0:01:00 > 0:01:03# Excuse me for a while
0:01:03 > 0:01:05# While I'm wide-eyed... #
0:01:07 > 0:01:10HOOVER STARTS
0:01:41 > 0:01:44Late night? HE GROANS
0:01:46 > 0:01:50You need to stop letting numbskulls into your flat and trashing it.
0:01:50 > 0:01:52- I haven't.- Really?
0:01:53 > 0:01:55- Do you want some breakfast? - Breakfast?
0:01:55 > 0:01:57It's nearly tea-time, Dad.
0:01:57 > 0:01:59There's some bread in there.
0:01:59 > 0:02:00It was mouldy.
0:02:03 > 0:02:06- Are you going already?- Yeah.
0:02:06 > 0:02:07You've only just got here.
0:02:09 > 0:02:11You got plans?
0:02:11 > 0:02:12Not really.
0:02:16 > 0:02:17I love you.
0:02:17 > 0:02:19Thanks for cleaning.
0:02:19 > 0:02:21Eat.
0:03:08 > 0:03:10- I'd recommend this one, sir. - Great, yeah.
0:03:11 > 0:03:13I'll give you the nod.
0:03:22 > 0:03:24Wow, this place!
0:03:24 > 0:03:27- It's nice, yeah?- It's amazing.
0:03:27 > 0:03:30- Yeah, you look amazing.- So do you.
0:03:30 > 0:03:32- How was your day?- Nice, yeah.
0:03:32 > 0:03:33Yeah? What you been up to?
0:03:33 > 0:03:36Not much, went for a run. You?
0:03:36 > 0:03:40I did a bit of shopping, Skyped my mum.
0:03:40 > 0:03:42- She asked after you.- Aw.
0:03:42 > 0:03:45- I said we'd go visit soon. - Yeah, cool.
0:03:45 > 0:03:48- Maybe the weekend, or whenever.- OK.
0:04:03 > 0:04:04Dessert menus.
0:04:06 > 0:04:07Thanks.
0:04:10 > 0:04:13Sometimes you just want a proper pudding -
0:04:13 > 0:04:15apple crumble and custard or a treacle tart.
0:04:15 > 0:04:18- Jelly and ice cream.- Exactly.
0:04:19 > 0:04:21Do I sound like I'm moaning?
0:04:21 > 0:04:23No. I might go for the warm prune...
0:04:23 > 0:04:25- IN POSH VOICE: - ..in Armagnac Bourdaloue
0:04:25 > 0:04:28with sauce anglaise and liquorice ice cream.
0:04:28 > 0:04:31- MOBILE PHONE RINGS - What do you think?- Sorry, sorry.
0:04:32 > 0:04:33I'll just...
0:04:43 > 0:04:45I thought the neighbour had a key?
0:04:45 > 0:04:46No, the other one, the woman opposite.
0:04:48 > 0:04:50What? That's lost, as well?
0:04:51 > 0:04:53- If you do it when she comes back. - Of course.
0:04:53 > 0:04:54Great, thanks.
0:05:09 > 0:05:10I can't come, right now.
0:05:12 > 0:05:14I didn't, it was a last-minute thing.
0:05:16 > 0:05:17I don't know.
0:05:20 > 0:05:23I could try and come later, or I'll...I'll send it in a taxi.
0:05:37 > 0:05:39What did you order?
0:05:39 > 0:05:40Erm...
0:05:45 > 0:05:47I'm not really that bothered.
0:05:59 > 0:06:01You can change it if you don't like it.
0:06:05 > 0:06:08I know we haven't talked about it very much but...
0:06:08 > 0:06:09We haven't talked about it ever.
0:06:09 > 0:06:11..but this is it for me.
0:06:12 > 0:06:15You're the one, so I thought, "Why wait?"
0:06:17 > 0:06:20I don't want to call you my girlfriend or my partner any more...
0:06:21 > 0:06:23..you're much more than that.
0:06:23 > 0:06:25This is much more than that.
0:06:29 > 0:06:31HE SIGHS NERVOUSLY
0:06:37 > 0:06:39Will you marry me?
0:06:42 > 0:06:43Danny...
0:06:45 > 0:06:46Open it.
0:07:00 > 0:07:02Do you like it?
