0:00:02 > 0:00:04- Welcome to Holby, Major. - Your reputation is formidable.
0:00:04 > 0:00:06- Why did you leave?- Why did YOU? - To save my marriage.
0:00:06 > 0:00:09I'm happy. Happier than I've been in a really long time,
0:00:09 > 0:00:11so either give him a chance or back off.
0:00:11 > 0:00:15The CT scan's clear? It's going to be OK?
0:00:15 > 0:00:16I owe you an apology.
0:00:16 > 0:00:21You mean you're not the power-crazed megalomaniac that I took you for?
0:00:21 > 0:00:24Maybe we're more alike than you think.
0:01:04 > 0:01:07Wow. That's impressive.
0:01:07 > 0:01:10I should get stuck in theatre all night more often.
0:01:10 > 0:01:13Er, excuse me? Who said any of this was for you?
0:01:13 > 0:01:15- Oh.- I'm working with Jac today
0:01:15 > 0:01:18and I thought that I'd butter her up with a few pastries.
0:01:18 > 0:01:20Hmm, well, that's a very good try
0:01:20 > 0:01:23but we both know that Nosferatu doesn't eat.
0:01:24 > 0:01:28Fine, I took pity on you for having a double shift.
0:01:28 > 0:01:32I'm a pathetic, 1950s housewife-type person.
0:01:32 > 0:01:37Well, you should learn to get your priorities straight, woman.
0:01:37 > 0:01:39Tell me you're at least going to have a nap before rounds?
0:01:39 > 0:01:43Doubtful. Might be able to slope off a little early, though,
0:01:43 > 0:01:47if you fancy catching up on what you missed out on?
0:01:47 > 0:01:49Hmm, love to...
0:01:50 > 0:01:53..but I don't know how long this surgery's going to go on for.
0:01:53 > 0:01:54- Hmm.- You could give me a key.
0:01:54 > 0:01:56I could let myself in when I'm done?
0:01:58 > 0:01:59A key?
0:01:59 > 0:02:01Yes. Metal object...
0:02:04 > 0:02:08..designed to allow access to a select few?
0:02:08 > 0:02:10Probably just best if you rang the bell.
0:02:10 > 0:02:14I'm very light sleeper and I'll definitely wake up, so...
0:02:14 > 0:02:15OK.
0:02:17 > 0:02:18Well, enjoy.
0:02:21 > 0:02:24Double shot latte, quick as you can, please.
0:02:26 > 0:02:28Do you remember when coffee was just coffee?
0:02:28 > 0:02:31Strong and hot is all I care about on a day like today.
0:02:31 > 0:02:35- Aye-aye.- I've got RTCs and broken bones coming out of my ears.
0:02:35 > 0:02:38What I wouldn't give for a couple of calm shifts on Keller.
0:02:38 > 0:02:40How are you finding the quieter life, by the way?
0:02:40 > 0:02:43Oh, it's, erm...
0:02:43 > 0:02:44It's a relief.
0:02:44 > 0:02:46Oh, thanks. Right, one must dash.
0:02:46 > 0:02:49And you didn't see me - I'd have an F1's guts for garters
0:02:49 > 0:02:52if they couldn't get through a heavy shift without caffeine.
0:02:52 > 0:02:54PHONE RINGS Sorry.
0:03:05 > 0:03:06Time check?
0:03:06 > 0:03:08Shift starts in one minute and counting.
0:03:32 > 0:03:33Try not to panic.
0:03:35 > 0:03:40- Ms Wolfe?- Well, don't just stand there - get a cricothyrotomy kit.
0:03:40 > 0:03:43One, two... SHE GAGS
0:03:43 > 0:03:46..three, four.
0:03:50 > 0:03:51Give me your jacket.
0:03:54 > 0:03:57The dangers of eating your breakfast too quickly, eh?
0:03:58 > 0:04:01Right, you're not going to make a cut in the skin first?
0:04:01 > 0:04:03This is how we do it in the great outdoors.
0:04:09 > 0:04:11Bracing, isn't it?
0:04:19 > 0:04:24Women don't usually ask their boyfriends for a key
0:04:24 > 0:04:27to their flat without some ulterior motive, do they?
0:04:27 > 0:04:29Erm, ulterior motive like what?
0:04:29 > 0:04:31I don't know.
0:04:31 > 0:04:35Like wanting a key to their flat?
0:04:35 > 0:04:38Oh, wow, how did you crack that code?
0:04:38 > 0:04:41You know what? Forget I said anything.
0:04:41 > 0:04:43Look, OK, I'm sorry. I get it.
0:04:43 > 0:04:44You've got the fear.
0:04:46 > 0:04:49It's all fun and games when it's romantic breakfasts
0:04:49 > 0:04:51in the staffroom - thanks for sharing by the way -
0:04:51 > 0:04:54but the minute she wants to take it to the next level...
0:04:54 > 0:04:56I'm not some pathetic commitment-phobe,
0:04:56 > 0:05:00- if that's what you're getting at. - Course you're not.- I'm not.
0:05:00 > 0:05:02I'm serious about Zosia.
0:05:03 > 0:05:05She just took me by surprise, that's all.
0:05:05 > 0:05:09- See? Wasn't that hard, was it? - What wasn't?
0:05:09 > 0:05:12You admitting how you really feel about her.
0:05:12 > 0:05:15Look, if blokes did that all the time,
0:05:15 > 0:05:18half the arguments in the world would just vanish.
0:05:19 > 0:05:21Just talk to her, you plum!
0:05:24 > 0:05:28Well, if that doesn't get your first day back off to a flying start, nothing will.
0:05:28 > 0:05:30Er, actually I'm more just looking forward to just getting back
0:05:30 > 0:05:32into the swing of things on Keller.
0:05:32 > 0:05:35Taking time with patients, the usual elective procedures...
0:05:35 > 0:05:37Each to his own, I suppose.
0:05:37 > 0:05:40- Oh, Bernie.- Morning.- Hi.
0:05:40 > 0:05:44Mo just called to say your impromptu patient's doing very well.
0:05:44 > 0:05:46She said your cricothyrotomy was the best she's ever seen,
0:05:46 > 0:05:48given the circumstances.
0:05:48 > 0:05:50Doesn't matter the circumstances, medicine's always the same.
0:05:50 > 0:05:53Well, I hope this isn't too much of a come-down.
0:05:53 > 0:05:56It's follow-up bloods for our elective mastectomy patient.
0:05:56 > 0:05:58She's here with her sister.
0:05:58 > 0:06:02Just to say, she seems a bit nervous about the whole thing.
0:06:02 > 0:06:05Of course she is, every patient's nervous before surgery.
0:06:05 > 0:06:07Absolutely. I'm just saying, in my experience,
0:06:07 > 0:06:10a bit of hand-holding might not go amiss.
0:06:10 > 0:06:12Thanks for the tip.
0:06:12 > 0:06:14Bad news from Mr Griffin, I'm afraid.
0:06:14 > 0:06:17He's been drafted in last-minute to give a lecture in Sheffield.
0:06:17 > 0:06:18He hopes to be back tomorrow,
0:06:18 > 0:06:21but in the meantime, somebody will have to step into the breach.
0:06:21 > 0:06:23Tough task, stepping into Ric's shoes.
0:06:23 > 0:06:25- Well, the admin alone is... - I'll do it.
0:06:25 > 0:06:26After my coffee shop triumph,
0:06:26 > 0:06:28keeping this lot in check should be a piece of cake.
0:06:28 > 0:06:31You don't mind, do you? Great, that's settled then.
0:06:33 > 0:06:37Adele, I keep hoping that one day you'll grasp exactly
0:06:37 > 0:06:39what it is I need from you.
0:06:39 > 0:06:41I'm sorry, have I done something wrong?
0:06:41 > 0:06:43Leave all this donkey work to someone else.
0:06:43 > 0:06:45You and I have bigger fish to fry.
0:06:45 > 0:06:47OK, but you know when you say "donkey work",
0:06:47 > 0:06:49you just mean nursing, right?
0:06:49 > 0:06:51Look, the Neuro Centre has been going great guns since
0:06:51 > 0:06:54we moved to Darwin. I know that, Hanssen knows that, you know that.
0:06:54 > 0:06:55But does the world know it?
0:06:55 > 0:06:58Right, if this is leading to me in a shopping centre somewhere
0:06:58 > 0:06:59handing out leaflets, then...
0:06:59 > 0:07:02We need further investments to keep the Neuro Centre up and running.
0:07:02 > 0:07:05I have some potentials but we need to demonstrate
0:07:05 > 0:07:08what we've done in the past and what we hope to do in the future.
0:07:08 > 0:07:09We need to blow their socks off.
0:07:09 > 0:07:12How can you not? The work you've been doing is second to none.
0:07:12 > 0:07:16Yes, I know, which is why I need my recent patients' records
0:07:16 > 0:07:20to be compiled in order and edited into an easily readable format.
0:07:20 > 0:07:21You up to the task?
