Episode 1

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0:00:02 > 0:00:04This programme contains some strong language,

0:00:04 > 0:00:06some scenes which some viewers may find upsetting,

0:00:06 > 0:00:07and scenes of a sexual nature.

0:00:07 > 0:00:09MUSIC IN HEADPHONES

0:00:16 > 0:00:18MUSIC: I Feel Love by Donna Summer

0:00:18 > 0:00:20# Ooooh!

0:00:20 > 0:00:22# I'm in love, I'm in love

0:00:22 > 0:00:25# I'm in love, I'm in love, I'm in love...

0:00:32 > 0:00:35# Ooooooh...

0:00:35 > 0:00:37# I feel love, I feel love

0:00:37 > 0:00:42# I feel love, I feel love, I fe-e-eel love...

0:00:46 > 0:00:54# I feel lo-o-o-ove

0:00:55 > 0:01:02# I feel lo-o-o-o-ove... #

0:01:04 > 0:01:06MUFFLED POUNDING MUSIC

0:01:38 > 0:01:39Come on.

0:01:43 > 0:01:44Hey, guys.

0:01:46 > 0:01:47Erm, I was just...

0:01:49 > 0:01:50..wanted to see if you're still up.

0:01:53 > 0:01:54But...

0:02:01 > 0:02:03SEAGULLS CAW

0:02:19 > 0:02:21AMBIENT SYNTH DRONE

0:02:34 > 0:02:35INAUDIBLE

0:02:48 > 0:02:50PHONE SHATTERS

0:03:11 > 0:03:12Are you OK?

0:03:13 > 0:03:14Me? I'm fine.

0:03:22 > 0:03:25You don't know me, but if you did, you'd know I'm always fine.

0:03:46 > 0:03:48What about your drink?

0:03:48 > 0:03:50You can keep it.

0:04:39 > 0:04:41MACHINE BEEPS REGULARLY

0:04:45 > 0:04:47RAPID BEEPING

0:04:47 > 0:04:48- MACHINE:- 'Destination reached.

0:04:51 > 0:04:52'Scanning successful.'

0:05:13 > 0:05:14I'll shave his hand?

0:05:14 > 0:05:17- I'll shake his hand. - IMITATING:- I'll shape his hand.

0:05:17 > 0:05:20- LAUGHING:- Shake his hand! - Shake his hand.

0:05:20 > 0:05:22- Hello!- Hi.

0:05:22 > 0:05:24- I'll sha-...- I'll sha-...

0:05:24 > 0:05:26- ..-ke his hand.- ..-kis hand.

0:05:27 > 0:05:30SAXOPHONE WAILS ON TV

0:06:26 > 0:06:29No... No... No...

0:06:29 > 0:06:31No... No... Oh, no.

0:06:34 > 0:06:36I'm going to stay in tonight.

0:06:39 > 0:06:40You don't feel so good?

0:06:40 > 0:06:42I'm fine.

0:07:11 > 0:07:14ALARM BEEPS

0:07:45 > 0:07:46I wanted to say thank you.

0:07:50 > 0:07:51Which I didn't get to say.

0:07:52 > 0:07:53Last time.

0:07:59 > 0:08:00I just had a hunch.

0:08:03 > 0:08:05Sometimes you have to take a chance, right?

0:08:05 > 0:08:06Otherwise, how do you know?

0:08:11 > 0:08:12HE CHUCKLES

0:08:12 > 0:08:13Obviously I got this wrong.

0:08:16 > 0:08:17Oh, sorry.

0:08:40 > 0:08:41HE LAUGHS

0:08:41 > 0:08:42My name's Danny.

0:08:44 > 0:08:45My name is Joe.

0:08:48 > 0:08:49So Joe, are you...

0:08:53 > 0:08:55Are...

0:08:58 > 0:09:00I've run out of questions. Erm...

0:09:00 > 0:09:01Ask me.

0:09:02 > 0:09:03Please.

0:09:03 > 0:09:05Are you out?

0:09:07 > 0:09:08No.

0:09:12 > 0:09:15If you want to go, I can understand that reaction.

0:09:17 > 0:09:18I don't want to go.

0:09:23 > 0:09:26I work for an investment bank.

0:09:26 > 0:09:27It's their apartment.

0:09:28 > 0:09:30Security is a concern.

0:09:50 > 0:09:51There's a terrace...

0:09:54 > 0:09:56If you want to smoke, I mean.

