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0:00:02 > 0:00:05Jared Baptiste, ring any bells? # Here comes the bride... #

0:00:05 > 0:00:08- Does Jared even know you're back working again?- Does he heck.

0:00:08 > 0:00:10What the hell are you doing working here

0:00:10 > 0:00:12when you should be shoe shopping with all the other WAGs?

0:00:12 > 0:00:14What, can't a girl give a little something back?

0:00:14 > 0:00:16This damn file isn't our son,

0:00:16 > 0:00:18this is the record of the hell we lived through.

0:00:18 > 0:00:22I couldn't marry Alice because I was in love with her brother.

0:00:22 > 0:00:24I've never actually said that out loud.

0:00:24 > 0:00:26What is this?

0:00:26 > 0:00:28- Divorce papers.- But I thought?

0:00:28 > 0:00:30You'll understand, I know you will.

0:00:30 > 0:00:33I'm more of a jigsaw man myself.

0:00:33 > 0:00:36- Yeah?- Yeah, me and my mum used to spend hours back in Clacton piecing

0:00:36 > 0:00:40together tiny little bits.

0:00:40 > 0:00:42- How long have you been together? - What?!- Us?

0:00:42 > 0:00:44- We're not together. - Not in the slightest.

0:00:44 > 0:00:46We're barely friends.

0:01:30 > 0:01:31MUSIC IN CAR

0:01:48 > 0:01:49PHONE RINGS

0:02:04 > 0:02:06Who's put that smile on your face?

0:02:06 > 0:02:07Come and look at this.

0:02:13 > 0:02:15What's he doing?

0:02:15 > 0:02:16I think he's hiding.

0:02:17 > 0:02:18Who from?

0:02:19 > 0:02:22That looks like Griselda from Accounts.

0:02:26 > 0:02:28He is a dark horse, that Lofty.

0:02:29 > 0:02:30Why do you say that?

0:02:31 > 0:02:34That looks suspiciously like the morning after the night before.

0:02:34 > 0:02:35Maybe.

0:02:38 > 0:02:43So, why don't you think him and Griselda could've been playing hide the salami?

0:02:44 > 0:02:48Well... She's not his type. Obviously.

0:02:51 > 0:02:52What do you mean by that?

0:02:52 > 0:02:57- No, no, look. I would've known. - Just leave it, Dom.

0:02:57 > 0:03:00My gaydar is a finely-honed precision instrument.

0:03:00 > 0:03:03Right, well, there you go, then.

0:03:03 > 0:03:05But I could've been wrong.

0:03:05 > 0:03:09We really should not be speculating about this.

0:03:09 > 0:03:12He was engaged. To a woman.

0:03:12 > 0:03:14Well, there you go, then.

0:03:14 > 0:03:16But he did leave her at the altar, so...

0:03:18 > 0:03:24Wait, did he leave her at the altar for a...for a man? He did!

0:03:24 > 0:03:28Listen, I'm sure it's all very complicated and not something we should be discussing.

0:03:28 > 0:03:30You haven't said anything to Lofty, have you?

0:03:30 > 0:03:32No. He's oddly private about his sex life.

0:03:32 > 0:03:34You gotta not tell him I said anything, OK?

0:03:34 > 0:03:37Not that I have said anything...OK? Good.

0:03:38 > 0:03:43But he's been being really nice, and he's thoughtful and caring...

0:03:43 > 0:03:44what are you doing?

0:03:44 > 0:03:47I wasn't aware that was linked to sexual orientation.

0:03:47 > 0:03:49Well, no, it's not, what I'm saying is...

0:03:49 > 0:03:53You have to promise me you do not say anything to Lofty.

0:03:53 > 0:03:55Lofty never explicitly told me it was a secret

0:03:55 > 0:03:59and I could be wrong about all of this - but it is his private life.

0:03:59 > 0:04:00So... OK?

0:04:02 > 0:04:03Morning.

0:04:03 > 0:04:04Morning, hi.

0:04:07 > 0:04:08Promise? Right.

0:04:09 > 0:04:10So he's bi?

0:04:12 > 0:04:14Dom!

0:04:15 > 0:04:17Fine, fine. Mum's the word.

0:04:19 > 0:04:20Great.

0:04:24 > 0:04:26Feeding the 5,000?

0:04:26 > 0:04:27Oh, er, no, just AAU.

0:04:28 > 0:04:30Is there a famine?

0:04:30 > 0:04:31There's Fletch.

0:04:31 > 0:04:33A man of appetite, indeed.

0:04:34 > 0:04:37Are you settling in? Sorry I haven't been down to see you.

0:04:37 > 0:04:39Oh, it's OK. You've had...

0:04:39 > 0:04:40distractions.

0:04:42 > 0:04:43£23, please.

0:04:44 > 0:04:46How's Mia?

0:04:46 > 0:04:48Well, thank you. She's growing.

0:04:48 > 0:04:50Fast.

0:04:50 > 0:04:52Tweenagers. It's a period of rapid change.

0:04:54 > 0:04:56Not the only change since last I saw you?

0:04:56 > 0:04:58Oh, no...

0:05:00 > 0:05:01Sorry, it's been declined.

0:05:03 > 0:05:05I'm sorry. I have another card here...

0:05:05 > 0:05:06No, no, no, allow me.

0:05:06 > 0:05:09- No, no.- Can't leave a man like Fletch going hungry.

0:05:09 > 0:05:10- Thank you.- Thank you.

0:05:12 > 0:05:16- Is that him? - No. The one on the left.- Hunk.

0:05:16 > 0:05:17What are we looking at?

0:05:17 > 0:05:19Jared Baptiste. Donna's fella.

0:05:19 > 0:05:21Hunk. Why's he in the papers?

0:05:21 > 0:05:23Because he scored at the weekend.

0:05:24 > 0:05:26I brought cakes!

0:05:26 > 0:05:28There she is. Our very own WAG.

0:05:28 > 0:05:30You must be proud of the old man this weekend.

0:05:30 > 0:05:33I mean, I know it's only pre-season but every goal counts, right?

0:05:33 > 0:05:35- Right.- Especially at contract renegotiation.

0:05:35 > 0:05:37Every goal adds a zero, so they reckon.

0:05:37 > 0:05:39I'll take your word for it. Look, I need to go and get changed.

0:05:39 > 0:05:41Will you save me a Danish? Thanks.

0:05:44 > 0:05:48- WAG!- Yeah, it's what they're called...wives and girlfriends.

0:05:48 > 0:05:49WAG.

0:05:50 > 0:05:52Do you know what I look for in senior staff?

0:05:52 > 0:05:56What characteristic I value above all others?

0:05:56 > 0:06:00Leadership. Integrity. Loyalty?

0:06:01 > 0:06:02The absence of baggage.

0:06:04 > 0:06:05I'm not sure I understand...

0:06:07 > 0:06:08Well...

0:06:08 > 0:06:12In my capacity as CEO I've known many intelligent

0:06:12 > 0:06:13and gifted surgeons.

0:06:14 > 0:06:17Sensible, sober, dependable people

0:06:17 > 0:06:20until the appearance of their baggage.

0:06:20 > 0:06:22And believe you me, there's always baggage,

0:06:22 > 0:06:26I sometimes feel that I preside here over a TV reality programme

0:06:26 > 0:06:29rather than an elite medical institution.

0:06:29 > 0:06:30Do sit down.

0:06:33 > 0:06:37So I take your predecessor as Medical Director, Sam Strachan,

0:06:37 > 0:06:41now, he had more than enough baggage to fill Gatwick Airport

0:06:41 > 0:06:44and look where that's landed us! In chaos.

0:06:44 > 0:06:48So I say to you, Ms Karnik, yes, leadership, integrity, loyalty -

0:06:48 > 0:06:53they're all admirable qualities but give me an absence of baggage

0:06:53 > 0:06:55and I'll show you workplace harmony.

0:06:56 > 0:06:58So, I've...got the job?

0:07:01 > 0:07:02I beg your pardon?

0:07:02 > 0:07:05Medical Director. You said "your predecessor".

0:07:05 > 0:07:07Yes, yes, yes. The position is yours...

0:07:10 > 0:07:12..barring any calamities.

0:07:12 > 0:07:13Calamities?

0:07:13 > 0:07:15Yes, you are my recommendation.

0:07:15 > 0:07:18The board should sign it off by the end of the day.

0:07:19 > 0:07:21Barring calamities.

0:07:23 > 0:07:24So I can...go?

0:07:25 > 0:07:26Where?

0:07:26 > 0:07:29To work. Now you've told me about the job.

