Hiding Places

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0:00:02 > 0:00:04I am thinking about the future. Our future.

0:00:04 > 0:00:06Accept it. I have fallen out of love with you.

0:00:06 > 0:00:08I couldn't help noticing - the sickness.

0:00:08 > 0:00:10The trips to Obs and Gynae.

0:00:10 > 0:00:11That is really none of your business.

0:00:11 > 0:00:13I haven't congratulated you yet

0:00:13 > 0:00:16because I wasn't sure how many people knew about the baby.

0:00:18 > 0:00:20It's like you've given up.

0:00:20 > 0:00:21Why are you hiding in here?

0:00:21 > 0:00:23I don't know.

0:00:23 > 0:00:24I'm not picking a fight.

0:00:24 > 0:00:26But I deserve some answers.

0:00:26 > 0:00:27Don't I?

0:00:27 > 0:00:30Why won't you tell them where you were?

0:00:30 > 0:00:31Why won't you tell me?

0:01:37 > 0:01:38CAR HORN

0:01:38 > 0:01:40Oh! I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.

0:01:40 > 0:01:43- Sorry. Are you all right? - I'm sorry, it's completely my fault.

0:01:43 > 0:01:45- You need to look where you're going! - Matteo.

0:01:45 > 0:01:48No, he's right. Mea culpa, as they say in...

0:01:49 > 0:01:52- CLEARS HIS THROAT - Latin.

0:01:52 > 0:01:53Was that really necessary?

0:01:53 > 0:01:55He wasn't looking, you nearly got run over.

0:01:55 > 0:01:57Next time, just...

0:01:57 > 0:01:58I can take care of myself.

0:01:58 > 0:02:00And what about the baby?

0:02:04 > 0:02:06Nina, wait.

0:02:08 > 0:02:11OK. Right, let's go.

0:02:11 > 0:02:13Where's Sarah?

0:02:13 > 0:02:16That's no way to treat your favourite pig, now, is it?

0:02:16 > 0:02:19Now we have to hurry, OK? Cos Mummy's going to be late.

0:02:19 > 0:02:20Come here, that's it.

0:02:20 > 0:02:25Right, Mummy needs you to be a very, very good girl for her today, OK?

0:02:25 > 0:02:27Yeah? OK. Here we go.

0:02:27 > 0:02:29Sarah!

0:02:29 > 0:02:32- It's all right. I'll get that for you.- No, leave it.

0:02:39 > 0:02:41I'm sorry. I overreacted.

0:02:41 > 0:02:43No harm done.

0:02:43 > 0:02:45I've been not sleeping well.

0:02:45 > 0:02:49Hence the slight but appreciable dip in your personal grooming standards.

0:02:50 > 0:02:53I found out Nina's been keeping something from me.

0:02:53 > 0:02:55Oh, sorry.

0:02:55 > 0:02:57What kind of something?

0:02:57 > 0:03:00- Something she really should have told me about herself. - PHONE RINGS

0:03:00 > 0:03:02Sorry, I should probably get this.

0:03:04 > 0:03:06Hey...?

0:03:08 > 0:03:10How long has he been having them?

0:03:11 > 0:03:12Oh, OK.

0:03:12 > 0:03:14Do you want me to pop down?

0:03:15 > 0:03:17Right, well, I'll be there shortly.

0:03:18 > 0:03:20Someone needs a consult?

0:03:20 > 0:03:21Just Keller.

0:03:21 > 0:03:23Nina?

0:03:23 > 0:03:25- As it happens... - I'll handle it.

0:03:25 > 0:03:27Are you sure that's wi...

0:03:27 > 0:03:29Thank you, Ollie. You've been a big help.

0:03:30 > 0:03:32Any time.

0:03:32 > 0:03:34So you put Emma in the creche, then?

0:03:34 > 0:03:37My nanny quit at five past seven this morning by text.

0:03:37 > 0:03:38Can you believe that?

0:03:38 > 0:03:41With Jonny away that must be nightmare.

0:03:41 > 0:03:44If you happen to see her, bring her to me, dead or alive.

0:03:44 > 0:03:47Any preference? You know, just in terms of dead or alive.

0:03:47 > 0:03:48Head on a stick.

0:03:48 > 0:03:50Got ya.

0:03:50 > 0:03:52Look, they're clearing out some old offices upstairs for new

0:03:52 > 0:03:55arrivals, I'm guessing something to do with the merger,

0:03:55 > 0:03:58- not that anyone has actually told me anything...- And?

0:03:58 > 0:03:59Well, the...

0:03:59 > 0:04:03..the cleaners found a load of these in a drawer.

0:04:04 > 0:04:06I threw the others out but...

0:04:08 > 0:04:10..that would have just felt a bit weird.

0:04:29 > 0:04:34- You asked for a CT consult? - I asked for Mr Valentine.

0:04:34 > 0:04:35You got a free upgrade.

0:04:36 > 0:04:41Scott Bartlett, 23. Came in for an elective lipoma removal but clearly

0:04:41 > 0:04:44suffering from chest pains he hadn't thought to tell anyone about.

0:04:44 > 0:04:46ECG and D-Dimer came back inconclusive.

0:04:46 > 0:04:48Scott. My name is Mr Rossini.

0:04:48 > 0:04:50Nice to meet you.

0:04:51 > 0:04:53Leanne, my wife, she's the one that made me

0:04:53 > 0:04:55go to the doctors about the whatchamacallit on my back.

0:04:55 > 0:04:57Lipoma.

0:04:57 > 0:05:00I wasn't bothered, but Leanne's always worrying about me, bless her.

0:05:00 > 0:05:02Pretty much marched me down here.

0:05:02 > 0:05:04You didn't tell her you've been having chest pains?

0:05:04 > 0:05:07- It never came up. - Or your GP?

0:05:07 > 0:05:09They're not that bad.

0:05:10 > 0:05:13As I long as I don't move too much.

0:05:13 > 0:05:14How long have you been having them?

0:05:14 > 0:05:16Well, on and off for a bit...

0:05:16 > 0:05:18A couple of years...maybe.

0:05:20 > 0:05:23I suppose they've been worse the last six months, or so.

0:05:23 > 0:05:25I can't really take the time off right now.

0:05:25 > 0:05:27We're having a baby, you see.

0:05:28 > 0:05:31Well, Leanne is and I'm a self-employed plumber.

0:05:31 > 0:05:34We need to do some tests, scans of your chest and abdomen.

0:05:34 > 0:05:37Has anyone in your family had any heart problems?

0:05:38 > 0:05:39No.

0:05:39 > 0:05:41So what kind of thing are you looking for?

0:05:41 > 0:05:44We'll just have to see what the scans tell us.

0:05:44 > 0:05:46Relax for now, OK?

0:05:46 > 0:05:47Will do.

0:05:49 > 0:05:52Two years of chest pains, doesn't think to tell his wife?

0:05:52 > 0:05:54All couples have their secrets.

0:05:55 > 0:05:57Let's talk in your office.

0:05:59 > 0:06:02So have HR even said what they want to talk to you about?

0:06:02 > 0:06:06Damage control. Me being the damage they want to control.

0:06:06 > 0:06:08Is your lawyer going to be there?

0:06:09 > 0:06:13I'm beginning to suspect that I'm not his top priority.

0:06:13 > 0:06:15That's not good.

0:06:15 > 0:06:20- No.- Look, I'm going to get a coffee now, if you want to...

0:06:20 > 0:06:22- No, I better get on. - It's fine. See you later.

0:06:31 > 0:06:32Morning.

0:06:32 > 0:06:34Hi.

0:06:34 > 0:06:37So how's he doing?

0:06:37 > 0:06:40Hard to say. He's not happy with his lawyer, so...

0:06:40 > 0:06:42Oh...

0:06:46 > 0:06:48What are you doing here?

0:06:50 > 0:06:52You weren't returning my calls, so...

0:06:52 > 0:06:54Sorry.

0:06:54 > 0:06:56How are things at home with Mr Griffin?

0:06:56 > 0:07:00Must be awkward since the inquest.

0:07:00 > 0:07:01Not really.

0:07:01 > 0:07:03Even though it's your word against his?

0:07:03 > 0:07:05It's fine.

0:07:05 > 0:07:08It must play on your mind though, wondering how negligent

0:07:08 > 0:07:11he actually was.

0:07:11 > 0:07:13I've no-one to talk to, Donna.

0:07:13 > 0:07:15No-one listens like you do.

0:07:17 > 0:07:20I was going to call you back.

0:07:20 > 0:07:22It's OK, I understand.