0:10:02 > 0:10:04I'm going to take a shower.

0:10:52 > 0:10:53I'll let you get dressed.

0:11:46 > 0:11:47DOOR CLOSES

0:12:01 > 0:12:02I can pay.

0:12:02 > 0:12:03No, it's fine, I'm...

0:12:09 > 0:12:11I must be easy to read.

0:12:11 > 0:12:12You are.

0:12:14 > 0:12:16Is that bad?

0:12:17 > 0:12:19Makes a change.

0:12:19 > 0:12:20The people I work with...

0:12:21 > 0:12:22..are inscrutable.

0:12:27 > 0:12:28HE CLEARS HIS THROAT

0:12:28 > 0:12:30I can be inscrutable.

0:12:32 > 0:12:34Did you look through my clothes?

0:12:34 > 0:12:35HE LAUGHS

0:12:40 > 0:12:41See you.

0:13:29 > 0:13:30Has he rung?

0:13:32 > 0:13:33He will.

0:13:34 > 0:13:35A week?

0:13:35 > 0:13:38- I've never been more certain of anything in my life.- Why?

0:13:38 > 0:13:40Because... That can't be it.

0:13:41 > 0:13:43There's more. There has to be.

0:13:43 > 0:13:45You love falling in love.

0:13:45 > 0:13:47The moment when it's all possibilities and dreams.

0:13:47 > 0:13:48You think he's out of my league?

0:13:51 > 0:13:53The thought never crossed my mind.

0:13:56 > 0:13:58Where are we going to drink tonight?

0:13:58 > 0:14:01Somewhere dimly lit and terribly old-fashioned.

0:14:02 > 0:14:06So we're on the doorstep, saying goodbye.

0:14:07 > 0:14:09And I'm trying to give him Pavel's number,

0:14:09 > 0:14:11because I don't have a phone...

0:14:12 > 0:14:13..except he doesn't write it down.

0:14:13 > 0:14:15And I'm like...

0:14:15 > 0:14:17"If you don't want to...

0:14:17 > 0:14:19"if you don't want see me again..."

0:14:20 > 0:14:21And then he says,

0:14:21 > 0:14:24"Numbers, Danny, I have no problem with."

0:14:26 > 0:14:29Like he could remember every phone number in the world.

0:14:29 > 0:14:31THEY CHUCKLE

0:14:31 > 0:14:33And then...we shook hands!

0:14:36 > 0:14:37If you'd have told me a week ago

0:14:37 > 0:14:40I'd be this happy with a handshake at the end of a date...

0:14:40 > 0:14:42I'm sorry. I'll stop talking about him.

0:14:42 > 0:14:43It's all right, I understand.

0:14:43 > 0:14:45It's just the feeling, you know?

0:14:47 > 0:14:49Not being able to think about anyone else.

0:14:49 > 0:14:50Yeah.

0:14:50 > 0:14:51I know the feeling.

0:14:52 > 0:14:54Yeah, course.

0:14:57 > 0:14:58KNOCKING

0:15:00 > 0:15:02KNOCKING

0:15:10 > 0:15:11HE SIGHS

0:15:23 > 0:15:24Otherwise, how do you know?

0:15:37 > 0:15:39So at some point you're going to talk about yourself, right?

0:15:41 > 0:15:43Not your work, I understand.

0:15:44 > 0:15:45That's, er, secret.

0:15:46 > 0:15:48But, erm, the other stuff?

0:15:48 > 0:15:50- Why? - DANNY LAUGHS

0:15:50 > 0:15:52Isn't that what you do when you meet someone?

0:15:52 > 0:15:54I tell you stuff. You tell me stuff.

0:16:27 > 0:16:28This is us.

0:16:39 > 0:16:40CAR BEEPS AND LOCKS

0:17:15 > 0:17:16So grown-up.

0:17:17 > 0:17:21You drink tea out of a thermos, and you go for...

0:17:21 > 0:17:22country walks.

0:17:24 > 0:17:25I must seem young...

0:17:27 > 0:17:29..compared to the people you work with.

0:17:31 > 0:17:32You do.

0:17:37 > 0:17:38You're not joking, are you?

0:17:38 > 0:17:41I started university when I was 15.

0:17:44 > 0:17:46So you never...messed around?

0:17:48 > 0:17:49- In what sense?- Any sense.

0:17:53 > 0:17:56I've been serious for a very long time.