0:07:30 > 0:07:32That's why you asked me here, isn't it?

0:07:34 > 0:07:35I suppose it is, yes.

0:07:39 > 0:07:41So you're on Darwin today?

0:07:41 > 0:07:43Yes. Two stage Ivor-Lewis oesophagectomy.

0:07:43 > 0:07:47Oh. Give my regards to Mr Rossini.

0:07:47 > 0:07:49Actually, I'm working with Ms Naylor.

0:07:49 > 0:07:54Are you? Nevertheless, would you give my regards to Mr Rossini?

0:07:55 > 0:07:56Sure.

0:08:10 > 0:08:12- Peace offering? - What's that for?

0:08:12 > 0:08:14In case I was a bit insensitive about the whole WAG thing.

0:08:14 > 0:08:16- That's what they call us. - Yeah, I know.

0:08:16 > 0:08:19- So can you please explain that to Bernie and Morven?- No.

0:08:19 > 0:08:21- Why not? - Your peace offering is rubbish.

0:08:21 > 0:08:23What, you don't like Danish?

0:08:23 > 0:08:25I love Danish. That's why I bought the Danish.

0:08:25 > 0:08:27This Danish that you're offering me.

0:08:27 > 0:08:28Yeah... I saved it for you.

0:08:28 > 0:08:31I had to fight off a horde of ravenous HCAs. They're like zombies.

0:08:31 > 0:08:32Ah, you're my hero.

0:08:33 > 0:08:36Look, seriously, I meant no disrespect, I'm a big fan.

0:08:36 > 0:08:39Yeah, well, get in line. Jared has a lot of fans.

0:08:39 > 0:08:41I wasn't talking about Jared.

0:08:41 > 0:08:44Now, that is a peace offering.

0:08:44 > 0:08:46You tell that weasel, that my client doesn't get

0:08:46 > 0:08:49out of his mistress's bed for 175 a week, let alone kick a football.

0:08:49 > 0:08:53The price is 250K a week, plus a seven-figure signing bonus.

0:08:53 > 0:08:55And that is just for starters.

0:08:55 > 0:08:57- Who's that? - That's your problem.

0:08:57 > 0:08:58I've got a thing.

0:08:59 > 0:09:00Andrea Lawley.

0:09:00 > 0:09:05Miss Lawley, Nurse Jackson here will be looking after you from now on.

0:09:05 > 0:09:08- Miss Lawley...she's a...- Whatever. Can we just get on with it, please?

0:09:08 > 0:09:10Yeah. Your consultant will be along in a minute.

0:09:10 > 0:09:12- Ms Lawley's a... - Sports agent.

0:09:12 > 0:09:13You know me?

0:09:13 > 0:09:14I know your type.

0:09:14 > 0:09:18Yeah, Nurse Jackson's got a whole six degrees of separation thing going on.

0:09:18 > 0:09:19She's Jared Baptiste's better half.

0:09:19 > 0:09:21Sorry. Who?

0:09:21 > 0:09:23Jared Baptiste. The striker...

0:09:23 > 0:09:26Oh, hang on. Oh, that rings a bell.

0:09:26 > 0:09:29My company doesn't usually deal with the lower leagues.

0:09:29 > 0:09:32But Jared Baptiste. Yeah. I've heard things.

0:09:32 > 0:09:34It says here you've got suspected hyperthyroidism?

0:09:34 > 0:09:38Well, I don't think there's anything "suspected" about it, do you?

0:09:39 > 0:09:42I need to leave you to it. I gotta crack on with my thing.

0:09:45 > 0:09:48- Why are you changing catheters? - Sacha wanted to keep me busy.

0:09:50 > 0:09:51I've got something for you.

0:09:55 > 0:09:56You are kidding!

0:09:56 > 0:09:58Dress circle.

0:09:58 > 0:10:00I've been trying to get hold of these for months.

0:10:00 > 0:10:01I know.

0:10:02 > 0:10:05- How? - You told me couple of weeks back.

0:10:05 > 0:10:06No, no. I mean, how did you get them?

0:10:08 > 0:10:09Secret.

0:10:11 > 0:10:13I don't know what to say.

0:10:13 > 0:10:15Thanks?

0:10:18 > 0:10:20I'll get the stalls next time!

0:10:20 > 0:10:22Just need to find a date now.

0:10:22 > 0:10:23Any one you want to impress, or...?

0:10:26 > 0:10:33Um... Look, Lofty. There's something I've been meaning to ask you.

0:10:33 > 0:10:37You don't have to answer cos it is quite personal.

0:10:39 > 0:10:40OK.

0:10:41 > 0:10:43Dom. It's your mum.

0:10:43 > 0:10:45Tell her I'll call back.

0:10:45 > 0:10:46No, he won't.

0:10:46 > 0:10:51I've been calling him for weeks and got diddly squat by way of response.

0:10:51 > 0:10:53Mum, what...what are you doing here?

0:10:53 > 0:10:55Hello, Dazzle!

0:10:57 > 0:10:59Sorry, is this going to take much longer?

0:10:59 > 0:11:01- PHONE CHIMES - Cos it was only a dizzy spell.

0:11:01 > 0:11:02Got somewhere you need to be?

0:11:02 > 0:11:05Transfer window's open. I've got 100 places I need to be.

0:11:05 > 0:11:07When were you diagnosed with Graves' disease?

0:11:09 > 0:11:10About a year ago.

0:11:10 > 0:11:13And you've been on anti-thyroid medication ever since?

0:11:13 > 0:11:16Erm, yeah, carbimazole.

0:11:16 > 0:11:17No surgical intervention?

0:11:17 > 0:11:21Well, it's been suggested. But I just haven't had the time, so...

0:11:21 > 0:11:23My line of work doesn't brook absence.

0:11:23 > 0:11:25PHONE CHIMES Temperature 38.6.

0:11:25 > 0:11:28See, that's just a virus. That's nothing out of the ordinary.

0:11:30 > 0:11:33Perhaps - but your heart rate's elevated, and you're feverish.

0:11:33 > 0:11:36I'd like to run some more tests if it's all the same to you.

0:11:36 > 0:11:38- PHONE CHIMES - Keep her hydrated. 1 litre Hartmann's.

0:11:38 > 0:11:41And order some thyroid function tests, please.

0:11:41 > 0:11:42Sure.

0:11:44 > 0:11:46How long have you been a nurse?

0:11:46 > 0:11:48Long enough. Why's that?

0:11:48 > 0:11:51It's not often you see a WAG that remains in gainful employment

0:11:51 > 0:11:53after they hit the jackpot.

0:11:53 > 0:11:56Well, maybe I'm not your average WAG.

0:11:56 > 0:11:58Maybe Jared Baptiste's a different kind of jackpot?

0:11:59 > 0:12:01I'm going to go book those scans.

0:12:01 > 0:12:04Sorry, have I spoken out of turn?

0:12:04 > 0:12:06No, not at all.

0:12:06 > 0:12:08It's just, you hear stories.

0:12:09 > 0:12:12Do you? Well, you shouldn't believe everything you hear.

0:12:12 > 0:12:14And I'd appreciate it

0:12:14 > 0:12:16if you kept that kind of idle gossip to yourself.

0:12:16 > 0:12:20Out there, I'm Mrs Jared Baptiste, WAG - and fair game.

0:12:20 > 0:12:23But in here, I'm Nurse Donna Jackson,

0:12:23 > 0:12:26and I deserve a little bit more respect.

0:12:26 > 0:12:28Nurse Jackson - visitor.

0:12:28 > 0:12:30Donnatella Marigold Jackson, I hope you're happy!

0:12:32 > 0:12:33My niece, Mia.

0:12:33 > 0:12:34What are you doing here?

0:12:34 > 0:12:38I'm here because you've completely and utterly ruined my life!

0:12:39 > 0:12:42I see dramatic entrances run in the family.

0:12:48 > 0:12:50Watcha doing?

0:12:50 > 0:12:52Waiting.

0:12:52 > 0:12:54Same.

0:12:54 > 0:12:56Watcha waiting for?

0:12:56 > 0:12:57A woman.

0:12:57 > 0:12:59Same.

0:13:02 > 0:13:06Just two blokes chillin', waiting on their wimmin...

0:13:06 > 0:13:10What's the problem, Dr Ford? You appear unduly nervous.

0:13:10 > 0:13:13Nervous? What have I got to be nervous about?

0:13:14 > 0:13:18I'm being assessed on a range of standard F1 techniques

0:13:18 > 0:13:21by the hospital's Junior Doctor Lead.

