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0:00:39 > 0:00:41Diaphragmatic hernia.

0:00:41 > 0:00:44- I'm sorry. - Keep it to yourself, OK?

0:00:44 > 0:00:46I don't know what your problem with me is...

0:00:46 > 0:00:48You're sleeping with Jonny, the father of my child,

0:00:48 > 0:00:50- and you think it bothers me. - Well, it seems to bother him.

0:00:50 > 0:00:5338 weeks would be the optimum time for the birth of your baby.

0:00:53 > 0:00:57I mean, we know when her birthday is, so just think about it - every year, like, a massive cake...

0:00:57 > 0:00:59That's if she makes it to her first one.

0:00:59 > 0:01:02Take the rest of your leave. Re-charge your batteries.

0:01:02 > 0:01:04Then get back on the horse.

0:01:04 > 0:01:07You're suspended. You shouldn't even be on the premises.

0:01:07 > 0:01:10I risked my career for you and you have humiliated me.

0:01:12 > 0:01:13I don't get it.

0:01:13 > 0:01:16Well, it's a lady in a boat...

0:01:16 > 0:01:18Nature?

0:01:18 > 0:01:22I don't know, I suppose some patients find it helps them?

0:01:22 > 0:01:25In a way 21st-century medicine can't?

0:01:25 > 0:01:26Maybe?

0:01:26 > 0:01:29EXCITED CHATTER

0:01:29 > 0:01:31We've come to see Jackie...

0:01:33 > 0:01:36You ever seen a transplant patient cured by "feelings"?

0:01:36 > 0:01:39A particularly cute kitten inspired their organs to regenerate?

0:01:39 > 0:01:41Nope. Me neither.

0:01:41 > 0:01:42That's the spirit.

0:01:42 > 0:01:48People aren't feelings trapped in a body. People are bodies.

0:01:48 > 0:01:50"The mirror crack'd from side to side

0:01:50 > 0:01:55"'The curse is come upon me,' cried The Lady of Shalott."

0:01:55 > 0:01:57Lord Tennyson...

0:01:57 > 0:01:58That's Shalott.

0:01:58 > 0:02:00"That's Shalott!"

0:02:03 > 0:02:04Ready?

0:02:06 > 0:02:08So when we induce in week 38,

0:02:08 > 0:02:12this will be little one's home while we assess her lung function.

0:02:13 > 0:02:14Do you want to come over?

0:02:18 > 0:02:20This will be her little cot here.

0:02:20 > 0:02:25All going well next week, when's it likely we'll be able to hold her?

0:02:25 > 0:02:30Um, I know it's frustrating, but until she's born we're not going to

0:02:30 > 0:02:34be in a position to make those kind of judgment calls.

0:02:34 > 0:02:37I know all this can come as quite a shock...

0:02:37 > 0:02:40Please don't speak to me as if I'm not the most accomplished

0:02:40 > 0:02:44medic involved in this CDH neo natal plan.

0:02:44 > 0:02:46Right...

0:02:46 > 0:02:48Have you got any little toys or anything like that?

0:02:48 > 0:02:51Yeah, actually I've got a little pig called Ralph.

0:02:51 > 0:02:56The second she's born, she has a 50% chance of survival.

0:02:56 > 0:02:59I don't want anybody's focus on anything other than

0:02:59 > 0:03:01trying to improve those chances.

0:03:06 > 0:03:11Six, prime, eight, nine, ten, prime,

0:03:11 > 0:03:15twelve, prime, fourteen...

0:03:15 > 0:03:18Numbers are the root of everything...

0:03:18 > 0:03:23Fifteen, sixteen, prime, eighteen, prime.

0:03:23 > 0:03:25They are the only things you can trust.

0:03:29 > 0:03:32- Guy, I just wondered if you'd... - Any chance this can wait?

0:03:32 > 0:03:35Yes, I just wanted to know what you thought about my deficit reduction proposal?

0:03:35 > 0:03:38Er, my reading pile is...

0:03:39 > 0:03:41All the usual suspects... Well, all but one.

0:03:41 > 0:03:45I do hope you're not keeping your deputy out of a Heads of Strategy meeting?

0:03:45 > 0:03:49Oh, no. Nothing important. Your proposal's on my to-do list.

0:03:49 > 0:03:51Gentlemen, sorry to keep you waiting.

0:03:51 > 0:03:54Everybody seems to want a piece of me this morning.

0:03:57 > 0:03:59Defib!

0:04:02 > 0:04:03Stop!

0:04:03 > 0:04:06Can you add spotting an SVT on your "to do" list?

0:04:06 > 0:04:07At first glance, it looked like VF.

0:04:07 > 0:04:12I don't care if it won first prize in the VF look-a-likey competition.

0:04:17 > 0:04:19May I have a look at the abundance of irrefutable

0:04:19 > 0:04:23evidence on the ECG, that you are yet to alert me to?

0:04:23 > 0:04:25Oh, yes - or shall we just follow our hearts -

0:04:25 > 0:04:28because that's what Rachel from Friends would do?

0:04:31 > 0:04:33Oh, my gosh, seriously?

0:04:33 > 0:04:36I can't be your go-to guy about Jac right now. I'm sorry.

0:04:52 > 0:04:53Happy anniversary.

0:04:53 > 0:04:55- Unbelievable. - I haven't had a drink in seven days.

0:04:55 > 0:04:57Aren't you clever.

0:04:57 > 0:04:59I knew your clinic ended around lunch, so I've been waiting.

0:04:59 > 0:05:02Desperate and creepy. What woman could resist?

0:05:02 > 0:05:0526 years ago today we ran away to that registry office.

0:05:05 > 0:05:06Nothing's changed for me.

0:05:06 > 0:05:09Yes, you vomited into my bouquet and got me

0:05:09 > 0:05:12banned from a reasonably priced hotel chain.

0:05:12 > 0:05:16Being shot down in flames with you has lost its charm.

0:05:16 > 0:05:18They're punishing you for what I did?

0:05:18 > 0:05:19Oh, bless you.

0:05:19 > 0:05:22Reminiscing about our cheap and nasty wedding didn't work,

0:05:22 > 0:05:26so now you're trying to break my resolve by making me paranoid about my future prospects?

0:05:26 > 0:05:28Serena, if you don't want to see me I can't make you...

0:05:28 > 0:05:31Says the man stalking me in a car park.

0:05:31 > 0:05:33But if you're giving up the one thing that makes you happy to

0:05:33 > 0:05:36get back in the Trust's good books, then my heart breaks for you.

0:05:36 > 0:05:40And when did I decide that you are the "one thing" that makes me happy?

0:05:40 > 0:05:42OK, Ellie too. But she's gone, hasn't she?

0:05:42 > 0:05:44You know she nearly delayed going back to uni

0:05:44 > 0:05:47cos she's worried about you rattling around that house alone?

0:05:47 > 0:05:50If you're giving up on me because you want to get back on top here, I mean...

0:05:50 > 0:05:55Does that feel like a possibility? Or does it feel more like Guy's happy for an excuse to get

0:05:55 > 0:05:58rid of the woman of a certain age from the boardroom?

0:05:58 > 0:06:01Come on. It's our anniversary - let's celebrate.

0:06:01 > 0:06:02Tell them to stick their jobs.

0:06:02 > 0:06:06Start living an amazing life together.

0:06:06 > 0:06:08You can try if you want, but it won't get you anywhere.

0:06:08 > 0:06:11And you'll have to excuse me, but I've got a date.

0:06:14 > 0:06:17- Kiss me.- What?

0:06:17 > 0:06:18Kiss me!

0:06:21 > 0:06:22Get in.

0:06:28 > 0:06:32Would it have killed you to have shown a little more joie de vivre?

