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0:00:22 > 0:00:26- Sorry, I didn't realize it was - so late. You should have woken me.
0:00:26 > 0:00:28- No. You were fast asleep.
0:00:28 > 0:00:31- I've been sleeping in - every morning.
0:00:31 > 0:00:34- You obviously need the sleep.
0:00:35 > 0:00:37- You're obviously very busy.
0:00:40 > 0:00:42- I'm looking at this website...
0:00:42 > 0:00:46- ..about therapists - specializing in PTSD.
0:00:48 > 0:00:49- There's no need.
0:00:50 > 0:00:52- There are a lot of them.
0:00:52 > 0:00:54- Look.
0:00:54 > 0:00:56- Let me wake up properly.
0:00:56 > 0:00:58- I need a cuppa.
0:01:00 > 0:01:01- Do you want one?
0:01:01 > 0:01:03- Do you want one?- - No, I'm fine, thanks.
0:01:04 > 0:01:07- Is everything alright? - I haven't seen you for days.
0:01:07 > 0:01:10- Yes, I've just been helping - Auntie Anita to pack and stuff.
0:01:11 > 0:01:12- And keeping a low profile, maybe.
0:01:12 > 0:01:14- And keeping a low profile, maybe.- - Is everyone gossiping about me?
0:01:14 > 0:01:16- Not at all.
0:01:17 > 0:01:19- Tyler.
0:01:20 > 0:01:24- Why did I do it? Why did - I throw myself at Ed like that?
0:01:24 > 0:01:26- I'm so embarrassed.
0:01:26 > 0:01:29- I throw myself at everyone - every Christmas.
0:01:29 > 0:01:32- Forget it and come out - with Iol and me tonight.
0:01:32 > 0:01:33- Alright, but I'm not drinking.
0:01:33 > 0:01:35- Alright, but I'm not drinking.- - You're not doing dry January too.
0:01:35 > 0:01:37- Get off! A week, maybe.
0:01:38 > 0:01:41- Here she is, the jetsetter. - Are you all packed?
0:01:41 > 0:01:43- I hope so.
0:01:43 > 0:01:46- Yes, Sheryl, - I've packed everything for Wil.
0:01:46 > 0:01:48- Yes, I've checked.
0:01:50 > 0:01:51- Alright. Thanks.
0:01:51 > 0:01:53- I'll phone you when I get there.
0:01:55 > 0:01:57- OK, love. Ta-ra.
0:01:57 > 0:02:01- Have you checked and double checked - everything loads of times?
0:02:01 > 0:02:03- Yes.
0:02:03 > 0:02:06- I think I'll put - one more jumper in.
0:02:07 > 0:02:11- Have you told her then? That you - won't be here when she gets back.
0:02:12 > 0:02:14- I haven't been accepted - to do voluntary work yet.
0:02:15 > 0:02:18- You might be on the other side - of the world when she gets back.
0:02:19 > 0:02:21- I don't want her - to stop me going, OK.
0:02:21 > 0:02:24- I have to put some distance - between Ed and me.
0:02:24 > 0:02:25- Are you sure about that?
0:02:25 > 0:02:27- Are you sure about that?- - Yes.
0:02:30 > 0:02:32- Try and smile, Macs.
0:02:32 > 0:02:33- Try and smile, Macs.- - Try and get a move on.
0:02:33 > 0:02:37- Come on. Huw won't want to see - photos of your miserable face!
0:02:37 > 0:02:38- That's better.
0:02:43 > 0:02:46- I still haven't heard anything - from your solicitor?
0:02:46 > 0:02:47- About what?
0:02:48 > 0:02:51- Macs wants to fight for the right - to see Arwen more often.
0:02:51 > 0:02:53- I haven't heard anything.
0:02:53 > 0:02:57- I'm sure Ffion will object - whatever the solicitor says.
0:02:57 > 0:03:00- If she would be reasonable, - I wouldn't have to go to court.
0:03:01 > 0:03:04- I really thought she'd warm to me, - especially after I saved Ifan.
0:03:05 > 0:03:08- So that's why you went into - the fire. To impress Ffion?
0:03:09 > 0:03:10- You were very brave, Macs.
0:03:11 > 0:03:13- Maybe one day, - Ffion will realize you've changed.
0:03:14 > 0:03:15- You've got more faith than me.