0:13:21 > 0:13:23You're a gifted doctor. This is not a problem.

0:13:24 > 0:13:27It's not the exam, it's the examiner.

0:13:28 > 0:13:32Dr Digby? She is very nice.

0:13:32 > 0:13:33Well hot, too.

0:13:34 > 0:13:39I sometimes get awkward around beautiful women. Blurt stuff.

0:13:39 > 0:13:41Nervous tick.

0:13:41 > 0:13:42It's really embarrassing.

0:13:42 > 0:13:47I understand. I was once a nervous ingenue like yourself.

0:13:47 > 0:13:49I wouldn't say ingenue. I've done...

0:13:49 > 0:13:51stuff.

0:13:51 > 0:13:52Imagine she is naked.

0:13:52 > 0:13:54What?!

0:13:54 > 0:13:57When you feel yourself unable to concentrate or about to

0:13:57 > 0:14:01"blurt stuff" imagine Dr Digby is standing in front of you naked.

0:14:01 > 0:14:03I'm not going to do that.

0:14:03 > 0:14:05Why not?

0:14:05 > 0:14:07It's stupid. And pervy.

0:14:07 > 0:14:08It's not supposed to be erotic.

0:14:08 > 0:14:13It's supposed to be ridiculous. It's an established technique.

0:14:14 > 0:14:15I do it all the time.

0:14:15 > 0:14:16Really?

0:14:18 > 0:14:20You're not doing it now, are you?

0:14:21 > 0:14:22No, I'm not.

0:14:24 > 0:14:26Try it. It's what changed me from a shy, lonely,

0:14:26 > 0:14:29secchione into the man you see before you today.

0:14:31 > 0:14:34Mr Hanssen wanted me to send you his regards. Consider them sent.

0:14:34 > 0:14:36Stop. We need to talk.

0:14:36 > 0:14:38Can't. Got a surgery with Ms Naylor.

0:14:38 > 0:14:41Jac is ill. Another CT surgeon has been asked to step in.

0:14:41 > 0:14:44Who? Oh, no.

0:14:46 > 0:14:47We will dance together once again.

0:14:49 > 0:14:50Baggage.

0:14:51 > 0:14:53They make such a lovely couple, don't they?

0:14:53 > 0:14:55She's divorcing him.

0:14:55 > 0:14:57Oh, really? Shows what I know.

0:14:59 > 0:15:01Right, Damon, are you ready?

0:15:07 > 0:15:10Right. Explain yourself, please, young lady.

0:15:10 > 0:15:12- You first.- What?

0:15:12 > 0:15:13Mia, what are you doing here?

0:15:13 > 0:15:15You're supposed to be on an all-expenses-paid geography

0:15:15 > 0:15:18trip to Ireland. It's leaving in less than four hours.

0:15:18 > 0:15:22It's Iceland not Ireland. And it's geology, not geography.

0:15:22 > 0:15:25There's not much interesting about where Iceland is,

0:15:25 > 0:15:28whereas what it's made of is totally fascinating.

0:15:28 > 0:15:30Mia...

0:15:30 > 0:15:32- You forgot to pay the expenses. - What?

0:15:32 > 0:15:36All-expenses-paid trip? You forgot to pay the expenses.

0:15:36 > 0:15:38That's impossible.

0:15:38 > 0:15:41All school fees are on a direct debit from the joint account.

0:15:41 > 0:15:42Not this time.

0:15:42 > 0:15:46Oh, I'm sorry. Look, I'll get it sorted, OK?

0:15:46 > 0:15:49- Promise? - Cross my heart.

0:15:49 > 0:15:51Oh, Fletch, is it all right if I park Mia here for a bit?

0:15:51 > 0:15:53Yeah, course it is. I mean, my kids spend

0:15:53 > 0:15:56so much time here Hanssen's thinking about naming a ward after them.

0:15:56 > 0:15:58Right, I have supplies.

0:15:58 > 0:16:01We have paper. We have pencils, we have felts, we have crayons.

0:16:01 > 0:16:03And one of them!

0:16:03 > 0:16:05You bwought me a wowwipop?!

0:16:05 > 0:16:07Yeah! Which little girl doesn't like a lollipop, hey?

0:16:07 > 0:16:08Oh, dear.

0:16:08 > 0:16:10Little girl?

0:16:10 > 0:16:12Just go easy on him. He knows not what he does, OK?

0:16:14 > 0:16:16So when did you start to feel the nausea?

0:16:17 > 0:16:19A few days ago, I think.

0:16:19 > 0:16:20A few? Well, how many is that?

0:16:20 > 0:16:22Is that two, is that more than two?

0:16:22 > 0:16:24Look, Mum, we need you to be precise.

0:16:24 > 0:16:28Closer to a week. Six days.

0:16:28 > 0:16:30Right, and have you been to see your GP?

0:16:32 > 0:16:33What are you and Dad like?

0:16:33 > 0:16:35Well, I didn't want to be a bother.

0:16:35 > 0:16:39I thought it was just gas from our holiday in Marbella.

0:16:39 > 0:16:41But then when the pain started...

0:16:41 > 0:16:42Pain?

0:16:42 > 0:16:47Yeah - here. That was about two days ago.

0:16:47 > 0:16:49Two days. And, what? You didn't call?

0:16:49 > 0:16:51I did call. You didn't answer.

0:16:51 > 0:16:56Well, I-I didn't realise... Sorry, what, you went to Marbella?

0:16:56 > 0:17:01Marbella, Tenerife, Ibiza. Your dad and I have been travelling.

0:17:01 > 0:17:03Dad hates travelling.

0:17:03 > 0:17:06People can change, Dazz... Ooh.

0:17:06 > 0:17:07You all right?

0:17:07 > 0:17:10Yeah, it's OK. It just...

0:17:10 > 0:17:13it hurts more when I sit up when I been lying down.

0:17:13 > 0:17:15Possible Carnett's sign.

0:17:16 > 0:17:19OK, Lofty. 1 gram of I/V paracetamol, please.

0:17:19 > 0:17:2050 mgs anti-inflammatory.

0:17:20 > 0:17:23FBC, U&Es and can you set up for an ultrasound?

0:17:25 > 0:17:27Carole, we're going to take very good care of you.

0:17:27 > 0:17:28Thank you.

0:17:32 > 0:17:34So, you're Lofty?

0:17:35 > 0:17:38Yeah. Dazzle mentioned you in one of his rare e-mails.

0:17:38 > 0:17:40Mother...

0:17:40 > 0:17:41What did he say?

0:17:42 > 0:17:44That he'd made a new friend.

0:17:50 > 0:17:52You're right. He is nice.

0:17:52 > 0:17:55School fees, including extras like Summer Camps are on direct debit.

0:17:55 > 0:17:58- Payment was taken six weeks ago. - Nurse Jackson...

0:17:58 > 0:17:59Sorry, sorry.

0:18:00 > 0:18:02I haven't recalled a payment.

0:18:03 > 0:18:07OK, look, if I can get the money to you in the next few hours

0:18:07 > 0:18:09can Mia still go?

0:18:09 > 0:18:11OK, great, thanks. You will have it.

0:18:11 > 0:18:12Andrea Lawley?

0:18:12 > 0:18:14Ah! Thyroid function tests.

0:18:14 > 0:18:15Today would be nice.

0:18:26 > 0:18:29Trouble in paradise?

0:18:29 > 0:18:33Oh, hi, could you take Ms Lawley to the treatment room for her

0:18:33 > 0:18:34thyroid tests, please? Thank you.

0:18:46 > 0:18:49Ideal, that's me. I'm the "ideal candidate".

0:18:49 > 0:18:51Boom! Thank you.

0:18:53 > 0:18:54What are you guys doing?

0:18:55 > 0:19:00Adrian's applying for Director of Nursing position. I'm helping.

0:19:00 > 0:19:02English was never my strong point.

0:19:02 > 0:19:06Well, it's certainly Mia's. And she can be quite annoying about it.

0:19:07 > 0:19:08Director of Nursing, hey?

0:19:08 > 0:19:11Yeah. Well, I think you should apply. You're qualified.

0:19:11 > 0:19:13Oh, hadn't really thought about it.

0:19:13 > 0:19:15Why would you? It's not like you need the money.

0:19:15 > 0:19:19There are more important things than money. Like self-respect.

0:19:19 > 0:19:22True. But the money don't hurt.

0:19:22 > 0:19:24Doesn't.

0:19:24 > 0:19:27- Yeah, I can see how that might become annoying.- Sorry.

