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0:00:09 > 0:00:13- This is Alex.- Your partner?- Yeah. He's a genius. He went to university at the age of 15.
0:00:13 > 0:00:19- The people I work with... are inscrutable.- Alex?
0:00:19 > 0:00:22What kind of relationship did you have with him?
0:00:22 > 0:00:23Did it involve sadism?
0:00:23 > 0:00:24No.
0:00:32 > 0:00:34HE GASPS
0:00:36 > 0:00:38I could never hurt Danny...
0:00:39 > 0:00:42..because he is the only friend I have.
0:00:42 > 0:00:44This man is called Alistair,
0:00:44 > 0:00:46his parents are alive.
0:00:46 > 0:00:49Is it possible you enjoyed extreme sexual encounters
0:00:49 > 0:00:53with someone who didn't want you to know their name?
0:00:53 > 0:00:55He worked for MI6.
0:00:55 > 0:00:57He was a spy.
0:00:57 > 0:01:00The police were concerned you might have taken something
0:01:00 > 0:01:01from the crime scene -
0:01:01 > 0:01:03a personal item, something of sentimental value.
0:01:03 > 0:01:05You wouldn't have done that, would you?
0:01:06 > 0:01:07Of course not.
0:01:07 > 0:01:09No, of course not.
0:01:38 > 0:01:42RADIO: # ..All the love you can
0:01:46 > 0:01:49# Stand by
0:01:49 > 0:01:51# Your man
0:01:55 > 0:02:00# Stand by your man
0:02:00 > 0:02:03# And tell the world you love him
0:02:03 > 0:02:09# Keep giving all the love you can
0:02:14 > 0:02:21# Stand by your man. #
0:04:40 > 0:04:42HE PANTS
0:04:58 > 0:05:00HE SIGHS
0:06:34 > 0:06:36HE SOBS
0:07:11 > 0:07:13Your newspaper has...
0:07:13 > 0:07:16reported a series of lies.
0:07:19 > 0:07:22It's not the truth.
0:07:22 > 0:07:24You need to tell them the truth.
0:07:26 > 0:07:28You need to listen to me!
0:07:33 > 0:07:35I'm here today...
0:07:36 > 0:07:38..to tell you the truth.
0:07:41 > 0:07:43I'm here today to tell you the truth.
0:07:45 > 0:07:48I'm here today to tell you the truth.
0:07:50 > 0:07:52I'm here today to tell you the truth.
0:07:52 > 0:07:55You fuck! HE SOBS
0:07:55 > 0:07:57I'm here today to tell you the TRUTH!
0:08:51 > 0:08:55In your phone call you asked how it all works.
0:08:55 > 0:08:58We took that as negotiating payment.
0:08:58 > 0:09:00Oh, no. Erm...
0:09:01 > 0:09:04I have never spoken to a journalist before.
0:09:06 > 0:09:07I don't want money.
0:09:09 > 0:09:11I'm here to tell you the truth.
0:09:20 > 0:09:25You used the word "partners" to describe your relationship.
0:09:25 > 0:09:27- Yeah, we were partners. - What do you mean by that?
0:09:27 > 0:09:30Erm, I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him.
0:09:32 > 0:09:35You'd been together eight months?
0:09:37 > 0:09:38Yeah.
0:09:38 > 0:09:42During those eight months, how many times had you visited the attic?
0:09:42 > 0:09:45I'd never visited the attic.
0:09:46 > 0:09:48Apart from when I discovered...
0:09:52 > 0:09:54That was the only time, that was the first time.
0:09:56 > 0:09:58- But you must have known about it?- No.
0:09:58 > 0:10:00The activities that went on up there?
0:10:00 > 0:10:02Well, that's what I'm trying to tell you -
0:10:02 > 0:10:05I don't think anything did go on up there.
0:10:05 > 0:10:09Erm, I never saw him use those items,
0:10:09 > 0:10:12I never heard him talk about those things.
