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0:00:17 > 0:00:18- Come in, Col.
0:00:18 > 0:00:20- Thanks.
0:00:22 > 0:00:23- How is everyone?
0:00:23 > 0:00:26- We can't believe it.
0:00:26 > 0:00:30- It was all ready for the op then Non - gets cold feet all of a sudden.
0:00:30 > 0:00:32- She ran away from the hospital.
0:00:32 > 0:00:35- No-one would do that - without good reason.
0:00:35 > 0:00:37- You're right.
0:00:37 > 0:00:39- She must have her reasons.
0:00:39 > 0:00:43- Listen, everybody knows - it wasn't easy for her...
0:00:43 > 0:00:46- ..but why did she get our hopes up?
0:00:47 > 0:00:50- All I'm saying is, - we shouldn't be so hard on her.
0:00:51 > 0:00:53- Sorry, Colin, - what she did is unforgivable.
0:00:54 > 0:00:56- There's no rhyme nor reason for it.
0:00:58 > 0:00:59- How is Mark?
0:00:59 > 0:01:03- He hasn't said much - but I can tell he's disappointed.
0:01:03 > 0:01:06- I'll kill that girl when I see her.
0:01:06 > 0:01:09- What? - Hasn't she been home since that?
0:01:09 > 0:01:11- This isn't her home any more.
0:01:11 > 0:01:14- She's too ashamed to show her face.
0:01:21 > 0:01:23- Non...
0:01:23 > 0:01:25- ..where have you been?
0:01:26 > 0:01:27- A long story.
0:01:31 > 0:01:32- See you later, OK?
0:01:33 > 0:01:35- Yes, yes, right.
0:01:35 > 0:01:37- I'll go.
0:01:37 > 0:01:39- OK.
0:01:45 > 0:01:50- I want you out of here today. - Your things are ready, in bin bags.
0:01:50 > 0:01:53- You stay there. I'll fetch them.
0:01:58 > 0:02:01- She was asleep before I put her - down. I'll do that later.
0:02:01 > 0:02:05- No, I've got time. I'm not leaving - until later this afternoon.
0:02:07 > 0:02:09- I don't want you to go - to the car show.
0:02:09 > 0:02:11- I'll be back on Monday.
0:02:11 > 0:02:13- I'll be back on Monday.- - What will I do without you?
0:02:13 > 0:02:16- I'm sure Carol will keep you busy.
0:02:16 > 0:02:18- But she's going to miss you.
0:02:19 > 0:02:23- Hey, my lunch hour is over.
0:02:23 > 0:02:25- I don't care.
0:02:25 > 0:02:26- Dani.
0:02:29 > 0:02:31- What are you doing?
0:02:36 > 0:02:39- Off you go! - I don't want to see you here again.
0:02:40 > 0:02:41- I understand you're angry with me...
0:02:41 > 0:02:43- I understand you're angry with me...- - Angry? You have no idea!
0:02:43 > 0:02:47- I know what I did was terrible - but I really am sorry.
0:02:47 > 0:02:49- Sorry won't help Mark, will it?
0:02:49 > 0:02:51- You let him down big time.
0:02:51 > 0:02:53- You let him down big time.- - I know.
0:02:53 > 0:02:56- I want to make up for it. - I wasn't thinking straight.
0:02:56 > 0:02:59- How? We've missed our chance now.
0:02:59 > 0:03:02- Is Mark here?
0:03:02 > 0:03:04- You're not going near him.
0:03:04 > 0:03:06- Mark should decide that.
0:03:06 > 0:03:08- Mark should decide that.- - Decide what?
0:03:08 > 0:03:10- Whether or not - you want to hear her excuses.
0:03:10 > 0:03:12- You've got a nerve turning up here.
0:03:12 > 0:03:16- You've got a nerve turning up here.- - Two minutes, that's all I want.
0:03:17 > 0:03:19- And then I'll leave, I promise.
0:03:19 > 0:03:21- And go where?
0:03:21 > 0:03:23- And go where?- - She's not welcome here.
0:03:23 > 0:03:25- You don't have to go.
0:03:25 > 0:03:28- You don't have to go.- - I don't want her under our roof.
0:03:28 > 0:03:31- Right, everybody out - so I can talk to Non.
0:03:31 > 0:03:33- You won't get much sense...
0:03:34 > 0:03:35- Mam! Out, I said.
0:03:36 > 0:03:40- Take these bin bags back upstairs - while you're at it.
0:03:40 > 0:03:42- You heard what Mark said.
0:03:44 > 0:03:45- I'm not going anywhere.
0:03:45 > 0:03:47- I'm not going anywhere.- - Debs, please.