0:06:34 > 0:06:38See, build-up of fluid in the left chest. Mummy was right.

0:06:39 > 0:06:42She's a maths whizz, then?

0:06:42 > 0:06:45I heard you. Boogieing on down with prime numbers.

0:06:45 > 0:06:47They're already right little personalities

0:06:47 > 0:06:49when they're in there, aren't they?

0:06:50 > 0:06:52She likes lights.

0:06:52 > 0:06:55Mine liked swimming. I can't even swim!

0:06:59 > 0:07:01Mo?

0:07:01 > 0:07:05Whatever happens, just know you did everything you could to protect her.

0:07:05 > 0:07:07It'll be a comfort, I promise.

0:07:24 > 0:07:27I might have been able to summon up some joie de vivre,

0:07:27 > 0:07:29with a little more notice.

0:07:31 > 0:07:34Why are you so bothered with what Edward thinks, anyway?

0:07:40 > 0:07:45I am permitted to bring a plus one. It's a college reunion.

0:07:47 > 0:07:49Oh, go on, then, it's a free meal. Why not?

0:07:49 > 0:07:52But Cinderella will need to get her glad rags on.

0:07:55 > 0:07:57Right, his BP's in his boots.

0:07:57 > 0:07:59Cross-match five units. Clear theatre.

0:07:59 > 0:08:02OK, OK. Stop, stop, stop. It's dislodged.

0:08:02 > 0:08:05We can't wait, we're going to have to open him up right here.

0:08:05 > 0:08:07Scalpel.

0:08:09 > 0:08:11Clamp.

0:08:13 > 0:08:15- 3/0 Prolene. - You can't suture him here!

0:08:15 > 0:08:18- He'll bleed out in under a minute! - Twelve seconds, to be precise,

0:08:18 > 0:08:20but I can suture in nine.

0:08:20 > 0:08:23When I tell the family I did everything I could,

0:08:23 > 0:08:25I want to mean it. Right, you - put your finger right there.

0:08:25 > 0:08:28If you move your finger before I tell you to, you'll kill him.

0:08:28 > 0:08:31- No pressure then, eh?- Am I asking her to do something tricky?

0:08:31 > 0:08:33Hope you've done your sums right.

0:08:33 > 0:08:34Count me down.

0:08:34 > 0:08:36Release.

0:08:36 > 0:08:37One, two...

0:08:37 > 0:08:40SHE WHISTLES "Singing In The Rain"

0:08:40 > 0:08:43..four, five, six,

0:08:43 > 0:08:48seven, eight, nine...

0:08:54 > 0:08:56If you want to save lives, get good at maths.

0:08:56 > 0:08:58Take him to theatre, close him up.

0:09:08 > 0:09:11You know, idiots will tell you that pretty red skies just happen,

0:09:11 > 0:09:13but it's not true.

0:09:13 > 0:09:18It's red because the sun is approaching the horizon line.

0:09:18 > 0:09:21So the sunlight has to go further through the planet's atmosphere,

0:09:21 > 0:09:26causing more red light to be scattered than any other colours.

0:09:26 > 0:09:29There's a reason for everything.

0:09:29 > 0:09:31And judging by those cloud formations, there'll be

0:09:31 > 0:09:34an equally fascinating sunrise.

0:09:34 > 0:09:37We'll get up extra early so we can observe it.

0:09:49 > 0:09:50Do you mind?

0:09:59 > 0:10:01HEARTBEAT

0:10:08 > 0:10:09What's happening?

0:10:09 > 0:10:12- I'm going into labour. - Have your waters broken? Have you had your show?

0:10:12 > 0:10:14I said going into.

0:10:14 > 0:10:18- What does THAT mean, woman? - It means the stork is gliding over Luton, what do you think it means?

0:10:18 > 0:10:20Jac thought she felt a contraction.

0:10:20 > 0:10:21I did feel one.

0:10:21 > 0:10:23So you're an obstetrician now, are you?

0:10:23 > 0:10:25It's natural to push the panic button.

0:10:25 > 0:10:28It's probably just bubba trying to say 'Hello'.

0:10:28 > 0:10:31Do you mind? Do you actually mind?

0:10:31 > 0:10:32Sorry.

0:10:35 > 0:10:37It's only week 37.

0:10:37 > 0:10:40Maybe we should wait and see what Mr T says before panicking.

0:10:40 > 0:10:43Right, right, let's just have a cup of tea and a wee biccie

0:10:43 > 0:10:45and then see how we feel, OK?

0:10:45 > 0:10:48I think Jac knows her own body, Jonny.

0:10:48 > 0:10:51If I say I'm going into labour, I am.

0:11:01 > 0:11:03I thought you said this was just an evening event?

0:11:03 > 0:11:08It is for us. Nibbles, speech, and then home.

0:11:08 > 0:11:11But it's going to be a free bar, isn't it?

0:11:11 > 0:11:14You're actually turning down a free, all-night bar?

0:11:21 > 0:11:25Well, as "fun" as free booze,

0:11:25 > 0:11:28DJ Terry Eagle's mobile disco

0:11:28 > 0:11:32and a night in a hall sounds, we have a meeting in the morning.

0:11:32 > 0:11:34Only because you called it at 7.30!

0:11:34 > 0:11:36And it's about naff all.

0:11:36 > 0:11:38Look, neither of us are in theatre tomorrow.

0:11:38 > 0:11:40In fact, as far as Guy's concerned,

0:11:40 > 0:11:43neither of us are doing anything of any value any more.

0:11:43 > 0:11:47So please, can we just let our hair down this once?

0:11:48 > 0:11:52You never know - something wonderful might happen?

0:11:52 > 0:11:53I'd rather not linger.

0:11:59 > 0:12:01Any further back pain? Any contractions at all?

0:12:01 > 0:12:03No.

0:12:03 > 0:12:06Any sudden urge to cook, clean - the nesting instinct kicking in at all?

0:12:06 > 0:12:09Whatever happens, we'll be ready for it.

0:12:09 > 0:12:12Well, look, with no further aches or pains,

0:12:12 > 0:12:13it's pretty unlikely you're in labour.

0:12:17 > 0:12:18Listen to that.

0:12:18 > 0:12:20Your daughter has got the heart of a lion.

0:12:20 > 0:12:22Roarrr!

0:12:23 > 0:12:26And while you've been doing lion impressions,

0:12:26 > 0:12:28she's turned head-down into my pelvis.

0:12:28 > 0:12:31I can feel her pushing against my back. She's ready.

0:12:31 > 0:12:34It's not a jelly baby in there, Jac.

0:12:34 > 0:12:37She's bound to move about a wee bit.

0:12:38 > 0:12:40She's one fifth palpable. Her head's engaged.

0:12:40 > 0:12:41You're in labour.

0:12:41 > 0:12:46All right. We're going straight to maternity. None of this "waiting for her waters to break" rubbish.

0:12:46 > 0:12:50- That goes without saying.- No. We're delaying labour until she's best placed to deal with it.

0:12:58 > 0:13:01Why did you come if you don't want to see anyone?

0:13:01 > 0:13:02I was asked to make a speech.

0:13:02 > 0:13:04It would have been churlish to say no.

0:13:04 > 0:13:07Oh, you just give, give, give to your fans, don't you?

0:13:07 > 0:13:08Would you like a drink?

0:13:08 > 0:13:10No, thank you. I'm driving.

0:13:10 > 0:13:12I'm driving.

0:13:12 > 0:13:13Something fruity for me, please.

0:13:13 > 0:13:16What? You must have third party insurance

0:13:16 > 0:13:19and you've got pharmacy privileges to deal with the hangover.

