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0:00:15 > 0:00:17- Right, ready?
0:00:18 > 0:00:20- Come on, Ricky.
0:00:20 > 0:00:21- Come on, Ricky.- - I want to go back to school.
0:00:22 > 0:00:24- Yes, but this is more important.
0:00:24 > 0:00:27- And a promise is a promise. - Jim has to know.
0:00:28 > 0:00:31- He is... - He was Courtney's father.
0:00:32 > 0:00:35- You can't put this off forever.
0:00:35 > 0:00:36- Why not?
0:00:36 > 0:00:38- Why not?- - It's not fair.
0:00:38 > 0:00:41- Not just on Jim, - but not on you either.
0:00:41 > 0:00:43- Aren't you fed up - of keeping a secret?
0:00:44 > 0:00:46- I don't mind.
0:00:46 > 0:00:49- Listen, Jim will find out one day.
0:00:49 > 0:00:52- Wouldn't you rather be man enough...
0:00:52 > 0:00:56- ..to tell him yourself - rather than let someone else do it?
0:00:57 > 0:00:58- Alright.
0:00:59 > 0:01:01- Well, I want to tell Mam first.
0:01:01 > 0:01:03- Yes, OK.
0:01:03 > 0:01:06- She should know before Jim - or she'll go mad.
0:01:06 > 0:01:09- Do you promise to tell Jim - afterwards?
0:01:11 > 0:01:13- Good boy. Let's go.
0:01:19 > 0:01:20- Courtney?
0:01:29 > 0:01:32- What on earth?! - I thought you were a burglar!
0:01:33 > 0:01:35- What are you doing here, Ange?
0:01:35 > 0:01:38- Taking Courtney's stuff - to the Maenan Appeal.
0:01:39 > 0:01:41- Have you asked Jim's permission?
0:01:41 > 0:01:43- Have you asked Jim's permission?- - I'm her mother, Eifion.
0:01:43 > 0:01:47- If this isn't a job for me, - tell me who else should do it.
0:01:47 > 0:01:49- Yes, alright.
0:01:50 > 0:01:54- It would have been nice to let me - know in advance. A bit of courtesy.
0:01:54 > 0:01:57- It's a bit late for courtesy, - don't you think?
0:01:59 > 0:02:01- You haven't changed at all, - have you?
0:02:08 > 0:02:10- Do you want a sandwich?
0:02:15 > 0:02:17- What if Angela's right?
0:02:18 > 0:02:22- Courtney would still be alive - if she'd moved away with her.
0:02:22 > 0:02:25- Jim, there's no point - dwelling on that...
0:02:25 > 0:02:28- ..because no-one will ever - know the answer.
0:02:29 > 0:02:32- You're going to make yourself ill - if you...
0:02:32 > 0:02:34- There's truth in...
0:02:34 > 0:02:36- Angela said that...
0:02:36 > 0:02:40- ..because she's trying - to make herself feel better...
0:02:40 > 0:02:44- ..because she wasn't there - for Courtney, that's all.
0:02:45 > 0:02:46- Do you think so?
0:02:46 > 0:02:48- Do you think so?- - Yes.
0:02:48 > 0:02:50- It's grief.
0:02:52 > 0:02:55- You should try to do - what she is doing.
0:02:55 > 0:02:58- Find a way - of making you feel better.
0:02:59 > 0:03:02- Let's start with some lunch.
0:03:03 > 0:03:05- Yes.
0:03:06 > 0:03:09- I might go for a walk later - to get some fresh air.
0:03:10 > 0:03:11- A ham sandwich?
0:03:24 > 0:03:25- Angela!
0:03:27 > 0:03:29- I just wanted to say I'm sorry.
0:03:31 > 0:03:32- Thank you.
0:03:32 > 0:03:34- Thank you.- - She'll be missed.
0:03:35 > 0:03:38- Listen, do you want to come - to the salon for a cuppa?
0:03:39 > 0:03:42- I've lost a child too. - I know exactly how you feel.
0:03:44 > 0:03:48- Meilyr was a baby, Sheryl. - His personality hadn't formed.
0:03:49 > 0:03:51- What are you saying?
0:03:52 > 0:03:54- Courtney was almost an adult.
0:03:54 > 0:03:58- She was a person with feelings, - experiences, dreams.
0:03:58 > 0:04:01- We'd been through so much together.
0:04:02 > 0:04:06- With respect, Sheryl, - you have no idea how I feel.
0:04:11 > 0:04:13- You promised, Ricky.
0:04:13 > 0:04:15- I don't want to do it, Dad.
0:04:15 > 0:04:18- If you won't tell your mother, - I will.
0:04:18 > 0:04:21- Tell me what? - Why aren't you at school?