0:07:23 > 0:07:25I just need your help.

0:07:25 > 0:07:27And it's not about my mum's records.

0:07:27 > 0:07:28I just...want to chat.

0:07:30 > 0:07:33OK, but I'm running late, so...

0:07:33 > 0:07:34How about lunch?

0:07:34 > 0:07:37- We'll sort something.- OK. I'll call you.- OK.

0:07:53 > 0:07:56So...when were you going to tell me?

0:07:57 > 0:07:59I didn't think there was a way back for us.

0:07:59 > 0:08:01But the baby changes everything.

0:08:01 > 0:08:05We have to be together, raise this child, together.

0:08:07 > 0:08:11I don't understand. What is there to even think about?

0:08:11 > 0:08:12Everything.

0:08:12 > 0:08:14For instance?

0:08:14 > 0:08:17I did a terrible thing when I had you investigated.

0:08:17 > 0:08:19It was an unforgivable thing.

0:08:19 > 0:08:21It doesn't matter.

0:08:21 > 0:08:23- Of course it does! - OK, so I forgive you.

0:08:25 > 0:08:26- Really? - You want it in writing?!

0:08:26 > 0:08:29Matteo, this is what I'm talking about.

0:08:29 > 0:08:32You're the one that said we were broken, that you don't love me.

0:08:32 > 0:08:34What's changed?

0:08:34 > 0:08:36KNOCK AT DOOR

0:08:36 > 0:08:38Hey, sorry to interrupt.

0:08:38 > 0:08:41I was just wondering if I could get a second opinion on the epigastric pain, in bay two?

0:08:43 > 0:08:47- There's no rush or anything, though.- Now is good.

0:08:47 > 0:08:48OK.

0:08:51 > 0:08:52Got it. Standing by.

0:08:54 > 0:08:55So I used to use a nanny agency.

0:08:55 > 0:08:58It was a bit pricey but good for short term, short notice.

0:08:58 > 0:09:02I didn't ask for your help. I don't need your help, can you see where I'm going with this?

0:09:02 > 0:09:05- "Thanks but no thanks"? - PHONE RINGS

0:09:05 > 0:09:07Hello...?

0:09:07 > 0:09:08Could you...

0:09:09 > 0:09:13No, I understand that she's upset.

0:09:14 > 0:09:16Can you just tell her that Mummy is very sorry

0:09:16 > 0:09:18but she can't come down just now. Thank you.

0:09:18 > 0:09:21I see I'm down for the left ventricular aneurysm this afternoon.

0:09:21 > 0:09:24- And?- Well, normally you'd keep that kind of thing for yourself.

0:09:24 > 0:09:26What I mean is, thank you for the opportunity which

0:09:26 > 0:09:30I accept with gratitude and humility.

0:09:30 > 0:09:32OK, we've got Grace Imari, 33.

0:09:32 > 0:09:34- 32. My bag, it has my laptop... - Got it.

0:09:34 > 0:09:36She collapsed with a cardiac arrest.

0:09:36 > 0:09:39Paramedics resuscitated and we put her on ECMO as soon as she came in.

0:09:39 > 0:09:42OK, let's keep her on oxygen. We'll have antibiotics and heparin, please.

0:09:42 > 0:09:44Sorry, who are you?

0:09:44 > 0:09:46Jac Naylor, consultant cardiothoracic surgeon.

0:09:46 > 0:09:48Are you the boss?

0:09:48 > 0:09:50- Yes.- Excellent. Carry on.

0:09:51 > 0:09:55Let's have some bloods, ECG and a chest CT, please, Rochelle.

0:09:55 > 0:09:58- We can manage from here. - I'm afraid you're stuck with me while Ms Imari is on ECMO.

0:09:58 > 0:10:00Well, lucky old us.

0:10:02 > 0:10:04We can make this work.

0:10:04 > 0:10:06We have to.

0:10:06 > 0:10:07You never stop, do you?

0:10:07 > 0:10:10To think, to consider, you just...

0:10:10 > 0:10:13Work out the best course of action and go for it?

0:10:13 > 0:10:16You can't tell me you don't want us to be together.

0:10:16 > 0:10:18It's not about what I want, or what you want.

0:10:18 > 0:10:19Not any more, Matteo.

0:10:19 > 0:10:21Even if we...

0:10:21 > 0:10:23It wouldn't work.

0:10:23 > 0:10:25So what is it? Your plan?

0:10:26 > 0:10:29Nothing is finalised, but I thought I'd move to Amsterdam...

0:10:29 > 0:10:31What?

0:10:31 > 0:10:34To be with my sister and her children.

0:10:34 > 0:10:36No. You can't do this.

0:10:37 > 0:10:38This baby needs a family.

0:10:38 > 0:10:41I need a family.

0:10:41 > 0:10:44I wish it could be with you, but it can't. I'm sorry.

0:10:49 > 0:10:52So what you're saying to me is that dogs are better than people?

0:10:52 > 0:10:54It's a cliche, but it's true.

0:10:54 > 0:10:56Loving, loyal, full of fun...

0:10:56 > 0:10:59Who wouldn't want that in their life?

0:10:59 > 0:11:01Are you all right there, love?

0:11:01 > 0:11:03Mmm-hm.

0:11:03 > 0:11:07I did always want a dog growing up, but I wasn't allowed one.

0:11:07 > 0:11:10Well, nobody can stop you now you're a grown-up, independent woman!

0:11:10 > 0:11:13- Yeah, I know, but... - Hang on...

0:11:14 > 0:11:16How about Henry?

0:11:16 > 0:11:18Yeah, cute.

0:11:18 > 0:11:20Such a sweet temperament.

0:11:20 > 0:11:22I would but it's just with the hours I work and stuff.

0:11:24 > 0:11:26Anyway, I don't see any signs of a fracture.

0:11:26 > 0:11:29- Told you. - But I want to make absolutely sure.

0:11:29 > 0:11:32- So could we order bloods and a head CT, please?- OK.

0:11:35 > 0:11:38Yeah, I think she's more of a cat person.

0:11:38 > 0:11:39Dearie me.

0:11:44 > 0:11:46Problem?

0:11:46 > 0:11:47Mr Valentine.

0:11:47 > 0:11:49A pulmonary thrombectomy with your name on it.

0:11:49 > 0:11:53Delightful. Small issue, however, my dance card is full to overflowing.

0:11:53 > 0:11:54Sorry.

0:11:59 > 0:12:01It's not good news, is it?

0:12:01 > 0:12:03The scan.

0:12:03 > 0:12:06You have what's called an aortic dissection.

0:12:06 > 0:12:08And, yes, I'm afraid it is quite serious.

0:12:10 > 0:12:12I'm so stupid.

0:12:12 > 0:12:14I don't have any life insurance.

0:12:14 > 0:12:15Well, not everybody does.

0:12:15 > 0:12:18But I've got responsibilities now, don't I?

0:12:18 > 0:12:19Leanne and the baby.

0:12:21 > 0:12:23I was meant to sort it out. Idiot! Idiot!

0:12:23 > 0:12:25Hey!

0:12:25 > 0:12:27Take it easy.

0:12:28 > 0:12:32I was warned that I might have a problem.

0:12:32 > 0:12:33By your doctor?

0:12:33 > 0:12:35My dad.

0:12:35 > 0:12:37You said there was no family history.

0:12:37 > 0:12:39He's not really family. Never been around.

0:12:39 > 0:12:41But he got in touch, a few years ago,

0:12:41 > 0:12:44out of the blue, saying something about...

0:12:46 > 0:12:48..er...

0:12:48 > 0:12:50..art...

0:12:50 > 0:12:51Arterio...

0:12:51 > 0:12:53Arteriosclerosis?

0:12:53 > 0:12:55I think so.

0:12:55 > 0:12:57He had it and said I was at risk, or whatever.

0:12:57 > 0:12:59- Could that be what's caused this? - It's possible.

0:12:59 > 0:13:02You're very young to be arteriosclerotic.

0:13:04 > 0:13:06My mum always said I was nothing like him,

0:13:06 > 0:13:08so I told myself I couldn't have it.

0:13:09 > 0:13:13I didn't want to hear it, didn't want to know.

0:13:13 > 0:13:15And maybe you didn't want to accept his help.

0:13:15 > 0:13:17- Yeah.- Hmm.

0:13:17 > 0:13:18Maybe.

0:13:20 > 0:13:22So I need an operation?

0:13:22 > 0:13:23You do.

0:13:23 > 0:13:25As soon as possible.

0:13:28 > 0:13:29Hey.