0:19:27 > 0:19:28It's all right, I'll get over it.

0:19:29 > 0:19:31Did you speak to Mr Rennick?

0:19:31 > 0:19:33It was some mix up at the bank. Jared will sort it.

0:19:33 > 0:19:36When are you going to tell me what's really going on with you two?

0:19:36 > 0:19:38Hey, we will be fine, Mia, OK?

0:19:40 > 0:19:43It's nothing for you to worry about. It's just adult stuff.

0:19:44 > 0:19:46Whatever. I better get on with this.

0:19:46 > 0:19:49English really isn't Adrian's strong suit.

0:19:49 > 0:19:53"Adrian". Taken quite a shine to him, haven't you? Why's that?

0:19:53 > 0:19:56He seems honest. I like that.

0:20:04 > 0:20:05Mr Grover.

0:20:08 > 0:20:09You're not Ms Naylor.

0:20:10 > 0:20:12This is true.

0:20:12 > 0:20:13Ms Naylor's been taken ill.

0:20:16 > 0:20:21This is a disaster. I've been having second thoughts already.

0:20:21 > 0:20:23Second thoughts about what?

0:20:24 > 0:20:25This surgery.

0:20:25 > 0:20:28Mr Grover, you have cancer of the oesophagus.

0:20:28 > 0:20:29I'm aware of that.

0:20:29 > 0:20:31There are signs that the cancer may have eroded through

0:20:31 > 0:20:33the oesophagus and the aorta.

0:20:33 > 0:20:35Without surgery, you will die.

0:20:35 > 0:20:39- I know.- You've gone through three rounds of chemo to get to this point.

0:20:39 > 0:20:42Don't throw it all away now. Talk to your wife.

0:20:42 > 0:20:44I can't. She's dead.

0:20:45 > 0:20:48She had a heart attack two weeks ago.

0:20:48 > 0:20:49What?

0:20:51 > 0:20:55All that time she spent looking after me.

0:20:56 > 0:20:58Caring for me.

0:20:58 > 0:21:00And then bang. She's taken.

0:21:02 > 0:21:04These last few years she lived just for me.

0:21:06 > 0:21:10Now she's gone, I'm not sure I want to live without her.

0:21:11 > 0:21:14Brian, I understand how you feel.

0:21:14 > 0:21:15Ms Karnik...

0:21:15 > 0:21:18But now is not the time to give up.

0:21:18 > 0:21:20Nina, I don't think Mr Grover is giving up.

0:21:23 > 0:21:25Let's give him some to think.

0:21:26 > 0:21:29This isn't a formal assessment.

0:21:29 > 0:21:33My job is to help F1s practise techniques,

0:21:33 > 0:21:36become more familiar with the day-to-day stuff.

0:21:36 > 0:21:41So I thought I'd start with something as simple as cannulation.

0:21:44 > 0:21:45Dr Ford?

0:21:45 > 0:21:47What? Oh. Sure.

0:21:52 > 0:21:55I just thought a human arm would be better than a dummy's.

0:21:55 > 0:21:57Easy peasy.

0:22:04 > 0:22:06Why are you looking at me like that?

0:22:07 > 0:22:11Relaxation technique, Mr Rossini suggested for my nerves.

0:22:11 > 0:22:13Right. Is it working?

0:22:13 > 0:22:16No. It is not.

0:22:16 > 0:22:19I can't imagine Mr Rossini ever getting anything wrong.

0:22:25 > 0:22:27Where'd you stay in Ibiza?

0:22:27 > 0:22:29- On the south side of the island... - Tests all clear.

0:22:29 > 0:22:31- What about the gall bladder? - I'm just getting to it...

0:22:31 > 0:22:34And then, at night, we'd scooter into town, slam some mojitos

0:22:34 > 0:22:36and then head to Pacha for some banging tunes!

0:22:36 > 0:22:38I'm sorry, who are you

0:22:38 > 0:22:40and what have you done with the carcass of my real mother?

0:22:40 > 0:22:43A-ha. Rectus sheath haematoma.

0:22:43 > 0:22:45Ooh, that sounds nasty.

0:22:45 > 0:22:47It's an accumulation of blood from burst vessels from the rectus

0:22:47 > 0:22:48abdominis muscle.

0:22:48 > 0:22:52The question is why those vessels burst in the first place.

0:22:52 > 0:22:55Do you smoke? Coughing fits like chronic smokers cough, can do it.

0:22:55 > 0:22:57No, I don't smoke.

0:22:57 > 0:23:00But I did have a bad cough about a week ago.

0:23:00 > 0:23:02- Could that do it? - Could a mild chest infection...?

0:23:02 > 0:23:04- No.- No, it wasn't that.

0:23:04 > 0:23:07It was an allergic reaction to some herbal supplements your father

0:23:07 > 0:23:09and I tried on holiday.

0:23:09 > 0:23:11Sorry, what herbal supplements?

0:23:11 > 0:23:13Epimedium.

0:23:14 > 0:23:15Oh, good god.

0:23:15 > 0:23:17Epimedium? That's an aphrodisiac?

0:23:17 > 0:23:18Yeah, that's right.

0:23:18 > 0:23:21Our neighbours, Graham and Ed, recommended it.

0:23:21 > 0:23:22Just kill me now.

0:23:23 > 0:23:26They didn't do much for me but your father swears by it.

0:23:28 > 0:23:30Well, he would.

0:23:30 > 0:23:33Because epimedium is usually used for erectile dysfunction - not sure

0:23:33 > 0:23:36there are any benefits going the other way, if you know what I mean?

0:23:36 > 0:23:37Oh, right.

0:23:37 > 0:23:40That explains why Barry was up

0:23:40 > 0:23:42and about every morning saluting the flag!

0:23:42 > 0:23:44No! No, no, I'm going. Goodbye!

0:23:44 > 0:23:46Oh, don't be such a prude, Dazzle.

0:23:46 > 0:23:50You're never too old to try new things! Are we, boys?

0:23:57 > 0:23:58What do you think you're doing?

0:23:58 > 0:24:00- What does it look like? - Like you're leaving.

0:24:00 > 0:24:02Not just a pretty face, then.

0:24:02 > 0:24:03You can't.

0:24:03 > 0:24:05- No, I have to.- Why?

0:24:05 > 0:24:07Cos I have a client that has just been offered

0:24:07 > 0:24:10a £15-million contract over three years.

0:24:10 > 0:24:11He needs representation.

0:24:11 > 0:24:14Come on, Ms Lawley. Let's get you back into bed.

0:24:14 > 0:24:16- You're not listening to me. - I am listening, I just don't care.

0:24:16 > 0:24:19What I do care about is the fact that you've got a burning fever,

0:24:19 > 0:24:21clear signs of dehydration and would be lucky to make it

0:24:21 > 0:24:24500 metres without collapsing with exhaustion.

0:24:24 > 0:24:25You don't understand.

0:24:25 > 0:24:28If I don't represent him, someone else from my agency will.

0:24:28 > 0:24:31Well, your player will get his money either way, then, won't he?

0:24:31 > 0:24:33I don't get my commission.

0:24:33 > 0:24:35Well, there's more important things in the world than money.

0:24:35 > 0:24:38You and I both know that's not true.

0:24:38 > 0:24:41In our world, money's the only way to keep score.

0:24:48 > 0:24:50You cheap son of a...

0:24:51 > 0:24:52Is Jared playing hard ball?

0:24:54 > 0:24:55Oh, yeah. I know what you did.

0:24:57 > 0:25:00You've done very well to keep it out of the papers so far

0:25:00 > 0:25:01but it's only a matter of time.

0:25:01 > 0:25:03I know you're feverish and not talking straight

0:25:03 > 0:25:05but you know what, Ms Lawley, you can go to hell!

0:25:10 > 0:25:12I've got your mum an ice pack and analgesics.

0:25:12 > 0:25:13Great, thank you.

0:25:13 > 0:25:15You OK?

0:25:15 > 0:25:18Yeah, yeah. Nothing decades of therapy won't fix.

0:25:18 > 0:25:21Er, you wanted to ask me something before. What was it?

0:25:21 > 0:25:23Um, oh, yeah...

0:25:23 > 0:25:27I was just going to ask if you wanted the other ticket...

0:25:27 > 0:25:29the plus one.

0:25:29 > 0:25:32Oh, you should take someone you care about, someone close to you.

0:25:34 > 0:25:35Sure.

0:25:42 > 0:25:44Dazzle.

0:25:45 > 0:25:48Now, HE is a catch.

0:25:48 > 0:25:53Lofty? What makes you think he's on my team?