0:04:21 > 0:04:23- I gave him the afternoon off.
0:04:23 > 0:04:25- I gave him the afternoon off.- - Who are you? Gaynor?
0:04:25 > 0:04:28- He's got something to tell you.
0:04:29 > 0:04:32- If I can't persuade you, - your mother might.
0:04:33 > 0:04:35- He's promised to tell Jim...
0:04:35 > 0:04:38- ..he was the father - of Courtney's baby.
0:04:38 > 0:04:40- Why would he do that?
0:04:41 > 0:04:43- It's the right thing to do.
0:04:43 > 0:04:47- Why would Ricky take the blame - for someone else's mistake?
0:04:51 > 0:04:53- No. No way.
0:04:53 > 0:04:55- You?
0:04:56 > 0:04:57- You've slept with a girl!
0:04:57 > 0:04:59- You've slept with a girl!- - Please!
0:04:59 > 0:05:01- And I didn't know.
0:05:02 > 0:05:03- Don't be so naive.
0:05:03 > 0:05:05- Don't be so naive.- - It was my baby, Mam.
0:05:08 > 0:05:10- Well, you can't be sure.
0:05:10 > 0:05:12- Well, you can't be sure.- - I'm sure.
0:05:12 > 0:05:14- She may have slept with other boys.
0:05:15 > 0:05:17- Stop! - Don't talk about her like that.
0:05:17 > 0:05:20- Courtney and I - agreed to sleep together.
0:05:20 > 0:05:23- It was the first time - for both of us.
0:05:23 > 0:05:26- I don't know what to say.
0:05:26 > 0:05:29- Now you know how important it is - to tell Jim.
0:05:29 > 0:05:31- No! You're not telling him, Ricky.
0:05:32 > 0:05:34- He has a right to know.
0:05:34 > 0:05:36- He has a right to know.- - Jim is quick-tempered.
0:05:36 > 0:05:38- There's no telling what he'll do.
0:05:39 > 0:05:42- Aren't you concerned - for your own son?
0:05:42 > 0:05:44- I don't want him to get hurt.
0:05:44 > 0:05:46- I don't want him to get hurt.- - He can't grieve for Courtney.
0:05:46 > 0:05:50- His girlfriend. - He has to get it out.
0:05:50 > 0:05:51- I'm still here.
0:05:51 > 0:05:53- I'm still here.- - Don't you understand?
0:05:54 > 0:05:56- Telling Jim - will make him feel better.
0:05:57 > 0:05:59- I don't know. Maybe.
0:05:59 > 0:06:01- I don't know. Maybe.- - I know. Telling Jim won't help him.
0:06:01 > 0:06:04- And it won't stop Ricky - getting beaten up.
0:06:04 > 0:06:06- Forget it! Do you hear me?
0:06:11 > 0:06:14- Right, I'll see you later.
0:06:15 > 0:06:17- Take your time, love.
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0:06:42 > 0:06:45- What do you want?
0:06:45 > 0:06:47- What do you want is the question.
0:06:47 > 0:06:49- What do you want is the question.- - Nothing.
0:06:49 > 0:06:52- I've been clearing Courtney's room, - that's all.
0:06:52 > 0:06:55- What? Without saying a word - to anyone?
0:06:55 > 0:06:59- Sneaking around, clearing out - your daughter's room like a thief?
0:06:59 > 0:07:01- No.
0:07:01 > 0:07:03- I was only tidying her room.
0:07:03 > 0:07:05- A mother's duty.
0:07:07 > 0:07:11- It's a bit late to talk about - your duties as a mother, isn't it?
0:07:11 > 0:07:14- Where were you - when Courtney was alive, Angela?
0:07:14 > 0:07:16- Mam!
0:07:17 > 0:07:19- I can't believe this. - What's wrong with you?
0:07:21 > 0:07:23- I've just lost my only daughter.
0:07:25 > 0:07:27- I've got nothing left.
0:07:27 > 0:07:29- Nothing.
0:07:30 > 0:07:33- I know I've done - some terrible things...
0:07:33 > 0:07:35- ..but don't you feel - a mother's love?
0:07:35 > 0:07:38- Don't you feel sympathy - or anything for me?
0:07:39 > 0:07:42- Yes, of course. You're my daughter.
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0:07:57 > 0:08:00- Somebody must know something - about the baby.
0:08:01 > 0:08:03- No-one has any idea - who the father is.
0:08:04 > 0:08:06- What about Jim?
0:08:07 > 0:08:11- Or was he that disinterested - in his daughter's life?
0:08:12 > 0:08:14- Don't be too hard on Jim.
0:08:15 > 0:08:19- This business is gnawing away at him - and he's finding it hard to cope.
0:08:20 > 0:08:21- And I'm not, am I?