0:13:29 > 0:13:32This is serious, but it is treatable.

0:13:32 > 0:13:33Do you understand?

0:13:39 > 0:13:41It's called the Tommy Travis Rescue Centre.

0:13:41 > 0:13:43Named after my late husband...

0:13:43 > 0:13:46Tommy. "Finding forever homes for lost canine souls",

0:13:46 > 0:13:49that's our motto, or mission statement, call it what you like.

0:13:49 > 0:13:52I'm just going to take your temperature.

0:13:52 > 0:13:54Oh, this is Belle. So pretty.

0:13:55 > 0:13:57Pretty something.

0:13:57 > 0:13:59Sorry.

0:13:59 > 0:14:00I know who'd be more your type.

0:14:02 > 0:14:04Tinka.

0:14:04 > 0:14:05Now she is pretty.

0:14:05 > 0:14:08And clever, but see, it's like she knows it.

0:14:08 > 0:14:11Prefect complex I call it.

0:14:11 > 0:14:12You fell getting off the bus, you say?

0:14:12 > 0:14:15I did, lost my footing, I suppose,

0:14:15 > 0:14:17- then...splat. - Has it happened before?

0:14:17 > 0:14:21- Never.- Have you been unwell recently, any dizzy spells, or anything?

0:14:21 > 0:14:22No, I've been right as rain.

0:14:22 > 0:14:24Temperature's 38.2.

0:14:24 > 0:14:27You know what, I should be getting back.

0:14:27 > 0:14:29No, we need to do your scans first.

0:14:29 > 0:14:31- Oooft!- Are you all right? - I need to...

0:14:31 > 0:14:32..toilet.

0:14:32 > 0:14:34Kat, could you just grab the wheelchair for me?

0:14:34 > 0:14:37Thank you so much. We'll be quicker on wheels. Come on.

0:14:37 > 0:14:40Thank you. Are you all right?

0:14:40 > 0:14:42I can't hold it much longer.

0:14:42 > 0:14:43Lovely...

0:14:43 > 0:14:46Thank you, Kat.

0:14:46 > 0:14:48Mate, are you all right?

0:14:48 > 0:14:50Yeah, I'm fine.

0:14:52 > 0:14:53Autosomal dominant.

0:14:55 > 0:14:57From his father.

0:14:57 > 0:14:58KNOCK AT DOOR

0:14:58 > 0:14:59Yes?

0:14:59 > 0:15:01Hi, sorry, it's me again.

0:15:01 > 0:15:04I just wanted to make that sure you really want me

0:15:04 > 0:15:06checking predischarge medication reviews?

0:15:06 > 0:15:09Yes, why wouldn't I?

0:15:09 > 0:15:10Well, I just thought that...

0:15:10 > 0:15:12Because you won the award you're on some kind of...

0:15:12 > 0:15:14tedium-free career fast-track?

0:15:14 > 0:15:16No, not exactly.

0:15:16 > 0:15:19If you want to move forward, and I'm sure that you do,

0:15:19 > 0:15:21you have to prove yourself, day after day, believe me.

0:15:26 > 0:15:28Is this to do with the merger?

0:15:28 > 0:15:30I'm sorry?

0:15:30 > 0:15:32Well, are there going to be redundancies?

0:15:32 > 0:15:34Am I going to have to re-apply for my job?

0:15:34 > 0:15:38I appreciate that the merger has caused some...uncertainty.

0:15:38 > 0:15:41Uncertainty, insecurity, anxiety.

0:15:41 > 0:15:42- Paranoia?- I have no information

0:15:42 > 0:15:46that I am permitted to share with you at this time.

0:15:46 > 0:15:49So you can't rule out redundancies?

0:15:49 > 0:15:52It means that I have no information that I am permitted to share.

0:15:53 > 0:15:55So you're not ruling it out.

0:15:55 > 0:15:57Is that why Fredrik left in such a hurry?

0:15:59 > 0:16:01Right. Thank you.

0:16:05 > 0:16:08You know, you were right.

0:16:08 > 0:16:12I was getting carried away, rushing ahead.

0:16:12 > 0:16:14But maybe you were too.

0:16:15 > 0:16:17I have tried to give this a lot of thought.

0:16:17 > 0:16:19You're worried we can't function as a couple.

0:16:19 > 0:16:21Well, that's one part of it.

0:16:21 > 0:16:26So maybe we could find another way to raise this child, here.

0:16:26 > 0:16:28Separate, but working together.

0:16:29 > 0:16:32Like...co-parenting?

0:16:32 > 0:16:33Please, Nina.

0:16:33 > 0:16:36I don't want to start talking about this in terms of my rights,

0:16:36 > 0:16:39but I am this child's father and I want to be involved.

0:16:41 > 0:16:44Have you talked to Scott about this operation?

0:16:45 > 0:16:46I thought we should do it together.

0:16:46 > 0:16:48Good. Then let's get on with it then.

0:16:53 > 0:16:56My heart stopped beating, completely?

0:16:56 > 0:16:58- Correct. - You're lucky to be alive.

0:16:58 > 0:17:01And this happened because I have a clot?

0:17:01 > 0:17:03Because the clot is close to your pulmonary artery.

0:17:03 > 0:17:05Which takes blood to the lungs?

0:17:05 > 0:17:06That's right.

0:17:06 > 0:17:09So how am I still alive?

0:17:09 > 0:17:10Paramedics on motorbikes and...

0:17:10 > 0:17:14This ECMO machine. Extracorporeal membrane oxygenation.

0:17:14 > 0:17:17- It basically gives your heart and lungs a wee rest.- I see.

0:17:17 > 0:17:19So we need to get rid of this clot.

0:17:19 > 0:17:21Options?

0:17:21 > 0:17:24Surgery, to remove it. A pulmonary thrombectomy.

0:17:24 > 0:17:25Timescale?

0:17:25 > 0:17:27As soon as possible.

0:17:27 > 0:17:28Option two?

0:17:31 > 0:17:33If this machine is resting my heart and lungs,

0:17:33 > 0:17:36then surely I can just stay on it a bit longer.

0:17:37 > 0:17:40I think what Ms Naylor is concerned about...

0:17:40 > 0:17:42Perhaps we could keep you on ECMO.

0:17:42 > 0:17:45If we continue to with the anticoagulants,

0:17:45 > 0:17:48blood thinners, and wait for the clot to dissolve.

0:17:48 > 0:17:50And I'd still be conscious?

0:17:50 > 0:17:51Yes.

0:17:51 > 0:17:53Then that's the option I choose.

0:17:53 > 0:17:55Thanks very much.

0:17:58 > 0:18:01If that clot moves before it starts to reduce...

0:18:01 > 0:18:03She made an informed choice.

0:18:03 > 0:18:05Yes, but if you explained to her that she...

0:18:05 > 0:18:08Your job here today is to babysit a machine.

0:18:08 > 0:18:10Beyond that, seen and not heard.

0:18:14 > 0:18:17Jac Naylor, not pushing the surgical option?

0:18:17 > 0:18:18It's not like her at all.

0:18:20 > 0:18:23The aorta is the biggest blood vessel in your body.

0:18:23 > 0:18:26It's what takes the blood from your heart to where it needs to go.

0:18:26 > 0:18:30The weakness here, it could cause the aortic wall to split

0:18:30 > 0:18:32and the worry is it could rupture.

0:18:35 > 0:18:37Right.

0:18:37 > 0:18:38Sorry, it's just...

0:18:38 > 0:18:40It's OK, I understand.

0:18:41 > 0:18:43If I'd listened to my dad.

0:18:43 > 0:18:45If I'd had it checked sooner...

0:18:45 > 0:18:47Let's not worry about that just now.

0:18:47 > 0:18:49And what about the baby?

0:18:49 > 0:18:51It could be passed on.

0:18:51 > 0:18:53Unlikely, but still possible.

0:18:53 > 0:18:56But simply knowing it could be an issue means that it could be closely monitored.

0:18:56 > 0:18:58And he won't end up like me?

0:19:00 > 0:19:02Well, that's something, at least.

0:19:02 > 0:19:04So you're having a boy?

0:19:04 > 0:19:06Yeah.

0:19:07 > 0:19:09How could I be so stupid?

0:19:11 > 0:19:13How could I do this to Leanne?

0:19:13 > 0:19:15- Idiot! Idiot! - Hey, hey, hey.

0:19:16 > 0:19:20So you made a bad decision and if you hadn't come in today, you could have died.

0:19:20 > 0:19:22But you're here now.

0:19:22 > 0:19:24Call it luck, or fate, or whatever you want,

0:19:24 > 0:19:26but you have another chance.

