0:00:02 > 0:00:04- I know about papering over cracks. - I'm not papering over any cracks!
0:00:04 > 0:00:08- You are scared to your core about marrying Oliver.- I am not scared.
0:00:08 > 0:00:11I went through that whole disapproving father-in-law thing
0:00:11 > 0:00:13with Tara, I really don't need to go through it again.
0:00:13 > 0:00:15Are you religious?
0:00:15 > 0:00:19I'm Jewish. I haven't believed in a while.
0:00:19 > 0:00:22- You don't believe?- Let's just say I haven't witnessed any miracles.
0:00:22 > 0:00:26Why keep harking back to the past,
0:00:26 > 0:00:31trying to recapture something that's long gone?
0:00:31 > 0:00:34So stop trying to force your memories of my mother onto me.
0:00:34 > 0:00:37I have my own, and I have future memories to make with Ollie.
0:00:37 > 0:00:41- Good luck.- You've just forfeited any right to be a part of that.
0:01:31 > 0:01:34Mr Hanssen, a word about the fMRI.
0:01:34 > 0:01:37It's a viable concept that spires both neuro and CT
0:01:37 > 0:01:40and I've found several sources of funding in Europe -
0:01:40 > 0:01:41which you may not be aware of -
0:01:41 > 0:01:43and seeing as you've lost the trauma unit,
0:01:43 > 0:01:46- I thought I'd give you first dibs. - That's very kind.
0:01:46 > 0:01:49Your secretary was being mysterious about your schedule
0:01:49 > 0:01:52but I was hoping this afternoon might be possible?
0:01:52 > 0:01:55CLASSICAL MUSIC PLAYS
0:01:55 > 0:01:58Time to wake up, Juliet.
0:01:58 > 0:02:01Can't we go back to Verona?
0:02:01 > 0:02:04With me around, Holby can be just as romantic.
0:02:06 > 0:02:09Do you know Gounod's Romeo And Juliet?
0:02:10 > 0:02:14Yeah. Family feuds ending in death. Not my sort of thing.
0:02:14 > 0:02:16Oh, pity.
0:02:16 > 0:02:19So if you'd like to come to my office at four o'clock,
0:02:19 > 0:02:21I'll listen to your proposal then.
0:02:22 > 0:02:25- Ah, Fletch.- I hear we were packed to the rafters last night.
0:02:25 > 0:02:28It was a full moon. At least it was according to my patient who thought
0:02:28 > 0:02:29he was turning into a werewolf.
0:02:29 > 0:02:32Don't tell me - covered in fur, fangs.
0:02:32 > 0:02:35Hairy back, halitosis and an over-active imagination.
0:02:35 > 0:02:39The bite on his finger was real, though. Ferret, by all accounts.
0:02:39 > 0:02:41- Discharge papers for Mrs Coleman. - Ah, good.
0:02:41 > 0:02:43Her and her husband are a bit lively.
0:02:43 > 0:02:46Madly in love one minute, fighting like cat and dog the next.
0:02:46 > 0:02:48Opposites attract - or haven't you heard?
0:02:48 > 0:02:50You're the one that's about to be fitted with a ball and chain,
0:02:50 > 0:02:53- you know more than I do. - Ball and chain I can deal with.
0:02:53 > 0:02:56What's rhyming slang for an annoying father-in-law?
0:02:56 > 0:02:57Ooh, no. Bite your tongue.
0:02:57 > 0:02:59Cos if Zosia's anything like my ex-missus
0:02:59 > 0:03:02she can slag her old man off as much as she likes,
0:03:02 > 0:03:03but as soon as you start...
0:03:03 > 0:03:06Just call me Mr Peace and Reconciliation.
0:03:10 > 0:03:12Hey. A good morning treat.
0:03:12 > 0:03:14Mr Soames' pre-op assessment?
0:03:14 > 0:03:17- Where's Sacha? - Probably still with Julie.
0:03:17 > 0:03:19I bet he never got round to dumping her.
0:03:19 > 0:03:22I imagine there's some sort of wild night of passion involved.
0:03:22 > 0:03:24But Sacha, the ever diligent surgeon,
0:03:24 > 0:03:27said, "Let's go to mine, I have an early start in the morning."
0:03:27 > 0:03:31And she went, "Couldn't possible leave the cats."
0:03:31 > 0:03:32But she lives in Birmingham.
0:03:32 > 0:03:36So Sacha's currently winging his way to us on the 7:35 from Birmingham
0:03:36 > 0:03:39- New Street?- Open the doors for me, please! Thank you.
0:03:41 > 0:03:44Sorry I'm late. Bit of trouble at the Synagogue.
0:03:45 > 0:03:49Apparently, internet dating is considered old and boring now,
0:03:49 > 0:03:52- did you know about this? - Can't say I did.
0:03:52 > 0:03:55It's all apps, apparently. Swipe this way, swipe that,
0:03:55 > 0:03:57and if you're really young and trendy
0:03:57 > 0:03:59you've gone back to meeting the opposite sex in real life!
0:03:59 > 0:04:01I mean, how's a girl like me -
0:04:01 > 0:04:03no spring chicken but still a few tricks up her sleeve -
0:04:03 > 0:04:06supposed to keep up?
0:04:06 > 0:04:09Sorry. Listen to me going on about my sad sex life.
0:04:09 > 0:04:12How was Verona?
0:04:12 > 0:04:14Great food, great art.
0:04:14 > 0:04:19We found this little bistro half a kilometre from Tomba di Giulietta.
0:04:19 > 0:04:21Their gnocchi was even better than my mother's.
0:04:21 > 0:04:23Yeah, yeah. What about you and Nina?
0:04:25 > 0:04:28Will you please tell Mr Levy that there's nothing wrong with me?
0:04:28 > 0:04:31I think I'll be the judge of that.
0:04:31 > 0:04:33He collapsed in the middle of imparting wisdom,
0:04:33 > 0:04:35which is his favourite pastime.
0:04:35 > 0:04:38I knew anything that stopped him talking must be serious.
0:04:38 > 0:04:41I had six eggs for breakfast. I'm telling you it's wind!
0:04:41 > 0:04:44- Six? Seriously? - Scrambled.
0:04:44 > 0:04:48Don't look at me like that, there are worse things to be addicted to.
0:04:48 > 0:04:51- Amen. - You see? This one's getting it.
0:04:51 > 0:04:54I think what Dr Copeland "gets" is that abdominal pains
0:04:54 > 0:04:56aren't anything to be trifled with.
0:04:56 > 0:05:01Can we start with FBC, U&Es, LFT, CRP, amalyse and abdominal X-ray?
0:05:03 > 0:05:05You going to join us in taking this a little bit seriously or...?
0:05:05 > 0:05:09At my age, if I took every ache and twinge seriously,
0:05:09 > 0:05:11I'd be too worried to get up in the morning.
0:05:11 > 0:05:15Ah, mind over matter. Healthy attitude goes a long way.
0:05:15 > 0:05:18- Keep it up. You're rapidly becoming my favourite.- Hang tight.
0:05:18 > 0:05:22We'll be back with the test results in a bit, all right?
0:05:22 > 0:05:25It's not Saturday. What were you doing at the Synagogue?
0:05:25 > 0:05:29I think that falls under the category of none of your business.
0:05:29 > 0:05:31Well, that's you told.
0:05:31 > 0:05:34Oh, please. Tenner says I'll find out the truth within the hour.
0:05:34 > 0:05:37You heard him, why you even going to try?
0:05:37 > 0:05:40- Don't pretend you're not interested. - So what's the goss, then?
0:05:40 > 0:05:43Was it a night of passion or a dodgy alarm clock?
0:05:43 > 0:05:46Neither, apparently. Something to do with his soul.
0:05:46 > 0:05:49I'll find out the nitty-gritty and let you both know.
0:05:49 > 0:05:53It was wonderful. We saw the Duomo and Casa di Giulietta.