0:13:19 > 0:13:20What's the worst that could happen?

0:13:20 > 0:13:22We have a 7.30 meeting in the morning.

0:13:22 > 0:13:25It's Prosecco, not a crack pipe.

0:13:25 > 0:13:26Welcome!

0:13:26 > 0:13:29Kristopher Wyngarten, post doctorate Neuro-Biology research fellow

0:13:29 > 0:13:32and volunteer with the Fitzherbert Alumni service,

0:13:32 > 0:13:35- may I take your name, sir? - Griffin. Eric Griffin.

0:13:35 > 0:13:38- And your wife? - No! No, no.

0:13:38 > 0:13:43I'm sorry - partner. Call The Guardian and have me shot at dawn!

0:13:43 > 0:13:45I'm just a corn-fed country boy from Ontario.

0:13:45 > 0:13:47We're just colleagues.

0:13:47 > 0:13:50Touching's extra.

0:13:50 > 0:13:53Sorry, no - I'm a last-minute plus-one. Serena Campbell.

0:13:53 > 0:13:55- I hope that's not a problem? - Oh, no.

0:13:55 > 0:13:59You go right on in and enjoy our hospitality, Ms Campbell.

0:13:59 > 0:14:02- I'll have a fruity pop sent your way.- Thank you.

0:14:05 > 0:14:08Oh, I've, er...I've been asked to make a speech.

0:14:08 > 0:14:11Is there a room that I can use to rehearse in?

0:14:11 > 0:14:15I was asked to prepare a few words...about my achievements?

0:14:15 > 0:14:17Oh, for the Alumni website?

0:14:17 > 0:14:19Sure, any biogs can be left with me.

0:14:19 > 0:14:21I have been asking people to e-mail them over.

0:14:21 > 0:14:24I mean, hello, we are in the digital age, are we not?

0:14:24 > 0:14:26Yes, yes, of course. Silly me.

0:14:26 > 0:14:28Thanks for the effort.

0:14:28 > 0:14:32Most class of '76ers haven't bothered with my "Tree of Destinies".

0:14:37 > 0:14:40The "Tree of Destinies"...

0:14:40 > 0:14:43And I'm really not a small-talk kind of person, so...

0:14:43 > 0:14:46Ric, stay.

0:14:46 > 0:14:49You haven't even caught up with any of your old friends yet?

0:14:51 > 0:14:54No, I've got a meeting to prepare for...

0:15:02 > 0:15:03Ric?

0:15:14 > 0:15:18I take it she did more than not return your Jimi Hendrix cassette?

0:15:18 > 0:15:21You see, this is why Social Network's so great -

0:15:21 > 0:15:23no more dashing through the night just to catch

0:15:23 > 0:15:24a glimpse of an old flame.

0:15:24 > 0:15:26Seriously! I'll set you up with an account.

0:15:26 > 0:15:29All five wives can poke you at once.

0:15:34 > 0:15:36Good.

0:15:47 > 0:15:49Oh, for heaven's sake.

0:15:49 > 0:15:54Tocolytic. Yes, for Darwin. This is Ms Naylor signing off on it.

0:15:54 > 0:15:56You're a week away from being induced.

0:15:56 > 0:15:58There's absolutely no medical need to delay it.

0:15:58 > 0:16:01Is a week-38 birth the best case scenario or not?

0:16:01 > 0:16:0337 weeks is not premature.

0:16:03 > 0:16:06- That's not what I asked. - Get a grip, Jac. She's full term.

0:16:06 > 0:16:09The longer she's in there, the stronger she'll get.

0:16:09 > 0:16:11How can it not be a good idea to get as close to her induction

0:16:11 > 0:16:15- date as possible? - Because she wants to come out!

0:16:15 > 0:16:17She's past 34 weeks. She's ready.

0:16:17 > 0:16:19You've got to let nature take its course.

0:16:19 > 0:16:22A machine is going to do her breathing for her.

0:16:22 > 0:16:24She'll only live if she's in a sterile box,

0:16:24 > 0:16:27with an intubation tube stuck in her stomach.

0:16:28 > 0:16:30Nature is trying to kill her, Jonny.

0:16:30 > 0:16:32The 50% survival rate I can't control,

0:16:32 > 0:16:34but if you think I'm going to hand over even

0:16:34 > 0:16:36a fraction of a percentage more...

0:16:36 > 0:16:39I'm sorry, I don't see how a tocolytic is going to make

0:16:39 > 0:16:41a difference to the baby's outcome at this stage.

0:16:41 > 0:16:43I'm not giving birth today

0:16:43 > 0:16:46if there is medical intervention that can buy her more time.

0:16:48 > 0:16:51If it's what Jac wants.

0:16:51 > 0:16:54I dare you to take me on over this.

0:16:54 > 0:16:55Oh!

0:16:55 > 0:16:56DRIPPING

0:17:00 > 0:17:03Well, we can't delay now, can we?

0:17:16 > 0:17:18LAUGHTER

0:17:19 > 0:17:23Eric the Red, as I live and breathe!

0:17:24 > 0:17:29William Tudor-Bass. How are you? Still a tiresome old git?

0:17:29 > 0:17:34Well, well, well, Gorbachev caved in the end,

0:17:34 > 0:17:37so dry your eyes and let's have a good old hoolie, eh!

0:17:37 > 0:17:40How are you, old man? A doctor, I hear? Very good, Eric.

0:17:40 > 0:17:45- Very noble. - These days it's the demotic "Ric".

0:17:45 > 0:17:46Eric the Red, Red Ric.

0:17:46 > 0:17:49Just as long as I don't call you Black!

0:17:49 > 0:17:53Well, not unless you want me to call you William Tudor Ass!

0:17:53 > 0:17:55So, you've - you've seen her, then?

0:17:57 > 0:17:58Who?

0:17:58 > 0:18:01The old squeeze I lent you for a term - the one

0:18:01 > 0:18:04I gave you a bloody nose over. Kathy.

0:18:04 > 0:18:06I didn't know she was here.

0:18:07 > 0:18:08Will?

0:18:10 > 0:18:11Eric!

0:18:16 > 0:18:18I always say this to every new mum, just remember that you've

0:18:18 > 0:18:22already been through labour once, just got to copy what your mum did.

0:18:22 > 0:18:24- OK?- Would you like us to come down?

0:18:24 > 0:18:27A sort of welcoming committee for the little one?

0:18:27 > 0:18:28You can strangle me this time.

0:18:28 > 0:18:30We're going to keep things simple.

0:18:30 > 0:18:34- We'll be in touch soon, all right? - Good luck.

0:18:34 > 0:18:37When I'm in the thick of it, I need to know everything they know.

0:18:37 > 0:18:39I will be your perfect cipher.

0:18:39 > 0:18:42I will tell you everything. I promise!

0:18:43 > 0:18:45Push the button, then.

0:18:45 > 0:18:46Oh, yeah - sorry.

0:18:46 > 0:18:47'Doors closing.'

0:18:50 > 0:18:53You never married then, Kathy?

0:18:53 > 0:18:56Oh, please, Will! Really.

0:18:56 > 0:18:59I'm old! I've no time for sweet mutterings by the river.

0:18:59 > 0:19:01Are you taken?

0:19:01 > 0:19:03Will, what IS the matter with you?

0:19:05 > 0:19:08Don't give me the big, pious I-am, Redders.

0:19:08 > 0:19:11I good as caught you peepy Tomming through Kathy's window.

0:19:11 > 0:19:15We're in a sexual harassment-free learning environment.

0:19:15 > 0:19:16None of us would have been born

0:19:16 > 0:19:19if it wasn't for what's now called "sexual harassment".

0:19:19 > 0:19:22Are we animals?

