0:00:02 > 0:00:03I've got cancer.
0:00:03 > 0:00:04All the travelling and the wedding
0:00:04 > 0:00:08and everything you wanted us to do,
0:00:08 > 0:00:10- that's not happening. - Don't say that.
0:00:10 > 0:00:11You're treating his wife?
0:00:11 > 0:00:14Yes, but I didn't know they were together.
0:00:14 > 0:00:18I don't care about that. He took my grandfather's medals. I want them back.
0:00:18 > 0:00:21You specifically defied me. I know you gave Hanssen that proposal.
0:00:21 > 0:00:22He's my friend.
0:00:22 > 0:00:23This one needs to go straight up.
0:00:23 > 0:00:26Actually, I don't think this can wait. Arthur!
0:00:26 > 0:00:29I need to see Lee, but I can't do it alone.
0:00:29 > 0:00:31Come with me, Dom? Let's do it together.
0:00:31 > 0:00:34Hello, Ruth. I'm Dr Digby.
0:00:34 > 0:00:35Morven.
0:00:36 > 0:00:38I think he's going to be fine.
0:00:38 > 0:00:39Come here.
0:01:22 > 0:01:24- Nothing?- No.
0:01:24 > 0:01:27They must be in there. I've seen them going in.
0:01:29 > 0:01:31Fletch, these wasps...
0:01:31 > 0:01:34There's no nest. Am I the only one who's bothered?
0:01:36 > 0:01:38What's up?
0:01:38 > 0:01:39Clear.
0:01:39 > 0:01:43Still no output. Lou, another 1mg of epinephrine, please.
0:01:43 > 0:01:45200 again, please.
0:01:47 > 0:01:49Clear.
0:01:51 > 0:01:53OK, stop. This is futile. Are we all in agreement?
0:01:53 > 0:01:57- I'm going to call it.- No, I think we carry on. One more time.
0:01:57 > 0:01:58Ms Wolfe.
0:01:58 > 0:01:59We can do this.
0:02:01 > 0:02:02We stop.
0:02:03 > 0:02:05Let me see.
0:02:05 > 0:02:07OK. Time of death.
0:02:07 > 0:02:0911.55.
0:02:14 > 0:02:15Go away!
0:02:16 > 0:02:18There's no contact details on her file.
0:02:18 > 0:02:21Well, you spoke to Ruth. She was always so busy.
0:02:21 > 0:02:22She had a massive family.
0:02:22 > 0:02:24Her workplace? She was a teacher, wasn't she?
0:02:24 > 0:02:28I called the school she mentioned. Nobody had heard of her.
0:02:28 > 0:02:31Do you know what? I don't think she had anyone.
0:02:32 > 0:02:33This jacket.
0:02:35 > 0:02:36- She came in with this, right?- Yep.
0:02:43 > 0:02:46Careful with him, Sach. You might squeeze his stent out.
0:02:48 > 0:02:51I'm sorry. I'm sorry. It's just it's discharge day.
0:02:51 > 0:02:54Removable tracheal stent approved and attached.
0:02:54 > 0:02:56- The sun's shining.- Yep. - What could be better?
0:02:56 > 0:02:57So far, so good.
0:02:57 > 0:02:59Dr Digby, no less.
0:02:59 > 0:03:01They letting you out early?
0:03:01 > 0:03:03Now, have you thought about what you might do?
0:03:03 > 0:03:06Because now you've got the stent...
0:03:06 > 0:03:09You're right. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. It's not my place.
0:03:09 > 0:03:12So, you doing the rounds before you sign off?
0:03:12 > 0:03:15Well, just trying to remember how to do things for myself, I think.
0:03:15 > 0:03:17Walk, talk and breathe real air.
0:03:17 > 0:03:20Yes, well, you won't find much of that around here.
0:03:22 > 0:03:25Look, we're here whenever you need
0:03:25 > 0:03:27a chat, a check.
0:03:27 > 0:03:29Thank you. I'm fine. They've been checking me all week.
0:03:29 > 0:03:31I think I'm all checked out.
0:03:34 > 0:03:35I was looking for you.
0:03:36 > 0:03:38I was just coming down. Next stop AAU.
0:03:40 > 0:03:41Your jacket.
0:03:43 > 0:03:44Ruth was wearing it.
0:03:45 > 0:03:47It was you she was talking about.
0:03:49 > 0:03:51You were the kind stranger.
0:03:54 > 0:03:56It's all right for you, isn't it?
0:03:56 > 0:03:57Never made a mistake in your life.
0:04:00 > 0:04:01Me?
0:04:01 > 0:04:02I'm a doctor.
0:04:03 > 0:04:05Doctors are heroic.
0:04:07 > 0:04:09BABY SNEEZES
0:04:09 > 0:04:12Don't you start making noises at me, buster.
0:04:12 > 0:04:15I remember when you weren't so tough.
0:04:15 > 0:04:18"For all the boots of the tramping warriors
0:04:18 > 0:04:20"and all the garments rolled in blood
0:04:20 > 0:04:23"shall be burned as fuel for the fire,
0:04:23 > 0:04:25"for a child has been born to us.
0:04:25 > 0:04:27"A son."
0:04:29 > 0:04:30OK.
0:04:30 > 0:04:32Sorry. Couldn't resist.
0:04:32 > 0:04:34What was that anyway? The Bible?
0:04:34 > 0:04:36My nan. Used to go with her every Sunday.
0:04:36 > 0:04:39Learned passages to scare my little brother.
0:04:39 > 0:04:40Well, that'll do it.
0:04:43 > 0:04:45He's starting to look like you now.
0:04:47 > 0:04:50I saw Lee. Took him some photos of the baby
0:04:50 > 0:04:51so he could see his son.
0:04:51 > 0:04:53Alison.
0:04:53 > 0:04:56I'm sorry, I couldn't get away from here.
0:04:56 > 0:05:00It's just been crazy, but if there's anything that you need?
0:05:00 > 0:05:02I didn't think you would.
0:05:02 > 0:05:03It's OK, though.
0:05:03 > 0:05:04It helped.
0:05:04 > 0:05:05All of us.
0:05:08 > 0:05:10He got them back. He's sorry.
0:05:14 > 0:05:15Thank you.
0:05:16 > 0:05:18I mean, this is going to make his day.
0:05:20 > 0:05:24She sleeps maybe three and a half hours max, feeds once a day,
0:05:24 > 0:05:26insects mostly.
0:05:26 > 0:05:29Drinks lake water full of proteins.
0:05:29 > 0:05:31Gives her mane that reddish tinge.
0:05:33 > 0:05:34It's been a week.
0:05:35 > 0:05:39A whole week and she's barely even grunted at me.
0:05:39 > 0:05:41What, not even a snarl?
0:05:41 > 0:05:43And you thought she'd be outraged.
0:05:43 > 0:05:47It feels like she's just waiting for me to make a mistake.
0:05:47 > 0:05:50I think she's rattled by you, Zosia. You've impressed her.
0:05:50 > 0:05:53- So, what should I...?- My advice is to keep on impressing her
0:05:53 > 0:05:55until you have her where you need her
0:05:55 > 0:05:57and then ask for what you want.
0:06:04 > 0:06:06Ruth told us all different stories.
0:06:09 > 0:06:12Different workplaces, different family, different friends.
0:06:14 > 0:06:18For once, she was somewhere where people knew who she was.
0:06:21 > 0:06:22Maybe that was enough.
0:06:28 > 0:06:31Are we thinking the same thing?
0:06:33 > 0:06:35Let's get out of here.
0:06:35 > 0:06:36Yeah.
0:06:36 > 0:06:38For good?
0:06:38 > 0:06:39For good.
0:06:39 > 0:06:41I mean, not you, obviously. You should come back.
0:06:41 > 0:06:43But, yeah, let's go and see some things.
0:06:43 > 0:06:47Yeah. I mean, how long have you wanted to go to Austerlitz
0:06:47 > 0:06:51or Albuera or Talavera or maybe all of the battlefields of Europe?
0:06:51 > 0:06:54- So not a tour of the UK's best-loved theme parks?- No, as far as we can think of.
0:06:54 > 0:06:56- Cambridge! - No, out of the country!
0:06:56 > 0:06:58Asterix Park Paris?
