0:00:02 > 0:00:03If you don't come now,
0:00:03 > 0:00:05- I'll go to Hawaii without you. - Maybe that's for the best.
0:00:07 > 0:00:09Can I get some help in here, please?
0:00:09 > 0:00:12VENTILATOR WHIRS
0:00:15 > 0:00:16You could move in with me.
0:00:16 > 0:00:18Really?
0:00:18 > 0:00:19All or nothing.
0:00:20 > 0:00:22I want all.
0:00:24 > 0:00:25What would you give me?
0:00:25 > 0:00:27A good night.
0:00:27 > 0:00:29Well, what are you waiting for?
0:00:30 > 0:00:32Serena?
0:00:32 > 0:00:33I just can't.
0:00:33 > 0:00:34Maybe it's too soon.
0:00:34 > 0:00:36I'm sorry.
0:01:29 > 0:01:31- SERENA:- 'My mother once told me
0:01:31 > 0:01:34'there are three types of people in the world.
0:01:38 > 0:01:39'There are lions...
0:01:47 > 0:01:49'..there are lambs...
0:02:00 > 0:02:02MOBILE RINGS
0:02:03 > 0:02:05'..and there are shepherds.
0:02:14 > 0:02:20'Life is all about working out which type of person you are.'
0:02:23 > 0:02:26No more games. No more tests.
0:02:27 > 0:02:29'Lift going up.
0:02:30 > 0:02:32'Doors closing.'
0:02:41 > 0:02:43Hello.
0:02:44 > 0:02:45Hi.
0:02:46 > 0:02:48I guess we should talk.
0:02:49 > 0:02:50I couldn't agree more.
0:02:54 > 0:02:56Ms Campbell... You're back?
0:02:56 > 0:02:58As I said I would be.
0:02:58 > 0:03:00- How's Jason?- Recovering.
0:03:00 > 0:03:03Who drew up this rota and what exactly is "administrative duty"
0:03:03 > 0:03:06and why am I doing it to the exclusion of all else?
0:03:06 > 0:03:08It's teaching... and that sort of thing.
0:03:08 > 0:03:10Teaching who?
0:03:10 > 0:03:11Me.
0:03:11 > 0:03:13Well, juniors like me
0:03:13 > 0:03:15and others...
0:03:15 > 0:03:17who are junior.
0:03:19 > 0:03:20Who authorised this?
0:03:20 > 0:03:22I wouldn't call it "lighter duties".
0:03:22 > 0:03:25What else would you call baby-sitting juniors in a wet lab?
0:03:25 > 0:03:28Teaching? It's a teaching hospital, after all.
0:03:28 > 0:03:30Look, I know you're just looking out for me,
0:03:30 > 0:03:33but the last thing I need to be doing is teaching.
0:03:33 > 0:03:35Nurturing's not my thing.
0:03:37 > 0:03:38I've missed you.
0:03:40 > 0:03:42I know.
0:03:42 > 0:03:43I just needed...
0:03:43 > 0:03:45Space.
0:03:45 > 0:03:46I understand.
0:03:46 > 0:03:48Just...
0:03:50 > 0:03:52What's in the folder?
0:03:52 > 0:03:55Oh, nothing. Just a...research project.
0:03:55 > 0:03:56KNOCK AT DOOR
0:03:56 > 0:03:59ED are sending through trauma patients. Serious RTC.
0:04:02 > 0:04:04So how was the conference?
0:04:04 > 0:04:06Incredible.
0:04:06 > 0:04:08Networking,
0:04:08 > 0:04:10weather, beaches...
0:04:10 > 0:04:12Juan, the dedicated hotel masseur.
0:04:13 > 0:04:15OK, I get the picture.
0:04:15 > 0:04:17And the entire experience was ruined by
0:04:17 > 0:04:19a Dominic Copeland-sized hole in my life.
0:04:19 > 0:04:22Well, whose fault was that?
0:04:22 > 0:04:25I think we both made mistakes, don't you? Did things we regret?
0:04:25 > 0:04:26And what do you regret?
0:04:26 > 0:04:28Whatever made you push me away.
0:04:28 > 0:04:29I didn't push you away.
0:04:31 > 0:04:33I wanted you to listen.
0:04:33 > 0:04:35All right.
0:04:35 > 0:04:36I'm listening.
0:04:39 > 0:04:41Look, if we need to move on, we need to clear the air.
0:04:41 > 0:04:43Be brutally honest with each other.
0:04:43 > 0:04:46And if we get past that, maybe we can...start over.
0:04:48 > 0:04:50- Clean slate?- Exactly.
0:04:52 > 0:04:53So..
0:04:55 > 0:04:57What do I need to do to make this work?
0:05:00 > 0:05:02You need to stop testing me.
0:05:04 > 0:05:08I want you to have faith in me as a doctor
0:05:08 > 0:05:09and as your partner.
0:05:11 > 0:05:15And I want to spend more time with my friends.
0:05:16 > 0:05:19I also want to do more couple-y things.
0:05:19 > 0:05:22I want to go to DIY stores.
0:05:22 > 0:05:24I want to buy pot plants.
0:05:25 > 0:05:27- Have dinner parties!- OK.
0:05:29 > 0:05:32Well, invite Zosia and Oliver round for dinner.
0:05:32 > 0:05:34Tonight. I'm cooking.
0:05:34 > 0:05:35Really?
0:05:35 > 0:05:37I draw the line at DIY.
0:05:40 > 0:05:42What do you need me to do?
0:05:45 > 0:05:47Believe...
0:05:47 > 0:05:48in yourself.
0:05:50 > 0:05:51In us.
0:05:51 > 0:05:53Believe that I love you.
0:05:55 > 0:05:56I believe.
0:05:58 > 0:06:01Then you'll understand why, last week, after you left,
0:06:01 > 0:06:04I went to a bar, got drunk, and ended up sleeping with someone else.
0:06:07 > 0:06:10To be fair, I thought you had broken up with me so, technically,
0:06:10 > 0:06:13it wasn't "cheating". It was more rebound sex.
0:06:16 > 0:06:18- Who?- It doesn't matter.
0:06:21 > 0:06:23Do I know them?
0:06:23 > 0:06:25Dom, really, it's irrelevant.
0:06:25 > 0:06:27How...?
0:06:27 > 0:06:28How can you say that?
0:06:28 > 0:06:31Because it wasn't about HIM - it was about US.
0:06:31 > 0:06:35We just promised to tell each other the truth in an attempt to
0:06:35 > 0:06:37save our relationship.
0:06:38 > 0:06:40That means something to me.
0:06:40 > 0:06:42It means everything.
0:06:44 > 0:06:47But...if you can't get past this...
0:06:49 > 0:06:51..if we can't trust each other...
0:06:53 > 0:06:57..then maybe we should just call it a day right here and now.
0:07:00 > 0:07:01Is that what you want?
0:07:03 > 0:07:05- No...- Are you sure?
0:07:05 > 0:07:06Yes.
0:07:15 > 0:07:17If you two lovebirds have finished,
0:07:17 > 0:07:19ED have sent us a present.
0:07:19 > 0:07:20On our way.
0:07:24 > 0:07:25Clean slate?
0:07:29 > 0:07:32Mr Turpin. Do you mind if I examine your abdomen?
0:07:32 > 0:07:34Whatever. Just don't call me "Mr Turpin".