0:07:04 > 0:07:06It's gorgeous...
0:07:14 > 0:07:16..but I can't accept it.
0:07:18 > 0:07:20Why not?
0:07:24 > 0:07:25Why not?
0:07:27 > 0:07:29I can't marry you.
0:07:30 > 0:07:33It's not because I don't love you - I do.
0:07:35 > 0:07:36Danny...
0:07:39 > 0:07:41..you're amazing...
0:07:41 > 0:07:42being with you is amazing.
0:07:42 > 0:07:45- You're gorgeous and... - So, what's the problem then?
0:07:45 > 0:07:48I'm just... I'm happy as we are.
0:07:49 > 0:07:51I've never been so happy. Why do we need to get married?
0:07:51 > 0:07:53But don't you want to be together properly?
0:07:53 > 0:07:55- We are together properly. - No, we're not.
0:07:55 > 0:07:56Champagne, sir.
0:08:21 > 0:08:22I'm really sorry.
0:08:23 > 0:08:27So, what now? We just carry on, pretend nothing happened?
0:08:28 > 0:08:29I don't know.
0:08:29 > 0:08:32PHONE VIBRATES
0:08:39 > 0:08:41- Who's that?- Nobody.
0:08:45 > 0:08:47Shall we get the bill?
0:08:50 > 0:08:51Do you want me to go?
0:08:52 > 0:08:53Do what you like.
0:09:30 > 0:09:32Oh, Dad.
0:09:34 > 0:09:36Dad? HE GRUNTS
0:09:36 > 0:09:38Dad?
0:09:38 > 0:09:39Come on.
0:09:41 > 0:09:44HE MUMBLES INDISTINCTLY That's it, careful.
0:09:44 > 0:09:50- That's it. - # You build a life on trust
0:09:50 > 0:09:55# Though it starts
0:09:55 > 0:09:58- # With love and lust - PHONE VIBRATES
0:09:58 > 0:10:02# And when your house
0:10:02 > 0:10:06# Begins to rust
0:10:06 > 0:10:09# Oh, it's just
0:10:11 > 0:10:14# Metal and dust
0:10:14 > 0:10:17- PHONE RINGING - # We argue, we don't fight
0:10:22 > 0:10:25# We argue, we don't fight
0:10:29 > 0:10:33# And all foundation
0:10:33 > 0:10:37# That we made
0:10:37 > 0:10:41# Built to last
0:10:41 > 0:10:43# They disintegrate. #
0:10:43 > 0:10:46So, instead of doing searches on new candidates yourselves,
0:10:46 > 0:10:48just do the initial check and then forward them onto Laura.
0:10:48 > 0:10:51- And I'll get them back within the same week.- Sorry I'm late.
0:10:52 > 0:10:55What if we've already matched them up and need the background ASAP?
0:10:55 > 0:10:57Let me know and I'll fast-track them.
0:10:57 > 0:11:00- What's wrong with the way we've been doing it?- Well, it frees you up
0:11:00 > 0:11:02to book in more candidates and go off-site.
0:11:02 > 0:11:05- Are you doing the searches yourself? - Paul's going to do them initially.
0:11:05 > 0:11:08- So they're going from us, to you, to Paul?- Is that a problem?
0:11:08 > 0:11:09Seems a bit convoluted.
0:11:16 > 0:11:17What?
0:11:18 > 0:11:21Well, it's just simpler if we do the checks for our own candidates.
0:11:21 > 0:11:24- It's not up for debate. - Yeah, but if...- Anything else?- No.
0:11:24 > 0:11:25That's it then.
0:11:25 > 0:11:28Oh, no, one more thing.
0:11:31 > 0:11:32Had a good look?
0:11:34 > 0:11:36No ring.
0:11:43 > 0:11:45Are you OK?
0:11:45 > 0:11:46Not really.
0:11:46 > 0:11:48- What happened?- Did you know?
0:11:49 > 0:11:51- You knew he'd bought a ring? - I wanted to tell you.
0:11:51 > 0:11:53I didn't know what to do.
0:11:55 > 0:11:56Did everyone know?
0:11:58 > 0:12:00SHE SIGHS
0:12:11 > 0:12:12Doctors.
0:12:24 > 0:12:25Dentist.
