0:00:02 > 0:00:05- RAPID KNOCKING - Hey, hey, what are you playing at?
0:00:05 > 0:00:08- I've been in there five minutes! - Well, just keep the noise down.
0:00:08 > 0:00:10Are you going to tell her to wind her neck in, or what?
0:00:10 > 0:00:13- You'll have him complaining.- She's banging on the door for England,
0:00:13 > 0:00:17- and you're telling me to keep it down? She gets away with murder. - What do you want me to do, Patrick,
0:00:17 > 0:00:19wait here till she comes out and then throttle her?
0:00:19 > 0:00:22- Would that make you happy? - You're a spoilt brat, tin teeth.
0:00:45 > 0:00:47I've got to pay for the venue, today.
0:00:47 > 0:00:49Are you sure we can afford a second mortgage?
0:00:49 > 0:00:50How did you get to be so tight-fisted?
0:00:50 > 0:00:52It's your first-born's 18th birthday.
0:00:52 > 0:00:54Look, I didn't even want children, you pay for it...
0:00:54 > 0:00:57If you really want to go to Amsterdam for Col's stag do next month,
0:00:57 > 0:01:00- I'd think about keeping me sweet.- Am I the only one who's got any sense?
0:01:00 > 0:01:02Everyone knows that place is a rip-off.
0:01:02 > 0:01:04No matter how many times we have this conversation,
0:01:04 > 0:01:08- that's the venue we're having. - Meanness is really unattractive.
0:01:08 > 0:01:11Do you want to stick the boot in as well while we're at it?
0:01:11 > 0:01:12You'll be seeing her in about 20 minutes.
0:01:12 > 0:01:15- Can I have my charger?- Why do you have to text every five minutes?
0:01:15 > 0:01:19- Beth?- If anyone wants a lift, we're going NOW.
0:01:19 > 0:01:21I need check something online, first.
0:01:21 > 0:01:24No, there's no time. It's now or the bus.
0:01:26 > 0:01:28Oi, space cadet? Come on, move yourself.
0:01:28 > 0:01:30I'm only in for a couple of hours on Fridays anyway.
0:01:30 > 0:01:34You'll be able to come home and do some revision before you get into weekend mode then.
0:01:34 > 0:01:38- No, I was going straight to... - I thought you were coming straight home. They're MY A-Levels.
0:01:38 > 0:01:40- Best revise for them. Greg, don't start her off.- Come on.
0:01:40 > 0:01:41- See you later.- Have a good day.
0:01:43 > 0:01:45Have a lovely day.
0:01:45 > 0:01:46All right?
0:01:52 > 0:01:54- See you later.- Will you tell Mum
0:01:54 > 0:01:57I'll probably go round to Rachel's this afternoon and stay at hers?
0:01:57 > 0:02:00No, no, no. I'm not doing your dirty work for you, sorry.
0:02:03 > 0:02:06Cheer up, weekend tomorrow.
0:02:23 > 0:02:26I thought this might rouse you, you lazy mare.
0:02:33 > 0:02:36It's the horror hound from hell...
0:02:36 > 0:02:39- It was here cos I had it on yesterday.- Try your room.
0:02:46 > 0:02:48PHONE BEEPS
0:03:13 > 0:03:15Absolutely gorgeous, as ever.
0:03:47 > 0:03:49PHONE BEEPS
0:04:02 > 0:04:04PHONE RINGS
0:04:08 > 0:04:10Hello?
0:04:10 > 0:04:11Speaking.
0:04:14 > 0:04:15What do you mean?
0:04:18 > 0:04:19I'm sorry, I don't quite understand...
0:04:23 > 0:04:25It's going straight to answer phone.
0:04:25 > 0:04:26I blame the parents.
0:04:26 > 0:04:28Haven't you got somewhere to go, something to do?
0:04:29 > 0:04:30I'm on a break. I've been revising.
0:04:30 > 0:04:33Further proof that I'm actually the good child in this tragic household.
0:04:33 > 0:04:37I don't understand, she's never done anything like this before. Never.
0:04:37 > 0:04:40Psychologists say not giving kids enough boundaries...
0:04:40 > 0:04:42I'll boundary you if you don't put a sock in it...
0:04:42 > 0:04:44Stop winding him up, Patrick. Now is not the time.
0:04:44 > 0:04:46She's got some nerve to stand up to Hughes, though.
0:04:46 > 0:04:47That's pure kudos.
0:04:47 > 0:04:50I can't believe we didn't notice anything this morning.
0:04:50 > 0:04:53Look, they're probably putting it all out of proportion,
0:04:53 > 0:04:54you know what they're like up there.
0:04:55 > 0:04:56- They're always... - DOOR SLAMS
0:04:56 > 0:04:59Where the hell have you been? Why didn't you answer your phone?