0:03:16 > 0:03:20- Hey, come on. There's no point - feeling sorry for yourself.
0:03:23 > 0:03:24- What's wrong?
0:03:25 > 0:03:27- Um... I can't find my passport.
0:03:36 > 0:03:38- Where are you going?
0:03:38 > 0:03:41- I'll follow my nose. I haven't - been out of the house for days.
0:03:42 > 0:03:44- I feel like the walls - are closing in.
0:03:44 > 0:03:47- I'm sorry I'm so boring.
0:03:47 > 0:03:49- You're not.
0:03:49 > 0:03:52- You've done so well - over the last few weeks...
0:03:52 > 0:03:54- ..and I shouldn't put pressure - on you to talk.
0:03:55 > 0:03:58- You should be able to talk - in your own time when you're ready.
0:03:58 > 0:04:01- Is that what it says - on your computer?
0:04:02 > 0:04:03- One of the points, yes.
0:04:05 > 0:04:08- I'm trying my best to understand - what you're going through.
0:04:08 > 0:04:10- You'll never understand.
0:04:10 > 0:04:11- You'll never understand.- - But I want to understand.
0:04:12 > 0:04:15- I don't want you to fall at - the last hurdle after doing so well.
0:04:16 > 0:04:19- But unfortunately, I don't - have the skills to help you.
0:04:20 > 0:04:22- Wait.
0:04:22 > 0:04:25- Wait. I'll come with you.
0:04:26 > 0:04:27- You don't have to come.
0:04:27 > 0:04:30- You don't have to come.- - Please. Don't go without me.
0:04:30 > 0:04:33- Stewing in the house - won't do me any good.
0:04:35 > 0:04:37- Are you going to change first?
0:04:45 > 0:04:46- Where did you see it last?
0:04:46 > 0:04:48- I thought it was with the ticket.
0:04:49 > 0:04:51- Maybe it's in one of those - recycling bags.
0:04:51 > 0:04:54- You can say goodbye to your trip - if it is.
0:04:54 > 0:04:57- The bin lorry - has just collected the bags.
0:04:57 > 0:05:00- Did you have to clear away - the Christmas things today?
0:05:00 > 0:05:03- I'll have to cancel now.
0:05:03 > 0:05:04- It's bound to be here somewhere.
0:05:04 > 0:05:06- It's bound to be here somewhere.- - I've looked everywhere.
0:05:07 > 0:05:09- It's on its way - to the rubbish tip now!
0:05:11 > 0:05:13- Your carriage awaits.
0:05:15 > 0:05:17- Don't get upset - or I'll start crying.
0:05:17 > 0:05:19- Upset? I can't wait - to get rid of you!
0:05:19 > 0:05:22- I'm going to have wild parties - here every night!
0:05:22 > 0:05:24- Ha-ha!
0:05:24 > 0:05:26- You can always ask Ed - to come over...
0:05:26 > 0:05:29- ..whenever you want - while I'm away.
0:05:29 > 0:05:32- Thanks for the offer, but no ta.
0:05:32 > 0:05:36- Well, you know, it might - be easier with me not here.
0:05:36 > 0:05:38- He wouldn't accept - the invitation anyway.
0:05:39 > 0:05:41- You won't know until you ask.
0:05:41 > 0:05:44- I'm not breaking - my new year's resolution.
0:05:45 > 0:05:47- Oh?
0:05:47 > 0:05:50- Don't look back. Move forward.
0:05:50 > 0:05:51- CAR HORN
0:05:51 > 0:05:53- Come on.
0:05:58 > 0:06:00- Hiya. Thanks.
0:06:00 > 0:06:06- Anita, you'll never believe this - but my passport's missing.
0:06:06 > 0:06:09- I won't be able to meet you - in Canada after all.
0:06:09 > 0:06:12- I was looking forward - to travelling together so much.
0:06:12 > 0:06:14- Me too.
0:06:15 > 0:06:17- Go home and look for it. - It must be somewhere.
0:06:18 > 0:06:19- I've looked everywhere.
0:06:19 > 0:06:22- You're going to miss your flight - if you don't shift.
0:06:23 > 0:06:24- Right, love. OK.
0:06:27 > 0:06:30- Congratulations on your engagement.
0:06:31 > 0:06:35- Just so you know, - I've talked to my solicitor...
0:06:35 > 0:06:38- ..and you have no chance - of getting access to Arwen.