0:08:22 > 0:08:26- Just because I haven't given in - to self-pity...
0:08:26 > 0:08:31- ..doesn't mean I'm not suffering - as much, if not more, than Jim.
0:08:31 > 0:08:35- So even Courtney's death - is all about you, is it?
0:08:35 > 0:08:37- That's not what I said.
0:08:37 > 0:08:39- That's not what I said.- - A word of advice.
0:08:39 > 0:08:42- You're going to live - a very lonely life...
0:08:42 > 0:08:46- ..if the only thing you'll do - is look after number one.
0:08:47 > 0:08:49- I don't have anyone else - to look after now.
0:08:54 > 0:08:56- I'm sorry...
0:08:56 > 0:08:59- ..that your life hasn't turned out - as you'd hoped.
0:09:01 > 0:09:03- I'll be alright, Mam.
0:09:04 > 0:09:05- I'm a survivor.
0:09:43 > 0:09:45- What is she doing here?
0:09:47 > 0:09:49- Why didn't you tell me - she was here?
0:09:53 > 0:09:54- What's going on?
0:09:55 > 0:09:57- You're up to something.
0:09:57 > 0:09:58- You're up to something.- - I've finished.
0:09:58 > 0:10:00- Finished what?
0:10:01 > 0:10:02- What I had to do, Jim.
0:10:03 > 0:10:05- Give me that key.
0:10:05 > 0:10:07- Now!
0:10:08 > 0:10:10- You always believed...
0:10:10 > 0:10:13- ..that shouting and bullying - was the way to get your own way.
0:10:14 > 0:10:15- But it never worked with me...
0:10:16 > 0:10:20- ..it didn't work with Courtney - and it won't work with anyone else.
0:10:20 > 0:10:22- Not everyone - is as cold-hearted as you.
0:10:24 > 0:10:27- You don't know me at all, do you?
0:10:29 > 0:10:31- Why didn't you take care of her, - Jim?
0:10:37 > 0:10:39- Here you are.
0:10:39 > 0:10:41- I don't need them now.
0:10:48 > 0:10:50- Are you alright, love?
0:10:53 > 0:10:55- Ricky?
0:10:56 > 0:10:58- It was me.
0:10:59 > 0:11:01- Sorry?
0:11:01 > 0:11:03- The baby's father.
0:11:05 > 0:11:07- Oh, love.
0:11:13 > 0:11:15- I loved her. I still love her.
0:11:18 > 0:11:20- Aren't you angry with me?
0:11:20 > 0:11:21- Aren't you angry with me?- - No.
0:11:23 > 0:11:24- Where are you going?
0:11:24 > 0:11:25- Where are you going?- - To tell Jim.
0:11:26 > 0:11:27- Now's not the time.
0:11:27 > 0:11:29- Now's not the time.- - So when?
0:11:29 > 0:11:32- I don't know. Maybe never.
0:11:32 > 0:11:36- Finding out who the father is - won't change anything for him.
0:11:36 > 0:11:39- It might change it for me.
0:11:40 > 0:11:43- Telling people the truth - won't bring Courtney back...
0:11:43 > 0:11:47- ..and it won't ease the pain - of losing her either.
0:11:49 > 0:11:51- So keeping my mouth shut is best, - is it?
0:11:52 > 0:11:54- For now.
0:11:55 > 0:11:58- You don't want Jim Probert - as an enemy.
0:12:27 > 0:12:29- Thank you, Debs.
0:12:30 > 0:12:32- Have you come to apologize?
0:12:32 > 0:12:35- I've come to see Debs. Excuse me.
0:12:35 > 0:12:38- Look after the place - for five minutes for me.
0:12:44 > 0:12:46- Why didn't you tell me?
0:12:47 > 0:12:49- I didn't know until lunchtime.
0:12:49 > 0:12:51- I didn't know until lunchtime.- - He's worried sick.
0:12:51 > 0:12:53- It can't be easy for him.
0:12:53 > 0:12:55- It can't be easy for him.- - No.
0:12:57 > 0:12:59- He's a good boy.
0:13:00 > 0:13:03- He and Courtney - would have made a lovely couple.
0:13:03 > 0:13:05- You and I'd have spoilt - the baby rotten.
0:13:08 > 0:13:10- Look after him, Debs.
0:13:10 > 0:13:11- Hey...
0:13:12 > 0:13:15- ..you're not a bad person, - you know.
0:13:15 > 0:13:18- Don't punish yourself - for the rest of your life.
0:13:24 > 0:13:27- You're not going to try - and stop me, are you?
0:13:27 > 0:13:29- I'm going to call the police.
0:13:29 > 0:13:31- I'm going to call the police.- - Don't be like that, Llinos.