0:17:58 > 0:17:59What made you change your mind?

0:18:00 > 0:18:02- About?- About me.

0:18:03 > 0:18:06I wondered what it would be like to do these walks with someone.

0:18:07 > 0:18:09For a minute I was worried that you were going to say

0:18:09 > 0:18:10it was cos I made you laugh.

0:18:12 > 0:18:14I don't think you've ever made me laugh.

0:18:16 > 0:18:18It's not that you won't...

0:18:18 > 0:18:21- I understand.- I'm sure you will. - I understand.

0:18:23 > 0:18:26So you turn up, on my doorstep...

0:18:26 > 0:18:27Which is wonderful!

0:18:27 > 0:18:30..except I never told you where I live.

0:18:31 > 0:18:35And I was wondering, and I should say in advance that I don't mind,

0:18:35 > 0:18:36but...

0:18:38 > 0:18:42..did you carry out some kind of background check on me?

0:18:46 > 0:18:48The way we met was unusual.

0:18:49 > 0:18:50Right. DANNY CHUCKLES

0:18:50 > 0:18:52So...

0:18:52 > 0:18:56you thought "Stranger! Seduction!"

0:18:56 > 0:19:00Not that, erm, I'm presuming you're seduced by me.

0:19:00 > 0:19:01That's, erm...

0:19:03 > 0:19:04..process ongoing.

0:19:06 > 0:19:07Erm, what was I saying?

0:19:08 > 0:19:10Erm, yeah, so you thought,

0:19:10 > 0:19:12our meeting was part of...

0:19:13 > 0:19:15..a set-up?

0:19:17 > 0:19:19It's fine. It's fun. I just...

0:19:19 > 0:19:21I thought you said I was easy to read?

0:19:33 > 0:19:36That would've been the reason you were selected.

0:19:40 > 0:19:42The appearance of innocence.

0:19:45 > 0:19:46I'm not innocent.

0:19:49 > 0:19:52You might be the only innocent person I know.

0:19:59 > 0:20:01Can you tell me what your real name is now?

0:20:07 > 0:20:08My name is Alex.

0:20:14 > 0:20:16I'd like you to come up...

0:20:18 > 0:20:19If you want, obviously.

0:20:21 > 0:20:24- If you don't, that's cool.- I want to. - I didn't mean to say "cool".

0:20:25 > 0:20:26You want to.

0:20:30 > 0:20:31But...

0:20:34 > 0:20:35It's a little fast.

0:20:38 > 0:20:40Well, maybe next time.

0:20:40 > 0:20:42- You've got to stop shaking my hand. - I'm sorry.

0:20:44 > 0:20:45I'm sorry.

0:20:46 > 0:20:47OK.

0:21:03 > 0:21:04Fuck!

0:21:34 > 0:21:36It's normally tidier than this.

0:21:40 > 0:21:41It's never tidier than this.

0:22:25 > 0:22:26Had you guessed?

0:22:28 > 0:22:30Mmm, I'd guessed you hadn't slept with guys before.

0:22:33 > 0:22:36I'd thought maybe you'd slept with a couple of women.

0:22:43 > 0:22:44Can I ask you a question?

0:22:45 > 0:22:46Mmm.

0:22:47 > 0:22:49What's stopped you?

0:22:54 > 0:22:55You don't have to answer.

0:22:57 > 0:23:01How do you admit to someone you've never been in a relationship?

0:23:04 > 0:23:05Who wants to hear?

0:23:08 > 0:23:10And when they do, who wants to stay?

0:23:12 > 0:23:13I do.

0:23:17 > 0:23:19At school I was old.

0:23:23 > 0:23:25At university I was young.

0:23:27 > 0:23:28I've always been...

0:23:30 > 0:23:33..out of step with the people around me.

0:23:38 > 0:23:39In the end, I left it so late...

0:23:41 > 0:23:42..I gave up.

0:23:42 > 0:23:45I told myself I was all about the mind.

0:23:45 > 0:23:47And people found me odd.

0:23:50 > 0:23:51It grated on them.

0:23:51 > 0:23:52I could see it in their eyes.

0:23:58 > 0:23:59And rather than change, I...

0:24:01 > 0:24:04..I started playing the role, more and more.

0:24:07 > 0:24:08I didn't need anyone.

0:24:13 > 0:24:15That's what I told myself.

0:24:15 > 0:24:16"I didn't want anyone."