0:19:22 > 0:19:25Must we wiggle our behinds from trees when it's time for coitus?

0:19:25 > 0:19:27No, I'm not married.

0:19:27 > 0:19:30Why not? You'd obviously like to be.

0:19:30 > 0:19:31It...never felt right.

0:19:33 > 0:19:38Well, that's progress, apparently. That's our brave new world.

0:19:38 > 0:19:41People not getting what they want out of life. It's crazy.

0:19:41 > 0:19:44I was engaged - to a colleague at the Foreign Office.

0:19:44 > 0:19:46He was a lovely man,

0:19:46 > 0:19:49but...I didn't love him.

0:19:49 > 0:19:52I'd have been marrying out of fear of being alone.

0:19:52 > 0:19:55Hm, a broken engagement at the Foreign Office?

0:19:55 > 0:19:59Bet Cold War diplomacy was a breeze after that!

0:19:59 > 0:20:02He didn't make me feel the way someone else had.

0:20:02 > 0:20:05See, Redders? I've ruined her for other men.

0:20:05 > 0:20:07Oh, yes!

0:20:08 > 0:20:10No way. Where's Bola?

0:20:10 > 0:20:13Annual leave. So I am the on-duty midwife tonight.

0:20:13 > 0:20:15The neo natal team are all on standby.

0:20:15 > 0:20:16All exactly as we planned.

0:20:16 > 0:20:19We're going to do everything we can to enable a natural birth,

0:20:19 > 0:20:20as requested.

0:20:20 > 0:20:23Oh, we'll be having a natural birth. No ifs, no buts.

0:20:23 > 0:20:26Well, there's no evidence that a natural birth would be better

0:20:26 > 0:20:27than a Caesarean.

0:20:27 > 0:20:28I am aware of that.

0:20:28 > 0:20:31I'm the best doctor in this hospital so I'll be leading this birth

0:20:31 > 0:20:33and I can't do that

0:20:33 > 0:20:36if I'm dead from the waist down while a bunch of glorified nurses

0:20:36 > 0:20:40pull a CDH baby out of me and decide how best to get her to breathe!

0:20:40 > 0:20:44Right... Well, this glorified nurse has your birth plan here.

0:20:44 > 0:20:45I just want to go over a few things.

0:20:45 > 0:20:47"Gas and air only.

0:20:47 > 0:20:49"No calling me 'Mummy'.

0:20:49 > 0:20:52"No sugar-coating the facts. No sparing my feelings.

0:20:52 > 0:20:54"If I'm failing the baby, tell me."

0:20:54 > 0:20:58You give me facts and I'll give NICU the healthiest baby possible.

0:20:59 > 0:21:00Agreed.

0:21:00 > 0:21:02Are you single, Serena?

0:21:03 > 0:21:08- Yes. - See! So defiant. Single and free.

0:21:08 > 0:21:11But listen to the pain in the voice.

0:21:11 > 0:21:13"Love me, please - somebody, love me."

0:21:13 > 0:21:17Have you met William Tudor-Bass?

0:21:17 > 0:21:21Forgive me. Curse of my profession. Industrial dispute negotiation.

0:21:21 > 0:21:23We're trained to read between the lines.

0:21:23 > 0:21:26Ah, well - you'll be able to tell us all the secrets of a happy marriage?

0:21:26 > 0:21:28Mm. Love, and lots of laughter.

0:21:29 > 0:21:33Are we to understand that you actually persuaded a woman to become

0:21:33 > 0:21:34Mrs Tudor-Bass?

0:21:34 > 0:21:36Oh, yes.

0:21:36 > 0:21:39I only ask because you're not wearing a ring.

0:21:39 > 0:21:41My wife died four years ago.

0:21:41 > 0:21:43Cancer. I buried my ring with her, where it belonged.

0:21:44 > 0:21:46Will, I'm so sorry.

0:21:46 > 0:21:51Well, I like a joke, but I'm nothing if not a devoted spouse.

0:21:51 > 0:21:52I'm sure you were.

0:21:55 > 0:21:58How many wives was it in total, Red?

0:21:58 > 0:22:02I'm flattered. You've obviously been researching me.

0:22:02 > 0:22:05Ah, just an educated guess, really.

0:22:05 > 0:22:07I mean, like most people busy saving the world, you seemed to blow

0:22:07 > 0:22:09with the wind with those closest to you.

0:22:09 > 0:22:12So how many was it? Come on!

0:22:13 > 0:22:15Come on...

0:22:15 > 0:22:16Five.

0:22:16 > 0:22:21Five! I thought doctors were meant to be decisive?

0:22:21 > 0:22:26So how many little kiddies are there running around, mmm?

0:22:26 > 0:22:29What happened to that little nipper you had in your final year?

0:22:29 > 0:22:33Thank you for asking, my children are all well. All wonderful.

0:22:34 > 0:22:37How many wonderful children?

0:22:37 > 0:22:39Five.

0:22:39 > 0:22:42Five children with different women!

0:22:43 > 0:22:46Christmas must have been a nightmare.

0:22:46 > 0:22:48The sacrifices that Ric's made in his personal life have been

0:22:48 > 0:22:51to the benefit of thousands of patients.

0:22:51 > 0:22:54I knew all the hard work would be worth it in the end.

0:22:56 > 0:22:58You might find that you need a little more than gas

0:22:58 > 0:23:00and air, being a copper top.

0:23:02 > 0:23:04Did you train in the Middle Ages?

0:23:04 > 0:23:07It's just that people with ginger hair tend to feel a little

0:23:07 > 0:23:08more pain in my experience.

0:23:08 > 0:23:12Do your insights extend to casual racism, too?

0:23:12 > 0:23:13Let it go.

0:23:13 > 0:23:17Right, this note to keep "Bonnie" in the loop...?

0:23:17 > 0:23:19She's his contact.

0:23:19 > 0:23:22And is there anyone that you'd like us to contact for you?

0:23:22 > 0:23:23Mum, siblings?

0:23:23 > 0:23:26You know what, the "Bonnie" note - let's just scrap that.

0:23:26 > 0:23:28It's just me and Jac - no-one else.

0:23:29 > 0:23:32Right. Well, remember to shout

0:23:32 > 0:23:37when you realise you need ginger-level pain relief.

0:23:40 > 0:23:41Well...

0:23:42 > 0:23:46..don't know where you're going to go, but I'm nice and comfy.

0:23:47 > 0:23:49Come on.

0:23:49 > 0:23:50Let's...

0:23:50 > 0:23:53rest your wee ginger head.

0:23:55 > 0:23:58Oh! Oh.

0:24:00 > 0:24:02Ooh, this is proper. This is a big one.

0:24:10 > 0:24:11Thank you.

0:24:18 > 0:24:20You've got an admirer.

0:24:20 > 0:24:22I think you might be right.

0:24:22 > 0:24:25So, why didn't things work out between you two, then?

0:24:29 > 0:24:31They just didn't.

0:24:31 > 0:24:34Well, when do they, at that age?

0:24:34 > 0:24:39Well, youth doesn't have the monopoly on breaking hearts. Men can be stupid at any age.

0:24:41 > 0:24:43Well, I feel like an oppressed minority.

0:24:43 > 0:24:45Why don't you stage a protest?

0:24:45 > 0:24:48No veggie breakfast, he'd have a protest.

0:24:48 > 0:24:52Women barred from playing Richard III, he'd have a protest.

0:24:52 > 0:24:57How many hours did we spend chained up in that bloody exam hall?

0:24:57 > 0:24:59Come on, Ric. Whip out your handcuffs.

0:24:59 > 0:25:01We weren't even vegetarian.

0:25:01 > 0:25:03And no women wanted to play Richard III!