0:03:49 > 0:03:51- Thanks, Josh.
0:03:55 > 0:03:57- I'm so sorry.
0:03:57 > 0:03:59- Come here.
0:04:05 > 0:04:07- Right, I'm ready for my pint.
0:04:07 > 0:04:10- Sorry, it's just gone. - What else do you fancy?
0:04:11 > 0:04:14- I don't care, as long as it's wet.
0:04:16 > 0:04:18- How's Mark?
0:04:18 > 0:04:20- I don't know.
0:04:20 > 0:04:22- Non arrived.
0:04:22 > 0:04:25- I thought I should leave them - to sort things out.
0:04:26 > 0:04:28- I wouldn't like to be in her shoes.
0:04:28 > 0:04:32- Knowing Non, she'll feel terrible - about what she did.
0:04:32 > 0:04:36- What's going to happen now? - She was the best chance he had.
0:04:38 > 0:04:41- Yes, well, miracles do happen...
0:04:42 > 0:04:43- ..so they say.
0:04:44 > 0:04:47- I was nervous, - of course I was, but...
0:04:48 > 0:04:51- ..I was alright - until I got to the hospital.
0:04:52 > 0:04:54- And then I just lost control.
0:04:56 > 0:04:58- I couldn't think clearly.
0:04:58 > 0:05:00- I couldn't breathe.
0:05:01 > 0:05:03- It all just became too much.
0:05:05 > 0:05:08- I couldn't stop imagining - the operation.
0:05:10 > 0:05:12- The doctor opening me up.
0:05:14 > 0:05:16- I could feel the knife - cutting me...
0:05:16 > 0:05:18- Hey, ssh, now.
0:05:18 > 0:05:21- No, I want you to understand.
0:05:23 > 0:05:25- The pain was...
0:05:25 > 0:05:27- It was so real.
0:05:27 > 0:05:30- I couldn't bear it any more.
0:05:32 > 0:05:34- But worse than that...
0:05:36 > 0:05:38- ..I was sure I was going to die.
0:05:38 > 0:05:41- I saw myself as a corpse.
0:05:44 > 0:05:47- I didn't realize the fear was so...
0:05:47 > 0:05:50- Mam died while having an operation.
0:05:51 > 0:05:53- Oh, no.
0:05:54 > 0:05:56- I'm sorry. I had no idea.
0:05:58 > 0:06:00- I thought - I'd be able to deal with it.
0:06:00 > 0:06:02- Hey...
0:06:02 > 0:06:05- ..you're not to blame at all, OK?
0:06:06 > 0:06:08- You're in no state - to do something like this.
0:06:09 > 0:06:12- If I'd known that, - I'd never have agreed to it.
0:06:12 > 0:06:13- I want to do it.
0:06:13 > 0:06:16- I've been trying to prepare myself.
0:06:16 > 0:06:19- I've even spoken to the counsellor - who comes to the school.
0:06:19 > 0:06:21- Oh, Non...
0:06:21 > 0:06:23- ..I had no idea.
0:06:23 > 0:06:26- But being there on my own - yesterday was just...
0:06:26 > 0:06:28- Listen...
0:06:28 > 0:06:31- ..forget it now, OK?
0:06:32 > 0:06:36- Don't get upset. You don't - have to go back to the hospital.
0:06:37 > 0:06:39- I have been back.
0:06:39 > 0:06:41- This morning.
0:06:42 > 0:06:43- What?
0:06:43 > 0:06:45- I had to try again.
0:06:45 > 0:06:47- I've explained the situation...
0:06:48 > 0:06:51- ..and told them - I was trying to deal with my demons.
0:06:55 > 0:06:58- I've had that on my mind - all morning.
0:06:58 > 0:07:00- I'll have to go away more often.
0:07:01 > 0:07:03- You won't get a send off like that - every time.
0:07:04 > 0:07:05- No?
0:07:08 > 0:07:10- Mathew.
0:07:10 > 0:07:11- Knock next time.
0:07:11 > 0:07:12- Knock next time.- - Sorry.
0:07:13 > 0:07:16- A barrel needs changing - and I can't leave the bar.
0:07:17 > 0:07:18- You just have.
0:07:18 > 0:07:21- Give me a minute. - You go to the cellar.
0:07:25 > 0:07:27- It isn't funny.
0:07:27 > 0:07:29- It isn't funny.- - Yes, it is.
0:07:29 > 0:07:33- Mathew's fine. He'll get over it.
0:07:37 > 0:07:38- Don't.
0:07:40 > 0:07:42- Could they tell you - how long it would take?
0:07:42 > 0:07:44- They couldn't give a date...