0:05:53 > 0:05:56I'm not on about the sights. How was it between you and Matteo?
0:05:56 > 0:05:59I should check in with Mr Griffin, see how things have been going
0:05:59 > 0:06:01- while I've been gone. - I'm not fishing for gossip.
0:06:01 > 0:06:04Honestly, I'm really good at girlie mates.
0:06:04 > 0:06:07- If they were handing out prizes... - Yeah. Meanwhile, in the real world,
0:06:07 > 0:06:10everything I say will be broadcast around this hospital by tomorrow.
0:06:10 > 0:06:12No, you've got me all wrong, I swear.
0:06:12 > 0:06:15I just don't want people talking about us.
0:06:15 > 0:06:16OK, how about this -
0:06:16 > 0:06:20anything you tell me I will take to the grave. Just like Juliet.
0:06:22 > 0:06:28You really do have it all, don't you? Brilliant career, hot wife.
0:06:28 > 0:06:30You the man.
0:06:30 > 0:06:33Things'll perk up. I mean Matteo's Italian!
0:06:33 > 0:06:36Romance is in his blood, right? Like ice cream and pasta.
0:06:36 > 0:06:41Yeah. On our first night there, he bought me this.
0:06:44 > 0:06:46It doesn't even snow properly.
0:06:48 > 0:06:51And on our second night there...
0:06:51 > 0:06:53he gave me this.
0:06:53 > 0:06:55The more I hear about this weekend, the sadder I get.
0:06:55 > 0:06:58- I mean, what's up with Romeo? - He's stuck.
0:06:58 > 0:06:59But not like you and Matteo?
0:06:59 > 0:07:01I mean, you are still moving in together, right?
0:07:01 > 0:07:04We're supposed to be signing the lease on our new place tonight.
0:07:04 > 0:07:06Some help here, please!
0:07:06 > 0:07:12This is Jimmy. He was in paediatrics as part of Celebrating Science
0:07:12 > 0:07:15- when he started having chest pains. - Bed four, please.
0:07:15 > 0:07:19We were doing the science workshops.
0:07:19 > 0:07:23I just got to the bit where I explain how chromatography
0:07:23 > 0:07:25extraction works.
0:07:25 > 0:07:26He was sick everywhere.
0:07:26 > 0:07:28The children thought it was part of the act.
0:07:28 > 0:07:31Did you manage to pack up all the equipment?
0:07:31 > 0:07:34- I'm Ms Karnik. - Pleased to meet you.
0:07:34 > 0:07:37But I think you'd better get in touch with Mr Rossini.
0:07:37 > 0:07:41Now, there's no rush to call our friends from Darwin in just yet.
0:07:41 > 0:07:43I don't think you understand.
0:07:43 > 0:07:46I've got two hearts.
0:07:46 > 0:07:49- And I made a list.- Oh. And you've triaged everything. How cute.
0:07:49 > 0:07:52Red is for urgent, amber is for "it can wait but not too long"
0:07:52 > 0:07:55- and black is for...- Dead if I don't get on it straight away?
0:07:55 > 0:07:56Got to keep the wedding on track.
0:07:56 > 0:08:00- Yes, but firstly - lovely, essential sleep. Bye!- Bye.
0:08:00 > 0:08:03BEEPING
0:08:03 > 0:08:06Uh-oh. Crisis on AAU?
0:08:06 > 0:08:10- One of my patients is transferred to Darwin.- Yay.- Yeah.
0:08:12 > 0:08:13Come on.
0:08:17 > 0:08:20- Rabbi Stein's just gone for his abdominal X-ray.- Great.
0:08:26 > 0:08:30For the record, I have been doing classes with Rabbi Stein.
0:08:30 > 0:08:34Trying to re-integrate myself back into things.
0:08:35 > 0:08:39It's no big deal. I've absolutely no idea where it's headed, so...
0:08:42 > 0:08:45Well, are you serious about it?
0:08:45 > 0:08:48Yeah. In a baby-steps sort of way, I suppose.
0:08:48 > 0:08:49I don't know if anyone's noticed
0:08:49 > 0:08:52but I haven't been working on Friday evenings.
0:08:52 > 0:08:54I've cut out pork and shellfish.
0:08:54 > 0:08:58What's all this in aid of, what's it leading towards?
0:08:58 > 0:09:01It's a thing called an adult Kabbalat Torah,
0:09:01 > 0:09:04it's a sort of liberal Judaism ceremony where you recommit
0:09:04 > 0:09:07to your traditions, when you're ready.
0:09:07 > 0:09:10Well, that's amazing.
0:09:10 > 0:09:13When, where? Do I need to buy a new suit?
0:09:13 > 0:09:16Maybe never, no idea and...
0:09:17 > 0:09:20Listen, I don't think it's your sort of thing.
0:09:20 > 0:09:22I'm not really sure it's even mine so...
0:09:24 > 0:09:27I think the most important thing is I find a diagnosis for the Rabbi.
0:09:27 > 0:09:31Maybe that's what my spiritual journey's meant to be leading to.
0:09:36 > 0:09:39- Someone paged me? - Dream on, Valentine.
0:09:39 > 0:09:41Lovely to chat, as ever. You egotistical nightmare.
0:09:41 > 0:09:44Page was from me, the other egotistical nightmare in your life.
0:09:44 > 0:09:48- See you later.- Alison Coleman's MRI. - Alison Coleman?
0:09:48 > 0:09:51I just discharged her from AAU at the end of my shift.
0:09:51 > 0:09:53After which she started experiencing paralysis.
0:09:53 > 0:09:57They did the scan, rushed her up here and called me.
0:09:57 > 0:10:01As you can see, the tumour's arising from the nerve at T1.
0:10:01 > 0:10:05- Pressing on the aorta and compressing the spinal cord.- Damn.
0:10:05 > 0:10:10So the sporting metaphor would be the FA Cup final. The Super Bowl.
0:10:10 > 0:10:13The Ryder Cup, yes, I get it. I'm not quite clear why you paged me?
0:10:13 > 0:10:16Because I need someone to look after the CT side of things.
0:10:16 > 0:10:18- There's plenty of CT specialists. - Yes, but it's your case, I thought
0:10:18 > 0:10:20you'd like to see it through to the end.
0:10:20 > 0:10:23Plus I would have asked you anyway because I need someone
0:10:23 > 0:10:26who can think outside of the box and there's no-one better.
0:10:26 > 0:10:29- I'm at the end of a 12-hour shift. - I checked with Ric Griffin -
0:10:29 > 0:10:33apparently you had three solid hours last night. Come on, man up.
0:10:33 > 0:10:35It's about time we worked together.
0:10:46 > 0:10:49Busted! Hand it over.
0:10:49 > 0:10:52Whatever you think you saw, I assure you you're mistaken.
0:10:52 > 0:10:54I don't think it's right for that
0:10:54 > 0:10:56a man of God should be such a big fibber.
0:10:58 > 0:10:59Thank you.
0:10:59 > 0:11:01Looks like its still intact,
0:11:01 > 0:11:05so you will be able to have surgery, should you need it.
0:11:05 > 0:11:08- Lucky for you.- Spoil sport.
0:11:08 > 0:11:11So, I hear that you and Sacha have been partaking in some
0:11:11 > 0:11:14extra-curricular religious training.
0:11:14 > 0:11:17He's part of a small group who've lost touch with the tradition
0:11:17 > 0:11:18and want to reconnect.
0:11:18 > 0:11:23I get to impart my wisdom and put them back on the right path.
0:11:23 > 0:11:25Sounds like a wonderful ego-trip,
0:11:25 > 0:11:28having them hanging on your every word like that.
0:11:28 > 0:11:30Oh, it is. I love it!
0:11:30 > 0:11:33I've been trying to wangle an invite to this recommitment ceremony
0:11:33 > 0:11:36but he's being particularly cagey about it.