0:10:12 > 0:10:15You were his sexual partner for eight months.
0:10:15 > 0:10:19He never mentioned sadism? Never asked you to participate?
0:10:19 > 0:10:22Never discussed his predilections? You know nothing?
0:10:22 > 0:10:25Why won't you ask me what I think happened to him?
0:10:25 > 0:10:27What do you think happened to him?
0:10:27 > 0:10:29He was murdered.
0:10:30 > 0:10:33Who murdered him?
0:10:33 > 0:10:34I don't know.
0:10:34 > 0:10:36Why did they murder him?
0:11:02 > 0:11:04Not here.
0:11:07 > 0:11:09You don't use his name.
0:11:09 > 0:11:12Is it true you didn't even know it?
0:11:21 > 0:11:24Did he ever tell you he was in danger?
0:11:25 > 0:11:27No.
0:11:27 > 0:11:30OK, I get it.
0:11:30 > 0:11:32He's a spy, he needed to be careful.
0:11:32 > 0:11:34You met by chance.
0:11:34 > 0:11:35First day, he lied.
0:11:35 > 0:11:37But eight months later
0:11:37 > 0:11:39you want to spend the rest of your lives together
0:11:39 > 0:11:42and you're still using the wrong name to say how much you love him?
0:11:44 > 0:11:46He told me his name was Alex.
0:11:46 > 0:11:48People lie, Danny.
0:11:48 > 0:11:50And they lie well.
0:11:50 > 0:11:53Guys who own rooms like that attic...
0:11:54 > 0:11:58..when it comes to sex, they know what they want, how they want it.
0:11:58 > 0:12:02The sex...is professional.
0:12:04 > 0:12:06And he didn't know what he enjoyed.
0:12:09 > 0:12:11He'd never found out.
0:12:20 > 0:12:22Do you believe me?
0:12:23 > 0:12:24- It doesn't matter what- I- believe.
0:12:27 > 0:12:30But, yes...I do.
0:12:40 > 0:12:43Journalists make difficult bedfellows.
0:12:43 > 0:12:45You can't just tell them what to print.
0:12:45 > 0:12:47You didn't want to discuss it with me first?
0:12:47 > 0:12:50I knew you'd try and talk me out of it.
0:12:50 > 0:12:53Make me think what a dumb idea it was.
0:12:53 > 0:12:55What is this?
0:12:55 > 0:12:57Mistrust?
0:12:59 > 0:13:01It is.
0:13:01 > 0:13:03I see.
0:13:04 > 0:13:09You trusted me with your life, but not now, not with this!
0:13:10 > 0:13:14My life is small, this is... organisations, institutions.
0:13:16 > 0:13:19You see me as one of them, don't you?
0:13:19 > 0:13:21The suit, the education, the job -
0:13:21 > 0:13:23I'm part of the Establishment.
0:13:23 > 0:13:24Well, aren't you?
0:13:25 > 0:13:27How dare you, young man!
0:13:28 > 0:13:30How dare you presume to know me.
0:13:30 > 0:13:33I know you because I've heard every secret you have to tell.
0:13:33 > 0:13:35What do you know about me?
0:13:35 > 0:13:36Answer me.
0:13:36 > 0:13:39- I know...- You know where I live.
0:13:39 > 0:13:43You know what films I like, you know what music I listen to.
0:13:43 > 0:13:46Did you know that I suffer from depression?
0:13:46 > 0:13:49Did you know that in the past I drank every night,
0:13:49 > 0:13:51every day, every morning -
0:13:51 > 0:13:54I drank until a stranger could smell it on me!
0:13:56 > 0:13:57Do you know just how fucking far I am
0:13:57 > 0:14:00from being part of the Establishment?!
0:14:00 > 0:14:04How dare you mistrust me...
0:14:05 > 0:14:07..when you don't know!
0:14:12 > 0:14:14You want to know who I am,
0:14:14 > 0:14:15who I really am...
0:14:17 > 0:14:19I'll show you.