0:07:23 > 0:07:25Yeah, I mean I'll have to step back from my nursing duties
0:07:25 > 0:07:27for a shift or two but...
0:07:27 > 0:07:28Whatever it takes.
0:07:28 > 0:07:30Well, leave it with me, boss.
0:07:30 > 0:07:32I'll make sure we all look good.
0:07:32 > 0:07:35Leave the looking good to me. Just don't drop the ball.
0:07:39 > 0:07:42OK, so we'll be doing a bilateral mastectomy
0:07:42 > 0:07:44and reconstruction at the same time.
0:07:44 > 0:07:47Much more efficient than going back into theatre after the mastectomy.
0:07:47 > 0:07:51Doesn't she have a choice about the type of reconstruction she has?
0:07:51 > 0:07:54Yes, of course. But Lorna has decided to have...
0:07:54 > 0:07:55Yes.
0:07:55 > 0:07:58Yeah, we can move some fat up from the abdomen or we can swing
0:07:58 > 0:08:03some muscle round from the back or we could do a traditional implant,
0:08:03 > 0:08:05which I understand is what Lorna has decided.
0:08:05 > 0:08:06Much more straightforward.
0:08:06 > 0:08:09And how long should we expect the operation to take?
0:08:09 > 0:08:10Stop bugging her, Jan.
0:08:10 > 0:08:12Sorry. She can't help...
0:08:15 > 0:08:17- ..being a nightmare.- Oi.
0:08:17 > 0:08:21Have you given any thought to an ovariectomy?
0:08:21 > 0:08:22You mean..?
0:08:24 > 0:08:25No.
0:08:25 > 0:08:30I mean, obviously, my GP mentioned it, but we just both thought
0:08:30 > 0:08:32that was something to be tackled further down the line.
0:08:32 > 0:08:33It is.
0:08:34 > 0:08:36Or at least it can be.
0:08:37 > 0:08:40Some women with the BRCA1 gene choose to have
0:08:40 > 0:08:42the preventative surgeries in stages.
0:08:42 > 0:08:44Still, while you're here, why not get the whole picture?
0:08:44 > 0:08:46I'm sure one of our colleagues in Gynaecology
0:08:46 > 0:08:48would be happy to take you through the procedure.
0:08:48 > 0:08:52Can't we just focus on the mastectomy for now?
0:08:52 > 0:08:54What's your family history again?
0:08:54 > 0:08:57We lost our auntie to breast cancer
0:08:57 > 0:08:59and our mum and our grandma to ovarian.
0:08:59 > 0:09:01And you have children?
0:09:01 > 0:09:03I've got a little girl. She's three.
0:09:03 > 0:09:05No dad in the picture.
0:09:05 > 0:09:09We bring her up together - Mummy and the sad spinster aunt.
0:09:09 > 0:09:12Well, you don't want to take any risks, then.
0:09:12 > 0:09:17Would you ask one of our consultant gynaes to join us before theatre?
0:09:17 > 0:09:20- Sure.- Consultant gynae.
0:09:20 > 0:09:21Oh, Dr Wolfe, thank you.
0:09:21 > 0:09:25It's, erm...it's Ms, not Dr.
0:09:25 > 0:09:27Good, well, I'll see you in theatre.
0:09:29 > 0:09:31You don't think a softly-softly approach
0:09:31 > 0:09:34- would have yielded better...- Ah, some of my young recruits up ahead,
0:09:34 > 0:09:36looking in distinct need of guidance. See you in theatre.
0:09:36 > 0:09:38I've barely slept a wink all night.
0:09:38 > 0:09:40Seriously, I was like, where's my life going?
0:09:40 > 0:09:44How can I possibly drop off when Arthur's socks are piled up
0:09:44 > 0:09:46like a dirty bomb in the corner?
0:09:46 > 0:09:51And then... Well, I literally saw a sign.
0:09:51 > 0:09:52SHE CHUCKLES
0:09:52 > 0:09:55I present to you your brand-new housemate.
0:09:55 > 0:09:56Me!
0:09:58 > 0:10:00I didn't know you were looking for a place.
0:10:00 > 0:10:05Yeah, things went sour a few weeks back in the old place.
0:10:05 > 0:10:07Well, I'm sure you could stay at Arthur's.
0:10:07 > 0:10:09He wouldn't kick you out if you were stuck.
0:10:09 > 0:10:12Cara, rushing in a relationship is the worst thing you can do.
0:10:12 > 0:10:15When we move in with one another I want it to be special.
0:10:15 > 0:10:18Well, I guess it would make sense,
0:10:18 > 0:10:21living with somebody who understands the unsocial hours.
0:10:21 > 0:10:23- We could vent at each other! - SHE LAUGHS
0:10:23 > 0:10:27There'd be wine and complaining and chocolate - it'd be amazing!
0:10:27 > 0:10:28Yeah...
0:10:28 > 0:10:31Why don't we give ourselves a day to think about it?
0:10:31 > 0:10:35I've actually got a few interviews set up with non-work people
0:10:35 > 0:10:37and I can't exactly cancel last minute.
0:10:38 > 0:10:41Reba McIntosh - RTC. Query a broken arm.
0:10:43 > 0:10:44You poor thing.
0:10:44 > 0:10:46Any double vision?
0:10:46 > 0:10:49I was only going as far as the post office.
0:10:49 > 0:10:52Silly to get in a fender bender going round the corner.
0:10:54 > 0:10:57Let me guess. Sagittarius?
0:10:57 > 0:10:58Close - I'm an Aries.
0:10:58 > 0:11:00So not actually that close then.
0:11:00 > 0:11:05Regardless, I sense a big change on the horizon for you.
0:11:05 > 0:11:07I've been writing horoscopes for the last 20 years.
0:11:07 > 0:11:09I've never been proven wrong yet.
0:11:09 > 0:11:13I think the "proven" is probably the keyword there, isn't it?
0:11:13 > 0:11:16Right. So let's get this arm X-rayed then.
0:11:16 > 0:11:19- No problem.- Thanks, roomie! - SHE LAUGHS NERVOUSLY
0:11:21 > 0:11:23And this is the last foetal echo.
0:11:23 > 0:11:26You can see the narrowing of the baby's left ventricle right there.
0:11:26 > 0:11:28- When's the patient due to arrive? - Any minute now.
0:11:28 > 0:11:31Gynae have agreed to join us in surgery once the patient's prepped.
0:11:31 > 0:11:33Fine. If you don't screw anything up before then,
0:11:33 > 0:11:34I've no objection to you assisting.
0:11:34 > 0:11:37What was it like doing foetal surgery in Sweden?
0:11:37 > 0:11:39Exactly the same as here. Just colder.
0:11:41 > 0:11:44Tell me you saved her a Danish at least.
0:11:44 > 0:11:46No, that was all for you.
0:11:46 > 0:11:48And it got weird. Sorry.
0:11:48 > 0:11:52Well, yes, all because I asked you to loan me a spare key.
0:11:52 > 0:11:54Easily spooked, aren't we?
0:11:54 > 0:11:55Not usually, no.
0:11:56 > 0:12:01Wow. So, just when I suggest a tiny, baby step towards commitment?
0:12:01 > 0:12:02That's good to know.
0:12:02 > 0:12:05"Not usually" as in I'm not easily spooked...
0:12:05 > 0:12:08Look, I don't know what came over me.
0:12:08 > 0:12:09I've been up all night.
0:12:09 > 0:12:10Forgive me?
0:12:12 > 0:12:15As long as you promise that if you ever do get freaked out,
0:12:15 > 0:12:18if you think things are moving too fast or whatever, just talk to me?
0:12:18 > 0:12:21Dr March, I think this is one of yours?
0:12:21 > 0:12:24Ah, Jac's valvuloplasty patient.
0:12:24 > 0:12:26I better give her the full VIP treatment.
0:12:26 > 0:12:27Everything all right?
0:12:27 > 0:12:30Yeah. Why wouldn't they be? Course.
0:12:41 > 0:12:43Right, you two, follow me.
0:12:43 > 0:12:45We have ten patients on the ward,
0:12:45 > 0:12:47all expecting to be taken into theatre without overrunning.
0:12:47 > 0:12:50Can anyone tell me the last time that actually happened?
0:12:50 > 0:12:52- 90% of patients are seen... - No, I'm talking 100%.
0:12:52 > 0:12:55No-one bumped, no-one told to go home and come back again the following day.
0:12:55 > 0:12:58- I think we'd have to look at the stats.- Best guess?
0:12:58 > 0:13:00I'd say that doesn't happen very often.
0:13:00 > 0:13:02Well, guess what?
0:13:02 > 0:13:04It's going to happen today.
0:13:04 > 0:13:06Divide the list in two, take half each.
0:13:06 > 0:13:08Whoever gets all their patients into theatre,
0:13:08 > 0:13:11gets to assist me on a very exciting case.
0:13:11 > 0:13:12What exciting case?
0:13:12 > 0:13:14Whatever case I choose, Dr Copeland,
0:13:14 > 0:13:17will make your heart beat a little faster, I promise you.