0:24:19 > 0:24:21Did you imagine you'd spend the rest of your life alone?

0:24:23 > 0:24:24Yes.

0:24:27 > 0:24:29I can't begin to understand what that must feel like.

0:24:32 > 0:24:34- You always knew you'd find someone?- Always.

0:24:38 > 0:24:39I can't imagine...

0:24:41 > 0:24:42..what that must feel like.

0:24:42 > 0:24:43THEY CHUCKLE

0:24:46 > 0:24:48I'd like to try again.

0:24:49 > 0:24:51We don't have to.

0:24:51 > 0:24:52You don't want...?

0:24:52 > 0:24:54DANNY CHUCKLES We can wait.

0:24:57 > 0:24:58I've waited long enough.

0:25:13 > 0:25:14Drugs?

0:25:14 > 0:25:17I've been using them to make me believe the sex was special.

0:25:18 > 0:25:20That the person I was with was special.

0:25:21 > 0:25:23But...

0:25:24 > 0:25:26..I'd love to know what it feels like for real.

0:25:27 > 0:25:29Because I bet it's the best feeling in the world.

0:25:35 > 0:25:37Will you stop worrying about me?

0:25:50 > 0:25:51Will you stop worrying about ME?

0:26:08 > 0:26:10ALEX MOANS

0:26:56 > 0:26:57You saw me.

0:26:59 > 0:27:01What I mean is, you saw ME.

0:27:04 > 0:27:06And you asked if I was OK.

0:27:09 > 0:27:11And not like most people ask it. Like they've...

0:27:12 > 0:27:14..asked it a hundred times that day already,

0:27:14 > 0:27:15you asked it as if...

0:27:19 > 0:27:20..nothing else mattered to you.

0:27:25 > 0:27:26And I thought,

0:27:26 > 0:27:29how is it that this person, who I've never seen before...

0:27:32 > 0:27:35How are they the only person in the whole world who knows?

0:27:38 > 0:27:39That I'm not OK.

0:27:44 > 0:27:46And I was sure if I could just find out your name,

0:27:46 > 0:27:48if I could just find out who you were...

0:27:50 > 0:27:52..then everything would be OK.

0:27:55 > 0:27:57What if everything...

0:27:57 > 0:27:58isn't OK?

0:27:58 > 0:28:00Then we tell each other.

0:28:00 > 0:28:01And we deal with it.

0:28:03 > 0:28:05Whatever it is, we...

0:28:05 > 0:28:06deal with it.

0:28:09 > 0:28:10Together.

0:28:15 > 0:28:16HE CHUCKLES

0:28:16 > 0:28:18Is there something you want to tell me?

0:28:20 > 0:28:21No.

0:28:27 > 0:28:28CAMERA ZOOM WHIRS

0:28:42 > 0:28:45MUSIC: Takeda Lullaby, Japanese folk song.

0:29:24 > 0:29:26I'm excited you two are going to meet.

0:29:30 > 0:29:31I should've organized it sooner.

0:29:34 > 0:29:37A month or two, I could understand.

0:29:37 > 0:29:39I'm not so old I can't remember what it's like to be smitten.

0:29:41 > 0:29:44But eight months listening to you declare how wonderful he is,

0:29:44 > 0:29:47while failing to introduce us feels wilful.

0:29:47 > 0:29:48Sorry.

0:29:53 > 0:29:54MUSIC CONTINUES

0:30:01 > 0:30:02MUSIC ENDS

0:30:04 > 0:30:06APPLAUSE

0:30:06 > 0:30:07Scottie, this is Alex.

0:30:16 > 0:30:19Alex, tell me.

0:30:21 > 0:30:22What did you make of her?

0:30:24 > 0:30:25Too much?

0:30:27 > 0:30:28That doesn't surprise me.

0:30:29 > 0:30:32Danny's always preferred his men to be as straight as possible.

0:30:32 > 0:30:34A tedious form of self-loathing,

0:30:34 > 0:30:36that I've unsuccessfully tried to wean him off.

0:30:36 > 0:30:38Scottie, I was telling Alex...

0:30:38 > 0:30:40I hope you told him this is where we first met?

0:30:41 > 0:30:43You must be wondering how an old queer like me

0:30:43 > 0:30:46ended up friends with a handsome young man like him?

0:30:46 > 0:30:4919 years old, he walked through that door.

0:30:51 > 0:30:53As lost as a person could be.