0:07:34 > 0:07:37Why don't you like being called Mr Turpin?
0:07:37 > 0:07:39Because it's stupid.
0:07:39 > 0:07:42Turnip, Turn-up, Terrapin...
0:07:42 > 0:07:45You'd understand if you'd gone to public school.
0:07:45 > 0:07:47- What do you mean? - Daniel it is, then.
0:07:47 > 0:07:49- HE GROANS - My apologies.
0:07:50 > 0:07:54Nurse Harrison, can I get FBC, U&Es, LFTs, clotting,
0:07:54 > 0:07:56group and save, please?
0:07:59 > 0:08:01Do you think I offended her?
0:08:01 > 0:08:04I can be a little defensive at times.
0:08:04 > 0:08:06I'm sure she'll survive.
0:08:06 > 0:08:08Excuse me a moment.
0:08:12 > 0:08:15Possible splenic injury. Do you mind if I order an ultrasound?
0:08:15 > 0:08:17Case is all yours.
0:08:17 > 0:08:19Faith in you as a doctor, right?
0:08:19 > 0:08:21Unless you want me to take over?
0:08:21 > 0:08:22No.
0:08:22 > 0:08:24It's fine.
0:08:24 > 0:08:25OK.
0:08:27 > 0:08:32This is Brian Dunblane, 60. Penetrating chest trauma.
0:08:32 > 0:08:35BP 90/60, pulse 110.
0:08:35 > 0:08:37This is a chest X-ray from the ED.
0:08:38 > 0:08:42Well, Mr Dunblane, you've bashed yourself up good and proper.
0:08:42 > 0:08:46Brian was the "bashee" rather than a "basher", so to speak.
0:08:46 > 0:08:48This is Mr Dunblane's wife...
0:08:49 > 0:08:50Lexy?
0:08:50 > 0:08:52Hello, Serena.
0:08:52 > 0:08:54You know each other?
0:08:54 > 0:08:55We did.
0:08:55 > 0:08:57You're married to him?
0:08:57 > 0:08:59Bit of a whirlwind,
0:08:59 > 0:09:02which you'd know if you still came to church.
0:09:02 > 0:09:04You were in the RTC? What happened?
0:09:05 > 0:09:07Act of God.
0:09:07 > 0:09:09Is Brian going to be OK?
0:09:09 > 0:09:12Oh, I'm afraid he's got a significant chest injury,
0:09:12 > 0:09:15so we'll need to run some tests before we can say anything for sure.
0:09:15 > 0:09:17Ms Campbell... Lexy?!
0:09:18 > 0:09:20Jasmine, right?
0:09:20 > 0:09:21You know each other?
0:09:21 > 0:09:25Dr Burrows was present at the last act of God that came my way.
0:09:26 > 0:09:28The regeneration of my heart.
0:09:28 > 0:09:30- Ms Campbell?- Excuse me.
0:09:30 > 0:09:32Chest drain here, please.
0:09:33 > 0:09:36Ruptured DJ flexure. Needs to be in theatre now.
0:09:36 > 0:09:37How's your guy?
0:09:37 > 0:09:39Chest drain, so...wait and see.
0:09:39 > 0:09:40He's just a boy.
0:09:40 > 0:09:44Old enough to drive, old enough to drink. Toxicology results.
0:09:44 > 0:09:46Blimey. It's not even nine o'clock.
0:09:47 > 0:09:49So much for an act of God.
0:09:49 > 0:09:51Prep him for theatre now, please.
0:09:51 > 0:09:52I don't get it.
0:09:52 > 0:09:55We are de-cluttering.
0:09:55 > 0:09:57Ever since I moved into Oliver's, we can't move for tat.
0:09:57 > 0:10:01Whether it's his VHS tape of the X-Files...
0:10:01 > 0:10:03Her subscription to Hello magazine.
0:10:03 > 0:10:05His Beano collection...
0:10:05 > 0:10:07Random hockey sticks lying around.
0:10:07 > 0:10:09- Er, lacrosse, actually. - "Lacrosse, actually"!
0:10:09 > 0:10:13Anyway, the point is, it has to go, so...my tat. His tat.
0:10:13 > 0:10:15So you get to choose what to chuck from each other's box?
0:10:15 > 0:10:17Exactly. For example...
0:10:19 > 0:10:21- Not my golf clubs. - When did you last play?
0:10:21 > 0:10:23- Two thousand and...- Thank you.
0:10:23 > 0:10:25- Right.- ..four.- Gone.
0:10:25 > 0:10:27- Gone.- See? Not so bad, is it?
0:10:27 > 0:10:29Anyway, you never know.
0:10:29 > 0:10:32We might find out something new about each other.
0:10:32 > 0:10:34PAGER BLEEPS Ooh!
0:10:34 > 0:10:36- To be continued!- Bye-ee!
0:10:36 > 0:10:39OK, give us a gander at Zosia's box.
0:10:39 > 0:10:40- It just doesn't feel right. - Come on!
0:10:43 > 0:10:45A second edition Bronte?
0:10:45 > 0:10:46Zosia's got some classy tat.
0:10:46 > 0:10:49This can't be right.
0:10:49 > 0:10:51It's an engagement ring, isn't it?
0:10:51 > 0:10:53Ah. That's not an engagement ring, doofus.
0:10:53 > 0:10:56- What is it, then? - A massive bloody hint, mate.
0:11:00 > 0:11:03You're being ridiculous. Zosia has zero interest in getting married.
0:11:03 > 0:11:05So you've had this discussion?
0:11:05 > 0:11:06Not exactly.
0:11:06 > 0:11:08Well, how about "inexactly"?
0:11:08 > 0:11:10We haven't even discussed marriage.
0:11:10 > 0:11:12- Then how do you know? - I don't, I guess.
0:11:12 > 0:11:14Where's it come from?
0:11:14 > 0:11:16I mean, she's just moved in with me.
0:11:16 > 0:11:18- It's the mysteries of love, innit? - Ah...
0:11:18 > 0:11:21Sometimes it's just the right time. Something in the air.
0:11:21 > 0:11:22Fate intervenes. The universe
0:11:22 > 0:11:24telling you to reach out and grab the moment.
0:11:24 > 0:11:26There is no such thing as fate,
0:11:26 > 0:11:29let alone fate taking a hand in serious, grown-up life decisions.
0:11:29 > 0:11:30When the universe speaks...
0:11:30 > 0:11:33Oh, no, the universe is not trying to send me a message, OK?!
0:11:33 > 0:11:35- Mr Valentine?- Yeah?
0:11:35 > 0:11:37ED sent up some patients.
0:11:38 > 0:11:41My fiance's having problems with his pacemaker. Can you help?
0:11:41 > 0:11:43When the universe wants to tell you something,
0:11:43 > 0:11:45it really doesn't mess about.
0:11:45 > 0:11:47SHE HUMS: Here Comes The Bride
0:11:51 > 0:11:54We were on our way to church when I started feeling sick.
0:11:54 > 0:11:57Mum made the priest's husband turn back, then - bam!
0:11:57 > 0:11:58Out of nowhere...
0:11:58 > 0:12:00Is your mother OK?
0:12:00 > 0:12:01Not a scratch.
0:12:02 > 0:12:04Did she not come up here with you?
0:12:04 > 0:12:05Stayed in ED.
0:12:07 > 0:12:10The Sheep Herder - her latest fiance - was having palpitations.