0:13:31 > 0:13:34- Come on, Jim. - We'll come back later.
0:13:34 > 0:13:36- Sorry.
0:13:36 > 0:13:39- I want everything - that belongs to Courtney.
0:13:39 > 0:13:41- The sooner you leave me alone...
0:13:41 > 0:13:44- ..the sooner I'll be out of here.
0:13:46 > 0:13:48- I'll help if you like.
0:13:49 > 0:13:52- Why would you want to help?
0:13:52 > 0:13:55- Well, I knew Courtney quite well...
0:13:55 > 0:13:58- ..so I might be able to guess - what belonged to her.
0:14:04 > 0:14:06- I'm a poet too.
0:14:11 > 0:14:12- Hiya.
0:14:13 > 0:14:14- Hi.
0:14:14 > 0:14:16- How do you feel?
0:14:17 > 0:14:19- I've just spoken to Ricky.
0:14:19 > 0:14:21- I've just spoken to Ricky.- - Have you?
0:14:24 > 0:14:26- Look after him.
0:14:26 > 0:14:28- He and Courtney - were the best of friends.
0:14:29 > 0:14:31- Yes, they were.
0:14:31 > 0:14:33- Thank you. I will.
0:14:33 > 0:14:36- Um, right, excuse me.
0:14:36 > 0:14:38- I'm sure you want a word.
0:14:38 > 0:14:40- Don't go on my account.
0:14:46 > 0:14:48- What do you want?
0:14:48 > 0:14:51- I'm sorry - for the way it's turned out.
0:14:52 > 0:14:54- Maybe it's for the best.
0:14:54 > 0:14:57- You think so, do you?
0:14:58 > 0:15:01- I don't know what I think.
0:15:01 > 0:15:04- My world - has been turned upside down.
0:15:04 > 0:15:07- But I have to keep believing - in something...
0:15:07 > 0:15:10- ..or there's no point carrying on.
0:15:12 > 0:15:15- I can't imagine - what it's like to lose a child.
0:15:15 > 0:15:18- It's hell, Eifion.
0:15:20 > 0:15:21- A drink?
0:15:22 > 0:15:24- I don't think it's a good idea.
0:15:24 > 0:15:26- I don't think it's a good idea.- - Come on. A small one.
0:15:27 > 0:15:29- I want a divorce, Eifion...
0:15:29 > 0:15:31- ..as soon as possible.
0:15:33 > 0:15:37- You've spent Auntie Marian's money - already, have you?
0:15:37 > 0:15:38- Don't you dare!
0:15:38 > 0:15:40- I don't want your money.
0:15:40 > 0:15:41- I don't want your money.- - I don't believe you.
0:15:42 > 0:15:47- Would you believe me - if I said I want a fresh start?
0:15:48 > 0:15:51- Steve and I want to go overseas.
0:15:52 > 0:15:53- Steve?
0:15:53 > 0:15:55- Yes.
0:15:55 > 0:15:57- Yes.- - Wow. You moved on quickly.
0:15:58 > 0:16:02- You and I weren't meant - to be together, Eifion.
0:16:03 > 0:16:06- The truth is, you should never - have left Penrhewl.
0:16:07 > 0:16:09- You're not wrong there.
0:16:09 > 0:16:11- I regret ever meeting you.
0:16:13 > 0:16:16- My solicitor will be in touch.
0:16:35 > 0:16:38- I'm sorry - for what I said about Courtney.
0:16:38 > 0:16:41- I know she wasn't - that sort of girl.
0:16:41 > 0:16:43- I'm concerned for you.
0:16:43 > 0:16:45- I'm 16, Mam.
0:16:46 > 0:16:49- You would have been a great father.
0:16:49 > 0:16:52- And you will be again, one day.
0:16:54 > 0:16:57- It's not going to happen now, Mam. - Never.
0:16:57 > 0:16:59- Yes, but...
0:17:02 > 0:17:04- I'm sorry for your loss.
0:17:05 > 0:17:08- And I want you to know - that I'm here for you.
0:17:12 > 0:17:16- Dad said that I'd feel better - if I confessed...
0:17:16 > 0:17:18- ..but I don't feel any better.
0:17:20 > 0:17:23- When does this pain end, Mam?
0:18:07 > 0:18:08- Oh, Jim.
0:18:09 > 0:18:12- Come home with me.
0:18:13 > 0:18:14- No.
0:18:15 > 0:18:18- I want to stay here for a while.
0:18:26 > 0:18:29- There's nothing we can say...
0:18:29 > 0:18:32- ..or do to bring Courtney back.
0:18:34 > 0:18:36- We have to move on.
0:18:36 > 0:18:38- We have to.
0:18:42 > 0:18:44- I don't think I can.
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