Paper Wishes

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0:00:02 > 0:00:06I'm Jasmin Burrows. Hi, sis. You might not have been abused, but you were scarred.

0:00:06 > 0:00:08- I'm going to look after you. - Look after me?

0:00:10 > 0:00:12Fran, you're hurting me.

0:00:14 > 0:00:16Tell me what happened!

0:00:16 > 0:00:18Accident. She said she fell.

0:00:19 > 0:00:22- Jac...- I'm here, I'll save you.

0:00:22 > 0:00:24- BEEPING - Jasmine.

0:00:24 > 0:00:26- Jasmine! - LONG BEEP

0:00:26 > 0:00:29No. Jasmine, please don't go. Jasmine!

0:01:14 > 0:01:17"Approximately 36 hours ago,

0:01:17 > 0:01:21"Dr Jasmine Burrows died while on active hospital duty.

0:01:25 > 0:01:30"A preliminary police investigation indicates this was a result

0:01:30 > 0:01:31"of a terrible accident.

0:01:33 > 0:01:37"In attempting to protect a vulnerable patient from herself,

0:01:37 > 0:01:40"Dr Burrows hid a scalpel in her uniform.

0:01:43 > 0:01:46"A subsequent fall was to have devastating consequences

0:01:46 > 0:01:51"for Dr Burrows, those who found her...

0:01:53 > 0:01:55"..and those she leaves behind.

0:01:58 > 0:02:00"The hospital has suffered a terrible blow.

0:02:00 > 0:02:01"We're all in a state of shock.

0:02:03 > 0:02:08"Now, more than ever, leadership and direction are required of us.

0:02:08 > 0:02:10"Life must go on.

0:02:11 > 0:02:14"New challenges must be faced.

0:02:14 > 0:02:16"Obstacles overcome.

0:02:16 > 0:02:17"In the meantime,

0:02:17 > 0:02:21"I will be conducting an internal investigation.

0:02:21 > 0:02:26"Lessons that can be learned will be learned. Mistakes that were made

0:02:26 > 0:02:28"will be exposed."

0:02:36 > 0:02:39CAR STEREO BLARES

0:02:59 > 0:03:02All right, everyone.

0:03:02 > 0:03:05I just wanted to say,

0:03:05 > 0:03:08I know today's not going to be easy, and for those of you who've made

0:03:08 > 0:03:11a real effort to come in, thank you.

0:03:11 > 0:03:14If anybody finds it too much, please say.

0:03:14 > 0:03:15Jas would want us to go on, so...

0:03:17 > 0:03:20Look, we do really appreciate everyone prepared to work

0:03:20 > 0:03:23on what is going to be a very difficult day.

0:03:24 > 0:03:26Not only are we a doctor down,

0:03:26 > 0:03:28but Nurse Reynolds isn't with us either. What?

0:03:28 > 0:03:30We do have another nurse joining us.

0:03:30 > 0:03:33An old acquaintance of yours, apparently, Mr V.

0:03:33 > 0:03:35- Really? Who?- Ta-da!

0:03:35 > 0:03:38SHE LAUGHS I'm back!

0:03:41 > 0:03:43Who died?

0:03:46 > 0:03:48What are you doing here?

0:03:48 > 0:03:50I requested to work up here.

0:03:50 > 0:03:52I knew you'd be in, despite...

0:03:53 > 0:03:56I just... I wanted to be here for you. In case you needed me.

0:03:56 > 0:03:59I won't.

0:03:59 > 0:04:00Was there anything else?

0:04:00 > 0:04:02I'm here.

0:04:10 > 0:04:12Right, OK, thank you.

0:04:12 > 0:04:15- That was unbelievable.- Bit awkward.

0:04:15 > 0:04:17It's a thing you say. Like, "Why the long face?"

0:04:17 > 0:04:19- Or, "Who put sand in your pants?" - They'll understand.

0:04:19 > 0:04:23When you say "Who died?" You don't actually expect someone to have, you know, literally...died.

0:04:23 > 0:04:26Donna? It'll be OK. Thank you.

0:04:26 > 0:04:29This doctor, were you close?

0:04:32 > 0:04:35This place has changed. The people, too.

0:04:35 > 0:04:38- Yes, but it still feels like home, though, doesn't it?- Yeah.

0:04:39 > 0:04:44Er, look, I've got to go. Let's catch up properly, later.

0:04:44 > 0:04:46OK.

0:04:46 > 0:04:48Nurse Jackson. How are you?

0:04:48 > 0:04:52Still recovering. My bout of foot-in-mouth disease earlier.

0:04:52 > 0:04:55Well, we're very busy, so it's great to have an experienced nurse

0:04:55 > 0:04:57on board.

0:04:57 > 0:04:59Um, I'd like you in the store room.

0:04:59 > 0:05:01Ooh, naughty! At least buy me a drink first.

0:05:01 > 0:05:03SHE CHUCKLES

0:05:03 > 0:05:05What do you need?

0:05:05 > 0:05:08I'd like a full inventory of supplies and check the resus

0:05:08 > 0:05:11- trolley.- You want me to count stock?

0:05:11 > 0:05:12Is that a problem?

0:05:13 > 0:05:17It's a little beneath my pay grade is all. I...

0:05:17 > 0:05:18I was ward sister, so...

0:05:19 > 0:05:24Was, and it's been several years since you've been here, right?

0:05:24 > 0:05:26Look, just think of this as easing you back in.

0:05:27 > 0:05:28OK!

0:05:39 > 0:05:44Ladies, who fancies earning 20 quid and my undying gratitude?

0:05:45 > 0:05:47- Stop that.- Stop what?

0:05:47 > 0:05:50Looking at me like I'm about to break.

0:05:50 > 0:05:53- I wasn't. I was just thinking that...- That I shouldn't be here.

0:05:53 > 0:05:55That I have suffered a terrible loss and I need some time

0:05:55 > 0:05:58to come to terms with it.

0:05:58 > 0:05:59- Well...- I'm fine.

0:05:59 > 0:06:02Ms Naylor, I just wanted to say that I'm really...

0:06:02 > 0:06:04How sorry you are for what happened.

0:06:04 > 0:06:06That you wish you could have done more.

0:06:06 > 0:06:08That even though you'd only just met Jasmine,

0:06:08 > 0:06:10what a lovely girl she seemed. Right?

0:06:10 > 0:06:11Um. Yeah, er...

0:06:11 > 0:06:13You did what you could.

0:06:13 > 0:06:14It wasn't enough.

0:06:15 > 0:06:20It's sad. But it's done. There is no point in dwelling on it.

0:06:22 > 0:06:23You got that, Rossini?

0:06:24 > 0:06:26You're with me today, Ford.

0:06:26 > 0:06:29Luna James, 23. Collapsed on her way to work. Chest pain.

0:06:29 > 0:06:32Breathlessness. She's tachycardic. Pulse 100.

0:06:32 > 0:06:34BP 160/80. Sats at 80%.

0:06:35 > 0:06:37How are you feeling today, Luna?

0:06:37 > 0:06:40- Ready.- For what?

0:06:40 > 0:06:42Whatever's coming.

0:06:42 > 0:06:43What do you think's coming?

0:06:44 > 0:06:45You tell me.

0:06:45 > 0:06:48Well, a transthoracic echocardiogram for starters.

0:06:48 > 0:06:52If you could organise that, Dr Ford. We'll take things from here.

0:06:53 > 0:06:54Now, please!

0:06:58 > 0:07:00So, full medical history. FBC, U&Es cross match.

0:07:02 > 0:07:04Let me take that for you.

0:07:06 > 0:07:09- Paper-plane fetish? - These aren't paper planes.

0:07:09 > 0:07:12- What then?- Wishes.

0:07:14 > 0:07:17Right, let's get you into bed, shall we?

0:07:17 > 0:07:18Thanks, ladies.

0:07:18 > 0:07:20- Stop struggling, please. - Get off me!- Look, please!

0:07:20 > 0:07:24- What's the problem?- OK, Fedja Kovak. He fell off his bicycle.

0:07:24 > 0:07:26Suspected traumatic pneumothorax.

0:07:26 > 0:07:28I'm fine. I have to go. I have an appointment.

0:07:28 > 0:07:31- You need to lie down, please! - You need to get out of my way!

0:07:31 > 0:07:33Hey, listen, Fedja, is it? We're here to help you.

0:07:33 > 0:07:35We can't do that if you're yelling and screaming

0:07:35 > 0:07:38- and giving it all the argy-bargy. OK?- You don't understand.

0:07:38 > 0:07:40Hear that whistling as you try and breathe?