0:14:41 > 0:14:43Where we going?!
0:14:43 > 0:14:46Come on. Then you can decide whether you trust me or not.
0:14:51 > 0:14:53BIRDSONG
0:14:53 > 0:14:54DOG BARKS IN DISTANCE
0:15:05 > 0:15:08This is the spot where my career as a spy came to an end.
0:15:12 > 0:15:14I was a spy...
0:15:14 > 0:15:17a long time ago.
0:15:18 > 0:15:21In a world very different to this one.
0:15:27 > 0:15:29I was recruited at Cambridge.
0:15:32 > 0:15:35I said yes partly because it wouldn't be a normal life,
0:15:35 > 0:15:37with regular hours.
0:15:38 > 0:15:41I was desperate to avoid the five o'clock home time...
0:15:43 > 0:15:45..whilst not being bohemian enough
0:15:45 > 0:15:48to imagine life without a proper profession.
0:15:52 > 0:15:55Not very patriotic motives, I suppose.
0:15:58 > 0:16:02But they rather liked that about me, an utter lack of idealism.
0:16:04 > 0:16:07Romantics make unreliable spies.
0:16:15 > 0:16:17It was my third year with MI6.
0:16:19 > 0:16:22I was travelling back to London on the night train.
0:16:23 > 0:16:26A handsome man entered my carriage...
0:16:27 > 0:16:30..sat opposite me.
0:16:30 > 0:16:33The tips of our shoes touched.
0:16:33 > 0:16:36Our eyes chanced.
0:16:36 > 0:16:39He asked the most mundane questions
0:16:39 > 0:16:41in the most exciting way.
0:16:41 > 0:16:43When we arrived at Paddington,
0:16:43 > 0:16:45I went to the gentlemen's
0:16:45 > 0:16:48and waited in a cubicle,
0:16:48 > 0:16:51door ajar, hoping.
0:16:55 > 0:16:58I can't tell you how happy I was to see him.
0:17:00 > 0:17:02It meant that I hadn't been wrong.
0:17:04 > 0:17:07And that for the next 15 minutes or so, I wouldn't be alone.
0:17:13 > 0:17:16After all these years, prudishness runs deep.
0:17:21 > 0:17:25The next day, I was approached by a Soviet operative...
0:17:26 > 0:17:29..who described how the Soviet Union
0:17:29 > 0:17:32welcomed "men like me".
0:17:32 > 0:17:34"Under Communism we're all equals."
0:17:36 > 0:17:39And once I'd completed my mission here,
0:17:39 > 0:17:42in a country that would always hate my kind,
0:17:42 > 0:17:45I could set up home in Moscow and be free.
0:17:47 > 0:17:51Some "men like me" actually believed that lie, but I was not one of them.
0:17:53 > 0:17:57So all that remained... was the blackmail.
0:18:00 > 0:18:02I'd be exposed...
0:18:02 > 0:18:05arrested...
0:18:05 > 0:18:06disgraced.
0:18:08 > 0:18:11- SCOTTIE SIGHS - So that night...
0:18:11 > 0:18:13I bought a rope...
0:18:14 > 0:18:16..and came here.
0:18:17 > 0:18:20But sitting on that branch,
0:18:20 > 0:18:22noose ready,
0:18:22 > 0:18:25I thought to myself, "There is another way."
0:18:25 > 0:18:28You told your bosses you were gay. SCOTTIE CHUCKLES
0:18:28 > 0:18:31That's a wonderful wrong answer.
0:18:31 > 0:18:33However, the option did not yet exist!
0:18:33 > 0:18:38No, I explained to my section head
0:18:38 > 0:18:41that I'd been approached by a Soviet operative
0:18:41 > 0:18:43and I detailed the nature of the blackmail.
0:18:43 > 0:18:46He asked if the allegations were true.
0:18:46 > 0:18:50I admitted that I'd made a mistake with a man
0:18:50 > 0:18:54and that the operative probably had evidence of that mistake.