0:05:00 > 0:05:03- What do you think you're playing at? - All right. Hold on, Lou.
0:05:03 > 0:05:04Let's get the facts, yeah?
0:05:07 > 0:05:09The school are saying there's been a...
0:05:11 > 0:05:13An incident...
0:05:13 > 0:05:14with you and Mrs Hughes.
0:05:17 > 0:05:19What happened?
0:05:39 > 0:05:41When was the last time you heard her speak?
0:05:44 > 0:05:46Well, you've dropped her off at school all week,
0:05:46 > 0:05:48surely you had a conversation in the car?
0:05:51 > 0:05:53Yeah, obviously. Yeah. Must've done.
0:05:53 > 0:05:55What about you? How's she been at home?
0:05:57 > 0:05:59If it's any consolation,
0:05:59 > 0:06:01it took a standoff between us
0:06:01 > 0:06:04before I realised there was something wrong.
0:06:05 > 0:06:07If you don't mind me asking...
0:06:07 > 0:06:08are there any problems at home?
0:06:10 > 0:06:11Well...
0:06:11 > 0:06:13We have our moments, like every family...
0:06:13 > 0:06:14She hated getting that brace on her teeth.
0:06:16 > 0:06:18She's dead self-conscious about it.
0:06:18 > 0:06:20Maybe it's something to do with that?
0:06:20 > 0:06:22It could be anything, but...
0:06:22 > 0:06:24we need to get to the bottom of it, as soon as possible.
0:06:24 > 0:06:26Yeah, obviously. That's why we're here, isn't it?
0:06:28 > 0:06:31Maybe you need to speak to your GP.
0:06:31 > 0:06:33Our GP?
0:06:33 > 0:06:36Well, I'm afraid that apart from being sympathetic,
0:06:36 > 0:06:39there's really not much else we can do.
0:06:39 > 0:06:42We don't have that level of expertise.
0:06:42 > 0:06:44Obviously other members of staff are aware of the situation
0:06:44 > 0:06:47and I can assure you, while this problem exists,
0:06:47 > 0:06:51there won't be any pressure on Beth from us, OK?
0:06:53 > 0:06:55- Thank you.- Thanks.
0:07:05 > 0:07:08What type of parents don't notice their own child isn't speaking?
0:07:09 > 0:07:12This is the quietest she's been since she was born, peace at last.
0:07:12 > 0:07:13Greg!
0:07:13 > 0:07:17I'm joking. She knows I'm joking, don't you, kitten?
0:07:26 > 0:07:29Has anything happened?
0:07:29 > 0:07:30Has anyone upset you?
0:07:30 > 0:07:33Whatever it is, you can tell us.
0:07:34 > 0:07:37You know that we love you very much, don't you, kitten?
0:07:37 > 0:07:39Nothing you could ever say could change that.
0:07:39 > 0:07:41Nothing.
0:07:41 > 0:07:43Absolutely nothing.
0:07:44 > 0:07:46We don't want to put any pressure on you,
0:07:46 > 0:07:49but we can't help you if you don't talk to us, love.
0:08:03 > 0:08:04What?! I just sneezed.
0:08:09 > 0:08:11We can't force her to talk to us.
0:08:12 > 0:08:13I wouldn't talk
0:08:13 > 0:08:15if you put all that sharing and caring rubbish on me, either.
0:08:15 > 0:08:17Since when have we been the
0:08:17 > 0:08:19"let's discuss our feelings" type of family?
0:08:22 > 0:08:23Say, "Ah."
0:08:25 > 0:08:26Are you in any pain?
0:08:28 > 0:08:30Does it feel like there's anything in your throat
0:08:30 > 0:08:31stopping you from speaking?
0:08:34 > 0:08:36So you're being deliberately uncooperative?
0:08:36 > 0:08:39If she could answer that, we wouldn't be here, would we?
0:08:39 > 0:08:42Sorry, sorry. It's just we've been through all this.
0:08:42 > 0:08:45We'll do some tests first, general stuff,
0:08:45 > 0:08:48and then I think we perhaps should look at...
0:08:48 > 0:08:50What?
0:08:50 > 0:08:52Shall we ask Beth to wait outside?
0:08:53 > 0:08:56No, say what you have to say, it's about her, isn't it?
0:08:56 > 0:08:59OK. I would like to consult a child psychologist.
0:09:10 > 0:09:12Look at your dad.
0:09:14 > 0:09:16What's up, love?
0:09:16 > 0:09:19Oh, nothing. My specs...
0:09:19 > 0:09:21I must have put 'em down somewhere.
0:09:22 > 0:09:25Watch this. Your specs?