0:12:44 > 0:12:46SHE SIGHS
0:12:53 > 0:12:54Dad!
0:12:56 > 0:12:57Dad?
0:13:00 > 0:13:02HE GROANS
0:13:03 > 0:13:05What have I told you about smoking?
0:13:05 > 0:13:07The ashtray must have fell.
0:13:07 > 0:13:09- In the bedroom?- Yeah.
0:13:10 > 0:13:13I've been talking to your dad about emergency accommodation.
0:13:13 > 0:13:14Can we go in now?
0:13:14 > 0:13:17It'll be a couple of months before it's habitable.
0:13:17 > 0:13:18Great(!)
0:13:19 > 0:13:22This is a good time for social services to get involved -
0:13:22 > 0:13:24access emergency services.
0:13:24 > 0:13:25What sort of services?
0:13:25 > 0:13:29Housing support, someone to help him deal with unwanted visitors.
0:13:29 > 0:13:31He has a few mates round now and again.
0:13:31 > 0:13:34Known drug and alcohol users are calling at the flat.
0:13:34 > 0:13:36Your dad's neighbours have concerns,
0:13:36 > 0:13:39the police officers also have concerns.
0:13:39 > 0:13:40What concerns?
0:13:40 > 0:13:42A crisis is a good time for an intervention.
0:13:42 > 0:13:43A crisis?
0:13:45 > 0:13:48He's vulnerable and he's homeless, I'd say that's a crisis.
0:13:50 > 0:13:51I'll sort it out.
0:13:52 > 0:13:55We can find him temporary accommodation.
0:13:55 > 0:13:57A hostel? No chance.
0:13:59 > 0:14:01- What do you think, Mick? - Never mind what he thinks,
0:14:01 > 0:14:03he's coming home with me.
0:14:03 > 0:14:07Supporting him is one thing, living with him is another.
0:14:07 > 0:14:09He's not going to a hostel.
0:14:10 > 0:14:11At least let me make a few calls.
0:14:14 > 0:14:17I need to pack a bag, yeah? HE MUMBLES INDISTINCTLY
0:14:39 > 0:14:44Listen, I don't want you smoking while you're here, right?
0:14:44 > 0:14:46Hm-hm.
0:14:49 > 0:14:51You need to eat.
0:14:53 > 0:14:55It's a bit spicy.
0:14:55 > 0:14:57Well, don't get huffy.
0:14:57 > 0:14:59I'm not huffy, I'm tired.
0:15:01 > 0:15:03I would have went with that fella.
0:15:03 > 0:15:04It's you who wanted me here.
0:15:04 > 0:15:07That fella wanted you to go to a hostel.
0:15:07 > 0:15:10- But if you don't want me here... - Oh, Dad!
0:15:10 > 0:15:13I do want you here because you're here, aren't you?
0:15:13 > 0:15:16Sat in my kitchen not eating your tea, so what are you talking about?
0:15:16 > 0:15:18- I just don't want to be in your way. - You're not.
0:15:24 > 0:15:25You're not.
0:15:25 > 0:15:27DOOR BELL RINGS
0:15:41 > 0:15:43- It's not really a good time. - We need to talk.
0:15:43 > 0:15:45- Tomorrow.- Why did you do that this morning?
0:15:46 > 0:15:49- Why did you tell everyone you were going to propose?- I only told Ste.
0:15:49 > 0:15:51And what did Ste do? Put it on Twitter?
0:15:51 > 0:15:54I just needed advice for the ring.
0:15:54 > 0:15:55Tell him how much you were spending?
0:15:55 > 0:15:58Have a bit of banter about how much I was worth?
0:15:58 > 0:16:00You've probably told your whole family.
0:16:02 > 0:16:06Brilliant...you've told your whole family.
0:16:06 > 0:16:09- Why are you so angry? - I'm humiliated.
0:16:09 > 0:16:11I thought it's what you wanted.
0:16:11 > 0:16:12Because all girls do?
0:16:12 > 0:16:14Why are you doing this to me?
0:16:14 > 0:16:16I'm not DOING anything to you.
0:16:16 > 0:16:18What am I to you?
0:16:19 > 0:16:23- What?- Someone to go out with every time you fancy stepping out
0:16:23 > 0:16:26- your little box for the night, or a weekend, or a holiday.- No.