0:06:58 > 0:07:00"Ils sont fous ces Romains!"
0:07:00 > 0:07:03Yeah, we can get some kind of queue- jumping thing, like a cancer pass.
0:07:03 > 0:07:06Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh. That would be so good.
0:07:06 > 0:07:08And you think you can just leave?
0:07:08 > 0:07:11- Yeah!- I mean, who would say...?
0:07:11 > 0:07:13I mean, all I'll need to do is clear it with...
0:07:13 > 0:07:14Serena!
0:07:14 > 0:07:16Arthur. You're up.
0:07:16 > 0:07:18I have a favour to ask you
0:07:18 > 0:07:21and I'm afraid you can't say no.
0:07:21 > 0:07:23The thing with Diggers is that he's a fighter.
0:07:25 > 0:07:26He still wear those glasses?
0:07:28 > 0:07:31Yeah, I bet he hasn't changed those in years.
0:07:31 > 0:07:35That look he gives from under those. You know the one I mean.
0:07:35 > 0:07:38Can make a person reflect.
0:07:38 > 0:07:41Don't be fooled, is all I'm saying.
0:07:41 > 0:07:43I'm way past that, believe me.
0:07:43 > 0:07:45Change...
0:07:45 > 0:07:46or being fooled?
0:07:48 > 0:07:50Has he decided what he wants to do next?
0:07:50 > 0:07:53Hang around here picking holes in my technique, if he has his way.
0:07:53 > 0:07:55Good to have a hobby.
0:07:55 > 0:07:57Well, I don't know what he'd do without me.
0:07:57 > 0:08:00Well, I'm sorry I couldn't be there for him.
0:08:02 > 0:08:05He's got enough back-patters and care-givers
0:08:05 > 0:08:07without your sycophantic verbals, thank you very much.
0:08:09 > 0:08:10Just be ready.
0:08:12 > 0:08:13Take care.
0:08:19 > 0:08:20KNOCK ON DOOR
0:08:20 > 0:08:22'Yes?'
0:08:24 > 0:08:26If you want leave, you're going to be disappointed.
0:08:26 > 0:08:28Valentine's beat you to it.
0:08:28 > 0:08:30- I...- Oh, God, even your grovelling is pathetic.
0:08:30 > 0:08:32Let me help you out.
0:08:32 > 0:08:35"I apologise for...
0:08:35 > 0:08:38"It's taken me this long to realise, etc, etc, that I..."
0:08:39 > 0:08:41No. What do you want, then?
0:08:43 > 0:08:46I didn't know how far along you were with preparations.
0:08:46 > 0:08:49The pulmonary endarterectomy that you have scheduled for later on.
0:08:49 > 0:08:51There's another team coming in.
0:08:51 > 0:08:55Mr Wilks is a specialist. He's bringing his registrar to assist.
0:08:55 > 0:08:58- I thought maybe I...- Length of the op and the state of the clots
0:08:58 > 0:09:00means that we have to shut the body down, cool it.
0:09:00 > 0:09:04We work, we rest, they work, they rest, until it's done.
0:09:04 > 0:09:06It's a very complicated op.
0:09:08 > 0:09:10And you think I could use you?
0:09:11 > 0:09:12I'm ready.
0:09:16 > 0:09:20Pulmonary endarterectomy for pulmonary hypertension.
0:09:20 > 0:09:22Embarrass me and I'll finish you.
0:09:31 > 0:09:33OK. Aisle or window?
0:09:34 > 0:09:36Well, most of it's in a tunnel, right?
0:09:36 > 0:09:40Yeah, and we'll need drinks, so easier access to the buffet car.
0:09:40 > 0:09:43Actually, you do like a snooze, so I think window.
0:09:43 > 0:09:44Right.
0:09:44 > 0:09:47Stock up on drinks beforehand. Cheaper, more choice.
0:09:47 > 0:09:49Arthur! This is the trip of a lifetime.
0:09:49 > 0:09:51At this price, it better be.
0:09:51 > 0:09:53SHE SIGHS
0:09:53 > 0:09:54I'm joking.
0:09:54 > 0:09:56It's all booked.
0:09:56 > 0:09:58Yay!
0:09:58 > 0:09:59Ow!
0:10:01 > 0:10:02Ooh.
0:10:02 > 0:10:05Ah, come on. It's just temporary.
0:10:05 > 0:10:06Yeah, I know. It's just...
0:10:08 > 0:10:10Last day, last cases and...
0:10:12 > 0:10:14..I don't even know where to start.
0:10:14 > 0:10:16Right.
0:10:16 > 0:10:17Leave it with me.
0:10:17 > 0:10:20Dr March, echocardiogram results.
0:10:20 > 0:10:22I'll need the pulmonary function test, too.
0:10:22 > 0:10:23Yeah, and a CT.
0:10:24 > 0:10:27I was down to do this today. I've been preparing for weeks.
0:10:27 > 0:10:30And yet, strangely, within minutes of you leaving Naylor's office, I...
0:10:30 > 0:10:33The Lord works in mysterious ways.
0:10:33 > 0:10:35Yes, well, then, you'll also know that the last time
0:10:35 > 0:10:37she performed this operation was with Mrs Beauchamp?
0:10:37 > 0:10:40Two highly skilled, highly trained surgeons.
0:10:40 > 0:10:44Jac has done this a number of times before and we have help, so...
0:10:44 > 0:10:47- could you...?- OK, yep.
0:10:47 > 0:10:50Just as long as you have a clear conscience about everything.
0:10:50 > 0:10:53- You'll be there later for Arthur's...- What do you think?
0:10:57 > 0:10:59That must be them. Thanks for the scans.
0:11:05 > 0:11:09My advice, a girl as beautiful as you, let him do the chasing.
0:11:09 > 0:11:10SHE LAUGHS NERVOUSLY
0:11:10 > 0:11:13That's, er, that's actually my husband.
0:11:14 > 0:11:16He likes making plans.
0:11:16 > 0:11:19Oh, a schemer. You want to watch those ones.
0:11:21 > 0:11:23- Are you married?- Me? No.
0:11:24 > 0:11:27Too much other family to worry about.
0:11:27 > 0:11:30And your own problems to deal with, I see.
0:11:30 > 0:11:32In and out of hospital for years -
0:11:32 > 0:11:35skin infections, chest infections,
0:11:35 > 0:11:37a psych referral.
0:11:37 > 0:11:39Oh, yes, it all comes back to that.
0:11:39 > 0:11:40Sorry.
0:11:44 > 0:11:46- That looks really sore, doesn't it? - Mm.
0:11:46 > 0:11:48Do you mind if I take a little look?
0:11:48 > 0:11:50It's not you, sweetheart, it's just the way it goes.
0:11:50 > 0:11:55Doctor says one thing, I say another, they guess something else,
0:11:55 > 0:11:57run some tests, nothing is found
0:11:57 > 0:12:00and, ultimately, it's a psych problem.
0:12:00 > 0:12:01And I'm a fantasist.
0:12:02 > 0:12:04Er, do you mind?
0:12:04 > 0:12:06Erm, just excuse me. One moment. Right.
0:12:11 > 0:12:13What are you playing at?
0:12:13 > 0:12:14Thoracoabdominal aneurysm
0:12:14 > 0:12:16with probable open aortic abdominal repair!
0:12:16 > 0:12:18What better way to go out?
0:12:18 > 0:12:22I...don't know, I've got loads of other patients to deal with...
0:12:22 > 0:12:24and this lady is...
0:12:24 > 0:12:25What's wrong with her?
0:12:25 > 0:12:27Well, she's got an abscess, but she's been
0:12:27 > 0:12:30in and out of A&E more than a dozen times already this year.
0:12:30 > 0:12:33So, drain that, send her home and she'll back in again in six months
0:12:33 > 0:12:36- with something else... - People think she's a fantasist.
0:12:36 > 0:12:37This isn't about Ruth, is it, Morven?
0:12:37 > 0:12:42No. I know you can't save everybody, but...
0:12:42 > 0:12:44you can try.
0:12:46 > 0:12:48Clap, clap, clap, step.
0:12:48 > 0:12:50Clap, clap, clap step...
0:12:50 > 0:12:53No! No! Sacha! Come on! Every time.
0:12:53 > 0:12:56Is it because I'm not leading with my left
0:12:56 > 0:12:57and my right's a bit heavy?