0:07:40 > 0:07:43That is air leaking out of your lung and collecting in the pleural space

0:07:43 > 0:07:45causing pressure to build where it shouldn't.

0:07:45 > 0:07:47Without treatment, that tightness in your chest is going to swell

0:07:47 > 0:07:49until it begins to compress your heart.

0:07:49 > 0:07:53- And trust me, you really don't want that to happen. OK?- I...

0:07:53 > 0:07:55We need to get him onto a bed, quick.

0:07:55 > 0:07:58We might need a chest drain.

0:07:58 > 0:08:00He's tensioning. Needle decompression?

0:08:00 > 0:08:02- Of course. - OK, lets get him on the bed.

0:08:02 > 0:08:04HE CRIES OUT Nice.

0:08:09 > 0:08:10Right, there.

0:08:10 > 0:08:11Thank you.

0:08:13 > 0:08:15Nice!

0:08:15 > 0:08:16Feel better?

0:08:17 > 0:08:19Going to give us any more hassle?

0:08:21 > 0:08:22Super.

0:08:22 > 0:08:24- I've got the drain.- It's all right. I think we've got it all

0:08:24 > 0:08:25under control, thanks.

0:08:27 > 0:08:29I thought we were easing you back in gently.

0:08:29 > 0:08:31Well, it's like riding a bike, innit? Easy-peasy.

0:08:33 > 0:08:35No offence.

0:08:38 > 0:08:40I liked your speech.

0:08:40 > 0:08:43Very...motivational.

0:08:43 > 0:08:46Well, I had to say something. Do you have any idea how hard it is

0:08:46 > 0:08:49to concentrate with you lot mooning around?

0:08:49 > 0:08:52I know how hard it is to concentrate when someone close to you

0:08:52 > 0:08:53has been taken away.

0:08:55 > 0:08:56Jasmine and I weren't close.

0:08:58 > 0:09:01Dr Ford's ready with Luna's TTE.

0:09:07 > 0:09:09You think there's something strange about this girl?

0:09:09 > 0:09:11She's scared, that's all.

0:09:12 > 0:09:15So, you write the wish on paper, build the plane and then...

0:09:15 > 0:09:17Send it out into the universe.

0:09:17 > 0:09:19Or seven feet until they all crash and burn.

0:09:24 > 0:09:26- Seem to have quite a few wishes. - Just one.

0:09:28 > 0:09:30Those are my students'.

0:09:30 > 0:09:32It was supposed to be a way of combining science

0:09:32 > 0:09:33and religious studies.

0:09:33 > 0:09:36- We were going to release them today.- Are you a teacher?

0:09:36 > 0:09:38A TA for now.

0:09:38 > 0:09:39Well, Luna, your heart looks OK,

0:09:39 > 0:09:42but you do have elevated pulmonary pressure.

0:09:42 > 0:09:43Is that what caused me to faint?

0:09:43 > 0:09:46We're going to have to do a chest X-ray to get a clearer picture.

0:09:46 > 0:09:48Has anything like this ever happened before?

0:09:48 > 0:09:52- No. But I've been expecting it. - Expecting what?

0:09:53 > 0:09:55- Something bad.- Why?

0:09:55 > 0:09:57Moral causation.

0:09:57 > 0:10:02"A man of good acts will become good, a man of bad acts, bad."

0:10:02 > 0:10:04What are you talking about?

0:10:04 > 0:10:08It's karma. The simple belief that one reaps what one sows.

0:10:08 > 0:10:10There's nothing simple about it.

0:10:10 > 0:10:14There's nothing medical about it either. A word, Ms Naylor, please.

0:10:21 > 0:10:22You said you needed a history.

0:10:22 > 0:10:23It can wait.

0:10:26 > 0:10:28What's this for?

0:10:28 > 0:10:29Neurological test. It's just routine.

0:10:29 > 0:10:32You know, I was wearing my helmet at the time and didn't even hit

0:10:32 > 0:10:35my head anyway. Cleverly used my arms, ribs and my legs

0:10:35 > 0:10:36to break my fall.

0:10:36 > 0:10:38How did the accident happen?

0:10:38 > 0:10:40Not sure. Oil slick, maybe.

0:10:40 > 0:10:42I was moving pretty fast at the time.

0:10:42 > 0:10:44Where were you in such a hurry to get to?

0:10:44 > 0:10:46Train station. I've got a job interview in London at six.

0:10:46 > 0:10:47Oh, what for?

0:10:47 > 0:10:49A London Fire Brigade final practical exam.

0:10:49 > 0:10:51Last train's at four. If I'm not on it...

0:10:51 > 0:10:54Is there any chance you can just patch me up and get me out of here?

0:10:54 > 0:10:56Neurologically you seem fine.

0:10:56 > 0:10:59But you've just suffered a traumatic pneumothorax, Mr Novak.

0:10:59 > 0:11:01I don't see you running up 30 flights of stairs with a hose

0:11:01 > 0:11:03on your back any time soon.

0:11:03 > 0:11:08Right, FBC, U&Es, Chest X-ray and IV paracetamol for the pain.

0:11:08 > 0:11:09Sure.

0:11:10 > 0:11:12Maybe they'll let you resit?

0:11:12 > 0:11:15Not a chance. I really need to be on that train.

0:11:16 > 0:11:17Let's see what the X-ray shows.

0:11:20 > 0:11:21Er, about that inventory.

0:11:21 > 0:11:24- Oh, it's done.- Yeah. So I hear.

0:11:24 > 0:11:25It was a team effort.

0:11:25 > 0:11:28Do you always get other people to do your work for you?

0:11:28 > 0:11:30Well, it's delegation, innit?

0:11:30 > 0:11:32You say tom-ay-to...

0:11:33 > 0:11:34The job got done, right?

0:11:34 > 0:11:37But not by the person that I asked to do it.

0:11:37 > 0:11:39Ah. You're a process-based manager.

0:11:39 > 0:11:41I focus more on outcomes, so...

0:11:45 > 0:11:47Process that.

0:11:48 > 0:11:51- You're kidding, right?- No.

0:11:53 > 0:11:56- You know that I used to do your job. - You might've mentioned it once or twice.

0:11:56 > 0:11:59The point being that I've been there, done that and wrote the book.

0:11:59 > 0:12:00In fact, I wrote most of this.

0:12:00 > 0:12:03Excellent, then you can just skip to the part that says, "Updated".

0:12:03 > 0:12:05I didn't come back here to be taught how to suck eggs.

0:12:05 > 0:12:07So what did you come back here for?

0:12:07 > 0:12:09To do my job.

0:12:11 > 0:12:14- Look, I get that you're marking your territory, I...- No.

0:12:14 > 0:12:17I'm trying do my job, which is to maintain and secure the high

0:12:17 > 0:12:20standard of care demanded by this hospital of its staff.

0:12:20 > 0:12:22My staff.

0:12:23 > 0:12:26Now, you come with glowing references, but the simple fact is

0:12:26 > 0:12:28a lot has changed since the last time you worked here.

0:12:28 > 0:12:31And you'll find out what when you read that manual.

0:12:31 > 0:12:35But until you do, consider yourself on restricted duties. Are we clear?

0:12:37 > 0:12:38Yes, boss.

0:12:44 > 0:12:48I'm well aware that you prefer to keep busy when faced

0:12:48 > 0:12:50with emotional trauma. I certainly don't question that.

0:12:50 > 0:12:53If this is for your internal investigation, I've already given

0:12:53 > 0:12:54a statement to the police.

0:12:54 > 0:12:56The last time I saw Jasmine we had a fight,

0:12:56 > 0:12:59and the last time I heard from her she left a message on my phone.

0:12:59 > 0:13:01Yes, I know, Jac.

0:13:01 > 0:13:03Then what?

0:13:03 > 0:13:06The coroner and the police are satisfied as to the cause of death

0:13:06 > 0:13:09and so the morgue are able to release Dr Burrows' body

0:13:09 > 0:13:11for internment.

0:13:11 > 0:13:13These are the relevant release forms

0:13:13 > 0:13:15and I've taken the liberty of including the names

0:13:15 > 0:13:18of several reputable funeral homes.

0:13:20 > 0:13:22What are you giving them to me for?

0:13:22 > 0:13:25Go and find her next of kin or whoever's supposed to deal with this stuff.

0:13:25 > 0:13:27I am, Jac.

0:13:28 > 0:13:30You ARE her next of kin.

0:13:38 > 0:13:40Still can't believe she's gone.

0:13:41 > 0:13:42Such a terrible waste.

0:13:48 > 0:13:50- You OK?- Yeah.