0:25:03 > 0:25:05Hours and hours chained to that pipe.

0:25:05 > 0:25:08It wasn't exactly Robben Island.

0:25:08 > 0:25:11And then the guitar would come out.

0:25:11 > 0:25:13Three strings. One song.

0:25:13 > 0:25:19- "You have to stand for something... - BOTH: "Or you'll fall for anything."

0:25:19 > 0:25:20Yes, I took that with me.

0:25:24 > 0:25:29The Foreign Office are lucky to have you.

0:25:29 > 0:25:31They were. I resigned over Iraq.

0:25:31 > 0:25:35You walked out on a great job in your 40s? That was brave.

0:25:35 > 0:25:38I knew I was right. My boss didn't.

0:25:38 > 0:25:40So I took my efforts elsewhere.

0:25:40 > 0:25:43And ever since, I've split my time between Westminster

0:25:43 > 0:25:44and the UN,

0:25:44 > 0:25:47lobbying for clean water, land mine clearance...

0:25:47 > 0:25:49- Anything you fancy?- Mm.

0:25:49 > 0:25:51Why wait for permission?

0:25:51 > 0:25:54You always did talk like a criminal.

0:25:54 > 0:25:56- Oh... - MUSIC PLAYING

0:25:56 > 0:26:00# I'm on the mood for dancing... #

0:26:00 > 0:26:02I am, come on!

0:26:02 > 0:26:03- Come on.- Really?

0:26:03 > 0:26:07Yeah, Terry Eagle's playing all the old hits.

0:26:09 > 0:26:11You are staying the night, aren't you?

0:26:13 > 0:26:16Well, we can't not catch up.

0:26:17 > 0:26:21Maybe head to the river for old times' sake?

0:26:21 > 0:26:24We have a meeting first thing.

0:26:25 > 0:26:28Serena's the designated driver...

0:26:28 > 0:26:30Yes, it's fine. I know you're busy.

0:26:34 > 0:26:35- Sally!- Kathy.

0:26:39 > 0:26:40Oh, dear.

0:26:40 > 0:26:46Your designated driver appears to have quaffed this rather fine bottle of New Zealand Marlborough.

0:26:46 > 0:26:47No, she hasn't.

0:26:47 > 0:26:49Yes, she has.

0:27:05 > 0:27:09Guy, hello. How are you? Sorry for the late call.

0:27:09 > 0:27:12No, no - everything's fine.

0:27:12 > 0:27:15Yeah, yeah - I know what time it is.

0:27:15 > 0:27:18I just thought I'd better let you know that I'm not going to be able

0:27:18 > 0:27:21to make that 7:30 meeting in the morning after all.

0:27:24 > 0:27:30Yeah. Yes, I believe it is the Sex Pistols that you can hear.

0:27:30 > 0:27:33Indeed I have been drinking, Guy.

0:27:33 > 0:27:35It is past eleven on a Tuesday night

0:27:35 > 0:27:41and...well, I decided to follow your sage advice and "Go nuts".

0:27:43 > 0:27:45All right, you too.

0:28:11 > 0:28:15The contractions are getting quicker. You're doing great.

0:28:15 > 0:28:17It's an involuntary biological process, Jonny.

0:28:17 > 0:28:20Yeah, well - I still think you're doing great.

0:28:21 > 0:28:24Bravo, Naylor, you one-kidneyed powerhouse.

0:28:24 > 0:28:29That's a part of my body even I need permission to touch.

0:28:29 > 0:28:32You do remember how she got in there, don't you?

0:28:33 > 0:28:34Jac?

0:28:35 > 0:28:38What's wrong?

0:28:38 > 0:28:40Come on, Jac. I'm not a mind-reader.

0:28:40 > 0:28:44Now would be a really great time for you to accept that.

0:28:44 > 0:28:49Tara. She died. She was what...25?

0:28:50 > 0:28:51And what did we do?

0:28:51 > 0:28:52OK, stop right there.

0:28:52 > 0:28:54She died and we...?

0:28:54 > 0:28:56What, you think you're cursed?

0:28:56 > 0:28:59Do you realise how ridiculous that sounds?

0:28:59 > 0:29:03Would it make you feel any better if I was to tell you -

0:29:03 > 0:29:07no, to REMIND you for the millionth time - that...

0:29:08 > 0:29:10..you mean something to me?

0:29:10 > 0:29:14Of all the things men say to excuse an inappropriate bunk-up,

0:29:14 > 0:29:16that's up there.

0:29:16 > 0:29:19I was grieving! And YOU,

0:29:19 > 0:29:21not Mo, not my mates,

0:29:21 > 0:29:23YOU were the one I wanted to share that with.

0:29:23 > 0:29:25To me, that's not a bad thing.

0:29:25 > 0:29:28To me, to anyone with a heart,

0:29:28 > 0:29:30that's a-a...brilliant,

0:29:30 > 0:29:33life-affirming, human thing.

0:29:33 > 0:29:37But why would I expect you to understand those kind of concepts?

0:29:47 > 0:29:50# No woman no cry... #

0:29:50 > 0:29:52You better believe it!

0:29:52 > 0:29:55# No woman no cry. #

0:29:55 > 0:29:57Boom, boom, boom, boom...

0:29:57 > 0:30:01In his head, he's improving Bob Marley.

0:30:01 > 0:30:04Must be great to be in his head.

0:30:04 > 0:30:08- It was always the opposite with you. - Sorry?

0:30:08 > 0:30:09It was the opposite with you.

0:30:09 > 0:30:10Big finish now!

0:30:10 > 0:30:12It's called a work ethic.

0:30:14 > 0:30:16You could never enjoy what you had.

0:30:16 > 0:30:18- Thank you, Wembley! - Sorry. I can't hear you.

0:30:18 > 0:30:21LOUDLY: You stopped enjoying life.

0:30:24 > 0:30:26I'm all right, don't worry.

0:30:26 > 0:30:28What does a man have to do to get a drink around here?

0:30:28 > 0:30:31LAUGHTER

0:30:31 > 0:30:34Oh, ladies and gentlemen. Fresh from judges' houses,

0:30:34 > 0:30:36please welcome Eric the Red!

0:30:36 > 0:30:37APPLAUSE

0:30:39 > 0:30:43INTRO: "Brown-Eyed Girl" by Van Morrison

0:30:53 > 0:30:56# Hey, where did we go

0:30:56 > 0:30:58# Days when the rains came?

0:31:00 > 0:31:01# Down in the hollow

0:31:03 > 0:31:04# Playing a new game

0:31:06 > 0:31:09# Laughing and a-running, hey, hey

0:31:09 > 0:31:12# Skipping and a-jumping

0:31:12 > 0:31:17# In the misty morning fog with our, our hearts a-thumping

0:31:17 > 0:31:18# And you

0:31:20 > 0:31:22# My brown-eyed girl

0:31:25 > 0:31:28# You, my brown-eyed girl

0:31:30 > 0:31:32# Do you remember when

0:31:34 > 0:31:35# We used to sing

0:31:35 > 0:31:40# Sha la la la la la la la la la la dee dah... #

0:31:40 > 0:31:41Just like that.

0:31:41 > 0:31:44# Sha la la la la la la la la la la dee dah La dee dah... #

0:31:46 > 0:31:48You'd hate it. It's ridiculous.

0:31:52 > 0:31:53What are YOU doing here?

0:31:53 > 0:31:56En-route to Masala Palace to pick up some goodies...

0:31:56 > 0:31:58I thought I'd pop in, see if you wanted my spare samosa?

0:31:59 > 0:32:01I'm in between contractions.

0:32:01 > 0:32:04Oh, great! Well done!