0:12:57 > 0:12:59No, you're dragging.
0:12:59 > 0:13:00Oh, I'm dragging?
0:13:00 > 0:13:02No wonder Essie practises alone.
0:13:02 > 0:13:04Well, that's not the only thing she does alone...
0:13:04 > 0:13:05- DOOR OPENS - Yuck.
0:13:08 > 0:13:09Don't mind me.
0:13:12 > 0:13:13Hi. We were just...
0:13:15 > 0:13:16..psyching up.
0:13:18 > 0:13:21Just wondered if I could borrow your bumbag, Sacha.
0:13:21 > 0:13:23Your pouch. Fanny pack, whatever you call it?
0:13:23 > 0:13:25Oh, my fanny pack. Er, yes.
0:13:25 > 0:13:28Er, Essie's got it. I'll ask her to look it out.
0:13:28 > 0:13:30Thanks.
0:13:30 > 0:13:31As you were.
0:13:34 > 0:13:37- DOOR CLOSES - Sorry, Essie has the pouch?
0:13:44 > 0:13:46You do know that Arthur's leaving?
0:13:46 > 0:13:48Yes. Finger on the pulse, as ever.
0:13:48 > 0:13:51No, I mean for good.
0:13:51 > 0:13:53With Morven.
0:13:53 > 0:13:56They've got some trip across Europe planned. I think Elba, possibly.
0:13:56 > 0:13:58And they're leaving today.
0:14:02 > 0:14:07A tour of the world's most boring heritage sites, how very them.
0:14:10 > 0:14:12Well, whatever Golden Boy wants.
0:14:12 > 0:14:14Anyway, so this op, what should I focus on?
0:14:18 > 0:14:20Dominic...
0:14:25 > 0:14:26..pelvic anatomy.
0:14:26 > 0:14:28Perfect. Thank you.
0:14:29 > 0:14:31Nothing. No, nothing.
0:14:31 > 0:14:33OK, I'm going to run some bloods.
0:14:33 > 0:14:35I've told you, it's always the same.
0:14:35 > 0:14:37Book me in to have this abscess drained
0:14:37 > 0:14:39and I'll be out of your hair.
0:14:40 > 0:14:42Have you, erm...
0:14:42 > 0:14:44Have you always been this weight?
0:14:44 > 0:14:46Your BMI is very low.
0:14:46 > 0:14:50- GP thinks it's an eating disorder. - And?
0:14:50 > 0:14:53Sorry, OK. Is everything all right at home?
0:14:53 > 0:14:57Honestly, I don't have issues. There's nothing wrong with HQ.
0:14:57 > 0:14:59It's the rest of it that's on strike.
0:14:59 > 0:15:04So you do think there may be a problem other than just the abscess?
0:15:04 > 0:15:06- Do you see anything? - Well, not yet, but...
0:15:06 > 0:15:10Please just help me with the abscess and that will be enough.
0:15:10 > 0:15:13What kind of food are you eating? Regularly, I mean?
0:15:13 > 0:15:16- Are they flour-based or... - Does the Mexican woman eat tacos?
0:15:16 > 0:15:20- Is that what you're asking?- You're Mexican? You don't...- Don't look it?
0:15:20 > 0:15:22Father's genes were stronger,
0:15:22 > 0:15:26which is ironic, cos the man himself was a coward from Stockport.
0:15:26 > 0:15:29- Big family? - Mother's side.
0:15:29 > 0:15:32But then everyone from Mexico City has a big family.
0:15:33 > 0:15:35Hello, er...
0:15:35 > 0:15:39Ines, I'm Serena Campbell. What appears to be the problem?
0:15:39 > 0:15:42- Well, I'm just trying to work it out...- I have an abscess.
0:15:42 > 0:15:45Yes. She has an abscess at the base of her neck, but I also think...
0:15:45 > 0:15:48Not for the first time, it seems.
0:15:48 > 0:15:49Could be diet?
0:15:49 > 0:15:52I promise you, I do not have an eating disorder.
0:15:52 > 0:15:54Can't put it on if I try.
0:15:54 > 0:15:56Well, we'll get that abscess taken care of
0:15:56 > 0:15:59and then you should feel a lot more comfortable.
0:16:01 > 0:16:04Ms Campbell, I was thinking maybe thyroid,
0:16:04 > 0:16:07but I'll just need a bit more time with her.
0:16:07 > 0:16:09I don't think it's an eating disorder.
0:16:09 > 0:16:12Well, these psych referrals point to something.
0:16:12 > 0:16:14I just have a hunch that it's medical.
0:16:14 > 0:16:16That it's something we can solve.
0:16:16 > 0:16:17You have a hunch?
0:16:19 > 0:16:21I think we should order tests.
0:16:21 > 0:16:23- And just cover all the ground... - No, no. Just do FBC, U&Es,
0:16:23 > 0:16:25LFT and blood glucose.
0:16:25 > 0:16:27Treat the abscess, get her out of here,
0:16:27 > 0:16:29and then you can follow suit, can't you?
0:16:31 > 0:16:34Then we stay at Stara Posta, which is where he slept the night
0:16:34 > 0:16:36after his greatest triumph.
0:16:36 > 0:16:38Catch a flight to Florence,
0:16:38 > 0:16:42small train down the coast from Pisa and then we get a ferry to Elba.
0:16:42 > 0:16:44What do you think? Dom?
0:16:44 > 0:16:48Yeah. Trains, planes and automobiles. Sounds great.
0:16:48 > 0:16:50And then I was thinking that...
0:16:50 > 0:16:51Is that...?
0:16:52 > 0:16:55Er, yeah. It's just a routine check-up.
0:16:55 > 0:16:56Ah, the baby. Of course.
0:17:00 > 0:17:01Alison?
0:17:03 > 0:17:05I'm Arthur. Not sure if you remember me.
0:17:05 > 0:17:07I remember you.
0:17:07 > 0:17:09- Would you mind if I...?- Mm.
0:17:12 > 0:17:15Oh, God. He thinks it's a calendar shoot.
0:17:15 > 0:17:17Please don't take your top off, I'll be sick.
0:17:17 > 0:17:18ARTHUR LAUGHS
0:17:18 > 0:17:20Tough cookie.
0:17:20 > 0:17:21So this is baby Lee?
0:17:21 > 0:17:24They haven't decided on a name yet.
0:17:24 > 0:17:27- I don't know if Dom told you yet... - No, I haven't done.
0:17:28 > 0:17:30Told me...?
0:17:30 > 0:17:33Lee is very sick. And, erm...
0:17:33 > 0:17:34But he's been getting help.
0:17:34 > 0:17:37Well, I'm glad he's being looked after.
0:17:38 > 0:17:40Anyway, look, I need to go and prep.
0:17:40 > 0:17:43- From the list? Which one are you... - DOOR BUZZES
0:17:49 > 0:17:50Hey.
0:17:50 > 0:17:52You do realise that you didn't have any hold
0:17:52 > 0:17:54over these operations, didn't you?
0:17:54 > 0:17:55Yeah, Dom. I don't care about...
0:17:55 > 0:17:58- I got other things I need to... - Of course. Enjoy your trip.
0:18:02 > 0:18:03You ever stop to think that
0:18:03 > 0:18:05perhaps this wasn't just about you and Morven?
0:18:10 > 0:18:13- Ines?- What stage are we at now? More tests?
0:18:13 > 0:18:16Look, I have to ask - these psych referrals...?
0:18:16 > 0:18:18Grief counselling.
0:18:18 > 0:18:21I lost my mother. Years ago now...
0:18:21 > 0:18:23And that was when you started having the problems?
0:18:23 > 0:18:27I mean, there's plenty of research that points to trauma being...
0:18:27 > 0:18:31I missed her passing. I was having treatment myself.
0:18:31 > 0:18:35- Right, before she died...- An operation. I had pancreatic cancer.
0:18:35 > 0:18:37It doesn't say so in your notes.
0:18:37 > 0:18:39You're a stickler, aren't you?
0:18:43 > 0:18:48- These are your test results. - Is everything OK?
0:18:48 > 0:18:51There's a positive result for TB.
0:18:51 > 0:18:53- TB? - It's a weak positive.
0:18:53 > 0:18:58But we'll need to do further tests to confirm. Er...