0:11:36 > 0:11:38You know Sacha.
0:11:38 > 0:11:40I don't suppose you know the date
0:11:40 > 0:11:43so I can organise a gang of us to gate-crash?
0:11:43 > 0:11:45All I do is prepare the students.
0:11:45 > 0:11:49The timing of the Kabbalat Torah...
0:11:50 > 0:11:53..if he even wants to take part,
0:11:53 > 0:11:55that's all down to Sacha.
0:11:55 > 0:11:57Hm.
0:11:57 > 0:11:59Boo, you're no fun.
0:11:59 > 0:12:01No, no, no, no, no.
0:12:05 > 0:12:08It seems your Rabbi isn't the dry old religious type I was expecting.
0:12:08 > 0:12:11Nope. And he's sharp as a whip.
0:12:11 > 0:12:14I did have to confiscate this contraband, though.
0:12:14 > 0:12:18He used to mainline Rolos when we were learning our Torah portions.
0:12:18 > 0:12:20Some things never change.
0:12:20 > 0:12:23- Is that the abdo CT? - Yeah, let's take a look.
0:12:31 > 0:12:34That looks like a little more than just scrambled eggs.
0:12:35 > 0:12:37Yeah.
0:12:37 > 0:12:39Yes, well, these are special circumstances
0:12:39 > 0:12:42and the patient requested that Mr Valentine be there.
0:12:42 > 0:12:44He made his bed. All I'm asking him to do is lie in it.
0:12:44 > 0:12:46I'll be quiet as a mouse. You'll barely know I'm here.
0:12:46 > 0:12:49Look, a tumour that size, placed where it is,
0:12:49 > 0:12:51you should be begging a consultant to assist,
0:12:51 > 0:12:54not a registrar who doesn't have the stomach for his own speciality.
0:12:54 > 0:12:56I'm guessing you're no keener to work with Mr Self
0:12:56 > 0:12:57than he is with you, am I right?
0:12:57 > 0:13:00Good, so in the interest of peace and goodwill,
0:13:00 > 0:13:01why don't you just let us get on with it?
0:13:01 > 0:13:03It's like leaving the Chuckle Brothers
0:13:03 > 0:13:05to repaint the Sistine Chapel.
0:13:07 > 0:13:09Well handled. Shall we?
0:13:12 > 0:13:14Oh, will you look at you two.
0:13:14 > 0:13:17"If there's a problem, if nobody else can help..."
0:13:17 > 0:13:20Which one of you two's Hannibal? Cos neither of you are Face.
0:13:20 > 0:13:22I don't think the A-Team would have left the kitchen
0:13:22 > 0:13:24the way that Damon did this morning.
0:13:24 > 0:13:26It's just a bowl of cereal in the sink, what's the big deal?
0:13:26 > 0:13:29Mate, you have to rinse the bowl, otherwise they turn to concrete!
0:13:29 > 0:13:32One of the first things I taught my kids.
0:13:32 > 0:13:36Salsa dancing is very good for you. It's an all-round workout.
0:13:36 > 0:13:40It's good for your hips and it's good for your brain.
0:13:40 > 0:13:41She practically had to drag me
0:13:41 > 0:13:44round the dance floor the first time I went to her class.
0:13:44 > 0:13:48- That's why we hit it off. - You're a very good tutor.
0:13:48 > 0:13:51I strong-armed her into helping me with the science workshop.
0:13:51 > 0:13:54- Hello, Jimmy. - Mr Rossini!
0:13:54 > 0:13:57- What happened to retirement? - I didn't take to it.
0:13:57 > 0:14:00But don't worry - both hearts are still in there,
0:14:00 > 0:14:03beating up a storm. Do you want to take a listen?
0:14:03 > 0:14:06I think that would be a good idea, given the chest pains.
0:14:06 > 0:14:10Can we start with a chest X-ray, heart casing and chest CT?
0:14:12 > 0:14:15You must be the doctor who saved Jimmy's life. Mm-hm.
0:14:15 > 0:14:18And turned me into a freak of nature.
0:14:18 > 0:14:19You're Italian?
0:14:19 > 0:14:23THEY CONVERSE IN ITALIAN
0:14:23 > 0:14:25I'm glad you two had a good weekend.
0:14:25 > 0:14:28Don't worry, he didn't give me any details.
0:14:28 > 0:14:31What happens in Verona stays in Verona and all that.
0:14:31 > 0:14:33Excuse me.
0:14:33 > 0:14:35HE SPEAKS ITALIAN
0:14:35 > 0:14:37Excuse me.
0:14:37 > 0:14:39Nice one.
0:14:39 > 0:14:42So the good news is we do have options.
0:14:42 > 0:14:45The safest thing to do would be a limited debulking
0:14:45 > 0:14:48which would remove the mass of the tumour
0:14:48 > 0:14:51and take the pressure off the spinal cord.
0:14:51 > 0:14:54- That's what we want, isn't it? - There is a downside.
0:14:54 > 0:14:57By not removing the entire tumour,
0:14:57 > 0:15:00it's likely that your neurological problems will get worse.
0:15:00 > 0:15:04- You mean she'd still be paralysed? - In all likelihood, yes.
0:15:04 > 0:15:08Removing the entire tumour is riskier, if not impossible -
0:15:08 > 0:15:11but I would only know when I got into theatre.
0:15:11 > 0:15:15So we take the risk and I get better, is that it?
0:15:15 > 0:15:17The downside would be catastrophic.
0:15:17 > 0:15:19You mean I'd be dead?
0:15:19 > 0:15:22- No. You can't. It's too much. - This isn't your decision.
0:15:22 > 0:15:26This is something you should both discuss and decide upon together.
0:15:26 > 0:15:30Paralysed from the waist down for sure or possibly dead.
0:15:30 > 0:15:32Remind me to play the Lottery this week.
0:15:42 > 0:15:46- Nothing like a bit of black humour. - Husband seemed quite wound up.
0:15:46 > 0:15:49- Wouldn't you be? - I was.
0:16:00 > 0:16:03You OK? You seemed a bit out of sorts back there.
0:16:03 > 0:16:07Just busy. Three days of backlog.
0:16:07 > 0:16:09I called the letting agent.
0:16:09 > 0:16:11Our appointment's confirmed at 6:30.
0:16:16 > 0:16:18You can't make it?
0:16:18 > 0:16:20Oh, it's not that, it's just...
0:16:21 > 0:16:23Are you sure about this?
0:16:23 > 0:16:25An apartment overlooking the river?
0:16:25 > 0:16:28With double oven and polished floors?
0:16:28 > 0:16:30Us moving in together.
0:16:30 > 0:16:33- Where is this coming from? - Oh, I don't know.
0:16:33 > 0:16:37Maybe the fact that you treated me like your aunt all weekend.
0:16:37 > 0:16:40I just thought it would be more romantic
0:16:40 > 0:16:44if our second first time was in our new home, that's all.
0:16:46 > 0:16:49Roll on 6:30. Actually, let's call it 7:00.
0:16:49 > 0:16:52We might have to get rid of the agent first.
0:16:59 > 0:17:02I need some air, I can't think straight in here.
0:17:08 > 0:17:11Jake's never been good at decision making.
0:17:11 > 0:17:14It took him the best part of six months to choose a sofa
0:17:14 > 0:17:17- let alone something like this. - I wish we could give you more time.
0:17:17 > 0:17:21I don't. I've got this horrible thing inside me.
0:17:23 > 0:17:27Still...this is a big decision.
0:17:31 > 0:17:35Removing part of the tumour would relieve your breathing issues,
0:17:35 > 0:17:40- you might even regain some feeling in your legs.- Some, but not all?
0:17:40 > 0:17:43It's unlikely you'd be able to walk.
0:17:43 > 0:17:45Which means I'd be reliant.
0:17:45 > 0:17:47On Jake.