0:25:53 > 0:25:57I have a sense for these things. A grinder.

0:25:58 > 0:26:02OK, two things. Firstly, it's not a grinder, it's a gaydar.

0:26:02 > 0:26:05And secondly, you have a terrible gaydar.

0:26:05 > 0:26:08It took you 20 years to figure out that I was gay

0:26:08 > 0:26:11and that's only because I literally had to paint you a picture.

0:26:11 > 0:26:13Still wish you hadn't done that.

0:26:13 > 0:26:15Yeah, well, if you have no idea your own son is gay then

0:26:15 > 0:26:18I don't know how you're going to know anyone else is.

0:26:19 > 0:26:26I just think it would do you good to get back out there, after Isaac.

0:26:27 > 0:26:30Yeah, well, I don't have time to date.

0:26:30 > 0:26:32I'm just coming up to my ST3s.

0:26:32 > 0:26:35I have reports and other things to do.

0:26:35 > 0:26:38Is that why you didn't call back?

0:26:38 > 0:26:40Mostly.

0:26:40 > 0:26:43Anyway, I don't know whether it's you or Dad who's having this

0:26:43 > 0:26:46latter-day mid-life crisis but it needs to stop.

0:26:46 > 0:26:48We're just enjoying our retirement.

0:26:48 > 0:26:50You're acting like freshers. It's embarrassing.

0:26:50 > 0:26:53Well, there's nothing wrong with trying to spice up your marriage

0:26:53 > 0:26:54now and then.

0:26:54 > 0:26:56You'd know that, if you'd been in a stable, loving

0:26:56 > 0:26:59relationship for more than five minutes.

0:27:01 > 0:27:05Oh, I'm sorry, Darren. That was uncalled for.

0:27:05 > 0:27:07No, no. It's pretty accurate.

0:27:08 > 0:27:09I can't judge.

0:27:10 > 0:27:12So I won't.

0:27:15 > 0:27:16Have you gone stark raving mad?

0:27:16 > 0:27:19This is possible but I do not think it likely.

0:27:19 > 0:27:22If Mr Grover does not have that surgery he will die.

0:27:22 > 0:27:24Sooner, rather than later.

0:27:24 > 0:27:26We know this. He knows this.

0:27:26 > 0:27:29So you're an advocate of suicide now?

0:27:29 > 0:27:32I'm an advocate of allowing the process of grief to run its course.

0:27:32 > 0:27:34He doesn't have that kind of time.

0:27:35 > 0:27:37Let's give him as much as we can.

0:27:40 > 0:27:44Matteo, you haven't signed the divorce papers yet. Why?

0:27:46 > 0:27:49I, too, need the process of grief to run its course.

0:27:49 > 0:27:51I'm still on stage one.

0:27:51 > 0:27:54We haven't got that kind of time either.

0:27:54 > 0:27:57You need to sign them today. It's been 21 days.

0:27:57 > 0:27:58Oddly specific.

0:27:58 > 0:28:02There's a process that has to be followed.

0:28:02 > 0:28:03Or else?

0:28:03 > 0:28:05We have been dancing to this tune for years.

0:28:05 > 0:28:07Why does it have to end right now?

0:28:07 > 0:28:10Because I'm going to be Medical Director.

0:28:10 > 0:28:12If we're going to work together we need a clean slate.

0:28:14 > 0:28:17Please, don't make this any harder than it has to be.

0:28:18 > 0:28:23With his wife gone, Mr Grover can see only reasons to die.

0:28:23 > 0:28:25Maybe he needs a reason to live.

0:28:29 > 0:28:32Richard, I want to speak to my husband, not his poxy agent.

0:28:32 > 0:28:34Would you just put Jared on the phone, please?

0:28:34 > 0:28:36I know he's not training.

0:28:36 > 0:28:38He's standing behind you in that room hiding like he always does.

0:28:38 > 0:28:40Just put him on the phone.

0:28:43 > 0:28:47Please, this is my kids' lives that he's messing with.

0:28:47 > 0:28:48His child's life...

0:28:50 > 0:28:52No, I am not bringing Amber back,

0:28:52 > 0:28:55she's a kid, she's not a bargaining chip.

0:28:56 > 0:28:58Hello?

0:29:03 > 0:29:05Hey, Donna.

0:29:05 > 0:29:07Hey, squirt. How are you?

0:29:08 > 0:29:09You OK?

0:29:09 > 0:29:11Yeah, of course. Just, um...

0:29:11 > 0:29:15just been seeing about getting that money across from the bank.

0:29:15 > 0:29:19You know. It's just a school trip.

0:29:20 > 0:29:22Maybe we should just forget it.

0:29:22 > 0:29:26No. You have been looking forward to this all year. You're going.

0:29:26 > 0:29:27How's that application coming along?

0:29:27 > 0:29:31Done. Adrian reckons it's so good he should ask for an advance!

0:29:31 > 0:29:34Yeah... I'd better get back to work, OK?

0:29:41 > 0:29:42Fletch...

0:30:20 > 0:30:22Ah, Mia said you were here.

0:30:22 > 0:30:23I need an advance.

0:30:23 > 0:30:27Really? OK, well, I'll see about putting in a request.

0:30:27 > 0:30:28How much?

0:30:33 > 0:30:34£1,500.

0:30:37 > 0:30:38Do you need to tell me something?

0:30:42 > 0:30:44- Dom, quick, play along... - What?

0:30:44 > 0:30:46Sorry. I've got no time to explain, OK? Just play along.

0:30:54 > 0:30:56Griselda...

0:30:59 > 0:31:01Wait.

0:31:01 > 0:31:05- Ah... What was that? - I'm so going to hell.

0:31:05 > 0:31:07Yes, but what was that?

0:31:07 > 0:31:10That was Griselda, who I bought the tickets from.

0:31:10 > 0:31:12I took her for a drink to say thank you and to cut a long story

0:31:12 > 0:31:14short, she got the wrong end of the stick.

0:31:14 > 0:31:15So something had to give.

0:31:15 > 0:31:18Right, and you couldn't just tell her that you weren't interested?

0:31:18 > 0:31:19I tried. But she's a bit...

0:31:21 > 0:31:23Stalkery?

0:31:23 > 0:31:27I was going to say "needy". But, yeah.

0:31:29 > 0:31:30Thanks.

0:31:30 > 0:31:32Any time.

0:31:33 > 0:31:35So, you're not dating, then?

0:31:35 > 0:31:36Nah, she's not my type.

0:31:38 > 0:31:40And what is your type?

0:31:40 > 0:31:43I thought I said for Carole to keep that ice pack on for two hours.

0:31:43 > 0:31:44I told her that.

0:31:44 > 0:31:46Where is she?

0:31:50 > 0:31:51And you walked out on him?

0:31:51 > 0:31:52Six weeks ago.

0:31:53 > 0:31:56You've been living in a hotel room this whole time?

0:31:56 > 0:31:58Why didn't you say something?

0:31:58 > 0:32:00Pride, mostly.

0:32:00 > 0:32:02I know that sounds stupid.

0:32:02 > 0:32:04I'm no-one to judge on that count.

0:32:04 > 0:32:06It's also partly for show.

0:32:06 > 0:32:09Jared is no Wayne Rooney but he does have an image to protect.

0:32:09 > 0:32:13So what happened? If, you don't mind me asking?

0:32:15 > 0:32:17There were a few reasons.

0:32:18 > 0:32:20Some more important than others.

0:32:21 > 0:32:23I can probably guess.

0:32:25 > 0:32:28Been living off my wages and an "allowance".

0:32:29 > 0:32:34But with the hotel bills, and Amber's childcare,

0:32:34 > 0:32:36I've barely been making ends meet, to be honest.

0:32:36 > 0:32:38And now he's cut you off completely?

0:32:38 > 0:32:40Yeah, to try and force me back. Cap in hand.

0:32:40 > 0:32:42Can he even do that?

0:32:42 > 0:32:44I mean, can't you get yourself a solicitor?

0:32:44 > 0:32:47I don't know. I certainly can't afford one.

0:32:47 > 0:32:50I wish there was something I could do.

0:32:50 > 0:32:51Yeah, you already have.

0:32:51 > 0:32:55I didn't realise how much I needed to get some of this off my chest.

0:32:56 > 0:32:58How's Mia handling it?

0:33:00 > 0:33:01She doesn't know?!

0:33:02 > 0:33:05She's asking more and more questions and I just,

0:33:05 > 0:33:09I can't face telling her everything just yet.