0:18:58 > 0:19:00But we'll need your permission.
0:19:03 > 0:19:04You OK?
0:19:04 > 0:19:06Yeah, I'm fine. I just need some caffeine.
0:19:06 > 0:19:09You've got a maximum of 15 seconds before we need to...
0:19:09 > 0:19:11Got it!
0:19:11 > 0:19:12..warm him up again.
0:19:16 > 0:19:18Good. Get the other team in.
0:19:20 > 0:19:22You saw how clear and bloodless it was?
0:19:22 > 0:19:25- That's why we do it my way. - There's another way?
0:19:25 > 0:19:27Unless you want to battle it out with the back flow.
0:19:30 > 0:19:33Anyway, stay sharp, stay focused. It's only going to get tougher.
0:19:33 > 0:19:34PHONE CHIMES
0:19:38 > 0:19:39Something important?
0:19:39 > 0:19:41- No.- Yes.
0:19:41 > 0:19:43Good, cos we're back on.
0:19:45 > 0:19:47Zosia?
0:19:49 > 0:19:51She's setting you up to fail.
0:19:51 > 0:19:53You would love that, wouldn't you?
0:19:59 > 0:20:03Morven, why on earth have you put Ms Maria into isolation?
0:20:03 > 0:20:04With me. Now.
0:20:04 > 0:20:05I needed to see if there was...
0:20:05 > 0:20:08I specifically told you to treat the abscess.
0:20:08 > 0:20:11- I know. I'm sorry. I just thought... - So you deliberately disobeyed me?
0:20:11 > 0:20:14Your last day, so you thought you could just do as you please?
0:20:14 > 0:20:16I wanted to help her.
0:20:16 > 0:20:18Well, you put her through an emotional trauma.
0:20:18 > 0:20:20You know how much stress that can cause someone with her...
0:20:20 > 0:20:23Look, I needed to do further exploration.
0:20:23 > 0:20:25She tested positive for TB.
0:20:25 > 0:20:28- I'm sorry? - It was a weak positive, but TB...
0:20:28 > 0:20:30A weak positive comes back frequently,
0:20:30 > 0:20:31there's no evidence of open TB.
0:20:31 > 0:20:33This is a complete overreaction, Morven.
0:20:33 > 0:20:35But the weight loss!
0:20:35 > 0:20:37Yes, she lost her mother around the same time,
0:20:37 > 0:20:39but TB causes drastic weight loss!
0:20:39 > 0:20:43As does Hepatitis, as does HIV, as does bereavement.
0:20:43 > 0:20:45Well, she beat cancer!
0:20:45 > 0:20:48I don't think one thing cancels out the other.
0:20:48 > 0:20:50Yes, I kn...
0:20:50 > 0:20:53Look, I'm just...I'm certain it's not stress.
0:20:53 > 0:20:55People keep writing her off, but it's not grief!
0:20:55 > 0:20:57It's not psychological.
0:20:57 > 0:20:59Emotional stress can have all kinds of impact.
0:20:59 > 0:21:02Emotional stress doesn't make you sick and weak.
0:21:05 > 0:21:07You need to apologise to her, Morven.
0:21:10 > 0:21:11KNOCK ON DOOR
0:21:13 > 0:21:14Erm...
0:21:14 > 0:21:17sorry to bother you, just...
0:21:17 > 0:21:19You're working with Dom today, right? Have...
0:21:19 > 0:21:21- Have I done something to...? - Take a seat.
0:21:21 > 0:21:22DOOR CLOSES
0:21:23 > 0:21:26My advice is just to let him be.
0:21:26 > 0:21:29Dr Copeland's moods can be as...
0:21:29 > 0:21:32That's not entirely why I'm here.
0:21:32 > 0:21:33You...
0:21:34 > 0:21:36You beat it, didn't you?
0:21:38 > 0:21:41- You can't compare cases, you know that.- I don't mean physically.
0:21:41 > 0:21:45I mean, for it to have gone away, you must have beaten it.
0:21:45 > 0:21:47You must have stopped it controlling you.
0:21:47 > 0:21:50- There was a point where... - I'm not looking for empathy.
0:21:53 > 0:21:56All I've ever wanted and known, really,
0:21:56 > 0:21:58was being a doctor.
0:21:58 > 0:22:00And now I've got to do this last bit as a...
0:22:01 > 0:22:03I just want to know
0:22:03 > 0:22:06what I'm supposed to do next. Who I should...
0:22:07 > 0:22:09Where did you get that?
0:22:11 > 0:22:12This?
0:22:16 > 0:22:19Serena found it in a drawer or something.
0:22:19 > 0:22:22- It's a private joke - it's a... - Gypsy three rings.
0:22:22 > 0:22:24It's a collectible, sorry.
0:22:24 > 0:22:26An ex-colleague got me into them.
0:22:26 > 0:22:28Chantelle, by any chance?
0:22:29 > 0:22:32Yeah, well, it's a shame she couldn't make it.
0:22:32 > 0:22:34Sorry?
0:22:34 > 0:22:35Oh, nothing.
0:22:37 > 0:22:38Ignore me.
0:22:41 > 0:22:43This might sound a little bit strange,
0:22:43 > 0:22:44but I keep getting the feeling
0:22:44 > 0:22:47that someone's trying to tell me something.
0:22:47 > 0:22:49That the universe...
0:22:49 > 0:22:51I don't know.
0:22:51 > 0:22:54That's not really my thing, believe me.
0:22:54 > 0:22:58I'm supposed to go away and leave this place and yet something just...
0:22:58 > 0:23:00Arthur, your time is precious.
0:23:01 > 0:23:05Now, there are lots of people who care deeply about you
0:23:05 > 0:23:08and they'll want to spend as much of it with you as possible.
0:23:08 > 0:23:10But it is your time.
0:23:13 > 0:23:16I don't want to appear selfish or self-indulgent,
0:23:16 > 0:23:17but then how do you avoid it,
0:23:17 > 0:23:20when everyone's asking what they can do and how they can help?
0:23:20 > 0:23:22The important thing is
0:23:22 > 0:23:26that you're honest with what it is that you want.
0:23:26 > 0:23:28That's all that matters now.
0:23:33 > 0:23:36- Come on, quicker. - It's sticking.
0:23:36 > 0:23:39Either you can do it or you can't. We're running out of time.
0:23:39 > 0:23:42- OK, here it comes. - Just be careful, I want it intact.
0:23:48 > 0:23:50What are you waiting for? Your theme tune?
0:23:50 > 0:23:51Next one!
0:23:53 > 0:23:55ZOSIA SIGHS Right.
0:23:56 > 0:23:58'And I'd like to add my apology'
0:23:58 > 0:24:00on behalf of the hospital and assure you that we will be
0:24:00 > 0:24:02treating the abscess as soon as possible.
0:24:02 > 0:24:03I would like a transfer.
0:24:03 > 0:24:07Please, Ines, this is all my fault.
0:24:07 > 0:24:08I thought...
0:24:10 > 0:24:12I went down the wrong road.
0:24:12 > 0:24:14I was wrong about the TB.
0:24:17 > 0:24:18I'm so sorry.
0:24:18 > 0:24:20Yes, we've checked and it was a false alarm.
0:24:20 > 0:24:24Now, I'll be taking full care of you from here on.
0:24:24 > 0:24:26So I'll drain the abscess for you
0:24:26 > 0:24:29and anyone you need to talk to we can arrange that for you.
0:24:31 > 0:24:33You see? I am the fantasist.
0:24:35 > 0:24:36Dr Digby?
0:24:39 > 0:24:41You can catch up on ward rounds.
0:24:41 > 0:24:43Fletch needs help with the RTC and I'm sure Ms Wolfe has...
0:24:43 > 0:24:45Ms Campbell, this isn't for me.
0:24:45 > 0:24:47Well, you know it doesn't work like that.
0:24:47 > 0:24:50You make a mistake, you work twice as hard to make up for it.
0:24:50 > 0:24:54I let that woman down. I let you down. I know that.
0:24:54 > 0:24:57Now, Morven, I understand you're in a difficult place...
0:24:57 > 0:25:00I'm done here.
0:25:00 > 0:25:01I'm sorry.
0:25:01 > 0:25:03Thank you for your time.