0:13:51 > 0:13:54She didn't have an easy time of it here, and I can't help

0:13:54 > 0:13:56but feel partially responsible for that.

0:13:59 > 0:14:01I know, I know. But I'm just saying.

0:14:02 > 0:14:05There was always a certain kind of sadness about Jasmine.

0:14:05 > 0:14:07There are some people who'd say she's gone to a better place.

0:14:07 > 0:14:10- Oh, yeah, what people? - My mother for starters.

0:14:11 > 0:14:14Yeah, but you don't believe in heaven, do you?

0:14:14 > 0:14:18I don't know. Well, I like to believe there's something, I guess.

0:14:18 > 0:14:19Yeah, but you're not religious?

0:14:19 > 0:14:21No, not really. But don't let Mum hear that.

0:14:21 > 0:14:24PHONE RINGS

0:14:24 > 0:14:27Do you know, it's like she's got a sixth sense.

0:14:28 > 0:14:32Mum. Hi. Listen, what have I said about calling me at work?

0:14:34 > 0:14:36What package?

0:14:36 > 0:14:39- I have a bad feeling about this. - It's a present.

0:14:39 > 0:14:41No, it's a trap.

0:14:41 > 0:14:43It's my second cousin's son's brit milah later today

0:14:43 > 0:14:45and as a favour to my mother, I've agreed to chaperone

0:14:45 > 0:14:48the mohel's daughter to the celebration afterwards.

0:14:48 > 0:14:51- What's a brit milah? - Jewish circumcision ceremony.

0:14:52 > 0:14:56- It's when they do the snip-snip, but what is a mo...- Mohel.

0:14:56 > 0:15:00Someone that does the snipping. Why is the daughter going?

0:15:00 > 0:15:03She's a family friend. At least that's what Mum says.

0:15:05 > 0:15:09- Oh, you were right. It's a trap. - What am I missing?

0:15:09 > 0:15:12Disappointed with her son's previous choices of life partner,

0:15:12 > 0:15:16Ma Levy's singular mission is to marry her first-born son

0:15:16 > 0:15:18to a nice respectable Jewish girl.

0:15:18 > 0:15:21This is no brit milah. This is a blind date.

0:15:21 > 0:15:23OK, so let me get this straight.

0:15:23 > 0:15:27Your mother has set you up on a blind date with the daughter of a

0:15:27 > 0:15:32man who makes a living from snipping off little pieces of male genitalia?

0:15:32 > 0:15:36- Pretty much, yeah. - Excellent. I thought Carol was bad.

0:15:36 > 0:15:37Good luck.

0:15:39 > 0:15:41Oh, sorry. I should take this elsewhere.

0:15:41 > 0:15:44Oh, no! Please stay. I could do with the distraction.

0:15:44 > 0:15:46We didn't get introduced. I'm Donna Jackson.

0:15:46 > 0:15:49- Hi, I'm Morven Digby. - Nice needle work earlier.

0:15:49 > 0:15:51Digby, why does that ring a bell?

0:15:53 > 0:15:57I held a nursing seminar back in 2012 for that year's medical crop.

0:15:57 > 0:15:59There was a Digby there. Came top of his class.

0:15:59 > 0:16:03Second. Arthur came second in his year.

0:16:03 > 0:16:04It rankled.

0:16:06 > 0:16:08He was my husband.

0:16:08 > 0:16:10Aw, he's a really bright kid. Is he here, too?

0:16:10 > 0:16:11No, he died.

0:16:13 > 0:16:15I am... I am so sorry.

0:16:15 > 0:16:18It's all right, you weren't to know.

0:16:18 > 0:16:21What is it with this place? Doctors are dropping like flies.

0:16:22 > 0:16:26Oh I'm... I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to...

0:16:26 > 0:16:28No, no, honestly, no, it's fine.

0:16:28 > 0:16:30It's not your fault.

0:16:30 > 0:16:31I just...

0:16:31 > 0:16:34That's her, isn't it? I'm so sorry, this is me and my big stupid mouth.

0:16:34 > 0:16:37- I just don't get why she had to die. - I'm sorry.

0:16:39 > 0:16:41Morven?

0:16:41 > 0:16:42What have you said now?

0:16:42 > 0:16:46No, Ollie, it's not her fault.

0:16:46 > 0:16:49I shouldn't have come in today.

0:16:49 > 0:16:52- Would you mind if I just, er...? - Yeah, yeah. No, go.

0:16:52 > 0:16:53I'll square things with Bernie.

0:16:53 > 0:16:56Your bicycle guy's asking after you, by the way.

0:16:56 > 0:16:58I will check on him, thank you.

0:16:58 > 0:17:01- You wrote most of that, didn't you? - Tell me about it.

0:17:04 > 0:17:07I don't care if she put my name down on the hospital forms.

0:17:07 > 0:17:08I am not her next of kin.

0:17:08 > 0:17:10I'm... I'm nothing.

0:17:10 > 0:17:13You'll just have to find someone else to take care of it, OK?

0:17:15 > 0:17:17- Hi.- Hi.

0:17:17 > 0:17:19There's been a mix-up.

0:17:19 > 0:17:21Jasmine's put me down as her next of kin.

0:17:21 > 0:17:23- It's no mix-up.- You knew?

0:17:23 > 0:17:25Well, I was her best friend, so...

0:17:27 > 0:17:29Well, I'm very sorry for your loss.

0:17:30 > 0:17:31She loved you so much.

0:17:31 > 0:17:35She idolised me. She created a fantasy about me, about us.

0:17:35 > 0:17:38- There's a difference. - No, Jac, she loved you.

0:17:39 > 0:17:42And she would have given anything to tell you that.

0:17:43 > 0:17:47To not be afraid that you'd laugh at her,

0:17:47 > 0:17:49or you'd reject her, again.

0:17:50 > 0:17:52And now it's too late.

0:17:57 > 0:18:00Mum, Mum, I know exactly what you're doing.

0:18:00 > 0:18:04I don't care what Harriet Brite looks like. That's not the point.

0:18:04 > 0:18:07A brit milah is not an appropriate forum for you to be doing

0:18:07 > 0:18:09your Cilla Black impersonation.

0:18:09 > 0:18:12I don't know what she looks like. I've never spoken to her.

0:18:13 > 0:18:16Mum, that does not mean you can give Hatty my number.

0:18:16 > 0:18:17Mum. Mum?

0:18:19 > 0:18:20Mother, hey?

0:18:22 > 0:18:25- Yeah.- Trying to set you up?

0:18:25 > 0:18:27- Yes.- I feel the pain.

0:18:27 > 0:18:31- Thank you. - Not yours. Mine. Stabbing. Abdomen.

0:18:31 > 0:18:34Oh. Sorry. Can we have some help? Thank you.

0:18:34 > 0:18:36Oh, um, sorry. Mac Mitchell.

0:18:36 > 0:18:4054. GP referral with suspected pancreatitis.

0:18:40 > 0:18:44It says here, Mac, you've been experiencing severe abdominal pain.

0:18:44 > 0:18:46I think we've established that, mate.

0:18:47 > 0:18:50Right. Let's get him on the bed and let's do an examination.

0:18:52 > 0:18:53Temperature's at 40.

0:18:54 > 0:18:57Tenderness at the renal angle.

0:18:57 > 0:18:58Er, 10mg of morphine for the pain.

0:18:58 > 0:19:00No. No morphine. Paracetamol's fine.

0:19:00 > 0:19:03Addictive personality, if you get my drift.

0:19:04 > 0:19:06So Mac, this addictive personality.

0:19:06 > 0:19:07Alcohol?

0:19:07 > 0:19:09Aye. Oceans of it.

0:19:09 > 0:19:11Always knew it would catch up with me one day.

0:19:11 > 0:19:13Any news on when I might be getting out of here?

0:19:13 > 0:19:15Still waiting on blood tests.

0:19:15 > 0:19:16And if they're clear?

0:19:16 > 0:19:18Look, Fedja, you...

0:19:20 > 0:19:21That's an interesting name.

0:19:23 > 0:19:26It's Bosnian. It's like an English variation on Theodore.

0:19:26 > 0:19:27You're Bosnian?

0:19:27 > 0:19:32Born there. Mum brought us here after Dad was killed.

0:19:32 > 0:19:34Oh. In the war?

0:19:34 > 0:19:37Yeah. He was a volunteer firefighter.

0:19:37 > 0:19:39- Fedja... - SHE SPEAKS IN CROATIAN

0:19:39 > 0:19:42What have you done to yourself?!

0:19:42 > 0:19:45- HE SPEAKS IN CROATIAN - Looks worse that it is.