0:33:09 > 0:33:11She's going to figure it out sooner or later

0:33:11 > 0:33:14and it's going to be better coming from you.

0:33:14 > 0:33:15I know. I just...

0:33:15 > 0:33:17PAGER BEEPS

0:33:19 > 0:33:21Bernie needs me.

0:33:21 > 0:33:26Donna. It's not my place, but I'm going to give you my advice.

0:33:26 > 0:33:31Take a day. Gather your family and tell them. Everything.

0:33:33 > 0:33:35Bitter experience speaking here.

0:33:42 > 0:33:44TEXT ALERT

0:33:58 > 0:34:02You and Nora have two children and five grandchildren.

0:34:04 > 0:34:07Yeah. What's your point?

0:34:07 > 0:34:08You're looking for reasons to live.

0:34:08 > 0:34:11That's at least seven by my count.

0:34:11 > 0:34:13They've just lost their grandmother.

0:34:13 > 0:34:16And losing their grandfather's going to make things better?

0:34:18 > 0:34:20Are you married?

0:34:20 > 0:34:21Yes.

0:34:21 > 0:34:23Happy?

0:34:23 > 0:34:24Have been.

0:34:27 > 0:34:30We were married for 42 years.

0:34:32 > 0:34:37All that time we had one another. Good times and bad, right?

0:34:40 > 0:34:41Then I got sick.

0:34:43 > 0:34:47She looked after me but I stayed sick.

0:34:47 > 0:34:48And it hurt her.

0:34:50 > 0:34:54It caused her pain just to see me wasting away.

0:34:55 > 0:34:58She tried to hide it because she loved me...

0:35:00 > 0:35:04..but I could see it because I loved her.

0:35:08 > 0:35:13Have you any idea what it's like to hurt the person you love most

0:35:13 > 0:35:16just by being around them?

0:35:16 > 0:35:20To cause them pain just by your presence in their life?

0:35:22 > 0:35:23Yes.

0:35:25 > 0:35:28And now she's gone.

0:35:30 > 0:35:31And there's nothing.

0:35:33 > 0:35:34Just a hole.

0:35:37 > 0:35:39A chasm.

0:35:42 > 0:35:45And I look at this hole and I don't know what to do.

0:35:47 > 0:35:51Fill it. With new memories, new experiences.

0:35:51 > 0:35:55Children, grandchildren. Something. Anything.

0:35:55 > 0:35:57One day, the hole will be filled.

0:36:00 > 0:36:01Do you believe that?

0:36:03 > 0:36:04I have to.

0:36:08 > 0:36:10OK.

0:36:17 > 0:36:19Let's go to theatre.

0:36:25 > 0:36:27Ignoring doctor's orders again?

0:36:27 > 0:36:31Oh, I'm sorry, I needed a breath of fresh air.

0:36:31 > 0:36:32It's OK.

0:36:33 > 0:36:36Darren, I'm sorry about what I said before.

0:36:37 > 0:36:38It's OK.

0:36:39 > 0:36:40No, I don't think it was.

0:36:43 > 0:36:45It wasn't fair. And it wasn't true.

0:36:47 > 0:36:51Well, look, if it's any consolation, I think you were right about Lofty.

0:36:51 > 0:36:55About him being on my team.

0:36:55 > 0:36:57I told you my grinder was good.

0:36:57 > 0:36:59Gaydar.

0:36:59 > 0:37:02Whatever. He's nice, I can tell.

0:37:05 > 0:37:07You deserve that. Someone nice.

0:37:09 > 0:37:11I don't think "deserve" comes into it.

0:37:11 > 0:37:14Yes, it does. You deserve better.

0:37:14 > 0:37:16Why do you keep saying that?

0:37:16 > 0:37:19Because it's true. I just wish you could believe it.

0:37:23 > 0:37:25Did he hurt you, Darren?

0:37:28 > 0:37:30What?

0:37:30 > 0:37:33Isaac. Did he...

0:37:33 > 0:37:35I, I ended things with him, so...

0:37:35 > 0:37:36That's not what I'm asking.

0:37:37 > 0:37:39Did Isaac hurt you?

0:37:48 > 0:37:51Oh, Darren. I'm so sorry.

0:37:51 > 0:37:52Ooh.

0:37:52 > 0:37:53Mum?

0:37:53 > 0:37:56Oh, it hurts.

0:37:56 > 0:37:59That'll be the haematoma. We need to get you into X-ray.

0:37:59 > 0:38:03Surgery? No, I am feeling so much better already.

0:38:03 > 0:38:05Your temperature and fever are only coming down

0:38:05 > 0:38:07because of the I/V paracetamol.

0:38:07 > 0:38:08Well, that's good, right?

0:38:08 > 0:38:11Well, it means we're treating your symptoms. Not the problem.

0:38:11 > 0:38:14Thyroid function tests show your TSH is undetectable.

0:38:15 > 0:38:17Free T3 and T4 are high and getting higher.

0:38:17 > 0:38:19Just give me carbimazole, and...

0:38:19 > 0:38:23Your Graves' has progressed to a toxic, multinodular goitre.

0:38:23 > 0:38:26You need surgery to avoid going into full thyrotoxic storm.

0:38:26 > 0:38:28Yeah, but to remove the thyroid you'll be cutting into my throat.

0:38:28 > 0:38:31I won't be able to talk for days. I can't afford that.

0:38:31 > 0:38:32I don't think you understand.

0:38:32 > 0:38:34I'm sorry, can't it wait until after the summer?

0:38:34 > 0:38:36You need surgery and you need it today.

0:38:36 > 0:38:39That can't happen cos I need to be in Manchester in four hours.

0:38:39 > 0:38:40Theatre's already booked.

0:38:46 > 0:38:48Steroids, beta blockers, iodine and carbinazole.

0:38:52 > 0:38:54Why are you so resistant to surgery?

0:38:54 > 0:38:56Can't want to live with the goitre?

0:38:56 > 0:38:57You wouldn't understand.

0:38:57 > 0:38:58Try me.

0:39:00 > 0:39:02My voice is my career. Not my looks.

0:39:02 > 0:39:03Not my boobs.

0:39:03 > 0:39:07I cut deals that turn young footballers into gods.

0:39:07 > 0:39:09You use sex to get your cut of the action.

0:39:09 > 0:39:11You know nothing about me.

0:39:11 > 0:39:12Oh, I know enough.

0:39:12 > 0:39:14You know Richard James and I are old friends.

0:39:14 > 0:39:17I'd forgotten Richard was Jared's agent. We had a good chat.

0:39:17 > 0:39:19What, you've been checking up on me now?

0:39:20 > 0:39:22I'll give you five grand

0:39:22 > 0:39:26if you make sure I get discharged in the next two hours.

0:39:26 > 0:39:29What?! You heard Ms Wolfe. You're going into surgery.

0:39:29 > 0:39:32Just put it off. Tomorrow. Next week, whatever.

0:39:32 > 0:39:35I need time - and you need the money.

0:39:35 > 0:39:37- You're insane. - No. Just desperate, Donna.

0:39:37 > 0:39:38Like you.

0:39:41 > 0:39:46Carole, the X-ray shows that you have an active haemorrhage.

0:39:46 > 0:39:49We think your haematoma's burst.

0:39:49 > 0:39:51We need to perform an emergency operation to find out

0:39:51 > 0:39:53the extent of the bleeding, all right?

0:39:53 > 0:39:54Surgery?

0:39:54 > 0:39:56Yeah, yeah, I'm afraid so.

0:39:56 > 0:39:57I don't want to be a bother.

0:39:57 > 0:40:00Oh, don't be silly, you're not. You're going to be fine.

0:40:00 > 0:40:02I'm going to scrub in.

0:40:02 > 0:40:03No, you're not.

0:40:04 > 0:40:07Darren? I love you.

0:40:08 > 0:40:09Ditto.

0:40:12 > 0:40:14Mia?

0:40:33 > 0:40:35Oh, no.

0:40:38 > 0:40:40Why do people lie?

0:40:41 > 0:40:45Well, sometimes to protect themselves.

0:40:45 > 0:40:47Sometimes to protect other people.

0:40:47 > 0:40:49Why do people lie to themselves?

0:40:51 > 0:40:54Because sometimes the truth is too much to bear.

0:41:00 > 0:41:04Right, are you ready? Nurse Jackson might be a little worried.

0:41:14 > 0:41:16Bernie's looking for you.

0:41:16 > 0:41:18They're ready to move Andrea Lawley to theatre.

0:41:18 > 0:41:21- What's the matter? - It's Mia. She's run off.