0:09:26 > 0:09:28Yeah. I just had 'em two minutes ago.
0:09:31 > 0:09:33Are you sure you didn't leave them in the house?
0:09:33 > 0:09:36No. I just had them. Didn't you see me? Two minutes ago they were here.
0:09:38 > 0:09:39Don't say anything.
0:09:39 > 0:09:42I bet you left them on the kitchen table.
0:09:42 > 0:09:44I'm not stupid.
0:09:44 > 0:09:47I've just used them. They were here!
0:09:47 > 0:09:50Dad, what are you looking for?
0:09:50 > 0:09:53Me specs. I've lost my specs.
0:09:55 > 0:09:58They're on your head, you blert!
0:10:50 > 0:10:52I've just cleaned that kitchen.
0:10:52 > 0:10:53And your point is?
0:10:53 > 0:10:57My point is that I'm the only one who bothers putting stuff away.
0:10:57 > 0:10:58I'm making a coffee, chill out.
0:10:58 > 0:11:01I'll chill out when you lot start clearing up after yourselves.
0:11:01 > 0:11:03- What's your problem? - What's my problem?
0:11:05 > 0:11:06Forget it. I'm gone.
0:11:08 > 0:11:11BETH CLICKS HER PEN
0:11:11 > 0:11:13Stop making that flaming noise!
0:11:15 > 0:11:16I'm the one that should stop speaking.
0:11:16 > 0:11:18No-one listens to me anyway.
0:11:42 > 0:11:43Oi!
0:11:50 > 0:11:51Did you just get off the 97?
0:11:52 > 0:11:54Why did you get off a stop early?
0:11:55 > 0:11:57You're getting weirder, I swear.
0:11:58 > 0:12:00Want a crisp?
0:12:01 > 0:12:02Where's your manners?
0:12:03 > 0:12:04Say, "Yes, please."
0:12:05 > 0:12:07Just say "yes" then. Go on.
0:12:14 > 0:12:17That's two nights on the trot, how come you've got to go?
0:12:17 > 0:12:19- I don't know, call Rob and ask. - He could give you more notice.
0:12:19 > 0:12:22If there's a new store opening, there's a new store opening.
0:12:22 > 0:12:26- I'm an area manager, what do you want me to do?- There's always a new store. I never know where you'll be.
0:12:26 > 0:12:31- I'll ask Rob to get me chipped if that'll make you feel any better! - What's the matter with you lately?
0:12:31 > 0:12:32Mum, look at this.
0:13:09 > 0:13:12Look, if I've given you a complex or something, you know,
0:13:12 > 0:13:14going on about your brace and that...
0:13:14 > 0:13:17It's just a buzz, innit, you know, it's just what we do.
0:13:18 > 0:13:22I call you metal-mouth, you call me snake-features.
0:13:22 > 0:13:25It doesn't mean anything. It's a term of endearment.
0:13:34 > 0:13:36The thing is...
0:13:36 > 0:13:38I don't know what you're playing at, but you need to stop it now.
0:13:38 > 0:13:41Is this about the birthday party?
0:13:41 > 0:13:42Cos if it is, you know that's childish.
0:13:42 > 0:13:44You'll get the works when it's your turn.
0:13:47 > 0:13:51You know, when I was 14 she wouldn't let me go anywhere.
0:13:51 > 0:13:54You can come and go as you please, you're the one who has it easy.
0:13:54 > 0:13:55You're the golden girl.
0:13:57 > 0:13:59You'll have it all to yourself soon anyway.
0:13:59 > 0:14:00I'll be glad to get out of here.
0:14:04 > 0:14:06Seriously, Beth, it's my last few months at home,
0:14:06 > 0:14:07why are you spoiling it?
0:14:07 > 0:14:10Say something! Why are you being an idiot, Beth?
0:14:10 > 0:14:13If you're trying to guilt-trip people, it's not going to work.
0:14:15 > 0:14:18Fine. You're on your own.
0:14:20 > 0:14:23You know what? I think you're a selfish little cow.
0:14:23 > 0:14:26I think you've always been a selfish little cow.
0:14:26 > 0:14:28This is just attention stuff, this.
0:14:28 > 0:14:31I reckon everyone should ignore you, then you'd soon open your gob.
0:14:33 > 0:14:36You're not that special, Beth. Seriously. You're not.
0:14:41 > 0:14:44Thank you, Beth. I'll see you same time next week.
0:14:46 > 0:14:49If you want to see me before, you can always text me.
0:14:49 > 0:14:51Try to write down your thoughts in the book.
0:14:51 > 0:14:56Don't worry about making sense. Whatever comes to mind is fine, OK?
0:14:56 > 0:14:58Everything is confidential,
0:14:58 > 0:15:01but I just need to have a quick word with your mum.