0:19:27 > 0:19:29You need to give yourself a break.

0:19:29 > 0:19:31Looking forwards, not backwards.

0:19:32 > 0:19:35You're in very good hands, Scott.

0:19:35 > 0:19:37I'll be operating on the aorta itself,

0:19:37 > 0:19:40putting what's called a graft on the weak part to strengthen it.

0:19:40 > 0:19:42It's like a piece of flexible tubing.

0:19:42 > 0:19:45Meanwhile, I'll be joining it in the abdomen.

0:19:45 > 0:19:47I don't want Leanne to know, for now,

0:19:47 > 0:19:50I don't want her worrying with the baby and everything.

0:19:50 > 0:19:53- Is that all right?- If that's what you want, that's fine.

0:19:56 > 0:19:58You two make a good team, you know that?

0:19:59 > 0:20:01I quite agree.

0:20:01 > 0:20:03We have our moments.

0:20:03 > 0:20:05Looks like Matteo's out for the rest of the day

0:20:05 > 0:20:07so somebody needs to take care of his bronchoscopy.

0:20:07 > 0:20:09Any chance that somebody might be...

0:20:09 > 0:20:12- No.- No, it's just that, looking at who's doing what

0:20:12 > 0:20:13it doesn't seem like you're down for...

0:20:13 > 0:20:16- Are you suggesting I'm not pulling my weight?- Of course not.

0:20:16 > 0:20:19I have meetings to attend, presentations to prepare,

0:20:19 > 0:20:22and still I have to find time for needy registrars

0:20:22 > 0:20:24- wittering on about their workload! - I wasn't wittering.

0:20:24 > 0:20:27I'm sure they'd take you back downstairs if you can't hack up here.

0:20:27 > 0:20:29Thank you.

0:20:29 > 0:20:31She's on fine form today.

0:20:31 > 0:20:32She's got a lot on her plate.

0:20:32 > 0:20:36A large helping of anger with a side order of completely unreasonable.

0:20:38 > 0:20:40- I'm going in. - Yeah, right.

0:20:40 > 0:20:41What's the worst that can happen?

0:20:41 > 0:20:44Aggravated assault? GBH? Torture?

0:20:48 > 0:20:50What do you want?

0:20:52 > 0:20:55I was just remembering Evie when she was Emma's age,

0:20:55 > 0:20:57whenever I had to leave her somewhere she didn't want to be,

0:20:57 > 0:21:00she was a nightmare to begin with.

0:21:00 > 0:21:02She wouldn't play, she wouldn't even talk.

0:21:04 > 0:21:07Seeing your kid upset

0:21:07 > 0:21:09and having to walk away from them.

0:21:09 > 0:21:11It's the worst feeling in the world.

0:21:11 > 0:21:13I've been there.

0:21:14 > 0:21:16So if you ever want to...

0:21:16 > 0:21:21I don't know, sound off, whinge, howl at the moon,

0:21:21 > 0:21:23drown your sorrows then...

0:21:28 > 0:21:30You couldn't throw it away, either?

0:21:32 > 0:21:35I have a lot to get through here, so if you don't mind...

0:21:36 > 0:21:38OK.

0:21:38 > 0:21:40I'll leave you to it.

0:21:48 > 0:21:49I was thinking,

0:21:49 > 0:21:53maybe we could buy two flats close together.

0:21:53 > 0:21:55Oh, Matteo...

0:21:55 > 0:21:58And work something out here, coordinate our schedules

0:21:58 > 0:22:00so we don't need so much childcare.

0:22:00 > 0:22:02It's not the practicalities I'm worried about.

0:22:02 > 0:22:04Then what?

0:22:04 > 0:22:07You heard what Scott said, we make a good team.

0:22:07 > 0:22:09He only just met us.

0:22:09 > 0:22:12OK, so we just need to be organised

0:22:12 > 0:22:15and establish clear boundaries.

0:22:18 > 0:22:21- I suppose...- Yes?

0:22:22 > 0:22:24You do have a right to be involved.

0:22:25 > 0:22:27Maybe...

0:22:28 > 0:22:32Maybe it's not such a crazy idea, co-parenting.

0:22:32 > 0:22:33It's a great idea.

0:22:33 > 0:22:35I only said I'll think about it.

0:22:35 > 0:22:37That's good enough for me.

0:22:37 > 0:22:40That's two emergency toilet trips now.

0:22:40 > 0:22:42Has this been going on a while?

0:22:42 > 0:22:44No, just since this morning - last night.

0:22:44 > 0:22:46I had leftover prawn biryani for my dinner.

0:22:46 > 0:22:48Maybe not the best idea.

0:22:48 > 0:22:53This is one of our new arrivals, I can't think of a good name for him.

0:22:53 > 0:22:57Smart as a whip, but hard to read - mysterious.

0:22:57 > 0:22:58Sounds like Mr Hanssen.

0:22:58 > 0:23:01Mr Hanssen, I like it.

0:23:01 > 0:23:03- That's what I'm going to call him. - Really?

0:23:03 > 0:23:06What about this one?

0:23:06 > 0:23:09Very determined, bossy, not the friendliest.

0:23:09 > 0:23:11Jac?

0:23:11 > 0:23:13I'm not sure...

0:23:13 > 0:23:17OK, the good news is your head CT shows no sign of a fracture.

0:23:17 > 0:23:20I'll just fix you up with some steri-strips.

0:23:20 > 0:23:22- And then I can go? - However, your white cell count

0:23:22 > 0:23:25is quite high, as is your temperature.

0:23:25 > 0:23:27It does indicate an infection.

0:23:27 > 0:23:30Do you mind if I took a feel of your neck?

0:23:30 > 0:23:31Be my guest.

0:23:33 > 0:23:35Yeah, your lymph nodes are quite swollen.

0:23:35 > 0:23:37Like I said, I feel...

0:23:37 > 0:23:40- Right as rain? - Exactly.

0:23:40 > 0:23:43Let's get you on antibiotics, see how you get on with them.

0:23:43 > 0:23:47Let's get 1.2 grams co-amoxiclav IV please.

0:23:47 > 0:23:51If you just keep nice and still while I fix you up.

0:23:51 > 0:23:55So this charity, rescue centre of yours, do you run it from home?

0:23:55 > 0:23:57Wouldn't have it any other way.

0:23:57 > 0:23:59How many staff have you got?

0:23:59 > 0:24:00Oh, half a dozen or so.

0:24:02 > 0:24:04You know, a friend of mine might be looking for a dog,

0:24:04 > 0:24:06what's the website?

0:24:06 > 0:24:09It's, um... It's not actually working at the moment.

0:24:10 > 0:24:12Right.

0:24:12 > 0:24:14PHONE RINGS

0:24:16 > 0:24:18I'm going to have to get this.

0:24:18 > 0:24:20Sorry.

0:24:32 > 0:24:33Such a pity.

0:24:34 > 0:24:36Tape, please.

0:24:37 > 0:24:39Francesca.

0:24:39 > 0:24:40Who?

0:24:40 > 0:24:42Just a name I've always liked.

0:24:43 > 0:24:46Intestinal and iliac arteries both taped.

0:24:46 > 0:24:48Roberta is good.

0:24:48 > 0:24:50And Simona, or Isabella.

0:24:52 > 0:24:5330ml graft.

0:24:55 > 0:24:56I need a clamp.

0:24:58 > 0:25:00Anything wrong??

0:25:00 > 0:25:02The dissection...

0:25:02 > 0:25:06..it's extensive, almost down to the iliac artery.

0:25:06 > 0:25:07Salvageable?

0:25:07 > 0:25:10Hard to say. I'll stitch it along with the graft.

0:25:14 > 0:25:15Hi.

0:25:16 > 0:25:19Thanks for coming. I appreciate it.

0:25:19 > 0:25:21Of course.

0:25:24 > 0:25:26So, how long have you actually known Ric Griffin?

0:25:28 > 0:25:29Oh, er...

0:25:29 > 0:25:32Must be about 13 years now.

0:25:32 > 0:25:34Is this what you wanted to talk about?

0:25:34 > 0:25:36I'm just interested.

0:25:36 > 0:25:37Is he married?

0:25:37 > 0:25:38Not at the moment.

0:25:38 > 0:25:40Divorced? Kids?

0:25:40 > 0:25:42What is this?

0:25:42 > 0:25:44- Well, we're just talking. - You're writing it down.

0:25:44 > 0:25:46He still won't explain where he was for three hours.

0:25:46 > 0:25:48It must have been something bad, right?