0:13:17 > 0:13:20OK, is that best practice? It's just, you know, aren't we in danger
0:13:20 > 0:13:22of treating the patients like statistics rather than, you know,
0:13:22 > 0:13:24- patients?- I'm in charge of the ward today.
0:13:24 > 0:13:27Do you want to impress me or don't you?
0:13:27 > 0:13:29I'll give you three seconds to score a pity win
0:13:29 > 0:13:31before I give in to my base competitiveness.
0:13:31 > 0:13:34- Right, may the best man win. - That'll be me, then.
0:13:35 > 0:13:38Oh, come on, Dr Digby. You're up to the challenge.
0:13:38 > 0:13:41I've absolutely no doubt.
0:13:41 > 0:13:42Shoulders back.
0:13:43 > 0:13:45She's so active.
0:13:46 > 0:13:48Hard to believe there's something wrong with her.
0:13:48 > 0:13:53Foetuses with this condition can behave normally in the womb.
0:13:53 > 0:13:56I just mean, how can she need such complicated surgery?
0:13:56 > 0:13:58Wouldn't it be safer to just wait until after she's born?
0:13:58 > 0:14:02Well, the stress of birth could put more strain on her heart
0:14:02 > 0:14:06so doing surgery now will give her the best possible chance.
0:14:06 > 0:14:08I never see myself as a maternal type.
0:14:08 > 0:14:11Ten whisky cokes and a broken condom later
0:14:11 > 0:14:12and she's all I can think about.
0:14:14 > 0:14:15Your piercings.
0:14:15 > 0:14:17My mum put you up to this?
0:14:17 > 0:14:20She's been begging me to take them out since I was 14.
0:14:20 > 0:14:22Say the word and I'll kick your little girlfriend off the case
0:14:22 > 0:14:24- and let you assist.- What?
0:14:24 > 0:14:26No - that's not what I...
0:14:26 > 0:14:28Why would you even do that?
0:14:28 > 0:14:30I have to watch you making lovey-dovey eyes
0:14:30 > 0:14:33at the spawn of Self day in, day out.
0:14:33 > 0:14:36If you were me, you'd try and rip your happiness to shreds too.
0:14:36 > 0:14:40It's intrauterine surgery. Sure you can't be tempted?
0:14:40 > 0:14:42Well, I couldn't even if I wanted to...
0:14:42 > 0:14:44Meaning?
0:14:44 > 0:14:47Nothing. Forget I said anything, OK?
0:14:47 > 0:14:49It just wouldn't be appropriate.
0:14:50 > 0:14:51Spit it out, Oliver.
0:14:55 > 0:14:58You can't put me on that case because...
0:14:58 > 0:15:00I might be the baby's father.
0:15:02 > 0:15:08How about we bring in identical types of electives on the same day?
0:15:08 > 0:15:11That way, surgeons can streamline operations,
0:15:11 > 0:15:15drastically reducing the risk of post-op complications.
0:15:15 > 0:15:20Sounds like revolutionary talk to me. Does Mr Griffin know about this?
0:15:20 > 0:15:23No, but I'm sure he'll be thrilled to see I've put my stamp on things.
0:15:23 > 0:15:26What do you say? Shall we shake things up a little?
0:15:26 > 0:15:28I'm game if you are.
0:15:28 > 0:15:31By the time Ric gets back, he might not recognise this place.
0:15:31 > 0:15:34Order and discipline - get those two straight,
0:15:34 > 0:15:37everything else falls into place.
0:15:37 > 0:15:39- I'm concerned about Lorna Wallace. - Why?
0:15:40 > 0:15:44Because she seems torn whether she should have this surgery or not.
0:15:44 > 0:15:49Do you mean the surgery she's requested and already consented to?
0:15:49 > 0:15:51- Yes.- She has the BRCA gene.
0:15:51 > 0:15:55Without surgery, she has a 60 to 90% chance of developing cancer.
0:15:55 > 0:15:56Why would she wait?
0:15:56 > 0:15:58Because there are emotional factors to consider.
0:15:58 > 0:16:00Well, she has to keep a steady nerve.
0:16:00 > 0:16:03You're not suggesting we encourage her to wait?
0:16:03 > 0:16:06I'm suggesting that you talk to her.
0:16:06 > 0:16:09If you think she's certain, then that's great,
0:16:09 > 0:16:11but if not, then maybe we should reconsider.
0:16:11 > 0:16:15Lorna Wallace is scheduled for surgery in an hour.
0:16:15 > 0:16:17If you have a problem with that,
0:16:17 > 0:16:19feel free to step away from the case.
0:16:22 > 0:16:24I'm just saying, sticky fingerprints
0:16:24 > 0:16:26over cupboard doors is not a good look.
0:16:26 > 0:16:28What can I say? Kids will be kids. I'll have a word.
0:16:28 > 0:16:31Don't blame the kids for this. It's not them that drinks the milk
0:16:31 > 0:16:33and doesn't put it back in the fridge.
0:16:33 > 0:16:36My mum always said, a mind this sharp shouldn't be wasted with housework.
0:16:36 > 0:16:38Does she say that while she was cleaning up after you?
0:16:38 > 0:16:41I saw your sign. Why don't you take Fletch and I'll keep the kids?
0:16:41 > 0:16:44Yeah, Morven's actually already got her eye on the room.
0:16:44 > 0:16:47I reckon she'd arm-wrestle him for it if she thought he was a threat.
0:16:47 > 0:16:49Well, be careful what you're getting yourself into.
0:16:49 > 0:16:53It's easier to cope with a nightmare flatmate when they don't follow you into work.
0:16:53 > 0:16:54He loves me really.
0:16:56 > 0:16:59Is there anyone you'd like me to call?
0:16:59 > 0:17:01Husband? Boyfriend?
0:17:03 > 0:17:04You mean the dad?
0:17:07 > 0:17:10He's not on the scene. Never really was, actually.
0:17:12 > 0:17:15One-night stands are all fun and games until they're not, right?
0:17:15 > 0:17:17Oh, dear. It's awkward, isn't it?
0:17:17 > 0:17:19Do you mind? I'm busy.
0:17:19 > 0:17:22I bet. Girlfriend and dirty little secret on the same ward.
0:17:22 > 0:17:24Not to mention potential father-in-law.
0:17:24 > 0:17:25That'll keep you busy.
0:17:25 > 0:17:28- You're enjoying this, aren't you? - Yes.
0:17:28 > 0:17:29Just get it sorted.
0:17:30 > 0:17:31Yes, thank you.
0:17:33 > 0:17:35It's a fairly simple break,
0:17:35 > 0:17:38but a bit of expert plastering and we should get Reba home in no time.
0:17:38 > 0:17:42Morven, actually, I've been thinking about our whole moving in
0:17:42 > 0:17:44situation and, erm...
0:17:44 > 0:17:46do you not think it might be a bit much?
0:17:46 > 0:17:49Living and working together?
0:17:49 > 0:17:52Maybe you should just keep looking?
0:17:52 > 0:17:55I'm sure you'll find somebody you'd much rather live with than me.
0:17:55 > 0:17:59Yeah, sure. I mean, it was just an idea anyway.
0:17:59 > 0:18:01Reba, erm...
0:18:03 > 0:18:04Good news.
0:18:04 > 0:18:08We'll get that arm X-rayed and then you can be on your way...
0:18:08 > 0:18:09Oh...
0:18:09 > 0:18:10..home.
0:18:19 > 0:18:20Is it over?
0:18:21 > 0:18:23Absolutely.
0:18:23 > 0:18:27And it went very well and you'll be back on your feet in no time.
0:18:29 > 0:18:31They feel...
0:18:31 > 0:18:32different.
0:18:32 > 0:18:35Well, there's going to be some swelling for a time and obviously,
0:18:35 > 0:18:38reconstruction means we can't... LORNA CRIES
0:18:43 > 0:18:47Preventative surgery beats chemotherapy any day, believe me.
0:18:47 > 0:18:48I wasn't ready.
0:18:49 > 0:18:52Well, as I say, the surgery went very well and...
0:18:52 > 0:18:56Oh, Lorna, this is Mr Rhodes from Gynaecology.
0:18:56 > 0:18:59You think it's that simple, don't you?
0:18:59 > 0:19:03You didn't even check if I was sure, you just went ahead without even...
0:19:06 > 0:19:08I think it might be better if you came back later.
0:19:08 > 0:19:10I wanted to talk things through.
0:19:10 > 0:19:12Talk about how I was feeling
0:19:12 > 0:19:14and instead you talked at me,
0:19:14 > 0:19:16like this was just another procedure,
0:19:16 > 0:19:18like it wasn't happening to a real person.
0:19:18 > 0:19:22I am genuinely sorry if you feel that way.
0:19:22 > 0:19:24Everything all right over here?
0:19:24 > 0:19:26Yes.
0:19:26 > 0:19:29Yes, I think Miss Wallace has a few questions.