0:25:03 > 0:25:08Dr Digby, I highly recommend you stop where you are.
0:25:08 > 0:25:10- Dr Digby? - DOOR BUZZES
0:25:11 > 0:25:12LIFT BEEPS
0:25:18 > 0:25:21Dom? Hey. Erm...
0:25:21 > 0:25:23I've been speaking to people about...
0:25:23 > 0:25:25What do you need now? Flip-flops?
0:25:26 > 0:25:29Look, I feel I need to explain this whole trip and...
0:25:29 > 0:25:32and I really don't want you to feel that I'm...
0:25:36 > 0:25:38I can come back.
0:25:38 > 0:25:39Except you can't.
0:25:45 > 0:25:48I have one shot to explain this,
0:25:48 > 0:25:52- so that I don't come across as... - ARTHUR SIGHS
0:25:52 > 0:25:54I haven't felt in control recently. And I'm never not in control.
0:25:54 > 0:25:57Some might say it's an obsession of yours.
0:25:57 > 0:25:59Dom, this can wait. I...
0:25:59 > 0:26:01I told you I would look after you.
0:26:04 > 0:26:06Dom, erm...
0:26:06 > 0:26:09you're not listening to me, OK?
0:26:09 > 0:26:11I have to say this, cos I have to make decisions
0:26:11 > 0:26:13that are best for me.
0:26:13 > 0:26:14It sounds selfish, but...
0:26:14 > 0:26:16Bingo, finally got it!
0:26:17 > 0:26:20I can't please everyone.
0:26:20 > 0:26:22There's not enough time.
0:26:22 > 0:26:24I don't have time!
0:26:24 > 0:26:26So you would rather spend your final days in some hotel room
0:26:26 > 0:26:29in Kosovo with a Good News Bible and a bottle of cheap vodka...
0:26:29 > 0:26:32- What if I do?! - Well, it's selfish!
0:26:32 > 0:26:34Coming from you!
0:26:34 > 0:26:36The point is,
0:26:36 > 0:26:40it has to be my decision. It's not yours.
0:26:40 > 0:26:42- It's what I want! - PHONE CHIMES
0:26:55 > 0:26:57I suppose you think that's it.
0:26:57 > 0:27:00I think I know better than to expect that.
0:27:00 > 0:27:01I saw that you nearly nicked...
0:27:01 > 0:27:04Nearly nicked the purse string. Yes, I know. I just...
0:27:06 > 0:27:08Somewhere you need to be?
0:27:10 > 0:27:11No.
0:27:18 > 0:27:19So, what's next?
0:27:30 > 0:27:34Oh, jeez, if this is a shakedown, then you're too late - shop's empty.
0:27:34 > 0:27:35Dom?
0:27:35 > 0:27:38I've got Fletch on the phone, wondering if we're still doing this.
0:27:38 > 0:27:40Yeah, well, sorry. I'm just not in the mood.
0:27:40 > 0:27:42Well, it's not about your mood. A lot of people
0:27:42 > 0:27:43have gone to a lot of effort for this.
0:27:43 > 0:27:47Well, by all means, be my guests. But I just need some space.
0:27:47 > 0:27:48We're doing this now.
0:27:52 > 0:27:53I have prep to do.
0:27:54 > 0:27:55Why are you punishing him?
0:27:59 > 0:28:02'It's an abscess. Simple as that.'
0:28:02 > 0:28:04The rest is psych stuff and that could take weeks.
0:28:04 > 0:28:06Weeks that we don't have, so here's the thing...
0:28:06 > 0:28:11No, Morven. Don't lie. Just be honest.
0:28:11 > 0:28:13But don't put the pressure on him either.
0:28:13 > 0:28:15OK.
0:28:15 > 0:28:18It's nothing to do with you, Arthur.
0:28:18 > 0:28:20Nothing to do with your situation.
0:28:20 > 0:28:22OUR situation.
0:28:22 > 0:28:25It's nothing to do with where we are.
0:28:26 > 0:28:30But, most importantly, it's nothing to do with you.
0:28:30 > 0:28:31SHE SIGHS HEAVILY
0:28:33 > 0:28:34Right.
0:28:35 > 0:28:39It's nothing to do with you. Just let me speak.
0:28:39 > 0:28:42OK, let me say what I need to say and then you can...
0:28:42 > 0:28:43- BOTH:- We need to talk.
0:28:43 > 0:28:46- Oh. You first.- You first.
0:28:46 > 0:28:47- Erm...- In here.
0:28:52 > 0:28:54OK, you first.
0:28:54 > 0:28:55OK, Morven...
0:28:55 > 0:28:58I can't do it on my own.
0:28:58 > 0:29:01I fell in love with this job because I wanted to help people.
0:29:01 > 0:29:04But I fell in love with this place because of you.
0:29:04 > 0:29:08And now everywhere I look I'm reminded that, when I come back,
0:29:08 > 0:29:10it's all going to mean less. And I don't want that, so...
0:29:10 > 0:29:12let's just go. Let's just go now!
0:29:14 > 0:29:15- Er... - SHE STUTTERS
0:29:17 > 0:29:19Oh, I've said it all wrong.
0:29:19 > 0:29:21I should have lied, shouldn't I?
0:29:21 > 0:29:23I should have said that I found out what was wrong
0:29:23 > 0:29:26- and Serena signed...- Morven.
0:29:26 > 0:29:27Slow down.
0:29:27 > 0:29:29I thought I had a hunch, but...
0:29:31 > 0:29:34..I can't do this without you, Arthur.
0:29:34 > 0:29:36Well, sometimes you can't do it all in a day.
0:29:36 > 0:29:38I mean, that's not possible.
0:29:38 > 0:29:41You don't understand. I really messed up.
0:29:42 > 0:29:43Oh!
0:29:43 > 0:29:48I filled her with hope - all because I wanted to find something.
0:29:48 > 0:29:49I...I needed to!
0:29:53 > 0:29:55Of course you did.
0:29:55 > 0:29:56And you'd do the same any other day.
0:29:56 > 0:29:59Cos that's the kind of doctor that you are.
0:29:59 > 0:30:01That's the kind of person that you are. You have to help.
0:30:01 > 0:30:03THEY LAUGH
0:30:03 > 0:30:05What is it you said? "Got to try."
0:30:08 > 0:30:09I'm sorry. I...
0:30:11 > 0:30:12I didn't mean to...
0:30:14 > 0:30:16What was it that you wanted to say?
0:30:16 > 0:30:20- Oh, erm...- Sorry to, erm...
0:30:20 > 0:30:23We need you both on Keller.
0:30:23 > 0:30:24Can it wait?
0:30:39 > 0:30:41I told you I'm fine, I'm all checked out, Sacha.
0:30:41 > 0:30:43Promise you it's nothing serious, OK.
0:30:43 > 0:30:46It's just there is a specialist that I think you should speak to.
0:30:49 > 0:30:50Hello? This is Arthur Digby.
0:30:51 > 0:30:53Hello, Diggers.
0:30:53 > 0:30:54SHE LAUGHS
0:30:54 > 0:30:57- Malick? What the...? - Catch up after.
0:30:57 > 0:31:00After what? Sacha?
0:31:00 > 0:31:02MUSIC: The Best of My Love by The Emotions
0:31:11 > 0:31:13What are you doing up here?
0:31:13 > 0:31:17# Doesn't take much to make me happy
0:31:17 > 0:31:18THEY LAUGH
0:31:18 > 0:31:20# And to make me smile with glee
0:31:20 > 0:31:21Oh, my goodness!
0:31:21 > 0:31:25# Never, never will I feel discouraged
0:31:25 > 0:31:28# Cos our love's no mystery... #
0:31:28 > 0:31:30- THEY LAUGH - This is incredible.
0:31:30 > 0:31:34# My life has a better meaning... #
0:31:34 > 0:31:38OK, I think the Tramadol's kicking in now.
0:31:38 > 0:31:41- Ah! - BOTH:- Ethan!
0:31:41 > 0:31:43THEY KISS AND LAUGH
0:31:43 > 0:31:44# My love, my love... #
0:31:44 > 0:31:45This is all for you.
0:31:46 > 0:31:49# Oh!
0:31:49 > 0:31:51# My love
0:31:51 > 0:31:52THEY LAUGH # My love, my love... #
0:31:52 > 0:31:54It's Napoleon Society!