0:30:55 > 0:30:58I saw him, in his tatty jeans,

0:30:58 > 0:31:00with his cropped hair, and his puppy dog eyes.

0:31:01 > 0:31:04I could guess his sad story without hearing a word.

0:31:07 > 0:31:08I presumed,

0:31:08 > 0:31:10if I bought him a drink,

0:31:10 > 0:31:12there wouldn't be a single second

0:31:12 > 0:31:14when he wasn't hoping for someone better to come along.

0:31:16 > 0:31:18But what can I say? I'm a soft touch.

0:31:18 > 0:31:20So I bought him that drink...

0:31:21 > 0:31:24..and to my surprise, he talked to me for the whole night.

0:31:24 > 0:31:26He didn't leave, even when others stalked him.

0:31:28 > 0:31:29A small gesture,

0:31:29 > 0:31:30but it meant a great deal.

0:31:32 > 0:31:33And we've been friends ever since.

0:31:34 > 0:31:36I'm the one he comes to when times are tough.

0:31:37 > 0:31:39And they often are.

0:31:40 > 0:31:44Poor Danny has a terrible track record for picking the wrong man.

0:31:45 > 0:31:47He's an insufferable romantic.

0:31:47 > 0:31:48One of the last.

0:31:52 > 0:31:53Does it fall to me to say...

0:31:55 > 0:31:57..don't break his heart?

0:32:00 > 0:32:01I could never hurt Danny.

0:32:03 > 0:32:04May I ask,

0:32:04 > 0:32:07as someone who's been witness to the breaking of many a heart...

0:32:09 > 0:32:10..how you can be so sure?

0:32:17 > 0:32:19Because he is the only friend I have.

0:32:25 > 0:32:26I'm pleased for you.

0:32:27 > 0:32:28I'm pleased for both of you.

0:32:35 > 0:32:36Had you two met before?

0:32:38 > 0:32:40No.

0:32:53 > 0:32:57You know Scottie asked if you knew how I became his friend?

0:32:57 > 0:32:59Danny, you don't need to tell me anything.

0:33:01 > 0:33:02I love you.

0:33:03 > 0:33:04And I need you to know.

0:33:06 > 0:33:07I was 19.

0:33:09 > 0:33:10Like he said.

0:33:15 > 0:33:16It was a bad time.

0:33:19 > 0:33:21I'd left home. I was doing a lot of drugs.

0:33:25 > 0:33:26And one night...

0:33:27 > 0:33:28..I was wired.

0:33:31 > 0:33:33Not happy, not high.

0:33:35 > 0:33:36I was numb.

0:33:38 > 0:33:41And I posted an ad online...

0:33:43 > 0:33:46..saying that anyone could come round.

0:33:46 > 0:33:47And I mean anyone.

0:33:49 > 0:33:52My only condition was that they didn't speak.

0:33:57 > 0:33:58And people showed up.

0:33:59 > 0:34:03I didn't turn them away. I didn't ask anything of them.

0:34:03 > 0:34:05And they must have thought their luck was in, cos...

0:34:06 > 0:34:08..they didn't make a sound.

0:34:14 > 0:34:17The next day, I couldn't stop crying.

0:34:20 > 0:34:21And I went to see Scottie.

0:34:23 > 0:34:24I didn't...

0:34:26 > 0:34:28..know him very well, I'd only met him a couple of times.

0:34:28 > 0:34:30But he was the only person I could trust.

0:34:33 > 0:34:35And he took me straight to the hospital.

0:34:38 > 0:34:40And I was put me on a course of PEP,

0:34:40 > 0:34:41which is, erm,

0:34:41 > 0:34:42emergency medication.

0:34:43 > 0:34:46I was on the drugs for 28 days.

0:34:46 > 0:34:47And Scottie looked after me.

0:34:52 > 0:34:54And 16 weeks later I had an HIV test.

0:34:59 > 0:35:00And I was clear.

0:35:04 > 0:35:06WEEPING SOFTLY: Sorry.

0:35:18 > 0:35:19And we were friends.

0:35:32 > 0:35:34I've never done anything like that again.

0:35:36 > 0:35:38I swear.

0:35:38 > 0:35:39I was out of my mind.

0:35:47 > 0:35:49I'm always safe.

0:35:49 > 0:35:50Always.

0:35:55 > 0:35:57I don't know what happened to me that night.

0:35:57 > 0:35:59I look back, I don't recognise that person.