0:19:29 > 0:19:31Perhaps you could deal with them?
0:19:31 > 0:19:33Yes...
0:19:41 > 0:19:43Surprise.
0:19:43 > 0:19:45How did you know I was here?
0:19:46 > 0:19:48We didn't even exchange numbers, how did you..?
0:19:48 > 0:19:50I didn't. I work here.
0:19:51 > 0:19:54I probably didn't mention I was a doctor, did I?
0:20:00 > 0:20:01What a mess.
0:20:02 > 0:20:05Yep, tell me about it.
0:20:05 > 0:20:07I've had six months to get my headgear round it
0:20:07 > 0:20:09and I'm still nowhere near.
0:20:09 > 0:20:11So, it definitely...
0:20:13 > 0:20:17If you hadn't walked in, I wouldn't have tried tracking you down.
0:20:18 > 0:20:21It's my decision to keep the baby.
0:20:21 > 0:20:23And, no, I'm not after a payday.
0:20:23 > 0:20:27Yes, that's not top of my worry list, funnily enough. Look...
0:20:27 > 0:20:29Ah, this is a strange one.
0:20:29 > 0:20:34I'm sorry to ask. Would you mind keeping this between us?
0:20:35 > 0:20:37You are so busted.
0:20:37 > 0:20:39Do not be charmed by this man.
0:20:39 > 0:20:43I'm assisting Jac on this today. We don't need any more help, thank you.
0:20:43 > 0:20:45Yes, I was just leaving.
0:20:45 > 0:20:48Wow. You doctors get pretty territorial over your patients.
0:20:48 > 0:20:51I'm just kidding around. What's the point in working with your boyfriend
0:20:51 > 0:20:53if you can't pull his leg every now and again?
0:20:55 > 0:20:58There you are. Thank you very much.
0:20:58 > 0:21:01Right Mr Spade's appendicectomy is done,
0:21:01 > 0:21:04he is out of anaesthetics and resting in discharged
0:21:04 > 0:21:08so I believe that makes it all even.
0:21:08 > 0:21:09OK, this isn't entirely fair.
0:21:09 > 0:21:12So, two of my patients have had complications while you have been
0:21:12 > 0:21:14purposefully stealing the simpler cases all morning.
0:21:14 > 0:21:17I'm insulted that you'd think I'd do that.
0:21:20 > 0:21:22Expedience and efficiency.
0:21:22 > 0:21:24Dig deep - you've got what it takes.
0:21:26 > 0:21:27- Quite the pep talk.- Hmm?
0:21:29 > 0:21:31Softly-softly might work for you and Ric
0:21:31 > 0:21:35and a lot of the others around here but it's just not me, I'm afraid.
0:21:35 > 0:21:38It's gone beyond a stylistic difference, I'm afraid.
0:21:38 > 0:21:41She's alleging that you pushed her into consenting for the surgery
0:21:41 > 0:21:43and she's made an official complaint.
0:21:48 > 0:21:50Can anyone tell me why there's no rubber band
0:21:50 > 0:21:52holding these files together as usual?
0:21:52 > 0:21:55We think our patient might be eating them.
0:21:55 > 0:21:57All right, Mr Judgey.
0:21:57 > 0:22:00It's not that uncommon in patients with pica, actually.
0:22:00 > 0:22:02Oh, pica?
0:22:02 > 0:22:04Nah, you're going to have to refresh my memory on that one.
0:22:04 > 0:22:07Basically, it's an uncontrollable desire to eat items
0:22:07 > 0:22:09of no nutritional value.
0:22:09 > 0:22:11In fact, elastic bands are one of the less weird things
0:22:11 > 0:22:13sufferers have been known to scoff.
0:22:13 > 0:22:15OK.
0:22:15 > 0:22:18Just make sure that all Holby property is back
0:22:18 > 0:22:20before it goes through her digestive system, OK?
0:22:20 > 0:22:23Patients with pica can be pretty sensitive.
0:22:23 > 0:22:25Tread carefully - make sure you've got all your facts
0:22:25 > 0:22:28straight before you go accusing her of anything.
0:22:28 > 0:22:32Looks like we're going to have to keep a close eye on her.
0:22:32 > 0:22:34Fancy playing Secret Squirrel?
0:22:34 > 0:22:35Sure.
0:22:37 > 0:22:40This is a bit awkward as I don't want to raise a touchy subject...
0:22:40 > 0:22:42I feel a but coming on.
0:22:43 > 0:22:46Ideally, we'd like to do some genetic testing
0:22:46 > 0:22:49to see why the baby's left ventricle has been narrowed.
0:22:49 > 0:22:51Do you need my permission or...?
0:22:51 > 0:22:55Well, for accurate results we'd need to test the blood of both parents.
0:22:55 > 0:22:57You and the father.
0:22:59 > 0:23:01Ah.
0:23:01 > 0:23:03Yeah. See? I told you it'd be awkward.
0:23:05 > 0:23:07Actually, it's not.
0:23:07 > 0:23:08Not any more.
0:23:08 > 0:23:12I've, erm...just found out the dad works at this hospital, so...
0:23:22 > 0:23:27I in no way forced or cajoled or did anything of the sort.
0:23:27 > 0:23:29The surgery was elective, for heaven's sake!
0:23:29 > 0:23:32It's the only reason she's here.
0:23:32 > 0:23:34I can vouch for Ms Wolfe.
0:23:34 > 0:23:37There was no undue pressure, not so far as I can see.
0:23:37 > 0:23:41And yet the patient seems to think differently.
0:23:41 > 0:23:43It is true, I did get the impression that Miss Wallace
0:23:43 > 0:23:46was having doubts about the surgery.
0:23:47 > 0:23:50I suggested that we talked to her a bit more and...
0:23:52 > 0:23:55And I didn't see the need. I had a patient in need of surgery,
0:23:55 > 0:23:59a signed consent form in my hand. It's my job is to fix people, yes?
0:24:00 > 0:24:04Should this go any further I may need to speak to you again.
0:24:08 > 0:24:11Just because there seems to be little basis for a formal complaint,
0:24:11 > 0:24:14doesn't mean you've no case to answer.
0:24:16 > 0:24:17I don't follow.
0:24:18 > 0:24:21Keller is a unique animal.
0:24:21 > 0:24:23It doesn't suit everyone.
0:24:23 > 0:24:27It might be that your talents would be better placed elsewhere.
0:24:27 > 0:24:30Are you saying I might be of more use on AAU?
0:24:38 > 0:24:42I know Holby might not seem
0:24:42 > 0:24:45like a natural fit for me,
0:24:45 > 0:24:46but this is where I want to be.
0:24:48 > 0:24:50By all means, prove this is where you belong.
0:24:50 > 0:24:51If you can.
0:24:59 > 0:25:00Zosia.
0:25:00 > 0:25:02If it makes any difference,
0:25:02 > 0:25:04I didn't see this coming any more than you did.
0:25:04 > 0:25:06When did it happen?
0:25:06 > 0:25:07Well, months ago, obviously.
0:25:08 > 0:25:10Before we were together.
0:25:10 > 0:25:13It's stupid. I don't know the last time I did something like this -
0:25:13 > 0:25:15go out and...
0:25:15 > 0:25:17If I'd known it was going to come back and bite me like this,
0:25:17 > 0:25:20- I'd have thought twice. - What 'it' are you talking about?
0:25:20 > 0:25:22The woman you slept with or the baby you've created?
0:25:22 > 0:25:25Don't make this about me treating women badly because I don't
0:25:25 > 0:25:27- and you know that.- I know that whatever way you cut this,
0:25:27 > 0:25:31you don't come out smelling of roses, Ollie.
0:25:31 > 0:25:33What are you going to do?
0:25:33 > 0:25:35I don't know. Beg, if I have to. What do you need me to do?
0:25:35 > 0:25:39Not about me. About Melissa, about your baby.
0:25:40 > 0:25:41Well, I mean...
0:25:42 > 0:25:45If you dare tell me you haven't thought about that...
0:25:45 > 0:25:47Be fair, I've only had this dropped on me in the last five minutes.
0:25:47 > 0:25:49How much thought could I have given?
0:25:49 > 0:25:52In a few hours, Jac and I are going to take Melissa, your...
0:25:52 > 0:25:54the mother of your child into theatre.
0:25:54 > 0:25:55Your baby's going to have surgery today.
0:25:55 > 0:25:57Does that mean anything to you?
0:25:57 > 0:26:00- Honestly?- Yes, please.- OK.
0:26:00 > 0:26:02Melissa is a woman I don't know.
0:26:02 > 0:26:03- Her baby...- Your baby.
0:26:03 > 0:26:05Our baby is...
0:26:07 > 0:26:09..a concept I've never even considered.
0:26:09 > 0:26:11A concept.
0:26:11 > 0:26:13- Really?- Honestly, the only thing that matters to me
0:26:13 > 0:26:16right now is that I'm standing here with the woman I love.