0:32:04 > 0:32:07It's an involuntary biological process, Elliot.

0:32:10 > 0:32:11Where's Jonny?

0:32:22 > 0:32:24I know you steal them from my desk.

0:32:26 > 0:32:28I'm not meant to eat.

0:32:28 > 0:32:31Go on, what's good for the goose...

0:32:35 > 0:32:38Ah, The Lady of Shalott.

0:32:38 > 0:32:40Ric will be pleased they found a home for her.

0:32:40 > 0:32:43Go on, then.

0:32:43 > 0:32:49Arthurian legend. Cursed to die unless she stayed in her tower,

0:32:49 > 0:32:52only seeing the world reflected in a mirror.

0:32:54 > 0:32:59But one day, she spotted Lancelot down the river.

0:33:00 > 0:33:03And she stepped out of her tower,

0:33:03 > 0:33:05climbed into a boat

0:33:05 > 0:33:06and sailed towards him.

0:33:08 > 0:33:11And as she sailed, she knew her life was ending

0:33:11 > 0:33:13but on she went - to her death.

0:33:14 > 0:33:16Bright girl, then?

0:33:16 > 0:33:18She's a human being.

0:33:21 > 0:33:25What's life's great tapestry if not unshackling yourself from safety?

0:33:28 > 0:33:33Those few seconds spent chasing something wonderful

0:33:33 > 0:33:35were worth an eternity in that tower.

0:33:41 > 0:33:43When you talk about me...

0:33:45 > 0:33:46..what do you say?

0:33:52 > 0:33:54I say that you are the surgeon

0:33:54 > 0:33:58that I would trust with my children's lives.

0:33:58 > 0:34:01I say you put yourself under impossible pressure to

0:34:01 > 0:34:04help your patients, without ever letting on.

0:34:04 > 0:34:06I say you put the do-gooders to shame.

0:34:09 > 0:34:12And I say I'm so very, very proud of you.

0:34:19 > 0:34:22I can't imagine life without her now.

0:34:25 > 0:34:26Do you want me to stay here with you?

0:34:28 > 0:34:32- If you must. - And Mo? For Jonny?

0:34:44 > 0:34:46Oh, Jean! Hi. Are you taking care of...?

0:34:46 > 0:34:49- Baby Naylor? Yes, I am.- Right.

0:34:49 > 0:34:51See you later.

0:34:51 > 0:34:53Jean...

0:34:53 > 0:34:57I'm sorry, it must be a difficult time for you now.

0:34:59 > 0:35:01Thanks for remembering.

0:35:11 > 0:35:13I'm sorry I got a bit hysterical.

0:35:13 > 0:35:15Must have been the gas and air.

0:35:16 > 0:35:18Back to the coalface, then?

0:35:20 > 0:35:23Look, I...

0:35:23 > 0:35:27I know I'm not what you had in mind,

0:35:27 > 0:35:29but I'm trying my best.

0:35:30 > 0:35:33She is the luckiest girl in the world to have you fighting

0:35:33 > 0:35:34her corner.

0:35:34 > 0:35:37And don't tell me what I think!

0:35:39 > 0:35:40Whatever happens,

0:35:40 > 0:35:43there's no-one I would rather have as the mother of my child.

0:35:55 > 0:35:57Jean? Can we have some help here, please?

0:36:03 > 0:36:05Eric's having a grand time.

0:36:05 > 0:36:07It's like the Summer Of Love all over again, I'd imagine.

0:36:08 > 0:36:12You DO know we were only CHILDREN in the '60s?

0:36:12 > 0:36:13Absolutely, Ms Campbell,

0:36:13 > 0:36:16no, no, no, no, you missed those hippies by a long shot...

0:36:16 > 0:36:18Though you have embraced their wild maverick spirit.

0:36:18 > 0:36:22I can't help but wonder if you're coming on to me.

0:36:23 > 0:36:25I'm so sorry if I've made you feel harassed.

0:36:27 > 0:36:29Your Harvard dissertation on remodelling

0:36:29 > 0:36:32the 80/20 Health Care model blew my mind.

0:36:32 > 0:36:36My research fellow friends in med, biochem, neuro, med ethics.

0:36:36 > 0:36:39Here, Yale, McGill, Princeton, Imperial. It blew all our minds.

0:36:40 > 0:36:44You should have said. I'd have signed you a copy.

0:36:44 > 0:36:45Would you?!

0:36:45 > 0:36:48I've been wound up like a spring to ask -

0:36:48 > 0:36:50and ask you all these questions, but...

0:36:50 > 0:36:52I figured you must be sick of all the work talk.

0:36:52 > 0:36:54I'm NEVER sick of the work talk!

0:36:55 > 0:36:58Why don't you run in and grab us a couple more whiskies?

0:36:58 > 0:37:01No problem... And by the way,

0:37:01 > 0:37:03I do think you're super hot.

0:37:05 > 0:37:09Oh, for goodness' sake,

0:37:09 > 0:37:10what is the MATTER with you?

0:37:10 > 0:37:12It's our anniversary.

0:37:12 > 0:37:14Oh, just put them away.

0:37:14 > 0:37:17I've tracked you down and driven out here to be with you on our anniversary.

0:37:17 > 0:37:20You're making a mistake. I mucked up at work, you're mixing that up with us.

0:37:20 > 0:37:24If I can't trust you with one, I can't trust you with the other.

0:37:24 > 0:37:26I'll change.

0:37:26 > 0:37:29But you won't. You'll get itchy feet.

0:37:29 > 0:37:33Or you'll start destroying the things I care about.

0:37:33 > 0:37:36You were back in my life for five minutes.

0:37:36 > 0:37:39It never lasts because YOU always ruin it.

0:37:39 > 0:37:40I haven't had a drop for days.

0:37:40 > 0:37:43It's not just the drink, Edward.

0:37:43 > 0:37:46You...chip away at me.

0:37:47 > 0:37:51You make me feel so unworthy...

0:37:51 > 0:37:53and undesirable,

0:37:53 > 0:37:54and I'm not!

0:37:54 > 0:37:56Serena, I...

0:37:57 > 0:37:59You're the love of my life.

0:38:01 > 0:38:05Buttons there has just made me feel better about myself

0:38:05 > 0:38:08in ten seconds than you did in 26 years!

0:38:08 > 0:38:10I love you. I do.

0:38:10 > 0:38:11No, I love YOU.

0:38:12 > 0:38:15I'm just some crutch you're rather fond of.

0:38:15 > 0:38:17I'm better without you.

0:38:19 > 0:38:21Edward...

0:38:23 > 0:38:27..you are the father of my child.

0:38:27 > 0:38:32You will always have a place in my life, and I will pay whatever

0:38:32 > 0:38:37it costs to get you the professional help that you need.

0:38:37 > 0:38:39But...

0:38:39 > 0:38:41you and me?

0:38:42 > 0:38:43No more.

0:39:01 > 0:39:03They're coming fast now, Jac. She's so close.

0:39:03 > 0:39:05It's coming, it's coming.

0:39:05 > 0:39:09Don't look at the machines, just breathe through it. That's great. Great!

0:39:09 > 0:39:11That's the stuff, Naylor. Well done.

0:39:16 > 0:39:20You're doing great, sweetheart. You're doing her proud.

0:39:20 > 0:39:21What is it?

0:39:21 > 0:39:22Relax.

0:39:22 > 0:39:25- It's fine. It's absolutely fine. - What aren't you telling me?

0:39:26 > 0:39:30- Jonny, what aren't they telling me? - Nothing.

0:39:30 > 0:39:31Jac...!

0:39:32 > 0:39:34Look, you're not fully dilated

0:39:34 > 0:39:37and your baby's heart rate is decelerating with the contractions.