0:36:03 > 0:36:05And I've never cheated on you.

0:36:09 > 0:36:11I don't want to have any secrets from you.

0:36:13 > 0:36:15I never want to have any secrets ever again.

0:36:40 > 0:36:42CLASSICAL MUSIC PLAYS

0:36:43 > 0:36:44Let's go away for the weekend.

0:36:48 > 0:36:49Sure.

0:36:56 > 0:36:58HE TURNS THE RADIO UP

0:37:00 > 0:37:02I have to buy a battery for my laptop.

0:37:04 > 0:37:05I can't go without replacing it.

0:37:09 > 0:37:10I understand.

0:37:16 > 0:37:18INTERCOM BUZZES

0:38:01 > 0:38:04LAUGHTER AND ROCK MUSIC

0:38:06 > 0:38:07Has Alex called for me?

0:38:11 > 0:38:12Has Alex called?!

0:38:34 > 0:38:35KNOCKING

0:38:46 > 0:38:47How long?

0:38:49 > 0:38:50HE SIGHS

0:38:51 > 0:38:5211 days.

0:38:54 > 0:38:55What happened?

0:38:58 > 0:39:00I told him.

0:39:00 > 0:39:02That you loved him?

0:39:02 > 0:39:03How you and I became friends.

0:39:04 > 0:39:05That was a mistake.

0:39:05 > 0:39:08Why didn't I shut my mouth?!

0:39:11 > 0:39:12Because you needed to know.

0:39:15 > 0:39:16Could he still love you?

0:39:19 > 0:39:20I fucked it up. I...

0:39:22 > 0:39:24I'd fucked it up before I'd even met him.

0:39:26 > 0:39:27Have you tried everything?

0:39:33 > 0:39:36Well, there's only one thing left to do. Accept that it's over.

0:39:36 > 0:39:37I can't.

0:39:37 > 0:39:39What other choice do you have?

0:39:42 > 0:39:43You'll get over it.

0:39:44 > 0:39:46Not quickly. Not completely.

0:39:46 > 0:39:47But enough to carry on.

0:39:48 > 0:39:49Trust me on that.

0:39:52 > 0:39:54But now, I'm afraid you'll have to excuse me.

0:39:54 > 0:39:55I have work to do.

0:39:57 > 0:39:58You want me to leave?

0:39:58 > 0:40:00I'd never ask you to leave!

0:40:00 > 0:40:01Rest here. Sleep, eat.

0:40:02 > 0:40:05But today, I can't play assistant to your personal life.

0:40:12 > 0:40:13Just out of curiosity...

0:40:15 > 0:40:17..did you ever wonder what I might want?

0:40:18 > 0:40:19What YOU want?

0:40:23 > 0:40:24What do you want?

0:40:31 > 0:40:32Do you want this?

0:40:35 > 0:40:37Is this what you want?!

0:40:40 > 0:40:42What do I owe you? Five nights? Ten nights? Tell me!

0:40:56 > 0:40:57Scottie, I'm sorry, I...

0:40:58 > 0:40:59I'm sorry.

0:41:43 > 0:41:44We should call the police.

0:41:44 > 0:41:46Nothing was taken.

0:41:46 > 0:41:48We couldn't even give our stuff away.

0:42:17 > 0:42:19A GIRL YELPS DISTANTLY

0:42:46 > 0:42:47MACHINE BEEPS URGENTLY

0:42:55 > 0:42:57- MACHINE:- 'System rebooting.

0:43:01 > 0:43:03'Item for Danny Holt.'

0:43:03 > 0:43:05MACHINE BEEPS REGULARLY

0:43:48 > 0:43:49MACHINE BEEPS TWICE

0:43:53 > 0:43:55MACHINE BEEPS RAPIDLY

0:43:55 > 0:43:57'Destination reached.'

0:44:23 > 0:44:25CAMERA WHIRS

0:44:46 > 0:44:48DOOR CREAKS

0:44:48 > 0:44:49HE KNOCKS

0:44:51 > 0:44:52Alex?

0:45:05 > 0:45:06Alex?

0:45:55 > 0:45:57FAINT DRIPPING

0:46:26 > 0:46:27SPRINGS CLANG LOUDLY

0:46:39 > 0:46:40Alex?