0:26:16 > 0:26:18I'm standing here and I can see, if you're hurt,
0:26:18 > 0:26:20you've got every right to be, but I just want things to be right
0:26:20 > 0:26:22between us, Zosia, please.
0:26:24 > 0:26:28Look, I know that you weren't expecting this, but it's happened.
0:26:29 > 0:26:31The Ollie I knew wouldn't be down here.
0:26:31 > 0:26:33He'd be up there taking responsibility.
0:26:33 > 0:26:37Now, until you make that right, what hope is there for us?
0:26:42 > 0:26:45Ms Wallace. Hi. Remember me?
0:26:45 > 0:26:47I did what you and your sister requested.
0:26:47 > 0:26:49I know you think it was the right thing to do,
0:26:49 > 0:26:52so why do I find myself the subject of a complaint?
0:26:52 > 0:26:55Lorna's... Well, she's young, she's upset.
0:26:55 > 0:26:58- I'll make sure this doesn't go too far.- It's already gone too far.
0:26:58 > 0:27:00I'm under scrutiny and my job is on the line.
0:27:00 > 0:27:03But Mr Hanssen said he didn't believe there'd been any wrongdoing.
0:27:03 > 0:27:06A complaint has been made and it has to be investigated.
0:27:08 > 0:27:10Could you at least talk to Lorna?
0:27:10 > 0:27:12Get her to withdraw the complaint?
0:27:12 > 0:27:16So you don't think you're in the wrong even a tiny bit?
0:27:16 > 0:27:19It would have only taken five minutes of your time
0:27:19 > 0:27:23to make her feel better and none of this would have happened.
0:27:23 > 0:27:26She knows the mastectomy was the right thing to do, deep down,
0:27:26 > 0:27:28- she just... - SHE GROANS IN PAIN
0:27:28 > 0:27:31She just needed some reassurance that everything was going to be
0:27:31 > 0:27:34all right. That you weren't going to rush into a...
0:27:34 > 0:27:35Ms Wallace?
0:27:35 > 0:27:37..into a hysterectomy.
0:27:37 > 0:27:38Where's the pain?
0:27:38 > 0:27:41It's just a twinge. Period pain.
0:27:41 > 0:27:42No, I really don't think it is.
0:27:44 > 0:27:47So, it's not a payday that you're after but you're trying
0:27:47 > 0:27:49to ruin my life in any other way that you can, is that it?
0:27:49 > 0:27:51No, of course not.
0:27:51 > 0:27:53It just came out.
0:27:53 > 0:27:55She was talking about doing genetic tests on my baby.
0:27:55 > 0:27:57I'm about to go into theatre.
0:27:57 > 0:28:00This is just a little bit stressful in case you can't work that...
0:28:00 > 0:28:02What is it? What's happening?
0:28:03 > 0:28:05Jac, some help, please.
0:28:05 > 0:28:10I don't care what you're doing - put it down and come with me.
0:28:10 > 0:28:13Do you think she's on the phone to her rubber band dealer?
0:28:13 > 0:28:16Sorry. That was a bad joke.
0:28:16 > 0:28:17Um, this is kind of awkward but...
0:28:17 > 0:28:20I sort of have somewhere to be.
0:28:20 > 0:28:22The flatmate interviews?
0:28:22 > 0:28:23Go.
0:28:23 > 0:28:26I'll keep a close eye on her and report back.
0:28:26 > 0:28:28Nothing gets past me.
0:28:35 > 0:28:38This isn't the first time you've had symptoms.
0:28:38 > 0:28:40And we're not talking twinges, either.
0:28:40 > 0:28:44There was some pain. A bit of bloating, maybe.
0:28:44 > 0:28:47My sister's just had a bilateral mastectomy,
0:28:47 > 0:28:50what's a bit of discomfort compared to that?
0:28:50 > 0:28:53It could be a bowel obstruction but I'd like to get an abdominal
0:28:53 > 0:28:56and pelvis CT to be sure. Get a proper look at the area.
0:28:56 > 0:28:57Is that really necessary?
0:28:57 > 0:29:01See when they can squeeze us in, and sooner rather than later.
0:29:01 > 0:29:04- OK.- If it's a bowel obstruction...
0:29:04 > 0:29:06We'll treat it as conservatively as possible
0:29:06 > 0:29:09but if things are advanced, you might need surgery.
0:29:09 > 0:29:11And if it's something else?
0:29:11 > 0:29:13Highly unlikely.
0:29:14 > 0:29:17It could have been a loose wire or the baby could have moved
0:29:17 > 0:29:20and muffled the heartbeat for a while.
0:29:20 > 0:29:21I really thought...
0:29:22 > 0:29:24I thought our baby was going to...
0:29:26 > 0:29:27"Our" baby?
0:29:27 > 0:29:30We'll be back to take you to theatre when we can.
0:29:33 > 0:29:35Sorry, didn't mean to...
0:29:36 > 0:29:39- It's just the shock, you know. - Course.
0:29:39 > 0:29:40Should be me apologising to you.
0:29:40 > 0:29:43I had no right to kick off at you like that.
0:29:45 > 0:29:46I've got a big mouth.
0:29:51 > 0:29:53Well, today's been a shock.
0:29:54 > 0:29:56A big one, if I'm honest.
0:29:57 > 0:30:01But I am here for you - whatever you need.
0:30:04 > 0:30:05And the little one, too.
0:30:06 > 0:30:10I thought I was so unlucky to get pregnant.
0:30:10 > 0:30:11But of all the blokes I've ever met,
0:30:11 > 0:30:14for it to end up happening with you...
0:30:14 > 0:30:17That's not so unlucky after all, is it?
0:30:21 > 0:30:22Look, I'll be back, OK?
0:30:24 > 0:30:25Just hang tight.
0:30:26 > 0:30:28You're at least talking to the mother of your child, I see?
0:30:28 > 0:30:31I said I'd be there for whatever either of them need.
0:30:31 > 0:30:34That's what you wanted from me, isn't it?
0:30:38 > 0:30:41Did I not mention the bit where I've got a really busy ward to run?
0:30:41 > 0:30:44I know but can you just wait with me until he turns up.
0:30:44 > 0:30:45Look I've never lived with a fella before.
0:30:45 > 0:30:47What if he's an axe-murderer?
0:30:47 > 0:30:50Good point. I'll wait till your mystery man arrives.
0:30:50 > 0:30:53But do you know what, for my money, you're better off
0:30:53 > 0:30:55getting a flatmate that you already know.
0:30:55 > 0:30:57Has Morven got to you?
0:30:57 > 0:31:00She might have had a word a little word in my shell, like.
0:31:00 > 0:31:02Look, I love Morven to death but something tells me
0:31:02 > 0:31:04we're better off as colleagues than living together.
0:31:04 > 0:31:06And my instincts tell me
0:31:06 > 0:31:09this guy is going to be the perfect flatmate.
0:31:13 > 0:31:14Yeah, your instincts suck.
0:31:17 > 0:31:19It's not a bowel obstruction, then?
0:31:19 > 0:31:21No, it is,
0:31:21 > 0:31:26but the obstruction's being caused by a nasty ovarian mass.
0:31:26 > 0:31:28It could be benign.
0:31:28 > 0:31:31I mean, she did test negative for the BRCA1 gene.
0:31:31 > 0:31:34Let's get a TV ultrasound as quickly as possible.
0:31:40 > 0:31:43I had some really important files, I put them down
0:31:43 > 0:31:46and now they're missing. They must have slipped down or something.
0:31:46 > 0:31:48Sorry, Adele, not now.
0:31:48 > 0:31:51Mr Self needs them, he trusted me.
0:31:58 > 0:32:00OK, this is as far as I go, I'm afraid.
0:32:01 > 0:32:05Will you wait for me outside? Just in case?
0:32:05 > 0:32:07Of course, yes. Whatever you need.
0:32:09 > 0:32:10OK, thank you.
0:32:12 > 0:32:13Zosia.
0:32:18 > 0:32:22I'm afraid your scans have shown that your bowel obstruction
0:32:22 > 0:32:25is being caused by an ovarian mass
0:32:25 > 0:32:28which is highly likely to be malignant.
0:32:29 > 0:32:31If biopsies prove this to be the case,
0:32:31 > 0:32:35my recommended treatment would be an ovariectomy
0:32:35 > 0:32:39and a radical hysterectomy to clear everything out.
0:32:40 > 0:32:41Sorry - what?
0:32:43 > 0:32:46The scans have suggested that the mass...
0:32:46 > 0:32:49You're saying that it's ovarian cancer?
0:32:50 > 0:32:53- You're saying I have what Mum had? - Janet...
0:32:54 > 0:32:57Janet, it's too early to say for sure.
0:32:57 > 0:32:59What are you doing in bed?
0:32:59 > 0:33:01What's happened?
0:33:03 > 0:33:05What's wrong with her?
0:33:07 > 0:33:09Ovarian cancer.
0:33:09 > 0:33:11No, we can't be certain. Not yet.
0:33:14 > 0:33:16But I don't understand.
0:33:16 > 0:33:20The genetic tests... You were clear.