0:15:15 > 0:15:16She's nice, isn't she?
0:15:19 > 0:15:22And like she said, everything is confidential.
0:15:23 > 0:15:26You know, whatever goes on in there is your business, love.
0:15:31 > 0:15:34It's going to be all right. It's all going to be all right.
0:15:34 > 0:15:36Whatever it is, we can sort it out.
0:15:37 > 0:15:40It's just a blip, that's all.
0:15:41 > 0:15:43All things pass.
0:15:43 > 0:15:45We'll soon be back to normal.
0:16:16 > 0:16:18SONG: "Sea Of Love" by Cat Power
0:16:18 > 0:16:19Catch me!
0:16:21 > 0:16:22Got you!
0:16:23 > 0:16:25# Come with me
0:16:25 > 0:16:28# My love
0:16:29 > 0:16:31# To the sea
0:16:31 > 0:16:35# The sea of love
0:16:35 > 0:16:39# I want to tell you
0:16:41 > 0:16:45# How much
0:16:45 > 0:16:50# I love you
0:16:58 > 0:17:01# Do you remember... #
0:17:01 > 0:17:02PHONE RINGS
0:17:04 > 0:17:08'Hi, love. Your auntie Toni's coming over.
0:17:08 > 0:17:09'She's brought us some cake.'
0:17:11 > 0:17:15# ..When we met
0:17:15 > 0:17:19# That's the day I knew we would... #
0:17:20 > 0:17:21You're not telling me
0:17:21 > 0:17:24he earns enough money to drive a car like that?
0:17:26 > 0:17:28She's wearing some nice designer gear.
0:17:30 > 0:17:32I bet it's drugs.
0:17:33 > 0:17:36Didn't someone say he was involved with that charity scam?
0:17:36 > 0:17:38It was me, I told you that.
0:17:38 > 0:17:41They reckon he got away with about 150 grand.
0:17:41 > 0:17:44Anyone else would've got sent down, but he's got connections, hasn't he?
0:17:44 > 0:17:47There's someone who plays football with our Pads and...
0:17:47 > 0:17:49Erm... Maybe we should...you know?
0:17:49 > 0:17:51You enjoying that, hon?
0:17:57 > 0:18:01Maybe we should... Yeah.
0:18:08 > 0:18:10Are you off to Sadie's, love?
0:18:10 > 0:18:11Have a nice time.
0:18:11 > 0:18:14Give us three rings when you want picking up, later.
0:18:14 > 0:18:16I don't want you getting the bus on your own.
0:18:18 > 0:18:19Beth!
0:18:23 > 0:18:25Look.
0:18:27 > 0:18:31Now, you may think that I care more about Pads, but that's not true.
0:18:32 > 0:18:36I didn't work when he was born. We were together 24 hours a day.
0:18:36 > 0:18:37He's always been more clingy.
0:18:37 > 0:18:40You've always wanted to do everything by yourself.
0:18:43 > 0:18:45It was hard sometimes, watching you totter off to school,
0:18:45 > 0:18:47not even a look behind.
0:18:47 > 0:18:50You never cried when you said goodbye to me. Not once.
0:18:51 > 0:18:55But that doesn't mean I don't love you, because I do.
0:18:55 > 0:18:57I love you loads.
0:19:54 > 0:19:57There doesn't seem to be any progress at all,
0:19:57 > 0:19:59just this silence.
0:20:01 > 0:20:03You know, if there was something, some glimmer of hope...
0:20:03 > 0:20:07I understand it's frustrating, but you need to be patient.
0:20:07 > 0:20:09We can only move at Beth's pace.
0:20:09 > 0:20:12She needs to find a way to decipher her feelings
0:20:12 > 0:20:14before she can communicate them.
0:20:14 > 0:20:16She needs to feel safe.
0:20:16 > 0:20:18But it's been weeks.
0:20:18 > 0:20:20She hasn't written anything in that book you gave her.
0:20:24 > 0:20:26How do you know that?
0:20:35 > 0:20:37Hi, love.
0:20:37 > 0:20:39You all right?
0:20:39 > 0:20:41Where's your dad?
0:20:41 > 0:20:44Is he out? Did he say where he was going?
0:20:44 > 0:20:47Is our Patrick not back yet?
0:20:47 > 0:20:49Oh! It was packed in town.
0:20:49 > 0:20:52Want a cup of tea? I'll put the kettle on.
0:20:52 > 0:20:54I got you some of that shower gel you like.
0:20:55 > 0:20:57The lime one. It's in here somewhere.
0:21:00 > 0:21:03And I bought...
0:21:03 > 0:21:04I bought you a little present.
0:21:16 > 0:21:17It's real silver.
0:21:19 > 0:21:20It's quite pretty, isn't it?