0:39:37 > 0:39:40She's recovering in between, but if her recovery stops,

0:39:40 > 0:39:43then we have to go for a Caesarean.

0:39:54 > 0:39:55Was it really that easy?

0:39:55 > 0:39:57What's that?

0:39:57 > 0:40:00Calling the shots with your career at our age?

0:40:00 > 0:40:03You're a surgeon from Harvard.

0:40:03 > 0:40:07Anyone makes you forget that, just walk away.

0:40:07 > 0:40:09Yes! I will do that!

0:40:15 > 0:40:18You're not dancing, why aren't you dancing?

0:40:18 > 0:40:19I am now!

0:40:19 > 0:40:21Timber!

0:40:21 > 0:40:23Kathy!

0:40:25 > 0:40:28Oh, it's way past my bedtime.

0:40:28 > 0:40:29Thank you.

0:40:29 > 0:40:31Come on, let's get you out of here.

0:40:38 > 0:40:40We're not reverting to a Caesarean.

0:40:40 > 0:40:43It's just a possibility if she doesn't want to move.

0:40:43 > 0:40:44Why wouldn't she want to move?

0:40:44 > 0:40:46It's just one of those things, dear.

0:40:46 > 0:40:50Don't tell me it's one of those things! It's black and white.

0:40:50 > 0:40:53Look, remember we don't want to get baby distressed

0:40:53 > 0:40:56and there's only so much that we can do to control that.

0:40:56 > 0:40:58I can control that!

0:40:58 > 0:41:00But it's not that black and white, is it?

0:41:01 > 0:41:03Someone please just tell me what to do and I'll do it!

0:41:04 > 0:41:07OK, so I want you to focus on your breathing in the way that you

0:41:07 > 0:41:10were doing, so that you decrease the amount of adrenaline reaching

0:41:10 > 0:41:13- baby, OK?- Let's turn you on your left-hand side, OK?

0:41:13 > 0:41:16It will take the pressure off the blood supply to your uterus.

0:41:19 > 0:41:23Someone isn't quite the party girl that she used to be.

0:41:23 > 0:41:25Let's get you to bed.

0:41:25 > 0:41:26Where's your key?

0:41:26 > 0:41:28I don't know.

0:41:28 > 0:41:29Are you serious?

0:41:29 > 0:41:31I don't know.

0:41:35 > 0:41:36- Come on.- What?

0:41:41 > 0:41:43No!

0:41:45 > 0:41:47Go on, I've got to see this.

0:41:50 > 0:41:53# Spider-Man, Spider-Man

0:41:53 > 0:41:55# He does everything...

0:41:57 > 0:41:59# ..a spider can...

0:41:59 > 0:42:01# Is he strong?

0:42:05 > 0:42:07- Oh!- Uh!

0:42:09 > 0:42:12Oh! Oh, look what I found.

0:42:14 > 0:42:18Spider-Man hurt his knee, for me?

0:42:20 > 0:42:21Just a flesh wound.

0:42:23 > 0:42:25Wow, this has changed.

0:42:25 > 0:42:27This used to be Phoebe's room.

0:42:27 > 0:42:30How do you know what Phoebe's room looked like?

0:42:33 > 0:42:36I never tried to climb a wall for Phoebe.

0:42:36 > 0:42:38Uh-huh.

0:42:38 > 0:42:39She gave me a key.

0:42:39 > 0:42:41Oh!

0:42:43 > 0:42:45SHE GASPS

0:42:46 > 0:42:47You OK?

0:42:51 > 0:42:54It's a case of too many desserts, Doctor.

0:42:57 > 0:42:59Can I...get you a bucket?

0:43:02 > 0:43:05You have such a way with the ladies!

0:43:21 > 0:43:23The contractions are too far apart.

0:43:23 > 0:43:24Come on, Jac, you can do this.

0:43:24 > 0:43:26We may have to resort to a Caesarean soon.

0:43:26 > 0:43:29- No!- She's hyperventilating. She's going to wear herself out.

0:43:29 > 0:43:31Jonny, get me some water.

0:43:32 > 0:43:34Of course, yeah.

0:43:37 > 0:43:41It's all gone wrong and I don't know how to stop this.

0:43:41 > 0:43:43What the hell am I supposed to do now?

0:43:43 > 0:43:45You tell her whatever she needs to hear.

0:43:45 > 0:43:48Even if she kills you for it. Right?

0:43:50 > 0:43:53Five children. The oldest must be what, nearly 40?

0:43:58 > 0:43:59Hmm.

0:43:59 > 0:44:04Nearly 40. I remember seeing him in his pram...

0:44:06 > 0:44:08So what's he up to? Politician? Doctor?

0:44:13 > 0:44:15Leo died.

0:44:15 > 0:44:16Six years ago.

0:44:20 > 0:44:21I'm so sorry.

0:44:24 > 0:44:25If I'd known...

0:44:30 > 0:44:32I didn't think you were going to be here.

0:44:32 > 0:44:36I thought you'd be off, flying the world,

0:44:36 > 0:44:38family.

0:44:39 > 0:44:40I assumed you'd moved on.

0:44:43 > 0:44:47I didn't treat you well when we were here, Kathy.

0:44:47 > 0:44:50I know that. I was young,

0:44:50 > 0:44:51stupid.

0:44:51 > 0:44:56You just stopped seeing me. Then you were out with that woman.

0:44:56 > 0:44:58Why did you leave me?

0:45:00 > 0:45:01I don't really know.

0:45:04 > 0:45:09Somewhere between trying to figure out who I was and what I thought

0:45:09 > 0:45:15I ought to be, I made the single most stupid mistake of my life.

0:45:16 > 0:45:19Look, we've found each other again.

0:45:21 > 0:45:24Let's not waste any more time.

0:45:24 > 0:45:25No.

0:45:29 > 0:45:30Oh, ah!

0:45:32 > 0:45:33Kathy?

0:45:35 > 0:45:37Kathy?

0:45:37 > 0:45:38What's wrong?

0:45:41 > 0:45:43Why is nothing working?

0:45:43 > 0:45:44It just isn't.

0:45:46 > 0:45:49Baby's still slow to recover from the latest deceleration.

0:45:49 > 0:45:52Jac, I need to examine you. All right?

0:45:56 > 0:45:58OK, OK.

0:45:59 > 0:46:01No, still 8cm.

0:46:01 > 0:46:02C-section.

0:46:02 > 0:46:04Category one. We'll need a spinal as well.

0:46:04 > 0:46:07Do it. Just do it.

0:46:07 > 0:46:11- Jac, we're doing a Caesarean.- No!

0:46:11 > 0:46:15Listen to me, your way is not working. It's killing the baby.

0:46:24 > 0:46:26Have they offered you chemo?

0:46:26 > 0:46:28We haven't got time. Why talk about this?

0:46:28 > 0:46:32- I'm not going to ignore what you just told me.- We haven't any time. Just be with me.

0:46:32 > 0:46:33Kathy, this is what I do.

0:46:33 > 0:46:35If I have all the facts, I can help you.

0:46:35 > 0:46:37We can make plans.

0:46:37 > 0:46:38It's an inoperable pelvic tumour.

0:46:39 > 0:46:42There's a clot in my leg.

0:46:42 > 0:46:44They say weeks, not months.

0:46:51 > 0:46:53- Are you taking warfarin? - Yes.

0:46:53 > 0:46:57Right, OK. I know the best specialist in Europe.

0:46:57 > 0:47:00We can send him your scans.

0:47:00 > 0:47:04I was so happy with you, Ric. So happy here.

0:47:04 > 0:47:05Kathy, please - let me help.

0:47:05 > 0:47:08Just be with me. That's all I want.