0:47:10 > 0:47:11BULBS CLATTER

0:47:25 > 0:47:27MUSIC BOX TWANGS DELICATELY

0:49:51 > 0:49:53ELEMENT HUMS

0:49:56 > 0:49:57BULBS CLATTER FAINTLY

0:50:08 > 0:50:10HE TAKES SHORT, NERVOUS BREATHS

0:50:24 > 0:50:26HISS OF ESCAPING GAS

0:50:26 > 0:50:28HE GROANS

0:50:28 > 0:50:29HE PANTS, SHAKILY

0:51:00 > 0:51:02HE PANTS

0:51:14 > 0:51:16Aah!

0:51:26 > 0:51:28HE SIGHS

0:51:46 > 0:51:47Police, please.

0:52:08 > 0:52:09BULBS CLATTER LOUDLY

0:52:37 > 0:52:39SIRENS BLARE

0:52:56 > 0:52:57INTERCOM BEEPS

0:53:00 > 0:53:02Police, can you open up, please?

0:53:10 > 0:53:14LOUD BANGING ON DOOR

0:53:18 > 0:53:20OPEN THIS DOOR!

0:53:24 > 0:53:25Step aside, sir.

0:53:40 > 0:53:41His name's Alex.

0:53:45 > 0:53:46He's my partner.

0:53:49 > 0:53:50It's his apartment.

0:53:52 > 0:53:53He disappeared two weeks ago.

0:53:55 > 0:53:56Do you think it might not be him?

0:54:01 > 0:54:03Tell me what you know about...Alex.

0:54:17 > 0:54:18He's a genius.

0:54:20 > 0:54:21HE HOLDS BACK TEARS

0:54:23 > 0:54:25He went to university at the age of 15.

0:54:30 > 0:54:32He's got no family. His parents are dead.

0:54:37 > 0:54:39Erm...

0:54:40 > 0:54:42He works for an investment bank.

0:54:46 > 0:54:48What else do you need to know?

0:54:51 > 0:54:53Do you know...

0:54:55 > 0:54:56..this man?

0:54:57 > 0:54:59Yes. This is Alex.

0:55:00 > 0:55:01Your partner?

0:55:01 > 0:55:03HE SIGHS

0:55:04 > 0:55:06Yeah.

0:55:06 > 0:55:08What kind of relationship did you have with him?

0:55:08 > 0:55:10Did it involve sadism?

0:55:10 > 0:55:11- Drugs?- No.

0:55:11 > 0:55:13You see, it's hard for me to believe

0:55:13 > 0:55:15you were in a serious relationship...

0:55:16 > 0:55:18..when you don't even know his name.

0:55:21 > 0:55:23This man is called Alistair.

0:55:23 > 0:55:25His parents are alive.

0:55:25 > 0:55:26He did not work for a bank.

0:55:35 > 0:55:37Is it possible...

0:55:37 > 0:55:39you enjoyed extreme sexual encounters

0:55:39 > 0:55:41with someone who didn't want you to know their name?

0:55:45 > 0:55:46Is it possible?

0:55:52 > 0:55:54This will stop.

0:55:54 > 0:55:55Right now.

0:56:17 > 0:56:18He lied.

0:56:20 > 0:56:21About everything.

0:56:24 > 0:56:26When you introduced us...

0:56:26 > 0:56:28You knew?

0:56:28 > 0:56:29Not exactly.

0:56:30 > 0:56:32Our paths had never crossed. But...

0:56:32 > 0:56:33I recognised the type.

0:56:34 > 0:56:36I see them in the corridors of Whitehall.

0:56:37 > 0:56:40People with power, and secrets.

0:56:40 > 0:56:42Their importance emanates from them. I felt it.

0:56:44 > 0:56:45He worked for MI6.

0:56:47 > 0:56:49He was a spy.

0:57:23 > 0:57:25Er, Danny?

0:57:26 > 0:57:28The police were concerned you might've taken something

0:57:28 > 0:57:30from the crime scene. A personal item?

0:57:30 > 0:57:32Something of sentimental value.

0:57:32 > 0:57:34You wouldn't have done that, would you?

0:57:36 > 0:57:37Course not.

0:57:37 > 0:57:38No. Course not.

0:57:54 > 0:57:56TRAIN CLATTERS BY

0:58:29 > 0:58:30TAP DRIBBLES

0:58:30 > 0:58:32RADIO HISSES STATIC

0:59:10 > 0:59:13HE BREATHES A SHALLOW BREATH

0:59:15 > 0:59:17MUSIC: Takeda Lullaby, Japanese folk song.