0:18:54 > 0:18:56But it was only once.
0:18:56 > 0:18:59An act of disgusting madness.
0:18:59 > 0:19:01"I'm not a homosexual!
0:19:01 > 0:19:03"And I'm not a traitor!"
0:19:05 > 0:19:07Hard for them to believe the second statement
0:19:07 > 0:19:09when they knew that the first was a lie.
0:19:09 > 0:19:12So I proposed, preposterously,
0:19:12 > 0:19:14they employ someone to follow me for the rest of my life,
0:19:14 > 0:19:16photograph my every move.
0:19:16 > 0:19:20I would never touch another man.
0:19:20 > 0:19:24I didn't discover until later that it hadn't been a Soviet operative,
0:19:24 > 0:19:27it had been an internal investigation.
0:19:27 > 0:19:30You've heard of a mole hunt?
0:19:30 > 0:19:32Well, this was a fag hunt,
0:19:32 > 0:19:35which they saw as more or less the same thing.
0:19:35 > 0:19:37Her Majesty's Secret Service
0:19:37 > 0:19:40had had its fingers burnt by one too many queer spies.
0:19:40 > 0:19:43But my prompt confession saved my life.
0:19:44 > 0:19:47I was moved from MI6 into what was then named
0:19:47 > 0:19:48The Ministry for Transport,
0:19:48 > 0:19:50where I was little more than a penpusher,
0:19:50 > 0:19:53whispered about by those in the know.
0:19:55 > 0:19:59Out of gratitude and fear, I kept my end of the bargain.
0:20:02 > 0:20:05And for 11 years, I did not touch another man.
0:20:25 > 0:20:27Will you sleep?
0:20:31 > 0:20:34Then I propose we stay up all night
0:20:34 > 0:20:36and wait for the morning papers together.
0:20:39 > 0:20:41BIRDSONG
0:21:57 > 0:21:59- In my office.- Huh?
0:22:05 > 0:22:07Drug-test me.
0:22:10 > 0:22:12I need this.
0:22:24 > 0:22:26It's from his parents.
0:23:32 > 0:23:34Mr and Mrs Turner.
0:23:43 > 0:23:45ENGINE STARTS
0:23:47 > 0:23:49Beautiful countryside round here.
0:24:10 > 0:24:12How long have you lived here?
0:24:16 > 0:24:18Didn't Alistair tell you?
0:24:18 > 0:24:21No.
0:24:21 > 0:24:23What did he tell you about us?
0:24:24 > 0:24:27The truth...please.
0:24:29 > 0:24:31He told me you were dead.
0:24:32 > 0:24:34We weren't close.
0:25:08 > 0:25:09Bathroom's opposite.
0:25:09 > 0:25:11It's... It's all yours.
0:25:18 > 0:25:20Is one towel enough?
0:25:20 > 0:25:22Plenty.
0:25:24 > 0:25:25DOOR CLOSES
0:26:02 > 0:26:04We've already eaten.
0:26:04 > 0:26:06We won't stand here and watch.
0:26:26 > 0:26:28DOOR OPENS
0:26:37 > 0:26:40- How was dinner?- Fine.
0:26:53 > 0:26:56Alistair, tell me about him.
0:26:59 > 0:27:01BOOK CLOSES
0:27:12 > 0:27:14Will you be able to sleep?
0:27:14 > 0:27:16Probably not.
0:27:18 > 0:27:20Alistair suffered from insomnia.
0:27:20 > 0:27:24Well, that's why he enjoyed running so much - to exhaust him.
0:27:24 > 0:27:27His mind was so busy,
0:27:27 > 0:27:29he ran so he could sleep.
0:27:41 > 0:27:43Why can't you talk to me?
0:27:55 > 0:27:57DOOR OPENS
0:28:57 > 0:28:59KNOCK AT DOOR DOOR OPENS
0:29:02 > 0:29:04- MR TURNER:- Time to talk.