0:16:26 > 0:16:28You decide when we're going to see each other,
0:16:28 > 0:16:31where we're going to sleep. You decide what time we're going to bed,
0:16:31 > 0:16:34- when we're getting up.- I don't. - You do, you dictate.
0:16:34 > 0:16:36Is that what this marriage thing is all about?
0:16:36 > 0:16:38Your need to control...
0:16:38 > 0:16:41with your big diamond and your fancy restaurant?
0:16:43 > 0:16:44Wow.
0:16:48 > 0:16:50That's dark stuff.
0:16:53 > 0:16:55I said I didn't want to talk now.
0:16:56 > 0:16:58Well, I'm glad we did.
0:16:58 > 0:17:01I'm glad I have your thoughts on the big diamond
0:17:01 > 0:17:03and the fancy restaurant.
0:17:06 > 0:17:07All right.
0:17:20 > 0:17:24# You crossed this line
0:17:26 > 0:17:31# Do you find it hard to sit with me tonight?
0:17:35 > 0:17:39# I've walked these miles but I've walked 'em straight line
0:17:42 > 0:17:48# You'll never know what it was like to be fine
0:17:50 > 0:17:54# I'm wasting my young years. #
0:17:58 > 0:18:01DISTANT ALARM BEEPS
0:18:12 > 0:18:15HE COUGHS
0:18:17 > 0:18:20It's the grill, I only put it on low.
0:18:28 > 0:18:30ALARM STOPS
0:18:31 > 0:18:33I'm making us breakfast.
0:18:37 > 0:18:39I don't eat breakfast.
0:18:47 > 0:18:49HE COUGHS AND SPLUTTERS
0:19:27 > 0:19:28What are you doing today?
0:19:28 > 0:19:30Not much.
0:19:30 > 0:19:33I probably won't even go out.
0:19:33 > 0:19:36I'm going to have a look at your taps - pressure's not right.
0:19:37 > 0:19:38It's the same in the bathroom.
0:19:38 > 0:19:40I'll have a look.
0:19:42 > 0:19:43OK.
0:19:46 > 0:19:47Do not lose them.
0:19:47 > 0:19:49I won't.
0:19:49 > 0:19:50Have you got everything?
0:19:50 > 0:19:52Yeah, think so.
0:19:52 > 0:19:53Have a good day then.
0:19:54 > 0:19:55You too.
0:20:16 > 0:20:20I've just e-mailed you, but I wanted to tell you personally.
0:20:20 > 0:20:21Go on.
0:20:22 > 0:20:24I'm leaving.
0:20:24 > 0:20:26Leaving where?
0:20:26 > 0:20:28- Here?- Where else?
0:20:28 > 0:20:31- Where are you going?- I'm supposed to work a month's notice
0:20:31 > 0:20:33but if there's any chance I can just do two weeks.
0:20:33 > 0:20:36- Have you got another job? - It's none of your business, is it?
0:20:39 > 0:20:41Why two weeks?
0:20:41 > 0:20:43It'll just help move things on, you know.
0:20:43 > 0:20:45I see.
0:20:45 > 0:20:47OK, work two weeks...
0:20:47 > 0:20:48or go now.
0:20:49 > 0:20:53- What?- It's probably best if you leave now.
0:20:53 > 0:20:55Best for who? You?
0:20:55 > 0:20:56It's a distraction for the team.
0:20:59 > 0:21:01- Are you saying I should go? - You just said you were going.
0:21:01 > 0:21:03Did you expect me to beg you to stay?
0:21:03 > 0:21:05No, actually, I did not, Angela.
0:21:05 > 0:21:08- Is this some sort of cry for attention?- You're twisted.
0:21:08 > 0:21:10You should go now.
0:21:10 > 0:21:12We were happy this time last week.
0:21:12 > 0:21:14Things change.
0:21:14 > 0:21:16Not really, you have to make them change.
0:21:16 > 0:21:18You can go now.
0:21:23 > 0:21:25SHE SIGHS DEEPLY
0:21:25 > 0:21:28POP MUSIC PLAYS LOUDLY
0:21:31 > 0:21:33# Doing all right
0:21:35 > 0:21:37# A little jiving on a Saturday night
0:21:39 > 0:21:41- # And come what may... # - MUSIC STOPS
0:21:45 > 0:21:46Dad?