0:06:38 > 0:06:41- And you'd have to pay - a fortune in costs.
0:06:42 > 0:06:43- Why are you being like this?
0:06:44 > 0:06:47- I just want us all to be friends - and to see her occasionally.
0:06:47 > 0:06:49- Forget it.
0:06:49 > 0:06:51- Forget it.- - I'm worried about her.
0:06:51 > 0:06:53- The only person you care about - is yourself.
0:06:54 > 0:06:56- Why don't you go to America - with your father...
0:06:56 > 0:06:59- ..and find someone there - to start a family with?
0:07:00 > 0:07:02- Just leave me alone. Understand?
0:07:05 > 0:07:06- Look after yourself.
0:07:07 > 0:07:08- I'll miss you.
0:07:08 > 0:07:10- I'll miss you.- - I'll be back before you notice.
0:07:12 > 0:07:14- Ta-ra, love.
0:07:15 > 0:07:16- Ta-ra.
0:07:35 > 0:07:37- He looks more lonely than you, Kel.
0:07:38 > 0:07:40- Do you think so?
0:07:42 > 0:07:43- Go after him.
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0:08:03 > 0:08:05- Well, you were right again.
0:08:06 > 0:08:09- Fresh air does make - the world of difference.
0:08:10 > 0:08:12- It's true what they say - about doctors.
0:08:12 > 0:08:15- They make terrible patients!
0:08:15 > 0:08:18- "Physician, heal thyself."
0:08:18 > 0:08:21- It's easier said than done, - isn't it?
0:08:21 > 0:08:24- But you are getting better, - aren't you?
0:08:24 > 0:08:29- You've stopped drinking and you're - definitely sleeping better.
0:08:30 > 0:08:32- I'm still having nightmares.
0:08:33 > 0:08:36- I still see those little children.
0:08:37 > 0:08:40- The fear in their eyes - before that mortar struck.
0:08:42 > 0:08:45- But according to what - I heard you tell Liam...
0:08:46 > 0:08:49- ..it was an impossible choice.
0:08:51 > 0:08:53- I made the wrong choice.
0:08:54 > 0:08:55- Because...
0:08:57 > 0:08:59- ..Tim was going to die anyway.
0:08:59 > 0:09:02- But you didn't know that - at the time.
0:09:03 > 0:09:06- Elgan, you have to stop - punishing yourself.
0:09:07 > 0:09:12- And think of all the children - and people you've saved...
0:09:12 > 0:09:13- ..as a doctor.
0:09:14 > 0:09:16- You've saved the lives - of lots of them.
0:09:17 > 0:09:21- That doesn't justify letting three - innocent little children die.
0:09:24 > 0:09:28- I wonder what would have become - of them if they hadn't...
0:09:30 > 0:09:33- We'd better carry on - or it will get dark.
0:09:40 > 0:09:43- Go to the recycling centre.
0:09:43 > 0:09:45- Ask if you can go through the bags.
0:09:45 > 0:09:48- It would be easier - to find a needle in a haystack.
0:09:49 > 0:09:52- Dani won't let me take - the trimmings down.
0:09:52 > 0:09:55- She thinks it's unlucky - to do it before Twelfth Night.
0:09:56 > 0:09:58- I wish I'd waited.
0:09:58 > 0:10:01- She won't notice - if I just take the cards down.
0:10:08 > 0:10:09- Hiya.
0:10:09 > 0:10:11- Hiya, Kel.
0:10:11 > 0:10:12- Happy new year.
0:10:12 > 0:10:14- You, too.
0:10:16 > 0:10:20- You're not having a dry January - like Dai then.
0:10:20 > 0:10:22- No. Do you want one?
0:10:23 > 0:10:25- Yes, go on then. Twist my arm.
0:10:26 > 0:10:30- I'll have a pint of lager shandy, - just in case I go OTT again.
0:10:30 > 0:10:31- I'll be with you now.
0:10:32 > 0:10:35- Did you do anything exciting - on new year's eve?
0:10:36 > 0:10:38- I watched TV with Auntie Anita. - You?
0:10:38 > 0:10:39- Noson Lawen with Sion.
0:10:39 > 0:10:41- Noson Lawen with Sion.- - Really exciting!
0:10:41 > 0:10:44- Does anyone recycle cards?