0:29:08 > 0:29:10You read the article?
0:29:11 > 0:29:14We're not making any judgements.
0:29:17 > 0:29:19You see the life we lead.
0:29:19 > 0:29:21We're private people,
0:29:21 > 0:29:24we don't want attention.
0:29:24 > 0:29:25The past is the past.
0:29:25 > 0:29:28What Alistair did in London was up to him.
0:29:28 > 0:29:30He was an adult.
0:29:30 > 0:29:32We can't bring him back.
0:29:32 > 0:29:34We'd just prefer it...
0:29:34 > 0:29:37if there was no fuss.
0:29:38 > 0:29:41We'd...both prefer it.
0:29:42 > 0:29:45- I won't talk to the press again. - That's good.
0:29:45 > 0:29:48But nobody was saying it, so I had to.
0:29:48 > 0:29:51Your son was murdered.
0:29:51 > 0:29:54After breakfast, why don't we go for a walk?
0:30:05 > 0:30:07Your son was murdered.
0:30:08 > 0:30:10My son is dead.
0:30:10 > 0:30:12My wife is sick.
0:30:13 > 0:30:16- I'm sorry.- Enough.
0:30:18 > 0:30:20Enough?
0:30:50 > 0:30:54We need to leave soon if we're to catch your train.
0:30:56 > 0:30:59That...is not his bedroom.
0:31:03 > 0:31:04This is not his home.
0:31:04 > 0:31:07Have you lost your mind?!
0:31:07 > 0:31:09Who are you?
0:31:12 > 0:31:15Who are you?! PHONE RINGS
0:31:21 > 0:31:23- WOMAN:- 'Bring him.'
0:31:26 > 0:31:28Who was that?
0:31:28 > 0:31:30That was Alistair's mother.
0:31:35 > 0:31:37His mother?!
0:31:42 > 0:31:45- What does she want?- To meet you.
0:31:50 > 0:31:52- How far is it?- Not far.
0:31:57 > 0:31:58ENGINE STARTS
0:32:48 > 0:32:50Anything else you want to see?
0:32:50 > 0:32:53Not everyone is comfortable inviting strangers to their home.
0:32:55 > 0:32:59We thought if you saw where we lived you might try to extort us.
0:32:59 > 0:33:02- Why do you think I would want your money?- Because you have none.
0:33:02 > 0:33:04You want an apology?
0:33:04 > 0:33:06I gave you an explanation.
0:33:06 > 0:33:09You...I believe.
0:33:10 > 0:33:14My husband's name is Charles. My name is Frances.
0:33:14 > 0:33:17My son's name was Alistair.
0:33:17 > 0:33:20Your name, Daniel, we read in the paper.
0:33:20 > 0:33:23- My staff you met. - Where's she taking my stuff?
0:33:23 > 0:33:26Well, surely you're going to spend the night?
0:33:36 > 0:33:38CROW CAWS
0:33:49 > 0:33:53We're in the midst of restoring the house to its former glory.
0:33:57 > 0:34:00We had hoped Alistair would finish the task.
0:34:28 > 0:34:30This is his room.
0:34:31 > 0:34:33How did you know?
0:34:45 > 0:34:48Because it's the loneliest room I've ever been in.
0:35:06 > 0:35:10Charles was sure you'd catch the train home today, none the wiser.
0:35:10 > 0:35:13I was convinced you'd figure it out.
0:35:13 > 0:35:16It seems you did so not with reason or deduction...
0:35:17 > 0:35:20..but something akin to...
0:35:20 > 0:35:21female intuition.
0:35:28 > 0:35:30I won't sleep in here.
0:35:32 > 0:35:35I would never have allowed it.
0:35:41 > 0:35:43Dinner is at eight.
0:35:43 > 0:35:45You're embarrassed by his death.
0:35:47 > 0:35:49Yes.
0:35:50 > 0:35:52Upset, too?
0:35:54 > 0:35:55Yes.