0:17:47 > 0:17:51He'd have to help me wash, dress, go to the toilet.
0:17:51 > 0:17:53He's your husband. He loves you. He won't be thinking that way.
0:17:53 > 0:17:55My bags are already packed.
0:17:57 > 0:18:00They've been stuck at the bottom of our wardrobe for weeks.
0:18:00 > 0:18:04I was supposed to be on my way to Heathrow tomorrow,
0:18:04 > 0:18:06off to a whole new life.
0:18:07 > 0:18:11I don't want to die, Mr Valentine.
0:18:11 > 0:18:14Part of me wants to remove as little of the tumour as possible
0:18:14 > 0:18:17but then Jake would be stuck caring for a woman
0:18:17 > 0:18:19who doesn't love him any more.
0:18:23 > 0:18:24How could I do that to him?
0:18:27 > 0:18:30I'd like to do a CT scan of your chest and your abdomen
0:18:30 > 0:18:33and your pelvis. Hopefully then we can narrow down the possibilities
0:18:33 > 0:18:36about what's causing the obstruction.
0:18:36 > 0:18:37Why not guess?
0:18:39 > 0:18:45Because guessing is not in the rule book and I'm a man of science.
0:18:45 > 0:18:50Science is just another word for faith. Our jobs aren't so different.
0:18:50 > 0:18:52Maybe not.
0:18:54 > 0:18:56Listen, just be happy we caught this when we did
0:18:56 > 0:18:58because you've been asymptomatic for that long,
0:18:58 > 0:19:00if you hadn't collapsed there's no
0:19:00 > 0:19:03telling how long this could have gone on for.
0:19:03 > 0:19:07- You have been asymptomatic, yes? - Of course.
0:19:10 > 0:19:13I just want to know what path I'm on, that's all.
0:19:13 > 0:19:15You, me and the rest of the planet.
0:19:15 > 0:19:17It really is best to be sure.
0:19:17 > 0:19:20So while you scientists are getting your ducks in a row,
0:19:20 > 0:19:24I get to sit here and quietly starve to death?
0:19:24 > 0:19:27Pretty much. Sorry.
0:19:27 > 0:19:30We'll be as quick as we can, I promise.
0:19:41 > 0:19:45Eureka! It's snowing in Verona after all.
0:19:45 > 0:19:47You fixed it.
0:19:47 > 0:19:49It didn't take much.
0:19:49 > 0:19:53A bit of glycerol, otherwise known as anti-freeze.
0:19:53 > 0:19:58But I'm still working on getting Romeo onto Juliet's balcony.
0:19:58 > 0:20:02- Give me time.- Every day's a school day with Jimmy around.
0:20:02 > 0:20:06So, your test results came back. And they're all clear.
0:20:06 > 0:20:11When the kids ace a test, we usually call it good news.
0:20:11 > 0:20:15Except in this case we're no closer to figuring out what's wrong.
0:20:15 > 0:20:18You're still worried about my tickers?
0:20:18 > 0:20:20I'm a heart guy. It's my job.
0:20:20 > 0:20:24When your chest pains started, what were you doing, exactly?
0:20:24 > 0:20:28I was demonstrating chromatography extraction with spinach.
0:20:28 > 0:20:32I remember cos the "Oohs" and the "Ahhs" had just started.
0:20:32 > 0:20:34It's a new bit of my repertoire.
0:20:34 > 0:20:38- And any other symptoms? - Headache. Light-headedness.
0:20:38 > 0:20:42And that sick feeling that just won't go away.
0:20:42 > 0:20:45Your breath. Can you smell it, please?
0:20:50 > 0:20:52Like pear drops.
0:20:52 > 0:20:55Thank you, Mr Hornby.
0:20:59 > 0:21:02Fletch, bed four, can we draw some more bloods
0:21:02 > 0:21:03and get a urine sample, please?
0:21:03 > 0:21:07- And can we ask toxicology to check for acetone?- Yeah.
0:21:10 > 0:21:14- Alison is prepped and stable.- Good. - Whatever my dad is offering you,
0:21:14 > 0:21:16it's really not worth pulling a double shift.
0:21:16 > 0:21:20- We have got a wedding to plan, you know.- He's not offering me anything
0:21:20 > 0:21:24other than the opportunity to see through a case that I started.
0:21:24 > 0:21:28OK, his flattery may be a bit heavy handed,
0:21:28 > 0:21:31but...no bad thing, connecting before the wedding, is there?
0:21:31 > 0:21:34Besides, you're not the only one who knows not to take his patter
0:21:34 > 0:21:36at face value. I'm on my guard. I promise.
0:21:36 > 0:21:39BEEPING
0:21:41 > 0:21:43- Alison? - I don't feel so good.
0:21:45 > 0:21:48- Crash team, please. - BP is sky-high.
0:21:48 > 0:21:50She's in cardiac arrest. I'm going to start compressions.
0:21:50 > 0:21:52- Oxygen, please.- Quickly!
0:21:56 > 0:21:58Shockable rhythm. Charged to 100.
0:22:01 > 0:22:03Stand clear.
0:22:03 > 0:22:04Shocking.
0:22:06 > 0:22:08Nothing. Go again.
0:22:09 > 0:22:11Charging.
0:22:11 > 0:22:12Stand clear.
0:22:13 > 0:22:14Shocking.
0:22:20 > 0:22:22- She's back. - Intubation tray, please.
0:22:22 > 0:22:25Let's page the MRI suite. And someone needs to find her husband.
0:22:53 > 0:22:54What happened?
0:22:54 > 0:22:57She's had a cardiac arrest. We've intubated her.
0:22:57 > 0:22:59You can still do the operation?
0:22:59 > 0:23:01We'll know more when we've done a scan.
0:23:03 > 0:23:05Will she wake up before the surgery?
0:23:09 > 0:23:11So the decision about the treatment is all on me?
0:23:11 > 0:23:14It's a joint decision. And we're here to support you.
0:23:14 > 0:23:17- But I have to be the one speaking for her.- I'm sorry.
0:23:17 > 0:23:19OK, let's go.
0:23:29 > 0:23:33I was just trying to set myself back on the right path...
0:23:33 > 0:23:34and then I fell over.
0:23:36 > 0:23:39Thank you, God, for this helpful chair.
0:23:39 > 0:23:43You should be up on Keller, not wandering around down here.
0:23:43 > 0:23:46There are more important places for me to be.
0:23:46 > 0:23:49I know what Sacha's going to tell me.
0:23:49 > 0:23:52Look, you need our help, you're not God.
0:23:52 > 0:23:54No, but we're well acquainted.
0:23:55 > 0:23:59Look, I'm just a Catholic that hasn't been to church in a while,
0:23:59 > 0:24:01but you sneaking out behind Sacha's back,
0:24:01 > 0:24:05- that's not the right thing to do. - This isn't just to do with Sacha.
0:24:05 > 0:24:07I have work.
0:24:07 > 0:24:10Those two things aren't connected at all?
0:24:10 > 0:24:13Come on. Let's get you back to bed and get you checked over.
0:24:13 > 0:24:15Before he's any the wiser.
0:24:20 > 0:24:23- Ms Karnik's barely said two words to me since I...- Since you made out
0:24:23 > 0:24:25you knew all her business and massively put your foot in it?
0:24:27 > 0:24:29Look, don't worry about it.
0:24:29 > 0:24:32Sometimes all it takes is a push in the right direction.
0:24:32 > 0:24:33I will get you out the doghouse.
0:24:38 > 0:24:41I've been chasing Alison Coleman's MRI scan.
0:24:41 > 0:24:46Let's hope the tumour's not bleeding and we still have options.
0:24:46 > 0:24:47Urgh.
0:24:49 > 0:24:51"Italian biscotti."