0:25:48 > 0:25:51Why are you asking me about his personal life?

0:25:51 > 0:25:53Well, we need to show him for what he really is.

0:25:53 > 0:25:55You know, I keep thinking if somehow he gets away with this,

0:25:55 > 0:25:57what about the next patient that dies cos of his negligence?

0:25:57 > 0:25:59He is a good doctor. He's the best.

0:26:01 > 0:26:05If it wasn't for him, I'd still be able to pick up the phone

0:26:05 > 0:26:06and speak to her.

0:26:06 > 0:26:10To pop round and visit her, to help in her garden.

0:26:11 > 0:26:14- So you want me to...? - I know you're close to him,

0:26:14 > 0:26:16but you mustn't let that cloud your judgment,

0:26:16 > 0:26:19to stop you doing what's right.

0:26:19 > 0:26:21Donna, I need your help.

0:26:21 > 0:26:23Donna!

0:26:23 > 0:26:24- I need to get back.- But...

0:26:26 > 0:26:28HE SIGHS

0:26:28 > 0:26:30CLASSICAL MUSIC PLAYING

0:26:34 > 0:26:35Almost there.

0:26:36 > 0:26:38A bleed. Suction, quickly!

0:26:41 > 0:26:44- I can't find it. - BP's dropping.- I can't find it!

0:26:44 > 0:26:46Come on, how can I see if you can't perform a simple task?

0:26:46 > 0:26:47Turn the music off.

0:26:47 > 0:26:49There it is. On the suture line.

0:26:49 > 0:26:50Can you reinforce the stitch?

0:26:50 > 0:26:51Buttress suture, now.

0:26:52 > 0:26:54Come on.

0:27:00 > 0:27:02Got it.

0:27:02 > 0:27:05OK. Let's get these arteries onto the grafts.

0:27:06 > 0:27:07Thank you.

0:27:15 > 0:27:18Any danger of seeing the latest infection control report by...?

0:27:18 > 0:27:21The end of the sentence?

0:27:21 > 0:27:22Gold star.

0:27:23 > 0:27:26BEEPING

0:27:30 > 0:27:32- Grace?- What happened?

0:27:32 > 0:27:34- You lost output.- Meaning?

0:27:34 > 0:27:36Meaning surgery.

0:27:36 > 0:27:37Sorry.

0:27:37 > 0:27:40Given your worsening condition, we do need to operate.

0:27:40 > 0:27:41Here's the thing -

0:27:41 > 0:27:44I do want the operation, now's just not a good time.

0:27:44 > 0:27:45Why not?

0:27:45 > 0:27:47Commitments.

0:27:47 > 0:27:51Ms Imari, if the clot moves into the other branches of your arteries,

0:27:51 > 0:27:54it would be significantly more difficult and dangerous to remove.

0:27:54 > 0:27:56I don't mean to be difficult, Ms Naylor, really,

0:27:56 > 0:28:00but you do need my consent for an operation, correct?

0:28:02 > 0:28:05If you don't have this operation, you could have a stroke or die.

0:28:05 > 0:28:06But you do need my consent?

0:28:07 > 0:28:09Yes.

0:28:09 > 0:28:12So there's no need for any unpleasant argument,

0:28:12 > 0:28:13because I'm not going to give it.

0:28:15 > 0:28:17Yet.

0:28:17 > 0:28:19- Fine.- Thank you.

0:28:29 > 0:28:30Hi.

0:28:31 > 0:28:33All done?

0:28:33 > 0:28:34Well, that is the question.

0:28:35 > 0:28:38No, I've still got some more meetings upstairs.

0:28:38 > 0:28:40In fact...I'd better get a move on.

0:28:40 > 0:28:42There you are!

0:28:42 > 0:28:43It's good to see you.

0:28:44 > 0:28:47It's good to see you too, Sacha.

0:28:47 > 0:28:49- I've got to get back upstairs. - OK, I'll be quick.

0:28:51 > 0:28:55Donna mentioned to me that you're not very happy with your lawyer.

0:28:55 > 0:29:00- So I've made some calls and I've found a better one.- Really?

0:29:00 > 0:29:03Yeah, he's a guy called Liam Drinkwater.

0:29:03 > 0:29:05He's like the Rolls-Royce of defence barristers

0:29:05 > 0:29:07when it comes to medical negligence.

0:29:07 > 0:29:09Now, I've had a conversation with him

0:29:09 > 0:29:13and he has agreed to cap his fee at a not unreasonable level.

0:29:14 > 0:29:15I see.

0:29:15 > 0:29:17Well, obviously it's your call,

0:29:17 > 0:29:20but if you want I can give you his details,

0:29:20 > 0:29:23you can have a chat and see how you feel.

0:29:24 > 0:29:26Thank you, Sacha. You...

0:29:26 > 0:29:27You didn't have to do that.

0:29:27 > 0:29:29I wanted to.

0:29:30 > 0:29:33I mean, we all want to help, in whatever way we can, don't we?

0:29:33 > 0:29:34Yeah, totally.

0:29:37 > 0:29:38I appreciate it.

0:29:39 > 0:29:40I really do.

0:29:47 > 0:29:50Does it bother you that we still don't really know what happened,

0:29:50 > 0:29:52that he won't tell us?

0:29:53 > 0:29:55He's my friend

0:29:55 > 0:29:56and he's my colleague.

0:29:57 > 0:30:00I think that's all that matters, isn't it?

0:30:02 > 0:30:04Erm... Have you got a second?

0:30:04 > 0:30:08Just say what you have to say so we can all get on with our lives.

0:30:08 > 0:30:13OK, er... So, everyone has difficult days.

0:30:13 > 0:30:16You know, days when maybe your confidence

0:30:16 > 0:30:17isn't what it usually is...

0:30:17 > 0:30:19You're having a difficult day?

0:30:19 > 0:30:21No. What I'm trying to say is...

0:30:23 > 0:30:26..we all have days where we find ourselves...

0:30:26 > 0:30:28Yes?

0:30:28 > 0:30:30Backing off.

0:30:30 > 0:30:34- Backing off?- Yeah, look, it's just...with Grace... I don't know,

0:30:34 > 0:30:38just a bit surprised that you didn't push for surgery a bit harder.

0:30:38 > 0:30:41I'm not entirely sure what you're trying to imply here,

0:30:41 > 0:30:45but I am absolutely certain you have no idea what you're talking about.

0:30:45 > 0:30:46Wouldn't be the first time.

0:30:46 > 0:30:47Mm.

0:30:50 > 0:30:51Good chat.

0:30:53 > 0:30:54Hi.

0:30:56 > 0:30:58I'm still here then?

0:30:58 > 0:31:00The aortic repair was a success.

0:31:00 > 0:31:02- Result.- A good result.

0:31:02 > 0:31:05The dissection turned out to be more extensive

0:31:05 > 0:31:08than it appeared in the scan, but if we keep a close eye on it

0:31:08 > 0:31:11and work hard to control your blood pressure,

0:31:11 > 0:31:13I'm feeling very positive and so should you.

0:31:16 > 0:31:18Leanne?

0:31:18 > 0:31:21- We'll let her know. - Thank you...so much.

0:31:21 > 0:31:23Our pleasure.

0:31:23 > 0:31:25It's time to rest now.

0:31:26 > 0:31:28We'll check in on you later.

0:31:28 > 0:31:29Another chance...

0:31:31 > 0:31:33Another chance.

0:31:34 > 0:31:35Excuse me.

0:31:43 > 0:31:45It's today.

0:31:45 > 0:31:48My scan, the ultrasound.

0:31:48 > 0:31:49Right.

0:31:49 > 0:31:51Do you want to be there?

0:31:51 > 0:31:53Yes, of course, absolutely.

0:31:56 > 0:31:57Ms Naylor.

0:31:59 > 0:32:02The risk of delaying this operation is unacceptable.

0:32:02 > 0:32:03To you, not to me.

0:32:03 > 0:32:06Two years ago, I was in a car accident.

0:32:06 > 0:32:10Nothing too serious, but I was out of action for a few hours.

0:32:10 > 0:32:12During that time, one of my clients needed me,

0:32:12 > 0:32:14I wasn't available and it didn't end well.

0:32:14 > 0:32:15Clients?

0:32:15 > 0:32:17I'm a solicitor and today's a big day.

0:32:17 > 0:32:20Surely someone else can step in for you?

0:32:20 > 0:32:23Is that what you do when things get difficult?

0:32:23 > 0:32:25You fob things off on your colleagues?