0:35:55 > 0:35:57More than you can imagine.
0:36:02 > 0:36:04BIRDSONG
0:36:06 > 0:36:08CROW CAWS
0:38:17 > 0:38:19Did you realise your provocation was infantile
0:38:19 > 0:38:22before or after you came through that door?
0:38:25 > 0:38:29Before, I see. But you didn't decide to change?
0:38:33 > 0:38:35Would you like me to?
0:38:36 > 0:38:37No.
0:38:38 > 0:38:40I think I prefer you like that.
0:38:50 > 0:38:52Thank you.
0:39:07 > 0:39:10Alistair completed that maze unassisted,
0:39:10 > 0:39:13three months before his fifth birthday.
0:39:19 > 0:39:21Others considered him to be disturbed,
0:39:21 > 0:39:24but what they saw as a disturbance of the mind
0:39:24 > 0:39:27was, in fact, an exceptional gift.
0:39:28 > 0:39:31However, it's not enough in this world to be born brilliant -
0:39:31 > 0:39:34you need direction and discipline.
0:39:34 > 0:39:37You need someone who reminds you, day after day,
0:39:37 > 0:39:40never to waste your talent on triviality.
0:39:40 > 0:39:43How many brilliant minds are out there right now
0:39:43 > 0:39:46rotting in squalor and neglect?
0:39:48 > 0:39:50It took every ounce of my strength
0:39:50 > 0:39:52to make Alistair realise his potential.
0:39:54 > 0:39:56He ended up hating me for it.
0:39:58 > 0:40:01But you guessed that already.
0:40:05 > 0:40:07Your son was murdered.
0:40:09 > 0:40:11The attic was staged.
0:40:15 > 0:40:19And everything you've read about his death is a lie.
0:40:25 > 0:40:28After dinner, perhaps you will join me for a drink.
0:40:46 > 0:40:48My son wasn't gay.
0:40:48 > 0:40:52Before you hold some sort of parade through the house, hear me out.
0:40:52 > 0:40:56Alistair...didn't think like ordinary people.
0:40:56 > 0:40:59He didn't feel what ordinary people feel.
0:40:59 > 0:41:02In his eyes, everyone was a puzzle.
0:41:02 > 0:41:04He took immense satisfaction
0:41:04 > 0:41:07figuring out what a person wanted
0:41:07 > 0:41:09and then giving it to them.
0:41:09 > 0:41:12As if we were all computers...
0:41:15 > 0:41:17..waiting for the correct code.
0:41:20 > 0:41:23Alistair could be anything a person wanted him to be.
0:41:23 > 0:41:27In your case, it appears you craved romance,
0:41:27 > 0:41:29a good old-fashioned love story.
0:41:29 > 0:41:32He gave it to you.
0:41:32 > 0:41:36Meanwhile, he continued giving other kinds of stimulation
0:41:36 > 0:41:40to other kinds of people, men and women.
0:41:43 > 0:41:47If he was involved with someone who hankered after risk,
0:41:47 > 0:41:49he would have provided it.
0:41:51 > 0:41:54Danger, pain, submission, domination.
0:41:54 > 0:41:58Alistair was as precocious sexually
0:41:58 > 0:42:00as he was intellectually.
0:42:00 > 0:42:02To him, they were one and the same.
0:42:02 > 0:42:05Sex was just another form of decryption.
0:42:08 > 0:42:10You think I'm cruel?
0:42:10 > 0:42:11Perhaps I am.
0:42:13 > 0:42:16But not in this instance.
0:42:16 > 0:42:18I wanted to preserve your illusions.
0:42:19 > 0:42:21We had hoped that you would go home
0:42:21 > 0:42:25and mourn in the belief that your relationship was perfect.
0:42:27 > 0:42:28You loved him, I see that.
0:42:30 > 0:42:33However, I cannot allow you to be unaware of the facts,
0:42:33 > 0:42:34in case you blunder further
0:42:34 > 0:42:37into a situation you simply do not understand.