0:47:12 > 0:47:14That cough's not good.

0:47:14 > 0:47:16I know what the cough is.

0:47:21 > 0:47:26- Where's the warfarin? - Come here.

0:47:26 > 0:47:27Where are your pills?

0:47:29 > 0:47:31Where are the pills?

0:47:34 > 0:47:36Have you stopped taking your medication?

0:47:36 > 0:47:39I'm not going to languish for weeks in hospital.

0:47:39 > 0:47:42When I go, I want it to be quick.

0:47:43 > 0:47:45I've got a DNR.

0:47:46 > 0:47:48No. What?

0:47:51 > 0:47:54I just wanted to see you...

0:47:54 > 0:47:56one last time.

0:47:56 > 0:47:58You're so precious to me.

0:47:58 > 0:48:00Kathy.

0:48:00 > 0:48:03The sun's coming up.

0:48:03 > 0:48:05Take me to the river again.

0:48:06 > 0:48:08Let's get a boat, like we used to. Come on.

0:48:31 > 0:48:33Jonny, you got this, yeah?

0:48:36 > 0:48:38Oh, look, it's so beautiful.

0:48:38 > 0:48:40- No boats, though. - Well, we're going to find a boat.

0:48:40 > 0:48:42I don't think they row in January.

0:48:46 > 0:48:48It's so quiet.

0:48:50 > 0:48:52Oh, no. Oh, it's sinking.

0:48:55 > 0:48:57Thwarted.

0:48:57 > 0:48:59Nonsense.

0:48:59 > 0:49:00Here.

0:49:03 > 0:49:04I'm fine, I'm fine.

0:49:13 > 0:49:14Careful!

0:49:16 > 0:49:19Oh, my hero. Look at you, my hero.

0:49:21 > 0:49:23Eric the Red. Regular Viking.

0:49:31 > 0:49:34It's not over yet, OK? She's going to make it.

0:49:34 > 0:49:36You're going to be a mum before breakfast.

0:49:36 > 0:49:38- I can't feel her!- It's OK, it's OK.

0:49:38 > 0:49:40It's just the spinal kicking in.

0:49:41 > 0:49:43Honestly.

0:49:43 > 0:49:46Where would you doctors be without us nurses

0:49:46 > 0:49:47to explain the basics, hey?

0:49:47 > 0:49:50OK, Jac, just relax, we're going to begin now, OK?

0:49:59 > 0:50:01The river never changes, does it?

0:50:05 > 0:50:07You still look so handsome.

0:50:15 > 0:50:16Kathy, please?

0:50:16 > 0:50:17Keep going... Keep going.

0:50:47 > 0:50:50This is going to buy you years of emotional blackmail material.

0:50:50 > 0:50:55Like, "Don't kiss boys - I had an emergency C-section for you."

0:50:55 > 0:50:58"Tidy your room, I had an emergency C-section for you."

0:51:02 > 0:51:06OK, suction please. Suction! I can see her.

0:51:07 > 0:51:08He can see her.

0:51:10 > 0:51:12OK.

0:51:12 > 0:51:14Let's get her out. Nice and quickly, please.

0:51:14 > 0:51:17- What's going on? What's the matter? - Meconium.

0:51:21 > 0:51:22Come on.

0:51:22 > 0:51:26I'm going to tell you everything in NICU, OK? Every single heartbeat.

0:51:26 > 0:51:29You're going to make all the decisions. Every one of them right.

0:51:29 > 0:51:31She's here.

0:51:31 > 0:51:32Clamp, please.

0:51:37 > 0:51:38Is she breathing?

0:51:41 > 0:51:42Is she breathing?

0:51:45 > 0:51:47No, there's no time for that.

0:51:48 > 0:51:49Remember to record the APGAR.

0:51:50 > 0:51:53Quick! Go on. Go, go, go, go, go.

0:52:12 > 0:52:14Kathy never said she...

0:52:15 > 0:52:19Why do ladies always play the hero when they're dying?

0:52:21 > 0:52:23Kathy...

0:52:24 > 0:52:26Poor little Kathy.

0:52:28 > 0:52:30It would have meant a great deal

0:52:30 > 0:52:32to her,

0:52:32 > 0:52:34dying with you, Red.

0:52:36 > 0:52:39We all knew that you were the only one for Kathy.

0:52:41 > 0:52:42Thank you.

0:52:42 > 0:52:44Pleasure meeting you, Serena.

0:52:44 > 0:52:46Likewise.

0:52:53 > 0:52:57Ric. Perhaps we'll not leave it so long next time?

0:52:58 > 0:53:02As they say, "Enjoy yourself, it's later than you think."

0:53:22 > 0:53:26I've been doing this for 26 years and one thing I know is

0:53:26 > 0:53:29we can plan all we like,

0:53:29 > 0:53:31but on the day,

0:53:31 > 0:53:35baby will do what baby wants to do.

0:53:35 > 0:53:38These tricky births just happen sometimes.

0:53:38 > 0:53:40There's no rhyme nor reason.

0:53:43 > 0:53:46I can't accept there's a reason for some things.

0:53:46 > 0:53:51What, when, reason and blame?

0:53:51 > 0:53:54In the end, all that matters

0:53:54 > 0:53:56is that we loved our children -

0:53:56 > 0:53:59even if they weren't ours for very long.

0:54:06 > 0:54:09She's alive!

0:54:09 > 0:54:11She's alive. And Jac,

0:54:11 > 0:54:14she is so tiny

0:54:14 > 0:54:17and...so beautiful.

0:54:30 > 0:54:32She survived the birth.

0:54:32 > 0:54:33Thank you. Thank you.

0:54:38 > 0:54:40Um! She's not out of the woods by a long shot.

0:54:40 > 0:54:43But she's over the first hurdle.

0:54:43 > 0:54:45- How are you? - Over the moon.

0:54:45 > 0:54:46One day at a time.

0:55:01 > 0:55:04Late night, was it, Ms Campbell?

0:55:04 > 0:55:08I am not some batty aunt, here for your amusement, Guy.

0:55:08 > 0:55:11I am a surgeon with a Harvard MBA.

0:55:11 > 0:55:13You keep me out of a strategy meeting again,

0:55:13 > 0:55:16and I will take my talents elsewhere.

0:55:16 > 0:55:18A strategy meeting?

0:55:18 > 0:55:21Yesterday. You had a meeting with the strategic board.

0:55:21 > 0:55:22And I wasn't invited.

0:55:22 > 0:55:25You weren't about to be made redundant.

0:55:25 > 0:55:28Oh, I read your proposal. Great work.

0:55:42 > 0:55:44She's in NICU and she's so tiny and so beautiful.

0:55:47 > 0:55:50I'm so...happy for you.

0:56:41 > 0:56:44Jess, it's Dad.

0:56:49 > 0:56:53- And she's got like, this wee bit of auburn hair.- Ginger.

0:56:53 > 0:56:58Aye. And her wee hands are all open. And...

0:57:00 > 0:57:05And she's sedated, but you can tell that she can see the lamp light.

0:57:05 > 0:57:08And I'm going to put that wee piggy Ralph in with her as soon as...

0:57:08 > 0:57:12as soon as he's been sterilised.

0:57:12 > 0:57:16You know, whatever odds or numbers or chances we've got

0:57:16 > 0:57:20flying around in our heads, we've got to stop that.

0:57:20 > 0:57:24Cos she's going to do all that she can and -

0:57:24 > 0:57:28and the team at NICU, they're going to do all that they can.

0:57:28 > 0:57:29I know.

0:57:31 > 0:57:35The great unknown - that's all there is.

0:57:39 > 0:57:42- OK, do you want some water? - Yeah.