0:31:54 > 0:31:57Oh, my goodness!
0:31:57 > 0:31:59This is incredible.
0:31:59 > 0:32:00# Oh
0:32:00 > 0:32:02# You've got the best of my love
0:32:02 > 0:32:06# Oh, whoa You've got the best of my love
0:32:06 > 0:32:08# Oh, whoa
0:32:08 > 0:32:10# You've got the best of my love
0:32:10 > 0:32:12# Oh, whoa
0:32:12 > 0:32:15# You've got the best of my love... #
0:32:15 > 0:32:16THEY TALK AND LAUGH
0:32:20 > 0:32:21Ooh!
0:32:21 > 0:32:22ARTHUR TALKS
0:32:23 > 0:32:25# The way I feel about you
0:32:25 > 0:32:27# Baby, can't explain it
0:32:27 > 0:32:31# Want the whole wide world to see
0:32:31 > 0:32:33# Oh, but in my heart... #
0:32:33 > 0:32:34Hanssen.
0:32:34 > 0:32:36# You're all I need
0:32:36 > 0:32:38# You for me My love, my love
0:32:38 > 0:32:40# And me for you
0:32:40 > 0:32:41# Oh!
0:32:41 > 0:32:42THEY LAUGH
0:32:44 > 0:32:47# My love, my love
0:32:47 > 0:32:50# Oh, whoa!
0:32:50 > 0:32:52# Doo-doo, doo-doo, doo-doo, doo-doo
0:32:52 > 0:32:53# Oh! #
0:32:53 > 0:32:56- Yay! - APPLAUSE AND CHEERING
0:32:57 > 0:32:58Look at that picture!
0:33:04 > 0:33:05Whoo!
0:33:09 > 0:33:13The stent. It hasn't been named.
0:33:13 > 0:33:15- Sit down. - No, I'm fine.
0:33:15 > 0:33:19It needs to be named before it gets signed off.
0:33:19 > 0:33:22And I thought it could be named after Arthur.
0:33:22 > 0:33:23The Digby Device?
0:33:23 > 0:33:25Yeah, or whatever you think. It's just...
0:33:25 > 0:33:28How do you think you got on today?
0:33:28 > 0:33:31I, er, thought it went well.
0:33:31 > 0:33:33It did go well.
0:33:33 > 0:33:36It's important to you, isn't it, that things go well?
0:33:36 > 0:33:38That the name Dr March can be heard,
0:33:38 > 0:33:41whispered in the corridors, no matter what.
0:33:43 > 0:33:46- You asked me to assist. - No, YOU asked to assist.
0:33:47 > 0:33:51YOU wanted to prove yourself again and I let you,
0:33:51 > 0:33:52even after you betrayed me.
0:33:55 > 0:33:56So this is about last week.
0:33:56 > 0:33:59- CHAIR BANGS - It's about how you choose to define yourself!
0:33:59 > 0:34:03You have proved to me that you are led by your own ego.
0:34:03 > 0:34:04You made your choice.
0:34:05 > 0:34:08And now you want to name the stent after Arthur
0:34:08 > 0:34:09to assuage your own guilt.
0:34:09 > 0:34:11I made the right choice. I did it for Arthur.
0:34:11 > 0:34:13You used Arthur and you know it!
0:34:14 > 0:34:17God, at least have the courage to admit it.
0:34:20 > 0:34:22And, excuse me, there!
0:34:22 > 0:34:25Categorical proof that you stole my scarf that day.
0:34:25 > 0:34:28I mean, it seems an amazing coincidence that someone thought
0:34:28 > 0:34:31our little trip to Ironbridge was worthy of a career highlight.
0:34:31 > 0:34:33LAUGHTER Were you two separated at birth?
0:34:33 > 0:34:36It's making me slightly nervous seeing you both together. Scary.
0:34:36 > 0:34:38Oh! Hang on, hang on. I remember that.
0:34:42 > 0:34:44- Same haircut! - Well, you know if it ain't broke...
0:34:44 > 0:34:46- Oh, hey, careful... - ARTHUR GROANS
0:34:48 > 0:34:50It's the only bit of parties I'm any good at.
0:34:50 > 0:34:52Always find me in the kitchen.
0:34:52 > 0:34:55Want to shut the door on the rest of them?
0:34:55 > 0:34:57Not really sure what I want.
0:34:58 > 0:34:59Arthur?
0:35:01 > 0:35:04This place, it's been like a home to me and for you.
0:35:04 > 0:35:05Friends, family.
0:35:07 > 0:35:08Now we're running away
0:35:08 > 0:35:11and I'm spending my last few months without them. I just...
0:35:13 > 0:35:16The other morning, when I found Ruth at the bus stop,
0:35:16 > 0:35:18I was supposed to be going to look at flats for us.
0:35:18 > 0:35:21But I just wanted to go to the cinema.
0:35:22 > 0:35:25You know, do something normal that people do when they're not...
0:35:25 > 0:35:27working, or dying.
0:35:28 > 0:35:33Do you not feel we've been really full speed since we found out?
0:35:33 > 0:35:35I just feel very out of control of it.
0:35:35 > 0:35:36Well, then stop.
0:35:39 > 0:35:41Tell me what you want to do and I'm there with you.
0:35:43 > 0:35:46- We don't have to go anywhere.- Mm.
0:35:46 > 0:35:47I'm trying to work it out.
0:35:49 > 0:35:52I think I've just trained myself to be a bit of a control freak.
0:35:52 > 0:35:53A surgeon.
0:35:53 > 0:35:57One slip and you change someone's life forever, kind of thing.
0:35:57 > 0:35:59And that seeped into the way I feel about this and...
0:35:59 > 0:36:01You're right.
0:36:01 > 0:36:04- Sorry, I didn't mean to make it sound like I...- No, no, no.
0:36:04 > 0:36:06"One slip and you change someone's life."
0:36:09 > 0:36:10What if...
0:36:10 > 0:36:15What if it was the operation where it all went wrong for Ines?
0:36:15 > 0:36:17Mm.
0:36:17 > 0:36:19I have to get her scanned.
0:36:20 > 0:36:22Morven! Love you.
0:36:39 > 0:36:41Goodnight.
0:36:44 > 0:36:45Zosia, you missed the dance.
0:36:47 > 0:36:50Do I come across as self-serving to you?
0:36:50 > 0:36:52You? As if.
0:36:53 > 0:36:56You've always done what you think is right, Zosia.
0:36:56 > 0:36:59- What you did for Arthur...- I got him that stent. I fought for him.
0:36:59 > 0:37:01- He's your friend. - What else was I supposed to do?
0:37:01 > 0:37:04Mr Malone's no fool either. He...
0:37:04 > 0:37:06He knew his choice.
0:37:09 > 0:37:12- So, ethically... - We'd have all done the same thing.
0:37:13 > 0:37:14Thank you.
0:37:16 > 0:37:18What's with the secret paper?
0:37:19 > 0:37:21- Nothing.- Come on.
0:37:27 > 0:37:29Sorry. I didn't realise.
0:37:33 > 0:37:34I had a spare copy from Arthur's banner.
0:37:34 > 0:37:37- If there's any you want... - No. Thank you.
0:37:41 > 0:37:43Is that what I think it is?
0:37:43 > 0:37:45Look, for the record, I had nothing to do with this.
0:37:45 > 0:37:47Just tell me.
0:37:52 > 0:37:54You have got to be kidding me!
0:37:54 > 0:37:56I knew it! I knew it wasn't a psych thing!
0:37:56 > 0:37:58- Blood supply to the small bowel's missing.- Uh-huh.
0:37:58 > 0:38:01- Apparently, it's coming from the IMA, not the SMA.- Ah!
0:38:01 > 0:38:02Dr Digby.
0:38:04 > 0:38:05May I?
0:38:07 > 0:38:11- Look, I know what you're going to say.- You had a hunch.
0:38:11 > 0:38:13Mm-hm.
0:38:13 > 0:38:16Well, it's a good job you did.
0:38:16 > 0:38:19- Gut claudication.- Gut claudication.
0:38:20 > 0:38:22So Ines can be fixed?
0:38:23 > 0:38:24Mm.
0:38:33 > 0:38:34Shift up.