0:42:39 > 0:42:41I'm not surprised he used a different name -
0:42:41 > 0:42:43he was playing a part.
0:42:43 > 0:42:45The part of a conventional lover.
0:42:50 > 0:42:53I haven't read many books.
0:42:54 > 0:42:57I haven't been to many...places.
0:43:00 > 0:43:03But I have fucked a lot of people.
0:43:06 > 0:43:08And there's one thing...
0:43:08 > 0:43:10you just can't fake.
0:43:12 > 0:43:14Inexperience.
0:43:17 > 0:43:20The body's tense when it should be relaxed.
0:43:22 > 0:43:25It hurts when...it should be fun.
0:43:26 > 0:43:29And it's dirty when it should be clean.
0:43:32 > 0:43:34I don't care how smart you are,
0:43:34 > 0:43:36your muscles can't lie.
0:43:36 > 0:43:40I'm talking about feeling his inexperience
0:43:40 > 0:43:43as clearly as I can feel this glass.
0:43:43 > 0:43:45Do you follow me, Frances?
0:43:47 > 0:43:48I can see you do.
0:43:48 > 0:43:51So I know for a fact you're lying.
0:43:54 > 0:43:58I know for a fact that your son, the man I loved,
0:43:58 > 0:44:00was a virgin.
0:44:00 > 0:44:01What I don't understand
0:44:01 > 0:44:04is why you're so keen to convince me otherwise.
0:44:15 > 0:44:19When he told me you were dead, he wasn't lying, was he?
0:44:21 > 0:44:25Amongst all the lies you've heard here this weekend,
0:44:25 > 0:44:27recognise one truth -
0:44:27 > 0:44:30"no fuss" is the best piece of advice
0:44:30 > 0:44:32you will ever be given.
0:47:06 > 0:47:09I prefer it down here.
0:47:11 > 0:47:13- She won't like it.- No.
0:47:14 > 0:47:16I don't think she will.
0:47:23 > 0:47:25You cared about him.
0:47:28 > 0:47:30You cared for him.
0:47:31 > 0:47:34If he had a problem, he came to you, didn't he?
0:47:36 > 0:47:38Not her.
0:47:45 > 0:47:47You loved him.
0:47:48 > 0:47:50SHE SOBS
0:47:54 > 0:47:56Alex.
0:47:57 > 0:47:59Alex.
0:48:07 > 0:48:10He hated the name Alistair.
0:48:10 > 0:48:12SHE LAUGHS
0:48:18 > 0:48:20What happened here?
0:48:22 > 0:48:25Get as far away from these people as you can.
0:48:32 > 0:48:34He insisted.
0:48:38 > 0:48:40ENGINE IDLES
0:49:43 > 0:49:45HORN
0:49:55 > 0:49:59- ALEX:- 'I want to tell you a story...about a man.'
0:50:02 > 0:50:04'While everyone was laughing...
0:50:04 > 0:50:05'and drinking,
0:50:05 > 0:50:07'he would just walk...'
0:50:10 > 0:50:13'..until he reached the exact same spot,
0:50:13 > 0:50:16'where he'd sit with his back to all those people.'
0:50:19 > 0:50:22'And while he did everything he possibly could
0:50:22 > 0:50:25'to signal to the world that he wanted to be left alone...'
0:50:27 > 0:50:28'..more than anything,
0:50:28 > 0:50:31'he hoped that someone passing
0:50:31 > 0:50:33'would understand that what he really wanted
0:50:33 > 0:50:35'was the exact opposite.
0:50:35 > 0:50:39'And that this someone would sit next to him...'
0:50:41 > 0:50:43'..and strike up a conversation.'
0:50:47 > 0:50:48'I was that man...'
0:50:50 > 0:50:52'..and you were that someone.'
0:50:54 > 0:50:57I have a sweet tooth.
0:51:00 > 0:51:03It's easier to quit smoking, I swear.