0:32:25 > 0:32:28At this stage, it wouldn't be fair to ask someone else,

0:32:28 > 0:32:29least of all on my client.

0:32:30 > 0:32:32I know the risks I'm taking,

0:32:32 > 0:32:36and as soon as this case is out of the way, I'm all yours.

0:32:36 > 0:32:39OK, so I'm going to assume you're really very good at your job.

0:32:39 > 0:32:40I get good results.

0:32:40 > 0:32:43Well, those good results are going to come to an abrupt end

0:32:43 > 0:32:44if you suddenly die.

0:32:45 > 0:32:48Delegate. It's not just your client today,

0:32:48 > 0:32:51it's every other client you might not be around for in the future.

0:32:53 > 0:32:55And would you do the operation yourself?

0:32:57 > 0:33:00- That depends whether...- I want you, not one of your colleagues.

0:33:02 > 0:33:04Get me in and out as quickly as you can.

0:33:32 > 0:33:37You, young lady, don't know what you want for dinner tonight.

0:33:37 > 0:33:41Er... You don't know where you left your phone?

0:33:41 > 0:33:44OK, it's that you've heard the rumours about the redundancies

0:33:44 > 0:33:46and you're a bit worried about it?

0:33:46 > 0:33:49It's good job you're a better doctor than you are a mind-reader, mate.

0:33:49 > 0:33:50That's all I'm saying.

0:33:50 > 0:33:52Or I'd be struck off?

0:33:52 > 0:33:54Yeah.

0:33:54 > 0:33:56Ah. I'm so sorry.

0:34:01 > 0:34:03Do you mind if I have a look at that?

0:34:03 > 0:34:04It's nothing.

0:34:04 > 0:34:08Belinda, it is obviously bothering you. Please.

0:34:10 > 0:34:13Hmm... That looks like ringworm to me.

0:34:13 > 0:34:15Can't be. I worm my dogs regularly.

0:34:15 > 0:34:18Ringworm isn't actually caused by a worm. It's a fungal infection.

0:34:18 > 0:34:21But you can catch it from contact with animals.

0:34:21 > 0:34:23When you live with dogs, you can't keep them at arm's length.

0:34:23 > 0:34:25They need love, lots of it.

0:34:25 > 0:34:27Mm-hm. Well, you'll have to let your staff know.

0:34:27 > 0:34:28Ringworm can spread.

0:34:31 > 0:34:33You don't have any staff, do you?

0:34:33 > 0:34:37Belinda, how many dogs are living in your house?

0:34:38 > 0:34:39Ten.

0:34:42 > 0:34:4315 last count.

0:34:43 > 0:34:45You must be tripping over them.

0:34:47 > 0:34:49Is that how you fell?

0:34:49 > 0:34:51It's cosy, at home, but we're right next to fields.

0:34:51 > 0:34:53I don't want you thinking I'm one of those animal hoarders.

0:34:53 > 0:34:55Every one of my dogs has a good life.

0:34:55 > 0:34:57You should see my vet bills.

0:34:57 > 0:34:58What about your life?

0:34:58 > 0:35:00I manage...

0:35:00 > 0:35:01..mostly.

0:35:12 > 0:35:13Mr Rossini?

0:35:14 > 0:35:16You're supposed to be resting.

0:35:16 > 0:35:18Can I ask you something?

0:35:18 > 0:35:21- Of course.- Do you have any kids?

0:35:23 > 0:35:24Yes.

0:35:25 > 0:35:28Is it as bad as they say, childbirth?

0:35:28 > 0:35:30Like, watching it all happen?

0:35:31 > 0:35:33- You're scared.- A bit.

0:35:35 > 0:35:36Actually, a lot.

0:35:39 > 0:35:42But coming so close to missing out on everything,

0:35:42 > 0:35:44getting another chance...

0:35:45 > 0:35:48I want to do it right, you know?

0:35:48 > 0:35:49The whole thing.

0:35:49 > 0:35:51Really be there from the start.

0:35:53 > 0:35:55Good for you.

0:35:55 > 0:35:56But it is scary, isn't it?

0:35:56 > 0:35:58The actual...

0:35:58 > 0:35:59You know...

0:36:01 > 0:36:03Every birth is different,

0:36:03 > 0:36:05but you need to put all the bad images out of your mind

0:36:05 > 0:36:08and only focus on the good ones.

0:36:08 > 0:36:09Like?

0:36:12 > 0:36:14Like when it's all over.

0:36:14 > 0:36:16The three of you together.

0:36:16 > 0:36:19Taking your baby home for the first time, showing them around.

0:36:22 > 0:36:23I hope he likes our flat.

0:36:25 > 0:36:26I'm sure he will.

0:36:27 > 0:36:30You're at the start of a great adventure.

0:36:30 > 0:36:32It won't always be easy,

0:36:32 > 0:36:34but it will always be worth it.

0:36:54 > 0:36:55- KNOCK AT DOOR - Just a second.

0:36:57 > 0:37:00What's wrong?

0:37:00 > 0:37:01Nothing.

0:37:01 > 0:37:03- Then why are you...? - I was trying to be sensible.

0:37:03 > 0:37:06I was. But Nina...

0:37:06 > 0:37:08..I love you.

0:37:10 > 0:37:12I just wanted you to know.

0:37:14 > 0:37:16But everything we...talked about.

0:37:16 > 0:37:19How you'd said you'd handle it.

0:37:19 > 0:37:22I know. I'm sorry, but I can't pretend.

0:37:22 > 0:37:25I want to do this properly...

0:37:25 > 0:37:26..together.

0:37:28 > 0:37:31- Matteo...- I don't believe in signs, Nina.

0:37:31 > 0:37:33Or that anything is ever "meant to be."

0:37:35 > 0:37:37But I believe in us, with all my heart.

0:37:39 > 0:37:41I never stopped loving you.

0:37:44 > 0:37:46- RAPID BEEPING - Scott.

0:37:51 > 0:37:54OK, preparing to open the pulmonary artery.

0:37:58 > 0:38:01Jac, I've got the creche on the phone.

0:38:01 > 0:38:04- Do you want me to put them through? - Is she hurt?

0:38:04 > 0:38:07No, just very upset, they said. "Needs her mum."

0:38:09 > 0:38:11Then I'll call them back.

0:38:11 > 0:38:12OK.

0:38:15 > 0:38:18There's still too much blood here. I can't see what I'm doing.

0:38:18 > 0:38:19Suction, please.

0:38:19 > 0:38:21What's her platelet count?

0:38:23 > 0:38:24It is low, it's almost 80.

0:38:24 > 0:38:26We've got one bag here and two on the way, yeah?

0:38:26 > 0:38:27Increasing flow to 2.5 litres.

0:38:53 > 0:38:55I can see a large clot.

0:38:55 > 0:38:56Forceps, please.

0:39:02 > 0:39:03It's in one piece.

0:39:07 > 0:39:10The artery looks... Looks good.

0:39:10 > 0:39:115/0 prolene, please.

0:39:18 > 0:39:22You could get somebody else to close if you needed to go and see Emma.

0:39:26 > 0:39:28That'd... That'd be good, yeah.

0:39:45 > 0:39:48- Temperature?- 18 degrees.

0:39:48 > 0:39:51Keep the ice around the head. We need to keep him cold.

0:39:51 > 0:39:52Suction.

0:39:56 > 0:39:58The dissection has extended.

0:39:58 > 0:39:59How far?

0:39:59 > 0:40:00To the head vessels.

0:40:02 > 0:40:04Hang on, I can see the entry point.

0:40:04 > 0:40:05I might be able to stitch the graft.

0:40:08 > 0:40:09This isn't over.

0:40:13 > 0:40:17Emma... Emma, please, please, just stop this.

0:40:17 > 0:40:19Sorry, bad timing. Hello!

0:40:19 > 0:40:21I need your advice on my left atrial aneurysm.

0:40:23 > 0:40:24Why don't I watch her for a bit?

0:40:24 > 0:40:27If that's all right with you, little legs?

0:40:27 > 0:40:28It's fine, honestly.

0:40:30 > 0:40:32OK, I won't be long.

0:40:32 > 0:40:33Come here. Hello!

0:40:33 > 0:40:36Cos think I know where the jammy doctors

0:40:36 > 0:40:37hide the Jammie Dodgers.

0:40:40 > 0:40:42Stand by to take him off bypass.

0:40:43 > 0:40:44Now.

0:40:46 > 0:40:49- MACHINES BEEP - He's arresting.- Paddles.

0:40:52 > 0:40:54Charge to 20.

0:40:54 > 0:40:55Stand clear.