0:41:21 > 0:41:23- You sure?- Yes.- Why?

0:41:23 > 0:41:26Because I left my phone out and somehow she got into the messages.

0:41:26 > 0:41:29So you had messages between you and Jared?

0:41:29 > 0:41:31- They bad?- Bad.

0:41:31 > 0:41:34Look, she's a bright kid. She's not going to do anything stupid.

0:41:34 > 0:41:35MONITOR BEEPS

0:41:39 > 0:41:42I see you're being quite radical in clearing away the tissue.

0:41:42 > 0:41:44I've had to be due to the cancer.

0:41:46 > 0:41:49Cutting alongside the entire oesophagus,

0:41:49 > 0:41:52freeing it from every stricture.

0:41:52 > 0:41:53Cutting it loose?

0:41:56 > 0:41:59Removing the part that doesn't work so the rest of it can function.

0:41:59 > 0:42:01Otherwise it's just...

0:42:01 > 0:42:02Baggage?

0:42:05 > 0:42:06Delicate work.

0:42:08 > 0:42:10- But necessary. - Of course.

0:42:11 > 0:42:14If you're removing a part that's been a vital

0:42:14 > 0:42:16part of a functioning organism...

0:42:16 > 0:42:18a little care might be called for.

0:42:20 > 0:42:23Sometimes you just have to rip off the plaster.

0:42:23 > 0:42:24It's less painful that way.

0:42:26 > 0:42:29I said "ditto"? I mean, who does that?

0:42:31 > 0:42:32Patrick Swayze?

0:42:32 > 0:42:34Exactly.

0:42:34 > 0:42:37My mother goes in for surgery and says "I love you"

0:42:37 > 0:42:40and I respond by quoting an early '90s classic.

0:42:41 > 0:42:42She knows you love her, Dom.

0:42:42 > 0:42:46Hmm. I just, I never say it.

0:42:47 > 0:42:49She's going to be OK, Dom.

0:42:55 > 0:42:57Hey, your mum's fine.

0:42:59 > 0:43:02Surgery went well and she'll be back on her feet in no time.

0:43:02 > 0:43:03- Thank you.- OK.

0:43:06 > 0:43:07Told ya!

0:43:10 > 0:43:11Thank you.

0:43:18 > 0:43:20W..W..what was that?

0:43:22 > 0:43:23I just felt that...

0:43:24 > 0:43:26Felt what?

0:43:27 > 0:43:29That it was a moment between us.

0:43:33 > 0:43:35We're friends, Dom.

0:43:38 > 0:43:39I can't read you at all!

0:43:40 > 0:43:42Read me?

0:43:42 > 0:43:43Are you gay or not?

0:43:43 > 0:43:46Well, I'm not sure if that makes a difference, does it?

0:43:47 > 0:43:52No. No, it doesn't. I'm sorry.

0:43:59 > 0:44:01Right, if you put this on you will feel better.

0:44:01 > 0:44:02No! You have made a big mistake...

0:44:02 > 0:44:04Fletch. Can I have a hand?

0:44:04 > 0:44:07Her BP is through the roof and her temperature was 38.4.

0:44:07 > 0:44:09Right, er... Bernie!

0:44:09 > 0:44:11You should have taken the money.

0:44:11 > 0:44:13What's she on about?

0:44:13 > 0:44:15Jared's not going to give you a penny. Not any more.

0:44:17 > 0:44:18Thyrotoxic storm.

0:44:18 > 0:44:21Let's get her into theatre before the gland haemorrhages.

0:44:21 > 0:44:22Not after what you did to him.

0:44:22 > 0:44:24Sorry, what she did to him?

0:44:24 > 0:44:26Just leave it, Fletch.

0:44:26 > 0:44:29He cut her off, leaving her penniless after cheating on her.

0:44:29 > 0:44:31Is that what she told you? Victim? Yeah, woman scorned?

0:44:31 > 0:44:33Just give it a rest.

0:44:33 > 0:44:36Did she tell you how she took his child - HIS child,

0:44:36 > 0:44:39not just her stray, and then she disappeared without giving

0:44:39 > 0:44:42Amber so much a chance as saying goodbye to her dad?

0:44:42 > 0:44:44- Did she tell you that? - Donna...

0:44:44 > 0:44:46Get her into theatre as quickly as possible!

0:44:51 > 0:44:53I never meant to cause you pain.

0:44:55 > 0:44:59You ran away, Matteo. You're always running.

0:45:00 > 0:45:03I wasn't running away from you because I didn't love you.

0:45:05 > 0:45:07I was running away from...

0:45:08 > 0:45:09The memories.

0:45:09 > 0:45:11The hope.

0:45:12 > 0:45:16You were so full of hope that I couldn't see the pain you felt.

0:45:18 > 0:45:22The pain I caused because I couldn't share that hope.

0:45:26 > 0:45:29I never meant to cause you pain.

0:45:29 > 0:45:33And if my presence still causes that I will do whatever it takes

0:45:33 > 0:45:34to make it stop.

0:45:44 > 0:45:46I've no wish to pry into your private affairs, Nurse Jackson.

0:45:46 > 0:45:49But Mia did tell me something of what occurred with Kieran.

0:45:49 > 0:45:51You do have my deepest sympathy.

0:45:52 > 0:45:56And indeed, my congratulations on raising a truly remarkable child.

0:45:56 > 0:45:58Absolutely.

0:46:03 > 0:46:05Kieran?

0:46:06 > 0:46:11He's my former partner. We met here and...moved away together.

0:46:12 > 0:46:14He was like a dad to Mia.

0:46:14 > 0:46:15And is he...?

0:46:15 > 0:46:21He was badly injured in Afghanistan. He recovered.

0:46:21 > 0:46:24But...the nightmares came back.

0:46:26 > 0:46:30In the end he left us before he could hurt us.

0:46:33 > 0:46:35And then I met Jared.

0:46:35 > 0:46:36And I thought I could be happy.

0:46:37 > 0:46:40You don't have to explain yourself to anyone.

0:46:40 > 0:46:41There is one person.

0:46:45 > 0:46:48So, you've got a boyfriend?

0:46:48 > 0:46:49Yes.

0:46:49 > 0:46:51What's his name?

0:46:51 > 0:46:52None of your business.

0:46:52 > 0:46:54Bit of a mouthful.

0:46:54 > 0:46:56Let's just get on with the knot, yeah?

0:46:56 > 0:46:58I have.

0:46:58 > 0:47:00- What?- Done the knot.

0:47:01 > 0:47:05Hmm. That's actually pretty good.

0:47:05 > 0:47:08I think the word you're looking for is "perfect".

0:47:08 > 0:47:10And now you're sounding full of yourself.

0:47:10 > 0:47:14It's the bantz. Releases all my nervous energy.

0:47:14 > 0:47:15Allows me to focus.

0:47:15 > 0:47:17Well, if it does the trick.

0:47:17 > 0:47:19Certainly better than imagining you naked.

0:47:19 > 0:47:20What?!

0:47:30 > 0:47:31Funny thing happened.

0:47:33 > 0:47:34I tried to kiss Lofty.

0:47:36 > 0:47:38Yeah, I know.

0:47:38 > 0:47:39Awkward.

0:47:40 > 0:47:42He was really good about it, though.

0:47:43 > 0:47:46Just goes to show that your gaydar is still off

0:47:46 > 0:47:47after all these years.

0:47:51 > 0:47:53I knew you were gay.

0:47:55 > 0:47:56Probably before you did.

0:47:58 > 0:48:02Long before that Marino kid and you had your thing that summer.

0:48:04 > 0:48:05You knew about me and Tommy?

0:48:07 > 0:48:08Of course.

0:48:10 > 0:48:14And I also knew why he bullied you after.

0:48:16 > 0:48:19Cos he was ashamed and scared.

0:48:22 > 0:48:24I put a stop to it.

0:48:24 > 0:48:26But I left it too late.

0:48:30 > 0:48:32I left a lot of things too late.

0:48:36 > 0:48:38Why didn't you ever say something?

0:48:41 > 0:48:45Cos I was protecting your father from feeling uncomfortable...

0:48:48 > 0:48:49..and protecting myself.

0:48:52 > 0:48:56Cos although I knew...

0:48:58 > 0:49:03..I didn't understand, so it was easier to pretend.

0:49:06 > 0:49:10And you were left to face it alone.

0:49:13 > 0:49:18Left to feel you were somehow different. Somehow...

0:49:18 > 0:49:19Wrong.

0:49:22 > 0:49:23And I could see my...