0:51:09 > 0:51:12Not very British, talking to strangers, is it?
0:51:12 > 0:51:16I've worked in your country for ten years now.
0:51:26 > 0:51:27Do you own a house?
0:51:29 > 0:51:31- No.- A car?
0:51:32 > 0:51:34No, nothing.
0:51:34 > 0:51:35Well, you have your health.
0:51:39 > 0:51:41That's the most precious asset of all.
0:51:41 > 0:51:43My health?
0:51:49 > 0:51:51Lots of people think they have nothing to lose,
0:51:51 > 0:51:55but in my professional experience,
0:51:55 > 0:51:58they just haven't thought it through.
0:51:58 > 0:52:01- Are you threatening me?- Threatening?
0:52:02 > 0:52:05My, oh, my!
0:52:05 > 0:52:08This is just a conversation,
0:52:08 > 0:52:09a chitchat.
0:52:09 > 0:52:12Two people passing in the night.
0:52:12 > 0:52:15I can see why you're so confused,
0:52:15 > 0:52:19over the years I've adopted quite a few of your country's customs,
0:52:19 > 0:52:21but that great British reserve escapes me.
0:52:21 > 0:52:24I enjoy talking too much.
0:52:24 > 0:52:26And, once in a while,
0:52:26 > 0:52:30someone unexpected tells you something...
0:52:30 > 0:52:33that might save your life.
0:52:41 > 0:52:43Be sure to put that card someplace safe.
0:53:58 > 0:53:59HE KNOCKS ON DOOR
0:54:17 > 0:54:19You think my house is bugged?
0:54:19 > 0:54:21I've just been threatened.
0:54:21 > 0:54:23They...heard us.
0:54:23 > 0:54:26- Who?- The people who murdered Alex.
0:54:27 > 0:54:29All right...
0:54:31 > 0:54:34..suppose he was murdered, suppose you're right.
0:54:34 > 0:54:36Follow it through,
0:54:36 > 0:54:39the implications of what you're saying.
0:54:39 > 0:54:41You know nothing about them,
0:54:41 > 0:54:44they will know everything about you.
0:54:44 > 0:54:47Every action you take will have been predicted, planned for -
0:54:47 > 0:54:50even coming here tonight.
0:54:52 > 0:54:55And if they don't kill you, it'll be for one reason -
0:54:55 > 0:54:59they consider you less of a nuisance alive than dead.
0:55:00 > 0:55:03If you're insulted by the idea of your insignificance,
0:55:03 > 0:55:05you shouldn't be, you should cherish it.
0:55:05 > 0:55:08No daring journalist is going to come to your aid,
0:55:08 > 0:55:10no rogue police officer.
0:55:10 > 0:55:12It's just you - you alone, Danny.
0:55:12 > 0:55:15Ask yourself, honestly, who are you?
0:55:15 > 0:55:17You're friends with everyone,
0:55:17 > 0:55:19you trust everyone, and you know no-one.
0:55:19 > 0:55:23- You know these people. - I knew them 30 years ago.- Help me.
0:55:27 > 0:55:31One way or another, I've been afraid for much of my life,
0:55:31 > 0:55:32and it's a privilege to spend time
0:55:32 > 0:55:34with a man who's never afraid of anything.
0:55:34 > 0:55:37And that's not because you were born in a different time -
0:55:37 > 0:55:39you're fearless.
0:55:39 > 0:55:42I've always wondered how that must feel.
0:55:42 > 0:55:45But, Danny, occasionally,
0:55:45 > 0:55:47it's right to be afraid.
0:55:47 > 0:55:49Leave this alone.
0:55:50 > 0:55:52Promise me.
0:55:55 > 0:55:57SCRATCHING
0:57:32 > 0:57:35# ..Your man
0:57:35 > 0:57:39# And show the world you love him
0:57:39 > 0:57:47# Keep giving all the love you can
0:57:49 > 0:57:57# Stand by your man. #