0:12:11 > 0:12:14Probably faking it to get out of marrying her.
0:12:16 > 0:12:18Mum's four for four.
0:12:18 > 0:12:21Four weddings, one funeral, three divorces.
0:12:23 > 0:12:24Ouch.
0:12:25 > 0:12:28It's like she has some... emptiness she needs to fill.
0:12:30 > 0:12:32Maybe she's in love.
0:12:36 > 0:12:38You've never been in love?
0:12:38 > 0:12:39What would be the point?
0:12:43 > 0:12:44Give it time.
0:12:45 > 0:12:48The ugly duckling does become the swan.
0:12:49 > 0:12:51What would you know about it?
0:12:51 > 0:12:53You'd be surprised.
0:12:54 > 0:12:57The ultrasound has shown there's possible damage to your spleen,
0:12:57 > 0:12:59so I'm going to need to do a CT.
0:13:10 > 0:13:13Excuse me, I've got a delivery for Mr Mayfield.
0:13:14 > 0:13:15Yeah, sure, I can take that.
0:13:19 > 0:13:21- Thanks.- Cheers.
0:13:50 > 0:13:53The other driver. Is he...?
0:13:53 > 0:13:54Stable, for now.
0:13:55 > 0:13:57Good. I'm glad.
0:13:58 > 0:13:59Really?
0:13:59 > 0:14:01You're very forgiving.
0:14:01 > 0:14:03It's in the job description.
0:14:03 > 0:14:04Hm.
0:14:05 > 0:14:08You haven't been back to service.
0:14:08 > 0:14:11No. Church was my mother's thing. I went to keep her company.
0:14:11 > 0:14:14Once she died, there was no point.
0:14:14 > 0:14:15Shame.
0:14:15 > 0:14:17Adrienne's faith gave her comfort.
0:14:19 > 0:14:22Adrienne died terrified and in pain.
0:14:23 > 0:14:26By the end, nothing gave her comfort.
0:14:26 > 0:14:28Not me, not morphine,
0:14:28 > 0:14:30and certainly not her faith.
0:14:32 > 0:14:34I'm sorry.
0:14:37 > 0:14:39The boy who almost killed your husband
0:14:39 > 0:14:43had a blood alcohol reading of 0.12 -
0:14:43 > 0:14:45that's really high.
0:14:45 > 0:14:47If you're looking for a reason,
0:14:47 > 0:14:49look no further than that.
0:14:51 > 0:14:55I want Mr Dunblane's chest drain on suction 2kpa and 15-minute obs.
0:15:00 > 0:15:03I'm sure Ms Campbell didn't mean that.
0:15:04 > 0:15:06Serena rarely says anything she doesn't mean.
0:15:08 > 0:15:10She's going through a tough time.
0:15:20 > 0:15:22Daniel's ECG.
0:15:25 > 0:15:27This reads like a myocardial infarction.
0:15:27 > 0:15:31He also has a recent history of dizziness and nausea.
0:15:31 > 0:15:34I'd quite like to get a consult from Zosia, if I may.
0:15:34 > 0:15:37And while I'm at it, I can invite her and Oliver round for dinner
0:15:37 > 0:15:40- this evening, if that's still happening.- Huh?
0:15:40 > 0:15:42Yes, of course.
0:15:42 > 0:15:44I spent quite a bit of time with them while you were away.
0:15:44 > 0:15:46Stopped me from getting lonely.
0:15:46 > 0:15:50What about you? What did you get up to? Meet anyone new?
0:15:50 > 0:15:51Make any friends?
0:15:51 > 0:15:53Not really.
0:15:53 > 0:15:55That's odd. You're usually the life and soul of the party.
0:15:55 > 0:15:58- Is everything all right?- Apart from the fact you just told me
0:15:58 > 0:16:01- you cheated on me. - I thought we agreed - clean slate?
0:16:01 > 0:16:03Just how dirty did that slate get?
0:16:04 > 0:16:06Look, I want to forget last week ever happened.
0:16:06 > 0:16:09But if you can't do that, then you need to tell me now.
0:16:09 > 0:16:11We don't have anything without trust. Right?
0:16:12 > 0:16:14Right.
0:16:14 > 0:16:15Just a blip.
0:16:15 > 0:16:17I'm fine.
0:16:17 > 0:16:19Good.
0:16:19 > 0:16:21Let me know what Zosia says about that ECG.
0:16:36 > 0:16:39Excellent! His passcode is my birthday. Sweet.
0:16:41 > 0:16:42Right, "J".
0:16:42 > 0:16:44"Jaime". "Jeremy".
0:16:44 > 0:16:45Do you recognise any of these?
0:16:45 > 0:16:47No. Not yet.
0:16:48 > 0:16:50So he slept with someone else.
0:16:50 > 0:16:52But he told you - he didn't have to do that.
0:16:54 > 0:16:56So you forgive him or you don't.
0:16:56 > 0:16:58You trust him or you don't.
0:17:06 > 0:17:07OK.
0:17:07 > 0:17:10So Mr Turpin has some STT changes, but creatine,
0:17:10 > 0:17:13kinase and troponin indicate no myocardial infarction.
0:17:14 > 0:17:18What if he is actually seeing someone else?
0:17:18 > 0:17:20Well, then he doesn't deserve you.
0:17:20 > 0:17:21But what does that say about me?
0:17:21 > 0:17:23Nothing.
0:17:23 > 0:17:25Don't always assume you deserve the worst, Dominic.
0:17:27 > 0:17:29Yeah, I just struggle to believe that I deserve any better.
0:17:32 > 0:17:34I want the entire ward searched!
0:17:34 > 0:17:35We have a thief.
0:17:35 > 0:17:37We do? What's been stolen?
0:17:37 > 0:17:40My phone, I put it right here in the drawer and now it's gone.
0:17:40 > 0:17:42Right, OK.
0:17:42 > 0:17:44Essie, will you call security, please?
0:17:44 > 0:17:46I don't think there's any need to call security.
0:17:46 > 0:17:48Somebody's probably just picked it up by accident.
0:17:48 > 0:17:50Phones all look alike these days.
0:17:50 > 0:17:52I really think calling security's a little bit overboard.
0:17:52 > 0:17:54I'm not calling security.
0:17:54 > 0:17:55Then who are you calling?
0:17:55 > 0:17:57PHONE RINGS
0:18:01 > 0:18:04See? I told you. They all look alike. I mean...
0:18:04 > 0:18:05HE PANTS, MACHINE BEEPS
0:18:08 > 0:18:11OK, bradycardic... Atropine 0.6 milligrams.
0:18:11 > 0:18:12Is it the spleen?
0:18:17 > 0:18:18Is there any pain, Daniel?
0:18:23 > 0:18:25BP's up.
0:18:25 > 0:18:26Heart rate stabilising.
0:18:28 > 0:18:29Feel better?
0:18:38 > 0:18:41What did Zosia say when she saw the ECG?
0:18:41 > 0:18:43Clinically - no myocardial infarction.
0:18:43 > 0:18:46Well, if it's not the heart, then it must be the splenic injury,
0:18:46 > 0:18:48but that doesn't explain the bradycardia.
0:18:48 > 0:18:50OK, then I'll book another CT scan.
0:18:50 > 0:18:52Dom?
0:18:52 > 0:18:53My phone?
0:19:23 > 0:19:26Why didn't you tell me about Elinor?