0:21:22 > 0:21:25I've had your name engraved on it.
0:21:25 > 0:21:28And my mobile number. Just in case...
0:21:28 > 0:21:30you know, you come unstuck when you're out and you can't...
0:21:32 > 0:21:34You can always tuck it in, if you don't want anyone to see it.
0:22:21 > 0:22:24You heard me on the phone, didn't you?
0:22:24 > 0:22:25I'm sorry.
0:22:25 > 0:22:28No wonder you're angry. You have every right to be.
0:22:29 > 0:22:31Things are complicated.
0:22:32 > 0:22:35I want you to know that I never meant for any of this
0:22:35 > 0:22:36to turn out like...
0:22:38 > 0:22:39I regret it, I do.
0:22:39 > 0:22:42I want you to know, you and Patrick are my priority.
0:22:42 > 0:22:44You come before anything. I want you to know that.
0:22:46 > 0:22:49I know what you're thinking, you're thinking if I care so much
0:22:49 > 0:22:51how could I do what I've done, but...
0:22:51 > 0:22:53people do stupid things.
0:22:57 > 0:22:59I love your mum, I don't want to lose her.
0:22:59 > 0:23:00I've been an idiot.
0:23:00 > 0:23:02HEARTBEATS
0:23:02 > 0:23:04I hate myself for it, I do.
0:23:04 > 0:23:05But it's over now.
0:23:05 > 0:23:08I want you to know I'm going to make everything fine. I promise you.
0:23:09 > 0:23:11DOOR SLAMS
0:23:13 > 0:23:16- Look, we can...- The traffic was terrible, there must be a match on.
0:23:16 > 0:23:18We can put this behind us, kitten, yeah? Get back to normal.
0:23:18 > 0:23:20Greg?
0:23:20 > 0:23:22In the kitchen, love.
0:23:22 > 0:23:24I'm so sorry.
0:23:31 > 0:23:33Everything all right?
0:23:34 > 0:23:35Yeah. Yeah, fine.
0:24:00 > 0:24:02Me too?
0:24:02 > 0:24:05- Yeah, all of us, together. - Whoa, hang on a minute...
0:24:05 > 0:24:07- It might only be for a couple of sessions.- No way.
0:24:08 > 0:24:10I know it sounds intimidating, love,
0:24:10 > 0:24:14but she said it's all very informal, it's very relaxed.
0:24:15 > 0:24:17What sort of things does she want to know?
0:24:19 > 0:24:20She'll ask us all sorts of questions,
0:24:20 > 0:24:23like which family member we most identify with,
0:24:23 > 0:24:25- or least identify with...- Ohh...
0:24:25 > 0:24:27There's nothing wrong with us, it's Beth that needs therapy.
0:24:27 > 0:24:28- She's the loon.- Hey!
0:25:07 > 0:25:09FLOORBOARDS CREAK
0:25:27 > 0:25:29Beth? What are you doing?
0:25:43 > 0:25:45Greg?
0:25:48 > 0:25:50Hmm?
0:25:50 > 0:25:51Wake up.
0:25:53 > 0:25:55What? What is it?
0:25:57 > 0:25:59Our Beth was downstairs sniffing your jacket.
0:25:59 > 0:26:01Why would she be doing that?
0:26:02 > 0:26:05- What?- Beth was sniffing your jacket. Why?
0:26:07 > 0:26:09I don't know.
0:26:11 > 0:26:13Are you sure?
0:26:13 > 0:26:14Yeah.
0:26:29 > 0:26:31'Why won't you try just one session?'
0:26:31 > 0:26:33'Cos I'm not a bloody lab rat, am I?'
0:26:33 > 0:26:36- 'Maybe Lucy's right. Maybe we are the problem.'- 'Did she say that?'
0:26:36 > 0:26:37'No, not in so many words...'
0:26:37 > 0:26:39I'm getting out of here for good soon.
0:26:40 > 0:26:41'I've decided nothing seems to be working
0:26:41 > 0:26:43'so we need to try something else!'
0:26:43 > 0:26:46- 'But you're not a psychologist, are you?'- 'What are you scared of?'
0:26:46 > 0:26:50I'm not scared of anything. I don't think we need to pick at the same scab all the time, like you do.
0:26:50 > 0:26:54- What's that supposed to mean? - Patrick's not going to be doing it anyway, so it won't work.
0:26:54 > 0:26:56- Answer the question! What did you mean?- Come on, Lou.
0:26:56 > 0:26:57You know exactly what I mean.
0:26:57 > 0:27:01You won't leave things alone. Every time I want to sleep on something, you won't let me,
0:27:01 > 0:27:04- cos we have to discuss it all the time.- This isn't about us.