0:33:20 > 0:33:23Just because someone doesn't carry the BRCA1 gene,
0:33:23 > 0:33:26doesn't mean that they're immune from disease.
0:33:26 > 0:33:28Well, that's ridiculous.
0:33:28 > 0:33:31Our family history, what happened to Mum...
0:33:31 > 0:33:34and you're saying this is a coincidence?
0:33:34 > 0:33:35I am sorry.
0:33:37 > 0:33:41I know you need more time to process this, but time isn't on our side.
0:33:42 > 0:33:46Write it down. Write everything down if it helps.
0:33:48 > 0:33:49But don't wait.
0:33:52 > 0:33:55I need to make some calls.
0:33:56 > 0:33:58I'm sorry...
0:33:59 > 0:34:02..about what I did - the complaint.
0:34:04 > 0:34:06You didn't deserve that.
0:34:06 > 0:34:08No, I didn't.
0:34:08 > 0:34:10But it's Mr Hanssen who needs convincing.
0:34:18 > 0:34:19Guide wire.
0:34:26 > 0:34:28Foetal distress.
0:34:28 > 0:34:29Is there a bleed?
0:34:33 > 0:34:35I should call Ollie.
0:34:35 > 0:34:36That's not necessary.
0:34:38 > 0:34:40Ms Naylor...
0:34:43 > 0:34:44Fine.
0:34:48 > 0:34:49Busted again.
0:34:49 > 0:34:51Don't worry, I can keep a secret.
0:34:51 > 0:34:53Mind if I join you?
0:34:54 > 0:34:57I'm guessing you've had one of those days, too?
0:35:00 > 0:35:01Do you have a family?
0:35:02 > 0:35:05Er, well, if you count a grown-up daughter who only ever rings
0:35:05 > 0:35:09when she wants something, an unfortunate ex-husband
0:35:09 > 0:35:12and a lovely but rather challenging nephew,
0:35:12 > 0:35:14then, yes, I have a family.
0:35:15 > 0:35:17I took this job to save my marriage.
0:35:19 > 0:35:24Well, at least try to do the whole work/life balance thing.
0:35:24 > 0:35:27Why not take the easy road and try curing cancer?
0:35:27 > 0:35:28But I need to make a go of it.
0:35:30 > 0:35:32I have to make a go of it, otherwise...
0:35:32 > 0:35:36Otherwise everything will fall apart and it'll all be your fault?
0:35:38 > 0:35:41Yeah, something like that.
0:35:41 > 0:35:43It's silly to keep meeting up like this.
0:35:43 > 0:35:45Next time you need a caffeine shot
0:35:45 > 0:35:47and a chat, you should just call me.
0:35:49 > 0:35:52Sorry to interrupt - you're wanted back on the ward.
0:35:52 > 0:35:54Janet Wallace is refusing treatment.
0:35:59 > 0:36:02So, why did this woman say she had to meet you outside?
0:36:02 > 0:36:05Something about how going into cafes can be a hassle.
0:36:05 > 0:36:07OK, well, I don't know what help I'll be,
0:36:07 > 0:36:09considering I've lumbered myself with Fletch -
0:36:09 > 0:36:11slob champion of the world.
0:36:16 > 0:36:18Run. Run for your life.
0:36:20 > 0:36:23Right, Janet, you have my attention.
0:36:23 > 0:36:25This isn't about you, believe it or not.
0:36:26 > 0:36:29No surgery. No chemo.
0:36:29 > 0:36:31Not for at least a year.
0:36:31 > 0:36:33By leaving your cancer untreated for a month
0:36:33 > 0:36:37you'd be taking a hell of a gamble, but a year?
0:36:37 > 0:36:41If you're going to take my womb and render me infertile,
0:36:41 > 0:36:42a year's what I need.
0:36:44 > 0:36:46You want to have a baby.
0:36:48 > 0:36:49It's my last chance.
0:36:50 > 0:36:52I've been planning on having IVF for years.
0:36:52 > 0:36:54I've only just saved up enough money.
0:36:54 > 0:36:57Janet, just because you tested negative for the faulty gene...
0:36:57 > 0:37:00I didn't test negative because I didn't take the test.
0:37:00 > 0:37:04I knew Lorna wouldn't have it unless I said I had too, so I lied.
0:37:06 > 0:37:09I couldn't have lived with her risking her health.
0:37:09 > 0:37:12Oh, but it's OK for you to risk yours?
0:37:12 > 0:37:15Having a child means everything to me.
0:37:15 > 0:37:16I won't give it up.
0:37:18 > 0:37:20You can't have a child if you have ovarian cancer.
0:37:20 > 0:37:23We wouldn't even be able to harvest your eggs -
0:37:23 > 0:37:25the hormones would only serve to stimulate your tumour.
0:37:25 > 0:37:27In your opinion.
0:37:27 > 0:37:28No, I'm afraid that's a fact.
0:37:28 > 0:37:31Any other doctor whose opinion you ask
0:37:31 > 0:37:32will tell you exactly the same thing.
0:37:33 > 0:37:36I've told you my decision.
0:37:36 > 0:37:40Now, do whatever you have to do to make me stable enough to discharge,
0:37:40 > 0:37:42but you won't cut me open.
0:37:42 > 0:37:44Not today.
0:37:46 > 0:37:47Where are we up to?
0:37:48 > 0:37:51Well, we need suction to remove the blood from around the baby's pericardium.
0:37:51 > 0:37:54And quiet, please, if you don't mind.
0:38:10 > 0:38:11Stabilising.
0:38:16 > 0:38:19A few more tests and we should be good to go.
0:38:19 > 0:38:21OK, let's get you into theatre, ASAP.
0:38:27 > 0:38:31I had Janet down as controlling and annoying, not suicidal.
0:38:31 > 0:38:35Sorry, that wasn't very Keller of me, was it?
0:38:35 > 0:38:36Well, let's not forget,
0:38:36 > 0:38:40- I didn't have much more luck with her than you did.- Still...
0:38:40 > 0:38:43I know you probably all think I've come in here like some bossy
0:38:43 > 0:38:46sergeant major with no interest in fitting in...
0:38:46 > 0:38:48No-one's thinking that.
0:38:49 > 0:38:52Well, not many people are thinking that.
0:38:52 > 0:38:54I need to earn my stripes.
0:38:54 > 0:38:56Your clinical skills are second to none.
0:38:56 > 0:38:59But my bedside manner leaves a lot to be desired, right?
0:39:02 > 0:39:04The thing is, in my previous job,
0:39:04 > 0:39:06there weren't many bedsides to worry about.
0:39:08 > 0:39:10But this is a horse of a different colour, isn't it?
0:39:10 > 0:39:13It's definitely a different horse, yes.
0:39:14 > 0:39:16Help me.
0:39:23 > 0:39:24Thanks for that.
0:39:25 > 0:39:29Getting Jac to bring me into theatre.
0:39:29 > 0:39:31I can imagine she wasn't best pleased.
0:39:32 > 0:39:35Well, it felt like the right thing to do at the time.
0:39:42 > 0:39:44It's starting to feel real now, isn't it?
0:39:46 > 0:39:49Seeing the baby on the ultrasound, hearing the heartbeat...
0:39:51 > 0:39:54Some things are old cliches for a reason, I guess.
0:39:59 > 0:40:02I hope you don't think that this means that we...
0:40:02 > 0:40:05You don't have a clue what this means for either of us, Ollie.
0:40:05 > 0:40:06And neither do I.
0:40:09 > 0:40:11Just focus on what's important now.
0:40:29 > 0:40:30Any action?
0:40:30 > 0:40:33The only thing that's passed her lips are crisps from the vending machine.
0:40:33 > 0:40:35How are the flatmate interviews?
0:40:35 > 0:40:37Oh, er, you know.
0:40:48 > 0:40:49Reba?
0:40:49 > 0:40:51What did you ask the boys to do?
0:40:51 > 0:40:52Well, I set them a challenge.
0:40:52 > 0:40:55Clear every patient off the list and they win a prize.
0:40:55 > 0:40:57And that was designed to encourage what?
0:40:57 > 0:40:58Efficiency and focus, obviously.
0:40:58 > 0:41:01- Which is why I had to follow up with Mr Brandon.- What?
0:41:01 > 0:41:04He came in with an infected ingrown toenail
0:41:04 > 0:41:06but Dominic rushed through the pre-op checks so quickly
0:41:06 > 0:41:09that he was worried he might have to amputate.
0:41:09 > 0:41:12You know, Arthur's doing a lot better.
0:41:12 > 0:41:15Yes, he's lagging quite far behind in the competition, I believe.
0:41:15 > 0:41:19Here, we're not heroes who swoop in on the worst day of a person's life.
0:41:19 > 0:41:24Often, we see patients who've lived with their conditions for years.
0:41:24 > 0:41:28Treating them is like a conversation -
0:41:28 > 0:41:31us and them, working together.