0:22:34 > 0:22:36- Is it backed up?- No.
0:22:36 > 0:22:39He might have hid it if he did have people round.
0:22:39 > 0:22:42- He's not that thoughtful.- Or he might've realised it's been taken
0:22:42 > 0:22:44so he's gone out to get it back.
0:22:44 > 0:22:46Do you want to go out and look for him?
0:22:50 > 0:22:52Greece is on there.
0:22:52 > 0:22:55- What?- Our holiday photos. They're all on there.
0:22:55 > 0:22:58- Are they still on the camera?- No.
0:23:01 > 0:23:02Four days.
0:23:02 > 0:23:05In four days my life has turned into a disaster.
0:23:07 > 0:23:09- What?- Nothing.- Go on, what?
0:23:09 > 0:23:11Well, it's not exactly four days, is it?
0:23:11 > 0:23:13It's kind of like the last year and a half.
0:23:13 > 0:23:15What did you think was going to happen?
0:23:15 > 0:23:18Well, he shouldn't have proposed. Things were fine as they were.
0:23:18 > 0:23:20You can't hide the two most important people
0:23:20 > 0:23:22in your life from each other.
0:23:22 > 0:23:25- It's madness! - So it's all my fault?- Yes.
0:23:26 > 0:23:28- You lied.- Uh.
0:23:37 > 0:23:39He's moving back. Danny.
0:23:43 > 0:23:45Back to London?
0:23:48 > 0:23:50- What for?- Live, work.
0:23:51 > 0:23:53- But he hates it.- Well, he's going.
0:23:55 > 0:23:57Who told you?
0:23:58 > 0:23:59He did.
0:24:02 > 0:24:05- He's devastated.- I'm not exactly having the time of me life.
0:24:05 > 0:24:07- But he hasn't done anything wrong, has he?- Neither have I!
0:24:07 > 0:24:09That's debatable.
0:24:10 > 0:24:12Look...
0:24:12 > 0:24:15I don't know how you really feel about Danny and maybe you're
0:24:15 > 0:24:17not right for each other and that's why on some level
0:24:17 > 0:24:19you've done what you've done,
0:24:19 > 0:24:21but I know he absolutely completely loves you.
0:24:21 > 0:24:24And if you love him and you want to change all this,
0:24:24 > 0:24:27then you need to speak to him and you need to tell him the truth.
0:24:29 > 0:24:30What's the worst that can happen?
0:24:44 > 0:24:46SHE SIGHS
0:25:25 > 0:25:27Um... SHE CLEARS THROAT
0:25:32 > 0:25:35- Was you just going to stand there all day?- No.
0:25:36 > 0:25:38- I don't know.- What do you want?
0:25:40 > 0:25:41Can I sit down?
0:25:43 > 0:25:44If you want.
0:25:46 > 0:25:47How are you?
0:25:53 > 0:25:54I saw Laura. She told me about London.
0:25:56 > 0:25:57Right.
0:25:59 > 0:26:01- Were you just going to go without telling me?- Why would I tell you?
0:26:01 > 0:26:03You asked me to marry you last week.
0:26:05 > 0:26:08Just say what you've come to say and then go.
0:26:12 > 0:26:15Well, the thing is, this is going to sound a bit...
0:26:15 > 0:26:17SHE CLEARS THROAT
0:26:23 > 0:26:25My dad's not dead.
0:26:25 > 0:26:28He lives in a flat on the Exbourn Estate and I see him
0:26:28 > 0:26:29most days or nights.
0:26:31 > 0:26:34- Your dad...- Yeah.- ..is alive?
0:26:35 > 0:26:38- Yes.- He didn't die when you were a baby?
0:26:38 > 0:26:40No.
0:26:40 > 0:26:44And the reason I said no to marrying you wasn't because I didn't want to.
0:26:44 > 0:26:46It was because you thought he was dead and he
0:26:46 > 0:26:48doesn't know you even exist.
0:26:49 > 0:26:53I could never have a normal wedding anyway because he's a total...
0:26:53 > 0:26:54He's a complete mess.
0:26:55 > 0:26:57He's more like the...