0:07:44 > 0:07:48- ..but were willing to do all they - could to get the wheels in motion.
0:07:50 > 0:07:52- I can't believe you went back.
0:07:53 > 0:07:55- There's still a chance.
0:07:55 > 0:07:58- Where have you been? - Do you know what you've done?
0:07:58 > 0:08:01- Calm down, - we're talking about it now.
0:08:01 > 0:08:03- It's not Non's fault.
0:08:03 > 0:08:05- I'm so sorry, Ricky.
0:08:07 > 0:08:10- We think - she's got some sort of phobia.
0:08:10 > 0:08:13- But there is a chance to try again.
0:08:14 > 0:08:15- What do you mean?
0:08:17 > 0:08:19- A psychologist has to agree.
0:08:19 > 0:08:23- If they think I'm ready - I can have the operation.
0:08:23 > 0:08:25- Soon, hopefully.
0:08:27 > 0:08:29- I know I've let you down.
0:08:30 > 0:08:32- But it was out of my control.
0:08:33 > 0:08:36- I know it'll be hard for you - to trust me again.
0:08:36 > 0:08:40- Non needs us all to support her. - Understand?
0:08:41 > 0:08:44- We have to be there for her - to help her through her fear.
0:08:45 > 0:08:49- I'm determined to go through - with it this time.
0:08:50 > 0:08:54- Go and get Man and Mam-gu. - They're upstairs.
0:08:59 > 0:09:01- I mean it, you know.
0:09:01 > 0:09:03- I won't let you down this time.
0:09:06 > 0:09:08- Do you want another one?
0:09:08 > 0:09:10- I'd better not.
0:09:10 > 0:09:12- MOBILE PHONE
0:09:13 > 0:09:15- Hiya. Mark.
0:09:17 > 0:09:19- Really?
0:09:19 > 0:09:23- Yes, he's here with me. - And Colin's here too.
0:09:23 > 0:09:24- Give him my regards.
0:09:24 > 0:09:27- Give him my regards.- - He says hello back.
0:09:28 > 0:09:30- See you later.
0:09:30 > 0:09:32- I'll tell them now.
0:09:32 > 0:09:34- OK. Ta-ra.
0:09:36 > 0:09:39- Non. She's hoping - she can have another chance.
0:09:40 > 0:09:45- I don't know what happened but if - Mark's got a chance, I don't care.
0:09:45 > 0:09:47- That's what I call good news.
0:09:47 > 0:09:50- You can't refuse now. - Two pints, please, Garry.
0:09:50 > 0:09:52- Do you want anything?
0:09:52 > 0:09:54- Didn't I tell you? - Non's a lovely girl.
0:09:55 > 0:09:57- I hope the same won't happen again.
0:09:57 > 0:09:58- Where's Mathew?
0:09:58 > 0:10:00- Where's Mathew?- - Good question.
0:10:00 > 0:10:04- He went to change a barrel - about half an hour ago.
0:10:09 > 0:10:11- Oh, this is where you're hiding.
0:10:11 > 0:10:15- Are you skiving? I don't think - Garry's happy with you.
0:10:16 > 0:10:17- What's he said?
0:10:17 > 0:10:18- What's he said?- - Nothing.
0:10:20 > 0:10:21- Are you OK?
0:10:21 > 0:10:23- Are you OK?- - Yes.
0:10:24 > 0:10:25- I can tell something's wrong.
0:10:25 > 0:10:26- I can tell something's wrong.- - I'm fine.
0:10:27 > 0:10:28- Alright?
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0:10:52 > 0:10:54- Let's hope the psychologist - agrees to it.
0:10:55 > 0:10:58- But she's willing to try again, - that's what matters.
0:10:58 > 0:11:02- If she hadn't run away, this - rigmarole wouldn't be going on.
0:11:02 > 0:11:05- But if she's got a phobia - it can't be helped.
0:11:05 > 0:11:08- Hello? Non's still here, you know.
0:11:08 > 0:11:13- Look, I'm glad you're willing to try - again. You gave us such a scare.
0:11:13 > 0:11:17- You've got every right - to feel that way.
0:11:17 > 0:11:20- Well, I think - you're really brave anyway.
0:11:21 > 0:11:23- Dani, come in.
0:11:25 > 0:11:27- I'm not intruding, am I?
0:11:27 > 0:11:29- Not at all.
0:11:29 > 0:11:30- Where is she?
0:11:31 > 0:11:33- Out there. She's sleeping - so don't wake her up.
0:11:34 > 0:11:35- Sit down.
0:11:37 > 0:11:39- Isn't she pretty? - Just like her mother.