0:19:27 > 0:19:29What? I... How do you know?
0:19:31 > 0:19:33Dr Burrows tell you?
0:19:33 > 0:19:35She was just trying to help.
0:19:35 > 0:19:37She needs to learn discretion.
0:19:37 > 0:19:39She wasn't gossiping, Serena.
0:19:39 > 0:19:41She was trying to explain.
0:19:41 > 0:19:43Explain what?
0:19:45 > 0:19:47Why you're so angry.
0:19:47 > 0:19:48I'm not angry.
0:19:49 > 0:19:52You don't have to pretend that everything's all right.
0:19:54 > 0:19:55I'm not.
0:19:56 > 0:19:59Then what are you doing here?
0:19:59 > 0:20:01Working. What else should I be doing?
0:20:03 > 0:20:04Grieving.
0:20:06 > 0:20:10Yeah, I'll leave wailing to a non-existent Sky Fairy
0:20:10 > 0:20:11for other people to do.
0:20:11 > 0:20:14I'll be looking for my answers in science.
0:20:15 > 0:20:16I hope you find them.
0:20:18 > 0:20:20And if you don't,
0:20:20 > 0:20:21I hope you find peace.
0:20:25 > 0:20:27Er... It's Mr Dunblane.
0:20:32 > 0:20:34BP 120/80. Pulse 90.
0:20:34 > 0:20:36Saturation 62%.
0:20:36 > 0:20:38Did you check the suction? When did you last do obs?
0:20:38 > 0:20:40- 20 minutes ago. - I said every 15 minutes.
0:20:40 > 0:20:43Right, we need to get him into theatre now, please.
0:20:43 > 0:20:46Maybe if you hadn't been so busy gossiping about my personal life...
0:20:59 > 0:21:01Your pacemaker has detached from the heart,
0:21:01 > 0:21:04so we will need to operate immediately and reconnect it.
0:21:04 > 0:21:06And is it dangerous?
0:21:06 > 0:21:07All surgery carries risk.
0:21:07 > 0:21:10- We can't wait? - Well, it's not advisable, no.
0:21:10 > 0:21:13Would you mind just signing these consent forms?
0:21:13 > 0:21:15I will, on one condition.
0:21:16 > 0:21:17What's that?
0:21:20 > 0:21:22We want to get married first.
0:21:22 > 0:21:23As I said, this can't really wait.
0:21:23 > 0:21:26No, no. We want to get married right here, right now.
0:21:31 > 0:21:33On the ward?
0:21:33 > 0:21:35Or no operation.
0:21:45 > 0:21:47KNOCK ON DOOR
0:21:51 > 0:21:54I'm glad you asked to see me, actually.
0:21:54 > 0:21:58I was wondering, do you think that Daniel Turpin's symptoms
0:21:58 > 0:22:02could be caused by some sort of exposure to a toxic substance?
0:22:03 > 0:22:05It's a good theory. Run with it.
0:22:07 > 0:22:08What can I do for you?
0:22:15 > 0:22:17Do you know who this is?
0:22:18 > 0:22:20- No.- It's my niece.
0:22:21 > 0:22:24She's 19, talented...
0:22:24 > 0:22:25outdoorsy, fun.
0:22:27 > 0:22:29I want you to get to know my niece.
0:22:30 > 0:22:34Her name's Jaime. She's stored in my phone under the letter "J".
0:22:41 > 0:22:42I can explain.
0:22:42 > 0:22:45Do you know what hurts? It's not that you lied to me.
0:22:45 > 0:22:46Stole my phone.
0:22:48 > 0:22:51It's that after promising to be honest,
0:22:51 > 0:22:52to believe in us...
0:22:53 > 0:22:56..you didn't even come to me. You went to Zosia.
0:22:58 > 0:22:59I'm sorry...
0:22:59 > 0:23:01So am I.
0:23:01 > 0:23:03I don't think this is going to work out, Dom.
0:23:04 > 0:23:07We just keep finding ways of hurting each other.
0:23:10 > 0:23:11You... You're breaking up with me?
0:23:11 > 0:23:15I don't think you've left me any other choice.
0:23:15 > 0:23:16Do you?
0:23:20 > 0:23:22It went as well as can be expected.
0:23:22 > 0:23:24- He's sleeping now, but... - Thank you.
0:23:24 > 0:23:27Oh. OK, well, it's my job.
0:23:27 > 0:23:28But thank you anyway.
0:23:30 > 0:23:33I thought that you'd be...
0:23:33 > 0:23:36Above fear? Free of doubt?
0:23:36 > 0:23:38Well, isn't that what faith is for?
0:23:38 > 0:23:41It's not a crutch. Or it shouldn't be.
0:23:42 > 0:23:44I love Brian deeply.
0:23:44 > 0:23:47I now cannot imagine life without him.
0:23:49 > 0:23:51Now, I'm sorry, I've got to go.
0:23:51 > 0:23:54I'm officiating at a wedding on Darwin.
0:23:55 > 0:23:58One that was abruptly interrupted earlier.
0:24:00 > 0:24:05Young Jasmine. I think she feels responsible for Brian's crisis.
0:24:05 > 0:24:08She isn't.
0:24:08 > 0:24:11Maybe she needs to hear that from you.
0:24:15 > 0:24:17She thinks I'm useless.
0:24:17 > 0:24:18She's grieving.
0:24:18 > 0:24:19She hates me.
0:24:19 > 0:24:22She has been on my case since the moment I arrived.
0:24:22 > 0:24:25I'll talk to her. In my capacity as Foundation Doc...
0:24:26 > 0:24:28Jeez.
0:24:29 > 0:24:31You all right?
0:24:32 > 0:24:35This is Elinor's case review.
0:24:35 > 0:24:37- These are confidential, aren't they? - Mm-hm.
0:24:37 > 0:24:38Ah, Jasmine, I want...
0:24:41 > 0:24:43What are you doing with those?
0:24:43 > 0:24:45They fell and I...
0:24:45 > 0:24:46Get out.
0:24:51 > 0:24:53You can't talk to her like that.
0:24:53 > 0:24:57An F1 going through my private papers - I'll talk how I like.
0:24:58 > 0:25:00What are you doing with those?
0:25:00 > 0:25:02Research. Was there anything else?
0:25:03 > 0:25:06Look, I know how you feel...
0:25:07 > 0:25:09..the pain.
0:25:09 > 0:25:13But do you think you may have come back a bit too soon?
0:25:15 > 0:25:17You know, after Arthur died, I felt...
0:25:17 > 0:25:20You had two months knowing Arthur was terminal.
0:25:21 > 0:25:23Two months to prepare.
0:25:24 > 0:25:26I had two minutes.
0:25:28 > 0:25:31You don't know what I'm feeling at all.
0:25:42 > 0:25:44So, she's really marrying him?
0:25:44 > 0:25:46Despite everything that's happened?
0:25:50 > 0:25:53Daniel, why is this such a bad thing?
0:25:55 > 0:25:57After my father died...
0:25:58 > 0:26:00..I remember my mum crying.
0:26:03 > 0:26:06I'd go into her room, hold her, but...
0:26:07 > 0:26:08..I couldn't help her.
0:26:11 > 0:26:14One night, the crying stopped.
0:26:15 > 0:26:16I went.
0:26:18 > 0:26:20There was a man in her room.
0:26:24 > 0:26:27That's when I realised my mother doesn't love me.