0:27:04 > 0:27:06Don't you give a damn what's happening to your daughter?
0:27:06 > 0:27:07I do. I just don't think
0:27:08 > 0:27:10the whole family has to go and see some trick cyclist.
0:27:10 > 0:27:11Plus we've got Patrick to consider.
0:27:11 > 0:27:13You were relieved when he said he wouldn't go.
0:27:13 > 0:27:16- Maybe he's just the excuse you needed.- What are you talking about?
0:27:16 > 0:27:19Why you don't want to do everything you can to make sure Beth gets better!
0:27:19 > 0:27:22Let's talk about the time when you point-blank refused
0:27:22 > 0:27:24to look after our Beth, when me and your mum had to...
0:27:27 > 0:27:28Beth!
0:27:28 > 0:27:29Bethany!
0:27:48 > 0:27:49Get in the car, Beth.
0:27:51 > 0:27:52Beth!
0:27:52 > 0:27:53Get in the car now!
0:27:53 > 0:27:54I'll drag you in, if I have to.
0:28:19 > 0:28:20I know what I did.
0:28:22 > 0:28:24And I want you to know that...
0:28:26 > 0:28:29I'm sorry. I'm really, truly sorry.
0:28:34 > 0:28:36Everything went the way it was supposed to with Pads,
0:28:36 > 0:28:38but with you...
0:28:41 > 0:28:44I came round from the anaesthetic and...
0:28:44 > 0:28:46your dad was holding you, and I thought...
0:28:48 > 0:28:51"Who's that baby? What's Greg doing holding a baby?"
0:28:57 > 0:28:59I couldn't recognise you.
0:28:59 > 0:29:03I couldn't see anything familiar, your face, your smell...
0:29:05 > 0:29:06Your...
0:29:08 > 0:29:12Most mothers usually recognise their own baby's cry.
0:29:15 > 0:29:17I got it into my head... I couldn't...
0:29:22 > 0:29:26I couldn't look at you without thinking, "Who's that baby?"
0:29:29 > 0:29:33You didn't feel like mine.
0:29:35 > 0:29:36I don't know...
0:29:36 > 0:29:39Without your gran, I don't know what I'd have done.
0:29:39 > 0:29:41I slept most of the time.
0:29:45 > 0:29:48Looking after Patrick was the only thing that...
0:29:48 > 0:29:50that seemed real.
0:29:53 > 0:29:55The only thing that kept me from going...
0:29:59 > 0:30:01Everything else felt like a dream.
0:30:04 > 0:30:08I wasn't... I wasn't very well,
0:30:08 > 0:30:11and I had to get to know you
0:30:11 > 0:30:15and that took me a while, and I am sorry.
0:30:15 > 0:30:17I am so...
0:30:18 > 0:30:20so sorry.
0:30:29 > 0:30:33He shouldn't have to move to Rachel's. This is his home.
0:30:33 > 0:30:36Yeah, I know, but the way things are around here at the moment...
0:30:36 > 0:30:39it makes sense, you know, with his exams coming up.
0:30:41 > 0:30:44When's he thinking of going?
0:30:44 > 0:30:45Next weekend.
0:30:47 > 0:30:49I don't know why he couldn't tell me himself.
0:30:51 > 0:30:53Come on.
0:30:53 > 0:30:56Don't be nice to me, Greg. I couldn't cope at the moment.
0:31:18 > 0:31:21Right, this stops now.
0:31:22 > 0:31:26I know that I've done wrong, Beth, but I'm trying to put it right.
0:31:27 > 0:31:30Everyone's got feelings, you know, not just you.
0:31:30 > 0:31:34Your brother's got his exams. Your mum, she's...
0:31:34 > 0:31:35She's in a right state.
0:31:38 > 0:31:41If you're continuing to do this to punish me for what I've done,
0:31:41 > 0:31:44fine, go ahead, but what about everyone else, eh?
0:31:50 > 0:31:53I've done wrong. Me.
0:31:53 > 0:31:55Not your brother, your mother - me.
0:31:57 > 0:31:59So, what's it going to take? Hmm?
0:32:06 > 0:32:07Do you want me to tell her?
0:32:08 > 0:32:09Do you?
0:32:13 > 0:32:14Just say the word.
0:32:15 > 0:32:18I'll go downstairs right now and I'll tell her everything.
0:32:19 > 0:32:21Just say yes and I'll tell her why you're doing this.
0:32:26 > 0:32:28No?
0:32:29 > 0:32:32Well, until you're prepared to open your mouth to speak
0:32:32 > 0:32:34you have no right to judge anyone, Beth.
0:33:06 > 0:33:08Yeah, sounds like a plan.
0:33:09 > 0:33:11I'll see you there.