0:40:55 > 0:40:56Shocking.

0:40:58 > 0:41:00Charge to 30.

0:41:00 > 0:41:02Stand clear.

0:41:02 > 0:41:03Shocking.

0:41:04 > 0:41:05Charge to 40.

0:41:05 > 0:41:07Stand clear.

0:41:07 > 0:41:08Shocking.

0:41:08 > 0:41:10Cerebral oximetry is very low.

0:41:10 > 0:41:13- Put him back on bypass. - Are the pupils dilated?

0:41:13 > 0:41:15We try again.

0:41:15 > 0:41:17- Matteo, his brain hasn't perfused. - We try again!

0:41:18 > 0:41:20He's gone.

0:41:20 > 0:41:21It's time to call it.

0:41:25 > 0:41:26Matteo...

0:41:33 > 0:41:37- Again, again!- All right. One more time and then that's it, OK?

0:41:37 > 0:41:39# I'm a little spider

0:41:39 > 0:41:41# Minding my own business

0:41:41 > 0:41:44# I just hope I don't get squished! #

0:41:44 > 0:41:46- Argh! - THEY GIGGLE

0:41:46 > 0:41:49I have to say, I can see the appeal.

0:41:49 > 0:41:52Well, we were just thinking about heading back to the creche.

0:41:52 > 0:41:53- Really?- Yeah.

0:41:53 > 0:41:56Emma wants to give it another try if that's all right with you?

0:41:56 > 0:41:58Yeah, it's fine.

0:41:59 > 0:42:00Erm, listen,

0:42:00 > 0:42:04- what you saw, in theatre... - Was a successful operation.

0:42:04 > 0:42:05Come on, you, spider-squasher!

0:42:05 > 0:42:07Up you get.

0:42:07 > 0:42:08Say bye-bye to Mummy.

0:42:08 > 0:42:10Bye-bye, Mummy.

0:42:10 > 0:42:12- Bye, baby.- Bye-bye!

0:42:21 > 0:42:22It wasn't your fault.

0:42:24 > 0:42:27- He was such a lovely man. - There was nothing we could do.

0:42:27 > 0:42:29If he'd come to us sooner, different story.

0:42:31 > 0:42:33His wife is still in shock, as you'd expect,

0:42:33 > 0:42:35but she wants to know more about his condition

0:42:35 > 0:42:37so I said you'd speak to her.

0:42:37 > 0:42:38Fine.

0:42:39 > 0:42:41Matteo...

0:42:43 > 0:42:44..you're allowed to be upset.

0:42:46 > 0:42:47Talk to me.

0:42:50 > 0:42:52You want us to raise a child together,

0:42:52 > 0:42:54and I just know there is so much inside you,

0:42:54 > 0:42:57so much pain that you've never dealt with.

0:42:57 > 0:42:59But this child, don't you see?

0:42:59 > 0:43:01Is our chance to leave all that behind.

0:43:01 > 0:43:04To start again, from the beginning.

0:43:04 > 0:43:05A clean slate.

0:43:09 > 0:43:10- What?- A clean slate?

0:43:12 > 0:43:15You think you can just wipe it all away? Wipe Nico away?

0:43:15 > 0:43:16- Nina...- What was I thinking?

0:43:20 > 0:43:21Wait!

0:43:33 > 0:43:36- BELINDA:- We couldn't have children, you see, me and Tommy.

0:43:36 > 0:43:38So when he passed away...

0:43:39 > 0:43:41..our dogs were such a comfort.

0:43:43 > 0:43:45They're good listeners, dogs.

0:43:45 > 0:43:47They never interrupt, never judge.

0:43:48 > 0:43:52Some shelters, if there's a dog nobody wants,

0:43:52 > 0:43:55eventually they just put it down.

0:43:55 > 0:43:57I take them in before that happens.

0:43:57 > 0:44:00And I really do try to find homes for them, but...

0:44:00 > 0:44:01You end up keeping them.

0:44:02 > 0:44:07It's easy when they're young and appealing, to re-home them.

0:44:07 > 0:44:09But the older ones,

0:44:09 > 0:44:10the ones with issues...

0:44:11 > 0:44:13I'm all they've got.

0:44:13 > 0:44:16I know. But living like this, it's making you sick.

0:44:17 > 0:44:20There are proper sanctuaries and rescue centres out there,

0:44:20 > 0:44:21loads of them.

0:44:21 > 0:44:23I know.

0:44:23 > 0:44:26They'll help you, and your dogs. If you let them.

0:44:30 > 0:44:33OK, I'm going to go and see about getting you discharged.

0:44:33 > 0:44:34Thanks, love.

0:44:56 > 0:44:58You're leaving?

0:44:58 > 0:44:59Yeah.

0:45:03 > 0:45:04You know...

0:45:05 > 0:45:09I knew you weren't ready to be a parent again,

0:45:09 > 0:45:10to be a husband again...

0:45:11 > 0:45:14But I just so wanted to believe.

0:45:14 > 0:45:16Please, Nina, just hear me out.

0:45:16 > 0:45:20I can't wipe the slate clean...Matteo.

0:45:20 > 0:45:21I can't do that to our son.

0:45:21 > 0:45:24- It was a poor choice of words. - It was horrific.

0:45:26 > 0:45:29You really connected with Scott.

0:45:29 > 0:45:30But when he died, you just...

0:45:32 > 0:45:35..shut down. I had to stand there and watch you do that.

0:45:35 > 0:45:36Did you talk to his wife?

0:45:40 > 0:45:41What were you afraid of?

0:45:43 > 0:45:44I loved you so much, Matteo.

0:45:46 > 0:45:49I loved the man you used to be.

0:45:49 > 0:45:50But he's never coming back.

0:45:52 > 0:45:53And this child needs a family...

0:45:54 > 0:45:56..not a coward.

0:46:06 > 0:46:08PHONE VIBRATES

0:46:15 > 0:46:16Hello.

0:46:17 > 0:46:20Getting Emma to go back to the creche was...

0:46:20 > 0:46:21No big deal.

0:46:22 > 0:46:24It was to me.

0:46:25 > 0:46:28Well, like I said, I'm happy to help.

0:46:30 > 0:46:34I can't remember the last time I made her laugh the way you did.

0:46:34 > 0:46:36I can always teach you the spider song.

0:46:40 > 0:46:43Anyway, listen...

0:46:45 > 0:46:48Everything that you've been through in the last few months...

0:46:48 > 0:46:50..with Jasmine, with Guy...

0:46:52 > 0:46:56..you've just carried on because that's just what you do.

0:46:56 > 0:46:57But sometimes...

0:46:58 > 0:47:01Sometimes you have to just step off.

0:47:01 > 0:47:02Regroup.

0:47:04 > 0:47:06Have you thought about taking any time off?

0:47:08 > 0:47:10Well, maybe you should.

0:47:10 > 0:47:13So, I was thinking... Oh, sorry.

0:47:13 > 0:47:16- I can come back if... - No, I was just leaving.

0:47:23 > 0:47:24Are you OK?

0:47:25 > 0:47:27I heard you lost a patient, I'm sorry.

0:47:29 > 0:47:30Nina's pregnant.

0:47:30 > 0:47:32Oh, I see.

0:47:34 > 0:47:35She's moving to Amsterdam.

0:47:37 > 0:47:38It's my fault.

0:47:40 > 0:47:43- Well, I'm sure it's not as simple as that...- It is. Believe me.

0:47:43 > 0:47:45Can I, erm...?

0:47:56 > 0:47:59If I've learned anything at all...

0:48:00 > 0:48:02..about loss, it's...

0:48:03 > 0:48:07..this - you can't run away from it. You can't ignore it.

0:48:08 > 0:48:13You just have to look it dead in the eye and let it do its worst.

0:48:13 > 0:48:15I'm not sure I can.

0:48:15 > 0:48:17Well... It might take a while.

0:48:24 > 0:48:26But you'll find your feet again.

0:48:30 > 0:48:32Ms Naylor?

0:48:36 > 0:48:38I missed a call, during the surgery.

0:48:39 > 0:48:41My colleague had to deal with it.

0:48:41 > 0:48:43And?

0:48:43 > 0:48:45She did a very good job.

0:48:46 > 0:48:48Well, I'm very glad to hear that.

0:48:48 > 0:48:50I just spoke with my client. He's an asylum seeker.

0:48:50 > 0:48:53He can stay with his family now.

0:48:55 > 0:48:5832 is very young to have a clot like you had.

0:48:58 > 0:49:00There's every chance it developed

0:49:00 > 0:49:02because you've been pushing yourself to hard.