0:26:29 > 0:26:31That there's something wrong with me.
0:26:31 > 0:26:33That's not true.
0:26:34 > 0:26:37Do you know why the ugly duckling made it?
0:26:38 > 0:26:40Because he was actually a swan!
0:26:42 > 0:26:45What if I'm just an actual ugly duckling?
0:26:47 > 0:26:49Then you change.
0:26:50 > 0:26:51Transform.
0:26:52 > 0:26:56Become something, someone different.
0:26:56 > 0:26:59If your mother won't notice you, then you make her.
0:26:59 > 0:27:02But you have to do something.
0:27:02 > 0:27:03Anything.
0:27:05 > 0:27:06Be fabulous.
0:27:08 > 0:27:11- You really think- I- can be fabulous?
0:27:11 > 0:27:14I think you can be whatever you want to be.
0:27:27 > 0:27:28You coming?
0:27:29 > 0:27:31My plus-one?
0:27:33 > 0:27:35I would love to.
0:27:35 > 0:27:38But one of us has to stay here and work out what's wrong with you.
0:27:40 > 0:27:43'Daniel Turpin's stepfather is a farmer.'
0:27:43 > 0:27:47He and his mother moved in with him about eight months ago.
0:27:47 > 0:27:51Two months after that, Daniel starts experiencing these...allergies.
0:27:51 > 0:27:54I think that he's been exposed to organophosphates
0:27:54 > 0:27:56from the pesticides used on the farm.
0:27:57 > 0:28:00Outstanding catch, Dr Copeland.
0:28:05 > 0:28:07Was there something else?
0:28:07 > 0:28:10Daniel's mother is going ahead with the wedding.
0:28:11 > 0:28:13He asked me to be his plus-one.
0:28:15 > 0:28:16Do you want me to take over?
0:28:16 > 0:28:19No, I think I can handle a little bit of hero worship.
0:28:19 > 0:28:22Be careful, Dom.
0:28:22 > 0:28:24- He's just a kid. - Who craves attention.
0:28:24 > 0:28:28He feels unloved. Unlovable. He's probably never experienced it.
0:28:28 > 0:28:31And therefore might mistake it for simple kindness.
0:28:31 > 0:28:34Might not take rejection well.
0:28:34 > 0:28:36What would YOU know? I doubt you've been rejected in your life.
0:28:36 > 0:28:39Just don't get too close, OK?
0:28:39 > 0:28:42Well, I can handle it.
0:28:42 > 0:28:45- I think I know the kid better than you do.- Of course you do.
0:28:47 > 0:28:51- What's that supposed to mean? - Oh, come on.
0:28:51 > 0:28:55A spotty, needy teenager with absentee father issues,
0:28:55 > 0:28:57slight oedipal complex,
0:28:57 > 0:29:00he hates everything about himself, including his own name.
0:29:00 > 0:29:04Remind you of anyone YOU used to know...Dazzle?
0:29:06 > 0:29:07- That's unfair.- Is it?
0:29:09 > 0:29:10Just be careful.
0:29:15 > 0:29:17I can't believe you got married.
0:29:17 > 0:29:19Not shotgun, I hope!
0:29:19 > 0:29:20No!
0:29:20 > 0:29:25Known Brian 30 years or more. Worked together, played together.
0:29:25 > 0:29:29And then one day...it was love.
0:29:30 > 0:29:34Looks like you regenerated my heart in more ways than one!
0:29:38 > 0:29:40And maybe your own as well.
0:29:59 > 0:30:05After the events of today, a poem by John Donne comes to mind.
0:30:05 > 0:30:07Rhona?
0:30:08 > 0:30:12Then, Jack, if you could put the ring on Rhona's finger.
0:30:15 > 0:30:19I wonder, by my troth, what thou and I
0:30:19 > 0:30:21Did, till we loved?
0:30:22 > 0:30:25Were we not weaned till then?
0:30:26 > 0:30:28But sucked on country pleasures, childishly?
0:30:29 > 0:30:33Or snorted we in the Seven Sleepers' den?
0:30:33 > 0:30:38'Twas so, but this, all pleasures fancies be.
0:30:40 > 0:30:43If ever any beauty I did see
0:30:44 > 0:30:51Which I desired, and got, 'twas but a dream of thee...
0:30:54 > 0:30:57And now good morrow to our waking souls.
0:31:00 > 0:31:03Which watch not one another out of fear,
0:31:06 > 0:31:10For love, all love of other sights controls,
0:31:13 > 0:31:16And makes one little room an everywhere.
0:31:20 > 0:31:22You may kiss.
0:31:31 > 0:31:33Sorry.
0:31:33 > 0:31:37To be fair, that is only the second most revolting thing I've seen
0:31:37 > 0:31:38in the last few minutes.
0:31:40 > 0:31:43- What are you doing with those? - Trying to understand.
0:31:43 > 0:31:45Piece together what happened to Elinor and make sure
0:31:45 > 0:31:48- it never happens again.- How? - By looking at our procedures
0:31:48 > 0:31:50and seeing what we could have done differently,
0:31:50 > 0:31:52- what was missed. - Nothing was missed.
0:31:52 > 0:31:54Nothing obvious. But I found this, you see.
0:31:54 > 0:31:57Dr Burrows and Elinor talked to each other. Look.
0:31:57 > 0:32:00"The patient spoke of needing to use the water closet."
0:32:00 > 0:32:03Elinor never called the loo the "water closet" in her life.
0:32:03 > 0:32:06That wasn't her talking, it was the haemorrhage. She was confused.
0:32:06 > 0:32:08It's not even an obvious one point drop in GCS.
0:32:08 > 0:32:10Dr Burrows can't have assumed that.
0:32:10 > 0:32:12But she can be trained to look for it.
0:32:12 > 0:32:14See, what happened to Elinor - there's a reason.
0:32:14 > 0:32:16Something that can be learned from and fixed.
0:32:16 > 0:32:19There'll be other answers in there and I'm going to find them.
0:32:19 > 0:32:21What if you can't?
0:32:27 > 0:32:30What are you doing with those? Come on, now, give them back to me.
0:32:30 > 0:32:32- I can't let you do this to yourself, Serena.- That's not your decision
0:32:32 > 0:32:35- to make.- You're tilting at windmills.- Give her back to me!
0:32:38 > 0:32:40KNOCK AT DOOR
0:32:41 > 0:32:44Did you order a head CT for Mr Dunblane?
0:32:44 > 0:32:49No. ED might have requested one before sending him on to us. Why?
0:32:49 > 0:32:52It's just that Neuro have called me about their findings.
0:32:57 > 0:32:59Oh... OK.
0:33:01 > 0:33:02Thank you.
0:33:03 > 0:33:06- You're certainly full of surprises today.- I am?
0:33:06 > 0:33:09Scissors, please.
0:33:09 > 0:33:13- Your box. - Ah...you found my little secret.
0:33:13 > 0:33:14I certainly did.
0:33:14 > 0:33:16And?
0:33:18 > 0:33:20It's a big decision.
0:33:20 > 0:33:22That's why I left it to you.
0:33:22 > 0:33:25Yeah, you don't think it's worth us discussing?
0:33:25 > 0:33:28Well, it's a yes or no. Right?
0:33:28 > 0:33:30Right.
0:33:30 > 0:33:32Well?
0:33:35 > 0:33:37BEEPING What is it?