0:24:51 > 0:24:54Why do people insist on bringing back such disgusting stuff
0:24:54 > 0:24:57- from their holidays?- I'm not sure how relevant options are
0:24:57 > 0:25:00- given the patient can no longer consent.- She has a husband.
0:25:00 > 0:25:02- That's good enough.- Even if she's planning on leaving him?
0:25:04 > 0:25:06Ah.
0:25:06 > 0:25:08Indeed.
0:25:08 > 0:25:11Although, from our perspective, nothing's changed.
0:25:11 > 0:25:13I mean, he still is the husband.
0:25:13 > 0:25:17Jake could be facing a lifetime of being her carer.
0:25:17 > 0:25:19If he knew exactly how Alison felt,
0:25:19 > 0:25:21maybe he'd make a different decision.
0:25:21 > 0:25:25No marriage is perfect. I know mine wasn't...
0:25:25 > 0:25:28but it didn't stop me stepping up to care for Anya.
0:25:28 > 0:25:31- Because you loved her. - Exactly.
0:25:31 > 0:25:35Because of how I felt about her. How she felt about me was irrelevant.
0:25:35 > 0:25:39Listen, Ollie, you must have gone through all of this before, with...
0:25:42 > 0:25:44Tara and I spoke about all eventualities,
0:25:44 > 0:25:46if that's what you mean.
0:25:46 > 0:25:49And if you were in Jake's shoes
0:25:49 > 0:25:51would that emotional ammunition have made any difference?
0:25:54 > 0:25:57You come to return my chocolate bar?
0:25:57 > 0:25:59I'm afraid not.
0:26:02 > 0:26:04And is it cancer?
0:26:04 > 0:26:06I believe it is, yes.
0:26:06 > 0:26:09So we need to get you into theatre as soon as possible.
0:26:09 > 0:26:14That word you used before, "asymptomatic..."
0:26:19 > 0:26:22How long have you been having pain?
0:26:22 > 0:26:26- Pain is such an elastic word. - Rabbi...
0:26:26 > 0:26:29The time for stiff upper lip has long since passed.
0:26:29 > 0:26:32I have a high pain threshold.
0:26:32 > 0:26:33I was busy.
0:26:35 > 0:26:37I thought it could wait until I saw a doctor.
0:26:37 > 0:26:40I'm going to see if there's a theatre slot available.
0:26:42 > 0:26:44So, bowel cancer.
0:26:46 > 0:26:49I must admit, I had rather more glamorous plans for my departure.
0:26:49 > 0:26:52Right, well, there's enough of that talk.
0:26:52 > 0:26:54Because you're in the right place to get the help you need.
0:26:56 > 0:27:00You've got plenty more wisdom to impart...
0:27:00 > 0:27:03and I would hate for the world to miss out.
0:27:05 > 0:27:08Sounds like now it's your turn to impart the wisdom.
0:27:12 > 0:27:17Jake, the MRI shows no change to the tumour.
0:27:17 > 0:27:20So I'd like to operate straight away.
0:27:20 > 0:27:23I recommend that we remove the entire tumour.
0:27:23 > 0:27:24You said that was riskier.
0:27:24 > 0:27:28Yes, but leaving any of the tumour intact could result in bleeds.
0:27:28 > 0:27:31You want me to opt for something that could kill my wife
0:27:31 > 0:27:35- when I don't have to.- I know how confusing this must seem to you.
0:27:35 > 0:27:37Oh, you know, do you?
0:27:37 > 0:27:40When my wife was due to undergo surgery we talked about everything.
0:27:40 > 0:27:44Including me having to make decisions,
0:27:44 > 0:27:47difficult decisions she was incapable of making.
0:27:47 > 0:27:53So, yes, I do know a little about how this must feel.
0:27:53 > 0:27:55Hopefully things will be different for you.
0:27:57 > 0:27:59Your wife died.
0:27:59 > 0:28:00I'm sorry.
0:28:04 > 0:28:05Save my wife.
0:28:05 > 0:28:09Take as little of the tumour out as you need to keep her alive.
0:28:12 > 0:28:14There's been a packed bag in the bottom of our wardrobe
0:28:14 > 0:28:16for a few weeks now.
0:28:17 > 0:28:21I know she doesn't love me like I love her but...
0:28:21 > 0:28:23I can't lose her.
0:28:30 > 0:28:33The good news is that we ruled out any problem with your hearts.
0:28:33 > 0:28:36This isn't related to the transplant.
0:28:36 > 0:28:37What a relief!
0:28:37 > 0:28:40IN ITALIAN:
0:28:48 > 0:28:50The tests confirm acetone poisoning.
0:28:52 > 0:28:55Perhaps you inhaled some fumes doing an experiment?
0:28:55 > 0:28:58I always work in a well-ventilated space.
0:28:58 > 0:29:00Accidentally ingested some liquids, then?
0:29:02 > 0:29:05I've been teaching science for 40 years,
0:29:05 > 0:29:07I mark my chemicals properly.
0:29:07 > 0:29:14He had a drink. Elderflower cordial, but using mineral water. Here.
0:29:14 > 0:29:16I'm hardly likely to have drunk acetone without knowing it!
0:29:16 > 0:29:18Normally I'd agree...
0:29:18 > 0:29:21but you've been taking ferrous sulphate for your SVT.
0:29:21 > 0:29:23One of the side effects is a lingering metallic taste
0:29:23 > 0:29:26in your mouth. Perhaps you didn't taste the acetone.
0:29:28 > 0:29:31Show her the acetone bottle, would you, please?
0:29:32 > 0:29:36There. Clearly, clearly marked.
0:29:36 > 0:29:39The first rule of science.
0:29:39 > 0:29:41Could you excuse us for a minute?
0:29:43 > 0:29:45Sure.
0:29:49 > 0:29:52Jimmy, the bottles are so similar.
0:29:53 > 0:29:57Mistakes happen. That's nothing to be ashamed of.
0:30:02 > 0:30:04Give me a moment?
0:30:09 > 0:30:12We have this thing where we don't say a proper goodbye
0:30:12 > 0:30:13when we leave the house.
0:30:13 > 0:30:18No "I love you" or kisses in case one of us gets run over.
0:30:18 > 0:30:20I wish we hadn't done that.
0:30:22 > 0:30:26I wish I'd told her I loved her every day.
0:30:26 > 0:30:29Saying it out loud just this one time doesn't seem so bad.
0:30:32 > 0:30:33I love you.
0:30:47 > 0:30:48Bring her back to me.
0:30:52 > 0:30:56It's not long before we take you down.
0:30:56 > 0:30:57So now you're saving my life
0:30:57 > 0:31:00instead of playing up in the back of the class.
0:31:00 > 0:31:03Do you know, I remember every single thing you taught me.
0:31:03 > 0:31:06I have one of those annoying voices.
0:31:06 > 0:31:09It burrows right into the subconscious and never lets go.
0:31:09 > 0:31:12I suppose, given the circumstances...
0:31:14 > 0:31:18..if there's anything else you want to learn from me,
0:31:18 > 0:31:20now's the time to ask.
0:31:22 > 0:31:25You're not dying, Rabbi.
0:31:25 > 0:31:26Not on my watch.
0:31:26 > 0:31:29Such things are not entirely in your control, Sacha.
0:31:31 > 0:31:33Oh, come on.
0:31:33 > 0:31:37You say you want to look inside yourself, find the answers.
0:31:38 > 0:31:41I just don't really think now's the best time.
0:31:41 > 0:31:43This might be the only time.
0:31:48 > 0:31:50Looks much bigger than it did on the scans.
0:31:50 > 0:31:52Scissors and forceps, please.
0:31:52 > 0:31:55I must say, I wouldn't want to leave that inside my wife.
0:31:55 > 0:31:59Well, we presented both options and Mr Coleman made his decision.
0:31:59 > 0:32:02But if it had been you,
0:32:02 > 0:32:04would you have chosen the path of least resistance
0:32:04 > 0:32:07or grabbed a chance at real happiness?