0:11:40 > 0:11:41- Yes.
0:11:44 > 0:11:46- I'll put the kettle on, then.
0:11:48 > 0:11:49- Alright?
0:11:49 > 0:11:50- Alright?- - Yes, good.
0:11:52 > 0:11:54- Hey, did you change that barrel?
0:11:54 > 0:11:56- Of course I did.
0:11:56 > 0:11:59- Sorry, I'll take a look at it now.
0:12:06 > 0:12:11- Listen, Vic, sorry for earlier. - I shouldn't have snapped at you.
0:12:12 > 0:12:14- You said - you'd make more of an effort.
0:12:15 > 0:12:16- I know. I'm sorry.
0:12:16 > 0:12:19- Why are you always - behaving like this?
0:12:21 > 0:12:23- Tell me what's wrong.
0:12:24 > 0:12:28- I'm stressed with all the shifts - I worked over Christmas, that's all.
0:12:29 > 0:12:32- No, it's more than that.
0:12:35 > 0:12:37- Garry's having a go at me - all the time.
0:12:38 > 0:12:39- I haven't noticed.
0:12:39 > 0:12:41- I haven't noticed.- - He does it on the sly.
0:12:41 > 0:12:43- Why didn't you say?
0:12:43 > 0:12:46- I didn't want to say - in case he had a go at you too.
0:12:46 > 0:12:49- Look, I think...
0:12:49 > 0:12:52- ..I just need a break, OK?
0:12:52 > 0:12:54- Mathew!
0:12:56 > 0:12:59- Not a word to anyone, right.
0:13:01 > 0:13:05- Next time you change a barrel, - switch the pump back on.
0:13:12 > 0:13:13- TEXT ALERT
0:13:14 > 0:13:17- "Are you at home? Non X"
0:13:17 > 0:13:19- I'd better get going. - Thanks for the pint.
0:13:20 > 0:13:22- I'd better go too.
0:13:22 > 0:13:24- Bye, Vicky.
0:13:24 > 0:13:26- Ta-ra.
0:13:26 > 0:13:28- Take another biscuit, Dani.
0:13:29 > 0:13:32- You have to eat properly - now you're feeding.
0:13:34 > 0:13:36- Honestly, I'm not starving myself.
0:13:36 > 0:13:38- Is everything alright?
0:13:39 > 0:13:42- Yes, great, better than I expected - so I'm going to carry on.
0:13:43 > 0:13:46- I was fine too - until he got his first tooth.
0:13:46 > 0:13:48- You were only four months old.
0:13:49 > 0:13:51- Can we talk about something else, - please?
0:13:52 > 0:13:55- There's nothing - horrible about feeding babies.
0:13:55 > 0:13:58- We don't have to talk about me - doing it.
0:13:58 > 0:14:01- Garry's doing more - than his fair share.
0:14:02 > 0:14:04- Fair play to him.
0:14:04 > 0:14:06- Talking of Garry, I'd better go.
0:14:07 > 0:14:09- He's going to a car show today - for a few days.
0:14:10 > 0:14:12- Look after yourself, alright.
0:14:13 > 0:14:14- I'll do my best.
0:14:15 > 0:14:17- Stay where you are.
0:14:17 > 0:14:19- So long, Dani.
0:14:20 > 0:14:21- It was nice of her to call round.
0:14:21 > 0:14:23- It was nice of her to call round.- - Nice to see her so happy too.
0:14:25 > 0:14:27- I'm glad that Mark's doing so well.
0:14:28 > 0:14:29- Things seem to be positive.
0:14:30 > 0:14:34- I'm glad things have worked out - for you too, in the circumstances.
0:14:34 > 0:14:36- Sorry, I don't understand.
0:14:36 > 0:14:38- You and Mathew.
0:14:39 > 0:14:40- What are you talking about?
0:14:40 > 0:14:42- What are you talking about?- - Carol.
0:14:47 > 0:14:49- I don't know - what you're talking about.
0:14:49 > 0:14:52- I found the DNA letter, - there's no use denying it.
0:14:54 > 0:14:58- Be grateful Mathew isn't the father - for that would have destroyed Vicky.
0:14:59 > 0:15:01- I'd have made sure - you paid for that.
0:15:01 > 0:15:03- Give Garry my regards.
0:15:08 > 0:15:10- I shouldn't have let Josh - buy me another pint.
0:15:12 > 0:15:14- I desperately need coffee.
0:15:15 > 0:15:17- What do you fancy?
0:15:17 > 0:15:21- Do you have any chamomile tea - or something to settle the nerves?
0:15:21 > 0:15:23- We should have something like that.
0:15:24 > 0:15:25- Hang on.