0:26:57 > 0:26:59He's like a child really,
0:26:59 > 0:27:03and I'm more like the mum, the parent so I'm a mess as well.
0:27:03 > 0:27:04We're in this mess together.
0:27:07 > 0:27:09Even though I probably seem normal to you.
0:27:11 > 0:27:13I mean, I know I don't seem very normal right now.
0:27:14 > 0:27:16How do you see him every day, when?
0:27:16 > 0:27:19Really early or last thing.
0:27:19 > 0:27:20I run there.
0:27:22 > 0:27:25Uh. You run to your dead dad's flat every day or night?
0:27:26 > 0:27:29- Yeah.- And you've been doing this since we met?
0:27:30 > 0:27:33- More or less.- You've been lying to me for over a year.
0:27:33 > 0:27:36I didn't mean to. It just sort of happened.
0:27:36 > 0:27:38- And kept on happening! - I didn't know where it was going.
0:27:38 > 0:27:41Whether we'd still keep seeing each other and so
0:27:41 > 0:27:45I didn't mention it, mention to him because, well, I didn't need to.
0:27:45 > 0:27:48And then things got serious between us and I didn't know how.
0:27:48 > 0:27:52- I didn't know what to say. - You actually said he was dead.
0:27:52 > 0:27:53- I know.- Why would you say that?!
0:27:56 > 0:27:57Wishful thinking.
0:27:59 > 0:28:00Huh.
0:28:00 > 0:28:02In what way is he a mess?
0:28:04 > 0:28:05He drinks.
0:28:07 > 0:28:08Everyday.
0:28:09 > 0:28:10And he doesn't do anything else.
0:28:12 > 0:28:13What, he's an alcoholic?
0:28:16 > 0:28:17I suppose.
0:28:19 > 0:28:21And you couldn't just tell me that?
0:28:21 > 0:28:25It's not that I didn't want you to know, it's just...
0:28:26 > 0:28:31- I forget about him when I'm with you.- Oh, so I'm a distraction?
0:28:31 > 0:28:33Some sort of haven away from your real life?
0:28:33 > 0:28:36Being with you helps me deal with him.
0:28:38 > 0:28:39Is that wrong?
0:28:40 > 0:28:44- I am trying to be honest with you. - It's a bit late!- It's complicated.
0:28:44 > 0:28:47No, you've made it complicated. Your dad's got a drinking problem.
0:28:47 > 0:28:48So what, what's the big deal?
0:28:51 > 0:28:52So what?
0:28:55 > 0:28:57What would you do...
0:28:57 > 0:28:59if your mum started drinking?
0:28:59 > 0:29:00- She does drink.- Every day.
0:29:01 > 0:29:04From when she got out of bed until she collapsed back into it.
0:29:04 > 0:29:07If she stopped eating and went missing for days on end
0:29:07 > 0:29:10without any memory of where she'd been or who she'd been with.
0:29:10 > 0:29:11What would YOU do?
0:29:11 > 0:29:13Would you say, "So what?" and leave her to it?
0:29:26 > 0:29:29Look, ruining your own life is not going to change any of that.
0:29:29 > 0:29:32I didn't set out...to ruin anything.
0:29:37 > 0:29:39I am sorry that I lied to you.
0:29:48 > 0:29:49I better go.
0:29:50 > 0:29:52It's not your job to save him.
0:29:55 > 0:29:56I love him.
0:30:08 > 0:30:11SLOW PIANO MUSIC PLAYS
0:31:07 > 0:31:10DOOR OPENS
0:31:20 > 0:31:22No work?
0:31:22 > 0:31:24- I took the day off.- Oh.
0:31:25 > 0:31:27Where have you been?
0:31:28 > 0:31:30I had a few things to do.
0:31:30 > 0:31:32Like what?
0:31:32 > 0:31:35What's with the 20 questions?
0:31:35 > 0:31:36I've only asked you two.
0:31:38 > 0:31:41- I feel like I'm being told off.- Why?
0:31:43 > 0:31:46Do you know where my laptop is?
0:31:46 > 0:31:47Eh?
0:31:47 > 0:31:51- Me computer.- Oh, I haven't seen it.
0:31:51 > 0:31:53You let people in here yesterday.
0:31:53 > 0:31:56People I don't know, people you probably don't even know.