0:32:13 > 0:32:19Yep, the rest of the tumour is attached to the spine.
0:32:19 > 0:32:21OK, I'll take over.
0:32:35 > 0:32:36Suction.
0:32:40 > 0:32:42More suction.
0:32:44 > 0:32:45Come on, turn it up.
0:32:47 > 0:32:49It's no good, I can't see a damn thing, there's too much blood!
0:32:49 > 0:32:51Stay calm. There's plenty of time.
0:32:53 > 0:32:56- Just remove enough to save her life. - I couldn't remove the whole tumour
0:32:56 > 0:32:58if I wanted to, there's too much blood.
0:32:58 > 0:33:00Suction, Joan, come on!
0:33:09 > 0:33:12Everything about the way you live your life confirms your faith...
0:33:14 > 0:33:18- ..and I'm just not sure I've got that kind of strength.- Strength?
0:33:18 > 0:33:22For 40 years I've been clogging my arteries one day at a time.
0:33:22 > 0:33:25Not willpower. Moral strength.
0:33:29 > 0:33:33All the people who do unspeakable things to their children,
0:33:33 > 0:33:35and yet Essie can't get pregnant.
0:33:37 > 0:33:40- My daughter gets leukaemia. - And survived.
0:33:40 > 0:33:42Yeah, but our skill. Not His.
0:33:45 > 0:33:47I thought I could live with all this.
0:33:47 > 0:33:50I thought I HAD lived with all this.
0:33:53 > 0:33:56And then I go back to the Synagogue and...
0:33:56 > 0:33:59there He is.
0:33:59 > 0:34:01You know, I feel him all around me.
0:34:01 > 0:34:04- You were angry.- Yes. - Angry at God.- Yes.
0:34:07 > 0:34:10A young doctor dies of cancer,
0:34:10 > 0:34:13the daughter of another surgeon,
0:34:13 > 0:34:17a young colleague who's at the beginning of her career, all gone.
0:34:17 > 0:34:18And why?
0:34:18 > 0:34:22- What sort of feckless, selfish God... - Good. Keep going.
0:34:22 > 0:34:24- How dare he... - Yes!
0:34:24 > 0:34:29- Sometimes I hate God as much as I love him.- Me too.
0:34:31 > 0:34:36You're questioning God, Sacha. That's healthy. If anything,
0:34:36 > 0:34:40these things are more difficult for people like us to accept.
0:34:40 > 0:34:43Everyone else gets to rail and scream.
0:34:43 > 0:34:45We have to see these dreadful things
0:34:45 > 0:34:49and yet still somehow retain our faith.
0:34:52 > 0:34:54The fact that you're worried about these things
0:34:54 > 0:34:59shows what a commitment you've already made to God.
0:34:59 > 0:35:01Opening up.
0:35:01 > 0:35:05Being honest, wanting these answers.
0:35:13 > 0:35:14I'm ready.
0:35:21 > 0:35:22Don't worry.
0:35:24 > 0:35:27If I should die on the operating table,
0:35:27 > 0:35:30Rabbi Landau will make a marvellous job
0:35:30 > 0:35:32of your Kabbalat Torah celebrations.
0:35:35 > 0:35:37He's breaking it off with her.
0:35:37 > 0:35:40- The poor guy should give himself a break.- He's right about one thing.
0:35:40 > 0:35:43If he's starting to mark his chemicals incorrectly,
0:35:43 > 0:35:45maybe he should stop doing experiments.
0:35:45 > 0:35:48Jimmy is sharp as a tack, I know he is.
0:35:48 > 0:35:50What does the label say?
0:35:51 > 0:35:55Looks like acetone to me. Just like the other one.
0:35:57 > 0:35:59Or acqua?
0:35:59 > 0:36:02Maybe it wasn't Jimmy who marked the bottle.
0:36:03 > 0:36:06I've never even been close to having a religious phase.
0:36:06 > 0:36:09Had the occasional fantasy about a vicar, but that's about it.
0:36:09 > 0:36:11The nuns at my school would have washed your mouth out
0:36:11 > 0:36:14- for chat like that.- Nuns?- Yeah, good women, most of them. Great teachers.
0:36:14 > 0:36:17Of course, they never shut up about guilt and sin,
0:36:17 > 0:36:20- but that's Catholicism for you. - Well, that sounds like a laugh riot.
0:36:20 > 0:36:22Once that stuff is in you, there's no getting it out.
0:36:22 > 0:36:25- Believe me, I've tried.- Guys...
0:36:26 > 0:36:31I need a favour, and it's a big one. And it's not the fun sort,
0:36:31 > 0:36:33unfortunately, it's the "will you be my bridesmaid" sort.
0:36:33 > 0:36:36I'm going to be with Rabbi Stein, can you meet me there in five minutes?
0:36:36 > 0:36:39- Roger that.- Sure.- Great.
0:36:39 > 0:36:42I'm not wearing anything that doesn't match my eyes!
0:36:42 > 0:36:46INDISTINCT CONVERSATION
0:36:46 > 0:36:49You should have told Mr Coleman you were getting married.
0:36:49 > 0:36:51That there is life after grief.
0:36:51 > 0:36:54I didn't really want to get into it, truth be told.
0:36:54 > 0:36:57Right. Well, wish me luck.
0:36:57 > 0:37:00I have a meeting with Hanssen which involves me
0:37:00 > 0:37:02putting my head into the lion's mouth.
0:37:02 > 0:37:05You've pitched millions of times before, luck doesn't enter into it.
0:37:05 > 0:37:08Yeah, but for this one to fly, Holby would have to install an fMRI suite.
0:37:08 > 0:37:10Not many of those in the UK.
0:37:10 > 0:37:13No, we'd need to shell out for neuro fMRI software,
0:37:13 > 0:37:15physicists to interpret the scans...
0:37:15 > 0:37:18Hanssen's likely to baulk at the cost
0:37:18 > 0:37:21unless it had cross-departmental uses.
0:37:21 > 0:37:24- CT and neuro?- Mm.
0:37:24 > 0:37:27Actually, be good to have someone from CT in the room,
0:37:27 > 0:37:28if you're interested?
0:37:28 > 0:37:30It won't take long.
0:37:30 > 0:37:34Well, I haven't got any research commitments at the moment.
0:37:34 > 0:37:36Ah, so you would be interested?
0:37:36 > 0:37:40CT and neuro hybrid would be perfect for me.
0:37:40 > 0:37:42You sure you could use me?
0:37:42 > 0:37:45If I can't give my future son-in-law a leg up...
0:37:48 > 0:37:51I thought you'd be over your research disappointment by now.
0:37:51 > 0:37:54I am. Doesn't mean I can't grab a new opportunity with both hands.
0:37:54 > 0:37:57Just because you're marrying into the Addams Family
0:37:57 > 0:38:00it doesn't mean you're one of them. Don't underestimate him.
0:38:10 > 0:38:14Hi, it's Guy Self again.
0:38:14 > 0:38:18It looks like I'm going to need those scans after all. Thanks.
0:38:20 > 0:38:22So once the drip is finished we'll check your blood sugars
0:38:22 > 0:38:26and blood gases for metabolic acidosis and if you're clear
0:38:26 > 0:38:30and you have some additional fluids you should be fine.
0:38:30 > 0:38:33No permanent damage except my pride, hm?
0:38:33 > 0:38:35Found this one loitering by the vending machine.
0:38:35 > 0:38:38Anyone would think she didn't want to leave without you.
0:38:38 > 0:38:39What's going on?
0:38:39 > 0:38:43Second chances at happiness aren't that easy to come by.
0:38:43 > 0:38:46I'm not about to let you throw yours away because of some silly mistake.
0:38:46 > 0:38:48Oh, don't say that, will you, please?
0:38:48 > 0:38:50You didn't mark the bottles - Valentina did.