0:33:39 > 0:33:42The leads have come out of the atrium. Caused a bleed.
0:33:42 > 0:33:45Apply pressure, please. Purse strings, please, Nurse.
0:33:45 > 0:33:46Thank you.
0:33:51 > 0:33:52BEEPING STOPS
0:33:54 > 0:33:56We should probably save this conversation for later.
0:33:59 > 0:34:02It could have been there for years or it could have formed
0:34:02 > 0:34:04a few weeks ago. We simply don't know.
0:34:06 > 0:34:08Ruptured cerebral aneurysm?
0:34:08 > 0:34:09Yes.
0:34:11 > 0:34:13And what happens now?
0:34:13 > 0:34:16Neurosurgery are putting together a team.
0:34:16 > 0:34:18They'll be here as soon as they can, all right?
0:34:37 > 0:34:39Hey, you.
0:34:39 > 0:34:41You gave me a scare.
0:34:42 > 0:34:44You're going to be just fine.
0:34:44 > 0:34:47OK? I'll be here.
0:34:49 > 0:34:50Waiting like al...
0:34:55 > 0:34:57- BEEPING - Crash trolley!
0:35:03 > 0:35:05CONTINUOUS BEEP
0:35:05 > 0:35:06No output.
0:35:06 > 0:35:07Back in.
0:35:12 > 0:35:15CONTINUOUS BEEP CONTINUES
0:35:27 > 0:35:30What were Elinor's final words?
0:35:30 > 0:35:32Sorry?
0:35:32 > 0:35:36What was the last thing she said? Was it something profound?
0:35:38 > 0:35:40I don't know. I wasn't there.
0:35:40 > 0:35:45"If you say so, love" - that's the last thing Brian said to me.
0:35:46 > 0:35:49I told him to take a left onto Holly Way,
0:35:49 > 0:35:51avoid the traffic on the A road.
0:35:53 > 0:35:54"If you say so, love."
0:35:57 > 0:35:59He's so young.
0:36:01 > 0:36:08"Whoever sheds the blood of man, by man shall his blood be shed,
0:36:08 > 0:36:11"for God made man in his own image."
0:36:14 > 0:36:18You do understand that Brian's death wasn't caused by the accident?
0:36:19 > 0:36:23I wasn't talking about him. I was talking about God.
0:36:25 > 0:36:27The God I've served my entire life.
0:36:27 > 0:36:32The God who took my Brian from me. Who took your Elinor.
0:36:32 > 0:36:35Who let this creature live.
0:36:38 > 0:36:40Mysterious ways.
0:36:43 > 0:36:47You should have let him bleed to death on the operating table.
0:37:08 > 0:37:09BEEPING, GASPING
0:37:13 > 0:37:15What happened?
0:37:15 > 0:37:18Same as what happened before, only worse.
0:37:18 > 0:37:19Any pain?
0:37:21 > 0:37:24BEEPING STOPS
0:37:24 > 0:37:26The atropine seems to be working again.
0:37:34 > 0:37:37Well, there goes my organophosphate theory.
0:37:39 > 0:37:42Unless you went to the wedding via his stepfather's farm.
0:37:42 > 0:37:46No, just Darwin, via ED to get his suit.
0:37:49 > 0:37:54Essie? Would you please page Isaac for me?
0:38:01 > 0:38:03Feeling better?
0:38:05 > 0:38:07I am now you're here.
0:38:08 > 0:38:10Knew you'd look after me.
0:38:10 > 0:38:13Well, it's time to give another doctor a chance.
0:38:13 > 0:38:16I'm going to refer your case to one of our registrars.
0:38:16 > 0:38:18No. You can't do that.
0:38:18 > 0:38:20You need help, Daniel.
0:38:20 > 0:38:22I need YOU. That's how it works, right?
0:38:22 > 0:38:25I get sick, you look after me. Otherwise, what's the point?
0:38:26 > 0:38:29What's the point? In what?
0:38:31 > 0:38:32Getting sick?
0:38:34 > 0:38:37Daniel... are you doing this to yourself?
0:38:37 > 0:38:40- Leave me alone. - I'm trying to help you.
0:38:40 > 0:38:41You just said you can't.
0:38:47 > 0:38:50Munchausen's? Really? It's very hard to prove.
0:38:50 > 0:38:54Faking symptoms is one thing, but actually poisoning yourself?
0:38:54 > 0:38:57He's got to have pesticide on him somewhere.
0:38:57 > 0:39:01And I'm either going to find it in this and be proven right
0:39:01 > 0:39:04or I'm not and be proven wrong.
0:39:08 > 0:39:10Nothing?
0:39:11 > 0:39:13Nothing.
0:39:15 > 0:39:17Did he...? Did he use the toilet at all?
0:39:19 > 0:39:21I mean, was he... was he ever out of sight?
0:39:21 > 0:39:23Yeah, he got changed in the ED, that's where his suit was.
0:39:23 > 0:39:26- Right, and who brought him in? - Jeremy.
0:39:26 > 0:39:31- Who?- Jez - Mr 7.5...
0:39:33 > 0:39:36I didn't... I didn't realise his name was Jeremy.
0:39:41 > 0:39:46STIRS DRINK, TAPS SPOON ON MUG
0:39:51 > 0:39:52I didn't mean to scare you.
0:39:52 > 0:39:55Oh, no, you didn't scare me.
0:39:57 > 0:39:59You know...
0:39:59 > 0:40:02I'd really rather you didn't leave us.
0:40:05 > 0:40:07INDISTINCT SPEECH
0:40:08 > 0:40:10Jasmine...
0:40:10 > 0:40:14you were the last person to speak to my daughter.
0:40:15 > 0:40:17Was I?
0:40:17 > 0:40:20- Um, yeah, I suppose so. - What did she say?
0:40:20 > 0:40:24- Ms Campbell, I really don't think... - Please.
0:40:24 > 0:40:25Um...
0:40:26 > 0:40:29Elinor said she wanted to go to the toilet.
0:40:29 > 0:40:34But instead of saying "toilet", she said "water closet".
0:40:34 > 0:40:37I thought she meant the shower.
0:40:37 > 0:40:39And the next time I saw her...
0:40:42 > 0:40:44So much for profound last words.
0:40:48 > 0:40:50Those weren't her last words.
0:40:52 > 0:40:54- What?- She'd written an article.
0:40:55 > 0:40:59Yes, I know. We... We argued about it.
0:41:00 > 0:41:05There were factual errors she felt I should have informed her of...
0:41:05 > 0:41:08No, not that one, another one. Well, another draft.
0:41:08 > 0:41:10She was about to send it off.
0:41:10 > 0:41:12Another draft?
0:41:12 > 0:41:14Yeah, and she was really happy with it.
0:41:16 > 0:41:18So, technically, THOSE are her last words.
0:41:25 > 0:41:29In the toilet bin, just like you said it would be.
0:41:29 > 0:41:30How did you know?
0:41:33 > 0:41:34Just a hunch.
0:41:34 > 0:41:39Well, um, be careful with that. It's... It's nasty stuff.
0:41:47 > 0:41:49I didn't realise your name was Jeremy.
0:41:49 > 0:41:52What else would Jez be short for?
0:41:54 > 0:41:56Everything went OK?
0:41:56 > 0:41:58- Better than OK. - So, all back to normal?
0:41:58 > 0:42:01- Yeah, everything working as it should be.- Oh!