0:38:45 > 0:38:47I can't remember the last time I came in here.
0:38:47 > 0:38:49Hid away from it all.
0:38:49 > 0:38:52Huh! Yeah, because this room's only ever been used for hiding(!)
0:38:54 > 0:38:57That code we used to have,
0:38:57 > 0:39:01leaving little, er...toys, trinkets, food, whatever it was,
0:39:01 > 0:39:04for the next person to find so they'd know who was to blame.
0:39:04 > 0:39:07Which surgeon you were trying to avoid.
0:39:07 > 0:39:09Who to look out for that day.
0:39:09 > 0:39:12- I thought it was which doctor you fancied.- Uh-huh!
0:39:17 > 0:39:18I guess I owe you an apology.
0:39:20 > 0:39:22I snapped.
0:39:25 > 0:39:28No, you were right.
0:39:30 > 0:39:32I was being selfish, but...
0:39:36 > 0:39:37- What's this?- Put your hand out.
0:39:40 > 0:39:42My turn.
0:39:45 > 0:39:47They're the real ones.
0:39:49 > 0:39:51But...
0:39:51 > 0:39:53Lee, um...
0:39:53 > 0:39:55Well, Alison.
0:39:55 > 0:39:58I don't quite know what she had to do in order to get them back, but...
0:40:00 > 0:40:02Means to an end.
0:40:02 > 0:40:04Anyway, what do I care?
0:40:09 > 0:40:11I never thought I'd see these again.
0:40:15 > 0:40:18- Thank you.- You don't need to thank me, I didn't do anything.
0:40:18 > 0:40:20- Yes, you did.- No, I did not.
0:40:21 > 0:40:25It explains why you were getting pain when you ate. The abscesses.
0:40:25 > 0:40:28You think that was because of the operation?
0:40:29 > 0:40:33Once we see inside, we'll be able to find out exactly what's caused it,
0:40:33 > 0:40:34but, yes.
0:40:34 > 0:40:37And you can fix this?
0:40:37 > 0:40:38Mm-hm.
0:40:42 > 0:40:44(Sorry.)
0:40:44 > 0:40:47It's just, after all these years, that's hard to believe.
0:40:47 > 0:40:49Ines, what you've been through is...
0:40:51 > 0:40:53(Thank you.)
0:40:55 > 0:40:58It's a complicated op, so if you want it, then you must...
0:40:58 > 0:41:00Mm. I will beg, if I have to.
0:41:00 > 0:41:02MORVEN CHUCKLES
0:41:03 > 0:41:06Al mal paso darle prisa.
0:41:06 > 0:41:08My mother used to say it to me.
0:41:09 > 0:41:13During bad times, find a solution.
0:41:17 > 0:41:19It's not entirely selfless, what I do.
0:41:22 > 0:41:25Being able to affect a change in people,
0:41:25 > 0:41:27it's a privileged position to be in.
0:41:31 > 0:41:34One that only other doctors can understand, I guess.
0:41:34 > 0:41:37I don't feel myself today, Dom.
0:41:37 > 0:41:41I mean, I've never stopped to work out
0:41:41 > 0:41:45who I am outside of this place, but you, you've had that life.
0:41:45 > 0:41:47You've met my folks. Hm!
0:41:49 > 0:41:50I envy you, Dom.
0:41:50 > 0:41:52I envy your strength.
0:41:53 > 0:41:55Your heart.
0:41:55 > 0:41:58I envy what you've become.
0:41:58 > 0:42:00- Yes, you're selfish. - DOM LAUGHS
0:42:00 > 0:42:03Maybe you had to be. You had to be to get where you wanted to go.
0:42:03 > 0:42:06And I admire that, it takes courage.
0:42:13 > 0:42:14Ah.
0:42:14 > 0:42:16It's here that I need to be.
0:42:19 > 0:42:21That's what I need to tell people!
0:42:23 > 0:42:24Then you'll prepare the vein graft,
0:42:24 > 0:42:27carefully tying off any tributaries. I'll show you how.
0:42:27 > 0:42:31Then I'll anastomose the graft using 5/0 Prolene.
0:42:31 > 0:42:32BUZZING
0:42:34 > 0:42:36Morven? Morven!
0:42:36 > 0:42:39Yeah. Let's do battle.
0:42:40 > 0:42:42It was Ruth, someone once told her
0:42:42 > 0:42:44that we're all walking each other home.
0:42:44 > 0:42:47And it was bugging me what she meant.
0:42:47 > 0:42:48HE COUGHS
0:42:48 > 0:42:52And now I get it, and...and it makes so much sense.
0:42:52 > 0:42:55She wasn't afraid, Morven, because there's a bigger picture.
0:42:55 > 0:42:57Or, at least, there's a possibility of one
0:42:57 > 0:42:59by the very existence of uncertainty.
0:42:59 > 0:43:02And...and that's enough, whatever your beliefs. Erm...right!
0:43:02 > 0:43:06So keep the scarf, but the Nerd Kingdom remains mine. I'm not going anywhere.
0:43:06 > 0:43:08Excellent!
0:43:08 > 0:43:11Ordinarily, I'd say stay off the tramadol, but, erm...
0:43:11 > 0:43:13I like this new you.
0:43:13 > 0:43:16Mm. Screw the heritage sites, life's for the living.
0:43:16 > 0:43:18(Yeah.)
0:43:18 > 0:43:21- Huh! Erm...sorry, darling. Yes, erm... - HE COUGHS
0:43:21 > 0:43:23Yeah, I've been spending all this time worrying about me
0:43:23 > 0:43:26and what other people will think and what I'm leaving behind,
0:43:26 > 0:43:30and...none of that's important.
0:43:30 > 0:43:32It's you, it's you, Morven, that's important,
0:43:32 > 0:43:36and...and this huge, weird, misfit of a family.
0:43:37 > 0:43:39That's all that matters, so, erm...
0:43:41 > 0:43:43Yeah, give me a call when you get this. Erm...
0:43:43 > 0:43:45We have a life to start.
0:43:47 > 0:43:50There's a thought that everyone has their own internal age.
0:43:50 > 0:43:53And it could be when you're a child, maybe,
0:43:53 > 0:43:56or as a 20-something, or old age.
0:43:56 > 0:44:01And...and...and I've always scoffed at, erm...those sorts of things.
0:44:01 > 0:44:03Mindfulness, spirituality,
0:44:03 > 0:44:06superstition, whatever it falls under.
0:44:07 > 0:44:11But this...this feeling, I-I...
0:44:11 > 0:44:13I can't describe it. It's, erm...
0:44:13 > 0:44:16It's not like anything I've felt before.
0:44:17 > 0:44:19A revelation!
0:44:21 > 0:44:23Take a seat.
0:44:26 > 0:44:29I've spent all my life worrying.
0:44:31 > 0:44:33About everything and anything.
0:44:34 > 0:44:39And here I am with what they call suffering, the worst type of luck.
0:44:41 > 0:44:43Except...it isn't.
0:44:45 > 0:44:47It's something that I thought couldn't be beaten.
0:44:47 > 0:44:49But it can.
0:44:49 > 0:44:51And I have!
0:44:51 > 0:44:52Huh!
0:44:52 > 0:44:54I'm more free than I've ever been.
0:44:56 > 0:45:00Because for the first time, I know what I want to do.
0:45:01 > 0:45:03And I can do what I want to do.
0:45:06 > 0:45:08We both can.
0:45:08 > 0:45:09Me and Morven. I'm ready!
0:45:11 > 0:45:13ARTHUR BREATHES HARD
0:45:13 > 0:45:17Because...for the first...time...
0:45:19 > 0:45:22..I don't have to worry about anything.
0:45:22 > 0:45:24Who else can say that?
0:45:24 > 0:45:25Ah!
0:45:25 > 0:45:28How many people find themselves in a position where they...
0:45:28 > 0:45:29ARTHUR WINCES
0:45:29 > 0:45:32..where they have nothing else weighing them down?
0:45:32 > 0:45:34Where they have...
0:45:34 > 0:45:36Arthur?
0:45:36 > 0:45:37ARTHUR BREATHES HARD
0:45:37 > 0:45:39I'm ready to...
0:45:41 > 0:45:43ARTHUR VOMITS
0:45:43 > 0:45:45Arthur!