0:38:50 > 0:38:53And the reason you drank the wrong one is
0:38:53 > 0:38:55because she marked it acqua and not water.
0:38:55 > 0:38:58You've got what we call expressive handwriting.
0:38:58 > 0:39:00And I don't suppose you've ever considered becoming a doctor?
0:39:00 > 0:39:02IN ITALIAN:
0:39:02 > 0:39:05- I did this to him? - No, not just you.
0:39:05 > 0:39:12I haven't been wearing my reading glasses as much as I should.
0:39:12 > 0:39:16I thought it would, well, perhaps make me look younger.
0:39:16 > 0:39:18Seriously, the pair of ya, as bad as each other!
0:39:18 > 0:39:22This was just a bump in the road towards true love.
0:39:22 > 0:39:25I hear you two have been stepping out together recently.
0:39:25 > 0:39:29He has two hearts. Not every bloke can say that.
0:39:29 > 0:39:30He's a very interesting man.
0:39:32 > 0:39:34IN ITALIAN:
0:39:36 > 0:39:38- Bruce Willis! - Ah.
0:39:41 > 0:39:44Can you forgive me?
0:39:44 > 0:39:47You've still got a lot to learn about science.
0:39:47 > 0:39:50But I'm a good teacher...
0:39:50 > 0:39:52Oh, before I forget.
0:40:01 > 0:40:03Ha! It works!
0:40:05 > 0:40:08- Guess that makes us even, yeah? - I guess it does.
0:40:12 > 0:40:16So, Donna thinks romance is in your blood.
0:40:16 > 0:40:18She doesn't know you like I do.
0:40:25 > 0:40:27Thank you.
0:40:29 > 0:40:31This feels right.
0:40:31 > 0:40:34Are you sure you want a lapsed Catholic in on this?
0:40:34 > 0:40:36And a devout atheist.
0:40:36 > 0:40:39Chequered family past here. I don't think it's appropriate.
0:40:39 > 0:40:41This is about family.
0:40:41 > 0:40:43Which is why I need all of you here.
0:40:45 > 0:40:48And it's not a ceremony. It's a blessing.
0:40:48 > 0:40:51This is a modern religion. We welcome everyone.
0:40:51 > 0:40:54Even chocolate thieves. Sacha?
0:41:02 > 0:41:07God, uniquely created in Your image,
0:41:07 > 0:41:10I have used my gifts and talents,
0:41:10 > 0:41:12my training and my experience,
0:41:12 > 0:41:15to bring my skills to support healing.
0:41:17 > 0:41:22May my attentiveness reflect the trust placed in me
0:41:22 > 0:41:27by each patient, by my colleagues, and You.
0:41:27 > 0:41:31May my work reflect the best I have to offer
0:41:31 > 0:41:33from the depths of my mind and my soul.
0:41:35 > 0:41:38And may the blessings of life and love
0:41:38 > 0:41:40be ever-present...
0:41:42 > 0:41:46..to my patients and myself.
0:41:46 > 0:41:48Amen.
0:41:48 > 0:41:53You've reconciled your sense of faith and your belief in medicine.
0:41:56 > 0:41:58He's only doing this in case I die
0:41:58 > 0:42:01and I won't be around to perform the Kabbalat Torah after the operation.
0:42:01 > 0:42:04Well, that's not going to happen.
0:42:04 > 0:42:06Proud of you.
0:42:07 > 0:42:08Very moving.
0:42:13 > 0:42:16I still can't feel my legs properly.
0:42:16 > 0:42:19- Well, that could change. - Could?
0:42:19 > 0:42:21Hey, come on.
0:42:21 > 0:42:24Look on the bright side, isn't that what you're always telling me?
0:42:26 > 0:42:30She wants to do a tandem parachute jump for our second anniversary.
0:42:30 > 0:42:32No fear, this woman.
0:42:32 > 0:42:34Am I allowed a glass of water?
0:42:34 > 0:42:37- Yeah, sure. - I'll get it.
0:42:44 > 0:42:47I am glad that I'm still here. It's just...
0:42:52 > 0:42:55I know things seem bleak but there is always hope.
0:42:55 > 0:42:58There's a stronger chance that I will be stuck in a bed
0:42:58 > 0:43:01and Jake will be forced to look after me.
0:43:03 > 0:43:05He seems to really love you.
0:43:08 > 0:43:09I love him, too.
0:43:11 > 0:43:13I just wanted more, that's all.
0:43:23 > 0:43:26I don't know why we're still talking about this.
0:43:26 > 0:43:29Seven o'clock - romance and flowers are in the diary.
0:43:29 > 0:43:33So the same man that didn't bother with a flashy proposal,
0:43:33 > 0:43:36that wanted to elope to avoid the fuss,
0:43:36 > 0:43:40that couldn't keep his hands off me on any holiday ever...
0:43:40 > 0:43:43That same man wants to carry me over the threshold
0:43:43 > 0:43:45before he can be intimate?
0:43:45 > 0:43:47Really?
0:43:48 > 0:43:52I'm all for fresh starts but it's only a rented apartment.
0:43:52 > 0:43:57- I thought it was what you'd want. - Don't give me that.
0:43:57 > 0:43:59You know me, just like I know you.
0:43:59 > 0:44:02I don't care about gestures.
0:44:02 > 0:44:06I don't want music and dancing and snow globes.
0:44:06 > 0:44:09I just...want you.
0:44:13 > 0:44:15When we were about to board
0:44:15 > 0:44:17and that call came through from the solicitor...
0:44:17 > 0:44:19About the house sale completing?
0:44:19 > 0:44:22I know we were expecting it but...
0:44:24 > 0:44:27It still hit me sideways.
0:44:27 > 0:44:30But we both agreed to sell the house.
0:44:30 > 0:44:31We'll still be living together.
0:44:33 > 0:44:37Just not there, not in our family home.
0:44:37 > 0:44:40Remember what The Friar told Romeo?
0:44:40 > 0:44:46"Go wisely and slowly. They stumble that run fast."
0:44:46 > 0:44:51But, Matteo, it's taken us so long to get here.
0:44:51 > 0:44:55And we're not rushing, and we won't stumble, I promise.
0:44:57 > 0:44:59I feel like a fraud.
0:45:00 > 0:45:04We went all the way to Verona for romance
0:45:04 > 0:45:06and all I could muster was fear.
0:45:07 > 0:45:10That house is our past.
0:45:10 > 0:45:12This new apartment is our future.
0:45:13 > 0:45:18And...Verona, that's not where romance is.
0:45:20 > 0:45:24It's here. Now.
0:45:24 > 0:45:27An fMRI does what an MRI can't.
0:45:27 > 0:45:30It detects blood flow and metabolic processes.
0:45:30 > 0:45:34And it would enable us to be ahead of any other hospital in the area.
0:45:34 > 0:45:37Not to mention opening up Darwin to surgeries currently sent elsewhere -
0:45:37 > 0:45:40stereotactic surgeries, electrophysiology studies.
0:45:40 > 0:45:44So how would this cutting edge technology help patients?
0:45:44 > 0:45:48Erm, well, if I could show you an actual case.
0:45:48 > 0:45:52These are scans from a woman in her late 20s
0:45:52 > 0:45:55who presented with a brain tumour.
0:45:55 > 0:45:59The surgeon at the time used image guiding to understand the tumour.
0:45:59 > 0:46:02Under my proposal I would perform an angiogram
0:46:02 > 0:46:04along with other vascular imagery
0:46:04 > 0:46:07to show if there are any abnormal blood vessels around the tumour.
0:46:07 > 0:46:09This would allow me to prepare for bleeding
0:46:09 > 0:46:13- and other significant complications. - Who do these scans belong to?
0:46:13 > 0:46:17Had these precautions been taken, the death of this patient, a...
0:46:17 > 0:46:19Ms Lo, might have been prevented.