0:10:44 > 0:10:47- Yes. Auntie Anita's asked me - to take hers to the Maenan Appeal.
0:10:49 > 0:10:50- I didn't think of that.
0:10:50 > 0:10:52- I have to go.
0:10:56 > 0:10:58- Charming!
0:10:59 > 0:11:01- Thanks for letting me know.
0:11:01 > 0:11:03- Your solicitor?
0:11:04 > 0:11:08- Ffion was right. There's not much - hope and it will cost a fortune.
0:11:09 > 0:11:13- I could go and see her in school - next week. If she's back.
0:11:13 > 0:11:17- I don't think - they'll let you through the gates.
0:11:17 > 0:11:19- It's not fair.
0:11:19 > 0:11:22- Did you take the Christmas cards - to the Maenan Appeal?
0:11:22 > 0:11:23- Not yet.
0:11:23 > 0:11:25- Where are they?
0:11:25 > 0:11:26- Where are they?- - On the dresser over there.
0:11:28 > 0:11:31- Why? Do you think maybe - the passport...
0:11:32 > 0:11:33- Hallelujah!
0:11:34 > 0:11:35- Well done, Ed.
0:11:35 > 0:11:37- Well done, Ed.- - I'm sorry for blaming you.
0:11:37 > 0:11:39- I collected those cards.
0:11:39 > 0:11:40- I collected those cards.- - I'm just glad we've found it.
0:11:42 > 0:11:45- Hey, check to see if they've got - a seat left on the flight.
0:11:45 > 0:11:47- Here are the details.
0:11:48 > 0:11:51- Run away, like Ffion suggested? - No thanks.
0:11:51 > 0:11:53- Just a holiday, that's all.
0:11:53 > 0:11:56- There's nothing here for me, - is there?
0:11:56 > 0:11:58- You'll always be welcome here.
0:11:58 > 0:12:02- It would be company for me - and Huw would love to see you.
0:12:04 > 0:12:06- Right, what do you fancy doing?
0:12:06 > 0:12:09- Shall we take the long way back - this way...
0:12:09 > 0:12:11- ..or the shortcut?
0:12:11 > 0:12:14- Well, I don't think - I can walk much further.
0:12:14 > 0:12:16- Not today, anyway.
0:12:16 > 0:12:20- I'd like to get back to catch - the surgery before it closes.
0:12:20 > 0:12:23- I'm going to ask for more time off.
0:12:24 > 0:12:28- It's not fair to expect you - to shoulder the burden.
0:12:29 > 0:12:31- I need professional help, don't I?
0:12:31 > 0:12:34- That's the only way - I'm going to recover properly.
0:12:34 > 0:12:36- Who will you go to?
0:12:36 > 0:12:38- Well...
0:12:38 > 0:12:41- ..I'll look at the research - you did this morning.
0:12:41 > 0:12:45- I've found a website. - Veterans Gateway.
0:12:45 > 0:12:47- They can refer you - to the right people.
0:12:49 > 0:12:50- Ideal.
0:12:50 > 0:12:52- It's a start, isn't it?
0:12:53 > 0:12:55- Yes. It is.
0:13:05 > 0:13:08- I was wondering if you wanted - to go out for a walk?
0:13:08 > 0:13:11- Sion's come over to say goodbye. - The passport turned up.
0:13:12 > 0:13:16- There was a spare seat on the plane - so Macs is coming with me.
0:13:16 > 0:13:18- Anita's just reached the airport.
0:13:18 > 0:13:20- Anita's just reached the airport.- - Miss you, Auntie Anita!
0:13:21 > 0:13:24- Are you sure it's wise, going away - with the old man for a month?
0:13:24 > 0:13:26- Dad's right.
0:13:26 > 0:13:28- I'll do something stupid - if I stay here.
0:13:30 > 0:13:32- When you see Ffion, tell her...
0:13:33 > 0:13:35- ..I'm not going to court.
0:13:36 > 0:13:38- And that I'm no threat to her.
0:13:40 > 0:13:41- Yes, of course.
0:13:42 > 0:13:44- And let me know - how Arwen's getting on.
0:13:46 > 0:13:48- You're so lucky, - having your own family.
0:13:48 > 0:13:51- Right, I think we should all have - a selfie...
0:13:52 > 0:13:55- ..before Macs and Sion disappear.
0:13:55 > 0:13:57- Right, everyone in.