0:41:31 > 0:41:33That way, we make sure they don't have to live
0:41:33 > 0:41:35with their conditions for a day longer than necessary
0:41:35 > 0:41:38and they feel like they've been listened to.
0:41:42 > 0:41:44Yes.
0:41:44 > 0:41:46SHE SIGHS I get it.
0:41:49 > 0:41:53I won't get Janet Wallace to listen to me...
0:41:54 > 0:41:57..if I only engage with her cancer.
0:42:03 > 0:42:05What's wrong? Is it the..?
0:42:05 > 0:42:07The baby's fine.
0:42:07 > 0:42:09The operation was a success.
0:42:09 > 0:42:13There's every chance that she'll make it to full term.
0:42:16 > 0:42:17Why do you sound angry?
0:42:19 > 0:42:20Oh, I don't know.
0:42:20 > 0:42:23Perhaps because, as I'm sure you're aware,
0:42:23 > 0:42:27there's no way that I can be that baby's father.
0:42:27 > 0:42:30You're wrong. She's yours. I know she is.
0:42:32 > 0:42:34OK.
0:42:34 > 0:42:36You're 26 weeks pregnant.
0:42:37 > 0:42:39The dates don't add up.
0:42:39 > 0:42:41By a few weeks.
0:42:42 > 0:42:44These things are out all the time.
0:42:44 > 0:42:45Yes, but a blood test isn't.
0:42:45 > 0:42:48You and I - we're both blood group A. The baby is a B.
0:42:48 > 0:42:51There is no chance that we could both be the parents.
0:42:57 > 0:42:59Do you have any idea what you've put me through today?
0:42:59 > 0:43:02Not to mention the people that I care about.
0:43:03 > 0:43:05And for what?
0:43:05 > 0:43:08Explain to me why you couldn't just tell the truth.
0:43:08 > 0:43:10Because I wanted it to be true.
0:43:11 > 0:43:12Look at me.
0:43:14 > 0:43:16How many doctors do you think I meet in bars?
0:43:16 > 0:43:18Ah, so it was just a payday.
0:43:18 > 0:43:19No!
0:43:21 > 0:43:24I wanted a father for this baby.
0:43:24 > 0:43:28A good father - someone who would love her, be there for her,
0:43:28 > 0:43:30help give her a good life.
0:43:31 > 0:43:33When you showed up, I just thought...
0:43:36 > 0:43:37..why not?
0:43:39 > 0:43:43When I told the real dad, do you know what he did?
0:43:43 > 0:43:44He laughed.
0:43:46 > 0:43:49He laughed and then he put the phone down on me.
0:43:51 > 0:43:53Please don't hate me.
0:43:56 > 0:43:59You can't just kidnap me and push me off somewhere like some prisoner.
0:43:59 > 0:44:03Actually, I'm a pretty big deal around here, I'm almost sure I could do anything I like.
0:44:03 > 0:44:04- Take me back.- Not going to happen.
0:44:04 > 0:44:07If you think this is going to make me change my mind about the
0:44:07 > 0:44:10treatment, then you really don't know who you're dealing with.
0:44:10 > 0:44:12How many times do I have to say it?
0:44:12 > 0:44:16- I am not having... - Mr Rhodes is a fertility specialist.
0:44:16 > 0:44:19There is a possibility that we could try to preserve your uterus
0:44:19 > 0:44:20and that might give us some options.
0:44:20 > 0:44:22Egg donation, for example.
0:44:24 > 0:44:27I thought we might get further
0:44:27 > 0:44:30if we started trying to work together to fix this.
0:44:30 > 0:44:33Just no more talk of delaying treatment for a year.
0:44:34 > 0:44:38It's pretty hard to be a mum if you're not around any more.
0:44:39 > 0:44:40Thank you.
0:44:49 > 0:44:51Melissa lied.
0:44:53 > 0:44:54I'm not the father.
0:45:03 > 0:45:05Are you sure?
0:45:05 > 0:45:06It's over.
0:45:09 > 0:45:15I just want to curl up in a ball and wish today had never happened.
0:45:15 > 0:45:17Why aren't you shouting this from the rooftops?
0:45:17 > 0:45:18Isn't this what you wanted?
0:45:22 > 0:45:24Are you disappointed?
0:45:26 > 0:45:28There's not one word to describe how I'm feeling.
0:45:30 > 0:45:33This woman walks into our lives, almost derails them...
0:45:33 > 0:45:35Actually, it was my life she walked into.
0:45:35 > 0:45:37You made it very clear from the beginning
0:45:37 > 0:45:38that you weren't on my side.
0:45:38 > 0:45:41- I just wanted you to be the best that you could be.- I know.
0:45:41 > 0:45:45You just couldn't trust me to work out what that would be
0:45:45 > 0:45:46by myself.
0:45:55 > 0:45:56Talk to you later, OK?
0:46:04 > 0:46:05What is it?
0:46:10 > 0:46:12Do you want me to be there when you tell her?
0:46:12 > 0:46:14No.
0:46:14 > 0:46:16No, she needs to hear this from me.
0:46:21 > 0:46:23Can you see where the rubber has bound together
0:46:23 > 0:46:25and lodged in the stomach?
0:46:25 > 0:46:27How could I be so stupid?
0:46:27 > 0:46:29It's not stupid, it's a condition.
0:46:31 > 0:46:35The paper I work for has offered me other jobs, better jobs.
0:46:35 > 0:46:38Non-horoscope-based jobs?
0:46:38 > 0:46:40But that would have meant having to go into an office,
0:46:40 > 0:46:42surrounded by rubber bands all day.
0:46:44 > 0:46:46It really is like an addiction.
0:46:46 > 0:46:51Actually, although pica is an OCD condition,
0:46:51 > 0:46:54it has been linked to mineral deficiencies.
0:46:54 > 0:46:57It could be that something as simple as an iron supplement
0:46:57 > 0:46:59can reduce your urges.
0:46:59 > 0:47:04You mean, I'd stop wanting to eat rubber bands?
0:47:04 > 0:47:06I wouldn't have to hide this from people any more?
0:47:06 > 0:47:09I've had this since I was a child.
0:47:09 > 0:47:14Not being able to tell people, it's been lonely.
0:47:14 > 0:47:15You'd still need surgery.
0:47:15 > 0:47:17But I'm not mad.
0:47:17 > 0:47:20I can go out into the world and meet people. Men, even!
0:47:22 > 0:47:25Is she always ten steps ahead of everyone else?
0:47:25 > 0:47:27Yeah. It's a genius thing.
0:47:33 > 0:47:35I'm afraid I have to cut this discussion short.
0:47:42 > 0:47:45When we did the ultrasound of the ovarian mass,
0:47:45 > 0:47:50we also looked at your womb, womb lining and peritoneum.
0:47:50 > 0:47:55I'm sorry to say that the cancer is more advanced than we'd hoped.
0:48:00 > 0:48:02No, but...
0:48:02 > 0:48:08Preserving your uterus simply isn't going to be possible.
0:48:09 > 0:48:12We have to take everything and we have to do it now.
0:48:34 > 0:48:35Call him back.
0:48:37 > 0:48:39The baby's father.
0:48:39 > 0:48:41I know he behaved terribly
0:48:41 > 0:48:43and he doesn't get to make excuses for that...
0:48:52 > 0:48:54Look, I don't know who this guy is or what he's about.
0:48:54 > 0:48:57Maybe he'll never feel differently about the baby
0:48:57 > 0:49:01but I do know, it only took me half a day to start to feel
0:49:01 > 0:49:05that I could maybe, possibly be a dad.
0:49:08 > 0:49:11Give him another chance.
0:49:11 > 0:49:12He might surprise you.
0:49:22 > 0:49:25It's awful - doing one of these on someone so young.
0:49:28 > 0:49:31I bet you wish you were still off dealing with trauma patients somewhere.
0:49:33 > 0:49:34This is trauma.
0:49:36 > 0:49:38Make sure Mr Abbott's case is included in the study
0:49:38 > 0:49:40for the investors.
0:49:40 > 0:49:42Yeah, about that. Erm...
0:49:42 > 0:49:44Oh, don't worry, you've got plenty of time.
0:49:44 > 0:49:47The thing is, there might be a few case studies missing.
0:49:49 > 0:49:51Erm, there was an emergency
0:49:51 > 0:49:55and I must have put the files down and they've gone walkabout, somehow.
0:49:55 > 0:49:57Walkabout?
0:49:57 > 0:49:59Yeah. Look, I'm really sorry, Mr Self.
0:49:59 > 0:50:02Do you imagine for one moment that you were the only candidate
0:50:02 > 0:50:04for this job, or even the best?
0:50:04 > 0:50:05- I...- No.
0:50:05 > 0:50:08There are 100 nurses smarter and better qualified,
0:50:08 > 0:50:09but I chose you.
0:50:09 > 0:50:12Yeah, and I'm very grateful, you know that.
0:50:12 > 0:50:14And yet, here you are, not only doing a poor job
0:50:14 > 0:50:17but actively sabotaging me with your incompetence.