0:32:06 > 0:32:07Uh.
0:32:19 > 0:32:21I put the tools away, tidied up.
0:32:24 > 0:32:26That's what I went out for.
0:32:27 > 0:32:29A washer for the tap. Hm.
0:32:34 > 0:32:35I need to talk to you.
0:32:36 > 0:32:39- What about?- Sit down.
0:33:16 > 0:33:18Do you remember that...
0:33:18 > 0:33:20wooden dolls house I had?
0:33:22 > 0:33:25You painted it yourself. It was pink with a pale green roof.
0:33:27 > 0:33:30- I can't think.- You could stick your fingers through the windows
0:33:30 > 0:33:33and it had a proper little letterbox, do you remember?
0:33:33 > 0:33:35You had loads of stuff, didn't you?
0:33:35 > 0:33:38I was eight when I got that.
0:33:38 > 0:33:42And I'm 28 now. That's 20 years of worrying about you.
0:33:44 > 0:33:46- Worrying about me?- More, probably.
0:33:47 > 0:33:51The house is just a way of definitely knowing I was worrying
0:33:51 > 0:33:53when I was eight but I'm sure it was more than that.
0:33:53 > 0:33:56- What were you worrying about when you were eight?- You.
0:34:00 > 0:34:03Don't you want me here? Is that what this is all about?
0:34:03 > 0:34:07- You sick of me already?- Do you think you'll ever stop drinking?
0:34:08 > 0:34:11And I don't just mean cut down and stay off the hard stuff,
0:34:11 > 0:34:14I mean, get some help and completely stop.
0:34:14 > 0:34:16I could stop by meself if I wanted to.
0:34:16 > 0:34:17- No, you couldn't.- 'Course I could!
0:34:17 > 0:34:20No, you actually physically couldn't.
0:34:20 > 0:34:22You'd have a brain seizure or a stroke.
0:34:25 > 0:34:27Are you not feeling well?
0:34:34 > 0:34:37My boyfriend proposed to me last week.
0:34:38 > 0:34:40What boyfriend?
0:34:40 > 0:34:42His name's Danny. We work together.
0:34:44 > 0:34:46Is he your boss?
0:34:46 > 0:34:47No, I'm his.
0:34:51 > 0:34:52So, you're getting married?
0:34:55 > 0:34:58Do...do you not think it's strange that you've never even met?
0:35:01 > 0:35:03I said no because of you.
0:35:03 > 0:35:05What have I got to do with it?
0:35:05 > 0:35:08You have got everything to do everything in my life.
0:35:08 > 0:35:10- Everything! - I've never even met the bloke.
0:35:10 > 0:35:12No, because I told him you were dead.
0:35:20 > 0:35:21Dead?
0:35:25 > 0:35:26Yeah.
0:35:28 > 0:35:30Why?
0:35:34 > 0:35:35Shame.
0:35:37 > 0:35:39Mostly. Initially.
0:35:42 > 0:35:46And then I could just never imagine a good situation for you to meet.
0:35:47 > 0:35:50Maybe that's cos we don't have any good situations, me and you.
0:35:52 > 0:35:54You're ashamed of me?
0:35:56 > 0:35:58Yeah.
0:36:00 > 0:36:02I love you and I'm ashamed of you.
0:36:05 > 0:36:07I adore you but I feel abandoned by you
0:36:07 > 0:36:12and I want to look after you but I want YOU to look after me.
0:36:12 > 0:36:16I am tired of pretending that this is normal. It's not.
0:36:28 > 0:36:32- Since your mum died...- Oh, you were drinking way before then! Since...
0:36:32 > 0:36:34- I don't know what you want me to say!- Nothing.
0:36:35 > 0:36:38There are things that I'd like you to say, but...
0:36:42 > 0:36:44Well, that's up to you.
0:36:55 > 0:36:59SAD PIANO MUSIC
0:37:01 > 0:37:03SHE SNIFFLES
0:37:36 > 0:37:38Where are you going?
0:37:38 > 0:37:39I'll stay at a mate's.
0:37:41 > 0:37:43- Where?- Ah, not far from the flat.
0:37:43 > 0:37:47Well, why don't you go a bit later and I'll make us some food?
0:37:47 > 0:37:48The Last Supper?