0:19:46 > 0:19:47You have a tube in your chest.

0:19:47 > 0:19:50Fedja's right, it really does look worse than it is.

0:19:50 > 0:19:53Mum. This is Nurse Jackson. She's been taking care of me.

0:19:53 > 0:19:55Nurse Jackson, Liliana, my mother.

0:19:55 > 0:19:58It's a temporary measure to relieve pressure in Fedja's chest

0:19:58 > 0:20:00caused by the bicycle accident, so...

0:20:00 > 0:20:01SHE SPEAKS IN CROATIAN

0:20:01 > 0:20:05I didn't fall off my bike, I was... I got clipped by a car.

0:20:08 > 0:20:10- SHE SPEAKS IN CROATIAN - He's in pain.

0:20:10 > 0:20:12Give him something.

0:20:12 > 0:20:15He's already on one gram of IV paracetamol.

0:20:15 > 0:20:18It's not good enough. Look. You are top nurse?

0:20:18 > 0:20:19I like to think I'm pretty capable.

0:20:19 > 0:20:22No, are you big cheese? Organ grinder, chief?

0:20:22 > 0:20:24No. Not any more. But I can guarantee...

0:20:24 > 0:20:26You can bring me organ grinder?

0:20:26 > 0:20:29When you want something done, you go straight to the top, right?

0:20:33 > 0:20:34Of course, Mrs Novak.

0:20:36 > 0:20:39Mrs Novak would like to discuss her son's pain relief.

0:20:39 > 0:20:40All right, I'll talk to her in a minute.

0:20:40 > 0:20:43I could take her through the options if you like.

0:20:43 > 0:20:44No, it's fine, I'll do it.

0:20:44 > 0:20:46Give you a chance to catch up on your reading.

0:20:46 > 0:20:49PHONE RINGS

0:20:52 > 0:20:54Hey! I was just thinking about you.

0:20:56 > 0:20:59I would love to catch up. OK.

0:21:12 > 0:21:14- Luna James' chest X-ray.- Thank you.

0:21:16 > 0:21:17Think this belongs to you.

0:21:17 > 0:21:20- I read the message. Bleak. - Wishes usually are.

0:21:20 > 0:21:22If you wish to be loved it's cos you're not.

0:21:22 > 0:21:24Isn't that all a little depressing for 12-year-olds?

0:21:24 > 0:21:27I work with kids in care. They're way beyond fairy tales.

0:21:29 > 0:21:30How do those help?

0:21:30 > 0:21:33Allows them to express themselves. Commune with the universe.

0:21:33 > 0:21:35I got the idea while travelling in India.

0:21:35 > 0:21:37Ah. So this is where you got all the karma stuff from?

0:21:38 > 0:21:40Do you know what's wrong with me yet?

0:21:40 > 0:21:42The X-ray's inconclusive.

0:21:42 > 0:21:46But I suppose you think it's some kind of divine retribution?

0:21:46 > 0:21:48For what?

0:21:48 > 0:21:50My mother died three weeks ago.

0:21:50 > 0:21:53Alone and in pain, because I wasn't there. I was in India

0:21:53 > 0:21:55learning about this "karma stuff".

0:21:55 > 0:21:57Luna, have you recently been on a plane?

0:21:57 > 0:22:00Yeah, I flew back a couple of weeks ago.

0:22:00 > 0:22:03And when you were in India did you spend time at high altitude?

0:22:03 > 0:22:05Yeah, Himalayas. Why?

0:22:05 > 0:22:07TTE showed signs of elevated pressure.

0:22:07 > 0:22:0912.5 mg of Ramipril.

0:22:09 > 0:22:12If the swelling goes down you can discharge her.

0:22:12 > 0:22:16You almost certainly have pulmonary hypertension caused by exposure

0:22:16 > 0:22:19- to altitude. - That's it? I'm not dying?

0:22:19 > 0:22:21Not yet. Why wasn't any of this in the history?

0:22:21 > 0:22:23As far as I can tell no history's been done at all.

0:22:26 > 0:22:30Don't worry, Serena, I'll let you know about the funeral arrangements.

0:22:32 > 0:22:34Yep, you too.

0:22:34 > 0:22:36Bye-bye.

0:22:41 > 0:22:46- Donna! So good to see you again. - You too.

0:22:47 > 0:22:49I wish it was under better circumstances. I'm sorry.

0:22:49 > 0:22:53- Yeah. You heard? - Yeah, do they know what happened?

0:22:53 > 0:22:57It seems like there was some kind of terrible accident.

0:22:57 > 0:23:00How are they treating you on AAU?

0:23:00 > 0:23:03I was going to come down and welcome you in person, but there was

0:23:03 > 0:23:05a special board meeting after...well...

0:23:05 > 0:23:08It's fine. They're treating me great for the most part.

0:23:08 > 0:23:11- I saw Oliver. He hasn't changed. - Hasn't he?

0:23:13 > 0:23:16Everything, you know, it's the same but different.

0:23:16 > 0:23:18Well, you've been gone quite a while.

0:23:20 > 0:23:22Yeah. I'm starting to realise that.

0:23:23 > 0:23:26- Kieran? - Oh, that went south a long time ago.

0:23:26 > 0:23:28I meant to thank you for the references.

0:23:28 > 0:23:30Oh, no, no. Fully deserved.

0:23:30 > 0:23:34- AAU doesn't know how lucky they are to have you.- I've noticed.

0:23:36 > 0:23:38- Problem?- Nothing I can't handle,

0:23:38 > 0:23:40and nothing that you need to bother yourself with. OK?

0:23:40 > 0:23:42Donna?

0:23:43 > 0:23:47I... I seem to have rubbed Nurse Fletcher up the wrong way.

0:23:47 > 0:23:52I've been placed on restricted duties. It's fine, come on.

0:23:54 > 0:23:57- PHONE RINGS - Gah...

0:23:57 > 0:23:58You going to answer it?

0:23:58 > 0:24:00It's her. I know it is.

0:24:00 > 0:24:01Who?

0:24:01 > 0:24:03It's Harriet Brite, the mohel's daughter.

0:24:03 > 0:24:06- She might be really nice. - That's not the point.

0:24:06 > 0:24:07Well, what IS the point?

0:24:07 > 0:24:09I can't let my mother win! That's the point.

0:24:09 > 0:24:12So, by not answering your phone you'll prove to your mother

0:24:12 > 0:24:13that she's not the boss of you?

0:24:13 > 0:24:15PHONE CONTINUES RINGING

0:24:19 > 0:24:20Hello, Sacha Levy's phone.

0:24:22 > 0:24:23No, I don't have PPI.

0:24:25 > 0:24:27Mr Mitchell's bloods.

0:24:29 > 0:24:31Bad news?

0:24:37 > 0:24:39Nurse? Please help my son.

0:24:39 > 0:24:41What's happened?

0:24:41 > 0:24:42He's in so much pain. He's trying not to show

0:24:42 > 0:24:44but I can see it.

0:24:45 > 0:24:50- It's my ribs.- Right, um... Still one gram of IV paracetamol.

0:24:50 > 0:24:51Did Nurse Fletcher come over?

0:24:51 > 0:24:54He got called away, some crisis. Please.

0:24:56 > 0:24:58You're not allergic to ibuprofen?

0:24:58 > 0:25:01All right, let's see if NSAID'S help.

0:25:01 > 0:25:03I'll speak to a doctor.

0:25:03 > 0:25:06They don't work then we'll try something stronger, OK?

0:25:07 > 0:25:09Mr Novak? OK?

0:25:10 > 0:25:13I just need to get out to my interview, yeah?

0:25:13 > 0:25:15SHE SPEAKS IN CROATIAN

0:25:15 > 0:25:17Mum here doesn't want me to become a firefighter.

0:25:17 > 0:25:19- She thinks it's too dangerous. - It IS dangerous.

0:25:21 > 0:25:25THEY ARGUE IN CROATIAN

0:25:30 > 0:25:32Now then.

0:25:32 > 0:25:36I have spoken to Nurse Fletcher about his concerns

0:25:36 > 0:25:38and we've agreed a compromise.

0:25:38 > 0:25:40- It's fine. Really, I should... - No. No, no.

0:25:40 > 0:25:43You are a former ward sister and one of the finest I've ever worked with,

0:25:43 > 0:25:46and you will be treated accordingly.

0:25:46 > 0:25:48So, I've assured Nurse Fletcher that...

0:25:48 > 0:25:51- Fedja Novak's bloods.- What about them?- Where are they?- In the lab.

0:25:51 > 0:25:53I just spoke to the lab. They have no record of them.