0:50:17 > 0:50:19Get back to changing bedpans.
0:50:19 > 0:50:20Maybe I should be reassessing
0:50:20 > 0:50:23whether you're fit to work on Neuro at all.
0:50:25 > 0:50:26I don't understand.
0:50:26 > 0:50:30Why didn't she tell me about not being tested?
0:50:30 > 0:50:33I mean, I knew that she wanted kids but I just assumed that...
0:50:35 > 0:50:40I just assumed that she'd given up on the idea.
0:50:40 > 0:50:44I get the feeling, once your sister gets her teeth into something,
0:50:44 > 0:50:47she doesn't easily let go.
0:50:47 > 0:50:48I've been where she is.
0:50:50 > 0:50:51Feeling sorry for myself.
0:50:53 > 0:50:54Blaming other people.
0:50:56 > 0:50:57Ah, yes.
0:51:00 > 0:51:03Thank you for withdrawing the complaint.
0:51:04 > 0:51:08Well, I realise now just how much I'd needed someone or something,
0:51:08 > 0:51:09anything, to blame.
0:51:11 > 0:51:14But it wasn't your fault.
0:51:14 > 0:51:15It's just bad luck.
0:51:16 > 0:51:18It was just...
0:51:19 > 0:51:20..cancer.
0:51:26 > 0:51:30I'm going to let you break a very strict rule.
0:51:31 > 0:51:34I should have known I'd never find anyone better than Morven.
0:51:34 > 0:51:36She's sweet, she's kind...
0:51:37 > 0:51:40- You know this is all your fault? - Er, how's that?
0:51:40 > 0:51:42All that moaning about you and Fletch.
0:51:42 > 0:51:45Just because you two can't get on, doesn't mean we can't.
0:51:45 > 0:51:47Me and Fletch are having a blast living together.
0:51:47 > 0:51:50In fact, we're thinking about making it a permanent thing.
0:51:50 > 0:51:53He drives me up the wall half the time but he does a mean fry-up,
0:51:53 > 0:51:55and better the devil you know...
0:51:58 > 0:52:01So, here's a list of cognitive behavioural therapists
0:52:01 > 0:52:05who specialise in treating pica.
0:52:05 > 0:52:07You could be on your way to a whole new life.
0:52:07 > 0:52:08In more ways than one.
0:52:08 > 0:52:10I looked online - turns out I'm not the only one
0:52:10 > 0:52:12looking for somewhere to hang my hat.
0:52:12 > 0:52:15Just be careful. There are a lot characters out there.
0:52:17 > 0:52:20Morven, tell me you haven't found somewhere to live yet.
0:52:20 > 0:52:22No.
0:52:22 > 0:52:23I'm really sorry.
0:52:23 > 0:52:27It's all my fault - I got freaked out by Raf and Fletch
0:52:27 > 0:52:30and I forgot how awesome you are.
0:52:30 > 0:52:33I would be lucky to have you as a housemate
0:52:33 > 0:52:34if you'll have me?
0:52:36 > 0:52:38You're not a Star Trek fan, are you?
0:52:38 > 0:52:42No. It's just me, a whole load of medical journals
0:52:42 > 0:52:44and every HBO box set ever released.
0:52:44 > 0:52:46Sounds like bliss.
0:52:49 > 0:52:53Erm, the room is big enough to accommodate a full-size drum kit, isn't it?
0:52:55 > 0:52:56She's kidding. She's kidding.
0:53:01 > 0:53:03I said I didn't want to see anyone.
0:53:03 > 0:53:05Yes, I'm afraid I ignored you.
0:53:11 > 0:53:15I asked the baby-sitter to bring her in.
0:53:15 > 0:53:19Before I had the genetic tests, you said, whatever happened,
0:53:19 > 0:53:21we'd get through it together.
0:53:22 > 0:53:24I'm not just getting over cancer, Lorna.
0:53:28 > 0:53:31I know you think you'll never be a mum.
0:53:33 > 0:53:34But you already are.
0:53:48 > 0:53:50Ooh, good news.
0:53:50 > 0:53:52Your new right-hand man has been selected
0:53:52 > 0:53:55and awaits further instruction.
0:53:55 > 0:53:57- Sorry?- The competition.
0:53:57 > 0:53:59I mean, it's not shocking that I won but...
0:53:59 > 0:54:00Hands down, I'd like to add.
0:54:00 > 0:54:03He's being very magnanimous about it, aren't you?
0:54:03 > 0:54:05Hasn't spent the last hour gloating.
0:54:05 > 0:54:08Don't be a sore loser, Diggers.
0:54:08 > 0:54:10The competition was a mistake.
0:54:10 > 0:54:12It was my mistake.
0:54:12 > 0:54:15What? There's still a prize, isn't there?
0:54:15 > 0:54:18No prize, other than a promise from me
0:54:18 > 0:54:20to try and remember the bigger picture,
0:54:20 > 0:54:25which, as it turns out, extends somewhat beyond an efficiency drive.
0:54:25 > 0:54:27Wonderful. Well, I'm glad I spent all day running round the ward
0:54:27 > 0:54:29like my pants were on fire.
0:54:30 > 0:54:31Drinks at Albie's?
0:54:33 > 0:54:35We could call it team bonding.
0:54:35 > 0:54:36Sounds good to me.
0:54:36 > 0:54:38OK.
0:54:38 > 0:54:41Well, it's not exactly double amputation or multiple skin grafts,
0:54:41 > 0:54:43but, sure. OK, why not?
0:54:43 > 0:54:46First round's on me. I'll see you later.
0:54:50 > 0:54:51How's Melissa doing?
0:54:53 > 0:54:55I know she's not my problem any more.
0:54:55 > 0:54:57I guess I just couldn't walk away that easily.
0:54:57 > 0:55:03I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have pushed you so hard.
0:55:03 > 0:55:05I should have known that you would've figured out the right
0:55:05 > 0:55:06thing to do on your own.
0:55:08 > 0:55:10Well, it's easy to act like I had it all under control
0:55:10 > 0:55:14now I've been let off the hook. Look, none of this was your fault.
0:55:14 > 0:55:16I was the one that went out, got drunk,
0:55:16 > 0:55:19brought some random woman back to my...
0:55:19 > 0:55:21Oh, sorry.
0:55:21 > 0:55:23Look, if that baby had been mine, it would have been on me.
0:55:23 > 0:55:28Look, listen, after a one-night stand, always comes the regret.
0:55:28 > 0:55:31Don't beat yourself up about it, we've all been there, trust me.
0:55:31 > 0:55:32Yeah, OK.
0:55:32 > 0:55:36- OK, I'm just saying, that's not me, I'm not a one-night...- I know.
0:55:36 > 0:55:40..stand... Look, I met Melissa...
0:55:40 > 0:55:41I'd messed things up with you,
0:55:41 > 0:55:45I thought you were going to clear off to New York with Seb,
0:55:45 > 0:55:47and I lost it. I went out, I got drunk.
0:55:47 > 0:55:50I wanted the anti-Zosia and that's exactly what I found.
0:55:50 > 0:55:52Wow, I had no idea.
0:55:52 > 0:55:55Don't ever think that I'm not serious or committed to you
0:55:55 > 0:55:59because I am and I always have been - even before we were together.
0:56:02 > 0:56:03Is this what I think it is?
0:56:10 > 0:56:13You'll have to let me in, though, I've only got one.
0:56:14 > 0:56:16You were right.
0:56:16 > 0:56:18I know that sounds strange
0:56:18 > 0:56:21because I'm the one who's usually right. Well, in my own head anyway.
0:56:21 > 0:56:23Keller was a terrible fit for me.
0:56:23 > 0:56:25If this is building up to your resignation...
0:56:25 > 0:56:26You have to understand,
0:56:26 > 0:56:30where I come from, the Sacha Levys of this world are a cautionary tale
0:56:30 > 0:56:33about what happens when you give up on real medicine.
0:56:33 > 0:56:34And now?
0:56:35 > 0:56:38If I was on the operating table instead of over it,
0:56:38 > 0:56:40there's only one man I'd call.
0:56:43 > 0:56:48I took this job for my husband but I want to keep it for me.
0:56:48 > 0:56:51And not just as a locum - if you and Keller will have me.
0:56:54 > 0:56:58Well, you've certainly given me a lot to consider.
0:56:58 > 0:56:59Grows on you, doesn't it?
0:57:00 > 0:57:02This place.
0:57:07 > 0:57:10OK, if anyone wants champagne or spirits or cocktails,
0:57:10 > 0:57:12now is the time because I'm not buying.
0:57:12 > 0:57:13I heard that.
0:57:14 > 0:57:16I was joking.
0:57:16 > 0:57:18So was I. Only the best for Team Keller.
0:57:18 > 0:57:20Well, in that case, make mine a double, thank you very much.
0:57:20 > 0:57:22Mind if I join in?
0:57:22 > 0:57:24Not at all. But I'm telling you now we're not drinking coffee.
0:57:24 > 0:57:26Doubles please, all round.