0:33:17 > 0:33:19That was your uncle Nathan.
0:33:19 > 0:33:20The girls are still shopping,
0:33:20 > 0:33:25so we're going meet them at the restaurant, have an early tea.
0:33:25 > 0:33:26Sorted.
0:33:29 > 0:33:33I don't know what else to try. It's like she wants to, but...
0:33:33 > 0:33:34Wow.
0:33:34 > 0:33:36Aww. That was made for you.
0:33:38 > 0:33:40Oh, Beth, you look beautiful.
0:33:42 > 0:33:45Mind you, trust her to choose the most expensive one in the shop!
0:33:47 > 0:33:49Do you really want it, Beth?
0:33:50 > 0:33:52You have to have it. For Pad's party.
0:33:52 > 0:33:55My treat for my favourite niece.
0:33:55 > 0:33:57I know I've only got the one, but...
0:34:04 > 0:34:06She'll be all right, Lou. I know she will.
0:34:13 > 0:34:15The trouble with City supporters is
0:34:15 > 0:34:17you never have any grace about other teams, other supporters.
0:34:18 > 0:34:19Says the Man U scum.
0:34:19 > 0:34:21No, when we play a southern team you support them.
0:34:21 > 0:34:22And when you play a Southern team...
0:34:22 > 0:34:24Are you having a laugh? Is he having a laugh?
0:34:24 > 0:34:26Don't involve me. My loyalties are torn.
0:34:26 > 0:34:28- Is anyone having dessert? - Where's the menu?
0:34:28 > 0:34:29Here.
0:34:29 > 0:34:31Beth?
0:34:31 > 0:34:33You want some?
0:34:33 > 0:34:35What do you fancy?
0:34:38 > 0:34:41I'll have the Triple Chocolate Cake and we can share, yeah?
0:34:41 > 0:34:44Here, let's order a bottle of fizz, to celebrate.
0:34:45 > 0:34:47- I wasn't going to say anything, but...- Nate...
0:34:47 > 0:34:50Oh, behave, now's as good a time as any.
0:34:50 > 0:34:51What are you celebrating?
0:34:54 > 0:34:55We're going to Australia.
0:34:57 > 0:34:58We're emigrating.
0:35:01 > 0:35:03Oh, my God...
0:35:08 > 0:35:10Australia?
0:35:13 > 0:35:14You kept that quiet.
0:35:17 > 0:35:21Wow. That's a long way. What are we going do without you?
0:35:21 > 0:35:23They'll thrive, probably.
0:35:23 > 0:35:24Don't set me off, Lou, please.
0:35:24 > 0:35:27I've wanted to go for a few years now and Toni's never been keen,
0:35:27 > 0:35:29and then a couple of weeks ago, out of the blue,
0:35:30 > 0:35:31she just says lets do it, so...
0:35:31 > 0:35:34I wasn't going to say anything until after Pad's birthday party.
0:35:34 > 0:35:36What difference does it make?
0:35:36 > 0:35:38I'll have somewhere to stay when I'm backpacking.
0:35:38 > 0:35:39Course you will.
0:35:41 > 0:35:42When?
0:35:44 > 0:35:46Its all got to be sorted yet, of course...
0:35:46 > 0:35:48It'll probably take months to organise.
0:35:48 > 0:35:50Yeah, but we've got the ball rolling. That's the main thing.
0:35:50 > 0:35:54- Something to look forward to, innit?- Yeah.
0:35:54 > 0:35:57Well, here's to your new life in Oz.
0:35:57 > 0:35:59- Cheers!- Cheers.
0:36:00 > 0:36:02Congratulations, mate!
0:36:02 > 0:36:05- So are you going to come and see us when you're backpacking?- Yeah, defo.
0:36:05 > 0:36:06- Get them grades.- Yeah.
0:36:06 > 0:36:08All those criminals, down there, ain't there,
0:36:09 > 0:36:11you're going to be well at home.
0:36:11 > 0:36:14Very funny! Very funny! LOU: That is true.
0:36:17 > 0:36:20HEARTBEATS
0:37:17 > 0:37:19Beth's taking her time.
0:37:19 > 0:37:20I'll go see to her.
0:37:22 > 0:37:24It's been a good day, hasn't it?
0:37:43 > 0:37:46Australia?
0:37:46 > 0:37:47What do you reckon, babes?
0:37:50 > 0:37:51Hey...
0:38:01 > 0:38:03Oh, God. Oh, God.
0:38:03 > 0:38:05Oh, God.
0:38:05 > 0:38:07I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
0:38:07 > 0:38:09It was a terrible, terrible mistake.
0:38:09 > 0:38:11I love your mum, I do.
0:38:12 > 0:38:14It's why I'm going away.