0:15:25 > 0:15:28- Here we go, chamomile.
0:15:28 > 0:15:31- Chester buys it for Hannah, - his girlfriend.
0:15:31 > 0:15:33- She loves this herbal stuff.
0:15:37 > 0:15:38- I've been...
0:15:38 > 0:15:41- I've been worried about you.
0:15:42 > 0:15:44- I have to admit...
0:15:45 > 0:15:49- ..I was a bit concerned - until I heard you'll try again.
0:15:51 > 0:15:55- It's such a big step, - putting yourself through it all.
0:15:55 > 0:15:57- I know.
0:15:57 > 0:16:00- I hope you're not doing it...
0:16:00 > 0:16:03- ..because Kath and Debbie - are putting pressure on you.
0:16:04 > 0:16:09- They're not. I'd been - to the hospital before coming back.
0:16:09 > 0:16:12- It's nothing to do with them.
0:16:14 > 0:16:16- Good, good. I'm glad.
0:16:17 > 0:16:20- Let's hope everything works out.
0:16:20 > 0:16:23- I made sure that I sounded positive - in front of Mark.
0:16:24 > 0:16:27- It's still not 100%, you know.
0:16:27 > 0:16:30- I really want to get over this - to help him.
0:16:32 > 0:16:34- You can only do your best.
0:16:36 > 0:16:38- I just have to pray...
0:16:39 > 0:16:41- ..and be confident - I'm strong enough.
0:16:44 > 0:16:45- Isn't it lush?
0:16:45 > 0:16:47- Isn't it lush?- - Very nice.
0:16:47 > 0:16:49- Are you treating your grandfather?
0:16:49 > 0:16:50- Are you treating your grandfather?- - Not exactly.
0:16:51 > 0:16:52- I'm pulling your leg.
0:16:53 > 0:16:54- Are you taking Mathew?
0:16:55 > 0:16:59- Yes, he really needs a break - and we really need time together.
0:16:59 > 0:17:00- Go for it.
0:17:01 > 0:17:04- The thing is, the special offers - finish this weekend.
0:17:06 > 0:17:08- I really want to go tonight - for one night...
0:17:09 > 0:17:12- ..but I don't want to ask Mam - or Kath to look after Nicky...
0:17:12 > 0:17:14- ..for obvious reasons.
0:17:14 > 0:17:16- Do you want me to babysit?
0:17:16 > 0:17:18- Do you want me to babysit?- - Please. You'd do me a huge favour.
0:17:20 > 0:17:21- OK.
0:17:21 > 0:17:23- OK.- - You're wonderful. Thanks.
0:17:23 > 0:17:25- Yes, and don't you ever forget it.
0:17:26 > 0:17:28- Thanks.
0:17:30 > 0:17:33- No wild parties while I'm away, OK.
0:17:34 > 0:17:36- What's wrong?
0:17:36 > 0:17:38- You were fine earlier.
0:17:39 > 0:17:41- Nothing.
0:17:41 > 0:17:42- Nothing.- - I'm not leaving until you tell me.
0:17:43 > 0:17:45- You don't want me to go, do you?
0:17:47 > 0:17:49- You can see straight through me.
0:17:49 > 0:17:51- It's only a weekend, - I'll be back on Monday.
0:17:51 > 0:17:53- I know but I'll still miss you.
0:17:54 > 0:17:56- I can always go to the next one.
0:17:56 > 0:17:58- I can always go to the next one.- - No, you have to go.
0:17:58 > 0:18:00- OK, make up your mind.
0:18:01 > 0:18:02- Come here. I love you.
0:18:05 > 0:18:06- I love you too.
0:18:07 > 0:18:09- Go on, off you go.
0:18:09 > 0:18:12- Keep an eye on her while I'm away.
0:18:18 > 0:18:19- Mathew.
0:18:31 > 0:18:34- Why didn't you tell me - that Debbie knows?
0:18:36 > 0:18:39- Why can't you be straight with me - for once?
0:18:39 > 0:18:41- I didn't want you to worry.
0:18:41 > 0:18:43- I didn't want you to worry.- - Well, I am worried.
0:18:43 > 0:18:47- If the truth comes out I suspected - you were Carol's father...
0:18:48 > 0:18:50- ..Garry and Vicky are going - to find out.
0:18:50 > 0:18:54- No. I've told Debbie I regretted - what happened between us...
0:18:54 > 0:18:56- ..and I'm in love with Vicky.
0:18:56 > 0:18:59- She won't tell anyone. OK?
0:18:59 > 0:19:01- I hope you're right.
0:19:03 > 0:19:05- Or our lives won't be worth living.
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