0:25:53 > 0:25:56I labelled, bagged and dropped them hours ago.

0:25:56 > 0:25:58What?

0:26:01 > 0:26:03Um,

0:26:03 > 0:26:07bloods are now electronically tagged and listed

0:26:07 > 0:26:08in order of priority.

0:26:10 > 0:26:15- Since when? - 2014. It's in the manual.

0:26:26 > 0:26:28What are you doing?

0:26:28 > 0:26:31Nothing, I... I was bringing up the theatre notes and...

0:26:31 > 0:26:33And you started going through my drawers?

0:26:33 > 0:26:35No, it was open. I found this.

0:26:39 > 0:26:40Are you crying?

0:26:42 > 0:26:45- I thought you said you didn't know Jasmine as a child?- I didn't.

0:26:45 > 0:26:47Well, what's this then?

0:26:47 > 0:26:51Nothing. Something Paula did in one her more maudlin moods.

0:26:51 > 0:26:53- Wasn't nothing to Jasmine. - It's a lie.

0:26:57 > 0:26:59- Look, we need to talk.- Yes, we do.

0:26:59 > 0:27:02Luna James. Why didn't you do her history?

0:27:02 > 0:27:05Cos she was banging on about that karma stuff and doing my head in.

0:27:05 > 0:27:06It's basic nursing.

0:27:06 > 0:27:09- Yes, I know. I'm sorry, I forgot. I was upset.- About what?

0:27:09 > 0:27:12- What do you think?- Jasmine?

0:27:12 > 0:27:15- Yes, Jasmine! - It's no excuse. We're all upset.

0:27:15 > 0:27:17We still do our jobs and we move on.

0:27:17 > 0:27:20That's you moving on, is it?

0:27:20 > 0:27:21Same old Jac.

0:27:21 > 0:27:23- What's that supposed to mean? - You. Hiding everything away.

0:27:23 > 0:27:27- Oh, don't start with the undergraduate analysis. - Burying everything away.

0:27:27 > 0:27:31- It's just embarrassing. - Even after all these years and you're still scarred.- Enough!

0:27:31 > 0:27:35- She's your sister, Jac!- And now she's dead! And I couldn't stop it.

0:27:38 > 0:27:39You blame yourself.

0:27:39 > 0:27:42- PAGER BEEPS - It wasn't your fault.

0:27:43 > 0:27:46Jac, there's something I have to tell you. Jac!

0:27:49 > 0:27:52- What happened?- I gave her the Rampiril. She seemed to be responding.

0:27:52 > 0:27:55- Then she just...crashed. - Clear! Shocking.

0:27:57 > 0:28:00No change. Starting compression again.

0:28:00 > 0:28:01Charging to 150.

0:28:01 > 0:28:04- How long's it been?- 30 minutes. - Why didn't you call me?!

0:28:04 > 0:28:05Clear! Shocking.

0:28:09 > 0:28:11Get out the way.

0:28:11 > 0:28:13Her heart is young. She wants to live.

0:28:13 > 0:28:15- Charging.- 1ml of epinephrine.

0:28:15 > 0:28:17Clear! Shocking.

0:28:17 > 0:28:19DEFIBRILLATOR SHOCK

0:28:21 > 0:28:25- Sinus rhythm! She's back!- Good.

0:28:25 > 0:28:28Right, 300mg of amiodarone, bolus, then 900mg over 12 hours.

0:28:28 > 0:28:31When she's able I want an MRI and TOE.

0:28:31 > 0:28:35HARMONICA PLAYS SAD TUNE

0:28:46 > 0:28:49- Expecting bad news?- Pavlovian.

0:28:49 > 0:28:52I haven't received too much good news from doctors in recent years.

0:28:52 > 0:28:53Ah, squeeze-box?

0:28:54 > 0:28:57Haven't seen one of those since my daughter's bat mitzvah.

0:28:57 > 0:29:00- Used to be in a Klezmer band. - What, used to?

0:29:00 > 0:29:02These days I can just about squeeze out the odd note,

0:29:02 > 0:29:05but anything more than that the booze did for.

0:29:08 > 0:29:10Give it to me, Doc. What's the damage.

0:29:10 > 0:29:12My liver?

0:29:12 > 0:29:14No. It's on the wrong side.

0:29:15 > 0:29:17Dodged a bullet?

0:29:17 > 0:29:18Afraid not.

0:29:20 > 0:29:22The blood tests show that you have signs of infection,

0:29:22 > 0:29:26- and it appears your kidneys are playing up.- I see.

0:29:26 > 0:29:28- The booze? - Well, it won't have helped.

0:29:28 > 0:29:30Are we talking failure here?

0:29:30 > 0:29:34- No, no, we're not at that stage yet. - PHONE RINGS

0:29:34 > 0:29:36- Screening?- Yup.

0:29:36 > 0:29:38- Women or debts?- Bit of both.

0:29:39 > 0:29:41No, it's my mother.

0:29:41 > 0:29:44The blind date. Does she have awful taste in women, your mother?

0:29:44 > 0:29:47Well, she certainly thinks I do.

0:29:47 > 0:29:48Can't you humour her?

0:29:49 > 0:29:51No. Not lately.

0:29:51 > 0:29:54As she gets older, my mother's turned to religion.

0:29:54 > 0:29:57She's trying to get me to do the same. By stealth.

0:29:57 > 0:29:59Her religion?

0:29:59 > 0:30:00Mm.

0:30:00 > 0:30:01You don't believe?

0:30:01 > 0:30:05Let's just say I haven't witnessed any miracles.

0:30:05 > 0:30:06Especially not recently.

0:30:08 > 0:30:12Sorry. it's been a bit tough round here.

0:30:14 > 0:30:16You know, Mac, it's still not too late to cut out that grog.

0:30:16 > 0:30:18It might stop the shakes.

0:30:18 > 0:30:21I haven't touched a drop in two years and this just keeps getting worse.

0:30:21 > 0:30:23- You're clean?- As a whistle.

0:30:28 > 0:30:30Ooh, kettle's boiled.

0:30:30 > 0:30:31- Hey?- Cuppa?

0:30:31 > 0:30:35No, you're all right. But, thanks.

0:30:35 > 0:30:36No worries.

0:30:36 > 0:30:38- TOGETHER: Nurse Fletcher... - Nurse Jackson...

0:30:38 > 0:30:41- TOGETHER:- Call me Fletch. - Just Donna.

0:30:43 > 0:30:45Look, Fletch, I'm so sorry.

0:30:45 > 0:30:48I came in here today like I bloody well owned the place.

0:30:48 > 0:30:51Trampled all over your feet and made a complete div out of myself

0:30:51 > 0:30:54while doing so. If someone had done that while I was running the ward

0:30:54 > 0:30:55I'd have gone completely ballistic.

0:30:55 > 0:31:00Instead, you know, you've been fair and generous and...

0:31:00 > 0:31:01Well, I'm really sorry.

0:31:03 > 0:31:04Hard to argue with any of that.

0:31:06 > 0:31:08Fresh start?

0:31:08 > 0:31:10Fresh start.

0:31:11 > 0:31:14This is the part where you admit you've been slightly cranky

0:31:14 > 0:31:15with me, too.

0:31:16 > 0:31:19Well, I'm not usually the cranky type, so...

0:31:20 > 0:31:22- Guess we just rubbed each other up the wrong way.- Yeah.

0:31:22 > 0:31:24Maybe we'll be like one of those couples,

0:31:24 > 0:31:27you know, all snipey and fighty at first and then boom!

0:31:27 > 0:31:29At it like rabbits in the store cupboard,

0:31:29 > 0:31:31can't keep their hands off each other.

0:31:31 > 0:31:35Or we could maintain a professional, respectable working relationship.

0:31:35 > 0:31:37Yeah. We should do that.

0:31:38 > 0:31:40Liliana Novak was asking for you.

0:31:44 > 0:31:46Any idea what we're looking for?

0:31:46 > 0:31:50Something that's not showing up on a TTE, but is serious enough

0:31:50 > 0:31:52to cause heart failure.

0:31:54 > 0:31:57That was incredible. Before.

0:31:58 > 0:32:00The way you brought her back.

0:32:00 > 0:32:03I mean, I thought she was... You know.

0:32:03 > 0:32:05But you didn't give up. Not for a second.

0:32:06 > 0:32:08What was the last thing she said?

0:32:10 > 0:32:11- What?- Jasmine.

0:32:13 > 0:32:15When you found her, what did she say to you?

0:32:15 > 0:32:16That she'd fallen.

0:32:18 > 0:32:19Stupid accident.

0:32:20 > 0:32:22She kept saying she was tired.