0:14:08 > 0:14:11- You weren't looking! - You weren't looking, were you?
0:14:17 > 0:14:18- Well?
0:14:19 > 0:14:20- I've got extended leave.
0:14:21 > 0:14:23- Did you explain why - you wanted time off?
0:14:23 > 0:14:25- Yes.
0:14:25 > 0:14:28- You go on to the Deri. - I'll follow you in two minutes.
0:14:29 > 0:14:30- Alright.
0:14:44 > 0:14:45- Congratulations.
0:14:46 > 0:14:50- Thanks. I've just booked a table. - Arwen wants a celebratory dinner.
0:14:50 > 0:14:51- She's still getting better, is she?
0:14:51 > 0:14:53- She's still getting better, is she?- - Yes.
0:14:53 > 0:14:56- She wants to go back - to school next week.
0:14:56 > 0:14:59- So you're free to come back too. - I'm going back on Monday.
0:15:00 > 0:15:02- We can support each other.
0:15:02 > 0:15:05- Yes. It'll be nice to have - a routine again.
0:15:05 > 0:15:08- I have to go. - I have to pick Arwen up. Hiya.
0:15:08 > 0:15:10- How are you?
0:15:11 > 0:15:12- Coffee?
0:15:12 > 0:15:14- Two coffees, please, Garry.
0:15:14 > 0:15:16- Two coffees, please, Garry.- - I haven't seen you two for a while.
0:15:16 > 0:15:19- Have you been away?
0:15:19 > 0:15:22- No. I haven't been very well - over Christmas.
0:15:24 > 0:15:28- As you know, it's been a difficult - year for me with everything.
0:15:28 > 0:15:30- I understand.
0:15:30 > 0:15:33- But I've been looking at places - where I'd get help.
0:15:33 > 0:15:36- Oh, right. - Are you going to see someone?
0:15:39 > 0:15:40- I'm considering the options.
0:15:41 > 0:15:44- Thanks to Gaynor, the new year - is looking better already.
0:15:45 > 0:15:46- Coffees.
0:15:50 > 0:15:53- Are you alright? - I didn't see you leave earlier.
0:15:53 > 0:15:56- Yes, well. - Thanks for letting me know.
0:15:58 > 0:16:01- I'll email you a CV - and I look forward to meeting you.
0:16:01 > 0:16:03- Thank you.
0:16:03 > 0:16:04- Ta-ra.
0:16:06 > 0:16:07- They want to see me.
0:16:07 > 0:16:09- They want to see me.- - Fantastic.
0:16:09 > 0:16:12- It's only an interview - but they sound really keen.
0:16:12 > 0:16:13- KNOCK ON DOOR
0:16:18 > 0:16:22- Hiya, Kel. Listen, sorry - for leaving you in the Deri earlier.
0:16:22 > 0:16:24- In the lurch you mean.
0:16:24 > 0:16:25- In the lurch you mean.- - Hiya, Ty.
0:16:25 > 0:16:29- Do you fancy going out? I promise - to buy you a drink this time.
0:16:31 > 0:16:35- I'm good enough for you now, - now that Sion's gone.
0:16:35 > 0:16:38- I had to rush off. - Sion's passport was...
0:16:38 > 0:16:41- Sorry, Ed. I've got things to do.
0:16:42 > 0:16:45- Oh, OK. Some other time then?
0:16:54 > 0:16:58- Why did you do that? - He wanted to take you out.
0:17:00 > 0:17:01- There's no point.
0:17:01 > 0:17:04- I shouldn't have listened - to you earlier.
0:17:04 > 0:17:08- And I have to email - a more detailed CV to the charity.
0:17:10 > 0:17:14- Are you sure you want to go abroad? - It's a big step, Kel.
0:17:14 > 0:17:17- I need a fresh start, - not more false starts.
0:17:17 > 0:17:20- So, please don't try - and put me off.
0:18:00 > 0:18:03- Upgrade? Jammy! - That never happens to me.
0:18:05 > 0:18:07- Large gin and tonics - all the way then!
0:18:08 > 0:18:12- Auntie Anita, you'd better - put it on airplane mode now.
0:18:13 > 0:18:14- Have a safe journey.
0:18:17 > 0:18:19- Yes, I'll be waiting for you.
0:18:21 > 0:18:22- OK. Ta-ra.
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