0:42:01 > 0:42:03Everything?
0:42:04 > 0:42:06SHE GIGGLES
0:42:06 > 0:42:10Just try not to, er, jolt anything loose, yeah?
0:42:19 > 0:42:23The number of people that find heart surgery to be some form of
0:42:23 > 0:42:25aphrodisiac is somewhat disturbing.
0:42:25 > 0:42:28Mr Valentine, is that an engagement ring in your pocket
0:42:28 > 0:42:30or are you just pleased to see me?
0:42:30 > 0:42:32HE CLEARS HIS THROAT
0:42:32 > 0:42:34- Oh, it IS a ring.- Sh!
0:42:34 > 0:42:37- You're actually going to do it? You're going to ask her?- Sh, sh.
0:42:37 > 0:42:39ZOSIA YELLS
0:42:39 > 0:42:42Ah, tell me you didn't put a marriage proposal on a Post-it Note?
0:42:44 > 0:42:46Idiot. Idiot. Idiot!
0:42:46 > 0:42:49- Zosia? What's wrong? - Aargh, I brought the wrong box.
0:42:49 > 0:42:51- What?- This box. This isn't tat.
0:42:51 > 0:42:55- It isn't?- No, it's not. It's my mum's stuff. Precious stuff.
0:42:55 > 0:42:56It was meant to go in the loft, not in the bin!
0:42:56 > 0:42:59You haven't thrown anything away, have you?
0:42:59 > 0:43:00No. Nothing.
0:43:00 > 0:43:02I can't find it.
0:43:03 > 0:43:06- What?- My mother's engagement ring.
0:43:06 > 0:43:10I kept it here with her second edition Bronte, but it's gone.
0:43:10 > 0:43:13It isn't. It's here.
0:43:16 > 0:43:18What's it doing in your pocket?
0:43:19 > 0:43:23- What's that?- What was it doing in your pocket?- (Do it!)
0:43:24 > 0:43:27Ah...huh...
0:43:28 > 0:43:30I found it.
0:43:30 > 0:43:32CLUCKS LIKE A CHICKEN Yes?
0:43:32 > 0:43:34And, um...
0:43:36 > 0:43:38I thought it could do with a clean.
0:43:42 > 0:43:45Aw! You're so sweet!
0:43:45 > 0:43:48- Ah, it's...it's fine.- Thank you.
0:43:51 > 0:43:53Kiss?
0:43:54 > 0:43:56Whew!
0:44:01 > 0:44:04- What? It wasn't the right time. - Mm-hm.
0:44:04 > 0:44:07It was just a misunderstanding anyway...
0:44:07 > 0:44:08SHE CLUCKS
0:44:14 > 0:44:18- Dr Copeland...- I need to speak to Isaac. I finally have proof.
0:44:18 > 0:44:21- I can't let you approach Mr Turpin. - What? Why?
0:44:21 > 0:44:24- Dom, you can't be here. - What's going on?
0:44:24 > 0:44:26Daniel's made a complaint.
0:44:26 > 0:44:28- About what?- About you.
0:44:28 > 0:44:30He's requested another doctor.
0:44:50 > 0:44:53'My mother once told me there are three types of people
0:44:53 > 0:44:57'in the world - lions, lambs and shepherds.
0:44:57 > 0:45:01'Life is all about working out which type of person you are.'
0:45:03 > 0:45:06ELINOR CONTINUES: 'Needless to say my mother - Serena Wendy Campbell,
0:45:06 > 0:45:10'Consultant Surgeon, Harvard Alumni and former Deputy CEO
0:45:10 > 0:45:13'of Holby City Hospital - is a lion.
0:45:14 > 0:45:18'And I had to learn the hard way that I was a lamb.
0:45:18 > 0:45:19'HER lamb.'
0:45:24 > 0:45:26He said you made him feel uncomfortable.
0:45:26 > 0:45:28That you weren't professional.
0:45:29 > 0:45:32- I have to follow procedure. - Understood.
0:45:35 > 0:45:39How do you get yourself into these scrapes?
0:45:39 > 0:45:41Arthur would say I bring them on myself.
0:45:41 > 0:45:43Maybe Arthur isn't the friend you made him out to be.
0:45:43 > 0:45:45Seems I attract that type -
0:45:45 > 0:45:48people who aren't who they make themselves out to be.
0:45:52 > 0:45:56This is what Daniel has been creating his symptoms with.
0:45:57 > 0:46:00He'll need a psych assessment - sooner rather than later.
0:46:00 > 0:46:02Where did you get this?
0:46:03 > 0:46:05Off Jeremy Andrews.
0:46:07 > 0:46:11He's known as "Jez" to his mates. But then, you'd know that.
0:46:11 > 0:46:13You don't give up, do you?
0:46:16 > 0:46:18Like a dog with a bone.
0:46:19 > 0:46:23Yes, me and Mr 7.5 went out for a drink.
0:46:25 > 0:46:30We went back to his place and we had some fun.
0:46:30 > 0:46:36- Feel better for knowing?- All this... because I flirted with him?
0:46:36 > 0:46:37No, because you abandoned me
0:46:37 > 0:46:40hours before we were due to fly to a really important conference together.
0:46:40 > 0:46:42You don't get to play the victim.
0:46:42 > 0:46:45- You slept with someone else. - When I needed you most,
0:46:45 > 0:46:48you turned your back on me and went to your safe place, to Zosia,
0:46:48 > 0:46:50like you did today, like you always do.
0:46:50 > 0:46:51You lied to me!
0:46:51 > 0:46:56About being honest, about a clean slate, about your niece, Jaime...
0:46:56 > 0:46:58Jaime came to the conference with me.
0:46:58 > 0:47:01You think I took Jez? I don't love Jez. I love you.
0:47:01 > 0:47:03- You keep saying you love me. - Because it's true...
0:47:03 > 0:47:05Well, I don't believe it!
0:47:11 > 0:47:14Of course you don't.
0:47:14 > 0:47:17Because you don't believe anyone could love you.
0:47:18 > 0:47:20That's why you push me away.
0:47:22 > 0:47:24PAGER BEEPS
0:47:26 > 0:47:29ANOTHER PAGER BEEPS
0:47:33 > 0:47:36- Essie? - BP's crashed. He's tachycardic.
0:47:36 > 0:47:39- Not like before? - No, this isn't like before.
0:47:39 > 0:47:41You haven't taken anything this time, have you?
0:47:41 > 0:47:43- I'm sorry.- Don't be.
0:47:43 > 0:47:46I'm scared.
0:47:46 > 0:47:47HE GROANS
0:47:47 > 0:47:50It's definitely the spleen. You need to get him to theatre immediately.
0:47:50 > 0:47:54It's your patient, Dr Copeland. I'll be there with you.
0:48:06 > 0:48:08Clamp over the splenic hilum.
0:48:08 > 0:48:11- I can't see. There's too much blood. - Suction.
0:48:14 > 0:48:16Thank you.
0:48:21 > 0:48:24- I can't... I can't reach it. - Then extend your incision.
0:48:24 > 0:48:26And what about blood loss?
0:48:26 > 0:48:29Will be irrelevant once the hilum's clamped. It's all about access.
0:48:32 > 0:48:34I believe in you, Darren.
0:48:38 > 0:48:40Now believe in yourself.
0:48:44 > 0:48:45Scalpel.
0:48:55 > 0:48:57You...called me Darren.