0:49:23 > 0:49:31my beautiful, loving boy become angry at a world

0:49:31 > 0:49:35he didn't understand and that didn't understand him.

0:49:39 > 0:49:45Because his mother didn't tell him that he wasn't different...

0:49:46 > 0:49:51..and he wasn't wrong, and he wasn't alone.

0:49:53 > 0:49:54It's OK.

0:49:55 > 0:49:57No, it's not.

0:49:57 > 0:50:00What that bastard did to you...

0:50:00 > 0:50:01Wasn't your fault.

0:50:01 > 0:50:02Yes, it was.

0:50:04 > 0:50:07I knew he was a wrong'un, but I didn't say anything.

0:50:07 > 0:50:10I'm your mother. I'm supposed to protect you.

0:50:10 > 0:50:12And you do protect me.

0:50:14 > 0:50:16You protected me from Tommy.

0:50:17 > 0:50:21From Melanie Grainger in Year 4, who kept pulling my hair.

0:50:23 > 0:50:25You've always been there.

0:50:25 > 0:50:29In between me and the bad stuff.

0:50:35 > 0:50:38What happened with Isaac didn't happen because of you.

0:50:42 > 0:50:45But I was able to walk away from him because of you.

0:50:47 > 0:50:51Because of the strength that you gave me.

0:50:53 > 0:50:56You and Arthur and Zosia.

0:50:58 > 0:50:59All the people I love.

0:51:02 > 0:51:03I love you.

0:51:06 > 0:51:12I'm sorry about Lofty. I really felt there was something there.

0:51:14 > 0:51:16Yeah, well, I'll get over it.

0:51:17 > 0:51:20You talking about Dad "saluting the flag", though...

0:51:20 > 0:51:21THEY BOTH LAUGH

0:51:36 > 0:51:38I made it?

0:51:38 > 0:51:40You made it.

0:51:40 > 0:51:42Now what?

0:51:42 > 0:51:43You start filling that hole.

0:51:51 > 0:51:54- Grandad...- Grandad!

0:51:56 > 0:51:58A nice gesture.

0:51:58 > 0:52:00Maybe he can start again.

0:52:01 > 0:52:03Maybe we can too.

0:52:05 > 0:52:06Signed?

0:52:08 > 0:52:09Signed.

0:52:09 > 0:52:12Whatever it takes to stop you feeling pain.

0:52:12 > 0:52:13I didn't mean you.

0:52:15 > 0:52:18When I said I knew what it was like to cause pain to someone

0:52:18 > 0:52:20just by being around them.

0:52:20 > 0:52:22I meant me.

0:52:22 > 0:52:27The pain I caused you clinging on to the search, holding on to hope,

0:52:27 > 0:52:31to the exclusion of all else, including you.

0:52:32 > 0:52:34Our marriage and our life.

0:52:35 > 0:52:39There was a hole and I needed to fill it.

0:52:39 > 0:52:41And I filled it with hope.

0:52:42 > 0:52:44The hole he left is still there.

0:52:44 > 0:52:46Always.

0:52:46 > 0:52:49Will becoming Medical Director help fill it?

0:52:49 > 0:52:51It's something.

0:52:51 > 0:52:52Will that?

0:53:07 > 0:53:10Maybe we both need to make new memories.

0:53:14 > 0:53:16Maybe we can do that together?

0:53:19 > 0:53:23I see you've taken my instructions to give Mr Rossini my regards

0:53:23 > 0:53:24to heart.

0:53:24 > 0:53:26Perhaps a little too much to heart.

0:53:26 > 0:53:28Have you spoken to the board yet?

0:53:28 > 0:53:30I'm on my way.

0:53:30 > 0:53:31Then you should know,

0:53:31 > 0:53:34in the interest of full disclosure that me

0:53:34 > 0:53:38and Mr Rossini are reconciling and hoping to rebuild our marriage -

0:53:38 > 0:53:42regardless of whatever baggage that may entail.

0:53:42 > 0:53:45The only thing worse than people with baggage, Ms Karnik,

0:53:45 > 0:53:48is people with baggage who insist on over-sharing.

0:53:50 > 0:53:53My congratulations to you both, however.

0:53:56 > 0:53:57Do you think...

0:53:57 > 0:53:59What?

0:53:59 > 0:54:00Hanssen...

0:54:00 > 0:54:02What?

0:54:02 > 0:54:06It's not supposed to be erotic. It's supposed to be ridiculous.

0:54:06 > 0:54:08Well, it's really pervy. And it's weird.

0:54:08 > 0:54:10Mr Rossini says he does it all the time.

0:54:10 > 0:54:13- What is he talking about? - Nothing. Let's get out of here.

0:54:13 > 0:54:16It's a myth anyway! It's absolutely not true.

0:54:16 > 0:54:17Well, I know that now.

0:54:21 > 0:54:23- Hey.- Hey.

0:54:23 > 0:54:25Look, about before...

0:54:25 > 0:54:27Totally my fault.

0:54:27 > 0:54:28Just one of those things.

0:54:28 > 0:54:30Yep. We can just move on.

0:54:32 > 0:54:34I don't want this to affect our friendship.

0:54:35 > 0:54:37Well, look, it was just a mistake.

0:54:40 > 0:54:43No, you know what? I don't mean that.

0:54:44 > 0:54:45Um...

0:54:47 > 0:54:53Look, Lofty, I kissed you because I find you attractive.

0:54:57 > 0:55:04Because you are kind and decent and generous

0:55:04 > 0:55:06and they are very attractive qualities.

0:55:07 > 0:55:09I guess, yeah...

0:55:09 > 0:55:12Look, I'm sorry for getting the signals wrong...

0:55:15 > 0:55:18..but I'm not sorry for loving you a little bit.

0:55:20 > 0:55:22Because I think you deserve it.

0:55:23 > 0:55:25Who knows, maybe even I do too.

0:55:29 > 0:55:32- Friends? - Friends.

0:55:32 > 0:55:34Promise not to try and kiss you again.

0:55:36 > 0:55:37Drink?

0:55:37 > 0:55:39Nope, I can't. Got a hot date.

0:55:43 > 0:55:46- Hey, squirt.- Hey.

0:55:47 > 0:55:49I'm sorry about summer camp.

0:55:50 > 0:55:51It's OK.

0:55:51 > 0:55:54No, it's not. I broke a promise to you.

0:55:54 > 0:55:55And that's never OK.

0:55:55 > 0:55:57It is this time.

0:55:59 > 0:56:02I think I should explain what's going on with Jared.

0:56:02 > 0:56:04I know what's going on with Jared.

0:56:06 > 0:56:09He's using me to emotionally blackmail you into bringing

0:56:09 > 0:56:11Amber back to him.

0:56:13 > 0:56:14I'm so sorry.

0:56:14 > 0:56:16It's OK.

0:56:16 > 0:56:17No, it's not. It's horrible.

0:56:19 > 0:56:20Donna, he's not my dad.

0:56:20 > 0:56:23You shouldn't be caught in the middle of this.

0:56:23 > 0:56:24You should have told me

0:56:24 > 0:56:26that he was trying to hurt you this way.

0:56:27 > 0:56:31I don't need the summer camp. I don't need the private school.

0:56:31 > 0:56:33I need you to be happy.

0:56:34 > 0:56:36He's not a bad man.

0:56:36 > 0:56:37I know.

0:56:39 > 0:56:40And we were happy.

0:56:41 > 0:56:43Really?

0:56:43 > 0:56:45You don't love him.

0:56:46 > 0:56:48That's not quite true, Mia.

0:56:48 > 0:56:50I don't mind you lying to me, but don't lie to yourself.

0:56:50 > 0:56:53You know how I got into your phone, right?

0:56:53 > 0:56:56Your passcode's Kieran's birthday.

0:56:57 > 0:57:00Still. After all this time.

0:57:01 > 0:57:03You still love Kieran.

0:57:03 > 0:57:06And until you accept that, you won't move on.

0:57:06 > 0:57:08And I think you need to move on for Jared's sake.

0:57:09 > 0:57:10And for yours.

0:57:14 > 0:57:15Come here, you.

0:57:20 > 0:57:22Oh, yeah!

0:57:22 > 0:57:25That looks a bit like Dad.

0:57:25 > 0:57:28Dad was never that thin.

0:57:28 > 0:57:30- You OK?- Yeah, look, look...

0:57:30 > 0:57:32Ah, wheyyy!

0:57:34 > 0:57:36Oh, there's a lot of blue sky, Daz.

0:57:36 > 0:57:38Let's have a rest, then.

0:57:38 > 0:57:40Yeah.