - every parasite needs a host, right?
0:55:19 > 0:55:22Did you have any idea this was coming?
0:55:22 > 0:55:24If I did, I couldn't tell you.
0:55:24 > 0:55:28You had another session with him this morning.
0:55:28 > 0:55:29And...?
0:55:29 > 0:55:31I sensed there was a crisis coming.
0:55:31 > 0:55:35Crisis? And you were happy with that?
0:55:38 > 0:55:41Can't spell 'catharsis' without 'crisis'.
0:55:44 > 0:55:47Hang on - there's another "I".
0:56:21 > 0:56:22Oliver.
0:56:26 > 0:56:28You didn't think I'd make it that easy for you?
0:56:28 > 0:56:31Course not. I wouldn't have it any other way.
0:56:32 > 0:56:34Look, Oliver, I'm sorry...
0:56:34 > 0:56:37Don't be. There's nothing to be sorry about.
0:56:37 > 0:56:39This is a good thing.
0:56:39 > 0:56:43Thank you. For standing by me.
0:56:43 > 0:56:46Even when I didn't deserve it.
0:56:49 > 0:56:53- I'll be back.- No. You won't.
0:56:54 > 0:56:57See you, Professor Hope.
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