0:46:23 > 0:46:25Her name was Dr Lo.
0:46:28 > 0:46:29Excuse me.
0:46:34 > 0:46:37I hope you didn't feel pressured into any of that.
0:46:37 > 0:46:40I know you and God aren't exactly bosom buddies.
0:46:40 > 0:46:42Doesn't matter.
0:46:43 > 0:46:46I loved it, I thought it was beautiful.
0:46:48 > 0:46:50I just want to make him proud.
0:46:50 > 0:46:52I hope he's around to see it.
0:46:54 > 0:46:57Since when are you so sceptical before surgery?
0:46:57 > 0:47:00Not sceptical. Just pragmatic.
0:47:00 > 0:47:05We both know that age is a bit of risk, but...
0:47:05 > 0:47:07It's not just his age. It's...
0:47:09 > 0:47:11It's nothing specific, it's just...
0:47:14 > 0:47:16Surgery can be unpredictable...
0:47:16 > 0:47:20and now I've set out on this journey, I feel ready.
0:47:21 > 0:47:25I just don't feel ready to go it alone.
0:47:25 > 0:47:27You won't be.
0:47:28 > 0:47:30No offence but...
0:47:30 > 0:47:33maybe you're slightly lacking in the...
0:47:33 > 0:47:35spiritual guidance department.
0:47:35 > 0:47:38That may be, but I'm not talking about me.
0:47:40 > 0:47:43It's pretty evident the Rabbi has already given you so much.
0:47:44 > 0:47:47And I'm no expert but if you ask me
0:47:47 > 0:47:50I think your faith makes you a better doctor.
0:47:51 > 0:47:54You've still got terrible taste in women and shirts
0:47:54 > 0:47:56but no-one's perfect.
0:48:01 > 0:48:04Oh, Hanssen didn't buy what Guy was selling, then?
0:48:04 > 0:48:06Oliver?
0:48:06 > 0:48:09- How dare you use my wife like that! - It was an unfortunate coincidence.
0:48:09 > 0:48:13- I'm sorry, had I known who Dr Lo was...- You've been pulling my strings
0:48:13 > 0:48:16all day. How long have you been planning this?
0:48:16 > 0:48:18It was a mistake.
0:48:21 > 0:48:23Stay away from me.
0:48:33 > 0:48:35Great. We're ready.
0:48:39 > 0:48:42Don't even think about making me do this on my own.
0:48:59 > 0:49:00How could you?
0:49:03 > 0:49:08Zosia, you don't honestly think that I would sabotage my research grant
0:49:08 > 0:49:11- by taking a cheap shot at your future husband.- After the emotional
0:49:11 > 0:49:14blackmail you tried to pull over Mum's wedding dress,
0:49:14 > 0:49:16I wouldn't put anything past you.
0:49:16 > 0:49:18I miss her.
0:49:18 > 0:49:22I wanted you to wear that dress because I miss your mother.
0:49:22 > 0:49:26- Of course. - Every minute of every day.
0:49:27 > 0:49:31She was my world and now she's gone
0:49:31 > 0:49:34and that is something that I will never, ever get over.
0:49:36 > 0:49:41Now...ask me again whether I would use the memory of Ollie's dead wife
0:49:41 > 0:49:42to get at him.
0:49:49 > 0:49:52Damn, the mesentery's tearing.
0:49:53 > 0:49:56We're going to have to revert to open.
0:49:56 > 0:49:58- Full laparotomy? - Yeah.
0:50:06 > 0:50:07Actually, wait.
0:50:09 > 0:50:14If I put in a hand-port incision then we can continue without...
0:50:15 > 0:50:18OK, scapel. Thank you.
0:50:18 > 0:50:19- Can you hold that?- Mm-hm.
0:50:22 > 0:50:23OK.
0:50:25 > 0:50:27Here goes.
0:50:27 > 0:50:29How many times have you warned me about him?
0:50:29 > 0:50:32- Even Jac warned me about him. - I spoke to him about what happened
0:50:32 > 0:50:35- and he said it was a mistake. - Of course he did!
0:50:35 > 0:50:38Listen, I'm not saying he isn't capable of doing awful things
0:50:38 > 0:50:41but you know how broken he still is over Mum.
0:50:41 > 0:50:43Even more reason to spot my Achilles heel.
0:50:46 > 0:50:47I'm sorry.
0:50:47 > 0:50:50I meant Achilles heel in the sense that Tara's death will always be
0:50:50 > 0:50:53a sore point for me. How could it not be?
0:50:53 > 0:50:55No-one knows Dad better than I do.
0:50:55 > 0:50:58- He would do almost anything to get his own way.- Exactly.
0:50:58 > 0:51:01ALMOST anything.
0:51:01 > 0:51:03He said it was a mistake.
0:51:03 > 0:51:04I believe him.
0:51:04 > 0:51:07It's not what he said that matters so much as what he meant to achieve.
0:51:07 > 0:51:10- Ollie... - A wedge between me and you!
0:51:10 > 0:51:13It was a mistake. It was a horrible, upsetting mistake.
0:51:13 > 0:51:15There really doesn't need to be any more to it than that.
0:51:15 > 0:51:19Unless Tara does still mean more to you than you're willing to admit?
0:51:39 > 0:51:41For when you're feeling up to it.
0:51:47 > 0:51:48Thank you, Rabbi.
0:51:50 > 0:51:53- For everything. - Save your thanks.
0:51:53 > 0:51:56Faith is a choice, Sacha.
0:51:56 > 0:51:59You don't have to leave yourself behind to embrace it.
0:52:01 > 0:52:05Well...that's very good to know.
0:52:07 > 0:52:11HE RECITES FROM THE TORAH
0:52:16 > 0:52:19SACHA JOINS IN
0:52:34 > 0:52:36I won't struggle if you want to throw me off.
0:52:36 > 0:52:38Tempting.
0:52:38 > 0:52:41I don't think many people would think it was an accident, do you?
0:52:43 > 0:52:45Did you speak to Zosia?
0:52:48 > 0:52:51I suppose you think I got inside her head.
0:52:53 > 0:52:56Zosia believes you didn't do it on purpose.
0:52:56 > 0:52:59So I have to take that at face value.
0:53:01 > 0:53:04But you don't. Am I right?
0:53:04 > 0:53:09I'm going to marry your daughter very soon
0:53:09 > 0:53:13and I believe I'll make her happy.
0:53:18 > 0:53:22- What does all this matter compared to that?- I see.
0:53:24 > 0:53:27What Zosia and I have is special.
0:53:27 > 0:53:31Play all the games, pull all the strings you want.
0:53:31 > 0:53:33I'm immune.
0:53:50 > 0:53:52- Steady!- No, what do you mean?
0:53:52 > 0:53:55These hands are the hands of a surgeon.
0:53:55 > 0:53:58Oh, I see, no smoky bacon now.
0:53:58 > 0:54:01- What else does this epiphany of yours entail?- Listen, listen.
0:54:01 > 0:54:04I'm not going to start turning up to work dressed in a tallit
0:54:04 > 0:54:07- and quoting the Torah.- The scariest thing about religious people
0:54:07 > 0:54:10- is they can be right under your nose and you don't even know it.- Exactly.
0:54:10 > 0:54:11Nothing's going to change.
0:54:11 > 0:54:15- Everything's going to stay the same, don't worry.- Right, come on.- Yes.
0:54:15 > 0:54:18All right, well, as long as Sacha keeps his hands to himself
0:54:18 > 0:54:21- until after we've conferred. - Sometimes I just know the answer!
0:54:21 > 0:54:25Last time you lost us a fiver saying the capital of Stockholm is Finland.
0:54:25 > 0:54:28Well, that was a long time ago and my finger slipped.
0:54:28 > 0:54:30Oh, come on, then, you can choose.
0:54:30 > 0:54:34- Game faces, people. - What are the chances? Right.