0:45:46 > 0:45:48ARTHUR WHIMPERS
0:45:48 > 0:45:49ARTHUR HYPERVENTILATES
0:45:49 > 0:45:51(It's all right.)
0:45:53 > 0:45:56Hanssen here. I need the crash team immediately, please.
0:46:00 > 0:46:02Can you hear me, Arthur?
0:46:02 > 0:46:04ARTHUR WHIMPERS
0:46:04 > 0:46:05(You're doing so well.)
0:46:08 > 0:46:10(It's all going to be fine.)
0:46:10 > 0:46:13(I promise.)
0:46:13 > 0:46:16'(I promise.)'
0:46:16 > 0:46:18MACHINES BEEP
0:46:42 > 0:46:44LAUGHTER
0:46:46 > 0:46:48So...you found a way to beat her.
0:46:49 > 0:46:51- To become her.- (Shut up!)
0:46:51 > 0:46:55- The fox really is unscrupulous. - (Stop it, please.)
0:47:01 > 0:47:04So you're letting them do the post-op, too?
0:47:04 > 0:47:07Free labour. You have your own work to get on with.
0:47:07 > 0:47:10Try...and leave me with nothing.
0:47:11 > 0:47:13But I'm not intimidated by you...
0:47:14 > 0:47:17..and I will NOT be bullied.
0:47:17 > 0:47:19I worked my arse off for you.
0:47:19 > 0:47:22Gave up...everything
0:47:22 > 0:47:25to be a part of something extraordinary.
0:47:25 > 0:47:27And when I finally got there...
0:47:29 > 0:47:31..you changed the game.
0:47:31 > 0:47:33It was never a game.
0:47:33 > 0:47:34You turned it into something else.
0:47:36 > 0:47:38What happened?
0:47:40 > 0:47:42What made you so cold?
0:47:45 > 0:47:47(How can you accept being like that?)
0:47:50 > 0:47:52How can you accept being so alone?
0:48:00 > 0:48:01Finished?
0:48:07 > 0:48:10"They watched her as they watched everyone.
0:48:10 > 0:48:16"Always hoping the living could learn to put away rage and sorrow,
0:48:16 > 0:48:18"bitterness and regret."
0:48:19 > 0:48:20You, too?
0:48:20 > 0:48:22Nah, Desperate Housewives.
0:48:22 > 0:48:24SHE CHUCKLES
0:48:26 > 0:48:28When you think about the future,
0:48:28 > 0:48:32you think about all those things that you can do to make you happier.
0:48:34 > 0:48:37But when you think about what has shaped you,
0:48:37 > 0:48:41what has made you the person that you are today,
0:48:41 > 0:48:44you need to remember how lucky you are
0:48:44 > 0:48:48that all that has happened has led to this.
0:48:50 > 0:48:54Dom? It's Arthur.
0:48:56 > 0:48:58MACHINES BEEP
0:49:01 > 0:49:03FOOTSTEPS
0:49:04 > 0:49:06What are you doing?
0:49:08 > 0:49:10You taught me to do it like this. Remember?
0:49:11 > 0:49:15- Did I?- Never make the first fold further than the pocket.
0:49:16 > 0:49:18You should put these on.
0:49:19 > 0:49:21But I'm not done here.
0:49:21 > 0:49:23So why are you going?
0:49:25 > 0:49:26I don't know.
0:49:26 > 0:49:28I can't find my way.
0:49:28 > 0:49:30You will.
0:49:37 > 0:49:39- Will you show me?- We can't, Arthur.
0:49:42 > 0:49:44- Where's Morven? - RAPID BEEPING
0:49:44 > 0:49:46RIC GRIFFIN: Sacha, I need some help here!
0:49:46 > 0:49:48My feet are wet.
0:49:48 > 0:49:50Stop separating everything out.
0:49:50 > 0:49:52You can still have courage and be afraid.
0:49:52 > 0:49:55But you don't have to do it alone.
0:49:55 > 0:49:56MACHINES BEEP
0:49:58 > 0:49:59But I'm lost.
0:50:01 > 0:50:02Come on, Arthur!
0:50:02 > 0:50:05MACHINES BEEP
0:50:06 > 0:50:08Ric?
0:50:10 > 0:50:12I've tried, Sacha.
0:50:13 > 0:50:16It's everywhere.
0:50:16 > 0:50:17MACHINES BEEP
0:50:23 > 0:50:26- Feel alive?- Feel alive!
0:50:26 > 0:50:27And so you should.
0:50:27 > 0:50:30- MORVEN CHUCKLES - You changed that woman's life.
0:50:30 > 0:50:33Oh, yeah, and, erm...about the whole leaving thing.
0:50:33 > 0:50:36I may have been a little bit rash.
0:50:36 > 0:50:38So, no trip?
0:50:38 > 0:50:39Does it sound silly in saying
0:50:39 > 0:50:42I think we'd just be thinking what we're missing here?
0:50:42 > 0:50:44Er...yes, I'd say it sounds ludicrous.
0:50:44 > 0:50:48Mind you, the number of times I've thought about packing it all in.
0:50:48 > 0:50:51I suppose it's just one of those phases that we all go through.
0:50:51 > 0:50:53Doesn't take much to find a tipping point. Hm!
0:50:53 > 0:50:56My ex, practically the only thing he was ever any good at
0:50:56 > 0:50:58was talking me down from the metaphorical ledge.
0:51:05 > 0:51:07SOMBRE INSTRUMENTAL
0:51:31 > 0:51:33I'm here now.
0:51:33 > 0:51:36I'm here.
0:51:36 > 0:51:37MACHINES BEEP
0:51:40 > 0:51:43INSTRUMENTAL CONTINUES
0:51:54 > 0:51:56It's all right, Arthur.
0:51:58 > 0:52:00I'm here now.
0:52:06 > 0:52:08Morven?
0:52:25 > 0:52:29They said it would be good to put some music on.
0:52:29 > 0:52:31- This was already on there. - Thank you.
0:52:44 > 0:52:47I don't know what it is you think you're doing.
0:52:49 > 0:52:53You're supposed to be telling me which flats we can't afford to rent.
0:52:55 > 0:52:58Who's going to stop me painting the kitchen that horrible rust colour I like now?
0:53:01 > 0:53:02We were right about Ms Marias.
0:53:04 > 0:53:07We fixed her.
0:53:07 > 0:53:08Uh-huh! DOOR OPENS
0:53:08 > 0:53:12And that feeling was so good, Arthur. It was so good!
0:53:14 > 0:53:16Because it reminded me of you.
0:53:23 > 0:53:27I don't know if it sunk in just how much you mean to so many people.
0:53:29 > 0:53:32If you...really knew.
0:53:35 > 0:53:38But you gave a bit of yourself to all of us, Arthur Digby.
0:53:41 > 0:53:43So many people, Arthur.
0:53:47 > 0:53:48And I know...
0:53:51 > 0:53:55..you kept a small bit of you back, just for me.
0:53:58 > 0:54:00So, thank you.
0:54:01 > 0:54:03Because I'll never forget that.
0:54:07 > 0:54:09I love you more than you can imagine.
0:54:12 > 0:54:14More than I ever thought possible.
0:54:24 > 0:54:25'And I only hope you know
0:54:25 > 0:54:28'that I tried to give you just as much as you gave to me.
0:54:31 > 0:54:33'More.'
0:54:38 > 0:54:40SHE QUIETLY SOBS
0:54:52 > 0:54:53SHE SNIFFS
0:54:56 > 0:54:58SHE BREATHES DEEPLY
0:54:58 > 0:55:00MACHINES BEEP
0:55:11 > 0:55:13SHE SOBS
0:55:18 > 0:55:20Don't be scared.
0:55:29 > 0:55:31SHE EXHALES
0:55:35 > 0:55:36I know.
0:55:36 > 0:55:38BEEPING SLOWS
0:55:46 > 0:55:48I'll walk you home, Arthur.
0:55:50 > 0:55:52BEEPING SLOWS
0:55:54 > 0:55:56RAPID BEEPING
0:55:56 > 0:55:59FLATLINE BEEP
0:56:17 > 0:56:19SHE SOBS
0:56:38 > 0:56:40FLATLINE BEEP
0:57:05 > 0:57:07SHE SNIFFS