0:32:23 > 0:32:26I knew I had to keep her awake so I kept talking to her.

0:32:26 > 0:32:28What was the last thing she said?

0:32:29 > 0:32:30Your name.

0:32:31 > 0:32:32She asked for you.

0:32:34 > 0:32:36Why?

0:32:38 > 0:32:42I was just thinking about the last thing I said to her before...

0:32:42 > 0:32:43What was that?

0:32:45 > 0:32:47What is it, Rossini?

0:32:47 > 0:32:49Luna's MRI scan.

0:32:50 > 0:32:52- Jac, if you want me to take over... - No, wait. Wait. Wait.

0:32:52 > 0:32:55Go back. Over the mitral valve.

0:32:55 > 0:32:57There.

0:32:58 > 0:33:00There it is. Separation.

0:33:00 > 0:33:03- It's tiny. - What are we looking at, Dr Ford?

0:33:03 > 0:33:05There's a separation down the middle of the mitral valve.

0:33:05 > 0:33:07Cleft mitral leaflet?

0:33:07 > 0:33:09- Treatment?- Mitral valve repair. - Good work.

0:33:11 > 0:33:12You'll be scrubbing in.

0:33:15 > 0:33:17So are they normally about eight days old when it happens?

0:33:17 > 0:33:18Yes, traditionally.

0:33:18 > 0:33:22- Isn't that...- Barbaric? - I was going to say traumatic.

0:33:22 > 0:33:25Some people think so. I can't say I really remember.

0:33:26 > 0:33:28Oh, thanks. There's an image I really didn't need.

0:33:30 > 0:33:31Yes, Dominic. I am Jewish.

0:33:31 > 0:33:35Yeah, but I don't need to know how Jewish you are, do I?

0:33:35 > 0:33:37I can't actually believe I'm having this conversation.

0:33:37 > 0:33:39It doesn't work that way. You can't just pick and choose.

0:33:39 > 0:33:42OK, right, so when was the last time you went to synagogue?

0:33:43 > 0:33:46- Shut up. Go away. - Mac Mitchell's urine tests.

0:33:46 > 0:33:48So you CAN pick and choose.

0:33:50 > 0:33:54HARMONICA PLAYS INTRODUCTION TO BEETHOVEN'S FIFTH SYMPHONY

0:33:55 > 0:33:57You're going to start giving me a complex.

0:34:01 > 0:34:06Right, results confirm you have a kidney infection. Pyelonephritis.

0:34:06 > 0:34:09But the interesting thing is that it has absolutely nothing to do

0:34:09 > 0:34:12- with your alcoholism. - What's causing it, then?

0:34:12 > 0:34:15When you gave up the sauce, did you replace it with anything?

0:34:15 > 0:34:16Sugary drinks and red-hot curry.

0:34:19 > 0:34:22- Is that hand really sore? - On and off. Arthritis, probably.

0:34:22 > 0:34:24- PHONE RINGS - Hazard of the lifestyle.

0:34:27 > 0:34:30- Sorry about this.- Is it the religion that puts you off

0:34:30 > 0:34:32or the fact it's your mum pushing it?

0:34:32 > 0:34:33Probably a bit of both, isn't it?

0:34:33 > 0:34:36Careful you don't do yourself out of a good thing.

0:34:36 > 0:34:39- Little bit of faith can go a long way.- Are you religious?

0:34:39 > 0:34:42I am now. 12 steps. It worked for me.

0:34:43 > 0:34:47God gave me one miracle when he helped me off the sauce.

0:34:47 > 0:34:49Might be he'll give me another if he lets me

0:34:49 > 0:34:51out of here in one piece today.

0:34:51 > 0:34:53Well, I may have something to do with that.

0:34:55 > 0:34:58- Hey, you wanted to speak to me? - It's Fedja.

0:34:58 > 0:35:00Well, the scans have given the all clear on his ribs,

0:35:00 > 0:35:03the pneumothorax has cleared up and they're about to remove

0:35:03 > 0:35:06the chest drain. With any luck, he might even make his interview.

0:35:06 > 0:35:10He mustn't. He can't become a firefighter, it's too dangerous.

0:35:10 > 0:35:11You must talk him out of it.

0:35:11 > 0:35:15Me? Look, I understand how you feel, but I know from bitter personal

0:35:15 > 0:35:18experience that young men are going to be drawn to dangerous jobs

0:35:18 > 0:35:22- and there is nothing you can do to talk them out of it. - You must try. You are nurse.

0:35:22 > 0:35:23He will listen to you.

0:35:23 > 0:35:25He wants to live up to his father's memory.

0:35:25 > 0:35:27Surely you can understand that?

0:35:30 > 0:35:31He can't.

0:35:33 > 0:35:35But his father was a volunteer. A hero.

0:35:35 > 0:35:39His father was collaborator. He was killed for it.

0:35:40 > 0:35:44How could I tell him the truth, a baby in my arms?

0:35:44 > 0:35:51Shellings... He was hurt and never the same since. Always...falling.

0:35:51 > 0:35:54Sometimes visions, fits.

0:35:54 > 0:35:59- Fits?- Yeah, it's like he's there but not quite there. Just staring.

0:35:59 > 0:36:03Sometimes it's worse. He's confused, it's like he doesn't know me.

0:36:03 > 0:36:05And moments later, normal.

0:36:05 > 0:36:08Does he lose consciousness? Is that why he fell off his bike?

0:36:08 > 0:36:10Yeah.

0:36:10 > 0:36:12OK, I will be back.

0:36:14 > 0:36:15The heart failure was exciting.

0:36:15 > 0:36:18Let's try not to do THAT again, OK?

0:36:18 > 0:36:20Something tells me we're not quite finished yet.

0:36:21 > 0:36:24The scan showed a small slit in your heart valve.

0:36:25 > 0:36:27Tiny, but deadly if left untreated.

0:36:30 > 0:36:31What's your one wish?

0:36:32 > 0:36:33Not supposed to tell.

0:36:35 > 0:36:37We're going into theatre soon.

0:36:39 > 0:36:41I keep telling myself I'm ready but I'm not.

0:36:43 > 0:36:45There's no such thing as karma.

0:36:46 > 0:36:49The last time I saw my mother I told her I hated her.

0:36:51 > 0:36:54She begged me not to take leave, said I was throwing my life away.

0:36:55 > 0:36:59I told her she was a small-minded, provincial bigot...

0:37:01 > 0:37:02..and she died four months later.

0:37:04 > 0:37:06What do you think that makes me?

0:37:08 > 0:37:11A snot-nosed, self-entitled, millennial brat?

0:37:13 > 0:37:17If karma existed, three-quarters of people under 25

0:37:17 > 0:37:19would be vaporised instantly.

0:37:19 > 0:37:22I'm sure your mother knew you didn't mean it.

0:37:25 > 0:37:28Last time we saw each other I was to be given some medicine

0:37:28 > 0:37:29and discharged.

0:37:31 > 0:37:33And since then I've suffered a massive heart attack

0:37:33 > 0:37:36and been diagnosed with a deadly heart condition.

0:37:38 > 0:37:40I'm scared I'm going to die, Ms Naylor.

0:37:43 > 0:37:45I'm not going to let that happen.

0:38:03 > 0:38:05- Where's Fedja?- Er...toilet?

0:38:05 > 0:38:08I just removed his drain. He wanted to stretch his legs.

0:38:08 > 0:38:11We need get him to a brain MRI scan as soon as possible.

0:38:11 > 0:38:13Brain? He didn't have a head injury, did he?

0:38:13 > 0:38:15His mother just told me he was exposed to shelling as a baby,

0:38:15 > 0:38:18- that they were caught in a bomb strike.- Donna...- Listen. Please.

0:38:18 > 0:38:20She also described symptoms, recurring symptoms,

0:38:20 > 0:38:23consistent with late-onset post-traumatic epilepsy.

0:38:23 > 0:38:25And you think that's what caused the accident?

0:38:25 > 0:38:26It's not the first time it's happened.

0:38:26 > 0:38:29I'll get on to radiology. See if we can get an appointment.

0:38:29 > 0:38:32- If he can come back in a few days... - No, no, no. We need to find him now.

0:38:32 > 0:38:35What's the panic? Even if there was an intra-cranial bleed this morning, it must have

0:38:35 > 0:38:39been very small, otherwise there'd have been signs visible during his neurological testing.

0:38:39 > 0:38:43- And it wouldn't have got bigger. - It would if he'd been given medication with an anti-platelet

0:38:43 > 0:38:47- effect. Like NSAID's.- But he hasn't. He's on paracetamol.