0:49:03 > 0:49:06I was 12 when I came to this country as a refugee.

0:49:08 > 0:49:11If it wasn't for people giving up their time to help me,

0:49:11 > 0:49:14I never would have been able to stay.

0:49:14 > 0:49:17This isn't just a job for me, I have a duty to do this.

0:49:17 > 0:49:19You have a duty to keep yourself alive.

0:49:21 > 0:49:23Learn to delegate.

0:49:23 > 0:49:25OK.

0:49:25 > 0:49:27And really, thank you.

0:49:56 > 0:49:58- You!- Oh!

0:49:58 > 0:50:00Just can't keep away from me, can you?

0:50:00 > 0:50:01- Hi.- I was just passing and...

0:50:01 > 0:50:02Come here. In here.

0:50:10 > 0:50:12So, I think I might be wrong,

0:50:12 > 0:50:16but I think there might be a new romance developing on Darwin.

0:50:16 > 0:50:18- Between who? - Oh, I'm not telling you that.

0:50:18 > 0:50:20Why not?

0:50:20 > 0:50:22Oh, just to annoy you.

0:50:22 > 0:50:23- Tell me!- No!

0:50:23 > 0:50:25Ow!

0:50:25 > 0:50:26Don't mind me.

0:50:26 > 0:50:29Ahem... Erm... Raf thinks he's spotted a new romance

0:50:29 > 0:50:32developing up here, but he won't tell me who's involved,

0:50:32 > 0:50:34and I just don't think that's acceptable.

0:50:34 > 0:50:37Oh, I don't know. I think there's a lot to be said for discretion.

0:50:37 > 0:50:38Er, we were just, erm...

0:50:40 > 0:50:41Bye.

0:50:45 > 0:50:47SHE SOBS

0:50:51 > 0:50:52Are you OK?

0:50:57 > 0:50:58- TEARFULLY:- I'm sorry...

0:51:00 > 0:51:02- I'm so sorry, Nina. - HE SOBS

0:51:02 > 0:51:04Oh, Matteo.

0:51:08 > 0:51:10I'm sorry.

0:51:16 > 0:51:20So, I hear Tenerife's nice this time of year.

0:51:20 > 0:51:23- What?- Tenerife. For a bit of winter sun.

0:51:23 > 0:51:25You know, if you're thinking about taking a break,

0:51:25 > 0:51:26like we spoke about earlier.

0:51:30 > 0:51:32Are you all right?

0:51:32 > 0:51:33Sorry.

0:51:35 > 0:51:38- I don't need a break. I'm fine. - But what happened today....

0:51:38 > 0:51:40I don't know what you're talking about.

0:51:40 > 0:51:43- But you said...- I don't know what you're talking about.

0:51:45 > 0:51:46All right.

0:51:46 > 0:51:48I'm sorry.

0:51:50 > 0:51:52You know, for someone with such a demanding job

0:51:52 > 0:51:54you seem to have an awful a lot of time

0:51:54 > 0:51:56for sticking your nose into other people's business.

0:51:58 > 0:52:01I don't blame you for having me investigated.

0:52:02 > 0:52:05Now I understand why you didn't trust me.

0:52:08 > 0:52:09I was running away.

0:52:10 > 0:52:11From you.

0:52:12 > 0:52:14From everything.

0:52:15 > 0:52:17When we lost Nico...

0:52:19 > 0:52:21..I felt like I lost you as well.

0:52:21 > 0:52:22I'm so sorry, Nina.

0:52:24 > 0:52:27When you needed me the most, I failed you.

0:52:29 > 0:52:33And I'll never forgive myself for that, never.

0:52:35 > 0:52:37But I don't want to run away any more.

0:52:38 > 0:52:39I want to feel...

0:52:41 > 0:52:42..everything.

0:52:49 > 0:52:51It wasn't us that was broken.

0:52:53 > 0:52:54It was me.

0:53:04 > 0:53:05This boy.

0:53:07 > 0:53:08Our boy.

0:53:11 > 0:53:13He's right here.

0:53:15 > 0:53:17There is no wiping the slate clean.

0:53:19 > 0:53:20He's part of me.

0:53:22 > 0:53:23Part of us.

0:53:24 > 0:53:26And I never want that to change.

0:53:41 > 0:53:42Hi.

0:53:45 > 0:53:46So, you're going to help?

0:53:46 > 0:53:48Well, I hope so.

0:53:49 > 0:53:51Erm... So, where do we begin?

0:53:51 > 0:53:54Not like that.

0:53:54 > 0:53:57I could never do that to Ric. I'm sorry.

0:53:57 > 0:53:58I don't understand.

0:53:58 > 0:54:00Jeremy, you're grieving.

0:54:02 > 0:54:04- You think I don't know that?- No.

0:54:04 > 0:54:08I just think, maybe that's what you should focus on right now,

0:54:08 > 0:54:10instead of Ric.

0:54:10 > 0:54:12Here's a bereavement counsellor.

0:54:12 > 0:54:13Comes highly recommended.

0:54:13 > 0:54:15OK, erm...

0:54:15 > 0:54:18My mum's dead and no amount of counselling

0:54:18 > 0:54:20is going to bring her back.

0:54:20 > 0:54:23Making sure the man responsible for her death is held accountable

0:54:23 > 0:54:25is all I have.

0:54:25 > 0:54:26Do you not understand that?

0:54:26 > 0:54:30I just think sometimes grief can be very powerful

0:54:30 > 0:54:33and it can make people do things that aren't...

0:54:33 > 0:54:36..helpful or healthy.

0:54:36 > 0:54:38And you don't even know that it's Ric's fault.

0:54:38 > 0:54:40Of course I do! How can you be so naive?

0:54:40 > 0:54:43- OK, I'm going to go. - Look, Donna, listen to me.

0:54:43 > 0:54:45- Please let go. You're hurting me.- Please.

0:54:45 > 0:54:47I need you by my side, do you not understand?

0:54:47 > 0:54:50- Jeremy, let go of me! - You said you would help.

0:54:50 > 0:54:52- Donna!- Let her go, right now.

0:54:52 > 0:54:53Right now!

0:54:55 > 0:54:57See when this is all over,

0:54:57 > 0:55:00you're going to see Ric Griffin for what he really is.

0:55:00 > 0:55:02A fraud. A killer.

0:55:02 > 0:55:04You don't have the first clue about Ric

0:55:04 > 0:55:06or what it takes to do this job. You have no idea.

0:55:06 > 0:55:11- Jac...- The sacrifices that we make, the pressure, day after day

0:55:11 > 0:55:13and what that does to you.

0:55:13 > 0:55:15And yet we still carry on.

0:55:15 > 0:55:17We still come back to help people just like you.

0:55:17 > 0:55:18Do you want sympathy?

0:55:18 > 0:55:20No, I want you out of here.

0:55:20 > 0:55:22- HE SCOFFS - Jac!

0:55:22 > 0:55:23Don't.

0:55:23 > 0:55:25This woman threatened me.

0:55:27 > 0:55:29Get him out of the hospital.

0:55:31 > 0:55:33Big mistake.

0:55:44 > 0:55:45Beautiful.

0:56:06 > 0:56:08What's that for?

0:56:08 > 0:56:09No reason.

0:56:11 > 0:56:13- Are you heading home?- Finally.

0:56:13 > 0:56:16- You mind if I walk you to your car? - If you like.

0:56:19 > 0:56:22So, how did it go?

0:56:22 > 0:56:23Look, don't ask.

0:56:23 > 0:56:26I don't want to have to relive it just yet.

0:56:27 > 0:56:31Well, we'll have find something else to talk about then.

0:56:31 > 0:56:33Dogs or cats?

0:56:33 > 0:56:36As a topic for a conversation or...?

0:56:36 > 0:56:38Are you more of a dog person or a cat person?

0:56:38 > 0:56:40Dogs all the way.

0:56:40 > 0:56:41For their loyalty.

0:56:43 > 0:56:44Exactly.

0:56:48 > 0:56:51So Ollie doesn't mind covering for you?

0:56:51 > 0:56:53He's what you call...

0:56:53 > 0:56:54..a good friend.

0:56:54 > 0:56:56And how is your Dutch these days?

0:56:56 > 0:56:57Roestig.

0:56:57 > 0:57:00Rusty?

0:57:00 > 0:57:02It'll all come back when we get there.

0:57:04 > 0:57:05Let me see it again.

0:57:13 > 0:57:15New life, new hope.

0:57:16 > 0:57:19- You're sure about this?- About this?

0:57:19 > 0:57:20About everything.