0:49:00 > 0:49:03In theatre. You called me Darren.
0:49:04 > 0:49:06Did I?
0:49:07 > 0:49:10With all the alliteration going on, I must have got mixed up.
0:49:12 > 0:49:14Dominic, Daniel...
0:49:14 > 0:49:16Darren...
0:49:18 > 0:49:21I'm not Darren. Not any more.
0:49:23 > 0:49:26Then who are you?
0:49:26 > 0:49:27Who IS Dominic?
0:49:28 > 0:49:30He's the man you fell in love with.
0:49:30 > 0:49:32No.
0:49:32 > 0:49:33I fell in love with you.
0:49:36 > 0:49:39Dominic doesn't know what love is.
0:49:39 > 0:49:41Dominic pushed me away.
0:49:42 > 0:49:44Dominic chose Zosia.
0:49:45 > 0:49:47That's why Dominic is alone.
0:49:48 > 0:49:50Why he'll always be alone.
0:49:55 > 0:49:59MUSIC: You Know I'm No Good by Amy Winehouse
0:50:01 > 0:50:04# I cheated myself
0:50:06 > 0:50:09# Like I knew I would... #
0:50:11 > 0:50:12Looking for me?
0:50:14 > 0:50:16Er...no.
0:50:18 > 0:50:20Actually, you are.
0:50:21 > 0:50:23I texted you from Isaac's phone.
0:50:26 > 0:50:28And why would you do that?
0:50:29 > 0:50:32Because I wanted to...talk.
0:50:34 > 0:50:37And that seemed like the quickest way to make that happen.
0:50:43 > 0:50:44OK.
0:50:47 > 0:50:48Talk.
0:50:52 > 0:50:54I gave you a 7.5.
0:50:55 > 0:50:57I rarely go above a 7.
0:50:59 > 0:51:01Thank you.
0:51:01 > 0:51:03I never slept with a 7.5, either.
0:51:07 > 0:51:08Fancy it?
0:51:11 > 0:51:12Are you drunk or something?
0:51:12 > 0:51:14No.
0:51:14 > 0:51:17Does that make this more or less weird?
0:51:17 > 0:51:20It makes this conversation...over.
0:51:22 > 0:51:25No, look, you don't need to go. I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
0:51:25 > 0:51:27What do you want, mate?
0:51:29 > 0:51:30I don't know.
0:51:31 > 0:51:33You?
0:51:34 > 0:51:36What's your problem?
0:51:37 > 0:51:40What's...? What's wrong with me?
0:51:43 > 0:51:45I don't do strange.
0:52:06 > 0:52:08Got something of yours.
0:52:11 > 0:52:13Is that how it works?
0:52:13 > 0:52:17One moment of doubt wipes out an entire lifetime of service?
0:52:18 > 0:52:21It was a bad moment.
0:52:21 > 0:52:24Isn't that God's thing - to send tests?
0:52:26 > 0:52:28He doesn't brook failure.
0:52:30 > 0:52:33Ah, well, then we've got more in common than I thought.
0:52:36 > 0:52:39You know, I've always believed
0:52:39 > 0:52:43that there are three types of people in this world.
0:52:44 > 0:52:45Lions...
0:52:47 > 0:52:48..lambs...
0:52:50 > 0:52:53..and shepherds.
0:53:09 > 0:53:11It's a form of Munchausen's.
0:53:13 > 0:53:16Daniel doesn't feel lovable,
0:53:16 > 0:53:20so he finds other ways of gaining attention.
0:53:21 > 0:53:24- You think that I don't love you? - It's not that.
0:53:26 > 0:53:30It's that he doesn't feel deserving of your love, or anyone's love.
0:53:32 > 0:53:34But with help,
0:53:34 > 0:53:36he can and will get through it.
0:53:36 > 0:53:38And how can you know that?
0:53:41 > 0:53:45Because when I was Daniel's age, I had a similar condition.
0:53:50 > 0:53:53Mum? Can you give us a minute?
0:54:02 > 0:54:05Is that true?
0:54:05 > 0:54:07You used to be like me?
0:54:07 > 0:54:09I still am.
0:54:11 > 0:54:12But you became a swan?
0:54:15 > 0:54:17(I faked it.)
0:54:21 > 0:54:23I'm still just an ugly duckling.
0:54:34 > 0:54:38'My mother once told me there are three types of people.
0:54:38 > 0:54:42'There are lions... and there are lambs...'
0:54:44 > 0:54:47'And here and there, you'll find a shepherd.
0:54:49 > 0:54:53'Nowhere is this truer than the NHS...'
0:54:53 > 0:54:56But I am curious - what was the surprising thing
0:54:56 > 0:54:57you found in my box?
0:54:57 > 0:55:00Am I the only one who finds all this box talk a little bit naughty?
0:55:00 > 0:55:02Yeah, I guess I am.
0:55:02 > 0:55:06Yeah, Ollie, what WAS surprising in Zosia's box?
0:55:06 > 0:55:07I don't know what you mean.
0:55:07 > 0:55:11In my proper box of tat, I left a Wonder Woman outfit
0:55:11 > 0:55:14from my high school disco days.
0:55:14 > 0:55:16It's pretty embarrassing, but I thought I'd give you
0:55:16 > 0:55:18the option of seeing me in it one last time.
0:55:18 > 0:55:20Yes, please.
0:55:20 > 0:55:23But in theatre, you said you'd found something surprising.
0:55:23 > 0:55:25- Mm.- That it was a big decision,
0:55:25 > 0:55:28that we'd need to talk about it later.
0:55:29 > 0:55:32- What was it? - Yes, Ollie, what was it?
0:55:36 > 0:55:38It's just the second edition Bronte.
0:55:40 > 0:55:42I figured you'd want to sell it.
0:55:44 > 0:55:46We could get it, um...
0:55:48 > 0:55:50..valued.
0:55:57 > 0:56:00Well, that's a very sensible idea.
0:56:01 > 0:56:02Thank you.
0:56:05 > 0:56:07SHE CLUCKS
0:56:09 > 0:56:11- ELINOR:- 'There are lions, who lead.
0:56:11 > 0:56:16'The alphas...consultants, registrars, chief nurses...'
0:56:18 > 0:56:23- SERENA:- 'And there are the lambs - juniors, F1s, CT2s.
0:56:23 > 0:56:26'Capable, yes. Talented - of course.
0:56:26 > 0:56:28'Vulnerable?
0:56:28 > 0:56:29'Very much so.'
0:56:32 > 0:56:34I'm sorry.
0:56:36 > 0:56:37I'm sorry for pushing you away.
0:56:39 > 0:56:43And I'm sorry for not believing in us.
0:56:45 > 0:56:47And I'm sorry for hurting you.
0:56:50 > 0:56:52Forgive me?
0:57:18 > 0:57:23ELINOR: 'And watching this dynamic - watching HER -
0:57:23 > 0:57:26'I understood my mother in a way I never had before.
0:57:28 > 0:57:34'The NHS is a warzone. The hospital a front line.
0:57:34 > 0:57:38'With officers and soldiers. Lions and lambs.'
0:57:40 > 0:57:42- BOTH:- 'My mother is a lion.
0:57:43 > 0:57:46'Her staff are her lambs.
0:57:49 > 0:57:51'And the lion has to teach the lamb...'
0:57:54 > 0:57:56'Even if it kills them.'