0:38:47 > 0:38:50- I changed it.- You did what?

0:38:50 > 0:38:53I asked Dr Davies to change his medication.

0:38:53 > 0:38:55- Without checking with me first? - I didn't mean to.

0:38:55 > 0:39:00I had no reason to think... He was not allergic to anything, and...

0:39:00 > 0:39:01I'm sorry.

0:39:01 > 0:39:04I'll get onto radiology. You go and find him.

0:39:04 > 0:39:06Now!

0:39:12 > 0:39:14You OK?

0:39:14 > 0:39:18I'm brilliant. Can't wait to get stuck in.

0:39:18 > 0:39:22You have nothing to prove, Dr Ford. Nothing to make up for.

0:39:23 > 0:39:25Right, let's get to theatre, Dr Ford.

0:39:27 > 0:39:31First a supervised TOE, now assisting on an open sternotomy.

0:39:31 > 0:39:34- I can handle it.- I know YOU can.

0:39:34 > 0:39:36What's your point?

0:39:36 > 0:39:40You're showing a lot of faith in an F1 who's only been here a few weeks.

0:39:40 > 0:39:42It's a teaching hospital, Rossini.

0:39:42 > 0:39:44It's my job to throw them in at the deep end.

0:39:44 > 0:39:46And it's my job to make sure they don't drown.

0:39:46 > 0:39:49He blames himself, you realise.

0:39:49 > 0:39:51Well, that means he's motivated.

0:40:00 > 0:40:02Which part of "check with me" didn't you understand?

0:40:02 > 0:40:05You cannot possibly be more angry at me than I am at myself.

0:40:09 > 0:40:12It's all right. We'll find him.

0:40:12 > 0:40:14There. Right, look. I need a trolley!

0:40:17 > 0:40:19Fedja?

0:40:19 > 0:40:21Fedja, can you hear me?

0:40:21 > 0:40:23Fedja?

0:40:23 > 0:40:24We need to get him back to AAU.

0:40:24 > 0:40:27- As quick as you can, please!- Fedja?

0:40:27 > 0:40:29Fedja?

0:40:31 > 0:40:35- Mac?- It's fine. Pain comes and goes.

0:40:35 > 0:40:37Probably shouldn't have attempted the Chopin earlier.

0:40:37 > 0:40:39Klezmer days are long gone.

0:40:40 > 0:40:42Well, I may be able to help.

0:40:42 > 0:40:44We've discovered that your pyelonephritis is being caused

0:40:44 > 0:40:47by a build-up of calcified stones in your kidney.

0:40:47 > 0:40:49- I have kidney stones?- Precisely.

0:40:49 > 0:40:52But we can do a laser lithotripsy today, blast them out, and then

0:40:52 > 0:40:56you'll have no problems, as long as you give up the sugary drinks.

0:40:56 > 0:40:58- My cola?- Then your hands can return to something

0:40:58 > 0:41:00akin to their usual nimbleness.

0:41:00 > 0:41:03So this was caused by the cola, not the booze?

0:41:03 > 0:41:06Well, I mean, the booze didn't help, but, yeah.

0:41:08 > 0:41:10I know you don't believe.

0:41:12 > 0:41:13But I prayed for this.

0:41:13 > 0:41:16Well, maybe God used me as a vessel.

0:41:17 > 0:41:20PHONE RINGS

0:41:22 > 0:41:23Hello, Sacha Levy.

0:41:26 > 0:41:27Hatty, Hi!

0:41:28 > 0:41:31Yeah. Yeah, I was expecting your call.

0:41:32 > 0:41:34Yep.

0:41:34 > 0:41:38Yes, I think coming to the hospital first would be a fabulous idea.

0:41:38 > 0:41:40Talk me through what I'm doing, Dr Ford.

0:41:40 > 0:41:43- You'll open the left atrium to expose the valve.- Before that?

0:41:45 > 0:41:49Make sure the heart can't fill with blood while operating.

0:41:49 > 0:41:50And how do we avoid that?

0:41:52 > 0:41:54By putting the patient on bypass?

0:41:54 > 0:41:56No. By being me.

0:41:56 > 0:41:59The patient is all ready to go on bypass. Using cross clamps.

0:41:59 > 0:42:02- And how do I become like you? - You don't want to.

0:42:02 > 0:42:03Pressure's dropping.

0:42:03 > 0:42:06- FAST BEEPING - She's hypotensive. - OK, we've got a bleed.

0:42:06 > 0:42:09Where? How? You did nothing wrong.

0:42:09 > 0:42:10- It's like...- Karma?

0:42:12 > 0:42:14So 3-0 prolene on standby.

0:42:14 > 0:42:17We need to find this bleed and stitch where it's coming from.

0:42:17 > 0:42:21Guy collapsed outside. GCS is three. Pulse is 50, BP's 90/60.

0:42:21 > 0:42:23Let's have a look.

0:42:24 > 0:42:26All right. Let's get a team to transfer him to Neuro.

0:42:26 > 0:42:29- There's no time. He's coning. - Rescue burr hole.

0:42:29 > 0:42:32Get him into trauma. Iodine prep and a scalpel.

0:42:32 > 0:42:35And get a team from Neuro down here straight away, please!

0:42:36 > 0:42:37Fedja?

0:42:37 > 0:42:40It's OK, just stay here. We're taking care of him.

0:42:52 > 0:42:54So how many's that now?

0:42:54 > 0:42:5812 calcified stones reduced to rubble. It must have been agonising.

0:42:58 > 0:43:02Not as agonising as it'll be for Sacha later, when Hatty arrives.

0:43:02 > 0:43:06- THEY SNIGGER - Har-di-har-di-har.

0:43:06 > 0:43:09I'll meet her, I'll take her to these drinks and then, you know,

0:43:09 > 0:43:12I'll politely but firmly explain that we've got nothing in common

0:43:12 > 0:43:15and we'll just be friends.

0:43:15 > 0:43:16I'm sure she'll be lovely.

0:43:16 > 0:43:19- Thank you. - Lovely personality, that is,

0:43:19 > 0:43:22to make up for the snaggleteeth and the fallen arches.

0:43:22 > 0:43:24LAUGHTER

0:43:24 > 0:43:26Right, let it out. Get it out your systems.

0:43:26 > 0:43:29I'm really hoping she's got a giant mole on the end of her nose

0:43:29 > 0:43:30that you can't help but stare at.

0:43:30 > 0:43:33- With a big hair coming out the middle of it! - LAUGHTER

0:43:33 > 0:43:37- You're going straight to hell. You know that, don't you? Both of you. - OK, OK sorry.- Sorry, Sach.

0:43:37 > 0:43:40- It's not the time or the place. - Sorry, Sacha.

0:43:40 > 0:43:41Apology accepted.

0:43:48 > 0:43:50Are you OK?

0:43:52 > 0:43:54- IN BROKEN VOICE:- I'm fine.

0:43:54 > 0:43:56Are you crying?

0:43:56 > 0:43:58Sach?

0:44:01 > 0:44:04LAUGHTER

0:44:04 > 0:44:07Snaggletooth!

0:44:07 > 0:44:09Oh, that's tickled me!

0:44:09 > 0:44:11THEY ALL LAUGH

0:44:11 > 0:44:13That's so funny!

0:44:13 > 0:44:17Mole! So funny!

0:44:17 > 0:44:19I'm so sorry.

0:44:21 > 0:44:23HE HOWLS WITH LAUGHTER

0:44:23 > 0:44:26OK, let's have another two units. Where's it coming from?

0:44:26 > 0:44:29- From under the heart.- Who invited you to this mess, Rossini?

0:44:29 > 0:44:31The bleed is on the underside.

0:44:31 > 0:44:33Yes, I know that! But where, exactly?

0:44:34 > 0:44:37- She knew this was going to happen. - What are you talking about?

0:44:37 > 0:44:40- She knew all along. Karma. - There is no such thing.

0:44:42 > 0:44:44OK, Ford.

0:44:44 > 0:44:48- I'm going to lift the heart, and when I do I want you to look around very carefully.- For what?

0:44:48 > 0:44:51When I lift it, the bleed will stop because I'm stretching the vein

0:44:51 > 0:44:52that it's coming from.

0:44:52 > 0:44:55I need you to locate that vein. Understood?

0:44:55 > 0:44:56Ready?

0:45:00 > 0:45:02- Bleeding stopped.- Pulmonary!

0:45:02 > 0:45:05- Are you sure?- Yes.- OK, good. Take the heart.

0:45:05 > 0:45:06What?!

0:45:06 > 0:45:09- Take the heart. Hold it. - Are you serious?