0:37:51 > 0:37:52Don't say that.
0:37:54 > 0:37:56# There would be no better place... #
0:37:56 > 0:37:58HE SIGHS
0:37:59 > 0:38:01You better go and see this boyfriend.
0:38:02 > 0:38:05Sounds like you've got some sorting out to do.
0:38:08 > 0:38:11- I'm sorry. - You've got nothing to be sorry for.
0:38:14 > 0:38:16Nothing. Right?
0:38:19 > 0:38:21- Will you ring me? - I'll give you a little text.
0:38:21 > 0:38:23Let me know you're OK.
0:38:25 > 0:38:26I never actually...
0:38:28 > 0:38:30..wanted...
0:38:30 > 0:38:32- I'd never wish that. Ever.- I know.
0:38:35 > 0:38:37I love you.
0:38:37 > 0:38:38I know.
0:38:40 > 0:38:44# There would be no better place
0:38:51 > 0:38:52Right.
0:38:59 > 0:39:06# Could you have your arms around my
0:39:06 > 0:39:13# Could you have your arms around my
0:39:15 > 0:39:18# No, no-no-no
0:39:22 > 0:39:24# No, no-no oh-no-no
0:39:24 > 0:39:27MOBILE PHONE VIBRATES
0:39:28 > 0:39:30# Oh-hoo. #
0:40:14 > 0:40:16- Hi.- Are you all right?
0:40:18 > 0:40:19I ordered some wine.
0:40:27 > 0:40:29I owe you a massive apology.
0:40:31 > 0:40:34I still haven't quite processed it so I haven't got an explanation.
0:40:38 > 0:40:40- Did you lie to me about anything else?- No.
0:40:44 > 0:40:47- About the way you felt about me? - Definitely not. Never.
0:40:49 > 0:40:51Telling you about my dad...
0:40:52 > 0:40:55Hearing myself say the words, it made me realise how...
0:40:55 > 0:40:57Insane you are?
0:40:57 > 0:40:59I was going to say immature but I can see...
0:41:01 > 0:41:04- And telling him about you. - You told him about me?
0:41:06 > 0:41:07And that I said he was dead, yeah.
0:41:09 > 0:41:10Wow.
0:41:11 > 0:41:14That's...brave.
0:41:14 > 0:41:15But it's the truth.
0:41:16 > 0:41:17How did he take it?
0:41:19 > 0:41:20He was hurt.
0:41:24 > 0:41:26I asked him to stop drinking.
0:41:26 > 0:41:27Do you think he will?
0:41:30 > 0:41:32You never know.
0:41:34 > 0:41:36It's nice.
0:41:36 > 0:41:39Being able to talk to you about him, it's really nice.
0:41:42 > 0:41:46You are the best thing that's ever happened to me. Ever.
0:41:48 > 0:41:49Same.
0:41:51 > 0:41:53- You're not sorry you met me?- No, no!
0:41:53 > 0:41:55You don't think I'm mad?
0:41:55 > 0:41:57- I definitely think you're mad. - SHE CHUCKLES
0:41:59 > 0:42:01God knows what they must think of us here.
0:42:01 > 0:42:04Ah, they're happy, a bit of drama.
0:42:15 > 0:42:16I...
0:42:21 > 0:42:23I took it back but I couldn't part with it.
0:42:27 > 0:42:29Because it's yours.
0:42:29 > 0:42:30If you want it.
0:42:35 > 0:42:36Will you marry me?
0:42:38 > 0:42:40- Will you marry me?- Yeah!
0:42:40 > 0:42:42- Are you sure?- Absolutely.
0:42:56 > 0:42:58- You can change it.- No.
0:43:00 > 0:43:01I love it.
0:43:06 > 0:43:10# Give a little bit of love and you get it back
0:43:10 > 0:43:14# Give a little bit of pain, you're caught in a trap
0:43:14 > 0:43:17# For every little thing that you say or do
0:43:17 > 0:43:21# Give a little bit of love and it'll come back to you
0:43:25 > 0:43:26# Ooh
0:43:29 > 0:43:31# You got your reasons
0:43:32 > 0:43:36# But are you sure they're reasons to be right?
0:43:37 > 0:43:41# Oh, cos we're a long, long way, a long way. #