0:38:14 > 0:38:16It's for the best. For all of us.
0:38:16 > 0:38:18Everything can go back to the way it was.
0:38:18 > 0:38:21I'm ashamed of myself. I am.
0:38:21 > 0:38:25Please, don't hate me. I wish I could take it all back.
0:38:25 > 0:38:28Please, please... don't say anything, yeah?
0:38:28 > 0:38:30Not for my sake, for your mum, yeah?
0:38:45 > 0:38:47You all right, love?
0:38:49 > 0:38:50Beth?
0:38:52 > 0:38:53Don't forget your dress.
0:38:55 > 0:38:57Thanks, love. We appreciate it, don't we?
0:39:02 > 0:39:04Sorry. This is what she's like.
0:39:04 > 0:39:06She changes with the wind.
0:39:49 > 0:39:51Mum?
0:39:51 > 0:39:53I need to talk to you.
0:40:08 > 0:40:11'Just in case the words get lost for ever,
0:40:11 > 0:40:13'these are the ones that tell the true story of me."
0:40:15 > 0:40:17'My name's Beth. I am 14.
0:40:17 > 0:40:18'And when I was little
0:40:18 > 0:40:21'I used to think the world was just the way it looks.
0:40:21 > 0:40:22'It's not. Nothing is.
0:40:23 > 0:40:25'It started as a dare.
0:40:25 > 0:40:27'At school I'm not one of the cool girls.
0:40:27 > 0:40:30'No-one has ever been interested in what I have to say.
0:40:30 > 0:40:32'But now everyone in school knows who I am.
0:40:32 > 0:40:34'It made me feel good at first,
0:40:34 > 0:40:37'having people look at me, like I was special.
0:40:37 > 0:40:41'I wanted to hold on to the feeling for a while.
0:40:41 > 0:40:43'Until people started telling me secrets.'
0:40:45 > 0:40:48'The story of me being born is a lie.'
0:40:51 > 0:40:54'When I asked mum about it she just made things up
0:40:54 > 0:40:56'just to make me feel better.
0:40:56 > 0:40:58'So I had a nice story like Pads.'
0:41:00 > 0:41:03'Everyone likes hearing their own story.
0:41:03 > 0:41:06'But the truth is she couldn't look after me
0:41:06 > 0:41:08'because I didn't feel like her little girl.'
0:41:09 > 0:41:12'But it wasn't her fault. She was ill.'
0:41:16 > 0:41:19'There's a man in my house who looks just like my dad.
0:41:19 > 0:41:22'But it isn't him. It can't be.
0:41:22 > 0:41:24'Because my dad loves my mum.
0:41:24 > 0:41:27'He makes us laugh and says nice things and takes care of us.'
0:41:29 > 0:41:30'My dad works hard.
0:41:30 > 0:41:32'He says family comes first.'
0:41:33 > 0:41:36'He wouldn't let anybody hurt us.
0:41:36 > 0:41:38'The man in our house tells lies.
0:41:38 > 0:41:41'He sneaks around, whispering, and making phone calls.
0:41:41 > 0:41:44'Our Patrick blames me for having to move out.'
0:41:45 > 0:41:48'I'm spoiling things for him.
0:41:48 > 0:41:50'I'm sending him away.
0:41:50 > 0:41:52'I don't want to hurt him.
0:41:52 > 0:41:55'I don't want to hurt anybody, but the truth needs to be told.'
0:41:56 > 0:42:00'You know that saying "knowledge is power"?
0:42:00 > 0:42:01'It's rubbish.
0:42:01 > 0:42:03'Loads of sayings are rubbish.
0:42:03 > 0:42:06'Like "silence is golden,"
0:42:06 > 0:42:08'or "the truth is always glorious."
0:42:08 > 0:42:10'I don't know what things mean any more.
0:42:10 > 0:42:14'Words like "family", "home", "love".
0:42:14 > 0:42:17'My auntie says we're a close family.
0:42:17 > 0:42:18'But they're just words.'
0:42:19 > 0:42:21'Some words are powerful.
0:42:21 > 0:42:24'They can get stuck in your throat or lost in your head.
0:42:24 > 0:42:27'They can be as sharp as a knife or too heavy to carry.
0:42:27 > 0:42:30'Some need to be said over and over until they make sense.
0:42:30 > 0:42:32'Some should never be said.
0:42:32 > 0:42:34'I'm sick of everybody else's words.
0:42:34 > 0:42:36'I want to find my own.
0:42:36 > 0:42:38'I want to tell the truth.'
0:42:41 > 0:42:43# Hush, little baby
0:42:43 > 0:42:47# Don't you cry
0:42:59 > 0:43:02# So hush, little baby
0:43:03 > 0:43:09# Don't you cry... #
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