0:45:09 > 0:45:11Deadly.

0:45:11 > 0:45:12Jac. Wait, let me scrub in.

0:45:12 > 0:45:15There's no time. Take the heart.

0:45:15 > 0:45:17It's OK. It won't bite.

0:45:18 > 0:45:21That's it. Lift it up. Good.

0:45:21 > 0:45:23Right, Prolene.

0:45:25 > 0:45:27OK, Ford.

0:45:27 > 0:45:28Don't move.

0:45:32 > 0:45:35- BEEP - We're losing her.- No, we're not.

0:45:36 > 0:45:38Luna...

0:45:39 > 0:45:41There's no such thing as karma.

0:45:43 > 0:45:45You know how I know?

0:45:45 > 0:45:48Because too many bad things happen to good people.

0:45:50 > 0:45:53If karma existed, I wouldn't.

0:45:57 > 0:46:00In a world without karma, people like me thrive.

0:46:02 > 0:46:04There's no such thing as forgiveness.

0:46:06 > 0:46:08BEEP

0:46:31 > 0:46:33It wasn't your fault.

0:46:33 > 0:46:35It feels like it was. In here.

0:46:38 > 0:46:43For six years, on and off, I've been imagining what it would be like

0:46:43 > 0:46:44to come home.

0:46:46 > 0:46:47That's what this was supposed to be.

0:46:50 > 0:46:52I never imagined it would feel like this.

0:46:57 > 0:46:59What are you going to do?

0:46:59 > 0:47:01What I have to.

0:47:21 > 0:47:23It wasn't your fault.

0:47:25 > 0:47:26What happened to Jasmine.

0:47:28 > 0:47:30- You can't blame yourself.- I don't.

0:47:32 > 0:47:34Do you know how she died?

0:47:36 > 0:47:38Yes.

0:47:38 > 0:47:40She had a scalpel in her uniform

0:47:40 > 0:47:41that she took off a troubled patient.

0:47:43 > 0:47:44Kelli Mathers.

0:47:44 > 0:47:48She was abused by her brother, Luke. We saved his life.

0:47:50 > 0:47:52I saved his life.

0:47:54 > 0:47:57And that's where our naive do-gooding Jasmine comes in.

0:47:59 > 0:48:02She takes a scalpel off this poor, crazed girl.

0:48:03 > 0:48:07Skips down here, falls over and kills herself.

0:48:10 > 0:48:14And none of this would have happened but for that bastard Luke Underwood.

0:48:27 > 0:48:30So that's it. You're quitting?

0:48:30 > 0:48:32I wouldn't put it quite like that.

0:48:32 > 0:48:34Well, how else would you put it?

0:48:34 > 0:48:37That you don't have to take up the option on my contract.

0:48:37 > 0:48:40- It was probationary, right? - Yeah, fine. Whatever.

0:48:42 > 0:48:44That's your idea of an exit interview, is it?

0:48:44 > 0:48:46I'm not wasting exit interviews on cowards who dip their toes back

0:48:46 > 0:48:50- in the water then scurry off the first hint of it being cold. - Excuse me? Coward? How dare you?

0:48:50 > 0:48:53What else would you call someone that does a runner at the first hurdle?

0:48:53 > 0:48:55Look, the Donna Jackson that I heard about was a legend.

0:48:55 > 0:48:59A warrior who worked hard, played harder and never, ever backed down from a fight.

0:48:59 > 0:49:01Is your management style lifted straight from the Rocky movies

0:49:01 > 0:49:04or have you just swallowed the Oxford Book of Cliches?

0:49:04 > 0:49:06You want a cliche? How about this one?

0:49:06 > 0:49:08The girl that makes one mistake and then jacks it all in.

0:49:08 > 0:49:11One mistake? I have made loads of mistakes.

0:49:11 > 0:49:14In fact, I have made an entire career out of humiliating incidents

0:49:14 > 0:49:15that I've had to face down the next day.

0:49:15 > 0:49:17What have you got me saying?!

0:49:21 > 0:49:23You've just totally played me.

0:49:23 > 0:49:25Like a fiddle.

0:49:25 > 0:49:26Why?

0:49:26 > 0:49:28Because you helped save Fedja Novak's life.

0:49:29 > 0:49:32And you really want me to stay? Why?

0:49:32 > 0:49:35Because you're a quality nurse. And that is what I need.

0:49:36 > 0:49:39Anyway, who else am I going to fight with?

0:49:41 > 0:49:44Right, well... I will look forward to it.

0:49:45 > 0:49:46And so will I.

0:49:59 > 0:50:01You saved me.

0:50:01 > 0:50:02It's what I do.

0:50:04 > 0:50:05Who saves you?

0:50:07 > 0:50:09Can I have that?

0:50:14 > 0:50:15What's your wish?

0:50:19 > 0:50:20Not supposed to say.

0:50:31 > 0:50:32They tell me I have epilepsy.

0:50:34 > 0:50:36That I'll never be a firefighter.

0:50:36 > 0:50:40You knew this was coming. That something was wrong.

0:50:40 > 0:50:42That's why you fell off your bike, right?

0:50:44 > 0:50:45I just wanted to make my dad proud.

0:50:49 > 0:50:50He was a hero.

0:50:55 > 0:50:57Sure.

0:50:58 > 0:51:04But that's HIS story. Maybe you should concentrate on your own.

0:51:04 > 0:51:06Do something to make yourself proud.

0:51:10 > 0:51:12That's just my opinion.

0:51:19 > 0:51:24SHE SPEAKS IN CROATIAN

0:51:39 > 0:51:43RATTLING

0:51:43 > 0:51:46These came out of my kidney, and I'm still alive,

0:51:46 > 0:51:48and you reckon there's no God?

0:51:48 > 0:51:50Oh, I didn't say there wasn't a God.

0:51:50 > 0:51:53Just that I haven't felt his divine presence. Yet.

0:51:53 > 0:51:55You will. One day.

0:51:57 > 0:51:58We'll put you on a course of antibiotics,

0:51:58 > 0:52:00and that will clear up the infection,

0:52:00 > 0:52:02and hopefully, some of your other ailments.

0:52:02 > 0:52:04How can I thank you?

0:52:04 > 0:52:06You can keep me in your prayers.

0:52:06 > 0:52:09Mr Levy? There's a Hatty to see you.

0:52:14 > 0:52:16Feeling his divine presence now, ain't ya?

0:52:21 > 0:52:24HARMONICA PLAYS HAPPY TUNE Hi, Sacha.

0:52:24 > 0:52:26- Yes.- I'm Hatty.- Yes, I know.

0:52:26 > 0:52:28Look, shall we go somewhere else, actually?

0:52:28 > 0:52:30Just come with me.

0:52:34 > 0:52:38Sorry about this, they're very excitable today, for some reason.

0:52:38 > 0:52:41Um... Yes, we could find a restaurant.

0:52:52 > 0:52:55I'd thought you'd taken the rest of the day off, Dr Digby.

0:52:55 > 0:52:59Um, yes, I did, but...um, I couldn't...

0:53:01 > 0:53:03I can't stop thinking about it.

0:53:06 > 0:53:08Have you finished your investigation?

0:53:08 > 0:53:10- I have.- And?

0:53:11 > 0:53:12Sit down, please.

0:53:15 > 0:53:18So the facts appear to be fairly straightforward,

0:53:18 > 0:53:20if somewhat hard to accept.

0:53:21 > 0:53:26Dr Burrows hid a scalpel in her uniform and then fell.

0:53:28 > 0:53:32You see, that's the thing I can't... I can't understand.

0:53:32 > 0:53:34She fell how?

0:53:34 > 0:53:37Well, she was tired. Exhausted, I suppose.

0:53:39 > 0:53:41We'll never know the full truth.

0:53:44 > 0:53:45No.

0:53:46 > 0:53:48I don't think I can live with that.

0:53:56 > 0:53:59MUSIC

0:54:08 > 0:54:10Who's that?

0:54:10 > 0:54:12Stunning.

0:54:12 > 0:54:13That would be my wife.

0:54:13 > 0:54:15My bad.

0:54:15 > 0:54:16We're estranged.

0:54:16 > 0:54:18Your bad.

0:54:18 > 0:54:22Er, a little toast? To absent friends.

0:54:22 > 0:54:24ALL: To absent friends.

0:54:24 > 0:54:26- And new ones.- Aw.

0:54:31 > 0:54:34I'd like to arrange for the release of Jasmine Burrows' body

0:54:34 > 0:54:36for funeral preparation.

0:54:37 > 0:54:39Jac Naylor. Her sister.

0:54:41 > 0:54:42Thank you.